#okay I actually really love this idea and I wanna write it someday

[fabuloustrash05]

Hmmm Mona Lisa and Karai

The two get kidnapped and are being held as bait for the boys. Unfortunately for their would be captors they aren’t as helpless as they would appear.

Gimme an AU and I’ll give the plot

The first question is WHO kidnapped Karai and Mona Lisa? If we’re going by the timeline of 2012, it can’t be Shredder or any of the Foot Clan members because by the time Mona is on Earth, the Foot Clan is officially under Karai’s rule, Shredder is dead, Tiger Claw surrendered, etc. The options we got are either bring back an old big bad they must face again OR bring in a brand new big bad.

For this, I’ll bring back an old enemy of there’s and for this story I choose Hun and the Purple Dragons. Cause those guys kinda vanished after season 4.

So in this story I imagine that Karai and Mona Lisa are having a hard time getting along and finding common ground. They don’t like each other. Think of it as two alpha females trying to prove to each other who is superior, the better fighter, and the true “Queen Bee”.

What leads to their kidnapping is that both Mona and Karai separately spot the Purple Dragons committing some sort of crime and they jump in to stop them, and both women are mad that the other is present during this fight, accusing one other of trying to “steal their thunder”. Because the women are more focused on bickering and trying to upstage one another, Hun and his men take this distraction to their advantage and knock the girls out resulting in their kidnapping. Hun plans to contact the Turtles and hold the girls for ransom, telling them if they don’t meet his demand of a million dollars, the two girls will be killed, or like you suggested use the girls as bait to get to the Turtles.

Regardless of the Purple Dragons plan, this moment of being kidnapped would result in Mona and Karai finally settling their differences and working together to escape and stop the Purple Dragons for goood. This story would be the origin of how Mona and Karai became friends.

The ending would be similar to how the episode when Raph first met Casey went down, with the first time everyone saw them together they hated each other and fighting but now seeing them together again they are now BFFs! This sudden change in dynamic between the two women shocks everyone, but brings some peace as well knowing that Karai and Mona won’t be at each others throats anymore. Plus Raph is happy to see that his sister and girlfriend are finally getting along.

[the-s1lly-corner]

Keep requesting from different people with no luck but what if jason voorhees had a S/O who reads to him when he's "sleeping" in the lake and he has dreams about the story and has a dream of him and the reader as beauty and the beast?

Reading B&B to Jason + Dream stuff!

while this isnt a slasher blog and i am grossly underqualified to speak of anything book related to beauty and the beast, i truly do love this idea + i really felt the whole request thing </3 this aint perfect but i hope you enjoy it regardless! may your other/future requests be answered someday! !!!quick note, admins only exposure to beauty and the beast is the original disney film, they have never read any renditions of it so theyre going off the basic bare bones concept not proof read, i am literally belting this out before i gotta bake an order </3

I could be silly, i could make him dream of himself as the beauty as opposed to being the beast, but im not 100% sure how i would go about writing that.... perhaps ill save that for the next time my slasher brainrot strikes me

i think he would love that you read for him, small little act that helps heal that inner child inside him + it reminds him of how his mom used to read to him at night. its almost bittersweet... im torn on whether or not pam would've read him beauty and the beast/similar adjacent tales. I admit, I'm not sure how many renditions of the story there are, and which ones were around when Jason was a kid but lets say, for convivence lets say she didnt

whenever you read to him hes hooked on every word you say, head in your lap and looking up at you with this sort of sparkle in his eye. loves it when you put on goofy voices for different characters. generally a very calm and peaceful moment between the two of you

so imagine offering to read the story to him, and he is just. totally immersed. even before he falls asleep he sees the parallels between the book and you, bonus if you somehow find a way to show him the disney movie of it

as for the dreams, naturally he's in the beasts position. solitary and secluded away from others, and self admittedly from the man himself, a sight for sore eyes (no matter how much some may disagree), and you as the beauty (not that much changes in the dream, he already sees you as something radiant)

the first time he has the dream he doesnt really say anything about it, actually he doesnt remember most of the dream thanks to him nearly forgetting everything that second he wakes up

but the dream keeps happening, even long after you first read the story to him, and each night he seems to be able to piece everything together

you wander into his home, and he keeps you. protects you, actually. the events of your arrival in the dream are blurred, but seem to line up with how you first entered his life.

theres no talking furniture, unfortunately

however i do wanna say theres talking animals in their place

nature boy

actually, jason doesnt seem to be a prince in his dreams, just a simple man

hes not even a physical monster in his dreams.

but unlike the disney adaptation, when the whole... breaking the curse thing happens, there is no transformation. so hey, theres that at least

he eventually talks to you about it, sheepishly signing the details to you as he tries to not seem embarrassed about it. but he cant help but to get giddy when he sees your smile

"aww you dream about me?" is a comment sure to make his signing pause for a second before he covers his hands over his mask

i wish i had more for this but im on a bit of a time crunch atm and as stated in the authors note my only exposure is the disney film and SOBS

you (making sure hes okay with the nickname first, obviously) playfully call him beast, and he starts calling you beauty

the story eventually kind of becomes you guys' thing, like how some couples have their song or their movie or their whatever

[polyhexian]

have you had any ideas for MH timeline oneshots i love the ones youve done as seperate little side stories and id love to see more!

I've got all this STUFF lying around and I'm like WHAT ORDER IS THIS IN. But I've mentioned jasper fosters kids in a few things and I'd really like to show that. And I also wanna write about when hunter makes Jasper's palisman. And I'd really really like to actually get Everything With Gus down on paper because there is a Lot of family drama there. Since mara and jasper are obviously close, and obviously she IS going to pass away and he WILL be upset. And I've made it clear I characterize perry as pretty distant and that Gus has largely adultified himself as a kid who is home alone a lot and also skipped two grades and needs his peers to see him as more mature than he is. So perry being So Very Sad about his wife's death that he really shuts down and is not paying attention to his. Jasper very helpfully takes him a lot but he doesn't LIVE there even if he is there half or more of the time. But jasper is getting more and more pissed the more perry seems to be doing s Very Bad Job and not paying attention to him like. Every time Gus comes back like hey he forgot to feed me breakfast this morning or yeah I tucked myself in last night or I let myself into the house today after school or something jasper gets just a little less forgiving. And he's got Gus staying there more and more until he's like like. 4-5 days of the week. And then one day perry does something that really pisses him off like he brushes something off that really hurts Gus's feelings or something and jasper says fuck it and just. Does not give him back lol. Like he's supposed to go back home Friday and he just does not send him back. Perry calls like hey. Where is my kid. And jaspers just like. Well he is my kid now. Goodbye. And is a little bit pissed when no one shows up to arrest him because perry is just like. Well. Okay I guess I lost him then. Woe is me. So gus just lives there for like two years before perry is like hey actually I want my kid back now and jasper is like. Okay. That's cool. No. But it's kind of like. Well you. Sort of have a reputation for kidnapping. You really don't want to do it again. Theyre not gonna let you off again. So he just Seethes about it and hunter just brings Gus home constantly so he is.... Still practically living there during the week.

Theres too many niche details here. I can't handle myself. I want very much to write more about the blight kids because they have their whole shit rocked here and I'd love to get around to Luz showing up someday because. I mean. It would rule. She gets there and hunter is immediately like hey good news: I am everyone's annoying and overprotective big brother. You dont get a say in this. Also stay away from Amity she's a bitch and my mortal enemy. The DRAMA of Luz being Jasper's apprentice- because powerless witch! -and living with Mr surrogate brother himself only now she's got a crush on their fucking Enemy so it has to be Secret....

[vvatchword]

In Which I Get Zooted (and Talk about Paradise Lost for some reason)

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I am reading Paradise Lost again. Jesus christ it is so good. The first time I read it I had to get used to Ye Olde Englifh Poetic Conventionf and didn’t do very well. Fortunately, I read lots of early modern English in the distant past—it’s like a language I’ve mostly forgotten. That means that repeated exposure has reopened the prose to me. Eventually, I’m going to have to pick up a book about John Milton himself, because there are definitely some alien theological and historical points whizzing right over my head.

I don’t know what it is about Paradise Lost. Reading Dante was painful outside the Hell part… Bunyan’s Pilgrim’s Progress makes me want to kick him in the pants. or die (Dante’s cuntiness goes a long way, that said)

But like every time Milton writes a Satan speech you just wanna do a fistpump. Just the most conniving, fascinating character. Every other fucker in the “good” section pales by comparison. Hell—I’ll just say it: all of the devils are beautifully written. They feel like real people. Half of the time, you’re nodding along with them, and there’s a point where you have to kinda look over your shoulder at Milton, like… buddy do you have any idea what you are SAYING.

The way that everyone talks about Paradise Lost, you’d think the whole goddamn text was about Satan. It’s not. Three of the ten books focus on Satan. All the others are about the war in heaven, Adam and Eve, or the Fall. Look here: if all we had were the books about Adam and Eve and God’s tried-and-true, this would still be great literature, but it’s greater because the stilted, proper characters clash against what are supposed to be our villains. We are literally being forced to ask the question: WHY do the devil and his minions sound like the people we’d rather know? If Milton’s God were real, I’d be straight-up scared of him, okay. I’d be in the “shit shit shit I hope he doesn’t see or think of me ever” camp.

Fun fact about Paradise Lost: people got mad at it for presenting the devil so well. They assumed that Milton was pro-devil somehow. This is because people have been bad readers since the beginning of time.

Milton is not pro-devil. He’s fallen into the problem that everyone has with writing God, which is: we have to explain why life, an extremely chaotic dumpster fire, is actually according to Divine Plan by a Big Guy Who Loves You! (Really!), but the more you try to explain the Plan the more you have to explain why God isn’t doing X or Y, until finally you have so many asterisks that essentially your religion is *teleports behind you*

So not only can no one read, no one can admit the real problem: how fucking shitty god and the angels are by comparison, and how they are, by all rights, being written correctly.

See, how ELSE could Milton have written God et al, that’s really the question. He does his best, and he’s very, very good at it. Look, I’ve read a LOT of religious texts over my life—and across the board, God is represented this way. CS Lewis wrote some wildly enjoyable fiction, but every time Jesus or God has to show up without the handy-dandy Aslan mask, everything stutters to a halt.

There are even points in the story where Milton has to tell you why what a devil is suggesting is sinful. For example, here’s the devil Belial giving his suggestions for how to deal with God now that all the devils are in Hell. So far, he has suggested not acting at all: God’s power is not only great in strength, it is great in cunning. He cannot be tricked; he cannot be beaten. So why not just wait it out? Don’t poke the tiger. Maybe the tiger will show mercy someday, if the devils don’t get used to the pain eventually:

“This horror will grow mild, this darkness light, Besides what hope the never-ending flight Of future days may bring, what chance, what change Worth waiting, since our present lot appears For happy though but ill, for ill not worst, If we procure not to ourselves more woe.”

Uniquely among the other devils—Moloch, Mammon, Beelzebub, and Satan all speak in this Book—Belial gets an addendum.

Thus Belial with words cloth’d in reason’s garb Counsel’d ignoble ease, and peaceful sloth, Not peace.

I can just imagine Milton reading it out loud to a friend and then that friend saying, “Hey, that Belial guy has the right idea!” and it’s like the tenth time that Milton has read this to someone only for them to look at him like, “Yeah, why not?” so Milton grumpily flops down at his rustic table with a quill and he’s grumbling about how everyone is a fucking idiot since he most clearly counsel’d IGNOBLE ease, and peaceful SLOTH, not PEACE, fuck thee, Thomas, thou slipshod bastard

In sharp contrast to Belial, Moloch—the first speaker—suggested fighting God until he just erased the devils from existence. Which is, you know, a mood.

It’s like the only way that you can represent god in fiction is as a one-dimensional cardboard cutout. The religious are terrified of judgment even while writing him and every time he shows up he’s boring and constipated. Of course we like the devil better: he’s more likely to give us a fair shake. God would fucking crush you like a beetle in slow-motion, ensuring you felt every pang, and he’d talk about how great he was the entire time he did it, and how he loves you, actually. Oh he loves you so much. There went your liver! Juiced. with love

So well are the devils written—so sensible, so motivated, so grounded—that the final devil to speak comes out of left field. Let me set the stage:

So far we had Moloch—future child-eater—suggest eternal war, with the aim of dissolution; Belial, who’s just like, why not chill and let the future bring what it may; and Mammon, who expands on that with “let’s actively seek ways to enjoy ourselves, altering everything around us until we form a world that meets our needs.” All of these devils focus on the pain of Hell, the loss of “bliss” (which I’m assuming is meant to imply both feeling and place: painlessness and Heaven, specifically), and the disgusting idea of returning to God, who they abhor.

Beelzebub brings up the idea of finding Earth, one tiny little planet that God made with a special creature called Man, and fucking around with it.

I had gotten so into the devils’ speeches—I was very zooted—that I had to do a double-take and then run back to re-read them.

“Bub, baby,” Belial should have said, “what the actual fuck are you talking about.”

Perhaps this is only me, but I couldn’t help but think of the vastness of creation, and the absolutely miniscule goal that the devils chose for themselves. The devils fell for nine whole days and nights, and Earth supposedly lies past dangerous voids and environments past understanding. It’s a big step down: go from fucking with the Creator to the Created, and not just any Created: some dumb human babies.

It’s the first break with the devils’ characters, and it doesn’t make a lot of sense.

to be CONTINUED.....

[juniperhillpatient]

Hello @juniperhillpatient how are you doing?

So I just thought of a “role reversal” Azutara au question.

To provide context: Many (but not all) Azutara story start of (or gradually show) Azula and Katara on opposite sides. Either in morals or faction in both canon and au. Until they both do an ooopsie and fall in love with their mortal enemy (each other) and eventually join the good side. To both serve the good and be together. Or at least what they believe to be the good. That’s a simplification but it (hopefully) gets my point across.

It is often in these scenarios that Katara starts off on the more morally just side and Azula less so. Considering canon and all. Through of course everything is more nuanced than that simplification, it does serve the purpose of my ask.

Question: can you think of any AU ideas where Azula stars of on the more “morally righteous” (if such a thing even exist in actuality) side? Though really Azula is only on the “just” side by chance. And Katara on the more villainous side? And Katara has to overcome her own hurdles to join the “good guys”. Their personalities are in tact, Katara is just very misguided or just loyal to the wrong people.

An example could be found in the Districted Reality au. Where we had a “good” Azula and an “evil Katara (though no Ty still kept their canon personalities intact). Again though, such terms are oversimplifications.

Oh yes I’m so onboard 🤩 You know, I don’t always read enough fic much as I’d like to read more tbh because - well - you know not enough hours in the day haha - so I’ll be honest I haven’t read anything like what you’re describing although I’m sure it’s out there!

But I do like the idea as long as it ultimately stays true to the characters. I could certainly see Katara getting pushed to the “dark side” under the right circumstances. Say she loses more people - if Aang died & the war was lost -or in literally any AU if Sokka dies - I could see Katara getting pulled into a dark rebel side by someone like Jet or Hama. Or if we wanna go full AU what if the water family were vampires or werewolves or something & she’s loyal to her family & species even though they’re technically evil to humans? Ooh what if Azula’s family demon hunters in an AU like that? (Okay waaait yeah that’s totally something I might write someday actually…)

And Azula’s whole thing is loyalty. She was indoctrinated to the wrong side. What if she was born on a more righteous side? That could certainly be interesting. For me, Ozai has to be a manipulative toxic fucker in every AU or Azula’s character changes too much fundamentally for me. Just a preference thing. But Ozai could totally be on the right side of a conflict & still suck on an interpersonal level in an AU & I’d be down for exploring that.

Oh! Or what about a Descendants type AU? You know how the “heroes” realize they’re kinda wrong to banish the “villains” families & shun them by the end of the series & neither side is perfect? Something like that could also be cool although IDK Descendants is already basically Disney movie fanfic so maybe an AU of it couldn’t work for anything else 😂

Anyway yes! My thoughts are rambly I got nothing specific right now but I like your concept 😊

[ceterisparibus116]

Very random ask: do you think Matt would like poetry?

turns out I have a lot of thoughts on this, despite not really liking poetry myself...

I think he would actually really like poetry. I'm imagining that initially he might not have really appreciated it because he was introduced to poetry in school. So naturally he would have studied all the poems really hard and written brilliant responses to them, but it would all have been inherently analytical and academic. He wouldn't really understand how poetry could be relaxing or soothing or soul-searching.

But at some point (maybe in high school), I imagine that he started reading through the book of Psalms in the Bible. And all of a sudden, poetry became real to him. It became a way to find words for his emotions that he wouldn't think of on his own, and it made him realize that maybe it's okay to express these emotions, even to God. After all, it's literally in the Bible. Sometimes, when he's feeling angry or hopeless and doesn't know how to describe it, and when the voices of people like Stick or some of the nuns are hissing in his ear to make him feel guilty for having these emotions in the first place, he finds a Psalm that reflects them and whispers it to God. It doesn't make all the feelings go away, but it makes him feel okay with having them in the first place.

I think that experience would prompt him to look for more poetry, both in other parts of the Bible and in general. I love the idea of him reading Spanish poetry because the language is just so beautiful, and can sometimes capture things that English can't quite get at the same way.

I don't think Matt's the kind of guy to share the poetry with people. Not easily, anyway. That probably feels very vulnerable to him. But maybe someday, he can trust someone enough to share it.

And now I wanna write a fic about this.

[sagemoderocklee]

Writers Truth & Dare Ask Game

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🍄 ⇢ share a head canon for one of your favourite ships or pairings

got a lot of headcanon asks today in my inbox lol... uh for this ill go with my headcanon about Tenten not being without family since ive got two asks for that levels thing i reblogged earlier to answer

so my hc and how i usually approach Tenten is that she comes from a weapon smithing clan. Her clan originally came from Dragon Kingdom, but like... so, so long ago. like a thousand years ago. they were originally trading in what is now Fire, and eventually some started to settle instead of going back to Dragon Kingdom. They established themselves as blacksmiths and as times changed, became weapon makers almost exclusively. Her clan still makes other things besides weapons, but they specialize in weapon making.

Tenten lives with her grandmother since her parents died during Obito's assault on Konoha with the kyuubi. Tenten's clan lives in the industrial district of Konoha, and Neji (who is alive thank you) moves there after he and Tenten have been dating for a bit.

Tenten, of course, prioritizes fighting with weapons, but she also is a good smith herself, and does a lot of unique work with weapons.

I gave Tenten's clan a name, of course, so her family/clan name is Nie, which means 'pattern of a sword blade'.

🍬 ⇢ post an unpopular opinion about a popular fandom character

drawing a blank beyond all my usual things like gaara being obsessed with naruto being stupid or like the way ppl generally approach Gaara is ableist and disregards his history prior to Yashamaru tryna kill him or lee not being anbu/akatsuki/hokage etc and also ppl making lee sexy is stupid like he's weird looking and thats fine and i think his weird looks are charming and cute... all of which ive talked about before

um i guess ill say that sakura being self-centered is actually a really important and interesting character trait. it doesn't make her an awful, irredeemable character, it's just a character flaw and i think ppl who love her tend to ignore that about her because the people who absolutely hate her are always callin her a bitch etc. like i love sakura but she can be a bitch and i think that's interesting and okay and like if you really like a character you can lean into their flaws without that being like a condemnation of the character. she doesn't have to be like sunshine and daisies to be a good character

❄️ ⇢ what's your dream theme/plot for a fic, and who would write it best?

the dream theme/plot for a fic is one i'd probably just write myself. not like for any reason other than if i have an idea i usually wanna execute it myself, and at this point a lot of my ideas exist within the worldbuilding ive done and not that other ppl dont or cant but my interest are always gonna lean more into the political spectrum of storytelling and i think that's generally my niche and not as many ppl write those stories.

i think if there was absolutely something i didnt wanna write id honestly probably not wanna read it either, so im always like shit at answer these kinda questions cause once i have an idea im like 'ok ill write that someday'

🏜️ ⇢ what's your favourite type of comment to receive on your work?

always gonna love long comments that talk about the themes of the story, that bring up things the reader thinks is foreshadowing, direct lines from the fic, and so on. i like when ppl are like rlly analyzing what ive written and telling me their thoughts and what they think is gonna happen. i think by far my fave thing is ppl tryna guess what's coming and seeing how close or how far off they are, and when ppl do pick up on foreshadowing that is just... chef's kiss.

🦴 ⇢ is there a piece of media that inspires your writing?

i find inspiration in a lot of things and it rlly is gonna depend on what im writing at the time. sometimes i get inspired by music (a lot of my gaalee fics were originally inspired by Florence+the Machine song for instance), sometimes it's like a poem or a book, or a tv show, but it rlly is always gonna depend on what im writing.

but my perspective is that art begets art. art is always in a state of inspiring more art, whether its the originating artist being inspired by their own work or another being inspired by their work, i think art is at its core always birthing more art.

with fic i dont think i could pinpoint one single thing that's inspiring me at any given moment, but i am often being inspired by other things whether it's music or just like an article about something.

[natimiles]

hello dear Nati I hope not to bother as ever but I am too into Mina and Roger these days please tell me more how do they meet ? what was the thing/moment that made one another realize that yes they are in love with the other ? and above all what kind of gifts they would give one another ? which is their favourite hobby and kind of dates ?

I want to know ALL about them I ship them already soo much I can't wait to see more of them and of their story. 😍😍🙏🙏

Hiii, Julie! Sorry it took me a while, I was organizing the thoughts, hehe. A chance to gush about Roger and Mina?? Definitely not a bother! HASOUHEHUASOEA.

Okay, so… Mina is the MC. So she ends up in Crown by accident and becomes their Fairytale Keeper. She starts helping Roger with his research, he asks her to be his human subject, but nothing that would kill her, ahsehasoeusa. She also helps him to take care of the others when they’re injured, so she’s kinda his assistant. Which means, she’s in the basement with him all the time.

A tension grows, Roger kisses her, and she’s pissed. So she goes back, kisses him so they’re even and leave. And after that they start to casually make out. She always had a sort of interest in him, something about him intrigued her. And same for Roger about her. After a while, Mina notices she is developing feelings for Roger, but she knows he doesn’t really believe in love.

I have this scene in my head where they’re all having a meal in the dining room, talking about random things, how things are going for her in Crown and stuff. And then Harrison asks if she has romantic feelings for Roger. Mina lies and says “no” and her face is desperately asking Harry to not say anything about it. But he’s a little shit and he says “it’s a lie”. It’s silent for a moment… And then Mina wants to beat the shit out of him and someone needs to actually hold her back, HASUEUHASHUOEA. I wanna write it someday, I need to play a little more with the idea, and how it ends. But this is what makes them talk about feelings, and how they end up together. So in the end, Mina isn’t so mad with Harry anymore, HUASUHEASU.

For gifts… Mina has a sweet tooth, like I said hehe. She also likes books, cooking and baking, playing the piano, and butterflies. Anything he gives her related to these things, she’ll love. Like a cookbook she wanted, a new music sheet, some accessories or a new dress with butterflies… She likes plants, but she can’t take care of them, so she’s not a fan of receiving flowers. She would love chocolate flowers though, HUASEHUOASESA. Of course, she will love anything Roger gives her.

For Roger, she would give him new medical books. A new pair of boxing gloves, or some other thing he can use while boxing so he can think of her while doing it. Some rare beers he can taste. And even cooking and baking his favorite things so they can eat it together.

And for dates, they like going out to have a nice meal. Mina doesn’t drink, but she can happily sip her juice while Roger drinks his beer, HUASEUSA. Picnics in the garden, window shopping in town, taking Ale to a walk. He’ll even accompany her when she wants to watch Liam’s new play. He’s more patient and devoted than most people think, in my humble simp opinion.

Thank you for asking all this! It also helped me to decide some things, HUAHSUEASHUO. I’ll definitely write for them, I just need to finish some things I’m currently doing hehe

[misscammiedawn]

Well, since you asked, what sorts of fantasies/scenes/ideas would you like to do in the coming year?

OKIES! I have had time to think about it! Thank you Miss for asking and I hope you know this isn't like a checklist! Don't feel like you need to do all these okay!

Also I am kinda on the spot! Like the old ones were things I dreamt about for years or organically had that welling I WANT THAT reaction! I feel like I'm sort of just racking my brain for these <3 you did too good a job, Miss! I want for nothing because you made my dreams come true <3

Buuut here are some ideas! Summoning Shenanigans - I still want a "summoned to a hotel room" style thing where a trigger (whether text message or time based) has me glide from my room while bespelled and unaware of where I am going but knowing I am supposed to go there. The whole Summoning skill in Vampire: The Masquerade has imprinted on my weak and susceptible mind! (Though maybe if we had joining rooms there could be a kind of "leave the window open" sort of thing? IDK vampire scenes and me are just always gonna be a thing!)

Make-up scene - A looong while ago Dawn did this for Sleepyhead:

it was back when we were actually spending money on our Sephora products and trying to learn things-- something which tapered off a bunch the past couple years--

2019-2021 era Camdawn was still getting used to being trans and overcompensated our gender performance.

But I wanna be prettied up. I think we did something like this during Charmed 2023? I vaguely recall starring blankly at my reflection but that may have been a hair brushing thing?

Either way I just wanna get pampered up and made pretty just one time in my life. I dunno why but that fantasy always gets me. When I'm at the salon getting my hair dried in that helmet thing I like to imagine myself being brainwashed. It's just a nice lil' personal indulgence.

Though this may be best saved until after COVID anyway.

Hair Style stuff? - Daja once had a thing about "The Cammie is stored in the hair, right? So what happens if I style your hair?" and we play a lil' with hair brushing and stuff but I like the idea of being braided into obedience or having a bun that when released will do something. It's a tough one because of how our brain works but I really like the idea of hair style control. It hits the buttons from the previous one but in a much more personal and lovely way <3

Singing/Dancing Fantasy - I remember there was once a "musical episode" of a TTRPG I did and I can't remember if I was able to sing along with it or not but I like the idea of just being under a spell or compulsion that makes it so I can only interact in musical <3 it is silly and I love silly!

Curious concepts which aren't fantasies but popped in our head while thinking of answers here:

Silly Request - I'll be wearing my Hypnotist/Switch/Hypnotee pin again at Charmed! I kinda wanna have a thing where if I forget to switch it and someone I love reaches in and spins it to hypnotee I just drop instantly (provided that it's safe to do so)

Curiosity/Amnesia'y thingy??? - So like--- I OFTEN have moments where I push stuff out of head and out of mind but don't commit to deleting it-- like I delete a lot of stuff and it upsets me when I go scratching that itch and find it's not there but like y'all underestimate how much I search through old photos, journals, videos and such to satiate an impulse.

It'd be nice to have a trap for myself in there like a video or audio or word file that draws attention and I click it and it hypnotizes me and I forget about it and then rediscover it again someday.

Like I'm thinking of it as some kind of emergency "feel better" spell from me to me and have considered doing it a few times or writing a story about it. Like this isn't something I want done for me, more a concept I've been thinking about and a good use of my proclivity for hypnotic amnesia <3

Elevator thing - So like I don't talk a bunch about the specifics of my past life because the people involved can't consent to my sharing but I did do hypnosis in the before times. There was one scene born from an elevator at a convention in Chicago that had this soothing LED color pattern and like--- I kinda wanna make a memory like that again. There are three big scene memories I can think of from my past life and I think understanding which of those I remember super fondly would help craft new scenes. One was watching snow fall, one was in a hot tub and the other was the elevator thing. I think it's just a mix of the intimate, unexpected and situational elements-- like they were all during times which were heightened level of Special Moment and built upon that high-- it's why Fountain Scene in October was so important to me!

I hope that helps! It's hard to explain when I refuse to be specific!

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ANYWAYS! I'll keep thinking!

For now! I hope the elevator thing explains what makes a scene work for me and know VAMPIRE STUFF ALWAYS WORKS <3

[nerdasaurus1200]

Fic Writer Asks!

1. What’s something new that you tried in a fic this year? How did it turn out and would you do it again?

3. What’s something you learned about yourself as a writer?

4. What piece of media inspired you the most?

9. What fic meant the most to you to write?

12. What fic was the most difficult to write? Did you finish it?

16. What were you go-to writing songs?

26. If you had to choose one, what was THE most satisfying writing moment of your year?

30. What’s something that you want to write in 2024?

Okay second try on this cause tumblr closed out on me in the middle of answering and didn’t save my draft 😂

1. What's something new that you tried in a fic this year? How did it turn out and would you do it again?

In hindsight I’ve actually tried a lot of new things in the last year. I delved into Lance’s perspective, I’ve been writing for my TOWL characters more and fleshing out their backstories before they moved to Walpole Lane, I wrote more New Dream content. And also writing the synopses for all the books they mentioned throughout Tangled. All of it was so much fun and I really hope I get to do it more. Especially writing for Lance more cause my boy deserves more love.

3. What's something you learned about yourself as a writer?

One of the biggest things I learned in 2023 for myself was how to balance my planning. I’ve learned that as long as I have the meat/core events of the story written down, it’s a big help in making sure I actually finish the fic cause then I know exactly where the plot is going and where to end it.

4. What piece of media inspired you the most?

I think I’d have to say Tangled, since that’s most of what I wrote in 2023.

9. What fic meant the most to you to write?

Is it cheating if I say all of them? 😂

12. What fic was the most difficult to write? Did you finish it?

Hmm….I think I’d have to say The Sundrop Pamphlet, cause I really wanted it to feel like it was Cassandra speaking and not me. Cause the whole thing is supposed to read like a news article from her lips to the Newsies’ printing press. Luckily I did finish it but sometimes I’m concerned that it may read as Cass kinda trauma-dumping on kids if you know the context of it. Like, I’m worried that “Cassandra” (aka, me) didn’t desensitize it enough for the kids she was telling it to.

16. What were you go-to writing songs?

Oooh this is a good one cause I tend to use music for inspiration a LOT when I write. No songs have really been my go-to for Days of the Animals but that may change someday. For “The Sundrop Pamphlet” I mostly listened to Look What You Made Me Do by Taylor Swift and Waiting in the Wings. “Forbidden Love”, naturally I listened to I See the Light a lot 😂. Part one of my Lost Lagoon fic (Save What Has Been Lost) was largely inspired by the “Way of Water” track from Avatar 2 and a little bit of Pure Imagination by Kathleen. “Raise What Lies Beneath”; I listned to the Nightsong from Baldur’s Gate 3 and the Crystal Cavern track from Atlantis.

26. If you had to choose one, what was THE most satisfying writing moment of your year?

Oh hands down, posting my Lost Lagoon fic. I’ve had that half baked in my head roughly since the show ended so it felt so satisfying to finally get it written and out there into the world.

30. What's something that you want to write in 2024?

Oh I have a whole bucket list of things I wanna write/plan to write in 2024:

A Percabeth fic where they watch How to Train Your Dragon

A potential Hazbin fic

More TOWL prequels; mostly featuring Carmilla for now

Chapter 2 of Gwen Grounds Rapunzel

The next chapter of Days of the Animals, in which Varian will adopt Prometheus

Something with Hazel and Primrose

Still working on the plot for it beyond the idea, but it’d be hilarious to do a fic about the gang finding out that Cass glows in the dark

Maybe something with New Dream and Rapunzel hiring Sophie and Dahlia

Definitely something with Poly and/or Ginny, because I must give my daughters more love.

[callipraxia]

calli what do you think of sherman pines. you have a lot of opinions about stuff so I would like to know. I think I might go around and ask everyone actually. actually yes I will… anyway. i really like him. he is very cool 2 me and I wanna know what you think of him. is he the baby? the older sibling? someone completely different? there is a correct answer /hj. i have him as the older brother—I have three fics with him as a titular character. you haven’t reached the chapter where shermie appears in The Search yet, but I think he is very delightful and that you would like him too. i have a lot of a headcanons and personality traits about him. like for one; he loves popcorn. he used to make it for his brothers back in new jersey. he loved them a lot and was always the normal brother, which was sometimes okay but left him out of the loop for many things like ford’s life and stan’s kick out. ksjjdhdidgrgr one post has triggered my love for shermie again and now I pester Everyone (this went on for a while. sorry!)

The fun things about my having lots of opinions on everyone is...I usually don’t even know what they are until I start typing. I usually make ‘em up, applying canon to justify or refute as needed, as I go along. So...this could get interesting!

As I begin typing, though, at least, I’m a true agnostic on the subject of Shermie. I’ve written him in as the older brother, the younger brother, and the Non-Specified. In the original very rough outlines for parts II and III of FWJB, it was a plot point that Shermie both did and didn’t exist at the same time without his age ever being specified.[1] I keep saying I’m going to do a proper time travel Shermie someday; time will tell if this is true. As for theories I might run with in a story, if I were writing one where I couldn’t leave him unspecified:

1) If I wrote Older Brother Shermie, he’d be, like, much older. Possibly actually only a half-brother, as Caryn (irrc) looks a fair bit younger than Filbrick (though even if I recall incorrectly, eh, I believe I read somewhere that it was Word of Hirsch that Stan made the infamous remark about how your life will fall apart if you get someone pregnant at the drive-in movie because he’d heard Filbrick complain along those lines in the past. Who knows – I’m making things up as I type here - maybe there was a first Mrs. Filbrick who got cheated on at the drive-in, resulting in Stan and Ford and the half-brother they are only vaguely familiar with the existence of. That’s the fun of Filbrick and Shermie, there’s very little you can’t do, except, like, make Filbrick a nice person outside of Anti-Mabel’s home dimension, I guess). In any case, this variant of Shermie had a motorbike as a teenager and had only the foggiest notion that he even had siblings, making it vaguely plausible, when they bonded after the parents’ deaths, for Stan to sell the idea that “nah, you got us mixed up, Stanley was the one with six fingers” in the unlikely event that this variant of Shermie even knew one of them had had six fingers.

2) Younger Brother Shermie works, in my opinion (or at least, my opinion as it stands right now), only in one of three ways. One: he’s a time traveler. Two: his life is an angstfest on par with Stan’s. Three, of course, is that both of the preceding are true, to one degree or another. But anyway. If he didn’t go time traveling, his life’s pretty definitely an angstfest, considering that it implies that at least one of Dipper and Mabel’s parents was the product of Adolescent Indiscretions (my second fic ran with that idea, actually – in that case, the “next thing you know, you gotta raise a kid, your life falls apart….” remark was Stan talking about his brother. Though that plotline could also work with an Older Brother Shermie as well, of course.[2])

But yes – even after writing all of this and its footnotes, I’m...still a Shermie agnostic, really. Heck, you could probably call him into existence with the Infinity Die and I’d just nod and proceed without hesitation, lol. I will say, though, that the only Shermies I have actually read and clearly remember are yours and another Old!Shermie, who was also relatively normal and was a functional enough brother to the Stan Twins back in the day. I quite liked both of them (I have got to see more of your Shermie attempting to converse with Fiddleford sometime...and just more of that guy in general) – I’m far too cruel to Stan to allow him a decent person in his young adulthood, but I apparently enjoy reading the results when other people show mercy. My apologies if this document is, due to all this failure to promote a single thesis and the way it was written, useless and/or incomprehensible; will attempt to clarify any incomprehensible bits when I get a chance tomorrow (I’m actually going to have to go to bed at a reasonable hour for once and...at least make a better-faith-than-usual effort not to give up on sleeping too soon and whip the phone out; I’m having brunch with some friends in 3D tomorrow morning, so gotta sleep tonight and then be occupied for a while tomorrow, but yeah, it’s inevitable I’ll be online at some point.)

(1) To vaguely explain that very long story, in the unlikely event anyone wants to know: the half-baked idea (I never put it through all the wringers that ideas which make it into print get, so it’s still quite rough) was that time broke due to Weirdmageddon, time travel antics, or both, and – to borrow a metaphor from Terry Pratchett – had to do the equivalent of being put back together with glue sticks; among other problems, this created Shroedinger’s Shermie. Therefore, Ford nearly caused the end of the world by being like “...who’s this guy?” when Shermie showed up to help save the day in the finale, which caused Stan to realize “...I don’t actually have a single childhood memory of this guy, but I keep thinking I do??” while meanwhile, Shermie is like, “can you guys debate my existential status later, this is giving me a literal headache.” In the end, though, FWJB Shermie ended up being a killed-off Not Specified.

(Though now that I think of it, if I combined the idea with the ideas that took its place...Dipper already had to deal with a fair bit of temporal displacement. Mix that with a grandfather who both does and doesn’t exist...existentially unstable Dipper leads to existentially unstable Mabel, Tracey, and Quattro (especially the latter two), which leads to issues with both halves of the split-by-the-town-limits timeline, which all defies the fact that yet: here all four of them are, just as prophecy demands...dang, I could have horrified y’all more, huh? Or at least confused and/or induced headaches more. Plus, the rest of the story got significantly darker and more serious than it originally was supposed to be between the first and second outlines, only to get darker and more serious still between the second outline and the final product because of reasons, so the scene as originally pictured would have likely gotten much too slapstick to fit where it would have gone. Eh, probably for the best, it really did get trippy enough as it was. )

(2) No matter which Shermie I use, I seem to saddle the Child of Shermie with a pretty dysfunctional family, too, now that I think of it – the most detailed one I’ve come up with involved his mom running off with some guy in the Navy when he was two, leaving him to be partially brought up by the dysfunctional trio of Filbrick, Caryn, and Shermie and later be brought up by a stepmother who was loving on one hand, but had a personality of cast iron on the other. She and Shermie had an only half-joking agreement that she would not try to murder Stan during Shermie’s lifetime. She was Not Amused to get back from a cruise and find that Mr. Pines had sent the twins to Gravity Falls while she was away; she was Even Less Amused by the explanations Mr. Pines and Stan attempted to give her for why there were suddenly two Stans around after she discovered Ford’s existence. I haven't developed the other potential backstories for other versions of Shermie I've touched on much, but ten to one they're equally fun. Why stop at Dysfunction Junction when you can take the whole family right on to Soap Opera Station, am I right? (jk; I haven't seen them done in much detail anywhere, including my own work, but I have no objection to the idea of Dipper and Mabel's parents being semi-normal humans. They're another set who are fun because there's very little that you can't do with them, if so inclined).

[lenjaminmacbuttons]

I GOTTA know more about the Baldur’s Gate Singles Ward. And also, werewolf eats cereal.

[rips my shirt off] YEAH

My concept for a bg3 mormon au is basically that all the main companions are BYU students (write what you know, y'know) in the same ward with The Bishopric From Hell. Bishop Geddarm is fine, he's not super competent but he's kind and entertaining, but he's for some reason called as his counselors Brother Thorm and Brother Gortash. Orin is Gortash's freakazoid wife, and Thorm's wife is Shar--though she knows he's sleeping around on the side, and keeps quiet about it cus it's fun to watch him squirm.

The ward is still okay to be in, because the two main Sunday School teachers (Karlach and Wyll) are absolutely fantastic. She was raised in the church but fell away after coming out as bi as a teen, and then when Wyll met her on his mission she was at a point where she really needed it, and he was a good enough dude to actually honestly help rather than manipulatively pouncing on her misfortune to add a tally mark to his baptism record. They're a dream team of actually exploring doctrine in authentic and progressive ways, and breaking down all the harmful and sketchy nonsense we've all been raised with.

Shadowheart and Lae'zel are currently at the point where they've never questioned any of the church's sketchy nonsense, because they've never had need to--Shads is Brother & Sister Thorm's adopted daughter, who's actually lived in subconscious fear of questioning anything because her older stepsister Isobel was disowned for wanting to marry her wife. Lae'zel is similar, but her fear comes out as contempt for those who just don't have strong enough testimonies to stick it out. A lot of her attitude also comes from her being a certified Air Force Brat, but that's neither here nor there. She'll come around eventually.

Gale & Halsin are both converts, the former for his girlfriend and the latter for scout camp lol. Both technically too old for the ysa ward but shh don't tell anyone. Both prone to very long travelogues in testimony meeting. Both the uncontested kings of ward potlucks, though they never get competitive with one another. Until the chili cook-off. We don't talk about what happened the last chili cook-off.

Astarion has never really had a testimony ever. He's only at BYU because it's the only place his family would let him go to get away from them, and he goes to church & goes through the motions out of fear of getting in trouble & sent back home. But he might come around someday. Maybe. He does enjoy Karlach & Wyll's lessons.

i really really wanna draw them at some point because i have very specific lovely ideas for what they each would wear to church but i also have ten thousand other things i wanna draw and not enough energy or motivation so....someday ;v;

as for werewolf eats cereal i will make that a separate post because it's very very different in tone from this and also this is long lol so stay tuned mwah ily

[kitten4sannie]

Omg 1 year?!? CONGRATULATIONS!!!!🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉I may have not been here for this entire journey but I'm so glad I stumbled upon your blog! You are such a sweet and caring person just in the small interactions we have had ( which I am so grateful for truly😭). But not just that you're an amazing person but you are an amazing writer!! Your work always make my days 100x better! I hope you know how appreciated you are for everything you do🩷 you are someone who inspires me to write someday (when I get the confidence lol) and unleash all these ideas I have! Okay before this gets tooooo long I just wanna say how happy I am for you that you reached 1 year!! And I really do hope you know how appreciated you are🩷🩷🩷 Thank you for being you🩷 ( so sorry if this is so long🥲 )

-genesis🧋

genesissss aren’t you just the sweetest?? *^* <33 thank youuuuu!! i’m so glad you stumbled upon my blog tooo bc our interactions make me so happy~~ i legit squeal and smile so hard when i get notifs for your asks and feedback and the people around me think i’m insane but it’s okay hehe :3 godddd to know that i inspire you and make your days better …. i am in complete shambles ….. ;;;;;; and when you decide to write i’ll be right here to support you!! and if you ever wanna talk fics or anything else my dms are open for you <3 i am actually gonna cry rn fr you’re such a beautiful human being ;; 💖 and no worries about your ask being long okay? i cherish your messages sm!! im sending you sm hugs and kisses and lovee rn i hope you feel ittttt 💞✨💞✨💞✨💞

[waltwhitmansbeard]

heyooo I just started writing fan fic and I really have no idea what I'm doing haha, can you explain how you draft and edit and write you long fics? i don't know what to do besides just starting at the beginning and writing to the end. (also sending this to multiple writiers so I can get lots of opinions)

hey! first of all, i wanna say i'm flattered that you ask, although i can claim no sense of credibility in the realm of writing anything, fanfic or otherwise. i'm just some guy, like everyone else on here, and i'm just doing my best with what i've got.

i don't believe that every writer will approach a longfic the same way, and i don't think a writer will approach each of their longfics in the same way, either. i know that the fic i'm hoping to write when gocmh is done is going to have a different process than mfl/gocmh did, because the stories are different and the needs are different. i can tell you how i approached mfl, and maybe you'll find that helpful, but if you don't, that's okay. your fic isn't gonna be mfl, it's gonna be yours, and ultimately you're the only one who is going to be able to figure out how to write it.

i'm gonna skip past all the general writing advice, which is read a lot and spend almost your entire childhood and adolescence meticulously picking apart all the stories you love to figure out how they work like they're clocks make of gears and springs. when it came to mfl, i wrote the first 5-8 chapters on pure vibes. every chapter's contents were just as big a mystery to me at the outset of writing them as they were to the readers when they sat down to read them. i was only ever thinking about the next step, the next sentence, the next tiny jump in the story. i was not thinking about where we'd end up, bc as far as i was concerned, that wasn't my business. my business was what happens next.

and in the process of writing that way, i was basically just improvising. it's a cliché, i know, but the first rule of improv is to yes, and, and i yes anded myself over and over and over. if i typed that the world of mfl was like x, then it was like x, and i had to just fucking deal with that. so much of early mfl (and truly all of that world) is just me making up rules and facts that later me would have to treat as sacred. is this the most efficient way to write? idk, and idc, either. this was the most fun, exciting way for me to write the story, and i don't regret it.

after a while though, my brain naturally started to stretch its legs (ew, terrible metaphor, abort, abort), and i started thinking ahead. not like terribly far ahead, but enough where i could say, "ok, if i'm at point a, and i know what point e i want to reach someday, i just gotta figure out points b through d." and sometimes that involved outlining the chapters that could get me from a to e, and sometimes i'd make it up as i went. it depended on the day and the points and what was going on in my life at the time. as i write this, i have the final ten-ish chapters of gocmh planned out, what's going to happen, who's pov it's gonna be in, etc. i actually planned out the last 15-ish chapters this way, and have written some, but even in the process of writing those chapters, shit has changed! something i thought was a good idea in the planning process didn't work out the way i'd hoped in execution, and i had to pivot. that's writing, baby.

now i know this isn't going to work for the the fic i have planned for after gocmh. i'm going to want that fic properly planned out, each chapter outlined and themes woven in carefully ahead of time, bc that's that story. i fully expect for shit to go haywire in the actual writing, of course, because in all my years of fic writing (and friends, there is so much more fic writing than y'all know about with this username), shit has never not gone haywire in the actual writing. but idk, that's the fun part. subverting your own expectations. cutting yourself off at the knees. kicking your own ass. it's fun!

i'll also talk a bit about how i wrote people and rhythm, the originals fic you can still find on my ao3 account. that fic took about six months to write, and to date i don't think i've ever had so much fun writing anything. imagine, if you will, two whiteboards, each divided vertically in half, covered in sticky notes. on each of those sticky notes is written a brief scene description, an event that Has to Happen. each of the four whiteboard halves represents an episode (that fic was organized by episodes, not chapters, bc i fancied myself an Auteur), and i would place and replace and replace those sticky notes until i had all the scenes i needed to make an episode in the order they needed to happen in. and then i would write! and bc i'd already done the organizational work to figure out the story beats, i could write the individual scenes in the order that struck my fancy, bc if i skipped a piece of the story that was important, it didn't matter. i knew where that sticky note went, and i could fill in the blank later. if this type of planning/writing appeals to you, i recommend the website/app trello, which is basically the digital version of whiteboards and sticky notes.

i wanna talk about something you said in your ask. "i don't know what to do besides just starting at the beginning and writing to the end." so, uhhhh, who says? who says you gotta start at the beginning and write to the end? start in the middle. start at the shit that makes you excited. write the scene that makes your mouth water and your hands turn into claws. write the good shit first, and then when you've got it, ask yourself, "ok, how do i earn this? i want my readers to get to here, bc it's good and juicy and so much fun, but i gotta work to get them here." start where you wanna start and work backwards from there if you must. asking "why" is so useful for this. oh, you're at point f? why did point f happen? that's point e. why did point e happen? that's point d. (then, you know, use the rest of the alphabet.) so much of life is just us reacting to shit, dealing with the onslaught of Life as best we know how, even if it fucks shit up for us in the future, so if you wanna write the reaction first, go for it! just remember that reactions stem from actions, so you gotta give us those, too.

(also, a story need not be told in order! flashbacks and the manipulation of time can be extremely fun and exciting! this is something that takes a lot of skill, though, not to say that you don't have that skill, but just be careful when doing this. you can still use the concepts of time jumps in your writing process, even if you don't present your story in a jumbled order.)

i don't know if i've said anything of value here. i can only talk about writing as i experience it, which is not, of course, how any other writer experiences it. i can't give you tips or actionable advice bc i, too, am making this shit up as i go. i write bc i like telling lil stories for my lil internet friends, and bc sometimes ppl say nice words, and i collect those nice words like a dragon hoarding its shinies in its lair. but don't write for the nice words, bc if they don't come as fast as you like or as much as you like, you'll get discouraged, and ultimately it's more important that the story be told than that it be praised.

(not to belabor the point, but there's a john green quote i love so much i have a poster of it hanging in my bedroom now, as an almost 30yo, that i've had since my college dorm room, and the quote is:

“Don’t make stuff because you want to make money — it will never make you enough money. And don’t make stuff because you want to get famous — because you will never feel famous enough. Make gifts for people — and work hard on making those gifts in the hope that those people will notice and like the gifts. Maybe they will notice how hard you worked, and maybe they won’t — and if they don’t notice, I know it’s frustrating. But, ultimately, that doesn't change anything — because your responsibility is not to the people you’re making the gift for, but to the gift itself.”

just something to keep in mind when writing. write for you, and write for the ppl you love, and write for the thing itself. the thing you create is a gift, and the gift deserves to exist for its own sake.)

so that was long! i hope it helps, and if it doesn't, sorry! i did try my best. i hope you find a method of writing that feels fun and natural and exciting to you, one that keeps you coming back for more. writing is the thing that keeps me going on days when i don't really want to keep going, and if it can become that thing for you (or hey, maybe it already is!) then i think is a gift, too.

[prettyboyeddiemunson]

Hey Sweetheart,

I’m so sorry something triggered you earlier. I’m glad I sent that last letter just in time then. Even if it may have only helped a little. I hope you’re able to sleep well tonight and get plenty of rest. Also, I hope waking up you feel better. I responded to your answers to the questions I asked and answered them too. Figured it would help you get to know me more.

1. I’ve been wanting to read a Stephen King novel for a while but I’m currently reading The Hollow Ones by Guillermo Del Toro and chuck Hogan. I love the show Twin Peaks! I was super unaware there was a book!!

2. That’s so cool you got to go ghost hunting with the cast of ghost hunters! I think ghost hunting is really cool and I definitely plan to do it at least once someday. My favorite memory is when I scared the shit out of a group of NFL players in a haunted maze when I was dressed as a vampire.

3. Picking at/biting your lips can count. As much as I love reading, whether it’s books or fanfics, I have a habit of my eyes skipping ahead on me and reading further ahead. I used to skip to the last page to read the last sentence but I haven’t done that in a few years.

4. Do you have an idea of what kind of book you would want to publish? I would love to finally write a movie script. I don’t care if it gets used or not. Just the idea of finally accomplishing that, would be amazing.

5. It’s terrible that people think it’s okay to yell at or berate wait staff and retail workers. I’m one of those people who go out of my way to stack up the plates and trash at the end of the table when I go to restaurants. The people who think it’s okay to cheat don’t deserve to be loved or be in relationships period. I hate how people don’t realize how easy it is to put in effort to make the relationship work.

6. Pancakes are hands down the best!

7. Vampires are really interesting. I’d definitely pick that one too

8. I have a family that’s so big I wouldn’t want to wish it on anyone. I’d honestly rather be in a small family

9. I never got to grow up in one place, not military. And honestly it really hurt my childhood.

10. Seeing yourself happy, being published, owning a home, and having a family are really great goals. I could definitely say the same for myself with the addition of being more well traveled.

11. My funniest experience involved me getting a C.A.T. scan. So the radiology tech asked if I ever had surgery to have anything removed or metal added in. Without missing a beat I said, “nope I’m still a whole person.” I’ve never heard someone laugh that hard in my entire life. I really must have caught her off guard with that one.

12. Eyes are what I notice first too. There’s so much you can tell about someone with how they express their emotions by their eyes. I also look at body language too. People can lie but their bodies tell the truth.

13. That’s a really good goal. I’ve been feeling nostalgic for the Christmases we had as kids. So I’m really trying to emulate that this year.

14. I’m going to be honest, I was super nervous but excited when I sent the first ask. I get that same feeling every time I hit submit. I’m enjoying getting to know you more.

Honestly if you ever need/want to vent about anything and everything I’m here for you. Just call out to me in a post and I’ll be there.

Song to go with this letter: Do I Wanna Know? - Arctic Monkeys

-Your Secret Admirer

awww thank you, and thank you for providing those answers! if you want some Stephen King recs, my favorites of his are the stand, the dark tower series, the shining, and salem’s lot! the stand is massive, both editions, but I recommend the uncut version! it’s longer, but it includes everything that his publisher made him cut out to shorten the length of the original novel. as for twin peaks, there are actually three books! the secret history of twin peaks and the final dossier (don’t read that last one unless & until you’ve seen season 3!), and the secret diary of laura palmer. i recommend all three, if you’re a big fan of the show!

i love your favorite memories and other things as well! as for what book i wanna publish, im currently slowly working on a horror novel right now! I’d like to try & get it published someday, if I ever get it done and ready. what about your movie script?

[vio1315]

Oh right 

I keep meaning to do a life update

Because long time followers remember when I posted a lot of personal struggles on here and I like never follow up on that stuff

And have since stopped posting personal stories as often whoops

Honestly I don’t remember everything I left as a loose thread that could be ‘is she okay’ so basically:

>Yes I am okay

>Most the stuff I was having trouble with happened like 5+ years ago now

>I am still pretty shut in, but I have a good job and I do go out once a week technically

>Much more mentally stable, I don’t really get the sort of empty feelings I used to anymore

>Every day I am unsure if I am like 🤖 to other people, or if I live normally. But I have unworked a lot of the emotional repression stuff I was doing subconsciously, and have gained a capacity for the ‘feeling of love’ (since love isn’t really a feeling, but you know the feeling I mean). Idk if I never experienced it before, but if I did it was Extremely rare compared to now. I certainly had devotion, but idk

It’s like ‘oh my prayers were answered on this topic again :0 ‘

I think I am pretty content generally, but I still don’t have happy feelings or fun feelings that often on my own, but this is super normal for me and doesn’t bother me the way the ‘void feelings’ did. It just vibing

>I did get a few extra sensory issues, probably from being shut in, but nothing that makes it any harder to go out. I should go out more still, but not many ideas of where to go for now

>I lost touch with the rest of my rl friends more or less (ﾟ⊿ﾟ) I went through a big thing of making myself not burn bridges and then like 4 months later they stopped contacting me anyways. I haven’t really felt any issue about it so have been leaving it be, but I guess I’ll crack that case back open if it ever starts to feel like a big thing that needs to be done

>My family is doing pretty well : ) 

>Story stuuffffff. I went through about a year of work to make my to do list better, so now I can focus on writing, sort of. And hopefully I can finish my script for TTF in good time now after the Big Delay of relaying the foundation and needing to get life in order. It will take a Long time because I insist on doing all 10 arcs before starting to draw it, so like... I still am mostly gonna be quiet on the topic for awhile

>Life plans? Nope, never. I still live very in the present, so I will just continue my job till I get fired probably and try my best to keep using my free time well. Or start

>Nobody wonders about this but I swear to you, vitamins/supplements make me sick every time I take them. Like literally sick. Like with germs and things. How????? How???? They had nothing in common between the three diff supplements, but each time I started I would get sick for like 2 weeks or a month ??? But I will keep trying to see if this is actually happening because ??? How ????

>Oh yeah, I am trying to get my health better and actually gained much weight 🥳 maybe someday exercise too, but I wanna tighten daily schedule first

>I am looking at some other mental disorders where I think ‘do I have that???’ But just for the sake of communication. I still don’t really need medication to manage the strange stuff. Coping mechanisms generally work pretty good for me, and learning to weed out bad ones and so on. I haven’t felt ANXIOUS in a bit now, and idk maybe not as often. I know I was like a year or two ago, but it goes down every year overall.

Lots of things that used to make me anxious just don’t so much anymore

That’s everything I can really think of right now

Life is basically good overall for me. 

Health is good for me, though I still need to work on actually doing things to be good to my body.

Socializing is pretty good in the forms I do it, but I still need to go out more to prevent my brain from getting weird about ‘sounds and feelings I can’t control’ and all

Fam : ) 

Everything is chill actually. I basically vent here less now just because I have more opportunity to vent directly to people when there’s a need to wjdnejd but I don’t think anything major comes up that often

But also my emotional memory is really low hwjdnwjd like I know for a fact a year or two ago there was a month where I was super unwell and stressed, but legit idk what that felt like, I just know it happened

So maybe the frequency Could be similar, but I wouldn’t know it 🤔 but certainly less major events happen, and that’s good with me

Just an update cuz I realize it’s easy to vent and all, but when things resolve, it’s less interesting to talk about, so you leave people hanging unintentionally, since posting directly on here barely feels like talking to anyone anyways, super easy to let that go

I am not a private person honestly, so hope this doesn’t seem weird to anyone widjsjdn