#of course. in rp I can say that they have spoken more and there is a relationship there which eventually develops )

[mercysought]

Forgive me if you've talked about this somewhere before and I missed it, but does Asharen believe there's an opportunity for her to reconcile with Solas? Are there specific steps that would need to be taken, or specific things he might do that could prevent this reconciliation?

character questions! // accepting // @keepslore

I don't think I have except in very few specific threads? Or drabbles maybe? And even then it's been scraps!

I went into Veilguard fully blind so I had no idea that the Inquisitor would even be there, I had hopes they would be but I couldn't have predicted that we'd even have a chance of influencing this. The reason why I bring this up is because I fully thought for most of the game that Asharen wouldn't have, that she would have moved on - and while writing her I think at most points until Veilguard comes that she believes this herself.

It's through Veilguard and that she is like: Oh. this is Not Good™️ Truthfully, it's not so much about steps to prevent her from reconciliation but getting her to a place where she might even consider that to be an option grounded in reality - because she fully believes that it isn't.

For a larger part, towards the middle of the eight year interval before Veilguard Asharen stopped drinking tea for the pleasure of it but just drinking the teas that keep her from dreaming. There is a quote from Critical Role that without going into too many spoilers that is "How am I supposed to get over you if you keep sending ravens to me?" and that quote is basically about how someone has moved on (in this case died) and yet they keep sending signs in the world that they are with her, watching her.

In part, as a non-dreamer, it's because she is concerned what information Solas might gleam and use against them as the Inquisition works towards getting him to stop. The other part is because Solas cannot tell her to move on and live in peace for the rest of her days and then continue to visit her in her dreams. It is not kind and while she loves knowing that he would visit because it tells her that he does still love her or she is in his thoughts, she also knows that sort of hope would serve neither of them. So when they meet again in Veilguard, it truly is like eight years of basically no contact, Asharen wouldn't even truly know if they even tried to continue visiting her in dreams lmao

All of this said though, It's already a labour of love, because it needs to be, to have gotten to this point eight years down the line and having sacrificed so much of her life and taken up a title that she never wished to pick up again - so there is no Asharen in Veilguard without a love for Solas. And she does continue trying to reach out to him, in ways that she knows she might reach him (for example, some spirits find unsent letters and unearth them in the fade much to her dismay, or other spirits upon wanting to help her do carry one or two missives), to get him to stop.

Especially in my canon universe with Orla as a Rook and in an universe where Varric is actually dead. What he does to Orla in putting her in the fade prison. The thought that she has been wrong about the person he was is a question that hangs really heavily in her mind, and she is glad to have an excuse to keep her mind busy. Though she holds on.

As for things that could fully stop a reconciliation: it's hard, I think that the crux of this is because I think that the first 'vhenan' is what really rattles her and all bets are off after so long of being away. And I think this is also one of the reasons why it's really so difficult to ship with Asharen in Veilguard.

I fully think that the going off into the fade is a fully spur of the moment, and though Asharen considered as a possibility, for herself, outside of Solas - honestly, she considered it mostly from the point of view of using the dagger and hoping the well and the magic within might be similar enough to allow her to fix this herself. So, this would certainly prevent a reconciliation lmao.

Asharen is ungodly hard to ship with during Veilguard but I did once say that if anyone could sway her it would be Emmrich and I do stand by that even if I think that's such an utter and thankless climb for him, he deserves better. So I will leave this as a maybe, a soft thing.

I would say that other people's opinion wouldn't be enough (Orla, Émilie). I think, maybe, the only two that would give her some pause would be Varric or Cole but even then, she has a thick and stubborn skull. I think that in most cases, though I rarely get to write it beyond drabbles, they both prefer to believe that the person that Asharen sees is still in there - the same way that they would with Varric.

[ukulelegodparent]

Still can't get over the fact that my cousin sounds like a Kiwi

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[bitcell]

i have been spinning around my head that one post that talked about queer representation on the qsmp and i thought i would share a few of my thoughts as someone who’s latina and who has been keeping up with mcrp since 2020. 

first of all, why did i have to state that i’m latina? because i’m gonna tackle some cultural background and how it’s showcased in the difference between how latinos portray queer characters and americans/europeans. obviously, this is a subjective view and other people might have different opinions.

all throughout last year, (huge thanks to quackity for creating the qsmp and making a conglomerate of different cultures and languages being shared and appreciated) i noticed that there’s a stark difference in the way latinos portray, present and treat queer relationships. labels and spoken remarks of their queerness are always integral parts of the way they interact with other characters around them, it is part of their character, it’s a defining trait, it’s not something to be hidden or something that is ambiguous. if a character is queer, they will immediately tell their audience. (cellbit talking about being gay and happy. roier talking about roier cubito being gay. bagi talking about the attraction she feels for other female characters), meanwhile in all mcrp that i saw where the majority of the ccs were american/european cishet men, they showed traces of queerness, but they never admitted to it or when they were questioned they shot it down, talking about how relationships that may seem romantic in nature are just a play on the connection of characters with no attraction involved. 

could this be because latinos are considered “more open” to talk about their feelings? of course, you can’t erase the cultural identity of those players, even if they’re playing characters who are not them. could this be because europeans and americans are “more closed off” about their feelings? of course. could this be because of the repercussions of rpf and people blurring the lines of reality and fiction in the past? also yes. 

but what i can happily say is that i see this stigma of queer representation being changed due to the openness of those latinos characters and the way they clearly state the difference between a character and a content creator, and that leads to them being able to portray more faithfully the emotions and the inner struggles of their characters. also, before i end this part, HUGE props to fitmc and his rp and the way he found the perfect balance between portraying a queer character and their struggles.

[creatortools]

New listeners?

I got two new listeners as well as a Intern doodle when he was younger and the one, the only…

KARMOR doodle hehehe

The full photo, info of my two new listeners, and a little ramble will be after the cut.

KAYNE AND RAZE IS FINALLY HERE! (I tried to draw Gienne and failed) Of course, the info I prove is most likely NOT CANON, this is just my interpretation/version of these two.

Kayne:

-He/They (Male)

-Probably in his twenties

-Half Chinese, half European.

-5’5 (Just an inch taller than Karmor)

-He loves his instant noodles (relatable) but hates garlic bread.

-Likes orange juice better than apple juice

-Extremely afraid of the stalker (Mad Crow? Idk if it’s still canon anymore.). He’s afraid that his stalker had broken out of captivity and is still following/stalking him.

-The feather that Loyal gave him is on his necklace. (I drew it there just pointing it out.)

-Sleepy man

-Very soft spoken, and very hesitant.

-Speaks English, of course.

-His birthday is on the 16th of December.

-Starting to forget himself.

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“…What…What else do I say? I-I don’t have much else to say, I…don’t know myself anymore? I can’t really explain it…I-I can’t remember?”

“…What do you mean by that?”

“I don’t…know…I’m sorry.”

“Can…you tell me more? Like where you lived before all of this, or…maybe the languages you know, or anything?”

“…Well…I like the colour green, is…that good enough? Im so sorry…I can’t remember anything else”

“Uhh, yes, I’ll write that down.”

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Raze:

-Any pronouns (Genderfluid)

-Unknown age? But their old I guess

-A half Bull hybrid space thing (new species alert?). Because why not and I think the connection I made to their mechanic bull Angel thing is cool.

-More than 6 feet tall, maybe around 7 feet max?

-In terms of food and drink, will try anything and like anything. He has no preferences really. It’s rare to find something he hates.

-Oblivious.

-Has four arms and a bull tail. Strong build.

-The star on her eye is like an eyepatch weapon kind of thing. She’s missing an eye on that side but she can use the star eyepatch thing like a ninja star.

-Can change their features slightly.

-Tolerates and also pities Makarro. Makarro reminds him of his late husband, while also reminding him of…himself almost.

-Gienne reminds her of herself of course. She’s very gentle towards Gienne.

-Wishes Zed for the best. They hope that Zed is doing well after they left.

-Not very trusting and can’t express his thoughts and feelings well. (Relatable)

-The mechanic bull is probably triple his height? Maybe? Idk but it’s huge.

-Can probably glance into other universes and worlds, and she probably knows of the other listeners’ existences even the ones from different creators and different audio creators (GBA, escaped, etc etc).

-Their birthday is the 5th of August.

I might add more info later idk probably not but as you can probably tell by now that I have my own lore of my own versions of the listeners. You guys can ask my listeners some questions about them (please 🙏), they will be happy to answer lol.

If you guys want, I might draw some comics showing lore (I doubt it but I really want to) or maybe doing some dedicated posts to my listeners’ own lore and stuff? I can’t really promise that I would, because of my school work lol.

I also can’t promise that my lore will be as good as full novel series and all the audio rp accounts like GBA, Escaped audios, etc. So please forgive me if my lore is kinda…eh…if I ever come up with a fully fleshed out character with lore beyond the actual series.

Sorry for the long post/ramble and my grammar mistakes my brain has been shut off for the week lol.

[vickyvicarious]

I think Jonathan talks to Jack the most out of all suitors before All That since he is the third main record keeper, but their interactions are off screen and alluded like:

"Harker has gone back, and is again collating his material. He says that by dinner-time they will be able to show a whole connected narrative. He thinks that in the meantime I should see Renfield, as hitherto he has been a sort of index to the coming and going of the Count."

And since the impression he gives to Jack is "quiet, business-like gentleman", yeah I'd say he'd use RP!

(in reference to this post)

Agreed! Jonathan also met Jack first of the suitors, he's staying in the guy's house, and of the three Jack is the least overwhelmingly rich. This is also kind of a side effect of Jack being the next main record keeper but in helping Mina go through the records, he may have gotten a bit used to reading his thoughts or even potentially hearing them spoken (depending on whether he was mostly helping Mina organize things she had already typed, or if he ever took a turn listening too) and thus felt a bit closer to him in a way even before much direct interaction. Not to mention, that interaction you quote shows Jonathan's interest in Renfield, which would naturally lead him first to Jack (I constantly curse the lack of Jonathan/Renfield interaction, it could be so fascinating had Stoker not just Forgot He Was There). Those may be a couple additional reasons he might want to or feel more comfortable coordinating with the doctor more directly. Also Arthur is still very sad and Quincey is still very concerned about Arthur so I can see them being a little less likely to initiate much socializing than they usually would.

But Jonathan's mostly offscreen, helping Mina with the records, going off hunting after boxes... Of course there are some offscreen conversations taking place, and they surely wouldn't be only with Jack, but if what we see in the documents is any indication, Jonathan is fairly quiet and only really speaks up about 'business' (AKA Dracula-hunting) matters. And even then mostly only when he has something new to contribute. He isn't going on any epic rants (yet) and he isn't volunteering to be the one to explain everything from his experience, just bringing up relevant points for discussion or connections. And if he is trying to a) be businesslike/professional b) seem as calm and sane as possible under the circumstances of these people knowing what he's been through and how it's affected his mental health c) be polite with people he is not very familiar with yet... then yeah, I totally can see him using RP during all this time.

So his outpouring of utter emotion on October 3 is a big change, to be sure. And dropping into his natural accent while doing so would be an excellent way to illustrate how every other consideration just completely falls away for him as soon as he knows Mina is being attacked. He can't spare any attention towards sounding sophisticated, his wife has been targeted by his former tormentor and he is out for blood (/vowing to be out for literal blood should worst come to worst).

[the-silver-peahen-residence]

||An Officer's Corruption part forty nine||

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||Drabble Summary||

Jinx has given Yuji her answer to become his bodyguard meaning her work might be a brand new adventure for her. Of course Yuji was happy about it and couldn't wait for her to start. Meanwhile, the night was coming along but officer Narong and officer Knight had to make amends between Davion, Terry, Breezy, and Vivi after the sour first meeting. Hopefully they can talk about this. Will things go as planned? Read to find out.

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~Nothing dangerous or anything for the warning

~a conversation and confession is present in this chapter

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Sai Barrajandro Narong, Rust knight, and anyone else mention from the DBT and other fractions belongs to my amazing Rp partner @demon-blood-youths

Jinx violet, and others mentioned are my OC's and others from the ADA spoken of comes from the anime BSD but also me due to rping as them. Same with Sukuna Ryomen and others who is from the Jujutsu Kaisen anime. While Davion comes from the animated series DOTA: Dragon's Blood and Terry McGinnis comes from the animated series Batman Beyond.

((Note: Their will be grammar mistakes and errors in this drabble as others have this warning. But like I state before, this is written for fun. So I hope you like it and my friend too. I hope you Enjoy.))

Later that afternoon, Sukuna was just finished with speaking to Kinie about finally having her as his girlfriend. He couldn't wait to see what adventures they will have for the time being. As he checks on his phone to see if anything else happened, he got word that Yuji was home and he had a guest?

"?????"

Wondering about that, he then heard a knock on his door to look up. "Come in." The doors open showing his younger twin brother Yuji.

"Hey Big brother! I hope I'm not bothering you right now. I got some news." he said walking inside yet Sukuna looks to him with arms folded.

"And that is?"

"Well, remember when you said Jinx Violet would think of her answer of being my bodyguard?" he saw Sukuna nod slowly remembering that. "Well, you don't have to worry about it. She agreed to be my bodyguard. So we don't have to worry about it." he smiled happily that Sukuna blinks.

"Hold on; you already asked her? I thought you were going to give her a few days to think about it." he said but seeing how happy Yuji was right now, that seems to not be the case. His twin brother was soemthing else yet he didn't question it. "So she already agreed and you did tell her she'll have to sign some paper work and such?"

"Yeah, I did. She understands......I just need to get the paper work for her to sign." he said. "Or I can have her come in here to sign them. I got her in the hallway so she can-"

"She's here? You invited her here?" he asked.

"I did. I wanted to talk to her and well, it lead to that of the new job offer for her. So, can she come in to sign or...."

Shaking his head, Sukuna sighed but looks to Yuji. Seeing he didn't shake his head no, he understood and goes to get Jinx. In a moment, he saw Miss Violet walking in while seeing Sukuna Ryomen's office. Even his view of NYC was even better too! She walks over to the desk but looks nervous to bow her head.

"I don't know if Yuji told you about me agreeing to the job so I had to sign something?" she said yet Sukuna sets his glass down to look at her.

"Yes; I have some paperwork for you to sign since your agreeing to work beside my twin baby brother. However, given the situation, I think you'll be just fine.." he said but offers Jinx to sit down while sliding some paper work in front of her with a pen.

"Now, this is your contract. When signing this, it means you are to work as Yuji's bodyguard and you can if you wish, still attend to your officer duties at the prison. Seeing that Kinie is going to have you, Ink, and Kali helping over there, it wouldn't hurt in more extra work." he said as Jinx looks at the contract document but she could tell he was serious in this.

"Now if you wish to read it you may before you sign it but any questions, you can ask." Sukuna said seeing Jinx look at the document but she can tell it was different. She didn't know if she had questions but a few did pop up.

"Ummmm, I do have a few...if it's alright to ask." she mutters.

"Shoot."

"Am I going to be working on days or nights? Given the situation since I'm working for Kinie still?" she asked.

"You still will be doing your job at the prison since Kinie has you working for her still. But you are still working with Yuji as his bodyguard. Your work will still be the same. Just different days or times." he said.

".....I see. Then how do I do this job? Or is their some preferences I should know about?" she asked.

"Nothing too formal. All I ask is that you keep Yuji safe. His friends already know the ordeal about that but they do fine. I'm sure with you working under me too, you'll be fine. You just have to be sure he stays safe and keep a good eye on him." he said.

"....Okay, I understand." she said.

"Anything else?"

"Yuji said something about the things I'll get when starting this job working under you?" she asked with Sukuna looking at her then thinks.

"The pay will be ten times more than what you make right now but you will be paid at the end of the week. You get paid for just watching over Yuji, being sure he's good, even with you working as an officer. You will have benefits while working under me. The usual things you need from time to time but.....that could still count. Vacation, sick leave, off days; all get paid for. You don't have to worry."

"But what if I call out or don't show up? You won't punish me for that will you?" she asked yet Sukuna shook his head no.

"No. My twin brother might become worried and go check on you himself. Given how he tends to be..he'll hope to see if your alright. If that does happen you'll be paid for your sick day." Sukuna said simply. Jinx blinks not expecting that though from this that leaves her wondering what sort of thing Sukuna runs to have this sort of life style!? It's crazy!

"Was their anything else you wished to ask of me, Miss Violet?" he asked.

"..........."

"Miss Violet?" he saw her looking at the document before she lowers it to look at him.

"N..No, I don't have anything else to ask. I guess if I did I'll have to ask Yuji?" she said but Sukuna looks to her then nods.

"Yes; that's fine but let me be clear. Once you sign, you'll be his personal bodyguard. I trust you will do everything to keep him safe. He tends to be a bonehead but..he's good at heart. Meaning, if you protect him...then I know for sure he'll protect you. So try not to be so nervous...you will be fine." he said simply.

"Kinda hard to do given what I head about you Mr. Ryomen." Jinx said.

"Many things I'm sure. Now if you are ready, you can sign on the dotted line." he said but Jinx looks to the pen by the contract. Picking it up, she signed and begins to sign her name.

Yuji knew she was nervous right now but she just keeps signing while being sure she got everyone of the documents. In a few minutes, she signs the last form and sets the pen down. Once she did, Sukuna takes the documents but stood up. He looks over to hold a hand out to Jinx to shake.

"Congrats. Welcome to the team miss Violet." he said as Jinx stood up too. She looks to reach and take his hand shaking it.

"T..thank you sir." she mutters as the two shake hands. Yuji was happy and excited about this though he was something else happier now. Now Jinx will be by his side forever. Just like his phoenix and wolf. For now, after this, the two lets go and Sukuna sees the two leave from his officer. As the doors close, Sukuna looks at the documents to see she signed everything then looks to put the documents away.

"Well...this should be something.." he said looking out at the sunset.

~~~~~~~~In the hallway~~~~~~~~

"That..was something. Is your brother always like that?" she said with Yuji sighing to smile.

"Well, it's nothing to worry about. He's always like that with new workers joining us. But you'll fit in just fine. I'm just excited knowing you'll be my bodyguard from here on out even if your still working with Miss Kinie." he said as they head to the elevator.

"Yeah, it's still strange but it's all new to me. I just hope I do well in this and keeping you safe." she said. As the elevator doors closed, he only pets her head that Jinx blushed.

"Now don't worry your little head, my panther. You'll be just fine. Besides, it's something new for you. I'll be sure you know everything. I might even train you from time to time while you are understanding your role." He keeps standing by her but Jinx only held her hat while they were heading down to the main floor. She sees the doors open up walking out with Yuji who was going to have her taken home. The butlers and maids bows to Yuji before the front doors open walking outside.

It was getting dark to see the sunset in the horizon. Yuji goes to open the door to the limo that pulls up for them as she gets in first while the door closes. Yuji gets in on the other side with the door closing. Once they were inside, the limo driver goes off and takes Jinx home.

Now, they were reading in silence again since she was still flushed about this. "You okay Jinx? You seem nervous still.." Yuji said now petting her head.

"I am a little...again, all still new to me." she said yet Yuji chuckled to pull her close by his side. She seriously was too cute. Even if she was blushing right now.

"Well, I'll help you get used to everything so don't worry. For now, you had a long day. I'll take you home so you can rest....You'll have a week or month to get used to this before you begin alright?" he asked yet Jinx rests against him and sighed.

"Alright...."

For now, heading home seems like a good idea right now. Today was a long one for her as the limo drives down the street.

~~~~~Somewhere else in a apartment building~~~~~~~

Sai and Rust were sweatdropping seeing some cold tension between four people. Terry and Vivi were quiet seeing they were sitting in front of one another. While Davion and Breezy were sitting in front of one another with them being quiet.

They were trying to have a quiet conversation with the four but it seems Breezy and Vivi were still a little bit upset. However, after some coffee and other things, maybe they can make some agreement.

"Listen, I know you and Breezy are still a bit heated finding this out but believe us...we are not trying to make things worse for you two." Sai explains this seeing Vivi and Breezy remain silent. They seem to not be happy but they were not angry like before.

"...We don't want to upset you two like this..we just.." Rust wanted to explain himself but it was hard to. However, that leaves him to sigh. "We want to make this work...."

"...How can you think this will work Rust? Even with the fact that we......" Breezy wanted to say but Vivi looks to her then at them.

"We didn't know you were in love with others. Given the situation. We don't want to cause a issue between us. We said we would respect the situation between you two and them. We were not going to intrude. Even if we liked them as well.." She looks to Terry who looks at her. Sai said nothing but he didn't know she liked him like that. Same with Breezy with Rust.

"We understand that, Vivi but again, we are not trying to cause a problem between us. We can try to work something out between us." Terry explains seeing the two blink hearing him out.

"You and me like Sai deeply.." Terry said to Vivi who was listening.

"And we love Rust the same.." Davion said to Breezy who was listening.

"I'm sure you both have worked with them for a long time before we showed up. But, we can make this work between us. We don't need to fight or argue about this for the last few hours when showing up." Sai knew that was true given they already argued when arriving and at least nothing was broken to say the least.

"...." the two ladies still said nothing showing they were listening.

"So, to make it easier. Why don't we just become theirs together? I care about Sai just like you do, Santos. You and him worked pretty well together and we do too. I'm sure we can work something out between us. Even when it's trying to care for him like we are in love." Terry said to Vivi who blinks listening to him.

"And the same with me and you, Breezy. I know it's shocking to find out this way but believe me. I didn't know about this till now. You care about Rust a lot I can tell. You love him just as much as I do. Maybe we can work together when we can to show that to him. This way their is no more fighting going around between us. We can become allies. "he said to her.

"Besides, I think Sai and Rust are tired of the arguing we been doing so far. We should be trying to help one another instead of all this. Make it simple and who knows? WE could learn from each other on things we didn't know of." Davion said.

That also makes sense.

"Hmmmm......"

"I mean...if you put it that way.."

Breezy and Vivi were thinking about it yet the two were looking at Terry and Davion who was looking back at them. Sighing, it seems the two were right.

"You...You do have a point. I didn't want things to start like that or with us arguing over them. So, we are sorry about that. Davion, I am sorry for trying to..you know. I just care about Rust really deeply and hearing that you were feeling the same I just.." She tries to explain but Davion understood.

"I get it my dear. It's fine and I forgive you." he said but Rust was happy to hear that.

"That goes for me too. Terry, I apologize for my behavior. I usually don't become angry like that..it was out of character of me to do such a thing. I hope you forgive me for that.."

"Apology accepted, Vivi. I know you care about him a lot just like me. But I assure you we can work something out even with our feelings for him." terry said that Sai was happy to hear this.

It seems things were working out now and was calming down between them after a while. That goes to show what might happen from here on out. Vivi and Terry did care about Sai that much, they wanted nothing but happiness for him.

The same goes for Breezy and Davion too. They wanted the same for the knight as well. The fighting really was not needed but their emotions got the better of them.

"Glad to see you four are working this out. We didn't want this to turn into some fight." Sai said with arms crossed and seeing Rust agreeing with him.

"He's right. We didn't want you guys to fight. We just wanted you to get along." Rust adds in that the four look at one another then to them. He was right but it still was a bit to take in.

"..Yeah..seems like we over did it so again, were sorry Rust." Breezy said to him and Davion agreed with her. "Yes, were sorry for that."

"It's alright, it's alright." Rust said waving his hands.

"That goes for us too Sai..." Vivi said to him. "She's right, were sorry too.." Terry said.

"It's fine, don't worry. I'm just glad this was solved." he said to the two.

"Yeah...but with this fixed up, I guess we should leave given this is Terry's apartment." Vivi said but he stood up already seeing that everyone was done with their drinks.

"True true. So I guess we should head out. Sorry we had to crash at your place for a bit during this-"

"Again, it's fine. At least you guys can get home safe." Terry said but he saw the four thinking about it then checked the time. A few minutes later, Terry was outside seeing Vivi and Breezy getting ready to head on home together while Davion was going to take Rust home.

"I hope you guys get home safe...be careful..." Terry looks to the groups before the girls give a nod. They waved to Rust and Sai good bye before driving off to their homes. That leaves Davion who was getting ready to leave.

"Well, that worked out better than I thought. Who knew you two had two more to love.." he chuckled that Rust sighed.

"We didn't know but...at least things worked out. Though, I guess this means Breezy will be working more with us huh?" Rust said to Davion who nods.

"She will. I think she's not too bad but we'll see during your little missions and my hunting missions. I think she'll fit in just fine." he said.

"Yeah...."

"Anyway, I better head on home. Did you need a lift Rust? Sai?" he asked.

"No need, I'm going back with Rust so I'm riding with him." Sai said.

"I see. Well, I'll see you later tomorrow or so Rust. I hope you have a good night." with a smirk he looks to Rust who felt his face heat up to blush. He looks away while Sai sees this. Yeah, he really affected him pretty well. He even saw Terry smile but he keeps himself from blushing.

"Be sure you two get home safe.." Terry said to the two. "That goes for you too Davion."

"I'll be fine. Have a good night."

After that, the three saw Davion drive off while heading home. However, Terry saw Rust and Sai heading home as well while watching them go. When they were out of view, he turns to head back inside his own apartment. What a evening that was.

During the ride home, Sai and Rust were quiet while looking ahead. "You think that went pretty well?" Rust asked.

"..I think it did. We figure they would fight but...at least the arguing stopped. But still...who knew they also liked us too. It's just something every time huh?" he asked.

" I guess..but it's still shocking you and Davion were a thing.." Sai said.

"And you with Terry?" Rust adds back seeing the snake silent.

"......Touche..."

"All, I know I'm glad things worked out because from here on out, things are going to be different ya know." Rust said as Sai sighed still driving.

"Yeah....true."

"Lets just hurry on back. I know the others are waiting for us. I get the feeling their own adventures are crazy too." Rust said but Sai sighed still looking ahead.

"Yeah..."

For that night, everyone was heading home or was dropped off at their homes. Things in NYC have calmed down after the wild crazy chaos that goes on. But, after the recent event, what other adventures will happen? Only time will tell but for now....it's for another time.

[sxskavrp]

Hello! I'm looking for some long term rp partners for Drarry. I'm 31 F, in the EST timezone. I try to be active, definitely literate, but not a stickler on length. I'm okay playing either character, I'm okay with NSFW but it's not required. Please no ABO, mpreg, or dark characters.

I have a couple of prompts I can share to see if you're interested. If you like the idea of one but want to play the opposite character, I'm totally fine with switching it up! If you don't like any of these, we can always come up with something together!

((Prince and Knight AU))

Harry kicked at the dirt with his boot as he waited idly for the Prince to arrive. He wasn't sure how well this was going to go, based on the stories he'd heard from his fellow knights. According to them, the Prince was even more of a spoiled weakling than he appeared when on the throne, and he'd already gone through five tutors so far. This was bound to be a ^^long^^ afternoon, but Harry was going to do his best to be patient. After all, he'd trained plenty of men he'd thought were hopeless, only for them to become great warriors. Surely he could teach the Prince at least some basic moves. He glanced up when he heard footsteps approaching, the very young man he'd been thinking of walking his way, the sun gleaming off his white-blonde hair.

((8th year))

So far, coming back to Hogwarts for a make up year had been unpleasant to say the least. No one wanted Draco here besides Pansy and Blaise. Even some of the professors were giving him a wide berth because of his involvement in the war. Unfortunately, he hadn't been given a choice in the matter, as finishing his education was part of his deal to avoid Azkaban. That didn’t mean he had to be happy about it. He'd done his best to lay low, but today the universe had other plans. The new Defense professor, who clearly didn't have any idea about certain social histories between the students, had just decided to pair him with Potter of all people for a project. Of course, Draco didn't hold ill feelings towards him anymore. After all, if it wasn't for him, he would be dead or imprisoned right now. But there was no way to avoid attention when someone went anywhere near Potter, and by the way the rest of the class hushed when their names were announced together, he knew this was only going to cause problems. Reluctantly, he moved to sit next to the Gryffindor so that they could start discussing their project, feeling rather awkward as they’d barely spoken a word to each other all term.

((8th year))

Harry had mixed feelings about being back at Hogwarts. On one hand, Hogwarts was his true home, and the place where he'd had some of the best times of his life, so going back was always a comfort. But it was also where he'd experienced some of his worst memories, and was the site where so many people he knew had died. Not to mention that it wasn't the same without Dumbledore, or even Professor Snape. Yet he came anyway, because Hermione and Ron were going, and he didn't know what else to do with himself. All his plans had gone topsy-turvy when he'd actually managed to survive the war, and now he was just kind of…existing, trying to figure out his next step.

It was a few weeks into term now, and he was going between classes when he spotted a group of 6th years crowding around something. No, ^^someone^^, and they were making quite a racket. He hurried over to see what was happening when he caught a glimpse of platinum blonde hair between two sets of legs. “Hey!” Harry ripped the boys away, revealing Malfoy on the ground, bruised and bleeding. Blood boiling, he put himself between the group and Malfoy protectively. “Get back, all of you!” he snapped, pulling out his wand. He knew there were a lot of people that weren’t happy Malfoy was back at Hogwarts with them, but he hadn’t realized it was this bad.

((Professors AU))

It had taken several years and a lot of soul searching, but Harry had finally realized that he was tired of fighting for a living. It was a major shock to the world, plastered on every front page. ‘The Savior Saves No More: Potter Quits the Aurors’. But Harry stuck to his guns. He wasn't going to try and fit the world's perfect vision for him anymore, and of course his friends had been more than supportive. Turns out the timing couldn't have been better because the position of DADA professor opened up at Hogwarts a few weeks later. He was quick to put in an application, and McGonagall was even quicker to bring him on. Sometimes he wondered if maybe that was a little too coincidental. Either way, he was excited to get started. There was just one caveat; Draco Malfoy was the Potions professor.

He hadn't seen Malfoy since the trials, where they'd parted on a civil but awkward note. He had no idea how it was going to be having to work with him, seeing him every day. Could they get along or would their old rivalry rear its ugly head? Needless to say, he was anxious when September 1st came around. He had decided to take the train in, for nostalgia’s sake, and so he entered with the students, finding most of the Head Table was already full. Of course there was only one seat left. And of course it had to be next to Malfoy himself.

((6th year, TW attempted suicide))

Draco took a deep inhale of the cool night air as he leaned over the railing of the Astronomy Tower. He felt like a shell of himself, as more stress piled on top of him in the transition from winter to spring. Not that it mattered, or that anyone cared. His grades were in the shitter, he barely spoke to anyone anymore, and he had no idea if his mother was alright, trapped in the Manor with his psychotic aunt and ^^him^^. His feeble attempts to kill Dumbeldore indirectly had all been thwarted. As days passed and the end of term approached, he knew he wasn’t going to finish the Vanishing Cabinet in time. It was over. The second he stepped off that train in King’s Cross, he was a dead man. Maybe he should just let Dumbledore kill him. He’d certainly make it quick and as painless as possible compared to the likely torture he’d endure from the Dark Lord. Or maybe it would be better just to get it over with himself. He knew he didn’t have to jump from this high, but he’d always had a fondness for the Astronomy Tower, the way he could see the entire grounds and the Forbidden Forest going on for miles. He could pretend he was flying for a moment, one last time, before the ground reached up to meet him. All he had to do was tip forward just a little more…

If you're interested, like this or message me 😁 I usually rp over discord.

[herearedragons]

do you have any voiceclaims for your OCs? (was thinking about mae but I'm curious abt all of them)

not really tbh, I tend to have a pretty clear idea of how my OCs sound and then every voice claim sounds WrongTM to me. the exceptions are Kyana whose voice IS just the Violent female voice from DAO, and Selene whose voice is pretty much the Stoic female voice from Deadfire. I've also vaguely thought about how Liam O'Brien would probably be a good "canon" voice actor for Lorenzo (because like. he's good at doing the soft spoken haunted protagonist with a slightly raspy voice thing and that's Lorenzo), but I think I haven't found an instance of him playing a young Vailian yet so I don't have A Soundbite to prove my point.

for Mae, I CAN say that her voice in my mind is like. slightly more on the "lower pitched" side of things, has no rasp whatsoever but does have like a harsh edge to it (she also has two main modes of speaking, the first being Loud Confrontational and the second being a lower voice for like. more relaxed conversations), and of course there is the Aedyran AccentTM. I've listened to some examples of irl British accents and I think modern RP sounds the closest to what she sounds like in my brain, but also like. if I do find a voice claim for her that ends up having a different British accent it's fine by me

[violeteyedkiller]

Old Feathers, New Truths

(Discord rp with @fashionablyenigmatic)

Al: Sneezes an explosion of old feathers OWCH.

Stan: -starts picking them up-

Al: I don't wanna go to true form I don't like molting.

"you aren't supposed to be molting now…"

"I don't want to."

"Al… You really have to stop denying your body like this. It's going to run it's course and you're only making it worse by prolonging it" He continues to gently dab his back with a warm washcloth, knowing how itchy the new feathers could be coming in

"Fine.." he allowed himself to transform and instead of the gold and white feathers with a blue hue. There was bright orange and red tones.

Stan doesn't hold back a dissatisfied sound

"It's not about him but a project I've been working on." "Thats a little about him.

Stan puts the washcloth down

"He reminds me of you when we first met."

"That isn't the compliment I think you hope it is"

"No it's not. Okay so Kha'xanzyr is stuck in this layered bullshit of gods and hierarchal ziggurat right? He is a bloodthirster who is capable of magic but is deathly afraid of stepping out of a box he put himself in and he cant step out of because his brother Skarbrand owns him via an axe that can house his soul but Skarbrand is an exile from Khorne this making him and nosering in the same pile of shit right?

"Alphonse. I don't fucking care"

"Let me explain because it's stupid."

"No I don't want to hear it. I've already told you I don't want you meddling with all that demon shit. You can't come here with your body changing because of them and say that it's fine"

"It's just an escapism."

"Escapism that still has the very real risk of coming home with you" "to our family"

"They could care less."

"Say that when there's bloodthirsters leveling the city"

"Baba Yaga is a barrier they would have to go through to get to the city."

Stan gets up

"Stan."

There was too much going on in his head right now and it was ringing through their connection. Possessiveness, amplified by season. Fear, fear of losing control, of not having that control in the first place, of not being able to be the one to protect his city from such a threat (real or imagined). Frustration and anger and loss all muddled in there too. "I'm going for a walk"

This is why he didn't want to molt he felt guilty for his true colors. He had grown attached not on purpose Kha'x did remind him of Stan from before which is why he wanted to help him but he was an asshole a demon and hadn't gotten any assurances and in that he was wrong. He could just stop going. Couldn't he? Let his colors go back to normal stop worrying about smelling of blood and sulfur.

It would be a good couple of hours before he returned. Which wasn't great, but it was better than how he would have processed all this in the past. When he finds Alphonse, he lingers in the doorway, arms crossing tight, eyes averted. Even so, it too him a while to finally speak up. "It's just not fair, Alphonse. You get to go on these adventures while I stay here worrying about what might happen. I've had to leave people behind you know. Once I figured out they were associated with people who could threaten the city, threaten our family. People I wanted to save too. He was a demon and I had a strong connection with him but he was a slave and I could not save him without bringing everyone else into the shit. I just hope you give me the same courtesy."

He didn't remember this did Stan ever bring this up? "Are you comfortable…talking about him?"

He sighs. "His name is Maximus." How long ago this was..he can't remember. Three years? Five? Certainly not 10…but might have been. "Not the kind of demon you've been associating yourself with but the more horned person type. Soft-spoken. Elegant. I had met him first….ages ago. Only a bit after you and I first met. Would run into one another occasionally. I know why you have an attraction to Kha'x. Seeing something in someone they can't see for themselves. Wanting to be the one to break them out of that shell."

"What made him dangerous?"

"Berger. The woman he was tied to" his fingers clench and there was a flair of heat through their connection. "Green eyed, possessive, zealous. When she found out about me she tightened her reigns on Maximus and commanded him to start harvesting souls in the city. I tried to cover it up but it was clear that our time had run out. I could not keep Maximus without bringing that witch's wrath on the city. I could not bring myself to put our family in harm just for the sake of some fantasy."

He leaned against him gently squeezing new feathers out of their shells. He didn't say anything for a minute. "I have been obsessing…" "and it is convoluted and stupid."

"It wouldn't be us if it wasn't fucking complicated, huh?" Stan slightly leans back against him in kind, gently smoothing down some out of place feathers on his forearm

"And it makes me look like a fucking parrot."

That gets a ghost of a smile But it doesn't stay long

"Would you allow me to say goodbye?"

He frames his feathered face in his hands, drawing it in to press his forehead to his. "Of course. I just need you to be careful, alright?"

He nods and it felt fixed and true "I will I'm gonna go bathe. Wash off the sulfur and crusty feathers."

(Mentioned: Kha'xanzyr @skxrbrand Maximus @beyondedenton)

[twistedtangledfate]

SHIPPING INFO. answer the following for your muse(s) so people know how shipping works on your blog.

What’s your OTP for your Muse(s)?

That's a very hard question to answer but some of them would be Hades and Persephone, Jack and Sally, Crowley and Aziraphale (I am still in pain), Effie and Haymitch (I can't help myself), Phoebe and Cole and Esme and Carlisle.

What are you willing to RP when it comes to shipping?

I only write smut in a ship when I feel comfortable with someone. This is due to trauma related to online stuff in the past. I'm fine to go to a certain point and then fade to black.

How large does the age gap have to be to make it uncomfortable?

Considering that some characters I write are immortal or blessed with particularly long life, age gaps aren't a problem for me at all so long as it's legal.

Are you selective when shipping?

I acknowledge canon ships of course but in terms of exploring those ships, I like there to be some sort of vibe between muns if that makes sense? After all, we are writing the ship together ourselves. We need to be able to get on otherwise it just won't work for me.

How far do steamy moments have to go before they’re considered NSFW?

When genitals start getting touched and things go into places.

Who are other muses you ship your muse with?

I'm happy to ship with chemistry for most muses except for Carlisle and Esme because I genuinely cannot see him with anyone other than her, not meaningfully.

Does one have to ask to ship with you?

If you want us to work towards shipping and we haven't written or spoken together before then I would like to talk with you and get some other interactions going.

How often do you like to ship?

I love ships and the romances really make me feel all warm and it's honestly enough to help me through some bad days.

Are you multiship?

Of course, except for Carlisle as I mentioned before.

Are you ship obsessed or ship more-or-less?

I wouldn't say I am ship obsessed from a romantic perspective but on a technical level, unless your character is a hermit or something there will be some form of shipping because we all need relationships of different sorts be it friendships or otherwise.

What is your favorite ship in your current fandom?

Honestly, my heart is still invested with a ship I'm writing with Mari.

Finally, how does one ship with you?

Message me if we need to talk it through. If we are already mutuals and have already written together a few times then you can just send in memes. It's all good.

tagged by : @westerosiqueens

tagging: @nectaric , @mvndrvke , @absolventiia , @minaharkerdailymirror , @infinitusvoces

[rpcdocs]

With this all exploding I really want to put this on somewhere that people can see it; (sectioning it bc wow I really do type too much and I'm so so sorry for that) AWARENESS ---- Hello - I was a member of JCC staff. I had absolutely no clue what was going on until the JCC was closing and everyone was dipping out. The server had been put into lock down for almost an hour before I was even aware of that happening.

In absolutely no way do I condone the dismissive reaction held by the administration of the JCC and had I been aware prior to all of this I would've made it clear that this is not something to ignore or dismiss.

I also have been messaged by other staff members asking what happened bc I popped into staff chat going "uhmmm?" to receive a very lacking message regarding only the closure of the server and not what actually had transpired. I had messaged a member who had tagged all JCC staff in a (rightfully) upset message to ask the member what happened after deleting the message in my confusion, and that's how I got any details in the first place as I very rarely use tumblr and almost never look at gossip blogs unless something is linked to me directly.

Please, PLEASE, do not lump all of the moderators into this purely for being on the JCC staff list. I'm finding I am not the only JCC moderator who was unaware of the situation and in pure disagreement with the course of action taken. From what I can gather with who I have spoken to, the majority of us only starting to find out and are certainly not in agreement.

APPOLOGY ---- I do also want to apologize sincerely for my lack of activity in the server which caused me to miss something so drastic in the first place. The JCC is most definitely better off being closed when I consider how many moderators there were and how few of us were capable of making the time to look and see what was going.

Ultimately, I, and the others, didn't even have a chance to weigh input before everything had tipped over. The first message in mod chat regarding any of this was me after being tagged by the upset message, asking "uhhmmm?"

All it would've taken is for one of us to tag each other in the mod chat before it escalated for any one of us to say "wait a minute, this really isn't okay." Ultimately us having to say anything about it in the first place tells me the JCC needed to close regardless, but that doesn't change the fact we could've had a better impact.

I appreciate anyone who's taken the moment to say "not your fault" and all, but I sincerely hadn't even opened the server in close to 2 months due to personal reason. The administration did make the decision, of course, but I do still feel it is important to acknowledge I wasn't there when it counted & to let you guys know that I'm sorry about it.

LAST LITTLE NOTE ---- This big mess is definitely a reminder to me that any moderation in a resource for this community isn't something that should be taken lightly. Even though this is a hobby, it's also a full blown community with literal thousands of users relying on the staff of resources to treat that seriously.

I'm grateful that the resources I am seeing outside of the JCC have treated this situation the way it should've been, and I definitely want to recognize that.

We as resources aren't the RP police, but we are often the first line of communication for members to sites & other writers. That comes with taking the most basic steps in protecting said members from predatory content such as what has been displayed.

At a certain point, the scope of involvement doesn't matter - and as a parent I'd say that stands way before it get's to the point it did. Attempting to hide behind that scope to protect friends from the consequences of their actions - especially something of this level - is entirely unacceptable. BIG THANK YOU IF ANYONE ACTUALLY READS ALL OF THAT IM SORRY THAT I TYPE SO MUCH T.T & I'd be lying if I said I didn't have a lot more thoughts. If anyone has questions for me, my discord DMs are open just please understand I work weird hours and may not reply right away.

👀

[wonderdxeamland]

RULES

Writing Length I’m a paragraph roleplayer as I do love to put some information into the scenery, my characters thoughts and feelings as well as what they’re doing. Multi-Paragraph and Novella replies I will do slowly as I believe that for those sort of replies, you need to take your time and consider everything. The only time I will accept a one-liner reply is when you genuinely have no idea to reply or when we’re just fooling around.

Replies I have a life and a job outside of Tumblr and RP but I will try to reply in a timely manner, if I don’t reply within 3+ days without warning you, you are free to come into my IM and bug me about it. Chances are, the reply is sitting in my drafts and I just need that little push to finish it off.

NSFW I’m over the age of twenty-one so NSFW topics like sex, gore, horror ect will be on this blog - considering this is a multimuse blog with a variety of muses some stuff like that should be expected really.

Reblog Karma I’m not fussed if you reblog my ask memes and not send one in. I don’t really follow Reblog Karma unless I feel like our muses will be able to interact through it.

Ask Threads While I’m not fussed if you do Ask Threads, I’m a bit iffy on them and I would prefer if we moved our roleplay onto a new post so that we can continue it easily. Not to mention, Tumblr sometimes tends to eat asks so I wouldn’t want to be one of those who loses an ask and makes my partner feel like I’m ignoring them.

Trimming Threads I trim my threads as it makes my blog look neater. You don’t have to trim yours if you don’t want to but my replies will always be trimmed.

Follow/Follow Back I’m a believer of ‘You follow me I follow you back’ however if I cannot see our characters interacting with each other then, unfortunately, I will not be following you.

If I follow you and you don’t follow me back within a week, I will unfollow as I don’t wish to clutter up my dash. That is not to say I won’t follow you if you do follow me back after that period.

I will not follow personal blogs but you are free to follow me, just don’t reblog my posts.

Plotting I’m always up for some plotting though I am more a wing-it type of girl.

Pre-Established Relationships I’m a sucker for a good relationship and pre-established ones are always the ones that are more fun to roleplay and it also gives us a chance to plot out a potential past thread of how they met.

Shipping I’m a shipping whore and this blog is a multi-ship one as well however all ships will be in their own ‘verses’ of a sort and so there will be no cheating what-so-ever. Unless, of course, spoken about before hand.

Triggers I don’t have any triggers myself really. I do tag triggers though with #tw; ____ so if you have a trigger that you want blacklisted do use that format.

God modding Nope. Never accept it and I will never do it myself.

Discord Available upon request, just hit me up with an IM. We just have to be mutual on here tho! And maybe have like interacted or smth. But I am more then happy to talk to ya and hand over my Disc.

[azure-galaxies-gallery]

OC-based Honkai Star Rail roleplay blog!

Hello and welcome, I'm the mod behind the madness, you can call me Azure, I use pretty much any pronouns that aren't she/her, but if you want more in depth information, I've got it linked on my main account over at @anxiousazure, which is what I follow from.

Rules! Honestly just be niceys I guess I haven't done a formal RP blog before. I'm deeply anxious about this. I don't know how to write NSFW so I probably won't feature that here, plus I myself am asexual and that tends to leak into my OCs somewhat. That said, mod is 18+, so be aware of that. I do tend to write a lot about darker topics, usually violence and death and grief and trauma, but it's usually more so focused on recovery. These things happen in the background, it's not the focus of my writing. Some of my OCs are still in development and they are all subject to change. Sometimes the muses speak and say "Actually I've rewritten my entire lore." and it's annoying that sometimes they are better than what I originally had written. Shipping is fine with me, though I may be more selective about it with certain OCs. I'm super down to interact with other OCs and canon characters!! Tell me about your lore and stuff I'm super hyped!! ... please interact with me i have anxiety and don't know how to reach out and start things. i am timid and anxious and imagine me as a very pathetic wet cat if that helps. i am almost certainly more scared of you than you are of me type stuff.

Muses below the cut because uh,,, long post make me nervous,,, (more information to come, eventually everyone will have linked posts for more in-depth lore, i'm working on it - i have a lot of OCs and some are more fleshed out than others)

Muse: Yuelong!

Yuelong is a Vidyadhara aboard the Xianzhou Luofu, though a handful of reincarnations ago he was the High Elder of the Xianzhou Cangcheng. Once the designated healer for the High Cloud Quintet, his name was quick to fade into obscurity - and though most of the other Quintet members may have forgotten the healer, Yuelong has held tight to those precious memories. Though it certainly is odd to see a Vidyadhara who's beginning to grey and age - how long can such a creature hold off the natural cycle of reincarnation, and what consequences might that bring? Tag: plum blossoms falling (yuelong tag)

Muse: Longfei!

Longfei was once the High Elder of the Xianzhou Cangcheng, though he's now a Knight of Beauty. It's quite tragic to be one of only a handful of people in the universe that recalls the smell of Cangcheng Plum Blossoms... How does he remember that? Oh, don't worry about such things. Just consider it a quirk of this wandering Knight, hm? Tag: black roses falling (longfei tag)

Muse: Jian!

Jian is one of the youngest fully-fledged blacksmiths among the Luofu's Artisanship Commission, but you certainly can't discount his talents because of his age. Equally known for highly-skilled work and craftsmanship as he is for his blunt and somewhat rude nature, the so-called White-Haired Hammer of the Artisanship Commission is definitely something. Most people don't work well with him, though supposedly he's a little softer around people his age. Some say he's childhood friends with the Cloud Knight Lieutenant - perhaps it makes sense, given that both of them are clearly prodigies with big dreams. Tag: little forgemaster (jian tag)

Muse: Bairu!

Bairu is the soft-spoken albino secretary of General Feixiao, a Shadow Guard member, and the best person to ask about any type of paperwork concerns. A runaway from a large Yaoqing family, he seems pretty pleased to live life as a simple secretary and notetaker, though of course - when dealing with assassins, it's for the best to know how to defend yourself. Supposedly, he once trained under the Yaoqing's Crow-Feather Weirdo... Though who knows if that's true or not. Either way, Bairu is still rather important - Feixiao's not fond of paperwork, so really, Bairu's sort of running the show from behind the curtains. Tag: yaoqing notetaker (bairu tag)

Muse: Zhen!

Zhen is an ever-present feature on the Astral Express, though truth be told he only arrived aboard the Express before March 7th was found. Something akin to a Xianzhou Native, the wandering hunter has a deep-set hatred of anything related to Tazzyronth's Swarm, and may be the sole survivor of his original planet. All that said and done, however - he's a stalwart guardian for the Astral Express, and an excellent chef. Just... don't let him wander alone, he's liable to try something that will poison him. Tag: wandering hunter (zhen tag)

Muse: Holly!

Holly is a half-Borisin, though perhaps more, perhaps less. With no real papers to speak of or a confirmed parentage, it is just one of many things Holly doesn't know about himself. A Galaxy Ranger who's also known to affiliate with the Stellaron Hunters on occasion, he's certainly a strange one - not to mention his fondness for Jarilo-VI. Tag: half-breed borisin (holly tag)

Muse: Wolfhook!

A Halovian bartender raised in the Oak family, though he certainly doesn't seem to have many ties with them anymore. After an incident resulting in the loss of one arm and the crippling of one of his wings, Wolfhook seems to have retired to a quiet life of bartending on Penacony outside of the dreamscape - having learned his tricks of the trade from a handful of Bloodhound family members. Nowadays, you might find him more in contact with Galaxy Rangers, running a morally grey bar and a backroom healing service to those who may not be so black or white. Tag: bartender's special (wolfhook tag)

Muse: Red!

A mysterious... Halovian? No one knows quite where they came from, nor why other Halovians seems so nervous about them, but they do seem to be in Rappa's company quite often. They speak when spoken to, and don't express much emotion; but in spite of all of this, they keep up with the ninja quite well - though of course, a background in parkour might help with that. They seem to be allied with the Galaxy Rangers, at least - they certainly have scathing remarks to make about Dr. Primitive and his followers, at least. Tag: red feathers fly (red tag)

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20:40 07/03/2024

okay wow well its been well over two years since i updated this 'diary' blog lol

so weird seeing all those old posts about being a teenager with existential thoughts lol i dont really think like that anymore, at least not so much. i guess an update is in order then lmao okay so im in my 3rd year of uni now and im doing my year abroad! doing it in a small city in spain and i really quite like my job, ive only got 14hrs, i have a 3 day weekend, the city is small so i can walk everywhere and this job really gives me a sense of purpose that ive been missing in my life. makes me really realise that university is NOT for me lmfao i was so depressed during my second year i probs went to like 20% of my classes loool. im pretty sure i mightve almost failed aswell but since the professors were doing a marking boycott they released grades without marking the final exam and so since i was already doing well enough in all my classes i passed! quite lucky i think cos i wouldve been so entirely embarrassed and ashamed if i had to repeat a year cos of mental health. i think things are better here tho my issues havent disappeard completely like eg i have these evening classes 6-7.40pm tuesdays and thursdays and for the past like month i havent attended :/ at first it was cos i was sick (i think it was covid lol either from glasgow or on the plane back idk) and then i just didnt go back to class. i think my main excuse is that that is dinner time for me and i dont wanna move dinner time lol. but also i think the class itself is just not for me i dont feel like i learn a whoooole lot while im there and learning on apps is easier for me? but i always felt better for going to the classes cos i was like ha! im not depressed would a depressed person do this!? but of course depression doesnt work like that and i think i need medicated ! but that seems too scary to say. but at least i found someone to do a language exchange with! ive only had one hour with her in spanish, which was yesterday, but i already feel like ive improved lmaooo like i literally dreamt last night in a mix of spanish and english ahahahah cos when i think about it i literally have not ever regularly spoken spanish, ive only really spoken for activies in class or speaking exams so no wonder i have 0000 confidence in my speaking abilities but im hopeful that this will really improve my speaking :) about my job i guess- i work in a high school and i really enjoy interacting with the kids they really do make every day different and more interesting so i am grateful for them but sometimes damnnn sometimes i wanna jump out the window especially with this third year class they are the class KNOWN for being a bitof a pain lol and sometimes i have to lead the class by myself lmaooo mid u ik im 20 but i dont look it and they certainly dont treat me like an adult or a teacher and ngl they are a bit disrespectful at times but also what are u gonna do they are 14 and i have no proper teaching experience to help them by myself i can only hope that im actuallt helping them learn english lol. it is quite difficult tho with my scottish accent to try and sound as clear as possible because i pronounce almost 100% of the vowel sounds differently than rp english which is what i think they are used to so i have to realllyyyy annunciate all my words and man is it tiring lol.

what else. im going to madrid this weekend with bestie and im really looking forward to having a relaxing and fun time but i still havent packed my bags looooooool i alwyas do this tho and its fine not a big deal at all but i def need to do it tonight cos im leaving tomorrow immediately after work so ill have to have an actual breakfast and take snacks with me. im really enjoying my time in spain or at least im trying to but i feel like i have pushed myself enough out my comfort zone to be able to look back on this and say yeah i really took advantage of that. like i think i need to be more personable (is that a word yes it is i used it right) in teaching and be more interactive with them and stuff also i feel like i shoulve arranged a language exchange sooner cos i think this will really help, and i need to interact more with the other assistant but the thing is is im just not a sociable personnnnnnn aghgh. any way cutting this short cos i need to pack my bags for my trupppppp

[void-rainbow]

(mentions of abuse) (but more about the after effects)

(still, um, inclusion of sexual trauma. and the topic of sexuality. and triggers)

Embarrassed sometimes by my own behavior.

Hate that sometimes getting trapped in my own....I don't know what to call it. Horrors.

Being in an environment in which I can 100% escape uncomfortable situations. Either by leaving/taking a break or telling people "hey I'm uncomfortable" and knowing that they're good and will respect me and we can change course. But no. Sometimes I don't do that. And I hate it. Hate having a reaction to things that disturb me and then going harder on them.

Maybe I'll just be writing something for myself and then my brain fills with horrors and I don't even realize. Leaking everywhere into everything. And I'll be like lol this is just ridiculous fun isn't it. Horror is fun. Messed up things can be interesting. And only realizing very late that I'm in a nightmare world of my own creation and deeply disturbed and it hurts and I'm just gonna laugh until it turns to screams of pain and fear and mourning

Or playing ttrpgs with friends and the chance to flirt to distract your enemies comes up and getting too into the rp of it and I've overdone it outside my comfort zone and absolutely no one is making me do this. And maybe no one notices because it's not like it's inappropriate behavior for the setting. But I notice and feel terrible like I can't control myself. And maybe when I bring it up with friend when we were gonna start wlw specific ttrpg she says I shouldn't play because it would be too uncomfortable for others to be around that and I should figure out sexuality elsewhere.

Where. Where. Don't feel fit to be around other people sometimes. My mind is full of nightmares and they'll escape.

Can only guess at why. Not for why the nightmares exist, but why they leak out so horribly.

Being in an environment for years where everyone around you supports an abuser. Even if they don't like him. Supporting "harmony". But harmony means doing whatever he says, because anything else makes him a sad hurt victim who I'm hurting by not complying with his wants, who everyone else has to rise and defend by chastising me for making him so sad and hurt. And learning that the safest place was to comply no matter how uncomfortable or hurting I was. Run to danger and inhabit it to try to be safe. Until everything gets tangled up and I can't tell the different between enjoyment, excitement, pain, discomfort.

Can only wonder if being around others might pull them into my nightmare world

Don't want to be alone. Want to be able to socialize and not have to avoid everything having to do with sexuality. Have gotten better on it, as far as more normal comfort and management of triggers. The other response of feeling endangered by any association of sexuality with me is way way down, though still there

And it's happened. Trying to socialize in fandom. All the nightmares escaping horribly. And I don't think anyone knows. I don't know if all the pain and discomfort I'm feeling is transferring to other people. Trying. Trying not to. Though it feels inevitable. Inevitable for something to come up and I won't realize what I'm doing and how I'm feeling. And maybe the times it's happened haven't hurt people I dunno but I'm still scared of it if too many nightmares escape

(one reason not to be in large Discord servers) (I guess) (I dunno I feel like some of my existence there is a mistake)

Wishing it was easier sometimes to just talk about trauma plainly. And then people would know. And maybe I could feel more normal. And maybe things wouldn't escape so uncontrolled because I would've done so in a purposeful controlled fashion. But that's often too much for people. Even if spoken of in a serious manner that's warned for and spoilered and all that >.>

Don't want to feel like a danger to others. Too difficult a past. Too many feelings