#ok yeah im projecting

[tzarrz]

i listen to fog lake too much

[introspectivememories]

too many of you guys think nico is the loser and not lewis for letting the divorce go on for so long. like they're both losers about each other. emotionally constipated idiots who can't talk about their toxic homoerotic friendship that imploded on itself like 8 years ago and are now making it everyone else's problem. yeah nico's on television or in beer gardens talking about lewis all the time but like every other month some reporter is like "lewis, what's your favorite moment in your career?" and lewis no hesitation is like "oh man, karting, y'know? everything was simpler then" and then spends another six months skirting around nico's name. like this whole thing they're doing in the media isn't some kinda extended foreplay for them. they're both still pressing on the bruise to make sure it's still there!!! every few months, they're literally just asking on public television, does it still hurt for you like it does for me? and like clockwork, someone will release new information about them or one of them will say something about each other (in my heart, he's still my best friend/yes... and teammate) and the answer will remain the same, yes, of course, always.

[sillyfairygarden]

90 minute leyendecker study b4 bed. heard cleo has a cat cafe this season :swoons:

[impending-day]

its not enough that youre dead

i shouldve been the one to kill you

[extravagav]

Yk I never did truly recover from the sick fic chapter

[dailyloweffortpace]

Day 20: aaauughfgsgxgvnnfgjnd

[finn9134]

Ruinene comic

[hballegro]

incoming cap dump

episode titles at the bottom

they arent good but i harvested them myself

point of view s7e11 // bottle fatigue s8e16 // goodbye, farewell and amen s11e16 [twice] // peace on us s7e2 [twice] // no sweat s9e11 // divided we stand s2e1 // rally round the flagg, boys s7e22 // welcome to korea part 1 s4e1 // sons and bowlers s10e2

to finish it off. large section of Point of View because that was my tester episode for my new screencap ability and i went silly mode

the only order they are in was the order my heart felt like

also my way of screencapping was desperately pausing at around the right time, no exact scrubbing so. godspeed

[m3llowm1sh]

MERCH DROP MERCH DROP YIPPEEE

GRAARGGARHHHFHHHFHDGJFJ 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶 HI MAXIMO LUCKY JONRONERO SAVE ME MAXIMO LUCKY JONRONERO I LOVE YOU FOREVER LUCKY JONRONERO oh yeah and miners there too hi miner i GUESS.

[reaper-in-reverie]

Hiraeth;

A homesickness to a home to which you cannot return, a home which maybe never was.

Synopsis. Sae's thoughts the moment he's done talking to his younger brother on his fateful return.

"Rin, I gave up. I gave the fuck up."

note. cw for swearing. Nothing too much, just some itoshi brothers angst coming from a certified older sister who went through the same thing. I'm an ashamed Sae defender. I know bllk fans only really care for thirsts and stuff so lol let me hit you with sae ig. Ooc writing.

I'm not sorry.

I am not fucking sorry.

I'm walking away from you and leaving you on that field, because I'm not sorry.

Did you really expect me to console you, Rin? To be there for you when you slump to the ground in realization?

You don't have the slightest clue what it's like out there. This is reality. Don't you get it? I'm teaching you what it's like out there — this is what it means to be the best.

It means I have to be away from you forever, Rin.

I can't always be your reason. I can't always be your motivation. How can you be an individual on your own when you base your beliefs off your older brother?

We need some time apart.

No, scratch that. I need to leave. This country — this damn family — it's nothing for me anymore.

What have you even been doing while I was gone? Waiting for me? That's pathetic. That's pathetic. I wish you'd realized you didn't need me on your own.

Rin, I gave up.

I gave the fuck up.

Don't you get it at all?

Why are you angry?

You're special, you always have been. You were better than me since the beginning. The path to success is hard, they said — but it was so much more cruel, it was so much harder than what they told us all. In the end I don't see the point of it anymore.

I've always known you were better.

What happened to me in those four years only pushed me to that realization — you're gonna be the best and I'm not good enough here.

And don't you know that fucking hurts, too?

Do you think I'm not grieving our dream as much as you are?

Do you really not get it?

Fuck, you're pathetic. You act like you're so hurt...

I'm not sorry.

I'm selfish, I know. I want you to be the best. You've always wanted to be the best. You can be better than me now. You don't have to be second to 'nii-chan' anymore. You can go and be the best striker in the world, and you don't have to worry about me being...

I can be whatever I want, and you can be whatever you want.

Wanting to be like me is lukewarm. It's pathetic. It makes me look at you and want to puke.

I know it hurts.

And I'm not sorry.

I love you, Rin, but I'm not sorry.

║Ⓒ reapkusho on tumblr. 2024. all rights reserved. refrain from translating, copying, or stealing in any way, etc.

[sweetmyrrhs]

i think the reason why i like boat boys so much is because the dynamic reminds me of me and my crush. she's chaos incarnate who has 0 sense of self preservation and i'm a tired-intimidating-adept-survivor-not-a-protector-rational-emotionally-unavailable-traumatized loner whose chaotic gremlin gets unlocked every time we're together and i think that's beautiful

[idkwhatimdoingbutslay]

Something something when an Arcane character lets themselves love and care for someone they’re inadvertently loving and caring for themselves.

Vi allowed herself to relax in Caitlyn presence and comfort, she took care of Caitlyn and looked out for her, proving Caitlyn right about her having a good heart.

Silco by the end says he loves Jinx and would have never given her up. We’ve all already talked about Jinx and Silco’s parallels and how he sees himself and his struggles in her.

Vander loving and caring but also fearing for Vi because he knew of the things he has done and these two are very similar, particularly how they developed as people. He’s accepted and moved past it but he still feels guilty.

Letting yourself love and accept someone means accepting the fact that you’re capable and deserving of the experience of love and acceptance. Even more so in Arcane because of the parallels between characters and how guilt ridden they are.

+ just how do you show love and adoration to someone so similar to you while turning around and hating yourself, that’s straight hypocrisy.

Anyway lemme distract you from my incoherent thoughts and make your reading this worth it with a funny

[skunkes]

ok posting it here bc im not sure if its going to stay in the doodle page

[popstart]

Heather has so much oldest sibling energy to me. Her constant need for power and hatred for people questioning it, but also the genuine moments where she supports her team and takes care of them (courtney in greeces pieces, sierra after she lost her hair. Yk)

Id imagine that as an oldest sister spesifically she would get heavily parentified. She said spesifically "to my brothers and sisters" (plural for both) which leads me to believe she has a lot of them, in cases like this its especially common oldest girls get the built-in-babysitter treatment. Shes mean and controlling because shes been an adult since she was a child but was never properly taught how to

Slow building resentment to her parents for using her would cause her to lash out at them too which would be the cause of that electroshock therapy she got as a kid. And with her being the oldest, its a natural milestone for parents and their oldests moving out, but for then instead of it being sad its a happy thing because of how bad shes turned out due to their lack of parenting.

[justewil]

asexual flag but descole colours .this has probably been done before

[saintsaki]

Aaaaaa omg I'm so honored that my silly ask inspired more Anharu art!! They are THE best friends with secret gay feelings Of All Time, to me. Thank you for this blessing 🙏 the Anharu nation, all like. 5 of us, are being FED good today!!

I don't have much I can offer in return, but I did write this itty bitty Anharu fic a little while back? https://archiveofourown.org/works/59091166

On the lighthearted side of things: I think An tries flirting with Haruka at some point but realizes that it's just too similar to the playful banter that they've always done so it just flies completely over Haruka's head. They've been holding hands since they were little, of course Haruka doesn't think anything of it when An does it now.

On the more angsty side of things: I often think about An seeing Haruka's initial rise to fame from afar and being increasingly worried about the worse parts of the idol industry. It chews up the person she knew and spits out something manufactured and Not Right; someone constantly aware of what she's wearing, what she's eating, what she's doing in public, all to maintain that idol image. Haruka her best friend and Kiritani Haruka the Idol are almost different people and it scares her a little. MMJ being such a source of positivity was a massive relief.

more than 2 weeks late reply but anyway,, (looong post ahead ksjsghj)

ur very welcome anon!! im glad to know that im feeding us 5 anharuers. we deserve this tbh. we deserve good fucking food from the Very Cool Pair of Childhood Friends Who Are Obviously Gay And In Love With Each Other. and since ive done a few anharu art already i might as well continue doing more to feed us all 🥹 (goodbye minoharu and more more jump /j)

and your fic. OH MY GOD ANON YOUR FIC. im gonna be real with you ever since i got your ask i still have the fic opened in my browser 😭 i will keep it open and read it forever!! idc if its short!! i LOVE it!! Absolute Chef's Kiss 👌!! I NEED MORE ANAHRU IN THAT KIND OF FLAVOR HKAFGJBS 😭😭😭 ALSO idk why but after reading it, i imagined that this is a recurring convo of theirs. it starts with whatever topic then one of them deviates and it ends just like the fic. this happens over adn over and over and we're just out here wisHING ONE OF THEM CONFESS ALREADY OR SMTH 😭😭

lastly, your lighthearted anharu reminded me of that 'i love you too, egg' meme so, as what youd expect from me, i cant help but put the two sillys in that meme:

Just In: Sources Have Confirmed That Kiritani Haruka Is Dense (real)

and even if An would outright kiss her—a simple, long one or sloppy style even, your choice—Haruka STILL wouldn't think her Bestest Childhood Friend is in love with her, nope! (someone save them)