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cant sleep because im seething with anger
#been laying here for like 40 minutes fantasizing about finally snapping and telling my mom everything i really think and feel#if i ever came out to her she would end up cutting me off like she did to my aunts and uncles and cousins#basically im alone and my parents and siblings are the only family i can be in contact with right now and its isolating#off topic but yeah#i miss having a big family and people besides my parents that i could rely on. people i felt like i could actually breathe around#idk. whatever#why do i feel responsible for her actions all the time. its been my job to keep her stable and listen to her vent for years#but i never say anything about my own feelings. because she would make me feel stupid and ridicule me. lol#all she does is make me feel like shit most of the time. shes always in a bad mood and shes always whining and always pessimistic#and yeah i get along with her for the most part but lately her attitude has been weighing on me a lot. i cant criticize or disagree with her#because she'll just get mad. shes always been an angry person. thats why i hardly spoke to her from ages 10-15#maybe i jsut wanted to give her another chance. maybe i felt sympathy for her. shes had it rough her whole life#but when shes still bitter no matter how many times i comfort her and let her vent and cry to me and when she chooses her husband over me#every single time he fucks up (which is like. constantly) and always takes his side when they inevitably make up after a huge fight#it feels like i'll never be able to make her happy. it feels like i should stop trying. if she wants to be full of hatred#and have a shitty husband then fine. i cant fix her like and i cant hold the weight of her mistakes#*life
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i also want to make a game for funsies
#mono’s stuff#off topic but yeah#i want to#idk what i wanna make one about#but i wanna make one#good lord no wonder i hit post limit so much#i talk too much
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class swap design masterpost for convenience (from top to bottom: bard!riz, cleric!gorgug, sorcerer!kristen, barbarian!fig, artificer!adaine, and rogue!fabian)
#dimension 20#fantasy high#fhfy#fhsy#fhjy#riz gukgak#gorgug thistlespring#kristen applebees#figueroth faeth#adaine abernant#fabian seacaster#my class swap stuff! oh yeah I think I got a tag for that I'll call that#fh class quangle#gna slowly go back and get that tag on relevant posts too. for organization's sake#even tho I didnt really intend this blog to be that kinda blog lmao. we were all just gonna be out here dealin with that at our own pace#anyways uh! they! u know all the lore for the designs already I put em in tags. but otherwise this also collects like the#color keys kind of for these. mostly the things that change between designs#doing this did make me realise half of these are a Lot more consistent in color keys than the other half lol#like kristen's palette stays pretty much the same. and fabian's. the hit's mostly in the construction#a lot of this is overall like an exercise in remembering what high schoolers would actually wear and how to work in Costume pieces#on this point at least I straight up have No relevant recollection lmao all the basic education establishments I went to have uniforms#and outside of school I was. well kind of a shorts and tee guy. so#on that topic I feel like fabian's is the furthest stretch lmao. like if a guy in high school wears the same bright yellow raincoat#to school every day that's like. people would Not like that guy. fabian really is saved by being cute and a rogue#he will still have stans when he's deep in his fishing arc in junior year he's the manic pixie dream bf#anyways uh. things to do! stuff to get done. sleep first tho. have a good night lads#I have not caught new nsbu yet! seems I mostly catch them like two to three days late nowadays.#so please uhh. don't reply on my posts with nsbu spoilers? we are all excited and having fun but that's rude#ok thank u. signing off for the day have a good night#!!
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totally agree. unconditional love is such an important part of the Christian religion in general. i think a lot of people tend to just dismiss our religion as being some old fads or imaginary creations but they don't understand that like. God is love. the very existence of love shows us that He exists. The morals, practices, traditions and everything else is based on love, as an expression of it.
one of the religions that really appealed to me at a certain point was Buddhism. but what always nagged me at the back of my mind was how all the Buddhist understandings of life stemmed from a desire to avoid suffering and break the cycle of life. isn't there something greater than suffering? isn't life beautiful? why must my entire life be dedicated to running away from suffering? and Christianity provided me the answer. there is something greater than suffering, and that is love. all suffering is worth enduring as long as you have love in your heart. that's when i realized that Buddhism sorta started off from a flawed premise/question, which revolved around how to escape suffering rather than find something of meaning to endure it for.
I went from Catholic, to Agnostic, to Atheist, to Wicca, to Neopagan, to Buddhist, but what all of these other religions lack is one simple ingredient:
Unconditional love.
Only God loves unconditionally. All these other religions or movements promise something different: Self-Masterey, Worshipping of your own self, shallow Gods who only care about themselves etc.
Only Catholicism has a God who loves you unconditionally. Who tells you: "Come as you are. Do not be ashamed of your problems. I am here to help you. I am Love!"
And that is why I love being Catholic.
#off topic but yeah#i've been contemplating it a lot and this is what i arrived at#this goes for hindu philosophy too though theirs is slightly different#both buddhism and hinduism are alike in the fact that they focus on breaking the cycle of life as they believe life causes suffering#hinduism also prioritizes “greater duty” over continuous morality which means that they think#some bad deeds are justified in the name of the greater good#which is a very off putting philosophy#it's also very deterministic#christianity has neither#it explains the inherent free will of humans to choose and it also acknowledges that doing bad in the name of a greater good is invalid#and only causes greater harm and brings false happiness
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Lian call Jason Apa But she is not filipino is she?
No she is not filipino in the comics/my au. She is half Vietnamese on her mother's side.
"Apa" is also a way to say "dad" in Spanish! It's a shortened version of "papa", just one letter less! I'm mexican, so I head canoned Jason as Mexican in my AU.
I thought it would be a cute lil thing to add. Like Jason speaks spanish at home and she's picked up on some of it. And she's heard him say "apa" and she asked him what that meant and he told her "dad".
So she stored that away in her head and one day when she was introducing him to one of her school friends she was like "This is my apa." And Jason most definitely probably tried really hard not to cry in that moment.
Like not only is she calling him dad, but she's doing so in his native language which means so much more to him
#i got off topic but yeah. apa actually means dad in so many languages! though I guess it's more commonly known in tagolog?#Out of everything I call my mother i most frequently call her “ama” over mama-mami-mom-mommy or any other alternative eng/span alternative#dc#batman#gotham#batfam#batfamily#dcu#jason todd#roy harper#lian harper#jayroy
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The ''Are you trying to romance me?'' meme but with Barnaby and Howdy
i belted this out in like a half hour flat <3 bc Yes
#AH FUCK I FORGOT TO PUT SOMETHING ON HOWDY'S TAG#listen listen this was done in a bit of a rush!!! i wasnt paying much attention!!!#i was thinking about what to have for lunch which is always a Very distracting topic#anyway thank you for introducing me to this meme it fits them So Well i think#like in my mind barnaby could do literally anything and howdy is off to the side all 'god... hes so attractive.... i need him'#scribble salad#rambles from the bog#laughingstock#barnaby x howdy#howdy x barnaby#thinking about them alwayyyyssssss#theyre so damn GOOD together what the Fuck is it about them!!!#i know i say this every time but agh! AGH!!#wait... no wait yeah i Do know what it is about them. ive Realized.#AGH THEYRE SO GOOOOODDDDDDDD#the boyfriends the husbands the Fluffy Fruity Pals <3#alright time for lunch and then its back to packing & the five hour shrek video essay#unless im consumed by the laughingstock thoughts that are fighting to take over my mind again#i need to draw wormie
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The True Heir
Danyal Al Ghul was the one and only heir to the Demons Head.
Then, he died.
The obvious solution was to put him in the Lazarus Pits and resurrect him. Although there was always a risk of him going mad, the pros far outwayed the cons.
Except the Pit didn't give him back.
Ra's, unwilling to lose his perfect heir, turned to cloning. The result? Many, many failures, and finally, one Damian Al Ghul.
Damian wasn't perfect. Far from it, really. He differed from Danyal in such critical ways, from their mannerisms to their loyalties, but.
Ra's had his heir, and that was enough.
#dp x dc#dp x dc prompt#demon twins#sort of#yknow those aus where danny is a clone of damian?#yeah it's the other way around this time#damian fully believes that he is the heir#he was given danyal's memories#off topic but does danny have pit rage?#dealers choice#personally i like to believe that he does just cuz pit rage is fun#danny does not know that he's been cloned#but he does remember exactly who he was before he died and the fentons found him#also i'm thinking he was around eight or so when he died#so damian isn't really all that old#man that is gonna crush him lol
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It's thinking about Maxwell and Jacobi hours
#tbf its often thinking about maxwell and jacobi hours#i just love them deeply#and i accidentally listened to all of s3 this weekend so feelings are high#wolf 359#alana maxwell#daniel jacobi#i wish there were recording scripts available for the mission mishaps I'd love to read the ones for happy holidays and no complaints#also a little night music but thats off topic#im just obsessed with them almost as much as they are with each other#its the fact that jacobi's devotion to alana is even higher than his dedication to kepler which is impressive honestly#and the fact that he sees his (and kepler's) role as just paving the way so maxwell can change the world#and the fact that he's the one to survive#but also just that they have so much fun together#yeah i think some of it is play acting to get the hephaestus crew to let their guard down around them#but they are also just like that™️#i love happy holidays so much
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sorry if this makes me an evil bigot but people arent entitled to mindlessly follow your beliefs or tolerate bad behaviour/attitudes just because you have more oppressed lables than them.
People should be able to lable idiocy and cruelty when they they see it and being a minority doesnt make it so you cant use your hardships to be manipulative, spout vile horrible things or say things that are simply not true
Its honestly why sj tumblr is such a toxic mess. Its ran by crybullies who despise honest communication and constructive community building. Its just 'im automatically right when i tell someone ~less oppressed~ than me anything and they cant question me. If they do theyre speaking over me and oppressing me by disagreeing"
'Listen to x voices' should mean not automatically disregarding a female, gay, black, asian etc persons views, and not that people should grovel and defer to others because they said so.
#Lgbt#Poc#Social justice#Feminism#Leftism#Rightism#Politics#Yeah its painful to hear but... manipulative people will use anything they can to manipulate#Be it 'im privileged so i automatically know better'#Or 'im oppressed so youre hurting me by not obeying'#Off topic but its similar to why i believe abuse of women by men and abuse of men by women are both belittled#Abusers are manipulators first and foremost who can draw you into a narrative#Be it 'crazy hysterical woman' or 'shameful weak man' theyll do whatever it takes to play off certain biases on the people around them and#They do it well rant over
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don't mind me posting (barely) ship art lol
Ive never posted any shippy art until now lol (I've reached dangerous levels of brain rot)
#Logan is a kitty :)#Kinda off topic but I watched Logan (the movie lol) because of Deadpool#And despite having never watched another Xmen movie#I may or may not have cried#You can't prove anything#Anyways I'll do the actual tags now#deadpool#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool 3#deadpool fanart#wade wilson#logan howlett#Should I tag this as Poolverine#Yeah sure why not#poolverine#fanart#my art
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i had fnaf on my mind today. really wanted to draw bonnie and then that extended to the entire fnaf 1 gang. if anything's hard to read just ask for some plaintext in the comments
#bonnie's been my fav since day 1#sometimes i'm like “nahhh im not a true og in any fandom” but like. yeah i am#the other day some kid told me i was an og fan of tally hall because i got into them thru flipnote before tiktok was a thing#and i've been a fan of fnaf since mark uploaded his first vid#which is ! apparently qualification enough to be an early fan!#makes me feel old.#some kids i met a while ago didn't know who shrek was and THAT made me feel old. but also how do you not know shrek#that was off topic annyyyywaayyyyy onto some real tagging business#labyposting#labyart#my art#digital art#art#fnaf#fnaf 1#fnaf 1 fanart#fnaf fanart#fnaf foxy#fnaf freddy#fnaf bonnie#fnaf chica#foxy the pirate#bonnie the bunny#freddy fazbear#chica the chicken#five nights at freddy's#fnaf art#five nights at freddys#fanart
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Special birthday meet the artist (I've never done one of these before)!!!
#//off topic#art#my art#oc#my oc#my sona#not sure what to tag#but yeah I've made it another year yahoo!
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need i say more 🕴
#back to the future#bttf#marty mcfly#michael j fox#my arts#how do i tag#this was gonna be my post yesterday before i saw the pic of crispin and lea lol. but i still liked it so yeah u guys can have it now :P#me when two marties at the same place on the same day 🤯🤯#also that second outfit is the funniest thing ever#pov ur in 1955. 1st pic when ur parent [read: “uncle”] dresses u vs 2nd pic when u dress urself#he felt so cool for what#silliest boy ever <3#also trying a slightly different style. idk if ill keep it? i was just trying stuff out w simplifying likeness etc#i dont think this is a v good example but i do have a proper headshot that i think actually looks like mjf so like. yah#we will see if/when i post that. im getting really off topic sorry bye
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something about cesare being neck-collared by his father by trapping him in the cardinal's robes against his will instilling a deep sense of powerlessness that drove cesare to overcompensate by seeking devotion and exerting domination as he projected the controlling behavior his father imposed on him onto two people who are so different from each other by grabbing them by the neck- the submissive masterless assassin micheletto, and his disobedient incompetent soldier younger brother juan. micheletto was an ideal vessel for cesare to fulfill his need to dominate in being a skilled but obedient killer and all while juan's rebelliousness made it difficult for cesare to control him...the contrast between the malleable (only to cesare) micheletto and the defiant juan is almost highlighting cesare's drive to assert the control that was denied to him by his father...
#i love you twisted psychological dynamics <333#i also love writing meta on the show because why the hell is eveything fascinating about it???#this show and its petplays...i ain't complaining though#i love how cesare views his world in terms of obedience or annihilation...like has an all-consuming personality regarding everything#inflicting the same experience his father used on him on his obedient assassin and his wayward brother...good food right there!!#off topic but me using “wayward”....yeah no i'm never escaping sam and dean like ever lol#cesare borgia#rodrigo borgia#the borgias#juan borgia#period drama#text post
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as someone who is so incredibly autistic abt both black holes and shadow the hedgehog i am DEVASTATED (/lh) that not enough people are mentioned the black hole powers. im so stoked by this i have never been so happy
BLACK HOLE BABY POWERS
#Yeah he’s got black hole powers and no one can tell me that he doesn’t#sonic movie#sonic movie 3#shadow the hedgehog#mystery anon#off topic
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i don't know what order to start Dissecting, so i'll just start with:
it's absolutely fascinating how the dynamic Wally & Barnaby had - to my knowledge - before the update, and a dynamic i'd seen speculated elsewhere and generally accepted, has been completed turned on its head
see, given that Wally is the "main character" and Barnaby is classified as "his best friend", i got the feeling that Barnaby kind of... tags along on Wally's 'shenanigans'. that he's the sidekick, the best friend. especially since their dynamic has been previously & briefly described as "Barnaby is very polite to Wally." he's the Companion.
but the audios sorta paint a reverse picture. in the Interview, when Barnaby enters stage right, he completely bowls over Wally's introduction and dominates the interview. when the interviewer asks how the two of them are handling the fame, even outright asking Wally, Barnaby doesn't hesitate to answer the question himself, and only about himself. Wally doesn't get another word in edge-wise until the interviewer explicitly singles Wally out.
(now, an argument could be made that Barnaby knew that Wally was somewhat overwhelmed with all of the questions, and tried to take the reins to give him a reprieve. but, considering that the interview seems to be very early on the possible timeline - like, very soon after Welcome Home debuted - i don't think this is likely. i doubt Barnaby and Wally would've had the time to solidify their dynamic or really get to know each other that well yet)
and Barnaby continues to take point in pretty much all of their other conversations, too. like in the mystery Howdy/Barnaby/Wally audio, their interaction gives off the vibes that Wally is Barnaby's sidekick, his tag-along.
(on a related tangent, it's fascinating how the website described the episodes as "[beginning] with Wally introducing the focus or theme for the day before coming across other characters who would join him on his escapades until the end of the day." but from pretty much everything we've seen so far, it seems like He's the one who's just along for the ride, bouncing from neighbor shenanigan to neighbor shenanigan instead of having his own adventures.
of course, if the 14 audios are present time, which is honestly somewhat likely, this could be because the show isn't running. they aren't doing episodes - they're just existing, doing their things. no need for Wally to take point in any way shape or form. tangent over)
in the 14 audios with Barnaby, he doesn't even acknowledge Wally until the very end - which, of course, could be because that's how the scenes are set up. except that in some of them, the characters do directly acknowledge Wally's presence outside of the endings. Eddie in 5-14, Howdy and Poppy in 1-14, and Frank in 4-14 (technically, since he was infodumping to Wally at the very start before Barnaby interrupted). you'd think that a guy would try to include his best friend a little more!
maybe i'm reading into it too much. & given what we know about Wally as a character, it would make sense for Barnaby to be the go-getter Main Guy of the two. but it really seems like its Barnaby & Wally instead of Wally & Barnaby. he's just kinda... there. going along with whatever Barnaby is up to.
but also, on the other side of things - & it's occurring to me as i type this, it's interesting how in a lot of audios, Barnaby seems to seek Wally out. in "Just So", he shows up to fetch Wally. in 4-14, Barnaby interrupts Frank and Wally's gardening session, almost as if he's stopping by to check on his little buddy. in 7-14, Barnaby calls Julie's house (presumably) searching for Wally, or at least checking in once again. something to consider in all of this!
#and if the 14 audios are in the same day along a timeline - which they Are. im trying to puzzle it out rn but anyway -#its interesting how barnaby just kept. checkin. in.#they had three audios where they were already hanging out and then got two (technically three) more where barnaby checked in!#it feels like there's something there...#separation anxiety? a compulsion? love for his buddy? a secret fourth thing?#maybe he could tell something was Off with wally that day...#(which is a topic i will ramble about in a different post)#its a push & pull to be certain....#but yeah that plus all the evidence of Barnaby kinda being the Lead and wally being brushed off to the side....#what a complicated fuckin picture it paints!!! dont know what it means yet!#i have another post im working on centering on how the neighbors seem to treat each other - wally & eddie especially#but this post aint about that. itll be related though#homebogging#wh speculation#please let this have made sense!#when i make posts i just kinda throw myself at it bc i have No organizational skills!#my brain is a complete incoherent mess and i am so sorry if this post is messy <3
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