#only reason I watched twd tbh

[a-f00lish-saint]

Hey- was anyone else confused on the  zombies coming out of basically nowhere’s in SRTT???? Like it was fun and all- (to an extent) but like-.?..why in a saint row game?- like I know I shouldn’t be confused about that part of a game tbh that has cloning,  aliens in the 4th one- and then actually hell- but I can’t help but be a bit confused here man, it was also just an annoying mission to kinda get through, I’m just so confused on it, it felt like it came out of nowhere’s

(This is just me saying I can suspend my disbelief for these games-… if done right and i don’t think the zombies were done right imo)

[youmakethelight]

So unlucky for me that I fixated on carol peletier and daryl dixon when catching up on twd last year, and now I'm personally affected rather than just casually disappointed by the shit show amc did to the spinoff.

I'm actually so done tbh. I've heard enough "daryl's show" to convince me it's not worth my time.

The scene where "Just run away together?" "Be pirates, heck yeah" "Head out west" "New Mexico" "The hell's in New Mexico?" "People who weave bracelets" was the moment my ears perked up. That's when I got excited for the future of these two characters.

And the moment I saw 'DARYL DIXON', my excitement dropped entirely. I didn't hear any announcements about Carol not being part of it anymore, I just accidentally saw a trailer halfway through watching season 10. And 'DARYL DIXON' after all the New Mexico hints in season 10 just confused me entirely. I thought it meant Carol was going to die. I couldn't think of any other explanation. But either way, it was deeply disappointing.

The 'running away together' scene finally made me feel valued as a viewer because these were my two favourite characters, and it always felt like the show didn't acknowledge how good they were together before that. 'DARYL DIXON' felt like we went straight back to how it was before. All I can say is it didn't resonate with me.

But now we've had two seasons of "Daryl's show" and Carol is so firmly positioned as his side character. AMC is doing nothing to rebrand it and market them as equals. And now it will always be the show that Carol joined later on. It will always be the show with all this drama surrounding it. And people will always call it "Daryl's show", which wouldn't be the case if it hadn't started how it did.

I actually don't give a fuck. I signed on for the show Angela Kang set up. Not the show that elevates male egos and a fucking zionist. And I can honestly say that the only reason I have ploughed through this absolute shit is because the groundwork Angela Kang laid and the magnetic pull of Melissa McBride sustained me.

I joined the fandom because the first two seasons that Angela Kang showran reinvigorated my excitement for the show as a whole AND tapped into my latent enjoyment of Carol & Daryl. Before that, I enjoyed the show and the characters, but not enough to be this invested.

I really don't care if you hate AK bc of some reason or you love the ground NR touches or you prefer a different character or you have a personal vendetta against an actress or you love DZ bc he gave us a scene where Carol looks sad when an old couple dance. Norman Reedus, Scott Gimple, David Zabel, Greg Nicotero, and whoever else is responsible for how this show changed have completely wrecked my passion for it. And only they did. Not Angela Kang. Not any of the actresses.

In spite of 'DARYL DIXON', what AK did with season 10 invigorated me to rewatch the whole show, and I never rewatch shows. I got to season 5, and then it took that one interview from David Zabel to completely zap my enthusiasm for rewatching. Melissa McBride and Melissa McBride only is the reason I managed to stick around after that.

Meanwhile, all of the men who have only wrecked the show for me are the ones who are paid and uplifted the most while Melissa McBride and Angela Kang are treated like they're unwanted. The complete fucking opposite is the case.

I'm done.

[screampied]

good morning vegas :3 (in where i live now LMAO) how are you?? hope you’re enjoying your weekend :))

quick update about my friend yesterday.. i actually talked about it to her but uhhhh she kind of got defensive and she started blaming me for no reason?? and ended up blocking me as well.

She even told me that i’m starting to priotize my bf more than her 😭😭 idk what to feel about that though cause i always text her everyday and check up on her before and after i hangout with my bf, but i can’t help but feel guilty if she actually thinks i’m priotizing my bf more than her :( like i care for both of them as well, even ever since i started dating my bf i always texted her and tell her alll about my stories to her.

and we both actually hangout a few times before i need to move to another country </3 even though i’ve only known her for like 3 months, i sometimes see her as my own sister :(

BUT YEAHHH, idk 😞😞 i feel i kind of screwed up ngl 😭

-🩵 (once again, so sorry for the long rant)

HI 💛 !!! im okay, gonna take a break from writing to eat. currently watching twd hehe

my weekend’s good so farrrrr, just casually rotting in my bed. gotta finish up some assignments soon bleh

WOAHHHH REALLY? omg i kinda figured she’d do smth like that, i was hoping she’d be understanding but tbh don’t trouble yourself over it. it’s her loss, from what i’ve seen you’re really sweet !!! & if she has a problem w you expressing your opinions to her, then oh well.

don’t feel guilty, it’s not your fault. i think she’s saying that just out of spite since you mentioned that you daily check up on her. besides, you’re allowed to spend however as much time as you want with her and your bf. 🙋‍♀️ the fact that you care for both of them shows something.

remember you’re only one person, so don’t be too hard on yourself. i could see if you’re just ignoring her and spending lots of time with your bf — but you’re not, you're interactive with her and him so i can’t see why she’d say that. and oh !!! u mentioned u guys don’t even live in the same country … so, obviously if she isn’t close ofc u wouldn’t be able to spend much time w her

i understand tho !!!! i’m sorry she blocked u :( but don’t beat yourself over it, friends come and go throughout life and it’ll sting for a while but you’ll be okay 💛

[esoterium]

by request only muses.

// these muses are muses i would love to write but are less popular on the blog! they are now by request only. feel free to send memes or approach for plots, etc! they are always open and ready to go but i will prefer some plotting beforehand and have a little bit of an idea where we are heading out the gate! current partners and threads are good to go as usual. much love!

–THE WALKING DEAD.

name: daryl dixon age: 30+ and timeline dependent sexual preference: straight(ish?) occupation: survivalist, jack of all trades, dog dad faceclaim: norman reedus notes: i’m willing to play all timelines up to the end of season 11. so far, i’ve not watched twd: daryl dixon. i don’t plan to til i find out what happens with carol in it. tbh i’m not interested if they hurt her. lol! so i’ll be divergent with my own canon til then.

name: rick grimes age: 23+ sexual preference: bisexual, mostly curious til plotted occupation: father, husband, former deputy, leader, survivalist faceclaim: andrew lincoln

name: beth greene age: 25+ (prefer to write beth post season 7 and plotted!) sexual preference: straight occupation: former farmer’s daughter, survivor, thief faceclaim: emily kinney notes: heavily divergent. was found by a surgeon of the hospital and taken in. they have remained together since then. she is a thief/nomad who lies on the outskirts of the commonwealth and has yet to be encountered.

–STEPHEN KING'S UNIVERSE.

name: pete moore age: 32+ sexual preference: bisexual occupation: wanted to be an astronaut but became a car salesman faceclaim: timothy olyphant fandom: stephen king's dreamcatcher, derry crossovers welcome!

name: joe 'beaver' clarendon age: 31+ sexual preference: bisexual occupation: the comic relief, the divorced drunk, the seer faceclaim: jason lee fandom: stephen king's dreamcatcher, derry crossovers welcome!

name: stanley "stan" uris age: 12+ sexual preference: bisexual occupation: the birdmad boy, accountant, the one who remembers faceclaim: wyatt oleff, andy bean fandom: stephen king's it, primary muse from it.

–ANNE RICE'S NOVELS.

name: nicolas de lenfent age: appears 21 sexual preference: bisexual occupation: violinist, playwright, mad vampire faceclaim: none

name: santino age: appears 32 sexual preference: bisexual occupation: former coven leader, wanderer faceclaim: none

– GENERAL HORROR.

name: lydia deetz age: 39+ (will only write her in the first era w/ est. partners!) sexual preference: bisexual occupation: photographer faceclaim: winona ryder fandom: beetlejuice (film! see above for musical!)

name: ellison oswalt age: 35+ sexual preference: straight occupation: famous true crime author, currently on a comeback? kinda hated by some. mostly cops. and district attorneys. and most law enforcement. faceclaim: ethan hawke fandom: sinister

name: grace le domas age: 26 sexual preference: straight, bi-curious occupation: former server at a high end restaurant, writer, survivor of a hell of a honeymoon night faceclaim: samara weaving fandom: ready or not

name: timothy price bryce age: 27+ sexual preference: homosexual straight occupation: another vice president of mergers and acquisitions at pierce & pierce faceclaim: justin theroux fandom: american psycho notes: heavily influenced by headcanons. please see rules @traintracked as they are unique to him for extremely important reasons!

name: laurie strode age: 18+ sexual preference: demisexual occupation: babysitter (younger), former headmistress && teacher, writer faceclaim: jamie lee curtis fandom: halloween

– && OTHERS

name: terry bellefleur age: 35+ sexual preference: open minded occupation: retired military, jack of all trades, construction worker faceclaim: todd lowe fandom: true blood

name: elon "eli" spengler (canon but HEAVILY developed damn near oc) age: 35+ / verse dependent sexual preference: demisexual occupation: professor of microbiology and abnormal psychology and brain studies at columbia university, extremely hesitant paranormal researcher, inventor, scientist, environmentalist, wastebuster, former researcher at the cdc. faceclaim: jeff goldblum fandom: ghostbusters notes: my favorite movie of all time. elon is a canon but never truly expanded on twin brother of egon spengler. i'm making them fraternal. elon or eli as he prefers to be called in honor of his grandfather is an absolute paranormal magnent and the reason why egon became so fascinated with the paranormal (and a means of researching it) to begin with. in spite of what was told to their parents and the outside world.

eli was plagued with visits, whispers, dreams and sights of the dead. something he feared, hated and was terrified of. not only because of the nature of what he was seeing and his age. but how their scientifically minded parents and family would view his claims. eli did not go egon's route of understanding. instead. he went the opposite trying to rationalize his fears, visions and hauntings in hopes of the problem 'ceasing to exist'. where one was an outcast (egon), eli was viewed as conforming to the spengler mindframe and fit in with his family.

a guilt he carries now as all his willful ignorance and blind eyes never truly worked (the ghosts? nightmares? everything is still there) and with egon dead? has only worsened. it's with the arrival of an anonymous letter warning him of what is about to pass in new york city than the reclusive spengler has made himself known and extremely reluctantly involved with his brother's former teammates. all of egon's inventions. those that exist and never were are inside of his mind. his brother's research, thoughts, ideas? it's all there. he's just never told anyone.. and who knows what he's willing to give up?

[youmakethelight]

I love seeing posts like this bc it reminds me how many of us have similar feelings about this. I feel the same way as the person who posted this ask.

Sometimes I get replies to my feedback to amc from other fans telling me to stop being so negative etc etc, and it can make me feel really rubbish tbh, especially when nothing seems to be changing for the better. But even when I've been silent on something, seeing other people speak up feels supportive. Before I was online, I felt independently hurt by the title of the spinoff excluding carol, and it was seeing other people online speak up about it that made me realise there's a reason I felt that way, that I wasn't alone, and that it is actually important and it does matter. So, idk, I just want to say that even if you think your posts or comments aren't having a positive effect, there could be someone reading it who feels supported by seeing what you had to say. And that has a positive ripple effect you might just not be able to see.

And sometimes I feel too exhausted to say anything, but then I see other people speaking about it, and then I feel empowered to join in.

Plus, I've been watching twd since 2012, but only just came online a few months ago, and it's wild realising how many of us were feeling similar things in isolation. Knowing now that other people experienced things the same way I did is so validating, and that was only possible for me bc other people were using their platforms to share their voices. Before that, I think I just learnt (incorrectly) that I'm just not the target audience for this genre of fiction so I'm wrong to feel the way I do about it. If more of us had seen we weren't alone sooner, and if amc had known how more of us felt, maybe they would have never started without Melissa in the first place. Idk. But I've honestly learnt a lot about what positive allyship can do because of seeing other people here step out of their comfort zones to speak up. It can feel like you're shouting into an echo chamber sometimes, and it can sometimes make you want to give up, sit down, and shut up, but your voice is powerful, and incredibly valuable.

I feel the same way as the person who asked this question about giving my support to a show that seems determined to drag its feet, or even regress, when it comes to how it treats crew and fans. Even if our efforts don't have the positive effect we want to see for this show, our voices will create ripples of change more broadly.

I was just reminded of something @indigoraysoflight said that I love, and I think it applies here.

"Being an ally to someone is unconditional. It's speaking up when it's easier to stay silent, standing up for someone when you don't have company, and continuing to show up and use your voice even when you're told, "you're causing trouble." But that is how things change. Because if we won't speak up, who will?"

Hey MT, hope you had wonderful holidays with your family and loved ones.

With 2025 around the corner, I can't stop thinking about the next year, the future, our society and so on.

Sometimes I really ask myself why I'm still following a show that's supporting misogyny and agism. But there's still Melissa. So I can't just can't stop.

What I stumbled upon today was a statement of TWD (the official account) from Oktober 2023. "Just to clarify, the series is still titled "The Walking Dead: Daryl Dixon" but Season 2 is given the subheading of "The Book Of Carol"

As they had to clarify they won't change the title and just give ONE season this subheading, I'm absolutely pessimistic that they will change the title at all. Raise The Dead and Pilgrim disappeared during filming and changed to DD S3.

I'm at an impasse now. Being loud and uncomfortably often on their posts obviously wasn't enough. Or do we have to be more vocal? Maybe we should change tactic and just call them out on their misogynism and agism? But other females got equal treatment so maybe it's just plain bullying of Melissaand Carol? What do you think about it since their mistreatment regarding the spin offs is only concentrated on Melissa?

Hope you're having a good holiday season as well. The subtitle in S2 was a placating gesture to lure Carol/Caryl fans into watching. Removing it for S3 shows that AMC isn't thinking about long-term viewership. They'd rather attempt one marketing ploy after another instead of fixing any of the real issues, which didn't work for S2 and won't work for S3. I know it's draining to speak up and sometimes it incites bullying, but honest feedback and concerns give AMC a reason to make changes whereas being silent or pretending you're fine with everything gives AMC the excuse to keep up the mistreatment. They won't do anything if they feel like they don't have to. Just because you don't see them doing anything with your feedback right now doesn't mean they aren't. Keep it coming and here's hoping for a bright start to 2025.

[becca-e-barnes]

Just dropping by to ask - you do know you are literally perfect, right?

Aaaahhhhh omfg my heart! 🥺 thank you so much honey, this is unbelievably kind!! 💗 you are beyond perfect!

[shootfortherightreasons]

;; Something in me really really really wants to write a professionally angry rant about why losing Carl in the show is the worst possible thing that has ever and could ever happen no matter how long this show goes on for.

The question is, do I do it here or do I do it on my personal?

/ discord thinking emote

[whateverthedragonswant]

So even though I watched it a couple of weeks ago, the TWD final season is still in my head. And I just had some more thoughts about two topics:

1) Leah: While I didn't like Leah as a love interest for Daryl (which they made pretty clear that she was not going to be from the outset of when Daryl saw her again), and while I thought she was...an extreme character, I actually liked this iteration of her compared to when we saw her last. She still had the same issues, wanting Daryl to choose her and be all for her, having that concern about loyalty and I daresay devotion. But, she was an actual badass, until things went to shit. I was stuck on this story I'm trying to write and it actually helped to dissolve that block because she literally physically represented everything that has been in my head for a character for ages but could never find the right visual to represent them. So maybe that's why I'm more kindly inclined towards that part of the season for Daryl (not to mention, imho that faction was way more heart-pounding-terror inducing for Daryl than the Commonwealth arc but that's just my opinion).

2) Caryl: When it comes to Daryl and Carol, I know I've said it before but I really am happy with how they left it. Tbh, Daryl was never one of my favorite characters (Carol was more so). Don't get me wrong, I like him, I like how Norman plays him, he's obviously very important to the story, but I think I personally connected more with Rick's story than I did Daryl's for example, even Negan compared to him I think. But I always loved the Caryl dynamic and it became my OTP. But, with Daryl, I never really looked too closely at his character but considering they never really gave him a romance on the show that included the physical (except Leah and we all saw how that one turned out), I do wonder, considering Daryl's sometimes still wanting to be off on his own, if perhaps the Caryl "I love you" at the end of the finale was as far as Angela Kang felt that she could go with that relationship, along with Norman and Melissa.

The reason I say that is Daryl had Beth, right? While it didn't go canon per se, there was a strong hint there. He lets her in, little by little, but they only get as far as some lingering looks basically, right? Daryl cares about Beth but then he loses her.

Connie comes along and it's obvious that he likes her. Connie cares about him and vice versa, even Carol picks up on it. He loses her but then gets her back, even with Carol encouraging him to do something about it. He never does, and it's clear by the end of the finale that while he cares about Connie, it feels like it's settled more into a friendship, especially for Connie. He's comfortable with where it's at. She's alive, happy, healthy as possible, and living her life safely. That's all he can ask for her, right?

We also have Leah. While he hooked up with Leah and possibly even fell in love with her for a time (I'd have to go back and watch this episode, I don't remember if they had this convo or not), eventually Leah leaves and he doesn't think he'll ever see her again. Even though he made the tough decision to give up his family for her as she had been demanding of him (which as a side note is obviously not healthy). He didn't want to give them up but he cared about her that much that he was going to give it a shot. (again, I really need to rewatch that episode, forgive me if I'm forgetting anything) Then when he sees her again, she's part of this extreme faction, he has to play on their old connection to stay alive and suss out the situation. When he realizes she might not be as extreme as her leader, he trusts her with the truth and very quickly finds out it was the wrong move. Leah still lives by that old ideology: you're either with me or with them, and now it's to the extreme. He mercifully lets her live and then is forced to kill her in order to save Maggie's life later on.

So all in all, Daryl has not had the greatest run when it comes to possibly-romantic (and sexual) relationships with the women he has come to care for in more than a familial or friendship way. The two women who mean the most to him on that scale (Carol, Connie - when in comparison to people like Maggie for example) are yes, still alive and he is able to do something about it, but he chooses not to.

I don't remember the exact explanation about Daryl's character back in the day but we know he's not from the comics and this is obviously not a romance-focus show. That doesn't mean romance can't happen (i.e. Richonne, Cazekiel, Glen x Maggie) but it's not the core that all other events of the show revolve around. My point being, Daryl wasn't created for that reason.

So my thinking on this, after seeing him not doing anything about Connie and thinking back to Beth, and seeing Daryl taking off again in the finale to be on his own (yes, this does set up the spinoff but it's also integral to his character I think, he's still restless, not able to settle in fully), I'm thinking that this is a make-up of his character that AK chose to stay true to. While Daryl lived in Alexandria, he still went out past the gate. He was able to live as he liked, like we see him doing in the finale. When he lived in the Commonwealth, he wasn't able to do as he liked, but he did it for two reasons: Judith and RJ. Those were the roots that were tying him down, meaning that was the only thing he was willing to put roots down for I mean. When things are made better by the end, he no longer has to do that.

How does this all relate to Caryl and their ending? Because AK took it as far as could go without A) betraying Daryl's character & B) keeping his character open for the spinoff. If there wasn't a spinoff, I still think AK would have gone this way. What Daryl has with Carol isn't sexual in nature. Which is interesting when you compare Leah to Carol, where Melissa herself talked about how there was mirroring going on between Carol and Leah in that episode where Daryl meets Leah. And there is: Dog is a big link between the two, for example. So not only do we have that connection between these two women in his life, Carol is the antithesis of Leah if you think about it. Daryl had sex with Leah, and he was giving up his family for her even though he didn't really want to. She made him choose. Carol and Daryl don't have a sexual relationship, and she has never made him choose her over the family, or even wanted him to. While Daryl wasn't happy with Rick when he kicked Carol out back in the earlier seasons, Carol never wanted to find Daryl in order to get him to choose her over the group, even after she came back.

So this ILY scene in the finale actually holds way more meaning than I think some people are giving it credit for. As we know, Carol loves Daryl for who he is, how he is. She doesn't make demands of him or insists he change the core aspects of who he is. Not in the way Leah did for example. Beth and Connie I don't think would have either, but they were never connected to Leah in the way Carol had been.

And if we go further, Carol has always been connected to the other ladies, not just Leah. Beth was stuck in the same hospital as Carol, both taken from Daryl while he was with them solely. Carol is there to see Beth die. Connie was lost due to Carol's actions/choices and she feels guilty due to it, it's why Daryl is so mad at her and it causes friction in their own relationship, and she never stops giving hope to Kelly. Carol has always been connected.

So for her to also mirror/be connected to the one woman we see Daryl get physical with and get the closest he's ever been to a verbal ILY in the show, it means exactly what we've been saying: Daryl loves Carol and vice versa. So that ILY holds way more weight than I think most people realize. Was it a kiss? No. Was it them getting married or them riding off for a makeshift honeymoon? No. But we got the confirmation. In a way that was true to Daryl's character, their relationship (who he has the most intimacy with emotionally and shares tender touches and embraces with), and having an unfinished air about it with hope for the future.

I did not see the Talking Dead so I have no idea if the actors were asked about this scene or not, but considering the story and how this occurred in that story, it completely makes sense why AK decided to go this route for them.

And Daryl being told he can still be happy too (alluding to him having to find it) isn't because Carol isn't it for him or he hasn't fallen in love yet. It's to keep things open for the spinoff while Daryl is still restless. Daryl is a guy, imho, that will always be on the move. Even if he married Carol, let's say, and they had a huge family of their own, there is no way that Daryl won't become restless during that time and still go out beyond the gate, for days at a time. He's not Rick or Negan or Eugene; that's not who he is. I think he even confirms that when telling the story of the hiding spot he used to go to when he was a kid, to hide until his dad fell asleep. While it's sad that he had to do that, it's what he became used to. Even when he had Merle, he was always on his own. I hate to use the word 'drifter' or 'nomad' but that's basically what he is. No matter how happy or settled he might be in other areas of his life. That's another reason why Dog is so appealing for his story line: Dog can go with him anywhere he goes. Dog can settle into Alexandria 3.0 or he can be on the road for days at a time. (not comparing Carol to a dog obviously but you get my point)

So for Carol to be saying goodbye to him, for them to mention how Carol has the new job now (as a reason why she can't go anywhere with him), it isn't just for the spinoff. It's because they're telling you this is why we're doing things this way; this is who they are together. And for them to have both characters saying ILY to each other (yes, even without the kiss), they're telling you all you need to know.

This is who has taken residence in his heart. And because of who he is, that ILY was as far as they could have taken it at that moment. Or else we would have seen him do something about Connie when she came back, or we would have seen more romance for him in the show. But that's not who he is.

[matan4il]

Let me preface this. I'm a life long shipper but I always stay away from "canon straight" characters because I saw what happened with OUAT and Supergirl. Like I reconize the signs you know. So I just wanted to scream into the void about these latest interviews (who by the way I dont believe) but I'm insulted by them. And heres why...

Of course I silently shipped Eddie and Buck because how could you not. But I was like they arent gonna go there dont waste your time on tumblr. And honestly when I would watch the show every freaking nod they gave I would roll my eyes. I even told my husband so many times it's rediculous these writers are baiting the shippers in ways I haven't seen before. It's mean. I didnt even come here till after Eddie dumped Ana and Buck and Taylor are so clearly a dumpster fire because I literally was like wait there is a chance.

So for them now to come out and pretend they haven't created this is gaslighting in the highest form. They made conscious decisions at every turn to promote them while simultaneously also not giving them female LIs.

Like 2 seasons ago that family dinner scene is something I would have been like awww at. 2 best bros having dinner with one of their girls. I can acknowledge bro besties without shipping, see Scrubs and TWD. But you did that dinner now, in an epsiode where you make Buck a cheater. Now I actually sympathize with Taylor.

Again I don't put a lot of stock into what they said I just find it highly insulting and gaslighting to the extreme that they would be so flippant to the shippers they fed for 4 seasons.

Hi Nonnie! Thank you for the ask!

TBH, I always believed they knew what they were doing since the moment they chose to make Eddie’s introduction all about Buck, and more than that, they made it all about Buck being overwhelmed by how fantastic (even physically) Eddie is (which Tim referred to in a recent interview as one of the reasons why Buddie has shippers). But let’s for the sake of argument say they didn’t intend to set up a subtextual slow burn and only later on realized that’s how some viewers saw it. In 210, Tim said the elf lady scene was a nod at Buddie fans. That means by that point, they were aware of the shipping. If it had been an “accidental” creation of shipping fodder, they could have change course at this point and make Buddie more like Chim and Eli. Instead, they chose to just keep making their bond deeper and more intense, intimate and meaningful. So yeah, I’m not buying that they aren’t aware of the romantic undertones between Buddie. But then, I never really believe TV showrunners. I’ve been burned one too many times, so I know what they say is more like what they think they need to say. But Buddie has already given me a lot of joy, shipping them and getting what we have so far, and I also believe the showrunners can choose bravery and making 911 into an actual TV historical moment by allowing Buddie to go canon. Even if they’re not there right now, they can get there before the show ends its run. So I’m hopeful that they will! And if they do, I really don’t expect them to talk about it in interviews ahead of time, you know?

Thank you again, I hope you found my reply helpful and that you’re having a great day! xoxox

(HEY, if it takes me a moment to reply to an ask, it's 'coz I'm juggling work overload and medical stuff. If I got it, I will reply to it! You can always check my ask tag. Thank you for understanding! xoxox)

[thereadersmuse]

I literally stopped watching TWD once Negan murdered Glenn so it is absolutely WILD to me seeing gifs here of the originals, people who personally loved Glenn, not only being civil with him but also…camaraderie?? So did he like send them a gift basket and they called it square or what? Lol

I don't know what Negan has or hasn't done to atone, as I also stopped watching approximately 56 years ago, anon. For some reason the only thing I can think of is a fucked up version of "How do you solve a problem like Neeeeeeeeegannnnnnnnnn," ala from "The Sound of Music."

Personally, I would think a shovel to the back of the head would do it.

But eh, he is a popular character to many I guess.

Also the writing on this show has been notoriously bad for a long time, so-

I miss Glenn and Abe so much tbh.

[waynedunlaptheorgandonor]

can i say a sort of pointless rambly thing i was thinking about that i can't put under the cut bc i'm on mobile?

jk, i'm not actually asking. ramble below, not edited for clarity. the following is completely unclear and i will not fix it:

i've been thinking about how part of the reason i'm so chill about caryl is bc growing up as a queer woc 99% of my main ships were like, never gonna fucking happen bc they literally couldn't. it was like, "omg, they gazed at each other from across the room, let's analyze the homosexual subtext of this one scene for the next fifty years, that's not necessarily hyperbole." i've watched all my ships fuck other ppl/have other love interests, and i knew that my thing was never gonna be canon, so to see like, one thing being like, "one half of my ship fucked another person several years ago while pining for the other half of my ship," i'm like...#nice, bc that can and likely will be used as a plot point to get them together later on, whereas in other situations i've been in i just kinda had to deal with it. so my impulse when i see ppl losing their shit is to be like

and to be slightly annoyed, tbh, bc the ship is still on track to be canon, and it's like, literally two white heterosexuals, they're prime candidates for juicy angsty pining that actually gets a resolution.

but!

that being said, i recognize that that attitude isn't necessarily fair. for one thing, i'm not the only queer woc (or some variation thereof) in this fandom, and some ppl's impulse might be exasperation instead, bc like, "wtf, even my mayohet ship has dumb fucking drama," and that's valid as hell, and i get it.

and also, i get that, even if you didn't grow up shipping impossible ships (or mulder/scully, bc that's a brand of bullshit all its own), this has been a suuuuper drawn out process where sometimes it feels like they're legit sprinkling crumbs to keep you hooked, just to play you again, and when you are invested in something, like /rly/ invested, especially if it's a form of escapism or hyperfixation or whatever, that can be e x h a u s t i n g. and i get that. i truly do, and while i make a lot of snide comments about the fandom being bonkers, i do get where the bulk of you are coming from (unless you're one of those ppl who hate on actors and esp actresses for just doing their jobs, and attack them on social media, in which case i am very much judging you and you need to get your life together).

i also realize that in the scheme of things i'm still a newbie. i've been here, what, twoish/threeish years, whereas some of you have been here since the beginning, so i'm not as worn out as y'all. but i also think that gives me a bit of objectivity that some of y'all have (understandably) lost.

my positivity is not meant as a sleight against those of you who are feeling negative, but is more of a semi-objective viewpoint (i say semi, bc lbr, i'm invested af in this, so i definitely have bias), and to me the threads of the storyline they're crafting seem sort of obvious.

like, let's look at it, yeah? they have one season left of this show that has been on for over a decade. they need to cater to everyone to give them a satisfying ending, while still hanging on to carylers bc of the spin-off. darylrreah seems like a very calculated move, bc it gives them both something to make abcers happy, while also creating tension and suspense and pining for carylers (i think they might underestimate just how fed up some carylers are tbh, and are banking on us to hang on for one last ride, which, honestly? if they play it right will probably work.)

if they end up doing a dumb love triangle thing, which, without seeing the episode and gauging the subtext i can't confidently say if i think they will or won't, it will ultimately end in our favor. it has to, bc leah isn't going to third wheel them on the bike in the spin-off. we can say with good authority that whatever that relationship ends up being (again, idk if they'll drag it out or not) it will be temporary. which leaves caryl open to ride off into the sunset and then bone down in every state in the united states and in puerto rico for good measure.

it's a lot of cheap drama, but i really and truly do not think it's anything to worry about, and i still really and truly trust kang to not make it out of character. ik ppl still don't agree with me on that point, and i'm not gonna argue, but to me it really does make perfect sense.

and i also predict that they are gonna play it up hardcore in the promotional shit and talking dead, but when that happens, remember it's bc it gets attention. regardless of where the story is ultimately going, relationship drama gets attention, which gets viewers, which gets amc and twd producers nice and comfy with full pockets

idk. to sum up ig i just wanted to clarify that i don't mean any harm with my relentless positivity. my history in fandom has just made this seem like nothing in comparison, bc while ppl are freaking out, i'm like, "oh damn, they're actually gonna get together by the end of this, aren't they? i didn't know that could happen!" and that makes me excited instead of upset

and you definitely don't have to listen to me. maybe i'm actually wrong. maybe i'm completely full of bullshit and am just good at making things sound confident. i got a lot of As on papers in college over books i never read, i know how to bs. but i also know how to analyze, and i while i will be the first to tell you i am not the best at a great many things, i do know that i am good at critically analyzing text while taking into account the context it was written in, and imho all signs point to canon caryl. when, i'm not entirely sure, but i see it happening. if it doesn't then they severely fucked up their storytelling, and that'd just be bad writing on their part.

(if you want proof that i'm good at reading writers'/producers' intentions, consider that i watched like, 8 seasons of supernatural before giving up, and said to myself, "i think they're gonna make destiel canon, but not until the very last second bc they are rly into catering to their fans but also have to consider their dumb fanboy audience so they can't do anything crazy overtly gay," and guess who hit the nail on the fucking head on that one)

none of this is important, but it was rattling around my mind grapes and i wanted to write it down into something vaguely coherent, and where else better to do it than here. i can word vomit and then send it into the ether and pretend i never said a thing. i love this horrible website, nothing can compare

i have no real conclusion to this, it was mostly stream of consciousness, but i hope it sort of helps y'all understand where i'm coming from, and why i am as chill as i am about things. not about y'all. y'all cause me so much anxiety i get physically sick and have to legit block tags, but with the actual show content i'm zen as hell

uh

the end ig?

it feels weird even signing off on this, but w/e

-diz

[ourkidswouldbemartians]

 My thoughts on 10x18, ‘Find Me’ 

(I’m trying to be as neutral as possible so there will be #Positivity and #negativity) 

When I first heard about the spoilers I was like HELL NO!! I’m not watching this load of shit! AMC can fuck off!! But then I stopped being dramatic and admitted that I am sucker for TWD and that no matter what this show releases I’m still gonna watch it anyway. I mean I’ve even watched the Morgan making cheese with a goat episode at least three times and on purpose so :/// 

So anyway I eventually watched this episode with the following mindset: if there’s anything storytelling has ever taught me is that drama and angsty arguments are part of the game, it gets worse before it gets better. I watched this episode telling myself: there’s a spinoff, think about all the good stuff that s10 gave us. 

I have made a list of what I found positive or negative and speculated some stuff about what the future may hold: 

Goodie :)

- Many caryllels between the past and present, between Daryl @ Leah and between Lea and Carol.  There is a reason for this I’m sure and I hope the writers will talk about it. 

- The fight wasn’t as bad as the spoilers made it seems, they’ll come back from it for sure.   A confrontation had to happen about the fact that Carol left several times and I’m glad it did, because that’s what Daryl’s most hurt about in the argument imo. I also think Carol doesn’t want to run anymore and wants to be where Daryl is (10x14 made it clear) but it’s sad Daryl doesn’t see it yet. And in this episode she says “I’m not going anywhere” which I feel is an emphasis about how her mind is made up: she knows where she belongs.

- Their banter was adorable, I just love how much Carol loves teasing him. And he teased her too!

- Carol is pretty

- The soundtrack was beautiful as always when they share a scene

- They’ll be ok again for sure... The way he looked at her when she left after the argument made me feel like he kinda regretted his words already. But that’s opened to interpretation. 

Baddie :( 

- Daryl was unfair to Carol but I wouldn’t say OOC, Daryl is not an angel, he’s a complex character who in this episode said hurtful things. He too has made mistakes that NOBODY is throwing at his face but it’s all about double standards with writers uh? 

- I still do not understand the purpose of Leah. I get it, Daryl was alone, lost, Rick’s gone, Carol’s married, everyone from Team family is scattered everywhere so he needed someone. I think he was even suicidal considering his behaviour during the storm... So I think meeting Leah made him feel better. But did it have to be romantic? We’ve heard a billion times that Daryl doesn’t do relationship so when it happens it will only happen once. So why giving him a relationship with no on screen kiss or sex? In one episode with almost no buildup?  Knowing that’s something everyone wants to see for Daryl (not necessarily w/ Carol)? I cant understand the writers’ choices. I simply don’t understand the motivation here. And I mean that without even thinking about what Leah means for Caryl. 

- It’s my fault for expecting this but I thought Carol may have had some kind of reaction towards the Daryl/Leah thing but she didn’t. But she was a bit taken aback when she found the note which makes me think she didnt know about the romantic aspect of it or that Daryl once felt like he belonged with someone other than team family

//////

Not ship related: 

- Carol was perfect in this episode. Beautiful. Talented. Brilliant. She broke my heart when she said “I just needed a friend” ... she feels so lonely, she deserves the world and she’s alone :( or feels like she is at least. Everything that happened with Alpha happened because her son got brutally murdered and for that she deserves nothing but understanding. She’s right for not being sorry. Anyway... I’m with her not matter what. I ship her with happiness first and I always will.

- The acting was on point. Nothing to say here, NR and MMM are simply stellar together. Leah’s actress is good too. And her character is likeable tbh. 

- The scenery was beautiful

/////// 

About the future: 

I don’t think all hope is lost for Caryl but I’m no longer 100% sure about them in a romantic way. They put an emphasis on the word friend in this episode and I feel they will conclude the L/D thing one way or another: Leah will be back. Carol has her knife in Diverged and Daryl said to Dog “we’re gonna get her back” which foreshadows her return. I see things possibly going two ways: they could restart their relationship, it doesn't work out / she gets killed off and that leads him to want to start over somewhere else and then he goes away with Carol (=spin off) OR: she comes back but it leads to a love triangle and he chooses Carol, they get together and Caryl is finally canon. 

In conclusion I am still confused, it’s a huge I don’t know for me. It’s not all bad, but not all good either. . I don’t fully understand the writers’ choices, in my case the only thing that could make me feel 100% hopeful about caryl being endgame is knowing what will happen in S11. So only time will tell I guess. We just have to wait. 

Caryl on and forgive my typos  ❤︎

[sir-silly]

TWDG S4 First Playthrough

E1 - Ohh how I’ve missed these characters. S4 isn’t flawless, but I love it so freaking much. The collectables are one of my favorite parts, tbh. I’m such a simp for Louis and that’s never gonna change, ngl. He’s so cute and caring and ugh. I need me one of those. Clem is so damn lucky.

Unsurprisingly, I’m the worst at controlling this season in particular. I’m not used to the mouse sensitivity being so high with the camera when you’re walking around but I can’t change it because then it’ll be different when I’m picking choices and stuff. I freaking suck at all of the kill walker scenes, I seriously died like 5 times clearing them out to help the hunting party. I’m concerned about when I have to help James at his camp lol.

The confrontation with Marlon at the end is so damn good. I just always find it so perfect and well done. Also, Louis helping AJ up when he gets pushed down is so fucking sweet. I love him so much. Appealing to him really hit hard and seeing that “Your relationship with Louis has changed” is just oof. I know what CJ has been talking about all this time now lol.

E2 - All of the cuts when Clem and AJ are talking at the beginning are freaking gorgeous. Like, with them standing in the same exact position with the background flashing are just MMMMM. That was really, really well done.

Fuck Lilly. Fuck her trying to help Clementine stand up. She makes me so damn angry. And Abel twisting AJ’s arm and Clem begging for him to stop just breaks my heart. It makes me wonder how much of these interactions Violet and Louis saw, because they would have known to turn around the second they heart that first gunshot. Like, while they were sneaking up, what all did they hear? I told Vi to shoot Lilly because, once again, fuck her.

I’m still so damn bad at the walker killing scenes. It’s honestly sad how terrible I am at them, like, I don’t know why I struggle so much. I think a part of it is that in previous seasons, it would only be like 2 or 3 walkers, meanwhile in S4, it’s like 5 or 6. It’s also probably the fact that we have to control both the camera and Clem’s movements. I just can’t do both.

James is cute. I love him. He’s a sweet boi. Louis carrying AJ in is cute. I love him. He’s a sweet boi. When they get upstairs and AJ calls for Clem, he just sounds so scared and it hurts me. He’s still just a little kid and I couldn’t imagine my cousins that are his age going through these kinds of things.

The banter between Clem, Ruby and Mitch at the greenhouse is so cute and wholesome. Like, Ruby saying that condensation is a big word for Mitch and him daring Clementine to drink whatever is in the vials with her saying “not in a million years.” It’s just so sweet and so similar to modern jokes between friends, it just makes me so happy.

Also, Mitch is one strong boi. Like, Clem is strong, don’t get me wrong. She fuckin chops down trees and pushes adults off of balconies, but she couldn’t get that damn propane tank to budge, meanwhile Mitch comes over and picks it up with one hand. It reminds me of Peeta in The Hunger Games with how he could throw bags of flour over his shoulders super easily.

Another also, the way Mitch says propane annoys me lol. He puts the emphasis on the O instead of the A, so it’s prOpane instead of propAne. It’s just always bothered me and I had to complain about it lmao. Ruby is cute. I love her. She’s a sweet gorl.

AJ asking to sleep in Clem’s bed, her saying she’s still little, and him saying he slept better with her are just so damn cute. I freaking love their relationship so damn much. They’re just so sweet together and I can’t help but gush over them.

Louis talking about Marlon while shooting arrows is just a great scene to me, no matter how short it is. I don’t understand how people can still hate him so much when he explains how close they were and how guilty he feels, not just about kicking Clem and AJ out, but his role in Marlon’s death.

In the previous seasons, I think players became really desensitized to a character losing someone. 1 was honestly pretty good with Kenny’s loss of Duck and Katjaa with his anger and hyperfixations, 2 was a mess with Luke losing literally everyone he knows and being like “meh”, and 3 was also really bad with how Mari, Gabe and David can all die and three days later, Kate’ll still be like “let’s start a family uwu.” I think because of all this, people were really hard on Louis when he reacted like a normal human being over Marlon, which really sucks.

During the card game, when Louis reassures AJ about not being there for the old world and he and Clem kinda nod at her, is so ffffucking cute. I’ll never get over that. They shared a similar look their first night when he gave AJ the rest of his soup even though he was clearly super hungry. I cherish these looks between them and for once, it almost seems unbalanced with Violet lol. Like, I don’t feel like you get those looks with Violet no matter what you choose like you do with Louis those first two episodes. And Louis teasing Aasim about Ruby is really adorable.

And of course, helping him tune the piano is just UGH. He’s so damn cute and I can’t get over it. The scene has some of my favorite interactions between him and Clem. One, where he’s like “How do you feel about our imminent deaths?” and she doesn’t say anything and he says, “You know I’m here for you.” and it’s so CUTE. Two, he has her blow on the strings, she says “I can’t believe I fell for that.” while laughing and he goes, “It’s good to see you like this.” Like, how damn sweet is this boy? He sees that she puts on just as much of a cold exterior as he does with a humorous one, realizing that they both let their guards down around each other. Three, Clem calling Louis a weirdo and him saying that she likes that so in reality, they’re both weird.

Another thing I’ll never get over is Mitch’s death. It makes me hella salty and just grrrr. LOOK HOW THEY MASSACRED MY BOY!!!!

E3 - Willy crying over Mitch’s body is oof. Louis holding Clem’s hand is oof. I wish there was a third option during Abel’s interrogation where you could tell AJ that you don’t want him to watch rather than saying he doesn’t have to.

Again, unsurprisingly, I sucked at James’ camp with the walkers. I had to kill some of them because I literally couldn’t stay alive, so that made me angry. I also missed some of the collectables at James’ barn which also made me mad. AJ and Clem’s interactions with the salt lick are super cute. Talking to James about walkers is much more of an oof when you actually let Lee turn.

So, here’s my thing about the scene in the barn with the walkers and the chimes. No, I don’t think there’s anything more inside of walkers and I agree completely with the dialogue choice that it sounds like hell if that’s true. So James is saying they’re at peace when you go in and touch the times, but that isn’t accurate. They walk up to the chimes because it’s noise. You can’t hear them growling and moaning because the audio switches to music to try and make it more meaningful. James then proceeds to say that when walkers are alone, they’re innocent and harmless which is so inaccurate it hurts. What about Sandra in Clem’s house almost killing Lee? What about the walker that bit Duck? What about the one that bit Lee? Or the one in the shed while Clem stitched her arm? The one that dragged Luke to the bottom of the lake? It’s bullshit.

Louis’ date with Clem makes me hella salty only because he doesn’t get to give her anything like Vi gives her a pin. That’s also bullshit. He’s fucking cute though with being unable to light the matches and saying, “Have you met you?” and shit. Ngl, the first time he said he saw some magazines in the headmaster’s office, I was like LOUIS NO, but they were just about dating so it’s ok lmao. AJ and Clem with the ball and the “I love you” are so fucking adorable.

The hootenanny is cute. Ruby is cute. Louis saying “a woman after my heart” is cute. Him saying leprechauns are too hard to explain to AJ is cute. It’s all cute. Clem tells Ruby that purple was her dad’s favorite color, but it also was her favorite color in S1. If you stand around her and Katjaa for long enough, she’ll tell her that it’s her favorite. So, it’s apparently changed, and it makes me wonder what it is now.

I don’t believe Willy’s reason for getting sent to Ericson. I think that the real reason he was sent was really upsetting, so he never told anyone why he was actually sent there. So, when he learned about masturbation, he thought it was funny and used that excuse instead to make it funny.

I know that the shit with Louis’ parents really hurt him, but I always laugh so hard over the meme that’s like, “violet: my grandma killed herself in front of me 😔. louis: my parents got me the wrong gucci flipflops 😭😭😭.” It’s really tempting to say the dialogue option “worst party ever” but I never do lol.

The dream sequence with Lee always gets to me. Specifically, when we hear “Hey, sweetpea” and Clem looks up in shock, when she runs to hug him, when he’s like “Just look at you,” and when he leaves saying, “It’s time to go. There’s people that need you.” And goddammit, wHERE IS MY OPTION TO TELL HIM THAT I LOVE HIM??!?!?!!! I DON’T JUST WANT TO SAY THAT I MISS HIM!!!!!! I WANT IT ALL!!!!

I’m not even going to get into all of my problems with Violet’s scene in the cell because it makes me too salty and mad. There were some issues with Louis’, too, but not nearly as many. Just grrrrr.

I suck at the fighting sequences as well lol. Like, I got Clem punched so many times lmao. Also, where is my option to be like, “Hey AJ give me the gun” so Clem kills Lilly. Because I want her dead and I want James alive, but I don’t want him to be the one pulling that trigger again. Angery. Where are my choices, choice based game?

E4 - AJ’s talking for the previously on TWD gives me chills when he’s like, “But I remember all the rules. And the first one...is never go alone.” So good. If you can give me chills with just audio and screencaps, you did a good job. Y’all, everyone’s gotta be so damn sore after that explosion. Like, they running around a limber and shit but nah, everything’s going to hurt. And Clem’s climbing all over all this metal with fire literally right next to it, that shit would be so damn hot you’d burn your hands.

Fuck Lilly and her trying to make you feel bad as she’s getting away on the raft. Fuck the fact that you can’t shoot her afterwards. I make the choice three damn times to shoot her, and you still don’t let me have my choice. Bullshit. I hope she eats shit and dies.

Louis and Clem hugging on land is so cute. Violet getting blinded is dumb. It’s like they had to even the levels since Louis got his tongue cut out, which is just stupid. If they wanted to have them both hurt, they should have just set that they pulled out her eye or something instead of her getting blinded after the fact. I find it really dumb. I can’t even tell you how many times I died on the damn beach trying to get through the walkers. It shouldn’t be this hard to control your game.

As much as I hate James’ character flip in the cave, I do love that scene and I prefer it over the one without him. AJ really does have a lot of problems and if I didn’t know that not trusting him would kill Louis, I would have picked that. But I love Louis too damn much for that. He’s still so young and none of these are choices that he should have to make. And the fact that he chose to shoot Tenn in the neck adds to that. He doesn’t know to aim for a non-kill shot to stop someone like Clementine does, so his first real friend ended up dead. And his perspective on things after the game is still messed up, which you can tell by the “What Clem taught me” segment at the end.

The reunion with Louis is adorable. Him saying “longest damn minute of my life” is adorable. Him talking about his skylight and the house they’re going to build is adorable. I love all of it. I always have a hard time with the final touch, because I love that he wants a new piano, the nostalgia of a treehouse, and the dialogue “Thanks dad” for the skylight lol. Tenn’s face when Louis tells him he can help with painting is so fucking cute.

Minnie coming up to the bridge is so well done. It’s so ominous (I think the French version is the creepiest) and the look Louis and Clem share is just like “wtf, do you hear that too?” I died a million times during their fight scene as well because I can’t play this game for shit. I don’t know why, but I find Louis jumping the gap really attractive lol. Like, our boi woulda killed it in long jump lmao.

Y’all got an axe. You shoulda broke the damn lock off that gate. Smh.

As always, the whole process of Clem getting bit and her talking with AJ in the barn is heartbreaking. It gets to me every damn time, just like her and Lee’s does. It’s honestly hard for me to decide which one is sadder because while Clementine raised AJ his whole life, Lee became her family so quick and was cut so short. I prefer the choice of killing Clem just because you get more dialogue between her and AJ before he cuts her leg off, but I didn’t have it in me to tell him that, so I told him to leave her.

I have mixed feelings about the placement of the flashback to McCarroll Ranch. Part of me thinks it belongs in a different episode, but another likes it where it is. It just doesn’t seem to fit well where it was placed.

Much like 9 year old Clem being able to drag an unconscious Lee into the jewelry store, it would be impossible for 5 year old AJ to get her thicc ass into that wheelbarrow and push her to the school. I enjoy the headcanon that James arrived not too long after the amputation and helped get her back, but decided to stay in the woods because he didn’t want anyone to see him.

I missed another collectable in the damn shed which I’m salty as hell about. I love the reuse of Take Us Back, as many of us do. I just had to bring it up because it makes me emotional. Clem pushing AJ on the swing is adorable. The dinner scene is adorable. Violet’s voice is adorable. Louis kissing Clem on the cheek is adorable. It’s all adorable.

When Clem asks if she did a good job, I will always and forever pick the “Is she crazy?!” option because everything she did was incredible. She never had to take care of AJ. She wasn’t stuck with him. She could have left him behind so many times, but she never did. And like Javier said, not everyone is like her, not everyone wants to take care of a baby. And she fought like hell for him day after day, no matter what.

And you can see, especially in the cave scene when AJ brings up the fact that she’s still just a kid too, that she still has so much bottled up inside. She grew up so damn fast and became a goddamn powerhouse. Anyone that got in the way of her and AJ was going to end up dead. She never knew what it meant to be a parent before the world ended. She didn’t get to the age where you understand the choices parents make when raising their kids. And yet, she still raised a child all while raising herself in the middle of an apocalypse.

Clementine, you did a better job than anyone else ever could have.

[faccal]

1-10 and 15 for the get to know the author asks!

Get to know the author asks

Tysm for the asks!!!!! @simonxriley

1) is there a story you’re holding off on writing for some reason?

Yes! A few, actually. A mermaid AU (yes I know, cringe right?) I wanted a merman Logan x pirate Keegan fic and idek why 😂. I'm holding off because I feel like I would not be able to execute it properly, and also it's a lot more self indulgent. Just straight up Logan singing to woo Keegan because the sirens didn't work.

There's also a TWD fic I wanted to write, but the ship isn't very popular, and a lot of people hate on it.

2) what work of yours, if any, are you the most embarrassed about existing?

THE TAME AND THE FLAME!!! I'm so embarrassed by it but can't delete it at the same time. Infatuation too. It was originally a Rorke x Logan modern AU which progressed into Rorke x Logan x Keegan, but it was straight smut instead of plot and it pissed me off. It's funny though, because the fic was really only supposed to be smut. But me being me, I needed to make a proper plot and ending, and now I'm rewriting it. (Still embarrassed though 😂)

3) what order do you write in? front of book to back? chronological? favorite scenes first? something else?

It's a combination of my favorite scenes first (if I think of a super badass/awesome scene, I will immediately write it down.) And front to back. Though soemtimes I write the ending and/or climax first, and then fill in the rest from there.

4) favorite character you’ve written

Keegan P. Russ. It's a lot of fun messing with his quiet/collected nature, especially when Logan is thrown into the mix. I also love writing his dog Percy from And Then He Cried because Percy is amazing and everybody loves him. (Including Riley)

5) character you were most surprised to end up writing

Ajax and Kick. There's not much info on them, and they're very mysterious, which is why I'm surprised I tried and included them in my fics. I've kind of given them their own personalities for the different fics.

I was also surprised to write Hesh and Merrick, since I'm not the biggest fan of them (mostly Hesh.)

6) something you would go back and change in your writing that it’s too late/complicated to change now

Literally anything in The Tame and The Flame. I screwed up on the ages, length of the chapters and pace of the story. It's a fic I despise quite a bit, but I've already rewritten and edited it so many times, I feel like I'd just confused my readers more and I don't want to do that. I think the main thing would be to figure out how old everyone is supposed to be in the present, and then do the math to figure out the past.

I'd change Keegan's mate Carol's name to something else, lol, and would make Merrick less creepy. I mean he is one of the bad guys in the fic, but I think I made him too dark. He could still join and help Rorke without doing all the shit I had him do. I kind of feel bad.

I also would change Logan and Hesh's mom's name. In The Tame and The Flame, and Thorns and Roses, her name is Elaine, which is similar to Elias, too similar for my tastes.

7) when asked, are you embarrassed or enthusiastic to tell people that you write?

I'm enthusiastic until people irl ask to read my works which currently are all fanfiction and then I get embarrassed and have to come up with some bullshit excuse as to why they can't read it. 😂

8) favorite genre to write

Science fiction/fantasy. Mostly fantasy, lol. I also really love to wtite smut. Not sure why though, it takes forever when I do, lol.

9) what, if anything, do you do for inspiration?

Listen to certain genres of music, watch shows, and play games. I listen to a lot of metal/fast paced music for action scenes and whatnot.

Tbh I don't even have to try sometimes and my brain just goes "INSPO!!!!" And it's like: no, I already have like a dozen WIPs already, I don't want to write a zombie apocalypse au.

10) write in silence or with background noise? with people or alone?

Usually with some kind of background noise (eg: a fan) or music. I can't do it in silence I get anxious. Idk why.

Usually alone, depending on what I'm writing. If it's smut, alone. I get paranoid and feel like everybody is watching me. With most other things I don't mind if others are around. Soemtimes I do though.

15) why did you start writing?

A teacher forced me to 😂 while that is true, the biggest reason why I stuck to it is because it is therapeutic/a form of escape for me, and it's really nice to have something like writing waiting for me whenever I need it. I also love the support people offer me as it really does help so much!!

Thank you so much for the asks, this was a lot of fun!!! @simonxriley also I apologise if any of my answers suck/don't make sense. Currently falling asleep as I'm answering these 😂

[alexis-vaughn]

Get to know the mun! Repost, don’t reblog.

———  𝐁𝐀𝐒𝐈𝐂𝐒.

(PEN)NAME: Serena

PRONOUNS: she/her

ZODIAC SIGN: Gemini, Chinese Zodiac: Dragon

TAKEN OR SINGLE: Single

———  𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐄𝐄  𝐅𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐒.

1! ♡    Japan is my favorite country and I feel very connected to the culture and people. I visit it every 1-2 years and also lived a while in tokyo and really loved it. I really am homesick due to the pandemic cause I couldn’t travel there last year :(

2! ♡ I’m a big fan of sailor moon and you will find pieces of merchandise and stuff from it everywhere in my flat. That’s also where I got my love for pink from so nearly half of my flat is pink... walls, furniture, clothes, carpets, blankets, decorations etc (also my hair is pink since 10 years if I don’t change it when the color runs out 😂) and some people think I live here with a daughter I don’t have when they come in the first time 😂

3! ♡  If I love something, I start collecting it right away. I can’t go half in, I’m always all in cause I’m very passionate about everything I love. No matter if certain franchises, bands, brands, candy etc 👀 (my biggest collections are cups, frogs, unicorns, Pokémon, sailor moon, Dir en grey, TWD, rilakkuma, snowmen, clothes, plushees, jewelry and of course everything pink)

———  𝐄𝐗𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄.

I started roleplaying on Myspace in 2006. I started with one single muse, but back then exclusivity was a big thing and things like multi shipping didn’t really exist, so I created more than one version of this character very soon so I could have different profiles and partners. It got way out of hand so in the end I had like 10 profiles and some of them with multi muses where you could request muses and ugh 😂 crazy times. I left for a few years after the drama took over (jealousy is a big thing in rpc it seems, also affecting rl back then 🙄) and rl got too busy. I started writing Rick in 2019 and tried different platforms like Amino and even Twitter for rp, but deleted them after one day 😂 after reading randomly some rps on tumblr on my timeline, I created these profiles in 2020, after I struggled a whole year with the decision if I really dare to put up another Rick on here or just go with Alexis, cause I was highly aware of how jealousy in rp between different portrayals of a main character could affect the fun (like I made the experience in 2006 already), but in the end I’m very happy I put my two babies on here and that my portrayal of Rick got accepted, cause I met so many great people and love you all so much 🥺 I’m so happy to see different portrayals of every character and I’m glad a lot changed since back then, even if some problems are still there. But I love this place so thank u 🥺

———  𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄  𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐅𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄.

Anti Hero’s. Yes, many claim that Rick is the typical “hero” persona, but I definitely don’t think so. He can be such a beast and has such a troubled soul, that I absolutely love to play a complex character like him. Complexity is important for me, that’s why also my Alex has so many different traits, some that I see in myself and some I just love to watch to get inspired by it. Even in the past I loved characters like Prue from Charmed (who many fans hated cause she was a bit bitchy or seemed cold) or Buffy (who had this struggle about her depression and the love triangle) and of course Sailor Moon (yes, she is an Anti hero for me cause SPOILER in one version of her story she killed everyone and was reborn to change this past and yes she also had love triangles and let’s be honest she was not a good fighter 😂) who I never considered the “perfect hero’s” as well. I just like that concept ♥︎

———  𝐅𝐋𝐔𝐅𝐅  /  𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐒𝐓  /  𝐒𝐌𝐔𝐓.  

FLUFF:  I love fluff cause I’m a hopeless romantic. But I could never write only fluff. Usually my characters are deeply struggling and it needs a while until they get fluffy in a relationship, but if they do it gets very corny. But the best fluff is the one after a big plot of struggles and angst cause then it feels even more rewarding.

ANGST:  my favorite ♥︎ I think angst is the reason why I rp and also why I prefer to write complicated relationships. In friendship or family rp there is not much angst included for me and that’s why I rather focus on complex stories with difficult topics cause I use rp to compensate things that happen in my life and that works best with angst for me.

SMUT: I love smut! I love to read it, I love to create it, but sometimes I absolutely despite anything I write 😂 I always think smut is my weakest point to write, but I love to read and play it so much that I’m sometimes only in the mood for smut for example when I’m in a bad mood. Somehow it helps me compensating when I feel bad. But yeah, I adore it and have nearly no limits, but I consider myself a horrible smut writer 😂 (in my fanfic the next chapter would include smut and I postpone to write it since over a year now cause I’m so scared to ruin it 😂)

PLOT / MEMES: I love plotting! I actually need a good communication with the other mun to develop a nice complex story, cause if I click with the mun, I could write hundreds of parallel stories and characters with them. I need that kind of trust for writing tbh cause this is my safe place and I create friendships here. That’s why I have no time for hate or ignorance or jealousy cause this is something I love and the muns are giving me a chance to connect. But I absolutely don’t mind starting with memes and short threads to see how it’s going and jump from thread to thread if motivation fades for one certain part. Sometimes you just wanna write a short meme and not continue a thread/story, but that’s really an individual thing.

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Tagging: @mettleborn @justacomedy @wexarethewalkingxdead @gcverncr @mxlodic @merlexxdixon and everyone who wants

[kinglegolas]

Pick your top 10 OTPs without reading the questions. these aren’t in any particular order tbh, and thank you meri @impractical-matters​ for tagging me! x

1. jake/amy - brooklyn nine nine 2. eleanor/chidi - the good place 3. david/patrick - schitt’s creek 4. aziraphale/crowley - good omens 5. alexis/ted - schitt’s creek  6. tony/pepper - marvel 7. ron/hermione - harry potter 8. amy/laurie - little women 9. rick/michonne - the walking dead 10. mark/lexie - grey’s anatomy

1. Do you remember the episode/scene/chapter that you first started shipping 6? A. the first marvel movie i saw was iron man 2 so i’m pretty sure it was then lol

2. Have you ever read a fanfic about 2? A. nah i don’t really read fics tbh...

3. Has a picture of 4 ever been your screen saver/profile picture/tumblr screen saver? A. no my screensaver is reserved for my cats on my phone and my m&g pic with niall on my mac lmao

4. If 7 were to suddenly break up today, what would your reaction be? A. i wouldn’t be mad tbh bc when i think about it they were a bit of a weird match and honestly? i’ll say it, i could see harry and hermione being better for each other anyways

5. Why is 1 so important? A. jake and amy are such a good representation of a solid relationship where two people love and respect each other. i love that the writers of b99 have actually let a couple have a GOOD relationship, i hate when couples are alway fighting/breaking up for drama. also i just love them both a lot!

6. Is 9 a funny ship or a serious ship? A. serious for sure. i mean i stopped watching twd ages ago but they were great together!

7. Out of all the ships listed, which ship has the most chemistry? A. that’s tough, i feel like most of them have great chemistry, but maybe mark/lexie or jake/amy or even aziraphale/crowley lol

8. Out of all your ships listed, which ship has the strongest bond? A. maybe eleanor/chidi? or rick/michonne. both couples went through some SHIT (like, literally being dead, zombie apocalypse). but idk really tbh. i could honestly say almost any of them

9. How many times have you read/watched the 10’s fandom? A. well i’ve fully seen grey’s beginning to end once because i only just watched it all last year, but i started rewatching a while a go but haven’t watched for a bit lol

10. Which ship has lasted the longest? A. romione i guess? or eleanor/chidi since, you know jeremy bearimy babey!

11. How many times, if ever, has 6 broken up? A. a couple i think?

12. If the world was suddenly thrust into a zombie apocalypse, which ship would make it out alive, 2 or 8? A. i think eleanor and chidi would be more likely to survive than amy and laurie lol

13. Did 7 ever have to hide their relationship for any reason? A. not really

14. Is 4 still together? A. technically they’re not together at all but the chemistry is *chef’s kiss*

15. Is 10 canon? A. yeah

16. If all 10 ships were put into a couple’s Hunger Games, which couple would win? A. aziraphale/crowley bc they can literally perform miracles

17. Has anybody ever tried to sabotage 5’s ship? A. don’t think so? i can’t really remember tbh lol

18. Which ship would you defend to the death and beyond? A. most of them but especially jake/amy

19. Do you spend hours a day going through 3’s tumblr page? A. no

20. If an evil witch descended from the sky and told you that you had to pick one of the ten ships to break up forever or else she’d break them all forever, which ship would you sink? A. romione lol

that was pretty fun lol

Tagging: @biancas-diangelos @calypsoatlaas @peetas-mellarks @louvegoods @severusnpe @mischiefsmanaged @romanoft @ginys + anyone else who wants to do it. as usual feel free to ignore and sorry if you’ve already done it x