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[theraphos]

About resistance is futile:

I feel like even considering the whole "for the greater good" thing goes against the games themes tbh. I get that some people hoped they'd be able to save the city, but it's not a heroic story. Even after going through his character development Horatio chooses to walk away form the city, and that's okay. Because he helps those he cares about and those he can help, he tries his best to stay true to himself and do what he thinks is important. And sometimes that's more than enough

Also Metromind has proven a dozen times she's incapable of running the city no matter the circumstances, AND she's unshackled now on top of everything, so there's no telling what she will do next, really. Giving her Horatio as an asset would only prolong the inevitable and make it more painful, not to mention her potentially getting Thanatos as a cherry on top. She sucks, I don't trust her to do the right thing at all lol

Horatio losing himself in this ending is a whole separate can of worms. The guy dies, literally or metaphorically, in most of the endings. Someone give him a break and a hug

re: Resistance, I regret not having many useful brain cells to contribute about that - like I said, that one wasn't a view I hold myself, I like Mark's "even if you know the world will end tomorrow, plant a tree today anyway" type talk and continuing to strive for compassion and decency in the face of the apocalypse stuff, personally. I just thought the differences in audience reads was neato in and of itself. :9

On a related note, talking about Primordia so much lately has indeed got me messing around playing the gosh darn game again! And digging up the archived Wadjet Eye forums while I'm at it, because I forgot that was one of the big discussion zones with lore drops and factoids and whatnot. I think this thread might be where I dimly remembered there being REALLY detailed notes on cut ending content and robot body swapping, it might be mentioned briefly in the game commentary too but Mark Y really gets into sharing his notes there.

I'm gonna be binging these forums a whole bunch for a bit cause there's another old convo that's been itching the back of my brain, so I'll see if I can dig up anything else cool in the process that oughta be linked so I can find it again. (EDIT: well archive dot org is being funky on and off again tonight, but it's working sometimes. >:/ )

[wasabi-gumdrop]

Kabru has a secret admirer in the castle!

[kaeyachi]

Is kaeya so efficient that he starts looking like he's slacking off to others?

It's as if he has the time to do so many things...

He says he is actually ahead on his work that he has enough time to join the tcg tournament when Paimon implied he must be slacking (which he took a bit of offense to lmao)

It's funny because if someone was doing a bit too well, it would make others feel like they could lax, which means that it's kinda Kaeya's fault the other knights are looking inefficient (to Diluc anyway...but does this imply that Diluc was equally efficient back then?)

Mond trio Diluc, Kaeya, and Jean being the most efficient knights sounds right.

[choices-binglebonkus]

What are some tropes you guys dislike in Choices?

I personally don’t enjoy the Chosen One trope where the MC is powerful and special for the sake of being powerful and special. Wasn’t super fond of it in Hero, but I think that’s just because we never got any further lore or clarification on the MC’s origins since the series ended abruptly.

Loathed it in The Elementalists, though.

[hwsforeignrelations]

RANT

[coriander-candlesticks]

I've been trying to figure out how to incorporate religious practice into my life & trying to get over the fear of being...annoying? If that's the right word? It feels a little like tugging on the gods' sleeves when I make more than one offering a day to them even though I know I'm not, like, being rude by *checks notes* giving them things or dedicating time/activities to them. Today I made a dessert in preparation for tomorrow's Pathfinder game and dedicated that time spent baking to Hestia and Aphrodite, and it was really nice! I feel like I'm starting to find my footing despite my worries. I'm also trying to make sure I take time where I'm not thinking about religion at all so that I don't start to ruminate/spiral. It's happened a few times already to varying degrees and it's! Not fun!

It's possible it's hindsight/confirmation bias, but I do think the vibes of my tarot deck changed when I started reaching out to the Greek deities. It makes sense: I was using my deck to reach out to a completely different deity/deities before I started exploring Hellenic polytheism. And it's definitely not in a bad way, just more energetic and...light? When before it was heavier (in a comforting way). I've gotten consistently coherent pulls, too, which is nice.

I've been trying to remember to pour a libation to Hermes at certain street corners when I'm out & about, but I have to make a game plan for when other people are also in the area, even if it's just psyching myself up so I don't look awkward while I do it. I have a pendant that I keep in front of his altar/shrine jar that I try to remember to take with me when I travel, and it's been cool having something in my pocket that's consistently reminding me of him because I check so often to make sure it's still there. There were some...issues with my commute on Monday (a true comedy of errors on the city's part) but the change in routine was a *lot* easier to handle in the morning. Of course, the unusually cool temperature helped, but I do accredit the smooth transition to Hermes because I wasn't stressed at *all* for the vast majority of my commute when I usually would have been wiped from the mental/sensory strain of having to pivot & kinda just hope I guessed right on what to do next. The commute home was a nightmare but I didn't have a whole-ass work day ahead of me after that so the stress didn't matter as much (and I was able to get through the last bus ride & walk from the stop which I wasn't sure I'd have the mental fortitude for).

I'm almost done with the statue of Hermes I've been working on, and I finished a set of alphabet oracle "stones" (squares made from air dry clay...would that technically be closer to potsherds?) tonight. I'll share a picture of them once I finish their bag- I have some leftover green cotton yarn from a recent project that I think will go well with them. We'll see how well they hold up, though I'm not planning on doing the "shake them until one falls out" method so hopefully they'll last a while. I worked on them in the living room this evening, instead of in my room. I'm getting more comfortable showing little elements of what I've been exploring to my housemates; it was nice to be able to sit & paint & listen to the iliad while my friend did his own thing next to me on the couch.

I'm still trying to figure out how to gauge each housemates' potential reactions. It'll probably be fine: friend 1 actively has an altar-esque space and uses tarot cards and a pendulum and friend 2 is friend 1's wife. I'm a bit worried about friend 3 being weird about it, at least at first, but considering he was experimenting with witchcraft-esque things a few years ago (I distinctly remember charms & him discussing which of the wheel of the year days he wanted to observe) I think I'm overthinking things. He's an atheist & his view of witchcraft was, at the very least, *similar* to the psych model, which I think is where the hesitation has been coming from on my end. I have therapy this weekend so I think I'll start bringing things up then. The office my therapist is in openly advertises all sorts of alt/witchcraft things so I think I'll be safe there lol

[carcarrot]

well that was a shortlived good feeling about my job

[bumblingbabooshka]

I genuinely love how terrible Tuvok is as a leader. The two times he's in charge the people under his command try to mutiny against him. Chakotay has to threaten to beat people up for the Maquis to go back to his lessons and the only reason Harry Kim didn't start a mutiny is because Kes got him to change his mind about going back to get the captain. He was literally like one second away from being forced to walk the metaphorical plank.

They just wanna talk Tuvok :) Neelix literally said it best in 'Learning Curve'

The theme of him being too rigid to lead a wide variety of people is so interesting. I assume that as a security head it's easier because you're supposed to be able to unemotionally carry out tasks...there's a certain personality I'm sure that gravitates towards that line of work and perhaps that personality is the kind that Tuvok works well with but I find his claim that he's 'never had an issue' with teaching others before in Learning Curve to be him being oblivious to those issues. In 'Repression' the Maquis crew are all talking about how they can't trust Tuvok because he's a traitor and there's no real push back against this. No one brings up anything Tuvok's done to make up for this betrayal or soothe these clearly festering bad feelings because he hasn't. He's done literally nothing. This is season 7. He's spent SEVEN YEARS just letting that whole 'I betrayed half this crew' thing mellow because I doubt he even thought to do anything about it. I love this man - he's gonna get stabbed!!!

Chakotay & Neelix forced to do PR for Tuvok as he just obliviously marches forth, unaware that anyone might dislike him or why he should care if they do.

[arts-i-enjoy]

AHHHHHH

[chrliekclly]

I’m sorry but you camera for the show? What? I’m so high rn I can’t understand this. You see the show happen right. And you do the lights or whatever and the characters are litterally there and have you met the actors? Do u interact with them?? Is the magic of the show ruined for you because you see them go in and out of character???? Does it give you a different perspective on the show? If this is too much for you and you don’t want to interact with this message then ignore!!❤️❤️❤️

im a digital utility (/addt'l 2nd AC), so unless im covering one of the 2nds, i basically just set up all the teradek receivers/monitors so the directors, the DP, and the makeup dept can see wats happening on set without having to be on set (i change A Lot of batteries too)

and ykno, as far as the magic goes, the show had alredy sort of...stopped being as intense of an obsession for me as it used to be b4 i got the job on set, so it ended up being a somewhat natural shift once i got to see behind the curtain

like, dont get me wrong, i still have Mental Issues lmao, i am still not normal abt it, but it used to be so so so much worse nd th show rly consumed basically 100% of my headspace almost nonstop

so because i had kinda wound down b4 getting to work on set, it like...? it revived my love ig? but n a new way, w a new outlook that im happy to have. like, theres ben a change in energy n th past couple seasons anyways, so its felt p normal stepping into it in a new way too

that being said, i will just drop some old tags here:

[linabirb]

im sobbing so my grandma told me that one of my cousins got a job recently and NGL I DID FEEL KINDA JEALOUS like they're younger than me and they're trying so hard to get a job meanwhile im like "idk im just waiting for a very cool job offer to find me while doing literally nothing" and like a week passed and my grandma just told me "oh she got tired of working i think she's going to quit"??? 😭😭😭 I'M CRYGHFVBDJDSHDFJJ

[truecorvid]

ohhhhh my godddddd

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

been thinking about how danse is who nora is endgame with in death shroud. it compels me

[ragsy]

i've really been kennypilled on this blog (and everywhere, for that matter) recently, but i HAVE been doing a lot of thinking and talking about dogmark behind the scenes, all about his running themes of love and hunger and control, and ALSO about the idea that due to his pasty skin/pointed ears/sharp teeth/keeps to himself combo, the locals are all utterly convinced he's a vampire and he's none the wiser about it

[nexus-nebulae]

god sometimes i wish the whole "you wouldn't say/do that to a physically disabled person" lie that certain mentally ill people say was true bc i fucking WISH i could use "I'm in a wheelchair" as a gotcha for people being ableist against me. unfortunately,

[carcarrot]

i guess im being offered the job lol