#astre.txt

[astratria]

clawing the walls at the sudden realization i had while watching hannibal edits. the potential of jayde/hannigram parallel au slammed into me like a fucking man-bat someone sedate me??

the older half, comfortable and secure in his grey morals, being everything the other half wants to be, teaching the other how to let go of their "unnecessary" inhibitions and be more free, happier, more comfortable in who they are.

jason as robin, the definition of "you can take the man out of crime alley, not crime alley out of the man" who tried so hard to be good, to be robin, to embody justice and detach himself from the blood and horrors he grew up in.

s1 will, fbi agent and profiler, doing all he has to help others even though every single time he catches a criminal, he just becomes closer to what they are. drifting lower and lower in a black hole of violence that feels horrifyingly right.

then jason back from the dead, angry and hardened by what he went through, still empathetic but only towards the weak and the pitiful. his rampage and him shedding a dozen times the blood he was accused of spilling (but never did) without any lingering remorse because he tried and tried and that was never actually him. but jason who still mourned the boy he left in ethiopia and clung to the last slivers of his morality.

then you have will graham, framed for murder and betrayed, gaslit and lied to and so fucking angry. spiraling down and down and down and who, at some point, after so many trials and events and tests that could (should) have broken him or put him out for good, started to let go of all that kindness and morality. but still, will graham scrambling to find a way back up to the light.

and just like hannibal dragged will down to the comfort of the bottom of that hole, i NEED slade to tear those remaining strings keeping jason attached to the bats and their rules and showing him how much it was liberating to do what you wanted to do without people, clearly different than you, nagging you about it being wrong when it feels more right than anything else.

bring the manipulative deathstroke that got dick to agree to become renegade and put him with jason, i'm trying to see something.

[astratria]

girlhood is enjoying your fictional little guy™ going through hell and back

I see a man (fictional), I am generally like "okay". I see the same man (fictional) being put in a situation, covered in dirt and blood, perhaps soaking wet, actively sobbing and shaking like a chihuahua, and I am saying "yay" and "yippee" and things of this nature

[astratria]

I'M CRYING BECAUSE THIS IS THE LEAST WORRISOME THING TO JASON 💀

does jason have daddy issues? yes. is he fully aware of them? .... [looks at how much shit he started to get back at his father] i guess? does he give a single flying fuck? nope.

“disrespectfully slade, your daughter's my ex, you tried to kill my father more times than you both can recall, you tried to cut off MY head and i will not touch your relationship with dick even under full nuclear protection gear.”

“the age gap is the least weird part of this relationship, you'll learn to deny its relevance like you deny the rest's. now can you tie me up?”

Slade, smoking outside a bar “I was married with kids before you were born. And you do t think thats a little weird” Jason, drunk and trying to take slades cigarette out of his hand “can I put this out on you”