#or maybe I’m saying no out of surprise
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Whenever someone says something that I agree 100% with and want to add something to the conversation, I always say “No because [blank]”
Why? I’m agreeing with them- why did I start my sentence with “No”??
#‘I think this character is being treated like a baby by their friends’#‘no because I got so mad when they thought the character couldn’t do simple math. like that’s so annoying!’#something like that#maybe I’m saying no because I want the person to listen to me or something#or maybe I’m saying no out of surprise#like ‘omg someone finally said it!’#idk I’m just talking to myself here I guess
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“America has no culture” is an inherently racist statement. Especially when talking about California, which has enormous populations (yes, plural) of Hispanic and Asian immigrants.
It’s such a self report that you see the American hegemony, the American monolith, as a singularly white entity that’s worthy of scorn. I want that person to look at the Black American NYC Miku design and tell me with their full chest that that isn’t culture. Especially when modern pop culture owes so much to Black American culture — hip hop, language, streetwear and fashion, pop music, jazz — as is actively erasing their roots, saying all of America has no culture is a dumbass statement.
Also, “all the US Mikus are dressed in generic casual street style for coolish weather.” The original Brazilian Miku is wearing sunglasses, a crop top, short shorts, a bikini, and flip flops you absolute dunce. If you’re gonna be rude at least be consistent.
#not even to mention indigenous folks#personal#delete later#obligatory I don’t like the us I’m not a patriot#but saying this is like saying us doesn’t have it’s own food#TELL ME you’ve never had soul food without telling me you’ve never had soul food#‘we’re not talking about poc Americans though white Americans have no culture’ does my Miku design look white to you.#I think that account got dusted overnight but if they’re still here I’m not surprised if they make a#qualifying backtracking ‘what I meant was’ statement#hey maybe next time if you have a point to make don’t come out the gate swinging like an asshole and yell big generalizing claims
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one big thing I’ve learned by 29 is that the Plan, the God’s Plan of it all I mean, is bigger than me and not just bigger than me but also bigger than my understanding of narrative threads and their limitations. And it’s bigger even than just a simple paradox, turning-on-their-head thing way of being bigger. It’s just so vast. And there is so much room for surprise and possibility and hope in that reality.
#again. idk if that makes sense#but I am someone obsessed with the patterns and what the patterns are telling me#and it’s like. sometimes nothing! but also sometimes something!#there is no way to predict what will happen or what will be presented to me or what will unfold#both personally and in a more big picture way#based on what I feel or what I know or what I have already experienced#there are hundreds and millions of different possible combinations#I am making this sound more profound than the revelation is (and also more vague)#but I love to be like ‘oh being this way means THIS thing and this kind of thing always happens to this kind of person’#and actually. it just doesn’t?????? a million different things could happen and do happen every day that are unlikely and unpredictable#even when you think you’ve accounted for that by looking for the unexpected you still can’t tell#and I love that. used to hate that the future was shrouded in mystery#and I still sometimes do. but I am growing to love it#uncertainty and just the sheer not knowing feels better#and God IS surprising. life is surprising!#THAT I feel like I know#every day of my life I wake up and I pry open the blinds and I look out and say.#what is going to happen today#like I do kind of do that a little#or maybe it’s more. what has the night brought.#and you know what the world is so wide. not in terms of me being able to go anywhere travel-wise#or do anything dream-wise. but in terms of what can and DOES unfold every single day/week/month/year.#there are surprises in store! folded tucked away around the next corner#like I just.#I’m getting carried away but AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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back on my bullshit (meeting men im in love with). Ben Schwartz is so kind and tall :-) I didn’t totally freeze like when I met the Jonas brothers but the selfies we took are blurry so 😔
(at least I have these bc I told sam to record the whole thing heheheh)
#also the show was great#I had to slap sam many times bc she was choking from laughter#ben schwartz#bro how did i forget my personal tag for ben#ben schwartz my beloved#me#also forgot me tag#editing tags after the fact to recount the entire experience#so we waited outside for about 10 minutes and I had no expectation of how long it usually takes for him to come out and take pictures#he comes out without a mask which is surprising to me and says ‘you guys wanna take some pictures?’#we all just kinda form a non sensical blob (there’s maybe like 10 ppl total) around him#Brandon Katie and Eugene hang back towards the stage door unsure if anyone wants to chat with them#I’m gushing over how tall and handsome Ben is to my sister who is ready to record our interaction once he gets to me#as I listen to him chatting with the other fans I can’t help but smile and say to my sibling ‘he’s so sweet’ every minute#he meets someone who has a cool sketchbook of the skits from the show that he wants to take a picture of#but they need to write their handle so he says he’ll talk with some others and get back to them#so he does and then later I see the girl ready to talk to him again off to the side#so I tell her ‘you can go ahead and finish talking to him”’ and she’s like ‘are you sure?’ and I’m like duh!#finally it’s my turn and he looks at me and says ‘hi I’m Ben’#yes Benjamin Joseph Schwartz I know#he sees me holding my phone and immediately sides steps to get into selfie mode as I ask him if he’ll sign my Jean Ralphio figure#he steps back to Be in front of me ‘yes of course!’#what insane media training he has#he says ‘I’ve seen this! this is the first one I’ve ever signed’#upon seeing the figure he says ‘it’s beautiful’ lol#he’s concerned that the sharpie I brought will not show up and I mention that it was probably a bad one to bring because it’s pastel#he signs and holds it up (as you can see in the first photo) to make sure it’s visible#he hands it back to me and I thank him and he says ‘do you want to take a picture?’#and I say ‘I would love to!’ and then I hold the Jean Ralphio figure and he looks to my sibling assuming she’s taking the picture#she’s like ‘no I’m just here for moral support!’
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Rings of Power S2
Spoilers
Arondir: *stabbed*
Me: NOOOOOOOOOO 😭
Adar: *prettified by Nenya and has possibly his conscience restored, his thirst for vengeance cooled down, alludes to an older name, and has VIBES with Galadriel*
Me:…*remembers that Celeborn was supposedly killed off centuries/who-knows-how-long-ago*…wait. WAI-!!
Adar: *also stabbed*
Me: NOOOOOOOOO(dangit there goes my headcanon)OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO 😭😭
Arondir: *alive actually*
Me: …wait wut
#rings of power spoilers#the rings of power#rings of power#also got chills from former king durin celebrimbor elendil + more#but seriously#WHAT THE HECK WHY STAB PUERTO RICAN ELF IN THE PREVIOUS EPISODE AND BREAK MY HEART#ONLY TO PULL AN ‘JUST KIDDING’ CARD?!#AND ADAR’S MOMENTS OF REGAINING HIMSELF BOTH AS ‘ADAR’ + WHO HE USED TO BE?!#look i’m just saying#if by some miracle he comes out unscathed like arondir#the possibility that he is actually a deeply traumatized celeborn could be valid#since in the hobbit film trilogy (which I am one of the few who loved them)#we learn that thranduil is actually massively scarred underneath the glamour#and arondir had told bronwyn that elves have artificers or smth that help cover up wounds like that#only things that work against my headcanon is 1) adar is now dead (for now until they pull a fast one on us)#and 2) galadriel doesn’t seem to recognize her husband#or does she?#she could have been surprised by nenya’s effects on adar (what? he be hunky as an elf too imo)#but could there be a possibility that some part of her recognized her husband deep inside this tortured traumatized angry tired bitter soul#and had asked for his name in a tone that she had an idea of who he could be but was both fearful and hopeful that the elf she once loved#had been corrupted into this orc/uruk that she had hated so vehemently not even a few days ago?#maybe i’m wrong#since i was also wrong about the stranger = saruman#since the dark wizard being saruman and already doing shady things and already being on the stranger’s bad side seemed too easy#galadriel#adar#arondir#adariel#celeborn#adar = celeborn?
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I’m like the worst kind of person when it comes to staying up to date with stuff and tumblr is like the best place for me to find out LAST MINUTE that something is happening, thanks Tumblr for telling me about KHR’S 20th anniversary
#I’m always like super late to the parties#that’s just me#it’s who I am#can’t say I’m not surprised at finding out I completely missed the memo on the anniversary#this OF COURSE has nothing to do with my love for KHR#I love KHR#I’m just bad at staying up to date with stuff#which is like my greatest fear if anything ever gets announced about KHR#I have like one fear and that’s missing the announcement that KHR is getting an anime#maybe I should get more KHR friends but#how do you do that?#khr#katekyo hitman reborn
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You know I talk a lot about how fandom doesn’t realize how fucking bigoted it is in every aspect bc they get turned on by gay men and go by sock and that means they’re progressive but it hit me when someone with a viktor pfp is in the comments getting gassed up (ha. You’ll see in a second) by other braindead bitches for saying piltover gassing (get it) the streets is not bad and is actually appropriate to do in order to find one person. Like how the fuck do you watch arcane and agree with the enforcers. How is the propoganda working for you when you’re looking at EVERY angle. I will sound insane if I connect this to common viewpoints on stuff irl and I do have enough tact not to do this however I will say it’s less surprise and more. Watching another dominoe fall after it wobbled for a few minutes. What the fuck
#it be two stupid ass bitches telling eachother exactlyyy or whatever#and like#I promise it’s gonna become a topic of convo in tiktok in like a month and I’m gonna come on here vindicated and pissed#but the second you realize the ppl around you are also in fandom and the attitude they take into their escapism is not so different from#their attitudes irl the patterns pattern guys#like if you ignore speak over and tone police black ppl and fandom ik what ur doing at that little rally u posted a pic of u attending#if you think black characters need to prove why they should exist in the same space as ur white faves#when u infantilize white characters and take their best moments and even traits (traits which are often actually from said black characters)#I know what the fuck you are#that’s disjointed as fuck but I promise u bro it’s like#anyways my point is#I was not surprised by the ‘Batman wouldn’t care who u voted for’ shit#same ppl arguing that Batman is actually a leftist king get all their comic info from a 40 yr old white woman that has 3 Duke posts on her#whole page says steph was too annoying to care about at 14 uses cass as a live in therapist for her faves and calls Damian feral#like idk man. maybe think#Uhm that’s all disjointed as fuck but it makes sense#or it will soon#Idk but like ppl are so mad at the keep politics out of booktok ppl and yeah#but do you know that’s what u sound like when u say there’s no racism in WFA or make up literal charts to prove why there’s more than enough#poc in batfam and Damián should actually be pale bc yadda yadda#do you know that you don’t start existing in a void when you put the book down and hop on Twitter#it’s also the way they didn’t even have to convince you of anything#oh back to arcane#Like they didn’t make an effort to show the enforcers were good or whatever#they literally just slapped a woman who’s been a little sad and immediately turned to bigotry on it#like ur making arguments and excuses FOR them that don’t exist#It’s like they didn’t even have to convince you they didn’t have to try just put someone you like as the figurehead and u start agreeing#with and defending pure ev-oooooohhhhh#LMAO THATS ALL SORRU
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so if you romance and ascend astarion you can kick him in the balls when he tries to turn you and it’s just very funny, he’s so pissy about it. so much for the most powerful vampire of all time or whatever, he stamps around like a toddler and then leaves forever
#i’m glad i saved before that choice so i can go through all the scenes i wouldn’t have got otherwise#(‘that choice’ meaning ascension)#im Fascinated by a whole bunch of stuff if you ascend him#like if you succeed on the detect thoughts (or maybe insight i forget) before he turns you to see what he think of you#it says something like ‘he will always see you as degrading yourself while you choose to be with him’ which is just BONKERS INSANE#like not confusing or anything. just wild to include. in a good way; like yeah of course that’s how he feels#and then the narrator follows it up with something like ‘but isn’t that what you want?’#like i’m glad they do actually try to impress upon you how fucked this dynamic is. they’re not trying to make you think it’s a good outcome#(i know there’s discourse about this and it’s very annoying)#(people who are like ‘actually it’s romantic and kinky’ uhh 😬)#(but then people who are like ‘how can anyone think this is ok’ and direct that towards anyone who enjoys playing it)#(like no it’s fun and genuinely interesting and i can see the appeal. just not when it comes to analysing the relationship)#(most people are aware that this is a bad dynamic they’re just playing a game chill out)#(like when i said 😬 about it being romantic/kinky i mean that from the perspective of analysing the story not personal enjoyment)#(anyway. moving on)#like i did that specific bit of dialogue probably a month or more ago and only once (because the test was really hard)#and it’s been creeping around in my head ever since. i love it lmao#i saw a video of that kiss where he makes you kneel a while ago and didn’t quite believe it was a real thing#but no it’s one of his actual default kisses. amazing#like i’m definitely gonna do a playthrough where i get everyone to make the power-hungry soul-destroying choices#and i might have to romance astarion again for that one because he definitely seems to have the most bad-decision relationship content#although he has the most relationship content full stop so it’s not surprising#but i think that’s the only one that notably changes your character during the playthrough rather than just the epilogue#personal#ash plays bg3
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Late 2025 to early 2026
LATE 2025 TO EARLY 2026
SO IT WILL BE 7 YEARS AFTER ALL
YALL WERE GETTING ME OPTIMISTIC 😭
Why not even push it to 2027– I mean at that point you could just combine it with the release of City of Bones 20th Anniversary edition 🤩
#the wicked powers#idk#maybe will lose interest by the time I’m ALMOST TWENTY TWO#psych#i wont#BUT STILL#i#would#rather#have#not#known#that#the wicked powers was going to come out at all#then have it be a surprise#2026!!!#that’s over ten years after the events of twp take place!!#she’s fr gonna release the TEN YEAR ANNIVERSARY EDITION OF LADY MIDNIGHT#AT THE SAME TIME AS TLKOF#OK BESTIE OK#she says hopefuly for late 2025#but let’s be so fr#it’s gonna be like march 2026#look#take your time#TAKE ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD#we’ll get there when we get there I suppose#maybe I’ll even be a aunt by then#a grandmother#who even knows
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I just thought of something that would be so fun for a lumity au but the trend/ reference is literally so old
#it’s really not that old actually lol but I don’t think anyone remembers it#‘old’ I say yet it’s really only maybe 5 years old#I literally completely forgot about the trend until I just found a fic with said trend#the more I think about it the more I’m thinking of an actual plot for the story#actually considering the fact that it was a trend in 2019 and TOH came out in 2020 I’m actually surprised there isn’t a fic like it-#unless there was one at one point and it’s been deleted rip#bee posts things#delete later
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getting better at drawing when you’re not trying for realism is kinda funny bc it’s like wow now my art looks even MORE like the exact midpoint between old-school disney and late 2010s anime. i didn’t think it was possible and yet i’ve done it again. inspiring
#and soon? even More.#there’s also the additional layer of not being able to explain what about my art is better than it used to be#like idk what to tell u it’s just better now. all my old stuff is crap compared to this. leaps and bounds#source: dude trust me#tbh i think my artistic abilities probably seem much more consistent from an outside pov#bc i never want to draw anything i can’t draw#like if i TRIED to draw that cuteguy stoplight drawing a few months ago it would have looked terrible#but i wouldn’t have tried bc i wouldn’t have wanted to bc i couldn’t you see#that’s the thing about art it never feels any easier#if you start out frustrated by your skill falling short of your vision guess what#your vision will continue to improve as you gain skill and that frustration never goes away#but it also never feels any harder#my first experience with drawing was being pleasantly surprised to find my skill slightly exceeded my aspirations#(i was 3 and my aspirations were draw a duck)#and you know what. to this day the pleasant surprise remains#what i’m saying is dream small stay in your comfort zone and do not strive for great things#cannot recommend complacency enough#this isn’t sports you don’t get gains through effort you get gains and then the effort happens on accident#don’t listen to me i probably don’t know what i’m talking about#but i AM having more fun drawing than you so maybe i’m onto something#impossible to say#i’m certainly not smart enough to figure that out i’m an idiot have you seen the kind of advice i give#mumbling
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#╳┆ dayne speaking ┆◜ ooc ◞#fuck it. I will be adding t.gcf muses here when I inevitably switch back into rp mode#but probably by request and with plotting only. or maybe just drabbles to start.#I’m leaning towards xl and hc both of course & im currently feeling incredibly protective of them.#but mq is so tempting…#also I drafted the fucking. DMT trip coffin fic but somehow managed to make up a cultivation path to go along with it#mostly because - like everyone else - I am still trying to wrap my brain around the logistics of xl being trapped in a coffin for a century#and I’m fascinated by the theory that the brain releases DMT before death + how that coincides with -#near-death out of body experiences#plus the effects of psychedelics on the brain + spirit#especially in a sandbox where the universal flow of energy is a more tangible concept#it’s crack treated seriously#I don’t have to do angst all the time…… I do have a sense of whimsy#actually don’t look at me#im skulking around in the darkest corners of fandom#also maybe it’s just bc I haven’t read ff in like…. 7 fucking years but some of the fics in this fandom have blown my fcking mind wide open#there are things I can never repeat that have been permanently branded into my brain chemistry#and that’s saying a lot considering …. I’m me#not saying I didn’t enjoy it. only saying what the fuck (affectionate)#surprised and delighted to be out freaked#part of me is taking it as a challenge tho. unfortunately for everyone#me seeing the weirdest shit imaginable: I must step up my freak
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#you know which 2 of 3 faves I am suffering this with… 😔#I’d say ygo fans got their shit together and vastly improved over time at least but. maybe that’s because my circle is small#so I’m not aware of The Horrors out there 😭#these characters are soooo much more interesting than the ‘thEy’Re inSANE they’Re craaazzzyyy 😱😵💫🫣😍��’ stuff smh#but yeah the foundation is bad so. not surprising. just disappointed 😔
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fuck i can’t believe they made me care about izzy just to do that
#ofmd season 2 spoilers in the tags obviously so stop reading if u haven’t watched 🤨#if this happened in season 1 we’d all be cheering rn bro#but goddamn it. i fell for their redemption-ification#they have their inn next to him though <3#god man…#ofmd spoilers#ofmd 2 spoilers#ofmd season 2#ofmd#our flag means death#😭😭#izzy hands#just pull a lucius maybe 🤞🏼 lmfao#doubt it bc they buried his ass BUT… this is ofmd we’re talking about#buttons turned into a bird i’m sure izzy can come crawling out of that grave#actually. it is entirely possibly that they bring him back who am i kidding#tbh his death was pretty fitting but this show is Not That Serious so i won’t be surprised if he’s back in s3#BTWWWW ik there’s apparently discourse abt his death & i just gotta say i am Not pissed abt him dying#i mean i’m not happy abt it ofc and it’s sad but it like. makes sense ig so 💀 rip izzy
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bad (?) news: if you like and relate to croissant cookie you 100% have autism or adhd or both
You, uh. You got me there!
#Meow?#Hah!#Isnt there a link between adhd and genetics..?#cuz my mom has it and is always going ‘in case you’re wondering what adhd is like haha’#And then when i go ‘hey ma i have some symptoms im starting to wonder if Im autistic’#she says ‘Pshh I think everyone’s a little spectrum-y. Maybe you have some symptoms but you understand sarcasm so…’#the first person to suggest that i might be autistic was the counselor i saw for my anxiety when i was 13#Like lmao#’sure she has obsessions that last years and struggles to talk to people and make friends and has a crippling fear of doing something wrong#‘And hates surprises and change and refuses to throw out her baby blankets and needs to know exactly what to expect when entering new place#‘And gets stuck when something unexpected happens… But she’s funny and does well in school.’#Hm#I’m starting to wonder…#once my mom was playing music in the kitchen. It was really loud to me. Like. Painfully so.#Was it not as loud to her?
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i am experiencing emotions rn and idk what they are :)
#so i got laid off in march and i have not shut up about it since bc it was a horrible experience and i’m still upset about it#and quite literally the only place i wanted to work after that wasn’t hiring at the time but they said to check back in the summer#so i just started picking up extra shifts at my second job bc i’d rather wait on this place than apply to places i have no interest in#then end of april i get a call from this girl i met at my old job saying she got fired#we were super close last year and then our friendship got super weird and tense when she suddenly became my boss#and tbh i’m not at all surprised she got fired bc as much as i like her as a person she was not at all qualified to be running that business#but anyway we’ve been talking more lately than we have in the past couple months#and i was thinking our friendship could maybe go back to normal now that neither of us works there anymore#BUT now i’m feeling super weird like idk if i’m uncomfortable or annoyed or what i’m just feeling put off#bc the place i wanted to work finally started hiring a couple weeks ago and i applied and interviewed last week#and yesterday i got the job which i’m super excited about#and this friend just sent me a screenshot of her rejection letter for the exact same job at the same location#like am i crazy or is it justified to be weirded out by that??#why would you apply for the same exact job as me and not even tell me until after you get rejected#and i know she knows i applied bc i’ve been talking about it nonstop with all my friends#like i’m so confused#it’s not even about the fact that she could’ve potentially gotten chosen over me it’s just weird that she didn’t tell me she was applying#i’ve literally been talking about this job since before they were even hiring like as soon as i got laid off i said i wanted to work here#she didn’t get fired until almost 2 months after that so she wasn’t looking for a job until a couple weeks ago#so i can’t think of any scenario where it would make sense for her to just not mention this to me#idk someone please tell me if this is weird or not bc idk how to respond to her rn#lj.txt
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