#opposite of vague posting

[mini-and-mighty]

Almost a year and it still hurts like day one.

Today is worse because my meds were changed. I know that. I know that this moment of intense sadness will fade and I will go on as I have these last 11 months. Getting up, going to work, simultaneously feeling like I'm making progress and barely holding it together.

But the ache never goes away. The loneliness, the sense of betrayal, the self-hatred, that never goes away.

The guilt never goes away.

One day I will be able to trust again. One day someone will say that they love me and they're here for me and they're always going to be by my side-- and I'll believe them.

Even people I've loved for years, no matter how many times they try to reassure me-- the deepest, smallest, weakest part of me still calls them liars.

I still can't be angry. I can't blame you for your decision. It was my fault. I will not paint you as the villain in what I thought was our fairytale love story.

But you have broken something. It's like you patched up a cracked piece of pottery only to leave it shattered.

It's odd. I don't want you to apologize. Grief and heartbreak are consequences I fully deserve.

But you still broke something. You hurt me. I deserved it, though I couldn't believe it. I was safe with you. I thought I was safe with you.

So I write this, fully aware that these feelings are more intense than they should be, fully aware that there is nothing that can be done to fix the past.

And yet I still write. I write when I have something to say but know that I could never get the right words to come out in the right order.

I write because I doubt I will ever speak to you again. You, meaning the person I remember, the person in the photographs, the person I fell in love with.

It's a small world. Our paths will probably cross again. But you will forever be a stranger to me.

[crownorclover]

i'm in me smartcar broom broom

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

real talk having the 2nd worst new years eve yet 🤢🤢🤢 (throat infection, twisted neck, banged-about-foot, ego AND the rest o' me all bruised like misjuggled peaches 🍑🍑🍑)

im bent outa shape and suspectin the universe owes me 8 buck if anyone wannsa chip in

[extra-v1rgin]

Went to a college party last night and hated it (left after 20 mins) which was $15!! And I’m already over budget for this pay period so I’m rlly hoping I get money tomorrow or I will cry hehe

[cable-salamdr]

Do y’all think that Sora is the one who first decides to not go with a similar outfit as the other ninja (Doc said it’s because she dislikes the conformity of all the same looking outfits) and then Arin goes along with that because he loves his best friend, but Sora will continue standing out as unique in a good way while Arin is just gonna be left out? M’just thinking about the way that Arin always looks up to people and copies them instead doing things his own way while Sora is exactly the opposite, and actually goes out of her way to do everything in her own kinda way.

[transingthoseformers]

Two very horny mech one openly (ko) one very repressed (ss) then their is Breakdown the only other Big sexy man with dumb himbo but good hearted (to those he loves) energy. And Skyfire giant marshmallow man with body of a giant and soul of a scholar and said.

Like that Simpson meme of Smithers (replace with a flustered Skyfire) with the two strippers (Starscream & Knockout) dancing on him. Pan out and you see Breakdown like some guard stopping others from stopping the seduction of the large shuttle by his two smaller boyfriends. And when they succeed he joins in.

Obvosly other dynamics can be made like that one post you had up were KOBD tell star scream he fumbled the shuttle but they won’t but the potential of other stuff is there.

Oooo okay interesting interesting

I can see fun dynamics between Breakdown and Skyfire

ALSO GOD THE CUDDLING I'M IMAGINING

[bubblegumgothglados]

A conversation I have in my head pretty frequently

*thinking about someone*

*a separate part of me, also thinking about her* mine

Wow nonono not ours

*forcefully* Mine.

No listen sh

MINE.

No shut up for a second Madeline sh

*growled with teeth bare* MINE!

Shut. Up. She's not ours, we don't own her, we never will

*dripping with venom and malice* m i n e

I know hun, I see it, it hurts me too seeing people treat her that way, but we still can't just claim ownership of her

*deep despair* mine?

No Madeline, not ours. But we own our own little thing remember? Don't you love owning them?

*infinite happiness* Miiiiiine

Ours

...

...

*with a vague feeling somehow conveying she's talking about everyone in the world* Mine?

Yeah still no hun, we probably won't ever be god and get to own everyone in the world, no matter how much better we could make it, no matter how much pain it causes us

*whimpered almost silently* mine

How about we spend the next few hours building an elaborate fantasy in which we kidnap her and then she is ours, does that sound good?

*enthusiastically* MINE!

Alright hun let's get to work

[dreadfuldevotee]

it is truly so boring that in a series that hits on racism and sexuality that when talking about racism and sexuality in the show and in the fanbase people act like you are making mountains out of mole hills

[catilinas]

prev post reminds me of my favouritest translation approach for when you can't choose between several interpretations either of a single word or a text as a whole which is just. translate it a whole bunch of times. you dont need one single perfect translation you can have like 70 that are all fucked up in different directions instead

[necrotic-nephilim]

for the choose violence ask game: 3, 8, 16 :D

for the choose violence ask game!

3. screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr

i was going to be kind enough to not screenshot but i lied i'm choosing violence. this is less of a take and more of an incorrect quote i suppose but. every time i remember it exists i stare at a wall for like 20 minutes.

most posts under the "chaotic tim drake"/"unhinged tim drake" tags do. get to me. they are all liable to make me spontaneously combust but something about this one. the way Tim's fanon kill count magically gets higher every time it's brought up. the way it directly contradicts Tim's internal deep-seated fears about turning into Bruce and that's why he has always planned to retire after being Robin the *entire point* of Tim Drake of Tomorrow is to show how horrified Tim is and how future!evil!Tim will always go too far. like i genuinely do not know what character ppl are talking about with the "Tim is most likely to become a supervillain and somehow this a cutesy headcanon" sort of thing. it plagues me. consider me plagued. i could go on and on about it for hours and how deeply it contradicts Tim's character to his core. also just why does the fandom want to make him a villain so bad? i don't understand.

8. common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

i already gave one answer to this question here, but worry not i have endless answers to this one. a bit one for me is: the idea Cass should use ASL. it icks me out. i will close a fic if Cass is using ASL i will not lie. firstly, she does not canonically know ASL. secondly, it doesn't make *sense* for her to use it bc her disability has nothing to do with the ability to speak, it has to do with her language learning skills. and ASL is, *still a language*. and would be just as difficult to learn, if not more-so bc it could set back her learning of English and would not be as easily applicable as English to her daily life. it's a headcanon that ranges from well-meaning misunderstandings to just downright ableism that infantilizes Cass and infantilizes ASL. honestly i get touchy in general about fandom using ASL when not written by a Deaf writer/someone who knows ASL bc... you can tell. you can always tell. (hearing fans stop trying to come up with sign names for the Batfam i'm gently begging you.) there are many good posts breaking down why this headcanon doesn't really work but i'm just salty and feral about it.

16. you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)

the headcanon/fanon concept that Tim has lasting psychological trauma due to the Titans Tower incident, or that it has caused him to be afraid of Jason. (the same can be applied to Damian cutting Tim's line being something that Matters to Tim longterm or causes fear of Damian) like? beyond the "that is not canon, that event really didn't bother Tim and Tim was a cocky little shit the whole time", i'm unsure how this... fits into the fanon version of Tim? like i don't *understand* it. how it is that fandom likes "Tim has a super high kill count and is going to be a supervillain" but also... thinks one bad fight that roughed Tim up a bit has made him terrified of one person specifically? these feel contradictory. either he can Take The Heat or He Can't. this weird waffling where he's both the biggest badass around but also somehow a wilting traumatized kid confuses me. i don't necessarily mind the exploration of Tim being angry or pissed off about these events, or even him being more injured than he was in canon and dealing with that, but him being like. so afraid of Jason it influences their relationship has always eluded me. it contradicts everything else about fanon!Tim and makes him seem... sort of cowardly? like not that events like these can't be traumatizing but in his field of work they're not unique events. these are normal Tuesdays for him. why is it affecting him so much in fanon.

[bijoumikhawal]

*sees a long post from an American comparing Cardassia to the USSR/China* *rolls eyes and keeps scrolling*

[kattitude130]

it sounds so Cringe to say but genuinely from watching so much subtitled anime (anime chrono watch) i do know a lot of vocabulary now and listening to japanese songs and being able to kind of understand bits and pieces is pretty cool. i do plan on actually learning it normally eventually

[courfee]

writing patterns

rules: list the first line of your last 10 (or however many you have) posted fics and see if there's a pattern!

thank you for the tag @imdamagecontrol <333

Borrow My Name

James pulls the door to his flat shut and takes the three steps to the opposite side of the staircase with purpose.

2. If you ask nicely

Now the thing is – James is great at flirting.

3. if this be done

James Potter lives in a beautiful cottage in the middle of a green forest with red shutters on all his windows and yellow flowers of every variety one can think of in his garden.

4. Something That Tastes Almost Divine

Yes, they were best friends.

5. Operation Walburga's Arbitrary No Kissing Ever Rule

The first thing James sees when he comes back home after his Quidditch training is Sirius lying on his bed, which in and of itself is not an unusual thing at all, seeing as Sirius has spent the better part of every single summer holiday so far at Potter Manor.

6. blindspot

James wakes up far too late, which he only realises because of the huge alarm clock next to Regulus’ bed glaring at him with its deep green digits.

7. Nature Assigns the Sun

Courfeyrac has always been happy.

8. Watch Me Meet My End

Dear Mr. Remus Lupin, As you know, the next Hogwarts year starts on 1 September.

9. On Lies And Spies

Peter hadn’t exactly been thrilled when Dumbledore had asked him to be his spy, but he had felt honoured and important for once and that was enough for him to agree.

10. All My Theory Complete

Regulus Black felt emotions in secret.

no pressure tagging @iceprinceofbelair @jmeslovr @messrsage @messymoony

[theshadowrealmitself]

He’s from fucking Iowa why is he saying “bloody” in front of everything

[olrinarts]

so i'm working on politific, right - actually, i should explain that a bit

politific being the shorthand for my current big project, which is a political story (shock, that) taking place 80 years after the Lamb became the god of Death, when the Mystic Seller 'helpfully' dumps Narinder on their lap. you know. after he explicitly requested to be killed after he was defeated. So Lamb's dealing with their former god who keeps not behaving the way they expect him to, as well as the complex political landscape of trying to grow their religion (especially now that the former god is around, which is potentially a lot more destabilising than even the Bishops hanging around), and their own past finally catching up to them around two centuries after they died the first time

SO to the reason i mention all that, which is that as a political story, I need to keep track of all of the players - I like DMing games with a bunch of NPCs and social situations, so that's fine, I'm used to that part

but i have 5 pages of notes, front and back, just on the players in the first arc, and I am having some regrets

not enough to not be enthused about writing the fic, but they ARE there

[autopsytableromance]

One funny thing to me is that sometimes my bestie will send me reels like this one

And I have to be like. Bestie I appreciate that you’re on my “side” ig but 1 I’m just having fun and 2 in no way did he treat me like his bf and our FIRST text conversation he was like “hey I don’t want you to get the wrong idea bc I don’t want a relationship”