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Okay so I obviously canāt share ALL as thatād take to long (<-A very busy person here) but me and my twin do plan on making a full blown analysis video at some point!
But hereās a VERY poorly worded and articulated analysis on (*)this short clip. Please keep in mind that I was like barely awake when I wrote this so itās reallyā¦weird? But I DO plan on making a more in-depth articulated post about this
(Copied and pasted from discord)
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Wooly complains (like a kid) about it being dark. But itās interesting to note his wording and emphasis āWell I still think. . .ā Considering his very *fawn like nature- itās just very interesting to see him express his own opinion like that. I feel this shows a level of comfortability with Amanda- as one usually doesnāt outwardly ācomplainā like this to someone they dislike or are super afraid of. Thereās more I can say about this but Iām a little to tired to formulate it at the moment
Amanda replies with āYou can go back inside if you want. You donāt have to be out here with me.ā And I find this SO telling and sad :(( because Wooly never really mentioned them specifically- or being with Amanda specifically- just that it was dark and he didnāt like it. But Amanda brings it up- because itās obvious sheās upset with him and doesnāt exactly want to be around him. I know this is like super obvious I just wanted to point it out
Itās almost in a āwhy are YOU the one complaining, when IāM not the one forcing you to be around somewhere/someone you donāt like. YOUR the one CHOOSING to be by me (when I donāt want that.)ā Or more simply āIām not forcing you to do anything- YOUR the one āforcingā ME to be around YOU.ā Which I think is most notable when she emphasized āhaveā as well as her expression change when Wooly emphasized āIā
Especially with the way she turns away from him. Sheās showing him her back- which is universally known as a way to 1) express your upset 2) cease or limit communication
Itās acting as barrier and creating (emotional distance) through purposefully turning your face away.
on Woolyās end itās very sad. He very clearly recognizes what sheās saying. When she turns itās clear he wants to bridge that distance she creating- hence why he reached out. But as soon as sheās fully turned As soon as she emphasizes āhaveā, he just stops trying to reach out and solemnly accepts the emotional distance Amanda created
Itās sad because itās clear heās staying for Amanda- that he wants to be by Amanda And itās kind of expressed by him through the fact he expresses dislike to being outside Of course he didnāt say that thinking āIām going to express my intention in the most annoyingly vague way.ā But the fact he remains makes his intentions clear. But Amanda herself doesnāt want him there and that clearly saddens/hurts him
Human communication is all about the underlying messages being told ESPECIALLY in scripted dialogue in stories (I do sincerely apologize to all neurodivergent people because of this š) So BASICALLY whatās happening here is
Wooly complaining about it being dark but still remaining (expressing that to him being by Amanda is more important) This sentiment gets rejected by Amanda- probably in part that she feels hurt by him as a result Amanda creates this distance which hurts Wooly
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(*Screen recorded by my twin and posted on her account)
*I was referring to the fawn response here. Which is a particular trauma/fear response characterized by appeasement behaviors and a noticeable lack of boundaries (among many other things). Thereās a LOT I can say about this and Wooly (as well as the flight response)
but thatās like too much to get into
So yeah! Get my substance-less weird and vague analysis that I sent to my twin at 3am
I was mostly pointing shit out
I REALLY have to take this and actually put down my thoughts and theories in a clear and concise way
Quick sort of random theory
Okay, so throughout the first and second game, Wooly appears to be compliant in their situation. Until the final two tapes. In "We Can Fix It" Wooly says he doesn't like this game anymore and he can't handle this anymore. Which is really weird for him. Because Amanda is following along with how the tape is supposed to go, so how can him not liking the game anymore (though it is brought on by the opossum's antics) still is strangely different from the Wooly we know. And then to say he can't take this anymore is even more strange, because we haven't really seen Wooly complain about their situation before. He'll complain about Amanda making him uncomfortable, about weird smells, about having to get up early... but never about the show itself. Then he tries to go back to his old ways in "Do you feel safe" but it's clear Amanda's comments are starting to get him thinking.
When Wooly says that the neighborhood feels safe, Amanda questions him and the city turns dark and Wooly becomes unsure. The rest of the tape he starts talking about how UNSAFE this area seems. He works together with Amanda to beat the opossum and then they go home.
We've seen a distinct change in behavior... I think Wooly might be changing sides.
However, his demon seems completely allied with Hameln.
When Amanda's demon spots us, it reaches for us for a second but turn it's attention back to Joanne. It could've lunged for us like Wooly's demon did but it didn't. I suspect since it's protecting the tapes, it probably trusts us more with them then Joanne.
However Wooly's demon appears to have a vendetta against as as well. As soon as it notices us, it seems like it would've gone after us as well if we hadn't closed the door.
So here's a little theory: Could Wooly's demon be made at us as well, not only for trying to stop Hameln... but because we are slowly changing Wooly's mind about Hameln through helping Amanda? Wooly has always been obedient and the company probably likes that... but if Wooly starts to question alongside Amanda, that won't be good.
Could the next game have us try and convince Wooly to rebel against Hameln?
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The Black Family: Indian?
Inspired by this meta by @narcissa-black-supermacy
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Dani made some really good points about how the Black family could be MENA, and while reading it I couldn't help but notice the similarities between the culture there and the culture in India, specifically Maharashtra.
So many of the points Dani made are so reminiscent of the casteism in India that i absolutely had to make a separate meta instead of rambling in the tags over there.
A few of the points that i want to gloss over are taken directly from Dani's meta so. Let's get to it!
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The first point I want to tackle is how large the Black family is, compared to other Pureblood families.
Yes I know what you're going to say; "but Amrut the Weasley family is also really big". I'm quite aware. The books state quite a lot that the Weasleys are weird for having such a large family. Well, the Blacks have a lot of people in their House, too (before the first world war, that is).
Walburga had 3 siblings, and so did Orion. Orion's father Arcturus had two siblings, and Walburga's father was the eldest out of four. Druella and Cygnus Black had three daughters. Arcturus' father was also one of four.
Indian familes are notorious for being large and complicated. I myself am the eldest of seven siblings, my father has four siblings of his own and my mother is one of three. My mother's father is the youngest of five, my father's father was the middle child of three.
The second thing that struck me was the similarities between the Black Family's brand of blood purism and the inherent casteism that prevails in the Kshatriya Maratha families of my Maharashtrian town.
Listen, listen. I don't give a fuck about the bullshit that the government feeds us about casteism being abolished. It might be "abolished" in theory but where I live, Maratha families are notorious for being hard-core when it comes to casteism and classism.
Caste intermarriage is considered "social suicide", especially if you're a person from an upper caste marrying someone from the lower caste. Sound familiar? A Pureblood marrying a Muggleborn sounds the same, doesn't it? The disowning of Andromeda and blasting her off the family tapestry is very similar to what happens here; disinheritance is very common for people who marry a "lower caste" person.
Casteism has been around for centuries, the same way the Blacks were blood purists for centuries. And keep in mind that the Black family were not your regular pureblood supremacists. Their views have been around for generations, passed down from parent to child. Unlike regular Pureblood "I'm-better-than-you" bullshit, the Black Family's brand of blood purism is so similar to casteism in India that I'm embarrassed it took me so long to realise.
The cousin intermarriage! That is such a huge point!
In many parts of India, marriage between cousins is pretty common. Orion and Walburga are second cousins, if I'm not mistaken.
If we look at it genetically, the people of Ancient India knew that chances of deformation and/or mutation of a child born to first cousins was almost the same as that of a child born to non-related people i.e an extremely low chance. Thus, cousins marrying each other wasn't and isn't considered weird or strange.
You may argue that the Gaunts were also inbred. Yes well, the Blacks were intelligent enough to know how far of a relation must be there between two people. And the Gaunts probably married their own siblings for them to be so inbred.
Now, as Dani said, 12GP being at the heart of Muggle London is pretty interesting.
As she mentioned about the Blacks, they're raging bigots, but they still live in a very muggle neighbourhood in a very muggle region of London.
Exactly like it makes sense with sectarianism as Dani explained it, it also makes sense with respect to casteism. Upper caste (Brahmin, Kshatriya) will mingle with intermediate castes and lower castes. They will talk, they will laugh, they will build friendships and make acquaintances. The different castes mingle a lot. But marriage? No. The Black family is essentially the same.
Like Dani puts it: we can work with muggleborns and blood-traitors.... They are allowed to exist.... remind them who is the boss, but do not engage. We will not marry them, we will not let them into our house.
This is literally what caste discrimination looks like. It's not based on fear or hatred like western bigotry. (I will not elaborate more on this bc the politics are wayy too complicated.)
The fifth point is niche, but it's there: Bellatrix wanting to kill Andromeda, Ted and Nymphadora Tonks because Andromeda "sullied her pure blood by associating with mudbloods"
Let me say this once and for all: honour killings are extremely common in India.
Families hire other people, or they themselves go out to perform honour killings. Many of the honour killing cases that I've heard/read about have been about the daughter/son marrying a person from a lower caste and running away, but being tracked down and murdered by their own family for "dirtying their blood" and "sullying the family name" (yes those are the actual words).
Andromeda's disinheritance was not surprising to me; i have seen people thrown into jail for marrying lower/higher. Obviously, the reason cited in court is not the marriage, noā the person is framed for crimes they did not commit.
Bellatrix wanting to murder her own sisterā and actually murdering Doraā sounds so identical to the news I've heard over the years.
The Black Family could be Maharashtrian, is all I'm saying. Just because their slogan is French doesn't mean they're from France. India has several regions where France is spoken just as much as the local language. Like Dani said, kill the idea that French is spoken only in France.
This is all for now. I might come back later with more observations if I feel like it, but yeah. Feel free to flood my ask box with whatever questions you want.
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#monogatari series#monogatari#monogatari oms#nademonogatari#nadeko draw#yotsugi ononoki#ononoki yotsugi#nadekodraw:tv#monogatariseries:gif#nadekkogif#ok i MUST go nuts about this somewhere so (cracks knuckles) tumblr tags let's go#first gif yotsugi is doing an attitude pirouette en dedans#second gif yotsugi is doing a demi rond de jambe Ć” terre from fifth position#technically sheās dancing on pointe w/ her boot acting as a pointe shoe which is clever!!! her boots must have crazy foot articulation LOL#for context these are ballet moves which I LOVE!!! i am being catered to shaft looked at ME & said NADEKO DRAW HAS BALLET MOVES 4 U!!!#SO the real neat thing about this imo is the way that it is animated. probably done this way by the limitations of the animators timewise#for context in ballet a key thing when you dance is that your body should be constantly moving outwards from yourself e.g.#your arms reach as far as they can and your legs reach as far as they can etc. your back too! up and out like you are being pulled!!!#the point of this is bc dance is alive & humans who dance are alive! even when you hold a position you are thinking about moving outward#doing this breathes SO MUCH life into the dance! it is literally so important visually it makes a HUGE impact#but yotsugi doesn't do this! she doesn't breathe life into the dance bc she's not extending her body outward she simply holds a position#yotsugi is obviously very skilled to do what she's doing here like a pirouette is hard af you need crazy strength to go on pointe too#so imo she performs the moves in the correct way! she is turned out! she knows what she is doing! this is not due to lack of training!#my personal theory is that she moves this way because she is a reanimated corpse!!! she literally CANNOT dance like somebody who is alive!!#corpse baby is dancing her best and imo she's very good!!! š„ŗ#as a ballet enthusiast i just think it's a really neat lil touch and works well (despite the fact that it is probably accidental LOL)#anyway hi i'm noisy please enjoy my ballet ramblings lmfao! i will regif this when the BD comes out bc i want it to be extra pretty!!!#regarding the gifs. both first and second are loops!!! please enjoy ballet dancer yotsugi š©°
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the thing about curly is that i am fully ready to criticize his actions but i am also unquestionably sympathetic towards him because i am at my core forever and always a chara dreemurr enthusiast so when i see a character being unfairly villainized i start biting and killing
#mouthwashing#he endeared himself to me by being fun to draw before i knew the game very well#NOT excusing his failures though like curly step the fuck up my guy#also i make big sad eyes at characters that COULD have done the right thing and WOULD have done the right thing with the right push#captain curly#this was (and is whenever i get back into it) also how six sunk her claws into me#like kid GET BEHIND ME i'd kill for her#curly doesn't get the same excuse as six though obviously (she's literally 9)#just that my instinct to combat the mischaracterization of them comes from the same place#and that place is chara dreemurr baby#but yeah you're a whole ass adult curly take some damn responsibility#love him though. he's clearly going through it#like 'just off center' on your psych eval without even opening up#go to therapy buddy#anyway like i'm not saying i'm DEFENDING him necessarily just that i don't want him to be mischaracterized you know??????#god i hope i'm articulating this correctly
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Re:Kinder Fun Facts of the dayāŗļø!!! Have you ever wondered who talks the most from the main cast in Re:Kinder?? Well, I didš. Today I'll be answering this question with some graphs and as a bonus telling you what words each character uses the most! I will warn you, this will be a bit long and I don't know how to be less verbose so, yeah!!!
First, I've made some basic rules as to what I counted regarding how much the characters speak. Not all lines really count as speaking, after all.
Any of the incoherent screaming lines don't count. There's a lot of screaming since the characters die a lot (as expected for a horror RPG game), but I don't really count that as speaking unless they're saying proper words. In that same vein, I didn't really count any of the panting or sniffing and such that are conveyed through words. Again, I don't really see that as a character actively speaking their thoughts!
If I cannot tell who a line belongs to, I will not give it to anyone. This happens for certain lines, so I felt this rule was important.
I won't be counting repetitions of the same line if it's on a variation of the same scene. This may sound a bit strange, but when a character dies, the game goes on to the same next scene it would regardless (unless the scene that follows it is an ending), with variations and new lines here and there to account for the dead character, but a lot will be reused and placed in the exact same beats it normally would have been in originally. So, this rule is here for that. Oh, and also the scenes with bits of Yuuichi's backstory that appear in Shunsuke's head won't be counted twice, because some appear twice line by line.
Of course, the "..." lines won't count. I am so sorry Aya!!!!š
Now that the ground rules have been set, there's just one thing I want to mention. Though I will count all the total lines for Takumi and Yuuichi like any other character, I just want to mention that first I will have two separate counts for them! Takumi | Takumiel and Yuuichi | Yuuichi's Heart respectively.
Takumiel is separate because I was curious about how much Takumi spoke as an archangel compared to when he was alive. Yuuichi's Heart is because he speaks so much he feels notable enough to be given his own division, even if he and Yuuichi at the end of the day are one person
(I count the silly mind telepathy where Shunsuke is being directly spoken to [and being told things normal Yuu would avoid saying at that point] and the comical theater as Yuuichi's Heart. I clarify in case one assumes he only starts being counted the moment he's directly labelled as Yuuichi's Heart. Any line that can't be distinguished between Yuuichi's Heart and Yuuichi will be given to Yuuichi by default.)
With nothing else to be clarified let's get to the numbers!!!šš
First, the line counts with Takumiel and Yuuichi's Heart counted individually!! Here are the rankings:
Shunsuke (With a lead of 535 lines over second place!!)
Yuuichi
Rei
Yuuichi's Heart
Hiroto
Ryou
Sayaka
Aya
Takumi
Takumiel
You may be thinkingā woah, does Shunsuke really speak that much?! You could say that, for a good chunk of those lines are from how he describes interactable points around the map and his inner thoughts, so they aren't all exactly said out loud. The benefit of being the protagonist, I suppose ww
Funny enough, Yuuichi's Heart has almost as many lines as Yuuichi does for not having that much time in the game, being on the higher end between the characters that don't get the benefit of being a protagonist (lol)!
Admittedly I had expected for Rei and Hiroto to have a more similar amount of lines given their nearly equal amount of presence, but for what it is Rei surpassed Hiroto by 51 lines! I also had expected for Takumiel to speak a little bit more than Takumi but turns out the opposite is true.
While the lack of lines of Takumi and Takumiel are to be expected due to their short time on the game, what stands out is Aya not even reaching triple digits between her other peers who are in there for most of the game. This is because a good chunk of Aya's lines in game are silence!^^" And thus weren't counted. If ellipses were a word, she surely would have reached triple digits, but unfortunately they're not.
Now the line count with combined sums of Takumi | Takumiel and Yuuichi | Yuuichi's Heart!!!
In here, the ranking isn't affected, with Yuuichi remaining second place and Takumi being last place. But the disparity of everyone's numbers compared to Takumi's feels a bit more clear to see when Takumiel isn't individually counted.
With Yuuichi's line counts combined, Shunsuke remains 318 lines ahead of him, but it also means Yuuichi has a 59% the amount of Shunsuke's lines; and impressive feat for someone who doesn't get the benefit of being the point of view for everything you press... Although he does also have an upper hand over everyone by essentially being the plot of this game ww
But maybe line counts do not suffice to tell how much a character speaks. Yes, Shunsuke has a bunch of lines from everything he interacts with, but is it really reliable to say he speaks all that much in all those lines? A good chunk of those could easily have 3 words each! So with this in mind, let's do a word count.
Even in a word count, Shunsuke has the lead, having a lead of 2,247 words over second place. But we'll see about that when we combine Yuuichi's numbers. Anyway, here's the ranking!
Shunsuke
Yuuichi's Heart
Yuuichi
Rei
Hiroto
Ryou
Sayaka
Aya
Takumi
Takumiel
This time, Yuuichi's Heart is the one at second place!!! It's pretty funny that he speaks more than his physical counterpart ww. I genuinely didnt think he'd out yap himself that way when I chose to count for him individually š!!! He has a lead of 63 words over himself, but a lead nonetheless.
In here, Rei and Hiroto are more even than in the line counts, with the difference seeming more minimal when put into words. But it also showcases that despite Rei having more lines than Yuuichi's Heart in the line count, those only get to have a bit over half of the amount of words he talks (To be fair he does get to infodump a lot in his section of the game).
And here's the combined word count!!! Suddenly Shunsuke's lead is only by a mere 55 words! So Yuuichi speaks about as much as he does with 318 less lines.
I must admit that I genuinely did not expect it to be that close. When I chose to count the lines for when you interact with things for Shunsuke, I thought he was granted to speak an absurd amount more than anyone else. But turns out that Yuuichi speaks about the same amount out loud when most of Shunsuke's are his own thoughts ww. But it does make sense! He is still the plot of this game.
So, after all those charts, here's the average/middle point of lines and words for characters to have, because why not, it's fun.
Average Line Count (YH and Takumiel counted individually): 197 lines
Average Line Count (When combined): 247 lines
Average Word Count (YH and Takumiel counted individually): 1,333 words
Average Word Count (When combined): 1,666 words
So there it is. That's how much the characters in Re:Kinder speak!
But wait!!! I am not done. I will share with you an additional fun fact... Did you ever want to know what word each of these characters said the most?! This one will be quicker, I do promise.
When it came to counting these words I did not count stop words, that being common words that are used all the time by everyone in English. "I, you, me, the, to, a, my, your, yes, no"... Words like that! Otherwise everyone would have one of those as their most said word and it'd be rather boring to look at. With that said, here are the words these characters say the most!
Shunsuke: Yuuichi - said 40 times! (this genuinely confused me so much im sorry he uses interjections so much I had expected it to be something like "huh" or "um" but no i dont know how this passed by me as i was rounding up all the lines he says or proofreading or writing all of those lines WHAT?!?! its been two days and it still takes me out)
Ryou: Shunsuke - Said 14 times
Sayaka: Murderer - Said 7 times (All in one sentence!)
Takumi | Takumiel (counted in one for how little he speaks.): Takumiel - Said 3 times (That name is so important, he said it thrice.)
Aya: Sorry - Said 5 times
Rei: Hell, gonna, look, Yuuchi - said 8 times (Most of the repeated words she says are stop words for she doesn't tend to speak about the same things repeatedly.)
Hiroto: Shunsuke - Said 17 times
Yuuichi (separate from YH): Problem - Said 17 times
Yuuichi's Heart: Mama - Said 24 times
Yuuichi (Overall): Mama - Said 31 times
So that is finally it. That is the fun fact of today.šš Use this to woe your friends at parties!!!
I am aware Mami speaks about enough to be counted in, but this is pretty time consuming to do and I'm not sure anyone is invested on her enough to count her in. But if there's enough curiosity regarding that, I'll try counting her in. But for now this suffices.āŗļø Thanks for reading!
#re:kinder#rekinder#not art#fun fact!!!#i talk!!!#ive been at this for... two days how yall doingš#ive thought of doing this since when i started by transcript of rekinder but i wasnt ready to do that after finishing that beast of a scrip#so here it is later than i anticipated! it is more time-consuming than i thought considering i have the benefit of the transcript#so when i was getting to doing mami i was already tired ww š love her but this is just a silly bonus thing i throw out#so im not as ready to spend more than the several hours i already spent than with other funny silly proyects#i have more things i want to work on moreš!!! and also the semester is ending soon ww#ANYWAYYY#THIS WAS FUN THOUGH!!!#originally i wasnt going to count the things you can interact with for shunsuke but they are so obviously said by him i just had to#I WAS GOING TO IGNORE IT BUT THEN MY CONSCIOUSNESS TOLD ME... NO.... YOURE ROBBING HIM OF PERFECTLY FINE LINES!!!! šš#so now his numbers are absurdly high#i still cant believe he said yuuichi more than huh i cannot believe that . like. he says huh 5 times less BUT STILL#i really wrote a whole transcript proofread it for 30+ hours then went back to do a line count for several more hours#and didnt notice the protagonist of this game said the name of my favorite character a million times#I NOTICED A āHUHā MORE THAN A NAME COME ONBRUEJWJFNNW#i dont really make any comments regarding ryou or sayaka in here as much because their numbers are exactly as i had expected#about the same amount not too much... its nothing groundbreaking to make a comment out just saying#if anyone is curious yuu says vamos cantar only 6 times#no one's most said word is particularly surprising to me after shunsuke but i did have a stroke seeing problem pop up for yuu#the document i was writing all of this info in before doing this post was very tidy and organized very well articulated until thay happened#i was perfectly expecting him to mention one of his parents the most overall but when separated from Yuuichiās heart i did not knwo what#so when problem popped up my gut reaction was thinking that i wasnt making it to the end of the document no one speak to me i felt#IT . IT MAKES SENSE but it isnt funš#i wasnt even going to count yuuichis heart most said word until he out yapped himself admittedly#I SEPARATED HIM FROM USUAL YUU FOR THE LOLS I DIDNT THINK HE'D SPEAK THAT MUCH
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slowly I'm recovering the beauty of discovery
(creature by halfā¢alive)
(textless + timelapse below cut)
#yellowart#subnautica#i feel like the timelapse is kinda long but also this did take a long time to make#anyways. let me yap about the meanings of all the panels <3#'i am creation' -> the ocean being the source of life and where shit evolved from also a good way to sort of 'set the scene' for subnautica#'both haunted' -> GHOST leviathan; in the BONE fields#'and holy' -> this one was a bit trickier. debated about using the emperor but i knew i wanted to use her elsewhere#also debated hoverfish because its cute and well liked so i thought that would be funny for 'and holy'#also something something jesus walking on water also makes it fitting. in the end though i decided on a peeper with the enzyme trail#and i *tried* to make it loop over its head like a halo but idk how well that imagery came through. still mentioned it in the alt text tho.#'made in glory' -> was REALLY torn about this one. on the one hand i wanted to have like a picture of the code because something something#divine machine and it being made out of code making it inherently holy or something; but i wasnt sure if that would be too#'immersion breaking' since most of the stuff in this is like in game stuff i wasnt sure if acknowledging that it was a game would be#too much. my other idea was to draw a couple of creature eggs like a stalker egg and a spadefish egg or something; but in the end i just#went with the one that i personally thought was cooler so if you think it does feel out of place uhhhh sorry i guess lmao.#also yes that is code from the game. idk shit about programming i just think code shit is cool so i poked though a modding tutorial til i#found what it is they use to look at that shit and started poking around. its pretty cool tbh. anyways the specific part i chose for the#drawing was something under the peepers; i think its the bit that tells the enzyme peepers to do the enzyme stuff like the trail obviously#but also some other stuff. not 100% sure though like i said idk shit about this sort of thing but everything in there seems pretty well#labeled its kinda impressive. and very helpful for navigating even if you dont know shit lol.#anyways. 'even the depths of the night cannot blind me' -> blood kelp trench is i think one of the darkest biomes in the game#possibly THE darkest so i thought it would be fitting. probably my least favorite panel though i dont think i did a very good job#representing the area or representing the bloodvines :/#'when you guide me' -> sea emperor but more specifically her messages to the player telling you to 'come here'#'creature only' -> not sure how well i can articulate this but basically the idea of humans beig animals with animal needs to eat and drink#and the idea of being a part of the ecosystem. modern life tends to make us forget that sort of thing but id imagine for ryley being on the#planet would violently remind him of this with things trying to eat him while he has to try to eat things as well. being part of the food#web. 'creature only' because he is only a creature not non-essential systems maintenance chief; but a creature living in an environment and#trying to survive. or something like that. does that make any fucking sense to anyone besides me? whatever.#anyways yapping over š
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Everytime I face a new character limit on a website that didn't have them before/used to have really long ones... AUGHHhhh the modern social media world was not made for people like me (lovers of details, rambling, elaboration, thorough explanation, and nuance)
#twitter and other short form shit and everything being a Phone App On Small Screen instead of a Proper#Computer Website i feel like has just ruined the format of literally everything for me. Thoughts just keep getting more and more condensed#with detail and nuance taken away. everything over simplified into only the basics. blah blah blah. I've already probably rambled about thi#all before but it's just SO frustrating. I literally just CAN NOT talk that way!!! even if I try!!! I took multiple advanced placement#english & language arts classes in school and I literally never made below an A on any assignment EVER except for ESSAYS#where I would legit get almost failing grades just because I cannt express myself concisely. I took an english placement test thats made to#like evaluate your competency in a subject and out of the 102 multiple choice questions I only missed TWO of them. almost a perfect#score. But for the 5 open response questions (about articulating thoughts succinctly) I did not get a single one of them lol#I only got partial credit on 3. It's like I OBVIOUSLY understand the material and I know how Words Work and how to analyze and interpret#meaning and etc. etc. But it's just when I have to express myself CLEANLY I can't. It's always ''well you have very good points and you#get around to the idea eventually and I think it's very insightful - but it just needs to be shorter/the side tangent needs to be removed/#etc.'' I've always wondered if it has something to do with being on the schizophrenia spectrum and how that can cause disorganized#speech sometimes hmm..ANYWAY.. But I just naturally express myself in a very particular way which is lengthy and I can't rea#ly seem to control it. So it's basically like just.. being gradually pushed out of every place that won't accomodate people with different#ways of like perceiving and expressing or etc. Everything cannot ALWAYS be 100% 'Short and Snappy and To The Point' or a quippy one#liner or the Bare Minimum of information being provided or etc. Some peoples brains just do not work like that!!!!! Sorry I operate#in detail and elaboration lol. ANYWAY.. I still sometimes use random ''dating sites'' like OKCupid to look for platonic friends since#I never leave the house so it's hard for me to just meet friends naturally. And I just realized today that they added a RIDICULOUSLY small#character limit to their messaging system (2000 words?? augh). And also took away answer explanations (when you answer a compatibility#question you used to have a space to give detail and explain why you answered the way you did) and removed a few other features and it's ju#t like.. how the fuck is any of this actually helpful in terms of judging compatibility? take away ALL nuance and anyting that actually#is meant to tell you anything about a person? Bumble's character limits for your profile description are even more fucking insane and so#is every other disgustingly minimalistic place I've seen like.. OKC used to be superior BECAUSE it allowed for a TON of detail. like back i#2016 or something there was SO much data you could look at. long form question answers. personality trait summaries. etc. Now you have#SOO little to judge off of when evaluating compatibiility it's like. You'd have better luck just throwing a dart in a crowded street and#talking to whoever it hits. Why are people so fucking allergic to reading anything longer than 3 words and providing DETAILS!! It just seem#harder and harder to find any place to meet platonic friends where you have any amount of actual data to go off of and it isnt basically#just random 'speed dating' set up shit. AARGH. &I know 'oh just join a club& meet ppl irl' 1. erm..covid. 2.I mostly want to meet ppl#in places I'd like to move so I already know ppl when I get there. You kind of HAVE to do that online. bc I am not there yet.. WISHING for#Complexity.Com where ppl can upload full 900 page psychological files of themselves. MINIMUM profile character limit 30k words lol
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i love she/her lestat but not as in mtf. lestat is just a girl sometimes. not genderfluid either. not even necessarily trans. literally just likes fem terms and pronouns. i don't wanna trans his gender, i just know he would like being called feminine words. and not in a kink way either. like just in casual conversation, "this is my girlfriend lestat" "isn't she a doll?" "cmere babygirl". i am she, she is me but real.
#shit self#for people who dont know he says in the show i am she she is me to be clear#and to like further articulate. i see lestat as pretty masculine. like he has femme traits obviously but#he is very much leaning towards typical masculine guy who just likes the arts#and i think thats why this appeals to me more#not in a forcefemme way just like i think he'd be a guy who wouldnt necessarily call himself cis but#would still fall under that label. but also doesnt care about pronouns and finds a slight joy in the intimacy#of being she/her'd by people who he knows well enough for this to come up to begin with#like no rando is doing this it would be within his circle#not that he cares if others know but bc if anyone else did it it might feel mocking or like#they dont get it#like in the same way that i as a nonbinary person do not wanna be she/her'd by strangers but i would be okay with it from like#a partner or close friend in some circumstances. i think hed be like that but without being trans
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#I don't think I'll ever be able to articulate how heartbroken I am that my family no longer has ties to our pre-colonial culture#the philippines has so many different ethno-linguistic groups#and it was home to so many different groups before the spaniards came#and I love researching the pre-colonial cultures and the different ethno-linguistic groups#but it's not the same#and obviously I'm very proud of my filipino culture in current times#because there are a lot of cultural things that emerged after/because of the occupation#and that's all so /so/ important to me and I wish I knew more about that as well#but the fact that my family's pre-colonial culture is pretty much lost is heartbreaking#because yes we're visayan and I know that I asked my mother about it#but the visayas are so so large and held so many different groups#idk idk it just makes me really really sad#I wish I could meet my ancestors and ask them directly y'know?#because everyday I learn more about pinoy culture despite being born and raised in america#and I'm about to finally start learning tagalog#but I just can't do that with the pre-colonial culture :(#stella rambles#personal
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I don't really get why Taylor would write an album about a guy she had a summer fling with vs a guy she was in a 6 year relationship with?? Like is it possible songs you think are about MH would be about Joe?
anything is possible to be honest, after all, I don't know her, none of us do... that's just what I got from a single listen to the album.
but hey, it's taylor... she did wrote 1989 about a guy she dated for like 3 months lmao
#I wouldn't put it pass her#specially considering how she thought it was soooo injust that we were mad about it#I think she wrote them more about the feeling of not liking us telling her she's wrong#than the actual feelings she had for matty#most of the songs are about her being pissed we didn't like him anyways. they're not love songs#but I don't know. the songs that are obviously about joe are very deep and well articulated#but there's some songs that sound more vague#who knows#I'll let you guys have your fun figuring it out because I certainly don't have the heart to do that anymore lmao#ask#ttpd spoilers
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anyways I think we can tie the lack of new subcultures* to the fact that nobody has any free time anymore, and what free time they have is spent digitally instead of Creating
#most time is spent at work now#*im American and know nothing of other country's subcultures obviously ig I'm just talking ab america#obviously you can Create digitally that's not the point#we haven't had the rise of a subculture not centered around anything digital since maybe the fashion of the middle 2000s but even that is#intricately connected to the rise of digital everything from phones to tamogachis to neopets#like probably the closest was the second resurgence of goth in the 90s#'wah you're not mentioning my very specific niche subculture' ok point out a subculture on the rise like punk & goth was in the 70s & 80s.#I'm not articulating this well#I'm not counting emo bc that was a slow emergence from goth in the mid to late 2000s and is also tied to the digitization of culture#but like what else is there. the rise in evangelicalism? tied to digitization bc that's how they reach half their audience#oh!!! maybe techno!!#altho that's more a music genre instead of a subculture#but really point out to me a subculture that was Bug And Different like goth & punk were in the 70s & 80s and folk music & goin granola were#in the 60s & 70s and the way flappers & their dance & club culture rose to prominence. like. where's the new subcultures babe#we're just stuck in a loop of infinite rerun reboot rerun reboot but culture too#look at how we're recycling 90s and 2000s looks now
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i think i may be overthinking this but there is definitely a parallel/pattern to two of my favourite characters
#i cannot really find a good way to articulate it right now because i am very tired and mildly stressed but#both were ultimately crushed by pressure of being a beacon of hope and destroyed by the love that they received/wanted (respectively)#just in different ways i guess. and one had a choice and the other very much did not#i am probably reaching/drawing parallels where there are not really any but also kind of#this is about chara undertale and the hollow knight#i feel like saying chara had a choice is oversimplifying their circumstances because they were obviously very much not well
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I was just scrolling through your blog and I absolutely love your 5/Turlough human nature au. Two of my favorite characters and one of my favorite stories? Sign me up
thank you! it was a fun lil gifset to make. i just think the vibes are there. five running around in his cricket whites + turlough's wingtip collar* definitely give an edwardian-ish impression, and it got me thinking abt a human nature situation. turlough in the classic companion role where he's been travelling w/ the doctor & knows what's going on would already be fun but i think it'd be even more fun if it's a situation w/ two aliens pretending to be human at the same school unbeknownst to each other. especially given that turlough is knowledgeable about time lords before he meets the doctor in the show! & i like to imagine how they might've met w/out the intervention of the black guardian...
*it's part of his school uniform of course but has anyone noticed he's the only one in mawdryn undead w/ it? none of the other boys/staff do... whoever's making these design decisions for 80s who, i'd like to talk pls
#also they have a kind of mentor/pupil dynamic which i'm finding hard to articulate...#the 2 times where the headmaster talks to turlough (well once it's the black guardian but you know)#that's obviously partly the role the doctor takes up w/ turlough through the enlightenment arc#though he approaches it in a very different way that involves a lot less sit-down talks & a lot more osmosis#(though to be fair to his original headmaster & i don't think you'd ever successfully get thru to turlough while he's still stuck on earth.#maslow's hierarchy and all that)#fifth doctor#vislor turlough#dw
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sorry i just thought case and olly
attractiveness:
repulsive / hideous / ugly / not attractive / unappealing / not unattractive / meh / no preference / ok / mildly attractive / nice looking / cute / adorable / attractive / pleasant on the eyes / good looking / hot / sexy / beautiful / gorgeous / hot damn / would tap that / perfect / godlike / holy fuck there are no words.
personality:
grating / irritating / frustrating / boring / confusing at best / awkward / unreasonable / psychotic / disturbing / interesting / engaging / affectionate / aggressive / ambitious / anxious / artistic / bad tempered / bossy / charismatic / appealing / unappealing / creative / courageous / dependable / unreliable / unpredictable / predictable / devious / dim / extroverted / introverted / egotistical / gregarious / fabulous / impulsive / intelligent / sympathetic / talkative / up beat / peaceful / calming / badass / flexible.
how likely they would have sex with them:
not if they were the last person on earth and the world was ending / fuck no! / never / no way / not likely / not sure / indifferent / Iām asexual / maybe / probably / it depends / fairly likely / likely / yeah sure / yes / would tap that / hell yes / fuck yes! / wishing that could happen right now / as many times as possible / we are already having sex.
level of friendship:
never in a million years / worst of enemies / enemies / rivals / indifferent / neutral / acquaintance / friendly toward each other / casual friends / friends / good friends / best friends / fuck buddies / bosom buddies / practically the same person / would die for them / true friends / my only friend.
first impression of them:
i hate them so much / i donāt like them / i donāt trust them / they annoy me / theyāre weird / Iām indifferent / meh / they seem alright / theyāre growing on me / truce / I think I like them / I like them / Iām not sure if I trust them / I trust them / theyāre cool / theyāre genuine / I think weāre going to get along / I really like them / I think Iām in love / oh fuck theyāre hot / I love them.
current impression of them:
i hate them so much / i donāt like them / i donāt trust them / they annoy me / theyāre weird / Iām indifferent / meh / they seem alright / theyāre growing on me / truce / I think I like them / I like them / Iām not sure if I trust them / I trust them / theyāre cool / theyāre genuine / I think weāre going to get along / I really like them / I think Iām in love / oh fuck theyāre hot / I love them
#hear me out here: iām not gonna speak for casey because i donāt think he would like olly. but. that aside.#iām attacking this from a more well adjusted olly perspective a la post-therapy#heās all i know.#first off out of the gate case iām sorry youāre a very pretty boy but olly is one of the straighter children of mine. not totally straight.#but.#think declan.#he knows what a good looking man looks like. and if the conditions were right? well. maybe.#mostly though i think that olly would be achingly desperate to have someone like casey as a friend#he doesnāt have a lot of those and the ones (one. he has one.) he does have are the type of people that balance out his occasional#volatility#olly doesnāt really trust people very easily all childhood things considered and i doubt heād trust case right out the gate either#but i also think heād find a kindred spirit in a lot of unexpected ways#obviously they had very different home lives and i donāt intend to compare caseyās accident to ollyās miserable adolescence#but i think that theyāve both been low. like really low. and i think theyāve both looked down the tunnel of ādoes this ever get betterā and#have had their moments when there doesnāt seem to be any light shining out at the end#i donāt know. olly looks at what caseyās been through and kind of hates himself as weird as that sounds. like this guy can go through all#this and turn out okay? stubborn as hell and a little sad but okay? meanwhile all olly feels is anger and hate and self pity.#i think heād admire casey for that even if he doesnāt know how to articulate it#anyway. from a superficial perspective i like the image of them being farm boys together. drinking on the back porch. accidentally starting#fires out in the back field#driving dirt bikes into ditches#pals. i hope.#c: oliver sinclair#foc: casey walker
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With that said, though, let us not forget that these past few months and these Olympics have been a political nightmare for Parisian and French people overall, and the inclusion of SO MUCH revolutionary imagery is nothing if not incredibly ironic from the French government. France has been in an insane political limbo since the European elections where president Macron dissolved the general assembly entirely unprompted, and put France at a very real risk of being led by the Far Right. Now that his party has lost the elections (3 whole times) he refuses to name the winning partyās Prime Minister and is holding onto power for dear lifeā¦ Ironic! If by watching all those scenes glorifying the French Revolution & revolutionary icons (like Louise Michel, or Les MisĆ©rables) or That One Bisexual Throupleā¢ļø you thought for a second that France is led by a progressive party, it isnāt. And these olympics have only come at the expense of working class and lower income people, homeless people, people of colour, immigrants and students from the start.
FRENCH LES MIS IN THE OLYMPICS OPENING CEREMONY IM LOSING MY SHIT
#it was well done it was a beautiful show it was very cool to look at#and obviously Iām glad it went well when everyone 5oughtitwas gonna be shut#but letās not kid ourselves here#also the inclusion ofFrench Les Mis in the theatre is probably to promote the les mis revival in Paris this fall#anyway I have thoughts as always which I probably didnāt articulate well#les mis#les miserables#les miz#les amis de l'abc#the brick#musical theatre
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(ignore me i just want to put this somewhere idk)
oh i just had the most ridiculous realization
so in 2019 when i was 16 i dived hard into my atheism (i was an atheist before then, im still an atheist) and i got a bit dickish about it (im not proud of it, i fucked up a whole relationship with it) and i think i just connected some dots but also this could seriously be a 'i just connected the dots' 'you didnt connect shit' 'ive connected them' moment
but anyway 2019 was like right after i got out of the situation thats left me with trauma and im wondering if i got deeply into one of my worst phases because of that, not that it could ever be proven either way but now im like. hm.
#like it was not a healthy time for me#i hate to admit it was a fixation of mine but i wouldnt say that outside of this because its embarassing#i dont know how to articulate my point of like#hey i just got out of this life altering horrible situation! time to dive into another awful situation!#and/or hey i just got out of this awful life changing situation! time to aim my negative feelings in a different direction like#like some sort of range weapon idk#did any of that make sense? idk im tired#personal#ignore me#my post#atheism youtube is just very full of negativity because obviously almost all of it is discussing and debunking religious stuff#and well. thats not exactly a happy passtime.#not to mention the people i talked to back then were some of the most like. stressful people ive ever known#nothing against them they werent malicious. but they needed help that they just refused to get. and i was terrified for them a lot
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