#only time i don’t is when i pray
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Enhancers? 😭 omegaverse my beloved. Hybrid AU my beloved. Werewolf AU my beloved.
#omi.rambles#I kinda only find it interesting when abo has that little bit of dubcon mixed in#I mean yes I eat everything I am served#but I have favorites#i used to pray for times like this#I don’t wanna hear the *he wouldn’t do that* MY BALLS#omegaverse cw#tw hybrids#tw teratophilia
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crying during crying during sex
#txt#ethel cain#hayden anhedönia#i lied when i said i didnt want you#holding onto you like i do like we’re the only people in the world god left to mind to#two drowning coals won’t ever light#but if i ask you to you’ll warm the night#terrified you’ll bite the hand that needs you#i don’t know what happened i don’t know what happened i was young and sweet and then something happened#i hate him for the time he’s gone#i forgot what stop means#it’s easy for him to get out of me what i’ve been praying will get out of me#will i always be crying during sex with you#all my dreams take place in heaven where it’s quiet lying next to you#and if i’m crying it’s because i’m in love#and i could love you if i tried and i’m trying i’m trying i’m trying i’m trying
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About to commit a murder, my mom is making me so mad
#‘I’m not the only one who can see the house is a mess’#and you’re children don’t have time becahse you stack so much on our plates we’re about to collapse#‘and yet I’m the only who doesn’t have room to breathe’#what?#see previous comment#you are forcing us to do shit that you picked up volauntarily when we’re already incredibly stressed out#we have no time#we have about as little room to breathe as you do#yet you’re the only one who gets to complain#I’m so fucking done#just a few more years and I can get out#praying I make it that long#I’m just so tired#vent#vent post
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“hey so there’s been a bunch of exposures recently but we’re gonna have the volunteer party this week bc it’s outdoors so we’ll be fine. yeah it’s a bunch of people all talking maskless face to face in relatively close proximity but we’re outside so any transmission would of course be impossible” be so fucking for real
#i love this place i love volunteering there. they have air purifiers around the center and tell people in no other words that if they’re#feeling unwell in the slightest they shouldn’t come in. they’re offering free tests to anyone exposed. they’re doing so much more than so#many other places and a lot of times it’s a place im able to relax a bit#but im just. exhausted. a week from tomorrow will be the three year anniversary of my dad dying from covid so im already in a bad place#plus covid in general is a trigger for me because. yknow. i watched it slowly strangle the life from my father until he was a grey#breathless husk who couldn’t walk three steps or say three words without panting. and that was when we made him go to the hospital#and then the next time he came home it was just his ashes in a bag#but it’s been four years. five if you count the early cases that popped up in 2019. and we’re still dealing with this shit#im just tired of it. im too exhausted to have a full sobbing shaking breakdown so ive gone to the other end of the spectrum and just feel#heavy and hollow. i should probably have a big cry but i don’t have the tears or energy#vent tw#im just hoping my n95 and the air purifiers were enough to keep me from contracting it at all. the worry is the n95 could’ve been loose and#sometimes the metal on the nose loosens slightly but the mask was pretty new overall so im hoping it worked to its full capacity and kept#out any covid molecules so that i didn’t contract any#only time will tell i suppose. in the mean time#im just praying a lot bc that’s the only control i have. i will be saying the shema whenever i get too stressed about it
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it is unfortunate when i go to prayer and cry my eyes out and the only response i really hear is that i simply have to bear it. like usually i can get my emotions out and once they’re settled i hear a rational solution but it sucks when i don’t get the answer i want. i just have to keep waiting. like normally i hear something that gives me strength but wow apparently i’ve hit a new low
#literally all my problems would be so much easier to deal with if i had friends#and normally i’d be told ‘do this and you’ll probably find friends’#my plan has always been just to wait for someone to find me bc i’m horribly shy and antisocial#even though logically i know that’s a bad way of going about it#my logical rational analytical brain has always been obsessed with finding concrete answers. it’s always been ‘what can *I* do’#so even when i suffer there’s a part of me that says ‘it’s ok once i’m done crying i can work this out and go right back to trying’#i’ve been emotionally dead for years but i’ve always held onto faith like that#tonight i feel like i’ve been brought low. i feel like i’ve finally been told that i might just have to wait after all#which i might think would be comforting bc it absolves me of responsibility#but it’s actually crushing bc it absolves me of power#i feel like i’m finally facing the realization that i’m powerless and pathetic and i’m never going to be able to fix myself#that i can try as hard as i want but i can’t shake off this cross#but i don’t know how long i have to wait for someone to find me#and even if they find me how do i not fumble it#my first instinct is to push people away bc i assume they’re not really interested they’re just trying to be nice#which is usually true#i don’t even know how to sustain casual friendships and im so desperately in need of deep ones#i can’t open up to someone without just breaking apart and making it clear how pathetic i am#one would think i ought to find someone better than myself who can fix me#but on the other hand i think the only time that the good parts of me come out is when im facing someone even worse than me#like i have a tendency to morph into the opposite of the other person in any given situation to maintain healthy balance#so like when surrounded by extroverts which is almost always i become an introvert#it’s rare to meet an introvert but then i become stronger and more extroverted around them. like something in me just loves helping others#even though i can’t help myself#what do i pray for? a fellow pathetic person? or someone with the patience and kindness and life knowledge of a saint?#will either of them really be found just by chance in my life?#and even if i do meet someone. truly i wish they’d also be lonely. i want them to need me#i don’t want to be a pity charity case. like a side project for someone with real friends already
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“You did not live in a house of horrors. I was raised to believe in hellfire; now that was bad!” Okay and impending global genocide of any culture that disagrees with your beliefs isn’t? Being raised mentally preparing to withstand torture at the hands of police in a “do it to Julia” situation isn’t? Being socially isolated from your peers on the grounds that they’re evil uneducated dumb worldly heathens controlled by Satan isn’t a bad thing? No. Those are all good things which every child should be taught in order to experience “the real life.”
The legitimate truth is that we are all in “the real life” right now and in “the real life,” the Governing Body is doing the very best they can to cover up the fact that they’re a cult by relaxing the cult’s rules in a futile attempt to prevent the prosecution in the numerous ONGOING child sexual abuse cases from handing their non-tight-pants-wearing asses to them. And the other legitimate truth is discovering this fact to be the legitimate truth while having to navigate a sea of lies and high school is extremely traumatizing, especially when you feel the need to take a hard stance against the cult to prevent others’ children — children like you — from befalling the same fate by dressing up as some miserable wretch who cooked and ate children, hoping the way you look and carry yourself and stare into the parents’ eyes will scare them away. And even more traumatizing is that your tactics worked; proving that you are just as bad and scary as your preexisting OCD made you out to be. Yes I did it to myself; but consider the reason why I felt so compelled to sacrifice the entirety of my mental health to sabotage you with what little tools I had. I wouldn’t have done it had I not had a very good reason, and my very good reason was that I was a child who loved children. You were trying to protect me and it was a sacrifice; but I was also trying to protect children. My endeavor is not — and was never — a selfish one. It is not that I don’t care about you; I only prioritize the class which is most oppressed, and you are not a part of it because you are adults. Your feelings, unfortunately, are expendable in my mission to end religious child labor. I will not support your corrupt religion to make you happy when I know what it’s done to others and to myself; it is wrong, and you are wrong for supporting it. I, as a paraprofessional, refuse to support a religion which hides the sexual abuse of children for its own gain. By law I am now a mandatory reporter; I must report child abuse when I see it under penalty of law. Therefore it stands to reason that I must report your cult from the top of every mountain for the entire inhabited earth to hear so they may not even take so much as one step in your direction. I am sorry if I seem like I hate you; if the fact that I reject your ideals of theological expectational fascism disturbs you so much, then maybe you need to re-evaluate your choices.
“Your actions affect others.” I know my actions affect others; I know how they affect others as well. You’re crushed and demoralized and suffering physically from all the emotional stress; I’ve likely dug you both early graves. I know what I’ve done and I can live with it — Not easily — but I am not defeated because I know I’m in the right, and have always been in the right. No. The real question is: Do you know how your actions are affecting others? In exquisite detail? Have you listened to the victims? Have you allowed yourself to hear both sides of the story with your human ears, not ones made of tin and thought-blocking strategies and “I had it worse than you” excuses? No? Then you’d better start because the key to healing yourself is to aid in the healing of others. We are all connected as one body; and I refuse to be a cancer cell. Sorry I’m aiding in your downfall but it’s got to happen at some point.
#You know if my mom is praying for me to come back then it’s only fair I perform spells for her to get out. Nonconsensual be our watchword#My dad is surprisingly handling it much better than my mom which I did not anticipate at ALL#Because he was the most volatile when I got forcibly outed. Like yelling and throwing books levels of volatile#I think it’s their respective emotional proximity to the cult. My mom is more in than my dad#My dad is not attending meetings as far as I’m aware (and if he is listening on Zoom then he leaves when a certain person speaks)#All my mom does is study and walk (in preparation for the Tribulation) and work a bloodsucking corporate job for ten hours a day#She attends all the meetings on Zoom#And she’s the one constantly saying in a grave tone of voice “You’ve made your choices. I just want what’s best for you and this isn’t it.#It’s hard when you put in 21 years and your baby is gone. I feel like I’ve lost you. I don’t feel like I know you anymore.”#Because you’ve never known me. The environment did not feel safe enough for me to make myself known#and therefore I split in two at approximately age five or six#Whereas my dad is like “Hey I know we have our differences; but I’d like to focus on our similarities because that’s what matters.”#Like uh… Can I get a hell yeah?#He mentions religion a lot but it’s not as stressful as my mom basically hammering into me that my choices are “bad”#exjw#ex cult#It’s hilarious and sad to see them deny it’s a cult or that they’re brainwashed while trying to impose that same emotional control over me#without even realizing they’re guilt-tripping because they’re running on hurt feelings and faltering religious autopilot#Anyway if anyone’s got me I know “Pink Pony Club” by Chappell Roan has got me good god#The first time I listened to that song I almost broke down sobbing in a car of people I just met on the way to a pride dance#But I kept it together
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every time i go to take these goddamn pills i forget how to swallow what is UP with that .
#and it does NOT help that they taste so fucking bad. and dissolve so quick. i’ve almost thrown up like three times this week#also cause i wanted to comment on it but not make a Poast about it — the histal being a mild sedative would be somewhat worrisome if not for#the way the side effects annoyingly amuse me akxkskfnksc like i get loopy but not laughing gas loopy —#like i’m in control of what i’m saying but my inhibitions are much lower and i can tell my words are slightly slurred skdjskjd it’s what i#imagine being high/tipsy is like for you guys? i wouldn’t know so i can only guess#and i do appreciate the way they get me to sleep but i doubt i would ever take them solely for that purpose bc of how bad they are at it#like i do get sleepy but then i don’t even fall asleep for a good while like half an hour and then when i’m ready to get up it’s like woops!#you’re too tired! so i’m up for like 5 minutes and respond to messages or eat a nibble or whatever and then i’m knocked out for another hour#and it’s like that for the whole day and i’m like Okay. Thats Not The Point Here.#and for those reasons: you have been chopped. <- can you see them taking effect?#i said that and i meant to say it. but does it make sense#not much! anyways. off to take these other two pills. pray for me#stop talking abbie
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IF everything goes well and I actually start my new job. I may actually go ahead and start buying the RoV manga with my first few paychecks
#I haven’t bought a manga since Princess Jellyfish#but I really want to support Ikeda. Most of the time I don’t feel too bad about pirating anime and manga#but with RoV it somehow feels bigger than other anime/manga I’ve read recently#it just feels important and impactful and historic#(I know that this is because RoV is much more explicitly political than most anime/manga. tbh I HATE it when people gripe about how#‘anime/manga/movies/comics shouldn’t be political’ not only just because they’re almost always complaining about things that#aren’t actually political [e.g. diversity in race or sexualities]#but also because politics makes art better! Politics are a part of my life and I want to see characters be political! It creates a unique#connection and resonance and brotherhood that simply doesn’t exist outside of the political. Like a core reason why Oscar is so compelling#is because she’s political!)#anyway rant over. pray for my wallet 🙏#RoV read
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It isn’t potential, though. Vegeta is famously, canonically, interesting and complex and well written, despite the anime’s best efforts to stifle it. The nuggets you get from Toei are what survived them scraping off Toriyama’s (very good, highly skilled) storytelling and character writing to focus on making Goku as plastic and stiff as the action figures they use the series to market (which Toriyama actively, vocally, and repeatedly did not want or like).
when u like a character for their potential to be interesting and complex more than how they’re actually written
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#Vegeta has one of the most *famously* well-written developmental character arcs of all time fjdjd this post was Not About Him#Unless this is someone who has only ever seen DBS’ anime I do not understand this take Geets’ arc is 30 years old and largely unmatched#The anime scrapes off the nuance and love and force feeds you corporate protag worship so you’ll buy branded shit with protag’s face on it#I WISH I was exaggerating but I’m so bitter about Corporate Greed bleeding out good storytelling for the last decade lmao#I remember when I was blaming Toriyama for Toei’s writing. I’m so glad I know better now. Toriyama’s writing is so charming.#And honestly nothing summarizes my beef better than that One Panel of Vegeta and Trunks hanging out with Bulma and Dr B in the lab when Cel#Announced the Cell games.#The Anime 1) took bulma out of the lab 2) has geets start beef for no reason 3) has him leave without trunks and 4) just totally overrides#that despite all the grandstanding and attitude and mistakes leading up to that point Vegeta is there seated in the room with his family#Not pouting or grumpy or forced he’s just chillin in a chair in the lab while Bulma and DrB work on 16#And then when he leaves and Trunks follows and Bulma offers him a haircut Geets STOPS and WAITS for his son to be finished#like that scene is everyone grouped off with the people they’re closest to in the manga and Geets is with his family#That’s Toriyama’s Vegeta. Toei decided to make that moment about beefing with Yamcha and Bulma being out …? shopping…???#And Roshi explaining the Concept of a tournament to everyone before Cell explains what a tournament is to everyone. again.#Anyway old man yells at cloud hashtag ReadTheManga you get it#10 Days Til Daima!#Praying they don’t fuck up the final thing Toriyama ever trusted them with!!!!#But the woman writing it also wrote cells at work so at the VERY least we’re getting a cute funny DB show#Which tbh is all I want at this point
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I’ve lived near these things my whole life I’m surprised it hasn’t happened yet lmao
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#they’re a creature to me#like the earthmovers but more gentle#you see them in a distance when your at the park near it#there’s a playground and you can see these across the water and it smells like the bay and there’s algae everywhere and bugs and lizards in#the rocks and your pretty sure the concrete structures you played around when you where kids were used for warships in ww2 or smth#at least that’s what you get from the information signs you used to go on your tiptoes to read#you can see them from the short ads public lighthouse through the binoculars that are older than you’ve ever been#and the tides out but the sand is still soft and you almost told that girl you liked her but chickened out cause you were trying to save a#ladybug at the time and decided it wasn’t a good time anyways. and sometimes when your driving on a highway near the water you remember#‘lighthouse park’ and think that maybe your childhood wasn’t that bad afterall#no matter how many scraped knees you got or how many times you fell off your skeboard or bike they watched over you and prayed for your pain#to ease. watching them move was like watching an angel walk and you never understood why but it made sense#and one day I’m gonna be there and I’ll watch who I used to be from it’s torso and hope those kids don’t get too hurt on their Saturday off#and I’ll wave at them while they watch me move in ways that are I comprehensible to them but they’ll understand#they’re kids they’re the only ones who will#idk what the fuck I’m talking about lmao I love these things there’s murals of them all over the place I like em (:#search up ‘ship cranes Oakland’ and you’ll see a whole bunch of pictures of them
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Someone take me from this rotten household
#always my fault and everyone else’s actions are always excusable#dora daily#apparently I get treated the best ? the best my ass#I honestly don’t see her screaming at anyone but me most of the time#she doesn’t even scream that much at my dad mind you#wth do I do at this point#they’re so privileged like I’m never in their way bc I KNOWWWWW THEYLL be mean to me if I end up talking a bit more#and in fact they’re the ungrateful ones cause they beg me to speak to them for some reason#BUT THEYRE SO STUPID AS TO DEDUCE THAT ME SPEAKING TO THEM TRIGGERS SOMETHING IN THEM#they’re so lucky I always stay in my room and keep to myself#lmfao and my dads like talk to us ! tell us how you feel ! I’ve been your age and ik it’s hard so tell us#BUT WETHER I DONT TELL YOU OR NOT WHEN YOU FIND OUT IM CAPABLE OF EMOTION YOU JUST MAKE FUN OF ME#every time I’ve ever cried in front of them they laugh at me#and my sister is so stupid she copies everyone around her#and she laughs at memories of me crying when I was younger#or makes fun of them#honestly praying and whatnot doesn’t do anything#what’s the point of anything anymore I just want to lay on my bed forever and do nothing#well ironically enough my dad doesn’t laugh at me when I cry it’s just my mum#she’s like you’re always in a bad mood or upset or whatnot then leave me the fuck alone always what’s wrong with you#some ppl would beg for their kids to give them space and I have look at the other three that they have they can occupy them#if only I weren’t a coward and could actually go through with kms I cantttt
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Uh post-mental-breakdown clarity has hit and I am realizing I might have doomed myself by taking this woman back when she implied she’d kill herself if I didn’t
#also the way she told me she was going home (Mexico) and already sold her vehicles but then apparently teleported to work the very next day#*sold all her vehicles in under 12 hours I should say#chat am I cooked#idk what to do tbh I like her but like I don’t think we should be together actually#like I only actually feel romantic attraction when I’m delusional also apparently it doesn’t happen normally#fuck the whole big issue between us is also something I warned her about#SEVERAL TIMES and she said it was fine#but now she’s saying I make her depressed but if I leave her she’ll sewerslide??#praying to god she like decides on her own that this isn’t healthy for anyone#vent#delete later
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Today is 9/11, a day where I feel there will be at least one school shooting in America.
Stay safe.
#fuck america#i hate living in america#I hate living in fear#I shouldn’t be afraid to go to school#I shouldn’t have to go through metal detectors to get inside my school#I shouldn’t have to look through a list of schools that are reportedly targets for school shootings and pray that my school isn’t on there#some of my friends schools are on there#what am I supposed to do about that#how am I supposed to function when I know that at any time#me or my friends schools could be in danger#I’m only seventeen#I don’t want to die
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I am baking cake at midnight and it is going to kill me <3
#it’s just gone in the oven which means at least 25 minutes and probably more like 45 bc I made a Lot#am also kiiiinda winging the recipe so my expectations are on the floor#this is. for a bake sale. pray for me#I’m gonna make the icing tonight and leave it in the fridge overnight I think for tomorrow morning#this has gone wrong at every available opportunity it was 100% not worth it#however! given the prices my friend wants to sell this at i May have turned this into like over £100 which isn’t bad#TWO CAKES. WHY AM I MAKING TWO CAKES#I’m procrastinating washing up the stuff I used to make the batter (hell) bc itssosososo messy and I just wanna shout abt stuff#primarily that I am once again so upset that I only get one more week of ice hockey before summer#there are two parts to this feeling: 1. I love ice hockey I’ve been having such a good time this past week while I’ve not had to stress#abt anything else. 2. gay. gay gay homosexual gay#like okay I’ve been worried abt whether this is an actual crush or I just convinced myself I like him bc pretty+queer#(because of course I can worry abt that). BUT yeah sorry no can confirm I like this dumb fuck this is so unfair#we talked a BUNCH last night and he’s just really cool.#ohhhh fuck I don’t think the oven was properly preheated bc I opened it for a while to fit the two tins in. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#anyway!! he’s really fun to talk to someone help like if he does turn out to be single I could in THEORY text him over summer. maybe.#his birthday will be coming up and my friend suggested that. I’m being insane but oh my god this is torture#I ALSO watched the newest dr who episode today and that did NOT HELP. one of the first things in a while that have given me like#this same specific feeling when I get into gay romantic media. the ‘reading gay shit on wattpad at age 14 feeling’ if you will#where there’s like this weight in the pit of my stomach. it’s NICE that doesn’t sound good but it is#is this what straight people get with romance all the time. I know I just don’t watch/read much anymore but also#there’s straight romance in literally everything so.#but yeah basically I need another month of fuck around time minimum when everyone’s in this city so I can get my shit together#ALSO. I ONLY HAVE A YEAR LEFT HERE. THATS TERRIFYING. a year is a long time but it’s also not this one disappeared and this is like.#WAY too early to even consider that but he’s gonna be here probably for a year after I leave and that could suck if anything does happen.#I guess in theory I’m taking a year before phd probably so I could work here. idk man anyway that one is actually insane of me I’m just gay#boy 😔. they shouldn’t be allowed to do this#on Wednesday he’ll be done with exams and so will my other friend who knows him well. so I will be able to 1. subtly see w her if girlfriend#2. potentially. MAYBE ask what she thinks I’m just trying to decide whether that’s too much to put on her. I think I’m being insane there#luke.txt
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sex pollen troubles - ft. k. bakugou
summary: prohero!Bakugou gets hit with a sex quirk. too bad his roommate hates him—right?
wc: 1.8k
pairing: prohero!Katstuki Bakugou x roommate!reader
content warnings: MDNI, Bakogou has a roommate because his therapist tells him to, fem!reader is an investigative journalist, gratuitous use of Ace (hello gilmore girls fans) idiot Katsuki, pining Katsuki, fingerless gloves make an appearance sorry not sorry, making out, fingering, unprotected sex, dirty talk, pet names like baby, pretty girl, princess, breeding but only if you squint
a/n: word vomited this out in less than 24 hrs
He’s praying you don’t pick up.
“Bakugou?” You sound annoyed, a little suspicious even.
He never calls you.
“Ace.” You hate that nickname, but the thought of saying your actual name in the desperate growl that is his voice right now makes his head spin. “I need - fuck - are you home right now?”
Sex quirks are a dime a dozen these days. He’s been hit with a few before, simple one that are usually pretty easy to shake. (He still hates the premature ejaculate memory, though, coming home with his boxers stiff and an image of you spread out on his bed playing like a film in his head. He hadn't been able to look you in the eyes for weeks.)
He’s never been hit with one as strong as this. The second the mist hit his nostrils he was huffing up the scent of vanilla and citrus and strong black coffee, just the way you like it, before he realized what was happening, the villain ripping down the street in the opposite direction while arousal hit him like a truck.
Bakugou's practically doubled over talking to you now, the ache in his dick throbbing in time with his fucking heartbeat.
“Yeah, I’m home.” Even annoyed you sound like heaven. “What’s going on? You don’t sound like yourself.”
He barks out a laugh, and before he knows it, he's telling you the truth. “Got hit with a sex quirk. A big one.”
Your breath bitches slightly on the other line. He’s pretty sure his cock jumps at the sound.
“And I - " need you right fucking now - “fuck - I can’t call anyone else.”
It has to be you. He’s got women he could call, sure, anyone who might want to get into a pro hero’s pants, but it has to be you for a reason he doesn’t want to look at too closely.
You’re silent for a beat, before you say, “Send me a pin. I’ll come get you.”
He hated you at first. Always talking his ear off about every fucking thing, bringing up articles that remind you of cases you're covering—it was like living with Deku dialed up to 11.
But what he hated even worse was when you stopped talking. When you realized he wasn’t actually gonna come around and be nice to you, when you figured out, oh fuck, he’s actually just an angry prick, and left him alone.
One day he could count on constant chatter when he was back from patrol, the next, nothing at all. You even switched up your schedule so he barely saw you, a fact he didn’t tell his court-ordered therapist because he was supposed to be getting better at being around other people, not worse.
He hates remembering this now with his dick hard as steel and weeping from the tip like he’s fucking 15. The alley is secluded, thank fuck, so no one can see him shaking and groaning, forearms braced on the wall in front of him, head hanging down like a panting dog. He can barely move; every brush of his pants against his erection like a live wire to the brain.
By the time you pull up—five minutes, forty six seconds later, he counted—he’s so frayed and tense that the minute he sees your face, he shouts, “Took you fucking long enough."
Your face shutters closed the way it always does around him, and he wants to fucking die.
“Fuck, Ace, I’m sorry - it’s just, I’m fucking miserable right now - "
“Why did you call me, Katsuki?”
It’s a mistake to look you in the eye. His restraint is a razor’s edge at this point, and seeing your beautiful face is too much. You've always been pretty, but the light shining on your soft hair is convincing him he can write fucking poetry all of a sudden.
“You know why,” he grits out.
You step forward, vanilla and citrus and coffee flooding his nose.
“No, I don’t. You act like you fucking hate me half the time and ignore me the rest.” You scrape a hand across your face in frustration. “And then you call me sounding like that. Why wouldn't I be confused?"
“I want you.” It’s out of his mouth in a flash, and he knows it’s the right thing to say by the way your shoulders relax. “I’m a fucking asshole, I know it. I’m not good at feelings, baby, I'm sorry, but I want you so fucking bad it’s like I could break my teeth over it. It has to be you, Ace, fuck, I’m sorry, it can’t be anyone else - "
You shut him up your mouth, your lips locking into his as both of your noses bump against each other. He doesn’t care; he just needs you as close to him as he can get you. It’s better than anything he imagined, finally touching you, finally giving in to the attraction that’s dogged him ever since you walked into his life.
You taste like coffee and a little bit of that strawberry lip gloss he loves so much. He licks into the seam of your mouth and relishes the shiver that goes through your body.
“Like that, baby?” He breaks away, nosing at your jaw, nipping at the juncture of your throat. That makes you gasp. “You smell so fucking good here.” He jerks his hips, hisses through his teeth as his cock jumps in his pants, pulsing with need.
“Let me,” he hears you say, and you’re tugging his pants open to get your hand around him. The second your fingers wrap around him his eyes roll up in his head. He could cum just from this, he realizes.
“Of course you’d have a pretty dick,” you say with a look of annoyance, and he’s not entirely sure what to say to that besides puff up his chest. You laugh, and it’s almost fond, and goddammit he wants you more than he’s ever wanted anything else -
With a growl, he pulls your hand away and backs you up against the wall, peppering kisses down your neck. The whines he’s pulling from your mouth is making everything in his life worth it. He’d fight a thousand fucking villains if it meant this, fingering the seam of your panties under your little skirt as you cry out for more.
“Wear this for me?”
“Like fucking hell I did,” you retort.
“Sure thing, princess.” He runs the pad of two fingers over the soaking wet seam of your panties. A feral grin passes over his face as your thighs tremble and press together. “This just happened to you all on your own?”
He roughly pulls your panties to the side to gather up the slick at your entrance, pushing your hips apart and settling himself between them.
“You’ve gotta come first, pretty girl.” You like when he calls you pet names; he’s been watching the way your skin breaks down out in goosebumps each time. It’s a like a drug being this close to you, making you feel this good. “The second I’m inside ya I’m gonna blow my fucking load so be good and come for me, yeah?”
The rough material of his fingerless gloves rubs against your clit as he stuffs two fingers in your pussy. Your little hole sucks him in greedily as you whine and buck against him.
“Harder, Kats, please - you won’t fucking break me - "
He adds another finger to stretch you out, keeping his palm rocking against your pubic bone with every grind. You’re fluttering around his fingers, whimpers echoing off the walls in the alley.
“That’s it, baby, there you go. Fuck, yeah, you like me stuffing this pretty pussy full?” You dig your nails into his scalp as you hold onto him for dear life, whimpers ratcheting up to moans and cut-off screams as he starts to feel your cunt clamp down hard on him.
You moan his name against his neck as you cum. “Just needed to think about me stuffing you full?” He can’t help but smirk, which quickly turns into a hissing groan when your hand finds him again and positions him right at your core.
“I could say the same for you,” you smirk, rolling your hips and coating the head of his cock in the slick of your orgasm. He chokes on his spit, bracing one forearm on the wall behind you, his free hand stilling your hips in place.
“Lift me up,” you pout.
“Didn’t know you were bossy.”
“Didn’t think you would like it,” you shoot back, rolling down onto his cock and taking an inch of him inside you. “This position’s better, isn’t it?”
“Of course it is, you devil woman.” He can barely think. “Baby, I don’t - god fucking damn it - I don’t have any - "
“I’m on birth control and I’m clean.”
“Same. Clean, too, I mean.” He’s rambling. He never rambles. “I’ve got my check-up stats in my phone if you’d like to see them.”
You laugh, and it’s the sweetest sound he’s ever heard in his entire life.
“Can I kiss you?”
It takes him aback, but he’s been dying to know what you taste like since he met you, honestly.
“Yeah, pretty girl. You can kiss me.” He nips at your mouth and laughs at your pout when he pulls away. “Let me get all the way inside ya though first, huh?”
He feeds you his dick inch by inch, clenching his teeth at the way you squirm and plead for more. You’re slippery and warm, your cunt making obscene squelching noises with every rock of his hips.
With one final thrust, he’s seated up to the hilt, balls slapping against the meat of your thighs and ass.
“So fucking perfect,” he moans in your ear. “All for me - just for me, isn’t that right, Ace?”
Your head jerks up and down in affirmation.
“Say it, pretty girl. Say you’re fucking mine. Tell me how much you like my dick getting this pussy nice and tight. Bet I can get her to scream again, huh?”
He pinches your clit between two fingers. You jerk in his arms.
“Close, princess? Like it a little mean?”
He rocks his his up so he’s dragging the head of his cock across your g spot, over and over. Your eyes roll back in your head and your breathing gets shallower, shorter.
“Please please don’t fucking stop, ohmygodohmygod feels so fucking good, Kats- "
Your pussy clamps down on him like a vice and all rhythm flies out the window. He grabs the meat of your hips and fucks up into you roughly, shooting thick ropes of cum against your cervix.
The creamy sticky ring at the base of his cock when he pulls out is probably the hottest thing he’s ever seen in his life.
He looks up at you, sees the appreciative gleam in your eye. You're turned on by that, too.
“Can we do this again when we’re home?” he asks. “Maybe after I’ve made you dinner?”
The smile you return is like the sun. “We better.”
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