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Sonic Prime gush
No one wants to talk about this and I don'[t want to spoil people so hiding under read more
Okay so first off: I hate the prime universe. Big is ugly, Knuckles sounds weird, Amy acts weird, Shadow acts weird, Rouge isn't showing her titties and everyone sort of acts like a budget 3D children's cartoon. The way they smile, and stand it scared me it was like Sonic Boom or Pac-Man or Mega Man...
Tho I looooove the animation, sometimes they seem to move like claymation, they're actually animated like cartoon characters! Something in the games Ive only seen in Sonic CHampionship and Sonic Riders!!
Also even tho the prime universe sucks, you barely see it!
Tho.. the weird wormy story telling is like... "dude why didn't you just have a longer intro instead of jumping back to finish the intro"
Like, it persists through the whole season so like... aunno I don't get it. My friend said that Ben10 man wrote this and it's a Ben10 thing but I never watched Ben10
Oh yeah I love Sonic's voice, like... he actually sounds like Sonic for once! It's very modern but like... duh. It's not 1999 anymore (sadly) so he kinda sounds like what corporate thinks is a tiktok but oh cool there's foxy comics in Sonic's world
(oh yeah! I can screeny on VLC!)
Like, aunno Sonic looks off but I also kinda love how he looks like those Y2K Archie comics like...
Also, isn't it weird that Rouge was made into a good guy instead of a dubious guy?
Also Rouge is the best she's been since SA2. The personality is... eh, but her mannerisms are great.
Also this smile reminds me of Robot Chicken
Like did Seth Mcfarline make this? It reminds me of Toyfaire theatre titan maximum
Also it's weird the egg-o-matic isn't in the series? Like supposedly this is canon now so like.. where's the egg mobile?
It's weird how Amy is sorta like the brains (tactics) instead of Rouge or Tails or Sonic. Kinda reminds me of Sally Acorn.
Tho the AU Amys are fantastic like it's almost like she's Sonic's rival like Knuckles used to be. I love seeing them fight! I fucking hate the baby Robotnik tho.
Also it's weird that only Sonic Underground world got AU Robotnik(s) but Junghole and pirate world didn't.
Like, this is all we get? Where's colonial eggman or monarch eggman... well I guess both are the same...
Where's Good Robotnik? I want to see a universe where Sonic's pals n gals are the villain and Robotnik is the force of good.
This is going to be 24 episodes and it's not (quite) Quantum Leap in that it's episodic... it's more worm spaghetti.
Also
I fucking DIED when he said his name! NINE?!?!! They did it! They made him canon!!!!
Well only sorta... not really... well I mean hey.
Also is this a Spider-man 2 reference... except Spider-man saves Doc Ock?
(God that smear) XDDDD
Also it's weird that like, they seem to reference the classic games?
but like, later Sonic remembers Knuckles in the hidden palace but the floating island doesn't seem to exist? Like is the hidden palace in green hill?
Cuz like the stupid palm tree is a reality anchor, there's the loop-de-loop, nexus of shattering, and a palm tree they "gave" to Sonic because I don't know the real superpower of teamwork?
Also Sonic seems to be sorta connected the the crystal he shattered? Like the glue to the multiverse? Pretty weird.
Nine would be my favorite character if not for Rusty Rose.
Like she's the Robotniks' lap dog but she seems to be roboticized but more robocop than SatAM (which, Wildbrain is basically new DiC) and she's a formidable opponent and I love her?
She is basically mind-controlled by the Robotniks (then later Nine) so I wonder how much of her is her and how much of her is programming and how much of her is lost...
Also I wonder how long until someone makes fetish art of Nine controlling Rusty (I'm busy working on JG so not it)
Shadow seems to be lost in the void and can only communicate with Sonic when he's running fast which causes him to warp similar to Sonic CD
Sonic also warps when he touches a jewel (sorta like Sonic CD except no)
I wonder if there will be six worlds: one that focuses on each character's social problem, on the rewatch I realized Amy cared about forests in the shattering, which, the jungle episode is about Thorny Rose wanting to defend the jungle at all costs.
So is SU world about Nine needing Sonic?
is pirate world about Knuckles not thinking?
Will there be a Rouge, Robotnik and Sonic worlds?
Will Blaze or different Sonics be in the show?
Aunno!
This is an interesting sight to see.
Also
Rings actually act like rings???? What is this nonsense?!
Wait someone in the credits is Miles "Tails" Wyrth? XDDD okay I mean how can you not
Aunno, kinda feels like they wasted the first season stevenbombing but like... aunno it's good.
If they release it on BluRay I'll buy it (downloaded Mkvs off a website)
I do wonder how Shadow plays into the story cuz it kinda hints that only Sonic is lost and no one is "split up" but time is breaking down or something but like...
They're air shoes.
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lee from the tea shop boutta get it (wip) [id in alt]
edit: completed illustration here
#zuko#zukka#i wanted this to be a guiding hand#encouraging or like he's surprised it's happening but holding sokka's hand comfortingly#but something about the expression and the mouth makes it seem like he doesn't want it or he's afraid#i don't know i'll workshop this#mywips#i also havent read any ba sing se zukka fics but i do wonder how they'd work#like i totally buy that zuko was SO tunnel visioned to the avatar that he literally wouldn't know what sokka looks like#but i don't know how Sokka couldn't Not know who he is#unless maybe they met as blue spirit vigilante and sokka falls for him and this is the unveiling moment and zuko's afraid of his past#but sokka's like it's okay you're changing you've helped people as the blue spirit and i care about you. those feelings are real#even now#and zuko almost decides to change for the better right then but he gets scared and turns back and canon happens idk#mistaking his father's approval for love and his love for sokka as wrong#whatever. idc. something something i just wanted to draw short haired zuko
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note: pollmaker is thinking of the USAmerican lottery system (powerball, mega millions, state lottos, scratchoffs, etc), but poll applies to other countries lotteries systems so long as its still the same concept of "big ol state sponsered gambling shit", but not like casino style gambling. u know what i mean, Lottos.
questions for the tags: how regularly, what stuff you play, if you have limits for yourself, if you feel like its a Problem for you, and for funsies the usual 'first thing youd do if you won the lottery' shit
reblog to have absolutely zero effect on your luck either way. just like, absolutely no change in luck whether you reblog this or scroll past. this is the luck neutral post reblog in the next 30 seconds or dont who give a shit
#buzzy#REMAKING BECAUSE I FORGOT THE FUCKING NO OPTION CHRIST im bad at this#do u ever spend so long thinking about every possible 'OP WHY DIDNT YOU MAKE AN OPTION FOR THIS SPECIFIC SITUATION'#that u forget the fucking 'no' optik#polls#poll#lottery#lotteries#the lottery#gambling#okay to repeat my personal answers: yes but i do only $3 per week and ONLY the texas lotto#i do my lucky numbers and i do a multi draw (does the next ten drawings w the same numbers) so that i dont gotta#pay attention to it for a couple of weeks#which makes it less of A Thing#so im not activelt rhinking about it as much#im ya kno impulsive and in the past it was 'ohh $5 per week and scratchoffs' but that meant too much of a#'oh but this week ill spend an extra $5 ive been good....'#and it was too easy for me to justify going overboard#i know 'not playing at all' is the better option but this scratches the itch just enough that i dont feel tempted to impulse buy scratchoffs#while also being p hands off so im not obsessing over it as much#ya kno?#yeah im consistently wasting money but it keeps me from IMPULSIVELY wasting EVEN MORE money#and it means i can keep lotto winning dreams jn the back of my mind#also first thing id do is go to doctors and find out wtf is wrong w me#well not the FIRST first. first first is probs getting myself a little treat like some dutch bros
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something something blood-soaked hands cradling your face something something
anyway here's the post btw
#what if post dp3 logan struggles to emotionally accept that wade Will Actually For Real Survive Anything#and one time they are fighting some random baddies#and they somehow get in a few shots straight to wade's cranium and he drops like a bag of slutty slutty potatoes#and logan goes full berserker trying to get to him#like he just massacres everyone in his way and wade still isnt getting up ohnoohnoohnonotagainohno#(healing factor or no a few direct shots to the brain stem/t box take a bit to recover from)#(no more than five minutes but it's an eternity to logan)#and his heart sinks to the very core of the earth as he kneels down next to wade's body#and his hands are shaking and soaked in blood and he can't seem to sheathe his claws in his dazed adrenalined state#he tries to peel back wade's mask and fear is just *pounding* through his system because in that moment#all he can see are the xmen dead in massive pools of blood#and that feeling of unreality is rushing over him like thiscantbehappeningthiscantbehappeningnotagainohgodnotagain#wade's still and unresponsive and there is so Much BLOOD (hard to tell how much is Wade's and how much is just on his hands)#and logan doesn't even realize he's crying until suddenly wade's eyes light up like a computer restarting#and he's smiling and gasping and joking immediately#“well howdy there hot stuff what did I miss?”#and then he clocks that logan is Not Okay#“... well gee willikers golly goddamn peanut 'twas only a flesh wound! no need to go all waterworks over lil ol me”#“you know it would take a helluva lot more than that to make me shuffle off this here mortal coil!”#“see all better I'm hunky dory peachy keen right as fucking rain”#“I mean cmon I can't have been out for more than five minutes so let's just go back to you being exasperated with my bullshit antics okay??#“...okay sugarboobs? snookums? babycakes?.... Logan?”#and they just sit there on the floor holding each other for a while#wade babbling and logan crying about everything he's lost and wondering distantly how he has come to care so much#about this blithering jokester in like barely a week#that the thought of losing him brought him crashing back to the worst memory of his extremely rough life#anyway that's enough tag mini fic lolol I'm having feelings about my own drawing I guess 😵#poolverine#deadpool and wolverine#poolverine art
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@openphrase123 your fanfic(s but i mainly made art of the mira and siffrin one because i cant remember words for the life of me for i do not speak french) IS???? ? SO GOOD. SO GOOD IM FOAMING AT THE MOUTH finally something to look forward to in the week fr
Mild spoilers for it ig!! But nothing too explicitly groundbreaking i dont think it'll kill your mom to look at these without having read the ff first
Don't mind the shit quality i??? I drew all these so fast theyre kinda shit and i have yet to fully acclamate isat to my artstyle so it's mid
Teehee me when i make shitty rushed fanart to show my appreciation that i cannot put into words for my faovorite games and also authors
peep the rant in the tags
#isat#isat fanart#isat siffrin#isat mirabelle#god ive been obsessing over isat lately#its terrible how ive been feeding into it#ffs of it be having me giggling running around because siffrin is healing#not in this particular one though#at least not at the part thats written rn#i do love seeing them suffer in equal parts#siffrin my scrimblo i will microwave you#a mosquito is in my room as im typing this girl gtfo#slight spoilers for this fanfic i suppose#okay so THE FANFIC BROO that part where sif lets mira pick his name?! makes me think that sponsors always pick the names#hence why sif never got a new name and spica feels outdated#also i love LOVE seeing mirabelle get better and better at yk... remembering#needing sif to reintroduce themselves every time is such a creative way to do like a pseudo timeloop#everything was so neat#upset that i cant do them justice in drawinng though i have very little experience drawing black hairstyles#or like being around black people with such hairstyles which is a shame!! i would wanna get a better look at the texture and the variation#BACK TO THE FF i literally read this to my older brother out loud (thank god i managed to pester him to play Isat)#and my throat got so raw from speaking that i had to stop but then itd get to another cool detail and i HAD to tell him#so my throat pain? your fault not mine nuh uh not the lack of self control#case in point thanks a bunch for writing!! i wanna get as good at that as you at some point
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hong kong miku,,,
#hopping on the trend jumpscare i’m from hong kong surprise#i haven’t seen that many hk mikus around#lowkey chat i think i kinda ate with this one#however i will say i am coloring in the dark so if any colors look off that’s why#and also i haven’t opened this program in literal months i jumped straight into this no warmup no nothing#miku is what pulls me out of art block apparently i was locked in for 5 hours STRAIGHT#someone needs to teach me how to paint properly holy#not sure how i feel about the bottom left one but that was a quick one anyways#i am from hk originally but i haven’t been back in years so i have no idea about the culture other than food and mirror#OKAY let me explain the context#street food is a big thing in hk and quick and easy things like fish balls egg waffles and like siu mai and wonton noodles are popular#back then people really would just squat down on the side of the road or right in front of the shop to eat it and go#but i don’t think anyone does that anymore city life and all that#ohh i should have done instant noodles breakfasts god i loved those#if anyones from hk if you go to the causeway bay mtr station exit that leads up to the big road near sogo. do they still sell siu mai there#that shit was BANGER i remember asking for them all the time#a good majority of parents in hk would get their daughters ears pierced as a baby something about them not feeling as much pain idk#that’s just what i was told#i used the neon for her friendly standard greeting cause i wanted to incorporate the neon signs somehow without actually drawing a whole bg#lots of neon signs in hk. i heard they had to take them down cause of light pollution which is sad but understandable#everyone got their shoes from dr kong. at least when i was younger they did#boy band is self explanatory. i heard they’re really popular my mom listens to them#oh i had her messing with her shoes cause hk people move FAST. you stop for one second and you get shoved#so like a fun little allusion#gave her black roots just for fun. she is violating every school uniform code possible#this is all based off of my memory by the way so like. anyone who knows this better than i do hit me up#hatsune miku#miku from my culture#jellos scribbles#i haven’t tag yapped in so long welcome back my love i missed you
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challenge for ME to actually do WORK at SOME POINT IN THIS DAY
#news from the cupola#you could power a small city with the way I'm bouncing my leg right now. wish Any of that was going into the assignment of doom#okay. I've taken five (more like fifteen) and just scrawled out some drawings on the back of a syllabus and now I feel slightly better#get the goop out get the sludge out. I can write an essay.
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Here there Wolfbell, how has it been? What do you think of the fellow competitors?
Ps: Do you like pasta? (Holding large bowl of spagetti)
Wolfbell: ……it could be better.
Wolfbell: The… others..? I’ve met a lot of people now.
Wolfbell: I’ve met s…some who’ve… b-been friendly to me.
Wolfbell: and then….. there’s a couple I’ve only seen from afar, who… I’d approach and talk to, if I only had the courage…
Wolfbell: and then.. the ones who have asked me… big questions… w-who are… like me in many ways… who have taught me I am…. Not alone in my e-experiences.
Wolfbell: and then… there’s the ones I find.. t.. terrifying.
Wolfbell, trying to keep her stomach from twisting at the scent of food: …. N.. no.. no thank you. Not right now.
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@kirbyoctournament
Mirage belongs to @adridoot
Halley belongs to @zprite-x
Lady Celestine belongs to @kirbybecomesastarwarrior
Dotty belongs to @cauli-flawa
Techie belongs to @ivynajspyder
Wisp belongs to @moonsharkss
Starry Dee belongs to @staring-at-a-blank-pagee
Star belongs to @c0ffee-7
Fylass belongs to @george228732
Dazor belongs to @a-stardusted-sky
Necro Knight belongs to @dark-mega
Uther belongs to @quanblovk
Peony belongs to @giantchasm
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#kirby#hoshi no kirby#kirby right back at ya#art#kirby art#kirby oc#kirby of the stars#kirby au#digital artist#kirby wolfbell au#others ocs#wolfbell#kirby oc ask#kirby oc tournament#I better have gotten all these tags right or I’m gonna combust#surprise everyone get fanarted#there was so many ocs I wanted to draw but didn’t have space to#remembered lemon dee’s halo this time#drew fylass looking as tired as I feel#I was gonna draw life but I realized for lore purposes it didn’t make sense#so uther got to appear#I also once said drawing him was easy and I intend to stick to that#cause I’m no coward#I’ve been drawing for the past four hours straight send help#wolfbell isn’t okay either
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-I'm back, my dear people! Did you miss me? :]
(I hope so, because it took a while for me to find time to come back- also.. sorry for the bad art😃👍)
#hey everyone!! I'm alive :DD#are you all okay? I hope so! and if not. I hope you be better soon❤️#(I basically took this time off because because I wasn't well.. I was really and really bad...#with several anxiety attacks and depression problems again.. thank god it got better and now I feel okay ^^#also- a lot of things changed in my life and I still haven't managed to organize everything.. as well as the drawings...#I have just a “few” drawings to post.. but I hope you still like it and bear with me :']#I promise to do more and answer you guys when I have time! <33)#a little spoiler: there will be some new things coming to this blog- hope you guys like it :D <33#i'm back!#i'm mel and this is my blog✌️#my art blog#art#my art#my art <3#art mel#my art style#mel designer#mel loly#my oc character#tw vent#?#random vent
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the disparity in kudos between a skk fic and a fic for literally any other bsd characters/ship :/
#like okay i get it skk is the most popular bsd ship by a longshot#but it does kinda suck that my skk fics will always end up being more popular than literally anything else i write for bsd#when i have way better fics tbh#okay i'm unleashing this from my drafts lol#like i get it kudos/hits/bookmarks counts aren't telling of how good a fic is#but out of my last five fics. my skk one has ONE HUNDRED kudos more than the next most kudos#and idk it also sucks that i know my skk is better than 90% of the fandom but. even my skk fics get significantly less kudos/etc#than big writers in the fandom who AREN'T EVEN GOOD#or are like. mid at best#i know in theory that the bsd fandom doesn't care about characterization but like. not only do they encourage bad characterization#it feels like sometimes they're actively against good characterization#even in j.jk and a.tla where there are major issues with bad characterization#more people seem to at least appreciate the good characterization. (even if they aren't good at it themselves.)#but i swear to god no one in the bsd fandom cares about anything besides whether dazai and chuuya are kissing. it begins and ends there.#it never ceases to amaze me (derogatory) how a fandom where the source media draws So Much inspiration from classic literature#can somehow have NEGATIVE media literacy skills#why don't you guys take a break from your edgy dazai x softboy chuuya fics and you fems.kk with dazai in skimpy clothes and your#beast chuuya sobbing and killing himself over dazai's death#and go read some of the books by the actual authors. and then write me an essay about the themes that has nothing to do with shipping.#and THEN you can come back to the fandom.#listen i love skk but oh my god sometimes the fandom makes me hate them.#anyway one of these days i'm going to get anon hate for complaining about the bsd fandom so much but that's fine#at least i know there are characters in the show besides dazai and chuuya. and when i do write skk AT LEAST I DO IT RIGHT.#hello grace here
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Painting 🖼
#need to draw for myself more lmfao#i wish i felt this comfortable using saturated colors like this in other art but#its difficult#i feel like i can only do it w original art#AAAAAGGHHH I LIKE THIS ONE A LOT#im rly proud of the clothes. very leyendecker to me#its weird how much i like the pink considering i never use hot pink 😭😭#its just very fitting for this idk#also i was gonna draw a different outfit#but before i knew it i sketched 1700s stuff 😭😭 i cant help it#its too perfect yknow....#also funny anecdote i must tell you#when i was in middle school we had to do an assignment related to the monkey's paw#and one of the questions was like: whats a wish you cna think of that doesnt have any possible caveats#and mine was: oh i wish i could draw ruffles well!!!#and here i am. however many years on. STILL FUCKING WISHING I COULD DRAW RUFFLES BETTER#theyre okay in this. but i force myself to draw them a lot bcs theyre still difficult as hell to me#well anyways. personal art wooooooo. cause i need to force my brain back into drawing for myself mainly#well actually i always draw for myself bcs every piece is pretty esoteric#but my brain is still like: notes??? does anyone even care???#catie. i care. your own self cares <3#catie.art.
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silly thing i made last night XP
vargas by @zarla-s
#sunny's art#vargas#vargas zarla#edgar vargas#scriabin vargas#zarla s#haiii i'm back :3#i've been through a bunch of stuff recently#but i think i feel better now :)#my mind has been acting real silly lately#my brain just keeps saying KILL YOURSELF. KILL YOURSEEELF#but nothing new#i just saw this audio on tiktok and i though it fit with them soooo#also i'm now school-free for the next two months#i hope i feel motivated enough to draw something#it's just that my motivation only comes after 10pm#ohhhhh edgar looks so miserable here i want to put him in an air fryer#he just wants to be comforted D:#my heart ached while drawing this#i always make scriabin look unnecessarily pretty#and i HATE IT#BECAUSE HE DOESN'T DESERVE IT#one day i drew them with freckles and now i can't stop .......#my brain !! finally managed !! to think of something not chapter 20/21 or diaryfic related !!! 🥳🥳#edit : fun fact i was just about to make this abt diaryfic#this doesn't necessarily have a context??#i was thinking of something like chapter 18#i struggled so much uploading this for no reason ....#my art style is so inconsistent#but i think it looks okay
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Small drawing collection of my latest creation Emran as a teenager/freshly minted Air Acolyte, for my dear partner in unhinged OC shenanigans @katkastrofa, as promised <3
#my art#artists on tumblr#the legend of korra#original character#I need to figure out a way to tag these guys#like with renny and dori I just put sotrl in front of their names and that works#but emran is technically an LaF character. though not uniquely tied to that verse. and idk what to do with Ila and Alasie#maybe I need to have some unique oc tag or smth. I’ll figure it out#if you’re wondering why I stayed up until half past 7 a.m to draw this it’s because I needed some way to cool down#after the kuviren smut absolutely broke my brain#and what better way to do that than by drawing my sweet baby boy?#yes lmao he went from baby girl to baby boy in like 24 hours. fucking sue me#but actually. actually!! they’re both. they contain multitudes :)#they probably haven’t even realised that at this point and are still in disguise#convinced that she’ll be punished for her deceit if anyone found out that she’s actually a girl#(okay off topic but the switching pronouns are really fun lmao)#but give them time. they’ll figure it out soon enough. in these pieces they’re slowly getting used to temple life#and that is the first step to self acceptance#I’m actually extremely proud of these. especially the one with the apple basket. I feel like the androgynous vibes are really there#and he looks like his brother the most in it#but the others are fun too. I loved doing the portrait. I should do them more often#and.. I will admit. I traced the lemur. I can barely draw people okay how do you expect me to draw animals#but I just think that Aiza would really love a little lemur friend#animals don’t judge and she doesn’t have to watch herself around them. she can just be. plus the lemurs are really cute <3#I want to eventually do a companion to this with Aiza instead. maybe from back before she ran away#probably something based on reflection from Mulan too bc the vibes are there. though.. to be completely honest#I’d say they have a lot more of Shurochka Azarova’s vibes than Mulan. but that’s just my love for Soviet cinema taking over#it’s essentially if mulan fought napoleon instead. and when discovered instead of left to die they promoted her to lieutenant 😁#I realise the comparison is completely incomprehensible to everyone but me but.. go watch the hussar ballad. it’s free on YouTube with subs#okay enough rambling. i shall now go to bed. @ Kat I hope this brightens up your morning at least somewhat. I love you!!
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[image ID in alt text] (click for the quality that tumblr ruined)
you uh,,,, ever spend over 5 hours on fanart for a fic that you've only read 4.5 chapters of, that's based on a game you've never played? ,,,,,, just me?
anyway, read take back the fortress by @medics-secret-shipfic-folder bc holy SHIT
cmedic means. so much to me. and he's SO fun to draw. this is a bad omen for everyone >:)
(also yes. these lyrics are from "back in school" by mother mother, the line has been stuck in my head for a WEEK, and it felt applicable here.)
#take back the fortress#my art#digital art#digital drawing#tbtf fanart#my stuff#i made this#fanart#tf2 fanart#artists on tumblr#team fortress 2#tf2#tfc medic#classic medic#tw minor body horror#tw minor gore#okay those feel like better tws for this#image id#id in alt text#as always i take con crit on my image ids! i think this one came out alright though :)
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#having a creative rut feeling#gonna rant#im basically a giant baby and i don't handle angst very well#and i constantly worry that im just. idk mentally weak or a deeply uninteresting person bc of it.#every big fantasy artist i see is usually very into making sad or angsty pieces and like i wish i was like that#like i fall into this mental hole very very often that im just holding myself back with how many subjects i dont write or draw#but also like when i DO write dark subjects it doesn't make me feel any better??#i dont like feeling sad or angry bc once i am its extremely hard to get back out of it.#and thats scary for me.#but also i want to make art that means something instead of my nonestop slew of smut and feelgood content.#i genuinely feel so trapped by my own emotions and its sp frustrating.#i keep getting told how good for you it is to get the negative feelings out but it never helps when i do it#i just feel. worse? i dont feel good.#i kinda wanna delete the one cloud post bc it just doesn't feel good.#ugh#idk i want to have good intelligent things to say and thoughtful art to make#and everything i make feels soft and cheesey and lame.#not that i find those things lame#but just that it feels like im stuck in baby brain.#when i was a teen i would write horror stories!!! i still love horror!!!#but if i make someone suffer in fic now it feels me with this awful awful overwhelming sense of dread and guilt and i end up so upset#im frustrated at me bc this is such a fucking weird sensitivity to have. im tried of telling myself its okay#bc i WANT to feel mentally free enough to create shit that isnt just uwu soft.#i don't think im making sense but like.#you know#I've literally been bullied out of fandom spaces for only making soft content#multiple times.#so idk maybe this is a learned sense of shame#but i feel like a big over sensitive baby and like I'd be able to do so much more if i wasn't#vent ish
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Don't leave me alone after 3 AM I will come up with a new idea
#and not just oneshot or drawing ideas#(though those too)#no this is a kickstarter idea#it feels super achievable....#how many pin ks have i backed myself?? at least three or four#and like i am good at designing little things like that#...i think#im getting better all the time#a fan one would be fun and probably popular but i worry about copyright etc#a game one seems like itd be fun but dnd.... and copyright there too... and niche#the answer is OBVIOUSLY vampires#guys imagine how cool itd be to get big on making vampire themed merch#and then i could open an art print shop#or a clothes shop#and have a business condo#and move out#and make more stuff#and have money to help people....#i dream big okay#i speak from the coffin
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