#or I'll forget about it and move on

[zwiebelii]

I have been infected with astarion disease

[eggdrawsthings]

having the mando feels again how r we doing today chat 🫠

[pinkieriver]

showtime’s sketches 🦷🃏

IM SO OBSSESED W THEM HELP ME

[xitsensunmoon]

Have you ever thought about how forgetting something can be a blessing?

You, as a human, maybe wouldn't agree on that. But every time they observed you, listened to you talk about something that was tugging at your mind for weeks... And then — poof. You didn't care anymore. Something that they couldn't afford, most of the time because they remembered how bad it actually was.

Humans call it "moving on". The brain just forgets the details, washes away the negative memories. It leaves a trace, a sinking, heavy feeling in your stomach when you thought about that situation when it was mentioned. But mostly, you didn't hold the needed information anymore to care.

Often times that not, they felt jealous of such ability. Memories are their most prized possession! If anything, their only possession. But they had seen things they wanted to forget. They knew things they didn't want to know. Oh, if only they were able to click that 'delete' button in their head.

Why did no one tell them you didn't choose which things to forget?

It was quite normal for children to be a bit forgetful. It's not something that phased them.

But you're not a child. You've been an adult for so long. Why do you look at them with such... Unfamiliarity? After so many years of knowing each other. Decades! You're supposed to have tons of memories with them! Did you not cherish those memories? Did you delete them on purpose? What did they do wrong for you to even think of doing that?

How could you forget their names?

Should they ask to delete yours?

[sysig]

Maybe something with Mousey being jealous of Hunter and Smoker for one reason or another? hehe

Day 7 - There might be a reason for that

Bonus:

[deoidesign]

Just a reminder, I have a patreon!!!

I've been working on actually making stuff to post more often for the lower tiers, and have been consistently doing so!

I post at least a few sketches and drawings every month for the $1 and up patrons

and I've been working on episodes and sharing some updates with my $5 and up patrons

And I have a merch club for $15 a month, but there's still some $10 slots left! I design and send usually a postcard and some stickers to my patrons every month, but sometimes I'll do some experimental stuff; last month I did foil prints, for instance, and a few months before I made magnets!

It also gets you access to private channels in my discord server, where I ask for patron input on things like the merch or drawings, and where I sometimes stream while working :)

Buuuut also, even if you don't want any of this stuff, it's a great way to support me directly if you like my work! I'm still on hiatus so I'm not making any money from work at the moment, but I'm working hard and my patreon enables me at least to buy my groceries!

Here's the link one more time, no pressure of course but I need to promote my patreon more so people actually know it exists haha

[moregraceful]

many things i have been keeping under wraps at work, such as pronouns, but also, very critically, age. bc i got that ageless mixed race asian swag where i am very clearly not an undergrad but also??? they just don't know. and it WHIPS and it is so funny to ME because all the managers and shift supervisors are like damn this girl in her mid-twenties is so easy to talk to, it's like talking to a peer. surprise bitch i'm older than you. and maybe this means i'm performing psychological experiments on cis men, but i am ngl if i hand you a two page resume that you don't read, it is simply none of MY business if you think i am in my mid-20s. they are going to be so mad when they find out lmao

[swagging-back-to]

bro this is *literally* why i do not fucking talk about it.

this is the exact response ive gotteen half the time I've told people about it irl.

the other half? people who self diagnosed themselves with DID and who harrassed me for weeks saying i was the one faking.

in short; i was completely correct. people literally cannot be normal about dissociation disorders and I'm done trying to be open about it :)

[moe-broey]

Adjacent topic, but. One of my favorite things actually is when Alfonse pulls the player aside and is like "Let me think out loud real quick." and when the situation calls for it, "Also what do you think?" Like obviously this happens so much across any game ever, especially ones that have a designated partner character. But it feels so special to me...

Especially with Alfonse, especially when he calls the summoner by name. He didn't used to do that!! In the very beginning!!! And he slips up, as Lif. Trying So hard to take it back. It just feels so personal... 🥲🥺

[idl3dr3ams]

I should get a pet crab

[sysig]

What is it that draws me to you (Patreon)

[lieutenantselnia]

Recently I've been thinking about self-shipping more actively with General Grievous/Qymaen jai Sheelal - he's been on my secondary f/o list anyway but I've found myself thinking more about him again in the past weeks. I just have no idea what kind of self-insert or oc to make for shipping with him😅

I originally fell for this guy the first time when I was about 13, without knowing what self-shipping even was, but my taste in this type of fictional characters was apparently already set back then (even if it took me a couple more years to admit it). In the Legends timeline my poor coughing cyborg boy actually has a pretty sad backstory, he could need some love I think <3

[wereh0gz]

It's oc posting time

Rue has vivid revenge fantasies. Extremely violent ones about the many ways they'd kill Nox if they ever got their paws on him. Crushing his exoskeleton under their bare paws, tearing him apart limb for limb, ripping his guts out and eating his heart while he's still alive- you name it, they've probably thought about it

These thoughts *terrify* her. It proves what Nox has always told her right, that she is a hopeless, violent, uncontrollable *monster*. That the reason she became a beast in the first place is because she is truly evil at heart, just like him

(In actuality, it's just a symptom of their PTSD, but going to therapy and actually unpacking all of that isn't an option to them. They'd rather die than actually talk abt their struggles)

So the thoughts fester in her mind for years. She thinks about it daily. It becomes like an obsession. An impulse. A need. And she begins to think that the only way to free herself from that torment is to do it. To kill him. Even if it proves Nox right

Even if it proves *her* right

So they hunt him down, trying to kill him every time they encounter each other. And every time, Nox gets away, and he taunts them. And the thoughts, the want, the *hunger* for vengeance grows stronger

The cycle continues. The thoughts never cease. She never finds peace

(At least, she *thinks* she will never find peace, but she does. Eventually. After Nox dies from his own hubris lol)

[allisonreader]

I don't know how to express what I want to at the moment...

At least not how to start off. How I truly want is to say something like "shoot me now" or "kill me now". Neither of which is what I really mean. Though curling up in a dark hole and crying sounds good about now.

I'm just being overly sensitive and distressed about having received two comments on old stories that I recently cross posted to AO3 that essentially accuse me of using ChatGPT or whatever it is to write them. Since I've seen them, I've been dwelling on them. Which feels so ridiculous, but I am. I don't know if I should have, but I responded to both explaining that the one thing was written like 10 years ago and the other probably about 20 when I was a literal child.

I still might go in a delete the comments on them.

Times like these are when I wonder if I have the right mentality to ever try to get anything professionally published one day.

It definitely makes me not want to post the couple of stories I was uncertain about posting already.

And it's not like the comments are completely unwarranted. The stories are definitely not well written, because they're OLD and I didn't want to rewrite them.

And now I'm kind of regretting posting them at all.

[adelle-ein]

i just do not get worked up about fandom drama and ship/character wars anymore and that's really nice