#or is he saving them for when there are more people and theyre all drunk and its time to dance

[pikslasrce]

inspiring: local introvert breaks out of his shell by going to a bar to look at his phone

[unicornsaures]

talk. about whatever’s on your mind. aaaanything and everything just in case u needed an invitation to yap today 😻😻

taking this as a excuse to have a yap session about my nonhuman aus because there are SO. many things that are included for very specific reasons(mainly elf laurens cause its my main nonhuman au, but the divinity AU isnt exempt from secret meanings either >:3c) but i just never elaborate on any deeper meanings because technically theyre supposed to be up for interpretation but screw that things are included for very. very specific reasons

OKAY STARTING WITH ELF LAURENS !! Im starting off with his design itself because while its not necessarily a secret, his markings are extremely important to the story because obviously its a massive focus with the whole insecurity thing and attempting to scratch them off so!! In his early design it isnt included, but theres two things i added to either foreshadow things or that make more sense because certain things previously didnt have reasoning. For starters, his voice! I make it *very* clear that Laurens absolutely hates his voice - yknow, with that high pitched nonhuman growl? Theres a reason for that! In my AU, elves arent supposed to have markings on their throat; it fucks with their vocal chords. Yknow who does have a marking on their throat? Thats right, John does! So not only does he have 'two' voices, he also has a big reminder of that just straight in the middle of his throat - so rven if he didnt talk people would know why. Then theres the dots on his head. Thats foreshadowing. Cant tell you what its foreshadowing, but take that information how you will.

Also would like to elaborate on his relationship with Kinloch in the fic because no, Kinloch is not evil or bad or abusive. I try and make it clear that their relationship isnt necessarily healthy, but thats also not Kinloch's fault either way. Its Johns own inability to stabilize his emotions surrounding someone he cares about(ex. begging him to run away with him - when rejected, he runs away himself.) This is a massive mischaracterization of Laurens on my part but like I said in the fic itself, its just me projecting for 4k words. Oh, and he gets that scar on his lip when he's 20 in what i call a 'drinking accident.' Dont ask me to elaborate on that either, John is just a reckless drunk.

Obviously theres the whole art thing, but i think its pretty self explanatory on why hes drawing. I think i stated explicitly it was a coping device but if not i think thats obvious but i never elaborated on his medium of choice; graphite :3!! Its messy. Thats it. He uses the powdered graphite, which i think he would find it was a representation of process rather than product. The point of using graphite is the limited choice of color that only leaves an artist with shades. It also just goes with the theme of his art because idk, hes out here drawing the idea and/or image of death itself in a way its gorey but also gorgeous, so take that as you will.

Also I have had many yap sessions on why exactly John draws the gorey and grotesque but ill save you on insane details and simplify it down to; after his mothers death, he was naturally drawn to the beauty found within something so vile and horrifying.

Okay ive talked all too long aboute the elf laurens thing, so now the divinity AU! There isnt much meaning inside of this other than the very very clear toxic relationship between Alex and John; but its toxic for a reason. As dysfunctional as they may be, they are better of together than apart. Like mentioned in the fic itself, Alex was cruel to his devotees and followers before John came along. I wont go into specifics or anything, he was just cruel. John, on the other hand, was also cruel. Thats why hes a fallen angel, obviously. He fell due to others actions but the reason he followed this other person in the first place is because they were holding something he did over his head, threatening to tell higher deity's and whatnot. But instead, John is a fucking idiot and ended up doing what this person wanted which ultimately ended up in him falling and losing everything. Obviously, this leaves someone scarred because ill just say it, in this AU at least, falling from wherever they may be is not a painless experience.

In turn, he hasn't physically fallen anywhere, but there are physical signs and overall, you can tell by how they act. So, upon finding Alexander - a god, basically - the only other purpose he has in life is to peldge devotion to someone. Hes basically shunned from other angels, and so finding a deity to pledge devotion to is the only thing he can do. Their relationship is not at all healthy. Ive described it as a worshiped/worshiper dynamic because thats what it is. No matter if Alex views John as an equal, Laurens will always view alex as a higher being than he is and in short its a massive power imbalance with how willing John is to bend over backwards for him(ex. ripping off his wings ! Never happens, alex wont physically let him, but like i said, John is willing.) The only reason I say that they should stay together is that other deity's wouldnt stop him from doing this kind of thing. 'Offering your wings to prove your devotion? Yeah, hand em over.' is basically what would happen and it would be 10x more of a corrupted relationship than john and alex have. Alex keeps him in line basically, and John worships him like..well, like the god he is i guess.

Again, this AU is me majorly projecting so take it as you will. But Alex is also completely unaware to why John is a fallen angel anyway. Even being a god, he cant just see peoples sins. He only knows when someone has sinned.

"A shame Alexander may not know his transgressions, he’s sure he couldn't have done much wrong with how much of a pleasure he’s been."

Pulling out the quotes for this story because i personally think its just easier to explain things if its been read.

AND THE BIGGEST THING!!

John nods absentmindedly, leaning into the heat of his palms that make his face contort in a painful type of love.

Its mentioned a few times, but being touched by Alex at all brings physical pain. Mostly because he's not supposed to be touched by a higher being while being a fallen angel, but it also has something to do with the fact he 'swore on his ability to love to prove his devotion.' In short, John didnt think he had the ability to love, much less deserve it. So, being touched by one he fell for brings him physical pain because he shouldnt be supposed to! The love he spoke of when he exempted Alex from this was love a devotee has for their god, not love like as romantic love. Obviously, in a way, he broke his own promise. This is also why the pain goes away after alexander admits he loves him because at that point, 'his god' basically just excused the fact he broke his pledge by announcing any feelings he may have are returned. So yeah! Thats fun.

Anyway, that was my yap session. I talked for way too long uhm..oops! Im not normal about nonhumans :(

[monstraduplicia]

tagged by @geryone to post 9 book recemendations!! i think ive mentioned all these books before but theyre my current favorites <3

brother by ania ahlborn - michael is the youngest in a family of serial killers. ignored by momma, for better or for worse, and unable to please his tempestous older brother, rebel, he tries to cope in a house of horror.

any man by amber tamblyn - chronicles the aftermath for several men who share trauma: they're all victims of the same female serial rapist.

pin by andrew neiderman - orphaned, codependent siblings leon and ursula are more than willing to blur the lines between sibling and lover. bound together for life, the only weak link between them is the realistic anatomy dummy named pin that leon believes is alive.

choke by chuck palahniuk - victor is a sex addict unable to stop forcing himself to chock at restaurants just so people will save him. the fact that his mother, who was equally possessive and neglectful to victor during his childhood, has dementia and is now dying has absolutely nothing to do with it.

bath haus by pj vernon - what would you do if, when deciding to cheat on your partner, the man you meet at a bath house tries to strangle you? what would you do if your would-be murderer than begins to stalk you? do you go to cops? do you confess to your partner? or do you simply crumble under the constant fear?

lost souls by poppy z brite - several stories converge in the small town of missing mile, north carolina. steve and ghost are best friends and musicians dealing with steve's recent breakup and ghost's sudden visions of monstrous, incestuous twins. zillah, molochai, and twig are a ragtag trio of murderous vampires on a cross-country roadtrip, drunk on hedonism and death. nothing is a young, depressed teenager desperate to find family and belonging while figuring out his growing longing for blood.

drawing blood by poppy z brite - 25 years after bobby mcgee killed his wife and youngest son before committing suicide, trevor, the eldest child spared for some unknown reason, returns to the house that destroyed his family. death, however, leaves stains that can't be erased. down in louisiana, zach is a hacker on the run from the fbi, his hypersexuality, and his ptsd. but demons, personal or otherwise, have a way of catching up.

house of leaves by mark z danielewski - there is a house that is bigger on the inside, chronicled for decades by an old, blind man. his life's work is found by a young tattoo artist who in turn becomes obsessed with the writer and his tales of houses and minotaurs and ordinary people thrust into mind-bogglingly extraordinary situations.

the sparrow by mary doria russel - emilio sandoz is a priest with a group sent on a mission to follow an extraterrestrial sound wave to its origin. what happens on the far distant planet haunts the man once he returns home.

tagging: anyone that wants to say i tagged them ❤

[yfmconfessions2]

HELLO ITS ME AGAIN THE PERSON THAT YAPPED ABOUT PUFF AND I AM BACK WITH MORE SHIT!!!

I'll bet my life savings that Puff forgot to reply to Tigs message for a month and left her on delivered for that long multiple times.

He questioned his sexuality multiple times when he was younger

He had unrestricted access to the internet when he was a kid. He was a weirdo (still is) but in a good way.

He has the most fucked up humor on this planet. Yk the videos that show a tost falling flat onto any surface with no music? He finds them hilarious. And he has such a goofy fucking laugh. Like, its either some actually cute giggles (only when hes drunk) or straight up wheezy cackles.

He always says that hugs and that kind of stuff are dumb as hell and he hates them but deep down he craves them so much but hes way too embarrassed to ask, and his ego wouldn't let him anyway.

He knows everyone's insecurities. No one knows how. He just does..And its scary. And he will NOT hesitate to make fun of them.

He secretly watches kids cartoons bc he never actually could watch them as a kid. Dee Jay walked in on him watching some cartoons and Puff threatened him that if he tells someone hes kicked out of the band. When theyre alone Dee Jay makes fun of him for that.

He cant understand emotions that well and thats another reason why he cant comfort people that well.

I bet 20 dollars that once he got drunk asf, went to the bathroom, looked into the mirror and he realized he looked like his mother and i also het he will never EVER want to look like her. He cried for 10 minutes straight and if anyone asked what the hell he was doing in there for so long and why are his eyes so puffy and red, he just said that he was doing weed. Also probably tried to do something with his hair once to not resemble his mom that much but the next day they looked exactly the same as before so he gave up.

ANYWAYY THATS ALL I HAVE FOR NOW!

I READ ALL OF THAY AND HOLY SHIT THIS IS MY FAVORITE ASK IVE EVER GOTTEN ON THIS OH MY GOD IM GONNA CRAM ALL THOSE INTO MY PUFF HCS TOO

AND OH MY FUCKING GOD HES SO ME!!!!! I LAUGH AT BREAD FALLING OVER, I HAVD UNRESTRICTED ACCESS TO THE INTERNET WHEN I WAS AROUND 5, I WASNT ALLOWED TO WATCH SPONGEBOB, AND I CRAVE HUGS TOO!!!!

HOLY FUCK ANON I LOVE U SO MUCH FOR THIS *KISSES YOU ON THE CHEEK* /P

[quarktrinity]

quark watches star trek season 2 episode 22:

A Distress Call

we have found two hot people on this planet

oh theyre evil aliens got it. they hypnotized the crew. dang

everyone on this show is so easily tricked

yknow i feel like the enterprise has been boldly going where no man has gone before for much more than 5 years but go off i guess

once again a tos writer really wants to dom william shatner

these aliens are so op wtf

/hits the pause button on your brain/

the dude aliens deserve to be just as sexualized as the ladies. give them backless shirts too.

"we do not colonize. we conquer." explain to me the difference

shocking twist: this time kirk is being imprisoned & dominated alongside the rest of his crew!

oh ok so theres an actual reason they look like humans this time

spock stop saying "fascinating" surely there is at least one other word you know. besides "logic"

Vulcan Mind Powers

bold return of the bass guitar of narrative tension

leonard nimoy throws himself across the set

shocking twist 2: this time kirk does the shoulder-chop-knockout!

get paralyzed idiots

oh no kirk has to be punished now...

your punishment is watching your crew get fridged

not the red shirts!!! one of them was a girl this time!!!

shocking twist 3: a red shirt was brought back to life

the evil aliens are psychic octopuses in human skinsuits

strategic napping

why do the aliens care if spock dies anyway

warp 11...

our next gambit: handwaved physics

"lets blow up the enterprise to stop the aliens" lol. lmao even. kirk loves his babygirl ship more than he loves hot blondes. no way in hell he does that.

UHURA NOOOOOOOO

i am less sad about chekov getting Polyhedron'd but it is unfortunate nonetheless

lets sit the evil aliens in front of an ipad

lets get the evil aliens drunk

theres an au of this episode in which kirk has sex with one of them

oh wait that might not be an au

evil alien girl calls kirk a whore

"we are teaching the aliens about straight sex to save the universe" is the most gene roddenberry thing ive ever heard

mccoy commits medical malpractice

evil alien girl wants to dominate kirk so bad

she literally said she wants to experiment on him. this is amazing

evil alien love triangle

spock is making the boss alien jealous, but what i find funny about it is that hes implying kirk has control over the girl when its very much the other way around

The Boys Are Fighting

"im stimulating him" this is amok time all over again

evil alien girl had her femdom awakening this episode. proud of her

the evil aliens are going home

go team

[genderwoods]

this is a long post talking about my ocs and my wip. feel free to skip!! i just want to get over my embarrassment of talking about them

ok so. to talk about my ocs first i need to talk about the world theyre in. this is still a nameless wip but for now im calling it 'through the mist' while i decide on a better name.

brief explanation about the world: its the modern world as we know, maybe a few years into the future, but its not very important because society and technology are still pretty much the same. the difference is that in this story, the earth was enveloped by a dark and mysterious mist that is invisible to most people. the origins of this mist is still unknown, but what is known is that: 1) it affects peoples health in the areas that the mist is the most dense, and the number of lung diseases and cancer has incresead ever since it appeared. 2) it has some type of dark magic to it. its essence creates demon-like creatures called spectrums (i still want to find a cooler name) that are unknown by most people, but they bring chaos to the world. you can read more about spectrums and understand them better here (please mind any grammar mistakes, it is still a rough draft!)

but there are special people in the world known as the Enlighted that not only can see the mist, but they are aware of the existence of the spectrums and are given special powers to fight them. most of these people are born like normal humans, and only when they grow up they start to realize that they are different and that theres something wrong in the world they live in. once they find out about their own powers, they are located by a institution called Lux Mundi, and they are recruited either to be a scientist and schollar that studies the mist and the spectrums, or to be a warrior and fight the spectrums.

there are three types of enlighted: the lumen (those who are born with paranormal abilities to help them fight the spectrums), the saltium (those who are born with advanced intellect and are able to understand the complexities behind the magic of the mist and the spectrums) and the granum (those who are both lumen and saltium at the same time. they are very rare.)

this is all you need to know to understand the ocs!! i wont say a lot abt their backstories here so to not make the post even longer but if you want to ask me anything about them, feel free!

btw all of these characters are brazilian and the story takes place in brazil bc well. im brazilian and it was easier this way.

also im not an artist so all i have are picrews 💔 sorry for the low quality of some pictures, for some reason tumblr wont show the album i have them saved in when i open the gallery so i had to screenshot.

1. Kaiki Vitorino, 17

she's our main girl! Kaiki was born Salvador, Bahia but moved to São Paulo with her mom when she was a kid. she and her mom were very close, but due to complications caused by a lung disease, she passed away three years prior to the story, and Kaiki had to move in with her aunt (who also lived in São Paulo). Kaiki is very kind and empathetic, she would never hurt a fly and puts other peoples feelings above her own (sometimes a little too much). she loves geology and has a cool rock collection. Kaiki is a lumen, and her powers are called 'Blessed be The Light', which is basically light manipulation. i won't dive in too deep about their powers here, but you can ask me if you want to!

2. Ayla Rodrigues, 17

Kaiki's best friend since childhood (and secretly love interest)! Ayla was born in São Paulo and met Kaiki in school. she has a very complicated family, which includes divorced parents and a dead younger sister, who died in a car accident with her dad when he was drunk driving. she doesn't speak to him anymore, and grief they dont know how to deal with has led her and her mom to a complicated relationship. Ayla is closed off, aloof and even arrogant to most people. When someone wins her heart however, she shows her more vulnerable side: she's a nerd, loves literature, music and cult movies, likes anime, and will do anything for her loved ones, especially Kaiki, who she is so in loved with is embarrassing. she is a lumen, and her powers are called 'Blesed be the Gravity', which is, you guessed! gravity manipulation.

3. Dandara Carvalho, 20

Born and raised at Lux Mundi, Dandara is the Head Trainer of the Lumen's division. Daughter of Eva Carvalho, supreme leader of Lux Mundi's instalations in Brazil, and Isaac Carvalho, Vice-Supreme and Head Counselour for the Saltium's division, Dara is the real deal: strong, disciplined, determined. she has been training since she was a kid, and her mom has always been very strict when it comes to this. Dara was trained by the old Head Trainer before her, an old man called Kaluanã. He was wise beyond this world, but after his passing at the old age of 80yo, Dara took over his functions. Eva wants Dara to be the next Supreme Leader, but all that she wants is to keep training and teaching other Lumens. They have a very strained relationship, but she gets along very well with her dad. Dara may seem intimidating, but she actually has a heart of gold: she's a dork who loves her friends to death and has a loud and weird laugh. she wont stand for injustice and is extremely reliable. shes also extremely, totally down bad for her girlfriend Yasmin. her powers are called 'Blessed be The Fire', but she also knows a lot of different martial arts.

4. Yasmin Senna

Yasmin may not be very impressive at first, but those who know her know that she is, in fact, a genius. Born and raised in São Paulo, Yasmin has always been the pride and joy of her family: as a kid, she was mostly quiet and kept to herself, didnt talk to other kids a lot and prefered to spend the day cracking her toys open to see how they worked. Her bad social skills and reclusion made her an easy target for bullying in elementary school – kids would take her toys away and mess with her all day long. this lead to a fatidic accident where one day she had a meltdown and unleashed her powers, 'Blessed be the Sound', a type of soundwave manipulation, and left everyone in the scene, including her, deaf. nowadays, yasmin uses hearing aids, but she has long ago gotten used to being deaf, and she doesnt mind her disability, but feels extremely guilt for the accident. she's the grandaughter of kaluanã, daras old mentor, but she had only know him as a kid before he moved to Lux Mundi. this is what made dara want to get closer to her at first, but then they feel in love. yasmin is extremely smart – in fact, she is a granum, but she refuses to use her powers, so she only works in the Saltium division.

5. Eric Senna, 19

Yasmin's twin brother, Eric is probably the only out of the Lux Squad that has decent social skills. He's charming, charismatic, funny, smart and has the world's biggest ego. Eric carries a lot of guilt over the bullying that happened with Yasmin, because he feels like he was too weak to protect his sister, so he has kind of become overprotective over her, even this kind of pisses Yasmin off (and Dandara too). he's one of those people that always act like they're the best, but deep down are their own worst enemy. he's talented, has a hundred different hobbies and speaks three languages. eric is always down for challenges and he loves to prank people. he has a cat and dog relationship with Dandara: they're always fighting and bickering, but they truly care for each other a lot. Eric is a lumen and extremely insecure about his powers – 'Blessed be the Thunder', electricity/lightining manipulation – because no matter how much he trains, his powers doesn't seem to get stronger.

These are the 5 main characters kf my wip! WOW ok this was. a lot. If someone has actually read untill now. thanks a lot, and let me know if you have any questions about anything in my wip or about my ocs! I love to talk about them!! :D

[b0d1ly-st3w]

have my postal 1 dude headcanons because hes so meeeeee

tw for mentions of self harm

• hed just barely turned 20 by the time postal 1 happened

• a bit of a mallgoth, really loved nine inch nails and marilyn manson

• had a really bad self harm addiction back in highschool, he was 2 years clean by postal 1

• actually felt so bad for everything hed done, cant even hear fake gunshots without wanting to throw up

• i believe that the demon was responsible for his breakdown, it convinced him that everyone was poisoned and that he was the only one that could save them

• schizophrenic, has hurt himself before because voices convinced him to do so

• shy and selectively mute

• other postal dudes treat him like a kid because of his age (postal 4 dude is his parental figure)

• asshole dad who was never around

• smokes like a chimney, anytime anyone sees him he always seems to have a cigarette in his hand

• great with kids, thats why he couldnt bring himself to hurt them

• the funeral ending was a hallucination (ik thats redux but they are practically the same leave me alone)

• the most traumatised postal dude

• would probs be a mitski stan

• autistic, bites the other postal dudes

• loves cats

• bisexual and in denial (has a fat crush on every single member of nin)

• just starts screaming randomly, but not in a funny way like a genuine terror way

• stares at people with his autism eyes

• wears his sunglasses everywhere

• lives off cheese and vodka (hes like an alcoholic mouse)

• absolutely loves horror movies, gets postal 4 dude to watch them with him

• scared of corkscrew, but corkscrew really likes him and feels the need to protect him

• suffered from anorexia at a young age, sometimes has days where he literally cant eat anything without crying

• people pleaser, changes his entire personality to make people happy

• loves wool sweaters, practically lives in them

• always cold

• drinks to forget

• gets randomly angry for no apparent reason, will start punching the shit out of people and screaming

• against the big light prefers lamps

• will just sit in the corner and listen while people talk

• loves pepperoni pizza

• still has braces

• probably loves hello kitty but will never admit it

• shoplifts literally anytime he goes into a store, steals things for other postal dudes

• would violently sob to real men by mitski

• bullys postal 4 dudes music but actually likes it (can you tell i love the idea of them being friends?)

i added more because ive got so many headcanons for this emo loser <3

• really picky with what he can eat, will spit anything out he doesnt like

• his family where heavily religious, thats why he wears a cross

• can fall asleep literally anywhere

• defos a stoner

• practically lived at korn concerts

• likes hugs but also despises being touched

• corkscrew carries him about everywhere, gives him piggybacks all the time

• either completely stone cold or really giggly and happy, there is no in between

• uses :⁠-⁠) :⁠-⁠P :⁠-⁠O :⁠-⁠( when texting

• probably likes cannibal corpse

• chop suey! by system of a down is his anthem

• spins around in circles to stim, postal 2 guy joins in because funni

• steals peoples jackets

• would be absolutely cracked at hatsune miku project diva

• has a hyperfixation on music and plays bass

• i think he would be really soft spoken most the time

• when hes drunk hes absolutely mayhem, runs around and throws cushions at people

• tried to give himself a stick and poke and got mad when it didnt look good

• if postal 1 was set in the early 2000s i think hed be an emo

• goes nonverbal often, hardly ever speaks

• claustrophobic, will start crying if he feels trapped

• hates parades (unless its a pride one #ally)

• (⁠●⁠_⁠_⁠●⁠) stares at people like this

• tooth gap<3333

• hates wearing bandages around his arms because theyre itchy and uncomfortable

• probably had an entire bag of bandaids on standby

• ik he canonically has sorta short hair but i like to think its really long

• wanted a mohawk

• wears eyeliner but will deny it even though its so obvious

• he did have a girlfriend at one point but she left him because he was strange (autism making him bitchless💀)

• ik this makes no sense but i think it would be funny af if he was scottish, like all the other postal dudes expect him to sound like them but then he starts speaking in the heaviest scottish accent imaginable (and before you say im only saying that because hes ginger im scottish so im actually projecting get it right)

• gave himself so many piercings but half of them closed up

• likes flavoured tea, his fav is peppermint

• would probably have a crush on tyler durden

• not really a hc but imagine him falling asleep on the sofa and postal 4 dude covering him with a nice fluffy blanket and giving him a little kiss on the forehead like dads in movies 😭😭😭

• wanted to be a musician growing up

• would watch the entire saw franchise in one sitting

• postal 4 dude always checks his arms and makes sure hes eaten, but he doesnt get upset with him if he does relapse or doesnt eat because he knows hes trying

• everyone tells him all their drama because they know he wont tell anyone (he knows everything)

• no one is willing to argue with him because he will either start crying or attack them

• probably bipolar

• signed postal 2 guys petition

• probably rabid/j

• really good at art

• scared of seagulls

• hes really lanky and tall

• (⁠;⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ⁠) default facial expression

• red is his favourite colour

• hes an anti-shaggin moment/ref

• will just lay on top of people with absolutely no care whatsoever

• really bad at helping others, hed probably awkwardly giggle at someone crying

• he likes stuffed animals, has a whole collection of them because he was never allowed them when he was a kid

• if you asked him his pronouns hed probably bite you (he doesnt understand)

• if demon ever got a physical form all the dudes (excluding 1) would team up and beat its ass

• demon still appears sometimes and even tells 1 what to do, but he does his best not to listen

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• hates chocolate cake with every fibre of his being

• paints his nails all the time, comes downstairs every day with a new colour

• one of the dudes got him a copy of pretty hate machine on cd for christmas and it was his most favourite thing for months

• loves little insects, willingly picks them up

• collects so much random shit its insane

i got more

• can never sit in pure silence because there always seems to be noise, but really its all in his head (this is based on some of the tracks from the redux soundtrack as obviously some of them are just unintelligible noise)

• picks at his skin alot

• used to skip school alot, but always did well in tests and exams

• cant swim

• actually really loved school

• salt and vinegar crisps man

• actually tried to quit smoking but failed horribly

• uses internet slang and postal 4 guy has absolutely no fucking clue what hes on about

thats all i got

[upsidedowngrass]

reading your and jaspers posts about bryce with silent admiration because im too scared to contribute but i really love bryce so much hes my girlfriend and my husband and i like hearing u guys talk about him because youre Right. especially as someone who struggled from grief and trauma and being abused i think bryce's case interests me more than any of the other characters (even though liam is my favorite, and it says a lot because i find all of them interesting) because there is so much to him. i doubt he has processed a single thing about what happened. i think stellas death was recent too honestly, within the last few years at least, and he copes by... not coping. burying himself in work and drinking in the hopes to forget about it. not even to mention the fact that in episode 7 it showed him driving home drunk personally i feel he was past the point of caring to the point of engaging in risky/dangerous behaviors (this speaks for itself, i dont think i need to say why). i think that the plane impacted him so much that within those 7 months after leaving he got his shit together. i cant speak for if hes totally sober or not but at the very least he doesn't drink as much as he used to and i doubt he's putting himself in danger anymore. to be honest i think bryce is one of the characters who has changed the most because of the plane, which makes him being rejoined all the more interesting to me. im probably just making shit up but i like to read into it a little more than "bryce and liam were getting along but now theyre separated and liam has to fix it oh no". sorry this ask is kind of word vomit im not in the headspace to tidy it up but i hope you get what i mean

i think if one had continued for longer than it did it would have been interesting to explore bryce finally accepting and coming to terms with his past (him not seeing his childhood home in the wr anymore kind of representing this). i love bryce and he deserves to heal

TY!!!!!!! im glad my thoughts warrant admiration to you :D!!!!!!!!!!! (i will say tho that every time uve ever posted YOURE thoughts i am like ohhhhh.... ur SO RIGHT. i think u have some of the BEST interpretations of the one characters ive seen!!!!!)

(talked SOOO so much .so there is a readmore :) )

brcye really IS such an interesting character???? ik ive said it before but i AM biased towards protagonists so i usually focus on liam but like ...... bryce really IS probably one of the more. indepth ? characters in one in terms of like. background and how he Acts. i think ALL of teh characters are written really incredibly but i think, given how much of his bg is clarified (esp in contrast with how little is shown of the other characters lives pre-one) his motives, personality, emotions all end up being SUPER super elaborate and i REALLY love how he was written ??

(that said i think the reason he IS elaborated on sm is bc like. one doesnt elaborate on character backgrounds like MOST of the time. even charlotte is mostly left up to interpretation, bc one is more about the HOW people respond rather than WHAT made them respond that way. but charlotte and bryce are both outliers, and bryce ESPECIALLY so. because both obviously have Things they havent worked through properly, but bryce is directly just. Living in it. its the fact that he WONT acknowledge the actual Things that hapepned enough to heal that warrants the elaboration. while the other characters stop acknowledging ANYTHING about their lives , save for charlotte, who gradually works out her issues themselves, because THATS whats effecting her, bryce is CONSTANTLY just. he Needs to go back, but his problems ARE about what happened, and the fact that his life outside of the plane was what MATTERED to him, but that even then, he just Wouldnt acknowledge that life when he Needed to. idk if that makes sense but ohhh i think about the decision to elaborate on some characters and to not on others bc it feels Important)

hes so. he mirrors all of the contestants in some ways, but he mirrors amelia a LOT in that both of them respond to trauma by Setting It Aside. like That Trauma Cant Affect Me If I Dont Look At It. like. ur right bryce has NOT processed ANY of his trauma. which like it makes SENSE bc. it prob feels so much easier to him to not think about it by drinking instead, because its a Lot to think about. its a Lot to come to terms with. but bc he WONT acknowledge it but its still AFFECTING him he just gets More and More miserable (the detail about him driving home drunk and not even caring is so. :( )

what IS one of the most. compelling? aspects of his character to me is the way he responded to Everything after getting eliminated. bc it just feels So Real. because he IS healing, not completely, and not in the best way, but he clearly like. started putting SO much work into improving his life??? (the detail of him finally getting an end table for his bed instead of just... using a cardboard box ALWAYS gets to me. and that + the fact that the photo of stella is put up makes it seem like. THATS what was in that box. he LITERALLY started Unpacking thigns. its like poetry to me.) because it IS hard, and i think hes still putting things to the side, shoving the trauma from the plane to the side now instead of all his other grief and trauma. and the removal of the cans from his room yknow?? that hes getting up for work on time now?? its like. yeah i agree idk if hes necessarily SOBER yet but he really does seem like hes working really hard

its not perfect, but its BETTER and it feels. correct?? (and tbh? trying to brush off the plane as a dream isnt even teh worst thing he couldve done with that, i think, bc reasonably what WAS he supposed to do w that experience?? i dont think there WAS a good answer) bc the plane was a whole new kind of trauma. and i think surface level, one would THINK hed get WORSE after further trauma but like. i think he DID in some ways but in the ways that actually affected how he acknowledged and responded to his pre-existing trauma DID get better bc, as he puts it, hed Thrown his life away before, and didnt want to do it again. bc this time, he very well couldve died. and while he was on the plane, being home, on earth was SO much better than the plane, and it recontextualized Everything. hell, maybe after that, the earth finally felt Less daunting, like somewhere he Wanted to be, because for once, he WANTED to be back, and rationalizing That and the fact that he got Lucky, that something Worse couldve just full on Killed Him Forever really DID mean he didnt WANT the worse to come, at least not as much as before. but that meant he HAD to start actually Working on improving things, and i think he may not have Intended to acknowledge Worse things, but simply because the things he had to do to improve his life, like drinking less, making his house more Livable, they all Forced him to think about things More. hes still certainly not thinking about them as much as he Should, hes still not Processing things, but hes Heading in the right direction . he really was SO changed by ONE

and then liam showing up forces him, once again, to think about something he tried to push to the side. aaaaaaaandd then he rejoins and its so. it feels thematically fitting and IS so so SO interessting. because for once in his life hes REALLY facing his trauma head on. but then is brought straight back into it. and i need to think about that aspect more bc those thoughts are a bit less Focused than my other thoughts but given how complex his writing is after he gets OUT, its. SO interesting to think about how being BACK affects him

esp bc like. him starting ep 18 Pissed Off- which historically his responses to trauma are to either just Be Shocked, as depicted a LOT in ep 14, or to get Very Vocally pissed, as shown through the first half of s1, esp ep 6, and ep 11, and ep 13, and ep 18. ive seen it written as 'he doesnt have anywhere to direct the sheer amnt of STRESS and fear so he just. ends up yelling at people bc what else CAN he do' and i think thats?? probably fairly accurate. i dont think hes as Constantly Irritable and Irrationally Angry as fanon presents him , bc it tends to be. excessive. but he DOES get reasonably angry in response to stress !!! i always think abt how his body language in the 'credits' scene of ep 6 look like hes yelling at airy. and im. lays on the ground. i dont even know if thats ever as much 'just anger' as it is Fear and it FUCKS ME UP

but the way i see it, that ties to ep 18 a LOT. because he was really Getting better. hell, what he thought was the WORST that could happen HAPPENED (dying) but he. came out OKAY? its like he was being forced to think about and work through his trauma and he survived and was ok. but being sent back is like. 'oh god i did that all for nothing.' but i think it also sort of?? serves as the Last Push for him to really, REALLY acknowledge the plane (which is why it makes sense so thematically for him to be the rejoiner. he WAS the only contestant whod Chosen to ignore it all. but that has nothing to do with the plane, he cant choose if the plane ignores Him.) past talking about its affects, how its affected people. because after everything hed worked toward, hes Back. hes back, and everyone else is STILL HERE. liam had said they were all still There but seeing them there is a whole other thing. hed SEEN the effects of making it out after 7 months. but he never saw what it was like to still BE there after all that time. and bryce CARES about them (fanon sometimes treats him as if he is a bit. coldhearted? but i think people misattribute him being unhappy with liam as him not caring. i think the problem is that he maybe cares too much, and was affected a LOT, but didnt and doesnt know how to handle that. so he WANTS to ignore it, because it was all he could do, and haaving to backtrack on his haphazard healing from the plane is. highly daunting and uncommfortable and terrifying. thats not being cold though, thats VERY different) and now he HAS to acknowledge Everything, has to be a part of it Again. and i think its a combination of 'liam was here for 7 months after we all thought itd only be a few weeks. Anything could happen. who knows how long ill be here for?' and 'liam didnt have anything when he came back. will I have anything when i come back?? will i have worked so, so hard to heal and fix my life for Nothing?' and 'i dont WANT to be here again.' and 'oh my god all of them Really Really Are Here. Theyve been here the whole time.' and i think all that culminates in an appropriate amount of horror, and that prompts him to do what hes STARTED doing, which was All He Can. and hes pissed off cus hes terrified, so he spurs everyone into pulling out the plug. and then. it doesnt work. it doesnt work and thats the LAST of what he had, and i think iirc hes the LAST one to close his eyes afterwards. because hed BEEN off the plane, hes the one of them who had any hope to give them anymore. and it didnt work

(i also think a lot about how it mustve felt seeing the contestants all so. resigned. because bryce was like that before all this, but ever since one began he was stubborn, and didnt WANT to give up. and i think finding out that these people youd seen try so, so hard just to Handle Any Of This be SO resigned would be. so fucked up. he knew amelia when she was so determined to leave, and while charlotte seems a bit saddened by her resignation, bryce was there BEFORE that happened. he wasnt there like liam or charlotte was to see it gradually develop, and to develop that despair alongside them. all hes seen is that amelia was so determined. and that he may not have known her THAT well before, he knows shes different. he knows she Gave Up and like. GOD. and also i think abt how he mustve Felt seeing the plug for the first time because ehs the only one of them who hadnt seen it before (given its likely all the other characters had, since they casually refer to it). and given the short time frame between him getting there, and the contestants trying to pull the plug? it almost seems that that was like. the last straw. and ive never posted it but i once drew stuff abt it bc. the damage to it is noticable. and i think hes already aware liam was fucked up, but this is like. a tangible, permanent record of that on the plane. and he cares about liam, and has been grappling with all the things liams told him, but thats. thats something he can See. And i think it all of it culminates in him deciding that what hes been avoiding is doing Soemthing about all this, because before he couldnt, and then it was. an awful idea to, and then he didnt have many choices BUT to help. but now theres hardly anything to do, but he has to try. he doesnt want to give up. and it makes me soooooooooooooooooo. head in hands.)

anyway that was a LONG tangent the point is. YEAH. i think rejoining would be. very very significant for his character i dont think youre making shit up its DEFINENTLY a topic w a lot of things to discuss about it

but god. yeah it wouldve been SO nice to see him come to terms with everything hed been through before one. i think the show purposefully included what it did and ended when it did because it makes more sense thematically for it to go unresolved, because the point was that NOTHING was able to be resolved nicely because unfortunately, many things are Out Of Their Control. things COULDVE resolved almost perfect but enough things went wrong at just the right (or more fitting, wrong) time for all of that to not work. i think him no longer seeing the suburbs may have signalled more that maybe, just maybe, he could Do something to help the other contestants even if HE was Dead, that now he finally HAS a goal, if that makes sense (though i think even in the timeline of the series it still wouldve taken way longer for him to process everything Fully, they WERE only in the waiting room for probably about a day) but the idea of finally seeing the waiting room as it is bc hed finally worked through everything .... man.............. man

ik ive already said it though but i DO think it is sooooo so possible for him to heal post canon. im a firm believer that no matter what, at LEAST bryce and ameliaa get home (liam and charlotte have more room for error but i DO generally interpret the ending as them both getting home too, theres just less room for things to go wrong w amelia and bryce). and i think after everything? hed be able to heal. it would SUCK but i think hes, shockingly, in a better place Logistically for things to improve, because he has a support system, he has what hed already worked on in those 7 months, he has so much to aim for. it would be rough and take long but i think ultimately? hed be able to heal :) and its what he deserves

[freebooter4ever]

As epic as the hockey was last night - and it WAS lol especially the last period, jeff and i were on the edge of our seats. The best part though was a realization i had about this world im trying to break into.

See, my friend "paul" told me something before he left the city (and then got a new job in Japan a month later and im so jealous, he left me here all alone and sad and now he's off having even cooler adventures) - he said that the only way he got his promotion at his old company was by befriending his boss and going out for drinks after work. Which floored me.

And then thinking about the sculptor at l*ght box who blatantly and without shame announced in his presentation that every job he got, he got through friends that he would go out with to build relationships.

And then listening to the Legend talk about back in the day how the more experienced animators used to take him out to lunch when he was still 18, 19 and get him drunk as kind of a hazing ritual. And while the Legend's stories about being so tipsy he had to crawl back to his desk and then try to sit up and draw were absolutely hilarious, the stories made me despair because in an environment like that im not going to cut it.

My closest friends dont care that i dont drink - they've seen me dance, they know that i can act plenty dumb without a drop of alcohol. But people who don't know me well tend to project their own insecurities about alcohol onto me - if they feel guilt over maybe drinking too much they are going to hate me for my seeming judgement of them. (meanwhile im like man, i had to learn to deal with my drunken mother at the age of 14 who honestly was better when she was drunk because it was when she was sober that she was mean. Dealing with drunken friends who giggle a lot, throw up a little, come find me for help because theyre so high theyve lost their shoes and walked two blocks barefoot, and friends who sometimes need to be coaxed into a shopping cart to wheel them back to the car is easy by comparison, i am having fun, this is endlessly entertaining, im saving up fun story fodder for decades to come, no judgement, trust me)

Anyway, i have spent the past two months utterly despairing over the fact that i will never be the type of person who can 'network' properly, and i will never be able to form those 'genuine' bonds that make people want to find you a job.

BUT but. As i was sitting there during intermissions chatting with jeff (who is essentially my boss if it wasnt a 'volunteer' gig lol) and finding out about when he used to coach college soccer and even won a national title, and chatting about the museum and the next couple of months agenda, and chatting about upcoming events we've both been invited to. And i was like holy shit. This is it. Im networking properly \o/ and not a drop of alcohol required, AND its genuinely just two friends hanging out.

anyway, tldr, people who have already found success are gonna try to tell you that there's only one way to do things, and that if you aren't doing it right you need to change what you are doing and maybe your entire personality and do it correctly. Listen to them with a smile, agree with them, and then go do it your own way anyway. Even if its a little slower and less glamerous

[idioticsky]

Me NOT patiently waiting for you to ramble about your OCs. GO CRAZY GO NUTS MAKE ME READ 25 PARAPGRAPHS ABOUT A CHARACTER I WANNA KNOW WHAT COLOR THEYRE TOOTHBRUSH IS AND FOOT SIZE HY THE END OF IT ALL GIVE ME ALL THE INFO YOU HAVE ABOUT ANY OC

DO YOU REALIZE THE HELL YOU HAVE RELEASED?! NO BUT IM NOT GONNA STOP YOU!

I have a whole ton of stuff for my favorite little gay boys so imma do them

Tw: mentions of characters being drunk

Sora:

VERY sound sleeper, like to the point you think he's dead. It can even be hard to find his pulse while he's sleeping, Lili got him a light up sign that he turns on when he's just taking a nap to tell everyone that he's not dead (it reads "I sleep like the dead"). Does he use it when Raz is around? Absolutely not.

Speaking of Raz, Sora and him have a fued. He was just introduced to Raz one day and didn't like him from the start. This is mainly because of his dad driving the fear of strangers (mainly adults) into his head since his mom died.

This boy LOVES to go dirt bike riding, it's the only thing his dad took him to do that he still enjoys. This also influences him to get a motorcycle when he's older.

Sora absolutely LOVES kids, he loves playing with younger kids and letting them color in any random notebooks he has, but surprisingly enough, he wasn't all too happy when he first found out about Cecil and Dmitry (foreshadowing hehe)

Sora can play the guitar but many chooses not to unless it's his mom's birthday, then he'll play the happy birthday song quietly in his room while the room is lit by the soft lighting of a candle on a cupcake

Does have trouble remembering to eat sometimes, this is because he didn't wanna leave his room when he's dad came home drunk or because there was no food in the house. This just kinda followed him to his new home, making it so he doesn't remember to eat sometimes but his family tries to make sure he's eating

I have more to share but I'll save that for later

Marshall

Marshall loves to bake and cook, he's the main one to do it in the future

Is the one to confess to Sora about his feelings

Is one of the main people to make sure Sora eats, he'll constantly pack extra food for lunch incase Sora forgets food or packs very little.

Found a old tree house in the questionable area and made it the main place that him and Sora hang out

In the future, Marshall is the one to ask Sora about adopting a kid. And of course he's very convincing so Sora says yes within an hour

Has little sister, but doesn't talk with her much after he was disowned accepted into the psychonauts

Very good at masking off his real self when needed, this makes him good for investorions or as a spy for the psychonauts

I love these two, my little gay boys

[m1ckeyb3rry]

LMAOOO casually drops 200k wc avg…classic Mira but ooooh yes I’ve def seen some stuff floating on your page about it from the occasional asks! It’d be really funny if the bllk one followed your typical wc projection inaccuracy although reaching orv levels is probably a stretch HAHA

MAJOR CHARACTER DEATH ummm I’ve let myself get too comfy in the crack/stupid loserverse ummm hahahaha ummm wait WHAT??? I did not that fact you really said “let me put my two faves against each ofher” it would go hard tho….

LMAOOO OOPS ok well either way it’s still funny I love the miraverse…..miraverse chigiri >>>>> circling back to the drunk Kira moment it’d be funny if reader was like “huh….when did you shrink….” LMAOOOO

No because niko gives such sidekick vibes it’s so funny but SHSKSJSJ I will shut up about oaeu for the time being to help you resist temptation it’s time for you to do some doom scrolling on tiktok /j

FR SHSHAJA they’re all just ganging up on him and he’s also a first year right??? Damn theyre fr bullying a child IM CRYING THE VISUAL OF KARASU BEING TALKED DOWN stop im imagining that alpha wolf meme I can’t

I’m laughing so hard that was fr my first thought like “they really gave him the extra eye sparkles” ONE MORE GOAL GUYS please I need the match to go faster only because seeing it chapter by chapter with no goal is lowk agonizing (it’s fine all together I’m just impatient when flipping through the panels) PLEASSEEE BARCHA MANSHINE SNEAK PEEK IM BEGGING someone give otoya a little spotlight too kaneshiro please I know you’re reading this

- Karasu anon

LMAOOO it’s so insane because 200k is so long for most people but for me it’s like okay regular that’s calm 😭 and yeahhh for a while my tumblr was solely asks about ship in the harbor tbf it was/is a very interesting story in my humble opinion…that y/n was hollyhock y/n before hollyhock y/n and she was also 10x more interesting somehow?? which is saying a LOT 😰 PLSSS nah imagine the bllk fic ends up at 500k that would be insane i’d have to have crazy plotting skills for it to get that long (or an idea i’m really inspired for 🙂‍↕️)

EEK i always forget that people who joined me in my bllk era don’t know i am FAMOUS for angst!! i neverrrr used to end my stories happy in almost all of them either reader or the love interest died it was literally to the point that pomegranate ink was considered me being kind to my readers since both yuta and mc lived 😭😭😭 nah because it was honestly a really fascinating concept wherein hak was soowon’s guard and shinah was a legend from reader’s province who comes to protect her in the palace after an assassination attempt and when hak kills shinah it’s not because he wants to but because he has to DJFNSJSKSNSN omg it’s a very insane story idk if the bllk fandom could handle it honestly especially if it’s rin killing nagi…like what would they even do

MIRAVERSE ON TOP FR omg miraverse chigiri is such a king i have this vision of may and reo being that really annoying couple that posts cute tik toks and do adorable trends together but then immediately after they post reader and chigiri stich the video recreating it while laughing and making it goofy because they’re menaces 😩 and PLSSS “nagi did the changes in elevation compress you a bit?? your hair is less voluminous too…”

NIKO IS LITERALLY JUST THERE TO RELAX and erm it may be a tad bit late…

I HAVEN’T STARTED WRITING YET JUST FORMATTING BUT SEEING IT SITTING ALONGSIDE THE REST OF MY WORK IS TORTUROUS 😭 i have to resist temptation though…i have to…

NOOO POOR KIYORA IS A BABY he should be hanging out w hiori bruh free him ‼️ SEISHIRO NAGI SAVE KIYORA ASAP 😭 omg no literally the alpha wolf meme is exactly the vibe i was going for FJSKFJSJ it’s canon dw i’m just going to manifest in there

HAHA we are on the same page idk what that was all abt…anyways agreed i think pxg will be one of the most hype games to read all at once but chapter but chapter is exhausting 😭 OTOYA SPOTLIGHT he literally scored a goal OFF SCREEN??? wtf 😓 and ofc yk i need my man to get his screentime back please it’s been too long since we last saw nagi in the main manga and he’s so hot in the manshine jersey can we get him back kaneshiro please i’m begging on my knees for a return…a mention…even a single panel…😩🙏🏻

[gendiegremlin]

first podcast - the magnus archives

podcast i've cried over - tma and rqg

fave podcast pet - khoshekh from wtnv <3333

best music - probably w.bg. i don't listen to a ton of the music but it is the only one that i have more than one song saved. the rest sort of only have their theme songs that i can recognise but w.bg has the theme song and i also like put-me-down and ol' brush valley and others but i forgor

confusing plot - w.bg. i love it so much but there's so many people and there's time travel and tbh i only understand about half of what's going on

friends from different podcasts - i think sasha rackett and melanie king. stabby girls voiced by lydia nicholas. i just think they could show each other so much cool stuff

enemies from different podcasts - cecil palmer and jon sims. actually no cecil wouldn't mind jon i think he might even like jon but jon could not stand cecil. cecil refuses to look into anything he just sort of goes yep that's happening now and i think that would piss jon off to no extent. ceaseless watcher's special little boy vs guy who's decided that's not his problem

mix up voices - tma. i didn't notice sasha was weird until jon noticed cause i didn't recognise her voice well enough. apart from literally the Main Guys, i don't know any voices ever (actually going through them now i realise i actually do know a lot, but when i was listening i got them mixed up a lot)

know the characters voices SO WELL - rqg. i love them so much <333 i've stolen so many of their voices for my own dming cause they're wonderful i love them and their silly little voices

wish i could relisten - rqg. god that was an experience. i need to listen to the rome sidequest again for the first time. that fucking broke me

listened to more than once - i've never done a full relisten, but i've done partial relistens of malevolent, rqg, and tma. malev and rqg were done in order and then i just sort of left them, and tma i just periodically relisten to favourite episodes in no particular order

wish more ppl listened to - rqg. i don't know how many people know it but it doesn't matter cause it's not enough

what do i do while listening to podcasts - literally anything. walk to school, homework, sudoku, animal crossing, background noise (only on one's i've already listened to so i don't need to pay too much attention)

beloved character - grizzop drik acht amsterdam. i mean just look at him he's tiny he's got a silly voice he will vibrate out of his skin without something to do he has big ears and piercings HES A GOBLIN he gambled with sasha and lost on purpose he once got drunk i think and just crash-hugged sasha. what a guy i fucking love him

beloathed character - elias bouchard. every time i hear his fucking voice i go into a blind rage and i just i need to strangle him. fuck you elias i fucking hate you. that's not to say i don't love him cause god he's such a character. but also i need to strangle him i need to kill him. melanie i feel you i would also try to assassinate him every chance if i could

songs for characters - this is just me pulling from my tma playlist. tim stoker is very 'bubblegum bitch' by 'marina'. 'organs' by 'of monsters and men' is being sad about michael shelley time

podcast on constant rotation in my brain - you can probably guess by how many times i've mentioned it but rqg

podcast regrets - there's none i regret listening to. sure there are some i didn't enjoy, but i just sort of stopped listening to them and then everything was fine

fave couple - zolf smith and oscar wilde. i know they weren't actually defined in canon but i mean look at them theyre qpr. my boys <3

cool fashion - oscar fucking wilde. i mean look at him. jon sims dresses like a grandma. cecil palmer looks like a costume store exploded on him. needles from tmagp has so many spikes on them they're very punk. cel sidebottom with the mad scientist look. and i know some of those things don't sound good, but they're all wonderful and i know they would all look so awesome irl

Podcast themed ask game cause I’m bored!

1.) what’s the first podcast you listened to?

2.) what’s a podcast you’ve cried over?

3.) Favorite podcast pet? (Idk if that’s worded weird but like if one of the characters has a cat or smth)

4.) what podcast has the best soundtrack/music?

5.) what’s a podcast that you really like but find it kinda hard to follow the plot?

6.) what characters from different podcasts do you think would be friends?

7.) what characters from different podcasts do you think would hate each other?

8.) what’s a podcast where you mix up the characters voices?

9.) what’s a podcast that you know the characters so well you can recognize their breathing?

10.) what’s a podcast that you wish you could listen to again for the first time?

11.) what’s a podcast you’ve listened to more than once?

12.) what’s a podcast you wish more people listened to?

13.) what do you like to do while listening to a podcast?

14.) who is a podcast character that you love?

15.) who is a podcast character you can’t stand?

16.) what songs do you associate with a certain character/ podcast?

17.) what’s a podcast that you can’t stop thinking about?

18.) are their any podcasts that you regret listening to?

19.) whose your favorite podcast couple?

20.) whose a podcast character that you think would dress really cool?

[complexgods]

hihi, i saw u still do aot posts so i wanted to req a perverted gn or m reader who wants to fuck jean but jean doesnt know theyre a virgin and teases them for being slutty <3 -S

Hello! Sorry this took so so long, I hope you like it!

Warnings: Jean Kirschtein x gn!reader, bottom!reader, alcohol, drunk sex (consensual!!), teasing, slight degradation, praise, Jean is a little shit but it's ok we love him, loss of virginity, aftercare, Modern AU, College AU (Also Idk how frat houses work! I'm too lazy to google it, so if I did it wrong I'm so sorry, I'm European)

A/N: I haven't written on here in so long, I feel like I've forgotten how to. I hope this is okay <3

MINORS DO NOT INTERACT

You've always had a thing for Jean, that was no secret. Ever since you joined university and saw him for the first time, looking nonchalant in class but smart as a whip, you could never get enough of him. Everyone that took a second to notice what was going on was quick to tease you about your little crush on him, but that didn't stop you from admiring from afar, maybe sneaking some peeks when he was drunkenly dancing at frat parties, revealing some of his perfectly toned body and saving the imagery for later. Soon, that wasn't enough, though. You wanted him, you wanted him so bad it hurt. You thought you were safe looking from afar, sneaking glances and subtly trying to get Jean's attention every so often, asking him somewhat unnecessary questions about the homework or offering to study with him, maybe your hands lingering a second too long on his arm when you tried to get his attention. You shared a few classes and mutual friends, after all, so you hoped it wouldn't seem too weird. Whatever it took, you wanted to be around Jean as much as possible, and you almost got away with it. Almost. But, of course, Jean loved the attention and the way you flirted with him didn't go unnoticed by him, even though he might've led you to believe otherwise.

The music was loudly thumping in your eardrums, the bass reverberating in your chest as you made your way through the crowd of people to get yourself a drink. You wore semi-casual clothes, albeit the best fitting pants you owned because you knew Jean would be there- you figured you might as well try and grab his attention while you were at it. As expected, you found Eren and Armin talking in low voices in the kitchen of the frat house, standing way too close to one another for it to be platonic. Not giving them any more attention for the sake of giving them some semblance of privacy, you grabbed yourself a plastic cup, pouring yourself a drink before moving to mingle with people in the living room. You didn't know many people, so you simply downed your drink, filling it up again as you were trying to get drunk as quickly as possible.

"Oh, hey!" Jean greeted you friendly, and you almost squeaked in surprise, not having seen Jean enter a room. You tried to hide your embarrassment, smiling friendly at him.

"Hey there! You surprised me, I didn't see you."

"Oh really? What a shame, I noticed you immediately entering the room." Jean pouted in a mocking fashion but quickly broke character, opting for his charming smile instead.

"It's nice to see you here!" Jean all but shouted over the suddenly increasing music. You couldn't help but grin at his words. He was happy to see you. That felt nice.

"You too!" You smiled and sneakily glanced him up and down. He was wearing those pretty rings that made his hands look god-like, and you couldn't help but wonder how they would feel gripping your hips as he slammed into you-

Your train of thought got interrupted by Connie calling you onto the dancefloor, and your head whipped back so suddenly, it startled even Jean.

"YO THIS IS OUR SONG! COME DANCE WITH ME"

You apologised to Jean, who simply gestured to the makeshift dancefloor, implicating that it was fine by him, as you ran to join Connie to do your usual dance routine, and maybe you made sure to move your body a tad more sensually in the hopes Jean was watching, but who was to say.

You got lost in the music, only taking a break from dancing in order to take a shot with Connie and to fill up your cup, but you were so focused on the banger playlist that Connie and Sasha made that you didn't even realise the way Jean was staring at you, casually sipping his drink as he sat on the couch, very clearly enjoying the view from there. After what felt like ten minutes but was closer to an hour, you crashed back down on the couch- right next to Jean. He was looking at your flushed face with an amused smile.

"Hey there." He said casually, scooching over to give you more space. You smiled when he said your name after you didn't respond. You loved the way he sounded out the syllables, how sexy it sounded when he said it. You wondered how it sounded when he moaned it.

"Mmmh hi" You closed your eyes, wiping some sweat from your brow.

"How're you feeling?" He asked as you slumped to the side, resting your head on his shoulder. You might've been a little drunker than anticipated, which seemed to work in your favour. You were always quite affectionate when you were drunk, most people have mentioned finding it endearing.

"You're so pretty," you slurred, looking up at Jean with a smile before resting your head on his shoulder once more, completely ignoring his question. You didn't even completely register what you said before Jean answered.

"Is that so?" he chuckled. "Well, you're not too bad yourself," he spoke in a low voice, his breath hot on the shell of your ear.

Your head whipped up at that, and as you were trying to get a read on him, you noticed that he was staring intensely at you, a glint of mischief in his eye that you couldn't ignore. He leaned closer to you to whisper the next words into your ear.

"Don't think I don't know what you're doing here," his hand was now inching up your thigh- not much, and it seemed innocent enough, but that touch was enough to have your entire body on fire.

"Whaddya mean?" You asked, trying to sound innocent, but the alcohol betrayed you. You of course knew exactly what you were doing.

"You teasing me like that, flirting with me, leaving me wondering if you're ever gonna make a move, but instead all you've done is made me half-hard by just dancing in front of me…"

His confession made your breathing stop for a second, you didn't dare move in case it was a dream. The next words, however, caught you even more off guard.

"You're just a little slut, aren't you? Teasing me even though you probably get more dick than most of the people here, huh?" His fingers were tracing shapes on your knees as he was talking, and it made it hard to focus.

"N- No…" You shook your head, hiding your face by turning it more into Jean's shoulder. He smelled so nice.

"No? You're meaning to tell me you've never thought about how it'd feel if I made you scream out my name? Forgetting about all partners you had beforehand, make you beg for my cock?"

"That's not… Not true…" You tried arguing, looking up at him with a frown.

"What isn't true? That you don't want to fuck me?" His voice might be teasing but you started to get frustrated. You sighed. He was so dense. Sobering up ever so slightly, you looked him dead in the eye.

"No, Jean. I do want to fuck you. Badly. I just never… Had sex before. With anyone."

That caught his attention, the hand on your knee freezing in place.

"Hold up- You're a virgin?" He seemed so surprised, and you simply shrugged.

"Yeah. So what? Doesn't mean 'm a prude." You weren't really embarrassed, you just never got around to having sex yet. But you knew you wanted this with Jean, and as if to prove a point, you slipped a hand in between his thighs, rubbing the inside of it ever so slightly.

"I can see that-" Jean retorted, removing your hand from his thigh. "You sure you want this though? You are drunk…" He seemed genuinely concerned, and it was sweet. But you preferred it when he called you a slut.

"I'm certain, Jean. I've wanted you ever since I saw you in the lecture halls."

That was all it took for Jean to take your hand, leading you to his bedroom of the frat. As soon as the door closed behind you, his lips were on yours and his hand was at the back of your neck, pulling you forward and tipping your head so he could easily access your mouth, slipping his tongue inside almost possessively. You moaned as he pulled you flush against him, his hand slipping into your hair, messing it up as you awkwardly waddled towards the bed.

A string of saliva connected your lips as you finally parted for air, sitting down on the bed in the process. You felt light-headed and beyond horny, so it wasn't long until you silently begged for more, laying back and pulling Jean with you. You didn't know when Jean took off his shirt, but you appreciated the way his tone muscles flexed at every single teasing touch, his body shivering whenever your fingers caressed a particularly sensitive spot. Jean made sure you were laying comfortable on the mattress, kissing a hot trail down your neck, sucking hickeys along your collarbone as he unbuttoned your shirt, placing a knee in between your legs, pressing against your sex so deliciously, you couldn't help but whine slightly at the pressure.

"Fuck, you're so hot." He breathed out, and the way he looked up at you with kiss-swollen lips had you unconsciously bucking your hips against his thigh. "And so eager-" he teased, returning to removing your clothing, a mouth latching onto one of your nipples, making you gasp. You never felt this sensation before and it made you beg for more.

Once he finally got your jeans off, Jean slid further down your frame, pulling off your underwear, exposing your sex to the air. You gasped as he licked a stripe along it, sucking slightly at your sensitive spot. The hand that wasn't holding onto your hips made their way to your mouth, brushing against your lips with a silent command; suck. So, you did. Once he was satisfied, he pulled his fingers out your mouth, immediately moving them to your hole, probing the entrance slightly before slipping a finger in.

"Jean… Feels so good-" You moaned as he added a second finger, stretching you nicely. His fingers felt way better than yours, and you knew you'd get addicted to the way his fingers brushed against your sensitive spot inside you, making your toes curl, opening you up and prepping you for him.

"Mgonna make you feel so full, baby," Jean promised, grabbing a condom from the side of his bed, ripping the packet open with his teeth. No matter how tacky it really was, right at that moment, it was the hottest thing you've ever seen in your life.

As he rolled the condom over his rather impressive length, you couldn't help but marvel at the ease with which Jean did all this- how experienced was he, really? You didn't want to think about it too much, nor could you because with one last "you ready?" he slowly sunk the head into your tight hole, groaning lowly at the way you clenched around him. He took it slow, making sure you were comfortable as he filled you to the brim, just like he promised. Once he started to move, you could see stars.

"Shit- Jean… You feel so good, ah fuck," you didn't prevent the moans from slipping past your lips anymore, being too far gone to care about potential eavesdroppers.

"That's right, baby, you're doing so good for me, shit-" he gripped your legs as he fucked impossibly further into you, hitting spots inside you you didn't even know existed. You were in heaven.

"You're a slut after all, huh? Just for me. My pretty slut…" You weren't sure if Jean actually registered what he was babbling about, his pace quickening as the slapping sound of skin against skin echoed through the room, the music from the party ebbing away as the chorus of moans from the two of you took over.

"Jean… Wanna cum, pl- please make me cum" You couldn't help but beg the man towering over you, and it seemed like your begs made Jean get close too, his cock throbbing inside you.

"You're squeezing me so tight- fuck… Cum for me-" He growled through gritted teeth, clearly holding back so you could cum first. How thoughtful-

You came without much more warning, your back arching and your hips moving against Jean's as he finished as well, spilling inside his condom. He slowed his hips as he rode out both your orgasms, his hips finally coming to a halt after a while. He pulled out with a hiss, and you admired the red marks on your thighs from where Jean's hands gripped you earlier.

"Fuck that was so good…" You sleepily said as Jean softly kissed your neck, holding you close to him as you both came down from your highs.

"'Mglad…" He mumbled, your naked bodies entangled on the bed, holding each other close and softly kissing each other.

"Connie's never going to let us hear the end of this." You sighed, hearing Jean chuckle as you slowly fell asleep in his arms.

[cinnamonest]

pleaseee, the day someone makes a gi rapist au ill fucking ASCEND. and i dont just mean like, regular noncon fics, i mean aus in which for one reason or another theyre canonically rapists (like zhongli has definitely raped a fellow god to show his dominence and beidous probably fucked one of her crew members while they were drunk, or maybe xiao literally cant control himself due to his karmic energy around women so he just rapes them ): stuff like that). im glad we're having this convo bc it just makes me so (:

REALITY CAN BE WHATEVER I WANT

But seriously I mean I'm not the type of person to insist something is canon when it's not but I could totally see it/like to think so.

I mean Kaeya and Diluc both 1000% seem like they would have a subordinate/maid that they at least sexually harass if not full on blackmail and manipulate into sex on the regular. Diluc canonically has a lot of dudes trying to get him to marry their daughters... He's gotta at least have set his eyes on one, or perhaps ignores all those dudes bc he already has a cute lil maid he's pressuring into sex all the time and already planning how to ascend her from maid to wife status. Kaeya's canonically very flirtatious and is implied to have emotional/loneliness issues, so it makes sense he's definitely gonna latch onto the first dumb naive little thing that doesn't catch a whiff of the crazy from a mile away and allows him to get close. Also could easily get away with a male subordinate especially, because then people would be less likely to suspect harassment, and he can get away with being alone with them even more. But even a cute maid for the knights or something would work just as well. And as I've said these are our prime date rape drugging candidates, so no little darling in Teyvat isn't safe if the local handsome businessman or charming knight asks you to come get a drink with them.

Zhongli and Venti 100% you can't convince me they didn't, the archon war and all that. Godhood is brutal, sometimes cute lil gods/goddesses get fucked by superior deities and that's just how it is. Barbatos probably felt insecure over being a weaker archon and sought out some little god or goddess that was even tinier and weaker and offered them protection in exchange for servitude or the like. Morax definitely brutalized some little god/goddess that dated challenge his authority and power.

Xingqiu... Probably has an arranged marriage set up already. You know how aristocrats are and all that. He sees his future lil wife every now and then bc they have to make public appearances and have to sit with each other at social gatherings, and he always whines like the brat he is. Come on you're gonna be married eventually anyway! What are you "saving" for? Go ahead and have sex with him NOW there's no point in waiting he's a horny teen boy dammit he has NEEDS >:/ definitely whines and pressures her until she gives in and now they have... Premarital marital relations every time they see each other and he gets them to sneak away from crowded social functions to go fuck in various places around the estate.

And you're right poor bb Xiao has no self control, Razor too. You mean to tell me if either of those two find some cute girl wandering all by herself they're just gonna sit there and do nothing? Let her pass? I think the fuck not. Some poor gorl that decided to go wandering through the woods or adepti territory and just got lost, or perhaps made the mistake of stripping down to bathe in a river or the like while camping out in the wilderness. Literally like animals, just on-sight acting on impulse to fuck her there in the wilderness and then drag her home with them.

Childe too. Probably a little trainee assigned to him. He has all that authority and power and I'm supposed to believe he wouldn't abuse it to fuck and impregnate a sweet fatui soldier?? Ruin her hopes and dreams of becoming successful and tie her down with a baby instead?? Of course he has.

And considering the nature of yanderes hiding darlings away, it's not like we as the player would ever know if there is a poor lil thing locked up somewhere in the dawn winery or the dragonspine research camp or a teapot somewhere. So who knows... But yeah those are the most canonically likely imo, the rest are certainly well on their way there though. A matter of time and opportunity.

Chongyun and Bennett are being held back by morality so they probably haven't yet... They just need a qt to push them over the edge with being a cocktease until they snap. Albedo is just so asocial he hasn't had the opportunity yet, but once a sweet little qt comes along and triggers his emotions he'll get em locked away in a cute little cage somewhere. No worries, they will all become awful with time as they should be.

[i-cant-sing]

Hey, could I maybe request Soft Yandere Bakugou with an obedient/accepting crush? Like he kidnaps them and theyre just "whoa okay calm down bby you just had to ask"

Yandere! Bakugo x accepting darling

Thanks for requesting! I didn't know if you wanted headcanons or a scenario, so I went with the latter option. Hope you like it! :)

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Yandere! Bakugo:

You woke up with a massive headache. Your eyes were still trying to adjust to the bright lights in the room as you tried to recall what happened last night.

You had went out drinking with Mina, Kirishima, Sero and Bakugo. All you remembered was talking with Mina about your love life and hero work before taking your leave. Although it was late, you weren't that drunk so you deemed yourself okay to walk home alone. But on the way, somethin- no, someone hit your head, knocking you out. Oh god. Did I just get kidnapped? Oh shit. What do I do? WHAT DO I DO? Getting out of bed would be a good place to start. Except you couldn't. Not when there was quirk cancelling cuff around your right ankle.

As you tried to get the cuff off you, you started thinking why someone would kidnap you of all people? You weren't rich, you weren't even a top hero. Your quirk wasn't that strong either. Is it for some disgusting purpose? Are they going to take advantage of you? Sell you? You were brought out of your train of thoughts by the sound of the door knob unlocking. This is it, you realised. This is how I'm going to die.

The door opened to reveal...Bakugo? Oh he's here to save me! "Bakugo! Oh thank god you found me. Quick. Get this cuff off of me! We need to get out of here right now!"you said to him as you motioned to your cuff. But he didn't move to help you. Instead he just stood there, with his usual pissed off expression. "Bakugo what are you waiting f-" Thats when it dawned on you. He did this. He knocked you out. But why? "Why would you do this? Are you jealous of me? Did I do something wrong? Look I was just kidding when I said that you and Izuku would make a cute couple-" "ITS NOT THAT!"He replied back, cheeks turning pink. "Then why am I here?"you asked him.

He walked towards you but still maintained his distance. "I- I love you." He mumbled as he shifted his weight from one foot to the other. "What?" "I love you" Bakugo repeated, this time a bit louder. "No I got that part. What I don't understand is why I'm here." He sat on the bed, near your foot, playing with the cuff as he replied, "well because... you said to Mina last night that you were in love with someone. And that you were going to confess to him. And-and I didn't like that. No stupid extra deserves you! No one! Look, I know this isn't exactly normal but I really do love you. I have ever since you came to UA. " You looked at him blankly before your face turned red and you lunged at him, taking him by surprise. "(Y/n) what-" you cut him off by punching his nose. "You love me!? And you thought that the best way to convey your feelings would be KNOCKING ME OUT?!?!? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOUR STUPID ASS!! YOU COULDNT HAVE JUST ASKED ME OUT ON A DATE LIKE NORMAL PEOPLE?! FOR SOMEONE WHO CLAIMS THEY'RE THE SMARTEST, YOU SURE ARE PEA-BRAINED!" You yelled at him as you kept punching him. Finally, Bakugo caught your both of your wrists in one hand before flipping you guys over, this time you under him as he straddled you. "But you said you were already in love with someone-" "YEAH, YOU!" Your words shocked Bakugo, causing his grip on your wrists to loosen up a bit. "Wait, so you love me too-" Bakugo's words were cut off again as you punched him again. He quickly gathered your wrists again "WILL YOU STOP THAT!" He yelled angrily, leaning down until his face was an inch away from yours. You kept on trying to move your arms but he pushed your wrists above your head, not relenting until you had worn yourself out.

"So you're really in love with me?" He asked softly. You were tired but still furious so you just turned your head to the side. Bakugo smiled. Even when you are mad, you're still so adorable. Bakugo caressed your cheek softly, slowly turning your head towards him. "Do you...still love me?"he asked, referring to the incident that occurred last night. You sighed before replying "of course I still love you. I know you were dropped on your head as a kid but I still love you. A whole lot less now though" Bakugo breathed a sigh a relief, before kissing your cheek and nuzzling his nose with yours. "I'm sorry for that. Although I didn't really hit you that hard-" you head bumped him hard causing him to lose balance and fall off of you. "WHAT DID YOU SAY?! YOU DIDNT HIT HARD?! I PROBABLY HAVE A FUXKING CONCUSSION! AND THEN YOU HAD ME FUXKING CHAINED TO THE BED! AND WHERE WERE YOU WHILE I WAS IN HERE HAVING A GOD DAMN HEART ATTACK?!!" And although Bakugo loved it when you got mad, he was getting a bit concerned for your vocal cords and your blood pressure. He got up, picked your struggling body up and placed you in his lap before shoving your face into his chest. He started to rub your back, trying to calm you down. "You're right. I am sorry. I did hit you hard. And I'm very sorry for that. I'm sorry I wasn't here when you woke up. I'm sorry for all of it. But I really do love you, princess. Will you forgive me?" He asked you, your mind a whole lot calm now. "Dumb ass" you mumbled before snuggling in to his chest more. Some part of you always knew that Bakugo liked you and although the way things turned out wasn't exactly normal, you were okay with that. Bakugo chuckled before kissing the crown of your head, his heart at ease after knowing your feelings were mutual.

Poor Bakugo had to spent a whole week apologising and kissing up to you. He knew you were mad at him but he also knew you were still in love with him. And thank the stars for that because he did not want to go to plan B.

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[empressofdiamonds]

What to do when your friends constantly associate you/ remind you of your past self? Im beginning my level up journey, and my friends keep saying they miss the old me.

*Im inspired by your anon who asked u something similar*

The old me who:

- fucked random men

- got drunk every night and smoked weed everyday

- zero ambitions or goals and lack of morale in life

basically you can form conclusion on how i was

My ex bf and i dated and he really saved me from that, and they have basically blamed him for taking my "youth" away but thats not even what I wanted anyways! Like im gratedul he got me to see the light regardless of our outcome. But theyre convinced that im just some pick me who wants to still please him.

I wanna cut everyone off, but I have done that before and felt so alone and isolated. I just dont know what to do anymore. I feel like im stuck in a cage and I cant grow and be who I truly desire because everyone associated me with being a crazy party girl.

What if I told you fucking around, being drunk everyday, smoking weed excessively, no ambitions... Is actually part of pickmeness?

I perceive pickmeness as not only towards others, it's also towards oneself, it's terrible lack of self-esteem that makes one not do what is best for oneself.

That's low-key insulting that they think the new lifestyle you adopted is all his fault; you dumped him, you still don't wanna date him (aka you're not doing this process for him), you're still keeping the new lifestyle changes after the breakup. Like, the logic's not there! I see that you're actually doing a glow-up process and not some desperate pickme behaviour to gain him back like Friends are saying you are doing.

If you don't want to cut everyone off, how about you keep contact with the most grounded and best girls in that gang, and minimize contact with the worst ones?

Sadly reputations can stay a good while after the changes, but I think that you should keep going at it, the more stronger the change and the more consistent it is, the more likely your reputation is to change. Prove to everyone the Old Self is goddamn dead and buried 6 feet under in an welded iron casket. And with fresh concrete poured on top.

Keep being consistent with the new healthy habits, and make sure all facets of your life are to your new taste.

I may add another point... Sometimes the stuff people say is a reflection of their own thought processes. If someone is unhappy that you're doing the obvious healthy choice, it is because you're indirectly doing them one hell of an ass-whooping. You're indirectly telling them to get their sh*t together because it ain't cute.

Even, sometimes, the good answer is sometimes the most hurtful one. Aka dumping them all if this doesn't gets better. No choice, gotta suffer a little bit to improve. It's a battle in a war.