#only some of them get full names bc they're the only ones i remember and i'm too lazy to google
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Most of mine ARE the AUs
As in... Most of them are based on pre-existing OCs refitted to fit XIV
And even then, almost all my FFXIV chars have both an RP version and a WoL AU version
And on top of THAT some of them have further AUs
Oh and I have a general "everyone is here" AU I play with where they all are there as scions at once, so they're basically sharing the WoL spotlight but only one is allowed to actually be Azem there and I haven't decided who yet.
Tl;DR if you don't wanna click the read more:

Most of any of these exist primarily in my head tho.
Kalith has the most! Or at least the most based on her XIV-self. Cause that's my gurl and I love playing with her concept lots
She's originally a FFIV after years fanchar
I am contemplating an AU of that version of her where her father never fucked off
She has the XIV version built for RP
Her WoL AU
"everyone is here"
A WoL AU where Ysayle lives solely so that I can make a polycule at the expense of Estinien's sanity.
An AU where her mom gets hired by Godbert to work at the gold saucer so she becomes a chocobo jockey instead and also her parents get back together sooner bc Uldah is actually where her father fled to after being branded a heretic.
A secret extra AU for a tabletop campaign where I played with the idea where her parents were never separated to begin with(spoilers she's not an only child anymore) and also I made her full elezen bc I thought it'd be funny to have the original human, hyurezen, and elezen versions.
A uhhh modern mashup AU that blends the cast of IV and XIV together. Bc it's just fun lol.
To go down the rest of the List:
Izumi: one of the few that isn't based on another OC! Outside of "everyone is here" Izumi just has her RP version and her shared WoL AU with her husband (I don't have it in me to give her a solo AU)
Draelkiith:
Original OC version
He has a Steven universe version(loosely based on the original)
XIV RP version
WoL AU
"everyone is here"
I know I made a tabletop version of him at one point but it's also based on the original, not XIV
Iekka:
Also a rare one not based on a previous OC! Her name comes from my personal avatar but isn't based on her, Izumi is the one physically based on the original Iekka bc of a silly chain of events. But Iekka fits the vibe of a Viera name better than Au Ra anyway so it all worked out.
(Basically, Iekka was originally physically what Izumi is, but I transferred her to a different server. When I replaced her bc I couldn't transfer her back in I renamed and fantasia'd an alt and I decided to make her lore-ready since I was starting to take an interest in RP so that's how Izumi was born. Then Viera came out and I decided to pop a fantasia on Iekka to differentiate the two and when the data center split happened I got to move her back to my main server for free)
She has her RP-ready version
Her WoL AU
"everyone is here"
And a WoL AU where Haurchefant lives so that she gets to have three whole boyfriends bc we love polyamory in this house
Samir:
Original OC Version
RP-ready version is almost done being reworked, I'm mostly waiting on the Arcadion arc to finish out so I can resolve the fact that there is no way he doesn't have !¡!¡!¡!¡!SPOILERS FOR ARCADION RAIDS psychonekrosis SPOILERS!¡!¡!¡!¡!
WoL Au(under heavy rework while I decide how far I want his WoL self to deviate from his new RP self)
"everyone is here"
And technically, we can count the scrapped RP and WoL versions from before I reworked him thanks to dawntrail if we want
Kohaku:
Originally made for a tabletop thing
Became a full-fledged OC
RP version
WoL AU
"everyone is here"
Seral:
Is one of my oldest still active OCs, so he has a LOT of variants
He was originally a Sonic OC but in no particular order, from what I can REMEMBER, he has gotten:
A Human AU when I added him to the roster of "human OCs to slot into whatever setting I want"
A TWEWY AU
A Lunar Knights AU
I think I used him in a OHSHC RP on Gaia once
A Naruto AU
Two different OC-centric RP world vsrsions
XIV RP-ready version
WoL AU
"everyone is here"
Legit I probably missed some. This man has been dragged through so many fandoms kicking and screaming. I mostly stopped bc I stopped getting so... Obsessive about every piece of media I consume. I'm sure if I rly wanted and dredged thru the depths of my old DA I'd find more variants. But I'm not doing that.
Ryota:
He is loosely based on an OC but does not actually share his name with said OC.
That OC has gotten a tabletop version
That OC has a Monster hunter AU!
He is used in XIV RP (Izumi's father)
And he does not have a WoL AU but is like, a supporting NPC in any AU Izumi is in!
My other alts I don't actively use and aren't rly fleshed out into fully fledged chars in XIV so I'm not gonna bother listing them.
4/15/15
do you have an AUs for your wol(oc)?
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doodled some kids from a normal after school club with no deaths and murders
#litchi hikari club#lychee hikari club#zera#niko#raizou ichihashi#kaneda riku#dentaku#dafu#tamiya hiroshi#jacob#jaibo#only some of them get full names bc they're the only ones i remember and i'm too lazy to google#my art#doodles#katsuya tabuse
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oh my god. that one "oc" we wrote who had DID that we came up with before our syscovery. that was not an oc. oh my god cody and blake why did you take five years to make yourselves known to us-
#AND WHY DID YOU GET FRONT TRIGGERED BY A RANT REVIEW OF A MOVIE BASED ON A PSEUDO-ROMCOM BOOK???#question not necessarily directed at them but the structure of our system as a whole#we've been doing a lot of discovering of headmates who were FOR SURE around before our proper syscovery#most of whom we. conceptualized as paracosm characters i guess to cope?? and mask without knowing??#which is probably why our paracosm is inseparable from our system they are one and the same#but like. i mean we found the whole valley full of elder scrolls introjects (there were 11 of them. at once)#who at least with Aerina and Serana they both were around when we were 14 at the very least#bc aerina holds a shocking amount of memories of high school that we thought we'd just Lost Forever#like. she actually remembers what our classrooms looked like#we know that the Sides (like. of the sanders variety) that we made for ourselves. like our own Sides#most of them became true headmates but we're not sure about the rest... but they're probably here#Cecil and Cherry (intrusive thoughts and creativity) were some of our very first known members#cecil was the first actually. but we know he wasn't the first to form bc Sheo hiding his presence ANNOUNCED cecil to ruby the host from then#and like. we created our own versions of sides for every one that was in the actual series#but then There Were More. like 6 or 7 who wouldn't ever have been included in the series#and we were like 'we dunno why they're here BUT they're supposed to be OUR sides so of course there's differences!' and then.#and one of those was Aura who was our side that represented autism#we also had Ryker (anger issues) Oakley (obsession/hyperfocus) Aiden (adhd) and one that represented faith (like. spiritual and stuff)#don't remember the faith one's name it was something obscure#and seeing as like. 5 years after our syscovery we actually discovered Analise (our Logic side) in the sys#we probably have All Of Them somewhere#so like. cody and blake were from the first character we ever wrote who had DID#similar to our first trans character. writing it as if im someone on the outside when really we were just an egg carton#we didn't write Much of him but we put much work into making him like. not fulfill bad stereotypes#he was still kind of stereotypical but we were 15 and an egg carton#but like. we haven't thought abt him or his story like. Since Then#so. very odd that they both show up here and right now-#cody was supposed to be the host and blake was the only alter we actually came up with before abandoning that story like most we wrote#there were absolutely going to be more but. we never got to that point in the story#mostly bc something we were co-writing with someone else fell apart so we just started All of our projects over from scratch
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this happened my senior year of high school.
i had recently gotten into my dream school (which was also the only school i applied to; kids, don't be like me) and was feeling kind of buoyed. so buoyed, in fact, that when the topic of my dream school came up and a boy i'd never met before (he was cute, which will unfortunately be relevant) expressed his interest in going to the same school, i said, "sure, you should apply, why not?"
to which he expressed his chief concern, which was that his ACT score was pretty bad. (for those of you who didn't have to take the ACT, it's a standardized test used for college admissions in parts of the US).
he then told me his ACT score.
it was not good
but as i said, i was buoyed
and as i said, he was cute
so i cheerfully told him, "hey, you could still have a shot. i mean, i got in, so how hard could it be?"
and he replied, "yeah, but you're, you know, a girl."
at which point, of course, about nine things happened in my head simultaneously. i hesitate to describe all of them, like, can you render in words the force of an explosion by naming each individual piece of debris?
yes, i did instantly downgrade his appeal from "cute" to "oh god not in a million years"
this was during the end of affirmative action at the school in question which i think(?) was what he was referring to???
except of course there was never affirmative action for the category "girl" and if anything there might have been a slight tilt towards accepting boys bc they're the ones colleges historically have a harder time getting
but jesus, how rude
"you know" is the part that actually gets me; he was tacitly telling me to sign off on my own supposed unfair advantage
what a mindframe with which to move through the world, like i can't stress enough that i had never met this dude before in my life so why would he just ASSUME the only way i could've gotten in was by leveraging my sex
and yes, mixed in with my shock was some awareness, which would only be sharpened by the four years of liberal arts education i was about to receive, that my shock was itself a privilege, that most people who get accused of being diversity hires or whatever live in a world in which they are always kind of tensed and waiting for it
ever get so angry you feel like lasers are gonna start shooting out of your eyeballs?
ever know, to the core of your soul, that if you express an eyelash of the anger you're feeling, you are gonna lose the other person in your next breath, and he'll just walk away shrugging "wow what a bitch"?
anyway, what i said was, "well, that's probably not why i got in. probably i got in because—"
at which point i told him my ACT score
and look, i think we can probably all agree that the whole notion of assessing someone's college readiness through a standardized test is, at best, a waste of fucking time and at worst, a racist and classist exercise in which only the privileged can access the resources necessary to pass the damn test in the first place
(i certainly agree)
but while it is in no way whatsoever a measure of a person's intelligence or other college-ready skills, i can and will absolutely kick a standardized test's ass.
my ACT score was a full ten points higher than his
if you took the SAT or another test like it, that might not sound like much, but bear in mind: the ACT is only out of 36
like, you do the math (i won't because i'm not being tested)
i don't remember what he said then. i suspect not much.
"which is bullshit," i said, because it was and is. i guess we all agreed because that is the end of the memory.
anyway, the moral of the story is: before you make that self-deprecating comment, always remember, you're giving your audience the option of agreeing with you.
#i was randomly reminded of this the other day while listening to If Books Could Kill#they were talking about how colleges sometimes scramble to let in guys and this memory hit me like a damn bell
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I keep seeing things about how Dropout is failing transwomen and yes, absolutely, I fully agree we need more transwomen/transfemmes on the channel. And maybe I'm remembering wrong (I have not watched the full catelogue), but like...90% of the trans rep so far has been nonbinary people?? Ally Beardsley, Alex Song-Xia, Erika Ishii, Caroline Page, Vic Michaelis, et cetera.
We've had Persephone Valentine for transwomen but have we had any actual honest to god transmen anywhere?
And don't get me wrong! I love love love the enby rep. 100% here for it.
But every time I see something about how Dropout and the fandom are specifically failing transwomen and transwomen only, I want to beat my head into the wall. So, you're saying that enbies are just, what, girlies+? and get lumped into the same category as trans men because...? or just that they/transmen don't count at all bc they're ...what, exactly?
It's 1: hella confusing and annoying as a trans guy. Unless Ally Beardsley (who I absolutely love no matter what) comes out as a guy at some point, they are not my rep and won't ever be.
2: misses the point that over the past few years, as Dropout has grown, their representation has grown with it, and will (hopefully!) continue to grow. In the early years, all the trans community in Dropout had was Ally Beardsley. We owe them a lot for that tbh. It's not easy being the only different one in a sea of same.
Yeah, we need to keep the community accountable and try to keep the corporation accountable as well. 100% hands down, no disagreement here. Drag queens are great, but they're not representation for transwomen.
For the sake of all that is good in the world, can we stop acting like it's only transwomen not making it onto shows and that it's both transwomen AND transmen, and that Dropout has mostly been finding a "comfortable" middle ground with enbies?
Be upset about lack of representation, be vocal, call for change, push forward names of people we want to see, but please PLEASE don't start the whole oppression politics and who has the shorter end of the stick based on whatever gender people were assigned at birth. That shit is just gross.
yeah fair, not that many trans men specifically. personally, we need more TMA people on the channel. cause i am enby (demigirl), and i don't feel represented for shit.
dropout hasn't been finding a comfortable middle ground with enbies. dropout's been coasting with TME enbies specifically.
yeah dropout's representation has grown. it's grown with the amount of TMEs on the show. they're a company, not some independent webcomic artist, we're allowed to not be happy with amount of transfems on the show. they can go ahead and take their time and grow, but i'm still gonna dislike how slowly the inclusion of transfems has been.
yes, we need more trans men on the network, but like, we can agree there is a serious lack of transfems entirely yeah? idk, might just be me
#ask#dropout#dropout tv#dimension 20#d20#dimension twenty#ally beardsley#alex song xia#caroline page#vic michaelis#persephone valentine#dimension20#the seven#the seven maidens#vip#very important people#d20 never stop blowing up#never stop blowing up d20#never stop blowing up#dimension 20 nsbu#d20 nsbu#nsbu
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Do you have any initial thoughts on the update? I have so many crossing my mind.
[rubbing my hands deviously before remembering i should put this under the cut so people can avoid in-depth spoilers]
first - between this latest update and The Homewarming Incident, i'm beginning to notice A Pattern of home reacting very quickly when they either see an opportunity to have the spotlight on them, or if they think said spotlight is being taken away from them. consider for a moment how most of wally's dialogue this update was just him speaking on home's behalf. and i mean - the homewarming party was supposed to be for them. it's in the name, after all. they don't seem to have many qualms about sacrificing another neighbor's wellbeing for it, either. i wonder if they were even counting on the neighbors generally not having the Best emotional problem-solving skills to take care of the rest, or on neighbors like eddie or poppy being less likely to speak up if they went just a bit too far in getting them out of the way for a while. it has to be frustrating, being rooted to one spot and only being able to be part of a scene once other people happen to wander by. i imagine it'd be very easy to resort to doing anything to make that happen. i also imagine that you'd get very attached to the one person who always comes back at the end of the day, and that it's very important that it stays that way.... much to think about.
anyways. let's ALSO talk about the ending to the awayfrompryingeyes version of the video! the little bit of the storyteller's conversation that we hear when they stop narrating, the fact that the two people we hear at the end of the audio clearly Sound a lot like sally and frank but are left unidentified in the transcript - i don't think it's a huge reach to guess that this is the first we're hearing of the actual playfellow staff. y'know, voice actors, puppet handlers, etc etc. but then... is that poppy at the end of the video? or is it her actor/handler? if it's the latter, when did poppy leave the scene? where does poppy end and poppy's actor begin?
to elaborate: i've written a lot about how the horror of a puppet's existence in welcome home is that they cannot exist without being maneuvered around by something so much bigger than them (if not in literal size than by virtue of being considered a Full Person whereas a puppet is a simulacrum of a person) that it borders on incomprehensible, right? and also about how i'm not a Huge fan of the idea that things are only starting to go sideways for the neighbors bc they're actually possessed by human souls, but the Idea of possession could work for me in a select few contexts? what if we're seeing a sort of role reversal of the typical possession theory stuff here - instead of humans possessing puppets, it's puppets (making an attempt at) possessing humans, however unconsciously or imperfectly. after all, if you really, truly cannot exist without that aforementioned incomprehensibly vast presence, i suppose your next best bet would be to try to subsume it into yourself somehow.
but this also comes with a cost. it's not wrong to want to exist or to have autonomy. but could you really just end another's existence to get that? would you know what to do with it afterwards? i know i'd have a hard time with it, at least.
...of course poppy could have just ceased to exist temporarily once the door was opened/her actor Presumably got out of costume, but let me have this late night ramble.
i think those are all my thoughts for now! this was a short but Meaty update. maybe i'll have some more in the morning.
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I've been looking back at your rambles about Fresh again and I wanted to ask for if you have any thoughts about 2.0 and esp about the like, if the threat of potential replacement was real even if 2.0 didn't understand how it worked- because I don't think that realistically "we" the people watching would replace Fresh for having feelings, but I do sometimes wonder if maybe you could interpret future versions of Fresh as... Who knows, maybe 2.0 DID win. Maybe even he was replaced eventually too
OHHH ANON I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS ON THIS I HAVE TO CHOP MY REPLY UP INTO TWO POSTS. YOUR BRAIN IS MASSIVE (ALSO AAHH IT MEANS THE WORLD TO ME THAT PPL LIKE MY ANALYSIS!!! i love these goobers and their dynamic i need to share them with the world <3)
dude something so genuinely. interestin to me about the idea of 2.0 replacing fresh? nobody else in the multiverse would ever know. he acts the same, looks the same, talks the same, and since he was watchin 1.0 the whole time with the higher ups? he could easily fake having all of fresh’s memories without even breakin a sweat!
it’s never been specified if any other outcodes know about fresh’s whole thing, whether the higher-ups and general ‘creators’ are different in the context of the story or if it’s all just us, and since fresh keeps every single thing, every single ‘vulnerability’ and all facts abt his life that aren’t SICKNASTY COOL RADICAL SWAGGY!!! insanely close to his chest (except for one scenario we know of, pacifrisk + possibly some of those at loveball i don’t have the full logs </3) (p.s. 2.0 called pacifrisk 1.0’s sibling in a mocking way AND IT MAKES ME WAUH :( they were like siblings,,) nobody would just. ever know, unless 2.0 told them directly.
bc 2.0 is such a good actor, it’d take someone intimately familiar and close with 1.0 to spot any of the minuscule differences or cracks in his facade that couldn’t just be chalked up to.. fresh bein fresh, unpredictable and WACKY and weird and ever-changing (tho he’s actually way more predictable than he thinks, when emotions aren’t involved) and that thought makes me CRAZY.
1.0’s worst fears coming true and he takes it all to his grave to be replaced by one of only ones he could truly hate with his limited emotions, a copy of himself. and so the snake eats its own tail and the cycle continues, repeating on and on and on, fresh 3.0, fresh 4.0, the same song and dance of fixing the mistakes of the last before succumbing, messing up in one way or another. 5.0, 6.0, 7.0, 8.0, the metaphorical blood of their predecessors marking every step they take, forced to follow the steps to the letter. be more brutal, more funny, corrupt worlds faster and faster, never, ever stop to rest, or you’ll end up like those before you, waiting for the next wearing your face and name. knowing the limits more than anyone, their gods demanding perfection, no more, no less.
until the last higher-ups get bored, or decide to move onto something, someone new. no peace, no ‘justice,’ no mercy. and so it goes, and so it goes.
anyways since fresh 1.0 has 1990s furbies fresh 2.0 should have a 2006 purple funky furby he takes everywhere especially since the funky furby has a semi similar level of ridiculous rarity that fresh 1.0’s signature kid cuisine furby has IN THIS ESSAY,
(fresh 2.0 2005 furby manifesto under the cut! I'M DOIN IT!! and then it got very sad for him because i got carried away AGAIN uh oh,)

look at this little guy this is 2.0 all over!!!
also the 2005 furbies being made to replace the 1990s furbies once their sales were waning and keep up on current trends (specifically furreal friends at the time!) only to be discontinued and scrapped only a year or two into production.. and most people nowadays remember and love the first though technically less 'advanced' version of the furbies. while 2005s tend to be overlooked by the public at large as just a cliffnote. the metaphors write themselves bro!!!
they're also generally a lot more fragile (mostly based on my little black and white fellow from personal experience) than the original older furbies! their beaks are covered with rubber that degrades and rips very easily over time vs the original yellow plastic beaks, and they can move and stomp their feet vs the nonmoving fabric paws but those also have a tendency to break off! my 2005 boy is missin one of his feet and his beak rubber is gone but i love him..... his name is gizmo (because i was obsessed with both furbies and Gremlins (1984) as a kid) but ANYWAYS,
THE IDEA OF 2.0 actually breakin way more quickly than fresh 1.0 is smth i literally didn't think about until right this second but oh my god that's so compelling to me. idea - he thought he was better, immune to making the same mistakes, tying his self-worth to being BETTER than his predecessor - but when he crashes hard, he absolutely panics. he knows what he has to do, he knows he has to fix himself as fast as possible, he knows his deadline is coming soon and he's going to meet the same fate as the version of himself he gleefully replaced.
but his anxiety and frantic tries to prove he's still useful only make the fact that he's falling apart all the more obvious!! while he tries to push himself harder and harder! while in the weird limbo of refusing to admit to himself how bad his emotions and emotional spiral is becoming, because acknowledging it would open the floodgates and he'd break down completely - plus, look at what happened to 1.0 when he admitted his weakness! but on the other hand, he's struggling for his life to keep going on as if everything is fine in the face of absolute overwhelming terror, sadness felt for the first time, misery, unable to concentrate as his mind is rebelling against him, slipping up and tripping over his words as he tries to put up the image of the perfect parasite he was made to be.
look, see, he's trying! he's fixing it, he's going to make it better! just give him a little more time, please, just a little longer! he can fix it, he can fix himself, he's different, he can fix all the problems he's caused, he just needs a little more time.
should he run? can he ever escape from his creators, those fickle things practically his gods? where in the multiverse can he go that he wouldn't find himself? who would take him in? 2.0 cries for the first time, that day, and it sinks in that there's truly no going back.
some nights, jolting awake, chest heaving, 2.0 swears he can hear the echos of 1.0 laughing at him. fresh was right, after all. 2.0 really wasn't any better than him.
#THE SECOND HALF OF THIS POST INCOMIN EVENTUALLY!!!#fresh sans#fresh!sans#underfresh#utmv#lucidia#fresh analysis#freshposting#fresh 2.0#ASK 2 TAG#BOTH PARTS GOT A LIL HEAVY#chat#IN MY HEART both fresh and 2.0 are somehow happy and in therapy and holdin hands and spinnin around in circles#IN THE INFINITE MULTIVERSE ALL UNIVERSES ARE 'CANON' SO THIS IS TRUE#THANK U ANON B:D !!!#anon
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Hi! I'm a big fan of your blog! I just this past week got into the gallaghers after stumbling across them on ao3. Every time I think i've found everything, a new surprising factoid comes out of the woodwork. They are so in love its inane and frankly quite worrying. I cannot believe more people dont see it with how obvious they're being.
That being said, I've noticed a thing about one of Liam's tweets and a song lyric he wrote. I cant find the tweet at the moment, but it's the one where someone asks if he loves Noel and Liam responds "yes I love him is that such a crime". I was listening to GGTIA and realized the lyrics "I'd get round to loving you, is that such a crime?" sounded awful familiar...He must have taken that response right from the song lol. Which makes me feel some sort of way. Especially with how awful (glorious) GGTIA is. The whole song is clearly a love song and yet Liam wrote it for Noel. And now Liam references his own song to say yes, he does love Noel.
God, I love them.
omg ahhhh congrats, welcome!! the first "wait.. hold on. wait wtf?? this can't be true.. oh jesus it's getting worse🤯" stage of getting into Them is a powerful powerful drug and tbh it never loses strength. we've been on this grind full-time for a year now (really no time at all in the grand scheme) and every day we're still going "holy shit WAIT WHAT??" about some new insane thing. (also how did you inadvertently stumble upon them on ao3?? what a trip.)
re liam's uhhh Everything. i regret(?) to inform you that ggtia is barely scratching the surface lol. the "crime" stuff in particular goes way deeper than that, ggtia is just one of many references back to a central core of sus shit. noel is a much worse offender in this arena actually. beyond his multiple ""jokes"" in the press about being attracted to/having sex with liam and the legality thereof, his most egregious act was writing this song, a demo nominally called "it's a crime" by fans bc he never actually released or named it, someone just leaked it in 2000. he later rewrote it and it became "let there be love," a trajectory we can all speculate on till the cows come home. he has since denied remembering this song even exists. (if you haven't clocked this yet, he's a pathological recreational liar and also has crazy bad memory issues, so even odds on whether this is true or not.)
also idk if you've dipped into any of liam's solo music or not, but ggtia was Baby's First Steps in terms of writing lovesick songs about one's brother. i can't necessarily recommend liam's music on any basis other than it being kinda catchy and p much all of it being incest anthems, so ymmv on enjoyment factor, but here's a brief playlist of SOME OF his more astonishing entries in the "im madly in love with my brother who hates me" oeuvre. (and then go watch the music video for "one of us," which might be the most excruciatingly raw thing anyone's ever done for an audience of millions, and is crammed beyond capacity with References.) there are a few of noel's songs on this playlist too, the ones i personally think are about liam, but diagnosing noel's music is a completely different exercise than diagnosing liam's. noel's very circumspect and art-first about his music, whereas it's pretty safe to assume most of liam's songs are explicitly about noel. the only one on this playlist with some potential wiggle room is "for what it's worth," which liam once claimed wasn't about noel, however his alternative very vague explanation was that it was possibly about his ex wife. which under the circumstances didn't really make sense. imo he just got a little embarrassed and backpedalled under scrutiny. here is noel acknowledging his awareness that all liam's songs are about him lol.
anyway! liam's a magical boy who believed in himself and never gave up and relentlessly wooed his big brother with mid music for years until that shit finally worked, so let this be a lesson to us all. NEVER have dignity, NEVER say die, ALWAYS kiss your brother on the mouth in public. the universe loves you 💖💖💖
#communiques#blogger two editing the tags to just add a disclaimer that she actually likes liam's music and that blogger one's opinions are her own lol
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supercorp prompts and headcanons
bc im not a writer but i have some ideas
• one of them realizes they have romantic feelings for the other, but before she makes any moves she thinks she's too rusty since she hasn't been in a romantic relationship in a while. but she (let's say, lena) only "practices" with people who don't look like kara bc when she tried that she just zoned out daydreaming. kara thinks that not only lena isn't interested in her but also that she isn't lena's type. not-so-funny but also not-too-angsty misunderstanding ensues
• simply them not denying the dating allegations while being pre-relarionship: being openly, publicly affectionate; flirting; calling each other by pet names and partners; casual i love you's; etc. they don't get flustered when people joke about them being a couple and only ever deny it when the superfriends say that couples can't team up during game night
• during s6, up until the bachelorette party the superfriends don't realize kara and lena are developing their relationship (though they're not dating yet) because they're mostly not around when they have their supercorp moments (winding down after a busy day; being at the tower just by themselves; lunch dates; the usual). so then, at the party where they are all there, they do notice and they're like since when?. maybe, maybe alex notices but she brushes it off/doesn't bring it up
• i personally don't headcanon them as parents but if they were to end up having a kid, they would adopt. either an older child (like +8yo) or a teenager. for reasons of one, they're both adopted. two, found family. three, I can't visualize either of them being pregnant or interacting with a baby, idk why
• a kara " i dont know why im talking when im so much better at doing" and kara "consent is very important" is a mix i have yet to see. when she kissed james in s1 she didn't ask and also didn't stop when he just stayed still, and I don't remember what her relationship with mon-el was like other than them arguing all the time. it's not even a headcanon or necessarily supercorp related, just an inconsistency i guess
• to expand on the casual "i love you" idea: kara says it first, when she is back from the phantom zone and they're okay again and it's just them. lena doesn't say it back, she can't. kara assures her that she understands why that is, that it's because lena isn't used to hearing it from someone who she's sure actually means it. after sometime she starts to say it back, an "ily" text or a quiet "me too". then she says it, the full sentence "i love you too", after that she can't stop. until one day she says it first and they're both they're all surprised bc not only lena said it first, she also did so in front of their friends which had never happened seeing as kara didn't want to make her uncomfortable.
• asexual panromantic she/they kara, unlabeled sapphic lena
• having them actually deny something to each other, the other thinks they're joking at first. communication ensues
• kara repressed her tastes/preferances in order to seem like an average human girl. her clothes (i think she would go for more oversized and flow-y things), her hair (under/side cut); she let people assume she was straight by earth stantards and corrected anyone. she starts to explore more of her expression after she comes out as supergirl
• lena doesn't eat meat, but makes an exception here and there
#i think thats all i have for now#supercorp#supercorp prompt#supercorp headcanon#writing#supergirl cw#kara x lena#lena luthor#kara danvers#quinn's stuff
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im trying to explain foop's alt personality to a friend, do you have any posts explaining the existence of the guy bc i could swear you do but cant find them.
I love him!! He's named Hiccup in my fanfics and tagged on my blog as #alternate bat prince. He'll also get a full character profile on my sideblog, but he has a short bio for now.
I love the alt personality so much because it really drives home how much Foop broke during his time in Abracatraz... which gets more horrifying once you remember time was frozen and he was probably in there for a good 30 to 40 years, separated from his parents or friends his age, unable to grow up.
One of the overarching themes in FOP is how poorly the Fairies treat others while acting like they're superior and kind, and Foop is one of the best characters to show how Fairies fawn over kids of their own race vs. how Anti-Fairy babies are regarded with suspicion. The Fairies threw a 1-day-old in maximum security prison and left him there. And that REALLY put Foop through the wringer.
From his second episode of existence, you can tell he's changed since his debut episode, and that he's confused by what's happening to him. He blinks in alarm when he switches early on and speaks about himself in a different way than he does both before and after that moment (Ex: Refers to himself as "we" at one point). You can tell he's in a weird adjustment period, and seems to have adjusted to life with his alt personality much more in later episodes.
And this alt personality doesn't go away. He debuted in Season 7, returns in Season 8, and then cameos several times in Seasons 9 and 10 (indicated by certain hand gestures, voice shifts, and extra eye highlights when he switches)
"Man's Worst Friend" (S10) is a really good example, especially the scene where Anti-Sparky says he'd like to have Foop for dinner and you immediately get the chubby cheeks, clasped hands, and gushing about how nice of an event that would be.
He's a very deliberate, long-term addition to the show and I love that about him so much. I'm so glad he wasn't a one-episode joke. No....... no. Foop has a lot of trauma and it never goes away, even when it's not the episode's focus.
It's so cool that you can still see these subtle signs of his alt personality even when the episode doesn't make it part of the plot. Such a nice way to see the long-term effects of his childhood trauma while also being super clear that Foop is a well-rounded, well-written person who is still growing up and living his life.
I love that this didn't become Foop's entire characterization, nor was he portrayed as "a polite, misunderstood boy with a super evil scary alt personality." Nah. Foop causes trouble because he's Foop and he wants people to fear him. The alter is a totally separate thing to unpack (A newborn was separated from his mother and locked in solitary confinement during early development).
His alt personality exists and is part of him, but only two of his episodes truly emphasize it. The rest depict more subtle shifts. I just love it so much... the thought that went into this and the quiet commitment to having the alt personality show up in later episodes. Foop is one of my favorite characters and I love exploring his life.
My favorite thing about the alt personality is that it's very easy to glance at him and say "Oh, he's the stereotypical 'good' personality and Foop is the 'evil' one." And then you take another 30 seconds to get to know them and you're like "Oh. OH... oh my gosh. Why is he like that?"
I am specifically referring to him taking one look at Poof and cooing, "Does Mr. Popular want to fight??" Hey...
HERE is an outdated video showing all the personality switch moments I saw. I've found more switch moments since then (Ex: In "Fairly Odd Fairy Tales," some I missed in "Man's Worst Friend," there's one in "Certifiable Super Sitter," another in "Terrible Twosome" that's separate from Foop experiencing the Terrific Twos effects). I'd like to make an updated one sometime in 2025.
HERE is my post about the music switch in "Best of Luck," which happens to align with Irep holding his hands in a way only his alt personality did in the OG series. No idea if that was intentional, but I did laugh a lot. Why did they have Irep do that hand gesture at that exact moment. The gesture only the alt personality uses. Hey. what.
HERE is a post about Hiccup's relationship/connection with Poof.
HERE is the announcement post for a one-shot I wrote from Hiccup's POV in high school
Happy New Year!
#Fairly OddParents#FOP Irep#FOP Foop#Nerdy blue bat son#Bat cube and associates#FAIRIES!#Alternate bat prince#asks#capnportofficial#Foop my beloved#Long post
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MOON🐇PAW
[base by lilliepaws on deviantart]
design notes, bonus images, hopes & headcanons, and other stuff below the cut!
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•yes chimeras can look like this. they don't all look the exact same ofc, and split-face torties exist, but a chimera CAN be this
•ginger "spotted" (can't remember the exact term) tabby w/ green eyes + black/blue colorpoint tux w/ yellow eyes
•two tails bc this is a fantasy series I do what I want (the orange tail doesn't work btw)
•ears are two different sizes! it's slight but fucks with her hearing a bit
•her pupils are colored like that bc on her ref image only the green eye has sparkles
•the bandaids are supposed to be bits of cobweb, please refer to hc:❢
•wearing daffodils bc unrequited love and narcissus iykyk (moon^2 💞)
•wave patterns like rippling water, sun-shape patches, and moon face/tail markings! bc yeah!
•orange side meant to resemble a sunrise, black side meant to resemble a cool night sky
•this design will 100% change, I am incredibly indecisive [times changed: 2] ~🥜❦
•bonus images!
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•intersex transfem, she/her, objectum pan/ace
•not thrift & bay's bio kit cuz incest. they found her in the woods.
•moon^2 lowkey owns my soul. this cat is in love w/ a puddle.
•might be related to Sol somehow idk I hope
•voice in her head is the twin she absorbed in the womb, they're not actually evil just wanna help and give warnings while also being a little silly :3 Moonpaw just calls them Voice since she's bad at naming things
•I need Moonpaw to be a weird girly. I want her to play with bugs and ask weird questions and be so so strange and zone out during attempted medcat lessons and invent taxidermy and—
❢manifesting clumsy protag plz I need some rep for "can see perfectly fine just zero spacial awareness" girlies
•please have her dramatic moment be during a blood moon/lunar eclipse please that's all I need in life
•BECOMES A WARRIOR PLEASE ERINS PLEASE
•full name will be Moonrabbit (jade rabbit on the moon iykyk)
-–·—Other Stuff—·–-
•leaf and tawny are so gonna adopt this strange baby
•once again, design and stuff subject to change
•the moonpool is gonna get poisoned/polluted and moonpaw's gonna dive in to fix it, therefore becoming one with her love (the moonpool)
•once she emerges as Moonrabbit, she becomes the new connection to starclan (rock kinda deal) and leads the clans to a new territory as the twolegs close in
•beach territory post big timeskip arc 10 please—
•she eventually retires and becomes a kp bc girly needs a warm fireplace and a nap 😔
・ 。 ☆∴。 * ・゚*。★・ ・ *゚。 * ・ ゚*。・゚★。 ☆゚・。°*. ゚* ゚。·*・。 ゚* ゚ *.。☆。★ ・ * ☆ 。・゚*.。 * ★ ゚・。 * 。 ・ ゚☆ 。
#warrior cats#erin hunter warriors#warriors erin hunter#wc#wc moonpaw#moonpaw#moonpaw wc#the moonpool#moonpool#wc moonpool#moonpool wc#wc changing skies#changing skies#changing skies wc#changing skies spoilers#wc arc 9
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from one admirer to another : top holiday in your opinion?

pairing: leon kennedy x reader || masterpost: from one admirer to another

synopsis: from one admirer to another, an online penpal service, allows for two people with common interests to write to each other without ever revealing their actual address! Luckily for both you and Leon, you get matched up! What do eggs and Christmas even have in common anyway? sure hope it's that modeling business and NOT that Ada Wong addiction.

featuring: reader as scrambled eggs // leon as christmas

Hi Christmas!
What an interesting name. I don't think many people on this service actually use something that creative. I, for one, just really enjoy having eggs so I'm called scrambled eggs. Though, sometimes the doctor tells me to go easy on them since the cholesterol in the yellows of eggs is HEINOUS for my blood tests. So, alas, I am coping through naming myself all things eggs.
I love Ada Wong. She's my beloved, and if I say I'm her second biggest fan, no one can say they're her first because I am her day ONE you hear me? DAY ONE. I AM HER DAY ONE— okay, I'm sure you're not convinced, but a person can dream. Come on. I've literally already read glhf <3 on ao3 so I'd say we're pretty neck to neck. Also, that fan event and the sticker? Thank you. Going into my phone case like right now.
As for her helicopter shoot, what Ada stan DOESN'T feel some way about it? I, for one, went manic when it came out. It was so bad I was begging for her signature on my magazine and yelled a little when she signed it. No, don't rob me. I live in an apartment with my friend and NO it's not an option to climb to the 17th floor.
History about me... I wonder? I don't do much. Well, a little bit like you, I model a little on the side as well, but only because I'm nepotism-ing my way into the industry through connections. I'm not interested in it as a full-time job, but it's kind of nice being on set and watching how it all goes down. Maybe I'll become a manager? But that's too much work. Honestly, I'd rather just be some weird form of sugar baby except not to an old man and to the people who are trying to get me into the industry. I'd love to just be their bestie who shows the bts of everything. That sounds FUN.
Hm, to speed-answer your questions, my favorite way of having eggs is actually in a nice cheesy omelet or an egg benedict, my favorite holiday (call me biased bc of my bsf) is the dragon boat festival only because those sticky rice zongzi are actually the chinese's greatest gift to man, and I write in my freetime (don't ask what. I know a degen when I see one, and YOU my friend, are no different from me).
Now, to ask you a couple of questions back. What's your favorite way to have eggs? Your fav holiday? Surely it's Christmas? All jokes, of course. How about some life updates? We can be like... besties, except not besties because we don't even know what the other person looks like and for all I know you could be some 60-year-old man who's faking everything through the letter. Just kidding! I'm not lying, so I'm sure you're not either.
I'm attaching a small Ada print I found on my table while digging for pens to write back to you. I hope you like it. I think it's signed by her? But I'm not sure. I think I had her sign two that time... or something. I don't remember.
hope to hear back ? scrambled eggs
You finish the letter and sign, print slipped in as Ada steps out from the shower, towel around her neck as she raises a brow.
"Oh, is that the model penpal service?"
"Yeah." You seal the letter and write in the PO box, humming. "Did you ever use it?"
"No. I only know it because Wesker insisted that I know that the penpal service wasn't actually for finding friends, but getting to know who else in the company shares a passion for the same things. I have you, so I don't need to worry much."
"MARRY ME!" You sob, crying into your hands as Ada rolls her eyes.
"I'm your roommate. Also, that contract you signed as a small-time model prohibits dating."
"I said marry me, not date me." You raise a brow. "Also, I made them scrap that part since I wasn't planning on becoming famous. My contract has a lot more leeway compared to yours."
"I know." Ada sits at her vanity, plugging her hairdryer in as you step behind her, helping her out. "It's a shame you didn't want to become famous."
"There's no point in being famous unless it's for the money. What of that do I need to care about if you're legally obligated to provide for me?"
"Really sucks to be best friends with you." She rolls her eyes, pulling out her phone. "Did you update that chapter yet?"
"No, I was going to update it after your hair."
"What did you write about this time?"
"I'm not telling you because I gotta lock myself in my room when I post it."
"You didn't even ask me any questions this time around." She huffs.
"Mainly because I was gonna write angst again and you hate it when I do that."
"God, you're insufferable."
"Thanks, love you too."

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#leon kennedy x reader#☾.oata#leon x reader#once like enough of you start liking this series I'll hold a poll to see if yall want 3 chapters a week instead of two#bc 26 chapters over the course of 13 weeks is like 3-4 months oopsie
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So, after the last chapter
I've seen multiple theories so I want to know what most people think
(Click bellow if you wanna read my long rambles about it lol)
I actually am having very mixed opinions/theories on this?
(I'll also write some concerns over the course of the story and etc in the middle, so be warned if you don't like to read this type of thing)
It makes total sense for Kafka to sacrifice himself and even die here, because in a way, he already kinda accomplished his main goal- he DID fight alongside Mina in this final battle (and even acted like a captain while mina was his support), so his arc already had some kind of closure. Also, 8's whole purpose of existing will kinda be fulfilled the moment they manage to defeat the great kaiju (Idk if it has a name lol), so it's death would also make total sense for the narrative. Plus saying something is irreversible only to, chapters after, show that actually there WAS a secret way to reverse all of this, kinda makes the whole "it was irreversible" thing pointless, and I don't think they'd want to go for that.
At the same time, I'm pretty sure it was said in an interview that Matsumoto doesn't like being too cruel in the story? Plus we only had one major character death up until now lol, not a single important death in this final arc, and I can't really remember any characters that had something irreversible and tragic happen to them in the whole story (most close we got to that was when hoshina almost lost his arm but actually didn't), so with what we had up until now I'm not sure if it's likely that we'll have a depressing ending?
I really have no idea if they're gonna keep the "things are kinda tragic but most characters won't get TOO traumatized or injured" thing or if they'll actually make the most important character have a tragic ending
I also don't know if we have any information on how many chapters we have left, because I'm pretty sure I read somewhere that the manga is close to ending... So if we have a big enough amount of chapters left, I think it would be more likely that this whole thing with Kafka would at least be resolved in some sort of way, with him surviving and being able to still live a happy life somehow. If we actually only have a few chapter left (like idk, 12-20) I don't think we even would have enough time to develop and reverse this, so I think it'd be more likely for him to die.
I also saw recently the "he'll be turned into a weapon for mina to use" theory and it actually makes so much sense because mina is the only major character that didn't have any arc getting a full suit weapon and learning how to use it, so it would be a nice way to give her a weapon that actually has a VERY important connection to her (bc a character as important as her can't be the only one to be left out and not get a numbered suit, right???). It would be very tragic but also very cool
(If I'm being honest, I kinda wanted them to go for the cliche "Kafka goes berserk and everyone has to tragically fight him, but everyone just can't KILL him because they all just love him so much, so in the middle of the fight they manage to actually just contain him somehow so they don't HAVE to kill him, and they all try to find a solution to somehow still keep him alive" because I'm just a sucker for this type of thing and for characters being emotional lol, but I don't think that's happening)
Anyway, if they go with any of the tragic endings, I just hope the characters will suffer SO I CAN SUFFER TOGETHER WITH THEM
Pls Matsumoto, make them cry, make them go through grief (even the most unlikely ones like hoshina, mina and maybe even Narumi), make ME cry together with them- it would just be so sad (not in a positive way lol) if they mourned over this for like one or 2 chapters and then everyone gets ok after this 😭 if there WILL be drama, I want the drama to actually last and have big impacts, to actually show that the characters CARED, pretty pls 🙏
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Maybe the clan could call themselves the “Subway clan” or the “Station clan” or something like that just to try to either jog Ingo’s memories and/or just use something familiar. They would also call Ingo “Boss ingo” or “subway boss ingo” and all the other people would be super confused like : “ What in sinnohs name is a subway and why is that clan obsessed with them?”
Just some silly ideas, I REALLY like this AU, Super bravo!! Excellent!!
I feel like since Ingo is the only boss around, they'll just call him Boss or Sir, as opposed to Boss Ingo or the mouthful that is his full title. Plus, they do at some point realize that attempting to get Ingo to remember is actively hurting him because of the pressure, so they're careful to just... act normal around him, and don't make attempts unless he specifically asks for it. The medic on the team won't have them giving Ingo any stress, ESPECIALLY with how injured he was.
Anyways, I'd like to think that at least one of the depot agents is probably a sci-fi nerd. Meaning that they're hyper-aware that fucking with the timeline is uhhh Bad. I imagine at some point they would panic and come up with a wild cover story about them being from a totally different world altogether.
Which would OBVIOUSLY fuck with Historians in the future even MORE. Did the existence of modern day trains come from the schematics from another world? Just how advanced was the otherworld train that had crashed in Hisui, in comparison to modern trains? How advanced was their society? WHY DID THEY REFUSE TO HAVE THEIR PICTURES TAKEN—
Basically it's a "were trains invented by aliens" debate bc One Person panicked and came up with the worst story imaginable. It's like how people think the Pyramids were made by aliens.
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Could you give me a full breakdown of their relationships (how each of them view the others, regrets, fears, insecurities, favorite memories from life and/or death with the other) to each other and Casper? :>
Oh, for sure! This may or may not be a big one. And perhaps one ask I go all over the place for. We'll see.
I'll start off by saying that the trio's relationship is a real unbreakable one. Even if they're worlds apart, the bond they got is real sturdy.
Stretch in Fatso & Stinkie's eyes have always been seen as the leader who can get his head in the game real quick. Can be a fun ghost or an all out brutal spirit that would look at you in the eyes as he shreds you to pieces.
Fatso in Stretch's and Stinkie's eyes is the entertainer. The showstopper who doesn't seem to get mad easily. Gonna have to be more than big words to take the fella down.
Lastly, Stinkie. In his brothers eyes, he's not such a dummy. I mean, they did think about him as that once, but with him reclaiming his memories that all flipped.
In conclusion, they do think greatly of each other. At least by a normal degree.
Additionally, they were raised to understand that a healthy brotherly bond will transcend any borders that could be made. In life and in death.
Their mother, of course, being the one who taught them this. She was always so smart and wise beyond her years.
And on that note, some of their favorite memories do involve their mother. Some would be cooking with her, playing with her, even learning a language that they're father couldn't understand at all.
All of them were clear mama's boys who wanted to make her proud. Not something they'd remember now as spirits, but regardless. It's important for me to say with my version of all them.
I've mentioned their regrets before [here], so I won't say it again. But fears? Hm, well I supposed they already had to live through them.
Fatso's fear turned reality-
Franklin dying in his wife's arms. Never getting a chance to see what beautiful children they had together. Unexpectedly becoming an absent father to his twins, not by choice. One can only hope his daughter Eleanor and son Florence understood that about their father.
Stinkie's fear turned reality-
Silvester losing all his mobility and feeling his throat close up from the poison that took him. That wasn't the worst part. The worst part was that he was all alone throughout the whole situation. He didn't have anyone to hold him just as he took his final painful breaths.
And finally Stretch's fear turned reality-
Simon. He saw a woman who he cherished with all his heart slit her throat in front of him. All in a desperate attempt to breathe, as blood began to spill straight down to the ground.
But wait, it gets worse for him.
Now he had a boy. A boy who he had every right to call HIS SON fall to his death meeting the ocean below.
Yes, it could've been worse like Casper's body being claimed by the ocean. But that pain of feeling that boy's body be completely cold and limp? Flesh from his head shredded and part of his skull exposed??
Simon honestly didn't even care how mangled & cold Casper was, that man held that boy so tight. Letting out the most gruesome scream that made every person stand in pure silence.
A scream of a parent losing a child. If you've ever had the displeasure of hearing it like I have, it yanks at your entire being.
Him slowly losing everyone he loved with all his soul was a fear that came true.
Extra bit:
I can't say exactly how different they'd think of Casper on an individual level (mostly bc this ask is too damn big to add on), but I know altogether the ghostly trio see Casper as this child who holds great potential.
Although he's kind in nature, the passion the child has for protecting the only family he's ever known as spirits that he'd resort to violence? All in the name of protecting them, defending them??
It makes them feel so guilty for tormenting this kid for as long as they did. And the things they did, what they said ro him? They can't take them back.
All they can do is apologize. Sure hope they try to be calm and collected about it. Wouldn't want to choke on the words they need to tell their beloved nephew.
Casper's best memory is of him cuddling up to his mother and presumed father at the time, Simon. How he could remember that memory is odd because he was barely three, but it was so happy for him. He felt wrapped up in love & warmth. Protected by the world he'd soon know to be harsh and brutal beyond comprehensible thought. But in this very moment? He didn't need to worry about all that.
Casper was with his mom and dad. Forever loved and cradled in their loving arms.
Casper's worst fear was just ending up alone. Abandoned by everyone and seen as a failure. Shares part of that fear with his mother and if he had to experience that as a ghost? He'd lose it.
Off that, they don't have any insecurities. Or at least none that I can think of right off the bat.
#answered asks#insanelyadd#sansy speaking here#casper the friendly ghost#casper’s spectral spectacle#the ghostly trio#casper mcfadden#stretch mcfadden#fatso mcfadden#stinkie mcfadden#am i cooking or just burning the entire house down?#who knows no one has properly told me w this au#tw: child death#tw: violence#tw: blood
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I saw ur prompt about Wilmon and thought I'd give you the following, bc it feels so them ☺️
20. a third person pointing out how beautiful they're and suddenly you're seeing them in a different light (shalalallalaaa)
Hiii! thank you so much for the prompt! Remember how I said I'd write something pretty short? Well it's at 1.2k words now, so a bit more than I'd originally aimed for but oh well haha
I'll put this on AO3 later, but for now you can also read it under the cut! :)
“Is Simon single?”
Wille barely hears the words over the noise of the party, even though Elias -or maybe his name was Lukas- has leaned in so close that Wille can smell the drink he just ordered on his breath. “What?,” he chuckles and sips on his own drink.
“Simon. Do you know if he’s single?” Lars-or-whatever repeats. “It’s just that he’s like, insanely beautiful, so I thought I’d shoot my shot if he isn’t taken.” At the mention of his best friend, Wille’s eyes shoot up to search Simon in the crowd of people and find him talking to Felice. She must have said something funny, because Simon throws his head back and lets out a laugh that Wille can’t really hear but his imagination gladly fills in the sound from memory.
Ignoring the drink swishing around angrily in his stomach, he turns back to Petter. Maybe he should have just gotten a soft drink instead. “No, I don’t think he’s seeing anyone right now, so uhhh… go ahead I guess.” His voice comes out quieter than he’d intended and he clears his throat. Johann seems to have heard him well enough anyway because he gives Wille a grin and a double thumbs up before disappearing back into the crowd, though curiously into the entirely wrong direction. Well. He’ll probably find Simon at some point. Maybe. Wille doesn’t care either way.
Shaking his head, he grabs his drink and walks into the direction where Simon actually is. He thinks that if Per believes Simon to be ‘insanely beautiful’, he should be better at spotting him in a room full of people. Not that he’s wrong with that description, objectively. Simon is obviously attractive, everyone knows that much. He’s wearing eyeliner tonight as well, Wille realizes as Simon spots him and waves him over. No wonder he caught Noah’s interest, after all the eyeliner frames his eyes in a way that makes it harder to look away from them than it usually is.
“Wille! You have to hear this!”
As Wille leans against the wall next to his friends, Simon and Felice both begin to launch into a retelling of a story, the both of them switching between who is talking so often that Wille gets a bit dizzy with the way he keeps moving his head. When Felice jumps in to clarify a detail that Simon apparently has gotten wrong he doesn’t bother moving his eyes away from Simon again. He’ll probably be the one talking in a few seconds again anyway.
There’s a tiny piece of confetti stuck in Simon’s hair that captures Wille’s attention. It feels like it would be rude to disrupt his friends’ conversation because of something that unimportant but he can’t stop staring at it, pictures himself picking the offending piece of paper out of Simon’s hair. Maybe one of his curls would wrap around Wille’s finger. They’re probably pretty soft, Wille thinks and finds himself wanting to test that theory. He doesn’t though, because who just sticks their hand into their friends hair?
Simon’s eyes crinkle as he giggles. Belatedly, Wille realizes with a stab of guilt that Felice has just finished her retelling and he has no clue at all what she’s been saying for at least two minutes because he’s been busy zoning out and staring at Simon. What is wrong with him? He gives his friends a smile that he hopes looks like the smile of someone who has definitely been listening and then mumbles something about getting another drink. Only after walking into the kitchen does he look at his paper cup to realize it’s still half full and slightly soaked through at the bottom.
He busies himself with looking through all the available drink options someone gathered in this too small kitchen in some flat he’s never been to before that belongs to someone he only barely knows from his literature classes. In the end, he settles on drinking a simple coke, recalling that weird feeling in his stomach earlier.
Simon is dancing when Wille comes back, curls messy, skin painted with purple and blue light and so so beautiful. Wille wants, stumbles a little with the intensity of the sudden certainty. Of course Simon is the most beautiful person in the room, of course Wille can’t keep his eyes off of him, of course Simon is more than a friend to him.
His hand comes up to his chest to rub at the tight sensation there and he turns on the spot to walk to the front door. The fresh October air allows him to relax a bit as he sits down on the stairs. How could he have possibly missed his own feelings for his friend? It all seems so clear in hindsight and Wille can’t help but feel a little stupid for having convinced himself Simon was nothing more than a friend to him.
What is he supposed to do now? Somewhere in there, Simon is probably being asked on a date by Oliver or whatever.
The door behind him opens and he almost gets up to let whoever is leaving the party pass when he glances backwards to see Simon closing the door.
“Hej,” Simon says, shooting Wille a small smile. “Are you okay?”
“Yeah, just had to get fresh air.” He shuffles with his shoes, fixating on a spot of dirt he notices on the right one. “Did that one guy find you?”
A pause. “Do you mean Jan?”
Ah, so that had been his name. Wille hopes he doesn’t have to remember it. “Did you…” he trails off but Simon seems to understand anyway.
“He asked me for my number.” Simon sits down on the step besides him, resting his arms on his knees. “I didn’t give it to him. He seemed nice and all but…”
“Not your type?”
“No, I guess not.” From the corner of his eye, Wille can tell that Simon is looking at him now. He turns towards him too and thinks that this must be the closest they’ve been all evening. Simon is even more beautiful up close and Wille can’t believe he hasn’t realized this sooner.
“What is your type then?,” Wille hears himself asking even as he knows he should just keep his mouth shut. He doesn’t want to hear Simon talk about a list of traits he’ll never have.
Simon just shrugs, looks at Wille still and Wille doesn’t know what to make of that. When Simon sighs, his breath is visible in the cold evening air and suddenly Wille can’t tear his eyes away from his lips.
“Wille?” Simon’s voice is quiet and unsure and he’s so close. When did they get so close?
“Simon, I…” God, he can smell Simon from here, feels warmth where their knees are pressed up against each other. “You’re beautiful,” he says, like an idiot without a brain to mouth filter.
There’s a sort of desperate noise coming from Simon and suddenly Wille feels a hand on his cheek tugging him forward until they’re kissing. He blanks for a second, his eyes still open and his hands by his side, but when Simon moves backwards, a nervous yet hopeful expression on his face, Wille pulls him back in.
When they both start to shiver and Wille can feel his legs starting to fall asleep, he rises from the step and holds out his hand to Simon.
“Will you come home with me? To talk,” he hurries to add.
“Sure.” Simon lets himself be pulled up. “As long as there are breaks for kissing involved.”
Simon’s grin is bright and beautiful and feels warm on Wille’s lips.
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