#oh my fucking god autocorrect no

[gayhenrycreel]

we got to talk about this bizarre... pressure to be non binary coming from certain people.

honestly, i think its rooted in exorsexism/enbyphobia, which may seem counterintuitive, but hear me out.

when i came out as a binary guy, i wanted to test what i was comfortable with in gender presentation. i tried on some nail polish, and then my mum tried to say i was non binary... which im not, im a guy.

ive also heard of butches going through the reverse.

certain cis people learned that non binary people exist, and dont even know that its an umbrella term that has no set definition. a seemingly cis masculine guy could use he/him pronouns but not care about gender and so consider himself non binary. but some people dont understand how this is possible.

some cis people think non binary = androgynous or gnc, resulting in attempted allies thinking feminine men and masculine women have to be non binary.

these people of course also are weird about non binary people who are not woman lite. its its own form of exorsexism.

in my experience, certain queer spaces find masculinity to be frightening, and will pressure masculine people to be more androgynous, or even feminine. id guess that theyd probably find too much femininity to be annoying.

gender is a social construct, but no one is obligated to break it. i enjoy masculinity because it feels natural to me. pink is also a social construct, itself being light red, but people can still like pink more than darker reds.

gender is a bit silly, and you can join in if you want. if you don't like it you can opt out.

cis folk trying to be supportive need to understand that sex, gender, and clothes are entirely separate, unless you personally like joining them for yourself and no one else.

[loadedberetta]

let it be said I'm not the biggest fan of the breeding kink myself but it's fun to write

enter the scene dom top Simon or Price; and their fleeting position during your pregnancy

you obviously need to be catered to, chores done for, errands ran for, you get the idea. and you become the person in charge; what pickles from what store? which pillow cover that irritates the stretching skin on your belly the least? it's going to be you who has the last say.

they have to deal with your temper; swallow every remark that would have turned the evening into a haze of make-up sex when you become way too bothered to even think about that any more.

your temper, your mood, your body dictates the ordinance in the house. it's you who's in charge now.

[telesodalite]

Another rambling thought, sort of stemming from the last thing, but what if Misfire gets so upset about Krok believing he's contacting his old squad, and pretending or implying that they're still alive, because he's harboring some sort of repressed grief over Thundersaur?

Thundersaur's dying request being to free Flyhigh before he ends up in jail for a dozen counts of "accidental" murder implies a certain kind of closeness or something felt towards Misfire. Yet, we don't really see anything returned from Misfire's side? Outside of the "-You're just jealous because you've never had someone look out for you." comment he makes in response to Spinister's disbelief towards him being the type to end up on someone's "dying wish list".

So, there's that. What can be gleaned from just that? Not much ig, at least nothing concrete. But taking into account Misfire's relationship with Grimlock, and Grimlock's later view of Connie, perhaps something can be assumed about his relationship with Thundersaur.

Whether I'm reading into it too much or not, there is a theme of a sometimes rough but well intended trickle down kindness when it comes to the Scavengers and their story.

A favor or act of kindness is shown to one, and they return it back or onto another, sometimes unintentionally. There's emphasized acts of selflessness with them, even though we know them to be quite selfish, which, really only emphasizes those moments more. If they were written as less of a joking break between the drama of the Lost Light cast, perhaps this theme would've played a deeper more defined role. But anyways, my subjective character favoritism aside.

The point here is Misfire cared for Grimlock, and in turn, Grimlock chooses to care for Connie because it's "his turn" to look after someone. One act of empathy leads to another. There's a time to decide when it's your turn.

So it's possible it goes further back because of that. Thundersaur cared for Misfire, then it was Misfire's "turn" and he cared for Grimlock, and Grimlock cared for Connie.

So why doesn't Misfire say or mention anything about Thundersaur? Grimlock cares a lot for Misfire, wouldn't Misfire have cared a lot for Thundersaur?

Well, in a way, there's a possible answer for that. Misfire is shown to be uncomfortable when faced with admitting he cares for people, or needs people. He's uncomfortable with vulnerability. He gets defensive and snappy when pressed about it, or he deflects it away from himself, which is somewhat of a stark change to his more casual dramatics and honest friendliness. So he doesn't like talking about how he feels, how he really feels.

But he also admits to Grimlock he understands missing the people you cared about. He admits this in connection to Grimlock recalling the last time he was with his "Dino-Buddies", just before Grimlock was taken to Garrus 9. Misfire "gets it", even though it's hard, he gets it.

With all that possibly pointless evidence, we can guess that yeah, Misfire did care for Thundersaur. It's just that he, like the rest of the Scavengers, has his own repressed and poorly managed issues relating to his past and his own negative emotions.

Also, the death thing. He's real casual about dead stuff. He exsanguinates and cannibalizes corpses as a job/hobby, and enjoys it. There's an implied acceptance that he's okay with the fact that the Scavs will eat each other as soon as someone happens to keel over, which includes him also being dead and eaten. He's cool with that, ig. Or at least, he's cool with eating the others if the situation presents itself.

So he's got a weird relationship with life and death. When you're alive, you're a friend. When you're dead? Well, it's not really you anymore, is it? It's not someone you care about anymore, it's just a corpse, not a person, it's just resources in an empty vessel, not a friend. Nothing worth getting emotional or upset about. Perfect for being comfortably detached.

Because this is getting way too long tho, here's the point I'm trying to get to.

Why does Misfire lose his shit a little when Krok starts panicking and trying to call for his squad? Here's my theory, I guess.

Thundersaur is dead. He died, and he's gone, and Misfire knows this. He wasn't there. He didn't get to say goodbye. He didn't get to return the favor or repay the debt. He didn't get to show Thundersaur that he cared for others too, that he passed that on.

But while he accepts it, he doesn't want to think about it. Doesn't want to dwell on it, doesn't want to acknowledge that he misses Thundersaur. He's dead, he's gone. So it doesn't matter. Misfire can't need him anymore, and he doesn't want to admit he needs anyone anymore, because someone he relied on is dead, and he wasn't there for them to rely on in turn.

So he doesn't think about it. But Krok does. Krok thinks about it, and talks about it, and still admits to needing his dead. Even if he won't acknowledge the fact that they're dead, and gone, and never coming back, no matter how much he wants or needs them anymore.

And it feels unfair, and Krok keeps unintentionally poking at that repressed grief Misfire won't touch. A reminder with every click of that dismembered finger, that you can't always just will away the grief of loss, of death. There's going to be reminders everywhere. Even close to you. And so, faced with reminder after reminder, the repression breaks, and Misfire snaps because-

They're all dead.

Krok's squad is dead. Thundersaur is dead. Why can't they accept that and just move on to never talking about it, never mentioning it, never thinking about it again?

Because, in their own ways, neither of them have ever truly moved on.

[twistedappletree]

this app’s shitty autocorrect will let me type ANYTHING except Jin Ling 😭

[heartshattering]

no no no no I can't be getting a "how to make your life perfect - step one - just clean your entire house! :)" post right now at 5 AM after I just took half a sleeping pill fuck I don't want to redo my entire life right now I can't do it it's too overwhelming it's too much for me to handle like I know I need to clean but fuck it's too much I'm gonna explode just from the thought of it I just can't I can't I can't

[modern-inheritance]

A Note: Arya doesn’t remember any of what happened while she was in the Dream State, only bits and flashes of the initial probably handful of hours as she got ‘settled’ and mapped out what was what, and then the chaos of trying to wake up after Brom touched her mind as a ‘hey you brain dead?’ nudge and found her alive but struggling to leave the dream state (which is why it’s so dangerous to trigger it on purpose).

She only starts to remember small pieces of the Fäolin-thing and what went on during that particular part after Glen brings her to the gravesite that they laid Fäolin at. Which, due to a very distressed Glen’s intervention, is not in his home village, but is in the meadow where he and Arya met as elflings. Glen was extremely insistent that they bury Fäolin and grow his tree there, because it was as close to Arya as he could be without her body.

…Glen’s always been a wingman, he’s a very sweet type.

[intertexts]

sorry for complaining so much about my current situation however it's kind of like my personally tailored saw trap or something

[writerfae]

So while working on religion I wrote that for the fae part of a wedding is asking for the gods’ blessing for their love

and now all that I can imagine is a fae having everything go wrong on their wedding day, running around in a panic like “nope we can’t do this. This is a sign. The gods hate us. I quit.”

Meanwhile their partner is trying to calm them down like “don’t worry, darling. they don’t hate us. We’ll be fine. Things like this just happen.”

[ricoka]

I wish this us election year was over because I'm so tired of it already

[weirdasscomments]

[thegardengrows-infrozenrain]

"his untimely demise" maybe for YOU. it was right on schedule for me.

[twistedappletree]

The fact that I s actually d o hat w Al hoop and now I’m sor dying Monaco I love you all

[pallases]

urghdjf i need an interest to just absolutely throw myself into

[brainwasheddd]

I Am Going To Scream

[fujouppy]

cant believe ei decided that the best way to achieve eternity was thru giving herself dpdr on purpose. like Girl .

[kingkatsuki]

I think I came untouched.

Just a lil sketch for the day :,))