#ok sorry for all the tags ill die now

[stuffedsand]

for the violence ask game: 8 common fandom opinion everyone is wrong about. for milgram. i know exactly what you're going to say i just want to see you go off again

Hiii bestie. You do know what I'm about to talk about. Yippee

Disclaimer that this whole essay is like. For fun and how I say things is ramped up to be funny. I don't mind if you disagree w me cuz like that's the nature of things! We disagree but we can get along.

Anyways short answer for people who don't wanna see the essay: organ harvesting theory. This is about shidou.

Idk how prevalent it is rn since not many people even talk about shidou but it was prevalent enough in June when I got into milgram that I believed it for a bit anyways the rest in under the cut cuz I'm insane sorrg

SO the main reason I think the theory is WRONG (hyperbole‼️) is because I just think it's unrealistic. Man works in a hospital in Japan. How would he pull it off. Scuff an operation bad enough to cause braindeath/death and I'm p sure they suspend your medical licence, if he participated in an organ harvesting operation pre-family-accident his case would then be black and white cuz he was doing it in complete sound mind with no regard for human life. Also it wouldn't justify the extreme reaction he's had to realizing, specifically, "what I've been robbing people of" (t1 voice trailer), and he wouldn't have as heavy a focus on the relatives' feelings and reactions. At least story writing wise it'd make less sense since it doesn't allude to anything if that's the end goal? Imo at least. Idk maybe this is because I really like tragedies in media. Also because it'd be a really disproportionately severe crime compared to every other direct murderer???? Like. We have strangled someone, stabbed someone, bludgeoning, bludgeoning, kicked someone to death. Organ harvesting looks cartoony in this context. It's also not a very prevelant issue in Japan iirc.

Also to prove my point further. If we use this theories the murders would be

Strangling, abortion??????, cyber bullying, stabbing, organ harvesting, toxic r/s, telling the truth (lmao), bludgeoning, bludgeoning, bludgeoning (minus weapon). Organ harvesting is goofy cuz it seems so.... Extreme,,,,,,,

ALSSOOOOO funny point. If he's not directly involved in his murder (as in, unintentional and indirect) that makes 5 direct and 5 indirect. Silly.

Also also his murder seems somewhat tied to how he feels about his job itself ("I wanted to contribute to society (about his career choice)/I had thought my work was a contribution to society", use of past tense) and to me it reads like hes disillusioned w his job esp since his reason for getting a highly sought after, high paying and high social ranking job is "I wanted to contribute to society". Doctors with that empathy can be affected by the death around them more severely and I think that's a fun topic to look at

I count this under "common fandom opinion" cuz it was common enough around June (whenyours truesly got into milgram) that I believed it. I mean I introduced shidou to my friend (hello clown) as "maybe Dr malpractice. Organ harvesting dude" and said friend (hello again clown) is also the one who's heard me bash the organ harvesting theory like 6 times at least now so. Yippee.

Take none of this seriously I just got off a plane and am so very eepy. If you like the organ harvesting theory good for you!!!!!!!💥💥💥💥💥 you do you bestie !!!!!!!!!!!!!! I literally do not think less of anyone who believes that theory I just personally dont lmao

[lunarleonardo]

Ok, quick question, do you have an idea for how long you want Love Letter to be? Because I genuinely need a vague idea of how long it's going to be until the comfort because IM DYING. I NEED A RESOLUTION, PLEASE. YOU DONT EVEN HAVE TO TELL ME WHAT YOU'VE PLANNED OR ANYTHING, JUST AN APPROXIMATE ESTIMATE FOR HOW MANY CHAPTERS THE FIC WILL BE. I don't usually read stuff this gruesome, so I'm like suffering right now because of my own dumbassness because I need a happy ending. I'm slowly dying from the suspense. I eat your content up every time, and like out of the maybe 4 or 5 fics you recently have made on the saiouma tag, I've only recently realized you wrote them all. YOU WERE LITERALLY THE SAME PERSON AND I WAS JUST SHOCKED. (How are they pumping these out left and right?? What type of stuff do they think about to come up with this stuff? How do they stay so serious when writing?)<- genuine thoughts I had a few weeks ago. ANYWAYS, keep up the good work. I'll be waiting in dread until the comfort comes, but I'll still be eating the love letter chapters whenever they come out no matter what. Also, please shuichi do not cannibalize yourself. Please. Do not. That last paragraph in chapter 9 has e so worried.

Hi sorry! I would have answered this much sooner, but I got stuck in an Uno game that lasted for over an hour. BUT I'm finally free (⁠ﾉ⁠◕⁠ヮ⁠◕⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠*⁠.⁠✧

I'm expecting Love Letter to be at least 20 chapters or so. There will be two more nighttime segment chapters (Shuichi's pov), and the rest will be the daytime segments with Kokichi and Maki. We're nearing the end of this arc, and after that, the recovery will start. I won't give away too much, but we're drawing ever closer! ^_^ As for an estimate until the recovery chapters... I'd say at least 7 or 8...? Maybe?? I don't have the last few days planned out chapter-wise, so we'll have to see for that one ;o; it's at least over 5

If you can't stomach the gruesome bits, I really don't recommend reading the fic (⁠｡⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ⁠) at least not the nighttime segments. Don't force yourself to read anything that makes you uncomfortable or ill!!

I can answer those three questions!

I have a lot of free time @_@ . Whenever I'm bored, I start writing. I have sooo many ideas and I love to share them! Everyone has been so supportive, and it's given me the confidence to post more and more of my stuff :) I write a lot and I write fast lol

Ever since I was little, I enjoyed the darker parts of fiction. I enjoy whump especially :p so I'm always thinking about different whump tropes and applying them to my favs. I also take a lot of inspiration from music and games-- M5DP was born between my replaying Your Turn To Die and an event that happened in a roleplay between me and my gf. The base idea for Fever Frost was born from the third Wings of Fire book, and reinforced with Kitchen Fork by Jack Conte. Impermanent Attachment happened because I found it funny to give Shuichi a gun, but also mostly because I had a Komahina timeloop fic I wanted to write for ao3 and just never got the confidence to at the time. (If anyone wants me to go more in depth with how I put these fics together, just ask. I have lots of notes o_O) I'm ALWAYS thinking and having ideas ^_^ trust me i would have way more fics up if i came to ao3 with the confidence to post my mer / vampire / dragons fics

? Honestly I'm not sure what this means, sorry QwQ I've been writing since my hands could touch a keyboard. I submitted a Pokémon fanfic for one of my 1st grade creative writing assignments. I take every story as seriously as the writer wants me to, and in the case of my own fics, there are some parts where the tone is serious and some parts where it's just like "wtf is going on". That "two late!" joke in Love Letter wasn't planned at ALL, it only happened because the idea made me giggle ;P

Anyhow, thank you!! Dread is a good emotion to have when it comes to Love Letter updates <3 /j I PROMISE the comfort will come. I cannot physically handle an unhappy ending,, or at the very least a hopeful one xD

As for Shuichi... well. I can't promise anything. O_o

[mimisplayground]

Sergeant Gaz, The calm, quiet, and cruel <3

Tags: Sensory Deprivation (he puts noise canceling headphones on you during da deed), light bondage, Slight violence at the beginning, Reader gets slapped at the beginning (but it was consented to!!), Also you get called out by ghost for the whole price thing, Orgasm control, he calls u dear :3

I HOPE U ALL LOVE IT!! (also sorry for the misleading beginning, it was gonna be a ghost and soap chapter but i changed my mind… ILL DO THAT NEXT I PROMISE!!)

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Ghost putting you in that headlock left you grumpy for the rest of the day, mumbling when you were around him.

And as he pinches that sensitive raw flesh, you hold back a squeal and quickly turn around, glaring at him, ready to fly off the handle and cuss him out.

But you find yourself at a full loss for words when you see his eyes squint from under his mask and he drawls out his words. “Careful sweetheart, down want me covering Captain's marks with my own do you?”

You pause, flustered, and want to die on the spot when you hear Soap laugh like it was an inside joke. You huff and turn around, stomping away in anger. And you make it all the way to the front of Prices office before thinking about the fact that he would probably use the words you had in your head as an excuse to leave you unable to sit for awhile again.

With that in mind, you turn around, walking to your own room and sitting on your bed with a huff.

The next month you were careful as could be. A record for you honestly, and you could feel it itching beneath your skin to voice some loud criticisms.

So you were practically boiling at the lid when you get stuck on Gaz’s lap during a vehicle mission. You’ve managed to hold yourself back thus far, so it should have come as no surprise to anyone that your breaking point was watching Gaz step on your shoelace to untie your boot.

Now granted, turning and full-blown knocking him in the head with your fist while yelling out a quick “watch what the fuck you’re doing” MIGHT have been overkill, it wasn't really on your top list of thoughts for that moment. And really, was it even your fault that you turned around too quickly to see the rage on Gaz’s face?

The mission went smoothly, an easy one that honestly didn’t even need as much manpower as they sent. But you couldn’t stop the sinking feeling in your gut from forming at the sly comments the rest of 141 was making at your expense.

Comments about your attitude getting you in trouble, and a pat on the back from Price as he says -way too happily- that he couldn’t save you from this one.

The ride back was silent between you and Gaz, even as you found yourself sitting in his lap again. And if only you had clairvoyance, then you would’ve been able to see just how awful that silence would be later.

You didn’t expect a hand to close around the back of your neck tightly the second you got out of the vehicle, jumping in surprise when you looked back to see the hand belonging to Gaz. He smiles at you sweetly, and you think nothing of following him to his room when he guides you there, letting him help you out of the uncomfortable clothing and push you into the bathroom to shower.

And the shower was honestly amazing. You would’ve barricaded yourself in there if you knew what was waiting for you. You walked out, Gaz looking over looking fresh like he had just washed as well. He walks to you, leading you to his bed silently. Now that you thought about it, the talkative man hadn’t spoken a peep to you since you had punched him.

He wasn’t still mad about that, was he?

He hugs you from behind, and he whispers in your ear softly. “I’m gonna be rough, alright dear? Tell me if you’re ok with me roughing you up bad,” he rasps out, and you nod lightly.

He’s a gentle man you figure, he wouldn’t really get THAT rough, would he?

You were an idiot.

He had you on the bed, staring down at you lightly before making quick work of tying your hands together.

And you almost want to speak, open your mouth too, when a harsh smack flies across your face. In oddly the same spot you had punching him in the face.

It didn’t hurt much, not at all really, more of a sting with a noise loud enough to leave you dazed. Your head stays to the side in a daze as he pulls out a pair of range ear protectors. The bulky headphone-looking ones that you always got made fun of for (you liked to decorate the ones that you were just wearing in the practice range.)

Popping them onto your ears and watching your confusion rise as he smiles and waves at you. And you’re left with the only noise you can hear is your own panting. It was humiliating in a way, but nowhere near how humiliating it was when you heard yourself let out a strangled moan when you felt Gaz start prodding at your entrance with slicked-up fingers. You stare up at him and you have no clue how to react when he leans down to kiss you. Leaving sweet kisses all over your face while playing with your sex nonchalantly.

Always a bit too much, always a bit too little. You jolt when he kisses you on the mouth, biting your lip and letting his tongue invade your mouth. You’re left almost wincing at the sounds of your tongues dancing around with each other, and when you pull away you suddenly remember how deafeningly silent it was with the ear protectors on.

Gaz works you like a fine instrument, bringing you so close to the edge before backing away. Rubbing your stomach you watch him laugh and all too sweet laugh at the look of fat tears rolling down your cheeks. His skin glistened with sweat like he was the one having his body played with.

You knew that however fucked out that Brit looked, you were 10x worse. And when he felt he had stretched you enough you felt him get to work pushing the blunt tip of his cock into you.

And god, Gaz wasn’t quite as long as Price was, but dammit was he thick. It left you gasping for air and clawing at the ties around your wrist in an attempt to reach up and get your hands in Garrick’s tight curls and claw your nails down his back. He hit all the right spots and left your eyes rolling to the back of your head as you mewled and moaned.

His thrusts were quick and rough, bullying your insides with each thrust in and leaving you sobbing at each pull-out. You’re gripping the pillow under you, your legs wrapped tight around Garrick's waist. You see him groaning and mumbling, but all that you can hear is your own panting and downright porno moans.

And you just know the others can hear you. If not your awful moans then the sound of the headboard slamming into the wall. And when you reach your peak you feel like it's heaven on earth. But heaven on earth quickly became too much as Gaz kept fucking you through it.

You try to tug yourself away, and you gasp in bliss when Gaz roughly grabs your hips with his calloused hands and slams you right back down.

He kept at it for a few more minutes, quickly catapulting you into another orgasm before he slams in harshly and you feel a sticky warmth fill your insides. Gaz rubs at you a bit longer, making sure you reach that mind-shattering sensation one more time.

He lets you both sit there panting and swearing together for a moment, before reaching up and yanking off the headphones. You feel a few tears leave your eyes at being able to hear his post-orgasm groans and panting finally.

“Apologize, dear.” He commands airily, and you’re quickly muttering out apology after apology, tugging your wrists until he unties them. He brings your wrists close and kisses both of them lovingly. You take advantage of the situation to lean forward and leave a kiss on his lips.

“Good little love, knowing how to apologize so sweetly.” He says softly as you both kiss into a calm state of mind, with him laying on top of you at this point as you soothe your hands from his neck down, petting him softly.

At this point, you might start misbehaving more often if this is what it’ll get you.

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KYLE GARRICK 😋😋 I LUV HIM SM

i hope u guys like this i saw someone ask me to make this a series so thats wut im going to do :3 leave comments and suggestions!! requests and asks still open!!

[collegetennisoriginstory]

OK. UM. first of all, hiiii! <3 ok lemme just gush a lil bit:

1. I LOVE UR FIC OHMYGOD HOLY SHIIIIIIIT

2. god, i don't even have the slightest idea of how tennis works, but this is just so????? like?????? you know. and i kinda get how the play goes?? YOU'RE AN AMAZING WRITER GOSH.

3. i actually remembered most of the characters?? considering there's a lot of em, this is practically a miracle. again, you're goddamn amazing. i dont know how. maybe the pace is great, but definitely THE CHARAS ALL HAVE PERSONALITY/DEPTH??? like, i actually even remembered the side charas!!! mike, thalia, diego, felix, that cool ass girl in that shooting game, etc. umh just perfecto.

4. THE TENNIS MATCHES ALL FEEL SO SATISFYING!!! <3333333 omg. i feel like WUOOOOOH u know. i feel so cool playing a cool talented mc omg im loving it (i play a i-win-everything type of mc becuz im a perfectionist with a fear of failure) the matches me on edge in my seat oh gosh <3 and when u win it somehow just go WOOOOOOOH again!!! AAAAAA<3

5. aw, and of course, my beloved rivals to lovers rayyan <3333 *sigh* the slowburn.... (hes actually my first & only one. i go: ohhh tension!?!? and make a run for it. um, if it's ok to ask, is there a lot of content in the romance area as of now or in the future? like, replayability in terms of romance? im sorry if this is rude, i didnt mean to, i suck at words & i wont ask that again.)

6. FOUND FAMILY YAY! FOUND FAMILY YAY! <33333 (we genuinely lack those in the if community pls.) soulmates w/ sam. ride or die diego. very reluctant ride or die G (imma be honest, his name is just so hard so my head for some reason just go Guacamole 😭). aww tobin u very big cinammon roll ill protect u. shenanigans. & others too many to name honestly.

7. help this is just so good i had to force myself to sleep at 3am for a 7am lecture and i sat in the front rows and i put my head on the table and the fricking professor called me out ohmygod- BUT IT WAS WORTH IT GODDAMN!! ILL DO IT AGAIN IF I HAVE TO! HA! i cant wait for the next update- i'm gonna have this fic in my head for the next week oh pls noooooo. (no pressure tho. u do u author! take ur time!!! ill be here to support u, whoo!)

8.ALL IN ALL, I LOVE IT I LOVE THIS I LOVE EVERYONE I LOVE YOU AUTHOR *runs over & hug you w/ consent* <333333333333

ok. um. that's not it but if i continue it's literally gonna be an essay so i'll stop.

author. i will die for this fic. ahaahahahah. if i may ask, what's ur fav IFs? (i really, really love this one so im kinda hoping maybe u have similar taste in IFs eheh. again, im sorry if this comes as rude or insensitive.) oh uh & if my long rambles bother u, i won't send it again sorry.

<333 okok. take care of urself, dont forget to eat healthy, drink water & good sleep. have a nice day :D

Wait. I think I might have missed replying to this I am so sorry!!! It gave me so so much joy. Maybe I subconsciously did not want it to leave my inbox haha.

1. And 2 -> THANK YOU!

3. Gosh this is such a great thing to hear. There are a looot of characters, and I definitely worry sometimes that it gets to be too much, but I think the IF is getting long enough for me to give enough-ish screentime to each character... though it takes me a while to cycle back to different side characters. I cant believe you remembered the cool ass girl in laser tag! :)

4. AWESOME to hear! 🥰

5. Yup, being a character driven IF, there will be a lot of romance (or friendship) beats / moments in the IF (which is already true now). The next couple of chapters will follow the same mix of sports, school and romance / hanging out, so you should already have a sense of how much romance there'll be (it'll just keep unfolding / developing for each of the RO routes!)

6. Hehe found family is my fave trope to insert in stories as well.

7. Hahaha aww oh no fictional college life is catching up to your real college life!!

8. HUG YOU BACK (with consent)!!🤗🤗

[floofeeeeee]

Ok so the analog Horror au will take a bit longer to make sorry to those who were excited 😔💔 my art block is getting the best of me and I need a bit of a break from drawing (take care of you’re health kids) so I thought I give a brief explanation of what the aus About :3

A lot of this au is based off game plays that I’ve see and analog horror videos on YouTube.

⚠️Warning⚠️this au is very much a horror au so I will only be tagging any art post about it with #kotlc analog horror au I may not be amazing at horror art but I will try my best to make it look slightly creepy also there probably be swears in it sooo let’s begin 

There a couple of different types of anomaly’s the one I’m going to focus on is one kinda but not really possess a person. they kinda latch onto the person some are harmless and some are very harmful.

The harmless ones only cause anxiety and depression to the victim

The harmful ones cause there victims to become incredibly suicidal and basically make the victim ☠️ themselves the other things it does is make the victim deathly ill

Sophie has the anomaly that’s attached to her but it’s different

The effects of this anomaly make it so that she can see other anomaly’s without being haunted by them

She can tell what kind and how powerful they are and what chance she has a to surviving an encounter

The anomaly also is like a shield to protect her from some anomaly’s

Now on to the story part

she kinda gets kidnapped by the organization that collects data on anomaly’s

(Which is the entire cancel basically)

Alden gives her a choice to work for them or not

She joins

Her Mission basically is to scope out any anomaly’s at this rich school

(Where fitz and biana go)

Now there aren’t as many anomaly’s at these kinds of schools so why go? 

Well because in public schools the anomaly’s that get attracted there is such a large amount that they kinda act as a shield from more deadly anomaly’s

If you start to chip away them they’d get aggressive and more people would die

So the laser amount the more dangerous they can be

So she kinda finds people who are haunted by them or are “possessed” by them that kinda thing

She doesn’t find any from fitz or biana but…she does find one person being haunted by an anomaly that if you let it grow could be very dangerous..

I wonder who it could be :3

Also most anomaly’s go after people who may already not be well mentally

And that’s all! Sorry the art will take a while got to let my hands rest 

[blackbutler-readerinsertsandjunk]

What do you think of Soulmate AU with the Grimm Reapers where every person is born with a symbol/tattoo that changes color according to your soulmate mood and will start glowing once you meet them. When your soulmate d*es, the tattoo loses color and turns grey. Now imagine your tattoo is already grey from the moment you're born (since Reapers commited s******) meaning your soulmate d*ed before you were even born! Everyone feels sorry for you but you accepted the fact. But one day, your tattoo unexpectedly starts to glow!

aaaaaaaa it makes me cry, is what I think!! so obviously I had to write it XD

and you don't have to put asterisks like that with the words, tbh; while I do tag triggers when I can, replacing letters like that makes it more difficult for blacklist to catch it. I've had my own issues with it, as well as reading others' thoughts.

for example, typing out "suicide" will cause blacklist to catch it, so that any post with the full word "suicide" will be blocked if someone has "suicide" blacklisted. if you type "s******" or "su*cide" or any combination of asterisks replacing letters, blacklist will not catch it, and people who actually have "suicide" blacklisted might see the post since it won't be blocked. if you want to make sure that people who have a word blacklisted won't see a post like this, don't replace letters with asterisks, just type the whole word and blacklist will catch it!

ok PSA over, now onto, THE REAPERS MY LOVES-

He’s… a little sad for you, that you lived so much of your life thinking you’d be alone forever. Even though he knows people are born alone and die alone, they shouldn’t live alone. He always knew he’d have someone, based on his own tattoo, but you must have been so worried. As soon as the two of you meet, he apologizes for what he’s done to himself, because it led to you suffering and wondering and feeling like something wasn’t right. However, now the two of you have found each other; even if his afterlife ends up being cut short by his illness, he intends to spend the rest of it getting to know you. And… hopefully you’re happy getting to know him.

As much as he regrets what led you to him, he’s grateful he found you. At some points, he would stare at his own tattoo and will it to turn grey, simply so he could know you would stop being tortured by the thought that he was dead. (And stop eating at him with guilt, knowing that he’d doomed you before you were even aware of him.) You didn’t let the so-called impossibility stop you, and… he found you, at last. It’s… okay, that it’s him you ended up with? You’re not disappointed? Well. At least now the two of you can be together without any cares. Now that he has you, he promises, he’ll do anything for you.

Goodness, it’s about time you showed up! They’ve been waiting for you, you know? Of course… they know they haven’t done themself any favors. Unfortunately. By killing themself before they could meet their soulmate, they’ve effectively made you think you’re never going to find them. They’ve been watching their own tattoo daily, excited by your feelings of passion when it turns red and wanting to rip apart whatever made you sad when it turns blue. And here you are, at long last! They’re ever so delighted that you didn’t give up looking for them. You held out hope for them, and now they get to be with you. It’s like a fairytale, and now they get to live with you, happily~ ever~ after~

That’s just his luck, isn’t it… that he’s fated to have died before his intended ever existed. He’s angry at himself that he took his life away, but he can’t help thinking — would he have had someone else if he didn’t? If he stayed alive, would he simply have no soulmate at all, because there would be no way to be with you if he hadn’t died? It makes his head spin and he loves it, some unknowable questions to ponder over. He’s overjoyed that he finally gets to have you, though, so as long as the two of you are together, he doesn’t fret over what might have happened. As long as he isn’t a letdown to you, he’s glad that things eventually ended up where they did. You’re the best puzzle of his life, and even if he never figures you out… he loves the adventure of trying.

God, he was starting to think he’d never get to be with you. And here come to find, you thought you were fated to be alone from the start? He’s gone through so many people trying to see who it was who was his. Countless one-night stands, endless breakups when it became clear he wasn’t compatible… there’s never any way to know for sure. He’s been lonely, searching for you. There’s a little guilt that you had to live for so long feeling lonely too… though, now that you’re together, he’s prepared to thoroughly enjoy being with you. He’ll show you the best of this life that he has to offer, if you’ll let him!

Damn, did you really wait all this time for him? Instead of just going off and trying to find someone else? He held out for you because he knew you were alive, but if he thought his soulmate was dead… he would probably give up on the idea entirely. A person only gets one, right? He’s disappointed in himself that he made you wait, that you almost certainly felt isolated and pitied and a million other things. It’s bullshit, and he’s the one who put you through it by killing himself. Then again, it may not have worked out this way if he hadn’t, so… it’s complicated. If nothing else, he’s thankful he’s met you at last; he thoroughly teases that now he has even more of a reason to want to be done with work.

You must have known they would find you soon enough! You never gave up hope, ja? Here they are with you now! It’s not something that they really like thinking about in general; the fact that they took their own life. It’s worse that doing so led to you thinking you were destined to be alone forever, so it’s something they have to confront particularly after first meeting you. They’re… sad that what they did led to you suffering. They never wanted to hurt anyone but themself. Even then, it’s… ugh. It’s a lot. They’re just so happy that you’ve found them now, that finally they have their beloved! You must have been so lonely, so they plan to make up for lost time. They also take all the photographs of you, wanting to have as many as they can. They’re so excited to start building a life with someone!

This is… it’s real, at last? After waiting for so long, the two of you have finally found each other? He was starting to think it would never happen, that even though his own tattoo proves otherwise, he was doomed to be alone. So many people he’s seen die, so many he’s lost, and none of them have been the one. The very first one he lost drove him to kill himself out of grief, and… it’s infuriating, that this was the thing that would lead him to meet you. He’s waited so long for you, and you’ve been in so much pain just like him, because you thought for most of your life that he was dead and would stay dead. But… he’s here now, love. He’s here. You’ll never be alone or doubt his love again.

It’s not any great surprise, is it, that what he did begets ever more punishment? It’s just a tragedy to him, that his actions led to you being punished. You’re the one who’s been hurt and has thought that the person you were meant to be with was someone you’d never meet. He’s not happy with himself, that you’ve been through so much and it’s his fault. All he can do now that he’s together with you is try to make sure the rest of your life is better than what came before. Even though he works a lot, surrounded by reminders of death, he’s with you as much as he possibly can be. Any time that isn’t taken by his job is yours. While he may not be overly emotional… there’s no denying that he loves you, that he’s glad to have you, and that he’ll do anything to make sure you know it.

[starfilled-galaxy]

why do me fusi and their sister keep accidentally getting into the most insane roleplays on toog 😭

@bananacat76 you already know all of this but ill tag you anyway

talking ab roleplays under cut bc its long :3c

first time was that kel was the manager of gino's and got into an argument with omori because he only served orange joe and keep sitting on the counter. something appeared and everyone ran out bc holy shit this place is haunted, and kel quit his job as manager. anyway they fought outside while mari was trying (and failing) to keep them from fighting. eventually omori and mari went home and kel was like "man i hope i dont get reported to the police for killing the old manager and then taking her job..... OH SHIT IS THAT THE POLICE???" (he got put in jail) then hero comes across mari and sunny talking at their house and is like "hey do you guys know where kel is? he's missing..." and mari's like "oh last i saw him he was at the plaza" "i just checked there tho?" "you did? um, well he got into a bit of an argument so maybe he went somewhere to cool off?" "ah, well he normally thinks the secret hangout lake area is calming so he might be there" "alright, how about we come with you?" "oh uh sure!" so they look by the lake and do not find kel, right before hero leaves mari gives the run-down to hero ab the argument with omori and kel then they all go home sunny threatens to kill himself by jumping down the stairs. he does not hero gets a call from the police and tell him that his brother is in jail for committing murder. he then finds kel's journal with the most recent entry confessing about his murder (and littering potatoes everywhere). hero is like what the fuck so he goes to the park to clear his head, where mari and sunny find him again mari talks with hero while sunny. does stuff. such as stabbing potatoes hero tells her about how kel was a murderer and he's really sad and stuff then in the middle of the convo at some point hero gets FUCKING POSSESSED....... by..... kel's evil twin brother "jel" he turns to mari and smiles "so anyway wanna go commit murder with me?" "what.... why...." "idk sounds like fun" "HERO WE JUST TALKED ABOUT THIS MURDERER ISNT FUN" "yes it is?" "NO ITS NOT??" during all of this sunny is still stabbing potatoes and fusi (mari) is occasionally going out of character to do the basketball YUH sound sunny goes home and hero and mari continue their convo "well if you dont join me you're gonna be my next victim" "...what" he pushes her to the ground "join me" anyway mari refuses so hero chases her like some fucking horror movie scene until she gets home to call the police and locks the door with sunny and hero still outside. hero attempts to scare sunny but sunny has a knife and he doesnt wanna get stabbed. sunny stabs him anyway and he bleeds out. mari's like "oh my god what did you do" and takes him to the hospital, where he wakes up and uh talks with mari while having no memory of when he was possessed they leave the hospital and then the roleplay ends bc we didnt know where to go from there lmfao

second one, still ongoing, is that mari stole hector and had him be a backing dancer on a stage while she did a ted talk ab the respawn button. then hector got... stuck in the floor somehow so i had to reset character (die), and sunny saw. and then kel shows up and is like "mari what did you do with hector?" and she's like "oh sorry i just wanted to use him for a bit, but i can give him back now. sunny can you go get hector?" and sunny's like fuck hector is dead i cant tell kel... so he's like "uh uh uh um uhhhhh i saw. hero. and i gave hector to him. and he said something about going to a dog park. so he wont be home" and kel is like "oh ok :D" and goes home then he gets there and sees hero "you're back already?" "i never left??" "huh? sunny told me you went to a dog park with hector?" "no????" "HE LIED????" and then sunny to mari "HOLY FUCKING SHIT HECTOR'S DEAD MARI WHAT DO I DO"

oh also there was one time that was really short that was set in headspace where basil and omori were watering flowers but then hector (rock) kept jumping on the flowers so omori killed him, then kel shows up and is like "hey where's hector" and omori's like "uh uh maybe go check where he was last time you lost him" "oh yeah orange oasis! ill go check there!" basil and omori come along then kel gets hit by the train to orange oasis and dies then hero shows up and is like "hey where's kel i think he ran off again" "oh um. he got hit by the train. um. he's toast. we're gonna need life jam" "oh damn" and then hero also got hit by the train

[leonsdolly]

ur comments on my recent fics are so nice and thoughtful!!!!!!! ur so nice!! i can't get over it!!!!!!!!!! (sorry for not sending this sooner i'm a forgetful silly person)

also, the tag where u mentioned that ur an RN???? that's so cool! salute to u genuinely the heroes of our world r nurses !!!! the blood pressure thing was literally based on my dad who won't take his meds!!! they told him he would DIE bc his blood pressure was so high and he finally started taking them "for us" (his family) bc he's like "eh i'll die one day" ... literally him when he got cancer too like "eh ill get the surgery so u guys can have me here 4 longer" ??? men are so weird (he's better now tho - not about medical stuff, just like they got the cancer so hopefully he won't have to do more treatment 4 that!)

anyway thank u 4 ur comments and ur service as an RN!!

hi liz!! and ofc i've been eating up your fics before i even started this blog, they're so good 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼 your brain is just so MWAH!!!

TY and yes i'm an RN so that part made me giggle bc that's literally so many of my pts !!!! your dad being totally lax about everything is LITERALLY what i see on a damn near daily basis lmaoo i'm always (gently) scolding them like sir you're gonna stroke out on us if you don't take this seriously! and they're like yeah yeah whatevs 🤓 men are so infuriating!!! their spouses and i are always like alright then since you know everything! LMAO no but educating is actually one of my fav parts of nursing

i really hope your dad is seriously doing ok tho and that they blasted all the cancer away so no more treatment is needed !! him having the most nonchalant attitude about it all like "well i GUESS i'll do it for you guys 🙄🙄" omgggg why are dads like this!!!

[b1adie]

unironically i started playing honkai seventeen days ago just for aventurine and I think I'm physically ill for this man. like gahhhh hes so silly. i have nearly 80 pulls thjat ive spent literally all my time grinding for, and I'm at 60 pity and I will literally kill someone if I lose the 50/50 .90% of gamblers quit before they hit jackpot and similarly 90% of Honkai Star Rail players quit before they win their 50/50. 90% of Honkai Star Rail players quit before they get E6 Aventurine. I need him so bad. Like I wouldn't be mad if I lost the 50/50 to like, Clara or something because I already have her from standard banner and I love her a lot, but if it were to literally anyone else I'd just start mauling people yk. I don't even know what that one kid's name is but he has blonde hair and swords and he's from the Xianzhou Luofu (not that far in the plotline, havent met him yet) but if I lose my 50/50 to that kid I might just die.

Listen I'm not his number one fan, I wouldn't daer to insinuate that I even am, I don't even want to like, fight people for that title. I just really like him and I wanted to thank you for all the Aventurine content that you've been churning out. I'm not sending this on main because I don't want to be clowned on but yeah this is. Really Unhinged. Sorry.

Also I like Dr. Ratio more honestly. I like them both equally but Aventurine isn't out yet so the only thing I'm staring at is Ratio. I have to run around as Clara (not a bad thing, I really like her!! She activates my parental instincts) because if I play as Ratio I will just stop doing whatever I'm doing and stare at him. It's been ruining my productivity.

listen to me. that blonde luofu kid has made me lose 4 times. if i see his ass a 5th time later today i’m going to start tearing the doors off people’s houses.

i didnt even realize how much aventurine stuff i was making until another ask mentioned it and i checked his tag and like half of the top posts were ALL MINE 😭 sneaky little blonde son of a bitch snuck up and took over my brain while i wasn’t paying attention. i have literally been having dreams about him. just 7 more hours now

i was actually messing with my ratio build earlier. he does ok i guess but he could be better… but i do have to admit i saw his design revealed like a year ago on reddit and i was like Oh my god?? like alright. slay i guess. and now i tell anyone who will listen that he’s a worm. what a weird guy… though i am a fan of his rubber ducky collection.

clara is who i got on the starter banner too ^_^ i wanna work on building her some more but im trying to build. every single character ever so its taking me a while to get back to her T_T

[narwhalandchill]

ok misc stream thoughts!!!

ANYWAY livestream over nice 30 pulls of aventurine funds for anni!!!! they didnt do anything insane but honestly it was kinda cope to expect them to, ratio for free was clearly a more of a spontaneous move and hes available throughout anniversary anyway so the "another 5*" were.... a little over the top im sorry wjkjwdjkwdjk altho i wouldnt have complained obviously. a free himeko or sth couldve been on theme for the cosmodussy event but eh cant be helped

im actually glad for the skippability of the reruns 😭😭 like i have luocha n jingliu (+ LC for latter) so by skipping acheron for now im gonna have a nice time getting aventurine and most likely his LC (2/3 of his 4* LC selection is so sad tho), love that fucker hope he gets to do proper mayhem in story too. cool death talk please dont actually die yourself for real for real tho i will be sad. like i do think its based of aventurine to pull off a stunt that appears to be what we in the business might call a certified chapter 5 komaeda moment but. ahahaha nooo dont actually die youre such a funny hat man .

(also sick boss form is sick but . bootleg FL im sorry aventurine. they hit perfection already and theyre never fucking topping the galaxy cape cyclops eye beak mask drip i swear JSWJWJDKWJKDWJK but also yes me biased? in favor of that ginger? i could never)

but it seems ill have a solid time getting aventurine and saving up for now??? since i dont think im too interested in robin or boothill either. i was kinda worried topaz' rerun would be in 2.1 for IPC antics with aventurine bc i am kinda curious abt pulling for her but now its gonna be 2.2 at the earliest so. Phew

the stream ran a bit too long lmao but like overall i tend to like the dev discussions so most of it was still neat, altho downside of dev streams is that not knowing chinese i cant just like. afk and listen on headphones and go get water or something 💀💀 and they were definitely dragging stuff out on purpose no way they werent but eh. people will live its just bideo game livestream. and like these folks do hard work on the game they can yap about what they do sometimes its only right lmao

leakers public shaming session was definitely a jumpscare but i do genuinely empathize w shaoji on that one. like. ive always been one for kit + banner leaks first and foremost and story leaks just. i dont care for them much. ive had my share of looking at them occasionally but i definitely agree with the way story leaks either by themselves or when misconstrued and misinterpreted really fucking mess with the intended experience for any given story and how that must feel like shit for the writers. like if story leaks stopped happening altogether id be perfectly content. and thats just ppl who look at story leaks on purpose cuz. im not going to even begin w how like. yes the leaks subreddits and most big leakers do spoiler warnings and keep the story stuff spoilered. but then theres literally the entire rest of the internet where shit gets spread untagged and without warnings the second they are posted anywhere at all and how that fucking ruins peoples experiences. like its 1 thing to click at a spoiler tagged post knowingly and get ur experience messed up with. but when u dont even want to see it its rly fucking bad and i v well understand condemning all story leaks (even those properly flagged) just on that basis alone. but yeah actually felt bad for him there and see where he was coming from for sure, even as a consumer of leaks

ok well that sure was a wall of text. didnt expect to write that much JWJKWJKDDWJK but ya

Anyway. biggest priority is holding strong w skipping acheron as sick as her animations are but def looking forward to her teaser and the animated short. like . even with the black swan dykery. (that was a fucking jumpscare too). i dont need her rn. despite how cool she is 😭😭

& also have to say im v happy they clarified their stance on hi3rd references like. the way theyre going abt it is absolutely how it should be going. hsr by nature is more directly linked to hi3rd like honkai is in the name but its such a dumbass idea (like some fan takes out there....) to want the stories of hsr depend on another games lore. rewarding old fans with easter eggs and tidbits is perfectly fine and im even interested in seeing where they go with acherons obvious raiden situation - especially knowing theyre not about to ruin their own story with "it was hi3rd all along!" (not that i ever rly thought theyd seriously blunder that bad lmao 💀) . so yea thats neat

i think story wise im not gonna say much of my thoughts bc unfortunately i have clicked on like. a leak or four. not the major stuff i dont think but enough that commenting on stuff w some of the things im aware of in the periphery is going to tint stuff . but im still excited to see where things go!!!

AAND OH. ACTUALLY i do have one more thing . so the multiple POV thing being actually implemented is SOOOO good im so fucking happy theyre committing to it being a thing 😭😭😭 like SO many story pitfalls can be avoided by just letting it be that TB doesnt need to be fucking everywhere a major thing happens as the centerpiece of events so we as players can see it. like it gives a way of showing different events and sides of characters in a much more natural manner its sooo good that theyre implementing it already. like this alone has me in such high hopes for the story going forward. like yea theyve branched from our POV before already and in penacony as well but expanding on it even more is 100% the correct way forward

last thing: god they did jingliu so dirty in her concert illustration. WHAT is she wearing 💀💀💀anyway yeah lesgo 2.1 its cool

i lied real last thing: siobhan . siobhan i would do anything---

[notasapleasure]

Doctor Who special: The Waters of Mars (2009)

Ok, I know there have been proper screenshots of this in the tags already, so just a quick one for completism’s sake, in case anyone gives a shit about how it fits into my elaborate ranking...

Dr Tarak Ital MD, part of the ill-fated 2059 Bowie Base One colony that Ten just...stumbles upon in time to see everything go to shit!

Basically: GREAT episode of DW that I remember fondly. I adore Captain Adelaide Brooke. Bad times if you’re *checks notesfriends’ tags*...Mars’ first lesbian

What the absolute bejaysus is this backstory?! Is his history as a 400m runner why he came zooming out to see the Doctor like a labrador puppy at playgroup?

....sorry what was the question I got distracted by the head-shot

The Martian pioneers! Basically the Doctor knows the mission is going to go tits-up in an unknown and horrible way and he rocked up here by accident. It’s an unchangeable event that has ramifications for future space travel, so he keeps saying he needs to leave because he can’t alter this part of the timeline and....keeps getting compelled to stay by curiosity/Adelaide Brookes being a badass. But he knows everyone is supposed to die that day and funnily enough....things begin to go wrong.

Look I’m taking advantage of all the background shots I can get before the thing happens (the thing being a Martian water parasite that zombifies its hosts). He follows procedure! He’s more careful than 90% of people in the Alien franchise films!

Quizzical eyebrows squad goals

Andy Stone is very much already a zombified host for the Martian water parasite

Tarak finds Andy uhhh dripping

It does not go well for him

Yep. That sure is. A scrceenshot.

I’m not so into the new look, sorry monsterfuckers - texturally unappealing.

But he does roar. And gush.

I’m. I’ll stop now.

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Rating

Dead? Yeah, I don’t think you come back from this parasite even if they’d found a way to contain it, there’s no chance of looking for a cure (not when your genius MD has been zombified)

Evil? No, Tarak seems lovely! And applying human morals to the Martian thing inhabiting him is kind of pointless

Affects the plot? Not at all :’)

Seriously you guys this is an excellent episode: classic DW, classic Ten, David Tennant gurning and declaiming and having a whole emotional dialogue with Time itself!!! But if you just want to look at Joplin Sibtain’s pretty face, this is the sum of it. So 2.5/5 because look at that hair it’s luscious.

[gamer-paramnesia]

i was gonna this in the tags but formatting is getting me in the ass so long post :P

PREFACING! people can do what they want and i am allowed to not like it! people are also allowed not to like what i like!!

however,, today i am a hater. so.

1 deeply dislike fitpac idk why I'm just not hugely into the ship sorry maybe bc it feels like now any mention of either character is only in shipping context. unfortunately did make me watch fits stream less. maybe I would've liked it more if the fandom didn't treat it the way it does shrug

1.5 the way some of yall treat ccs is insane.. esp like pac. he is a grown ass man yall.. i see a lot of 'omg hes sooo small 🥺 so baby so little here 🥺🥺🥺like be so fr. dont baby him!! hes a silly guy! HES LIKE 28 YEARS OLD!! this applies to other ccs too cough grian jimmy etc cough (the way yall treat pac vaguely reminds me of... no.. i shant say... gogy...(obvs one is good and the other one is ge*rge but. yeah))

2 crying begging throwing up people have body hair every time a character gets drawn without their facial/body hair an angel dies btw.. I see this so much with like joel smallishbeans n cellbit n jimmy solidarity n forever n phil n just so many other characters it drives me insane give that man his hair back!!!!!! also he is not a twink!!! do not draw him as such!!!!!!!! (also body hair on women but I think general fandom would die if I even suggest we draw a lil armpit hair on a woman…)

3 the way some of y'all see found family…… some of y'all only see nuclear families as the only style of family and it shows. a family isn't just oh this 'guy is my brother this is my wacky wine aunt haha!' a family is a bunch of people who find safety and home and love in each other, people who can kiss and people who can cuddle with and people who they can find solace in. it's not just 'so She's like my Mom and He's like my Dad and there's no other way.' it's kinda just.. an indescribable feeling of love between some people. yeah

4 mostly qsmp related here but my god put some melanin on those fellas when you draw them.. like. etoiles is not a white man. neither is forever. or pac, or bdubs, or ironmouse, or jaiden, the list goes on.. same with the eggs!! there's 14 eggs and how come u are drawing them all white 🤨 also this is just an artist ick in general but when you draw darker tones don't just. make them look like a white person with ashed out slightly-tinted-brown skin. please just go outside and look at some people I am begging you

5 at the end of the day.. this is minecraft youtuber/streamer roleplay we are talking about. it's never that serious,, there's no reason to absolutely hate a character or wish them ill will or any shit like that, esp if u see a design you don't really like or a hc you don't enjoy or think is stupid. it's ok to get invested, obviously, but like. take a step back sometimes. if you're just having a bad time then it's probably time you take a break <3

5.5 but also. if you hate a character so much that you legitimately wish ill will on the cc. then probably touch grass

6 if a character has a canon sexuality, please dont. ship them w the gender they explicitly do not like. this is about bagihalo btw,, she is lesbian, she canonically does not like men, be better. obvs you are free to do so but i will just quietly judge u as i block u thanks <3

7 one last thing i just thought of, also very qsmp-heavy. i love hybrid/creature characters, but some fellas are just funnier to remain human to me. morning crew comes to mind,, forever (although i do love werewolf hcs for him too). scar is so human to me,, just a dude, just a fella..

Okay I'm curious. Since the MCYT fan space has a tendency to unanimously agree on certain headcanons and make a lot of things widespread fanon, are there any popular headcanons, interpretations, or portrayals of characters that you really don't like? I genuinely wanna know. Any popular ships you dislike? Any creaturifications that you dislike? Or even just the way people talk about a character?

[justmeinadaze]

Hi!! I just wanted to let you know how much the Head Filled with Demons series means to me. My Dad also died a couple years back from COVID and he was a full time caretaker for my terminally ill mother, so when he died I’ve been her caretaker ever since. It was so isolating, I lost all my friends and had to leave college and work because keeping her alive took up my entire day every day. Things are getting better in the regards my Mom is in long term care at a facility because she outgrew what I could do alone, but I just resonate with the story beyond what I ever could have imagined. Every detail is like it cuts through me, not in a triggering way since I’m finally at a point where I’m starting to heal, but in a way that’s validating and kind of helps heal me because it provides a way to relive my experience if I had a support system at the end of it.

O hope this comes off as the compliment I mean it to be!! Your story really spoke to me and I would love to be added to the tag list for the series! If you ever need someone to talk to about your struggles or your parents, idk how much this means coming from a stranger but as someone who has lived the same experience I’ll always be here for you.

Our experience is incredibly unique. Everyone expects their parents to die before them, but never like this. Never before their time, slowly through illness yet still not leaving you any resources or time to prepare. It’s something no one else could ever understand unless they lived it and so if you ever need comfort in someone who understands I’ll always be here to provide that if I can.

My name is Mimi, by the way!! I hope that you have an absolutely beautiful day and I’m going to probably binge some more of your writing :)

Mimi you beautiful angel❤.

First and foremost I am genuinely sorry that you had to experience that grief. Grief in any form whether it be a death or even a disconnect from a parent thats no longer around but still alive just cuts deep. When I lost my father no one explained anything to me.

I was told that you get two weeks to "properly grieve" and then you gotta get back out there. After those 2 weeks passed I remember constantly thinking "What's wrong with me? Why am I still so sad?" After 6 months, it just spiraled from there because I felt so alone. Everyone went back to their lives and I was just sitting here like "How can the world continue being normal when NOTHING is normal anymore?!"

After 2 years and some personal experiences I learned that what I was feeling was normal and worked to be more vulnerable when it comes to those things. I told myself I wanted to share those feelings because I never wanted someone to feel as empty and alone as I did.

It's been almost 10 years since I lost my father and I still miss him. Some days it still hurts just as bad as the day we lost him. Some days I just break and that's ok. All of that is ok.

I hope you know how amazing you are. Not just because you took care of your parents but also because of the strength you had to and still have to utilize everyday when it comes to those responsibilities as well the emotions you have to carry when it comes to everything involving your parents and a society that isnt quiet up to speed when it comes to grief.

Now please forgive me if some of that went off on a tangent or didnt make sense lol because of my PTSD sometimes I struggle to convey what I'm thinking. Writing these fics here has actually helped alot with that and having people on here validate and reiterate that I'm not alone in how I feel or think❤.

I'm always here if you need to talk as well and I appreciate you so much for reading my writings and your compliment.

[turtle-trash]

I know no one asked but here’s the moves the nimbasa trio have in the au where they’re pokemon

[transbcyfriend]

actually? nvm. ignore this post. i’m just gonna let this out.

[rawrtriesagain]

yall i did NOT plan out the comic at all now that im trying to put it together im laughing wtf I also didn't check to think if my comic even makes sense as an excerpt so im rly just pandering to myself but thats ok thats what art is about am i right ladies

idk if its even gonna show up in the tags properly since its so fuckin long but oh well also guess ill die

anyway since you guys are my faves i wanted to share my favorite pre-sketches and other things since i thought they were cuter than the actual comic and im sad they're gone

first of all anyone who can draw a background well is a god like truly honestly like fuck backgrounds im sorry, i respect yall background artists. here's background without diakko lmaO ignore the very back they cover it:

heres diana about have a mental breakdown as usual girl go to therapy:

ugh i love this one i wanted to give akko an absolute dumb fuckin face because i thought it would be so funny paired next to diana's emo thoughts (had to mostly decide against it to not ruin the vibes :/):

dianas depression kicking in as usual:

thats it all the other panels were essentially just built off the existing ones anyway ya my hand hurts and i was late as fuck for my submission but hopefully thats ok. I did all this for what?? for BURNOUT??

this scene in dreamer of stars is one of my faves and it was nice to draw it out. if you havent read the fic yet go read it. Anyway I was debating between this scene and the Obvious Flower Scene^TM but I don't like my skills enough yet to do the flower scene justice. Still finding all the excuses I can to shove this story in ppls faces even though I cringe at some of the writing mainly grammar issues and like pacing that I need to fix but likely never will lol

anyway love you guys

it be like that sometimes