#or i guess infatuation
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Just venting bc ive exhausted my friends with this lol
#i fell in love too fast again#or i guess infatuation#its not real love when you barely know the person#im so tired of being so easily emotional#allt jag vill är att få ha någon att sätta på#och typ vara vän med#kan jag sluta få känslor som resulterar i att jag råkar lovebomba någon och göra dem obekväm#jag vill inte vara såhär#jag har bokat tid med psyk och allt men jag är så trött och på gränsen till panikattack#jag kände den här personen i typ 1#månad#literally bara typ en och en halv månad#och jag är redan borta#jag vill inte ens gilla honom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#han är liberal and its disgusting!!!!!!!!!!!#han var bara så söt och var så fin när han stönade och var så snäll#hade en kink jag fick hyperfokus på#jag vill inte#jag ville bara vara vänner och ha politiska diskussioner och ha någon som verkligen ville förstå mig#och som ville kyssa mig#jag pussade på honom#gosade med honom#jag antar han blev obekväm#blev för bekväm#jag#är så trött på mig själv#funderar på att åka till psykakuten#jag vill bara vara nöjd med mitt liv
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argenti sketch 🌹
#honkai star rail#hsr argenti#my art#art#digital art#fanart#sketch#procreate#haliai art#I’ve had a recent infatuation with him because I’m watching revolutionary girl utena rn#also I just have a weakness for pretty bishounen men I guess#what can I say#my anime roots were laid deeply in shoujo#it’s hard to escape 😔
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So i headcanon that demons (maybe angels too) have more than 1 heart…
Imagine that one day your demon darling invite you to dinner and ofc you agree! So you’re talking with them waiting for ur meal then it arrives. On the plate it’s a cooked DEMON heart and it’s not just any demon heart it’s your demon’s heart. Them smiling and said “do you like it?”
Apparently, demon do that to express love to their mates and it’s also one of the most imtimate ways (in demon’s sense) to show love.
I need more contents of the boys actually being demon 😔
i fuck with this, not gonna lie
the monsterfucker in me is always intrigued by the differences in how a nonhuman would express their love lmao of course most people would be surprised if their demon lover presented them with their second heart but after initial shock and them explaining if you think about it….you cant help but be (strangely?) touched like wow this person really likes me huh (///∇///) so we r pretty much soulmates! presenting one of ur hearts is a pretty big deal just from a logical standpoint, cause u forever nerfed urself for someone
now actually eating the heart is a whole nother question lmaoo
yea you know demons sometimes like to eat each other (and humans sometimes) but humans dont really do that as a casual activity and it usually gets you ostracized lol
u cant help but feel a little bad not eating it though…they cooked their whole second heart, they had it removed from their body which probably wasnt a painless thing to do but for your demon its mainly a way for them to show their devotion more than anything ,,,tho i know some of those brothers were actually expecting you to eat it lol it would be very funny if you both were sitting there after you were like aww thats so sweet and then he was like….well r u gonna eat it? :]
asmo and mammon come to mind first honestly LMAO
asmo is “kind of” intense when it comes to love and the mammon is a tsundere--"well...are you gonna eat it or what?"(//︶^︶)typa deal--so thats why i say that
and then maybe beel and belphie
beel cause i feel like it might go over his head at first (especially since this involves food) but then he'll remember like oh right humans dont eat that my bad
belphie i just think is hopeful you know...if that makes sense, so hes not surprised if you dont wanna eat it but maybe a bit huffy about it
i think satan and lucifer are too smart and like “normal” to actually expect a human to do that
while levi is... levi
hed probably get self conscious and be like well yea of course they wouldnt wanna eat my heart...
and then u gotta really reassure him its not him its you :d
#obey me nightbringer#obey me#obey me x reader#not taggin all those brothers im sorry lol#i like playing guess how that character will react#especially with characters i dont know very well lol#okay that was fun#thanks for the ask!!#its nice getting surprise messages :]#idk even how to tag this!!#like gruesome or something??#tw body horror#tw gore#maybe??#ACTUALLY#i wanted to say#remember when the threat of demons eating mc were constantly brought up in the beginning of the game lmao#that feels like a whole other world now#i wonder if the boys still get urges to eat mc sometimes tho#cause i was reading a novel with a demon ml and he fell for the mc#and he has demonic urges sometimes that he has to control#and actually a different demon in the past was infatuated with him and wanted to eat him because of it#so that was normal down in hell#like that would be considered love#fortunately for mc the ml isnt full demon anymore so i think it helps muddle those eating urges a lot#but hes yandere tho cause his version of love is still very intense and strange by human standards#i need to finish this story btw
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The funniest thing about my transition is slowly becoming even more of a spitting image of my dad. It sometimes makes me double-take in the mirror because I look like my dad if he were cooler
#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#nonbinary#how i am cooler than my dad: 1. long hair 2. face piercings 3. fagswag#the stereotype is that people go on testosterone to look like anime boys but i did it to look like Some Dad#i want to look like charlie twilight saga unfortunately (fortunately)#(guess what i'm watching. this shit is so so so so so funny. funniest movies made by man)#i was told pre-medical transition that i look like the spitting image of my dad by somebody who knew him as a teen and :')#i wonder what they would say like 2.5 years on testosterone thiugh#also tangentially-related but i had like. the biggest infatuation with kristen stewart when i was younger and i don't even know why#i think i just thought she was really pretty and i liked how deadpan she was in the movie i watched featuring her (lmao)
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Fellas what does it mean when your last big infatuation, who you haven't talked to in over six months, sends you an honest to god mixtape and a cassette player to play it in as holiday gift??
#hey fellas how do i interpret this#unexpected holiday gift#I shouldn't read this as romantic but fuck i feel kinda romanced anyway#i sent him a gift in the mail (just a pokemon coaster lol) a couple of weeks ago and didn't hear anything#so i thought maybe it either got lost or he didn't want to talk any more#but lo and behold#i guess he got it? or sent this completely independently of that i suppose#my date with sweet d#geez i thought I was over this nerd#infatuation is downplaying it a bit bc i was fully head over heels for this guy
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me if it was illegal to like a silly gorilla man
#SIGHHHHH IM REALIZING A TREND……..#i have a mutual who’s always infatuated with cat characters i guess im in the same boat huh……..#txt
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I forgot that The Holiday was a movie about Kate Winslet falling in love with an old man she has like 150% more chemistry with than she does with her actual love interest ; Jack Black
#And there's the romance between cameron diaz and jude law i guess but that's more an infatuation than actual love#this movie shaped the way i wrote romance for a good while#wasnt until later that I realized how skewed it was lmao#still a fun and nostalgic movie though kate winslets character is fun and relatable you really root for her to kick this jasper guy#out of her life and when she does its really satisfying bc gosh what a prick#unlike cameron diaz' character who is just 'the most interesting girl thats not like other girls'#they should have let kate fuck an old man and they were cowards for not doing that#like she has more screentime with the old guy than with her actual love interest!!#it was right there!!#OH and the SOUNDTRACK is soooo good i love it to bits#perfect to write cute romance scenes to#the holiday movie#The holiday
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i wish i was a better writer so i could write the sunny fics i wanna read 😭 i want to read about mac and charlie in a way that isnt exactly romantic but also not exactly not romantic. but unfortunately my writing is washed (have not written fic since i was like 12)
#mac n charlie#charmac#i guess#like idk idk i feel like a lot of the fics i read the romantic aspect feels forced to me#or they write dennis as the actual real life devil 😭😭#which like. theyre all awful sure#but sometimes i see something and its like#he would NOT do that#i feel like to me what feels most natural is when theyre not explicitly romantic but its possible to read it that way if you wanted#and i prefer that macs love/infatuation/whatever ur interpretation is for dennis is acknowledged in some way#like in the context of the show i feel like its relevant#and even though im not compelled by macdennis i do have eyes
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a quite simple outfit, trying to use the little blue and white apron thing (which is actually a dress I think, that I just leave un-buttoned in the back and added an apron-like tie to lol)
#self#mori kei#jfashion#NOT really but like.. it's.. adjacent I guess.. forgive me .. I may try using tags again though I kind of got out of the habit ghhj#I need to be... Seen to some degree. I want to start selling clothes and sculptures again to recoup the costs of having to euthanize my cat#and stuff . but that won't be very successful if I have like.. 15 people to sell to lol...#the eternal Hermit Conflict where you hate attention and Being Percieved in general yet in todays capitalist society it is nearly#a necessity to have some form of social network or media presence especially in creative fields. etc. etc. ... kicking screaming wailing#sobbing so on and so forth.. tearfully punching the cold mossy stone walls of my evil wizard tower...#I was also thinking of maybe opening a few sculpture commission slots and maybe Tumblr Blazing that post or something#but.. again.... sobbing crying interacting with the general public oughhf ouuch -500 HP#why can't I just be approached by some wealthy 65 year old woman who is nonsensically infatuated with my art for no#reason and gives me like $10.000 a week for food and art supplies and etc. and I can go fuck off into a cabin in the middle of nowhere#in the uk and just be left alone to work on my projects without even needing to build any form of connections or social presence because I'#already set for life and can just get funding and connections whenever lol.. WHICH not to be ungrateful like obviously I still appreciate#anyone who follows and interacts with my posts. I dont mean it in a 'grrr fuck all of you imbeciles I wish I could delete my blog!!!' or#whatever hhjkjk.. I just mean it more in a like.. I am very socially inept and my mental illness gives me severe social issues so any situ#tion where I'm expected to self promote or network or interact with others generally is nightmarish and stressful for many many reasons#and if I could somehow skip that part and just go straight to being a famous author or somethin.. that would be cool. Which I know EVERYONE#hates networking and stuff but I mean like.. on a level most people could not possibly comprehend.. I am not just an 'introvert'. I am like#doctors declare me incapable of functioning in general society very poor mental health prognosis probably should have a caretaker at#some point type Hermit lol.. ANYWAY ghbhj... alas.. I also feel weird about the sculptures in terms of what to charge for them#and always have which is part of why I stopped selling them. If I charged a fair even like $15 an hour many of them would be like#close to $150+. and nobody is going to pay that for a decoration. that doesn't even factor in like.. supplies or time spent communicating/s#etching the concept (if a commission) etc. etc. I thought it'd be better to just auction them then and let people pay what they want inst#d of a set price but etsy doesnt allow auctions and is it weird to just.. link people to an Art Ebay or something lol..#AAAANYWAY.. the outfit.. I still love these shoes. they're nice and a little Older Style looking. always into pastel florals too lol#(everything is thrifted as usual. excited about the shirt because it's so puffy! it was in the halloween section though ghjhj.. like when i#s october and they make the special aisle in goodwill for 'Costume' clothes even though theyre all just normal stuff I would wear ghg)
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??? and her useless boyfriend
#ts4#i didn't start it in admin mode so I can't print screen without it doing it through the snipping tool#windows resets all my settings on updates istg#anywaaaays#i love playing with these two#she's a boss that keeps him around because she likes his body and he's good at what she needs him for#lol...honestly... that's her ww moodlet... she's infatuated with his body and like... nothing else.#he'll never show up#but he exists#here she is... trying to make him presentable#I guess this is my proof Im kind of farting around in ts4
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i'm a recent follower and idk who 🦇 is, and it's also currently 4am where i live, so for like a good minute thought you were doing a modern rp vagueblog thing about jonathan harker staying with dracula and texting mina while dracula was away
which if you are, keep up the good work 👍
i’m not but i hate how this is actually too fitting for my situation
#we literally have a dracula motif in my living room that ties us all together 🤦♀️#ask#anon#🦇 is a new friend who i have a slight infatuation with due to him having been very into me#and just the way that we met i guess#and the weight of his attention is uhhhhhhhhhhhh#it’s a lot#but also i have a gf whomst i love dearly and remain loyal to#🥰❤️❤️❤️
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#i’m feeling inspired rn after finally finishing a fic that’s going up tonight#and now i kinda wanna just write…. plotless fluff??#like i mean no plot whatsoever just trying to capture how utterly infatuated the two cubitos are#but i’ve read so many fics like that which are utterly phenomenal and i don’t wanna seem like i’m copying and mine wouldn’t be as good#and i also wanna write many aus but i again don’t wanna seem like im#copying anyone because there are phenomenal fics for every au i wanna write!#and i know nobody has claim or ownership over any trope or genre or anything#but some fics are worshipped (like in every fandom) and i never want to seem like i’m trying to… like…. dethrone the royalty that are these#longstanding popular fics if that makes sense???#im still kind of a newbie like i’ve only been writing for this community since january#i know this is stupid btw do not feel like you need to respond#i’m just feeling like every idea i have rn is stepping on someone else’s toes and taking their recognition away#which i know is stupid! but coming from a - i guess- toxic community before this one i always feel the need to overthink like this#anyway sorry if anyone read this far i’m having a mental battle with myself rn to get out of this mindset
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sometimes when im having a bad thoughts night when im trying to sleep like the anxiety is just torturing me sometimes ill whip out my happy place. u know what that is. its me and 20 something yr old chris squire sitting side by side on the bank of a stream running through a forest in springtime. obviously i only knew chris as an old man and never got to sit by a stream with him. but i have a hell of an imagination. its funny tho, of all the things i could possibly imagine, thats the thought that soothes me the most. just having a nice peaceful time with my hero. not even talking necessarily. i loved him so much, dog. i still do. he was so incredibly kind and wonderful to me hes still healing me from beyond the grave. not sure if that says more about him or my love FOR him but. maybe both, i guess i love him for a reason. whatever works i guess
#and i dont even have to guess about whether or not hed be nice to me. because he was#im glad i didnt wind up with john wetton as my autistic infatuation because he completely blew me off irl lol#im very lucky that chris took a liking to me immediately#maybe in another universe we're the same age and we get to be friends for years.....#a beast that can talk
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Random screenshot dump of Heinz because I've been thinking a LOT about him again recently <3
#he's so cute and silly ahhh😭💘💘#I want to cuddle with him and give him a peck on his nose and see him blush as I tell him what a cutie he is and how happy he makes me💖#what if I imagined tho that the last picture is the face he makes whenever he sees Selina💕#as you can see I'm in hard simp mode right now#this man has too much control over me#just - hE <3#if I ever have a partner they'll just have to put up with me drooling over some cartoon guy I guess xD#but on the other hand I'll probably be at least as infatuated with them as I'm with my f/os if not more so there's that#f/o: 🚂#2nd dimension doofenshmirtz#heinz doofenshmirtz#phineas and ferb#self ship#self shipping#self insert x canon#f/o gush#villain f/o#f/o appreciation#self shipping community#selniasoriginal
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i have a song stuck in my head on repeat and it hasnt even been out for 24hrs
#yes#you guessed it#its infatuation#OOOOOHH AND I NEED YOU NOW#BUT ITS INFATUATION#AKLSDHJFAKLJD#I CANT#I SEE WHY DALLON LOVES IT SO MUCH#idkhow#idkhowbtfm#dallon weekes#snek talks too much
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#good morning chat#last night i had weirdass dream i was trapped at the bottom of the ocean in a column in water moving downwards#i didn’t need to breathe but i couldn’t go up no matter how hard i tried#then i was in an underwater cave in an air pocket#i could breathe and move around fine but there was also no way out and i was beginning to feel quite claustrophobic#then i dreamt i lost my cat in the middle of a rainstorm#i ran around trying to find him in a panic until i woke up and he was curled up beside me in bed#i recently switched him to an all wet food diet#as compared to the 1:1 ratio of wet and dry food i had him on earlier#it’s pricey as hell but i’ll just spend less on other things#i bought this enzymatic toothpaste and microfiber brush too so i’ll try to clean his teeth more often#he’s loafing on the floor rn as i eat breakfast :)))#idk why i’m not over [data redacted] at this point it’s nonsensical and asinine#i guess i’ll keep waxing poetry about him every time i’m drunk until i die or i fall in love with someone else#i don’t even know if it’s love maybe it’s infatuation#today i’m trying a new route to get to class#if it works i’ll save around 4x the price#i kinda lost car privileges cuz i punched someone 🤡#long story. taxi or public transport from now#anyway see y’all in class#digital systems design lab today should be fun
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