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HOLY TRINITY X SPY AU
In this modern world where technology and magic interwired, the existence of spy remains necessary more than ever.
We have an organization that immediately disbatches 3 of its top members to a prestige, highly publicized boarding school due to a rumor that a bomber blood mage criminal has hidden there.
1st spy, nicknamed the Silver Shield, real name: Kim Rok Soo.
2nd spy, nicknamed the Demon King, real name: Kim Dokja.
3rd spy, nicknamed Monster Mother, real name: Han Yoojin.
All three are talented but are desperate for their deserved retirement.
This mission will be the last. The three spies are confident this plan will go without a hitch since they have worked together before and any missions, no matter how impossible, are guaranteed to be succeed with the Unholy Trinity there.
Of course they jinx it.
The Academy they will be undercover turns out to not only housing the target but to also be a nestling pot of an incredibly secretive and dangerous crime organization that has existed since ancient time and is currently alarmingly large in number. There are hints that the org might have impacted the Holy Trinity's childhood before.
To add to the trouble, Rok Soo (who is half-Korean) had dyed his hair red and forged a fake name, as expected. It would have been no problem if it wasn't for the fact that Rok Soo, or Cale Margarita (he lost a bet), shares resemblance to the infamous wealthy deliquent, Cale Henituse down to the reddish-brown eyes. Or that the young boy Choi Han, whom he gives his sandwich to, would obediently follow him around like a puppy!
Kim Dokja, or rather Yoo Dokja, finds himself at odds with the professor Yoo Joonghyuk, who Dokja embarassibgly admires when he was young. Yoo Joonghyuk, through his keen sense and instinct, is suspicious of this "Yoo Dokja" and no, despite what Uriel and others say, he does NOT have a crush on that annoying man!
Han Yoojin, who uses his real name since unfortunately his overprotective younger brother (who doesn't know his older brother is in a dangerous career) is the star pupil of this school, enters as a sort of teaching assistant to one Sung Hyunjae, who keeps giving him exotic presents.
The retirement life filled with money and delicious food, suddenly seems far far away.
P.S: this is based on a dream where my OC asks the holy trinity this question: "How to hide oneself in plain sight?"
Kim Rok Soo/Cale: "Act cute, weak, helpless"
Han Yoojin: "Cuteness can save the world"
Kim Dokja: "Born ugly :)"
*the conversation derails into disaster*
P.S Again: Margarita is an alcoholic drink whose base is tequlia, orange liqueur and lime. And guess who hates sour thing 🤣
#spy au#holy trinity#of self sacrificial bastards#cale henituse#kim rok soo#trash of the count's family#lout of the count’s family#tcf#lcf#kim dokja#omniscient reader's viewpoint#orv#han yoojin#s classes that i raised#the s classes that i raised#my s class hunters#tsctir#sctir#manhwa#korean webnovel
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[OLD ART ALERT] A COLLECTION OF SCENES FROM THE GILLIONS CATSCRATCH ARC THAT BROUGHT ME GREAT JOY. i love fishy chips especially when its just gillion being delirious and violent and hostile
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi riptide#jrwi riptide spoilers#JUST NOTICED A MILLION MISTAKES FUUUUUUUUCK BUT WWHATEVERRRRR IF I STARE AT THIS ANYMORE IM GONNA HHUURRRLLL#SO I REALLY LIKE FISH AND CHIPS RIGHT. IVE BEEN IN LOVE W THE SHIP EVER SINCE THAT NAT 20 KISS#BUT I THINK I SHIP IT WRONG. OR LIKE. I AM CORRECT BUT EVERYONE SHIPS THEM DIFFERENTLY#THE FISH N CHIPS I SEE EVERYWHERE ELSE IS SO FLOWERY AND SWEET AND ROMANTIC. AND THATS NICE! THAT STUFFS NEAT#but gillion and chip would NEVERRRR enter anything similar to a romantic relationship. chips too damaged and gillions too uninterested#I LIKE MY FISH N CHIPS ONE SIDED AS FUCK#bc 2 gillion chip is his best friend in the whole wide world but hes also kinduvagross little man that took him a MINUTE to really warm up2#but to CHIP gillion is this powerful and gorgeous and heroic paragon of destiny and his best friend in the whole world who will#bring about the eschaton. 'i didnt believe in destiny until i met you' until i met a champion radiating with a light thatll alter the world#OHH REMEMBER THE FIRST ICE ARENA?he was so mad.still probably shaking from the ordeal.NEVER had he felt true divine radiance CLEAVE through#his SOUL like that.do you remember that moment in the forest w the bugs. an alien from the ocean; lacerating the land w lightning#when the realization flickered in chip for a moment.that the thing standing before him was more powerful than he could ever fathom#remember when grizz mentioned that the nat20 kiss was the 'best kiss chip ever experienced'. that has nothing to do w this. where was i.#LOST MY TRAIN OF THOUGHT. BUT HEY. I THINK at the beginning chip absolutely knew that gill was smth grand n powerful n scary#when gillion revealed what exactly the prophecy was;chip got defensive and mad.sure he was sleep deprived but OOH. HES SCARED!#he believes gillion too! he believes that his destiny is to eradicate either the sea or land and that scares him!#but then he gets past it bc ultimately he trusts his bestfriend gillion so so much. he fuckin loves this dude.#he would throw himself intothe path of fire for this dude. he would boat across the ocean for this dude.he would build arenas for this dude#even if this dude will end half the world.even if this dude wields the power and the obligation to eradicate him at any second.#even if this dude is going to throw himself into harms way for his own comrades.even if this dude is just going to sacrifice himself.#one way or another one shall die for the other.these self-sacrificial bastards click so well with eachother!!#chip believes his body is best used to pave roads and gill believes his body is destined to pave prosperity.WHATEVER!!#i really love their dynamic!! they care for eachother so much!in MY heart tho. the icing on the cake here is the fantasy that chip is#just a bit more In Love w gillion than he realizes. like this powerful fish guy is HOT and PRETTY and KIND and FUNNY and LOYAL and STRONG#but gillion would never rly feel that same sort of attraction towards chip. its just not rly his thing. aroace as fuck man.#thats how it is in MY little heart atleast. and i sit here and play w my touys in my brain n i explore my silly lil one sided fish y chips.
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SSB WIPS
#cale henituse#kim dokja#han yoojin#lcf#lout of the counts family#omniscient reader#orv#the s classes that i raised#tsctir#sketch#WIP#ssb stands for self sacrificial bastards
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had an idea for the concept of pac using the tazercraft mind link to switch bodies with mike in a situation where he's about to get hurt in order to take the brunt of the impact (and pain) for him and now I'm climbing the walls.
(he's done it so many times at this point that the switch is seamless enough that mike doesn't notice, he just thinks he has one hell of a pain tolerance)
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Okay but slice of life idea where all the Kims are in an orphanage and they just adopt each other so they stop being sad bastards. They’re still self sacrificial but like if they’re all the same then they gotta keep the dying to a minimum because of checks and balances right—
Yes, I know Kim is a common Korean surname but also what if they’re actually related?? Like, that amount of psychopathic goodwill can’t exist if it doesn’t run in the family right—
#lcf#tcf#lout of the count’s family#kim rok soo#orv#omniscient reader#kim dokja#orv kdj#kdj#sss class revival hunter#kim gongja#the greatest estate designer#kim suho#self sacrificial bastards#lloyd frontera#cale henituse
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oh myg od togAME no Way NO Way NO WAYYYYYY how dare he go for MY HEART like that
#GODDDDDDDDDDDD#ARI U WERE RIGHT#HE COOKED#IM EATING HIM UP#I CANT MFFFFFFFF#WHATTHE FAWWKKKK#THE SUN NEEDS TO SMILE ??? FOR WHEN THE SUN COMES OUT AGAIN ?!??! ARE U MFING JOKING ME !?!? SELF SACRIFICIAL BASTARD#sel watches wind breaker#currently on e7
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Re: the last post I reblogged
Libertus whenever Nyx and Ace try to do something stupid and self sacrificing
#royal bastard au#libs to Regis: I am the only reason you son and his husband are alive#libs: because they are both STUPID and self sacrificial
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Genshin Impact’s Self Sacrificial Little Bastards:
(Aka the playables whose skills cause HP loss and make my head want to explode. Respectfully.)
Xiao: I love you honey, but you gotta stop literally trying to get yourself killed. Please and thank you! 😊
Kuki Shinobu: What is even the point of literally slicing yourself open? Can’t you do the skill without that first step, or are you really just that clumsy? I wouldn’t be surprised if Kuki here has pulled this stunt so many times it doesn’t even hurt anymore.
Hu Tao: You do realize you can’t do business on yourself, right..?
Dehya: Honestly, Fake Cat Girl II here already makes my head want to explode, so what’s a little more?
(Could you tell I listed them in order of how much I care about them? Hu Tao would’ve been last, but then Dehya happened so..)
#genshin impact#Xiao#kuki shinobu#Hu Tao#Dehya#self sacrificial little bastards#but I still love them though#*cough cough* Xiao and Kuki *cough cough*
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Cdrama men all have rocks for brains and yet I still love them
#rip#self sacrificial 'i dont deserve happiness' bastards#they all need to be wrapped in blankets and given forehead kisses
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last words ,
left to right : peter parker of earth-1048 , peter b. parker of earth-616 , peter parker of earth-65 , and peter parker of earth-1610
#e65 being “why are you doing this?” when he knew spider woman was gwen. owie#* 🕸 ─────────── peter parker.#* 🕸 ─────────── image.#pete of 161 ever te self sacrificial bastard . hate him#also “i never got to tell them” could be for mj or miles depending on the point in the timeline which ! sucks !
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you had one job.. 😔
*You have no other choice.
#jkjk!!#still interesting to see how many of u are self sacrificial bastards like kdj /lh#truly channeling the kdj fragments fr#orv
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My type of men are pathetic, self-sacrificial bastards who have moody, stoic husbands
Not a requirement, but all three of them also have a bad bitch best friend with a bob
#omniscient reader's viewpoint#orv#kim dokja#yoo jonghyuk#han sooyoung#dokhyuk#jongdok#yoohankim#genshin impact#alhaitham#kaveh#haikaveh#kavetham#tighnari#honkai star rail#hsr#hsr aventurine#dr ratio#aventio#raturine#the ship name is so funny#hsr topaz
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I’ve been deliberating for a couple days now and have decided to discuss in-depth about Kim Dokja and the tendencies of putting his life on the line. For most of the novel, I was split on whether I should view KDJ as a self-sacrificial bastard or a suicidal character. And by the end, I’ve reached the conclusion that he is both.
Before I elaborate further, it should be noted that while we all meme about KDJ’s dying count, he actually isn’t that careless with his life. What I mean is he sacrifices himself usually as a last resort, plans A to F didn’t work and it’s the only option left to hope for kimcom’s safety-ditch effort. Usually. We’ll circle back to that when we bring up OD. But his sacrifices are always done as granting his companions salvation, utterly blind to how they feel about it. But to understand his constant need to do this you have to first start with where he learned how to love. Lee Sookyoung’s love was sacrificial, she’d take the brunt of her husband’s rage to shield KDJ, she’d take on blame for his death and be incarcerated for years so Kim Dokja won’t discover the truth. All of this, in my opinion, unbeknownst to KDJ, imprinted onto him this interpretation of love. As nobody else until the scenarios began had loved him (Yes HSY technically but he doesn’t know that). Which gives the irony that multiple characters KDJ resent in the story such as Kim Namwoon, his mother, the constellations are ultimately revealed to be reflections of himself.
Another component to his self-sacrificing is “Kim Dokja the reader”. I’m not going to dive deep into how orv interweaves dissociation and escapism into its narrative, I’ll do that some other day. But KDJ views himself as the reader, an outsider, the sole member in the audience watching the story unfold before him. Yes he grants commentary, the players notice and acknowledge his existence, but he isn’t part of the play. So if he decides to step out of the auditorium for a while, if he decides to leave a bookmark where he left off and close the book, nothing should change. The story will continue in his absence, the characters cannot possibly miss him because Kim Dokja was not a character. He was not part of their world so even if he’s gone, the ending will still happen. And that is something I want to stress here.
KDJ says “he wants to see a certain story’s epilogue”. Specific choice of words, “see”. He doesn’t say he’ll be part of it,that he’ll be with them, or any close variation of those phrases.
This is where I want to diverge to talk about KDJ's suicidality. You can say “Ok then, KDJ has a clear goal in mind to reach the ending he desires. Yes he may feel the need to step out of the story every now and then, but he does so reluctantly. So obviously, he doesn’t want to die.” And you wouldn’t be wrong really but that simplifies it to an overwhelming degree. That’s how I initially thought of it until I realized how complicated it actually is. Because most people who deal with suicidal thoughts aren’t searching for death but rather feel there’s no other choice. It often isn’t as clear cut as 1863 YJH who, anyone that read this arc will say with certainty that he was suicidal. Yes KDJ isn’t chanting in his mind over and over that he wants to die but why does he want to live? To see the proper ending of a web novel that stopped him from attempting again to begin with. Over the course of orv he finds people he loves and who love him back deeply. People he longs to live for but despite that because of the disconnect between them, his self-loathing, accompanied with what I said before, believing he has no other way out of these threatening situations. Yeah it’s to save his companions but in the end Kim Dokja still feels the need to die. Even if you do not see KDJ as a suicidal character, it is undeniable that so much revolving him, the impact it has on those who care for him, and the visceral descriptions used to convey their thoughts, is a direct metaphor for that.
Or in a few cases, straight up what’s going on and now we arrive at what I think was the final straw for Kim Dokja. Meeting the Oldest Dream. For me, this is THE scene of orv. The biggest twist and what finally irreparably broke KDJ. Prior to this, Kim Dokja had become the “Enemy of the story” but it was unlike his previous dances with death. This time he truly had no intention of dying, he wants to be a part of the ending with his companions, he understands now that his sacrifices do hurt them. That according to him “I, someone of no redeeming quality, could be loved by the others.” That he is a character and that just maybe, he does deserve to live happily ever after with them. And then Kim Dokja meets a 15-year old boy with the same face as his, doodling in a notebook his ideas for Ways of Survival and a notification tells him to ‘Please end the Oldest Dream’. All of that progress is shattered in an instant.
KDJ tries to excuse himself by recalling his promise to SP to kill OD but we all know if that was any other kid, he would not have tried to kill them. He would’ve hesitated much more, he’d look for a loophole, he would’ve tried talking which is his biggest strength for every corner he gets into. Killing them would not be the first option but now it is. Because this isn’t an instance of sacrifice anymore, KDJ is sick of himself. OD is a presence that confirms KDJ’s worst fears. That he’s meant to be weak and pitiful and alone, that he was always an outsider, that he unintentionally causes pain and misfortune to people he loves, that everyone would be perfectly fine and better even without him. And Kim Dokja is the physical manifestation of them: a monster. And there’s only one way to get rid of this monster.
The chain of events from him swinging his sword at OD, trying to stab himself with the blade only for YJH to stop it desperately with his hand, everyone restraining and begging him to stop, KDJ crying and screaming for SP + the other Outer Gods to kill OD. Everyone else is forgiving him and KDJ is only thinking of getting a blade.
This is Kim Dokja’s relapse. It’s real, it’s harrowing, and he never recovers from it. He reaches the conclusion that he has to be alone, it’s his atonement, it's what he deserves. So he splits himself 49-51. I interpreted this when I first read it as presenting 49% of what you believe people want to see. More real than a facade but it’s not the true you. The true, fucked up version of who you are is trapped in a prison of your making, trapped in a darkness you feel you don’t deserve to escape. Which is why it’s so powerful that KimCom went after that 51%. They didn’t want just their version of KDJ, they wanted everything KDJ is including the larger side of him that he wishes didn’t exist. But the plan fails, they managed to turn that full stop into a comma but they couldn’t save KDJ. Because you can’t drag someone out of that train, out of that mentality, you can’t force someone to love themself. All you can do is reach out to any corner, every worldline you can and let them know you’ll always love them. That you’ll always love every aspect of their story and hope that perhaps one day, they’ll accept your hand and believe it.
[ID: Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint art by Blackbox: first of Kim DOkja smiling, seen through a space in a bookshelf, and second of astronaut Yoo Joonghyuk floating upside down as letters float around him. End ID]
#The pain rollercoaster that is orv#Kim Dokja is one of the best characters ever#love that potato#omniscient reader's viewpoint#kim dokja#yoo joonghyuk#han sooyoung#orv novel#orv spoilers#dark thoughts#TW#tw sui ideation#essay#character breakdown#tags#manga tumblr#manhwa#sing shong#kdj#orv
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some AU rambles again :>
anyway. shadow!soap AU except soap doesn't really have any loyalty to them—doesn't have loyalties to anyone, for that matter. he operates on a self-preservation basis, for whatever outcome would benefit him the most; he doesn't care what or who he's fighting for, so long as they're the highest bidder. moral ground rocky at best, soap has a habit of completing a job, reaping the rewards, and disappearing before things get hairy.
and right now, it just so happens that shadow company is paying the most.
everything is going as expected, at first. but then the betrayal happens—and while soap doesn't care, doesn't feeling anything about it, he does wish someone would have told him beforehand. because now, dealing with the fallout, that need for survival presents him with two options: stay with the company that pays him well, or decrease his chance of getting killed by the 141 by ditching the company’s side.
because while the 141 is small, they're also mighty. soap has witnessed how efficient they are and, ultimately, decides that it's their side he'd rather be on. he does some mental calculations, and figures his benefit lies with the side that was betrayed. so, during that initial fiasco, soap follows ghost to las almas.
the bastard, however, is incredibly good at getting away—but after searching for the right channel and pestering and persuading the lieutenant some, ghost reluctantly agrees to let soap tag along, so long as he can make it to the cathedral on his own. and then, maybe then, he'll consider soap one of their own, at least temporarily.
obviously that's what soap wants, so soap does. he demonstrates his competence ten times over, proves he has no qualms with killing other shadows, and eventually makes it to the cathedral—all while being an unabashed flirt with ghost. he takes great joy in doing it, getting to hear the eye rolls in ghost's unimpressed replies, and see his irritation when they finally meet up.
soap does mean it, though; ever since he'd first met the man, soap knew he was going to make advances at one point or another. ghost was a tree he damn well wanted to climb. but it appears ghost has no mutual interest.
anyway, so on so forth, at some point ghost has a close call and for the first time since maybe childhood, soap does something self-sacrificial to save him after a lot of inner turmoil. thankfully, they both survive in the end, and soap realizes he has feelings going beyond a basic attraction—and learns that ghost had started feeling the same too, eventually, he'd just been reluctant to indulge since he hadn't thought soap trustworthy just yet. after all, he'd switched sides like it was nothing.
after everything is said and done, soap still operates with his selfish mindset, and still refuses to owe loyalty to others—others except for ghost, to whom he willing hands his heart; his entire being.
#hope this makes sense. also hope u guys like it#simon ghost riley#john soap mactavish#soapghost#ghostsoap#ghost x soap#ghoap#alternate universe
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I may have made a little something
Me @ yoojin's casual crimes against food:
How do u drink your coffee? Choose your fighter
Idea by @YuyaKW97 on bird app
#Yoojin beats the apocalypse survivor and trauma waif with his concerning diet#wtf hyj#orv#lcf#tsctir#cale henituse#kim dokja#han yoojin#omniscient reader viewpoint#omniscient reader#lout of the counts family#the s classes that i raised#ssb#ssb stands for self sacrificial bastards
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every squad got the
heart of gold. escaped from literal hell
memory loss. kinda a bitch, but working on it
autistic self sacrificial bastard. did NOT need to die to prove you were worthy
scary as fuck. needs to get used to this whole "emotions" and "talking to people" thing
"oh yeah, him? he's a rescue"
"these fuckers fucked up my job and now i'm fucking stuck with them"
you don't have to objectify yourself to be worthy or to not be lonely. have you considered friends and therapy instead?
the weight of the world's a heavy one to bear all by yourself. yes, the horrors are immense, but it is not your responsibility to hold them all off alone. you don't have to put up a front of happiness, of always being the hero. it's okay to be sad, it's okay to be angry. your father fucking sucked, but you are not, and will never be him. you can be better than him. i promise.
#...anyways#the brainrots are brainrotting#bg3#dead boy detectives#baldur's gate 3#edwin payne#karlach#crystal palace#shadowheart#niko sasaki#gale dekarios#jenny the butcher#lae'zel#monty the crow#halsin#the night nurse#minthara#the cat king#astarion#charles rowland#wyll ravengard#wow. that was WAY too many tags
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