#okay if i want to be trying to sleep by 1am i got 13 minutes to get ready for bed bye!!!!!

[chemicalarospec]

what if you said: I care about my intellectual development

but your brain said: you care about gay people more

[minghaocouture]

Fearless: Chapter 10

Pairing: Werewolf!Jeon Wonwoo x Vampire!Reader Genre: Romance, Fantasy, Non-Idol Au Warnings: Language WC: 3.4k+ AU Lore:  Vampire Coven Info/Wolf Pack Info/Lore Info Tag List: @moon-asia @uglychildd @woozisnoots @hwangjangmi @rjsmochii @fluffyhyeju @darkacrimson @skjdln​ @moonchild9499​

Couldn’t Tag: @unbaeknownst, @Angelmingyu

A/N: We’re just gonna pretend it’s not 1am and I didn’t upload this super late lol. I also wanted to leave you guys with a little cliff hanger <3 

Chapter List:  Chapter 1/Chapter 2/Chapter 3/Chapter 4/Chapter 5/Chapter 6/Chapter 7/Chapter 8/Chapter 9/Chapter 10/Chapter 11/Chapter 12/Chapter 13/Chapter 14

It was far too early for it to be this loud in this house. Running on a different internal clock than the other occupants of this house proved to be more of an issue to you than you had originally thought.

Now here you were, head hidden under a pillow as you tried to block out the rummaging and chatter from downstairs. You were trying to get over your previous prejudice of the wolves and their pack, but as of this moment you were finding it really hard not to keep hating them, if only for the noise they were all currently making.

A groan left your lips as you heard another loud crash from downstairs. Rolling over and burying your face into the mattress, as if that would help. Hell it didn’t even block out the small laughter in the room you were currently in. Peeking out from under the pillow, you glanced over to the bed that Wonwoo had slept in the night before. He was now sitting up and staring at you, laughing at your struggle. To add insult to injury he apparently decided that sleeping shirtless was something that was okay, even with you in the room. 

“Oh laugh it up, wolf boy. We’ll see who's laughing when I find a way to wake you up in the middle of the night.”

“I mean, I could always stay over at your place and give you the opportunity?” The suggestion had you quickly exiting your pillow hiding place and sitting up to face him. Eyes wide as you stared at him, confused by his sudden bold words. “Or...you could call me late at night until I wake up. That works too.”

Rolling your eyes at his quick backtracking and letting out a loud yawn, “I mean, the first one is kind of an option, but I’m still not too sure if i’m going to have a ‘place’ after all this is over with.” You retorted, lifting your arms in the air as you stretched. Working the muscles a bit so they would be less tense. You had been trying to not think about that. Becoming a stray wasn’t something you would want to happen, after all it wasn’t like you wanted to be basically alone for the rest of eternity. Which is what would happen if you were cast out, you definitely weren’t going to join a different coven. It’d feel wrong.

“Well, what’s...what’s the deciding factor? I, well none of us really know all that much about how Vampires work, well besides the basics. And...how to kill you.” That was fair, you barely knew about werewolf living. Deciding to lighten the mood a bit, a grin made its way onto your face.

“Alright, I’ll tell you that if you tell me why all of you look about the same age. It’s...actually kinda weird.” You knew that Werewolves weren’t immortal like Vampires, but something about how everyone in this house looked the same age was a bit off putting. It wasn’t huge, but it was strange, you figured that packs would have like older wiser wolves, like your Coven’s with the Venture, not just a bunch of people in their 20s. 

A brief moment of realization hit you, causing your eyes to widen as your thoughts raced. If you were Wonwoo’s mate and he was...only 20. That was, understandably, a bit weird. You were well over a century old, and if he was 20 you were old enough to literally be one of his great great great grandmother. That had to be creepy.

Apparently you had been broadcasting your thought process across your face, cause once again that familiar deep toned laugh spread through the room and causing a rather strange chill to tingle down your spine. It wasn’t a bad chill, just unexpected. Masking that feeling with an irritated scowl, you grabbed your pillow and hurled it at his head. Catching it, he placed it on the bed next to him before speaking up again.

“That actually has to do with our mates. We stop aging when we turn 20 until we find out mate. Well, find and actually uh…’mate’ with the mate.”

“So you won’t age unless we have sex?” You questioned, not bothering to tiptoe around the subject. “Wait...wait a damn minute. You won’t age unless we have sex? How old are you then?”

He paused for a moment, taking a minute as he seemed to be thinking about his own age. Which honestly was something you could relate to. After so many years alive, they kind of just start blurring together.

“I’m going to be 93 this year.” The relief you felt at those words had you letting out an audible sigh. At least you weren’t some creepy old woman compared to him, that would have just been weird if he had actually been 20. Well, to you it would have been. You knew others, mainly Soonyoung, would disagree. Though he definitely wasn’t the best example, considering he still considered himself to be 24 despite being 132.

Realizing that you had once again become lost in your own mind, you turned your attention back to Wonwoo and noticed that he was staring at you. The look in his eyes caught you off guard, it was almost as if you had just hung the stars in front of him with how intent his gaze was. It seemed that now with this mate business out in the open, he didn’t feel the need to hide anything. It didn’t make you uncomfortable, and in fact you wouldn’t mind seeing that look more often. Letting out a small cough to focus yourself once more, you decided to hold up your end of the exchange.

“So, technically all the major decisions in the Coven are made by the Inner Circle. Which includes our Venture, Soonyoung, the Primus, Junhui, as well as two of the other members, Minghao and Chan.” You began, unfortunately Vampire politics was extremely annoying to deal with at times, which is why you weren’t going to go into what a Venture or Primus was unless he asked. Thinking about it, you honestly didn’t know how Minghao put up with it all, he seemed to hate it almost as much as you did.. “I’ve technically got one vote in my favor, and probably one against me, but i’m not too sure how Chan and Soonyoung will react so it’s all up in the air.” 

You were pretty sure that Minghao was still on your side, at least you hoped he was. Despite his neck being on the line too, you knew that he wasn’t the type of person to throw others aside, he was loyal if nothing else. You could say the same for Junhui, but he had been pretty upset though, and if Junhui was upset then Soonyoung would probably listen to him and if that happened then you knew Chan would as well. So basically it all would depend on how Junhui reacted to you...walking out after yelling at him...and basically inviting him to kick you out. 

So you definitely hadn’t done yourself any favors. 

You hadn’t realized that Wonwoo had gotten up until you felt the bed shift a bit as he took a seat next to you, his hand reaching for yours and the instant comfort you felt at that contact was almost ridiculous. A thought passed through your mind, wondering if the feelings that were rushing through your brain were simply from this mate thing between the two of you...or if they were real. That would be a question for another day though. 

“I’m sure everything is gonna turn out fine. You gotta trust them a little, Covens are kind of like families right? Just like our pack. So i’m sure they’re going to look out for you too.” You weren’t sure if he knew how much those words meant, and you certainly weren’t going to tell him. After all, you had to keep at least some of your tough image. Though...around him you could probably drop it...just a little bit.

You felt yourself subconsciously scoot closer to him and without even thinking about it you found your head resting on his bare shoulder. He tensed at the added weight but soon the hand holding yours had adjusted to where it wrapped around your shoulders, pulling you closer. You weren’t sure if the Mate thing had anything to do with how you were feeling, but you weren’t about to move now.

“I’m sure you’re right.” 

You weren’t sure how much time passed, the two of your just sitting there in silence. But it wasn’t long enough.

The door to the room practically slammed open and you felt your body push itself as far away from Wonwoo as you could. Going so far as to even shove him away as well. Eyes snapping to the door you were greeted by Mingyu, who’s grin could only be described as ‘shit-eating’. He really did have a punchable face, and he was only proving it more. 

“Cheol wants you guys to come to breakfast.” He said, obviously holding back laughter as he looked between the two of you. If looks could kill, you were sure that Mingyu would have been dead twice over just from the look Wonwoo was giving him. More than that if you were being counted in the equation. 

You groaned as you watched Mingyu close the door, making over exaggerated kissing noises, followed by the sound of footsteps and him yelling something to the other wolves. Which you could assume was related to what he just walked in on. Meeting him for the first time, you were already wondering how someone like Wonwoo could handle being his roommate. 

“Is he always like this?”

“I love him, and he is my best friend...but yes, yes he is.” 

***

You were pretty sure you were only here so Seungcheol could keep an eye on you. It’s not like you were eating or anything, and the only reason you had a seat was because Sana was still bed ridden. It seemed that some people weren’t taking too kindly to you intruding on their breakfast, and the atmosphere had gotten so tense since you arrived. So it was going about as well as you had expected it to. 

A few of the pack, mainly Wonwoo, Vernon, Jacob and Felix, did try their best to seem welcoming but everyone else present was definitely more on edge with you around. Especially Changbin, and if you were being honest his constant glaring was starting to get a bit annoying. First he complained about having to keep the curtains closed while you were around, then it was he didn’t want to sit across from you at the table, and now it was a completely different story.

“Why does she have to sit in here? It’s not like she’s going to eat anything.” 

You felt your eye twitch ever so slightly, your jaw clenching in irritation. It was harder to fight your more stubborn and temperamental nature, but you were playing nice so attacking him (even verbally) would probably put you on thin ice. Despite knowing this, you weren’t one to sit back and get verbally harassed.

“She’s a guest, we’re not just going to make her hang out around the house alone.” Which was definitely Seungcheol’s code for, ‘she’s technically still an enemy so we don’t want to give her free range of the house’. It didn’t take a lot to read that guy, he was a good leader or Alpha as they called it, but he was an open book. 

Changbin scoffed, shoving another serving of rice into his mouth before he did. To his left Felix let out a small sigh, obviously wishing the other male was in a better mood. The male across from you, the taller stone faced one who you were fairly certain was named Hyunwoo, spoke up.

“Have you heard anything from the human? Or your coven?” 

His question had you shaking your head, but you did pull your phone out to check once more just in case someone had messaged you during, what you were calling, the worst breakfast...ever. You weren’t surprised to find a plethora of messages from Hyunjin, asking where you were and over all just kind of freaking out, there were also several from Siyeon, Kevin and Yuna, and even a few from Gahyeon and Eunbi. None from Minhyuk or any of the inner circle though. Which was what you expected. The inner circle was probably trying to decide what to do with you and well, Minhyuk likes hearing about the drama from a distance.

“Nothing from the Inner Circle, no. I am planning on checking in with Minah around noon, and if she agrees to the plan then I’ll go grab her from the bar and bring her back here.”

“And how are you planning on doing that? It’s not like you can go outside before dark and get her. And your whole plan is useless if the stray sees the two of you together. Or did you not think of that?” Once again Changbin decided to speak up, gracing your nerves with tiny spikes of irritation. “Or is there even really a stray in the first place! I still don’t believe you’re telling us the truth. You were probably just a distraction so one of your other disgusting friends could attack Sana.”

If you cared less about your phone, you probably would have broken it with how hard you were squeezing the device, but thankfully you knew self control. Or at least you pretended like you did. It seemed though, that Changbin was just determined to push your buttons, and you’d had enough.

“You know, I didn’t take this shit from my Coven, and let me tell you, i’m not going to be taking it from you.” You began, trying to cool your expression as you stared at the male at the other end of the table. You heard Wonwoo sigh from next to you, of course since he knew you the best he probably saw this snap coming. “Kiddo, you can hate me all you damn well want, but I want you to remember that I’m here to help you. So I’m gonna need you to back off.”

A loud slam sounded through the room as Changbin’s palms met with the hardwood of the dining table. A low growl slipped from his throat as he glared at you, obviously about to jump across the table to make this more of a physical confrontation. Silence fell over the room as his harsh gaze met your stoic one, sure you were pissed but this wasn’t the place to 100% lose your cool. From your side you heard a small growl leave Wonwoo as well, it was almost sweet that he felt the need to defend you, but you certainly didn’t need it. 

“You think throwing a tantrum like this is gonna make me leave?” You questioned, a brow raised as you stared down the male who you assumed was younger than you. “It’s not gonna work, I am the Queen of tantrums and loud outbursts and let me tell you now, you don’t scare me.” It was definitely stupid to edge him on like that, especially since you were a guest. You’d probably come to regret it later but for now you were going to show that you weren’t someone that just got walked over. He would understand that.

For a moment you wondered when you started sounding like Minghao, maybe his general attitude was affecting you after all this time. It was amusing to think about, if this was how he and the others felt whenever you acted out. You’d have to question them...well if things worked out in your favor that is. 

The air was thick with tension as the sound of a chair scraping against the linoleum cut through the silence.

“Changbin, sit down and finish your breakfast then go and get ready for your classes. ” It wasn’t too surprising to see Seungcheol standing from his seat at the end of the table. He was almost like a father, vaguely you wondered how old he was, it was impossible to tell just by looking at him. His eyes then found themselves looking directly at you. “And you, come with me.” 

Would it be safe to say you were in the doghouse now? 

Sliding your chair back, you felt something grab your wrist. Looking down you noticed it was of course Wonwoo, staring up at you with concern. Concern that you brushed off. Sure you had probably just pissed off the leader of the group that was housing you, and he could easily attack you or resend his invitation to the home which would end up hurling you outside into the unforgiving and burning sun, but that was too negative to think about at the moment even for you.

Despite your attempt at being nonchalant, Wonwoo gently tugged you closer to him so that his lips ended up right next to your ear.

“If you need me, just call.” the words caused you to chuckle slightly.

“You’re sweet, but I’ll be fine.” Was all you said in return, pulling away from him and following Seungcheol out the double doors of the dining room, to the right down the hallway and into what looked like a living room. 

Once inside, you heard a sigh escape from the male as he took a seat onto one the weathered arm chairs. He gestured vaguely for you to join him and sit down. Taking the free chair on the far left of the room, it was a pretty comfortable chair. You definitely weren’t thinking about taking it with you or anything though. Glancing back over at Seungcheol, you watched as he lifted a hand to rub the bridge of his nose. 

“You’re really not making this any easier for any of us.” 

“Excuse me, for not just sitting around and taking shit from someone who is probably half my age. If not younger. ” You retorted, rolling your eyes. You could tell from watching Seungcheol that he was a good leader, probably better than Soonyoung (though with Soonyoung gone all the time, the bar wasn’t super high to begin with) but leadership can definitely take it’s toll. 

“That’s the point. Changbin is only 33. He’s still technically a kid by our standards and he’s a little rough around the edges but…” he trailed off, you could see that he didn’t really want to talk about this. It probably didn’t help that you were a complete stranger. “The point is, even if he attacks first. If you fight back I have to be on his side.”

“That sounds like something a shitty leader would say.” The words slipped from your lips before you could even think of stopping them. You could tell that Seungcheol was taken back by them almost as much as you were. “I mean, should a leader be willing to tell their people when they’re in the wrong? I’m trying to play nice here for the sake of both of our groups, but I’m not just gonna let him talk shit to my face. Fixing things is a two way road, I can’t do this if he’s unwilling to even look at me without the intent to rip my throat out.”

“I understand but-”

“No, I really don’t think you do. I’m sticking my neck out to help you guys. I might lose my place in my Coven, my family, because I’m here. I’m not gonna do that, and get trash talked by a fucking kid.” The anger from the dining room, the fear from your current situation, everything seemed to be finally reaching a head. Your limbs shook lightly as you stared him down, not with an intent to fight, but with all of the emotions you were currently feeling. 

He lifted a hand, stopping you from continuing. The room filled with silence once more as he seemed to contemplate your words. After a moment, he nodded solemnly.

“You’re right. I guess we’re all trying to work on ourselves during this. If we do go through with the mission tonight, Changbin will stay home. I think it’ll be best for everyone that way.” 

Before you could respond, the loud tone of your phone rang through the room, signaling a phone call. Seungcheol gestured for you to answer it, which you were going to do with or without his permission. 

The caller ID was definitely not a name you were expecting to see. 

Soonyoung.

[fuck-customers]

Happy New Year hope you like Heatstroke

Yeah so. Event Services binch back with a long and harrowing tale. Those two shift days in a row on 30th and 31st were nooooot good for me. This is pretty much a 'Fuck how shitty my boss gets when she's stressed and also just fuck 14 hour shifts in general'.

The 9hrs on Monday turned into 9.5 hours. In 30c+ heat (and just a reminder, Sydney is currently constantly covered in smoke haze, we are always breathing smoke), but a breeze came through early afternoon to save us some. There was 4 of us putting up park signange in prep for the NYE event. I ended up schleping the ladder around a lot, I was the only one on that team that actually does weights so i carried a lot. Not a problem really except the signs and ladder are awkward to carry. Only real issue that day was my dinner was in the fridge all day which... turned out hadn't been working for 2 days (why they hadn't fucking put a sign on it about that I DON'T KNOW). Lots of people's shit got thrown out. My food was only just edible after nuking in the microwave cause i keep it in a thermo lunch bag.

The worst was NYE. 13 hour shift (it actually became a 14 hour shift). Started at 12pm, set to finish at 1am (I finished at 2). The sun was not forgiving, we had way more signage to put up because we had to wait for barriers to be set up before we could add signage to them (like line barriers for rides, entry barriers for VIP areas, that kinda thing). Our instruction sheets were BAD. They had OLD pictures that were tiny so seeing what signs were supposed to go where was hard. There was only three of us, the weather was in the high 30's and I'm sure it hit 40 at one point.

I ate a small brunch at 10 that morning. I did not get a break by 5pm like we were supposed to (park was to open at 6:30). I was yelled at by my boss for all the signage being in the wrong places and wasting cable ties (none of that signage I put up, or signage i put up with someone else's instruction they had gotten from my boss btw, so why i got yelled at idk). I was told to go straight up to my box office shift, I did not realise the box office was located outside with no shade during NYE (there was a marquee but the sun was low and behind us so *shrug* no sun cover).

I had to share a locker because NYE be like that, but the person I was sharing with was a ditz, and she thought I had the key, and she either lost it or didn't look for it properly in her pockets. Either way, I had to frantically run around in 38c trying to find her to get in the locker to change into the long black uniform pants I have to wear for box shift. 

By the time i found her, got my pants on, walked all the way out the front and up the stairs and up the hill and down the path to box i was nearly dead. The other girls there told me i could sit cause it wouldn't get busy for a while. So i sat on a bench and then became very aware of how hot i was and how much i was not cooling down and i felt nauseous. And I had had like 2 and a half litres of water at this point, I have a 1ltr bottle so it makes tracking that easy. It just wasn't doing enough.

One of the Guest relations people hanging out up there went 'yeah okay you need first aid' so she got me some hydrolyte and escorted me down once I'd shaken off enough dizziness to walk again. Was in First Aid for half an hour, they got me to drink more hydrolyte and put an ice pack on my neck and gave me a barley sugar lozenge to get my blood sugar up. Then i was finally given my half hour break on their insistence. Got to eat at last. Had to check in with FA before going back to my box shift, and thankfully by then, about 6:30, a wind change came through making the temp drop about 10 degrees. 

But I basically spent the time between then and 11:30 recovering ( I was on guest list duty and also did ticket collect, it was pretty quiet tho). At 9:40 my boss called one of the shift leads up at Box to see if they could send me home, and I had to say no. I was scared they'd FORCE me to leave after the heatstroke thing, but i NEED the money, this is my ONLY job, and I'm not even getting the pay for it til two weeks into the new year (it fell into the next pay period and i had no shifts inside the previous pay period).

They apparently were sending several peripheral staff home, I felt like I needed to find extra jobs to do just so they'd let me stay, but also, if i didn't stay past midnight i wouldn't get the public holiday bonus. I NEED THAT TOO. ESPECIALLY after all the work I'd done the day before, it felt like a fucking slap in the face even though i knew it was them trying to make sure I didn't end up getting sick and suing or some shit (As if i have the money to sue). Also I'd miss the Fireworks, which while not my main concern, still a bummer, because my dudes. Sydney Fireworks on NYE with a view from where I work. People pay more money than I currently have just to experience it. Honestly it's part of the payoff for the hell shift.

THANKFULLY my boss went 'ah right okay yeah just stay up there on guest list til the original end of shift'. I also made sure to stick my nose in on the sales end so i could use it as basic box office pre-training, since my boss has already said she wants to train me on box office. Somewhere around 10 I had my second break and wolfed down my food (they had a replacement staff fridge working that day thankfully) which i was glad i brought cause I never got given a staff wristband, brief sheet or token for a provided meal. Because I started before that sign in procedure was even set up for the rest of the staff. And then i went about taking down signage about 11:30, and then I did the running around taking signage down after 12, and like... the area we're in involves some steep hill walks to get to these outside sign placements (I'd put half of them up so it also made sense for me to go take them down). 

And that's where MORE fuckery came in, because the shitty instructions didn't tell me where ALL the signs were, so i had to go HUNTING for the ones i HADN'T put up, and i swear either another department took them down and didn't relay that, or they'd been removed by council or something thinking they belonged to council. Either way i was up and down those fucking hills with horribly chaffed thighs, sore legs, sore arms, cut up hands from removing signs with cable ties too tight, and I couldn't find half the fucking signs. but at least I took one of the newbies with me to help look so I had a witness to not being able to find things. 

So yeah. I had to go find my supervisor (no idea where boss was, prefer supervisor anyway, she's nicer under stress and poor thing was pulling a 19 hour shift) and let her know I was an hour over my finish time and which signs we hadn't been able to retrieve. She was fine with that, the rest of the people were scheduled for packdown to like 3:30 so she sent me to sign out. 

And then i had to just sit for about 45 minutes back of house with some of the others who'd clocked off at 1 and who were waiting for the free leftovers from the VIP areas that came out at 3. I had a tiny tasty cake thing but that was it, then I left at 3 and got home about 4:45. Didn't get to sleep til about 5:30.

And I've spent yesterday and today trying to recover but now Iv'e got weird low-buzz tinnitus in my left ear that started yesterday and hasn't fucked off, several bruises, many muscle aches, and I'm kinda dreading facing my boss again even though she probably doesn't really care much about the signage thing, she just gets really shitty and yelly under stress. But of course I've been gaslit and mistreated in so many of my other jobs that the voice in the back of my head is constantly going 'watch out bitch you might get randomly terminated at any moment!!!' even though i know i probably won't. 

I can just never be sure anymore. Can't trust anyone when it comes to work. Can never relax my guard, going to be stressing about it for a long time. I am never agreeing to a shift that long again though. And definitely not doing anymore outdoor setup shifts in Summer. 

Honestly hoping this ear buzz shit goes away at some point. In the end for my 23.5 hours of work in 2 days I'll probably maybe get $500 after tax. Maybe. Which will only just be floating my account by the time i get it. Everyone else was talking about having that sweet NYE bonus cash and I'm like ;u; yeah. Sure. haha. Bonus cash. TnT I need a proper fucking career job already i am so tired. 

[silverlightqueen]

Daisies

here's another playlist with all the songs that the songs in Daisies are based on with the spotify playlist, enjoy x

a/n: almost all of the song titles come from part names of daisies parts lol and I also wrote this super late last night but the wifi stopped working as I tried to upload it so sorry for how... sleep deprived I come across in this lmaooo x

tracklist

1. Intro: Spring - KTH = Winter Bear - V

From the very first mixtape skit, Tae suggested having Intro: Spring and Outro: Summer so y’all know I had to call the intro Intro: Spring lol. I based this one off Winter Bear bc even though Winter Bear is about... a winter bear (lmao), I thought it’d be cute to have the message of this song as even though it’s spring, the singer still loves the person they fell in love with during the winter (and winter doesn’t necessarily refer to the season, but maybe a dark time in the singer’s life).

2. Mayday - KTH & JJK = Lay Me Down - Sam Smith & John Legend

So the reason I chose this song is that it’s quite a sad and dark love song and rather than seeing it as an unrequited love song (which is what it is), I see it as more a doomed love song. From the point of view of the singer, they see the relationship as something amazing and beautiful and something they want, but there are doubts/barriers in the way. This could be reflective of how both Tae and JK initially saw their relationships with Chae and Lisa due to the whole idol dating thing, or maybe even their past with sleeping around. 

3. Injustice - Jisoo & Jennie = Extraordinary - Clean Bandit & Sharna Bass

Again, this is another song about loving someone, but there are issues/doubts/barriers in the relationship. This again could be reflective of doubts that Jisoo and Jennie both had about Jin and Joon at the beginning of their attractions to one another/relationships. 

4. Psychic - KNJ & Jennie = Fine Line - Mabel & Not3s

This song is all about how they both have feelings for each other, but he’s more open about his towards her. Jennie is reluctant but feels like there is a very fine line (ba dum tsh) between their relationship being casual and her falling head over heels for him.

5. Missing Out - MYG, JHS & Lisa = Take It Or Leave It - Rae Sremmurd

Now I really really love this song bc it gives me major ‘I really like you and i’m trying my best to act like I don’t really care whether you like me or not but I really do and I’m not a good actor so you already know’ vibes. It’s a real laidback and chill ‘end-of-the-night-when-everyone’s-high’ kinda song and I love it.

6. Outings - MYG, JHS, PJM & JJK = New Flame - Chris Brown, Usher & Rick Ross

I chose this song bc it talks about finding love in an unlikely place; the club. In Outings, the boys sing/rap about finding love in a different unlikely place; on tour. It’s so hectic and busy that you wouldn’t think there’d be any time, but it happened regardless.

7. Possessed - JHS, Jennie & y/n = All My Friends - Snakehips, Tinashe & Chance The Rapper

This song is the ultimate introvert anthem and talks about the idol lifestyle for idols that don’t like the idol lifestyle. y/n wasn’t into all that getting high and drunk and sleeping around kinda thing and this song reflects that mentality, and the mentality of the boys when they used to do that shit.

8. Parents - KSJ, Jisoo & JJK = Boyfriend - Ariana Grande & Social House

This song just talks about how Jin, JK and Jisoo (and Lisa) are in relationships where they really like the other person and they don’t want them with anybody else, but they’re also not quite ready to commit and put a label on it or make it official just yet.

9. Booking Flights - KSJ, JHS, Jisoo, KNJ & Jennie = Finders Keepers - Mabel & Kojo Funds

This song is about how you will not catch Jin, Jisoo, Joon or Jennie booking a flight to see the other person they’re in a relationship with; they’re not ready for that yet and they’d prefer to keep it casual and make the most of the time they do have together before becoming serious.

9.5. Skit: Brainstorm Pt. IIIII - All

This is literally just them lot brainstorming and i’m so sorry but I am too tired to come up with what they say so you can just make it up yourselves

10. Really - Girls (Blackpink Cover)

This song is a little bit of turning point; it’s where the girls have decided that ‘okay, I like you and I’m ready for us to be something more; if you feel the same way, let me know’. This is where the girls are addressing their feelings and wanting the same from the boys.

11. Reunion - PJM & y/n = Learn To Love Again - Lawson

This song is y/n and Jimin talking about how they know that they are meant for each other bc of the fact that they’ve been able to learn to love each other again and forgive each other, despite everything that happened between them; it’s an admittance of how deep their feelings for each other really go.

12. Enjoy - Lisa & JJK = Fetish - Selena Gomez & Gucci Mane 

This song is about how JK and Lisa are feeling each other in a sexual way and no matter how they’ve tried to repress their feelings, they want the other; not just in a sexual relationship but in an actual relationship too (and they’re both aware of the other’s feelings). It also talks about how they don’t blame the other for liking them so a lil bit of self love in there too.

13. Blushing - Chae = Lover - Taylor Swift

There’s not much to say about this one; it’s literally just Chae admitting to Tae that she really likes him, wants to go where he goes and stay this close to him forever. It’s a really cute lil love song and I think it suits Chae and Tae’s relationship perfectly.

14. Clouds - MYG & KTH = Waves - Kanye West & Chris Brown

This song is about all the different relationships that the twelve of them have, discussing the fact that they are like waves; they change and move and (as Genius lyrics says) flux and reflux, but they never truly die and are always still there. Basically it’s about how no matter what happens, their relationships will exist and stay just as strong forever.

15. Close Your Eyes - Boys = Wake Up - The Vamps

This song is the boys admittance of their feelings for the girls and how they’re here and ready for the girls whenever their hearts are ready. That’s it, lol.

16. Babie - KSJ = This Is What You Came For - Calvin Harris & Rihanna

This song is about a really powerful woman who can command the entire room, but the feeling of her having her eyes on you. Basically, it’s just the boys empowering the girls; it’s them saying ‘you guys are really amazing and powerful and we’re honoured to even know you, let alone have your love’.

17.  Forever Young - All (Blackpink Cover)

This song is literally just them talking about feeling young when they’re all together and they’ll be together the rest of their lives, making them young forever.

18. About Time - MYG, JHS & y/n = Congratulations - Post Malone & Quavo

This is just a flex bc they're record breakers and award winners bitch lmao

19. Interlude: Hedge - JJK & y/n

y’all know I had to fucking do it to you !! okay so the backing track is literally just basic asf and it’s just JK and y/n rapping the following lines together (it’s only like a minute long lmao):

sitting on a ledge, thinking ‘bout a hedge. we gon’ make a pledge to grow ourselves a hedge. our tools we will dredge (up) and in the garden we will wedge, some seeds between our flowers and grow a baby hedge. the baby hedge will grow, ‘til it can’t no mo’, ‘til it’s bigger than Tae’s toe and taller than Joon’s old ‘fro. our hedge matters most, it’ll grow from coast to coast, ‘til the world from edge to edge will fall in love with our hedge 

(that’s it. I have reached the peak of crackheadedness. I will never do anything more crackhead-like than what i am doing right this second; writing a rap about a hedge at 1am in the dark with Monsters vs Aliens on the tv)

20. Apocalypse - KTH, Lisa & y/n = This Is Love - Will Smith & Eva Simons

This song is legit just how much love they all have; for each other, for their fans, for their families and friends and for their music. That’s it, ion know what else to say.

21. Lucky Stars - Chae & y/n = Unconditionally - Katy Perry

This is just another big love song about how no matter what, they will all still love each other unconditionally, without holding back anything.

22. Masterpiece - PJM & y/n = Ordinary People - John Legend

This is y/n and Jimin realising that there will be ups and downs in their relationship, but that’s okay bc that’s life and they’ll get through it bc they love each other. It’s also them realising that they need to just go slow this time and let things happen naturally rather than rushing into anything and forcing anything.

23. Tipsy - PJM & y/n = Drunk In Love - Beyonce & Jay-Z

Nothing has changed; they both still like sex a lot. Also, rapper!Jimin which we love (yes, i’m still not over that Tony Montana performance and I want it tattooed on my forehead pls)

24. Whiplash - Boys = Better Man - 5 Seconds Of Summer

This song is dedicated from the boys to y/n bc she made them better men; she threw away their drugs (lmao) and got them to stop sleeping around and helped to realise their worth and love themselves, so this is their thank you to her for changing them into better people.

25. Holiday - Chae, JJK & y/n = Malibu - Miley Cyrus

This song is about how they were reluctant about relationships at first and never saw themselves where they are now, but they love it and feel indebted to their other halves (and also their friendship group) for giving them new experiences, changing their lives for the better and making them happier than ever.

26. Promise Pt. II - PJM = Serendipity - BTS

This is dedicated to y/n (obviously) and is basically just Jimin’s promise to y/n that he loves her.

27. Angel Boy - y/n = Video Games - Lana Del Rey

This is y/n’s love song to Jimin - just listen to it and you’ll understand (listen, it’s late and i’m tired but I just wanna get this uploaded so I can finish daisies in the next couple of days and start the new au so sorry if the descriptions are too brief lol)

28. Back On - All = All Weekend Long - Jack & Jack

RTG might have left the toxic lifestyle behind them but they’ll never say no to a good party lmao

29. Business - KNJ & Jennie = Touch - Little Mix & Kid Ink

Jen and Joon like each other a lot and like to touch too lmao i’m tired forgive me

30. Peachy - KSJ & Jisoo = Toothbrush - DNCE

Jin and Jisoo not wanting just one night stands and asking the other to stay the night and the next day bc they like each other a lot

31. Dream - Lisa & JJK = Cold Water - Major Lazer, Justin Bieber and MØ 

This just in: JK and Lisa really like each other and will save each other from cold cold water bc of it.

32. Worldwide - KTH & Chae = This One’s For You - David Guetta & Zara Larsson

Just a super feelgood, uplifting and empowering love song that’s totally not about football.

33. Daisy - PJM & y/n = Middle - DJ Snake & Bipolar Sunshine

This song is where I got the line ‘staring at two different views’ from and both y/n and Jimin have captioned pictures of each other with that line so I felt obliged to have this as their song, and then I called it daisy and made myself sad lmao.

34. Goodbye - All = The Time - Black Eyed Peas

They had the time of their lives on The Rose Tour and can’t wait to do it all over again on The Daisies Tour.

35. Outro: Summer - All = Waiting For Love - Avicii

They’ve all been hurt in the past but that doesn’t matter anymore bc they’ve found love in each other and that’s all that matters. 

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It's okay if you don't want to but if you do could you do that question thingy you did about Maxiel but about Este/Lance 🥺 Ily💕

this took a little longer than expected because i accidentally forgot to save the draft at 20 questions answered and had to redo it but the answers are practically the same!! i hope you like this!! ily 🥺💗

1) who is the most affectionate?

physically affectionate? it’s without a doubt este, he is constantly reaching out for lance and even if it’s just a small touch like his hand on lance’s back - he has to have something, he’s very big on and he loves having lance in his arms. lance is equally as affectionate but different to este, lance tends to show his affection through always making sure there’s time in his schedule for este, giving him signs that he’s listening to what este is saying and eye contact is something he tries keep when they’re talking.

2) big spoon/little spoon?

they both try to be the little spoon... i accept no criticism on this. they usually try and take it in turns every night but once they’re in bed - it’s a case of trying to outstubborn the other until one of them gives in and is the big spoon.

3) most common argument?

i feel like they don’t argue all that much, they probably have one major argument a year and even that seems like it’s pushing it. needless to say that doesn’t mean that they don’t inadvertently upset each other but instead of blowing up and yelling - they’re the type to talk it out calmly even if it’s a stuttered conversation that could take hours to fix. (i’m convinced este is a big fan of the silent treatment though).

4) favourite non-sexual activity?

anything food related! idk, i just see it and i see them cooking together, going out to eat together and also trying (being the key word) to bake and cook at ungodly hours when they can’t sleep and it’s 1am. they might end up with more ingredients over them than in what they’re making but it’s so much fun for them and something they try and find time for on days they can be together.

5) who is most likely to carry the other?

they’re pretty much the same height but i feel like lance is the type to sneak up behind este and hug him and lift him up... it’s not exactly carrying but este’s feet aren’t on the ground so it works. i feel like este would be the one to carry lance to bed if he falls asleep on the couch - of course he wouldn’t get far because lance would wake up in the process but este tries.

6) what is their favourite feature of their partner’s?

este loves loves loves loves lance’s hair - it’s so soft and fluffy and he doesn’t need a reason to run his fingers through lance’s hair. he especially loves it when he can run his fingers through his hair when lance’s head is in his lap and they’re watching tv. lance adores este’s smile and he always wants to see it and makes dumb jokes and terrible puns to try and get to see it more often (it doesn’t take much because este automatically smiles whenever he’s with lance), he especially loves it when este’s eyes crinkle as he does.

7) what’s the first thing that changes when they realise they have feelings for the other?

a whole lot of gay panic! i’m only half kidding - they definitely panic because realising you have feelings for someone can stress you out but realising you have feelings for your best friend - it definitely makes things awkward and tense between them yet neither of them realise why the other is so tense around them. just a couple of dumb gays in love!

8) nicknames and if so, how did they originate?

i feel like they both steer well clear of your common “babe” and “baby” and mostly use “love” or “darling” when talking to each other and it originates from when they were back in the stage of first dating and still in the “this is so awkward. what do i say? what’s gonna happen” stage and este is like “are you okay, love?” and here we go, nickname stuck.

9) who worries the most?

lance! lance hates to admit it but he’s constantly worrying in the back of his mind that he doesn’t deserve his seat, that he’s not good enough to be in f1 and as much as he knows that he is good enough... it doesn’t stop the thoughts gnawing at him every now and then.

10) who remembers what the other one always orders at a restaurant?

este! he always tries and remembers what lance has told him even if lance doesn’t think it’s anything particularly important, and it surprises lance when este just tells him stuff about him that he might have forgotten.

11) who tops?

lance. este. lance. este. idk, something is pulling me towards lance so let’s go with that.

12) who initiates kisses?

este! it’s the physical affection that he craves, he loves being able to reach out for lance and just be able to kiss him whenever he can and he loves feeling lance smiling against his lips too!

13) who reaches for the other’s hand first?

again... este... i just see him as very physically affectionate so whenever he gets the chance to just touch lance... in whatever way, he takes it and even though it’s super cheesy - he points out that their hands fit together like puzzle pieces. (it’s cheesy yes but lance thinks este could get away with saying super cheesy stuff with that accent).

14) who kisses the hardest?

este. sometimes he struggles saying words coherently out loud so whenever he can use actions over words he does. he’s a guy who loves his boyfriend and wants to show it and sometimes putting all that passion and love into a kiss works better than words ever could.

15) who wakes up first?

lance! lance tries to relish the time they have together and wakes up early and even if este stays asleep for a little while longer - just being awake to savour those moments of calm before the world hasn’t woken up yet, it makes it worth it.

16) who wants to stay in bed just a little longer?

este... he’s very big into the idea of if he has nowhere to be then staying in bed under blankets with his favourite person is the ideal way to spend it. he’s also the person who mumbles five more minutes when lance tries to get him up and out of bed.

17) who says I love you first?

este says the words out loud first but lance is the one who tries to say it first but ends up fumbling over his words. este takes a shot in the dark and assumes that’s what lance is trying to say and says it.

18) who leaves little notes in the other’s lunch (bonus, what does it say?)

lance! oh gosh, lance wouldn’t leave sappy written notes but i feel like he’d do drawings of either them or whatever random thing he’s thinking of at that time. it’ll be sketched quickly and maybe coloured a little messily but it’ll bring a smile to este’s face when he pulls out one of those little post-it notes and it’s something he looks forward to.

19) who tells their family/friends about their relationship first?

lance! mainly to get it over and done with. it’s not that he anticipates his family reacting badly but it’s just not that big of a deal with him and he doesn’t see the point in dragging it out for so long.

20) what do their family/friends think of their relationship?

their family and friends are really supportive, can see that there’s a lot of love between them and are very “if he makes you happy then it makes us happy.”

21) who is more likely to start dancing with the other?

este... he’s the type to pick a song and just pull lance into dancing without giving him a choice in the matter and lance would try to resist but este just keeps dancing around him until he gives in.

22) who cooks more/who is the better at cooking?

este... is the better cook... but that doesn’t mean he’s outstanding and his cooking skill goes down immediately when he’s cooking with lance because of how distracted they both get. the kitchen looks like a disaster site when they’re finished but as long as the food tastes good (spoiler: sometimes it really really doesn’t).

23) who comes up with cheesy pick up lines?

lance has this one in the bag. he’s got an abundance that he’s kept from his early teenage years and uses them on este whenever the opportunity presents itself (or doesn’t, he just throws them out there). he never stops treating este like they’re still in that just starting to date stage.

24) who whispers inappropriate things in the other’s ear during inappropriate times?

este? idk, i feel like lance’s ability to not turn red or laugh is not very high and it makes it really easy to get him flustered or make him laugh when he really shouldn’t be... as soon as este figures this out - he uses it to his advantage.

25) who needs more assurance?

lance needs it more, he’s still young so things that mightn’t get to him in a few years time still manage to drag him down so este is always there with open arms and reassuring words, whispered words of promise that whatever is going on - he’ll get through it. they’ll get through it.

26) what would be their theme song?

maybe it’s because i was just listening to it but wherever you are - kodaline comes to mind, the lyrics seem to fit them as i see them together.

27) who would sing their child back to sleep?

este! oh gosh, he’s a sucker for their kid and he’s so soft and would be the one slowly walking around the nursery with a little baby in his arms as he sings lullabies... yes.

28) what do they do when they’re away from each other?

think about each other. also, i can see them being big into taking pictures of what they’re doing or where they are - they can be pictures of nothing important but they send like 3/4 an hour and it’s like the other person is with them.

29) one headcanon about this OTP that breaks your heart?

the uncertainty. not the uncertainty of them as a couple but of the sport. the heartache that comes with them not being on the grid together, how one can be so happy for the other but also how much it kills them to not be there too.

30) one headcanon about this OTP that mends it?

they have each other. like 29, even though there’s so much uncertainty as long as they have each other - they’re sure that they can get through whatever is thrown at them. they can always rely on each other and they’re who the other turns to when things get rough.

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The Afterlife Of A Time Traveler

(hey guys! I wrote this fanfic and AU! it’s currently 1AM, I just finished it and it probably sucks but I don’t care!)

Rex was terrified. No Lego he knew had ever died. Even Vitruvius had come back from the dead, proving in some way there was no Lego afterlife - and yet he had just disappeared from existence. Everything was black around him. He started crying.  “H-hello?” he said into the darkness, barely even trying to use his tough guy voice, plus his voice cracking due to him crying. Information was fed into his head. He had a choice he could make. He could stay there and suffer for eternity, or start a new life in a completely different universe. He was given a minute to decide. He felt bad about his mistakes, and stopped crying, but still with a shaky voice said “I want to sta...start over.” with that very sentence, his minifigure body glowed with pain. Everything hurt. He could feel things he had never felt on his body before. And then, in an instant, he wasn’t in the darkness anymore.

 “Who are you?” said the voice of a young teenager. He sounded defensive. Rex opened his eyes, which had been closed because of the pain, and looked around. Seeing not only how different his surroundings were, but seeing Legos - Emmet - no, his whole universe on the grass he was standing on at a smaller scale, drove him into a panic attack. He fell to the ground on his face, crying and shaking, which freaked out this young teenager and his sister even more. “Bia you go get mom, I’ll stay here and make sure he’s okay.” said the teenager. The girl nodded and ran off, and the boy walked over to Rex. “Hey dude are you okay? You kinda just appeared out of thin air” he asked. Rex couldn’t move. A woman ran through the door to the backyard. “What happened?” she asked the kids. “He just appeared out of thin air mom!” said the girl. “Finn, what happened?” she obviously didn’t believe her daughter. “Mom, you’re really not gonna believe this but he just appeared out of thin air.” said the boy. “Really? Have you seen this boy before?” the siblings looked at each other, shrugged, and look back at their mother. “No mom” said the girl. “You’re sure he doesn’t go to your school?” she asked the boy. “Yeah I’m pretty sure, I know most of the kids in my grade and the ones I don’t I think I would at least recognize.” responded the boy. “Huh. well we can’t just leave him lying here, Finn, can you drag him to the couch?” said the mom. “sure mom.” said the boy, picking up Rex by the hands which he then put around his neck in a fireman carry. He then carried Rex, who was knocked unconscious upon hitting the ground, to the couch in the living room of the house. He laid him down face up, noticing his nose was bleeding. “I'll umm… go grab tissues to help him” said the girl, running off. Rex's face was now clearly visible and very different from his Lego face. His hair was mostly the same shape and color, but his yellow plastic “skin” was now pale. He also had freckles and acne in the place of where stubble use to be. He looked like a normal 13-14 year old boy. 

“And you swear you’ve never seen this kid before?” said the mom, putting tissues up Rex's nose to help stop the bleeding. “yes mom” said the boy. The girl nodded. Rex had been breathing out of his nose, so it now being clogged by tissues woke him up. His eyes opened quickly and he started to panic again, trying to sit up but not having enough energy to. “its okay, its okay,” said the mom, trying to calm rex down. “What’s your name?” she asked once he was calm. “...Rex.” Said Rex, his voice shaky. Just then, the Mom got a call on her cellphone. “Hang on, sorry I gotta take this. Kids, can you try to help him out?” she said, picking up her phone and holding it to her chest while walking away from the kids. “My name’s Finn and this is my sister Bianca. So… Rex.. Where are you from?” Asked Finn. No response. “What are your parents names?” Asked Finn, again. No response. “Do you have amnesia?” asked Bianca. “Sis, if he had amnesia he wouldn’t know it, and I don’t think that’s an appropriate thing to ask him.” Finn looked back at Rex. “Sorry about her. But, do you have amnesia?” He asked Rex. Rex shrugged and shook his head no. “Well, what do you remember then? You have to be able to tell us something, right?” asked Finn. Rex thought about it for a second, and then noticed the Legos were still visible through glass door to the backyard. He pointed at them. “Legos?” said Bianca, confused. “Legos… is that it?” asked Finn. “I umm.. I don’t think you want to hear the full story…” said Rex, his voice still cracking. “Can you give us a short, believable version of it?” asked Bianca. “I...I can try.” replied Rex. “I am… or I at least was, a Lego.” he said, serious as he could be. Bianca snorted. “Yeah right, you were a Lego, next thing you’re gonna tell me is that you know Emmet and Lucy right?” asked Finn, doubting Rex. The very mention of Emmet’s name sent a dagger into Rex’s heart. “Yeah, they were my best friends. Wyldstyle, Unikitty, Metalbeard, Benny, Batman, Emmet, all of them. Even Vitruvius, y’know before he died. I even helped defeat President Business 5 years ago! Everything is Awesome will always be my favorite song, and Bricksburg, or apocalypse burg, or whatever you two are calling it now will always be my true home.” he said, his voice cracking and his old voice seeping in. Finn and Bianca couldn’t believe their ears. “Wh..Who..What..” Finn was in shock. This wasn’t really happening. A Lego minifigure didn’t just come to life, no, this kid was just crazy. “Who are...Who were you?” asked Bianca. This question confused Rex, but he answered the way he wanted to. “My name is Rex Dangervest.” Said Rex. “sounds like a name you would come up with bro.” she said to Finn. “how to you believe this so easily Bia, it’s impossible!” Finn said, raising his voice a little. “Well nothing is impossible if you just try” she said, quietly. “She’s right” Rex said, agreeing with Bianca. Finn sighed. “As much as I don’t believe this whole thing and as impossible as it might be… you do have a point” he said. Rex sat up, now having the energy to do so. “So... how close were you and Emmet?” asked Finn, now curious what Rex might know about the character he had spent the last 5 years creating, despite not remembering Rex’s existence at all. Rex hesitated before answering the question. “...We were super close. He was basically like a little brother to me.” he didn’t want to tell anyone about his true past, or that he was Emmet just yet. He needed them to trust him for some amount of time before that. “Uh huh.” said Finn, not believing Rex again. “What’s wrong with that?” asked Bianca. “Sis, him saying that is basically saying that he was… Queen Whatevera Wana’bi’s sister or daughter. It doesn’t make sense in the story.” Finn explained. “...oh.” replied Bianca. “Yeah. who are you really?” asked Finn. At this point, their mom came back, stopping this conversation. “I am so sorry about that Rex.” she said, then she turned her attention to her kids. “Kids, Dad had to go to an important business meeting and won't be back till next weekend.” she explained. “Okay.” said Finn. Bianca nodded. “Now, Rex, do you, I don’t know, remember anything before you “magically appeared” in our backyard?” asked the mom. “He’s a Lego from a different dimension!” exclaimed Bianca. “Bia!” Exclaimed Finn, knowing his sister didn’t understand how crazy this sounded. “Really?” said the mom, trying to tell herself that her kids weren’t crazy but knowing full well that they probably were. Rex nodded. “Yeah, sure, what else did he say?” asked the mom, not buying it. “He knew all Finn’s character’s names! I bet he even knows mine! He says that he was Emmet’s brother!” exclaimed Bianca, excited. “Well today is just a day of very interesting events I guess. Rex, if your parents don’t show up here by next Monday we’re kicking you out on the streets.” said the mom. “...okay…” said Rex, worried. What could he do in a week? 

A lot. As he learned, he could do a lot in a week.

That week, Bianca and Finn both happened to be on spring break, so they and Rex spent the whole week playing with Legos. Rex even made his own character to play with them as! A dog trainer named Ripley who trained Dinosaur-Dog hybrids. Mainly raptors. He learned more about what Finn and Bianca thought of the characters, and how they saw his whole world. It was hard for him to watch at some points, knowing he ending things as he did, and there was no way Emmet knew that Ripley was actually Rex. Sure, Emmet knew about Finn’s existence from the whole kragle thing when he was taken out of his world before, but there was nothing linking that kid and Rex together in anyway. 

In Emmet’s world, Ripley had the same voice as rex did and it freaked him out. Rex had been sleeping on the couch the whole week. He didn’t mind it. The kid’s mom gave him acne cream because his acne was bad. He didn’t mind it. He didn’t mind anything that they did to him that would seem bad, because he had been through so much worse. But to know these people were part of the reason he was stuck under that dryer for so many years? He did mind that. That 

Sunday, the day before Rex would inevitably be kicked out on the street, Bianca went over to a friend’s house, meaning it would just be him and Finn. 

The perfect time to tell Finn the truth.

 “Hey Finn?” asked Rex. had been fiddling around with some Legos while Finn texted someone. “Yeah Rex?” Replied Finn. “Can I talk to you about something?” asked Rex. “...Sure, what is it?” responded Finn, a bit confused. “Can we go inside?” asked Rex, unsure of who would be listening if they were outside, and still in the body of an anxious 13 year old. “...Sure” replied Finn, still unsure of what was going on. They went up to Finn’s room, Rex sitting on the bed and Finn sitting on his swivel chair. “So, what did you want to talk to me about?” asked Finn. “a week ago, you asked who I am… Who I really am…” said Rex, looking down at the carpeted floor. “Yeah, and?” responded Finn, confused. “Finn… I lied.” Said Rex. “I knew it!” exclaimed Finn. “So what are you, some weird kid who’s been spying on me for the month or something?” Said Finn, both mad at Rex but happy that he was right. “No Finn…” said Rex, taking something out of his pocket. He held up a plastic Lego minifigure of a construction worker. “I am Emmet.” Said Rex, with a serious look on his face. Finn just stared at him in awe. Well, at least it looked like Awe. it was more of a mix of fear, confusion, and somewhat surprise. “That’s impossible.” He said, now sounding mad at Rex. “I’m from a different dimension. One where my ship got blown up and I landed on-under the dryer. You and your sister never made up and I was stuck under the dryer for years. And eventually, something in me died down there. I built a time machine to go back and save my past self from blowing up the ship. Of course, not without getting a team of raptors and building a ship to protect the galaxy beforehand.” explained Rex. Finn didn’t believe a word of this. “What the hell. I thought we were friends, Rex. but if you’re just going to lie to me more, well then maybe I’m glad mom is kicking you out tomorrow.” Finn yelled at Rex, ripping Emmet out of his hands. Rex went into another state of panic. But this time, he felt something different. As if he shrunk down to the size of a Lego. He looked at his hands. He was a Lego again. “REX????!!” Exclaimed Finn, his chair backing into his desk. He couldn’t believe it. Rex had been telling the truth this whole time. He did the only logical thing he could think of. He took Emmet (who was sleeping anyways so this was probably just a weird nightmare to him) and Lego Rex back to the backyard, putting Emmet back where he had been before doing anything else. Rex came back to life as a human on the grass of the backyard. “Rex!!” exclaimed Finn, now happy as ever to see the human counterpart of the alternate timeline version of his favorite Lego character. “See kid, I wasn’t lying.” Said Rex, sounding just like his old self again. Without a second thought, Finn gave Rex a hug. “Kid?” Rex was confused by this. Finn was crying a little. When he was done with that, he explained himself. “You’re the closest thing I’ll ever get to meeting Emmet Brickowski for real. You’re the closest thing I’ll get to me meeting my best friend.” this made Rex start crying too. The two boys came up with a plan, once they realized Rex could change from human to Lego and Lego to human whenever he wanted to. He transformed into a Lego and waited in front of Emmet and Lucy’s house. 

Rex cautiously knocked on the door. “Coming!” said a familiar voice. Emmet opened the door. “R..Rex?” he said, staring at Rex. “Hey...Emmet…” replied Rex. “how are you still alive? I thought you disappeared forever! Wait, were you Ripley the whole time?” “Emmet, who are you talking to?” said another voice familiar to Rex, except it was a girl’s this time. Wyldstyle. “Rex?” she just looked at Rex in shock. And so, Rex explained what happened to him to them. “So, let me get this straight. You became human, became best friend’s with the man upstairs’s son, and then found a way to become a Lego again?” Said Lucy, still in shock. “Yeah well he didn’t believe the Lego side of the story either so.” Said Rex. “well I believe it.” said Emmet. “Emmet, you can’t be so trusting of Rex” said Lucy. “Lucy, you haven’t seen the man upstairs’s son. Rex and I have.” said Emmet, trying to find a way to trust Rex. “yeah, well I’m pretty sure I’ve seen his daughter!” Lucy blurted out. “You what” said the two boys in unison. “After you destroyed everything, a...human girl picked me up and just stared at me before throwing me into the abyss with the others.” explained Lucy. “Bianca.” said Rex. “that was Bianca.” he continued. “And the Boy’s name is Finn right?” asked Emmet, remembering Rex’s story. “Correct.” replied Rex. “hmm…” Lucy was In just as much disbelief as Finn was, and Emmet was acting more like Bianca had before when Rex explained his backstory to her. “You have no proof!” Said Wyldstyle. “And you have no way to disprove me.” said Rex. Lucy did not like this fact. “Emmet, he tried to trap you under in the undar system of dryer. You can’t trust him.” “well maybe you can’t, but I can.” said Emmet.  And from that day on, Rex lived a double life, in the Lego and human worlds. Mostly in the Lego world. He befriended the rest of Emmet’s friends and apologized for ruining Queen Whatevra Wana’bi’ and Batman’s Wedding. Eventually Lucy learned to trust Rex. Back in the human world, Rex would tell Bianca and Finn about what he and the others would do, and how their imagination was just the start of what really happened in the Lego world. 

[wifeymomz]

OUR BIRTH STORY

Sunday 5/12 (mother’s day)

I woke up and went to the bathroom around 8am. I noticed there was blood in my urine with some clots and it was brighter red. I called wifey over and we thought it might be the mucus plug. We decided to call labor and delivery just to make sure we didn’t need to come in for further evaluation. After speaking with them, they said go ahead and come in. I was so nervous that something was wrong, but wifey is always reassuring. We go to labor and delivery and they hooked me up to the baby monitor and blood pressure cuff. The doctor performed an ultrasound and it looked like my water bag was still intact and baby looked good. After being monitored for an hour or so, they noticed that my blood pressure had increased a few times so they wanted to collect urine and blood. After another hour or so, my blood pressure had stabilized. Another doctor came in to speak with us about the results of the urine and blood tests which came back normal except they found protein in my urine which could mean I had preclampsia. The doctor offered us 2 choices: collect urine for 24 hours and f/u with my regular OB or they can do an early induction. We went with the first choice because it didn’t sound urgent enough that I needed to go into labor early and I didn’t want to be medically induced

Got home close to 1pm and our families were already at the house waiting for us to celebrate mother’s day. Sidenote: the weird thing is I had a weird dream the night before that we delivered on mother’s day.

Monday 5/13

Went to Kaiser to turn in my urine that I had been collecting for testing

Tuesday 5/14

Had a follow-up appointment with our OB. She reviewed that my blood pressure was okay, but the protein in my urine was elevated so I still wasn’t out of the clear for preclampsia. She suggested that I check my blood pressure daily and if it goes above 140/90 to call labor and delivery for a possible induction. She reviewed what that would look like and I had asked if there were options other than pitocin. She offered to strip my membranes (gently separate the amniotic sac from the wall of the uterus) which would be a natural way to induce me since she knew I really didn’t want to be medically induced. She warned me that it could be painful but I agreed and it definitely was uncomfortable. We were still scheduled for a follow up appointment the following monday if I didn’t go into labor yet and at that appointment we would schedule an induction if needed.

I went home so worried about a medical induction but also about possibly having preclampsia because it could be a serious condition if it gets worse. I just wanted to trust the baby that she would come out when she was ready.

Wednesday 5/15

1am-I woke up to a pain in my lower back that would come and go for the next few hours, so I thought they were contractions. They weren’t intense but definitely uncomfortable. I started googling whether or not I was actually having contractions after having my membranes stripped and it said yes…

4am- wifey and I took showers just in case we were going to go to the hospital soon

Unfortunately, wifey wasn’t feeling well so she rested/slept most of the day when she could. I just wanted her to get better before we went to the hospital

I tried going back to sleep but I just couldn’t, so I left wifey upstairs and went downstairs. For the rest of the day, I had contractions that killed my lower back and it was just so hard to get any rest since they were 8-10 minutes apart for hours. I sat on an exercise ball, walked around or bent over on the couch during my contractions. It was a sharp ass pain in my back and all I could do was breath through them. Eventually, wifey came down and we ate dinner, watched TV and tried to manage my contractions. Around 10pm, I called L&D since the contractions were now 5 minutes apart and more intense. They suggested to call again when my contractions were 3-4 minutes and to take a shower to help with the contractions which really did help!! The hot water felt so good on my back. It was a good time for us to get our bags and other items into the car. Around midnight, the contractions were 3-4 minutes apart so we called and they said to come on in. We got to L&D around 1am and were in triage.

Thursday 5/16

In triage, they checked my cervix and I was 4cm dilated. Thank goodness even though I wish I were further along since I had contractions for 24 hours already! I did have bloody show, but they were concerned since I was bleeding more than normal. They also asked what my birth plan was and I said unmedicated, which surprised them. A midwife came by and we were discussing my birth plan. Initially, we were supposed to be transferred to room 3 and then she said if I’m admitted within the next hour we could get room 7 which is what we wanted because it had the tub. It was so meant to be since unmedicated was our goal. One of the doctors came in to do an ultrasound and confirmed that the baby’s position was sunny side up which is why I was having so much back pain. Around 3:30-4am, they did a cervical check again and I was 5.5cm dilated and wanted to move forward with admitting me. We were transferred to room 7 and our nurse had suggested two different positions to try and change baby’s position: one was side lying with one of my legs up on a stirrup thing and the other was at the head of the bed in quadriped position with my knees as far apart. I tried both but eventually just wanted to do the sidelying position. When I had some contractions, the nurse applied counter pressure to my lower back which really helped and offered me hot packs. It was such a relief because I knew wifey wasn’t feeling well either and needed some rest. At 7am, they had the shift change and our nurse’s name was Kathy. gosh I thought it was a sign because one of my best friend’s bday  was today and maybe baby would be born. Around 10ish, they checked me and I was 9cm! we were like thank goodness 1 more centimeter and I could start pushing!

Wifey texted our fam to maybe head over just in case she would be born today. Her parents were already in the waiting room and my family started to get ready to head over. They checked again at 12noon and I was still 9cm. Every time they did a cervical check it brought on the worst contraction to where I would scream and cry. Our nurse gave me a TENS machine to use, which she said helps with back labors. It somewhat helped as a distraction from the actual pain. They offered me pitocin and I declined. I told wifey that I would accept it if I’m still at 9cm at the next check. Around 2ish, they checked again and I was still at 9cm so I accepted the pitocin. Now the contractions were closer together and more intense! They also offered me nitrous oxide and initially I said no. The doctor suggested to use the tub to see if the baby will change positions. The tub felt so nice and somewhat helped my contractions. After the tub, I asked for the nitrous gas which was helpful with helping me breathe through the contractions. the pitocin killed me because the contractions were closer together and more intense.  At some point, they broke my water bag to see if it would help me get closer to 10cm. It was such a weird sensation because it was just a warm gush of water coming out and it didn’t hurt.

I hadn’t gone to the bathroom in a long time and each time I tried and sat on the toilet I swear I was going to shit. The contractions were so strong! They did a bladder scan and luckily i wasn’t full yet. After several hours, they had offered me an epidural several times because they knew I was exhausted. Their intent was to get me some rest, but I really didn’t want it even though my contractions were painful and exhausting

8 or 9pm, they finally said I was 10cm and I started crying because I was so scared they wanted to give me an epidural or c section if I didn’t need it. My nurse then proceeded to straight cath me so it would help in my labor. Finally around 10:20, I was in active labor. We pushed in various positions. Initially on my back but that was painful because of my back contractions. Then we tried on my side but I didn’t like it either. Then we elevated the head of the bed and I was on my knees and forearms which I liked a lot.  We were there for a while and it was comfortable. The nurse that was with me was somewhat helpful and she tried to help me find comfortable positions. With my contractions, it felt like I was taking a shit and my bottom hurt so bad. Wifey tried to help me breathe through them but I knew my body wanted to get her out. At one point, I had spiked a fever so the OB came in and discussed that if I still have a fever in 30 minutes they will have to give me antibiotics and then that would mean the baby would have to go through a course of medications when she was born. We also discussed other options of helping get baby out such as the forceps and vacuum. After hearing that, my body went cray and wanted to push my baby out of me. It was contraction after contraction. My nurse went on break, so another nurse, Brie, came in clutch. She was an amazing and calm coach that guided me through the pushing. 

May 17 (Friday - Babygirl’s due date)

My OB confirmed that baby did change positions and I was so thankful. I was even more determined to push because they said they could see her head. At the very end, the OB said we’re almost there but you still need to keep pushing..I was so exhausted. At this point I had been up for almost 48 hours straight. I looked at wifey and said “i’m so tired, can we vacuum her out?” and she said of course do what’s best for you, I know you’re tired. Once we gave the yes, it went from 0 to 100 real quick. A whole team of people came into the room to prep and at the last 3 contractions, baby girl was being slowly vacuumed out. I started to see her head as I pushed out and then at 12:45am, 6lbs 7oz, 19 3/4 inches... there she was with a loud ass cry and of course we started crying from joy and just relief that she was finally here...

[remembermemorablememories]

Sunday January 21, 2018

post #13

main points:

- did some homework

- emotions

- end of social media (fb) cleanse

- hung out with friends and played video games

today i:

- woke up multiple times this morning. i was pretty groggy from last night. eventually i woke up at like 11:30am, stayed in bed until like 12 or 12:30pm. browsed my computer a bit

- went to the dining hall near my apartment at around 1pm to grab some food. ate some cereal, two salad things and a crepe. i bumped into my friend freddie while i was there and caught up with him briefly. came back around 2pm

- cleaned up a bit and started working on CSDS at 2:30pm until like 4:30pm ish. i was working on part one of lab one

- went to a club eboard meeting from 6pm-7pm on the other side of campus. it was our first eboard meeting with the new eboard and i think it was a good start

- got dinner in central campus. i went to charles river bread co and got my usual salad + wrap combo with chips

at this point i felt a huge rush of sadness come over me. while i was waiting in line to pay for my food i was thinking back to what it was like last semester when i was with my gf. and how we used to spend time together in food court just hanging out. and how that will never happen again. and how i could always talk to her about anything. i was waiting in line and almost wanted to start crying. i don’t know if i could handle it but i just tried to think about other things. i paid and then went to a different far side part of the food court area so i wouldn’t think about my ex-gf and sat down and ate my food and watched youtube and an episode of bojack horseman. 

i also decided to finally end my social media cleanse and download facebook on my phone again. i think taking a week-ish long break was good for me because now i don’t feel so dependent on opening it all the time to check random stuff

i finished up watching season 4 episode 9 about Princess Carolyn’s life struggles since i didn’t get to finish it when i was back home for break

- i walked home around 7:30pm and on the way my sister called me randomly. she was looking for some advice about AP stat vs APCS, i highly recommended APCS but of course i’m biased 😛 

- i bumped into tyrone on the walk back to my apartment and he was like, “you should come play arms with me and deepak”. we stood there talking for a few minutes and after a while i was like “okay i’ll bite”. part of it was because Arms was fun to play and also part of it was because i feel like i was going to be lonely in my apartment thinking about my ex-gf

- we stopped by the CS building cause tyrone had a club meeting from around 7pm-7:45. i worked on my CSDS homework. he came over after his meeting where i was working in the CS building and he read parts of a RL textbook while i continued working

- i had my code logic correct for part 1. but for some reason i kept getting an EOF error on decoding JSON for the intermediate files in mapreduce. i spent like 40 minutes pulling my hair out trying to understand what was wrong with my code and realized nothing was wrong with it. 

the issue was coming from a log.Fatal call inside of my decoding loop. apparently in golang, log.Fatal (after it prints the error message you want), calls on os.exit....

i used a normal fmt.println and everything was fine. i was so angry but also kind of satisfied that i finally figured it out

- tyrone played hollow night/finished up some of his reading and we went to deepak’s around 9:30~9:40pm

- we played Arms with the four of us (me tyrone deepak and his roommate alex). it was a lot of fun chilling with them

then we played mario kart (shine thief and bomb-omb blast), wrapping up around 12:30am ish

- i took a lyft home back to my apt since i’m on the other side of campus and got home around 1am

- showered and now i’m in my bed in the dark typing this. i’m ready to go to sleep. we got class tomorrow

while i was typing this i also just found out my friend jwoos from the summer program i was in is also an INFJ personality type from myers-brigg test. BOOYAAHHHH it all makes sense now

okay good night

[jlfisher91]

Savannah Grey.

For anyone who loves a birth story, this is for you. For any woman still trying to process her own, this is for you. For anyone who is a type A planner and likes to demand things from God, this is for you. 

For a long time, I loved reading birth stories, and always knew that I’d write my own even before Savannah was born. After her birth, however, I didn’t want to write it anymore. I didn’t want to remember the details, I didn’t want to relive some of the memories. It’s been a long 13 months of trying to come to peace with the story-- having some progress, and then some setbacks. Ultimately, though, I am sharing. I’m sharing because it’s the story of my first baby coming into the world, and it’s the story of God’s plan for her birth. MY plans would have looked much, MUCH different. But reliving the experience has been a constant exercise in thankfulness and laying down of my pride. 

Throughout my entire pregnancy, I thought about Savannah’s birth. I was so excited for literally every last part of it. I wanted my water to break, I wanted contractions, I wanted Nate to be by my side through it all because it would be an experience in our marriage that we would never forget. I wasn’t afraid of it, I was eager for it. I had a fairly loose plan for a natural birth- knowing that I had the option of an epidural, but mostly (again, excitedly) planning on letting my body do what it was made to do. At first, it did.

I went to bed on the 11th (4 days before her due date) and less than 3 hours later, around 1am, my water broke. It was the very typical “I think I peed myself” sort of thing, but I also knew it was more than that because contractions started immediately. We called the doctor and they had us come in right away. I remember being surprised and excited that they put us in a labor and delivery room right away, rather than taking us first to triage. I was checked by the midwife and only 3cm dilated. They gave me something mild to help me sleep, which didn’t work because I was running high on adrenaline. 

By 8am, I was checked again and not progressing. My contractions were consistent and fairly strong earlier in the night, but were now slowly spacing out and becoming less effective. The doctor offered me pitocin, which I quickly declined and asked if I could try to get my body in more active labor on my own. I bounced on the exercise ball, I walked the halls a LOT, and contractions definitely picked up. 

One of the things I loved about UPMC was that they offered nitrous oxide as a way of managing pain. I researched it a lot before going in and knew it would be my first request when the pain increased. For anyone who may be interested for their own birth experience, let me just say- It. Was. Awful. To use it effectively, you had to be taking the deepest breath at the peak of the contraction. This was too much for me to think about while the pain was rapidly increasing, so I pretty much failed at nailing the timing. Also, it made me want to vomit. Skip it.

The day somehow moved at a snail’s pace and within a moment. I was managing the contractions okay for the most part, but my midwife came in around 2pm to offer pitocin again, since I still wasn’t progressing quickly. Because my water had broken early in the morning, there was a time crunch to get the baby out to prevent infection and I was quickly approaching the deadline. I will pause here and say my midwife, Patty, was a gem. She was a great listener and knew that I wanted a natural birth, but was also aware of what would be in the best interest of me and the baby. She had to deal with my mini breakdown because I felt like a failure for needing any medical intervention (remember that time I said I held the idea of a natural birth loosely? I lied.). I knew that with pitocin would come hard, hard labor- unnaturally hard- and I conceded when they also offered me an epidural. 

The epidural came in the early evening and I remember my body shaking so violently that I wasn’t sure they’d be able to give me one. As soon as I laid back down, it felt like a warm blanket was put on my lower half- it was amazing. Until maybe 3 minutes later when a contraction came and I felt it in one isolated area in my low back. I panicked and asked the nurse why I was still feeling it. She responded saying that I must have had a “window”- where the medicine fails to hit a certain area. She called the anesthesiologist in and he worked some sort of magic that made the pain go away. I tried to rest, but at this point I was getting nervous. Things were moving really slowly and I was anxious to get pushing. 

I have basically no memory of what happened between about 6pm when Nate and I started a movie, and 10pm- when the midwife came in and said it was time to start pushing. I knew we weren’t fully in business, because no delivery tools were brought in and set up. The midwife said the baby had to be a little lower first, so I started pushing, which proved to be one of the hardest things I’d ever done. Remember the “window” from the epidural? Whatever magic the anesthesiologist did to make it go away, wore off. I felt every bit of the contractions in my back. Also, at this point, I’d been up for almost 24 hours, with barely any sleep even before labor began. I was exhausted, in pain, and making no progress. 

By this point, things were getting rough. Savannah’s heart rate was dropping, so they stopped the pitocin. It returned to normal, however, as soon as they did that, my body was basically useless when it came to pushing because my contractions lost a lot of their strength. What was helping me, was hurting her. Two hours of pushing and pausing have gone by now. I took a short break and started again. At 4am, the midwife said we’d start the pitocin again, but if her heart rate dropped, we’d move immediately to a c-section. At this point, she wanted to give me another break to try and rest so that we’d get an effective set of pushes with the pitocin to help. I cried and prayed nonstop from 4am to 5am that God would get this baby out at our next attempt. I really did not prepare to feel as helpless and hopeless as I did in that moment of labor. Even as I’m typing this, I’m crying at that awful memory. 

At 5am, the midwife returned and told me that we’d try pushing, but Savannah was stuck at the pubic bone, unable to get under it. If these pushes were ineffective, she could try to use the forceps to get Savannah out. I was so nervous, but knew that might be my only way out of a C-section. When my attempt at pushing failed for the last time, the midwife called the doctor- who said she wouldn’t even attempt the forceps based on how stuck the baby was. The midwife told me I’d be getting a c-section and I sobbed so hard I thought I was going to throw up. Every part of my perfect plan was falling apart and I was shocked, scared, and angry.

They had Nate wait outside the operating room while I got the spinal tap. I was sitting on the bed, arms and legs hanging over the side and holding onto one of the nurses as I continued to cry. I heard the anesthesiologist mention that something wasn’t working, so a different one came and attempted to give the shot. After what felt like ages of being poked and prodded, I heard one say “we’ll just need to put her under”, and they laid me back. I frantically asked the nurse “am I going to be asleep for the whole thing?? I’m going to miss it??” and she told me yes. They weren’t going to let Nate in before putting me to sleep, but I asked at the last second and cried to him and repeatedly said “I’m gonna miss it, I’m gonna miss it.” Most C-sections still result in the baby being pulled out head first, however, Savannah was so stuck that the doctor said she had to pull her out feet first- something she’d only done for the second time in her career. 

The next thing I remember is waking up in so much pain in a recovery room. I couldn’t open my eyes, but I could hear Savannah’s little whimpers as Nate held her. Once I could finally open my eyes, I remember thinking how dang CUTE that baby was. The nurses helped me have skin to skin and I got to breastfeed her right away. A lot of that moment is somewhat darkened by how much pain I was in- something that makes me sad whenever I think too hard about it. But the reality is, she was (is) perfect. Nate was with me then and although we had a bunch of people around working to get me set up with pain management, I had my little family. 

This story is not in the least how I would have planned it. Every single piece of it broke down at some point. But I am so thankful that God gave the medical staff the wisdom to know how to keep me and Savannah safe and healthy. The fact that some women leave the hospital without their babies is not lost on me. I know at the end of the day, I’m crying over ruined plans, not loss. I’m thankful for His ways of sharpening my faith and getting me to a place of surrendering my will to His. I’m still very afraid for our next and final birth. It’s extremely likely that I’ll need another C-section (although, I will most likely attempt a VBAC if the doctors think it’s possible). My prayers have shifted from “please let this happen this way” to “please let me have peace no matter the outcome.” 

April is C-section awareness month. While I struggle with looking at my C-section as a dark cloud over my birth story, I know it is the means by which my Savannah was safely brought into the world. In the end, I’m thankful. 

[serendipity-y]

part two of the ask!!!

@xoauroraaxo 65 asks: 1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you? i don't understand the question 2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you? like 4 3. The person you would never want to meet? i don't know, probably paul ryan bc his face annoys the shit out of me and i just want to punch him 4. What is your favorite word? fuck, probably 'petrichor' 5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be? weeping willow 6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought? either 'you need to sleep' or 'you need to dye your hair again' 7. What shirt are you wearing? a black tank top 8. What do you label yourself as? ?? gay as fuck?? 9. Bright room or dark room? dark room 10. What were you doing at midnight last night? probably talking to aurora and watching supernatural 11. Favorite age you’ve been so far? i think,, six?? idk why?? maybe because i was living with my mom and step dad again and everything was happy 12. Who told you they loved you last? my mom :) 13. Your worst enemy? any bigoted piece of garbage 14. What is your current desktop picture? it's a picture i got off of Rookie Mag 15. Do you like someone? yes bitch i do 16. The last song you listened to? Never Be by 5 Seconds of Summer 17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up? this is so hard!!! probably pence bc trump will die soon anyway 18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face? paul fuckin ryan 19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do? my sister rory, and she'd have to go an entire day without arguing with me 20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional) idk nothing?? i guess my eyes/ my lips 21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do? i don't know, i'm skipping this one 22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it? i can figure out what any crystal is (if you give me like 10 minutes and the crystal) 23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of? being drowned by a clown spider (that's a real fucjin thing) 24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal. idk,, anything?? 25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it? donate it!!! 26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go? france (you can also come) 27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be? (Castiel is that you?) i have no clue,, i'd like to stay away from it. 28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place? no bigots 29. What is your favorite expletive? does idget count?? bc ever since i heard bobby use it i think it's hilarious 30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno? (besides my phone??) probably my camera 31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? ummm,, that one time when my cousin did this thing to me that i'm still not over 32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world! australia 33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back? okay so, if this was two people i would bring back my twin cousins who died from cancer (i never met them?? but i know my aunt would love to have them back). but since it's only one i'll say my dog brownie 34. What was your last dream about? idk i don't remember my dreams 35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]? [singing] people say i am, but i don't think so 36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital? no 37. Have you ever built a snowman? yes 38. What is the color of your socks? i'm not wearing any 39. What type of music do you like? p much everything 40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets? sunsets 41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor? chocolate peanut butter 42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer) i don't watch sports lmao 43. Do you have any scars? yeah 44. What do you want to be when you graduate? a writer/ anything enjoyable that has to do with art (i think that's what the question is asking) 45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? fuck, i'd change more than i should (any hh fans ;;)) ??) but i think i'd change my teeth??? 46. Are you reliable? i'd like to say so 47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be? DOES THE WORLD TRY TO KILL YOU?? 48. Do you hold grudges? depends how big the issue is 49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create? if create a pig- pug hybrid 50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had? one time in a group chat it was like 1am and i kept saying "mary jew ana" and i wanted to fucking die 51. Are you a good liar? it depends who i'm lying to and what i'm lying about 52. How long could you go without talking? not long, because i like yelling at my computer when dean is being ridiculous 53. What has been you worst haircut/style? when i got bangs 54. Have you ever baked your own cake? probably lmao 55. Can you do any accents other than your own? no 56. What do you like on your toast? butter 57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of? it was a sigils that i put in one of my paintings 58. What would be you dream car? i don't really like cars but,, a '67 impala just because of spn 59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain. i sing in the shower?? and it's really bad?? 60. Do you believe in aliens? yes 61. Do you often read your horoscope? not really 62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet? i like u 63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons? dragons 64. What do you think about babies? they're cute most of the time 65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of. "what is your favorite lipstick?" i have teddy bear by melanie + lime crime and i love it

[taraadevlin]

The mysterious Ken and the secret on the second floor

1: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:01:38 ID:DJ9qQQei7 I’m gonna write now, okay.

2: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:01:47 ID:agIBjaFPH Oooookay.

4: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:02:47 ID:DJ9qQQei7 My details (at the time)

175cm 62kg A regular face Hobbies: Shogi, aquariums Never had a girlfriend, only a few friends

Okay, let me write this down.

At the time I was a first grade university student and living alone, so I didn’t have much money (my allowance from home was also quite small).

I worked part time jobs at family restaurants and convenience stores, but I noticed that home teachers got paid a lot better.

But registering to be a home teacher on the web is a bit of a hassle, isn’t it?

So I got permission from the neighbourhood and started handing out flyers.

I’m pretty sure I had on there that I could teach junior high school students English and Japanese, one hour was 3000 yen, and it had my contact details.

Then a few days later I got a phone call.

It sounded like a middle aged lady.

“I saw your flyer~ Would you be able to come over?” she said.

When I asked her about it she said she was looking for someone to teach her son.

She wanted me to come every day and teach him for four hours.

I was like, are you for real? That’s 12 000 yen a day, awesome!

I should have thought it was a little strange she wanted me to be there for four hours a day every day.

6: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:04:09 ID:agIBjaFPH I get it, they kidnap and kill you on the day, and then demand a ransom. I saw that yesterday.

9: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:06:01 ID:DJ9qQQei7 >>6 I saw that too and thought I should start a thread! Because this story happened about four years ago…

11: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:07:30 ID:agIBjaFPH >>9 Really? Being a home teacher really is a scary job, huh…

8: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:04:52 ID:DJ9qQQei7 She wanted me to come the very next day, so the next day I went over.

It was in the evening (from about 5pm I think) for four hours, so I ate dinner early and went over.

When I arrived at the address a tiny old house was sitting there.

It was also that time of day so it gave off a bit of a creepy atmosphere.

Well, it’s work… I thought, so I timidly rang the door bell.

When I did, I heard the voice of that same middle aged lady from the phone and felt a bit relieved.

When the door opened and I saw her I was at a loss for words.

Her head was full of dandruff.

She had dark bags around her eyes.

Her grin was horrifying.

Instantly I wanted to go back home, but in the end money won out.

Old lady: “Please, come in.” (grin)

“Thank you,” I said and stepped inside. I think my voice was shaking.

I asked her where her son was and she was like, this way, and led me into a further room.

To be honest I was absolutely terrified. I dunno how to explain exactly but the atmosphere the house gave off was really scary.

Reluctantly I followed her further inside and we ended up in what looked like a child’s room.

There was a chest of drawers, a TV, a bed, stuffed toys, toy robots, a study desk…

There looked to be a child sitting at the study desk in the back, but when I walked over to it I suddenly realised.

12: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:07:41 ID:DJ9qQQei7 “Hello!” I said as I approached, but upon closer inspection… it was a doll…

Not just any doll, it appeared to be handmade. It was about the size of a real child and was even wearing regular clothes.

Its face was awful. There were just three dots made of cloth.

In Mario there are these characters called shy guys, right? It looked just like those.

Old lady: “That’s my son.” (grin)

I turned white. This place was dangerous. Really dangerous.

“Uh… that’s a doll… right?” I accidentally spit out.

That was the wrong thing to say.

Old lady: “Huuuuuhhhhh?!?!?!?! What are you saying?!!! That’s my son!!! Ken-kun!!!!”

She suddenly screamed out in a loud voice and began to cry.

This was really bad. She’s probably gonna kill me. I don’t want to die.

I need to end this peacefully somehow and get back home.

“Oh yeah I know! I know!” I said.

“Ken-kun, let’s study!!” When I said this, the old lady started to smile again and returned to normal.

Of course Ken-kun didn’t answer. Why would he? He was a doll after all.

Rather than calling it study, I just turned towards the doll and began talking to it.

Having to do this for another four hours would be hell. Even taking a break for ten minutes was still painful.

“The be verb is here so it becomes this~ This is the conjunctive form so it’s ‘u’ okay~” I went on like this alone for four hours.

The old lady watched from behind the whole time grinning. It was really creepy.

15: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:09:38 ID:2q03lblwb That’s terrifying.

16: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:09:48 ID:DJ9qQQei7 Somehow I managed to pass the four hours.

“Okay, well let’s finish it there~” I said to Ken-kun.

There was no reply. Of course not. It was a doll.

Old lady: “Well done~ Thank you very much~” (grin)

While thinking about how creepy her grinning face was I got ready to go home.

Old lady: “It’s already late, so why don’t you stay and eat first?” (grin)

No, I ate before I came so I’m alright, I told her.

Besides, any food that came out of this creepy house was bound to be awful.

Old lady: “Please eat!!!!!”

She screamed again. It was so scary. She was mad. But I thought she would kill me, so I reluctantly accepted.

She took me to what looked like the dining room and I sat down in a chair.

She took out a knife and started preparing dinner.

When she took out the knife my heart began to race. I broke out in a cold sweat.

She took out a dirty old pan and began to boil something. It smelled like curry.

Ah, curry. I’m glad it’s something normal, I thought from the bottom of my heart.

Old lady: “Okay, here you are.” (grin)

She put curry onto a dirty plate for me. The spoon was also the type you get free from the convenience store that she was using again.

“Thank you,” I said and timidly began to eat. It was just regular curry. Not awful, not great…

Old lady: “Tastes good, I hope?” (grin)

“Yes! It’s great!” I said in a really loud voice. I was so scared I may have have replied a little too enthusiastically.

Old lady: “I’m glad. Why don’t you stay the night?” (grin)

I had no idea what was going on anymore.

17: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:10:43 ID:VfIQkBZza Why couldn’t you refuse the food?

20: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:11:44 ID:DJ9qQQei7 >>17 Because I was so scared.

“No, really, that’s okay,” I answered.

Old lady: “Ken-kun would be so happy~ Please, stay.” (grin)

“No, it’s okay,” I said again.

Old lady: “Please stay!!! You’ll make Ken-kun sad!!!!”

I was scared. But staying overnight in this house was even scarier. The thought of being killed was even scarier than that.

I had no choice. I decided to stay.

I’d pretend that I was staying and when the opportunity presented itself, I’d run.

It was decided I’d stay with Ken-kun in his room.

Having to sleep in the same room as this creepy doll was most unpleasant.

She put out a futon for me in his room.

Old lady: “Isn’t it great~ You get to sleep with your teacher tonight~” (grin)

I was so scared.

18: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:11:13 ID:2q03lblwb I don’t get it.

21: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:13:27 ID:agIBjaFPH Isn’t that confinement…?

23: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:13:50 ID:DJ9qQQei7 Old lady: “The toilet is next to the dining room, so don’t go upstairs okay.” (grin)

First I’d wait for the old lady to go to sleep, so I awaited patiently in Ken-kun’s room.

I lamented that I’d forgotten my phone. If I had that I could call for help.

She’ll fall asleep once it gets late, so I waited some more.

That was around 10.30pm.

I had nothing to do so I just lay there in the futon.

26: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:17:08 ID:DJ9qQQei7 Before I realised it, it was 1am. Looked like I’d fallen asleep.

The old lady has to be asleep by now, so I got ready to make my escape.

I grabbed my bag and began to tip toe to the door.

One step… another step… Only my heartbeat made any sound.

“What are you doing?”

Uh oh… that’s it, I thought. I’m dead.

27: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:17:27 ID:DJ9qQQei7 When I looked over the old lady was sitting behind the dining room door, grinning at me.

No way… she’s been sitting there watching me all this time…?

All the blood drained from my body.

Old lady: “You weren’t trying to go home now, were you?” (grin)

I panicked.

“Uwaaaaaaaaaaa!!!” I screamed and ran towards the back of the house.

There was no window a person could escape from in Ken-kun’s room.

I ran up the stairs as fast as I could.

Dotadotadotadota!! I saw a door in front of me. I opened it. It was pitch black.

I looked for the light switch and turned the lights on. Everything in the room lit up.

The room was full of nothing but stuffed toys and dolls. It was terrifying!!

I was brought to a standstill when suddenly

“Kyakyakyakyakyakya!!!” I could hear a voice screaming from the back of the room.

I looked over and saw something that looked like a person? with a really huge head and eyes that looked like they were gonna pop out.

Our eyes met.

“Hyahyahyahyahya!!!!”

It was terrifying. I wet myself. It was disgusting.

In a panic I opened the second floor window and jumped out.

I didn’t feel any pain. My fear won out over that.

I ran all the way home. That night I couldn’t sleep, and my foot was in so much pain that the next day I went to the hospital and found out I’d broken my left ankle.

Afterwards I moved away and didn’t go there again. I didn’t want to go there again.

I wonder what it was I saw in that room?

The end.

28: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:18:40 ID:jey5ysCe1 Perhaps it was a disabled person locked up?

32: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:20:30 ID:DJ9qQQei7 >>28 I thought it might have been the real Ken-kun. Maybe he was a handicapped kid and the doll was her way of escaping reality…

29: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:18:47 ID:RcNiQtX6w Wow that’s terrifying, haha.

30: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:18:55 ID:agIBjaFPH So scary.

33: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:21:47 ID:DJ9qQQei7 When I said I moved, I meant I moved away from that town entirely.

If you have any questions, I’m happy to answer them.

34: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:22:15 ID:jey5ysCe1 Do you remember where that house is?

37: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:23:24 ID:DJ9qQQei7 >>34 Kind of. I forgot the exact address though.

35: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:22:37 ID:VfIQkBZza In the end did you get the money?

38: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:23:57 ID:DJ9qQQei7 >>35 Nope. Returning home safely was more than enough.

36: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:22:44 ID:dHk9aLaVg Was it hydrocephalus？

41: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:25:08 ID:DJ9qQQei7 >>36 Maybe, his head was really, really big. Like it was gonna explode.

39: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:24:56 ID:jey5ysCe1 I’m sure it was really scary, but no doubt it was Ken-kun locked away on the second floor.

Was he really there in the dark all that time? He was probably happy to see another person after so long.

42: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:26:04 ID:DJ9qQQei7 >>39 The more I think about it the scarier it gets…

44: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:26:53 ID:lfysAOZOU >>42 I was just kidding. That’s the first time in a while I’ve been so scared. Thanks.

40: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:25:05 ID:lfysAOZOU I’ve foooound you~

42: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:26:04 ID:DJ9qQQei7 >>40 Quit it…

43: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:26:46 ID:wnJtOEtzv What prefecture was this?

45: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:27:04 ID:DJ9qQQei7 >>43 Kanto region.

47: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:31:25 ID:wnJtOEtzv Was it Chiba?

48: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:32:48 ID:DJ9qQQei7 >>47 Do you live in Chiba? Never fear! It wasn’t Chiba.

51: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:37:21 ID:JrNj686dD What an interesting story. Anyway, did you change your phone number?

52: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:40:34 ID:DJ9qQQei7 >>51 I blocked her number and changed mine soon after!

55: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:53:02 ID:MXh05JNfs This isn’t something you should read on the street at night.

I decided I’m not gonna walk and read my phone anymore.

56: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:53:27 ID:DJ9qQQei7 Are there no more questions?

Well I’m gonna go to bed now, if you’re gonna be a home teacher make sure you’re really careful.

See ya.

58: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/06(日)03:29:31 ID:jJGIHsjDD Been a long time since a scary story gave me goosebumps.

22: 名無しさん＠おーぷん 2014/07/04(金)22:13:44 ID:JrNj686dD Man that’s scary. But the fact you could make this thread means that you’re still alive. I’m relieved.

[dry-the-rain]

Misery loves company- 13 Reasons why (Justin Foley) one shot

Misery, loves company I arrived home, throwing my car keys on the dining table, grabbing a cold water from the fridge and plopping down onto the couch. It had been a long hard days work. I looked at the clock 11pm. It was late and man was I shattered. I grabbed my phone and my bottle of water and headed for bed. I quickly changed into my pyjamas, which consisted of a pair of jogging pants and a vest top before getting into bed. After a while I fell into a light sleep. I was awoken by the sound of my phone bleeping beside me. I looked at the clock 1am who would be calling or texting me at this time. I decided to ignore it and go back to sleep, whoever it was could wait till morning. My phone rang again a few minutes later, whoever it was surely was persistent, I gave in and picked up my phone to answer, it was my best friend Justin. "What the hell Foley, you are aware it's like 1 in the morning" I sighed. " I'm sorry Ash." He said sadly he sounded upset, very upset, my heart began to race now I was worried. "Is everything okay Justin?" I asked the concern that caused my heart to skip a beat now layering my voice. "Everything's fucked Ash" He stated I could tell he was fighting to hold back tears. "Where are you? I'll come pick you up we can talk about this." I Uttered already slipping on my shoes and jacket. "I don't want...." "Justin don't give me that crap, where are you, I'm coming to find you whether you want me too or not." I muttered grabbing my car keys from the table where I chucked them a few hours before. "Eisenhower Park." He mumbled. I jumped in my car and drove there as quickly as I could luckily for me it was only about 10 minutes from my apartment so I made it in five. I parked on the curb just outside the gate. I noticed a small figure sat at the top of the climbing tower. "Justin" I asked as I struggled to climb the children's play equipment. "Ashley you didn't have to..." Justin trailed off looking away from me, small silent tears falling down his cheek. I noticed a large bruise forming on his neck and a cut on his lip. "What the hell happened to you?" I asked closing the gap between us so I could examine his wounds more carefully. "What do you think." He bit back flinching slightly as caressed the bruise on his neck and jaw with my thumb. "One of your mum's lousy boyfriends?" I questioned. He simply nodded silently a few more tears falling down his cheeks. "Justin you can't keep letting this happen, love you need to do something about this." I sighed sadly placing my hand gently on top of his. " I can't Ashy you know I can't." He cried. "Fine..." I mumbled "... Isn't Jess your normal go to gal in a situation like this, I mean she is your girlfriend after all." I asked. Justin and I had been friends for a very long time but since he'd been with Jess he'd pushed me away, rarely even telling me about any problems he had. "We broke up." He sighed. "Oh... I thought you two would be the kind of couple that would stick together through thick and thin and be together forever, I could always imagine you two telling your kids about how you guys were high school sweethearts and it was you against the world but you made it" I trailed off sadly. "Yeah, I wanted that to, I loved her more than anything in this cruel world, but I fucked up Ashy, real bad and I probably got what I deserved." He cried the tears flowing faster now, as if his guards had broken down and he just couldn't hold it in anymore. I wrapped my arms gently around his shoulders pulling his trembling frame into me. "It's gonna be ok Justin" I whispered "No it's not Ash, I've lost everything my girl, friends and I haven't even got a home anymore, considering mom's boyfriend kicked me out" He sobbed. " Justin love, you haven't lost everything, you've always got me, I'm not going anywhere, and you know you're always welcome to stay at my place." I reassured. "Are you... Are you sure" He asked pulling away from me and wiping at his eyes with the sleeve of his jacket. "Positive. Stay as long as you need, I mean it does get a little lonely sometimes being on my own anyway." I smiled weakly. We made our way down the climbing tower and towards my car. The drive back to my apartment was silent. "Ashy you're an amazing friend." Justin said quietly as I parked in the parking lot beneath the building. " I do try" I laughed placing my arm round his shoulder and ruffling his messy hair. "Thank you." He smiled weakly. "No need to thank me anyway home sweet home." I grinned opening the door to my apartment. ****5 Weeks later***** I pull into the the parking lot of my building worry etched across my features as I slammed my car door almost off it hinges. Justin was still living with me and it had become a more permanent arrangement now. He was meant to be meeting me after school but he didn't show, I asked Zach and apparently he's left early though he hadn't thought to tell me and I was stood by my car for 20 minutes in the rain looking like a right idiot. I opened the apartment door in a hurry, I had a very large bone to pick with my so called best friend. "Oi Foley you here." I called angrily through the apartment. No answer. I noticed a note on the table where I usually put my keys. Ashy, Put on this and meet me at Eisenhower park in 30 minutes. Justin I looked under the table in a brown paper bag was a beautiful Black and Tan dress and a pair of black boots. I quickly through them on and fixed my make up before jumping in my car and driving to the park. The rain had cleared completely now leaving a beautiful sunset on the horizon. I pulled up outside the park and looked for Justin. I eventually noticed him stood underneath a tree which had been decorated with lights and paper flowers. There was candles surrounding the tree. Justin stood there in a black button up shirt and black suit jacket. "Well someone scrubs up nicely don't they?" I joked. "I try my best" He laughed. "So Foley what's with all this." I asked "Well..." He paused ".... Ashy you and I have been to hell a lot in the time that we've known each other and I know I've never been the easiest friend to deal with. 5 weeks ago you changed my life in the best way possible, you gave me hope when I felt alone, you gave me something to fight for when I thought I had nothing, I was so close to giving up but you stopped me, just by being you, just by caring, I've realised something over the last few weeks Ash, you make me feel something I've never felt before, a high no drug could give, with you I'm on top of the world and I don't ever want to come down. I love you Ashy more than just a friend, I think I always have, I just never realised it till recently. You said to me, about how you thought Jess and I would've been the couple that was high school sweethearts telling there kids about it being us against the world, well I don't want that with Jess not anymore I want it to be you, Ashy I know I've picked the the most long winded way too say this but you know me I don't do things by halves will you be my girlfriend" Justin breathed small tears forming in his eyes. Warm salty tears already cascading like water falls down my cheeks. I'd always liked Justin more than a friend right from the minute we met but never said or did anything about it because I was afraid he didn't like me back. "Well..." Justin asked taking me from my thoughts. "Yes... A million times over yes" I beamed. Justin engulfed me in his arms tightly. "I've been waiting so long to be able to do this." Justin smiled placing a delicate kiss on my lips.

[moecchiato]

[Navi] Dreamers

A/N: Hi there, this is a prompt that @swag-daddy-ravi gave me a long time back and I finally finished it! It has implied sexy times so it’s probably more PG-13 than R, but it can be skipped if you like.

Has genderbent Hakyeon, so I used Cha Yeonnie instead. c:

Pairing: Cha Hakyeon/Kim Wonshik

Even before Cha Yeonnie bought the pregnancy test, she already knew she was pregnant. When she called Taekwoon with the news, her best friend sounded breathless.

“Are you busy with Hongbin? I can call back…”

Taekwoon had laughed and said softly, “he can’t talk right now but I’ll tell him you said hi.” There was a whine that sounded suspiciously Hongbin-like, deep and low in the background before Yeonnie hung up.

Oh well. She had warned Hongbin that her best friend was…a little kinky.

Hanging up the phone, Yeonnie snuggles deeper into the covers feeling warm and soft. After trying for so long, she and Wonshik could finally start having a family.

She’s roused from sleep by the smell of eggs and bacon. Yeonnie sighs happily; Wonshik’s home from the music studio. Yeonnie gets up from bed and stretches her arms wide, shirt riding up and revealing a tiny dragon tattooed along her ribs. She slips her feet into fluffy slippers and heads downstairs, phone in hand.

“Morning, baby.”

It didn’t matter that she and Wonshik had been dating for nearly three years now. The sight of Kim Wonshik in the kitchen with his sleeves rolled up still took her breath away.

Especially since he had gotten sleeve tattoos.

He didn’t look up, busy frying some bacon. But his voice was warm and sweet, and it was much better in person than half-whispered through the phone.

“Hey angel. Slept well?” She hugged him from behind, her smaller form barely reaching his shoulder. “No. You weren’t there.” She mumbled into his back, smiling as she felt his vibrating laughter and his heartbeat quicken.

“Gotcha. I’ll fry up more bacon.” She giggled and pressed a soft kiss onto his back before heading to the dining room, settling herself on one of the high-backed chairs.

It would be awhile before they could afford their own place (they wanted to buy a house before getting married) but for now, it was fun having these weekend sleepovers.

Wonshik laid out two portions, but the minute Yeonnie held a spoonful of bacon to her lips, she felt sick.

“You okay? Yeon, what’s wrong?” Yeonnie dropped the spoon and stood up, covering her mouth. “Bathroom.”

 Yeonnie rinsed her face, staring at her reflection. He’d worked so hard to cook but the smell of it made her want to throw up again, and she didn’t want last night’s dinner to come back up. She was very fond of ramyun.

Tying her red hair into a bun, she unlocked the door and was met with a concerned Doberman. She raised her hand and said softly, “Must have been last night’s dinner.”

He cocked his head to one side, like he didn’t believe her. “But you love your bacon…are you sure? We could make an appointment with Dr. Lee.”

Yeonnie thought back to her phone call with Taekwoon. “If he can even move when Woonie’s done with him.”

 First it was the bacon. Then when she tried to bake Wonshik apology brownies, she hadn’t been able to stomach the smell of brownie batter.

She ended up asking Taekwoon to bake for her.

“You could just tell him.” Taekwoon said as he frosted the cake. “Why avoid it? He knows you aren’t on birth control anymore, right?”

Yeonnie nodded, hopping onto the counter and checking out Taekwoon’s handiwork.

They’d been trying to get pregnant for all of ten months, and at one point Wonshik stopped asking if she had her period.

“Yeah. I just…I just don’t wanna say ‘Hey Shik-ah we’re finally pregnant!’ I want…want it to matter, you know? Be special.”

Taekwoon chuckled and poured rainbow sprinkles on the cake. “Use SNOW app. J.Dice was playing with the app last night on C-Live.”

“You’re such a fanboy, I swear.” The first time she’d heard of J.Dice it was from Hongbin.

“Well, I had to get Bin-ah away from Park Hyoshin. Now he can’t get enough of Tomas.”

She looked up the app and smiled when she saw a preview of Tomas (“Isn’t his mint hair just precious?” Taekwoon asked, looking over her shoulder) using the baby filter.

Beside him was the group’s leader, Dolbaeggi.

“He looks dorky,” Yeonnie commented, watching as the purple-haired leader posed cutely with Tomas. The app made them look like babies, complete with pacifiers and stars.

“Perfect,” Taekwoon said, lightly pinching his best friend’s cheek. She giggled but had to admit that he was right.

The app made their eyes look big and their cheeks colored pink with the filter’s blush.

 Wonshik was working late and it was nearly 1am before he opens the door to their bedroom.

He can’t help smiling at the sight. Cha Yeonnie, his incredibly sexy dancer girlfriend had fallen asleep waiting for him, her mobile phone lying open on her chest.

“Cute,” he says, moving towards the bed. Wonshik bends down and kisses the top of her head.

He feels, rather than sees her stirring in interest. Her soft hand wraps around the nape of his neck and pulls him down for a kiss, open-mouthed and sweet.

Her phone slides off of her chest and is lost beneath the blankets.

Wonshik moans into Yeonnie’s mouth, biceps flexing as he wraps his arms around her tiny waist.

“Wait,” she whispers against his lips, but he doesn’t listen, too busy kissing down her jawline.

The moment he takes off his shirt, Yeonmi’s mesmerized and pulls him impossibly closer, shivering in pleasure as she feels him unhook her bra through her shirt.

He pushes her soft thighs apart and she can’t think about anything else, just Wonshik and how he smells. Her boyfriend smells like a combination of coffee, detergent and rain–all of her favorites, all at once and he feels so good as he slides inside of her.

 When she wakes up, Cha Yeonnie feels warm and soft. The sunlight’s streaming from their curtains and shining across her face, blinking back tears as she sits up, yawning.

Her back feels slightly uncomfortable and she pulls out her phone, warm from her body heat. The battery is down to 10% but the screen is still open, waiting for her.

She pauses, clicks on the gallery and swipes to the picture of the pregnancy test, results positive.

Cha Yeonnie chuckles as she swipes to the next photo. She’d called Taekwoon in a combination of joy and panic, buying three more pregnancy tests so she could be sure.

There have been false hopes before. And if this was another one, she didn’t want Wonshik to share in it.

She stares down at her boyfriend, snoring softly. Yeonnie absently cards her fingers through his hair, a gentle smile on her face. She wanted to be absolutely sure that she was pregnant.

She didn’t want to disappoint Wonshik.

Yeonnie smiles as she remembers the moment of truth, precisely three weeks ago.

 “Aren’t you supposed to be calling your baby daddy?” Taekwoon asked, folding the cardboard boxes of the pregnancy tests. They were in the kitchen, Yeonnie tiptoeing to reach the box of tea on the top shelf.

“Y'know I could get that…” he trails off as he sees Yeonnie’s determination, fierce as her dyed red hair. “No, I got it,“ she replies.

With a jump and grab of faith, she plunked two teabags of sweet gingerbread tea into two floral print mugs on the counter.

"Yeah, but…what if it’s a fluke?” Yeonnie asked. She knelt down and grabbed the plastic snack bin she kept there.

When Taekwoon, Hongbin or Jaehwan was around, there had to be snacks before stories, or there would Be Consequences.

“The last thing he needs is me disappointing him, Woonie.” She holds up the plastic snack bin, forehead bumping onto the sleeve of Taekwoon’s hoodie.

Her best friend looks up and picks out a bag of cookies without any prompting. “How can you disappoint him?” he asks, pulling out two chocolate chip ones from the bag.

“The man worships the ground you walk on.”

She smiles in appreciation, but turns one of the pregnancy tests around, absently. “I just….I just don’t want to be wrong about this one.”

Taekwoon crinkled his nose and said, “What, do you want a specialist? Binnie knows a great pediatrician. He’s a kid himself.”

The redhead glanced at Taekwoon in curiosity, drinking deeply from her mug.

“Remember Dr. Han?” he asked, and Yeonnie started shaking with laughter.

“Don’t tell me this is the same doctor who caught you playing hospital.”

When Taekwoon stayed silent, Yeonnie squealed, hitting him on the arm with her free hand.

“Yah! You perverted kids! No wonder Hyogie doesn’t let you visit anymore!”

 “Hey babe, what’re you looking at?” Wonshik’s sleepy morning voice whispers. He sits up and she looks, momentarily distracted by his pecs. They were soft but firm, the perfect pillows for her head.

She sighs. How did she get so lucky?

She leans into him and he opens his arm for her, where she feels safest.

“This,” Yeonnie says, swiping one more time. It’s a photo of herself and Wonshik on vacation.

They chose to stay in an inn that time, lying chest to chest on futons, listening to the quiet sounds of crickets outside.

The overhead light was bright enough for a selca, their faces pressed tightly together in the frame.

He laughs and kisses her hair. “Yeah…that was fun. Even if the water heater broke.” It was their last vacation before Wonshik decided to seriously pursue music, and she remembered him whispering about songs and albums.

“I’ll feed you with music,” Wonshik had said in those dark and unsure days, and Yeonnie nodded and hadn’t looked back since.

He was thrilled when she believed in him, believed when even her own parents said that she could do better than a dreamer as a boyfriend.

“Let’s take a selca,” She says suddenly. “I wanna show you something.”

He gets her phone just as SNOW finishes loading and Yeonnie smiles as they pose for a selfie.

The default filter was set to 'puppy’ and Wonshik chuckled as he watched the dog’s mouth open, tongue sticking out.

He nuzzles Yeonnie’s cheek and watches the filter include one more pair of dog ears. “Cute.”

She presses her lips onto his jawline and whispers, “I have good news, baby.”

Yeonnie swipes left and is treated to a tight hug and Wonshik’s dopey smile as he looks at a selca of her with the app’s baby filter, stars surrounding her and the positive pregnancy test.

“Is it official? Oh my love, my darling–thank you!” He presses sweet kisses to every inch of her face, until Yeonnie feels like she could just melt.

They would be a family of dreamers, together.

[bloghappilymarriedthings-blog]

1 WEEK DONE :)

¡Hola! I'm district 13C if any of you want to send letters on dearelder.com they can go straight to me the same day and it is free!! Hint hint lol. 

Oh my flight.. that was a story...A mom and daughter sent next to me on the plane. They were from SLC and had never heard of the gospel. The daughter, age 13, asked me what I was doing with every single book I had pulled out (BOM, OMG, Our Heritage) asked me my first name (she was confused with the Sister Slack) and was so curious why I decided to leave my family for 18 months.Well the turbulence was crazy and I started to feel really sick. Well apparently I wasn't the only one and the mom informed us she was about to vomit as well as her eyes got huge and had no bag to throw up in.. so of course I freaked and got up and tried to get something but got yelled at by the flight attendant. Long story short- don't stand up while the seat buckle is on and she ended up holding it in so I was good. But when we got off I was questioned a lot by the other 11 missionaries on my flight "were you the one who almost got thrown up on?" YES, that was me. The hermanas in mi casa have found out I'm a trickster and it's so funny. At night there are flying cockroaches that come out. They are pretty gross. It's so funny we all run to our casa. Well one hermana was complaining about them so I told her calmly (she didn't know me well enough yet or she would have known I'd be freaking out as well) that there was one on her skirt. I laughed sooo hard as she did the funniest dance on one foot to try to shake this imaginary bug off. That was with Hermana Williams. The hermanas are all scared of spiders so I guess I'm the real champ aka spider killer in the casa. I was killing a spider by hermana Williams bed when I lost it.. now she doesn't sleep by the wall she sleeps at the bottom of her bed HAHAHA it's been like 5 days now too. I also think it's funny to hide behind corners and Hermana Blockston gets so scared and hits me with what's in her hands.  I got so lucky with the girls in my casa and the missionaries in my district!  I love them all and we are already all so close.

My companion is Hermana Jones. She looks so much Kenzie Moon it is sooo crazy! She is from Gilbert, Arizona. She went to BYUI. She is the best companion and I'm so grateful have her. The first week was a bit rough and I don't think I could make it without Hermana Jones. She's seriously the best.Do you guys remember the Hermana we saw as we were saying goodbye at security? She is in mi casa! Hermana Williams. (She is the one with glasses)  She is from South Jordan and went to Herriman High School. Her companion is Hermana Blockston who is from Layton! We all flew to Mexico together. We are all so close already. Funny thing-we all have boyfriends haha! Really couldn't ask for a better companion or girls to share a room with. My companion and I arent ever really alone. We really travel in a quad lol. 

Apparently 90% of missionaries that come to the COM stay in Mexico! We are all part of that 10%! Hermana Jones is serving in Little Rock, Arkansas and Hermana Blockston and Hermana Williams are serving in Houston Texas. (No not east or west just Houston haha)I have found a few more GREAT reasons why I'm excited to serve in states which we have all become more excited for. 1) WE CAN STILL USE OUR ENGLISH 2)realizing what we dont have but can buy back in the states 3)spoiled from our parents with packages and letters 4) WE CAN STILL USE OUR ENGLISH lol 

There are only about 200 missionaries at the CCM right now and will soon be 1200 by the time I get out of here. So crazy! It really is like a ghost town here tho at times. Sometimes we are the only ones walking in the streets. But not for long! There are new missionaries here and it's so nice not being the newbies haha!

Saturday, 26 Mayo I woke up to a sick companera. She had woken up at 1AM and was throwing up until 6AM.. we later found out that HALF of the CCM had gotten sick, all throwing up and completely pale. We were sure it was food poisoning.... But now they said it was a virus. They believe we brought it from SLC but I never got it and no one else on my flight.. So glad I did not! But classes were crazy as there were only about 4 in each class. I didn't make it to my first class but we later paired up all the sick people to be companions so all the healthy ones could make it to our classes because we all know i need all the help I can get lol.. 

Everyone here is so nice. We always speak Spanish in the comedor,  or lunch room haha.

Its kind of crazy to think there is a world outside of these barbed wire fences haha. But we hear continuous honking in the streets because the driving is CRAZYYYY here. its like they play a game how close can you get to the other cars lol. And 80% of the time there are sirens, probably because of the crazy driving. Airplanes that fly overhead play music hahha!

Now my espanol... oh man lol. No bueno. So if you didn't know, I took 3 years of ASL in high school. Was pretty good At ASL and no spanish at all. Well I'm definitely the only one in my class with no experience. The first day of class was insane. We were given so much material and everyone was so right- my brain is FRIED. Told to study and memorize 500 things by two days lol.But I've got almost everything memorized we've needed to! It's so true that we have help from the Lord. I cant remember who said it but they said in the mission field we can learn something in ten minutes that someone cant learn in a lifetime. Days are forever long. 10AM feels like 2PM and 2PM feels like 8PM. Days feel like weeks and weeks feel like days. 

There is an elder here in my district going to the same mission as me! Elder Lemmon, from Las Vegas! He said Brian Denise is in his ward and told him a family member was also called there, well he found me! Small world haha!

We are supposed to give talks every week to be ready to be called on to speak in sacrament. That's awful haha. Memorize 300 spanish words in 3 days. We heard from elder rasband and soon Renlund! 

Food is eh... some days good some days I just eat the fruit.Tuesday's all you can eat pizza. Some think thats what got everyone sick but that's a lie haha. We get French toast pancakes waffles a lot for breakfast. One day was crepes that looked yummy but turned out to be with black beans.. YUCK.we had hamburgers one night and the best French fries! I've only been gone a week but feel like I haven't had fries in years lol. Yes I did eat the burger haha! 

Sorry my email is all over the place. Soon I'll get better lol

Our district correspond out outfits one day haha it was so funny, we all wore blue. 

Okay ending with the funniest thing that happend!!The second night I was writing in my journal when my companion asked "Hermana Slack? .... what color is your tooth brush?" I said blue.... She said "I totally used it thinking it was mine...." HAHAHAHAH I laughed so hard and replied "that's one way to get real close with your companion!!" It was so funny. She was so embarrassed and offered me a new toothbrush but hey we are just THAT close. Lololol 

I love you all so much! I think about each and every one of you a lot of the time. I pray for each of you and want to hear all about everything going on! I love you guys. I also love letters and photos can also be sent if you have some I can keep ... ;) Have a great week!! Hermana Slack :)

[andy-abroad]

Seoul_02

July.01.2017 Hello, hello! Greetings from Seoul! It's been a wild ride getting here, but I'm finally in the motherland and very excited to be here. I woke up to my alarm at 8:30a and I was very tired, so I snoozed until 9:00a! I woke up and checked in with the family and some friends - it's weird being 13 hours ahead, but kind of nice. Almost a symmetrical cycle - I'm sleeping when people are awake, people are awake when I'm sleeping, haha. I got ready and realized that even I went to bed at like 2:30a, the beds were all empty. When I woke up, everyone was back! I felt bad making so much noise, but it wasn't that early, so I just tried to be as quick as possible. I threw on the first shirt and pair of shorts I could find, packed my bag, and then jammed out the door! My first stop of the day (and what turned out to be my only stop) was the palace! I got my traveler card, topped it up, and got on the train. Thankfully the trains are very easy to find, are easy to navigate, and are super clean! I had one transfer, but didn't have any major issues. I got to the end and was right in front of the palace! It was still pretty early, so it wasn't that hot, but it was still humid. I paid my ticket and got the local price! I walked around the palace grounds and really enjoyed the trees. It's interesting to know that the Japanese destroyed the compound twice, but it was rebuilt as a replica in the 1980s. Kind of sad to think about, since it's not the original, but it's wood so I don't think it would have lasted from 1350 anyways. The colors were so beautiful and the architecture was very unique. Kind of a mixture of so many styles: Japanese and Chinese. It was the most interesting for me to see how the ancient complex was preserved right in the heart of Seoul. It shares the Seoul skyline and seems to defy the current, modern era. The trees are so beautiful and I'm glad I went earlier as there weren't as many people. It's funny, as a lot of Koreans were there and were annoyed that there were so many foreign tourists. This is a sign of a healthy economy, as people from other economies that are heavily dependent on tourism don't go to tourist sites, and don't complain about foreigners. I felt strange because I am a foreigner as well, but kind of not! I got to the inner courtyard where there was the palace party plaza, as I call it. It's a beautiful two story structure that is where royalty had parties and spent time during the summer months, as it's on a man made lake, which keeps it cooler than the rest. I spent some time there doing a water color! It was weird because people kept calling me an artist and I kept saying it's just a hobby, but I was flattered. It was here I saw a bunch of people dressed in 한복. First I thought they worked there, but in reality they rented them for a few hours and were just there to take photos and have fun! It seemed really cool and I was jealous I wasn't doing it. I finished my watercolor and walked around some more! I found the national folk museum, which was my second stop. I didn't realize it was the inside the palace grounds. It was.. an okay museum. The history seemed to brief, but I did learn a lot about the three kingdoms, and how Koreans unified with the advent of iron tools! The most interesting part was that from before the war to after the war, in a short amount of time, capital and industry BOOMED. The quality of life took off and they never looked back. It's like they never really had time to adjust, it was almost overnight. I read a lot of articles that people in korea really struggle with identity and with being part of the globalize economy as they are still figuring out what it means. The older generation have raised us and taught us, and it's a new age, but same people. I finished the museum and mama texted me about lunch. I hadn't eaten all day and was actually realizing how hungry I was! I guess I was so excited I didn't want to eat. I left the palace and followed my map just across the street to a noodle restaurant. 깔국수 + 만두. I had to wait about 15 minutes for a seat which was a good thing. I saw a bunch of locals eating there, and it's actually Michelin rated I think... amazing! I got a seat upstairs and the 이모 was so nice. I got both the 깔국수 + 만두. Ate it all! So much food but so good. Really hit the spot after such a long day of travel, and a long time without eating something that I really was craving. I finished up and then paid downstairs and left. My plan was to go immediately to the national museum of modern and contemporary art, but on my way to the restaurant, I passed it and it looked... empty. I decided I needed to digest anyways, so I walked up and down he street admiring the cafes until I found one I liked! It's called radio m and they had a really neat radio collection and played good music, both western and Korean! I got a coffee, and at first, I just tried to order in English out of habit, but the girl behind the counter turned to her friend and said she thought I was Korean, so I switched to Korean. I think that took her aback. I paid and went upstairs to wait. My buzzer went off and I got my coffee. It was actually perfect. Cold and iced, and strong. I sat sipping and wished I had brought my book. Instead I wrote some postcards that I had picked up from the museum. They were expensive, but really cute so it's alright. I enjoyed being with other Koreans just living their daily life. It was one of the first moments I felt like a local, or not so much as a tourist. I drank my coffee and watched the people on the streets. When I finished my coffee, I decided to look up the museum. It turned out they are in between exhibits, and the art that they have there, I wasn't really interested in. I didn't want to waste my time or money walking through, so I decided to do something.. better! I decided to go and get traditional Korean robes, and go back to the palace! I'm so glad I did. It was kind of expensive, but so funny and so worth it. I got some great photos and had a really fun and good time just walking around. It was so hot, and I sweat like crazy, but that's alright! My two hours were almost up so I returned to the shop and changed out. The woman working was so nervous I sweat so much she gave me water and made me sit for five minutes, haha! I said thank you and sorry and left to go home. I didn't end up seeing the bookstore mama told me about, but I think I want to come out this way again. I headed home as I was in desperate need to shower and to pay for my stay. The train ride back was painless. Everything is so well laid out. And in english as well as Korean! During this commute I also realized I needed some cash as I was nervous I didn't take out enough (spoiler, I did). It took me a while to find an ATM that would accept my card. Korea is strange about foreign debit cards, so I now know that NH accepts but 1st bank doesn't! I got my cash and headed to the hostel. I went up and as I was paying met an Australian guy and his girlfriend. They were paying, too. I spoke with Mary, the owner, in Korean and she was so impressed with my Korean and I was so flattered! She said my parents did a good job (ㅎㅎㅎ). I got back to my room, immediately plugged in my phone, connected to the wifi (which is free... I was mistaken) and showered. I feel like a new person! The couple invited me to go with them to this night market, called the 밤 도깨비! We got ready and went out and about. The plan was to go and see the market, get something to eat, and then go to a few bars. On our way to the market, we stoped at a 7-11 and got some soju! It was a very authentic way to start the night, as we drank right outside the store, and then got on our train. We got off on the wrong stop by mistake, and ended up walking about half a mile to the market, but it was so nice out, I didn't mind. It actually drizzled a little bit. By the time we got to the market, they had closed, as it had rained a little harder while we were on the train and it was too wet to have the market. Kind of defeated. We took the train back after walking around the 한강. The skyline is so beautiful and the river is so pretty! Really loved it. We got off one stop early (this time on purpose) and walked down the streets, just following the crowds, the noise, and the smell of food. We ended up eating at this KBBQ place (불고기), and it was super tasty. I was confused because the stove had some kind of soup in the pan! For vegetables I guess. It was a good dinner! After dinner we kept walking around and decided to drink more soju and beer at this convenience store that had a big seating area for people to drink at. Chairs, tables, umbrellas were all set up. We got some drinks and ended up sitting with these two locals, as the tables were all full. They were really cool and were great at English, as they studied in the United States for a while. They were both trying to get a job, but couldn't get s visa so had to come back home. By this time it was almost 1am, and I was exhausted! We were close to the guest house, so I said my goodbyes and walked home. The others went to a club and I am just too old for that now, haha. I brushed my teeth, changed and fell right asleep.

[justjoeyyy-blog-blog]

Day 19-22

6-2-17 Day 19: I was able to get off the ship today in ensenada. We went to the "resort" that we went to last time. This time I got burnt. Only one person said something though compared to when I was burnt on my cruise in march and no one would leave me alone. The lady goes "are you okay?" And I was so confused until she touched her face lol. I got a strawberry daiquiri while I was at the resort and when it got to me there was salt on the rim...I thought it was sugar so I took a huge lick of it. Why the hell would you put salt with a strawberry daiquiri?? Then I sipped it and there was salt in the drink! I was so confused. Maybe it's Mexico thing? So I told the guy at the bar who doesn't speak and English that it was disgusting and salt doesn't go with a strawberry daiquiri and they said I didn't have to pay for it. I can seriously still taste it. After that I did the build a bear workshop. They had me stitching the bears which I had no idea how to do. I finally got the hang of it and at the end I was told I was tying them all wrong haha. I was with the 9-11 year olds again. And again we had people come in and say "this is it?! What is this?!" In which I have to explain that we do games that don't require much. Like one game we do where everyone ties a balloon to their ankle and you have to try and pop the other people's balloon. Whoever is last wins. The kids absolutely LOVE the games we do but it's hard to see when you walk in and see a conference room with a few games and a lot of space. One boy so rudely in front of his mom talked back to me about it, and by the end of the night he was the happiest kid in the world. The parents also get mad at me when I say we can't move their children into different age groups to be with their siblings. Like bitch I don't make up the rules why am I getting yelled at for this crap. One of the kids was 8 and wanted to be moved up. He walked in sucking his thumb...like wtf no turn away. For night owls tonight (10pm-1am) they were having a "party" for the older kids. The amount of kids in that tiny room was insane and probably proceeded the amount of people you can have in that room. Then on the other side we had 2 babies under the age of 2 as well as other young children with only 2 staff on each side. It is very important to always have someone at the door which means there's really only 1 person with the kids it's insane. There's a lot of things that could be changed to make work A LOT easier. I always think of undercover boss how they go in disguise to work at their own company's and they see all these terrible things that need to be changed. One huge example I have is when we do build a bear. There are 2 huge carts that we literally have to push from one end of the ship to the other. You have to have 2 people on each cart and they weigh easily 200+ pounds. The wheels on the bottom are old and barely work and we can't get the carts over the door frames on the way to our destination. They also barely fit through the doors so if you're not careful you'll literally squish your finger very badly. We also carry another huge cart that doesn't have any sides so we have to put tape all around it. Then when we're done we have to bring it back to camp and shove it into a tiny closet that of course is located right in the walk way that's about the size of a small dressing room. Carnival's first priority in their company is safety yet they have us doing this. It wouldn't be so bad if we had the things stored where we had the actual workshop. It's seriously ridiculous and it infuriates me that no one has said anything to the office about it. It's 12:11 right now. I need to go to bed. Tomorrow is day at sea which means working all freaking day. And then the next day my aunt and uncle are picking me up in Long Beach! So excited :) I haven't seen my aunt in about a year and I haven't seen my uncle since I was a freshman in college so it's been a while. Getting off the boat in general is always great. I'm also super happy because they fixed the light in my bunk and our desk. It usually takes them awhile but they got it done within a day. Today my roommate told me that she doesn't get pimples anywhere besides her butt. Like how do you respond to that? She's super sweet and very funny. Also very outgoing. She looks like a 10 year old. She is so tiny it's crazy. Much better than the last roommate that's for sure. 6-3-17 Day 20: got woken up this morning at 730 to the light being turned on. Then my roommate left for work and kept it on...I'm pretty sure I'm gonna move into rains room. I really like my new roommate but I need sleep 😳 it's not possible to do this job without sleep. Especially on a sea day like today where we work 10-12 hours. The boat is also really rocky today. I'm so nauseous. And it doesn't help that I keep having hot flashes. Like literally dripping sweat. I don't get it. It also doesn't help that we have to wear these stupid pants and ugly ass polo. My room legit smells like feet. 6-4-17 Day 21: I'm getting off the boat in 2 hours :) my aunt and uncle are picking me up. Yesterday was a long ass day. I finally started feeling better after I ate dinner yesterday. But now I'm feeling icky again. It feels like we're still moving but we're docked. I'm also low on sleep because my dumbass decided to go out last night instead of going to bed early. It was really fun though and I met a lot more people. It's pretty nice to be at a bar and then just walk down to your room within a minute. Before I went out me Rain Elle and britny went and saw the epic rock show. I've seriously never seen something so amazing. Our boat is known for having the best performers and performances. The vocals on these people are insane. I couldn't keep still in my seat. I got a little too into it. I'm really sad though because that cast is leaving in 2 weeks and a new cast is coming on board. On the bright side I'll be able to meet new people! Usually the guys are gay so no bf for me. But still more friends and maybe even another American :p I just realized that last night when I got back from the bar I took my pills that I'm supposed to take in the morning...I've never done that before. Speaking of medicine, I found out one of my friends from college passed away. I met him on the first night freshman year and he practically lived in our building. He was such a fun guy. I was told that they think he purposely overdosed. He just graduated in may and move to a new state just 2 weeks ago. Another friend gone by suicide. I so badly wish that we could do more for these people that need help. I also recently heard that someone I knows family member took his life just last week. I was reading one of my magazines the other day and there was a whole article on 13 reasons why. When I got on the boat no one really knew what I was talking about because they've been on here without access to internet (or at least internet that works well enough to watch shows). It's kinda cool how you escape from the outside world when you're on the boat. On a different note I think I'm going parasailing tomorrow in Catalina! I haven't been off at that port yet so I'm super excited. One of the guys I met who was in the fun squad had to leave the boat the other day because he lost his passport 😳 I literally thought this guy was in his 20s and he's 41.......my mind was blown. I thought he was messing with me. A lot of people on here look really young for their age. Getting off the boat today was great. My aunt and uncle picked me up. We ate outside and talked for hours and I got my nails done. Still need to get my haircut majorly. An hour ago I went to close the club (it's open for embarkation for like an open house) and it was fucking trashed again. Poker chips all over the place. Jenga pieces cover the floor. Uno and playing cards all mixed together. I just want to know wtf is going through these people's heads. And where are their parents? I don't think I'm going parasailing tomorrow either :/ I was gonna go with britny and now she has a training. I might go by myself though and lay out on the beach :) I open the club in an hour. I really shouldn't take a nap because it's just gonna make me more tired but I have an hour so I'm gonna. I got to meet the kids today. They're actually really awesome. One of the girls told me I'm the chilliest person ever lol. On captains dinner nights we have imaginary Prom. Tonight the kids got really into it and one of the boys made up a whole promposal for one of the girls it was hilarious. He made me play romantic music and he got down on one knee and asked her. And then they slow danced. It was so cute. I have a shit ton of kids. My club is way too small for the amount I have this cruise and really for any cruise. I don't have work tomorrow until 4 😍 I might get off in Catalina and go lay out at the beach alone or I might just lay out on the ship. We have to take tender boats to the port and it can get super chaotic. I'll get off another time when I have a friend to go with me. 6-5-17 Day 22: it's almost 1 and I'm still in bed. I had my alarm set for 1030 but that didn't happen obviously. I was having a really weird dream that I couldn't wake up from. I've had the weirdest dreams since I've been here it's freaky. I start at 3 today. Thought I started at 4 :/ I've already wasted my day away so I'll probably just sleep some more. I need it big time. I seriously love my kids. Besides the fact that they don't clean up after themselves. They loved the whole imaginary Prom idea. We had a prom king and queen it was great. Nominations and then voting. I wanted to rig the votes so the couple I like could win but some of the girls asked if they could help tally up the votes so it didn't work. I met someone moving to stl for a mission trip. He'll be living there for 2 years. Kinda interesting! He's Mormon. After work we had a party in the crew bar lounge. It was a lot of fun and I got to talk to a lot of people, especially one of the guys that's actually a potential option but he was wasted out the ass and definitely won't even remember talking tomorrow. I have training in 5.5 hours. It's 308am. But I had fun tonight so whatever.