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contagious-addiction · 2 years ago

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Hey just a note to ppl who feel like following me since there’s been an uptick, but if you have legit Nothing reblogged on your account and no description saying “this is an alt!” or “I don’t reblog!” I am Blocking You

This is not me being mean. I’m trying to keep bots away from me and my account and I honestly don’t like ghost accounts following me. It feels weird and I you will be yote from my follow list unless we are mutuals or you disclose to me/the public who you are.

If you wanna appeal a block you can ask on your behalf from another account since I leave my DMs open, but understand that sort of thing makes me wildly uncomfortable and I may just ask you not to interact with me or my posts here.

#wren.rambles #i might pin this at some point or add it to my pinned post cos it keeps happening and I’m not alright with it #I’ve had several ppl spy on me through alt accounts or friends just to get to me #and it’s really fucking disgusting and frankly unhinged #if you don’t like me or whatever just leave me alone #or even worse like me too much piss off #anyways it’s a specific fear of mine and if you reach out to just say hi or whatever that’s chill #it just feels weird not knowing who the heck you are and your intentions on following me when you have nothing reblogged to give me context #maybe you’re new and don’t understand that fear from ppl like me who’ve been on tumblr for years #but I’d rather be safe than sorry

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sockdooe · 3 months ago

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I don’t know if maybe it’s just me, but is anyone else seeing a rise of people claiming that they could do a better rewrite of Voltron and then immediately say they’d make K/L cannon or Adash/ canon?

I don’t know about anyone else but I genuinely don’t think making ships canon would make the show better.

In fact I think It’d make it worse.

And considering shiro isn’t even mentioned in these and if he is it’s just to be Keith dad…. Is telling.

#listen do what you want but I’m really tired of people genuinely thinking they can do better and then forget the main story of Voltron #I’m being so dead serious #Voltron was never supposed to be about ships or which ones would be canon #it’s about 5 teens/young adult forced into space to be the ‘hero’ against a empire that’s been around for more than their entire life times #and the fact this shit keeps populating the shiro tag is what pisses me off more #I feel like I’m the only one in this fandom that enjoys ships for what they are: FUN #I have tons of ships!!! I don’t want any of them to be cannon!!! even if I love them so much!!!! why? because ships don’t need to be canon!!#you can just simply enjoy having your headcanons and making art/writing and have it be fun!!!!#nothing has to be canon #I don’t know why especially this fandom is so obsessed with it but it’s driving me CRAZY #and what makes it worse is that every time they talk about making K/L cannon is that ‘it deserves to be’#NO IT DOESNT #IT REALLY DOESNT #VOLTRON HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ROMATIC RELATİONSHİPS #UNPOPULAR OPINION BUT IT REALLY DOESNT #you want to do a re-write do it! but dont do it just because you want to make a ship CANON #because that’s not re-writing it’s just fan fiction #you are just writing a fanfic #I want to re-write Voltron too but I actually want the show to improve and be BETTER AND LOVE ITS CHARACTERS #I WANT THEM TO BE BUIKT UO THE WAY THEY SHOUKDVE BEEN #ships don’t belong in canon #sure is it maybe nice when it happens cool but let it happen without dismissing the other characters #not because fans wanted it #also stop fucking populating the shiro tag lest I come at you with a lead pipe #Voltron #voltron legendary defender #vld

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hauntingblue · 5 days ago

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ARCANE EPISODE 7!!!!

MY GOD I WASNT READY FOR ANY OF THIS!!! WHAT WAS THAT!!!

Also ekko wallpaper I got with my fries lmao

#OH MY GOOOD!!!!!! POWDER AND EKKO!!! AND BENZOOOOOO #ITS LITERALLY WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN OMGG!!!!! POWDER LOOKS SO CUTE 😭😭😭😭 IM CRYING ALREADYYYY #VANDER WITH A BUN!! AND EVERYTHING IS SO FULL OF LIGHT!!! HER EYES!!! MYLO LOOKS SO RIDICULOUS AKDJSK THIS GIRLAAA #“where would you be without her” WELL BUDDY IF YOU KNEW HOW HE IS WITH HER!!! VI IS DEAD????? OR SHE WAS TAKEN FOR THE INCIDENT!!!#LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID JAYCE!!! MY GOD!!! THE GEMS KILLED VI SO THEY JUST COMPLETELY PROHIBITED THEM!!! JAYCE IS IN JAIL PROBABLY!!#the fact we are seeing exactly why jayce should be sorry about what he has done.... and we are seeing him suffer because of it... cinema 🚬#also mel fading into viktor.... also has he realised how she manipulated him in the beggining??? there is so much stuff...#jayce eating contaminated animals and his wound being infected with the arcane too..... is that what will push him....#omg.... ekko likes powder so much... he apologised by painting actual adult vi portraits where the fallen are in his universe 😭😭😭#“she looks so badass” if you knew... is he gonna ask her to help him make hextech.... that is so sick and twisted....#also jayce hurting his leg loke viktor and having to use a cane and brace.... damn and you know whats worse..... that ekko could be like #this with the jinx of his universe IF ISHA HADNT DIED!!! AND IT IS BEACUSE OF JAYCE!! AGAIN!!!!! THIS MAN!!!!!#the drawing with the anomaly and the two men and the inifite symbol... we get it... jayce and viktor forever intertwined by fate....#powder is sensing something is off.... omg time travel..... THE LIMIT IS FOUR SECONDS AFTER HEIMERDINGER EPXLODED ALDHAKSHSKSJSOJSOSLS #i dont want a time travel ending.... if its done for plot to an extent is okay but idk about solving it all.... it makes it feel worhtless #claggor looks so fine its not even funny..... i cant wait to see what everyone thinks. WHERE IS THE LITTLE LADY bc hes called little man 😭#and vander with arm tattoos.... why did they hipster fied him.... he looks younger somehow ajdhakj he went from taking care of 4 kids to 3!#SILCO!!!! AND HE DID TRY TO KILL HIM!! ALSJAKSKAK Ekko just laighing at it.... girl i would be pissed STROMAE??? OMG POWDER!!!!#I JUST REALIZED THE PINK IN HER HAIR IS FOR VI!! AND HER JACKET!! AND A DRESS LIKE HER MOTHER'S!! CRYING!!! FULL BODY CHILLS!!!#CAN WE JUST PRETEND LIKE ITS THE FIRST TIME!!! I GAVE UP ON YOU!!! WHAT HAPPENED BACK THEN I NEED TO KNOW!!! IM SOBBING!!! EKKO!!!!#NOOOOOOO THE ANOMALY NOOOOO!!!! HEIMERDINGER NOOOOO!!!! AND THATS JAYCE!!! IS THAT MAGE VIKTOR???? the monkeys......#the vi toy with the out love song machine.... my god i wasnt expecting any of this i need to breathe i am stil tearing up my god #what a fucking punch in the stomach christ i cant breathe right akdhsksso #the credits saying the deries has benefited from a spanish tax rebate in the canary islands??? you're welcome i guess lmao #animation production carried out there and has ben collaboration with the Spanish gov... alright another win for perro sanxe #talking tag #watching arcane #watching arcane season 2 #watching this i dont think im ready for caitvi sex.... after reconciliation even like what will be of me.... now im scared #i am still scared bc idk what happened to jinx and vi and cait still... thats what worried me and boom!! ekko powder with the steel chair..

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northwest-cryptid · 3 months ago

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I literally feel like I'm dying and I need to see a doctor, but I can't worry about that right now because

My bank account is literally in the negatives because I'm too disabled to work and can't make money but I can't worry about that right now because

I'm months overdue on getting my car new tags, but it won't even start if I could drive it so I need to jump the battery and get gas which I don't have money for, but I can't worry about that right now because

People are still expecting me to be social across numerous friend groups and it's pulling me in so many directions that I'm stretched so thin I'm running on no social battery for the last month, but I can't worry about that right now because

I still need to actually clean the house, do the dishes, clean the cat litter boxes, vacuum, and do my laundry... but I can't worry about that right now because

I still need to actually set up my new desk so I can stream since I haven't been able to do that for weeks and streaming is unfortunately my only source of income for how little I make every month, but I can't worry about that right now because

My partner is going through a really hard time right now and I need to be there for her and do what I can to make sure she's okay.

#People like me don't make it man. We just don't.#I'm hyper dependent on others to the point where I'd be homeless without my partner #I'm stressed day in and day out I get messages from people who want me to play games or hang out or just chat and I can't even #find the time to respond because I have 12 other things I need to be doing and those 12 other things aren't getting done because #every single thing I need to do is preventing me from doing something else and at the end of it all my health is getting worse and worse #and as it gets worse it costs more to fix and I can't get on disability without paying for a lawyer with money I literally do not have #and I'm losing it I'm literally going insane I'm pissed off because I see people blame the country I live in or the circumstances I'm in #and they act like they can't do anything and it'd be wrong of me to ask them for help #and I know when I die (and at this point it won't be long) they're going to act like this is the fault of america or some shit #they're not going to think about how they could have helped #and it sucks because some of my friends DO try to help they really do and I love them for it but it's so hard for me to see people #who don't make much money and who are also in tough situations throwing what they can at me to help me when I know people who have so much #they spend it frivolously on luxuries and I want to strangle them but then I'm not owed anything so it's not my place to tell them how #to spend their money or live their life.#and I'm tired man I'm so fucking tired I can't even stay awake for a few hours before I am too exhausted to sit upright anymore #I pass out and find myself without energy before I've even done anything and I'm only 29.

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im-still-watching-anime · 4 months ago

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one piece is crazy fr like what do you mean you’re following up Everyone’s Dead™️ with Objectifying Women: The Arc™️

#bruh :/#im bout to vent cause im mad about it rn sorry #op fans there are many good elements to your series outside of this and i love u sorry im about to talk shit about it #pls abandon ship now and stop reading my tags to avoid if you want #anyway #once i put a certain amount of time into something i usually commit to finishing it #but this arc is like 👌 this close to making me abandon the whole series like wtf is this #i know i KNOW sexist shit is like practically unavoidable in anime but this is a LOT jesus christ #i want to punch a WALL #like wtf do you think women ARE #i want to attack and kill #everyone who has ever told me that naruto is worse than one piece about women owes me 500 dollars rn #like it’s BAD and i would have been mad about this either way #but i think im extra salty because ive had SO many people praise one piece women at me #and i was like doubtful cause ya know LOOK at them #but i LISTENED because everyone was so insistent the women are good and it’s not bad with that kinda thing #which was a BETRAYAL because seriously wtf is this😤#ughhhhh i CANT watch this HOW am i supposed to watch this #why do i have to watch the creepy island of women cluelessly mess with unconscious mans dick trope i canttttttttt #the answer is i DONT have to watch it and i want to STOP #how are yall watching this i still havent even forgiven thriller barks invisible man nami bath scene #like yall i canttttttttt #my ‘fiction that treats women like shit’ tolerance is too low for this #ughhh really at a loss here because so much time already committed and i was enjoying it aside from this #but i really CANNOT keep watching if the bar gets any lower and idk if it even CAN get lower #sorry sorry okay vent over this just #REALLY pissed me off #cause it kinda blindsided me i think

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gigantomachylesbian · 6 days ago

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Guys. I did not know before now that writing could be painfully millennial in a full prose book but the pho*nix ke*per has proven me wrong and I have to complain about it in the tags

#k talks #weird astrix is because I don't want this showing up in the tag just in case #but I NEED To complain about this book real quick. I love a magical zoo that part was fun but good lord the main character....#I get what the author was trying to do with her arc and I will say the second half of the book is better than the first but Jesus christ #I hated the main character at the start she is SO annoying. not to be mean I know the whole point is her overcoming her anxiety #but like. I swear to God every two pages was just oooh I'm so awkward I'm such an introvert I'm such an awkward scrawny turtle!!!!#like CONSTANT. even worse though she's mean about it. for like half the book she's just so incredibly judgy at her public outreach job #she literally works at a zoo and has to learn hmmm... zoos need money??? zoos are also about... educating the public??? WHATT????#also it just felt so weird because she is constantly talking about how pale and skinny and pasty and scrawny and white she is #like constantly. and her best friend is a black trans woman who CONSTANTLY coddles and supports the mc in a very maternal way #and her love interest is latina-coded I'm pretty sure and is much more confident and opinionated and is literally described as fiery once #so like. hm! Okay! interesting! Interesting stereotypes going on tbh!!!#the mc learns some lessons and gets slightly less insufferable but like. also it was SO predictable I always knew what was gonna happen nex #and the writing style... like I said above it is MILLENNIAL and not in a fun way. the word boop is used several times. the humor is awful #the main character has multiple conversations about being so uwu bottom even though there's no sex in this book??? why??#and every single character description is repeated OVER and OVER with the same two details. SO much telling basically no showing #the writing was just so... quirky. ooooh look at me I'm awkward I trip over things I can't do make-up I love sitting on the couch!!!!#like. idk. obviously a lot of people really liked this book and I SHOULD have been one of them. Sapphic romance at a magic zoo....#but the execution was just so incredibly not my thing it actively pissed me off even if I can see what the author was trying to achieve #maybe I just don't like cozy fantasy. man. there was a bit where a guy should've gotten eaten by a kelpie but didn't. so maybe too cozy #for my tastes actually. which is weird I feel like I should enjoy cozy fantasy! especially about animals!!! but maybe this was just a fluke #anyways. to be clear I am not trying to make fun of the MC for having anxiety. just the overall way her social awkwardness was WRITTEN abou #really bothered me. idk man I'm a neurotic freak as well but I try to be NICE about it. and I have the correct zoo opinions. so.

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memento-morri-writes · 2 months ago

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I've been thinking a lot about how Rook's reunion with his former mentor, Zara, is going to go, and since I can't predict what the DM is going to have her do or say, I can only dwell on what I know is going to happen. Which happens to include taking off the illusion ring that's been hiding his injuries from her. So have a snippet of the description I have planned for that moment:

tw for description of (mostly healed) injuries

He hesitates, twisting a ring on his finger. Looking at it more closely, she can tell it’s very finely crafted, and must have been very expensive. A large emerald is set into the band. Rook sighs, and pulls the ring off his finger in one quick motion. Immediately she’s struck by the difference in his appearance as the illusion melts away. He looks awful. His warm, healthy skin fades to a dull and sickly grey. There’s huge bags under his deeply sunken eyes, and his cheeks are hollowed, as though they have been carved out by an overeager sculptor. He looks like he’s recently risen from the grave. While he was thin before, now she can see his ribs under the skin, and his collarbones are exaggeratedly pronounce. Thin white lines left by dozens upon dozens of recently healed cuts are scattered across his body. On top of that, faded bruises cover most of his visible skin, a mottled mosaic of purple and yellow. They’re clearly days, maybe weeks old, and she can only begin to imagine what they must have looked like when fresh. Bandages are barely visible under his shirt, wrapping around his back, hinting at even more injuries.

#morrigan.text #my writing #dnd writing #oc: Rook #oc: Zara #Poor Zara.#she's gonna feel so fucking guilty about everything that's happened to him in the last 3 years even though it's not her fault.#yes she pissed off Wolf but she had no way of knowing Wolf would go after Rook instead of her.#(I don't even know what she did to piss off Wolf. That's the Big Reveal that's going to happen when Rook sees her again.)#but yeah. Seeing him like this and knowing/thinking that it's because of her actions... it's going to destroy her and that kills me.#I don't know what she did but I *do* know that she never intended for Rook to get hurt. She loves him too much for that.#but Rook could never blame her for anything. He'd forgive her just about anything. And that will probably only make her feel worse.#Rook and his mentors will never ever fail to fuck me up big time.#his undying devotion and naive faith in them which is such a stark contrast to his usual distrust of people.#and it gets him hurt every time even though the don't *mean* to hurt him. But Sigmar's case was definitely much more malicious than Zara's.#this reunion is going to be such a huge turning point for Rook's character and his personal development as a character.#well really it's a combination of things all happening at once that are going to be the turning point.#1) the fact that the party rescued him from Wolf which has literally no other explanation than that they love him and care about him.#2) seeing Zara again and finally getting that closure that he never got three years ago plus being to reestablish the most important #relationship in his entire life. Plus she's just a good influence on him all-around a much-needed source of support after Sigmar's betrayal #3) getting gifted the Tide Breaker (Zara's old ship) and having to learn some responsibility for once in his life will be very good for him #and I guess you could also say that 4) my temporary character Val talking some sense into him has something to do with it lmao.#but we'll see how this all plays out bc while I know these things are going to happen they technically haven't happened yet.#I'm not gonna RP the conversation between Rook and Val bc it would just be me talking to myself for a long time but I am gonna write it up #when we get to that point so I can show it to the DM so he knows what they talked about. Plus it will be a very fun exercise bc Val was #literally designed to be Rook's opposite in just about every way. They're very wise and responsible and Rook is a reckless idiot.#(but I love him anyways.)#So it's gonna be fun to balance writing both of them in the same conversation.#anyways. these tags are SO FUCKING LONG already. If you read this far I'm giving you your favorite dessert and a hug if you want it.#and also pledging you my undying allegiance for life. <3

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wellzofyouth · 27 days ago

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Yall I'm so sorry I do not like Peacemaker

#that show annoys me down #my hatred for it is not as bad as the cw verse #but the writing in that show legit pisses me off #and i hate the directon the dcu film verse whatever is going #like theres one gross ass line about a certain flop actor that you wont get without context #that whole style of writing is bad and terrible and i hate how so many comic adaptations have that humor #ur not funny #Please do not bring up comic adaptations around me unless its the reeveverse #not even the new superman movie im interested in #its so funny that i disagree with the snyder fanbase on most things EXCEPT that the new superman movie looks bad but ik its gonna get praise #and clog my tl for like weeks afterwards #this is the part where i would like be sorry about the rent but i love bitching and moanjing about how much i hate comic adaptations like #i hate them sooooo much #doom patrol was a breath of fresh air since it actually LIKED the material and engaged in it in a edgy yet sincere way that so many comics #but ALSO it was actuallly good and played wth the medium in a really cool way and was well written and fun and actual good gay rep #Is the batman the best most well written thing ever? NOPE! but it does adapt the comkc in a way i find interesting #titans was shit from a butt and i only watched it because the actors were so well casted. like even krypto was perfect #I never watchrd harley quinn and dont plan too but i feel like i might like that #you couldnt pay me to watch that kite man shit #snyderverse was trashhhh except the snyder cut #for some reason i just never watched wonder woman 1 but i watched 1984 and i wanted to kms #nobody is doing it worse than marvel. even the bad movies get praised by critics #pure formulaic bs #idk i am obviously the target audiences for that shit but i have zero desire to see superman or the upcoming comic books movies from dc or #marvel

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100-gar · 2 months ago

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Controversial take but i watched all of jjk, in subbed, so it had my full attention 100% of the time, and i am of the opinion that it just fucking sucks.

So me and my wife were talking about it, and we were trying to figure out why people like it and we've come up short. I do not understand what's so appealing about this show for so many people. Can someone PLEASE tell me.

#yes the animation is phenominal and honestly i would have stopped watching after the first episode without it #MAPPA creates some beautiful art like just gorgeous #but the constant force-feeding of every minor character's backstory was hellish for me #had me rolling my eyes every time they did it (every three seconds)#the vast majority of characters are unlikable or bland or dead #often all of the above #choso is the only character i actively liked?? like i understand him i reallu do #i liked mahito? he's a freak so that's a given #i liked that one old guy with the weird still frames power #uhhh i like sukuna's weird obsession with ripoff sasuke #edit i member: i liked megumi he deserved better #oh i also REALLY liked nanamin or whatever his name was (it's been a while)#i think yuuji's suicide mission that he didn't think through is super interesting #alright heres my most controversial take of all #i don't care at ALL abt gojo. he's so mid there's like a million characters exactly like him #and he's UGLY why do people say he's attractive bro is UGLY A HELL #the intros are baller tho i sat through them every episode no skipping that shit #gorgeous animation as i'd expect from this studio #like! there's so many little drops of things that i liked about this show! which is why it pissed me off so much every time they did boring #ass exposition dumps on characters that are gonna die in five seconds. or worse-they are gonna live and continue to bore me to tears #and when i tell you i physically couldn't read the manga because of how fucking BORING it is #i got caught up and was like 'okay ill read the manga i kinda like what's currently happening n ive made it this far might as well keep goi #g' nah man i couldn't even read a whole chapter. jjk is king of exposition dumps #i do think the powers and how if you tell your opponent what it is it gets stronger is rad #and it drives me insane because i know they know how to drip-feed information about a character! and when they do that they do it SO WELL!!#but they just force feed you all this information the rest of the time like BRO ITS TOO MUCH SLOW DOWN AND JUST LET THE CHARACTERS DO THEIR #THING AND IT WILL BE MORE SATISFYING #anyways not tagging this because i don't wanna put hate in the main tags #just like. if you see this please explain to me what im missing PLEASE i want to like this show SO bad

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crimeronan · 1 year ago

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grown ass woman and you didn't even know Rhodesia? Please pray some Paradox Interactive games like eu4 or hoi4. look it up. Please this is depressing if even weird smart girls don't know basic history

hey guys. get a load of this fucking moron.

#mad i'm not your red scare coquette who knows about rhodesia huh. your weird smart girl manic pixie dream girl fantasy #i'm a high school dropout from rural fucking new hampshire in the US you useless fucking piece of shit.#like unfortunately you caught me in a worse mood than usual but get so fucking close right now. get so fucking close #girls who look up countries and terms they havent heard of before to understand posts >>>>> girls who know about rhodesia and send this ask #ooooh i wouldn't be this pissed off if you hadn't called me a weird smart girl like you're trying to pretend you respect me but waow #god fucking forbid i admit what i don't know and that i looked stuff up to learn. which i did on purpose.#because plenty of other people don't know stuff and are afraid to admit that they look stuff up to learn.#and i prefer to be someone that others are comfortable around. who makes other people feel more comfortable being imperfect #that's too much for you i guess.#shouldn't even respond to anons like this but i really want to get some strong hatred for you manifesting #everyone who reads this think really hard about anon dying in a fire #or just stepping on a lot of legos if you're a gentler soul #replies

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circus-k · 16 days ago

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i think i have to kill someone.

#WHAT.WHAT . WHAT. WHAT .#why would you bring something up from so long ago and then blame the (then) five year old . what . WHAT . HUH. weird. weiirrdddd.#so you knew? you knew? and instead of being like wow that's Not Normal you demonise the toddler that's probably...... idk.#kids don't Do That what a weird fucking thing to bring up out of NOWHERE just to immediately brush off #i think i have to kill you. i think i have to actually kill you now.#speechless. flabbergasted. i cant even talk about it its so WEIRD. CRAZY. CRAZY THING TO BRING UP #oh my god. if a child was being Like That i would assume the worst and insist someone look into thing and make sure the kid is SAFE????????#jesus. damn. what thebhhell. HUH. if its about what i think its about. it wasnt their fault? at all?#stuff Like This is complicated but jesus. JEEESSSUUUUUSSSS. dont even bring it up this late #if you KNEW. oh my god. IF YOU KNEW??????????#rant #oh my god. extremely vague do NOT ask About It i cant even. jesus. why would you keep something like that to yourself #or use it as 'gossip' or . whatever the FUCK she was doing???#idc if you have your own shit to work through. GROWN ASS WOMAN. you should've approached it with kindness and understanding? and figure out #if help was needed? its not my life its not my anything but that kid is my friend who i had to take care of instead of you FUCKING ASSHOLE #if i KNEW i wouldve at least tried to help. to understand. i hope you die a slow painful death in an empty room cause you cut everyone off #and then turned around to be WORSE . i'd tell you to killyourself but any possible method would avoid you like the damn plague #WOW. that was a lot my bad. pissed the hell off #you say shit about the kid that I!!! had to basically raise cause you were too busy being a judgmental piece of shit. ugh. grrr.#''wow thats so weird where did they even get the idea for that behaviour'' man idk but wasn't it supposed to be your job???? TO FIGURE IT OU #fuming whatever. whatever. none of this is news to me she's always been insufferable #rant .#vent #WHATEVER.#it was so long ago it just.#no reason to bring it up #but if you knew than you should've tried to do something #but you didn't. cause you're cruel and egotistical #and everyone you know hates you. and if they don't you take advantage of them.#what a woman. thanks for teaching me to go through the world with so much hate

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moe-broey · 30 days ago

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Would I be proving my therapist (who has been voicing some concerns about my depression maybe getting worse but like I feel like it's fine) right by cancelling my appointment tomorrow cause I just don't wanna. Like all I have to report is that I'm tired and I wanna rest and I just don't really feel like it y'know

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missrosegold · 3 months ago

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Looks like I just lost another close friend to guy who isn't worth a pile of dog shit. 😊

#my best friend no less #i cried about this shit practically all afternoon but i'm all out of tears and now i'm just pissed off.#this shit has been going on for a long ass time but i've finally reached my breaking point with it #i love her #but she is delusional #and it kills me to say that #but that whole “relationship” (if you even want to call it that) is fake. all he cares about is money not her #the worst part is that she knows it too #oh but she “loves him” and “wants to give him one last chance” girl what the fuck?#oh but better yet he dumped her once 2 years ago already and i've hated his punk ass since #never should've gotten back tother after that and i told her as much even back then #all he does is make her cry #not do anything arount their town house #and sit on his ass and watch tv or sleep when he's not working #that's the tame stuff too i could say sooo much worse but i'm actually not trying to air her dirty laundry out her #i'm just pissed off #but suddenly IM the bad guy when tell her i won't support her or this “relationship” when she told me they were getting back together today #this is after i helped her and her parents ans brother move all her stuff out of the town house last Monday and back to her parents place #after she told me they were done for good #but IM the bad guy for bringing up all of fhe reasons listed above and all of the REALLY bad things about the relationship #when i tell her i won't be supporting her any longer and that i'll be walking away if she goes back to him #best part is her family agrees with me and they tell her all the things i say about him and then some #but when i go out on the line and put my heart down on the table for her and all i get back is a text saying:#“i don't really like how you're texting right now so we'll talk about this later.”#girl #i don't know whether or not i want to cry harder or strangle her #i think it's both #so yeah i think i just lost my best friend to a guy who doesn't remotly deserve her and everything kicks rocks rn #it's just like my other friend all over again #why do my friend have such dog shit taste in men

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motherforthefamicom · 5 months ago

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realizing i have been having to restrain myaelf so bad from ramvling in the tags of every fuckjng post today what is wrong with me

#have not felt like being very online as of late i dont #know what happened today #help #inquisitivewaltz.txt #uhh started playing heartgold the other day #also started . dogs life for ps2 #cuz my friend set up the memory card thing for the ps2 emulator on the . thing my dad got #i dont even know how to explaim it easily or if i even have before anyways its definelty Not legal but its cool i can play like any video #game ever in the least convenient way possible now #HAHGDJSH anyways rhe game is bad and soooo jank obviously but im kind of obsessed with it ?#i keep wanting to play more of it it has such a. i dont even know how to describe it #just this like aura to it idk #that sounds so stupid sorry im just sayin things #considering becoming a queue posting guy #like one of those blogs that just queues everything #i reblog too much too fast or nothing at all ever its pissing me off #heart gold is fun so far #i have like 8 hours in it and havent done very much cuz for a while i convinced myself i should try to shiny hunt sentret #i am not made for shiny hunting ive never gotten one while intentionally looking for one #sorry for just throwing up my whole train of tjought on here whenevrr i say literally anything i promise itd be so much worse if #i didnt try to withhold myself

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chainsawworld · 1 year ago

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I've been having a very strange predicament recently and I think. I think this might entirely kill any hope I had at learning any emotional regulation skills

#gamer txt.#cause cause like. im only confident (and sober) when im anger right so i neber ever stand up for myself and tell the truth otherwise #and yknow. generally this makes me pretty sad #being a people pleaser out of fear especially one too depressed to Actually people please atm is uh. hard to say the least #cause i just do nothing and either hope no one cares or tgat im sufficiently pathetic ebough that theyll back off if they get mad #and neither of those options have been going well for ne currently. so theconstant fear level is increaased #but. but but but if i get angry if someone pisses me off enough i get my confidence #i stop letting ppl walk all over me i stand up for myself i say aaaaaall the things ive veen holding back for so long #and it feels. so. good.#it feels amazing! its a delightful feeling finally being able to snap at everyone its great #but uh. now ive started getting really happy when i get angry even when im not doing anything cathartic #the anger by itself with no actions feels fantastic #and well like there is a reason i tend to try not to get angry #i can get. unnecessary and im too much of a grudge holder and a hardass to apologise after #but when its actual proper rage coupled with a childlike glee? thats. a bit worrying #im already always seconds away from assaulting people even when im normal #if im angry + joyous thats really concerning. like 'i might actually physically really hurt a person' concerning #and ive kind of pavlovd myself into getting happy when im mad! so. its a bit of an issue #but at the same time. there is. admittedly a very large part of me that likes that soooo much #and i keep having to be like a real honest to g-d physical aggravated assault or potentially worse is not a good thing #oh. oh but dont i deserve it? do i not deserve to beat the people i hate to near death? i think i deserve it #so you see the issue!!!!! what the fuck am i meant to do here!!!!!!#i cant trust myself not to hurt people when im angry but im only happy nowadays when im angry #and i Really dont want to continue being miserable

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genekies · 11 months ago

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screaming in the club

time for another vent in tags

#so i was joking and i thought it came through but im also dumb and autistic and my jokes dont always cross. sO #i was joking about one of my roomates not seeing Nightmare Before Christmas before bc i was showing 2 of them my picture vinyl of it and whe #n one of them said they never saw it i said “but you were a loser on tumblr in the 2010s wdym” and their fiance was just rude to me and i th #ought it was clearly a joke but ig not and they lowley attacked me for it? im just?? i tried to clarify that i was joking and they know im a #utistic. hell the one i was joking to is also autistic but idk so now i feel like utter shit especially after all i did today thst juet drai #ned me. ive been trying to fix our 2nd shower. i had a meeting. i had an extremely hard therapy session. and i showered today. its been hell #like i am trying to get thru relapsing on SH and my ED and ofc they dont know but that shit made it worse and i dont want to say anything bc #then ill feel like im guilt tripping? idk but im also super nervous about a HRT appmt i have coming up and i cant afford it and we have no #food in the house i can eat rn and no one has gone shopping. i cant go shopping either bc i cant drive/dont have a car. and its making it #harder to help get back on track with eating when theres nothing for me to eat? so everything is fucking amazing right now.#the only meals i could POSSIBLY have and all claimed by the one roommate i was joking with. it all takes up half our freezer too so thats #fucking awesome. all this food for one person and none that i can eat or the other vegan in the house can eat. i have been hungry for DAYS.#all there has been for me to eat is cup ramen and grilled cheese. AND SOMEONE WHO WASNT FUCKING VEGAN ATE ALL THE VEGAN CHEESE IM GENUINELY #SO PISSED OFF? like dude yall have your own cheese wtf #the thing is its already really hard for me to tell when i am actually hungry bc of years of ignoring it so when i actually feel it and ther #es nothing it really gets to me. im so tired and idek where my EBT card is to get myself something. its all just so much.#i just want to lay in my bed and sleep for days. but i cant. i have too much shit to do. like even just tomorrow i have to clean the #bathroom. mop the kitchen. do dishes. shovel snow. and just generally take.care of shit because since we have 2 roomates MIA right now and #no one else wanted to do shit i had to step up and i am STRUGGLING. i have been for a while. the thing is everyone that didnt sign up for sh #it didnt have much going on besides probable seasonal depression #i relapsed. have debilitating mental health. i can barely get out of bed before 4 pm. and i have to take care of myself and my cat.#im so close to snapping on them at this point #i need the one roommate i actually like to come back or i swear i will lose my shit. hes only been gone for 6 days but HOLY SHIT #everything has gone to shit #vent over ig im going to sleep soon. still hungry if i cant find something.

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