#or are lesbians constantly questioning their lesbianness because they cant tell if they want to be him or if they are attracted to him
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kindoflikeliving · 10 months ago
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the lesbian gaze? what does this circle mean
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locklylemybeloved · 2 years ago
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i actually think we need to talk about how sexuality is fluid. people change, and they change constantly. part of that change is ur identity
i was aroace for years of my life. i never felt any attraction to people, i couldnt understand attraction, i didnt ever want to be with anyone. and i was comfortable with that.
but then one day (i cant really explain it or pinpoint it) i realized that oh i could be in a romantic relationship now. in this current moment, im biromantic (something i spent a while debating) and asexual.
but the problem was, i was so paranoid people wouldn’t believe me, or people would assume the period of my life that i was aroace was immaturity or a “mistake” that i didnt come out for a WHILE. i didnt want all of those people who told me “its just a phase” and “i hadnt found the right person yet” to be right
but heres the thing: even though i am no longer aroace, those people werent right. it wasnt “a phase.” that time i was aro wasnt a “phase.” i genuinely was aro, but because all things tend to be fluid, that changed. and another funny thing? i didnt “find the right person.” i didnt have an “awakening.” one day, i just knew. and thats totally okay.
it’s exhausting to constantly justify your sexuality to others. it’s exhausting to feel invalidated in your own identity. and i know for a fact that its not just me that experiences this.
i know someone who was a lesbian their entire life, and then they realized no they were actually a man. now they identify as a straight guy
anyways i guess this point of this is to tell people to accept fluidity and change in identity, and to let people who’ve gone through the same thing as I have know:
you aren’t alone, i’ve been there too. and i’m so sorry if you relate to the tiring state of mind of constant questioning. stay strong and remember that the way you see yourself is entirely for you. your identity is yours, and you get to define it.
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barbwritesstuff · 1 month ago
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I never send you an ask before but I kinda really wanted to do this.
Almost exactly one year ago, I found „Blood Moon“ and let me tell you it changed my life. It was the first text-based interactive fiction I have ever read and since then there was barely a day I did not read one.
Blood Moon is so good that I re-read it for weeks and it was also the first time where I saw actually naturally, good LGBTQ+ Representation in fiction, and not just in fanfiction. When I noticed that Marco is trans, I almost cried in surprise because finally there was a character like me and he was not represented in a bad way or where his whole character ark is that they are trans. Just a normal guy that happens to be trans, which influences his character and life and is a part of him but not everything he is because he is so much more.. a werewolf for starters lol.
Also an old lesbian couple who are badass. An older sister who is in the protector role for once. A human, pregnant woman who is just as badass as the werewolfs around her and demonstrates that being pregnant does not mean someone is sick and cant do anything anymore. A nonbinary leader that is not treated as a “woman light“ person but actually nonbinary.
And that just the characters! On top of that there is a plot that is just so good. I read the story and was just constantly surprised because I did not expect anything. What do you mean the Alpha dies? Suddenly my long lost father shows up? A werewolf drinking vampire blood? A fucking vampire court? My choices change who dies? I can die? The story does not end when I die?
Also seemingly little choices can change the story? Like depending how I react the pack already expects me to challenge to be an alpha or not.
Granted, it was my first time reading interactive fiction but still. Because you did such a good job, I went out to find more IFs. And, as I said, it changed my life. I found so many good stories. From only one chapter demos to completed books. Never once did I found a space so naturally inclusive. They way tumblr allows you do interact with other fans, asking questions to the author and interacting with them. I found so many new comfort stories and characters, its amazing. I finally have real joy when reading fiction again. No matter how bad I feel, there is always a story I can go to. Which does include Blood Moon and Thicker Than.
All my MCs in almost every story are named „Lucas“, as long as the name fits in the story, because thats is the name I chose in Blood Moon in my very first playthrough. Except in Thicker Than because that kinda felt confusing.
Then I finally found Thicker Than. Ive been following your blog for awhile now and even if the demo was just a few chapters, I already was incredibly exited to read it and you really did not disappoint. Again, so many things happen that I do not expect. They way some characters are only there if you choose specific choices. How your relationship to the characters really influences the story. Having different powers. Being able to decide what kind of vampire you are. The different backgrounds. A child?!? I get that Nathans Route is a bit controversial apparently but I think it is actually so good. Because it is not predictable (for me) and thats life. Yes it is a story but the story plays in a real world and sometimes things happen no matter how much we wish it would be different. This is peek storytelling in my eyes.
This whole writing and coding must be sooo much work and I am incredibly grateful for you that you are doing this and even let us read this for free. Especially this much. I totally expect, and would have understood it, if you stoped the public demo right after the battle or even before. But I am still happy that you didnt.
All this just to tell you thanks for opening me up to this world and your hard work on these stories. And I really hope you are doing well because you fucking deserve it.
I honestly don't know how to respond to this. 💙😭 Thank you so much. Seriously, thank you. I really needed this today.
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jinbeisluffy · 5 months ago
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Me and my friend hung out for a few hours yesterday and yapped about op way too much so now i wanna contribute more sexuality hcs but for side characters instead of any specific group. you can have ur own hcs these r just mine
ace - TRANS TRANS TRANS TRANS TRANS you will believe in transmasc ace agenda. he is so trans, what are you doing walking around shirtless CONSTANTLY if not to flex your top surgery scars. he’d beat up anyone as a kid who called him a girl hes known this for a WHILE. sexuality wise hes gay, hes gay and theres not a hint of asexuality in him because hes a freak and unapologetically loves men openly. gay icon in the op world
law - i havent seen law being shipped with a woman once and i find that really funny and telling of what people think of him. and theyre correct, hes a gay man. difference between him and ace is that he’d rather die than admit he even likes people so yk. cis but he did ace’s top surgery
sabo - i have never before seen a character so very much be aromantic without being an implied aromantic character. hes not repulsed by romance its just that hes preoccupied with overthrowing the government and supporting his brothers at all times, he has other things to worry abt. gender, could be anything and could honestly fluctuate depending on the day. at the very least, he fist fights transphobes on the daily and in a modern au would hangout at iva’s drag bar and fight anyone who acts weird
yamato - if you dont think yamato is a transman i want you to get away from my blog okay thanks. that isnt a hc, thats a fact and ppl who disagree are weird in my eyes. sexuality wise, he could honestly like ANYONE, but he just finds himself drawn to men more often than not (ace) so if you were to ask him he’d just say “oh men are cool, women are pretty but you know i cant find myself drawn to them” and he thinks hes normal get a load of this guy
kaku - most proudly bisexual guy to exist. i think he started to think more to himself about things during his time at water 7. he could also be okay with it and live his life that way without any shame because he wasnt an assassin working for the government there, he was kaku so yk, he could actually openly be with whoever he wanted. gender, cis man but if you talk about him using they/them only he’d just laugh and not correct you
lucci - hah gay. him and kaku probably got married in water 7. cp9 questioned kaku for marrying lucci, meanwhile pauile just questioned to himself how things would work cause of the pigeon. lucci is such a gay man, he fucking trans too dont ask me how i know i just know. Ai can sniff out my fellow transguys from a mile away alright
kalifa - oh i love it when women hate on men but the second a woman shows up she acts all flirty and confident. totally heterosexual of you kalifa. no but shes such a man hating lesbian, she always has been and could probably be due to men’s treatment of her during childhood which made her really not like most of them. i need to write out a backstory for her damn. oh and shes trans trust me on that one
koby - sometimes a lot of op characters will be inlove with luffy and never get their feelings returned, and one of those people is koby. yeah hes gay, and asexual he just kept discovering stuff like that when training under garp cause garp is so okay with everything, and then we incorporate more moments between him and helmeppo like in the live action where they sit and talk about stuff. koby realises hes gay and sighs. “that explains a lot…”
buggy - gaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy he doesnt like women he cant bring himself to he had his first tragic yaoi relationship as a teen and never looked back. gender is whatever you want it to be baby. freaky as all hell my GOD every time im reminded of the cross guild and what they do to buggy i just know. theyre so freaky
shanks - bisexual icon but hes been hung up on the same ex (buggy) for so many years that other romances are less prioritised cause “omg what if buggy comes back:}” get over it man he aint coming back for u. trans man, look at him and his pussy yeah thats a trans dude hell yeah
Said friend i yapped with is —> @brooks-heart-sunglasses pookie 🤞
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sannasruins · 2 years ago
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hado nejire x reader
warnings: growing apart, unrequited feelings, abandonment, non-descriptive self-harm, lesbians (the horror!)
a/n: there's a bit of time skipping in this, so i’ve labeled things as their verses in the songs and the years (1, 2, and 3A) + semesters of high school they took place in. is nejire adhd/autistic coded? i cant tell, maybe its because i see the way she is as my normal (adhd) that i cant tell. i'm basing her personality strongly off the wiki bc she really hasn't had that much air time.
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Verse 1 - First Semester 1A
You and Nejire met on your first day of high school, class 1A. Both of you had quirks that were more powerful than the rest of the girls in your class, assuming that the two of you thought that you were superior to them and were already looking down on them, they took initiative and distanced themselves from you at the start. This left the two of you with only two options, have no friends, be a lonely outcast for the foreseeable future, or become friends. Obviously, it was an easy choice, and it was nice that the two of you got along well, and probably would have become friends even if you weren’t put in that unfortunate social situation. 
She was a blunt girl, not really knowing when it was the appropriate time, if at all, to say something that she wanted to say. She often ended up saying things that were accidentally hurtful, though if you let her know, she would instantly feel remorseful and apologize incessantly. She wasn’t always sure how to make a joke, often her attempts falling flat, but she was bright, and cheery, and had so much knowledge that she longed to share. You couldn’t help but find yourself smiling at her as you listened to her ramble about the newest thing, she learned that week on national geographic. 
One day, in the middle of your first year, she asked you how to be funny. You were taken aback, and asked her back, “you think I’m funny?” She nodded with a small smile.
You contemplated on how you should respond to her difficultly abstract question, “I don’t think that’s something you can teach.” 
She looked down, her smile falling off her face sent a pang of guilt to your heart. You quickly tried to backtrack, “I think you’re funny though Hado! You’re constantly making me smile and laugh!”. Her eyes met yours, a furrow forming on her brow, you stammered on, “Maybe not everyone thinks you’re funny, but I think that’s true for everyone! You just got to find the people that do think you’re funny and like being around you… like me.” You held eye contact with her despite the bright flush that made its way to your cheeks, ask if you were trying to transfer your conviction over to her.  She brushed off your almost confession with a giggle and a change of topic.
Chorus 1- Second Semester 2A
As you both aged, Nejire started to get more notice than you. Not that you were jealous, you being too enamored with her to care, no, you were just happy that she was getting the recognition you thought she so obviously deserved. It did sting though, when she would turn down your invitations for afterschool dates poorly vailed by you as hangouts. She needed to train though, she would say, and dismiss you with a “next time, okay y/n?”
Sometimes as you left the school building on your way home you would take the long way, past the training fields to watch her for a little bit, training with two boys from your class. You wondered why she didn’t ask you to train with her, to help her. You would never ask though, far too afraid of the answer that seemed to be pulling at the hem of your shirt, demanding your attention. She’s just focusing on training, it’s not like she suddenly stopped liking you. It’s not like she wanted to stop being your friend. It’s not like she was purposely ignoring you. Right?
Verse 2- Third Semester 1A 
The two of you were sitting in a cafe after school, one that Nejire had shown you a picture of on Pinterest and said the two of you had to go for their cute specialty foods. You had gotten a parfait, the cream on top having been manipulated into the shape of a cat, Nejire got a jasmine tea latte, the art in the foam had her swooning and whipping out her phone to snap pictures of it in multiple angles as she told you about her Pinterest page’s aesthetic, you listened along, slightly confused at the idea of people posting on Pinterest like it was a social media but not questioning it. After she had taken enough pictures of both her and your orders, the two of you started on your treats, she took a long sip from her latte and when she placed it back down on the table, she had suddenly grown a distinguished mustache made of foam. It made you smile so hard your cheeks hurt, trying to keep your laugher a courteous volume to the other patrons was exceedingly difficult as she didn’t seem to notice her new facial accessory and was looking at you very confused. In spite of your shakes of laughter you managed to raise a shaky hand to point at your upper lip, signaling to her what you had found so funny. She raised a finger to her top lip, touching the foam and then pulled it back to see what was on her face. Realizing what she had done, her face blushed a warm pink as she quickly grabbed her napkin to wipe it away. You had finally calmed down and noticed that she had missed a little bit on the far edge.
“Nejire, you still have some,” you told her and pointed on yourself where it was on her, picked the napkin back up and scrubbed at her face, but on the wrong side.
“No, other side,” you specified. She again rubbed at her face with the now crumpled napkin but somehow still managed to miss the small smudge of foamed milk.
Not thinking, you rose and leaned across the table, before wiping the white away with your thumb. You sat back down, and without a thought in your head, licked it off of your thumb. 
You noticed her face flush, even more than before, now a hot red; you realized the suggestiveness of what you had just done, and at the same time, felt an explosion of butterflies manifest themselves into your gut. 
She tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear, looking down with a slight smile on her face, and you reddened. 
The two of you sat in silence for a while before she broke it.
“Do you think I’m pretty?”
You didn’t think before you responded.
“Yes.” You hesitated and then added on, “I think you’re really beautiful.”
The two of you fell back into silence.
The purgatory of not knowing how the two of you felt about each other was horrible, but the fear of rejection, not just of a confession but of you as a person, rejecting your identity, kept you in your place. 
There really was no winning.
Chorus 2- First Semester 3A
It hurt, seeing her every day, but not being able to talk to her about anything and everything in the way that you had grown used to. She was part of the big 3 now, she was revered by everyone now, she was strong and kind and smart and now they were all seeing what you had from the start. It was selfish of you, you knew, but you wish they hadn't noticed. 
She wasn’t being purposefully cruel in her withdrawal from you, she wasn’t doing it to be mean, she had just forgotten, she had just been stretched too thin and something had to go. It was still mean though, and it was still cruel.
You felt the loneliest now, so much so it was almost incomparable. Your days now spent in silence, and slowly falling into the motions. School, train, sleep, school, train, sleep, school, train, sleep. With nothing to break the monotony, life became dull, and you were sinking into a different kind of blue, not the blue of an eye like you did when you first saw Hado Nejire, but into the blue of the mind, getting darker, muddier, harder to see what’s in front of you. 
You became more reckless, not in retaliation but due to a slow building and concerning lack of self-preservation. Often throwing yourself into dangerous positions with villains, jumping solo into fights, you had no probability of winning alone, asking for more and more hours at your internship. It kept it at bay for a little while, the numbness, but as with most things, it did not last. You feared you were slowly but surely becoming a shell of your former self.
You needed something more, you needed to keep yourself feeling, needed to keep yourself human, needed to keep yourself. So, you resorted to means you probably shouldn’t have. Flame, blade, burns, blood. You knew it wasn’t healthy, but it was something. 
On an especially hot September day it was odd to see students wearing their long-sleeved winter uniforms, but not enough to raise many questions. One girl asked, “Aren’t you hot?”, but you brushed it off, explaining that you just ran cold. A bold-faced lie to anyone who knew you, but none of them did. 
As you were working on your lesson book, Hado Nejire walked past your desk on her way to the front of the room, glancing down at you, maybe out of habit, she got a glance of lines of damaged skin, some already faded, but many varying degrees of red. She faltered in her step, double taking, confused as to what she was seeing. Not wanting to cause a scene in class or be caught staring, she almost seamlessly continued walking, and if one hadn’t been watching her, they wouldn’t have noticed her split second reel.
She stopped you by the door after class, and when you tried to scoot by her, thinking she wasn’t aware she was in the doorway, she blocked its entirety with her body, staring you down. She grabbed you by the hand and led you to an unused stairwell as you stumbled behind her hastened pace. You didn’t notice it at the time, but she was especially careful when grabbing you, fearing that she would take hold somewhere that would cause you pain, fearing to reopen possible wounds.
 There was a furrow in your brow as you looked at her, wordlessly questioned why she had dragged you there. She turned your arm over, her hand still holding yours, and gently raised your crisp white sleeve, a gasp of dismay escaping her lips as her eyes raked over your battered arm. She dropped your hand only to quickly grab your other one, pulling the sleeve of that arm up too. You were watching her face as she grit her teeth at the sight, her eyebrows pushed into an expression you didn’t know, one you had never seen before even after all the years you had known her. Her head turned and her eyes met yours, weirdly, you thought, they were filled with tears. 
“Why?”
This pushed some button you did not know you had, and an unexpected, hot rage filled you. 
“What do you mean, Hado?” you did not spit her name, but she flinched as if it was filled with venom.
“Y/n…” she trailed off. You remained silent, seething. 
“This isn’t like you, why would you do this?” 
You didn’t answer her for a long time before sighing, “You wouldn’t know Hado, you haven’t spoke to me in well over 5 months.”
“I’m sorry, I-” her words almost a whimper, but you interrupted her. 
“Please, don’t. I don’t think I can stomach it Hado, I think, whatever you’re going to say next, will only make things worse.”
She clamped her mouth shut, her lips in a pale line, and nodded tearfully, before choking out an “okay”. 
Things didn’t change much after that, though she was more watchful of you, you could, at times, feel her eyes boring into you from across the classroom or training halls and fields, and you started feeling a little different, slowing down in your efforts to drive away the numbness, as the numbness seemed to seep away from you. Less and less, you found yourself feeling as if there was nowhere else to go with a knife in your grasp. 
You also no longer prayed that she would make time for you, disillusioning yourself, and realizing that she was not perfect, though feelings as strong as yours don’t just simply disappear due to disillusionment. 
Verse 3- Third Semester 3A
Her hair had been burnt off, now in a blunt bob, and what once had been marred and blistered skin was now just slightly tinged pink. It still hurt you to see though, quietly observing. She was different now, bolder, more self-assured, Maybe, you mused, something had been burnt off along with her hair. You were different now too though, you were better. You had sought counseling, speaking to the trusted hero you were interning under, and they helped you find and utilize resources to mitigate your mental health. You felt lighter, you were still lonely, but you were now a little bit more at peace with your solitude, and less afraid to put yourself out there, slowly becoming friends with the sidekicks at your internship who were just a couple years your senior. 
Chorus 3- After Graduation
Sometimes you would see her on TVs in coffee shops, or in ads in magazines, though if you looked you could find yourself too, maybe not as often, but still there. Both of you were making a name for yourselves in the hero world. 
You had started dating a pretty sidekick from your agency, she was one of the first people you had befriended when you started putting in the effort to get better, she had been there for you through many bad nights, and many more good ones. You really, truly loved her. And yes, sometimes you would miss your first love, but not in a way of current longing, but for a past. You would never leave your girlfriend though, even if you got the chance to go back, even if they told you everything would turn out the way you had begged and hoped and dreamt. Those were no longer your dreams. 
It was in line at a coffee shop that you ran into her. She looked nice, more mature, gracefully slipping into her early 20’s, face less youthful, but still bright with a smile. 
The two of you chatted as you waited for your orders to be taken, and continued afterwards, as you waited for them to be made. 
She was direct in her flirting, touching your arm, complementing you, laughing a little too much at things that weren’t that funny. You did not reciprocate. 5 years ago, if she had been doing what she was doing now, you would have been over the moon, indescribably happy, but now, you didn’t feel much of anything at all. You were flattered, maybe a bit annoyed, but the feelings were so watered down, so muted that you could barely describe them as anything. You were happy to talk to an old friend though. 
“We should hang out some time,” she told you after your orders had been picked up from the counter and the two of you started towards the front doors, “go on a little afterschool date like we used to.” She smiled and winked.
You politely smiled back at her and opened your mouth to reply, when your phone started going off, the ring tone you had affectionately assigned to your girlfriend, playing. 
“Oh, sorry it’s my girlfriend, let me answer real quick,” not waiting for a response from Nejire, you picked up the phone.
“Hey love, what’s up?” You inquired through the phone.
“Are you almost home yet?”
“Yeah, I just picked up your coffee from the coffee place two blocks down.”
“Oh yay! Thank you baby, see you soon, I love you.”
“I love you too.” 
You ended the call and turned towards Nejire apologetically, “Sorry about that!”
You exited the shop, Nejire holding the door open for you, and stood next to her on the sidewalk, close to the building and out of the way. 
“Oh!” you realized you hadn’t answered her question yet, “yeah, it would be nice to hang out and catch up.” This time, hangout had no hidden meanings or crossed fingers. It was purely platonic. “I miss you,” she confessed. Your eyebrows shot up in surprise, you were really never expecting her to say that. 
“I guess things ended up differently, not the way I wanted I mean.” she clarified. “It’s hard seeing you in the news, or in my fashion magazines, but not being able to see you in person anymore. I just… miss you a lot y/n, even though you’ve not gone anywhere.”
You hmm and nod, “you’re right, I haven’t gone anywhere. That was you, Hado Nejire. I’m proud of you, you're becoming a great hero.” You smiled at her softly. She stood, unmoving, looking at you, maybe waiting for something more, but you were no longer the person who would be able to provide that.
“Well, I need to get going before all this ice melts,” you shook the iced coffee in your hands, “or my girlfriend will have my head.”
“Oh, uh, okay” she stammered. 
“Message me! My numbers still the same, if you still have it. You could meet my girlfriend too, I think you’d like her, she’s amazing.”
Nejire nodded, watching your figure as you walked away, bitter jealousy and remorse making their home in her sour stomach.
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Hi! I know it may seem like I am romanticizing self-harm in this but I promise I am not. As it is something I have struggled with for many years I am just reflecting my own struggles and thoughts, and trying to represent a mental illness as what it is. That doesn't mean it is something you should do, and if you struggle with it and are tempted after reading, here are some healthier alternatives. Please do not hurt yourselves, lovelies.
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mekakitsune · 5 months ago
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i’m not a dude but is it weird for guys to read lesbian characters x gn!reader? i’m a girl who likes girls but like… i lowkey understand why someone would be attracted to these baddies if that makes sense. it feels icky to me that people would try to remove representation but would identifying as a man mean you should not read lesbian characters x readers? i cannot tell if i’m making sense. i’m just genuinely curious because i am pretty new to the x reader genre in general. i hope i don’t sound like i’m trying to excuse or find a loophole for blatantly disgusting behavior…
hi love! thanks for coming to me with this, i dont mind answering you at all :)
i am non binary myself, so i think im able to speak on this a bit. gender neutral readers are obviously, yknow neutral– so its not specifically for girls or guys, but for the people in between; but in the writing scene its also more of a vague term, most likely used for the reader to insert themselves/an oc into the story without preset specifications
i cant imagine a man wanting to read smth including a lesbian character unless they have the intention of erasing what is canon, which in most cases, is fine. thats what makes fiction fun. not saying i agree with this behaviour, but its bound to happen regardless.
it also comes down to the fact that this is tumblr, people are gonna read and write what they want and in my opinion no one should really have a say in that (as long as you are not being harmful, which the people ive spoken abt are being blatantly ignorant)
but yeah, i hope that answered the question! all in all, its not that deep, its tumblr and ppl can do what they want
as a community, lesbians are just tired of dealing with this bs constantly, it shouldnt even have to be an argument to be had imo
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trickstarbrave · 9 months ago
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i dont think she would ever be able to actually play morrowind but if she did it would go something like this
>says vivec is a lying malignant narcissist who is never telling the truth and definitely killed nerevar. even though he also admitted it in the 36 sermons and will be quite candid with you
>says the 36 sermons are "fake deep incomprehensible nonsense written by a drugged out narcissist solely put in the game as lore bait for the idiots dumb enough to think there is any value in this garbage and have too much free time on their hands"
>will fail to learn the game mechanics. will call it poor game design and will refuse to even figure out what the hell she is doing wrong. will definately not take short sword as a skill, pick up an iron dagger, run around with no stamina, and fail to be able to hit anything and then say "hit chance has no place in any video game ever and should be removed entirely". would then turn on god mode and never speak about it again. would probably end up using spells but never make custom ones.
>will fail to actually understand the plot entirely. will constantly bitch that there is too much dialogue and "why the fuck do i need to ask so many fucking questions? why do i need to ask for directions? i cant understand anything on this fucking map and there should just be a map marker on a world this fucking big". will fail to understand the bare basics of the plot
>probably would call dagoth ur an alt right youtuber/podcaster who is a closeted gay incel mad nerevar cucked him with a hot redheaded woman. she would be half right that he is an extremist conservative but otherwise not actually explore why he feels this way and what contributes to his ideology or what it says about nerevar.
>scream any time she gets lost and bring up the lack of map markers again. will not actually describe why its so easy to get lost in vvardenfell just say the game is "basically unplayable even with godmode on" and anyone who says they like the game is a lying sack of shit who wants to look pretentious or is a nazi
>i feel like she would unironically apologize for almalexia's behavior and claim the devs and writers just did not understand her character well enough to write her and paint her as a sympathetic person who you shouldnt even have to kill. none of the other tribunal will get this behavior from her, she will just make excuses for almalexia and say if the game was good she would 1. be in the base game and 2. you would be able to team up with her to kill vivec, dagoth ur, and sotha sil and rule morrowind as lesbian wives
>if she doesnt do that she will say something like how almalexia just exists as a cheap hollow dommy mommy evil woman fantasy for villain apologists who love being manipulated and abused because they like glorifying abuse. if she goes this route she will say anyone who likes any of the villains of the game is an shitty villain apologist who gets off on abuse and is a nazi.
>or third option: she doesnt play any of the dlcs and says dlcs are pathetic garbage and if it isnt in the base game it doesnt matter and isnt canon as far as shes concerned
>she would not pick a great house. she would realize halfway through the game you could join one and then decide theyre all terrible pieces of shit and not go into why. will not notice crassius "workplace harassment" curio bc she will not do house hlaalu's stuff.
>will say the giant mushrooms are drug references
>her takes on slavery in the game will be bad. she will think the game is endorsing it and not even find out you can get a quest to break the slaves out.
>will conclude that this game is pretentious nonsense no sane person could ever enjoy it. "it's just a game for alt right basement dwelling losers who want to bring back slavery and hate women and hate enjoying things. take a shower, go outside, and touch grass. if you defend anything in this game you should be put on a terrorist watchlist."
>would have the occasional correct opinion only in minor cases like "scribs are baby"
i can already picture in my head a hypothetical lily orchard morrowind video if you can believe it.
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kanmom51 · 3 years ago
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Hello! i know this is old but just wanted to talk about hickey gate. I know this has been discussed already multiple times, but I still can't understand one thing..
What was the thought process of BH ??? what did they hope to achieve by releasing that video??? What was the reason???
They knew the impact it would have, they knew people would talk about it, they knew how risky it was..i mean it made a lot of noise on the k-side.. yet they still released it?
Just why? were they testing waters? is this way for them to kinda prepare the audience by constantly releasing more and more sus moments? And if it continues like this, if we get more extremely suspicious moments, just how long until media really start questioning the nature of their relationship?
See this kind of thing is the reason why I don't believe they want to stay hidden? I personally don't expect anything from them, it's their private life after all, but i don't really agree with some of you thinking they'll stay in their glass closet forever (but i totally respect your opinions!!) it's just that for me, it's kind of contradicting? If they wanted to, they would never be as loud as they are. And the fact that it intensifies each year.. I mean we tend to think they are doing a great job at hiding behind skinship/fanservice and so on but honestly... look at the number of times they have slipped up already.. moments that have absolutely no reasonable explainations. More and more people are noticing, even antis. The mere fact that they go out of their ways to justify jikook's actions just proves they obviously know something fishy is going on. They just choose to not believe it because they're afraid.
Plus, realistically speaking, even in the far future, BTS will always be in the spotlight. People will speculate about their private life forever. There's no escaping. I don't think they will want to hide forever, it's way too much hassle. It entails too much sacrifices. I'm saying this not only for jikook but also for the other boys if ever they have partners. And the boys' recent behavior has shown me that they are starting to get more and more comfortable with their actions. it's giving me "idgaf anymore about what people will think"
what do you think?
Your ask anon, it is old news, and something I have talked about in the past.
BUT...
I've just been watching the cutest show ever, called Heartstopper on Netflix, based on a webtoon story.
A love story in the making between two teenage boys in an all boy school in England.
The reason I bring this up is because in episode 3 Nick, one of the two boys, the one that is struggling with his sexuality, talks to a girl at a party, someone he's pushed at by his friends, someone he kissed when he was 13, and she tells him she is in a relationship with another girl, that she is a lesbian. She tells him they are mostly keeping it quiet. Nick asks her "so why are you telling me?", and her answer, that hit me, because that was Jikook in an essence over the past 4 years, more so in the past couple of years.
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THAT !!!
Just that.
Feels to me like a word to word conversation JM and JK had.
I have written about this push and pull over the years many times, and here are a couple of past posts (you can find more in my masterlist):
As for wanting to stay in their glass closet or not, well, I don't think that wanting to be able to be themselves and not hide contradicts with not wanting to make the formal announcement. What we've seen over the past couple or even 3 years is that no matter how obvious they are, including an ear sucking and a confirmed hickey, people just don't want to see it. They don't want to see what's obviously there. And at the moment that is the best course of action for them. They keep pushing the line further and further, allowing them to be themselves with each other (almost totally), all while not spelling it out (something that would have clear repercussions on them, their careers, the band and their friends and family).
You are right that people are seeing, but they are so blinded by their homophobia that they find every single illogical reason why it's not what it actually looks like, lol.
As for what the future holds, who knows.
Will they officially 'come out'? That would be huge, not only for the LGBTQ+ community in SK, but also worldwide. But it will also effect them, and I don't know if they are ready to pay the price. They could live their lives and whoever will know or speculate will do just that. They most probably wouldn't be outed in SK, because that's something that just isn't done there. It's when they are overseas that they will have to be more careful. And the more they stretch the boundaries and continue to fly under the radar, well they can continue to act the way they are at the moment and no one will be the wiser (well, except for those that love and support them anyway).
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That repost on blind obedience is offence. It was never child abuse to me. I grew up on blind obedience and it did me good, parents always have the best interest. And I was never called stupid for not knowing something. But of course I cant say anything like that because that post is specifically for those who have endured child abuse. That's BS. I am sure there are many more like me that have preferred parental guidance than doing shit on their own
i'm sorry, hon, but i do not agree. parents are not infallible, and their job is not to raise someone who blindly obeys, their job is to raise a whole, healthy human being, and part of doing that is teaching a child to think for themselves.
that doesn't mean children should be allowed to disobey anytime they feel like it, but the reason that children are meant to obey their parents is because children are too young to understand why certain things are important, or why certain things are dangerous. when parents instruct their children to eat their vegetables and not to touch a hot stove, it's not for the sake of obedience but for the sake of keeping them healthy.
when i was a kid, i constantly asked my mom questions, and i'm extremely grateful that she always answered me to the best of her ability. she never told me "because i said so" and i think i'm a smarter, better adult for not being taught to follow authority no matter what. she understood that i was a small person, not a thing to be ordered around.
maybe your parents really did always have your best interests, but no parents are perfect. and even parents who are loving and supportive often don't KNOW your best interests. parents might genuinely believe that it's in their daughter's best interests to marry a good man, but that daughter is a lesbian and becomes miserable as her parents try to set her up with men and won't listen when she tells them what she really needs. parents might believe that "being normal" is in their autistic child's best interests, so they send them to abusive therapy that traumatizes the child so severely they're never the same.
you can respect your parents without blindly obeying them in all things. as you grow up, you have to learn how to balance respecting your parents with thinking for yourself and realizing that your parents are just humans, and even when they're doing their best sometimes they fuck it up. you can love them and still choose to disobey.
i'm going to say it again: raising children is not about instilling obedience. it is about taking care of small humans and teaching them how to be humans until they're big enough to take care of themselves.
you should be explaining to children how and why the world works, not forcing them to do whatever you want. you should say, "don't touch the stove because it will hurt you" and "eat your vegetables because your body needs their nutrients". you teach them why. you teach them to ask questions, and you answer their questions. and as they grow up, you give them the freedom to disagree with you and make their own choices.
i have no idea whether or not i would say your parents abused you without more information, but i do think they did the wrong thing in teaching you blind obedience. i don't think that that was what's best for you as a human. but that doesn't mean they didn't love you or that you shouldn't love them. i just believe that society needs to change how it views and treats children, because the goal should not be "obedient children" but rather "functional adults".
if you disagree with me, that's fine. but i do think that you should teach yourself to question authority, especially authority that demands blind obedience.
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tomatograter · 5 years ago
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Could I ask for your thoughts on Rose and her connections to the other kids? I think that Rose is one character that many people just boil down to "goth alcoholic lesbian" and it bugs me a lot, so I would like to see a different and nuanced analysis on her.
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I've gone back and forth in answering this (or rather HOW to answer this) for a long while. I think Rose is one of the most crucial characters for Homestuck as a narrative, and she's incidentally always been one of my favorites. What i mean by this is that explaining rose is hard, in the way that 'summarizing every other HS subplot' is hard. Objectively, I can’t tell you why rose is good, much in the same way i can’t force you to like pineapple on pizza, but i can try to explain why *i* like rose.
So I'll try to start with a statement: Rose is a difficult little girl. She’s not sweet or compliant or naturally inclined to be motherly or comforting or even KIND, broadly speaking. She’s a cynic, a hater, and a proto-intellectual who wants to feel like she has already figured out everything that has to be ‘figured’ about the world. (Spoiler alert, the conclusion is “it sucks. Blow it to bits.”)
The things that upset her the most are the things she doesn’t know or cannot make sense of. Why does her mother act in such erratic ways? Why does she constantly debase herself in shameful displays of negligent rationality and responsibility? Is it all a game to her? Is this how all adults are, messy and unkempt and deranged? (According to Freud, whose’s name is certainly mentioned enough by Fellow Online TruthSeekers Of The Human Psyche to be considered the utmost authority in just about everything there is to know, no questions asked, the response is “i guess?”) What the fuck even happened to her cat, anyway? Anybody got a baseline 101 on mortality? Does anyone know what the fuck is going on, ever? Is humanity fated to an automated cycle of dull incompetence??????
Rose hoards and utilizes even the most esoteric forms of knowledge as her shield, sword, and building blocks against the fog of uncertainty most people describe as ‘reality’. To truly know something is to rob it of its power and make it your own, ensuring you are not only safe, but impervious to any harm it could possibly cause. Her ambition and defiance set her apart even from the other betas, who wanted to follow the rules and invest in teamwork. Where jade is whimsical and vaguely helpful in a informative tutorial pixie-like way, rose’s advice is delivered via sarcastic remarks and looking for cheats by conversing with the devil. She antagonizes the patronizing questline she's been given in favor of ripping SBURB a new one. Rose is firstly concerned with improving herself, and then maybe sort of (kind of, nothing is settled on stone, what happens, happens) pass it onto her own if they REALLY cant figure it out. There’s a sense that she would sacrifice just about anything to granted the ultimate form of knowledge, the appropriate response and middle-finger to anything, and she hungers for it, which proves to be a little self-destructive. 
Except as much as she wants to put up a veneer of detached, individualistic intellectualism, she still cares far too much for the simplest human accomplishments. She cares for her friends. She envies the lives they've led, and they sound so intriguing when compared to her sterile routine. Her pet cat was once her biggest companion and source of comfort, and finding him dead crushes her. She legitimately would've liked to have a good relationship with her mom, which as we all know ends up more or less the same way. (I tend to disagree with most people who treat rose's living situation as 'pretty good/dramaticized', having a guardian who's almost never sober isn't a comedic or easy experience.) Her quest is borne out of insecurity, uncertainty, and stubbornly trying to prove herself right. Because somebody has to be.
Her faults are just as interesting to me as her qualities, for all the 'mean goth lesbian' talk the way she misses her mother and tries to reverse-engineer a connection with her beyond the grave by dabbling with the same poisons is incredibly compelling, and speaks to a side of rose's many people take for granted: she doesn't have all the answers. She's improvising. She's, like, 15 years old and trying so hard to come off as a badass but she can barely contain her wondering babble long enough to show up for an important date in time. Even in her self-sabotage rose is earnest.
This isn't the sort of narrative you usually see applied to women in fiction, or even when it IS applied, it is only to admonish their efforts and promptly slot them into a love-interest shaped hole. (Because yeah, rose being a lesbian and not falling for any of the assumed important guys does matter very much actually.) Even her turn to grimdarkness pulls from tropes reserved to epic gritty brooding male heroes- avenging her family, wrecking anything and everything in her path, Frank Castle Punisher style. I like rose because she's like matilda, if matilda went wretched sick at age 11 and took the first chance she saw to pierce an ogre through the eyes and ride its corpulent cadaver down a waterfall. She's an unrepentant monstress, cloaking herself in mythos that justify the existence of the unknowable and unjustifiable when rationality predictably falls short of truth, and a snooty little know-it-all who wants to create something so raw and important people will have no choice but know her name, and most importantly, she gets away with it. 
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gettin-bi-bi-bi · 3 years ago
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Hi, same anon from before (i would have replied in the og post but i dont want people insulting me on my blog, sorry). I have been reflecting for a long time actually and i know that my thoughts are wrong. The sad thing is that I didn’t use to think this way. Ironically this started after i started questioning my own gender identity and im mad because if i was not going to be 100% cis then *at least* i could be a trans man. I hate this stupid middle ground that im stuck with (which funny enough, is similar to my experience with bisexuality since i’m “mostly straight” or heteroflexible).
I dont think by any means that trans men are “confused lesbians” or anything of the sort. I didn’t want you or anyone else reading this think that I believe that bullshit. Trans men are men and im jealous of them for being men, as in that way they’re able to escape misogyny and lots of other benefits. Im angry because they were born with the same genetic configuration as i was and yet they get some of the benefits that cis men are born with. And yes, i resent men in general but I don’t believe they’re evil and I DEFINITELY know that women are not saints. I have tried to get away from these sort of posts, but yeah on twitter women i know (former highschool classmates) are constantly sharing stories of rape, murder and abuse perpetuated by men against women. They don’t directly say “men are evil” but they do perpetruate fear of men and in this pandemic that has really affected me (it didnt use to before)
Whenever i bring this to my therapist she tells me to think of something else which is a temporal solution but it doesnt help my problem. I don’t think she understands but also i cant change therapist.
I hope i could have made myself more clear in this :( i dont wanto be a bad person
And no, unfortunately im not transmasc. Im comfortable in my body as it is (whenever i dont think that because for what i look like im more likely to get r*ped)
Honey, I don't know how to say this without sounding like I am telling you what your gender is. Of course that's up to you. But you have just found so many ways of saying that ~unfortunately you are not transmasc~ that I can't help but get the feeling that... maybe... you are?! You know... me as a cis woman, I don't feel sad about not being a man. I don't envy men for their gender, I don't envy trans men for """escaping womanhood and misogyny""". Which, as Tiger pointed out in their reblog, isn't even true - transmascs are also often subjected and targeted to misogyny because transphobes are misgendering them as they please.
I also think you are soaking up way too many things about sexual assault, if that's so present on your mind. That's not healthy. Yes, rape is something that happens in this world and we should talk about it and try to prevent it. But a) rape is never the victim's fault and no matter what someone's identity is that doesn't make it any better or worse. and b) if this topic upsets you so much that you are literally worrying about it all the time then maybe take some time off. Log off twitter for a while, use a blacklist to filter out the topics that upset you so much. It is not healthy for anyone to constantly worry about how "likely" it is that you will get raped. I don't know if you have experiences any sexual trauma but whether you did or not - if this makes you so anxious then maybe that's also something you need to deal with. And if your therapist isn't helping you then maybe you need to find a new one (one who is also specialised in queer and gender things, if this one isn't?)
It's another aspect of radical feminism to paint a """universal female experience""" that consists of suffering and inherent victimhood and I feel like you are somehow paddling in that stream as well. The thing is that for many woman, myself included, this is totally unrelatable. Yes, misogyny is a thing that exists and it affects different people in different ways. But it's not on my mind 24/7. The fear of being raped isn't on my radar at all, unless I find myself in a situation where someone is actually harrassing me. I don't feel shackled by my existence as a woman when I just live my life and I certainly don't experience my statistical likelyhood of being sexually assaulted as an inherent part of my gender. That is all to say that: what you are experiencing and what you are attributing to your (apparent) connection to womanhood is NOT a universal experience and you can break out of that. You are not doomed to view womanhood that way because this is a narrative - one of many - and you can choose to rewrite it to your own liking.
Whether you come out of that as a non-binary person who may or may not be woman-aligned. Whether you realise you actually are transmasc or maybe """just""" a gnc cis woman.... that doesn't really matter at this point in my opinion. Because you have so much negativity associated to literally any gender option that I think you gotta try to clean the slate and rebuild a more positive or at least neutral look on things.
"yes, i resent men in general but I don’t believe they’re evil" is not a healthy or even at all reasonable way to think. Why resent men in general? What justifies that? If you on principle despise half of the human population then this has got to take a toll on your mental health so please try to figure out a way to dismantle what makes you think like that and learn to think more critically about blanket-statements that are being made about men (or any gender).
Maddie
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save-the-spiral · 4 years ago
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PLS PLS LIST THE SWAPS!! TELL ME ABOUT THE SIBLINGS AND ALSO HIFUMI BECAUSE I LOVE HIM (IF YOU WANT!) I will also send more questions in the morning too, excited to see what you’ve been working on!!
OK OK OK !!!!! AHH! So, before assigning talents, I swapped the pools, so for the first game, I use the talents from the second game, and vis versa! For some i listed gender, sexuality, or neurodivergencies, though this isn’t all of them, and I haven’t developed them all to the same level!
This is SO long. I didn’t even bother mentioning things like my plans for the killing games. (I have DR1 planned out in full, but only parts of DR2 and the v3 anime)
THANK YOU FOR THE ASK MY HEART SKIPPED A BEAT IN HAPPINESS WHEN I SAW I HAD NEW ASK NOTIFS!!
LIST:
Trigger Happy Havoc (first game)
Kyoko Kirigiri- Ultimate Luckster- Mastermind (: Sometimes lesbians can be evil okay! was trained as a detective like everyone in her family and didn’t get the ultimate :) she’s definitely not mad about that :) her luck cycle depends on how far she plans things ahead. her good luck is when she’s spontaneous! She hates when ‘normal’ people are accepted by ultimates.
Makoto Naegi- Photographer (Mostly wildlife and nature photography, with Sayaka helping him for some animal photography (: trans and bi <3 One of sayaka’s birds nests in his hair like all the time)
Kiyotaka Ishimaru- Ultimate Swordsman (AUTISTIC ICON, has trained in kendo since he was a kid, then was essentially given away to the Fujisaki clan by his very stressed dad. Semiverbal, rarely speaks.)
Chihiro Fujisaki- Ultimate Yakuza (Taka is her bodyguard! His family is in debt to hers, the Fujisaki clan is the most powerful in Japan. trans icon, of course, dates Sayaka! Very direct, though she’s far more delicate and polite when talking to taka, her best friend)
Sakura Oogami- Ultimate Nurse (Works as an EMT- her clan still is in martial arts, so she’s still very buff, she assists in injuries at the family dojo. Autistic Icon)
Asahina Aoi- Ultimate Gamer (ULTIMATE ADHD. streams and has a ton of fun, will ramble while breaking records, demigirl who loves her girlfriend sakura :)
Mukuro Ikusaba- Ultimate Chef (Works best with ‘cheap’ food, and making them taste good. a byproduct of growing up on the streets with junko, and junko being bored of the same old food they dug out of the trash. now works closely with junko for her teams’ nutritional needs! autistic and sapphic.)
Junko Enoshima- Ultimate Team Manager (there are SO many sports she can never get bored, and the professional scene is always changing! prefers coaching womens’ teams, because being an ultimate brings them more publicity and usually higher pay :)
Mondo Oowada- Ultimate Prince (OH MY BOY. trans adhd icon. now the crown prince of Novoselic, with a reagent in his place until he comes of age. His service dog Chuck is a maltese and an absolute sweetheart. Chihiro takes him under her wing to teach leadership. also dates taka later OF COURSE, though they’re poly and I may add more ppl to their relationship later.)
Celestia Ludenburg- Ultimate Musician (specializes in violin, most strings, though she can play any instrument. grew up poor, dedicated herself to an instrument and persona to cope)
Byakuya Togami- Ultimate Musician (Yep. two musicians. two catty trans gay icons about to throw down. they HATE each other and grew up as rivals. specialize in classical, they literally tore a professional orchestra full of grown adults apart trying to make them side with who was the best musician. they’re so good that they’re matched, and Hope’s Peak accepts them as one student and combined ultimate. they room together. they fight. Literally if one of them gets expelled, the other does too, so they’re STUCK. eventually they become literally inseparable and insufferable together like the WORST siblings. I love them.)
Sayaka Maizono- Breeder (animal handler) (Specializes in birds!!!!!! has songbirds on her shoulders all the time. will give unsettling animal facts without realizing they’re unsettling. sends her songbirds to serenade chihiro when they start dating <3)
Yasuhiro Hagakure- Gymnast (you see this tall goof who acts like an older brother to everyone and wonder HOW he’s a gymnast. he’s completely different in competitions, though still lighthearted. becomes a big brother figure to mukuro and junko especially <3 also trans bc i say so.)
Leon Kuwata- Traditional Dancer (he just. kinda hates it. it takes SO much work and effort but he takes to it naturally. his cousin kanon is NOT like in canon, instead she’s helpful. he’d literally rather be doing anything else. doesn’t know how to do anything like... basic either. can’t cook. cant do his own laundry. everything was dedicated to traditional japanese dancing before he attended HPA.)
Toko Fukawa- Engineer (writes schematics and is very good at it. gets VERY upset when her plans go wrong. her notes are orderly and perfect. host for their system!)
Syo- Mechanic (a factive of genocider syo, NOT an actual killer. she’s a protector mainly, and also is more adept at hands on skills when it comes to fixing things, her hands are less shaky. Her notes are a disaster and she does it to spite Toko.)
Hifumi Yamada- (???) (reserve course) Protagonist! My BOY. HIFUMI IS GOOD OKAY. He’s autistic and loves anime and gaming! he’s not particularly ultimate-leveled at them, or anything else! Attending Hope’s Peak as a reserve course student! At one point he joins the student council as a reserve course representative even if he’s only a freshman :) He’s also a moderator in Hina’s livestream chat, under the username of JusticeHammer, fastest ban hammer this side of the internet. He's internet friends with hina and sakura, and doesn’t realize Oh We Go To the same SCHOOL until he bumps into them. and realizes hina doesnt know what he looks like. but sakura does. its hilarious. he’s aroace, and during the year they’re locked in HPA, is in a queer platonic partnership with Hina and Sakura, while they’re dating each other. it’s great.)
Goodbye Despair! (second game)
Peko Pekoyama- Lucky student (ohohoh. her luck relies on her conviction. if she has doubts her bad luck strikes HARD. trans!, was taken in by Fuyuhiko’s family when she was a baby, grew up as just another kid in the family. They all expected Fuyu to go off to HPA on his own and then BOOM acceptance letter)
Fuyuhiko Kuzuryu- Programmer (He. gets so angry while coding. He has an array of rubber ducks to talk to and work through his coding issues with. trans of course. Very protective of Peko when people say she doesn’t have a ‘real’ ultimate. ADHD and Autistic)
Sonia Nevermind- Writer (Literary Girl) (Her family immigrated to Japan when she was young! She writes a lot of serial killer novels, murder mysteries and horror and all that! Trans and bi :)
Gundham Tanaka- Detective (YEAH my guy is a detective. still talks Like That. Trans and bi and he and Sonia were kinda-dating (t4t autistic power couple in the making) when things started happening. He spends some time with his cool older sister who he looks up to a LOT. He and Sonia talk through things together a lot, they both have those red string walls, one for murder cases, another for a fictional plot lmao.)
Mahiru Koizumi- Moral Compass (my GIRL. autistic. Her morals rely a lot on people taking responsibility and being reliable, and she ends up having to work through some biases she didn’t realize she had when she arrived at HPA. Is still protective of Hiyoko, though that protectiveness is spread a bit thinner to extend to the rest of the class.)
Hiyoko Saionji- Clairvoyant!!! (HI YES I COULD TALK ABOUT HER FOR DAYS. Has actual visions in dreams and when she suddenly faints, but doesn’t really realize they’re uhh Real Visions for a WHILE. uses her status as an ultimate clairvoyant to trick and bully kids when in school for a LONG time, though her homelife wasn’t great with her grandmother trying to find ways to make her visions more consistent. SHES ALSO 12 WHEN SHE JOINS THE 77TH CLASS. she’s just so advanced in academics and her ultimate is so interesting hope’s peak cant HELP but scout her early. she has SO many issues guys no one appreciates hiyoko enough, autistic gifted kid hiyoko my beloved.)
Akane Owari- Gambler (started gambling to help out her family and Got Good at it. is very very conscious of money and food like all the time. Runs the hope’s peak betting pools once she arrives. these ultimates bet on a lot of things. she ALWAYS wins. until she doesnt!!!)
Mikan Tsumiki- Martial Artist (ohhhh Mikan. Still anxious and clumsy (though not like THAT in canon) and literally no one looks at her and thinks Oh The ULTIMATE martial artist?? it isn’t until you see her in the ring that you understand. She started learning self defense as a kid because her (bad) parents essentially said she had to rely on and protect herself and no one else would help.)
Kazuichi Souda- Pop Idol (OH TRANS ICON? he’s nervous and paranoid about Everything still, though now it’s like. oh the entire world is always watching my every move this is Okay (: has the brightest neon album eras. he literally keeps up a like. weird chad persona when interacting with people because he’s masking how hard he’s constantly just internally screaming.)
Nagito Komaeda- Soldier (AHAHAH my mans got issues problems disorder he’s a messssss, this trans guy, this absolute gay. this boy leveled a city of thousands of people with his own hands and some bombs. Still has medical issues, but most of his like. treatments and medicine is hold hostage as long as he stays in line. believes the ends justify the means and anyone who dies to him is obviously weak, because look at him! he’s weak, but that doesn’t matter because he doesn’t have to be the strongest, he just has to be stronger than the weakest scum.)
Chiaki Nanami- Heir (OOF. Agender, uses any pronouns. Doesn’t really. enjoy being the heir. grew up with Byakuya in the same circles. she treats the economy and stock market and stuff like games. enjoys gaming but isn’t good at them. collects so many things. has halls full of collections. Her parents stopped controlling her once she was able to prove she had more money than them and could literally bankrupt them if she wanted.)
Hajime Hinata- Baseball Star (Chiaki’s best friend, his family was upper middle class until he hit it BIG as a baseball star. wants to do BIG things and wants to attend hope’s peak more than anything!! Doesn’t really think of baseball as his THING, just a means to an end! trans :)
Teruteru Hanamura- Biker Gang Leader (started with shaking down some jerks who didn’t pay their food and drink tabs at his mama’s restaurant. now he RUNS their tiny town. His siblings are essentially gang mascots, he works hard to keep them out of trouble (while bringing them to like. meetings where he ends up beating a dude almost to death. its fine). most of what he does it to get more money to keep the restaurant afloat and care for his mama with her health conditions.)
Nekomaru Nidai- Fashionista (the drama. the CHAOS. most people are like ohhh we can never understand this artistic genius when he’s literally just. vibing and has ADHD and a love for coffee. Works a lot on accessible clothing lines for disabled people! Also he and Kazuichi work together sometimes, Nekomaru is good at calming Kaz down and seeing like, the root of whatever problem and making it better. ALSO A TRANS ICON and just flaunts it.)
Imposter- In the hope’s peak days they are impersonating Ryota Mitarai, as a part of the 77th class. In the Killing Game they impersonate Mondo Oowada as the Ultimate Prince. They’re doin’ their best.
Ibuki Mioda- (???) (Izuru Kamakura) Protagonist! Gundham Tanaka’s older sister (though they’re in the same school year). Nonbinary and using just. an array of pronouns alongside she/her, and jokingly fights with gundham for neopronouns like MOM said it’s MY TURN on the rawrself pronouns. She attends the reserve course to stay at her brother’s side. She dresses loudly and acts even louder because !!! she wants to stand out!! in the middle of this drab reserve course hell!!  but when things go down, she wants to be someone, to be worthy of being her amazing brother’s big sister. so she accepts some offers.
NON-KILLING GAME:
Ryota Mitarai- Ultimate Analyst (stays in his room. He’s terrified of the outside world but fascinated by it. watches hope’s peak academy through security feeds, picking up on little details. he just wants to understand things but never looks at the big picture.)
Chisa Yukizome- Ultimate Boxer (Homeroom teacher!! She’s working really hard and believes in everyone! Some are intimidated by talent, but she’s never hurt anyone outside of the ring! Dating Kyosuke)
Juzo Sakakura- Ultimate Student Council President (Has anger issues, though his work at reigning them in assisted in becoming an Ultimate. Was responsible for security and the Hope’s Peak student council. Dating Kyosuke)
Kyosuke Munakata- Ultimate Housekeeper (Meticulous, works himself to the BONE even if he’s good enough to not have to do that. Is working on establishing another Hope’s Peak! Dating Chisa and Jozu!!!)
Seiko Kimura- Ultimate Blacksmith (GIVE MY GIRL KNIVES!! She’s an anxious gal, always wearing a facemask that filters the air in her forge because she has some respiratory problems. she prefers making more decorative pieces like an artist, but sometimes can create utilitarian pieces or tools to fit specific needs. Still a doormat)
Ruruka Ando- Ultimate Pharmacist (She constantly asks Seiko for new tools for her developments in medicine, saying its all for the advancement of humanity, so Seiko denying any request is SELFISH, though she never thinks to make anything for seiko’s health issues. Dating Izayoi. Specializes in medicine for mental health. Not Doing Great :)
Sonosuke Izayoi- Ultimate Confectioner (He loves sweets. LOVES them. Creates things that look plain, ordinary. but taste so GOOD you CRY and maybe ascend for a little bit. sometimes Ando makes cool new drugs to put in the sweets, who knows! It’s a mystery! He always has like. a huge refrigerated case of fresh cakes, and constantly has a lollipop in his own specialty recipe in his mouth.)
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hey! i was wondering if u have any hcs u see tww cast, sexuality wise?
i mean i think they’re all gay but ill go into details lol if that’s what ur asking!
i think sam is queer, I just cant decide if I think he’s gay or bi or pan 
I get a gay vibe 
also literally it’s always him when they’re talking about LGBTQ+ issues; DADT, when charlie is getting interviewed by josh, he gets called a fairy by those dudebros in the ep with zoey’s panic button
he might be bi bc of lisa, and the chemistry he had with ainsley was NOT platonic 
but I do get gay vibes from him so I can’t decide
also I think josh is pan?
i think when he was figuring out his sexuality in college he’d just experiment and try things and decide that gender doesn’t actually matter that much to him? 
like
he just likes pretty people, period - literally all the people he dated were gorgeous; donna? gorgeous. amy? i love her. sam? he’s a pretty man (did they date in canon? no. do i care? not at all)
cj!! my love!!
i think she’s bi (I feel like I'm saying all these people are bi but that might be me projecting) 
it might literally bc I think she’s gorgeous but cmon cj/toby is not platonic, at least not totally, and I kinda think cj and donna hooked up once? is that weird?
also @claudiasjeancregg has a great series about cj/toby/andy that’s gotten me on the bi train
cj doesn’t hide hide it but she’s not gonna make it obvious
(it’s the early 2000s and she’s in a male-dominated field, she’s already kinda the only woman in the room. I don’t think she’d want to be cast as the gay woman in the room, even though she says it doesn’t matter in that ep where ppl think she’s gay) 
toby is...i can’t decide
I honestly can’t see him as queer
idk why
I guess he’s straight? he’s straight
I still love him
if you disagree pls let me know why 
leo and bartlet!!! they’re queer
they never named it specifically but they know they like more than one gender
cmon leo and bartlet had a thing that is totally why they stayed friends - their paths would not have crossed that much, why the hell would they be bffs? bartlet was a congressman and a governor ig but he in academia for a while too and leo was in the military and the private sector before he was chairman of the dnc and labor sec’y so. other than the personal aspect, they wouldn’t really work that closely together, so they must’ve had a hell of a first impression 
abbey knows it happened and she constantly makes jokes about leo stealing her husband
leo has an on and off again thing with marbury
it’s scratching an itch more than it is anything with feelings but 
yeah
abbey is pan
I love her
she tells jed on their first date and tells him if he has a problem he can go screw himself
jed stammers and comes out too
and they’re both like ‘oh. ok. cool’
they go to pride parades with liz, ellie, and zoey when the girls were kids 
someone uses a picture of them at a parade to ask if he’s gay and bartlet’s just like ‘im showing my support to the gay community and I'm not gonna raise my children to be homophobic bigots. next question.’
neither leo, abbey, nor bartlet ever come out
but they’re happy
I'm considering if they ever had a poly thing but idk
lemme know what yall think?
donna!! my lovely lady!!
i think she’s a lesbian (@tunennbee and i have talked about it!)
freeride is still a man
after that disastrous relationship she decides to try women bc she was like ‘maybe the reason that sucked wasn’t just because he was an asshole. let’s try something different’ and she was curious even before that 
she decides that even though that whole relationship with dr. freeride sucked, the thing that was missing wasn’t just the fact that he was a dickhead. it was also the fact that men didn’t really appeal to her. 
she tries men one more time with cliff and she tells him at the beginning and he’s like ‘cool. if nothing else i’ll get a meal and some companionship  instead of crashing on my couch at one am with cspan’. 
she’s like ‘i get that!’
literally no tww character has a healthy work-life balance
after that date with cliff she decides ‘nope, not for me’
i also think she tells ainsley when ainsley tries to set donna up with cliff
‘ainsley, I'm not exactly straight. ill go, because i want to be sure, but you should know.’ 
ainsley’s cool with it
i maintain that ainsley and donna had a stronger relationship that was offscreen bc people don’t set up someone who’s only sort of a friend with  old friends on dates 
so i think ainsley knew that donna was questioning, or at least would be open to going on a date
and i think they slept together once and was no ‘yeah not going anywhere else’ but i think they enjoyed themselves 
hope you enjoyed anon! lemme know what you think :) 
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what-kinda-fuckery · 5 years ago
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Hey so, I was one of the star struck falsettos stans that spent the forty dollars for the webinar, and I took notes (like a weirdo). So I decided I would share my funny moments and updates from the cast here!
- Host: Everyone should be keeping their audio off.
Christian: Oh alright!
Host: nO Christian not you
- Christians in Manhattan and his hair is back and he’s wearing a Superman t-shirt.
- Brandon is with his parents in NJ
- Stephanie and Brandon still love each other
- Brandon: Meat should be cooked just right
- Betsy: Stephanie are you in maple wood?
Stephanie: Well thank you for telling everyone where I am (she’s in NJ)
- Stephanie: Are you fucking kidding meee!!!
- Tracie is in LA, she looks like she’s in Costa Rica and I love her dog.
- Anthony’s VOICE IS LOW EVERYONES FREAKING OUT
they’re all talking about Anthony’s clear skin
- Andy Randy is in LA with a fresh haircut his boyfriend did it and he’s watching too much TV
Andrew: I’m watching this is America
Stephanie: SO GOOD
Andrew: SO GOOD
- Everyone’s having hard days
- Christian is acting out tracies dog’s pathetic bark and everyone’s like WHAT are you doing bc it looks like he’s about to throw up
- BETSY IS A WEEK AWAY FROM HAVINGA WHOLE CHILD
Betsy: What else do you do during a pandemic? Have a baby!
Andrew: Can I toss out another baby name? Celery.
Literally everyone: Goodnight Andrew goodbye!
- Christian is living with a girl (?) and playing board games instead of watching television
HE COOKS NOW EVERYONES PROUD OF HIM
Christian: yesterday I made pork filet en croute
Stephanie: I MADE PORK WITH SAGE AND APPLES ON WEDNESDAY
Stephanie: In mean girls they wear pink on wednesdays. In falsettos they make pork.
- I can’t get over Anthony’s voice
Again everyone returning to his literally perfect skin
- Stephanie: When watching four jews in a room in the beginning who’s in China?? I know the answer I just want to hear someone say it.
Andrew, with a thick accent: It was Bryna, in China, with a torn miniscus
- Christian: Did anything interesting make it on to the telecast between me and you? Andrew? Actually I dont remember I need to do my research.
Andrew: There’s been some strange comments about Christian and I- (AT THIS POINT IM WHEEZING)
HE MENTIONED THE TONY BONY
HE SAID IT WASNT A THING
HE DIDNT HAVE ONE
Andrew: No that’s not a thing that happened
Brandon: Andrew i want you to know that it’s okay if it was. It’s a safe space just the seven of us. (Lol)
- Bill Finn would take two steps into the room: “WROONG”
Stephanie: he wanted me to sing the end of I’m breaking down up the octave and I said #notmytrina
Brandon: #NOTMYTRINA
- Tracie what did you do during act 1
Tracie: Betsy and I sat in that dressing room for like an hour and a half
Andrew: You SANG the WHOLE SHOW TRACIE
- Betsy watched parts of the first act to feel like she was there
- Betsy sprained both her ankles at one point during the run and was a trooper anyways
Brandon reenacting Betsy limping during look look look look
Everyone dies laughing
Christians LAUGH makes me SO HAPPY
- Betsys screen is frozen like this: 🤨
Andrew: What if she went into labor??? (This is a common thread throughout the zoom)
- Anthony: I’m getting a lot of glitching so Stephanie is just like “HUH UH UH UH”
- Betsy comes back and everyone is like
YOU GUYS ITS COMING!!!
- They bought Andrew an ice cream for his birthday from the vending machine at rehearsal
- Andrew: The Hawaii crop top
Betsy: I would give anything to have that
- Tracie: it was very hard. Very precise bringing the blocks together
Brandon: Trying to be like oh my god we’re going to a funeral
Andrew: MY DEATH IT WAS MY DEATH
- fan question: What did the blocks weigh?
Stephanie: They were like thick yoga blocks. Not heavy but awkward shaped
Andrew: Significantly heavier when Anthony sat on them
Anthony: I just realized how much I got thrown around
Stephanie: Anthony were you proud of yourself? #proudofyou
Anthony: The one moment I was cringing was father and son
Christian: HERE WE GO *SLAPS TABLE*
Betsy: Anthony’s like BLAH BLAH BLAH blah my line BLAH BLAH BLAH my line BLAH BLAH
Christian: I LEAVE THE PAUSE IF YOU CANT GET IN THATS ON YOU
Anthony: I was blinking in that number like constantly
Christian: THE WHOLE THING LIKE A SALAMANDER
Oh Anthony.
- Andrew: I HAVE A STORY ABOUT CHRISTIAN BORLE. Tech for what more can i say. He was laying on me. We were shirtless in underpants under the blankets.
Christian: SLOWER
Andrew: he leaned over; He sniffed his armpit and said “I hope you like France”
EVERYONE DIES LAUGHING INCLUDING ME
Christian: i haven’t worn deodorant in 10 years true story
- Christian: i seem to remember holding our pillows and blankets pretending like we were partying on fyre island and Andrew said:
Andrew: WHATS YOUR NAME???
Christian: No no it was something like:
WHAT HOUSE ARE YOU STAYING IN??
Andrew: WHAT HOUSE ARE YOU STAYING IN???
Betsy: James lupine I feel like we’re ruining this show
- Andrew: The shenanigans were real but so was the sadness
Stephanie: We’re real and we’re funny what you gonna do
- Andrew talking about how hard the show was to do: Finding some liberty, It’s a hard world to live in all the time. It was a hard time especially for Christian. I would sometimes go home and cry for no reason
Brandon: Building up emotion with nowhere to put it
Betsy: then Lesbians come in and provide all the levity
Stephanie: Although Dr. Charlotte brings in horrible news
Tracie: Everything’s beautiful at what more can i say and I’m like not so fast
- Tracie always had a funny thing to say
- Who broke character the most on stage?
Anthony Stephanie and Christian
Anthony: it was when I said “I don’t want a bar mitzvah” and I spit in your face a lot and you went like *puts arms up* and someone at stage door was like very condescending like it’s not professional
Christian: Oh my bad we’re people sorry
- Stephanie wrote a line in the show “YOU HAVE PAINTINGS OF DICKS”
- James wanted her to cut off her finger during I’m breaking down
And turn around with a bandaged bloody finger
- Betsy’s nose bleeding during something bad is happening
And Tracie was like something BAD IS HAPPENING
Tracie: Christians throwing up right now
Betsy: Bloody Kleenex up the nose THE SHOW MUST GO ON
- Fan question: Stephanie how do you belt with a banana in your mouth
Christian: Practice practice practice
Stephanie: just shove it in your cheek. But Really that wasn’t supposed to happen
Anthony’s nickname in the rehearsal room was little bananas because he had to gather up all the pieces of stuff after Stephanie shoved the table over with her rear. Sometimes he didn’t have enough time to put it somewhere so he would just put the pieces of banana in his mouth and that’s where it came from
That’s why
- Andrew: Stephanie your glasses are very chic
Stephanie: Oh my gosh thank you *shocked*
- Betsy: Bill was like I’d rather DIE than change lyrics for the pbs special
FLaT aS a LaKe
- Cue everyone accidentally talking over each other and saying what at each other for 30 seconds
Christian: what? what? what?
Who is it?
What’s going on?
- If you could play anyone else in the show who would it be
Anthony said Mendel
Tracie said Mendel
Brandon said Trina
Andrew said marvin
Betsy said whizzer
Stephanie said Mendel
And I honestly couldn’t hear if Christian said anything whoops
- Brandon: If someone could at some point explain to me the Mendel eats dirt meme? People have been Asking me if Mendel eats dirt? I don’t think it’s about Trina Trina is not the dirt. I was overwhelmed. Can someone in the Q&A explain this? *A few seconds later* oh It was from a meme generator?
Christian: Greaat.
Brandon: It’s a fan fiction about Mendel eating dirt and getting aroused by it
Everyone: WHAT
- They still get fan art
Someone recreated the whole soundtrack 8bit and also with KAZOOS
- Brandon: CONGRATS CHRISTIAN ON LULOS WIN FOR LITTLE SHOP. If you haven’t seen Christian in little shop it’s revelatory I’m not just blowing smoke up your ass I have not laughed that hard in a while at the theatre
- Christian talking about little shop
Christian has a 12 inch Batman toy in his dressing room and he misses it
- Ticket prices were getting out of control before corona everyones hoping this will make a difference
Brandon and everyone think it should get more accessible
- Brandon: Hear hear I need a refill
- Stephanie: Your hair looks incredible Brandon (it did)
Christian: She’s been waiting to talk about it for 53 minutes
- Andrew: Well Betsy what I’m wondering is have you crowned yet??
Proceed everyone dying
Brandon, taking a picture of the screen: This moment will go down in history as When Betsy was asked if she was crowning
- Everyone mimicking zoom freezing by starting a sentence and freezing halfway through
- Christian: What new Steven sondheim musical are you excited about Anthony *devilish grin*
Anthony having no idea what Christian is talking about
Christian: Come on Anthony you know the answer. Ugh. The minds of the young. You’re smoking pot now aren’t you??
Christian: We have a lot of fun
- Andrew: I’m trying to get people to pay attention to me
- Christians pretending to be frozen
Cue a lot of yelling: Stephanie BRANDON STEPHANIE
NO CHRISTIAN
Everyone accusing each other of being frozen
NO YOURE FROZEN
- Andrew: Let’s all act like we’re frozen
Steph: I see Andrew acting like hes frozen
Betsy: Watching you do that is killing me
- Listening to the cast recording for the first time together
Stephanie: Why was I the a-hole that couldn’t be there???
Christian: That’s a question only you can answer
- Betsys husband came in everyones like BETSY LOOK OUT
Christian: that scared the shit out of me
- What is marvins last name and what was his line of work
Christian: we definitely said it at some point right? (They didnt) but he was in advertising. What was the last name? Gardens? O’Malley?
- Andrew: Betsys gone oh no
Betsy: I’m right here!!!
Andrew: She’s giving birth (again)
Stephanie: Betsy Wolfe is a ceiling
- Brandon: Welcome back Anthony. You’re here now.
Anthony singing merrily we roll along over Betsy trying to tell a story
Christian: STOP SMOKING POT IN YOUR BEDROOM ANTHONY
- Betsy: Steve (Steven Sondheim) comes to the door I call him steve
Into the woods is the reason Betsy is in theatre
- Betsy: Andrew was nervous singing at the tonys for Book of Mormon and he got dry mouth he sang like 😬I BELIEVE and he licked his lips so much during the song.
Brandon: Did you have a boner then too?
Andrew: GUYS DONT BE DICKS
Stephanie: It’ll be like dry mouth, boner
Andrew: BETSY YOU FUCKIN BITCH ITS ACTUALLY NOT THAT BAD
Stephanie: Bets maybe we should wrap it up
- Brandon sings MARRIAGE PROPOSAL
EVERYONE TELLING HIM TO STOP SINGING I took a video it was beautiful might post that later
- “Tracie Thomas from Lent!”
Tracie having stage fright
Tracie: Billy porter said “oh child we all forget the words” and walked away
- Anthony said WHO SHAT THE BED in four jews once
Anthony: That’s my contribution. Steph got her line, I got who shat the bed
- Steph: We lost andrew oh no
Christian: Um, we lost andrew ten minutes ago. Yeah when Brandon started singing
- Then Betsy sang a song by Bill Finn beautiful
- Steph: Wear your masks and eat pork on wednesdays
That was it!! I hope you enjoyed and people who were there if I got anything wrong that’s my human error it was hard to note everything I wanted to. Smooches! Byee
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iconsumeheadcanons · 5 years ago
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persona characters autism headcanons!
hi im autistic and i started my day with sun so now im !!!!!!!!! some of these headcanons are from elsewhere on tumbr, but i dont know where :(((  so i am hoping someone out there knows that n that everybody knows that i love them <3
(also go check out mollypaup and i think hypeswap if you havent already! they post some good stuff autism+adhd hc too!!! i think.. oh! and thieves-in-the-palace!!!)
P5
Joker
there was some artwork from someone on tublr..where they pointed out that he doesnt really talk outside the metaverse so--hes hyperverbal as joker and just near nonverbal as akiren
he stims ALL THE TIME. that phone thing, the pencil thing, the little tappy tap of his foot, pulling at his bangs when hes embarrassed/smug. someone get him a fidget spinner. he’ll prob learn to do tricks with it
he probably sucks at focusing in class, like i know its just the game design but hes always surprised out of his daily “star out the window at the nearby office building” when his teachers ask him questions
mona mentions when the pt is at Wilton for the first time (after they run into shido) that joker eats like shit, and that could have multiple causes at the start of the story of course, but when i first played i thought that joker was a picky eater and that the variety (and amount of food) at the buffet would be an Ordeal...
tho mona makes that comment bc joker looked pale after having a little ptsd moment from shidos voice, but i didnt know that the first time i played
maybe when joker makes a face at ryuji putting so much ginger in his gyudon? joker probably does not like pickled ginger lol
his favortive foods are all spicy, which is why the curry he makes for his friends is always ‘overly spicy’, and why kasumi makes him a curry bento and joker kept going “...?” .... “....?!”
overly reflective glasses have been a great plus for him bc now he never has to make real eye contact every again!
mona Soft. play with Ann hair. maybe Braid. nice
puns (Gorou the Goroumet)
he has so many options to be straight up rude sometimes in game. he probably no clue on his own, which is why he defaults to Not Talking. people probably mention his constant scary face, which is just him being nonexpressive, squinting at all the fucking bright lights, and Tired
executive function who? we do everything last minute folks
high pain tolerance, which is why he was the kid that was always climbing trees in elementary school to get basketballs unstuck from the branches
his sixth sense lets him see treasure and possible places to climb/crawl bc 1. Shiny? Steal it. Steal it Now. and 2. Could i fit in that? Time to Find Out
probalby a bit of a klepto too oops. he’ll return it tho!! but he has to do it dramatically or he’ll die
cant sit properly to save his life
smells and touch are Great, they can keep him grounded when his brain goes off to police or dead rivals or guilt or
if a friend hung out with him and gave him total reigns of the agenda, he would choose to nap on the floor while his friend does something off to the side quietly
hyperfocuses on handy tasks (i.e. lockpicks, coffee brewing, cleaning, his part time jobs) and some things like movies and books. everything else is a tossup
his (normal) navigation app is his most used app bc he still doesnt know where hes going, even though he only goes to the same few places in the city
hates being sweaty, literally cannot stand it. probably double exhausted during the summer
but Needs Compression so hes often Struggling
Futaba
paraphrase from p5d “i have no motor skills so i cant play rhythm games :(” need i say more? (i will regardless)
echolalia all the time, from anime, memes, the PT
those headphones she wears all the time? noise cancelling ear protectors babey
only talks about her interests, “normal” talking is Not Easy, but she is still communicative w others despite her worries. shes not “hard to understand” at all but she feels the anxiety nonetheless
only talks informally, cannot talk ‘politely’ with out imitating someone around her
shes had meltdowns and anxiety attacks in game :( i relate so hard
Technology. thats it
def had an egypt phase that pops up every few months. probably came from yu-gi-oh
has Immune to Bright Lights buff.  joker is very jealous
“Time to make like a tree and leave!” and 30 other iterations
video game metaphors are the only ones that makes sense to her
probably relates hard to robot characters in anime for their general androgyny and confusion about human emotions and connections
probably gets told that shes “too smart to be on the spectrum” by teachers >:( she fails their classes on purpose
wakaba’s autistic too that just how it is
the Connection that she establishes with Joker is so Warm. my life goals include adopting an older brother like futaba has lsdkfjslkfj
also eater of 5 foods only, i mean, she brings cup ramen to the beach. i just really admire her...
hides in small spaces for comfort
doesnt she have like uhhhhh hyperthymesia or something like that?
Yusuke
art
his entire social link is learning how humans work, which i relate
talks seriously all the time
“sarcasm? who is that? are you saying I was sarcastic?...how?”
cant remember to take care of his body, and madarame did not help with that either
lot of uncomfortable staring, hes overdoing the eye contact thingy
infodumps all the time, doesnt know hes doing it
needs a lot of support even if he doesnt think he deserves it. no one ever complains about helping him out tho
visual stims my friends
he didnt know that you could look up pictures on the internet but he does know you can stream live videos of waterfalls and fluffy animales!!
I am certainly in the mood
for something salty today.
he and joker are scared of math. numbers do not interact
Yusuke, futaba, and akiren are a trio and i know this bc their first day of non-thievery interacts is Akiren clearing Futabas room w/o permission, futaba hyperfocusing on destroying medjed, and yusuke rearranging futabas figurines so they are more visually appealing
morgana is a support friend for all of them bc igor knows they need it
P4
Souji/Yu
yes, he mostly wears gray semi formal clothes bc parents tell him to, no, he will not changes this
Schedule or Death
“sorry, could you repeat that?” “huh? oh yeah, i was saying that--” “yeah that’d be cool.”
cats, fishing, he just likes to be quiet. you can literally spend a day at the beach just to think if you want, and that is what yu want
has a lot of scripts for things (of which he shares with nanako!) but if he runs out he just stops talking..
inaba is a godsend bc its so fucking quiet and warm
he Yearns to hold his friends hands, but he shies away from a lot of touch (excepting yosuke, teddie, and nanako)
Cooking and Cleaning makes the world better. he and joker vibe together with this
unlike akiren, he strong arms any executive dysfunction into Be Productive or Else. his punishment is feeling the pure anxiety of having to make up for ‘lost time’. (another symptom of his workaholic parents)
writes everything down, notes are very neat, has pages dedicated for bad doodles when hes not feeling his usual Super Classroom Focus
Cannot handle secondhand embarrassment (most often caused by yosuke) and will quietly slip away to random cats or origami folding
hungry, crunch crunch folks. probably needs chewelry bc he used to chew on his shirt collars when he was younger.
cleans up after everyone in the food court, constantly worries about them accidently hurting themselves. likely spends half of group conversations watching peoples hands
he canonically eats expired food, nanako plz help your brother
really clumsy, but people only notice after they decide that he is a cool person
video games are too chaotic for him
exhausted every night from the pure amount of masking he does, if a friend spends the night (or is like yosuke) they will know his more comfortable weirdo self (tho everyone knows hes a weirdo eventually)
hyperempathetic, sometimes just understands animals and children better than peeople his age or older
Yukiko
her jokes
she and souji get in ‘trouble’ together, she and joker commit crimes together
she and chie have to coordinate outfits, its important
actually understands metaphors, but does not understand people
like me, had no clue that creepy kid was flirting with her
she is very angry when she has meltdowns that might involve slamming doors and shouting. her parents call these ‘tantrums’ and ‘unfitting for a polite daughter’ but really thats because her meltdowns tend to be caused by arguments w her family after a long day of school and TV world traipsing
the metronome meme, except hers goes between Loudest Person in the Room to Quietest Pin Drop in the Planet. she is completely unaware of this
her atmosphere brightens when chie appears. that is not only the lesbian energy within her, but also because chie is like her Favorite Person
Cannot wear Pants. No (tho she wants to try it! but she puts them on and her soul instantly squashes)
happy flappy lesbian! watch out!
Naoto
the pouty face. all the time lskdfjlasdkf
hes really snappy sometimes and i love that for him. he and akechi should fight just to see what would happen (please read Bang Bang Shoot Shoot on AO3)
“do not touch me or my hat, thank you”
no one has ever seen him shutdown and no one ever will (except for his grandpa)(and kanji)(and rise)
probably likes certain food textures and will stand for nothing less, probably feels embarrassed about his preferences with friends
constantly jumps between ‘everybody hates me so i should act like them so they dont hate me’ to ‘i refuse to be anything but very comfortable as myself, and i dont care that im making you upset sir’
he and souji are the king and queen of subtle stims, but for unhappy reasons :(
does not make jokes. cannot joke around. understand? yes, do? no.
loose clothes are the only good clothes, but all tags and obtrusive seams will be obliterated by kanji tatsumi
not very empathetic so he probably comes off as an asshole to strangers (like when he throws away his classmates confession letters without reading them) but he tries so hard to sound comforting when his buds are struggling.
his understanding of others emotions/reactions come from his learning as a detective, which seems cold+clinical to others, especially compared to souji, whos completely unexpressive but very introverted people person
P3
Hamuko/Minako/Kotone
big personality!! very people-oriented!! koromaru and her are buddies!! when shes having a real bad time, shes very quiet and expressions turn off
interrupts herself in the middle of conversations all the time. no one knows where shes coming from. her brains is thousands of km ahead of her body
bouncey legs, swingin arms, twirlly skirt, little somersaults! when will she stop? never!
very obvious music stims with her hands and arms! people are like “oh there she goes! happy as usual!” shes listening to minatos heavy metal playlist
switches from exhausted to excited within milliseconds. no one can predict, not even her
SEES has to ask her for context all the time cuz she’ll just continue shit from 2 weeks ago without warning
professionals will assume shes very childish bc of how chipper she is, but she is beyond mature for her age and only feels comfortable enough to have serious conversations if a person has proved themself able to handle it
collects every little thing. her room is a mess and she has to get rid of most of it every time she moves :(
hates cleaning! smells bad, feels bad hhhhhgggg
dont let mitsuru-senpai see her bedroom
gets lost in the middle of conversations with others bc shes thinking about a story connected to one(1) word that was said earlier
 no sense of time and place, she just sees her friends and goes “ah, this is the right place, then” but junpei and akihiko are also lost so now theyre all screwed
Minato/Makoto/Sakuya
no talkies, no walkies
his story in the movies is him literally learning how to function around people he cares for
doesnt get jokes, expressions, body language, empathy, subtlety, metaphors, physical contact, or eye contact. aigis is probably the only person he truly understands right away
he is still nice to people because he doesnt see a reason not to be, but also he has very limited energy so only his senpai and old people get his most polite-kindnesses
cannot describe feelings for the life of him. the team wont know hes injured or sick until hes passed out
everything is too loud, time to drown it out with my loud ass music
rocking and chewing stims, ryoji is the first person to point him out for these subtle stims (not accusingly of course, just general pure curiosity and love for the uniqueness of humanity)
likes to cover his face with whatever is available, lives like a bat in a dark dry cave
will wear anything that has pockets and his blue/gray/black palette
sleepy at all times bc he never has much energy
when he was younger he probably needed a lot of support, especially after his parents died, because he wouldnt communicate like a neurotypical and would shutdown for hours in the middle of school without warning. probably missed a lot of lessons and field trips out of pure overstimulation
eating at all times. no preference, just whatevers closest
his meltdowns probalby include humming whining noises and curling up in a ball, which makes people want to touch him, but that is the LAST thing he wants. put a blanket on him! play some music! do not talk and do not expect him to speak
aigis is the only person who can touch him normally bc her hands are cold and he likes cold
never nude, feels mmmmmmmmm without clothes and probalby wears a full robe in the hotsprings
will not do things that take more than one step w/o someone else walking him thru it, which Same
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hobiiwan · 5 years ago
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could I request headcanons on young reader (who is mando's friend and helps him on missions) coming out to him as a lesbian? I rlly need some support rn😔 your blog is amazing btw!!
hey anon, i hope you know that you’re not alone out there!! sending you all the love and kindness xx don’t hesitate to dm me if you ever wanna chat or smth, hope you like this!!
you’re young, but not that young
sure, maybE you’ve got less years under your belt than the common bounty hunter but hey, work is work
you’ve got to get that coin somehow
you’ve been in this line of work for a little while now, but on one particular hunt, shit hits the fan
things don’t always go as plan, and perhaps you got a little sidetracked
you may or may not have tried to slip an extra ration pack and started a kerfuffle
BUT U DIDNT HEAR IT FROM ME
anyway,,,
you’re cornered and there are a bUNCH of stormtroopers closing in on you
so you make a wild run for it
dodging heavy (albeit inaccurate) blaster fire, you leap behind a corner, only to find yourself crashing into a heaVILY armoured man
like seriously do noT run head first into that beskar
that shit hurtED
and that’s the story of how you met the mandalorian
it took a quick moment of pleading and diving behind him as the stormtroopers caught up to you
he takes them out with ease obviousLy
but now it’s just you and him,,,, yikeS
he’s got that blaster still smoking but now it’s pointed straight at you
“heY now!!! that won’t be necessary,” you chuckle nervously, hands raised in surrender
“it was all just a misunderstandinG, i swear!!!”
the mandalorian lets out a scoff, to which you take offence
“i’m sure it was.”
he takes another look and deems you harmless, before turning to leave the situation you’d dragged him into before reinforcements arrive
he did not expect you to tail him like a lost puppy
and he definiteLY did not expect you to still be here months later
when you caught sight of the Child, you instantly light up, offering to babysit him when the man’s away
so here you are, courtesy of your shameless begging
when the mandalorian warms up to you, yall develop a sibling bond
he’s like a big brother; always making sure you eat, don’t stay up too late and keeps you out of trouble
whereas you take up the role of annoying little sister
you talk incessantly, even when no one’s around to listen and you constantLy find yourself getting into trouble
but at least u pull ur own weight
something mando is slightly impressed by
MOVING ON
at this point, you can probably trust him with your life
but even so, there are some things that you haven’t been able to tell him
sometimes you can’t bear to even think about it because the weight it leaves on your chest is just too heavy
you know that the galaxy is vast, and there are pleNTY of inter-species relationships; people are open, to say the least
and yet you still can’t shake the thought that this is wrong; you shouldn’t be feeling this
it takes a long, long time for you to come to terms with your romantic preference
you’re not ashamed, but it just isn’t something that you’re comfortable airing out to the world, u feel
so when you decide to sit mando down one day, you want to jump out of your own skin
you’re mostly scared he’ll treat you differently; you don’t want things to change
he’s slightly confused and a little concerned
you’re fidgeting a lot and it’s making hiM antsy
did something happen? did you get in a fight? are you preg-DEAR GOD ARE YOU PREGANT
protective brother mode activated
“whaT? no, mando, I’m noT pregnant.” you splutter at the onslaught of accusationS
“in fact, you literally never have to worry about that,” you mumble under your breath
“gooD, because I’d find whoever- wait, what did you say?”
you squint your eyes and breathe in deeply
it’s okay, you think, you’ll be fine. this is who you are, and if he doesn’t agree, then you don’t need him in your life
but u kinda do
so you bite the bulleT
and you blurt it out
“i like girls, mando.”
you wait with a baited breath, gauging his reaction
to your surprise, he nods nonchalantly, “okay. what else?”
you blink
“um,,,,,”
the words have left you
they’re gone
“well,,, i-uH, i just wanted you to know,,, and that i’m still me,,,?”
goDS WHY DID YOU MAKE THAT SOUND LIKE A QUESTION
your heart is pounding out of your chest
noPE YOU CANT DO THIS RIGHT NOW
fight or flight mode activated, in this house we fly
you stand to leave, but he catches your wrist before you can bolt out
you don’t know what to expect but you really hope it ends well
“thank you for telling me, kid. it probably wasn’t easy,” he speaks, and it’s soft, softer than you’ve ever heard it
softness is exactly what you need in this moment; you’re vulnerable
“you are who you are. don’t let anyone make you think differently, okay?”
wow when did u start crying
honestly me toO tf
you don’t want him to see your tears, so you bury your head in his chest as you hug him tight
you’re so relieved
you feel ten pounds lighter, like you can finally breathe again
it feels nice
after that, it’s like you and mando are actual siblings
he likes to tease you when he catches you staring at pretty girls in the market
girls are pretty, suE ME
sometimes he tries to be your wingman but he just ends up embarrassing the craP out of u
and earns a sharp jab to the arm
he lets you rant to him about your crushes and relationship problems, should you have any
he definitely notices when you practically have heart-eyes looking at cara
don’t we all
what a womaN amirite
you and mando mutually fangirl over cara dune this is a facT
you could watch her knock out stormtroopers all day
you’d pay to be one of those stormtroopers ngl
me too, reader, mE fuckiNG too
you’re so glad you decided to tell mando, because you’ve never been happier
he sees you for who you are, and if you love yourself, then so does he
you don’t have to hide yourself anymore, and that’s a blessing in itself
you’re proud to be who you are
anyone who has a problem with that,,,,,
honey you got a storm coming
aka mando, protector of lesbians
and y/n, lesbian
has a nice ring to it, if i may say so meself
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