#onedoorcloses

[dino-dtx214]

Had to move away and start over. Loving my new place and ready for a new beginning.

[gudgin]

Card of the Day: The World It's a new year and a new phase of your life. If things have been tough, they will improve. Make changes to your daily routine, home, or workspace to help break old habits. #tarotbygraham #tarot #oraclereading #rootsandwingsoracledeck #cardoftheday #oraclecards #oraclereadersofinstagram #tarotreadersofinstagram #theworld #onedoorcloses #anotherdooropens #opportunities #newchapter #promise #lightoverdarkness #positivity #acceptance #calm #past #future #freshstart #inspiration #newyear #dailyroutine #home #workspace #disrupt #oldhabits === (Cards are from the Roots & Wings Oracle Deck by Kat Ryalls) I would love you to join the Discord server I made for those who follow what I do. With the increasing "flakiness" of social media, having one central place to communicate seemed important. Our "family" are wonderfully supportive of one another! https://discord.gg/UgX2DD2JWk (at Edison, New Jersey) https://www.instagram.com/p/CnR2fDAOGFZ/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[threesidestoeverystory]

Memories

I attended a funeral today. I haven’t been to one since I was a little girl. That one was a 6 year old boy open casket. Bee sting to the head and he was allergic. Nothing since until now. My grandpa, well, adopted. Family is family regardless of how it comes about. For the last 10 years, I’ve been coming to see him at least once a month. That’s at least 120 visits. It should’ve been more. We were close. I wasn’t sure how I’d react. I got through the news and day of relatively in control. There was some sobbing and I got to talk with him while unconscious over the phone hours before he slipped away. COVID protocol kept me away and COVID is what ended up taking him. Fluid in the lungs, unnecessary pressure on the heart. We just couldn’t keep his blood pressure up any longer. It was peaceful.

When me and mine finally got to the reception, if that’s what it’s called, people were just showing up. I immediately lost control for the first time. I suppose it just needed to vacate me. I tend to handle loss, I’ve found, through random outbursts of emotion. Makes for a well rounded emotional being...

Corky was full of stories, but I suppose when you’re 90 it comes with the territory. These stories, however, were unique. He stole back stolen cars from Mexico and snuck them across the border, he made it through heavy fire during the Korean war (though he didn’t believe in carrying guns stating that people only shoot at the people with the guns), a Typhoon on the boat back, scaring Yankees out of West Texas by shooting up a saloon (it was his friend’s saloon who was also shooting), a trial that got way out of control, and so many more. His biggest fear was not being remembered. He didn’t have to say it out loud for me to realize this. There were plenty of insinuations and after all we’re all torn from the same cloth. Isn’t that a fear of us all? To have been insignificant and live a life that doesn’t matter? What we learn after this life is that the ‘matter’ part of that is subjective and comes from the other lives that we touch...and Corky has touched so many. 

I thought I was so special and that Corky meant the most to me more than anyone else and I to him. What a small thing to think. As I sat with others and listened to stories about him that I’d never heard and how he moved and changed other people’s lives as well; I realized then how foolish a thought I had. He was so much more than I gave him credit for without even meaning to. He was more than he gave himself credit for and I truly hope he witnessed what I did. 

It’s no doubt that he is loved and will be remembered by many. I guar-an-tee it. (Pronounced GARE-UN-TEE)

In memory of grandpa Corky.

[liticuw]

When one door closes another opens you say? But what if I close two at once? Would two doors open? Or is it because the phrasing was 'when one door closes' only one would open?

[jedilorianempress]

The Chaos of the Mind...

You know what? 

I am tired of not speaking my mind anymore... and with this new change happening to me soon? I think some new boundaries and lines need to be drawn into the sand.... 

Let me explain.... 

For most of my life growing up... I’ve been a people pleaser. There. I said it. I admit it. I’ve done anything to please anyone else in the family or life because honestly? That’s all I’ve ever known. I’ve felt that I the true honest person that I am was worth anything to anyone and when I allowed my true self to poke through (for an example when i would get lost in my creative mind and would write fan fictions, or think about how some of these characters were amazing...)

Or even hell as an example, when I was growing up and i used to deliver papers on our local area of New York? I used to listen to my Star Wars Audiobooks and I would think of what would happen if the Millennium Falcon were to come from above the skies and then reach up and have Chewbacca’s arm reach down to pick me up and take me away! 

But when I was growing up, I was looked down at my overactive mind and imagination by my parents. That who I was? Was not what people wanted to know/see/etc.. That I needed to repress who I am. 

Not to mention I always wanted to give people the benefit of the doubt. I always wanted to desperately fit in that I was the brunt of any and all jokes. That I would see any method of attention directed at me where i thought someone appreciated me? But it turned out that they were full of shit. Growing up I was made fun of so many times... SO many times. 

And don't even ask me when it comes to any guy that I started to grow emotional attachments for... because when I found out that when i fell for someone and I learned they were just using me?  It ruined my self esteem and my feeling of self worth all the more slowly grow low and down. 

And then when it comes to my job? I will focus all my power and attention to my jobs.. its why most of my resume has where ive been with a job for 2 or more years. Before I go looking for another opportunity. Now with spectrum? I have been with them for 6 years already... but with the changing times of cable and the fact that people from the pandemic aren't able to pay for their services anymore and are cutting out things - like Cable services. 

But when I know my mind needs to focus on the task at hand.. I find that its overtaken with so much more messing with my brain when I’m sitting here alone and at home. 

What is wrong with me?  Why am I feeling these thoughts?  Why am I such a failure? Am I really going to succeed?  ....but I need to remember I am just in the midst of a major transition in my life, and even though I’m struggling right now (Especially in the midst of this panic attack ive been fighting through the last almost two hours on my own locked in my head)  I have to remember i’m on the path to try and do better for myself, and try my hardest to keep focused on what will be my path ahead

It’s scare as hell, but it will be worth it in the end... because  I don’t need people telling me... who... I am.

[grandpaswagger]

Canvassing, Door-To-Door

Last Saturday, the 7th, I thought that morning while having some coffee when I woke up around 6a. I told myself: your artwork isn't moving too well on the marketplace here on the platform. I finally know the cost of actual shipping charges of what Facebook offers, but it's double the price I know, and I have to protect my artwork with insurance, but this post isn't about that; that will come in another post. **

So last Saturday, not this Saturday that just passed but before. Anyway, I should do some old-school canvassing, door-to-door here where I live, Somewhere Under The Stars, 😂. Being how my lungs are, O² 24/7, I have a portable tank, so; I started getting my portfolio together; to set out on a four-block radius for me to canvass.

I'm venturing now, and I'm stoked to do this; I canvassed around ten houses already. I take a small break, thinking to myself, I sure hope a cop doesn't stop me and ask me what I'm doing?

**(I took the break because even though I'm on oxygen, O² still falls to the lower 80s - upper - 70s range!)*

** "Confessions" 🙈 Or, what if these people I'm canvassing call the cops and tell them a man is going around selling stuff door-to-door because I didn't have any permit to solicit in the community or particulars therein. *A jailable offense here! Exemptions only for spiritual, Christian purposes.*

However, I felt that they wouldn't be around; let's do this! So, I did four more howes, and then I saw this older woman up on her porch, and stopped there at her sidewalk, and said: excuse me, m" am, may I have a moment of our time.

She said as she turned and looked: Oh my, does this bring back some memories of when I was young. I said, I'm sorry m' am; I don't understand!? She said; well, come on up here and have a seat, she paused and said, no, we'll go inside. Would you like some coffee, brisk outside a bit. I said sure I'd have some coffee; why not!?

We went in, and she had a charming home, and it felt so peaceful the moment I walked inside. I went to take my shows off; no need to take your shoes off, young man; you're a guest. Because I saw her take hers off, and I'm being courteous, respectively, taking my shoes off anyway, and she said, aren't you a darling? I snickered; it's proper m' am, manners.

We sat, and she began to explain her comment when I stopped at the end of her sidewalk by the street yet; and asked for some of her time? She goes; when I was growing up, my dad and my grandfather were both artists, and I recognize the portfolio you have with you, so I knew you had something to do with art or you as an artist. I'm amazed how you knew, ironically!

No judgments, child, she said, this pandemic has put our world in a crisis!? I agree! Well, she served me coffee, and she said; I baked some fresh cookies and just took them out of the oven; I began to say no, and she goes, shh, I insist, the holidays and all. I said, well, yes, m' am, I haven't a choice here then, and chuckled as did she. I told her; my favorite cookie at this time of year, freshly baked chocolate chip. I got two BFFs that know this first hand, too! ( smiling here )

But she asked; may I hug you, young man; I am a hugger, and I believe you need a hug?! She goes my grandchildren love my hugs, and I can't hug them enough. Adorable 🥰. Awkwardly sufficient at first, but yet it wasn't; it was a connection from her memories, as the aura was so soothing here in her home, so we hugged one another. 🥰

We were going over my artwork; I have a lot more than I've posted here! So, we talked about each picture, why I gave each image a commentary, how and why I gave the name I had chosen, things like this as we looked; she loved my artwork. But we talked of other subjects as well, as we were going over my portfolio.

She asked about my life: I told her my roots, I told her about my family tragedy, how I plummeted down the rabbit's hole and landed in the abyss facing demons and the cesspools of drugs. "When the decision I made; not wanting to or couldn't keep living on that way, anymore."

Asking God for His help coming home this time, I couldn't do it without him!

How I gave up at this point that dreadful day: before making my decision and passing away, ending up on life support and lost 68% O² to my brain, body. Coming back to join into life again: and that's when I decided when my spirit returned, and the day I went off a machine that kept a shell of an unspirited body, alive.

She told me her age, 82, she is a great grandmother and has 18 great-grandchildren, and I said better you than me, I couldn't imagine having all them great-grandchildren. That's a lot, yikes.

She picked the choices she wanted, which are pictured below. But she said, and she insisted I take her offer, which gave me natural relief inside of accomplishment and that I'm on the right pathway coming back into life from the abysses and of the drugs; that I fell prey upon! I am running from a tragedy instead of facing the fears it brought to me and the mental anguish I suffer from, placing myself in self-convictions.

'"Her name was Gladys, a lovely black woman, mother, grandmother, a great-grandmother, charming, very hospitable, and caring, a loving human being. However, she insisted I take the offer three times the amount I had quoted her. She hands cash to me, she said, and I'm shaking a bit cause I felt it was too much."'

She says; William, you sold yourself short, I think, I know you're worth more than your listing prices, cause my grand-daddy and my father used to tell us children this growing up, and I felt you deserve it for your accomplishment. You're a very talented man with your artwork and your beautiful writing. This is a blessing, and it's coming from my grandfather and father, being artists themselves. It melted my heart, ❤, as a single tear weld up in the corner of my eye, with a sigh of relief.

"I know my artworks worth, my worth, and I know what I want as far as my artistry goes, my writing, and so does God, but very grateful I am for this blessing, from a remarkable woman."

* "Me talking to God: I just thought it was too much money Lord, but I understand now why you gave me the push to do this canvassing! God's reply: my child, you asked for my help, so my angels are placed to help you along on your road home.**

I was at Gladys home just short of 3½ hrs. Last Saturday, the 7th. It was an exceptional, memorable experience, one I will cherish for the days of mine left here. And I know she'll see this, but she wants no publicity! Haha, smile, Ms. Gladys. However long that is! Thank you, and God Bless you 100xfold all your days! ❤ 🕊 💯

I asked her if I could take her picture, and she said I didn't need one, and she's right because she embedded herself with the footprints she left in my heart; I always will remember this woman, Gladys, our roads and beings were meant to meet, and I thank God for placing her there, too! So I asked her if I could at least use her first name, and she chuckled so hard I thought she might fall or pee herself, haha, but she said yes because she knew I was writing this story.

But the last thing she said before I walked down her steps was, William, write as if no one was watching. So I told Ms. Gladys, ironic you said that; because I've written that very phrase in one of my poems, I'm almost sure of it. But, boy, now I will have to read about the last twenty poems to make sure, so I am not telling any mistruths here. I'd be embarrassed 😳 !

Have a Great Day, Everyone!

Best of Wishes,

William Darnell Sr

Credits: Swagger Art Studios' & Poetry

a Division of;

"Writer's, Writing Word's:' being characters"

[geoffreyau]

Are you ready to become a homeowner? We're here to help you find the perfect house. The door's open, come on in. #opportunities #OneDoorCloses #threshold #NewHome #realtorgeoffrey#NewHomeOwner #HomeOwner #HomeBuyer #HomeSeller #HomeForSale #BuyMyHome #BuyAHome #BuyOrSell #RealEstate #RealEstateAgent (at Markham, Ontario) https://www.instagram.com/p/CCrATywHCLH/?igshid=xpv8ocqquz77

[jeffau]

Are you ready to become a homeowner? We're here to help you find the perfect mortgage. The door's open, come on in. #opportunities #OneDoorCloses #threshold #NewHome #NewHomeOwner #HomeOwner #HomeBuyer #HomeSeller #HomeForSale #BuyMyHome #BuyAHome #BuyOrSell #RealEstate #MortgageAgent #geoffreyau (at Markham, Ontario) https://www.instagram.com/p/CCqwO9BDo-_/?igshid=52kl8rt610qh

[allnewlashes-blog]

Thinking about making changes in your life? #Younique Setting goals? Getting your hustle on? Letting your entrepreneur lion out for a run for it's money? Building an empire? If you answered YES to any if these questions, we need to chat!💜 💋💄💋 Below 👇👇👇 Or DM me * * * * * * * * 🔥 #opportunity 🔥 #dreams 🔥 #newjob #successisaroundthecorner #girlboss #designyourlife #dreamjob #oregonlife #oregongirl #oregon #onedoorcloses #createalifeyoulove #anotheroneopens #entrepreneur #sahm #stayathomemom #success #wahm #womeninbusiness #businesswoman #bossbabe #goals #workfromhome #momlife #financialfreedom #homebasedbusiness #businessopportunity

[cocoakurves-blog]

Great Morning, God Is doing some aamzing things and doors are opening left and right... Stay tuned!!! #greatpeople #god #godisgood #mercy #grateful #humble #annointed #happy #onedoorcloses #anotherdooropens #cantbestopped #lordimgrateful #lordithankyou #working

[irish6605-blog]

#opportunity #onedoorcloses #openyoureyes #listentoyoursoul (at Vancouver Island) https://www.instagram.com/p/B81WzvuF9NX/?igshid=190b09j0psihv

[littlecitycharmlove]

It makes me sooo sad to see one of my favorite health food stores close 😢. . . . I will miss talking a walk on my lunch break on a beautiful spring / summer day to @earthfare . . . The employees knew me by first name .. . . . They had such great products and great selections. For all my unique food selections😜 . . . When one door closes another opens ... till next time ❤️ . . . . . #earthfare #loveyou #love #healthylifestyle #healthyfood #healthy #sad #onedoorcloses #willmissyou #foodiesofinstagram #foodie (at Kalamazoo, Michigan) https://www.instagram.com/p/B8MeqoYlBJC/?igshid=1ux9pboh64sff

[gudgin]

Card of the Day: The World With a new day comes an opportunity for a fresh start. If you are struggling with something, set it aside for the day and enthusiastically start something brand new. #tarotbygraham #tarot #oraclereading #rootsandwingsoracledeck #cardoftheday #oraclecards #oraclereadersofinstagram #tarotreadersofinstagram #theworld #onedoorcloses #anotherdooropens #opportunities #newchapter #promise #lightoverdarkness #positivity #acceptance #calm #past #future #freshstart #inspiration === (Cards are from the Roots & Wings Oracle Deck by Kat Ryalls) Sometimes you don't need a detailed tarot card reading - just a quick bit of guidance. I've got you covered! You can get a personalized 1-Card Mini-Reading from me for just $10. Just send me a message or order it directly from my website: tarotbygraham.com (at Edison, New Jersey) https://www.instagram.com/p/CmeUcp4OcX5/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[paulperrino]

Push toward your goals and do it every day so you can see and feel progress. I have been stuck in far too many circumstances where I was miserable and let other people's views and opinions keep my psyche off balance. My daily health and fitness is one thing I can truly control in my decision to not go back to that obese and unhappy guy. Life situations "might" arise where you are put in a position to move forward, and I hope you take a strong look at these opportunities to do what you want in life. #onedoorcloses #takethenextstep #believeinyourself #stayfitstayyoung #loseweight #helpyourselfhelpothers https://www.instagram.com/p/BzvgOoxh3Q9/?igshid=1l1rfxs60766k

[thatcrazylesbian]

It’s weird how looking back at how we were no longer feels right... At the time everything felt so perfect... and now it doesn’t feel like it can compare to where I am now..  I love you but am no longer in love with you... and that’s the beauty of healing. I’m so happy that I can fondly look back on a wonderful chapter but know that life has something amazing and perfect in store for my present and future.  Thank you so much for filling that chapter with happiness and love.

[crochetbyholly]

#onedoorcloses #chocolate #advent #adventcalendar https://www.instagram.com/p/Bqyp6z4BDbD/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=jwvz90tk0yl8