#only cause I want to practice drawing the characters before I start anything big with them
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good lord theres like three different fandoms trying to take up real estate in my mind right now
it's like im in a room full of cats and three of them are just weaving between your legs and meowing for attention, and youre holding a steamy cup of burnout in one hand that your DESPERATELY trying not to spill on them so you only really have one hand available to actually give them attention--
i. i think my chronic online-ness is reaching new heights without the deadlines.
#theres a few others on the periphery but theres three main ones#jonny sims is trying to take the 'disheveled academic that got a little too tied up with the supernatural' spotlight from ford#so far he is failing though#mainly cause i dont listen to podcasts all that often and TMA is one of those that i like. LISTEN listen to#i think the portal fandom stuff hasnt locked onto me fully yet#only cause I want to practice drawing the characters before I start anything big with them#and i just sorta ⨠dont wanna â¨#well--more so that its gonna take some effort for me to pick up the sketchbook again#and it was hard enough to get the drawing tablet back out#idk this is long and rambly and has basically just ebcome a vent post but hey#ya gotta do what ya gotta do i guess#dont burn yourself out kids#be careful#especially with the things that bring you joy#cause it fucking sucks when the thing that makes you happy starts hurting you instead#moderation is your friend#k bye <3
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Yakuza Hinami AUđ¸
This has been brewing in my head as an idea for like years lmaođ. Idk but I always thought itâd be kinda cool if Hinamiâs father was also an important figure in the underground of ghoul society aside from being a doctor bc Jason fr tore him up and Mado was on his ass too. That mixed with the fact that Hinami does become involved with ghoul society later on in canon made me love her even more.
They have her fatherâs kagune up on display as decor, she obtained it at some point and Akira is pissed about it(though she does not know it is being used this way), newer members donât know why itâs there and think better than to ask directly, so the older members just got used to referring it as âDaddyâđŹ
I rly need to start providing the initial context to my ideas bc thereâs so much that goes on in my head for my AU lores before I draw a particular setting of it and which characters I choose to include. Hinami is basically a selective mute in the beginning of this after her father is killed by Mado and her and her mother form a close relationship with a ghoul investigator (Nakajima, but before they figure out that Ryouko is one of heir suspects but after his partner is killed by Touka) Later on Hinami is on the run and living in disguise with Touka until her parents followers find her and try to raise her to be the next leader of the group.
The yakuza group is named âThe Winds , which is sort of a play on how her parents were inspired by it when naming her, and sort of used as a one liner by elite group members and those who manage to escape the hands of the Doves by saying âit mustâve been the windâ(or something similar to that phrase, it it also how the Doves speak about them in public settings as to not cause alarm and used to brush off any inconveniences they experience from the group itself).
Uta is the spokesperson of The Clowns and they often butt heads with Hinami over territorial disputes and whatnot, so his visits are frequent and he is rather surprised when he sees her for the first time again when sheâs older and sees just how far and high up she managed to climb in ghoul society. He mostly teases her and Yomo does not appreciate it. Yomo joined her group at some point because he wanted to maintain ties with Ayato, and he does reveal himself to be his and Toukaâs uncle and last living relative (it always bothered me that he never said anything to either of them about that in canon but at least he treasures his niece)
I also gave Uta a lot of color, he was gonna be paler but I thought more color to his face would suit him. He also has a soft expression bc his eyes are closed.
Banjou sort of takes care of the more visual side of things when it comes to Hinami(he does her hair but who does her nails?!?), I love how they have a bond in canon but in this heâs mainly like a big brother and he is always concerned with the way she is presented to others because sheâs their leader.
She practically becomes like a legend and spoken of like a myth by the CCG and has a SS(-) rating. Theyâve never seen her in combat and only have her combat with Mado on her file record so they base it off that, and she never really has to step in because other people take care of things for her. However being the head of the group they gave her a high rating as well as factoring in her chimera type kagune sheâs sure to deal a lot of damage to anyone whoâd cross her path. A lot of the wierdo investigators dream of having parts of her like a trophy someday, hence the dialogue of an investigator wishing he could see her kagune up close and in action someday.
#drawing#anime au#anime art#art#fanart#tokyo ghoul re#tokyo ghoul#tokyo ghoul spoilers#tokyo ghoul scenarios#yakuza au#tokyo ghoul au#hinami fueguchi#uta tokyo ghoul#renji yomo#ayato kirishima#kimono#comic art#fan comic#ken kaneki#kirishima touka#anime#digital art#artists on tumblr#banjou kazuichi#eto yoshimura#ccg#long hair uta
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Smiling Critters: Together, We Resonate (No.6) - Catnap
NOTE: THIS IS NOT RELATED TO CANON IN THE SLIGHTEST. An accurate description of this au is that I took every playtime.co poster art and promotional material from the game and lit up the rest of canon in a bonfire. This means that EVERY character is part of one big cartoon. That's it. No bigger bodies project, no child souls, no experiments, just a depiction of a cartoon. PLEASE do not ask me to do anything suggestive with anyone.
Let's start:
Catnap had a fairly normal childhood up until four, where his parents died in front of him (cause of death is still pending)
After that, he was put in the system, and he quickly learned that it wasn't exactly the safest place, so he ran.
He ended up wandering for a while, sleeping in alleyway to alleyway until he found a random abandoned house (shack? Its one room and fairly small) in a secluded part of a neighborhood, and set up 'home' there. But is it really home without them?
Anyways, he made himself as comfortable as possible in his living conditions. If the residents heard crying near that secluded part of the neighborhood, they didn't say......well, except for Boxy Boo.
Boxy was the only one who dared to go check out the slight commotion and was attacked on sight. Well, pounced on, as boxy is about 3 times bigger than catnap at the moment. Even once he got him to calm down, he still didn't say a word to him, just glared at him until he left. What if it was my fault? What if i was the reason theyleftwhatifpeoplediebecauseofmeleavedontcomeclose But boxy made a vow to check on him at least once a week.
(Time skip- present day? Technically)
Bobby bearhug and picky piggy were picking apples in the forest next to the former neighborhood when they started hearing noises. Picky demanded that whoever was "messing" with them show themselves. And out came catnap. Picky dug into him about being creepy, but bobby was more worried about the state he was in. He looked way skinnier than he should be, assuming that he was their age (he is dw) so before picky sent him off Bobby offered some of the cookies she made. He was a little distrustful at first, but practically lit up for a second before quickly changing back to his blank face. But she noticed, and told him she could meet him back here tomorrow with some other food she wants him to try. He waved his hands and shook his head in a 'no' motion, but they were already off before they could register his response.
For the next few days, bobby brought him food to try, and he gave his best input for someone who doesn't talk. But she never really got to know anything about him, because any questions would be met with a blank stare. She pondered...maybe she should bring Dogday next time? He's great at making friends!
Guys look I traumatized him :D
This is supposed to be the whump but I feel like I overhyped it ngl
Additional notes:
-Insomniac (duh. I tried to give him eyebags in the little drawing I made but idk if they actually look like that)
-Situationally mute
-the whole red gas thing doesn't exist. I know it appeared in the little cartoon introducing chapter 3 but it feels extremely out of place here sooo
-instead, he hums or sings a little lullaby or melody to try and help him (others eventually ;) sleep. It usually has an opposite effect for him though, as the only ones he knows are his mothers, which reminds him of.....yeah.
-he really likes music because of this, even if he doesnt get to listen to it often. its sorta the one thing that he sorta still hangs on to.
I really enjoyed this one!! Next is gonna be our resident friend making machine, with a built-in recap to go with. Anyways BYEEE
#poppy playtime#smiling critters poppy playtime#smiling critters#smiling critters au#Together we Resonate AU#twr! catnap#catnap#art
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I posted 6,569 times in 2022
That's 6,112 more posts than 2021!
524 posts created (8%)
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I tagged 6,263 of my posts in 2022
Only 5% of my posts had no tags
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#q - 629 posts
#wtf jordan - 512 posts
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#lmao - 422 posts
#sunaosa - 264 posts
#mha - 239 posts
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Longest Tag: 138 characters
#like. kageyama has so much respect for setters. even if heâs objectively better heâs always finding ways he can improve from other setters
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
i'm learning how to draw
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#4
honestly? not enough down bad kiyoomi and oblivious atsumu fics
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#3
bokuakakuroken where bokuken are insecure about each other. they think the other doesnât want to be dating them. Kenma thinks Bokuto doesnât want to spend time with him bc Bokuto is avoiding him, but really Bokuto thinks he annoys kenma so is trying to be considerate
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#2
MSBY thinks sakuatsu hate each other. Theyâre constantly fighting. They insult each other. They send volleyballs into each otherâs heads. Theyâve ended up physically fighting during practice more than once.
Except then they get caught from something silly. Atsumu always gets to practice way earlier than Kiyoomi because Kiyoomi sleeps in until the very last minute. And one day Kiyoomi shows up to practice wearing an Onigiri Miya t-shirt and has Atsumuâs water bottle.
âYou left this at home.â
Kiyoomi shoves the water bottle in Atsumu face, and is oblivious to most of the team watching them in shock.
âI knew ya cared, Omi!â
âNext time Iâll let you die of dehydration.â
âBut then who will set for ya?â
âKageyama.â
Atsumu obviously pouts at that, but then gets that big, stupid smile on his face.
âBut then who would cuddle ya and set your alarm for an hour later?â
This whole time the conversation is happening the team is gaping at them, and itâs probably Inunaki who asks what the fuck is going on. And it takes a lot of questions before Atsumu is finally like
âWe live together? How is this weird?â
And that causes chaos until itâs Bokuto who gives the answer everyone is missing.
âTheyâve been dating forever. Why wouldnât they live together?â
Kiyoomi and Atsumu didnât even really explicitly tell Bokuto they were together. Bokuto is just very emotionally aware and knew from the start.
Obviously everyone is confused still, arguing that they fight all the time. Except then Hinata is just as dumbfounded as Bokuto, because like all the relationships he knows are like that.
MSBY decides that the monster generation is just weird as fuck.
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My #1 post of 2022
bokuto is well known as an lgbt public figure and advocate
not because he does work for it or anything. it's purely because he can't stop bringing akaashi up in every interview he's ever done
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#tumblr2022#year in review#my 2022 tumblr year in review#your tumblr year in review#inch resting#wtf jordan
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âĄÂ bakugou headcanons that feel like a warm hug âĄ
âłwc ;; 1.2k (oh my god. what is wrong w me.)Â
âł a/n ;; or my bakugou brain-rot that never goes away. thanks for being my comfort character, you fucking gremlin. forgive the silly title.Â
⥠always makes little adjustments to the environment for you. heâs observant to a fault so if thereâs something even a little off and it happens to bother you, heâs trying to work around it.Â
⥠good at playing guitar but not good at reading music. he can throw something together if you give him a chance but heâs not good at trying to recreate someone elses memory. heâs not like.. musically gifted either but he likes how guitar soundsÂ
⥠thinks about getting a lot of piercings in his ear because he thinks theyâd look cool but is kind of too nervous? the idea of a needle going through his skin is a ick. when you start dating, he drags you to his appointments lol - wonât admit it but he thinks he looks so hot when he gets them. takes a bunch of selfies <3Â
⥠needs to be moving constantly. canât sit completely still to save his life. when he listens to music, he moves his head. sometimes he just runs his thumb over his fingers.Â
⥠really, really bad at talking. not in the sense he canât communicate (that too) but he just likes listening in conversation. rarely adds his own thing. but when he does - always accidentally says something super meaningfulÂ
⥠enjoys subtle physical touch because it is literally intimate he melts inside. a hand on his forearm or shoulder. your legs over his lap. small things that show how comfortable you are.Â
⥠likes being held cause heâs a big ass baby lmfaoÂ
⥠wont admit it but enjoy when you choose pretty or colorful bandages for his cuts he wonât himself but itâs like keeping you in his pocket wherever he goes. Â
⥠really needs you to find him attractive dslksjk itâs not that he ever thinks heâs particularly ugly. but he didnât really assign importance to his appearance at any point in his life, yet now he puts in a scary amount of effort. readjusts his hair so much more, makes sure his clothes fit good. fixes his fuckinâ face lolÂ
⥠likes chewing gum a lot and always has a pack on him. really proud of how big he can blow bubbles and will be a little sad if youâre unimpressed.Â
⥠is overly sentimental about things youâve made him - especially if itâs something super dumb. you drew him a silly little sketch of him in a frog hat? itâs in his wallet behind his id. freaks out when he thinks heâs lost his walletÂ
⥠LOVES phone calls. yes he still hates talking. but the way his face looks when he listens to your voice. eyes half-lidded, shamelessly smiling - itâs so tender and so lovesick.Â
⥠terrible first grader hand-writing. he tries to write them for you in the beginning of your relationship (to be romantic or some shit) but theyâre so incomprehensible pls. if he focuses on it - it can be legible but most of the time ... yea no.Â
⥠doesnât favor tea or coffee but prefers tea if he has to drink one.Â
⥠crazy good at eyeballing measurement. even in baking. once made a perfectly good bread without weighing anything and doesnât get why thatâs so wild.Â
⥠has the phone on his text set to be bigger even though his eyes are fine.Â
⥠lets you do the layout thing on his iphone and decorate as you please. says he doesnât care but when he sees you made it hero themed/fit with his aesthetic - he got so red it was so cute.Â
⥠hates shopping in store. will still always go with you because the one time you went alone a store clerk hit on you. Â
⥠so practical. he started couponing when he was in his early twenties like an old man. checks the news and weather the night before, every night. never misses doctors appointments.Â
⥠shit at any form of visual art. drawing, painting etc - cannot do it to save his life. but he tries. his hands shake when he tries to draw hearts for youÂ
⥠blows the eyelashes off your cheek super gently whenever he notices. heâll like.. take your face in his hands and blow so softly like heâs gonna hurt you.Â
⥠used to agree to make pinky promises with you as a joke. now though? automatically holds his pink out for you to take it. straight up pouts if you donât.Â
⥠you two have a song and when it comes on, heâll sing it back to you. any other time? any other song? he wont. but he always sings your song even without realizing, just mouths it.Â
⥠enjoys when you put your hands under his shirt and just leave them there and hug him like that. skin to skin contact is elite but only from you.Â
⥠hamsters adore this man. they just do.Â
⥠draws frowny faces on your eggs with hot-sauceÂ
⥠soul leaves his body when you play with his hair and scratch his scalp. the tension in his neck literally disappears and he just sighs that shit relaxes him like crazyÂ
⥠the first time he says i love you, youâre tying his tie for his first hero event. youâre telling him to that the color looks good on him and youâre smiling. it honestly it just slips. he went on to win an award that night.Â
⥠his favorite memory of the two of you was when you were trying to leave the grocery store one afternoon. it was raining heavy as shit. you pulled him in under your clear umbrella and just stood there. he doesnât know why but that means a lot to him.Â
⥠cares a lot about his dads approval on his work specifically. him and his dad have a really specifc bond and he actually admires him quite a bit.Â
⥠nothing makes him cry like âim proud of youâ. especially when itâs for something small. itâs just something he didnât hear enough in a sincere way.Â
⥠likes fruit flavored sweets over chocolate (generally needs something to do w his mouth cause it helps him think. bad oral fixation) so he keeps little candies on himÂ
⥠shit at video games. terrible at them with the exception of mario kart? for some reason.Â
⥠always loses his keysÂ
⥠stutters every!single!time! he tries to compliment you. itâs been YEARS.Â
⥠takes a melatonin gummy before bed and always drinks a glass of waterÂ
⥠buys you flowers and keeps them too. like does the upkeep on it and replaces them if the wilt. suggests pressing them to keep them for longer.Â
⥠lowkey cries really easily. he just gets overwhelmed w his feelings some times and it makes him cry even if he doesnât want too. you and the bakusquad are sworn to secrecy over it thoughÂ
⥠wears his ring around his neck on a chain bc itâs easier to show off.Â
⥠naturally good at doing hair!Â
⥠likes sneakers but wears dr. scholl's because he walks a lot and is on his feet for most of the day w his job. just being careful.Â
⥠loves u a lot <3Â
#bakugou x reader#bnha x reader#bakugou x y/n#bakugou x you#bnha x you#bnha x y/n#bnha imagines#bakugou imagines#bakugo x reader#bakugo x you#bakugo x y/n#im genuinely so obsessed with his man#he lives in my head rent free#like its not funny anymore#i literally am just so in love with him#no thoughts head empty only katsuki
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(Y/n) and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Week: Monday
Tuesday   Wednesday   Thursday (Part 1)   Thursday (Part 2)   Friday   Saturday   Sunday
Spotify Playlist (collaborative)
Pairing: SBI x sister!reader (she/her pronouns)
Warnings: swearing, toxic friends, panic spirals/attacks, injury, taking pills for pain
Summary: you have a very bad week, how will you manage? (Characters are fully human, but based on their DSMP characters. High school AU)
Word count: 4,818
(A/N): Iâve never played volleyball or watched Haikyuu before, so Iâm not 100% certain how games work. Also, I probs shouldâve split this into two parts, but eh.
â(Y/n) love, you look homeless in that sweater, itâs literally so fucking ugly.â
âHaha, yeah it is. I guess I just wasnât really trying today.â
Adrian snorted, scanning your body with his cold eyes. âToday? You donât try at all. You always look like trash.â
âMore than trash, you always look like you just rolled in dog shit.â Sammy threw her head back and cackled at her own joke.
Your friends around you erupted in laughter as you four walked down the hallways of the hell that was your public high school. You awkwardly chuckled alongside them, you didnât really find it funny, but you didnât want to draw more attention towards yourself.Â
âSeriously, (y/n), I really donât know why we still hang out around you anymore. You really let yourself go.â
âYeah, now that I think about it, you did gain like five pounds in the past week.â
âReally not a good look on you, love. Then again, nothing you do can make you look good anymore.â
You tried to not let their comments get to you, you really did, but sometimes their comments just rooted themselves deep into your subconscious. You didnât try looking good anymore, you couldnât wear anything without them criticising it. You could never win.Â
âAwe,â Adrien poked your cheeks, âstop looking so sad. Weâre just trying to give you advice. You really need it.â
âYeah, (y/n). Youâre so sensitive, get a grip.â
âGuys look, I think sheâs gonna cry!âÂ
You wiped at your welling eyes with the sleeves of your sweater. âIâm not. I just got allergies.â
Annie rolled her eyes. âUh-huh. Anyways, what are our plans for Halloween? We should totally dress up like sexy angels! I think thatâd be so cool. Like, Clintâs party wonât be ready for us.â
âOh, about that AnnieâŚâ
âGod, what now (y/n)?â
âI was actually planning on spending Halloween night taking Tommy and Tubbo trick-or-treating with my brothers and dad. I wonât be able to go with you guys, Iâm sorry.â
The group groaned loudly. âCâmon (y/n), you never hang out with us anymore.â
âOh my god (y/n) you still go trick-or-treating? Weâre juniors.â
âIâm sorry, Iâve just been busy with my AP classes and studying for the SAT. My team captainâs really been pushing the team hard with volleyball practice. State finals are soon and we want first this year.â
âNo matter how much studying you do, youâre gonna fail. Youâre stupid, so why try? Just give up and hang out with uuussss.â
âYeah (y/n),â Adrien looked at you suspiciously, âyouâve been ignoring us lately. I thought we were friends. Do you even wanna be friends anymore?â
You felt a flare of panic flare up in your gut. âI do! I-I just have so much going on right now. Itâs starting to get hard to juggle everything.â
âWeâre starting to think that you donât like us anymore, we want our (y/n) back!â Sammy whined. The others agreed with her, making you feel guilty. You were ignoring them, it was selfish in your opinion. You supposed that you could skip out on taking Tommy and Tubbo trick-or-treating, thereâll be other years you could take them.Â
âI guess I can take Tommy and Tubbo another year. Theyâd just have to go without me this year.â
They cheered, giving you praise. You beamed at that, they seemed down lately and you loved it when theyâd give you compliments. They didnât do that much, so that made their praise more special to you. You strived to get compliments.
You four went off to your separate first classes for the day. Yours was statistics, a class youâve been struggling in lately. You didnât know anybody in there except for your oldest brother Techno, so you tried to stick with him. Unfortunately, the teacherâs seating chart placed you both on opposite ends of the room, probably because of your last names indicating that youâre siblings. You placed your stuff down on the table and plopped down into your seat, already drained. You had a long day ahead of you; you had a major AP world history test in your next class, you had to give a presentation in your AP english class that was worth a quarter of your final grade, and you had a semifinals volleyball match that would last until late in the night. If your team won, you would be going to state finals, so it was a lot of pressure on your shoulders. You were the main setter, so you had to really focus tonight if you were going to score your team points.Â
âAlright class, pull out your homework!â
Fuck, you had homework? You looked in your folder, only to see the unfinished sheet full of equations you didnât understand staring back at you tauntingly. Mr. Mullins walked over to your desk, took one look at your blank homework, and just walked right past you. Another big fat zero in the gradebook for you, just what you needed. At least he wasnât in the mood to berate you today. You didnât need any more stress piled onto your shoulders.Â
The lesson felt like it dragged on forever with you frantically trying to copy down the notes on the board and trying to understand the content at the same time. Overtime, he would call students up to the board. Hopefully, he would skip over you today. âMs. Minecraft.â Goddamn it, you spoke too soon.
Your head perked up and you looked at him. âYes sir?â
âCome up to the board and solve this.â
Gulping, you felt panic rise up in you and stood up with shaky knees. On the board was part of the newer content he was just teaching. Something that you understood only a little bit better than the rest, and thatâs not saying much. You still didnât understand the content completely. Your writing was shaky as you wrote what you thought was right on the board. Finding the answer, you circled it and looked at Mr. Mullins. He looked disappointed.Â
âThatâs wrong, Ms. Minecraft. Please sit down.â
You felt like your face was on fire as you saw the entire class burning holes into you with their eyes. Though they looked dead inside, as per usual with any morning class full of tired teenagers, their effects still took hold on you. You wanted to crawl into a dark hole and die. You sat back down and stared at your note packet, you couldnât focus on the lecture anymore. Your attention was fully on your surroundings, you were hyper aware of every little whisper and bouncing leg in your peripheral vision. You could feel yourself spiraling, usually that wouldnât happen until after your third class. Today was going to be rough.Â
The loud chime of the bell startled you out of your thoughts. You shakily put your papers back into your binder and put the binder back into your backpack. Right as you were about to walk through the door, you heard Techno catch up to you. âHey, you good?â
âYeah Tech, Iâm just peachy.â
âAre you su-â
âTechnoblade. Iâm fine. Now if you excuse me, I have to get to my next class. I have an important presentation Iâve gotta prepare for.â
Without giving him any room to argue, you rushed off to your english class. You had Adrian and Annie in your class. For your presentation, you were paired up with people that you hardly knew. At least they did their part in the project, you were certain you were going to die if you got paired up with Adrian and Annie again. You loved them, but they never did any part of their portion of work. They left it to you to finish at midnight the day the project was due. To be fair, they both told you they had family emergencies, so you covered for them just that once.Â
You pulled out your flashcards only to have them knocked out of your hand when someone bumped into you. You quickly crouched to pick them up so you could have them in order by time class started. âOops, sorry love.â
It was Annie. She and Adrian towered over your crouched form smirking at you. Looking back down to rearrange your cards, you murmured âitâs ok.â
âAre you ready for this presentation, I know I am.â
You smiled a little. âActually, I think Iâm going to ace this. English is my best subject.â
âYeah (y/n), I wasnât asking you. I was talking to Annie. Besides, youâre probably going to fail this.â Adrian scoffed.Â
âThank you for asking, Adrian,â Annie shot a pointed look at you, âat least someone cares.â
The bell rang, signifying the start of your second block. You felt like you had a lump in your throat blocking your breathing. If Adrian, one of the smartest kids in your english class, said that you were going to fail, then you probably were going to fail. That would take a huge hit on your grade, this project was worth a quarter of your final grade after all. You were zoned out for the entirety of your classmateâs presentations putting yourself into a spiral. You jumped when Mr. Todd, your teacher, called your group up to present.
You stood stiffly in the middle of your two groupmates and clutched your flashcards with clammy hands. Luckily, your part of the presentation was not first. When it came to your part, you were stuttering and tumbling over your words. You even dropped your flashcards in front of everybody, causing half the class to snicker. Your face burned as you hurried to pick them up and your other groupmate took this as a signal to continue the presentation. You still had an important point to make that was integral for the set up to your other groupmateâs part of her presentation. You stared at your flashcards for the rest of the presentation.Â
When the bell rang, you made a mad dash out of the classroom. You didnât want to talk to anybody, especially not Adrian or Annie. It was a relief that you had your lunch period at the moment. You could hide yourself in the bathroom nobody used and let your panic attack ride itself out.Â
You ducked inside a stall and sat on the toilet, bringing your knees up to bury your face in them. The tears and panic you were holding in all day let itself out with explosive effects. You started to hyperventilate as you muffled your sobs with your knee. Your chest painfully clenched so you couldnât breathe. Your limbs felt like they weighed two tons each and they were shaking intensely. You didnât hear the end of the lunch bell ring. By the time you calmed down slightly, you were five minutes late to AP world history.Â
You packed your stuff up in a hurry, power walking through the halls. You probably looked like shit, but you didnât care, you had a class to get to and a test that you probably wouldnât be able to finish now. You lost ten minutes of your test time. When you tried to open the closed door, you found that it was locked. You had to knock if you wanted to get in. You raised a shaking hand to knock, but the door was opened by a less-than-impressed Ms. Osborne. She ushered you to your desk and gave you your unit test.Â
You couldnât focus. The multiple choice section was usually a breeze to you, but you couldnât comprehend any of the questions. When you could comprehend them, you couldnât concentrate on choosing an answer. You did your best to find the correct answers, but you were almost positive that at least half of them were wrong. Your handwriting was nearly incomprehensible and your essay topic was something you didnât study for. When you were done with half of the body paragraphs, the bell rang and you had to turn in your unfinished test.Â
You had your independent online psychology course next in the library. You usually worked alone secluded in a corner deep inside the library where nobody went. You would get some solace in being alone. Maybe youâd calm down enough so that you could ride home with your brothers and not go for a long walk so you could avoid them.Â
You settled down in the comfortable chair and pulled out your laptop to get started. Psychology was your favorite class. It was easy for you to understand, it didnât have much of a workload attached to it, and it was fun to learn about. It always calmed you down reading about the intricate workings of the brain.Â
By time the day was over, you got most of your psychology work done and you were on your way to the car you shared with Technoblade and Wilbur. You took out your spare keys and slumped against the window in the backseat. You were absolutely drained after your terrible day and you still felt panic swirling deep within you, waiting for the right moment to strike.Â
You stretched out your legs across the seat and leaned your back against the door. For the first time that day, you felt peaceful. You still had at least fifteen minutes to yourself until your brothers would start to make your way to the car. You felt the panic subside slightly and you fully relaxed. You closed your eyes and let yourself drift off into a light sleep. You needed your energy for tonightâs match.Â
The door you were leaning on swung open and you tumbled backwards smacking the back of your head against the metal frame of the car and reverse scorpioning onto the pavement. Your entire upper back and the back of your head exploded in pain and your lower back hurt slightly from having your back bent uncomfortably. You heard laughter above you as you felt tears of pain start to slip out of your eyes. Your legs swung out from their place above your face and landed on the ground with a painful thump.Â
You saw three blurry figures above you laughing at your pain. You reached up with a shaky hand to wipe at your tears and saw Adrian, Sammy, and Annie. They were cackling as you shakily stood up and sat on the comfortable seats of the car. You waited patiently for them to calm down.Â
Eventually, Sammy calmed down enough to explain what happened to you through chuckles. âIâm sorry (y/n), it was just too good to resist. You shouldâve seen your face.â
She and the others broke back into uncontrolled laughter as they remembered your embarrassing fall. You were used to their antics, and quite frankly it felt good to make your friends laugh, even if it were at your own expense. Just as they were calming down once again, you saw Wilbur and Techno walk out the front doors of the school laughing at something the other said. Annie and Sammy heard their laughter and quickly turned around to watch them. They had massive crushes on both of your brothers, many in the school did.Â
Your brothers made their way to your shared car and stopped to look at you in slight confusion. â(Y/n), were you crying? What happened?â Wilbur asked worriedly.Â
âYea-â
âOh Wilbur, it was terrible, (y/n) fell out of the car. I donât think she closed the door before she leaned on it.â Annie interrupted you with a faked concerned tone, a complete contradiction to her reaction before your brothers came.
Techno hastily made his way to the driverâs side door. âWell, if sheâs hurt we better get going, right Wilbur?â
âYes! We better get going, please excuse us.â He sat in the passenger seat and closed the door without hearing Sammy and Annieâs desperate attempts to stop them so they could talk to them. Your brothers thought Sammy and Annie were annoying. They absolutely hated being around them.Â
Waving apologetically at your friends, you pulled yourself into the car and closed the door. Annie and Sammy looked offended that you had let Wilbur and Techno get away from them. Avoiding their eyes, you looked down at your tightly clasped hands. They were shaking slightly.Â
After pulling out of the parking lot, Techno glanced at you from the rearview mirror. âYou ok (y/n)?â
âYeah, my back just hurts and I have a headache.â
âWell, do you wanna go and get some ice cream? We still have some time left before we have to pick up Tommy and Tubbo. Dad doesnât have to know,â Wilbur asked you.
You sighed, you wanted nothing other than to take a nap before your match. âSorry, but I need to watch what I eat today. We have semifinals tonight and I canât have anything sugary. I just wanna go home and take a nap.â
Your brothers were quiet for the rest of the car ride until you reached your driveway. Techno twisted his body around in his seat to look at you after he put the car in park. âDid you actually fall out of the car?â
Shit, should you tell him the truth? If you did, they would almost certainly get mad at your friends. Sammy and Annie would never forgive you if you turned your brothers against them. You decided that you would take one for the team again. âYeah, I wasnât paying attention.âÂ
Techno snorted. âWell, that was stupid,â he jokingly said. âNext time youâre gonna get run over by a parked car.â
You knew that he meant that as a joke, but it still stung. Stamping your emotions down, you laughed with him and Wilbur. It was stupid of you to do, you shouldnât have let your guard down if you werenât at home.Â
You winced as you slung your bag on your back and walked the best you could back into your house. Your upper back was killing you. You made a beeline to the bathroom and rummaged through the medicine cabinet looking for some pain relief pills. You took some and shambled off to your room to take your well earned nap. You set your alarmâs setting to its loudest volume and passed out.Â
You jolted up and gasped when you felt a wave of pain hit your upper back. You blearily looked at the time. You had a little under two hours before you had to get back to the school for your match. You groaned when you pulled yourself up, your head pounding with every turn. You pulled yourself out of bed and once again took some pain pills. You went downstairs to grab an apple or something to eat. Your dad was at the stove stirring something around in a pot.Â
He turned to look at you with an excited smile. âYou ready for your match tonight? Youâre gonna kill it!âÂ
You only nodded halfheartedly and plopped yourself down at the table with your apple. Philza frowned at your lack of enthusiasm, but he figured that it was just because you just woke up from a nap. Youâd bounce back eventually.Â
âWilbur told me that you fell out of the car? Howâd you do that?â
You shrugged, wincing slightly as it moved your back slightly. âDunno, mustâve not closed the door.â
Philza was at your side in a hurry, his hands hovering over your shoulders. âDid you get hurt? Show me where it hurts.â
âMy back and the back of my head.â
âCan I move your shirt so I could look?â
âSure, go ahead.â
You felt him gently pull the neck of your t-shirt away from your body to peek at your back. You heard his breath hitch as he looked. Was it that bad? âGood god (y/n),â he breathed out.
âWhat, is it bad?â
âDonât you feel how bad it is? Your entire back is bruised. I think thereâs some blood too.â
âDamn.â
âFirst, language. Second, thatâs all you have to say? Arenât you in pain?â
âYeah, but the pain pills are gonna kick in soon. Iâll be fine.â
âWould you be able to play tonight? I really think you should sit this one out.â
âNo, Iâm playing tonight Dad.â
â(Y/n),â oh no, he was using his stern dad voice. âItâs not a good idea to play tonight. Youâre hurt, Iâm sure theyâll understand if you sit this one out.â
You felt frustration rise up in you. âWeâre in the semifinals. They need me, Iâm the main setter. Theyâd lose without me playing.â
â(Y/n), Iâm serious. Youâre not playing today.â
âDad, I am playing today. Look, Iâll talk to Coach Williams to see if I could be rotated out more often. I know sheâd let me.â
He stared at you for a while before sighing. He knew there was no convincing you. â...Fine. But you better talk to Coach Williams about sitting out for a bit if your back hurts too much or I swear Iâll drag you off the court myself.â
You smiled a little at the small victory. âThank you! I promise Iâll sit out if needed.â
He quirked an eyebrow at you. âIf needed?â
You sighed, âwhen needed.â
He walked over to the pot, stirring the contents slightly. âThatâs better. Dinnerâs almost ready, I made some pasta.â
âIt smells good, but I think Iâm skipping out on it for today. I already ate this apple and if I eat any more Iâll probably hurl on the court.â
He made a displeased noise in the back of his throat, âfine, but youâre eating something when we get home tonight.â
He walked off to go get your brothers and Tubbo for dinner. You could hear their booming steps racing down the stairs towards the kitchen. They raced into the kitchen and almost crashed into the back of your chair. You stood up and looked at the two excitable fifth graders. âCareful boys, donât want you getting hurt.â
âYouâre no fun (y/n),â Tommy whined.
âSure, sorry bout that,â Tubbo beamed at you.
You chuckled, making your way upstairs to get ready for your match. You took off your clothes with great difficulty and slipped on your jersey and your spandex shorts. They were way too short for your tastes, but you couldnât wear longer ones, theyâd just get in the way. You fondly remembered how your dad flipped out when he first saw you in them, he hated them with a burning passion. He still hates how short they are.
When you were struggling with pulling your hair back into a tight, sleek ponytail, the back of your head throbbed continuously with pain. You most likely bruised your scalp.Â
You slipped on your shoes that were made specifically for playing volleyball and headed downstairs. You were met with Tommy and Tubbo jumping in excitement seeing you in your uniform. They loved going to your matches, even if they would always pass out in the car after them because matches usually ended late at night. You grabbed your dadâs keys and headed to his car. Before you could lead the boys out the door, Philzaâs voice stopped you.
â(Y/n), coat.â
You huffed, grabbing your coat and putting it on before tossing him his keys. You four got into the car and set out for the high school. The short drive was filled with Tommy and Tubbo asking you questions about volleyball and encouraging you. â(Y/n), youâre gonna kick their butts!â
âYeah!â Tubbo cheeredÂ
Despite their voices causing a spike of pain to shoot throughout your head, you laughed at their enthusiasm. It was always nice to hear your little brother and pseudo brother in the stands cheering you on, they were your and your teamâs personal cheerleaders.Â
Not long after you got to the school, you were stretching with your team on the gymâs floor. Your posse found their way into the stands, sitting in the front row. The away team watched your team like a hawk, analysing every single player for any weakness. It was because of them that you tried to not show any pain when you moved your back. You talked to Coach Williams before the team stretch and she was obviously sympathetic with your situation. She agreed to switching you out with the standby setter every few rotations.Â
The echo of the whistles caused pain to ring in your head every time someone scored or a foul was called. Your team captain, Haley, was constantly, yet discreetly checking on you throughout the game since she was always next to you. She was the teamâs main spiker after all.Â
The game droned on and on before you realized that the opposing team was targeting you when they were offensive. They probably realized that you were injured a round ago. You tried your best to block every ball that was sent your way, but a few managed to slip past you when you couldnât move fast enough. This team was good, but your team was better.Â
The score during the final round was tied and the clock was on itâs last ten seconds as the ball soared your way. You dove to hit it, landing on your shoulder on the hard floor and hitting it up high enough for Haley to spike the ball down. The crowd went wild as the ball bounced off from the opposite end of the court almost simultaneously with the screeching of the refereeâs whistle, signifying the end of the game and your teamâs victory.
You laid on the floor in pain, you thought you mustâve pulled your tender muscles in your back and shoulder. It hurt to move it. You felt one of your teammates grab your hand to yank you up into a giant full team group hug. You yelped slightly in pain as you felt arms press against your back and hands firmly patting your bruised shoulders. You were whisked away into the locker room to change into the pajamas you brought with you.Â
â(Y/n), are you alright? That was a pretty hard fall.â Haleyâs soft voice asked you. You felt your heart sing in your chest.Â
âYeah Hales, Iâm fine. I just pulled a few muscles.â
Her perfectly shaped eyebrows furrowed together, âare you sure? As your team captain and your friend, Iâm worried about you.â
You couldnât help the smile that spread across your face. You felt warm knowing that she cared about you. âIâm sure, worrywart.â
She rolled her eyes playfully and breathed out a soft laugh. âSorry for asking, grump.â Her laugh sounded like music to your ears.Â
Your phone vibrated in your pajama pocket, alerting you of your family waiting for you in the car and for you to hurry up. You sighed, âsorry Hales, I gotta go. Dadâs getting impatient.âÂ
She gave you a small smile. âOh, well, tell your family I said hi! Good work on the court today, I wouldnât ask for a different setter.â
You felt your cheeks warm up and you watched with wide eyes as she left the locker room. Your phone vibrated again, your dad was really starting to get impatient.Â
You walked out of the school as fast as you could to find your dadâs car waiting for you up front. Jumping in and softly closing the passenger side door, you slumped against the window. â(Y/n),â Tommyâs tired voice slurred. âThat. Was. PogâŚâ
You glanced back to see him and Tubbo snoring away in their seats. Your match was more exciting than usual, so that mustâve really tired them out. You chuckled, turning back around to lean against the window. You took care not to put any weight on your shoulder or back.Â
â(Y/n), you were amazing out there, but why did you dive for that ball? That fall looked like it hurt.â
You hummed tiredly, âthanks Dad. I just did what I thought would win us the game. Weâre going to finals!â You quietly sang.Â
âDid you hurt your shoulder?â
âI actually donât know, but I think I mightâve pulled a few muscles. Nothing too bad.â
â...I scheduled a doctorâs appointment for you tomorrow morning during your first and second blocks. I want you to get your back, shoulder, and head looked at. You looked miserable the entire match.â
You sighed, too tired to argue, âmmk.â
He chuckled before the car fell into a comfortable silence. The gentle bouncing of the car and the subtle hum of the engine was lulling you to sleep. Your eyelids were drooping by the time you pulled into your driveway.Â
You drug yourself out of the car and into the house, leaving Philza with the sleeping boys. You walked straight to your room and plopped down on your bed, passing out instantly for the second time that day.
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new light part 4: underneath the moonlight â rafe cameron
new light series masterlist
summary: you and rafe meet the parents (properly) and go to midsummers together, but not everyone is as smitten with your relationship as you two are.
pairing: rafe x kook reader
warnings: drinking, swearing
a/n: say hello to a few characters (tw: ward) i have had yet to feature thus far đ¤ more of y/n being besties with kelce (and topper this timeâour fave obx himbo) thereâs a lil drama in this part yâall... into the thick of it. thanks for all the feedback đnot canon rafe
my writing
yeah if you give me just one night, to meet you underneath the moonlight
Youâre startled awake by a loud knock on your bedroom door. Youâre squished between 6 feet and 3 inches worth of boy and the pink wall your bed is pushed up against. Rafe always insisted on laying on your outer side, closest to the door of your bedroom. Which means you often woke up pressed into the wall, your neck sometimes aching from the awkward angle. Not to mention Wilbur always taking up the space at your feet, Rafe usually nudging him into your space so he could stretch out.
Rafe stirs also, making sleepy noises and stretching his legs where they hang off the end of your bed. He grumbles and smacks his lips together a few times, your hand instinctively coming to rub along his jaw. His eyes flutter open as the sun streams in through your window, illuminating the hint of golden stubble on his chin. Youâd only slept over together a few times, since you were both staying with your parents for the summer, so itâs always nice to wake up with your boy in your bed.
Oh fuck. Your boy is in your bed.
Rafe's eyes widen at the same time as yours.
âOh shit, we fell asleep?â he whispers, head whipping around your room.
âFuck, you have to hide right now,â you whisper, stumbling through your thoughts sleepily.
Another knock sounds from the door.
You extract yourself from your spot between Rafe and the wall, his hands guiding you by your hips as you tumble over him.
âJust, fuck, just likeâget under the covers or something. God, I hope itâs not my dad,â you whisper.
âMe too,â he says, slinking into the gap between your bed and the wall as best he can, covering his face with a pillow.
You check that heâs concealed enough, turning to open the door just the slightest bit. Dylan stands in the crack.
âWe have brunch at the Club in an hour, mom wanted me to ask if you invited Rafe,â he peers around you, gaze moving to behind your shoulder. âOr I could just ask him myself. Sup, Rafe?â
âShut the fuck up, Dyl,â you whisper-shout. âWhere are mom and dad? Can he sneak out the back? And donât lie to me, or Iâll tell them about Hilton Head.â
âGod, calm down. Dadâs in the garage and momâs getting ready. Just have him go now.â
âThanks,â you say, all but slamming the door in his face. You turn around and press your back against the door, letting out a shaky breath.
The covers rustle, and Rafe springs out of your bed to gather his things while Wilbur watches him. He always starts pouting when he notices that Rafe is putting on his hat or shoes, signs that heâs about to leave.
âWe are so dead.â
âYou donât think heâll say anything, do you? I donât think I can sit at brunch with your dad in an hour if he knows I slept in your bed last night.â
âNot if heâs smart,â you sigh. âWant me to walk you out?â
âNo, I got it. Just keep Willy in here. Iâll text you when I make it out alive. If you donât hear from me, just assume your father murdered me,â he jokes, leaning down to give you a kiss after he slips his shoes on. âSee you back here in an hour?â
âYes, please be early. And clean shaven.â
âYes maâam. And donât insult me,â he mumbles against your lips.
âNervous?â
âNot nearly as nervous as I will be if I get caught, sweetheart. Gotta go so I have time to showerâand shave. See you in a bit.â
He gives you one last kiss before he departs, and you move to the window with Wilbur to watch him slink across the backyard, arms crossed and a fond grin on your face. He turns and blows you one last kiss before he disappears around the side of your house.
â
âY/n, can I speak to you for a second?â
Your dadâs voice comes from his study as you pass by, checking yourself over in the entryway mirror one more time. Rafe should be here any minute.
âYeah, whatâs up?â
âCome sit,â he says, gesturing to one of the chairs in front of his desk. You feel the hair stand up on the back of your neck. Your dad only invited you to talk in his study if it was something serious. The last time he did was when he told you he was going to take away your Range Rover if you didnât pull your Bs up to As your freshman year of college. Youâve had a 4.0 ever since.
âIs everything alright?â
âYes, everythingâs fine. Just wanted to talk about the new boyfriend.â
âWhat about him?â
âI always knew of him while the two of you were growing up. But I talked to him a bit back during Dylanâs grad week.â
As an unruly teenager and the rightful heir to his father's business, everyone in the Outer Banks knew about Rafe and his antics. Good or bad. You could even recall your mom gossiping to your dad, words passed on from Rose, about some of his more... notable incidences.
âY-yeah, he's...â you trail off, searching for the right words to describe Rafe these days.
âSeems like a good kid,â your dad supplies.
âWhat did you guys talk about?â
âBusiness, mostly. His future and whatnot.â
âIs that what you wanted to talk to me about?â
âNo, I just wonder... are you sure about this one? When you were kids, that boy was always causing trouble. And you know your mother and I were always so proud of how you stayed in line.â
âI know,â you sigh. âBut Rafeâs not a boy anymore. Just give him a chance.â
âI will,â your dad says, slapping his knees to stand up. âBut I'm also gonna give him a hard time.â
âDad, please.â
âItâs my job. Your mom gets to freak out about Dylan moving out, and I get to handle scaring every man who gets to look at you.â
The doorbell rings.
âPlease. I am literally begging.â
Your dad draws a fake halo around his head, and you just roll your eyes.
The morning gets off to an even more embarrassing start as soon as Rafe crosses the threshold into your house. Wilbur jumps into his arms immediately, all ninety pounds of him, and your momâs eyes widen.
âMy goodness, heâs usually so hesitant around strangers!â
Dylan chokes on a laugh, and if you werenât across the room youâd have elbowed him in the ribs.
âOh, Iâve walked Wilbur by Tanneyhill before.â
âYeah, I-I love Willy. Mrs. Y/l/n, itâs so nice to see you again,â Rafe says, effortlessly following your lead after Wilbur scampers out of his hold. He shakes your momâs hand politely. Your dad sidles up to her then, fixing Rafe with a stare harder than youâd prefer. âMr. Y/l/n, you as well. Thanks again, to both of you, for inviting me.â
âGood to see you, Rafe,â your dad says, a strong hand clamping onto his shoulder. âDylan, come say hi.â
Dylanâs grin is devilish, and you're just watching on in pure horror at this point. âHow have you been, Rafe? Havenât seen you in a while.â
â
Rafeâs grinning ear to ear, hand firm on your thigh, all of the windows in his truck rolled down. He even popped the sun roof, letting you blast your playlist all the way down the road.
âOkayâI just... did that go well?â
âYou did great, Rafe.â
Despite Dylan's best efforts to embarrass you two, brunch had gone really well. Your dad took a second to let his guard down, unlike your mother who was immediately gushing over him. You could practically see the wheels in her head turning, the wedding colors she'd picked for you. And your dad came around quick enough once Rafe brought up Formula 1.
Your boyfriend looks so relieved, hand even coming to feel the air pass through his fingers as he hangs his arm out the window, hand on your thigh coming back up to steady the wheel. He taps on it excitedly.
âLowkey, feel like I nailed it, baby.â
âOkay,â you giggle, leaning over to peck his check. You pull him in with a soft hand to the other side of his face. âLetâs not get too big for our britches.â
âOh, Iâm a parent-meeting expert now. Might go into consulting.â
âYouâve perfected the sport?â you joke.
âNo, no. ThatâsâIâve never actually met parents before,â he admits.
âNo way?â
âWay? Have you?â he asks, slight edge seeping into his tone as he pulls up to the stoplight outside of your favorite coffee spot.
âUh... once. We werenât even really dating yet, but they came to visit and he like, ambushed me with them at dinner. They were kinda hippies, though.â
âYeah?â His tone is clipped as he parks his truck.
âYeah, some guy from my comparative literature class sophomore year,â you sigh. âBut, youâre the first to meet my parents.â
âMm,â he hums, fingers tapping on your knee. That satisfies him. He gathers one of your hands in his. âYou coming in?â
âWill you just get me a latte? Kinda wanna call my mom and debrief.â
He laughs, kissing your knuckles. âIâll give you a minute, sweetheart. Oat milk?â
â
Your original plans to meet the Camerons fell through, a last minute staging emergency arising when you were all supposed to go for dinner. Youâd tried not to look down while Rafe attempted in earnest to cheer you up, telling you how pretty you looked while you took out your earrings and let your hair down. He'd kissed the crown of your hair and apologized profusely, promising they would love you when they finally got to meet you.
âMânot upset.â
âOkay.â His hand stroked your back through the thick cotton of one of his old water polo sweatshirts heâd let you borrow for the night.
âIâm just really nervous about meeting them. You mightâve set the bar a little too high with my parents.â
âYou just have a great family.â
âI donât know,â you said when you finally cracked a smile. âMade it pretty far on your first try.â
âDonât worry. Theyâre going to love you, sweetheart.â
You let him kiss your cheek, your forehead, your nose and chin.
âHope so.â
âKnow so.â
And Rafe had somehow convinced your father to let you go to Midsummers with his family, promising to join up for pictures and greetings later. Your dad had willingly let him, to your surprise.
The event was a big deal to Figure 8 patriarchs and matriarchs alike, always trying to outdo the other in every way, all while feigning some sense of island camaraderie. But when Rafe had set aside time at brunch to specifically ask your family for their permission to accompany you to the event, theyâd been hard pressed to say no. Your family immediately accepted Rafe as your boyfriend, any lingering hesitations about his character drowned out by the equal chances of your personal happiness and the heightening of their social and business profiles.
But heâd still come to your house to pick you up, ready to greet your parents in the foyer once again.
He takes one look at you in that blush pink dress, hair, makeup and jewelry all done up this time around, daisy flower crown in place, and flicks his eyes around his surroundings. Your father and Dylan were nowhere in sight, and your mother was busy fixing her earrings in the hall. He takes to your side immediately, a kiss to the side of your head followed by his lips pressing against your ear. âIâm fucking obsessed with you.â
With the high from those words, you ride in his truck to Midsummers, nerves never dissipating no matter how many reassurances he speaks across the summer air streaming in through the vehicle. âRemember, theyâre gonna love you.â
He helps you down from his truck so you can focus on keeping your dress off the ground, assuring you for the fiftieth time that Rose is going to like your headpiece.
âMiss Y/l/n, how lovely to see you again you at last,â Ward sighs, sounding somewhat fond. âRafeâs been talking my ear off about this, meeting you again even though weâve already met. Sorry we couldnât make it work earlier.â
âNo worries, Mr. Cameron. Thank you so much for inviting me to tag along with your family at Midsummers. You as well, Mrs. Cameron. You look beautiful.â
âThank you! And of course,â Rose says, bringing you in for a hug, one you definitely were not expecting.âYouâre out in California, arenât you?â
âYes, home for the summer.â
âThatâs a long way from here,â Ward says. His eyes flicker to Rafe. âLong way from Georgia. Shorter, but still a long way.â
âDad, câmon,â Rafe cuts in, and you can feel his hand gripping the back of your dress:
âHeâs just stating the obvious, Rafe,â Rose intervenes.
âYeah, it is far,â you agree. Rafeâs head whips around back to you.
âWeâre figuring it out,â he says. To anyone else in the vicinity, he probably sounds confident and self assured. But you know Rafe, and you can look into his eyes and see that heâs not. That if he werenât in front of his entire family, trying earnestly to impress his father, heâd have said: âweâre gonna figure it out, right?â
âIâm sure things will work out the way theyâre meant to,â Ward says after a lapse in conversation. âOne way or another.â
âLetâs get some photos so we can all enter and the two of you can run off,â Rose says immediately after, giving neither of you the time to say anything else.
You do your best to shake off Wardâs comment as the four of you join up with the Cameron daughters, plus Sarahâs boyfriend, John B. After posing for what felt like hours, the photographer asks you and John B to hop out so they can take some family pictures, the two of you swiping up a couple of Old Fashioneds from the bar. You have to assure Rafe twice that youâll be okay for ten minutes on your own.
âFirst time meeting Ward?â Sarahâs boyfriend asks, leaned up against the bar like he owns the place.
âErâof course not,â you say, like itâs obvious. But of course John B knew nothing about Figure 8 social circles. âJust the first time as Rafeâs girlfriend.â
âYeah, you look nervous,â he admits, chuckling when your mouth drops open. âItâs not too obvious, I just know becauseâbeen in your shoes.â
You should be insulted that the teenager compares his and Sarahâs relationship with yours and Rafeâs, but you know he isnât being malicious. You see nothing but kindness in his eyes. And itâs nice to have somewhat of a teammate in this situation, the two of you standing by while one of the most powerful families in Kildare poses together in their finest outfits.
Rafe looks hot in his grey suit, especially with the pocket square heâd agonized over for weeks before you gifted him one that was hand sewn from the extra material where your dress had been hemmed. Monogrammed, of course.
Youâd decided to go with his initials, since it was going to him after all. But your stomach gets fluttery if you think about the expression on his face when heâd received it, telling you that you shouldâve put yours on it instead. âThat way everyone will know Iâm yours.â
Turning back to John B, you canât imagine how he must have felt the first time he was invited into all of this. It intimidated even you, and youâre pretty sure John B was friends with the boy who delivered your familyâs groceries every week.
âAny tips?â
âYouâre way better off than I was, first of all,â he laughs. âBut heâs really only scary when itâs one-on-one. He cares too much about this appearance of a perfect family to make digs in front of an audience.â
You nod. âThatâs actually really good advice, John B.â
âDonât sound so surprised, kook.â He clinks his glass against yours, promptly throwing the entire drink back as you watch and laugh. âThatâs another tip. Drink whenever you can.â
âIâm familiar with that one.â
It's intimidating entering the event, a little after everyone else has arrived. Rafe told you that was by designâthe Camerons could never be earlier than fashionably late. You always assumed you and Rafe were raised with similar pedigrees, but you're barely through the doors of the event before you realize that's not entirely true. Up until the last millisecond, Rose is fussing with Sarah and Wheezie's gowns, the older daughter making eye contact with you and rolling her eyes at her step-mother's antics. And Ward brushes Rafe's shoulders off more times than you can count, straightening his bow tie for him repeatedly. Rafe just places his hand on your back, leaning down to whisper into your ear. âYou ready?â
You smile up at him, but your nerves are firmly settled in at this point. What you reply isnât completely true. âOf course.â
â
You take John Bâs advice, of course, and choose Kelce as your designated drinking buddy for the night. He was hard to keep up with, but you threw your inhibitions to the wind after you got meeting the Camerons out of the way. Plus, Rafe had more business to attend to than heâd let on, and you were getting pretty bored. Not too long ago he wouldâve been right beside the rest of you, causing trouble and borderline embarrassing all of your parents. It was weird to see him walking around, shaking hands and rubbing elbows. Heâd invited you into a few conversations, you trying your hardest not to simply watch him in awe.
Youâre engaged in some strange dance battle with Kelce when he stacks his drink into yours, both empties at this point. âYour turn to get a round.â
âBoo,â you sigh, throwing your head back. âWhat dâyou want?â
âSurprise me.â
âAye aye.â
Youâre turning on a shaky high heel, and you have to give yourself a little mental pep talk to straighten up. Of course you can, though.
âWhat can I get you, miss?â the barkeep asks.
âVodka press, Titoâs, and a Jack and coke. Double Jack. Actuallyâsingle. Thanks,â you murmur, trying to fish a ten out of your clutch.
âDonât worry, Iâve got the tip for this one,â a voice says next to you. Ward Cameron is sidling up next to you, sliding a fifty across the counter. Your eyes widen at the tip, trying not to be embarrassed as the bartender sets the drinks down in front of you.
âOh, thank you, Mr. Cameron.â
âAh, call me Ward.â He flicks his eyes back to the bartender, who quickly pockets the tip and makes himself scarce to give the two of you some privacy. You canât help but think of John Bâs warning: âheâs really only scary when itâs one-on-one.â Thereâs no point in even trying seek out Rafe, you knowing full well youâre expected to stay rooted to the spot until Ward dismisses you. âHaving a good time?â
âYeah,â you nod. âItâs always fun to come back out here for this.â
âSo, California to Georgia,â he whistles. âThatâs probably a five hour flight, at least.â
âYeah, um,â you take a minute to make sure your flower crown is perfectly in place. âItâs actually two.â
âExcuse me?â
âTwo flights. From his school to mine. Rafe checked, he said thereâs nothing direct,â you clarify.
Ward letâs out an indifferent chuckle. âOf course he did.â
Your eyebrow furrows because you donât know what to say, turning to look at where your drinks are starting to melt. Kelce would be wondering where you are by now if he wasnât three sheets to the wind. And where the hell was Rafe?
âY/n, as far as I can tell, you are a nice girl. I just need to make sure weâre on the same page about one thing.â
Your heartbeat that hadnât really settled since Ward approached you is picking up again, and you really wish Rafe had been the least bit more concerned about where you were at this moment.
âUm, I-Iâm not sure I know what youâre talking about.â
âI'm donât know how serious you two are, Y/n, but I know my son. He's clearly very invested in pursuing you.â
Your resolve crumbles a little at that, your heart warming, thinking about Ward noticing something like that.
âBut Rafe needs to be committed to finishing this degree so he can come home and start learning the ropes next year. And in four years, Sarah will do the same. Then Louisa after her.â
âWow, thatâs so lucky for youâthat they all want to go into the family business,â you praise, not really knowing what else to say. It must be the wrong thing, because Ward just quirks an eyebrow.
âIn this family, our business will always come first. Before anything and anyone else. Do you see what Iâm getting at?â
You swallow, catching on to where this is going for the first time. You still go for playing dumb.
âWard, I really don't think I understand.â
âBut you do, don't you? You know Rafe. Heâs a bit emotional, heâs a âfeeler,ââ Ward says sarcastically, putting it in air quotes. All of the niceties you experienced earlier when you first greeted Rafeâs family were long gone. You can only gather that it was all an act for Rafeâs benefit. But you know the only option is to sit there and take it. âHe thinks with his heart, never enough with his head. Sarah, for exampleâwhen itâs time for her to cut that pogue lose, which it will be soon enough, I know she will. Whether itâs my decision or herâs. I can count on that, because sheâs just like me in that respect; she knows we have to make sacrifices. But RafeâI donât think I can make that same assumption about him.â
âWard, with all due respect, Rafe is really focused on the business.â
âYou're correct, and Iâve worked hard to get him there. Which is why I can't have him spending his senior year of college, when he should be buckled down, traveling back and forth from California and getting distracted from his future by some girl.â
âMr. Cameron, I would neverââ
âYou know that itâs true. I can tell youâre bright. You come from a great family.â Itâs a compliment and an insult all at once. He likes you because of your fatherâs business and your motherâs social status, not because of what you do for Rafe, or what you have to show for yourself. He continues like it was nothing but the highest praise. âBut right now, you are across the country from him, and I can bet heâs determined to make that work, no matter what it takes. Which I obviously canât have,â Ward sighs. âItâs just not the right time. You can understand that, can't you?â
You nod numbly and pick up your drinks, hoping heâll get the signal to wrap this up soon. Youâre at the point where you canât listen to this anymore, liquid courage re-flooding your veins.
âIâm not asking you to stay away from him, because youâre both adults,â Ward says, stopping you with a hand on your shoulder. âBut Iâm asking you to think long and hard about whatâs best for the both of you. Rafe already knows whatâs expected of him. Heâs always known.â
You look back towards the crowd under the gazebo, able to make out John B of all people. He sees you talking to Ward, shooting you the most subtle thumbs up he can muster. He has no idea. You donât take the chance to nod at him, turning back to the bar.
âSay the two of you let it go for the school year,â Ward bulldozes, taking a step closer to you. âAnd you end up back here too, great. But even then Rafeâs going to be working all the time, the longest hours he ever will in his life. For the next few years, Y/n. Youâre so youngâare you really going to tie yourself down to a commitment like that? What about your future?â
In a tone you hope comes across as confident, you say, âI really appreciate your concern, Ward.â
Ward's perfectly white teeth are pulling into an even more perfect grin, and the sight makes you sick.
âGreat. I'm glad we had this talk.â He pats you on the back, leaving first before you get the chance to.
You just shuffle through the crowd numbly, not even reacting when someone steps on your toe, taking it all in stride as you seek the comfort of your friends once again.
You were foolish to think Ward would warm up to you immediately, or at all. You had been way too confident in yourself, especially after witnessing the wear working for his father had on Rafe. âHeâs not an easy man to please.â How could you be so naive, thinking you could coast by on your charm?
Youâre a few feet away when you notice that Topper had joined up with Kelce again, as had your boyfriend. Heâs joking with them, amused at the way Topper is clearly almost done tolerating Kelceâs drunken antics, but you stand and watch for a bit as he scans the crowd, gaze flickering toward the bar youâd just been at. You realize heâs looking for you when he finally spots you, his face relaxing as the two of you make eye contact.
âThere you are.â He pulls you in close, kissing your forehead. You want to cry. âWhereâd you run off to? One of those for me?â
Heâs gesturing to the drinks youâre holding, reaching for the darker of the two. But Kelce is swooping in, snatching it out of your hold quickly. âNope,â he pops the âp.â âThis oneâs all mine. Sorry Cameron. Thanks Y/n/n.â
Rafe just rolls his eyes at the two of you, eyes lingering on your face when he notices your fallen expression. He sets your other drink down on the high top table youâre all standing next to, pulling you in by your hips. âYou okay?â
If you had a choice right now, about how to proceed with telling or not telling Rafe about what had just happened, your instincts compel you to bypass the decision process altogether; you paint a careful smile on your face, shaking your head slightly. âYeah, all good. Just zoned out for a sec.â
He isnât convinced. âTired?â
âMaybe a little. Kinda drunk. Are we leaving soon?â you ask, melting into him. Itâs a lot easier to handle his tone of voice when you donât have to look him directly in the eye.
âI vote yes,â Topper says, gesturing towards Kelce, who is somehow sucking down his new drink at an alarming pace while continuing to dance to the oldies tunes they play at these things. âLike, right now. Rafe, youâre hanging back right?â
You look back up at your boyfriend in confusion. âYouâre not coming with us?â
He bite his lip in contemplation, looking around the party. The twinkly lights reflect off of his pupils, making him look starry-eyed as he surveys the crowd. A sea of opportunities to prove himself to his father. Rafe looks resolved when he turns back to you.
âWell... I was gonna stay, wrap up some stuff,â he explains. His eyes flicker across your face, still not pleased with your expression. âBut thatâs okay, Iâm good to go now.â
âNo, Rafe,â you say immediately. You take a deep breath, rolling back your shoulders and painting on a smile that comes easily with years of experience at parties like this. âStay, Iâll go ahead. How long will you be?â
âAn hour, tops. Will you take her?â Rafe looks hesitant, still taking your green light anyway, already slowly extracting himself from your hold, Topper rolling his eyes but nodding and beginning to corral Kelce toward the exit.
âI canât believe youâre making me babysit two of them.â
âDonât let her drink too much.â
âHey,â you protest, pushing him in his chest half heartedly. The push barely does anything, only proving your impaired motor skills further. Or that you're dating a tree. âWhat are you, a cop?â
âIâm your boyfriend, actually.â
âReally? When did that happen?â you decide to play along, picking up your drink again.
ââBout a month ago, Y/l/n,â he says softly. He can see right through you, can tell you're putting on a show for all of your friends but you're still not okay. You have to break eye contact.
âHmm, for some reason I thought you were just this guy from middle school.â
âAt least this time nobody spilled on your dress,â he teases half-heartedly, and the memory only hurts you more. âNot sure Iâd wanna sacrifice this one.â
âCan youâyou guys are the worst. Focus. We need to go now, before Kelce gets his entire family blacklisted from the club. You coming or not, Y/n/n?â Topper begs.
Youâre nodding, leaning up to give Rafe one last kiss before you leave. He holds you close to him with a firm hand on your back, voice dropping to a whisper right next to your ear. âYouâre sure youâre okay?â
The lump in your throat is growing, but you push through, lowering yourself back down to your feet as soon as you can. âYeah, donât worry about it. Focus on the rest of your night.â
Rafe still looks unsure, his hand resting on the nape of your neck as he kisses your forehead. âY/nââ
âWeâll talk about it later, okay?â you finally admit. Rafe nods curtly, can tell youâre not going to let him leave with you right now. But he doesnât know why. He doesnât know that if you pull him away from his responsibilities right after that talk you had with Ward, itâs going to spell disaster for the two of you.
âJust some business stuff, alright?â he assures you. âIâll see you soon. Forty-five minutes.â
âPromise?â you murmur, fiddling with his pocket square. He smiles down at you, tucking a loose strand of hair behind your ear.
âPromise. You look so pretty. Half an hour. Now go.â
Topperâs guiding you towards the parking lot with a polite hand on your back, but you have to watch Rafe as you leave. You watch him approach his dad, who gives him a smile and a pat on the back. Rafe preens under his gaze.
But Ward must have been watching you two from afar because his gaze is flickering back to you, and he fixes you with a hard stare. He raises his eyebrows, bringing his drink to his lips. Taking a leisurely sip, hint of a smirk on his face. You can practically hear his thoughts: âRafe chose to stay here with me, with the business, and sent you off with his friends.â Itâs everything in you to not let the tears that have been building on your waterline spill over. But your friend isnât easily fooled.
âYâalright, Y/n?â Topper says from beside you, trusting Kelce enough to walk on his own as you all near the parking lot. He moves to follow your gaze but you stop him, quickening your pace towards his gray Jeep. âDid something happen?â
âWard Cameron happened.â
âââ
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AYE requests briefly open you say? Then here ya go: MC (female or gn) turns into a child for a day courtsey of Solomon (maybe around 5) with the Brothers. I think it'd be adorable, what with finger painting on spell books and things, but there ya go!
The MC is Now Five Years Old, Thanks Solomon...
Oh boyâŚ. A little kid in Hell sounds like a train wreck admittedly, but at least they'll have some pretty strong guardians right? I heard It'll Be Okay by SMLE & Helen Tess and decided that was JUST the feel this sort of request needed.
Intro:
Solomon really doesn't mess up spells often. He's been doing this for a while (at least as far as my headcanon is concerned) so he's gotten pretty damn good at magic over the years. It takes a looot to make him mess up. Like say, a natural disaster, an unexpected surprise⌠or a whole-ass MC getting knocked into what sigil he's using at just the wrong time. Yeah. That'll do it.
How in the world is he going to explain this to the brothers�
Lucifer
His anger toward Solomon is quite severe⌠tempered only slightly by how utterly adorable kid!MC is. (Well all know he's got that soft spot for cute things đ¤) It reminds him so much of his brothers at that ageâŚ
The man basically reverts back to being Dad!Lucifer sooo fast.
He's the one tying their shoes, checking on them throughout the day, making sure they're not running with scissors⌠that sort of thing.
Weirdly enough he's not that bothered by it⌠In fact, his brothers find it a little unnerving just how at peace he seems when he's keeping track of kid!MC doing this or that⌠It's like he's just put on an old pair of gloves and found out they still fit.
Speaking of his brothers, Lucifer can't turn off "Parent Mode" so it starts spilling over to them too...
When he started telling Levi "It's bedtime" and used a napkin to wipe Beel's face for him in public, they decided to hold an informal intervention. They're grown demons now, damnit!! đ
Mammon
The first thing kid!MC did when they saw Mammon was fling themselves at him while screaming "MAMMIE!!!" at the top of their lungs⌠Regardless of his confusion, the man could probably die happy now.
He only gripes a little bit about being saddled with babysitting duty⌠Because everybody knows he's not the babysitter now. He's the playmate.
"Mammie, I wanna play House!!" "I ain't playing House with ya, kid. How 'bout Tag?" "No way, you're too fast!" "Hide'n Seek?" "Luci said we can't play that no moreâŚ" "Well don't hide in the oven again!" "You didn't find me!!" "That was the problem!!!"
Pretty much the Man-Child/Actual Child Duo. He's perfect for keeping up with them and they'll whine incessantly when they can't find him for too long...
Totally the brother to take them to the amusement park or really any of those super fun places kids love. He will be just as excited as they are to be there, too.
It's not uncommon to find Mammon passed out on a couch or something with an equally exhausted kid!MC sleeping on his back. The two can really wear each other outâŚ
Leviathan
He's probably the least perturbed by this change. Sudden de-aging of characters is a pretty popular anime trope, after all...
He's not all that taken with kid!MC though to be honest⌠Largely because he's too worried about keeping his stuff out of their grubby mitts. đ
"Levi, what's this?" "GAH! Don't touch that!! That's my limited edition UltraâRainbow Witch figurine!!" "I wanna play with it, though!" "It's not a toy!!" "That's not fair! You have nothing but toys, Levi!! You need to share!!" "NO I DON'T!!!"
In those times where Lucifer forces him to share, Levi goes full neat-freak. He handles all the discs and games himself, everything gets practically sterilized, and kid!MC HAS to wash their hands before they touch ANYTHING (especially the game controllers). He ain't risking any random kid-gunk getting on his precious possessions⌠đ°
He does enjoy playing games with them well enough, at least. No one's going to pass up a game of Devil Kart after all!
Sometimes he'll let them win just to see how happy they get⌠Though, then they start getting a big head about it so he has to remind him who the actual gamer is with another string of losses... Sucks to suck, kid! đđ
Satan
⌠You know, five year-olds ask a lot of questions⌠A looot of questionsâŚ
"Satan, what's that?" "An umbrella. You use it so that rain doesn't get on you." "Where does rain come from?" "Evaporated water collects in the atmosphere and-" "Is rain like the sky peeing?" "...." "Satan? Does your face hurt?... Satan?"
Please Lord, they may not be on speaking terms, but someone has to have mercy on his patience...
In truth, Satan's kind of charmed by how curious kid!MC is, he just wished they'd listen more to his boring explanationsâŚ
"Satan? Why does everyone listen to Diavolo?" "Lord Diavolo is like a king to us demons." "Where's his crown?" "He doesn't wear a crown." "Oh⌠You don't wear a crown and people listen to you. Are you a king too?" "I mean, you're not wrong⌠đ" "Satan, get back to work."
Eh, maybe having a little MC isn't all that bad. They don't lie, after all. đ
Asmodeus
OMG he hasn't seen a child this cute since the twins were in diapers!!!!
If Mammon isn't around then Asmo takes over babysitting duties (like an actual babysitter) and he's more than happy to do it. It reminds of him of taking care of baby Belphie!
If kid!MC has any interest at all in makeup then he's happy to foster it. He won't give them the good stuff of course, but he'll show them how to do blush, eyes, lipstick, nail polish, whatever!
He also dabbles in a bit of facepaint so do they want to look like a kitty, panda, or dragon? He's got them covered.
Asmo just likes to let them be creative in all forms, really. He's going to be the one to break out the paint and markers and just the kid!MC go to town! (hopefully not on the wallsâŚ)
Takes pictures of whatever they draw, good or bad, and happily displays them to everyone. There's not a big enough fridge to hold all the art he's going to collect (and zealously protect).
Beelzebub
Playmate #2 right after Mammon, but he's the less excitable, more responsible one.
"Beel! Beel! Watch me jump off this slide!!" đ° "Please don't⌠You could hurt yourself⌠You slide down slides. That's why they're called that." "*GASP*... That's right! You're a genius!!" *sits back down* "Not really, but thank you." đ *waits for them at the bottom*
If the MC is with Beel, they're doing one of two things. Either they're playing together or gorging themselves on junk food.
Beel actually likes "domestic" games like House and Tea Party because it's an excuse to raid the kitchen. He'll play "house-husband" all day as long as he gets to actually eat at every imaginary dinnertime.
He'll play active games too, of course. Especially action-oriented ones like "Cops and Robbers" or Superheros. No one's better at roughhousing than Beel! Though he'll go easy on them, cause they're small and all⌠đ
Everyone can always tell when Beel's in charge of them because he carries them around on his shoulders. He's the tallest one of the family so it's like getting to be a giant!
Belphegor
Belphie was introduced to kid!MC when they started crying during one of his naps. They couldn't wake him and they thought he was dead⌠Followed directly by them declaring their tears were magic when they noticed his eyes opened.
He proceeded to close his eyes again and purposely play dead just to get them all worried again. It was the smile creeping up onto his face that eventually gave him away⌠đ
He likes to play with kid!MC and Beel but he's not going to let it get in the way of his nap schedule or anything. When they play "Knights" he gets to take the role of the world's laziest dragon⌠Rawr.
Kid!MC will only settle down for naptime if Belphie joins too since he'll read them a book like he used to do with Lilith.
Satan's usually the go-to guy for storytime, but Belphie's a close second (largely because he just imitates what he remembers Lucifer doing for him, voices and all đ¤).
He deals with their myriad of questions by just making shit up and pretending he knows what he's talking about. It's around the time that he told them that little men live inside the freezer and shave ice cubes to keep things cold that Lucifer started getting on his case about it⌠Killjoy. đ
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Mamihlapinatapai {part 1}
See {overview} for more info!
Pairing: Bang Chan x Female Reader
Themes: royal au, medieval au, court intrigue, arranged marriage, original characters, mutual pining, slow burn
Warnings: mentions of death/war, emotionally abusive parents
Rating: Mature
Word count: 4.2k
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Mamihlapinatapai - (noun, YagĂĄn origin) a silent acknowledgement and understanding between two people, who are both wishing or thinking the same thing (and are both unwilling to initiate)
Bond | Kingdom of Gu, present day
âGood morning, Your Highness,â you called, entering the princeâs room and walking to open the curtains, revealing the cloudless sky behind them. Of course a beautiful day like today would have to be ruined by the very event you were here to collect Chan for.
Chanâs head peeked out from around the dressing panel, smiling softly as you pressed the shirt heâd clearly been looking for into his hands. âGood morning Y/n.â
âYour fatherâs in quite the foul mood this morning,â you said, leaving Chan to finish changing as you tidied up his dresser and prepared the many pins and beads bearing the royal crest that would adorn his formal attire for today.
You could hear the scowl in his voice as he grumbled, âOnly he could manage to be upset during an event solely orchestrated by him and his insufferable band of so-called advisors.â
You nodded your head, indulging him in his ranting. Better he get it all out now with only you here to hear than cause a scene in front of the court. The prince took his responsibilities seriously and hardly ever openly clashed with his father, no matter how much they disagreed. But this had been an exceedingly upsetting matter for him, and, by extension, you as well. Youâd spent the majority of the last week attempting to keep the peace between him and his father, as well as show your support for your friend as best you could.
Chan stepped out from behind the screen, and you had to stop yourself from doing a double take at the man in front of you. A far cry from his normal outfit of loose breeches and dirtied, tattered tunics, his cleanly pressed white shirt was tucked neatly into snug fitting black trousers, accentuating his broad shoulders and trim figure. You were sure he hated the confines of such an ensemble, but you were equally sure he would turn every head in the kingdom during todayâs events, and you smiled at having the privilege to see him here first as he struck a nonchalant pose and asked, âSo, how do I look?â
âVery handsome,â you replied, stepping up to pin his bright red cloak around his shoulders and set to work attaching the fineries to the outside.
âYou do as well. Look very nice, I mean,â he corrected sheepishly, pose all but forgotten and head tilting forward as a blush formed on his cheeks.
You glanced upward, smoothing his hair that had gotten tousled from his rushed dressing. âThank you, Your Highness,â you replied quietly. You decided to throw in a humorous quip, hoping to lighten his mood as you finished decorating the course, red fabric. âWe couldnât have the princeâs personal attendant looking like sheâd just had a spar with a knight and lost, now could we?â
âCertainly not,â he laughed, then quieted as he continued, âAnd youâre still wearing the flower.â
You reached your hand absently up to the flower that was perched behind your ear, and you felt his fingertips ghost over yours as he gently pushed your hair to sit behind it.
âOf course, Your Highness. Is it not our tradition that I wear it until it is completely bare of petals?â
âMhmm⌠our tradition,â he hummed, his hand lingering next to your cheek.
âWe really must be h-heading out.â You cringed at the unsteadiness of your voice. You needed to get out of here, needed to get him out of here. You straightened the clasps of his cloak and tapped your hands on his chest.
âThere. Now you look like a real prince charming,â you said, forcing a smile to your lips that didnât quite reach your eyes.
He shook his head as he half chuckled, half grimaced at your words, lips forming into a straight line. âThen I suppose we must go meet my future wife.â
You Have My Bow | Kingdom of Gu, 19 years ago
âMama, Mama, look what Papa made for me!â you squealed, bounding into your tightly-packed cottage and nearly crashing into your motherâs legs as she stood boiling soup at the stove.
Your father had taken you to the woods that morning, your favorite place to go with him when he had a rare spare moment away from the castle. You had thought he was taking you for your usual ritual: fishing by the riverâs edge in the hopes of catching something to use for dinner. Instead, when you reached the riverbank, your father knelt down and pulled a tiny childâs bow from his knapsack, small enough to fit in your four-year-old hands.
âIâm going to teach you how to use this bow Y/n. Not many girls will know how to, but you need to be able to fend for yourself and your mother if anything should ever happen to me.â
âWhy would anything happen to you Papa?â
âWell, Papa helps the king to keep our home safe, and there are some people who might want to make it unsafe.â
âLike the Lajorans? Or the Mirohans? The ones with the missing princess?! Or the Sillans? I heard old man Jerrald talking outside the tavern, and he said Lajorans like to ...â
âYes, just like those,â your father interrupted your enthusiastic babbling, âthough you shouldnât believe everything old man Jerrald says, alright?â You nodded as he continued, âThe king does everything he can to keep the peace, but sometimes our peoples get into fights. Really big ones, where people use swords and bows like this. And I want to make sure that if that ever happens, if one day a fight should come here, that you can keep yourself and your mother safe. Do you think you could do that for me, Y/n?â
Youâd agreed of course, your little body bouncing with excitement as he pulled you in for a hug then took the bow and began to show you the basic principles. The two of you had spent the rest of the day practicing, and you couldnât be more excited to show your mother what youâd learned.
âY/n be careful,â your mother admonished, kneeling down to your height as she gave you a tight squeeze. âNow letâs see what that father of yours has cooked up for you this time.â
âItâs called a boo!â you all but shouted, whipping the bow out from behind your skirts and drawing back the string in a mock archerâs pose.
âA bow, Y/n, itâs called a bow sweetheart,â came your fatherâs voice from the doorstep. He crossed the small space to pull your mother into a tight embrace as he said, âAnd be careful with that in the house, or your mother will have my head.â You nodded back at him and he sent you a mischievous wink over her shoulder.
Your mother turned to face him with a wary smile as you started galloping in circles, pretending to ride an imaginary horse. âGiving our already rambunctious child a deadly weapon, Minhyuk? You want to get her into trouble, I see.â
âJulietta, you worry too much,â your father whispered, pressing his lips to her temple in a gentle kiss. âBesides, Iâd be more concerned about the trouble sheâd be in if she didnât know how to take care of herself.â
Little did you know that everything you learned that day would soon come crashing into your life, taking many precious things with it when it left.
All That Glitters Is Not Gold | Kingdom of Gu, present day
You struggled to keep up as you walked behind Chan, the two of you heading to the throne room where you were sure a very short tempered King Bang would be waiting to reprimand you for your tardiness. Sure enough, when the guards opened the doors, you saw the king pacing in the small space in front of the raised thones, his head snapping up as he heard your footsteps approach.
âYouâre late. I told you to have him here 20 minutes ago Y/n, did I not?â
âItâs not her fault,â Chan defended. âBesides, theyâre not here yet, are they?â He gestured around to the otherwise empty hall, save for the usual servants and guards, then slumped into his seat at the right hand of his fatherâs.
âYou would do well to lose that attitude before they do arrive. I will not have you embarrassing yourself or this court because of your petty feud with me.â Chan gave a hollow laugh at that, eyes closing to block out the mere presence of his father.
You took your place behind Chanâs throne, hands coming up to rest on the ornately upholstered back. You liked keeping your hands there; it made you feel like you were supporting Chan in some way, the closest you would ever come to being able to actually hold his hand the way you wanted to right now.
After a few moments, you heard the telltale sound of trumpets and the growing shuffling of a group of approaching footsteps. Chan straightened in his seat and his father took his place at the head of the room.
The doors opened, and you were greeted by a small party of what appeared to be political ministers and guards, in the middle of whom stood a woman clad in a yellow gown. She was beautiful, golden hair spun up into a twist and a delicate silver circlet resting above it. You would know she was a princess from a mile away.
The Gu herald spoke first, gesturing towards the two men seated at the thrones. âMay I present His Majesty, King Bang Geun of the Gu Kingdom and his son, His Royal Highness Bang Christopher Chan, crown prince of the Gu Kingdom.â
The gaggle of people gave a quick bow, then parted to allow the woman through. She stepped to the front, then dipped into a low curtsey. âI am Princess Korenna Dormio of Lajor,â she spoke, her high, clear voice ringing in the chamber. âIt is a pleasure to meet you both.â
The king stood up, walking towards Korenna with you and Chan trailing behind. He took her hand and kissed the top of it, his voice exclaiming in a fake bright tone, âWe are honored you could join us in our kingdom! May I present my son, Christopher.â
Chan stepped forward at that, hand outstretched to take hers. âI prefer strangers to call me Chan.â
You could feel the icy gaze King Bang was sending to his son, but he pressed on, ever the politician.
âThis is Y/n. She is Chr- err Chanâs personal attendant, and will be at your service during your stay. Go to her with whatever you may need.â
Korenna eyed you with a curious look, and you knew why. It was unusual, though not entirely unheard of, for a prince to have a woman as his personal attendant. Not only did they complete duties for him in the domestic sphere, but they also served a professional purpose, a sort of squire, scheduler, and strategist all in one, roles typically reserved for men. The unique circumstances surrounding the time of yourâs and Chanâs upbringing had made having you as his attendant a logical choice, but you could understand her concern about the man she was supposed to marry spending most of his time in the company of a woman she knew nothing about.
You knelt into a curtsey, head leaning forward as you heard Korennaâs voice. âA pleasure to meet you Y/n.â
âYou as well, Your Grace,â you responded. Glancing up, you saw that Chan was not even looking in her direction, gaze apparently trained on a fascinating branch just outside the rightmost window. Well this was off to a wonderful start.
âVery well,â King Bang said tentatively, âI will let you two become acquainted. Y/n, I believe you were given their itinerary for the day?â
âYes, Your Majesty.â
As the king made his way to mingle with the rest of Korennaâs visiting party, Chan turned to the both of you, eyes almost glaring at the princess.
âI donât want to be here, and I doubt you do either, so letâs just get all of this shit over with so we can go back to our normal lives.â With that, he stalked towards the door, leaving you and a highly affronted Korenna to follow in his wake.
***
The next few hours only got worse.
The pair were thrust immediately into making a multitude of decisions about the wedding ceremony: What kind of flatware did they want? Which cakes were their favorite? How should the shrubbery around the edge of the garden be trimmed? And all the while you stood between them, relaying information to the various servants charged with these tasks and corralling the two royals between each of their stops.
Your latest one was with the palace groundskeeper, to determine what flowers would adorn the wedding canopy.
âWe can always have tulips brought in from the highlands, Your Grace.â
âTulips are fine, but I was thinking something more along the lines of white roses or lilies.â
Chanâs annoyed huff at her words was impossible to miss.
âCan you at least try to give some input about this?â
âWeâve barely met and they have us making all these asinine decisions about something weeks away! What do you even care what I have to say about flowers anyway?!â
âI donât want to fight with you about this.â
âIsnât that what your people are good at?! Picking a fight with someone who never asked to be involved in the first place?â
You hated seeing Chan like this. His normally kind, generous, and thoughtful demeanor, that you knew to be his real self, not just some facade put on to impress the nobles or win ladiesâ affections, was being replaced by this antagonistic attitude, intent on ruining any chance of finding common ground with this woman. You knew he was doing it to protect himself, both from his fatherâs antics and from his own fear of being open, of letting someone in and risking actually wanting to keep them there. But under different circumstances, you knew he would never want to be seen treating anyone like he was right now, let alone a princess from another powerful kingdom. And she didnât seem to be so bad; if she felt the same malice as he felt towards her, she at least did a better job of hiding it. You needed to stop him before he did something you knew he would regret.
âYour Highness, I believe Prince Minho wanted to brief you on the latest border patrol, seeing as he is back in the city for the time being. Why donât you meet with him while I escort Her Grace to the ladies afternoon tea?â
âA wonderful idea,â Chan muttered unenthusiastically and began walking towards the closest castle door as you guided the princess in the opposite direction. You looked back and locked eyes with him, reading the expression of thanks on his face.
When you were out of earshot from Chan, Korenna turned to you almost immediately and asked, âIs he always this standoffish?â
You were unsure how to answer that question, wanting to make it clear he wasnât always like this without getting her hopes up that he would change his attitude about this particular situation any time soon.
âHis Highness is not especially fond of this arrangement. It has nothing to do with you personally, Your Grace.â
âWell I am also not especially fond of this arrangement, but itâs the arrangement we have at present and at least Iâm attempting to be civil towards him.â
âPerhaps you should tell him of your similar feelings, to establish some common ground?â
Korenna became agitated at that suggestion, visibly tensing as she said, âAnd risk my father finding out I feel that way. Absolutely not.â
You understood that apprehension, that fear. Stories of her father, King Eunther, had spread often throughout your kingdom, and from what you heard, you knew he was not someone you wanted to cross.
You walked in silence for the rest of the way, until you rounded the corner into the courtyard where you could hear ladiesâ voices and the gentle clinking of fine china. Korenna turned to you, placing her hand on your arm.
âYou and him seem to be⌠close. Maybe you could talk to him, ask him to try to appear like he doesnât despise me and everything I do or say?â
You had a feeling that would only make it worse, his oldest friend asking him to grin and bear it for the âgood of the kingdom.â You also knew his political protest against his father might not be the only reason for his general disdain of everything that had happened the past week. But Korenna seemed like she was genuinely trying to put in some effort, and you couldnât bring yourself to outright deny her request.
âI will try, Your Grace.â
As you left Korenna in the garden, you reached up to feel for the flower by your ear, and found that all the remaining petals had fallen off.
Arrangements | Kingdom of Gu, 1 week ago
âHave you heard anything? From the staff, about what this announcement might be?â
Chan was walking briskly ahead of you, voice coming out slightly strained. You knew why; his father calling an unscheduled meeting with the entire court, alluding to some mysterious âannouncement,â had everyone on edge, Chan most of all. The king still kept his son in the dark about the majority of his political proceedings, much to Chanâs frustration and chagrin, and no one but his closest inner circle had any inkling as to what this might be about.
âNo, Your Highness. Itâs been quiet in the servantsâ quarters; everyone is equally surprised.â
âWell, whatever it is, promise to take my side?â
âHave I ever not?â
The two of you entered the throne room, and despite your knowledge of what a full court gathering was, you were still taken aback by the sheer amount of people present. Every nobleman, every knight, every person who wasnât otherwise occupied was here, filling the space along the wall and facing the dias at the head of the room where King Bang sat, the empty seats to his right and left standing out amongst the crowded room. Even Prince Minho, the kingâs nephew and second in command of the royal guard after Chan, was back from his post on the Lajoran border.
Whatever this announcement was, it was serious.
Chan approached his seat next to the king as he usually did on occasions like this, but was stopped by his fatherâs voice.
âChan, please remain there. You are the subject of my announcement today.â
You saw Chanâs face pale as he remained in the center of the room. You were still standing behind him, debating whether or not you should stay beside him or step back to one of the walls where the servants stood. As you scanned for your mother in the crowd, that question was answered for you.
âY/n, you too shall stay where you are. I will have instructions for you as well.â
You bowed your head slightly in acknowledgement of his order, and took your place slightly behind Chanâs left shoulder to await whatever insane proclamation King Bang was about to make.
Nothing could have prepared you for the words that left his mouth.
âChris, I have made you a wedding match. You are to be married to Princess Korenna of Lajor in six weekâs time.â
The entire room was silent, every person holding their breath to hear what the princeâs reaction would be. This was not something anyone was expecting, Chan least of all. It took every ounce of your willpower to school your face into a neutral expression as you tried to contend with the hundreds of thoughts flooding your mind.
Chan was to be married? To someone from Lajor? One of Guâs oldest enemies suddenly wanted to form an alliance, and through marriage? What would that even entail? Who would hold what powers? Why was the ceremony so soon? Who would be in charge of the preparations? How would this change your relationship with Chan?
After what felt like hours, but was more likely only several seconds, you heard Chanâs voice echoing one of your thoughts out loud.
âA Lajoran?! But father, they are responsible for - â
âYou need not remind me what they are responsible for, Christopher.â
âThen I donât understand, how did this come about?!â
You couldnât stop the low ringing slowly building in your ears, accompanied by a sudden wave of nausea. You vaguely registered the kingâs voice, explaining how King Eunther had approached him, how he agreed âit was time we put that mess behind us,â and how his daughter would be a suitable match for the Gu prince. Your mind wandered, remembering how many times Chan had told you he never wanted to be used as a pawn in his fatherâs political games, how he hated the idea of being forced to marry a stranger. You couldnât seem to register any other information, thinking solely about Chan, the man youâd known since childhood, your friend, having to be married off to satisfy his fatherâs need for power. Finally, a loud voice cut through the fog in your head.
âY/n, are you listening? Look at me when Iâm talking to you, girl!â
You looked up in surprise to see the kingâs unpleasant expression looking down at you. Out of the corner of your eye, you could see Chanâs pained face turned slightly towards you, waiting to see why his father had kept you in the center of the room as well.
âI apologize, Your Majesty.â
âYou will serve Princess Korenna when she arrives for her introductory stay here a week from today.â
You heard a scoff from next to you and glanced to see Chanâs face growing angrier by the second. âFirst you lay this on me, now youâre taking away my servant?! How do you expect me to cope with all of this?â
You sucked in a sharp breath at his words. You knew he was simply talking in a language his father would understand, explaining how it would be an inconvenience for him to not have someone available at all times of the day, to keep track of his schedule, to clean his clothes, bring him his meals, prepare his horses and armor. But you couldnât help the sting of being referred to as a âservantâ; surely Chan saw you as more than that, just as you saw him as more than just your future monarch.
âYou will manage with half of her normal attention,â the king answered, his tone laced with a hint of irritation at his sonâs current attitude. âBesides, youâll spend most of your time with Korenna, so sheâll be with the both of you regardless.â
The anger was coming off of Chan in waves, so palpable you felt like you could reach out and touch it. Finally he set his jaw, facing his father.
âIs that all you had for me?â
âWell thatâs all for the matter of the marriage yes but - â
Chan turned on his heel, walking out of the room to the sound of hushed whispers and his fatherâs increasingly pitiful protests.
You wanted nothing more than to run after him, to pull him into your arms and soothe him, tell him everything would be alright. But you knew better than to leave, not having been dismissed by the king yet. So you stood there, heart aching so badly, feeling exposed, like everyone could see the shattered pieces of it that had fallen at your feet.
âIâll go look for him,â you heard Minho say as he passed by you, the king nodding and waving his hand to dismiss the rest of you. You heard your mother calling for you but you ignored her, wanting to get out of that stifling room, to go somewhere, anywhere where you could be alone. You knew where Chan had gone, where he always went when he was upset and needed time to think, but no one bothered to ask you in their search for him.
***
He returned to his room that evening like you knew he would, the door creaking open as you stood across the room ironing his rarely used formal wear with the glass smoother.
His voice came out choked as he whispered, âIâm sorry for what I said. For referring to you as my servant.â
âItâs alright, Your Highness. I know you were upset - â
âThatâs no excuse.â
Feeling his presence close behind you, you turned to him, reaching for his hand. âI forgive you.â
He brought his other hand to your cheek, and when you looked up, you saw his eyes staring at you, imploring you to stay, to talk to him. It was so tempting, the desire to give in, to lean in to him and let him hold you like you knew he wanted. But you had to be strong, for him and for yourself. And you knew if you stayed, if you opened up to each other, tried to confront the feelings you knew you still had and could only hope he reciprocated, neither of you would ever recover. So you took his hand from your face, holding both of his in yours between you as you said, âYou should get some rest, Your Highness.â
âY/n please,â he murmured.
âIt is done. Thereâs nothing you or I can do.â
He made one last attempt, turning and holding your wrist lightly, but let you go as you pulled away. Opening the door, you wished him goodnight, desperately trying to hold in your tears as you left. Your footsteps took you down the hall quickly, but not before you caught the small sound of a sob coming from behind his door.
{part 2}
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Being Regulus Blackâs Younger Sister (Version 1 - Slytherin) ⢠Headcanon
Warnings: body insecurity and eating mention, forced eating restrictions, canon child abuse and neglect by Walburga Black, Barty Crouch Jr makes an appearance
Request: Hey maybe you could do a regulus x younger sister headcanons or fix really whatever you want to do đ â @nicole198205
A.N: I honestly loved writing Black sister reader...this was so fun and if you liked it too and want like a real blurb or something based on any of these bullet points, you should request it. Hope you all enjoy and I love you all â¤ď¸
Being the only girl in 12 Grimmauld Place means that you got treated differently than your brothers
Not nicer, by any means
Different in a way that meant your mother was constantly fussing over your appearance and making sure you acted âladylikeâ
When you were little it was nice
You got to spend alone time with your mother in your room, she would brush your hair and pick out frilly and elegant dresses
Sure, sometimes she would purposefully tug a little too hard on your hair causing you to yelp, but it wasnât a big deal
Eventually, though, your mother got rougher, these mother-daughter times turning into torturous hours where sheâd make snippy comments about your weight and how you should appear to certain men
You werenât even ten years old and she was already arranging your marriage to a man that, according to the Black Family Tapestry in the Drawing Room, was a distant relative
Sure she bought you dresses, and heels, and jewels, but they werenât for you to enjoy and it wasnât out of love or kindness
She needed you perfect for marriage
You always ran to Regulusâ room for comfort and he was always happy to listen to you vent
âIf Bella, and Cissy, and Andy can deal with it, (Y/n), so can you. Youâre just as strong as they are.â
You were always closer to Regulus, maybe because he was closer to you in age or because he wasnât as rough or brash as Sirius
While Sirius taught you curse words, Regulus taught you prose and poetry
When Sirius went off to Hogwarts, the two of you got even closer
Your mother got worse when she found out that her eldest son was sorted into Gryffindor
She had a fit that day, one that consisted of her throwing pots and pans at the walls, shattering ancient artifacts, and tearing at her own hair
You and Regulus, frightened little children, hid in his closet waiting for your father to come home to calm her down
The two of you clutched each other tight, not daring to even make a noise, scared that you might be the next thing she breaks
You and Regulus werenât allowed to say your brotherâs name and all letters were snatched away and thrown into the fireplace
He was even banned from coming home for Christmas break
The two of you were dragged to even more family gatherings and balls
You particularly were forced to split your time between hanging out and learning from the other girls and presenting yourself to the boys
At night, you would sneak into your brotherâs room, seeking comfort
You would talk about Sirius and how you canât wait to get to Hogwarts
âHogwartsâll be different, (Y/n). No more screaming and family obligations...â He would smile, listening to a rogue sneakoscope whir in a drawer
âYouâre forgetting something, Reg.â Youâd sigh. âIâll have to be on my own for a whole year before I can join you guys.â
âWell maybe mother will let you read my letters, and I can sneak in some of what Sirius wants to tell you.â
Sirius was different when he came back home for the summer
He wasnât afraid to push your motherâs buttons a bit harder and he certainly wasnât afraid to run his mouth a bit more
Sirius talked like the outside world like it was the best thing ever
And while you were curious about Hogwarts and the many different sorts of people that attended, your mother made it pretty clear pretty quick that even associating yourself with your older brother was worthy of some sort of punishment
And as much as you loved Sirius, you loved playing it safe even more
You didnât outright ignore him, you did talk to him about Bellaâs new boyfriend and the new quill your father bought you
But more often than not, you were with Regulus, enjoying the time you had left together
The night before Regulus had to leave for Hogwarts, you came crying into his room
âDonât cry, sĹur, itâll be quite alright.â He would whisper in your ear, rocking you back and forth in his arm (sĹur is sister in French)
But your etiquette lessons got harder and your mother got stricter, trying to make you a Perfect Slytherin Princess
Your mother was overjoyed when she got a letter saying how Regulus was sorted into Slytherin
She gave you a glass of wine (âBecause thatâs what ladies drink, (Y/n)!â) and told you that Regulus was a perfect role model
Regulus sent letters every week, detailing his classes and the people in his year
He made fast friends with a Bartimus Crouch Jr
He told you how Sirius would barely talk to him in the corridors ever since the sorting
Regulus would say a quick hello and Sirius would always reply, but the older brother never went out of his way to leave his friend group for a chat
Regulus would write paragraphs about why this could be before settling on the fact that itâs because of the house difference
Sirius only sent a few letters home and each time they were burnt to ash in front of you
So Regulus was your only outlet
You would tell him about how mother was starting to restrict your meals and starting to squeeze you into dresses far too small
He would offer you comforting words and distractions by talking about school, as it was far too difficult to actually help your situation through a letter
Regulus didnât come home for Christmas break, claiming that exams were stressing him out, especially Herbology, so heâd rather continue his studies in a school environment
So thatâs how the rest of your year goes
Regulus is...different when he gets back for the summer
Itâs a very slight change, youâre pretty sure youâre the only one who notices
But itâs there
A bit more reserved, a bit more secretive
Childish wonder disappearing
He no longer publicly acts afraid of your mother
âItâs Siriusâ fault heâs got grounded, (Y/n). He broke a rule, now heâs facing the consequences.â
âBut Reg, he didnât do anything wrongââ
â(Y/n)! Are you trying to encourage the downfall of the Noble House of Black?!â
And that was it
But finally you were off to Hogwarts
Regulus lets you sit with him and Barty, who wears expensive shoes like you and Reg and had a slight tic with sticking his tongue out
But he was nice nonetheless less
Turns out, they were the outcasts of the outcasts
You were welcome to join when you are sorted into Slytherin
They were sure that you were going to be sorted there already
And you were dreading it
What if you werenât a Slytherin and ended up like Sirius?
You could barely handle your family now, thereâs no way youâd be able to take the extra shit Sirius gets
The hat gives you a choice
The worst choice possible
Gryffindor or Slytherin
You end up with a hatstall of 8 minutes, constantly looking between your brothers
And you beg to be placed in Slytherin
And so you join your brother and Barty at the table of the snakes
Sirius doesnât look at you across the Great Hall
âHey, Reg? Did the hat give you a choice too?â
âA choice between what?â
âSlytherin and Gryffindor.â
âDonât tell anyone you got a choice. Listen, people in this house are brutal to people like you who get choices. Donât mention it.â
âYou didnât answer my questionââ
And he never does
You spend all of your time with Regulus and Barty, the other kids in your year are kinda major assholes
Regulus helps you with your homework, always making time for you
Meet ups in the library
Chess in the common room
Barty was usually with you as well
And thatâs how it goes over the next few years
Even when Regulus is busy with his own classes and him being a seeker, heâll make time for you
You always attend his matches, cheering him on
Heâs a great seeker
In your fifth year, you notice how Reg and Barty change drastically
Pulling away from you, secret meetings, dark depictions and phrases hidden in notebooks
You get worried
For the first time ever you push your way through the Marauders to talk to your brother
âOh, the Slytherin Princess arrives! Want us to bow?â He snarks, his friends laughing
âPiss off, Sirius! Itâs about Reg.â
âWhat about him? Did he finally stop kissing Walburgaâs arse?â
âIt isnât a laughing matter!â Youâre practically in tears
And he listens to you as you explain all of your concerns and he ends up agreeing that that is worrisome
âWhat the hell did you tell Sirius?â Regulus shouts at you in the empty common room one night
âIâm worried, Reg! Youâre going all dark, like what mother wants! This isnât you!â
âThis is me, believe it or not, (Y/n)! Iâm not some puppet!â He shouts at you.
âJust wait, (Y/n), youâre next. Next year, itâll be you. You canât escape it.â
âSirius got out of it.â You mumble
Regulus storms out and thatâs the last real conversation you have with him and Barty for a long time
You get a letter from him when you graduate, something you have to hide away from your brother and the rest of the Order
Forgive me, sĹur,
RAB
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Empress of the Heart (Pt. 1)
Requested By Anon: "Reader is an actress, and she meets Jennie at an event. They have a one night stand afterward, and months later they meet again." (It was a long request so I had to sum it up lol)
Pairing: Jennie x Fem!Actress!Reader
Word Count: ~ 9,351 đł (Both parts combined)
Warnings / Misc. -- Smut / Suggestive Themes, Angst, Fluff
Disclaimer: This writing is a work of fiction, and no disrespect is meant for those mentioned herein.
A/N: Hello again! Guys, I'm actually really proud of this one. It gets better as it goes on. I hope you enjoy it (you'd better, because I stayed up until 8am writing again đĽ´đ). I had to split this story into two parts to appease the Tumblr overlords, just so weâre clear.
⥠Happy reading âĄ
Part 2
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"Who's that?" RosĂŠ asks, leaning in closer to the maknae as she points to a slightly recognizable face in the crowd.Â
"I dunno," Lisa shrugs, throwing a thumb over her shoulder, "ask Jisoo." The Australian does as she says, padding over to seek out an answer from their unnie.Â
"Y/N L/N, I believe. Her company is supposed to make a big announcement later." Jisoo informs, adding a nod to the end of her statement for certainty. Jennie stands beside them all, taking in the crowd of staff and business people hailing from all of the most powerful entertainment companies in Korea. The big dogs have all gathered here tonight to drop some major announcements for their upcoming projects and set up arrangements for future endeavors.Â
"What do you think it'll be?" Jennie asks, eyes still trained on you as you converse with a famous actress. Her breath catches in her throat when you throw your head back, eyes filling with tears of laughter at something the high class woman said. You're absolutely stunning.Â
"It could be anything, honestly. Her company's full of talent in every category."Â
"Yeah, their newest girl group broke a record for Youtube streams in the first hour after release. Still didn't beat ours, though," Lisa adds with a smug look, holding her head a little higher. She's only playing, of course -- she's one of the most humble people Jennie knows.Â
"She's really pretty," Jennie breathes out, speaking the words that have been rolling around in her mind since she laid eyes on you. The other girls adamantly agree, nodding their heads with purpose.Â
"Do you wanna go talk to her? YG would probably like that; maybe we can let Jisoo do a little schmoozing." RosĂŠ smirks, playfully nudging the unnie. Jisoo rolls her eyes with an amused scoff, quickly swatting the blonde's hand away.Â
"I don't know, she seems pretty busy." Her words are unsure, weary -- her normal confidence is wavering a bit, now replaced with some type of nervousness that she can't quite explain. This isn't like her; why is she so anxious?
"Come on, it'll be fun." Lisa decides for them, leading the way with Jennie's hand clutched in her own; the brunette would surely slip away otherwise.Â
They approach you from an angle, caught right in your blind spot as you continue your small talk with a new business exec. The man sees the girls behind you, waiting for their turn, and after a few more moments he leaves you with an office number to reach him by.
"Good evening⌠Y/N, right?" Jisoo leads politely, smiling as you turn to face them. You look even more dazzling up close, and Jennie's posture stiffens. She's definitely seen you somewhere before.
"That's me," you say sweetly, greeting all of them and committing their names to memory.Â
"Jennie," she introduces, stretching a hand out to you. Your eyes flutter down to it before you grasp it within your own, the simple action appearing unbelievably cute to her.
"How're you doing tonight? I hear you've got some big news for us." Lisa wiggles her eyebrows, voice bouncy with anticipation.
You giggle, and Jennie thinks it may just be the sweetest thing she's ever heard. "It's a little hectic, if I'm honest, but I'm enjoying myself. What about you guys? And you'll just have to wait and see what we have in store for you." You end the sentence with a wink that just happened to be directed at Jennie, despite Lisa being the one to ask the question. She tries to fight the blush that soon rises to her cheeks.Â
"We're doing well, I'd say. It's actually kind of nice to get out of the dorm and meet some new people." RosĂŠ says almost wistfully, her eyes sending a fleeting glance around the room at her statement.Â
"I know how that can feel. When I was first starting out I didn't get many opportunities for roles. But then I met my manager at the cafĂŠ I picked up a second job at, and the rest is history." You smile softly at the memory, recalling the events of that fateful day. You can't imagine where you'd be right now if things had played out differently.Â
"You're an actress?" Jisoo asks, sounding like she just put two-and-two together. You nod at her, noticing the way that Jennie looks at you in deep thought. You can practically see the wheels turning.Â
"So that's where I recognize you from. You guest starred in that JTBC miniseries earlier this year, didn't you?"Â
"Ding ding ding, we have a winner." You smile, bowing your head in praise. It warms your heart to see her face light up, knowing that she finally felt that rush of putting her finger on the elusive thoughts in her head. Pulling knowledge you previously believed forgotten from the foggy depths of your brain is a rewarding experience in itself, and you're pleased that she remembered you.Â
"I'm glad I made an impression during my short time on screen," you quirk, leaning in closer to her.Â
"With skills like yours? You're unmatched, Y/N." She flirts, finally finding her bearings again. Her confidence is returning now, slowly but surely, and she pats herself on the back for not hiding behind her hands when you send her a tempting smile.Â
"Ah, you're too kind--" you begin, only to be cut off by a tap on your shoulder. It's one of your co-stars.
"Good evening, ladies," he bows, "I'm sorry to break this up, but Y/N is needed by management."Â
Your shoulders sag at this, his words sinking in. You'd much rather spend the night tucked away with the girls, getting to know them better -- especially Jennie, who makes your heart speed up anytime she looks at you.Â
"I hate to go," they nod in agreement, sad to have to part ways. They really enjoyed speaking with you, and they'd be lying if they said they wanted to stop anytime soon.Â
"But maybe I'll catch you later?" The question sounds hopeful, albeit a bit unsure as you scrunch your face up. They affirm that they'd "like that very much," and your shoulders relax a bit. Maybe there's still some hope for you all.Â
âââââ 2 Hours Later âââââ
"Exactly! She shouldn't have forgiven him after that," you rant to Jisoo, talking about some characters from your favorite kdrama.Â
"Babo, I tell you." She says dramatically, rolling her eyes. The action garners a chuckle from you, and Jennie finds herself smiling as she follows along with the conversation. She must've made her staring too obvious, because a minute later your eyes meet hers from across the table. She blinks, surprise etched gracefully into her features, and she clears her throat. Both of you have been stealing glances at one another all night, and things have only ramped up since you snuck away from management to see them again. You assured them you wouldn't get in trouble, but that was honestly the last thing on your mind.Â
From her seat across from you, Jennie can see the curve of your body, your silhouette highlighted by the lights that shine on the wall behind you. They're dimmed somewhat to give a comfortable, soft glow to the room, and they contrast with the perfect curve of your face. She lets her eyes trail lower, admiring the expanse of your chest and how your fingers rest against the table, mindlessly playing with the expensive tablecloth.Â
What you do next makes her choke on the water she had so bravely dared to take a drink of.Â
You lean forward slightly, just enough for her to see your cleavage, while still appearing inconspicuous and innocent. The smirk you try to suppress tells her you know exactly what you're doing, and her cheeks grow hot.Â
"Excuse me," she mutters to the table, quickly standing and all but running outside for some fresh air. She wants -- needs -- to put some distance between the two of you if she plans to have any self control.Â
Cool air immediately greets her as she steps outside, hearing the sleek automatic door slide shut behind her. She can breathe now, and begin to soothe her racing mind. Despite only knowing you for the better part of 4 hours, she's already attracted to you. Way more than she cares to admit, as she presses her thighs together to put out the fire you started within her.Â
No more than 5 minutes later, the doors slide open once more.Â
"Everything alright?" You ask, tone dripping with amusement as you take in her flustered state. It's obvious that she's okay, just simply turned on.Â
"Never better," she mumbles, glancing up at you with a lopsided smile.Â
"You know, you ran out pretty fast back there. You sure know how to worry a girl." You fake a pout at her.Â
"Oh, you don't say?" She plays along, approaching you with what few shreds of confidence she has left. She tucks a strand of hair behind your ear, whispering into it, "Well, I'm all good."Â
"Wanna see for yourself?" She continues, drawing back slightly to take your hands within her own and wrap them around her waist. She smiles as they roam over her body, making sure to be thorough as you "check her out."Â
She groans when your hand grazes over a sweet spot on her thigh, causing you to pause and tut at her, "Tsk tsk, Jennie. It looks like I'll have to inspect this a little further." She gulps at your words, mind clouded once again by filthy thoughts of you.Â
"Let's get out of here," she suggests, taking your hand to lead you away. You chuckle at her eagerness, only capable of nodding as she basically drags you to her car.Â
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Despite feeling like two horny teenagers, you and Jennie actually opted to slow things down and get to know each other more. She's one of the most interesting people you've ever met, and you could listen to her talk for hours on end. The feeling is beyond mutual, and she doesn't mind that she has to wait a little longer to have you. The promise of what the night will hold for the two of you thrills her, and the anticipation only heightens her feelings.
Takeout containers lay abandoned in her car, long forgotten about as you sit next to each other on the hood. The chilly surface of the windshield presses against your back, making you all the more thankful for having had the foresight to wear a coat tonight. You make a mental note to thank your stylist for the suggestion.Â
Stars are beginning to twinkle in the distance, slowly coming out of their peaceful slumber to greet the evening sky. They bring to mind all the nights you spent in your backyard as a child, laid out on a warm blanket as you gazed up into space. Back when only trivial issues existed in your world, leaving you with an unscarred heart and unadulterated outlook on life. Those times were simple, only complicated by whatever drama was going on at school or what new person your friends liked. Back then you had no idea of what the future held for you -- what you'd end up doing with your life. If you had a chance to talk to your younger self, you'd tell her to enjoy those days as much as possible; to not take them for granted for even a second.Â
Everyday you're reminded that fame is truly a blessing and a curse -- you miss the days that you could roam the streets freely with whomever you wanted to, not having to worry about paparazzi or the media, but you're thankful for where you are now. You get to do what you love, everyday, and make money from it -- it's what everyone wishes for in life; and although you've worked your ass off to get here, you owe a lot of credit to the fans.Â
"It's so beautiful up here," Jennie says, voice stuck between a whisper and sigh as she lays her head on your shoulder.Â
"You see that building over there, with the orange lights and trees around it?" You ask, pointing in the direction of the building. Her eyes follow the invisible path your finger makes, and she spots it, nodding for you to continue.Â
"My mom used to work there; it's a daycare. I always loved helping out. The kids were so adorable." A bittersweet smile plays on your lips as you look down at your lap, clearly reminiscing. Jennie notices, brushing a strand of hair out of your face as she says, "I bet you miss it."Â
"I do," you sigh, clenching your jaw briefly, "those were the days. Seoul's home, but sometimes it feels so distant."
"I know how that feels." You don't miss the way her eyes cast down, a hint of sadness behind them, her fingers toying with yours on her thigh. Life in the spotlight isn't all it's cracked up to be, and neither of you are strangers to that all too familiar pang of longing.Â
"I'm happy to be here with you tonight, though," you try to turn the conversation cheery again, and Jennie's thankful for that. "I haven't had this much fun in a long time."Â
Your plan works, and soon she's pepping up. "Me neither. Being with you feels...different. In a good way." Your smile widens exponentially when she adds, "A very good way."Â
"Don't get too cheesy on me, now," you roll your eyes teasingly, wrapping both of your arms around her and pulling her flush up against your body. She lays her head on your chest, reveling in the scent of your perfume and the warmth radiating from you. Her hand comes to rest against your ribs, lightly rubbing patterns against them as the two of you continue star gazing. She can feel your heartbeat pick up when she slides her hand downwards, playing with the hem of your shirt innocently.Â
Does she have any idea what she's doing to you?
Yes, yes she does. After all, your body is basically selling you out at this point.Â
"Y/N?"Â
"Mmm?" You hum, eyes closed and head leaned back against the windshield. Her skin is soft against yours, and your shared warmth has put you at ease.
"Do you wanna go somewhere? I really don't want the night to be over yet." Your heart flutters at her words; the fact that a woman such as Jennie is so reluctant to leave you is baffling in itself.Â
"I'd love that, Jennie. What did you have in mind?"Â
For a moment, Jennie's mind takes it there. She allows herself to imagine what it would be like to feel your skin against hers, connection unrestricted by clothing; how your kisses would feel against her lips, her body; what beautiful sounds you would make as she pushed you closer and closer to the edge. She can't deny how attracted she is to you, nor does she want to; but she also doesn't want to ruin the innocent moments you're sharing. She doesn't want to taint them with the lustful ideas that flood her mind anytime you give her that look, or caress her thigh absentmindedly.Â
"How does the park sound?"Â
"With you? There's nowhere I'd rather be."Â
Despite her efforts, Jennie blushes at your statement, feeling that embarrassing warmth creep up the back of her neck. You've made her blush more in the span of one night than she previously had in her entire life, and that boosts your confidence tenfold.
"Who's being cheesy now, huh?" She asks, pinching your side playfully as she sits up. Her legs swing around until she's fully facing you, sitting criss-cross as the two of you smile at one another.Â
Neither of you move for a while, both content with just admiring each other's beauty. Her fingers lace with yours, and after a moment she brings your hand up to her lips to lay a kiss to it. The action -- more so, how soft her lips are against your skin -- catches you off guard, and your breathing hitches. All at once, you're acutely aware of how badly you want to kiss her.Â
As if things couldn't get anymore tempting, her tongue darts out of her mouth to soothe her lips, making them glisten in the dying light of the evening.Â
She sees your eyes dart down to them, and her body leans closer to you ever so slightly, seemingly having a mind of its own. You meet her gaze again, silently asking for permission as you glance back down at her lips. She responds by giving one single nod before leaning in close enough that your noses almost brush against each other.Â
"You're stunning." The compliment sounds breathy as it slips out of your mouth, but you're beyond caring at this point. Your pride was thrown out the window the second Jennie showed interest in you.Â
"Don't look at me like that," she says, gently biting the inside of her cheek to keep herself from closing the distance. She wants you to be the one to do it.
"Like what?"Â
"Like you're undressing me with your eyes." Her gaze casts down to your lips again, seemingly glued there as she watches them move when you speak your reply.
"You act like you weren't doing the same thing at the event." Her confidence falters momentarily, but she fights to hold her ground. "My colleagues even noticed it, babe -- you've gotta get better at hiding your attraction." You say with a chuckle, watching as Jennie's eyes grow wider. Had she really made it so obvious?
"We wouldn't be here right now if I was good at hiding it, so I think you owe me one."Â
"TouchĂŠ," you say, quirking an eyebrow in thought. She's right, as usual. "How can I ever make it up to you?" Your voice wiggles dramatically, face contorting in a mock apology.Â
"I know a way," she says lowly, smiling as your hand finds its way to her knee a moment later. You hook your fingers in the crook of it, drawing a surprised gasp from her as she falls forward and into your arms.Â
Here goes nothing.Â
You raise your left hand to her cheek, brushing the back of your fingers against it gently as you build up the nerve to kiss her. Your other arm is wrapped securely around her waist in order to hold her steady above you.Â
Her palms are pressed to the glass behind you, and her hair falls gracefully around you, creating a little curtain to shield you from the outside world. Finally gaining enough courage, you press your lips to hers in a soft kiss. It's slow and mild as you set a sensual rhythm, growing accustomed to the taste of each other. She sighs into your mouth as you reposition her so that she's straddling your lap.Â
"Y/N, we're never gonna make it to the park if you keep kissing me like that." She warns, though her words hold no real threat at all. She wants this just as much as you do.Â
You lay a trail of light kisses up her neck, all of them far too gentle for her liking right now. "Is this better, your highness?" You ask smugly, smiling against her throat as a frustrated sigh leaves her lips.
She places a hand on your chest to push you up against the glass, letting her fingers skim over your collarbone. Just as she's about to pounce, the sound of your phone ringing interrupts the moment. It vibrates in your pocket, right between Jennie's thighs, and you stifle a giggle at the reaction it would've drawn from her had you not quickly retrieved it.Â
"Hello?" You ask, realizing you hadn't even bothered to check the caller ID. Jennie sits back on your legs, allowing her hands to rest on your hips and draw soothing circles.
"Y/N, I hate to tell you this on such short notice, but you have a new interview scheduled for tomorrow morning at 10AM. I'll send you all the details later."Â
You sigh at your manager's words, running a hand over your face to relax yourself. The announcement party was supposed to signal the end of your busy week, but of course life just couldn't work in your favor for once. Now you'd be stuck in some random line of questioning, unable to give them any real answers for the sake of keeping spoilers from getting out. You can think of about a million things you'd rather be doing tomorrow morning, and one of them is sitting on your lap right now.Â
"Yeah, okay. I'll talk to you later." You wait for him to say his goodbye before ending the call and turning back to Jennie with an apologetic look.Â
"Sorry for ruining the moment."Â
"You didn't ruin anything. But luckily for youâŚ" she leans forward again, pressing a kiss to your lips that makes your heart stop for a second, "I can be very merciful." You nearly melt at her words, paired with how she whispers them in your ear. Her warm breath fans over your neck, rendering you speechless as you pull her back to your lips.Â
This kiss is different -- full of passion and desire as you grow more used to each other. She raises up on her knees, towering over you as she stares down at you. You look so beautiful right now, your eyes appearing big as you look up into hers, waiting for her next move. She runs her hands through your hair before settling them on your cheeks, cupping the smooth skin and rubbing the pad of her thumb across it. You drag your nails up and down her exposed thighs, and you pat yourself on the back when you notice the trail of goosebumps they leave behind.Â
"I actually do wanna go to the park with you, if that's alright. There's something I want to show you. I definitely want to continue this later, though." You say.
She nods at that, a smile making its way to her face that can't possibly be wiped away. As much as she wants to have you writhing underneath her, screaming her name, she can wait. She's content with making as many memories as possible with you tonight, and she's intrigued by the surprise you're hinting at.
A few gentle kisses later, you slide off the hood and help her down before going to open her car door for her.Â
"Such a gentlewoman," she praises, pursing her lips at you.Â
"Only for you," you wink, making her giggle.Â
You quickly make your way to the driver's seat, set on getting to the park ASAP in order to spend as much time as you can with Jennie. After all, you can only stay up so late tonight if you want to be functioning for that interview tomorrow⌠and let's just say that you plan on being busy later.Â
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"Voila!" You declare, motioning to some playground equipment in the kid's section of the sizable park. Of all the things she was guessing at, Jennie did not see this coming.Â
"What, you came to show me monkey bars, Y/N? I've seen plenty of them--" She asks incredulously, looking around the area filled with miniature tables and chairs to go along with the equipment.Â
"What? No, no. I used to play here when I was growing up, and my friend's and I had a secret hiding spot. We always stashed our favorite little knick knacks in it, and we promised we'd only show it to people we deemed worthy."
Jennie watches as your eyes light up at the recounting of such a dear memory, and she grins widely. You truly are a five year old at heart.Â
"This is the first time I've been back here, sinceâŚ" you trail off, realizing just how many years it's been. Being at such a different point in your life while standing in a place you frequented as a child is a weird juxtaposition that you weren't prepared for, but you push it from your mind.
"Anyway, I think you're pretty worthy." You joke, sizing her up. She laughs at that, and you revel in the pleasant sound. You know you probably won't see her again after tonight, so you're determined to ingrain the little things -- like her smile, her laugh -- into your brain.Â
"Now, let's see⌠where did Ashley put it?" You whisper to yourself, scanning the length of the playground. Your eyes travel across the slides, over the swings, and around the monkey bars before you spot that little dip in the siding that you'd recognize anywhere. Jennie soon finds her hand slipping into yours as you lead her over to it, a childlike sense of giddiness on your face. She likes seeing you like this.Â
"I hope it's still here," you say to no one, bending down to press your fingers against the old wood. It's far more worn down now, and you're worried that someone has already come by and cleaned out the hiding spot. Putting your doubts aside, you continue.Â
"Okay, so don't laugh, but there's a special way you have to open it. Ashley showed it to me one day and it's the only way we could get it to budge after that."
She smiles her gummy smile at you, and you can't help but return the gesture and even steal a quick kiss. She's a bit taken aback when you ball your hand up, using the side of it to deliver a couple blows to the wood in two different spots. Next, you stand and line up your foot, remember exactly how your friend taught you, before executing a calculated kick to the other side.Â
At first, Jennie wants to laugh at you; but upon closer inspection, she sees that in fact, a small opening is visible in the wood now. You smirk cockily, knowing full well that she hadn't expected that to work.Â
"Told you so," you tease, now bending down again to work the panel free. You wiggle it back and forth repeatedly, being careful not to go too quickly and damage anything else, and eventually it pops out. She watches as you reach in and pull out a mini jewelry box -- the kind that can fit in your hand, mainly meant for rings or other small items.Â
"We stole the box from our other friend, Janelle. Had to pay her our allowances for 2 months afterward. Can you believe that?" You ask, shaking your head with another smirk on your lips. Jennie laughs at you in full, loving how carefree you are right now. In a way, she's happy that your manager called earlier; otherwise the two of you most surely would be locked away in your bedroom right now. This experience is definitely one she'll cherish.Â
"Unbelievable," she sighs, shaking her head and going along with it.Â
You click the latch on the small box, it's material now weathered and rusty as it creaks when you open it. Jennie steps closer to you to examine its contents, and you fight to contain how hard your heart starts beating at the feeling of her hand on your lower back.Â
"No wayâŚ" you utter, voice full of disbelief as your eyes land on one of your most prized possessions from childhood.Â
"What?" Jennie asks, genuinely on the edge of her metaphorical seat.Â
"This butterfly hair clip," you inform, slipping the small contraption between your fingers as you hold it up for her to see, "I won it at a fair with my mom and I always wondered where it wentâŚ"Â
"It's beautiful, Y/N," she says, ooh-ing and ahh-ing at the details etched into it. For something so small and seemingly unassuming, it's actually very unique.Â
"I want you to have it." You say, taking a step away so you can look at her. She instantly goes to refuse, saying, "I can't! You just found it after all this time--"
"And I went all that time without it. If you take it, I'll know it's safe with you. And you can use it to remember me by." You say, your gaze softening as you watch her debate with herself.Â
"Okay. But if you ever want it back, call me."Â
"Roger that." You say dorkily, earning yourself a roll of those dark eyes you find yourself getting lost in.Â
"And for the record, Y/N, I could never forget you. Pretty hair clip or not." Her confession makes you feel happy on a whole new level; knowing that you've left an impact on her is truly a wonderful thing.Â
"So, what now?" She asks, breaking the happy lull your conversation found itself in.Â
"We can walk around the park for a little while, orâŚ" you start, waiting for Jennie to prod you further. Both of you know exactly what game you're playing, but it's still fun nonetheless.Â
"Or?" She inquires, stepping closer as she wraps her arms around your shoulders. She nonchalantly gives you a once over, knowing what power her darkening gaze holds over you.Â
"We can go back to my place. Maybe play a little footsie, who knows?" You say, shrugging your shoulders with a stupid grin. Even while seducing someone, you can't resist being a geek.Â
"Footsie?" Jennie gasps, raising her eyebrows, "What kind of girl do you take me for? That only happens after at least 2 dates in."Â
"Such a prude, Ms. Kim. How can I change your mind?"Â
She presses a finger to her cheek, pretending to think, before getting an idea. Her lips flirt with the shell of your ear as she whispers obscenities into it, turning you to mush with every new scenario she puts in your head.Â
You stiffen as she kisses your jaw, the action catching you off guard as you continue reeling from her words.Â
"I can do that, I think," you cough out, stumbling over the words a little bit. She laughs at the effect she has on you; seeing your confidence waver is a nice role reversal, and it's something she could definitely get used to.Â
"Let's go." She commands, now taking your hand to pull you after her, just like you had done before.
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It's painful, how hard Jennie has to restrain herself from touching you as you fumble with your keys. She told herself she'd keep her hands to herself until you got inside, just in case any stray paparazzi managed to catch you two together. The last thing either of you need is some new scandal, especially with your careers in a vulnerable spot as they're really beginning to take off.
"If you don't get that door open within the next 10 seconds, then I'll just take you out here in the hallway."Â
You audibly gulp at the image she just conjured up in your mind, and you speed up your movements. The prompting worked, evidently, because soon she's practically shoving you through the doorway.
"Finally," she breathes against your lips, pressing you up against the door once you've locked it back.Â
"I've been waiting to do this since we met earlier." She indulges you in that little secret, smiling at the way you whimper when she pulls your leg up to wrap around her hips.Â
"I'm all yours," you say, making Jennie's heart flutter at the sentiment. For the night, you're hers and she's yours. "...now kiss me," you command, growing more impatient with each feather-light kiss she presses to your jaw.Â
"So bossy," she toys, making you roll your eyes.Â
"You have no idea, babe."Â
She bites her lip as your husky voice makes its way to her ears, thick with the desire she's been steadily building within you all night. You tug her forward, your fingers bunching up the material of her shirt with little care as her lips meet yours.Â
Her tongue swipes across your bottom lip, asking for a permission that you granted the second she touched you. You pull her chin down slightly, allowing the kiss to deepen as you tangle your other hand in her hair.Â
After an especially bruising bite to her lip -- one that thrills her to her core -- she pulls away, breathlessly asking, "How're you so good at this?"Â
You cackle against her, taken aback by how genuine the question sounded. "Practice for the kdramas, of course."Â
"I haven't had to do this," you slide a hand between your bodies, smirking at the gasp that sounds off deep in her throat as you make contact with her, "yet though. That might be a little extreme for the screen."Â
"You think?" She scoffs softly, bringing her hands up to gather your hair to one side. She presses gentle kisses to your neck, prepping the surface for the dark marks she'll most certainly be leaving there later.Â
"Ready?" You ask, making sure she wants to go through with this.
"You have no idea, babe." She copies your statement from earlier, garnering another smile from you. She swears she can never get enough of that sweet look on your face.
"Follow me," you say, giving her another peck to last until you reach the bedroom.
âââââ The Morning After âââââ
Warm, glittering rays of sunlight sneak past the curtains of your apartment window, shining gently through the light material. A dream-like haze befalls the room, serving as a wonderful greeting once you peek your eyes open. The only thing capable of rivaling such a wonderful sight is the woman beside you, her soft breaths keeping your shoulder warm.Â
As you turn your head to look at her, careful not to wake her, your heart flips. Having her here next to you is the only reason you even believe last night happened; it was magical -- the stuff of fantasy. The two of you did everything: acted on every desire, every impulse -- you truly made the most of the night, determined to make it unforgettable.Â
A few blissful minutes later, she stirs beside you. "Good morning, Y/N." Her eyes remain closed, still safe from the bright light of the morning as she smirks at the memories replaying in her mind.Â
You lay a small kiss to her lips, simply missing how they feel against your own. "Morning, beautiful."Â
A content sigh slips past her lips as she presses them against your neck, cuddling further into you. "Last night was fun."Â
You decide to tease her. "Eh, I've had better."Â
If there's one thing that Jennie knows, it's that she's good in bed -- great, even -- and you definitely seemed to be enjoying yourself last night, just as much as she was. Still though, a bit of insecurity runs through her as she raises up on her elbow to look at you through her lashes.Â
"Really?" She stills her fingers on your arm, stopping them from continuing the trail that they had been blazing just seconds ago. Her eyebrows furrow subtly, the action almost unnoticed by you.Â
Deciding the joke isn't worth it, you cup her cheek and raise her head so she can meet your eyes.Â
"No, I'm kidding. Last night was⌠something else." You chuckle, smiling as your eyes move around the room in an attempt to find the right word for it. When none come to mind -- no words capable of conveying how great it was -- you look back to her.
She has a knowing grin on her face, "I couldn't agree more."Â
Sneaking a glance at the clock propped up on your bedside table, you get an idea. "You know, JennieâŚ" you start, purring her name out as you had last night, garnering that achingly familiar groan from her, "...we still have a few hours before either of our schedules start." Your suggestion hangs in the air as you roll her over onto her back, hovering over her and brushing your noses together.Â
"Hmm, you don't say? Well you're in luck; I still have some things I wanna try out." She plays back, leaning up to press a kiss to the corner of your lips as her hands wander over your body.
Your eyes widen in shock, "What the hell could you POSSIBLY be thinking of?? We tried just about everything." She laughs at your reaction and pulls you down closer to her body to whisper in your ear. Jennie can feel you tremble with every new image she puts in your head, just like she had in the park, her lips dragging you further under as she sneaks little kisses to your skin here and there.Â
"Let me get this gay straight: you want me to do that on the balcony? What if my neighbors see?"Â
"They won't, we're on one of the top floors. And even if they do⌠would that really be so bad?" She lets the question hang in the air; she'd be lying if she said the idea of getting caught doesn't thrill her. Thinking of your lips on her neck as she rocks against you, pinned to the railing while out in the open for the world to see, sends a rush of warmth through her.Â
"I wish you weren't so good at convincing me to do things. You're dangerous, Jennie Kim." You warn, pointing a disapproving finger at her. Your eyes nearly pop out when she kisses it, taking the digit in between her lips while looking up at you innocently. This woman will be the death of you.Â
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"Yah, I know! The new update looks so weird--"Â
"There she is," Lisa says, motioning to the doorway, interrupting Jisoo and RosĂŠâs conversation about whatever new video game the unnie had downloaded.
Jennie leans on the heavy door as she locks it behind her, lazily spinning around on her heel with her lips drawn back in a huge gummy smile.Â
"Somebody's happyâŚ" Jisoo teases, shooting her a smirk. She's still riding the high you put her on, and it's no wonder her members are noticing. It's not like she's exactly trying to hide it, either.Â
"How was your night? Have fun with Y/N?" The maknae wiggles her eyebrows while propping herself up on her elbows to see Jennie's reaction.
"LISA! She wasn't supposed to know!" RosĂŠ shouts, letting out a disappointed huff. The younger girl only shrugs, a stupid smirk on her lips. Some people just wanna watch the world burn.Â
The brunette's daze is momentarily broken at this, and she asks what they're talking about.Â
Jisoo lets out a hesitant breath before explaining, "We saw you two leave together, but we agreed to not bring it up until you did."Â She shoots some daggers at Lisa before continuing, "Somebody can't seem to keep her mouth shut, though."Â
Jennie only chuckles now, not really caring if they knew or not. Her night was too wonderful to keep to herself; she would've ended up telling them anyway.Â
"Gather round, girls; I'll fill you in."Â
âââââ Months Later âââââ
"Why exactly do we have to go to this premiere again?" Jennie grumbles, looking out the window of their limousine. She'd much rather be back at the dorm, snuggled into her cozy heap of pillows and blankets with Netflix playing on her tv.Â
"Some of our colleagues are starring as background characters, so YG wants us to attend and show our support." Jisoo informs, always seeming to have more knowledge than all of the other girls combined. Jennie nods; the reasoning is sound, but she'd still prefer to be home. Mingling with business people for god knows how long doesn't seem all that enticing to her.Â
"What's the movie?" Lisa asks, throwing the question behind her to the other girls as she searches the cubby for some complimentary snacks.Â
"Empress of the Heart," RosĂŠ answers, finally knowing something that Jisoo doesn't.Â
"Let's watch the trailer for it. If we have to sit through it then we might as well see what we're getting ourselves into." Lisa suggests, her fingers busy opening the bag of chips she chose from the assortment.Â
"Yeah, okay." Jennie says, her statement followed by words of agreement from the other girls. RosĂŠ takes her phone out to search the title, pepping up when she spots it. She whispers something to Jisoo and Lisa, Jennie paying no mind as she watches the buildings pass by. Her favorite thing to fidget with is secure in her grip, occupying her mind. It's familiar design feels good in her hands -- like it's right where it belongs. (Yes, this is what you think it is).
The other girls put their acting skills to use as they hit play, keeping straight faces when your voice comes through the phone speakers. Jennie's head snaps over to them, recognizing the sound in an instant. "Y-Y/N's starring in it?" She asks, voice coming out as a stutter. The thought of seeing you again thrills her, but she doesn't know if she can do that without falling even deeper. Your night together left her with lasting feelings, none of which she was prepared for in the slightest, and she knows they'll be reignited the moment she lays eyes on you.Â
"Mhm." They nod sympathetically, all knowing how much she's thought about you the last few months.Â
Their driver knocks on the partition, requesting to open it. They give him the all clear, and soon he's rolling it down to inform them, "We're here, ladies."Â
"I'll be okay," Jennie tells them, attempting to stop their worries from growing anymore than they already have. She plays the statement back in her head, whispering it to herself as she exits the limo; tonight could only go one of two ways, and it depends entirely on you.
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meet me at our spot (2)
â eren jaeger x reader [fem bodied] [chapter word count: 2k]
â sfw, fluff, mild angst, modern au, short fic, other characters present
fic plot: before high school, you and eren were best friends. after high school, you and eren are strangers still grasping at those same past threads.
inspired by meet me at our spot by the anxiety
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2. somethingâs got ahold of me
a once-off conversation is just that - once-off. so you try to convince yourself thereâs no point in dwelling on seeing eren yesterday, or dwelling on how he helped you sit back up, or how he smiled at you before he left. thereâs no point. it was just a coincidence, a fluke.
eren has an entire group of friends. armin and mikasa, who youâve shared a couple classes with and known since they were young. jean kirstein, whoâs guts eren swore he hated back in the first couple days of freshman year. connie and sasha, who you know of course because of the commotion that always seems to follow them. he sees them everyday, and he only said heâd see you around as a courtesy.
you repeat this as a mantra over and over in your head, trying to distract yourself from looking up every few seconds the wind causes the leaves outside the treehouse to rustle and the small voice in your head that hopes itâs eren.
you sit cross-legged on the floorboards, pulling out more weird trinkets and drawings from years ago and placing them in a plastic bag to the side. now you know thereâs not really any chance of being interrupted by eren again, of being rendered speechless when youâre just trying to get your shit and go (so why does your chest keep sinking whenever you swear that you can hear someone come up the ladder only to be met with an empty doorway?)
at some point you start to get sick of yourself, keeping your head focused on the box in your lap and shoving whatever even seems remotely yours into the plastic bag. so when you hear what distantly sounds like footsteps again, you donât look up.
âhey,â a voice speaks, and your head lurches up from your hunched over position. itâs eren, hand on the frame of the doorway and peering into the wooden room.
âhi,â you practically squeak out. eren steps in.
âyou back again?â
âyeah,â you say, âi still haveâŚsome stuff.â
you wonder if knows thatâs as soon as he left yesterday you got out of here.
eren leans down and picks up the photo album from yesterday off of the floor, âyou want this?â
âoh, you can keep it if you want.â
eren walks closer to you and sits down next to you. he doesnât seem to notice you watching him carefully, ânah, i remember it was your idea, right?â
âyeah,â you hesitantly confirm, âbut theyre our photographs.â
you notice eren freeze and you regret saying that because now heâs looking at you in a wayâŚin a way that makes you feel like he only ever looks at you like that.
âthis is one weird custody battle,â eren jokes before putting the photo album back down and grabbing the box in your lap.
âhey!â you exclaim, shoving his arm, âi was literally looking through that.â
âyeah,â eren offers you a shit-eating grin, âand now i am.â
âhow are you still so annoying?â
âand how are you still so easy to annoy?â eren moves his face closer to yours.
you feel blood rush to your face and mumble sheepishly, âshut up.â
and with that, eren seems satisfied enough to let you balance the box halfway on his lap and the other half on yours, both of you rummaging through clutter silently as an excuse to sit for a little longer.
you hear an engine rev after eren does and only when you look at him do you realise hes stood up and is practically hanging out of the treehouse in an attempt to peer down at his drive way.
âoh,â he says, and you wonder if itâs more so to himself than to you, âitâs reiner.â it seems dumb, but you only realise heâs speaking to you when he turns back to you like heâs waiting for a response. youâre not really used to all this talking with him. likeâŚtalking personally to you and not the you that walks past him every once in a while.
âright.â
âhim and a few of the others are coming over to hangout.â
âright,â you start anticipating him bidding you goodbye and climbing back down the ladder, but the goodbye never comes and he still stands over you like heâs deep in thought.
âdo youâŚwanna come?â eren sounds out, like heâs testing out how the syllables feel on his lips.
ââŚwhat?â what the hell is he talking about?
âto hang out,â eren says carefully, eyes flicking back and forth between yours, âwith us.â he adds.
with erenâs friends? you donât want to be possessive or weirdly resentful but the first thought you have is that heâs inviting you to sit with the people that he prefers. you have to mentally slap yourself to remember that drifting away is normal, and theyâre all probably really nice. and it was four fucking years ago. and you donât stay friends with the people you knew when you were 8.
âohâŚare you sure?â you ask. eren shifts from one foot to the other before taking another step towards you. the box in your lap feels like itâs slipping from your grasp.
âyeah, why not?â he says, and he must notice how he doesnât sound very convinced of himself either when he watches your eyes droop because heâs quickly interjecting before you can say anything back, âitâll be fun. come on.â
his hand extends out to you. you want to slap his hand away and tease him, say you donât need his help, that youâre not an old lady, but your palm is already meeting his and you can already feel calloused fingers over your skin and him pulling you up to stand in front of him.
the short journey between the treehouse to erenâs kitchen is a blur, and saying hi to reiner and who he brought with him (bertolt, you think. as well as connie and jean) is even blurrier, because all of a sudden you find yourself seated on one of the stools in erenâs kitchen and absentmindedly listening to whatever the hell theyâre talking about.
you appreciate how eren spares you a glance every once in a while, offering you a close mouthed smile like you havenât not been in this house since you were 14.
âhey, eren,â reiners voice bellows from the front of the house and you hear him unlock the front door. the look you and eren are sharing is cut short by reiner, âarmin, mikasa and sasha are here.â
ââkay,â eren responds even though the three new visitors are already waltzing into the living room. youâre still frozen in place. you donât even remember the last thing you said.
âguys, this is my - sasha get out of the fridge - my neighââ eren tries to start, but sasha is suddenly barreling towards your seat at the kitchen island.
âhi! youâre in my bio class, right?!â sasha excitedly asks you, practically jumping on the spot.
âyou mean she was, sasha. weâre not in high school anymore,â connie calls out from behind her. sasha rolls her eyes.
âitâs so nice to see you!â
âthanksâŚitâs nice to see you too.â
âyouâre scaring the girl, sasha,â jean comments before deciding to grab something from the fridge himself. sasha immediately follows after him. you lock eyes with eren again and you realise he had already been watching you.
âhi,â a soft voice greets you, and suddenly mikasa is standing by your seat, ânice to see you again.â
âyeah, itâs been forever,â armin adds from beside her.
âyou guys know each other too?â reiner asks from across the room, leaning on one of the kitchen counters next to eren.
âfrom when we were kids,â you say, flitting your eyes to eren only to find that heâs looking at you again. you want him to stop so you donât have to focus so hard on speaking anymore, but you want him to keep doing it because itâs nice to know that heâs still knows youâre here. which sounds pathetic but, erenâs got such a big group of friends that sometimes you think it was kind of inevitable that he slowly drifted away from you.
âwe all kinda knew each other before high school, reiner,â armin explains, sparing you another smile.
âyou and bertolt literally transferred in halfway through freshman year, how do you not know this?â jean calls over to reiner.
âjust slipped my mind i guess.â
âhe was too busy trying not to be mistaken for a senior,â connie jokes. the room laughs. you try to.
âdonât you mean a security guard?â jean adds. everyone laughs again. you didnât really spend that much time looking at the two boys when they had transferred, so the joke is kind of lost on you, but you smile along anyways.
âha-ha, very funny,â reiner sarcastically retorts, âdonât know why youâre laughing, bertolt. think someone mistook you for someoneâs dad once.â another eruption of laughter.
you really donât wanna start feeling out of place (well, more out of place than you did before) but when everyone starts shooting jokes and comments across the room at each other, it gets harder and harder to stretch out a smile over your face at each one. and it gets harder and harder to look up and eren, to watch him laugh along with everyone or have him lock eyes with you again, until youâre all together just staring at your lap.
you thinkâŚyou think itâs time for you to go.
eren stands at the corner of his kitchen, still leaning against his counter, so you carefully slip out of the stool and make your way towards him, wanting to try your utmost best to make this exchange as short as possible before you go back home.
âi think iâm gonna go,â you say to him quietly, awkwardly staring anywhere other than his face.
âhm?â eren is cut out of the lively conversation with his friends and is looking back at you, lips parted momentarily as his tries to figure out what you said. he takes a step closer towards you and your heart skips a beat, âwaitââ
you cut him off, trying to get out of there before youâre reminded even more of how you just faded away from erenâs life, âthanks for inviting me.â
you quickly whisk yourself away to the front door before eren can say anything more, not trying to deal with any more of what always seems like general politeness to you. just as youâre about to step out of the front door, a hand wraps around your wrist when you let go of the door handle and you turn around to be met with eren behind you, looking just as shocked with himself are you are.
âuhâŚâ erenâs gaze shifts between your eyes repeatedly, âis everything okay?â
you look down at his hand around your wrist and back up at him, âyeah. just tired.â you feel his grip loosen but he still doesnât let go, and a part of you isnât ready for him to.
âsee you around?â he echoes what seems to be his catchphrase. you nod your head in a way that you know isnât as enthusiastic as what he might like to see. heâs just being polite. today was another coincidence, another fluke, and he isnât actually going to want to make any effort to see you again. even if youâre just next door. he hasnât for the past four years.
âyeah,â you quietly respond, slipping your wrist out of his grasp. you can still faintly hear chatter from inside the house. eren watches as you trod down the front steps to his house and make your way back over to your own, the back of your head never turning even just for a second to look back at him.
eren doesnât like regrets. he doesnât like wasting time on them, he doesnât like how they make him feel like he should be in a rush to do something that heâs not even sure of (that he canât even take back). but as he watches you leave his house, he thinks that if thereâs one thing heâd let himself regret, itâd be not realizing heâd fallen away from you before it was too late.
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As a white person and budding artist (that sure is. An intro) I'm always super careful to try and avoid harmful cultural and visual stereotypes in my art and practice sketches. I was wondering if you have/have posted any tips for drawing mexican people? I always do research before drawing anyone from a different culture or of a different race but it can be tricky to find things written by theae minorities themselves and I am always hesitant to take tips from another white artist on drawing other races đ
(I also apologise if I worded anything badly here, I'm autistic and struggle to word things sometimes! Please feel free to correct me if I did!)
Heyo! I think the biggest reason there isnât or even I havenât ever made a how to draw Mexicans is âcause Mexico is very very diverse, and the majority of us are Mestizo ( âmixed race, especially one having Spanish and indigenous descent.â) There are definitely racist stereotypes to avoid such as orange skin, thick black mustache, lazy, alcoholic, poncho wearing, Mexican. Obviously. But this is just one small part of the coin, when there is a lot of anti-blackness, and anti-indigenous sentiments in our own communities, EVEN THOUGH, the majority of us ARE mixed race. This has to do with colonization, and the way the Spaniards just really fucked us over, brain washed us, and made being a White Mexican the IDEAL Mexican. So thereâs a LOT to unpack there.Â
Especially with Mestizos being prejudice towards their Indigenous communities WHILE STILL practicing the very same important practices that came from those communities (Dia De Muertos for example) Basically thereâs an issue of still wanting to be Mexican, and have pride in your country, and culture, but not wanting be like those "dirty brownâ Mexicans. To the point where the government is constantly trying to push the âwe are all one Mexican race and nationâ while actively trying to get people to essentially erase our Indigenous communities. Like thereâs this big idea of âmarrying Whiteâ that even my mom used to believe in for a while, because her own mother taught her that as well in order to assimilate and what not. Again, lots of colorism and bigotry within our own communities. Itâs a very big and complex issue, that we can thank the Spaniards for ( and the Mexican government who continues to uphold these toxic ideas), YAYY colonization!!! Weeee!!!!
( I mean I can even see it in my own family, with my dadâs side of the family clearly not being able to pass as White being severely impoverished, while my momâs side of the family, who overall is much more White passing, have been able to hold positions of power in large companies and can even afford to buy more than one house)
Sorry to get into that very long rant, but I do think itâs very important to know this information to get started with actually figuring out how to accurately portray a Mexican, Tejano, Mex-Am, Afro-Mexican etc. Because well, anyone can be Mexican, just like anyone can be American! But Iâll get into the main communities that exist in Mexico to help you out!
So again, Mestizos (mixed-race) are the biggest group in Mexico, making up over 93% of the population! So thatâs a good chunk of us jaja! So itâs good to talk about how different you can look in a mixed-race family! And what better example than my own family!
Both my parents look very âstereotypicallyâ Mexican by American standards, especially my dad who is the absolute definition of a macho ranchero Mexicano jaja. Both my parents come from small farming communities in Mexico, but look very different themselves! Each pueblo kinda has their own differences too! The people from my momâs pueblo all tend to have much lighter skin, with cool undertones, some even have blue or green eyes, and red hair! While the people from my dadâs pueblo (98 people in total there, very very small jajaja) Tend to have deep red undertones, thick dark hair, curly hair, hooked noses, and very very rarely hazel eyes! So itâs no wonder me and my siblings look so different as well! (none of us are adopted I assure you)Â
So Iâm very lucky cause I have a HUGE family to use as reference, and reference is key!!! but there are many cool Mexican celebrities and public figures you can use as reference if you donât happen to know anyone (tho Itâs always good to have friends with different experiences from your own as always)
But hereâs some examples of how different mestizos can look, including some of my own specific references!
There is also our Indigenous communities â Mexico's indigenous population is one of the two largest in the Americas (only Peru is comparable in size). More than one in ten Mexicans speaks an indigenous languageâ
I really recommend checking out this website to learn more, as this is something Iâm still learning more about myself!Â
Then of course we have our Afro-Mexican community! Mexico is cruel to itâs Indigenous communities, but even more so to Afromexicanos, who until recently were completely ignored by Mexicoâs census. You can read more about this issue here.  Spaniards of course play a big part in the issues that face Afromexicanos today.  You can learn even more about this history here!
Did you know Lupita Nyongâo is Mexican! (A fellow Lupita <3 )
And of course, canât forget White Mexicans! Donât think the Spaniards just left after a while, because they stayed jajaja. (Look no further than Novellas and most big celebrates for some examples fhhffhf)Â
So there really is no absolute way to represent us! (which was an issue I had with Coco actually.. with everyone having the exact same orange/brown skin) There is certainly a picture that comes to Americanâs heads when they think âMexicanâ but in reality, things are much more diverse, beautiful, and complicating than that!Â
However I do have some small little things I personally like to do to help indicate when Iâm making a Mexican / Mex-Am character design based off of all of the information above along with my family and friends as reference!Â
Moles! I donât know why, but every Latino I know has so many moles.... from my childhood friends to my ex boyfriend, to every single cousin have... MOLES MOLES MOLES! Why? I havenât a clue, but I always add them to my character designs jajaja! Even if itâs just a little one on the neck <3
Thick hair! It is a curse and a blessing. My grandpa will never bald compared to a white man, but in exchange I have to deal with shaving my chin every day to compensate LMAO. So I like giving my characters thick eyebrows, dark body hair, or thicker hair than most designs! Itâs cool and neat!!! But please be mindful about how you do this as there have been white artists who have done this in racist and harmful ways, such as rcdart. ( X ) ( X )Â
I also recommend checking out shows like El Tigre, and Victor y Valentino, for some more fun and simple designs that show a wide variety of Mexican characters! (Also I just love Jorge R Gutierrezâs designs in general jaja)
Hope this helps! <3
#long post#wow this got really long#but HEY! there's lots to talk about jajaa#and this is like very limited to my own knowledge as well so fjhjrf#yeah!!!#anonymous#replies#callate guero
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1/7 of my milestone drabbles!
pairing:Â streetracer!mark lee x reader
genre: fluff/angst/smut
word count: 2.1k
plot request: @hansolsteaâ said: streetracer au + âif you think you can beat me on the tracks, then youâre on the wrong side of the wheelâ
warnings: not chronological so pay attention to timestamps, ambiguous relationship between the main characters, mild car accident, explicit sex, choking, ...cumming inside, mild overstimulation, slightly shitty aftercare due to the setting
SATURDAY 1:27 A.M.
âfucking take it.â he growls in your ear from above you, burying your face further into the pillow and readjusting your position so your hips are higher in the air. you let a gasping moan out without meaning to, and mark, almost without thinking, lands a hand against your ass in response, drawing forth a keening wail. âyou think youâre all that, huh? think youâre invincible? hm? answer me.âÂ
ân-no, fuck, mark, i-â he speeds up his hips, pistoning into you at a breakneck pace, almost smothering you into the motel bedâs surprisingly soft pillow. itâs obvious that he doesnât care about what you say as long as it isnât the safe word. you already know heâll leave you bruised and battered, aching from how hard heâs fucking you, but you also know not to expect anything else.Â
mark lee is not your friend. mark lee certainly isnât your lover. mark lee is a cocky, inflammatory bastard who has never hesitated to push your buttons in public. he brings out the worst in you, and you bring out the worst in him.Â
unfortunately for everyone involved, markâs the best fuck youâve ever had, and you know that heâs never had as good a time sticking his dick in anyone else.Â
as he pulls out, causing you to whine at the loss of contact, only to flip you over and immediately plow into you again, hard arms caging you in against the bed, you canât help but think back to the series of events that led you here. not four hours earlier, youâd been on the âtrackâ, jenoâs ford mustang right beside markâs chevy corvette c6. everything that had happened there had led to whatâs happening now.Â
âfucking take it,â mark growls again, almost unaware of what he himself is saying at this point. youâd laugh at him if you werenât drunk off of him. his words bring you back to the present, your back arching until your chest meets his. âsomeone has to put you in your place.â
FRIDAY 9:55 P.M.
âcome to get your ass beat?âÂ
mark whirls around to see you leaning against your brotherâs bright red mustang, a smirk adorning your features. heâs always been reactionary when it comes to you, and tonight is no different: his relaxed gaze hardens immediately as it falls on you, and his otherwise gentle smile morphs into a sneer. still, he attempts to maintain his composure, never wanting the first of you two to break.Â
âyouâre not even driving tonight, princess. thatâs big talk for someone too scared to race against me.â
ânot my fault my brother wanted a piece of you first. be grateful - you couldnât handle going against me.â you respond with ease, pushing yourself off of the car in favor of walking towards the man you canât stand. his shoulders tense up for a moment, only to ease up again as he rolls them back, shoving both of his hands into his black bomber jacketâs pockets. you take a split second to appraise him, though you pray he doesnât realize that youâre checking him out: black bomber, plain white tee, a thin checkered red flannel, ripped black skinny jeans, a dark brown belt, and a black beanie. even you canât deny how attractive he is, no matter how badly you wish you could.
your eyes have trailed to his chest, and when you snap your head up to look at him, heâs smirking. that bastard.Â
âif you think you can beat me on the tracks, then youâre on the wrong side of the wheel,â he shrugs his shoulders, very obviously presenting you with a challenge. âshould be inside the car, not outside it⌠unless youâre afraid, princess. iâd let you off the hook if you were, of course. it would be understandable: nobody wants to lose.â
âcall me princess one more fucking time-â you retort, so close to him that you can smell his cologne.Â
âprincess.â he draws the word out, and thatâs the only mark lee youâve ever known. the pain in your ass. heâs a good friend of jenoâs - hell, your brother even looks up to the man smirking at you right now - and gets along well with everyone you know. youâre the only exception, and you donât know how to feel about that.
anger. arousal, maybe- no, just anger. itâs just anger, you tell yourself. before you can even sort out your own thoughts, you find yourself turning, yelling out your brotherâs name.Â
âiâm driving tonight,â you call out, leaving no room for argument. âme versus mark.â
jeno looks at you, then at his friend, and then back at you, mouth falling open as if to argue. as his eyes meet yours, though, he knows: bickering with you is futile. your brother tosses you the keys to his precious car, and when you meet markâs eyes again, youâre the one smirking this time.Â
âgood luck,â you sneer, leaning close until youâre as in his face as you possibly could be. âprincess.â
FRIDAY 11:39 P.M.
youâve never seen him look quite this downright pissed. mark is genuinely one of the more easygoing, mild-mannered men youâve met, only even acting âriled upâ whenever someone - typically hyuck or yuta - makes an inflammatory or downright jokingly flirtatious comment at him. it takes a lot for him to feel rage, and even you donât think you evoke emotions that strong from him. heâs been insanely annoyed with you, yes, but it usually isnât anything too far past that.
now, though? now mark fuckinâ lee has a steel grip on your left wrist as he tugs you out of the car. it isnât too bad - the bumper is crooked, now, and one of the sideview mirrors is dangling and both taken together will cost a very unsexy couple of grands to fix without accounting for the paint - but you can hear your brotherâs bemoaned wails at what youâve done to his precious car. youâre surprised at yourself, too: youâve never crashed before.Â
youâd looked over at mark for a split second too long while going just a hair too fast, and then, suddenly, the side of your - jenoâs - car was scraping some corporate compoundâs metal fence. youâd panicked to a stop upon hearing the metallic crunching noises, and had only later heard markâs c6 screeching to a halt up ahead. heâd yelled your name, youâd thought, but you were still dazed.
that, and jeno, whoâd been just ahead at the finish line, had already started screaming by then. not for you. for his car.Â
âwhat the hell were you thinking?â mark yells, pulling you just a little too hard, causing you to stumble into his chest. âwhy didnât you slow the fuck down?â
âi- shit, i didnât realize until it was too late.â you canât even throw the same tone of voice back in his face, too preoccupied with the realization that, had your steering been just a little off, you might be mangled in the mustang right now.Â
the race had gotten cut short then, with you apologizing profusely to your brother for as long as possible afterwards. mark had stepped back, watched on as the two of you assessed the damage to jenoâs car. it was only everyone else had left and jenoâd realized that heâd have to drive home with his car in the mess that it was that mark had stepped in between you and your sibling, offering to let you stay with him for the night rather than risk you and your brother killing each other over the mustang (ânanaâ, so affectionately named by jeno after his best friend).
âthank fuck,â jenoâd said, eyes practically rolling into the back of his head in exasperation.Â
âfuck this,â youâd muttered under your breath, though a part of you truly is thankful for the intervention and the distraction both. mark had heard you. jeno hadnât.Â
you expect to pull up to the apartment mark shares with his friends yuta and jungwoo, but, instead, he pulls into the parking lot of a motel you know well. of course you do - youâve rendezvoused here with him on multiple accounts before. itâs only then, as mark fixes a hard, dark gaze on you, that you realize what youâre in for. his mouth meets your skin, your hands meet his hair.
âsomeone,â he murmurs into the flesh that joins your jaw and neck. âneeds to teach you how to slow down. that someone, though,â a fresh hickey blooms against your skin. he pushes open his car door with the hand that isnât gripping your shirtâs hem. âsure as hell wonât be me.â
SATURDAY 1:29 A.M.
âsomeone has to put you in your place.â
mark reaches up your body then, curls a hand gingerly - almost too gingerly - around your throat. he presses lightly against the sides, only enough to make you feel slightly lightheaded. heâs looking down at you directly, gaze hard, daring you to look back. youâre close but it isnât enough - youâre on an edge, but thereâs nothing else behind you, no catalyst to push you into bliss.Â
his hand tightens, the other comes down to your pelvis, thumb swiping experimentally against your clit. you canât help yourself - you tighten immediately around him, back arching slightly as both of you let out choked moans simultaneously. he swipes against your clit one more time before settling his hand against your hip, starting to rub circles into your bundle of nerves if only to feel your vice grip around his cock. you practically keen, gasping at the sheer amount of sensations your body feels.Â
youâre on the edge. youâre about to fall. markâs hips stutter against your own, and he plays with your clit even more vigorously as he cums, not bothering to pull out. he never does, anyways. the hand around your neck tightens just a bit before he lets go of your airways entirely, and the sensation of finally being able to breathe properly again does you in, your chest fully arching almost against markâs own as you reach your own orgasm.Â
it feels like an eternity until the stars are all out of your eyes, but you find yourself falling back to earth as mark finally pulls out. youâre panting, catching your breath, eyes glassy as you try and fix your gaze on him. he notices this, chuckling softly.Â
mark heads to the roomâs bathroom, and you hear running water for a second before he emerges with wadded up toilet paper and a wet towel. you wince, knowing heâll use the one-ply toilet paper on you first, but also knowing that neither of you are shitty enough to leave a cum-covered hotel towel behind for the staff to find. he wipes up the mixture of yours and his cum up from between your sensitive thighs, quieting shushing you and apologizing as the scratchy toilet paper meets your still-sensitive pussy. once heâs sure itâs all cleaned up, he wipes you down with the wet towel, doing his best to soothe your skin.Â
once heâs discarded the toilet paper and put the towel up, mark pulls on his boxers before gently pushing you over to get into the bed beside you. everything smells like sex, but you canât bring yourself to be as disgusted by it as you think you should be. you move onto your side, wrapping an arm around him and throwing a leg over him, ignoring the fact that heâs like a space heater and you already feel sticky as it is. he allows his arm to wrap around your waist, pulling you even closer.Â
âiâm serious, you know,â he mutters after a while, sighing as he speaks. âyou need to learn how to slow down. that couldâve ended very, very badly tonight⌠and as much as we⌠have our âdifferencesâ or whatever, i donât know what iâd do without you. okay? so pay more attention when youâre driving. youâre too valuable.â
thereâs no response. mark shifts so he can see you, and he realizes that youâre fast asleep, bare chest rising and falling in tandem with markâs heartbeat. you havenât heard a word of what heâs said. a small smile graces markâs features.Â
he lets his head fall back onto the too-flat motel pillow, finding that he, too, is suddenly very tired. his eyes slip shut, sleep pulling him in as the night goes on. he pulls you closer on reflex. you allow yourself to get pulled closer in the same way. in the morning, youâll ask him what he means by âyouâre too valuableâ. youâve got at least six hours âtil then. you fall asleep with a smile on your face, mirroring markâs own.
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Kita Shinsuke : Matchmaker
â˝ suna x reader ; 2.6k words
â characters mentioned : kita shinsuke, aran ojiro, atsumu miya, osamu miya
â˝ fluff, he takes care of you when ur sick ! even tho heâs a menace, kita being an angel
â˝ a slight mention of adult themes (its a teasing joke)
â˝ notes : hiii i wrote this for a friend and i figured id add it here teehee :))
hey Jesus, i know we donât talk much but...fuck you. i feel like literal dog shit
You groaned as you shoved yet another tissue in your nose. You were sick, and God forbid it wasnât the worst cold youâd ever had.
This morning you had pulled on your uniform in a haze; honestly it's a miracle you even made it to school. Aran had stopped you in the hallway when you arrived, putting a hand on your shoulder and placing the back of his palm against your forehead.
He immediately got out his phone and texted someone-presumably Kita, since he was the one most qualified to handle this. The captain had dealt with him and Atsumu both when they were sick so he could surely help you and get you to go the hell home.
You had pushed weakly at Kita when he ushered you towards the entrance of the building, assuring that you were a-o-kay. You ended up making friends with a nearby trashcan and emptying your guts right after the claim. Kita had held your hair back and rubbed your shoulders reassuringly. Afterwards, he pulled out his phone and sent a quick message to someone. Who? You didnât know.
Kita had made sure to get you home in one piece. He tucked you into bed, placed a cold rag onto your head, and you think you heard him say something about bringing you soup later. Sleep crept up on you quickly and you were out before he even stepped out the door.
Now you were unfortunately awake, cursing whatever God could hear. This was absolutely awful. A dull throb ran through your skull insistently, mucus clotted your nose and throat, making your breaths uneven and raspy. You wanted to quench the ache in your throat but even the idea of sitting up seemed to drain too much energy, so you laid there in pain.
You assumed it was mid-afternoon. Kita had drawn the curtains above the window closed, leaving the room dark. You were especially grateful for this, for you knew any light would make your eyes hurt.
Your phone lay unchecked on the table face-down. The fear of worsening your headache is what caused it to stay there. Whoever wanted to talk would have to wait. You switched out the tissue in your nose for a fresh one, groaning again.
You wanted to take a shower so bad. You hated getting sick because you felt disgusting and knew you looked it too. Embarrassment bloomed when the events from this morning played in your mind.
Aranâs gonna joke about that for weeks.
A soft knock from the door drew you away from your thoughts. Thatâs probably Kita. A hoarse âcome inâ fell from your chapped lips and you internally cringed at how awful you sounded, even if it was just your childhood friend.
âYou look like shit.â
That was not Kita.
âSuna? what the fuck?â
âShut Up. Youâre going to hurt your throat worse.â
Is this what I get for saying fuck you? I apologize so much anything but this please
âYouâve gone through two boxes of tissues already? Kita wasnât lying, damn.â
You turned your head away from Sunaâs voice, attempting to cover your sick-stricken face. Out of all people. It wasnât that you didnât like Suna- the two of you actually got along (if you count bickering back and forth all the time getting along). The problem was you happened to have a humongous crush on him.
The wing spiker had gotten on your nerves at first- smirks hidden behind a hand, foot sticking out to trip you in the hallway, drawing on your notes- he was almost unbearable. But as the both of you got older, you started returning his remarks, nudging him lightly into lockers, laughing at the twins together and sharing footage of their stupid fights.
Your crush had crept up on you almost unknowingly until one day he slung an arm over your shoulder and shot you one of his signature smirks and you were gone. It was infuriating, to say the least.
âEarth to y/n, hello y/n.â
âWhat.â
âAh-ah, no speaking, remember?â You shot him a glare, receiving that smirk yet again. You cursed at the butterflies swarming your stomach.
Infuriating.
âYouâre shivering.â
It was a simple comment. You realized after a beat that he was right and pulled the blanket farther up your body. He sat down the bag he held in his hand and made his way over to your bed. You squirmed in protest, trying to scooch away from his outstretched hand. Your actions caused Sunaâs brows to furrow, a small line creasing on his forehead.
âIâm just going to check if you still have a fever,â he whispered, moving forward despite your futile attempts at moving away. You gave in, allowing him to gently place his hand on your forehead.
He wasnât terribly close, he had been closer to you before this, but this felt different. More intimate.
âYouâre burning up,â he said, leaning back with a sigh. âSit tight, Iâll start a bath for you.â
You tried to keep your swarming thoughts at bay with no luck. Your crush, Suna Rintaro, is drawing a bath for you. A bath. Heâs taking care of you.
Why is he being so nice? This has to be a set up, or Kita probably forced him. Thereâs no other way he would willingly be doing this...is there? You shut down the thought as quickly as it came. No sense in getting flustered over nothing. No need to fuel your growing crush.
You werenât fit to complain anyways. The exact thing you wanted is being done right now, so you did as you were told, slightly sitting up to fetch yet another tissue. The pounding in your head still hadnât ceased and a sudden cough racked your body. You wanted to cry- and you didnât cry often. But you felt horrible.
âHey, you okay?â
Apparently you hadnât held up your facade well enough because a look of concern washed over Sunaâs face the instant he stepped back into the room. You shook your head lightly in response to his question, feeling tears welling up behind your eyelids in spite of your attempts to keep them at bay.
The last thing you wanted to do was cry in front of Suna. It was practically a death wish. You could imagine the jokes and poking laughter he would send your way over the next few weeks, and it made you feel even worse.
âHey, hey now, look at me.â
The words were whispered closer to you than you anticipated. Suna had sat down on the edge of your bed while you were caught up in your thoughts, that same line present between his brows. You fought the urge to touch it, facing away from him again and reaching up to wipe your eyes.
âIâm fine.â That instigated a scoff.
âNo youâre not. Now câmon, letâs get you into the bath. Youâll feel better.â
Right. A bath. Despite the fact that Sunaâs presence was wearing you thin, a bath sounded great. The only problem was, you knew you were too weak to walk to your bathroom across the hall. It took so much energy to even sit up, much less actually get on your feet.
Suna must have sensed something was wrong because in mere seconds he was lifting the heavy blanket off of your body and moving closer. Your breath hitched when he moved one strong arm under your back and another under your knees, eyes concentrated.
âPut your arm around my neck,â Suna murmured. You failed to notice the blush that had lifted to his ears because your own was blossoming on your face, making your already warm cheeks heat up even more.
This is purgatory.
You did as he said, lightly wrapping your arm up his shoulder and around his neck. He picked you up in one smooth motion, shocking you. You knew he worked out because of volleyball, but jesus christ. Your head throbbed in protest to the movement, and you winced involuntarily.
âSorry, shouldnât have moved so fast.â
âSâfine.â
Your heart was beating frantically in your chest from the proximity. You were so close you could see the long eyelashes that framed his eyes, light traces of black eyeliner around the corners. You saved that in the back of your mind to ask about later.
Suna carried you into the bathroom and placed you gently on the counter. You pushed away the noise of protest that you wanted to let out from the loss of contact. No need to embarrass yourself even more.
âIâll get you some clothes and leave them outside, take as long as you want.â
You murmured a small thank you as you watched him move towards the door. You hated that you missed him already.
âDonât worry, Iâll be here the whole time.â
âLike I care.â
âYea, okay princess.â
You glared at him as he closed the door behind him with a small chuckle. Princess. You fumed at the reaction you had to the pet name.
This is horrible. Iâm horrible. Iâll just blame it on him. Him and that stupidly hot smirk.
The bath became increasingly inviting as you sat, eventually leading you to strip of your dirty clothes and step into the warm water. It felt amazing. After a few minutes you felt your eyes begin to droop, the steam luring you to sleep.
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You didnât know how long you had slept but judging by the temperature of the water, at least 15 minutes, maybe longer. The water hadnât cooled completely but had lost its comfortable warmth. Begrudgingly you stepped out of the water and dried off.
You wrapped the towel around yourself and padded towards the door, opening it to retrieve the clothes Suna said he left for you. Just like he said, a small stack of clothes laid on the floor. You grabbed them and faced back towards the sink, wincing at your reflection in the mirror.
You really did look awful. Embarrassment settled into your bones again as you unfolded the clothes to put them on. A small part of your brain pointed out that they were big, too big to be your clothes, but a fit of coughs cut off your train of thought.
A knock came from the door. âY/n? You okay?â
âYe-â Another cough broke off your sentence.
âKnock twice if youâre dressed.â
A small smile crept up on your face at the thought of Suna being considerate. You knocked on the door twice signaling him that it was okay for him to come in. A moment later it opened. Suna was holding what seemed to be a cup of tea in his hands and you reached for it with a sigh.
âLavender, right?â You halted in your movements.
âYea...how did you-â
âI pay attention.â
Your face flushed. His gaze never faltered from your face. How did he say that so casually?
âYou look good in my clothes.â
So thatâs why they were big. You looked in the mirror again, eyes locking in on the large âInarizaki Volleyballâ plastered on the front of the black material.
âShould wear âem more often.â
âShut- shut up.â
âMhm, okay. Feelinâ better?â You nodded.
âA little. Still feel like shit.â
âLook it, too.â
âThanks, asshole.â
A light chuckle escaped him and he moved closer towards you. Something felt different. You noticed his eyes linger on you longer, many lapses of silence filled the spaces where playful arguing usually was.
âCap texted me and asked to bring you soup, he had to do some more shit before he came over.â
âHm.â
âWhat do you mean, hm?â
You didnât get it. Why of all people would Kita send Suna to tend to you? What about Aran? Osamu? Hell, even Atsumu would have been higher on the list than Suna. MaybeâŚ
âThat bastard.â
âWoah now, what did Cap do to you?â
Kita was one of the only people who knew about your crush. Of course he would pull some strings to get Suna to come over. That little-
âHey now pretty thing, donât frown too much. Youâll get wrinkles.â
It was then you noticed a light touch on your forehead, right in between your eyebrows. Suna was rubbing the space there, just like you had wanted to do to him.
You hoped Suna couldnât tell how fast your heart was beating or just how much you knew you were blushing.
After a moment of silence Suna still hadnât removed the touch on your face. He met your eyes, slowly moving to cup your cheek.
âWhy are you here, Rin?â His thumb stroked your cheek with a feather-like graze and you swore you saw his eyes flit downwards to your lips. âTo take care of you, of course.â
âYouâre going to catch my cold.â
âYouâll just have to pay me back later, yeah?â
His tongue darted out to wet his lips, the corners of his mouth edging upwards.
what the fuck did i do to deserve this?
You pushed his hand away and looked away from his gaze. You could manage standing from afar and pining, sure, but what you couldnât deal with was Suna messing around with you like this. You ignored the ache in your chest, choosing to cover it up by reaching for another tissue.
âY/n.â You ignored him.
âY/n, look at me.â You braced your arms on the bathroom sink with a sigh.
âWhat, Suna.â
âRin. Itâs Rin, to you.â You scoffed.
âWhy am I any different than anyone else?â
âBecauseâŚâ
You turned to face him again, confusion and slight annoyance bubbling under your skin. âBecause what?â Suna groaned and ran a hand over his face. âYouâre so oblivious.â
Okay, now you were annoyed.
âOblivious? How am I oblivious?â
âBecause you havenât realized how different you are.â
âWhatâs that supposed to mean? Are you fucking messing with me Suna? Look, Iâm in no mood for your stupid games-â
âWould you shut up for one second and think.â
You leaned back against the sink with a cough, wincing as another throb of pain shot through your head. Any traces of anger or annoyance vanished from Sunaâs face in an instant. He left the bathroom and you heard him rustling through the bag he left in your room. He returned with a bottle of pills and an ice pack.
âHere. Take these.â You took the small pills from his outstretched hand and washed them down with the now lukewarm tea. âHave you thought about it?â You rolled your eyes dramatically, placing your hand under your chin to mock a thinking position. âNo, I donât think I have.â He rolled his eyes in return. âFine. Would I be doing this for anyone else? Hm?â
Itâs a good point. One you didnât bother thinking about. Sure, maybe he would do it for his teammates, but that was a hard maybe. He just wasnât the caretaker type, much less with someone he wasnât close with. You realized the implication behind his words in an instant.
âYou...you like me?â
ââBout time you figured that out, sweetheart.â
All of the moments between you two passed through your mind in a frenzy, and you started to laugh. It was hysterical, really. All this time you just knew Suna could never like you back.
i take it back. thank you. sorry for saying fuck you
âWhy didnât you just tell me?â He scoffed, âAnd risk losing my appearance? Hell no,â he said, sending you that damn smirk again.
âYou are a menace, Rintaro.â
âYea, but Iâm your menace. Youâre stuck with me.â
âThatâs horrifying.â
âOh shush, ya love me.â
âYea, yea. Now, get me back in my bed. I need to sleep.â
âInviting me to bed already? Wow y/n.â
âI hate you.â He reached over and pecked your cheek.
âHate you, too.â
#haikyuu#haikyuu!!#fanfic#suna rintarĹ#suna x reader#suna rinatro#suna x you#hq fluff#haikyuu x reader
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Pairing: Sub!Goshiki x DomFem! Chubby!Reader Part 2 Summary: You met your good friend Goshiki at work one day, having similar interests in books. When you start developing feelings for him, things get difficult. Especially when he asks a special favor. Content: Body image issues, heated makeout session, strong sexuality, heavy grinding over clothes Word Count: ~ 4,100
A/N:Â Yay for part two! This is Part 2 of my three part series with Goshiki! I will post Part 3 on Friday. If you missed Part 1, check out the Please Me Series Masterlist where you can find all of our stories for the Please Me series!
One week. It had been one full week since youâd heard from Goshiki. He left your apartment so quickly and you didnât really have much time to think about why before your self-doubt and body image issues took over. It was stupid of you to be so upset over it because honestly, you really had only met Goshiki a couple months ago. But it did hurt and you wereupset because these last couple months had been the best months youâd ever had and it was as if it was all taken away in that moment he walked out the door.
You were tracing circles on the desk at work when you saw someone walk into the bookstore and your eyes shot to the door. It wasnât Goshiki and you slumped back down, drawing your circles.
âGod, youâre depressing.â Dylanâs voice came from behind you. âWhy donât you just text him?â
âSo I can be that weird clingy person.â You shivered, standing up straight and facing him. âNo thank you.â
âYouâre a writer and you donât think that maybe he hasnât texted because heâs thinking the same thing? Itâs writing 101.â
âI am a writer, but I already told you, I am not the kind of person that has a role in these stories. Iâm like the side character that tells the main character theyâre doing a great job.â You drummed your fingers on the desk, quickly looking at the door again as another person walked in and Dylan laughed.
âWhy donât you go take a break.â He stopped your fingers.
âI just had mine.â
âWell take another. And go for a walk. Youâre going to break your neck if you keep looking at the entrance like that.â He laughed.
âIâm fine, Dylan.â
âYouâre not and neither am I. I need coffee. Grab me some?â
âSo now Iâm your gofer?â You laughed, taking his card.
âAnd buy yourself something. I donât need you ogling my cup when you get back.â
âYeah, yeah.â
You walked out the front and set out to your coffee shop. The fresh air did feel really nice, not to mention it was one of the better days that week, weather-wise. You almost wished the cafĂŠ were a little bit farther so you could have more time to enjoy the day. Almost wished. The amount of times the close proximity of this cafĂŠ had saved you from a rough work day was monstrous.
When you reached the coffee shop, it was midday and the way the light hit the glass windows and door, you couldnât see the inside so it came as quite a shock when the door swung open and nearly hit you in the face. What came as more of a surprise was who was opening the door. You had a mini moment of panic as you watched Goshiki turn around, having used his butt to push the door open.
You both stood there for a second staring at each other, neither one of you knowing what to say.
âGosââ You started, stopping when he said your name at the same time. You both laughed lightly which gave you a bit of hope. âYou can go first.â
âIâm sorry.â He looked down. âThe way I left wasnât really fair to you.â
âNo, itâs okay. I feel like I sort of pushed you into the kiss.â
âNo! You didnât! It wasnât the kiss.â
âIt was because I sat on your lap.â
âYeah.â He smiled, nodding and you sighed quietly, trying not to feel the ache in your heart.
You knew it. You knew it was because of you. He ran out because you nearly smothered him.
âIâve just never had anyone⌠that close⌠like⌠on me. And the way we were touching⌠I was having⌠likeâUgh, Iâm not making sense.â He squeezed his eyes shut.
âItâs fine. You donât have to explain.â You shrugged, hoping you seemed nonchalant and not like you were about to cry. âI get it.â
âYou do?â His eyes opened wide and looked at you.
âYeah, I know Iâm not small.â You couldnât look him in the eye so you focused on the two coffee cups in his hands. âIt probably felt like you were being crushedââ
âWhat?â He interjected quickly. âNo, thatâs not it at all. Is that what you were thinking this whole time?â
âWell, yeah.â You finally looked up at him and he sighed.
âThatâI keep telling you, you look amazing. Itâs not you. The problem is that Iâm a virgin. Iâve never done anything like that. Iâve barely even kissed anyone.â
âYou��youâre a virgin?â
âYes.â
âAnd you ran outâŚâ
âBecause I was nervous. I didnât know how to tell you and I definitely didnât know how to continue. IâŚâ You could tell he was trying to figure out how to explain to you what he was feeling, but he couldnât get it into words and you smiled. He didnât think you were heavy. He didnât think you were too big and he didnât run out because he was disgusted by you.
âGoshiki?â You were still smiling, unable to hide your happiness at this new information. âDo you want to just forget it happened for now?â
You could visibly see the relief in his face and you watched his shoulders relax as he smiled.
âYes. Honestly, that would be perfect. Can I walk you back to work?â
âYes.â You nodded, a nearly permanent smile on your face. âWhoâs the coffee for?â
He looked down at the cup in each hand. âYou. I was going to bring it to you and apologize.â
You had a moment where you both looked at each other and smiled, both happy things were going to be okay before you quickly went in the coffee shop and bought Dylanâs coffee, taking your time on the walk back to the bookstore with Goshiki.
There was nothing hidden in the look on Dylanâs face as you stepped into the bookstore, waving to Goshiki as he headed back to practice.
âWhat the hell? I told you to get me a coffee and you come back with the guy youâve been snapping your neck for every time someone walks in?â
âIt was sending me to get you coffee that had me running into him.â You handed Dylan his cup. âItâs fine though. We were able to talk a little and I think things are okay.â
âIf you had a talk that fast, things are not okay.â
âIt was more like we talked about having a talk. Heâs going to come by at the end of my shift.â
âSo was I right?â He took a sip from his cup and you made a face.
âRight about what?â You drank from your cup, narrowing your eyes.
âHe wasnât texting you for the same reason you werenât texting him?â
âWhat does that even matter.â You rolled your eyes.
âIt does something to me knowing Iâm right.�� He smiled, closing his eyes and taking a deep breath as if he could smell his correct guess. âStrokes my ego a bit.â
âI donât think Iâm willing to give you that satisfaction.â
âI was right.â
âI never said that.â
âYou didnât need to.â He smiled and you turned around to look at the door, pretending to ignore him when he appeared at your ear, whispering. âI was right.â
The rest of your shift flew by yet somehow took forever to end. You tried to keep yourself busy, but there really was only so much you could do with limited customers and an anxious heart.
The one good thing that did come from your shift was the new shipments of books, one of them was the book both you and Goshiki had been waiting for. He still felt weird taking books home so you started buying them with your discount and you hid a stack for him behind the counter. All of your coworkers knew this so when he walked in, they handed him the stack and he found a place to sit and read. He was going to be so happy the new book came in and you were worried about how happy it made you at the thought of him being excited over it.
As the time got closer to when he was supposed to show up, you started to feel nervous. Â You were happy things were better and you got to talk about what happened, but now it was becoming really hard to ignore the fact that you definitely did have feelings for Goshiki. He never made it clear whether he did or didnât, he only mentioned that he had never had sex and doesnât have a lot of experience, but that wasnât enough for you to think that he could like you.
You could actually kick yourself for suggesting to forget about the kiss. He seemed really excited to forget it though so maybe he didnât like you. But then again, he could have been happy to forget about the awkwardness in which case he may have been okay with the kiss and maybe did have feelings for you. Damn it, anxiety!
You dropped your head into your hands and looked down at the counter as your phone buzzed. It was five minutes until your shift was over and Goshiki just messaged.
No! You cannot meet me later! You thought. I am over here freaking out because I donât know how you feel about me and Iâm about to bury my head into the sand if I donât die of a heart attack first.
Great, now he wasnât even going to come to the bookstore. Your anxiety would have to sit a little longer.
You headed home and did your best not to think about it which was nearly impossible. With your laptop on your lap, you got to writing. If Goshiki was going to be a while, you might as well make use of the time. You mentally slapped yourself when you thought of the way his eyes glued to the screen when he read your stories and went back to focusing.
It took you a bit, but once you got into the zone, you were able to block out the rest of the world and the rest of your thoughts and just write. By the time you heard a knock at the door, you looked at the clock. It had been an hour. You moved your laptop to the coffee table and stood up, making your way to the door. Each step you took you got more and more nervous, no longer able to brush the anxiety aside because the cause of the anxiety was right behind the door. You took a deep breath and opened it.
Damn it. It was a package. The box was small and you could barely read the label, but as soon as you picked it up, you were almost jumping out of excitement. You went to the kitchen, grabbing scissors and opening the box up. Your business cards.
It had taken you a while to drum up the courage to order them. Both Dylan and Goshiki badgering you until you placed the order. The material you chose made the wait time so much longer, but it was way more than worth it holding it in your hands. The soft, almost velvety feel of the matte black card gave you a smile you couldnât hold back. You closed your eyes, rubbing the card in between your fingers and smiled.
âYour cards came in?â A voice came from behind you and you jumped, your hand flying to your chest as you turned around.
âHoly shit, Goshiki. You scared me.â
âSorry.â He laughed. âThe door was open so I thought you knew I was coming.
âI left it open?â You peeked behind him to the door.
âYeah. I closed it.â He was looking at the counter where you left the box of cards. âCan I see them?â
âHere.â You handed him the card and he looked at it, smiling. âYou can keep that one.â
âThanks.â
Everything was so awkward. You couldnât understand how it was so comfortable in front of the cafĂŠ, but now it was so awkward.
âCan we talk?â
That was why it was awkward. There was something he wanted to say and it had your chest tightening.
âSure.â
You moved to sit on the couch and he sat next to you, rubbing his palms on his thighs. He looked up to you, opening his mouth like he was going to speak, but then closing it quickly and looking back down at his hands.
âYou okay?â
âI⌠Iâm okay. I was hoping that we could⌠I mean, I know youâre notâweâre not reaâŚâ He blew air out through his cheeks.
âGoshiki, whatever it is, you can tell me.â You put your hand on his shoulder and felt him tense up. There was a short pause, but then he quickly turned to you and pushed himself forward so your lips were touching. His lips already moving roughly against yours.
His hand was on your cheek and trying to bring you closer to him. This was different than before, he was way more active, his tongue pushing through your lips, not even waiting for you to open your mouth. His weight pushed you back so you were almost laying down. It felt so good feeling his entire body against yours, so warm and strong, but you couldnât shake that he was pushing too fast. You only just learned he was a virgin and now he was rushing into this.
âGoâGoshiâGoshiki! Wait.â You struggled to get a word out, each time your mouth was open, he used to chance to push his tongue in, but he pulled back to look at you. His lips were starting to look swollen, almost bee stung and it was adorable, but you shook that out of your mind. âWhat areâwe just talked. I thought because of your inexperienceâŚâ
âI want to do it with you.â He spoke so casually, as if heâd seriously thought about it. âIf thatâs okay.â
If thatâs okay? Yes! You most definitely wanted to rip his clothes off and run your tongue over every inch of him. The look in his eyes had you wetter than you could remember being, but this was kind of a big deal for him. You werenât sure if rushing into this with you was such a good idea.
âI mean⌠are you sure?â You asked, rubbing his cheek lightly and he nodded.
âTake me.â He whispered as he leaned back in. You didnât even have time to smile at his use of one of your favorite romance novelâs title before his lips were back on yours.
This time was way more passionate. You could feel his hands all over you, less hesitant than before as they moved up your body. His inexperience was so plainly obvious to you now that you knew it, it made you wonder how you didnât notice before. The way his lips moved against your lips, still unsure of how they were supposed to fit with yours. The way his tongue was moving around your mouth heavily, almost beating the inside of your cheeks. The way his dick was honestly already so incredibly hard against your thigh. He was barely thrusting as he moaned into your mouth, his fingers tangled in your hair.
His other hand continued its movements up and down your sides, lingering longer each time as he got closer to your breasts.
You were finding it harder to guide him as he lay on top of you and you put your hand on his shoulder, gently pushing him back, but at the slightest resistance from you, he quickly stopped. His eyes, so heavily lidded, looked down at you.
âAâIs it okay?â His cheeks were pink and his lips were red, shiny with spit, as he licked them.
âItâs okay.â You smiled. âAre you okay?â
âYour lips are so soft.â He leaned in again to kiss you. âThey taste like strawberries.â
His mouth was all over yours again, but this time softer, gentler, and instead of his tongue being shoved into your mouth, it delicately brushed over your lips. All of it had your breath catching in your throat and you were wondering how he could have switched so quickly from the first kiss.
You felt that familiar tingle run through your body, goosebumps raising on your skin, and your hands went to Goshikiâs back to pull him closer to you. You wanted him. Your fear of overthinking anything was far from your mind as you felt his warm hand slide under your shirt and rest on your stomach.
God, he was so hard, his cock pressed up against you, his grinding became rougher, but you didnât mind it at all. He was wearing his tracksuit and the pants were definitely thin enough for you to feel everything. Your lips were numb from all the kissing, but you couldnât bring yourself to pull away until he did, leaning back a little for air.
âTake off your jacket.â You commanded. He sat up fully, nodding and you sat up with him, pulling your own shirt off.
It was unfortunate that you really werenât expecting anything like this to happen so your current bra situation was a sports bra, but at least it was your cute black one that showed off your cleavage. Based on the motionless stare Goshiki had on your breasts, he didnât seem to mind at all what bra you were wearing.
You grabbed his shirt and pulled him down, smiling with him into the kiss until his lips moved to your neck and you shivered at his breath on your skin. You could feel his inexperience again, but itâs almost as if it didnât matter this time because he was grinding even harder against you and you wrapped your legs around him, almost forcing him into position to rub roughly against your clit.
Goshiki had been letting out tiny whimpers here and there as well as the occasional moan, but you had been relatively quiet until his erection hit that swollen and sensitive bud of nerves so perfectly that you moaned out, almost awkwardly with how loud it was and your hand went to his hair. If anything, Goshiki took this as a sign to keep going and he ground harder against you, hoping to make you feel it again.
âIt feels so good.â He whispered against your skin and you couldnât have agreed more, literally pulling him even closer against you and he kept grinding, even faster, moaning even louder.
You loved when your partner was loud. From what you knew about Goshiki, he loved praise in everyday life. You could only imagine what it would do to him in the bedroom.
âI love the way you touch me.â You groaned quietly. He paused for a second before his hands started roaming over you again, this time further, touching parts of you he was too hesitant to touch before. âJust like that. Donât stop, youâre so good at that.â
Itâs like you could feel his heart racing, his uncertainty fading and his cock twitching against you as you complimented him. The more you praised him, the harder he worked, his moans getting louder and louder and it reached a point where if he wasnât faking it, you were sure he would orgasm.
His face was still in your chest, his hips wildly rubbing against you. His moaning turned to groans which then became grunting before one long grunt escaped him and his hips flew forward against yours, his body shaking then stilling and he started panting.
Youâre in no way an expert, but you were experienced enough to know that Goshiki just came in his pants. He wasnât moving, his face was resting against your chest as he took deep breaths.
âOh fuck.â You could hear him whisper into your chest. âOh shit.â
âGoshiki.â Your hand was still on his back and you honestly didnât know what to do or say to him because you really couldnât tell what he was thinking. âItâitâs okay.â
That was probably the worst thing to say. You were not quick to thinking ever and this definitely showcased that. Youâve had men come too soon before, but you both kept going, waiting for him to be ready again before you moved forward.
It was different for Goshiki though and it was your job to guide him. A job you were failing at.
After a minute or so, he sat up, sitting back on the couch and he stared at the coffee table, unable to bring his eyes to you.
âGoshâ"
âI should go home and change.â He looked at you and you could see how mortified he felt before he quickly looked away. âYeah, Iâm gonna go change.â
âUm, okay.â You scooted off the couch to stand up with him. âDo you want me to come with?â
âNo, itâs fine.â He already put his jacket back on and was moving to the door. âIâll message you later.â
He didnât message. Not that day and not the day after or the day after that. You were beginning to feel like it was your fault again. It wasnât like before, but you felt just as bad as you did before.
The last time you felt like this, you were at work worried that you had destroyed your friendship with Goshiki and you started to feel better after going for a walk so that should work this time too. At least thatâs what you told yourself when you started putting on your shoes. You opened your door to leave, to go somewhere, anywhere to get yourself out of your apartment and out of your head for a little.
When you opened the door, you jumped back, surprised someone was standing there. Goshiki had his hand up, ready to knock, a startled look on his face. You both stared at each other, stunned and completely not expecting to see the other. Goshikiâs hand stayed in the air, in a fist as if he was going to eventually need to knock. Like you would just close the door so the entire exchange could start fresh.
âGoshiki.â You were the first one to speak and when you did, itâs as if he woke up and slowly put his hand down.
âIâm sorry I didnât message. I said I would.â
It was still really uncomfortable. You werenât sure what to say and it wasnât as if you were mad, but you couldnât help but think that maybe he thought you were mad. The pause before you spoke was too long and now you felt like you couldnât say anything at all because it would seem weird or fake because you hesitated. Damn it, anxiety!
âSorry. You must have been going somewhere.â He stepped to the side, looking down and you could tell he was contemplating just leaving.
âDo you want to talk?â You also stepped aside and he looked up, pausing before nodding and stepping inside your apartment.
It seemed like a terrible idea to sit on that couch so you moved to the kitchen and leaned against the counter, Goshiki across from you.
âIt was stupid and unfair of me to leave again.â He started. âIââ
âNo, it was my fault.â You stepped closer to him, leaning on the kitchen island in between the both of you. âI should have been better. Iâm the one with experience.â
âBut leaving isnât helpful. I promise, I wonât leave anymore. I was just so embarrassed.â He rubbed his forehead, making a face, his cheeks already a bright pink at the memory.
âThereâs nothing wrong with coming in your pants.â You assured him. âI came in my pants too.â
âYou did?â His eyes were wide as he looked at you.
âNo, sorry. I donât know why I said that.â You admitted and he looked back down, discouraged again and you walked around the counter, putting your hand on his shoulder. âI mean, I could have, ifââ
âIf I didnât come in mine first?â He laughed and you almost let a sigh of relief out at seeing his smile. âCan I be honest?â
âYeah.â
âI think I might like you.â He looked down, not able to look at you while he spoke. Though if he did, he would have seen the huge smile on your face. âSo as much as I want to lose my virginity, maybe we could slow down.â
The only visual description you had for describing how you felt in that moment was fireworks. Fireworks were going off in your brain, in front of your eyes, all around Goshiki and you couldnât believe what he had said. He liked you.
âGoshiki?â It was still nearly impossible to contain your excitement at his confession, but you were doing your best, biting your lip so you wouldnât scream out with delight. âDo you want to go on a date with me?â
He quickly looked up at you and smiled. That smile you can never say no to.
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