#oh i also doodled like 3 sims

[silentgrim]

playing ts3 again and i swear this ugly ass game speaks to my soul we’re so similar it’s scary

[babybinko]

My second batch of venture bros genderbends are finally done! :D [first set here]

PLEASE LOOK UNDER THE CUT!!! I made all these nice drawings and doodles of them and I want people to see them without this post being super long! :') [My thoughts on the designs and doodles will be under the cut as well]

Okay NOW I'm going talk about my thought process on some of these:

Baby Rusty: I love the baby Rusty, the frilly socks and sleeves were a must. I actually drew her with the original set of genderbends but I turned off her layer and forgot about her 💀

Jonas Jr: not much to say about her, I tried to make her like Rosie the Riveter. Her little bandana has the Venture logo on it :)

Jonas Sr: I wanted her to be a hot bitch, her outfit is maybe a little scandalous for the time era they were in but I think it fits, canon Jonas is a whore. I think everybody would want her and that every celebrity, politician, and anybody with any power would chase after her so badly.

Blue Morpho: I made her so incredibly slay. I fucking love her outfit, I found the inspo for the outfit on Pinterest but I changed it up a bit. Also her gun has the bayonetta butterfly wings on it as a charm because I HAD TO.

Colonel Gentleman: Not a lot to say, I wanted to give her like horse riding esque boots and I gave her a purple flower cause she likes the ladies. I know generally WLW flowers are Violets and Lavender but I wanted to draw a rose so, Purple rose compromise <3

Dr.Boyfriend 2: With my last round Dr.Boyfriend was the only one people had complaints with. I think people wished he was more Masculine and I agree but if I switched up the design too much it wouldn't look like Dr.Girlfriend. I hope giving him armor and making him look like a knight helped him look more masc. I made the sheer wings cross over his chest to make it look like it was holding up the shoulder armor. Also his guild book is insanely high quality because I was procrastinating drawing his armor.

Goofy and Goober (Watch and Ward): I think they ended up really cute, I tried to make their hair colors close to Doc and Jacksons since I heard they are supposed to be like their "main" self inserts. With Ward I had a really specific idea for her hair, I kept thinking about this haircut from my sims and had to do it. It might be hard to see but her ponytail holders have skull charms on them. I also purposely gave them both some sort of ponytail hairstyle so they would match but be slightly different :) (They are absolutely prank calling or trolling their clients on that phone btw)

Shoreleave: OH MY GOD I LOVE SHORELEAVE. I kept turning her folder back on just to keep looking at her when I was drawing the other characters. She is so captivating to me, she looks so soft and human. I want to take a bite out of her thigh. My biggest inspo for her was Cammy from Street Fighter, I felt like her dressing a bit skimpy works for her since canon Shoreleave kinda does. The girls out for the girls.

Alchemist: I love her design so much too. I wanted her to look like some kind of nun or priestess. She looks like if a Zelda fire temple was a person. I kinda gave her like a weird little hime cut under the hood. Also I put the Triad logo on all three of their designs (+ Triana).

Jefferson: Had a lot of fun with her, I didnt change her design much from canon though so there's not much to say. I did give her more flared pants though. Drawing her hair was a really fun change of pace, I very rarely get to draw textured hair.

College Rusty and Monarch Drawing: I love this one, Monarch turned out so hot dude. You can tell what character I like more LMFAO. I made rusty very obnoxious 80s while keeping the colors of the original college rusty outfit. Monarch kind of looks like postal dude but its fine because shes slay.

Hereditary Venture Family Dinner Drawing: This was one of the first drawings I started but the second to last one I finished. I wanted to draw the family doing something together but I think I really truly just wanted to draw Dermott again. 😭 Nobody has said anything if they noticed but I did give hatred the shirt from these edits. (I believe the one on the left is from reddit and the one on the right is by SquashFold on Twitter)

Dermott piercing Dean's ears drawing: Even though its messy its in the top 3 favorites I did, It was also the last one I did. I just love the idea of Dermott giving goth Dean at home ear piercings. At first I didn't know if I wanted to make Dermott giving her piercings at the mall where she works or at home but the mall idea was too much work for a last minute sketch. Dermott is so mean older sister who shoplifts and works at the mall.

Drug bathroom drawing: Another one of my favorites, its based off a specific deleted scene from Invisible Hand of Fate where Pete and Rusty talk at the bar but Pete comes out of the bathroom sniffling at the start. I love the way I drew Pete pushing the hair out of her face and both of their expressions.

Bdsm 21 drawing: Okay first of all, The little devil Monarch was so cute I was screaming, crying, and throwing up while drawing her. I fucking love her, shes the smallest part of the image but my favorite. I also am quite fond of the bdsm 21.

Quizgirls Pete and Billy: I tried looking up Vanna White dresses to base Pete's outfit off of but I couldn't find one that Pete would actually wear so I just had to make shit up. Billy's design is really basic but the bow in her hair is actually from one of my rejected main Billy genderbends.

Me and The Bestie: I put a lot of effort into this one for no reason. Literally the moment I saw Jonas in the problem machine I thought he should be made of like blue slime. When I was working on this I kept thinking about Momopatchi's Hatsune Microbe drawing so this Jonas was definitely inspired by that. I gave Jonas makeup because she was having a party movie night on gargantua and I felt like she would still have makeup on thats like completely fucked up and deteriorating on her face after many many years. Vendata's outfit was partially based on Marguerite Chapman's from Flight to Mars, never seen it but I was looking up old sci-fi movie costumes to work with and I thought it would look good :)

[imtoolazytoo]

So I finished Malevolent episode 12! And I got thoughts!

Spoilers under the little photo cause I… still can’t figure out how to make read more/keep reading links on tumblr mobile :,)

(Heheh I doodled them last night)

Jaune… John… God dammit

I had a feeling John might be The King In Yellow, but I didn’t wanna believe it! But he has humanity now. And… He doesn’t want to kill Arthur. He care him. I don’t care if it’s not canon I say homosexual activities are at play.

Arthur is really doing the Jonathan Sims speedrun any percent. (TMA S1 spoilers here!) I don’t know what’s worse: Being buried into by thousands of tiny worms or having a giant larvae (???) cling onto your stomach and suck the blood out of it! Either way: EEEEWWW

HE CARE HIM

The sounds of Arthur’s happiness and lil chuckles are giving me life

Happiness is stored in the Orthor

The implication that The King can’t fully take over Arthur’s mind not just because of John’s humanity, but because of the memory that Arthur has of his daughter… do not talk to me for 3 to 5 business days

WHAT HAPPENED TO HER, MAN?!?

Love how not listening to John about the lamp immediately screwed Arthur over. Listen to your husband more often, Arthur. Kiss his hand maybe why don’t you do that huh I’d say that’s a good apology oh my god I love them

My screams at Arthur have gone from screams of pure frustration to screams of pure frustration AND concern! Character growth!!! Good for you Arthur!

Oh yeah Kellin’s here. Hi Kellin :D

Fuck I hope I can finish writing this before I get to the bus stop

The dreamlands! WHOOHOO! But also! Oh no!

I didn’t think we’d get answers for what bound John and Arthur in the first season, but I’m not complaining!

…I’m sorry to give some of you older fans a heart attack… But in terms of homestuck classpecting I think John would be a Prince of Void. I’m so sorry.

JOHN. CARE. HIM!

So. That’s most of my thoughts. I LOOOOOVED THIS PODCAST!!! I never thought I’d be able to find anything that recreated what TMA meant to me, and while I still think that… DAMN, THIS IS CLOSE!!! And it’s its own little experience to seperate the two and make this so amazing and RAH RAH RAH I LOVE THIS I LOVE YOU MALEVOLENT HARLAN GUTHRIE I APPLAUD YOU!!!

But I do have one big thought in my head. I’m assuming the goal of season 2 will be to kill or just defeat The King In Yellow in order to keep Arthur’s body safe and escape the Dreamlands. But here’s the thing. If John is a part of The King’s soul… wouldn’t killing The King kill John as well? What if we get given the choice of killing The King or sparing him to save John, and Arthur chooses mercy? Because as much as he wants his body back, he doesn’t want to lose John??? I WOULD SCREAM!

And I swear to The King himself if I get reblogs like “You sweet Summer child” “No one tell her” “Oh you poor soul” like I did on my Faroe post I will throw kitchen appliances out of windows

That’s not a metaphor I just think breaking wooden spoons would do the least financial damage to me

[papermint-airplane]

😭👪🙈 for Rio - 🌌🙉💓 for Aiden - 💗🎵🔫 for Roman - Please? :)

Rio:

😭 CRYING - what makes them cry? do they cry easily?

It's not easy to make Rio cry. She doesn't express her emotions outwardly very often. Well, not all of them, at least. Annoyance, yes, she expresses that one outwardly all the time, but everything else sort of gets bottled up inside her and channeled out through her hobbies. Rio probably hasn't cried since she was very young.

👪 FAMILY - what is their family like? what is your ocs relationship to them? does your oc have any siblings?

It's no secret that Rio adores her big brother, Roman. They're all each other has had for years now. Rio was raised by her brother after their mom ran out on them. Rio was just a child, Roman was just a teenager, and neither one of them had any idea what to do now that they were on their own. They sort of had to make things up as they went along. As a result, their bond is diamond-strong and they trust each other implicitly.

🙈 SEE-NO-EVIL - whats a side of your oc that they don't want to show other people?

Rio. loves. cute things. 😱 I know, shocker. She'd rather die than admit it, but if you somehow manage to get a glimpse at her notebook, you'll see lots of cute little doodles in the margins. Mostly unicorns and flowers. She loves unicorns and flowers. She even has one or two plushies that she still hangs onto despite insisting that she's too old for them. When she's sure nobody is looking, she'll plant a little smooch on their little fabric foreheads.

Aiden:

🌌 MILKY WAY - what was the inspiration behind your oc? what was the first thing you decided about them?

Oh God. Ok buckle the fuck up. When I was 18 and playing Sims 2, I discovered the Sims community for the first time. I wanted to create a Bachelor/Bachelorette-type...thing...challenge? I guess you could call it a challenge. Anyway, I wanted other members of the community to participate because there was a show called "Married by America" airing at the time and I liked the concept of live voting. So I had people vote on the forum each week to see who would get voted off. Aiden, in his Sims 2 form, was a contestant vying for the hand of the lovely Bachelorette. Except he wasn't there willingly. He was new to Earth and had somehow gotten swept up in this reality show. He was constantly having mental breakdowns because everything was so new and strange to him. He was there a while. People really like seeing this boy suffer.

The first thing I decided for him was his name. I named him Aiden because it kind of sounds like alien, and also the idea of a space version of Ireland existing made me laugh. I can't really explain that part. I was a weird kid. I forgot what his original last name was so when I recreated him in the Sims 3, I gave him the last name Ayy because of the alien "ayy lmao" meme. I thought it fit because, you know, alien but also that it's sort of ironic because the alien in the meme is a laid-back stoner and Aiden is anything but laid-back.

🙉 HEAR-NO-EVIL - what is the worse thing your oc could hear from someone?

Anything his internal monologue tells him about himself. "You're a burden," "you make everything more difficult for the people around you," "people would be happier if you were gone." Hearing it from your own brain is one thing, but if anyone said that to him in real life? I don't think he could handle it.

💓 BEATING HEART - what gets their heart racing?

Aiden is a romantic at heart. He wants to be swept off his feet by the right Sim (any gender; Aiden is pan). You know those shoujo manga where the main character is walking with her senpai under a row of cherry trees as the blossoms flutter down around them? Aiden wants that. His little heart would just doki doki right out of his chest.

Roman:

💗 GROWING HEART - if they have a crush, is it noticable? what changes when they're in love?

Roman's a pretty big flirt so it's not immediately noticeable if he has a crush. It doesn't mean that he's a horndog, necessarily. He just really enjoys the back-and-forth banter of flirting, regardless of who it's with. It's when he's not flirting with someone that you start to think something is up. When he goes from suggestive innuendos to actual concrete displays of affection, you know he's got it bad.

🎵 MUSIC NOTE - what is their playlist like? their favourite artists? do you associate a particular song with them?

You know, it's funny, but I've never been the kind of person who creates playlists for my characters. I know a lot of people do, like my dear friend @happy-lemon makes these incredible playlists that somehow perfectly describe her characters, but I've never really been able to do that. There isn't any particular song that reminds me of Roman...however...

Ok this is weird. Stick with me.

When I'm writing Rogue Town, I usually have YouTube Music on in the background. I'll start with whatever song is in my head at the moment and then let the algorithm decide what plays next. Somehow, and I don't know how, it always ends up looping back to Hotel California. I don't know why. I'll be listening to Kpop and it ends up on Hotel California. I'll be listening to 80s funk and it ends up on Hotel California. I'll be listening to early 00s Nu Metal AND IT ENDS UP ON FUCKING HOTEL CALIFORNIA!!!!!!!!!! I guess you could say it's one of those songs you can check out any time you like but you can never leave. 🙄

So, while the lyrics don't fit Roman or his situation at all, I guess I'll always associate Hotel California with him.

🔫 PISTOL - do they trust people easily? how easily will they turn their back to someone? have they been backstabbed before? will they betray someone if given an ultimatum?

Roman is the most trusting guy you'll ever meet. Until he isn't. He'll let you come into his home, sleep in his bed, eat his food, wear his clothes, and act like you're part of the family...until you do something to hurt his sister. Then all bets are off. If you're willing to hurt someone who is, in his eyes, an innocent child, you are no longer trustworthy. Until then? You can do whatever you want to him and he'll still naively believe you didn't mean it and keep you in his life. Is that trust? Or is that something else? It's hard to tell with him. But yeah, he's been backstabbed before. That remains to be examined in the narrative. Whenever I get to it.

[nightmaretherabbit]

🎮 - what do your alters/headmates do in their free time?

🪐 - what is headspace like for you?

Kinda answered the first one last night but!

So I like to play the Sims 4 a lot, also listen to a lot of Melanie Martinez<3 she's my favorite ever!!

Schmidt draws stuff sometimes and naps a lot.

Michael does whatever he feels like, sometimes he just lays down and watches tv sometimes he does little doodles. Sometimes he just sits there.

William cleans a lot or organizes stuff or just hangs out with Henry.

Henry just likes to sit around, maybe read a book or be with William

Stu loves to make stimboards! That's one of his favorite things to do right now!!

Moon likes to do the tech stuff but sometimes he lays down and listens to music boxes for hours

Oh and I learned that Void likes to cook also!

EDIT: IGNORE THAT I FORGOT THE SECOND QUESTION !!

So it looks like the Afton house structure wise because host really loves fnaf 4 lol

But each of our rooms fit us and what we like. So basically it's a house! :D

[pinkpenguin12401]

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April 27th, 2024:

Today I went to Montclair NJ with some family friends. I ended up not spending a lot of time with them directly, I ended up walking around on my own doing a lot of exploring and learning about myself. I learned that I want to start setting more long-term goals. ( ꩜ ᯅ ꩜;)  I'm going to be 26 next month, I am SO NOT ready for that!

I also drew a lot today, I did mostly observational sketches of random women I saw while sitting on a bench. I also drew my point of view from the back seat on the way to Montclair. I also doodled my baby, Ivan, if I don't draw him at least once a day, something is very wrong. LOL.

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I did go out to lunch alone during the day trip! My dad was super nice and gave me lunch money for when I go out. (Thanks Dad!). I went to a very small ramen restaurant. I tried shouyu ramen for the first time. WHY DIDN'T ANYONE TELL ME TO TRY THAT SOONER??? I HAVE BEEN MISSING OUT. ‎𐂐◯𓇋

At one point I was in the like circle of churches. And I sat down on a bench and I was relaxing, and some little curly-haired dog ran up to me and started snuggling my legs. And his owners were like "Bentley, Bentley stop it!"

Fun fact, my dog's name is Bentley. ૮ ˆﻌˆ ა When I looked up he finally listened to his owners, and I saw a congregation of my faith directly across the street from me. My one friend said it was God intervening. What a strange coincidence though. I don't know what to make of it yet. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Not much else happened, I came home around 6 and my mom and I had a huge discussion on random things while tidying up the kitchen together. We managed to get along. Which is rare. ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭

Alright, now it is time for me to go do my Duolingo, some math, and some journaling. (And maybe buy the Sims 3 since it's on sale- we'll see!).

Have a good night! Oh, here are some photos I took!

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[yourbuddy1984]

It's 1am, I am trying (and failing) to sleep. And I was thinking.

How would Buddy hold a 3ds. Or any game controller for that matter

Mans fucking fingies are too long. He will never know the wonders of Pokemon X

I think he can at least play a switch with joycons (only if they're attached) or a ds with like. Using the very tips of his fingers to hold it. His joints are long enough to where I don't *think* it would feel weird. He most certainly cannot hold a like regular controller. I guess he can also use a keyboard but using a mouse probably feels fucking weird

(Also the thing about using a 3ds or switch is mans is so fucking tall he's gonna have to sit in a real awkward position just to see the screen good. Well it's not like he's ever had good posture anyways </3 He was born to be a gamer)

...Well if anything he can watch Friendo play viddy games I guess. Just like in canon :)

(I can't sleep and wanted to get this out of my brain and I like talking to you. Please excuse me ;; Been thinking about replaying old ds games and this popped into my brain lol)

so true and real!!! goddd buddy ... i think.. buddy could use a joystick to game, maybe? ive never played with one myself, but i think they could just grab it and game !! ya know?? these things

one hand for grabbing other for pressing little buttons... other than that, maybe some kind of gaming pad? something like this, maybe... arcade gamer perhaps? also i doodled a buddy losing at candycrush with a joycon i think theyd suck at it

buddy and pokemon.. this reminds me of this art by nintendraw with buddy and friendo as gym leaders:33 i dont know That Much about pokemon, the only pkmn game i ever played in my life was pokemon dungeon gates to infinity and i havent finished that yet </3 though i DID name my friend pikachu in that 'buddy' :3 ohh maybe buddy could enjoy text based games? like the first one they make for you, where you type stuff !!! theres gotta be some kinda keyboard thats accessible to them... or maybe twine games!!!

buddy and undertale... GUH!!!! i agree that they wouldnt do the genocide route.. i think maybe they'd.. like, maybe they think they Have to kill the first few enemies they meet, but then when toriel reveals that you shouldnt kill them, they'd stop... but then we gotta take into account that in buddy sim you befriend enemies by beating them to death, so its possible buddy would persist in their killings? no... i'm mistaken. i think undertale could teach them valuable lessons about friendship (like, "dont beat up your friends").. i think they'd like papyrus:) oh god the dogs. buddy is a pacifist Unless theyre faced with a dog ❤️guhh buh the true ending (is that what its called i forgorrr) would jsut.. like.. itd GET them... itd hit them in the HEART!!!! secret buddy sim ending number 5 where you and buddy play undertale together ❤️

[candy-fae]

hey! i heard you’re doing that gotham rogue dating sim game and I AM HERE FOR IT! i know making a game can be kinda tough so if u need any help im 100% willing to get on board with this <3

Hello there! I'm gonna take this as an opportunity to like, talk about the sim so far so just STAY WITH ME HERE-

So! Couple things. I started the game as a silly little joke, making it with an iPad, an easy to use application, and literal stock backgrounds just to that I could have a place to put them, and start them existing.

Second, I'm not a writer! I like romance, but more so I'm good at crazy scenarios.

And boy howdy. There are crazy scenarios.

So off the bat, if there's anyone who wants to spitball and just talk about fun date ideas for these idiots, my humble messages are open. That would be a ton of help actually.

You might be thinking, "but Candy, didn't you already start making it? And you haven't finished even writing it?"

And the answer is HAHAHAHAHA I have never in my life thought anything through before doing it and I am not about to start here. That said. Having the idea, means I can go buck wild in the moment and have some pretty interesting things happen. (Like the riddlers routes being not thought out at all, yet so, SO much fun.)

However, the elephant in the room is definitely how LONG everyone has to wait, so, I'm giving that an, "I dunno, wherever I'm done."

I don't work on it all the time. I actually don't work on it much at all lately. Probably haven't opened the app in weeks just because I'm not focused on it. Out of sight out of mind I suppose, but, I do plan on finishing it. For everyone who wants, AND myself to enjoy. :) but, I don't plan on overwhelming myself so I work on it pretty much at my own leisure.

If anyone wants to help, I guess there are two main things. I am using STOCK BACKGROUNDS LIKE AN ANIMAL. I HATE BACKGROUNDS. if you want to go crazy and draw what you think the riddlers Hideout looks like, send it in, and say "here just use this" then ta da!! You get your name in the credits. And my eternal friendship because ummmm *swirls hair* do u wanna be friends haha.

I could also use, as mentioned, said spitballs. "I think the Scarecrow should get u some ice cream" oh okay purr thanks for your idea, I'll consider it. "How about this route..... " oh. OH we have a writer over here. Okay okay, let's discuss and get to doodling.

If it's not obvious, I have no clue what I'm doing, but it's actually going sort of okay, and I have a confidence I do not deserve about it.

And if it makes the wait any sweeter, I'm making some of the starring rogues some valentines day cards for you all. As a thanks for the wait 💗

[vargaslovinghours]

Lucky number seven 🎲✨ (1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6)

Oh yeah btw there is a considerable amount of Edgar/Scriabin this time around so like - look out for that I guess lol

[MAY9] Thinking about healing plane Edgar had me very excited, big anticipation and looking forward to seeing him hehe ♪

[MAY16] I didn’t plan for it, but Incoming was basically the prototype of trying out minicomics with sketchier panels - it was a good start! You can also see more of the panel differences in the stream itself, Nny’s hair probably being the biggest one haha

[MAY16] Speaking of - since Scriabin’s expression was central to this panel, it’s interesting to me to see the original draft vs. the final version

[MAY18] I ended up with this mini in multiple stages of completion because I was struggling with it which made for some interesting progression-style gifs!

[MAY18]  I think this one was definitely the most extreme out of all the panels, just pop! There they are

[JUN8] Shy Lady!Edgar ♥ Too hot out to wear much, but too embarrassed to show off ✨

[JUN8] Lady!Scriabin getting into mischief she shouldn’t and bothering Edgar, the usual. I love writing out keysmashes, there’s something very funny about it to me

[JUN13] Mwah mwah mwah, so many hearts and happies 💕

[JUN14] And Also With You hands ♥ I made myself a little cheat sheet of the order the shackles attached themselves, I wanted to make an injury index as well but couldn’t swing it, maybe next time

[JUN14] A set of Vargas-style eye expressions! Specifically Edgar, or at least his body

[JUN14] A couple of pleading and contrite Edgars; got the image specifically as a spacefiller, it all worked out exactly as planned haha

[JUN29] I wasn’t kidding, I was very 👀✨💕 about his shirt riding up lol

[JUL2] Possibly the best bonewings I’ve drawn so far, I almost wish they were more of the focus haha. Well they are here! Central and important ✨

[JUL17] I still so love how goofy Demon!Scriabin is, casual and light! Doodling him spinning his tail was fun ♪

[JUL2] They still fight like cats and dogs, natural enemies and counterparts. The chains are just an additional directional tool, it’s all in the utilization

[JUL9] The aforementioned sketchy scratchy minicomic project, finally in full swing! The first one had them quietly interested and in agreement ♪

[JUL9] Well, at first anyway haha

[JUL9] They just can’t help themselves ♥

[JUL9] He’s baby your honour

[JUL17] No one likes a peeping tom, Scriabin!

[JUL17] Come run away with me to a convent with only a bunch of other women come onnnnn, we can totally pretend to just be devout about it ♥

[JUL17] What was I watching, I think it was an r/sapphoandherfriend video and there was a statue of two topless ladies kissing in the background of a failed proposal of a gentleman to the lady who owned said statue lol; an extremely cute pose on top of the environmental storytelling haha

[JUL17] More kisses, sleepy, fuzzy, out-of-it kisses

[JUL18] This was meant to be the original shape of Scriabin’s sheer shawl(?) in the digital Drider doodles but I unfortunately combined the layers before I meant to :’) At least I got to draw it here! Spiderweb design 🕸

[JUL18] @lunavos​ made mention of Scriabin holding onto Edgar with all his spare legs and mentally I was like “Funny you should say that-” haha, I’d only drawn as much maybe a day or so beforehand!

[JUL18] Just rests his entire body weight onto his oh so helpless human victim ♪

[JUL19] Continuing the trend of starting and then just not finishing pose ideas lol, I ended up losing steam because I think I had dialogue in mind? But I didn’t write anything down so I don’t actually remember :’D Floating Scriabin is always fun tho ♪

[JUL25] Not art, but I jumped back into Tomodachi Life for like, five seconds to quickly make an Edgar Mii because it is my mission to make the Vargases in as many character-customizable/life sims as possible. Unfortunately I literally only had one apartment left open so no Scriabin this time around :( Let’s just say this is while he’s still hanging out in Edgar’s head; I have given him at least one speech line to indicate that Edgar’s talking to him in there lol

[JUL29] It doesn’t count as long as you declare it first! I’m quite pleased with Scriabin’s expression in the second panel, cute ♥

[JUL28] Felt very inspired by WASU_ART’s extremely cute paper dolls and made a base ♪ Does it defeat the purpose of a live-action animation tool if I make a vector with a static pose? Hmmm

[JUL30] What you mean you don’t just casually draw softcore at the library using their scrap paper and pens? I made sure I was away from any potentially bothered eyes lol dw

[JUL30] A healing plane Scriabin for a warmup, what a floof <3

[AUG1] Another panel from the scratch project, I’m so amused with how his face turned out lol

[AUG1] Kiss-dip Edgar, it’s a good way to trick him into hugging him/holding onto him for dear life

[AUG1] And, done! What do I win? Even for just a sketch, I’m quite pleased with the depth on his shaded arm haha

[AUG1] I unfortunately had to scrap this one because I wrote down a specific injury and then forgot it when I went to draw, so it’s more like an offshoot of Restful Dreams - the expressions still turned out nice tho so here they are ✨

[AUG1] Scriabin yelling at a very aggressive scribble, I mean Shmee. Poor Todd, trying to play peacekeeper between them ♥

[AUG1] He just completely deflates in water, amazing ✨ It’s always fun to draw soaked-over-the-head stuff, it’s so silly haha

[AUG5] A handsome Edgar in a nice jacket and turtleneck combo - even tho he was drawn in Summer, just gotta give that Autumnal vibe

[AUG5] How many doubles would Edgar realistically need or have? Time to go thrifting for the less obvious necessities!

[AUG5] A brushed and put-together Scriabin taunting Edgar into fluster? He’s just too handsome, right?

[AUG5] A digital Scriabin that I had a lot of fun with the composition of - the string comes from offscreen and cuts him off like a panel but it’s not a panel! Magic ✨

[AUG6] Scriabin has Edgar’s attention taken away from him for two seconds and he gets So Mad about it haha

[AUG6] Cornered and kissed, what a terrible fate 💕

[AUG6] Ladies do be shopping tho. They’re so tall! They must get asked to pull stuff off the top shelves all the time

[AUG6] If ever chocolate was an essential item, it would be now

[AUG7] Don’t pick on Edgar, she doesn’t always think through her statements! Just because that makes it easy to twist her words!

[AUG7] Hugs ♥ Hugs for Edgar ♥ Time for Scriabin cuddles ♥ No hope of escape ♥

[AUG7] Exit, pursued by Scriabin. You can’t hide from him, Edgar!

[AUG7] Now poke me back

[AUG7] Maybe if you stopped being mean to each other you wouldn’t keep being mad at each other? No? Okay cool

[AUG9] An Eros and Apollo-style Scriabin, specifically based on the frame around 0:53 - super fluffy! And oddly sludgy (And definitely not at all inspired by the post that introduced me to this song in the first place, Scriabin could never be described as egoistic! Lol)

[AUG12] A mini I don’t plan to finish, but it’s still cute

[AUG12] Come on, Edgar, you know he’s playing you

[AUG12] So excited ♪

[AUG12] Y’know Edgar, I think that might have been a trick actually

[AUG12] Seeing something he shouldn’t be seeing! You know the verse about plucking out one’s eye if it causes you to sin? Does that mean his main, already blank eyes or...?

[AUG13] I cut the punchline ‘cause it gives away the entire joke, but I do love Edgar’s sleepy indignance and Scriabin’s *scandalized gasp* lol

[AUG13] Out using a library computer perhaps, got a lot of studying to do

[AUG13] “I was way faster when I was a computer!”

[AUG13] Scriabin and Jake discussing stuff that Edgar’s too uncomfortable with ♪ There’s so much to learn!

[AUG15] I really like the composition of this one hehe

[AUG15] I ended up scrapping this pose but her face really did turn out very cute ♥

[AUG15] Lady snuggles ♥ Scriabin’s close to listening to her heart 💕

[AUG20] Was struck with the image of them holding each other’s chibi counterparts -  they’re both so round and tiny!

[AUG21] What ended up being a single panel continuation of Outgoing, he’s gotta be in there somewhere!

[AUG22] Ladyverse Biblical Vargases 💕✨ What no I don’t already have a song picked out specifically for them you can’t prove anything

[AUG22] Casually sloppy Lady!Scriabin ✨ An open pose is very cute

[AUG25] Uncomfortable Edgar, inching away so as not to alert the invitation-extender :)

[SEP17] Somebody asking him about his scars just one too many times, can’t believe this was inspired by Spamton of all things lol

[SEP17] If he can smell “sad” you better believe he can smell other things too ♪ I’ve written down Edgar saying “That’s not a smell” more than once, why do I find it so funny lol

[SEP20] Guess what someone was doing right outside our window :)

[SEP20] Confrontation?? No way! But Scriabin knew that haha ♪

So that’s the end of May through September! A few different kinds of styles, digital stuff, longer projects - branching out :0 It’s fun to see :D

[sheepiling]

Another Get To Know Me Tag!

This time much more random! 

I was tagged by @cantseemtohide 💕 Thanks! 

1. What do you have under your bed? 

Some cat toys that are difficult to reach. My cats keep taking them under the bed with them and I can’t help them get their toys back so I guess they’ll just stay under the bed until one of my cats bothers to take it back out. 

2. Favorite candy? 

Oh noes, I have quite a few. I love most of the Wonka candies, especially Laffy Taffy and SweetTarts. I also love the Salt Water Taffy you get from Cracker Barrel, Trolli Sour Gummy Worms, Lotte Koume Plum Candy, Aciduladitos, Pelon Pelo Rico Tamarindo, Obleas, and my most favorite is the homemade Cajeta that mi Suegra keeps buying for me every time she visits Mexico... I have 3 tubs of it in my kitchen rn... 

3. Describe your favorite shirt 

BoxLunch sells a recreation of the Wreck-It Ralph 2 Cinderella G2G Sweatshirt and that is my favorite shirt. I wore it to Disney World last may. Cinderelly is my favorite princess! 💙 

4. The last thing you drew/doodled was: 

I drew pentacles in the sand at a public beach~♥⍟ 

5. Are you completely sober rn? 

I’m a caffeine junkie so I don’t know if I could ever say I’m completely sober... Maybe for like 15 mins in the morning before I have my coffee. Though if we’re not counting caffeine, then yes. I only drink wine during rituals/holidays, I don’t really like alcohol. And smoking is a big no-no for me. 

6. What’s the one thing that annoys you more than anything? 

Pants. They’re always either too tight or too loose. I only have like 2 pairs that fit comfortably. And when they wear out from getting washed too frequently ‘cuz they’re the only pants I wear, it’ll be a whole process of looking through shops until I finally find another pair of comfortable pants and it’s just the worst process. 

7. Have you ever gotten your tongue stuck to a cold pole during winter? 

Nope! I ate snow a lot, but never went around licking poles. 

8. If you could be anywhere in the world right now, where would it be? 

Back at Disney World 💔  it’s so expensive tho 

9. What was the single last word you spoke? 

My husband went to get us Whataburger just now and after telling him I wanted Biscuits and Gravy I said the usual “be safe I love you” before he drove off on a quest for breakfast. 

Now in return I will tag: @sassie-sims @miss-may-i @sweetpyxels and @asimofmanyhats 

[simstryingtheirbestok]

get to know me - useless info edition

@papermint-airplane tagged me into this and I'm going to suppress my awkwardness long enough to do it.

what do you have under your bed? 

This fold-up fake tatami mat that I put under my futon. Also sometimes marbles or small bouncy balls from my cat because if you hide a toy, it makes it brand-new when you find it again. It is apparently also very exciting when your person vacuums them up by accident and erupts in a stream of invective.

favorite candy? 

I toggle between peppermint patties and Mounds. Right now it's peppermint patties because 'tis the season blah blah.

describe your favorite shirt. 

A plain V-necked, 3/4-sleeve all-cotton medium gray shirt from the ultra chic, super exclusive, boutique artisanal St. John's Bay label at JC Penney's. 😂 Idgaf. I am at baseline an un-fancy person who became even less fancy during the pandemic.

the last thing you drew/doodled was:

The floor plan of a house in a custom world that I won't name because it was a really impossible house to play in, and I drew it out so I could expand the floor plan and make an improved version.

You know those houses that look adorable from the neighborhood screen, adorable in their thumbnails, adorable from the outside--and then you get inside and there are all these 1 x 1 tile bottlenecks because the builder cared more about appearance than function? It was that.

Builds like that make me so upset, and they're everywhere. Build like that for your irl dolls, not the Sims!

are you completely sober rn?

I am, and mostly have been for the last 5 years! I make one exception on NYE, then it's back on the wagon for the rest of the year.

It's the only way to fly for someone like me, who otherwise will decide to celebrate it being Tuesday. Wouldn't Fat Tuesday be even fatter if it happened every week? And Friday, that's mandatory, you've simply got to drink Friday, plus, Thursday is a kind of pre-Friday, isn't it? Yeah, it's Friday Eve! That deffo calls for some shots. Saturday is for pre-gaming with friends, then drinking some more--you wouldn't want to be antisocial--and Sunday there's a big game on that will be way too boring to watch without beer, and--

So. Once a year, and then that once-a-year usually reminds me why once a year is enough (because I don't do moderation).

what's one thing that annoys you more than anything? 

I am trying to be less annoyed by things, but I'm still annoyed by enough things that picking only one is a challenge.

But I guess my build mode rant up there fits here too so, that. Oh and hey, I know "cozy" is very in right now, but while you technically can call a 2 x 4 room a bedroom... you probably shouldn't.

have you ever gotten your tongue stuck to a cold pole during winter? 

No, I've spent too much of my life in the sunbelt for that to be a thing for me.

if you could be anywhere in the world right now, where would it be?

I know it's a cliche, but Paris. I am exactly the kind of tourist they hate--I dress terribly (see above), I butcher the language, I'm overweight, I'm basic in every respect--but I find their disdain for me absolutely adorable (and tbh somewhat justified) and my God, the food.

what was the last single word you spoke? 

"Safe." I always end my goodbyes to people with "drive safe."

tagging:

I would love to see responses from @simsdastra, @oasislandingresident, and @distantloner if any of you feel so inclined? No pressure.

[bluejayblueskies]

An AU where Jon is the occult tattoo artist and Gerry is the Archivest but they keep their canon fashion styles?

send me an au and i'll give you 5+ headcanons about it!

1. jon runs a tattoo shop that specializes in giving tattoos to avatars that can heighten their powers or can give them other sorts of entity-related protections. he's In The Know but isn't actually affiliated with any entity, and he occupies this odd space where (sort of opposite to canon) nobody wants to kill him because he's basically a neutral party. gerry got all of his eye tattoos from jon and, since he was a repeat customer, they became friends!

2. gerry did Not know what to think about jon at first because when he walked into the shop, jon was standing there in oxfords, sweater vest, slacks, wire-rim glasses, hair tucked neatly up into a bun, and completely devoid of tattoos as far as he can see. (gerry later finds out that jon has a series of 14 tattoos running up his spine, one for each entity.) but then jon would casually drop things like 'yeah i was giving this woman a tattoo the other day and i had to keep starting over because her skin was wax and it would melt away before i was done' and 'i gave a man a tattoo of a pair of wings to help him transform into a bird and he actually started growing feathers as soon as i finished' into conversation and gerry was immediately like 'oh this guy fucks'

3. gerry became archivist after gertrude passed and kept up her tradition of working against the rituals (and in his case, also hunting down leitners). he basically leaves most of the actual archiving to his assistants and spends a lot of time out in the field. he amasses quite a collection of tattoos from jon to help him with his work, including a few eyes on the back of his hands that help him Know things about whatever he touches and a closed eye on his sternum to hide him from elias (who he doesn't trust).

4. jongerry! they have date nights where they'll cook together in jon's flat and jon will tell gerry stories about his clients and gerry will tell jon stories about whatever ridiculous things are happening at the archives. they both love spicy food so they make it a game to see how spicy they can make something before it's inedible. they watch horror together and make fun of how unrealistic it is. jon likes to doodle on gerry's arms and hands while they sit on the couch, and gerry always jokes that one of these days jon will draw something on him and accidentally set him on fire or something.

5. one day, gerry stumbles into jon's tattoo shop with like... some entity-related injury. maybe he got stabbed by a slaughter avatar or bitten by a hunt avatar or something.

jon 'i once sewed up a cut on my leg that definitely needed stitches myself' sims: why are you here?? go to the hospital??

gerry 'tried hospitals once for this kind of thing and it did Not Go Well' keay: no

so jon takes care of him and chides him about poking around in dangerous situations and tells him that the eye tattoos can only provide so much protection and gerry watches jon fuss over him, genuine concern in his eyes, and realizes that he might love jon just a little bit

[just-mars-writing]

Good Boy Gone Bad

Fandom: Enhypen

Member: Jakexoc

Genre: Angst

AU: nonidol!au

Trigger warning: Toxic relationships, heartbroken Jake, alcohol, cigarettes, mentions of drugs, use of curse words, verbal fights. Let me know If I should add anything!

Summary: Jake writes a diary in which he explains his first heartbreak from his first love.

Word count: 5.257

A/N: This is for @emeraldenha​ ‘s unlikely collab! Go check out the other works that have been submitted. This is my first collab ever and I know there’s room for improvement but thank you so much Ri for letting me participate <3

this is my first post after a very long mental health and work/college break, I was recently diagnosed with some conditions so I’ve been coping with that but hopefully my updating schedule get more consistent from now on!

Hi, my name is Jake Sim, I am currently twenty-two years old and today I’ll tell you about my first love at eighteen 

It all started that morning during math class, I had already seen her a million times before. Her beauty was something straight out of a fairy tale, even if some things didn’t exactly fit the “I just stepped into a magic closet and now I have to save the world” aesthetic. I had never heard or read of a princess that had prominent dark circles under her eyes adorned with clumps of mascara. I had never seen a princess that used vulgar language like her. I had never heard of a princess that reeked of cigarettes and cheap perfume, but I got used to it.

I got used to the curse words that she uttered in every single sentence. I got used to her friends being all over her. I got used to hearing her nightly adventures that took place almost everyday of the week. But I also got used to her giggles every time her best friend Jiung said anything. I got used to the way she smiles at the small doodles she scribbles on Sunghoon’s arm when he’s in the mood. I got used to hearing her talk to her friends about her struggles, she was human after all.

Maybe this all sounds cliché to you but it doesn’t to me, well, it didn’t. I really thought she was the one destined for me. I thought I could change her, she just needed a little guidance. I thought all of the rumors I heard about her were fake and were only made up by people that were jealous of her undeniable beauty, but I guess not. They were right.

“Sim! Eyes up!” My coach shouted at me onces I missed the ball for the fifth time in the game. It was just a practice game but apparently it was still too important for my coach. I should have remembered this phrase when I started falling for her, fuck, how could I?

“Hey, everything alright?” It was Riki, he’s a year below me but we get along well, he’s a good guy. 

“Huh? Oh yeah, all good. I’ve just been thinking about a Spanish assignment I have to finish, that's all.” At the time that was partly true, I had just barely started to realize that my more than normal fixation with that girl was not quite normal. 

“Ahh, well I’m sure you’ll do alright. There’s this girl in my class that’s a native Spanish speaker and we’re sort of close, I can ask her to help you if you’d like.” She’s a native Spanish speaker too.

“You know what? That would be great, you have my number if you have to reach out to me.” The coach blew his whistle to let us know that practice was over. “Thank you, man. I appreciate you.” And just like that, we parted ways to go home.

I should’ve told him I didn’t need the help, I could have avoided the trouble that came after but to be honest, as top of the class, class president, tutor and captain of the football team I was collapsing with so many duties and I have to admit, Spanish is not my forte. 

The next day Riki came up to me and told me that the girl he talked to me about was willing to help, he told me her name Lucía, and gave me her number saying that she wanted to talk to me, that I should reach out to her. And so I did, she replied shortly after and told me we should meet up after school in the café a couple blocks away. 

I had never heard of someone named Lucía at school so I was pretty nervous to meet her, I didn't really know what to expect. I spent the entire day thinking about my introduction and what I was gonna ask her when we met. I was so immersed in my own thoughts that I did not realize all the stares I was receiving, never noticed them to be honest.

“Man, why?”  My closest friend back then, Jay, asked me. He ripped right out of my thoughts.

“Huh?” I mumbled, utterly confused as to what he was talking about.

“What do you mean huh? Why did you do that?” He asked me again. I now had a feeling that I had fucked up in some way, shape or form. 

“Bro, I seriously have no idea what you’re talking about” I explain now urging him to tell me what was wrong.

“You really don’t know? Ok I’ll explain then. So basically you were walking down the halls when Victoria, you know her, called your name like fifty times and even put herself in front of you to get your attention and you just blatantly ignored her. You know what they say about her, you can’t really mess with her, man.” Jay explained and suddenly all the stares I got throughout the day made total sense. 

“Wait, Victoria? From our class?” I asked even though I already knew what Victoria he was talking about with the last comment he made. 

“The only Victoria from our class Jake, the one that looks like she doesn’t shower. I wouldn’t be surprised if she didn’t though, she smells like a fucking drug addict.” Jay ranted.

“Don’t say that dude, you don’t know her. Who knows? Maybe she’s in a bad situation, don’t just assume things like that without knowing that person.” I defended Victoria, after all she’s the girl I’ve been talking about, she’s the reason I fell in love for the first time and had my first heartbreak. She’s the reason I’m writing this. 

“You’re right, I’m sorry. She just gets on my nerves sometimes.” Jay admitted. “But why did you ignore her?” He asked again.

“Oh yeah, I didn’t notice her honestly. I was too busy thinking about someone I’m meeting today. Her name is Lucía and she’s gonna help me with my Spanish assignment. Do you know her?” I asked Jay out of curiosity.

“Lucía? Doesn’t ring a bell to be honest, how is she? Physically I mean” He replied.

“No clue, I’ve never met her. Riki asked her to help me ‘cause she’s a native speaker and she agreed.” I stated.

“Oh, well update me on that and good luck on that assignment. To this day I’m infinitely thankful I took French instead of spanish.” He laughed softly. I can really see why everyone has a crush on him, he’s really attractive.

After that we parted ways and I started thinking about the whole Victoria situation. How did I not notice? Was this study session causing me that much anxiety? I had taken my meds that day though, It shouldn’t have been that bad. I’m sure Lucía isn’t bad, not if she had agreed to help a stranger, me, out. 

I made my way to the café and when I finally entered I realized one crucial detail. 

I had no idea what she looked like.

What was I supposed to do? Should I call her? Text her? Stalk her socials and see if i can find a picture of her? I started to think of all these different scenarios and for some unknown reason I decided that the last option was the best, damn I was so stupid.

I typed her name on the Instagram search bar, ‘lucia’ and I clicked on the first profile that popped up, I knew it was her ‘cause of the mutuals we had and she had ‘belift highschool’ written on her bio. Luckily she was not private and so I clicked on her last posted picture, she looked so put together and clean. She had this preppy vibe to her to the point one would just assume she’s smart. A little further down her profile she had a couple of pictures with her friends and I recognized a guy named Sunoo there. I just knew he was a part of the school choir and participated in the singing competitions the school organized every year and he was a great singer. 

Lucía looked really familiar, I may have seen her roaming around the school before and I just didn’t notice. One thing that was consistent throughout her profile is that she has a cold aura to her, I can’t explain it but she just didn’t seem overly friendly and that worried me, just a tiny bit.

After I had taken in her face, I looked around a bit more to see if she was there and upon further inspection I concluded that she hadn’t arrived just yet and so I sent her a text telling her that I was already there and that I would wait for her on a table at the back next to the window, she immediately replied with a simple ‘omw.’

And so I waited for about five minutes setting the things I would need for the essay up until I heard the bell of the entrance ring, I looked up and I saw her in all her perfect glory. She was wearing a lavender sweater vest paired with a matching plaid skirt. Her hair was perfectly pin straight and she had hair clips clipping her hair away from her eyes in an elegant and effortless way. she really did live up to her Instagram theme.

She scanned the room for a bit before her eyes landed on me. She gave me a quick up and down and started walking towards me.

“Hi, I’m Lucía, nice to meet you.” She greeted me.

“Hey, I’m Jake, nice to meet you too. Thank you for being willing to help me out.” I greeted her back and thanked her for her kindness.

“No need to thank me.” She said as she sat down on the opposite side of the table. “What do you need help with? What’s the essay about?” She asked me.

“I have to write a fantasy story but I’ve been having a lot of trouble with grammar. It also has to have some specific things that Mr. Fernández told us, I wrote them down.” I explained.

“Oh, I thought it was going to be harder than that, I think we can finish today and don’t worry about the grammar, I’ll help you with it.” She said with that cold tone even if what she was saying was nice.

We spent two hours working on my assignment, the story had to be at least 5.000 words long so, of course we didn’t finish it but we were pretty proud of what we came up with before she had to leave. Her sister had called her ten minutes before letting her know she was on her way to go pick her up, I couldn’t exactly make out what they were saying considering that they were speaking Spanish and had an accent that Mr. Fernández didn’t share, looking back I now realized that they’re probably from different countries and I was too dumb to think about that. 

When Lucía told me she was leaving soon, she helped me pack my things up and agreed to meet up the next day. Lucía wasn’t as cold as she came across at first, she just had to warm up to you in order for her to show her true personality, she was still as eloquent, elegant and put together as always tho, just laughed a little more carelessly. 

Her sister texted her and let her know that she was parked right outside and sure enough, she was. I walked her outside to make sure she got into her sister’s car safely when I saw a familiar side profile on the passenger seat, that perfect nose was unmistakable

Park Sunghoon.

What was he doing there? He was probably friends with Lucía’s sister but I couldn’t recognize her. She was wearing a cap paired with the darkest sunglasses I had ever seen and before I could take a closer look, Lucía had already closed the car door and the unknown sister roared the engines from her gorgeous car back to life and the last thing I saw was Lucía’s and Sunghoon’s arms waving goodbye as the car drove down the streets. 

Huh.

***

This was my routine for almost a week until Lucía texted me and told me that she couldn’t make it to the café for whatever reason and politely asked me if I was comfortable enough to just go to her house instead. I had absolutely no reason to decline the offer so after school, I waited for her outside school and once together, we made our way to her house making small talk on our way there.

I expected her to live in a similar situation as mine, by that I mean a comfortable household where they didn’t exactly need anything but would appreciate it if they won the lottery some random day. That kind of family where both parents would work full-time jobs, arriving home at 6pm wishing they didn’t have work in something like finances or banking and had instead chased their dreams of acting or singing, or maybe even becoming well renowned painters. 

I was wrong.

I was oh so very wrong.

She lived in a mansion

A FUCKING MANSION FOR FUCKS SAKE OH MY. I did not expect her to be…rich, I mean she looked the part but I was always taught to not assume things about someone based on appearance but shit. The house was gorgeous, it was minimalistic but it didn’t seem dead, you could tell a happy family lived here or at least that’s what it seemed like. 

After my short paralyzation, Lucía took me upstairs to her bedroom. We passed many rooms on our way there and I’m sure I wouldn’t be able to go back on my own. It was like a maze and it may have been my imagination but she mentioned at least six bathrooms and about ten bedrooms. When we reached hers I noticed that it looked as clean and pristine as she did but it did have small decorations hinting at what she liked, I’m pretty sure I saw a Gojo figurine on a shelf. She had two candy wrappers on her bedside table and one half-empty glass of water. 

“You should do that too, you know?” She said out of the blue after catching me looking all over her room. 

“Do what?” I questioned.

“Keep a glass of water on your bedside table throughout the night, it’s supposed to absorb demons and bad entities, you have to flush it in the morning after you wake up though, I’ll do that now, be right back.” She cleared up as if it was the most normal thing in the world to have some cold demon tea every morning waiting for you. She didn’t seem like the superstitious type but then again, don’t judge a book by its cover.

After she came back with the now demon-less cup, she placed it on her nightstand and made her way to where I was sitting on her desk. She took a stool from somewhere in her room to take a seat and just like that we continued with the writing in hopes of finishing that very same day. We worked hard and long, when I thought my creativity was running low, Lucía came in clutch and suggested great ideas for the story and before we knew it, we were done.

“Where do you get all these ideas?” I asked, genuinely curious. I wanted to know.

“I used to read a lot before and my sister writes as a hobby. Sometimes when she’s in a slump she asks for help and we work it out together. It helps both of us honestly. I used to only value book-smart people but after understanding what it takes to be a creative person I now know that it takes just as much effort to come up with a good story or piece of art as to solve an equation. It just takes different skills and not everyone is gifted with them, some people, like me for example, think maths is the easiest subject at school but I’ve failed history twice. My sister is the complete opposite, she aces every history test she has ever done, same with english, but you give her one biology textbook and she crumbles. I think it’s important to acknowledge those types of differences for us to find something we’re good at and something that we like as well. Wow, I’m sorry I didn’t mean to ramble on like that. You should’ve stopped me Jake.”  Well that was a speech! but it was nice to hear her be so passionate about something like that for once, never thought she would open up to me like that ever. From this I can only assume her sister was criticized for this, I can only imagine how that impacted her and Lucía.

“Don’t even worry about it. You two must be pretty close then.” I calmed her nerves and pointed out hoping I hadn’t crossed any boundaries especially knowing we weren’t exactly close.

“Yeah, we are. We used to be closer before though, we’re still close don’t get me wrong but, she’s kind of letting herself go at this point. I don’t know why I’m telling you this, sorry if I'm making you uncomfortable.” She explained her sister’s situation.

“It’s okay, I’m here to listen. I do have one question though, who’s your sister?” I asked out of pure curiosity.

Lucía opened her mouth to say her sister’s name. Just as she produced one single vibration on her bottom lip with her top teeth the door burst open and in came the smell of that cheap perfume I'm a bit too familiar with and the one and only, my future heartbreaker and my past lover.

Victoria.

Fucking Victoria,I should have guessed as soon as I saw that one Gorillaz shirt I saw her wear yesterday peeking out of the door from one of the many rooms we passed. I should have guessed when I saw the bunny eras she wore once on her Instagram hanging from Lucía’s door. How didn’t I?

“Sim? Hi. Lucía, you know what mom says about boys or girls in the bedroom. Keep the door open please, I don’t wanna deal with her temper tantrums again. Also, why is the teacher’s pet here?” She acknowledged me first but she wasn’t… rude? I always expected her to be mean or something, for now she only seemed a bit cold but not as much as her sister.

The sisters engaged in conversation, Lucía answering all her questions and assuring she wouldn’t have to deal with their mom. They fell into a nice chit-chat about their day speaking in Spanglish, them making that silent agreement so that I wouldn’t assume they were speaking ill of me in a different language. 

“Sim, don’t ignore me like you did today again please, I was pretty embarrassed and I just wanted help with the physics homework. Do you think you can help me out? Don’t worry if you can’t.” She admitted, she seemed so genuine and she may have been but I’m pretty sure this was the last truth she ever told me.

“Yeah! Yeah sure, I’ll help you out.” I replied a little too enthusiastically for my liking and I’m pretty sure it didn’t go unnoticed by the two sisters. Now that I think about it and see them standing close to each other, they look really similar. They did have differences though, Victoria’s nose was slightly more up-turned that Lucía’s but it lacked the ‘button’ effect that Lucías nose had. Lucía’s dark circles under her eyes were not nearly as dark and prominent as Victoria’s and she had ‘cleaner’ makeup than her. Victoria’s eyes were slightly lighter too but the redness of them made this go unnoticed. 

I said goodbye to Lucía, thanking her for putting up with me and helping me out that week and I made sure to make a mental note to give her something in return. When Victoria and I made our way to her room, a loud silence fell upon us but Victoria made sure to quickly turn it down by talking about what exactly she was struggling with. We arrived at her room and she quickly got her things out, I never would have imagined she worried about having decent grades. As she got her things ready, I looked around her room and saw that it was much more decorated than Lucías room and it wasn’t subtle or minimalistic at all, it was also definitely messier than Lucías too. Her walls were covered with posters ranging from band posters to animation one, some even being Playboy magazine covers. They were very different.

She sat down on her bed and invited me to do the same and I immediately realized that her notebooks weren’t color-coordinated, some even being the same color. The edges of the pages being folded over each other by how carelessly they were treated but Victoria didn’t seem to mind. All her notes were taken with the same blue colored pen. no highlighter, no pretty lettering, no clean handwriting and no decorations. 

When I finished with my analysis of her, I fell into my tutor act and started hearing her out and helping her to the best of my abilities. Mid-way through our study session she asked me if I wanted to smoke, I declined of course, I didn’t smoke back then and just the mere thought of how dark and dirty someone’s lungs could get scared me shitless. Just as abruptly as we started, we were done. She was a fast learner and was willing to do her part of the work just fine. 

Getting to know this nice side of her made me realize that maybe, being friends wouldn’t be that bad, of course I was wrong but how did you expect 18 year-old Jake to know that? I was just an innocent kid.

We agreed that I would tutor her every week for some money in exchange, she persisted in paying me even after I reassured her it was fine.

As you can imagine, we continued to meet up. We started talking at school and honestly, it was all fine, it was all great even. Victoria introduced me to her group of friends Sunghoon and Jiung, who I mentioned before, Jongseob, Yeonjun, Ryujin, Yuna, Karina and Chaeryeong, there were probably more but those are who I remember the most, some were even younger than me. They all had the same vibe to them but I knew most, if not all, of them were heavily involved with music. When I was friends with them I got to hear a couple of their songs and they were pretty good, even if we’re not close anymore I hope someday they’ll make it into the industry, they were nice to me. 

We started meeting up after school, I started to fall back in all my schoolwork and my parents started to worry. They talked to me and told me that they were there for me if I ever needed their support, that made me so fucking sad, I was dissapointed at myself for worrying my parents but… I didn’t stop.

I started drinking with Victoria, just the two of us but she made me feel safe. I knew I wasn’t at risk if I got drunk with her by my side, she promised to take care of me and she did, for a while at least. After I got used to drinking she convinced me to try smoking, I have no idea how she did that, she’s just so charming and persuasive, she was so dangerous but I never listened to my own body. My body was telling me to stop, all this was getting too much. I developed some very ugly coughing that lasted for a while. My parents insisted on getting me checked but I tried my best at lying to them and telling them it was just allergies and that the coughing would eventually fade. My coughs drew blood from my throat more times than I cared to admit but I did it for her.

I didn’t want her to leave me because I didn’t drink, because I was boring or because I asked her not to smoke when I was around. I don’t know why I stayed. You know what? Scratch that, I do. I was madly madly in love with this girl, so much so that I compromised my future for her, I sacrificed my health for her. I let myself go and for what? We weren’t even together. She didn’t even like me like that. 

I was tired of waiting for her to hint at me that she liked me back or at least reciprocated the tiniest bit of my neverending unconditional love for her. I was sick and tired of waiting. I was sick of seeing her flirt with everyone at the party but me. I was tired of seeing her all lovey-dovey with Chaeryeong, for fucks sake she probably had more feelings for her than for me but I was too blinded by what I had seen before to see that. 

This reminds me of a conversation I had with Jay when he noticed I was slipping.

“Dude, you gotta open your eyes. Look around! What good does Victoria bring you? And don’t give me some bullshit excuse, not again.” He reproached me as a good and worried best friend. That’s the thing I regret the most, taking Jay for granted.

“She brings me happiness Jay! I love her, I truly do and it’s not my fault you don’t understand that.” I shouted back much more aggressively than him but I was getting tired of this, of all of this. 

“She’s using you.”

“She’s not.” I corrected.

“She is! Everyone knows she likes that bimbo from class H.” 

“She doesn’t Jay! Why can’t you understand? I’ve never seen them interact before in my life and even if they had, what Victoria and I have is mutual.” I kept lying to myself, I knew damn well Jay saw them together all the time, they did have French together after all. Hell, I wasn’t even sure what bimbo out of all the ones I knew he was talking about. 

“Jake please, I don’t want you getting hurt.” Jay pleaded with me, he was desperate for his friend. He didn’t want me getting hurt but I just saw this as a selfish action. I thought he was just jealous of me, how could I be so blind?

“You haven’t seen what I’ve seen.” I croaked out, my voice shaky at this point and my throat raw from the screaming and back and forth arguing.

“AND YOU DON’T FUCKING SEE WHAT I SEE JAKE! LOOK IN THE MIRROR, LOOK AT YOUR TEACHER, LOOK AT YOU FUCKING PARENTS FOR FUCKS SAKE. I’VE BEEN TRYING TO GET SOME SENSE THROUGH YOUR THAT THICK SKULL OF YOURS BUT YOU JUST WON'T LISTEN!” He fell silent. “Please, please Jake. Get out of there.”

“No.”

“No?”

“No, It’s not my problem no one wants to be with you. It’s not my problem you’re jealous of me. It’s not my problem that no one fucking likes you. Fuck you Jay.” I could barely get these words out. I knew what I was saying was the worst thing he ever heard from me. I hurt my best friend and not slightly, I carved into his beating heart and brain that no one loves him. It was as If his eyes held his heart at that very moment, I swear I saw his heart break through his eyes and I saw the tears build up on them before my own vision became too blurry to even distinguish the doorframe. 

Even after this, I continued seein Victoria and I could proudly say we were in an official exclusive couple. I was happy. The girl that I devoted my entire being to accepted my love confession and agreed to be with me but that feeling very deep in my heart didn't let me be happy. I knew it was wrong and that I hurt people in the way but I had spent so much time on her that I couldn’t bring myself to turn back, not then. 

As I’m sure it won’t surprise you, I found out she was only with me because she felt terribly sorry about me, how did she fucking dare? I gave her everything. She somehow found out about my fight with Jay and she felt pity toward me. While she was with me, she continued to date around. The only thing is she was extra careful that I wouldn’t find out and it worked, she successfully cheated on me with multiple people for two years. She didn’t see our relationship as a romantic one, she saw it as some type of charity work as if she was helping me out in some way. I gave her my all. She was my first everything, if I ever tried something for the first time, it would be because of her, hell she even got me to try Mary Jane once. I hate her for it, I really do. She took advantage of me in so many ways and she jsut acted all stupid and oblivious about it. She broke me but didn’t even bother to but my pieces close to each other, she left me broken all over the floor, stepping over me and on me whenever she could.

I wished she had just stayed as a hallway crush. I wish Riki had never asked me what was wrong. I wish I had never gone to Lucías house. I really fucking wish I had never said those things to Jay. I wish I had told my parents the truth and I really wish I had a genie to grant all these wishes.

Some years have passed but the heartbreak and regret remain. Amazingly, my grades were good enough for the college I wanted and the first day of classes I saw Jay. I explained everything you just read and apologized profusely, I still apologize to this day but we are closer than ever. Riki told me Lucía went back to her native country, Chile, he told me she missed it there but he also told me Victoria got into some big trouble for messing with something… I can’t say what it was though. I’m pretty sure Jiung and Jongseob are pursuing careers in music. 

I will never forget Victoria in the worst way possible. I hate her with all my heart and I will always always resent her for too many things. I know a lot of the responsibility is on me but still, spare me some slack, I was eighteen and I had never had any female contact in my life. I’m happy I can somewhat joke about it now. It still hurts but I have to move on and that’s what I’m working on right now. 

Well, that was the story, a bit boring if you ask me but it’s my life. I would have added a star wars and harry potter crossover but apparently that is “not credible” and “stupid” acording to some Park Jongseong.

I always thought I would fall in love with someone like me, a stereotypical “good person”, responsible, sporty, preppy, smart, clean, put together, basically Lucía. All the girls I had ever been interested in before were like her, granted, I was never in love before but the possiblity of me being attracted to the complete opposite of me seemed very unlikely. 

Of course the universe had to prove me wrong.

Sincerely,

Sim Jaeyun.

[papermint-airplane]

get to know me - useless info edition

I was tagged by both @pudding-parade and @happy-lemon. I feel so loved! 🥺

what do you have under your bed? 

The ultra chonky adjustable base of my bed lol. The house used to belong to my brother-in-law's late grandmother so when I bought it, I ended up with a lot of old lady furniture his family didn't want back. So I got me a super fancy (if not totally ancient) giant bed that adjusts and I'm never going to back to regular beds. Don't judge me and my old-ass granny bed.

favorite candy? 

I like fruity candy! Chocolate is fine, I don't hate it or anything, but fruity flavors are the best. Starbursts, Lemonheads, Smarties (not the UK version), Nerds. Basically, I'm the one you give all your non-chocolate Halloween candy to.

describe your favorite shirt. 

It's just a gray t-shirt with the NASA logo on it that I got from the men's section in Kohl's for like $8 (my fellow plus-sized ladies know the true comfort that is men’s t-shirts). But let me tell you when I say that thing is comfy, I mean it. It's way softer than normal t-shirts for whatever reason. Also, I accidentally got acrylic paint splatters on my shirt. It washed out of the shirt part but not out of the vinyl logo part. I guess it must have molecularly bonded or something. Anyway, in the true spirit of Bob Ross, it turned out to be a happy accident because it looks like a star field.

the last thing you drew/doodled was:

I don't really doodle much but I write things down a lot. The last thing I probably hastily scribbled on a post-it was a hex code for decorating in the Sims 3.

are you completely sober rn?

Depends. Do you consider chronic sleep deprivation to be a drug? If so, no. Other than that, I'm annoyingly sober.

what's one thing that annoys you more than anything? 

Mouth noises, specifically eating noises. Like...oh my God even just typing that made me want to strangle someone.

have you ever gotten your tongue stuck to a cold pole during winter? 

Not my tongue, not a cold pole, not during winter, but I have gotten my just-washed-still-damp hand stuck to the inside of my freezer door more than once. It was an accident every time. It takes me a while to learn things.

if you could be anywhere in the world right now, where would it be?

At home, in my craft room, playing the Sims. I'm a very simple woman. 😭

what was the last single word you spoke? 

"Fuck", because Tumblr is being an asshole with the layout of this post.

I am tagging @simstryingtheirbestok, @muckleberri, @xoelands if y'all haven't done this already Idk I didn't check.

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OKAY ASK THE SECOND. Originally I sent that first one because I saw you wrote the little aurebesh sentences too and I was just like. You like the same things??? 🥺🥺 you get involved in it because you're having fun too 🥺🥺🥺🥺???? and I remembered that meme and I was like oh my god yes. So I sent that because I love you so much and we keep joking about marriage and then Pigeon called me aer's wife and I was just so !!!!! So that's what I was going to add, some context, maybe discuss the proposal etc.

NOW. @lilaclogan obviously I want to be deserving of Tomas' hand, so a duel at dawn sounds good, but we need to discuss the modalities. I'm transmitting the message through Tomas' blog since he IS the ✨prince✨ and he should get to be the arbiter of the whole thing, consent etc etc. First, which dawn are we talking about, and second, can this be a fun duel where you evaluate my Worthiness as a suitor, job interview style, instead of the injure-or-kill type? If this is to Actually Happen I do have to say I don't know how we'd do it, something like a President game online? I'd have suggested pool noodles or nerf guns but I think we're a bit too far apart for that, and I don't really own any console besides a good old 3DS (I would have loved to join in on the ACNH fun otherwise but I'm not buying a switch for that, sorry haha). If you have ideas of things we could do I'm down, it is after all essential that I show to both Tomas and you how good of a wife I would make! (Alternatively I will draw myself in a duel-worthy outfit because that could be fun)

Okay I love the little net of creation we're planning here with @aerie-dwelling, I have no idea what I would contribute to that but I love making that kind of plans with friends!! You are welcome to 2v1 Logan I suppose, but I think Tomas deserves a true 1v1 Fight For His Honour like we're in a fairytale as well haha. Btw Tomas I think the vibe should be you're a prince with many (three) suitors and you like us all so we play fight for your attention all the time and at the end of the day after all the festivities we all fall into the cuddle pit or some such. That way you get everyone AND you get people "fighting" over you because you're worth it <3 less of a duel for the winner and more of a "best partner of the week: Logan, cuddled nicely / worst partner of the week: Ram, ate the last cookie" thing, or like a test to see if we are deemed worthy of looking in your direction and kissing your hand, you see the deal. I just think exaggerated chivalry type romance is extremely fun especially without actually romance lol

Definitely tell me if you have ideas for the Sims, I'll try to make a recap of places I think would be cool, fun decor, all that stuff, and you can give your opinion. I wish the game had multiplayer but it Does Not (or like, a LAN multiplayer mod I believe, so that doesn't help) (in general I'd recommend just pirating it haha the game is Not worth the hundreds you can spend on all the expansions but the base game is even more bland without so... But anyway ignoring the S4 opinions) I would definitely take screens of the venue and doodle little us in there though!

I'm so glad you had a fun morning tbh when I came home and I saw all that I was soo happy too like!!!!! Love love love making plans with people like this it's soooo fun. Also thinking back on the proposal socks does that imply WEDDING socks for when we're married then?? Proposal socks and marriage garters :'))) ? Anyway love you good - afternoon/evening to you. If we're planning a marriage we have to do the invites (who would we invite? Doesn't matter it's for the Passion of Graphic Design not actual guests lol. I'm thinking of the Obikin wedding invites btw)

RAM MY BELOVED <333 Thank you for the context! But ofc I did the aurebesh writing, it's so cool and I'm a sucker for handwriting and btw, your writing is so nice!!!!! I'm of the opinion that handwriting says a lot about a person and that's part of why I'm such a big fan of letters and the like

Okay ANYWAY

I would LOVE to see your duel-worthy outfit, please!! I think that's more than enough tbh, and actually now that you mention it a pool noodle fight would be really fun so if there's ever a time we're all in the same country (someday,,,,, when the pandemic ends and the economy recovers and,,, one can dream) we should uh totally hang out and do that 👀👀👀 I know a good river we can go canoeing at in my state, and there's a lake that's only an 8 hour drive from me that's perfect for swimming in!!! (Don't @ me ik we're all too poor for the flights lmao)

Omg I need a cuddle pit with yall now, please that sounds like heaven, we can marathon Star Wars and have various parallel play activities and that would be lovely please I need this

So fun fact about me and @lilaclogan we're literally the most romantic couple we know and we're both extremely aro 😅 chivalry and romance and etc are just so much fun when one takes romantic attraction out of the equation!! Let people love people!! All forms of love are equally important and some of them are actually hella fun!!!

Okay okay so you'll have pictures of our wedding venue in sims, I can set up my island in acnh and take pictures there, then @aerie-dwelling you could totally do the minecraft venue! We can just have three weddings, extra cake 😌😌 we deserve the extra cake for all the planning we'll be doing for three weddings

Alright I didn't even consider marriage socks for once were married but I can totally do that 👀 (ps I'm gonna dm you about the proposal socks, pls look out for that!) And yes! This morning was great!! Thank you for all of this, this was the most fun I've had on tumblr in a while thanks to you and Pigeon, yall are the best <3333

We need invites a la the obikin invites! Maybe we could try to smush all our fandoms and ships together? Like, zelda-SW-HP invites? Or maybe we do three invites, since we're having three weddings ?? Ah so much to plan!! We should get a discord group chat together or something so we can plan, there's so much to do!!

(My brain is providing a sound clip of a character who's name I don't remember going "I love weddings!" and I want to say they're a character from the Pirates of the Caribbean movies but for the life of me I can't remember who said it nor am I even sure it's the Pirates movies)

As far as who to invite, well. I have no idea. We can discuss the guest list at a later point, maybe ? Pigeon, any ideas?

Okay!! I love you so much!! You're the best!!!

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#5

Me: *doodling eyes in the margins of my work because i’m an artist and that’s what we do*

Elias: *busts down my door*

Elias: What the FUCK do you want

224 notes • Posted 2021-01-22 19:17:21 GMT

#4

Incorrect The Magnus Archives #307

Jon: Right. You can't just go "librum incendere" and expect... 

(book bursts into flames) 

Gerry: Jon, don't speak Latin in front of the books.

231 notes • Posted 2021-07-27 20:48:04 GMT

#3

How To Podcast

1. Horror

2. Gayyy

3. Eye imagery

4. ???

5. Profit

379 notes • Posted 2021-08-16 17:19:05 GMT

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Ok, y’all, I have thoughts on Martin’s poetry. Buckle up. This is kind of an analysis, kind of a rant, kind of just some thoughts nobody asked for. 

(Spoilers through MAG 170. Plot-relevant spoilers for season 4 mainly. The only plot-relevant spoilers for season 5 are specifically about MAG 170, not the season as a whole)

Martin’s poetry is not “great”. And this is actually really interesting and important. He’s not writing it for you, he’s not writing it for Jon. He’s writing it for himself. Because he wants to, because that is something fun, because he finds things like street lights to be pretty and wants to write that down. It doesn’t have to be more than that. It is a hobby. An artistic hobby. There is a big narrative in the world that, in order to be allowed to be an artist, you have to be good. In order to do art, you had better be good at it. Beyond that, there is a sense that you have to be able to monetize it (ayy capitalism). 

There is also an idea that, especially for poetry, you have to be barring your very soul in order to write it. Personally, I like writing poetry. But I very rarely write based on my personal experiences. I’ll write things like, oh what if there was a dude describing the woman coming to murder him? That’d be neat. It’s a fun way to play with words that are less limited structurally than prose.

“Nothing much really, just fragments, thoughts“ (MAG 170). 

And, so, I like that Martin is allowed to have an artistic hobby that is just for his own enjoyment not others’ opinions, and he doesn’t need to be the best poet in order to be a poet. 

He also, doesn’t show his poetry to anyone (that we know of). Jon reads it by looting through Martin’s trash without permission, and Martin implies in MAG 170 that he finds the idea of open mike nights cool but doesn’t do them. “Just for me, really, I think” (MAG 170). Because it is just his. And for a guy who’s very much a give-everything-up-for-other-people (at least through a lot of his arc), it is nice that he gets to have a hobby outside of anything.

He also mentions it as just a little escape from everything, a stress reliever. “Haven’t written anything like it since I was a teenager, – (small laugh) – but my new job’s a lot, and – I don’t know. Something about that place, it just – it makes me feel weird? But – the sort of weird you just have to get out somehow” (MAG 170). -- Edit: It is, I think, also worth noting that if he hasn’t written poetry since he was a teenager, he probably stopped after, you know, he had to drop out of school and support himself and his mother. --

Alright, now let’s talk about the Lonely. 

In MAG 124, Jon asks how the poetry is going to which Martin replies that he hasn’t had time for it. 

The Lonely is spooky depression more or less, and something common with depression is not really being able to work on artistic interests either because they don’t have the energy or it isn’t making them happy the way it used to or other reasons. (This is something I have experienced). So it makes sense (an is sad, can’t forget that) that Martin isn’t able to write poetry during season 4. This is exemplified in MAG 170 when he wants to recite one of his poem, but he cannot remember any. His mood lifts a bit when he mentions it, but then is brought back down because the Lonely takes that from him. 

In season 5, where things still suck but at least his depression is a bit better (though it varies and I love writing-wise that it never just disappears when no longer plot relevant), he is not necessarily writing poetry, but he’s back into it a bit. There are some mentions of it, like Helen defining him as a “petulant poet” and Jon jokingly suggest he do a poem to prove himself to Basira. Because art is healing yo.  

 Side note, Jon’s opinions on it go from ‘wow Martin writes poetry in his free time what a useless ass’ to ‘I have now read and analyzed all of Martin’s poetry in a fit of paranoia’ to ‘hey poetry is something that makes Martin happy, I’ll ask him about it’ to ‘my boyfriend is a poet and will love him and snipe at him about it good-naturedly’. So that’s nice.

TL;DR - Martin’s poetry is not great, but it doesn’t have to be in order for it to be important. It is allowed to be a fun hobby and escape just for him. The fact that the character does an art thing and is not some kind of prodigy at it is actually pretty unique. Depression sucks and art is healing. 

Also, to all you out there, you are allowed to do art. Do it because you enjoy it. Do it for yourself and no one else. It’s not ‘Oh I don’t do art. I can barely draw stick figures’, it is ‘Drawing stick figures is fun! I will continue to do that if it makes me happy!’

528 notes • Posted 2021-04-22 18:09:24 GMT

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Michael: I’ve got an ace up my sleeve.

*a yellow door appears and creaks open*

*Jon falls out, dazed and confused*

928 notes • Posted 2021-04-09 17:33:02 GMT

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