#once again my husband has all the correct opinions

[lavenderleahy]

"They really missed an opportunity with witch!sam. That could have been his thing."

[ilikekidsshows]

Have you seen the Sublimation leaks? Pretty much the entire episode has been leaked by now and people have made a 19 minutes super cut xD I'm asking cause I don't want to send an ask about Sublimation if you haven't seen it and don't want to be spoiled

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The entire episode came out while I was busy answering the ask game and I checked it out to respond to this ask properly . But, for future reference: unless it’s a show I’m liveblogging it’s open to spoil.

Okay, so the episode went just like I predicted with Marinette easily forgiven. Even before I saw the whole thing, I saw the collected clips and I could smell the upcoming Marinette validation in the final scenes. And yet, just like this show does time and time again, it's still worse than even what I prepared for. Of course the episode couldn't just be "Marinette gets forgiven without her having to do anything", of course her saying sorry and making reparations aren't just things she does after being forgiven, like she's the one rewarding her victims for their good behavior of forgiving her. No, they had to go even further and end the episode with Marinette's victim coddling her over her "friendship fears".

This episode is so manipulative in how hard it leans on the audience to pity Marinette throughout. Like, seriously, her Lucky Charm calls her the villain? The amount of self-pity there goes way beyond all the other cases of Marinette acting like this that have come before. Little miss ��if I make myself miserable asking me to make up for what I did wrong would be cruel” now has her own superpowers take part in her self-flagellation just to make sure no one with the actual right to be mad at her gets there first.

Marinette always does this. She makes a mistake and rather than think of a way to make up for it, she calls herself the worst and whines. “The Lucky Charm pointed her out as the villain” is not Marinette facing consequences or the episode treating her as in the wrong. It’s once again Marinette being her own worst critic whenever she does something wrong, to make sure the audience feels bad for her first and foremost so that they can instantly forgive her even when she never actually learns. “Marinette loves to learn,” my ass. “The villain was me” is just “I’m the worst Guardian” with a new coat of paint.

The important part is that the person with the right to be mad at Marinette, Sublime, had already forgiven her before Marinette even had her little villain realization. Just because a character says something that’s right on paper doesn’t mean it’s being presented as the correct perspective in the episode. It depends on that framing I’ve been harping on about. So, while Sublimation rightfully chewed Marinette out, all the scenes before her Akumatization have her acting entitled, cold and harsh, calling Sublime’s dad a failure and getting on his case for coddling her when he merely offers her a balancing hand and not taking Sublime’s opinions on things into account. In all these scenes, her husband talks calmly while she’s snapping; the writers intend her to come across as misguided or downright unreasonable. This makes it so that her yelling at Marinette comes across as her just being unreasonable again and like we’re meant to see her as being mean, especially because Marinette also looks the saddest in the episode specifically when Sublimation is yelling at her. To further make Sublimation's points worthless, her power to make people the best version of themselves doesn't work on Marinette because she already "perfect". If she's already so perfect, then why does she keep doing this shit?

The only characters calling Marinette out are herself, in her typical “I’m the worst” fashion, and a “jerk-coded” character whose opinion we aren't supposed to respect. This was already visible in the leaked scenes and made it very clear to me that Marinette wouldn’t be suffering any real consequences for what she did, her feeling guilty is meant to be the consequence and punishment. And I was proven correct. When Sublimation is dealt with, no one is mad at Marinette anymore, because being mad at her is what villains do. It doesn’t matter that Marinette claims she was in the wrong because she does it in an overly exaggerated manner that the viewer won’t take seriously. It doesn’t matter that the other characters have a “this is going to end poorly” attitude about Marinette’s nonsense, when they’re clearly pitying Marinette and not her target. It doesn’t matter that Marinette gets called out when the character doing it is the supervillain in an altered state of mind we’re supposed to see as unreasonable.

This episode is so disrespectful towards Sublime. No one voices concern over whether or not she would need to be protected from the downfall of Marinette’s shenanigans, all Tikki, Alya and Trixx are concerned with are that Marinette will come out of this smelling like roses with that “mistakes are an opportunity to earn and Marinette loves to learn” nonsense. Yeah, Marinette loves mistakes because no one is ever concerned with the people those mistakes hurt! Sublime should not be getting treated as a teaching aid in universe, when she’s supposed to be a person Marinette wants to befriend. Like, it’s clear she only wants to befriend Sublime for control freak reasons to make sure she isn’t talking to Adrien behind her back, considering how obsessed she is with that thought, but that is still the stated end goal.

Speaking of, Sublime should not have wanted to be friends with Marinette no matter if Adrien told her she has difficulties making friends, her reaction to Ladybug shattering her legs should not have been “I’m okay!” She should want to stay away from Marinette’s clearly unbalanced ass. She should have been pissed at Ladybug, it was her right. But, no, she couldn’t possibly be upset about any of that because being upset at Marinette is what bad people do and Sublime is a good person and good people always put Marinette’s feelings before their own. It’s a good thing Marinette’s Miraculous Ladybug can fix any damage caused by anyone on the same day a villain fight happens or otherwise she couldn’t have rewarded Sublime and her family for being such good people who forgave her before she could even apologize or make reparations.

Also, if I got cornered by my new friend’s stalker girlfriend alone in a dressing room, I’d book it, not offer to talk about whatever she wanted to talk about to make her comfortable with me. Everyone in Miraculous is either a master of emotional control, or they get Akumatized, except, of course, for Marinette, who can do whatever messed up thing she comes up when she's having an emotion and she will be instantly forgiven because she was just being emotional. Well, in the real world, sometimes, when you do messed up things because of your emotions, another person's emotions make them yell at you for it, and they'll be right to do so.

The fact that Marinette did all that and is getting rewarded with the friendship she wanted at the start of the episode and more coddling from her victim just leaves a bad taste in my mouth. Marinette’s magical powers of super convenience fixed her mistakes as a superhero and her super perfect therapist boyfriend's damage control saved her civilian reputation, not her own actions. And she still dared to be upset when she heard that Sublime had been talking with Adrien behind her back, because god forbid Adrien spend time with people who are not Marinette or a part of Marinette’s posse. What is Marinette teaching kids in this episode? That it’s okay if you fuck up and act like a menace as long as you say “I’m sowwy, I don’t deserve to be our friend”. Still keeping up the trend of teaching kids exactly how to manipulate people into forgiving you, I see.

[rnn11203]

How much do you think Demetrius/robin tried with Sebastian? I kinda see all the parents of stardew to be well meaning in a sense that i think they do truly love their children but they get swept up and do wrong due to their circumstances, resentment, and insecurity.

I think Pam loves Penny, but her addiction, raising penny on her own, losing her job… yk? All that pain turned into more pain, i think Pam knows penny has done far too much for her, but is too ashamed to fully realize it, so to cope she internalizes it and blames penny all over. Obsesses over her own sacrifices and her own pain and ends up neglecting her.

I think Jodi loves Sam and Vincent, but she also feels resentful, lamenting about a life not lived, she married young and now worries about a husband who is different from when he left. She’s afraid that Sam’s turned lazy, but also didnt want to repeat the wasted youth she missed out on too, she bottles her emotions and it creates anxiety for Sam specifically. Kent too, its interesting that Sam feels indifferent to his fathers return isnt it? All that lost time, strangers now, Sam had grown fine without him and perhaps this creates guilt for both of them.

I think Pierre and Caroline love Abigail, honestly, i dont think the “rumors” bother Pierre THAT much, i think sometimes he feels it, maybe after a particularly rough fight with either of his family members but i think he truly loves her, he’s her dad after all no matter who her father is. Caroline too, i think it’s just this unspoken thing for them, let the town gossip, they love their daughter. I dont think they understand her very well tho, and yk, she doesnt think they do either. Its one of those things where the more you try to understand, the less you hear. Abigails relationship with her parents reads more cliche teenager to me though, i headcanon that their relationships settle as she ages. I think Abigail would move out of the valley and travel frequently but i think shed make trips back to her family often. Mostly for holidays. I think Caroline specifically would still feel anxious and wish she didnt travel as much, but i think her and Pierre’s relationship gets better in the future too. (It’s funny, Pierre is one of the least popular characters but i actually really like him).

Which brings me to Sebastian, Robin, and Demetrius. Again with an unpopular opinion, when i first played, i really liked Demetrius. Although i did feel that robins side of the arguements were more “correct”.

I headcanon Sebastian’s age to be around 22-23~ while Maru’s is 18-19~. I also headcanon that Sebastians father simply just left while Seb was around 3~. Im curious to how others think him and robin met, im unsure if its ever mentioned in game but honestly i think they met due to work. Demetrius has stated that he studies the local flora and fauna and Robin is a carpenter, i imagine she has a lot of knowledge about pelican towns native plants and animals. I think they were smitten, i can see robin liking Demetrius more nerdy/dorky behavior and robins stern, playful, spitfire personality has captured the hearts of many players after all.

Sebastian comes off as a Velcro kid to me, i think he’d be a huge mamas boy and feel almost threatened by Demetrius. I think robin and Demetrius would marry quickly, and honestly i think Maru was a planned pregnancy, I think robin wanted to give Sebastian a sibling so he’d be less lonely, and i think they’d figure that bonding would happen easier if they were closer in age. I see this being very upsetting to Sebastian, i think he’d see his father once in a while but when hes around 12-13 it’s just.. silence.

Honestly, i think Demetrius would try really hard to bond with Sebastian. But once Maru came along both him and robin were just.. busy. I think Demetrius would unfortunately think “wow this is my first child!” And it alienated Sebastian. I think Sebastian feels abandoned. Replaced. Unwelcome. Which is why he struggles with opening up to others and prefers being alone.

Unfortunately i think robin and Demetrius would just think Sebastian was a more difficult child and that Maru was an easier baby. I think this would embarrass Sebastian and shame him, i dont think they ever meant anything by it but i do think Sebastian was a fussy child who wanted to be soothed. But after their comments, he’d isolate himself so that he too, would be an “easier” child for them. As Sebastian ages i think robin would feel she didnt do enough for him, i think she worries about him often but almost feels like it’s “too late”. I think eventually Sebastian would come to resent and feel mistreated by all his parents and as his behavior worsened, he’d get compared to Maru even more, furthering the resentment and pain he feels. I do think he’d be a meaner older brother though, causing Demetrius to be more protective over Maru causing stronger feelings of “you’re not my dad!” And etc…. Can you tell im sleepy yet?

TLDR: i think they would try their best but ultimately end up sidelining him, causing him to act out more until he just didnt care anymore.

[dcdreamblog]

What do Think Of Superhero cults like The Cult Of Superman?

Superheroes have always been religiously...thorny, depending on the kind of religious worldview you're looking at them from.

From Hawkman's tales of pagan reincarnation, to the Spectre's claims of being god's righteous right hand, the arcana of Dr. Fate, even just being confronted with a worldview in which human beings are able to do the impossible. There's lots of reactions to this, a crisis of faith, rejection of the heroes outright as frauds or even agents of evil. Then, of course there's the kind that you mention.

"Worship" of superheroes has taken a lot of forms. Some people have be rebuked by the Catholic church for instance for "praying for superheroes too often", like they were trying to make them into saints if the Holy See is to be believed. The most high profile version is, like you said the Superman Cult

(Image of a procession put on by the Cult in the wake of Superman's funeral, Daily Planet)

Originally called "The Fellowship" under a troubled young man named Robert Galt in California they raised a lot of hell in their original incarnation, starting an all out gang war with a rival group called The Consortium some of its members even gaining superpowers for a short period under unknown circumstances. They became nationally famous in the wake of Superman's apparent death, treating him as an almost Christ-like figure who died for humanity's sins and would arise from the dead to bring those who believed in him and his "deeds" into a better world as "The Man of Tomorrow". When Superman returned to life indeed less than 6 months later and their "better world" failed to materialize as Superman of course had no interest in dividing the world along ethical lines, any more than he had been before his absence their loudest period ebbed.

They're not GONE, that's for sure. When I lived in Metropolis I saw them in their funny blue robes out on street corners, or saw their literature in waiting rooms. An offshoot of their movement even tried to burn Lois Lane at the STAKE for "rejecting" Superman in favor of Clark Kent. Superman and Batman put a stop to that foolishness very quick, of course. (There are still jackasses who harass Lane and her husband to this day for reasons like this.)

Look, showing all my cards, I'm an atheist. I don't believe in any "higher power" as such. I know that magic exists, that various beings claiming to be connected to gods of various pantheons or even to BE gods themselves also exist. But I don't believe in any of them as some all good creator deity who holds my eternal soul in hostage for my good behavior. I do good because it is good and for no other reasons, and of course I take INSPIRATION in that from the heroes that I've studied but I'm not about to start sacrificing goats about it.

Superman is a man. Not a human man, of that much he has been very honest. But he's a person, blessed by abnormal circumstances with the power to do good and he uses that power to do right by others. To attribute that to divinity would be to undercut the message he has always (ironically) preached, that WE are capable of being better, as we are.

If you ARE religious, you can of course correct me. But the mainstream religious opinion these days seems to be counting our superheroes as blessings. Delivered in the manner that any other blessing is delivered by whatever divine hands you believe in. Maybe you are a Christian who truly believes that those who claim to be angels walk among us once again in the form of The Spectre or Zauriel. Maybe you believe that even if they're not LITERAL angels of the lord, they do good work in his name so what's there to worry about. My advice. Do good in "their name" by letting them set our example, not because you fear some kind of wrath from Superman on high. It seems like it makes him VERY uncomfortable.

[nillisaie]

Saw a few people ranking their favs and least favs HH characters so I decided to do the same!

My faves!

1. Alastor

2. Emily

3. Carmilla Carmine

Honorable Mentions:

- Missi Zilla

My least favs in no particular order:

- Adam

- Vox

- Lucifer

My reasons below

I feel like it's pretty obvious that I absolutely love and adore Alastor, but for those who don't know: he's my husband and honestly the only reason I started watching Hazbin Hotel. He also has helped me immensely with working through some trauma and figuring out I'm aspec, etc., but that's a discussion for another day

She's just like me fr!!! Except less depressed and anxious and traumatized... But her whole vibes and everything is just so relatable that she feels like me. Love her! Also some fan designs of her "fallen" form made her look even more like me <333

She's absolutely stunning. Beautiful. Gorgeous. Ethereal. And she's Latina! Just absolutely immaculate. 10/10 I could just stare at her for hours on end. No, btw, I'm not a lesbian. My feelings for Carmilla transcends any sexual or romantic desires

And my honorable mention: just look at her. How can you not love her? Can't wait to see more of her!

And now for my least faves. Disclaimer that just because they're my least fave doesn't mean that I necessarily hate them. I don't really hate anyone, they're just my least favorites

I do not really care for the "dick master" or his frat boyness. I just don't think I'd get along with him and that I'd be annoyed by him

Okay, I actually have a personal vendetta against Vox. Ever since I learned that he has a shark motif, I have not known peace. Everytime I try to wash my face in the shower, the only thing I see are sharks. I have a deep sea phobia. It's been months. Also I don't like his smile. It makes him look obnoxious and loud imo

And finally Lucifer. I just feel like he made a really bad first impression. To the hotel residents that is. He just shows up and is just kind of rude to everyone? Granted Alastor did kind of antagonize him a bit, but I feel like Alastor's antagonization was far subtle and lesser than Lucifers. All Alastor really did initially was just call Lucifer short and Luce called Alastor a hazbin and said his name idea was basically shit after complimenting Charlie for supposedly coming up with the name. Like, really? (feel free to correct me if I'm mistaken tho. It's been a minute since I last saw this scene)

And then there's the whole Hell's Greatest Dad where he once again attacks Alastor a bit unprompted, but also just tries to completely take over for Charlie? Like, he just kind of went "Oh you're doing a bad job here, let dad take care of everything and you just sit back and relax, sweetie" which is kind of nice, but also really not? Let Charlie stand on her own two feet and ask for help if she needs it. Which he does eventually, but it took awhile. He also again insulted everyone in the hotel and not just Alastor during the song as well (Alastor: ✨found family✨ Lucifer: what a bunch of losers)

So really bad first impressions. Also I personally just found his whole little thing with how he taunted Adam pretty gross, but I'm biased so

Also something not at all with the show, but something I saw in the fandom that really soured my opinion on him: I unfortunately had the misfortune of seeing a r@dio@pple fanart that was an exact recreation of my sexual trauma with Lucifer as the perpetrator. It honestly really messed me up and still kind of does

Okay, that was kind of longer than I had intended. Once again, I don't necessarily hate any of these characters, they're just my least favorite unfortunately. And Alastor of course is my absolute favorite and I absolutely adore him to bits ❤️❤️❤️

[deathmetalunicorn1]

Hi I wanted to ask if you could write a new chapter for Higanbana Hime :)

I legit squeed when I saw this! I’m so happy you enjoy this series! I will be honest I haven’t worked on it in so long, but I’m going to do my best for this!

-Nadeshiko settled into the party easily, only being just a bit shy with the visitors from the Hindu Pantheon, as they were exotic looking, but mostly shirtless or wearing rather revealing clothing, something she was a bit unused to, but she was conversing with Shiva and Ganesha warmly as they both wanted to know more about her skills as a swordswoman.

-Ganesha’s eyes were sparkly, “So is being able to beat everyone so easily why they call you Higanbana-hime?” Nadeshiko turned white with a squeak as Raiden spat out his sake, choking on his laughter before he felt a chill run up his spine.

-He turned and saw Nadeshiko glaring over at him, a red tint in her eye as he held up his hands, begging for mercy as her face turned red, looking a little bashful, “That’s what others call me- mainly because I wear this.” She pulled her haori across to show them the pattern with the red spider lilies, explaining that in her culture they were a sign of death, and she gained the name when she traveled around, rescuing abused women- daughters and wives, from their abusive families and husbands. While the women viewed her as a hero for saving them, men who were intimidated by her strength and skills saw her more as a vengeful spirit, hunting down cruel fathers and husbands.

-Parvati pouted lightly as she was sitting next to Nadeshiko, looking at the beautiful details, “But let me guess- those abusive husbands and fathers didn’t see anything wrong with how they were treating the women and acted like you were a bad guy right?” Nadeshiko gave her a weak smile, telling her that she was correct.

-Kali had a hand to her lips, “But you don’t do this anymore, right?” Nadeshiko smiled gently over at her, her smile seeming like it held a secret, but Kojiro answered first, “She does! Despite being in Valhalla- sometimes there are still bad eggs that enter, but Nadeshiko is quick to deal with them!”

-Nadeshiko pouted lightly, pinching and pulling Kojiro’s cheek lightly, “Don’t tell them that- I don’t need anymore people scared of me!” he just laughed warmly before whining that his cheek hurt before she released him.

-Shiva was watching carefully, seeing how kind she was to Ganesha, speaking kindly to his wives, and being polite to him and the others and he knew that she would be a great person to speak to about this issue!

-Shiva shifted as everyone moved around, getting more drinks and food and she quickly found herself sitting between both Shiva and Raiden as the Hindu god spoke, “We would like your advice and opinion on this issue Nadeshiko- about marrying a human woman.”

-She nodded softly, knowing of the arrangement and the issues that arrived with it, asking her own question, “You want to marry for love, correct?” he nodded, looking over at his wives who were playing a drinking game with Kojiro and Okita, laughing and having fun, “I do- we all do- since whoever is chosen has to marry all of us. I don’t want to force anyone who isn’t willing but that damn geezer is going to force our hand if we don’t decide soon.”

-She nodded softly, looking up at him before Raiden grinned brightly, “Why don’t you do it Nadeshiko-chan? Marry Shiva and the others!” everything went deathly silent, eyes going wide as everyone turned to the three. Shiva was surprised Raiden was so forward about it, Raiden was beaming down at her while Nadeshiko was staring wide-eyed, like she didn’t believe what she just heard.

-From the tip of her toes to the top of her head she quickly turned bright red as she cupped her cheeks, once again looking like a pure maiden, “Wha-what- ME?!” smiles and laughter quickly filled the dojo, seeing this ‘fearsome warrior woman’ reacting in such an adorable way as her eyes were swirls.

-Shiva unfortunately made it worse, putting one of his hands on her shoulder closest to him, “I’m game- what do you think Nadeshiko?” it seemed like she was now glowing bright red as she eyes were spinning faster before she fell back, fainting from shock.

-More laughter filled the dojo as she stammered in her unconscious state, repeating the word ‘marriage’ over and over again. Raiden slapped his knee as he howled with laughter, knowing his friend was fine, “Maybe we’ll ask her again when she wakes up!”

-Shiva shared a look with Rudra, his wives, and all the others, all of them were smiling, silently agreeing that they were okay with this situation. Now they just had to get an answer from Nadeshiko, once she woke up.

[darklinaforever]

https://www.tumblr.com/darklinaforever/757552705757708288/httpswwwtumblrcomdarklinaforever757551571008?source=share

Oh, this brave new world, where rape can be called anything at all. If a woman lives in a world where sex with her husband for the sake of duty is the norm, it DOES NOT TRAUMATIZE HER. So why the sympathy? She's fine, it's the norm of her world.

Actually, her words that she is happy do not contradict her words at dinner, because their meaning was to show that marriage is not scary at all. At the time of dinner, she was happy with her life and confirms this in the last episode, saying that she was happy before she became queen.

People can behave differently with different people. Yes, Aegon raped the maid, but that doesn't mean he sleeps with Helaena, who he's obviously not interested in as a woman at all. He has maids, whores -why does he need Helaena? Or do you think that all he does is raping women 24/7? Btw, you can deny the actors' words as much as you like, but this is canon, because Tom and Phia said that Aegon did not touch Helaena for entertainment and except for sex for the sake of duty (which obviously Helaena agreed to) they had nothing. And yes - in the phrase "he only pays attention to me when he's drunk" there is not a word about rape and sex in general. Have you ever seen Aegon in the show? He rather comes to her to cry that his mother does not love him.

Live in denial if you want. Not my problem.

The episode was very clear about what Helaena's sentence really meant.

Why the hell would Aegon II be verbally correct with Helaena when he's been drinking when he thinks she's an idiot he has nothing in common with ? (and don't let their children be taken away from me because clearly Aegon II always didn't care royally about his children, until the day his son became his heir) Once again, what you say is not consistent with what the show gives.

And where did I specifically mention trauma ? I rightly said that Helaena clearly didn't realize what she was going through, and not just because it's the norm in his world and his family but probably also because of his visibly disconnected personality.

And, beyond Helaena, I assure you that somes women of the time were traumatized by "marital duties" whether it was the norm or changed nothing.

And no, just because the actors say a few things doesn't mean it's canon in the show.

The example of Olivia Cooke that I gave is quite explicit on the subject.

The actors give their opinions. Downright headcanons sometimes.

We can take into account what they say when it is consistent with what the show shows and suggests.

And what the cast of Aegon II and Helaena are saying has no real backing on the show, whether you like it or not.

I don't care what the actors say.

I want proof in the show I'm watching, not in interviews which add nothing to the canon given on screen.

Throughout the episode we are shown Aegon sexually aggressive, even at the table where the dinner happens and where Helaena's speech is made.

The subtext is very clear.

Nothing suggests to the viewer that what Helaena means is that in fact Aegon II comes to her only for complain about his misfortunes of their mother who doesn't love him when he is drunk.

At no time in this episode or those before it where he is present is this kind of scenario suggested.

And that's what counts.

Either way, Aegon II is still a little shit of an alcoholic rapist who enjoys watching children fight in an arena and harassing his little brother.

Don't get tired of trying to defend him to me.

The fact that he asks for his mother and is full of the fact that she doesn't love him doesn't soften me for a single second.

That he suffers, it does him good.

[box-architecture]

"You're so cute, Sammy."

Sam whimpered, turning his head to the side. In Dream’s -usually correct- opinion, this only made him cuter. He grinded tiny circles into his lover's hole, delighting in choked moan he got in response. They were taking things slow this morning, no need to rush, but Dream couldn't help but want to push for a little more, to see how many noises he could get out of his sweet, adorable husband.

He'd always been a little greedy. Hadn't Sam said so himself once, back in prison?

The thought was soft and amused, but he didn't say it out loud; Sam wasn't supposed to be fretting over the past. Not here, not now. Dream wanted him pliant, with all the pleasure his body could take. A good boy, all for Dream.

"My good boy." He murmured. Sam keened, arching as he clenched down around Dream's cock. Dream hummed in satisfaction, letting his eyes flutter closed.

Without preamble, he began to thrust again, quick and shallow. He'd deepen it over time, of course, he wouldn't let his love go without, but Dream was in a gentle bliss, the kind that came from knowing how good the buildup could be.

Sam's noises were more than proof of that.

"You are mine, aren't you? My Sammy? Made for me?" Dream asked. He pet his beloved's flank, smiling at the way Sam's eyes went wide. "It feels like you are. Your hole was made to take me, I think. You feel so good around my cock."

Immeadietly, Sam's hips stuttered, trying to take him further, deeper.

"Yes." He gasped out a sob. "Yours, all yours, Dream, Dream, please-"

"I've got you, Sam." Dream reassured him, leaning forward to fuck him deeper. "You're doing so good. My good boy."

Affection bloomed in his chest as Sam warbled and hissed in embarrassed pleasure. Dream nuzzled the fluff of Sam's creeper belly, fighting the urge to stop thrusting just to lay on top of him and bask in their connection. Another time, maybe, where Sam could cockwarm for him, or he for Sam.

Dream felt paws pet the back of his head. He looked up to meet Sam's desperate face.

"Dream, are you, can I- please, I need-"

His paws were so gentle, clearly trying not to claw Dream in their attempts to hold him. Dream slowed his thrusting and took them both into his hands. He pressed them against his cheeks, to cup his face the way Sam wanted.

"You're so good to me." Dream kissed a pawpad. "My husband. And I'm all yours."

Sam warbled, a wet note in his voice. Dream stroked his paws with his thumbs.

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I wanted to write Dream topping Sam and also Dreams POV and also its really nice to picture, years down the line when they're all adults For Real and not dumb 20 somethings, that Dream has healed and is Living and able to laugh very softly as he thinks of how Bad it was but it doesn't hurt anymore

And for Dream prison becomes something he's able to think about without pain, able to make jokes that aren't self depreciating or intended to hurt. But for Sam it's never going to be that, because of what he did, the person he became, even if Dream has forgiven him and they're in such a good place now

And they're both Valid and Good and Understandable and

Like obviously in an abusive situation the victim comes before the abuser, but also also I really like. Abusers becoming better, reflecting on their behavior, anxious and traumatized through the self-realization. Sam did not come out of prison okay. No one did.

And Dream wants Sam to be happy and healed and so even if it's safe for him to talk about he understands why it's not for his puppycat husband and he respects Sam's differing needs and and. I know I'm overexplaining but it's Important. To Me

Their relationship isn't just Sam taking and being remorseful all of a sudden it's both of them Wanting Wanting Wanting and changing to be able to fit together again, to love each other like they want to.

And with awesamdrunz it's Punz countering Sam's more abusive tendencies learned from prison so that that growth can be Facilitated and Sam already thought Punz was handsome and strong and pretty but as he starts to self-realize and reflect on prison he's able to understand Punz and fully falls in love with them instead of just the Possessive Yearning and the need for them to be around to make Sam's brain go brrr properly

(Because Sam Has All The OCD you see. And if things aren't a certain way he will Simply Perish.)

But it's better now and they're better now and Dream is in love with his big silly puppycat who isn't a good person, but that's okay, because neither is Dream, neither is Punz. He isn't 20 anymore, crushing on Sam because Sam is so upright and lawful (but also because he's handsome, strong, and so smart with redstone-)

He's in love with Sam now, because Sam is helpful around the house, has a nice laugh, is so strong but works with such a delicate thing like Redstone that requires gentleness. He fucks Dream like he's something worth wanting and his ears perk up when Dreams cane taps against the floor.

Being with him Feels Good, Feels Safe, after so long.

Dream is living in the present now, instead of trying to get back to the past.

[theblogtini]

So, do you think that Charles and Kate are really on the letters? Or is what Omid wanted make people to believe? Or they indeed are, but is because they say something ‘meh’ and H&M wanted to make people believe they are racists!?

I know that topic is super complicated, but if I’m honest, I don’t think Charles and Kate said something so outrageous to be labeled as ‘racists’. And the version has changed a lot that I don’t know what to think. First was only one royal, then she said that was while pregnant, then H said that it’s before even the engagement, first were ‘several conversations’ and then just one, etc. I just don’t see Charles telling him that the better their future children were white or he won’t give titles nor security or Kate telling him that she was worried because maybe if the children weren’t white that would look bad for the monarchy, which is what they basically said of how conversation went.

Also, MM can claimed that were Charles and Kate, but how are we sure they really were?

I think Charles and Catherine were really named in the letter. The "source" from Montecito said that Meghan "never intended for the names to be public" but there was no denial or correction. So I'm assuming they were the ones accused.

BUT I don't believe it's true that they necessarily said anything racist.

Meghan said that - during a conversation she wasn't even a part of, that happened when she wasn't even present, before she was even engaged to Harry - there was "concern" about how "dark" a baby might be.

We KNOW FOR A FACT that Harry has had this conversation before -he admitted as much on TV.

My guess is that Harry was speaking/joking with his father and sister-in-law about Meghan's genes wiping out his gingerness (again, as he has admitted to doing on TV). And at the time there was NOTHING malicious or anything even presumed about the conversation. But as time went on, as Meghan became more bitter, as Harry and Meghan's hate bubble grew, and as she realized that in order to try "win" or "beat" Catherine she needed to be a victim, she decided to take a VERY INNOCENT conversation and turn it into something incredibly mean spirited at best, and evil at worst.

But ... Meghan hasn't provided any PROOF of this. Harry has flat our refused to speak about it (during the Oprah interview he was VERY uncomfortable when it came up and literally said he didn't want to talk about it) and he said during his Spare press tour that his family is not racist and he never claimed they were.

Claiming that someone is a racist is a HUGE accusation to make, and Meghan hasn't backed it up once. She actually hasn't even directly said it - she's insinuated it. She's implied it. She's let people draw their own conclusions. But she's never outright said it. And she has never done a single thing to confirm it.

In my opinion, the fact that she won't provide proof of such a serious accusation tells me that she KNOWS it wasn't what she's trying to make it seem like it was. She knows no one was being racist. She knows no one was trying to be hurtful or harmful or malicious. Someone - whether it was Catherine or Charles or even Harry himself (because again, Meghan wasn't even there) - made a comment and Meghan decided to capitalize on all of the "the UK is so racist toward her" rhetoric and let that accusation stick there.

If it's true - she needs to prove it. And she CAN'T because she wasn't even there. But even if she wasn't there and she 100% truly believed that what was said was racist, she could easily go out and say "This is what was said. Yes, it was a second hand conversation, but this is what my husband told me was said and this is how I've interpreted it, and I am very hurt and disgusted by these comments and I am owed an apology."

She hasn't done that. And she won't do that. Because she KNOWS that wasn't the case. At all.

And also... it makes even more sense now that Catherine was the one who said that "recollections may vary" needed to stay in the statement. Because she KNEW what was going to happen - she KNEW that Meghan was going to say that she was the one who said it (which does give credence to the fact that Charles and Catherine were the ones named in the letters) and - therefore - she knew that it was important that people understand that what actually happened and the Sussex retelling of things were very different.

[theflyindutchwoman]

It's been a while without the rookie so between the fanfics, the wishes for chenford and the ideas of what chenford could be and others shows who focus more on relationships, maybe it got lost that the rookie isn't as angsty that what some peoples think it is right now. Angela/wesley for the past 3 seasons, nolan/bailey in s4 with the ex husband, they got their up and downs but they don't break up. Once they have their endgames the show don't throw breakups for the fun or angst of it. The show priorites isn't relationships dramas, if it was they could have done SO MUCH MORE in s4 with chris,ashley and chenford. This is also why I respectfully don't understand peoples who think a breakup would be fun for angst because the only angst you'll have is them looking at each other for 3 sec if we are lucky like in 5x3 and then they'd be off doing their cops things. Waiting week after weeks for this would be boring and annoying as hell after waiting 5 years. And I know some peoples are worried about it, but a breakup wouldn't be spoiled.

Honestly, I just think people were simply stating what they wished to see. Someone asked them a question and they answered. It was about their preferences… I know that when I received a similar ask in the past, the logistics of the show didn't necessarily factor in my reply.

I can't speak for anyone who would like to see a breakup - or anyone else for that matter - but I think it's pretty fair to assume that what they want is a separation that makes sense, that is properly developed, with decent screentime and a real storyline that involves far more than just 3 seconds of pining here and there. The same way I want to see Lucy and Tim face some ups and downs : it's under the assumption that it is going to be written in a beautiful way and not rushed. And it is technically doable. Take episodes 5.08 to 5.12 for instance : Tim and Lucy had a fair amount of screentime dedicated to their relationship. The writers could easily use that same amount for a more angsty storyline or a breakup. Especially if it's related to UC : it could be linked to a case. A bit like 5.20 and 5.21. Though a shorter season does present a bigger challenge, that's for sure.

And you're right, the show doesn't really do 'breakups/reconciliation' storylines. Actually, it doesn't really do 'breakups'… Rachel, Gino and Isaac are still waiting for one. Jokes aside, the show did have a storyline like this for Wesley/Angela, but that was at the very beginning… I don't know if Bailey/Nolan broke up once it was revealed she was still married, but since it was solved by the next episode, I guess it's a moot point. Same with Nyla/James. And with her sleeping with her ex-husband, there was a reason to go there (though I'm grateful we were spared a 'who's the father' storyline). All these arcs could have been much more dramatic, that's for sure. So far, the show hasn't really leaned into that side. That's why I'm a bit sceptical that they would do a plotline like this. On the other hand, Tim and Lucy's relationship has been far more developed… So it wouldn't be completely beyond the realms of possibility either.

I also doubt that Eric would spoil something like that. More than once. Then again, this is the same guy who made a video last year with his new uniform, spoiling his promotion in the process. So who knows?! I have to say though, the timing of this makes me curious. As far I can tell, he only started talking about breakups after he was directly asked about his opinion on the matter. Not before. I mean, I may be wrong on the timeline here since I don't check his cameos. But that's the way it appeared to me. It could be that he received more information in-between… In which case, talk about perfect timing. That said, I get why some would rather be prepared or are worried. That's not my place to judge them.

(I won't take the risk of tagging anyone here, not in this volatile atmosphere, but feel free to pitch in or correct me).

[backjustforberena]

Do you have any opinions on Rhaenys’s mannerisms throughout the show? (Checking her nails, smirking in the background?)

Oooh, okay, this is a good one. I'd love it if you gave me some specific examples because the ones you have chosen are the ones that the fandom at large (love or loathe Rhaenys) has latched onto. I think that's partially because Rhaenys is pretty statuesque, pretty hard to read. She doesn't gesticulate or snap or have any particular habits or ticks that other characters do. That makes her difficult to contest with, in comparison to the other more volatile characters. And so we put a lot of importance on the bigger movements which we believe to be more easily defined as a character trait.

You've picked a great one as an example of this: the nail-checking. Correct me if I'm wrong (honestly, please do) but Rhaenys does this once in the show. It's amazing, adorable, and in her first two minutes of screen time but we never actually see it again. But the fandom latches onto it because of those things. Myself included. For me, it's a very keen insight into her feelings surrounding the tourney, her feelings about court and about her life as it is at the point in time that we meet her in the series.

She's at a tourney, celebrating her cousin's heir about to be born. She isn't wowed or excited by the bloodshed, as the young girls are. She's not swooning at knights or even really gossiping, other than to tell her husband how distasteful it all is and how predictable. She's not entertained particularly, not like Viserys, or Beesbury making bets behind them. She's more on a level with Corlys; they have their back-and-forth and it introduces their dynamic - the honesty between them and their positions as outsiders. Honestly, she's drinking wine and getting through it. She's got bugger-all else to do. No agenda. No pandering. No goal. I think there was an interview with Eve where she said that, at the start of the series, when we meet her, Rhaenys is probably a little bit bored and a little bit frustrated because she's roleless in court but no less visible. That comes across here. All that is required of her is to sit.

And the smiling. Lordy did her smiles get vilified or overblown and exaggerated in some people's commentary. At least in my mind. Please feel free to disagree. Again, I don't know which example you are thinking of specifically as she smiles in the background of a few scenes. They're usually for vastly different reasons as well; sometimes they are false and sometimes they are true but most of the time they are tiny.

I can hazard a guess though and say you are talking about the look that Rhaenys gives Rhaenyra and Daemon as she exits the Painted Table room, before Rhaenyra and Daemon have their little showdown? That seems to be the one that people have a bit of a hard time with in addition to the way Rhaenys acts in general during that episode, in regards to Rhaenyra (not bowing, not wishing to remain, not declaring herself as soon as she arrives on Dragonstone, the way she delivers Viserys's death etc etc).

Rhaenys's job, and the groundwork of her relationship with Rhaenyra, has always been to watch. Rhaenys probably knows by this point that she's staying on Dragonstone. She knows her grandkids are going nowhere and by that scene, we've had Otto come and declare his terms.

I think that smirk is a comment on Rhaenyra and Daemon's dynamic. In the first Painted Table scene, when Rhaenyra is first crowned, Rhaenyra is unsure and unsteady and a bit overwhelmed. Daemon takes charge. He has plans he has already been executing. Daemon doesn't really listen to Rhaenyra and commits their dragons to war (including Rhaenys's) if needs be. He's done things that Rhaenyra doesn't like, but ultimately she doesn't fight it or assert herself. Whereas Rhaenys, when faced with that behaviour from Daemon ("To declare for his Queen") tactfully tells him to simmer the f*** down and stop counting his chickens before they hatch.

But now Rhaenys is seeing Rhaenyra actually consider peace terms and, when Daemon oversteps, Rhaenyra takes charge and asks everyone to clear out. Rhaenys is proud. Rhaenys is seeing that maybe, just maybe, she has what it takes. Considering that the most Rhaenys has known of Rhaenyra is her mainly relying on her father to get her out of scrapes and not really having that much political instinct as well as not listening to good advice when it's given, it's a bit of a change. There's little in "Lord of the Tides", for example, that would give Rhaenys confidence in Rhaenyra's ruling ability.

Would she have liked to have stayed and watched? Yes. Who wouldn't? But that shot is a reminder that whilst they've all been plotting and planning and declaring, Rhaenys has been watching and waiting and looking for a Queen.

Thank you for sending this ask in x

[defensivelee]

I realize I have not spoken much about the Jacobite I actually know so I am going to YELL about him here now in a very disorderly fashion bc he has recently left and i am actually kinda sad :((

ok so he's a catholic priest and he is mexican. if you know anything about us you will know that we are not the target audience for jacobite propaganda (whatever that may entail), so obv i was never suspecting any jacobite shenanigans from this guy nor from any other guy where i live

but THEN one night after mass i was hoppin back outside and on my way out i hear this man say one (1) thing that made me STOP IN MY TRACKS. he says "ustedes conocen los jacobitas, seguidores de jaime el segundo..." ("you all know of the jacobites, followers of james ii...")

idk what he was talking about and i didn't stay to listen. but that was all i needed. HE KNEW ABOUT JAMES THE GODDAMN SECOND AND HE KNEW ABOUT THE JACOBITES

so i go and tell @acrossthewavesoftime and we decide that i should talk to this guy and see what he knows. originally i was legit not gonna talk to him but i'll admit i was curious too. from there i talked to him many times, i would say like about 7-8 times, and he said plenty of stuffs that i told Radegonde (which was always hilarious). here are the highlights, all the spicy opinions!!

-the first time i spoke to him, i asked him his thoughts on James (under the guise that i needed the knowledge for school). he went on a bit of a rant that i dont remember much of, but i do remember he said that what James did was honorable (something like that i think??) and that giving up his kingdom for catholicism isn't something anybody would do. said he would be fine with making James a saint but that he isn't a jacobite (implying he knows that there are some still around)

-also in that first time, he called William an enemy of the bible (which Radegonde referenced on her blog once and it made me choke)

-for some reason i thought it was a brilliant idea to tell him of the green stockings kink. he made a face at it and said he would look into it. idk if he ever did bc he never mentioned it again............

-i asked him if he thought it was weird that spanish wikipedia has James as "Jacobo" rather than "Jaime" (which is more correct honestly) and he said it was very strange, implying that he has been on wikipedia

-on that note, he called James "Jaime" but didn't call William "Guillermo." understandably so bc it is very funny

-apparently he has been to France (and speaks French!!! wow!!) and that's how he learned of James. i can only imagine what he saw there

-i asked him his thoughts on Mary and it was really interesting bc it seems that he thinks of her as a victim! specifically he said that he couldn't blame her bc she was obeying what her husband wanted and claimed that even if she hadn't wanted to go depose James, William would have done it anyway

verdict: a jacobite even if he denies being one. i get the vibe that he does NOT like William......

so i think this guy's really interesting bc he's actually. not that bad of a priest?? like one time this dickhole at church was ranting things against trans people yknow the usual insults and my jacobite priest was sort of...side-eyeing him. he did not look too happy. an ally? something else? i have no idea. idk how openly trans i look but he was at least very much willing to talk to me.

and thats the thing that i'm actually sorta sad about, bc i feel like i got to know more about him than just the jacobite part of him. like this post is about his Very Fascinating Opinions but also sometimes i had a rough time at church and listening to him talk was funny so it made me feel better. he also genuinely said hello to me sometimes and would listen to MY opinions very attentively

he recently switched over to another church, which means i won't get to see him as much anymore if at all, but last sunday i saw him he said he hopes he gets to see me again

in conclusion. very strange thoughts but not a terrible priest by my standards! oddly i miss him now but it is what it is :(

[travelingmaster-inspirations]

"Tell me Darling..." she said, wrapping the collar around my neck. "Are you still nervous about meeting my husband?"

"No Mistress..." I said, feeling her secure the latch behind my neck.

"So you aren't anxious about the things he'll do with you once he holds your leash?" she said as she pulled out my mane from the collar's tight hold.

"No Mistress." I said.

"Interesting..." she said. "You certainly were before... Back when you first came to us... So why aren't you nervous anymore?"

"I don't know Mistress..." I said truthfully. "You did my daily training... Then I fell asleep... Like I always do because your lessons are so mentally draining... And when I woke up... I didn't feel nervous anymore..."

"How strange..." she said, slowly combing my hair with her hands. "You were still so nervous yesterday when you woke up from your nap... What was different about today?"

"I don't know Mistress..." I said. "All I know is that I'm not nervous anymore."

"It seems to me like something changed inside your mind..." she said and I couldn't see it, but I could feel the smile in her voice. "Like someone went in while you slept and switched off your nervousness..."

"That's impossible." I said instantly. "My apologies Mistress... I meant no disrespect... I... I know you use Hypno-therapy in your practice... But... I... I just don't believe hypnosis can do that."

"Don't worry Darling, I feel no disrespect from your lack in belief in my craft." she said, still lovingly combing my hair. "You are entitled to your opinion and if you don't believe in the power hypnosis has to reshape someone's mind, then that's perfectly fine."

"I'm sorry Mistress... I truly don't..." I said, feeling utterly convinced, but also sad that I couldn't be one of those serving girls that believes in everything their Mistress does.

"So you really don't believe that I could use my talents to help you get over your nervousness?" she asked.

"It would be wonderful if you could Mistress!" I said, genuinely feeling like it would. "It would make it so much easier to properly serve you and your husband."

"That it would..." she said and again, I couldn't see her face, but I could feel the smile in her voice. "I could put you in a trance... Play around in your mind and change things... Sculpt your thoughts and desires until you were the perfect serving girl... I could go deep into your mind and slowly erase anything that would hinder your service to us and prevent you from being our ideal submissive... Wouldn't that be wonderful?"

"It would Mistress!" I said, feeling a little sad. "I'd really love it if hypnosis were real and it could help me be better for you both."

"Maybe we could try it out sometime then..." she said. "Maybe you'll discover that hypnosis is more potent than you believe it is."

"I'll try if you wish me to try Mistress..." I said. "But I'm afraid I'm too convinced that it's fake and wouldn't make a good subject... Which would only waste your precious time."

"You might be right Darling..." she said. "Thankfully, you came to us with your own desire to please and serve my husband. So no hypnosis was needed to help you accept our offer. Correct?"

"Yes Mistress." I said, smiling at the thought as a gentle pleasure haze enveloped my thoughts. "I've always wanted to have a Mistress and a Master..."

I felt goosebumps erupt along my skin as the soft wave of pleasure receded.

"And my husband and I always wanted to have a beautiful and devoted slave girl to enjoy..." she said, making me blush.

"Things worked out so beautifully for all of us... Didn't it Mistress?" I said, feeling warm all over.

"It did Darling..." she said. "As if someone had reached into our minds and re-programmed us to have the exact desires we needed to fulfill their designs..."

"That would be intense if it were true Mistress..." I said, trying to wrap my head around such an elaborate scheme of hypnotic manipulation. "But also kind of hot if I think about how much better I could serve you both... A shame hypnosis can't do such things..."

"Yes... A real shame..." she said softly as she walked around to face me. "If only I could snap my fingers and slip into your mind whenever I wished..."

I was about to tell my Mistress that I was more than willing to do anything to serve her, but my voice fell silent as I watched her lift her finger in front of my face. She had trained me to do many things, but the one constant she always insisted on was that she required my complete focus when ever she lifted her finger like this.

She had trained me to respond to it so much that I didn't even need to think about what was required of me. My body had obeyed the requirements of her gesture so many times that it responded without hesitation or thought. My mouth closed and all my thoughts scattered away to make sure I could fully focus on her fingers. Nothing else existed as I waited for my Mistress' inevitable command.

"Sleep." she said as she snapped her fingers.

A wave of happy bliss flooded my mind, pushing my already scattered thoughts further away...

[chisaiyume]

Why I Refuse to Date a Hmong Guy

Disclaimer: (1) This might not make a difference, but I am Hmong. (2) This is my opinion based on my experiences. (3) Might be triggering but I will not be dropping names.

Family Link/Affiliation:

Long story short, everyone seems to know everyone in the Hmong community, but it could just be me. On my father’s side, we are affiliated with the Moua and the Lor. On my mom’s side, we are affiliated with the Vang and Lee. And through marriage links with the others as well.

So, it is very common that when you start dating another Hmong person, the first thing the elders do is start tracing the family connections. Eventually, you find out that your boyfriend is your nephew or cousin. And by no means, do I mean blood related, but the way the community works, titles are also determined by marriage [i.e. my sister is technically married to our “nephew” – sadly my sister is now his aunty taking care of a man-child instead of being his wife. Again, my opinion].

Best case scenario and by some miracle…you have to family connection. Worst case scenario is you do and then break up. Just remember, that he/she might be at every family event [or if you are like me and hate going to those then you will be fine].

This is just a personal thing, but I hate when the first question his parent(s) ask me is “Who are your parents?” It also creeps me out when I realize I am dating my “nephew” or my “brother.” It is just gross. Creeps me out and makes the hair on my body stand up.

Tradition:

Most of the time, people will always tell how the admire my culture because we are so kind and family orientated. But it only looks like daisies and roses from the outside.  But living in it and through it as a woman sucks!

The tradition is that the man is the law and the only goal and success for a woman is to marry said man and give him babies. Growing up, that idea was drilled into me. If it was not for my dad, advocating and pushing me to get an education, I think I would have been married at 20 years of age and have about 6 babies by now. What is even worst is that once you are in your late 20’s and have not gotten married yet, you are considered too old or you are no longer desired by men as a potential partner.

But anyways, I digress. Traditionally, once you are married to this said Hmong man [regardless of how much you want to believe that he is not a traditional man…girl…just wait until he marries you], you will have so many rules to follow.

You are not allowed to visit your family or hang out with your friends without his permission or even at time without him being with you

It is your job to do all the housework and to not only take of your kids and him, but also any of his family members that are currently living with you [oh yeah….it is tradition to live with his family]

Children are a must!

Your husband has the final say in everything and he makes the rules.

Even if he is emotionally or/and physically abusive, you are at fault because you must be doing something wrong. And do not even speak to the elders or your parents because divorce will bring dishonor to your family, therefore, you will always be told to fix your attitude or behavior so that he does not have to “correct/discipline” you.

And that people! Is the side of the culture that no one wants to talk about or tell people about. As a woman you are brought up to be inferior and taught that if you are being abused, it is mostly likely that you do not have enough patience to accommodate him or you are doing something wrong. You are told that the man you marry, no matter how disgusting his behavior is…it is mostly likely because you, as the woman, did something wrong or you are not doing enough to keep him happy. Because you are the “lucky one” to have been chosen by the Hmong man to be his wife.

My Mom:

So, my mom is a well-known shaman. A lot of my trauma stems from her and the fact that she became a shaman was even worst. The moment she became a shaman her ego and narcissism went through the roof.

But her narcissism is not the reason why I refuse to date Hmong men. It is the assumption and expectation that men hold me to, just because I am the daughter of this well known, well liked, shaman [also has a lot to do with the lies that she tells people about the inner working of our family]. Everyone thinks that because she is a shaman and tradition, then that means, I, her daughter, is this timid and traditional girl that will bend to the well of a man [granted I will only submit to a man, who is worthy of my submission].

This also means that every man approaches me with ulterior motives. It is either they think I am easy or they just want the fame and notary of dating the shaman’s daughter [another thing about the culture that no one really knows. Being known and being seen as superior/better is a trait that is highly desired and sought after. It is all about having “face” and being able to throw it into other people’s face].

And because she is the reason for 99% of my trauma, the fact that these men always warm up to her and complaints her, is a huge turn off. Especially when she is the reason why they wanted to talk to me in the first place.  

Past Relationship/Experience:

Let us take a quick trip through my dating life with these men. Again, I will not be dropping names, but I will use first name initials only. And by some miracle, people that I know read this…please remember that it is my side and my perspective. The truth of the situation is most likely somewhere between my perspective and his.

Boyfriend #1 – So, K and I dated in middle school…although I do not even know if this counts as dating. But anyways, this relationship was not my worst. I mean, we did not go out at all. We were still middle schoolers and at the time my grandma had remarried, we recently moved, my dad was in the middle of dialysis, and I was taking on the responsibility of taking care of my 4 younger siblings.  But anyways…one day I get a call. And it is from one of his friends. The friend proceeds to tell me that he has always liked me and that I should break up with K and date him instead. Then, at school the next day, his friend [not the guy from the phone] comes up to me and tells me, “K doesn’t want to be with you anymore.” And that was the end of that relationship. We did end up meeting many years later and he did try to get back with me, but I was just so over him that it was a no.

Boyfriend #2 – K and I [yes…a different K] were in the talking phase, when I found out that he hit on my friend first and was rejected, before taking his shot at me. At the time I did not know but I eventually realize that I was not into him and broke it off. After a few years, we did reconnect, but honestly, it was my fault in thinking that the second time would be different. I did find out a few things about him after the fact…which would have been huge deal breakers for me. Biggest one, is talking down to people and talking to people as if he is better than them.

Boyfriend #3 – I have a confession…I do not even remember the name of this man. Sorry. But he was some Minnesota Hmong singer that was singing at a New Year’s party that my parents were attending. I was pretty much pushed to dance with this guy because they dedicated a song as a thank you to him and he needed a partner to dance with. He was nice, but then my mother had to open her trap and tell me that, during the whole entire party he was making eyes are her and how disappointed he was when he realized she was married….and then!!!!!!!!!!!! Ladies and gentlemen…. this man, then tells me that he thought I was super pretty like mom!!!!!!!! I dropped that man so fast, that he complained to some relative and then the next thing I know, my mom is wining about why I stopped talking to him.

Boyfriend #4 – M was introduced to me, by my mom. M was one of her co-workers. We met towards the end of my collage years and I was in the process of finalizing my plans to student teach in Japan. I had already put in my application for my passport and was awaiting to hear back from a school in Japan to accept a student teacher. When everything was approved, I was so excited and I told him that hey…I will be away in another country from about 3 months. He did not like this idea and said it was either him or Japan. I chose Japan!

Boyfriend #5 – V was also introduced by my mom [you are going to hate me or even think that maybe I am an idiot for allowing this person to keep introducing people to me…and I am sorry…I did learn my lesson…I promise…eventually…after a couple of more mistakes]. V turned out to be a convicted felon. Gave him the opportunity to come clean and asked if we were to continue the relationship would be leave his “boys” to live a better life. He said no. So that was the end of that relationship.

Boyfriend #6 – R was someone I met on my own. It was also the worst relationship that I ever got myself into looking back at it. It is also the relationship that I beat myself up for and have learned the most from. I was used as his rebound. He knew exactly what to say and I hate myself for believing it and eventually giving him my first time. He is the one that taught me that men who is all about lip-service and no action do not love you nor do they respect you. They are just using you to fulfil a void or use you temporarily until they lose interest. I did all the heavy lifting in the relationship. I was the one driving to Milwaukee to see him. I was the designated driver for him and his drunk friends. I was his booty call…his emotional support pet…his make him feel better toy. After being used…he broke up with me over Facebook messenger. And avoided my calls when I called him because he was ignoring my messages. I gave him two days…after the second day, I cut my lost, deleted all affiliations with him, and started to heal myself. Did we meet up again? Yes…and I wish I should have let my brother beat his ass. But I did not. And I promise myself that, that will be the very last time, I will be kind to him.

Boyfriend #7 – Again, do not know the guy’s name because he was introduced to me by my mom [I know…this is the last one!] But this was the second time I started talking to him because we were introduced prior but stopped talking completely because he wanted to focus on his schooling [yes schooling…he is 4 years younger than me, lives in Thailand, and at that time we first met he was still finishing up his schooling]. The second time we talked, I was a very different woman than I was back then. After speaking with him, I was just not into him. And knowing what kind of men, my mother was trying to introduce to me, I found out that (1) he is now divorced, (2) has a young daughter, (3) his ex-wife drained his bank account prior to leaving him, and (4) he is now trying to find a woman to “love” him…I was not going to lower myself anymore, so I put a stop to that…so I guess technically….he was not a boyfriend.

So safe to say…Hmong men has not made a good impression on me. I am at a point where I might be interested in a guy, but the moment I find out that he is Hmong, my interest immediately goes negative. Now does that mean every Hmong man is like this…maybe no…but I am skeptical because until I meet one, I will not believe it. And ladies, this is just my opinion and preference. If you found yourself a wonder Hmong man, then I am happy for you…but they are just not for me.

Remember, I am just a woman sharing her opinion and experiences. I am open to having a conversation if you would like to.  

[jweekgoji]

Yandere! Viktor x reader x Yandere! Five

HEEEY! It’s the Hargreaves kids’ birthday today, and you know who else? I have!! hehe i just want to take the opportunity to let everyone know 😎 i was planning to write a whole bunch of posts in honor of this, but due to illness i will write 1 or 2 so…. happy birthday to Sparrow & Umbrella Academy, me and the rest of the lucky ones that wasn’t adopted by Reggie!🎉🎉

Let’s start from the beginning, okay?

Almost all of Viktor’s life is self-loathing and endless attempts to live like a “normal” person, but something goes wrong every time.

Leonard? Dead. Sissy? Dead. Harlan? Dead.

Seriously, this is some kind of cruel joke on this poor man. Didn’t he deserve to finally be able to love and be loved?

And it would seem that nothing could be worse.

But unfortunately it can always be worse.

Viktor meets someone in his life who makes his life happy again, as bright and filled with love as when he was with Sissy.

And it would seem, why is Viktor still unhappy? Why does Viktor feel good and bad when you are near him at the same time?

Why does Viktor feel like he’s a kid and stuck at the Academy with his dad again? Why does he feel like he has to be around Leonard again? And most importantly…why does he feel like he’s stuck in the situation with Sissy and her husband again?

And he hates it. Fucking hate this feeling. This frightens and annoys him, he wants to hide and run away, but at the same time he feels that he will explode.

Don’t get me wrong, Viktor doesn’t hate you, he just feels really bad about having a huge crush on… YOU. No, let me rephrase that, he have a huge crush on a person who already in relationship. In relationship with Five.

Fuck.

Once again, Viktor got stuck. One part of him says it’s okay, Viktor is a grown man, it’s okay when people fall in love and he can get over it.

The second part says that Viktor is disgusting, he shouldn’t feel this towards you. You are already in a relationship and you are happy. You are not Sissy. You don’t need to be saved. And besides that, Viktor shouldn’t take away anyone’s happiness, especially if it’s Five, his brother and the only person in the family who appreciated him.

Therefore, Viktor chooses the only correct path in his opinion. He will try to do everything himself, not talk about it with someone, like Allison or Luther, hell no, if Five finds out, then most likely you will find out! And Viktor doesn’t want that.

But how can Viktor stay so far away from a cutie like you? You are the clear sunshine in his life, his muse and inspiration, the only living person that keeps him going strong.

And Viktor would try to get rid of his feelings for you. But don’t expect him to distance himself or try to find someone else to replace you. In fact, I see this picture in his head, how he convinces himself that he is stronger than this and he will simply get over his crush on you like “that’s wrong, I really shouldn’t fall in love with them” but as soon as he sees you, his mind goes to “never mind. what was I talking about? oh, right, my love for them!”

And I just can’t help but see the picture of how Viktor literally radiates joy next to you.

Viktor can sit on the couch, listen and watch his family talk about something, and Viktor would remain quiet and calm, no one would notice that he was sitting with them all this time… until you just look in to the Hargreaves house and like “hey!” and Viktor would be like “omg! it’s them!!”

Viktor is literally puppy. Hold him closer, love him, hug him, pet him, give him everything and protect him!! how could you possibly say no to him when he have those pretty eyes??

And you know what? He takes advantage of this. Viktor may be one of the kindest people you’ve ever met, but he’s not as innocent as you think.

“Would you like to go shopping with me?” he asks, looking at you with his big puppy eyes.

You turn to him, smiling slightly and he smiles back at you. He always smiles when he’s around you, you think, but wasn’t he always like that?

Viktor always seemed to treat you like you were his family. He could share anything with you and you could share with him. You would understand him and always help, and he, in turn, trusted you with all his heart and you appreciated it, knowing how much it means to him.

“Of course,” you say, and run your hand gently over his shoulder as you walk past him. “Give me a minute.”

And he nods, obediently waiting for you until you return. He could wait for you for hours if that meant you would only spend time with him. With no one else, of course.

Viktor thought about you and about what his life could be, if everything was finally according to his desire. What if he met you before Sissy or Leonard? Could he be as happy now as before? Or would he fail again? Or maybe be happier?

“Where are you two going?”

Viktor flinches and his attention is fixed on Five. He was so lost in own thought that he barely noticed Five enter the room. Not that Five wasn’t a master of sudden appearances…

“Oh, uh, we-” Viktor starts and smiles nervously, awkwardly rubbing the back of his head.

“Just take a walk. Do you want to join us?” you appear behind Viktor.

Your hand gently rests on Viktor’s shoulder, as if trying to calm him down and relax, but despite the calming gesture, Viktor barely noticeably trembles under your touch.

Five narrows his eyes at this and crosses his arms over his chest, his eyes on the two of you and Viktor noticed how much the former peaceful atmosphere had changed.

Viktor’s smile becomes more forced. He wants to keep this picture where everyone is happy and nothing is happening, but for some reason Viktor is sure that Five can see everything, he thought, and as soon as Viktor notices how your hands are still on him, he catches himself and moves away.

You look at Viktor in surprise, not understanding why he reacted like that, but you remain silent and instead glance at Five and then at Viktor.

Five glared at Viktor for a few more seconds before he nodded and gave you a small smile.

“I would love to, dear.”

Viktor sighs.

Things didn’t go as Viktor had planned.

He expected that this would be another reason to be alone, only he and you, but unfortunately, he should have known better, because he didn`t know that the situation would turn into a banal “third wheel”, where Viktor was the third wheel, while you and Five enjoyed each other’s company quite pleasantly.

Of course, you weren’t evil enough to forget about Viktor’s existence while you were with the Five, no. In fact, you paid enough attention to the two guys, the only “but” was that every time you touched Viktor the slightest, whispered something in his ear and laughed quietly, probably saying some stupid joke, Viktor could feel how Five staring at him.

You preferred to be blind, or did you really not notice how tense Viktor was every time with you, especially under the strict supervision of Five. You didn’t quite get it, given how close the two had been since childhood.

But did it ruin your time? No. Viktor and Five? It is hard to say.

You were constantly pulling either Viktor or Five by the sleeve, pointing to different store windows or any object that caught your attention, saying something like “ah, look over there, Viktor!” or “let’s buy this thing Five, please?” to which 7 would nod and laugh softly with you in response, and 5 would grumble at how childishly you would behave.

“Damn, wait for me a bit. I seem to have forgotten something.” you stop abruptly and turn around, quickly apologizing until you leave in a hurry.

Viktor turns around and looks at your figure, mouth open to ask if you need help, but he trails off, deciding to stay in awkward company with his brother.

In the past, the two got along very well, enjoying the peaceful silence and Viktor would be lying if he said he didn’t miss it.

“I see how you look at them.” Five starts.

“Huh?” Viktor’s eyes widen at his words, after which he visibly stiffens. “What are you talking about, Five?”

Five tilts his head slightly, smiling, his back pressed against the wall.

Viktor awkwardly rubbed his palms and looked away, as if a boy who was being scolded by his father, and he blushed, going through the possible options for words.

“Listen, Five, they are very nice and sweet, but we are just friends and…” Viktor defends himself.

“Please, don’t lie to me,” Five speaks calmly and patiently. “Tell me the truth. We are family after all.”

Viktor sighs and looks around to make sure you’re nowhere near, after which he leans against the wall next to Five, rubbing his temples.

“And what if you right? Yes, I, uh…I kinda like them and I know that they already in relationship with you,” Viktor is actively gesticulating, looking down, nervous. “Don’t think I’m trying to steal them from you, god no, I mean, you’re probably mad at me but I would never do this to you Five.”

Five patiently listens to him and replies after a moment. “I’m not mad at you.”

“Wait, your not?” he blinks few times as he looks at Five.

Five nods and Viktor smiles at the gesture, visibly relaxing.

“You are still young and young man like you tend to be like that.” Five pats Viktor on the shoulder and he looks away, smiling slightly. “But next time, think twice before taking my partner on a date behind my back.”

Viktor nods weakly, choosing to remain silent instead.

Five notices your figure in the distance and he waves lightly at you to get your attention. You smile brightly at the two men and quickly run up to them, out of breath.

“Sorry, I’m a little late. Are you two all right?” you said, worried.

“Of course, everything is just wonderful.”

[pluviophile-imagines]

Hello I have just a tiny idea for usurper Gojo,,, he has taken over my mind, thank you for the wonderful drabbles hehe >.<

So after he takes the throne, I imagine that not everyone supports him and there are many instances of attempted uprisings, assassinations, and/or plots to remove him. I think they’d all be crushed pretty quickly, especially with Gojo’s wits and power. But what if there’s one attempt that was too close for comfort? Either aiming for Reader (because even though he tries to hide his affections in public, the fact that he claimed you when he first took over is motive enough), or aiming for Gojo directly. I think it would be especially unpleasant for the perpetrators once they are caught; Gojo makes an especially severe example of them, and after that no one dares to try anything ever again.

OOP— yeah,,,,, yeah heres the masterlist (usurper!gojo tag, once again the concept’s from @saintshigaraki i am simply insane and cant stop)

warnings: talk of violence/murder, attempted poisoning, lil bit suggestive

he tries to keep it from you, as if your reach in the court isn’t threaded more firmly even than his own. as if the royal guards do not prefer your company to his, as if you’re such a fool you wouldn’t notice how he’s come to bed long after you’ve gone to sleep every day for the past week—he tells you it’s dull financial advising, you know it’s because he’s been busy torturing a man. an assassin, you’ve been told; a poisoner who hadn’t even made it out of the kitchen before being caught.

you also know he’s back earlier tonight because he’s executed another man—the one who hired the hit, one of his own cousins. ordinarily such a thing would be dealt with swiftly, except that the food found dosed had been not your husband’s but yours, and your king does not take kindly to threats against you. the maids had told you all of that days ago; it’s the guards that tell you he assembled the court without you, hours past sunset, and made a display of cutting down his own kin for your sake. ruthless, they tell you, savage, lest there be any doubt in his affections for you.

he comes back to your shared bedchamber without a drop of crimson on his clothes, but the satisfied air about him and the heavy drum of bloodlust you can see in his eye tell you that your information is correct. still, you greet him casually and don’t bring up your discontent as he removes his blindfold and makes himself comfortable on the bed, unabashedly peering at you while you sit at your vanity pretending to ready yourself for sleep. he’s silent with his staring, and you are silent as well, busy ruminating on how you’re feeling until you come to the conclusion that the only action of his which has sparked your ire is that he has chosen not to share them with you—no, you’re not bothered by his barbaric display, but rather that he did it without informing you. with your opinion found, you are ready to initiate the conversation.

“so?” you begin casually, gaze flitting up to meet his eye through the mirror. “are the conspirators dead, then?”

at first he gives no response, but when you turn in your seat to face him he rises to stand and strides over to you. lacing his fingers with yours, he pulls you to your feet—holds you close, leans down to press his forehead to yours.

“can’t get anything past you, hm? not with your brain.”

“well, are they?”

“yes. of course. they’ve hardly earned the title of conspirators frankly, not with that pitiful display.”

“mm.” you purse your lips and pull away, turning your back on him. “lovely to know that you’d accept my death if it were at the hands of a competent man.”

he follows you swiftly, eases his arms around your waist and rests his chin in the crook of your neck. his tone is easy, light—amused, perhaps. “i don’t believe i said anything of the sort.”

“i do not find this amusing, my king.” despite your tone, you reach up to thread your fingers through his hair, drawing a contented noise from him which he buries into your nape. “i’m displeased by you.”

“are you, now?” his lips quirk against your skin, and he shifts, his whole body moving so that he can trace kisses along your jaw. “i’ll just have to please you, my queen.”

“satoru.” the name makes him pause. you tighten your hold on his hair, pull him to rest against your shoulder again in an attempt to halt him. “you killed your kin for me and attempted to hide it. did you truly think i wouldn’t find out?”

“not this quickly,” he grumbles, petulant, entirely unsuitable for a king who had just slit the throat of his own cousin before an audience.

“people chatter, especially when you require the attendance of the entire court. but since we are being honest, i knew of the whole ordeal the moment it happened—i do believe i was made aware of the poisoning before you were, my husband. so tell me, why did you torture a man for a week and choose not to inform your wife? why did you so courteously invite my companions to witness this execution but neglect to extend that invitation to me?”

he doesn’t speak for a moment. his breath comes hot against your neck, not quite a sigh but certainly a deep breath—then he turns his face into your hand, leaves a fleeting kiss against your palm, and lifts his head.

“they need to learn, hm? how would they have learned if i’d let this go?” his eyes are manic, the closest you’ve seen to what they’d been that night—yet the moment they meet yours they soften, reverence seeping in. he stands to his full height behind you, hand coming beneath your chin to tilt your face upward so that he can loom over you and press a kiss to your brow; he’s gentle with you, but the steel at the core of his tone is more than palpable. “i won’t show mercy, certainly not when it comes to those who wish to harm you. you cannot ask me to be forgiving with such things.”

you realize with those words that he believes you’re balking at the brutality, that he thinks you timid and soft. he thinks you don’t know what he does to maintain his power, as if you’re not intimately aware of the monster he’s had to become—as if you hadn’t come face-to-face with it, with his blade.

you think you probably shouldn’t be as endeared as you are. you certainly shouldn’t turn around, wrap your arms around his neck, and tug him down into a real kiss to reward his actions, yet you still do. it’s addicting how quickly he melts to your affections; you know how intimidating his size must be to so many but it’s impossible for you to fear it when he’d drop to his knees for you at a single word.

when you pull away he doesn’t let go—he whines at you, a wordless protest, and buries his head into your shoulder to nip at your skin.

“i’m not angry with you for refusing mercy,” you mutter to him, “i’m angry with you for lying to me. i am your queen, your partner. you will not do this again, you will tell me the next time you intend to cut down a man in my name.”

he pulls back and opens his mouth, eyes wide, but you cut him off by lunging upward to peck at the corner of his lips.

“it’s in your best interest to comply, husband. you cannot hide things from me.”

“i know, wife.” his sigh is love-struck. “i’m a fool to have tried.”