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I really should start using this site more like a journal, it's cathartic, and there's little to no chance of any of my family finding it
#literally my aunt snooped through ALL my notebooks and journals and now she acts weird around me because she read multiple of my#kinky fantasies. Like miss you shouldn't have been snooping in the first place#now its your own fault#she literally acts so different around me now and I hate it#She has zero room to judge seeing as she simps for BTS at her age
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thinkin about isat again (big surprise) and it would be a wonder if someone in the gang doesnt develop separation anxiety postgame. like other than siffrin considering that's the entire premise of the games plot, i mean.
#isat spoilers#isat#i bets would be on bonnie.#theyre like. 10.#they've nearly lost this specific person twice. and they consider one of those instances their own fault.#and the second time the person split off on their own (not really lucid or reasonable) terms and it nearly resulted in their death.#and thats not even CONSIDERING the nille situation. which is the entire reason bonnie is here.#you lose your sister. you hope its not forever but right now shes gone. and you're so so scared.#you get someone new who loves you dearly and reminds you of your sister. you love them back.#you nearly lose them TWICE. and they come out of it a shivering twitchy mess of a human.#now you have them BOTH back an dyou are never letting either of them go ever again.#because every time you've been separated from someone its only ever resulted in something bad happening.#wow im overthinking this.
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Watching Isaiah Bradley's mind control play out in CABNW: this is literally why Bucky kept him a goddamn secret even from Steve, after Isaiah had to fake his death to escape and live in some semblance of peace, and publicizing him without asking his permission first was a fucking dangerous thing to do to the poor man's safety what the hell were the tfawts writers thinking
#isaiah bradley#what were the tfatws writers smoking when they thought surprising isaiah with HEY EVERYONE KNOWS YOU NOW#AFTER WE'VE ESTABLISHED HOW MUCH DANGER YOU WERE IN FROM YOUR OWN GOV.#mcu#anti tfatws#also i hope people don't treat isaiah the way they treat bucky for this#freaks who think brainwashing and mind control is the victim's fault...#bucky barnes#i don't understand why the finale framed sam revealing isaiah's identity to the public WITHOUT ASKING FIRST as a good thing??#honor the men of isaiah's troop YES but don't essentially doxx a man who wants to live in peace and safety#why the fuck did they frame it as a good thing its so so so dangerous
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Salem conviniently never tags who is fronting when he posts.
whats funny. is that he does. but these other alters, so rarely front. which is awfully convenient, for salem.
i find it odd. he claims these alters, all enjoy drawing, and have their own styles, found under, the #headmate art tag. yet. these styles of drawing, and speaking, are identic to his own. they also all praise him, (despite salem in the past, having shown extreme aggression and violence, toward these "headmates", that salem borderline, treats as ocs.) and ensure, everyone around him knows, "he is such a popular, and loved bun".
normally. i do not like to scrutinize, someones dissociative symptoms. however. salem, with his stories about "re educating" his racist alter. puppy, somehow "was killed" by haters, then came back but avoided salem, then disappeared again, then appeared but only to "merge" with salem and become one, then despite that last bit, appeared again as their own entity. with 2 different fursonas. again salem not being able to make up his mind, about his own alters.
what is ironic as well. is that he seems to have split puppy, into 2. he has "heather". and he has, "cj". it just seems like a further attempt, to force himself away from his past. exclusively forcing "heather" and "cj", to take the blame, in guilt tripping and half-assed apologies. that mean nothing, when all it is doing, is further pushing any blame away, from salem himself. despite the fact, systems are supposed to work as one. not, blame everything on a "bad" alter. which is now what he has done, to heather, cj, and andi/revvy/adonis/kyu.
bonus. of salem not even bothering to remember his supposed beloved alter's, name. as well as, him conveniently memoryholing, all of the awful things he did, as puppy. yet, somehow, in depth remembering, all of her trauma, and wanting to benefit, from the sympathy of it.
#also. the irony of immediately sexualizing his alter. that supposedly is extremely sexually traumatized/stunted mentally.#to the point this supposed childlike alter can only draw in an lps esque style. that is obviously salem trying to copy his older art.#i find it ironic too. he now retroactively claims. all of the drama videos referencing puppy are ''misgendering him''.#so what is it. is puppy their own individual. and its not your fault what they did. or are you puppy. and their trauma is yours.
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The most tragic part about Hama's death is that he will never finish growing his hair out.
#war of the rohirrim#wotr#I am 100% a victim of this tragedy#I was almost finished with my Hama art and realized I drew it wrong#Now I'm here breaking my brain trying to fix it#he also would have looked magnificent with long hair for the record#hama#hama son of helm#idk what to say#if this is spoiler its your own fault for looking it up
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listen I just can’t find fault with a candy person for finding something that unexpectedly brings them joy and doing everything in their power to make it keep happening. I just can’t find it in me to blame them for wanting the approval of the person they love and respect more than anyone else, and wanting that approval over and over again, and I just straight up can’t blame james for figuring out a trick to make his princess smile and call him her hero. like, banana guards get her praise and approval and hugs all the time, but he’s just some random engineer with an easy smile and no one who wants to hang out with him after work. and she likes him so much, she wants him in her kingdom, even when he goes and does something stupid like push her out of the way of a super dangerous not-moving car, at the cost of his own life, she wants him back and she’ll bring him back and she'll tell him that was very brave and she loves him. of course she loves him. she loves all the candy people. but he figured out how to make her look him in the eyes and say it and give him material evidence of her pride. I can’t find it in myself to blame him for that. it wasn't good, i don't think he should have been left unchecked to keep going forever, but i can't blame him for wanting to keep reliving the nice thing that happened once. the really nice thing that happened once that came with material gifts. if she didn’t want to keep doing it she would’ve stopped LONG before there were TWENTY FIVE of them. before she was so fed up that she didn’t even spare him a kind goodbye or a chance to go home one more time.
like you’re not beating the dystopian dictatorship allegations. saying she was right to exile him from the only home he’s ever known with no recourse because he was acting weird. and the thing is, I just can’t find it in me to blame a character living in a dictatorship for getting himself into a situation because he was desperately trying to be happy the best way he could figure out how. I’m not saying he was right, he’s insane, but it just rubs me wrong, the idea that he is the one holding all this heavy blame. the idea that the princess is right to look down at him and shake her head firmly and turn him out in the cold. for chasing the rush that she gave him willingly, over and over, without any specific end parameters. for not being able to make friends, and doing something weird about it. he’s bored and lonely and this works and it’s not, inherently, bad. it really isn’t. it’s batshit, but it’s actually not hurting anyone at all.
#in case im not being clear. because i dont know. this is about james adventuretime.#and like. he is literally no weirder than any other candy person#i cant justify this freak (affectionate) but i also simply cannot blame him for this. imagine youre a guy in the Happy All The Time kingdom#and its goofyhappy but youre bone-numbingly bored and lonely and no one will hang out with you. youre 30 something.#wouldnt it be nice if you just had some people who Get you. well. enter This One Weird Trick. with a side of Princess Calls You A Hero.#like mann id do it all the time too dude. i dont see why pb can withhold her grace+forgiveness for checks notes. him being a lonely weirdo#who freaked out (HE DIED. HORRIFICALLY. UNEXPECTEDLY.) and found a way to ask her for friends indirectly.#is it wrong to be a weird little candy guy living in a dictatorship trying your best#like come on. sure hes not DOING RIGHT. it was WEIRD! but i CANT FIND IT IN MYSELF to BLAME HIM. that's what im here to say.#i will never find fault with him for literally just tricking her into making clones of himself so hed have friends to eat with in his home#im not sorry i mildly enjoy character on tv. candy people no.1 defender.#o#he doesnt seem to need much. like. its not like he was this extravagant strain on resources. if he was she would have noticed#ok ill stop. for now. might be back. i had a HORRIFIC discord rant#and? if he really had been dying? we wouldnt be having this conversation. we'd be saying man that is tragic. get him therapy.#but instead we are talking about whether he should APOLOGIZE for taking up space in his own tiny apartment tht he decided to share.#thats what annoyed me. among other thigns. but that bit. that she has a nebulous apology waiting for her and neednt accept#thats. insane. what did he do. not die. fake save her life. not realize heroism can branch out to other folks besides his princess.#bad things but not Obviously Unforgivable things that deserved EXILE!#adventure time#for my own search purpose just in case. I think that’s low enough in tags it won’t go into main tag.maybe not. whatever
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so crooked moon is going really well so far (painting foretold them being burned at the stake)
#artists on tumblr#dungeons and dragons#dnd#crooked moon#dnd pc#my ocs#hem#my dm cleared this with me dw#i was actually supposed to go on a trip when this happened but our last quest ended up taking longer#so now i get to be here for it :)#its not my fault you listened to your patron to save the party cleric without questioning it which resulted in this#idk if other ppl experience this but sometimes characters kind of become their own instances in my own brain#like i dont control that guy (but i do#its just a matter of what i feel like would be the right option for them adsfghdg)#also this tiefling is my dnd sona
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why is everyone so obsessed with absolving bruce of all responsibility and fault. like no actually he is not 100% innocent in the child vigilantes he did in fact literally just Yoink Jason and make him robin at the ripe age of 12. jason would Not have become a vigilante (or died!) if bruce hadn't made him that. like he is actually 100% responsible for picking up a kid and turning them into a soldier
#my dc posting#jason todd#bruce wayne#batman#red hood#robin#obviously some he couldnt have stopped. im not denying some of them did in fact just do that on their own w no input from bruce#like uhh i think duke cass babs steph etc etc im not doing the fucking child soldier argument here alright#im saying that jason did Not do that. like he was not running out in his own costume doing vigilante shit he interfered in one (1) crime#after first trying to tell someone abt it happening that does not equate to 'im going to become a vigilante'#yet bruce still picked him up and went 'youre robin now :)'#so like it annoys me sooo much when ppl just completely go that bruce had no fault in any of them or whatever. like hello. what the fuckkk#are you talking abt#i love jaybin (robin jason) i love him as robin i dont think he was a bad robin i think bruce is wrong n horrible for doing that#fics will have bruce feeling horrible like 'its my fault he died... he wouldnt have died if he wasnt robin...' and ill be like YES! YES EXA#TLY! you should feel horrible abt it its like a Lot your fault#i used the word soldier in the post bc of. yknow. 'a good soldier' like bruce's words not mine 🤷#''he didnt have a choice'' for most of them yeah i agree! im not disagreeing! except for jason which he 100% had a choice in.#this is a really small thing but it infuriates me endlessly
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Amazing, take some of the side character demons from Evil Bound.
Vincie is a menace to Chuck and Chuck alone so in Hell, Chuck hexes his hand behind his back so that he isn't grabbed as much (and it's harder to pet him). Chuck is like the most irresponsible older sibling ever to demons though so Kelvin recruits him (as an older sibling vibe) to go help him get his ACTUAL older sibling from Earth. Chuck agrees. And then drags Vincie from Hell with them because no one else wants to babysit him and he refuses to unbind the hex just to re-hex when he returns to Hell.
In Hell, Kelvin actually doesn't appear much different than his human form! Like Kronos, the lines under his eyes are red in Hell but black on earth. Chuck however? In Hell he has wolf-ish ears and has a fur lining his neck (note the neck scars in human form). In addition to that he has four eyes in Hell (note the scars under his eyes in human form). Vincie just has horns in Hell. And! In Hell the hex doesn't have a silly looking "tied up" look, it's invisible unless Vincie strains it with movement and then its red text. But it shifts on earth to be visible.
Vincie's biggest agony for the entirety on earth is "dude it's colder here than in Hell I want a jacket to slip my arms into BUT I CANT BECAUSE IM BOUND".
#my characters#amazing show stopping rng wheel thanks#i have my oc plots on a wheel - thats 80 different options! wow! - and spun it#i spun twice and the first time it was the bodyguard plot that i drew a few days ago#the second time was evil bound#i genuinely think it new its a bad day and im not doing well so it took it easy on me with things id done recently#anyway ive never colored kelvin before which i realized today#i only have pencil art of him#also fun fact about their lil earth adventures#they fucking fail horrifically the first time they go and kronos doesnt go back#then they go back to try and get him to forcefully bring him back and theeeeen shit hits the fan#and so vincie is vibing with tolliver since hes basically useless without hands and then oops!#no more hex! and so he starts to get really super scared and tolliver is like uh isnt that a good thing your hands are free now#and vincie is horrified because the only way to break a hex from a distance is if the caster is near dead or dead#and if thats the case chuck is probably dead and that means what if kronos and kelvin are dead#how is he gonna get back to hell alone and is HE going to get punished for it#but then kronos and kelvin show up and take vincie back to hell with the not breathing chuck#but its fine in the end bc the succubi bring him back to ... life ? question mark? anyway hes revived#but vincie does have a part where hes just crying in tollivers apartment bc he thinks hes gonna be punished#for not helping the other demons and then they died#but chuck dying is basically why kronos goes back to hell - he feels responsible (hes at fault so good for him to own up)#vincie is one of the very few demons who doesnt have dark sclera#chuck vincie and kronos all have black sclera while the succubi have gray#i dont think there was ever a reason for it tbh i should make up a reason#time to go lie down and not exist the rest of the night if i can avoid it
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I could not really care less about the ai art plagiarism debate but like you are destroying the environment. you are actively and needlessly contributing to the destruction and wasting of already scarce natural recourses. please just make bad art on your own I cannot fucking stand you people
#commission someone trace over an image let go of your pride and just make something bad as humans have been doing for thousands of years#many things on this earth that contribute to habitat destruction and climate change#many of them baked into our lives and many of them caused by corporations and billionaires and beyond the fault of normal people#but ai is utterly and completely pointless and unnecessary as it stands right now and in comparison to its impact#can you just fucking do a thing on your own. I'm going to start killing people#ghost posts#text
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everytime the thought "oh living here isnt that bad" crosses my mind the universe is like "ehhh"
#im so overr ittt <- being treated like a second class citizen#i have so many new instances from this week but tomorrow#the lab is doing a bbq to say farewell to one of the researchers here#and im thinking about how to bring it up to my grandma#i get locked out of the house if im not here before 10 and the last time i went out late with my friends#she casually said “well if you are raped and killed its your own fault”#well she isnt talking to me now cuz i went to bed early and didnt stay up to wait and fawn over her favorite grandson lol#i really wish i could disappear rn
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Another Grant headcanon:
I think he wrote love notes when in relationships, and he went all out with like making the paper scented and stuff. But like he had no good perfume so he ended up using his horrible body spray. So like the lucky boyfriend would like find a paper reeking of the body spray like every once in a while.
Also I think he was someone who fell deep into romance because having a crush and feeling butterflies in his stomach was better than numbness. So he would pursue every crush even if he knew it would not end well because of the thrill of it. I think this sucked but I think he atleast felt like this is a normal way for life to suck.
#honestly I was thinking he continued the note thing with marco in college maybe?#and now marco likes the smell of the body spray even if grant found better perfumes cuz nostalgia#i think i am in my own la dee da world after this episode#where I think if willy takes a break from torturing the parents they should form a circle and become bffs#they should form a circle#toast to rebecca#and then just talk shit idk#i think they would be very funny as a group after they are done grieving#like cassandra would be like how could I have dated such a loser#he literally kidnapped like four of my exs ex friends and put collars on them when we were dating#and they would be like no its not your fault he is that manipulative#and then one of them would talk about their ex to comfort her#and then somwhow it would come out that willy is like the age of their grandparents#and cassandra would be like why did this senior citizen get me so bad#he told me to make him a sandwich and I#a multimillionaire made him a sndwich#this will probably never happen in canon#dndads#grant wilson#dungeons and daddies#the tags are their own seperate post at this point#dndads s2#all the spouses knew willy as a nice guy who saved them#rebecca was the only one who suspected him so thats why he killed her#they must be feeling so duped getting tortured except for marco who saw him kill a man#cassandra has been feeling duped since heaven#this is killing me all of them are having conversations in my head now the comedy and the pain is killing me mostly the comedy#marco li wilson#grant li wilson#anu posts
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Does anyone else get that Unfortune Feeling that maybe the Writers who worked on "Rio 2" weren't smart enough to expand more on Blu and Jewel's relationship the right way and now people are ending up gonna doing some Math?
#been thinking on how Rio 2 handled their own relationship very poorly...#one of my bffs says that they don't ship Blu/Jewel & for some reason this whole “Divorce” AU thing in the Rio fandom is now a trend#which I kinda feel like this all Jewel's Flanderization to blame#I fuckin' Hate Eduardo for being the Cliche Father Hating Son-In-Law trope#and now I'm starting to believe that it's the sequel's fault for ruining the First Romance in the First Movie#Which would probably Rot the Entire Franchise very badly#Look I get it if some of y'all don't like the sequel but if y'all don't like it just consider it “Non-Canon” in your eyes & have a nice day#I really loved the first film for how it delt with the Romance as well as its own Brazilian Culture#& Now I'm really scared of re-watching the Second Film#indie text
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Thinking about time travel and all the secrets Lu Guang is keeping. And how long he's been keeping them.
And also what his limitations are... because I don't think he knows as much as he thinks he knows.
I've got a lot of thoughts and a lot of questions. I tried to organize them in the hopes to maybe work out some ideas, but it got a bit... Much. Weigh in if you have thoughts because...I'm clearly vibrating in place wanting to talk about this. But anyway, here we go.
How is the present affected by future dives into the past? (Alternate timelines or pre-determined track)
This section is basically me asking a lot of questions that might just be writing holes or maybe not and we just don't find out for, like, 6 years. And that's fine. I'm here for it, I just need to sort out all these theories in my head.
In S1E9, LG looks into the surveillance photo and sees CXS on the solo dive. Is this because CXS was currently in the photo? Is it because CXS had already done the solo dive and so LG was seeing the affected photo? Is it because CXS was always going to go into the photo, so LG saw the past that always was going to be?
When Liu Min called from Xu Shanshan's phone, was it because CXS was always going to set up the meeting? What if CXS hadn't come to that conclusion and didn't reveal himself in Shanshan's body? Would the call have never happened? Does Lu Guang allow this huge "deviation" because he saw it was supposed to happen? Did he lie about what he saw in the photo? Was his elevated concern in that moment he claimed was about CXS's potential mental state while of going into his friend's potentially dying body actually about CXS starting the game? Is he just as clueless as everyone else and now everything is spiralling?

Chen Xiao. Chen Xiao, Chen Xiao. Oh man. "Nothing will be affected" my ass Lu Guang. Pretty sure you created an entire person that didn't previously exist from that mission. Sure, all the people that were supposed to die in the earthquake died, but Chen Xiao did NOT have a wedding ring on when he came to the photoshop to hire them. He was a miserable man with regrets he couldn't move past, including missing his "first love." Now, I get that first loves have a lot of weight, but he's like 30+ and so desperate... this is not a man who looks at his wedding ring with care and sings his son to sleep. But he becomes that. Where did that child come from?!?
Just because the 12 hours after the photo are the same doesn't mean that the 12 years after it are. Lingering resentment--or the lack thereof-- is a strong shaping force. Also. Chen Xiao's lack of regrets from a successful mission means that he never would have hired them to dive in the first place. So to make it full circle, Chen Xiao "returns" to the photo shop (for the first time?) to have CXS develop the photos he took himself on the camera he saved from the wreckage...And, I have to assume from the implication of a new timeline, THAT is how they get paid for the job. How much are they charging to develop film? Was it worth it??
Does LG even know about this kind of change? Is it just too far out of his range to see? He didn't seem to know about Emma until he saw the news, so maybe he's limited in what he can see, but he found that article pretty fast, so maybe he knew something was happening. It's hard to know.
What are the extent of LG's powers? Is he from the future?
He always says not to ask about the "past or future." I assumed this meant the future of the past that CXS was currently in, but what if he also means the future of the present that we're currently seeing? Can he see the future of the present he's in now?
In season 1, he knew that CXS would appear as himself when he dove into the surveillance camera footage. How? It was obviously CXS's first time doing that, but maybe not LG's. If it was his first time, how did he know?
We recently learned that he can see the present through surveillance footage the same way he does looking at footage of the past. Does this mean he can also see 12 hours into the future? It's 20:44 when LG unlocks Chen Bin's phone, so it's probably around 21:00 when he uses his powers. Does he know how things will unfold? Does he see the twins moving through the building? Does he realize there are two of them?
He's obviously been up to something this whole season: watching the clock, hiding photos, opening up stitches without much physical effort beyond using his powers... 🤔
My current crack theory is that LG reopening his stitches while using his powers to watch the fight is actually related to him escaping and/or jumping off the boat to free CXS. I'm not sure how because it's definitely more than 12 hours between the events, but something is up.
It's not surprising to me that CXS and Wang Juan were controlled through touch. The moment Li Tianxi reached out her hand to shake CXS's I yelled at my TV. It looked too similar to LG reaching out to start a dive.
And I yelled even louder when she made contact
CXS can dive on his own and LG can see into a photo on his own. The physical touch only connects their minds, it's not necessary to activate the powers. Could LG touch CXS and communicate telepathically without diving into a photo if they had an activation touch? Does LJ need a time travel element to get into CXS's head?
I think Li Tianchen's powers at least are touch related because when he touched Xixi, CXS lost his connection with LG. But I think there may be something else going on with the twins. I'm just not sure what I think yet. We wouldn't know if one was possessing the other because their eyes are the same.
How do the powers manifest, and what does that mean for Lu Guang's backstory?
I think we saw the moment when Li Tianxi and/or Li Tianchen acquire powers. Was it a predisposition that unlocked during a highly traumatic moment or did it just manifest somehow from an extreme desire to take control of the situation?
Li Tianxi was a child who wanted to communicate and be present but felt trapped in her over stimulated body. Li Tianchen was a boy with strong ideals and a sense of protectiveness... without the strength of an adult body to follow through with that protection. While they were holding the photo, huddled together in close physical contact after Tianchen's head injury, one of them or the combined force of them was able to 1.) take over their mother's body and 2.) blank out Xixi's mind to the point of cutting CXS's connection with LG and eventually the whole photo. But something went very wrong along the way. Maybe some signals were crossed.
CXS is a highly empathetic person. He feels so much for everyone and wants to connect with people emotionally. And his powers reflect that. We know CXS has probably at some point had a strong enough desire to go back in time, if anything to see his parents.
What, then, do the circumstances look like for a logical, emotionally reserved--but deeply caring--person to acquire powers to see snapshots of the past? What would drive him to want to change the past so much that he manifests these powers?
We know CXS had never done a dive without LG before he temporarily went rogue in S1E9... because he didn't know he could do it until he tried.
We know S1E1 isn't the first time they dive. CXS nags LG about having heard the rules a hyperbolic amount of times. So the powers aren't new at this point. But I don't think they both had powers before they met. So how and when did they get their powers? Was it when they met? When they travelled abroad? After some accident or something?
LG just shows up in CXS's life unannounced. Twice. And that's how they got close. Was it just the random fated meeting of soulmates as per fiction standards or did LG intentionally seek out CXS for more timey-wimey reasons? Did meeting LG activate CXS's powers? Did they experience something together to have compatible abilities? Did LG already have his and teach CXS how to manifest his own? How much did LG already know before he picked up that basketball?
I have this other crack theory that I absolutely hate and don't want to be true at all and almost certainly isn't, but, like...what if if LG and CXS are actually the same person from different timelines. Like LG is a version of CXS that doesn't get to have familial love and maybe experiences too much trauma, and he goes back in time to give himself some semblance of a home and a set of rules to hone his powers without altering the timeline that he's actively changing. They're intentionally written to be two halves of a whole, and there's been more than one joke made about LG being a ghost or not existing. I hate it. But it's in my head.
One last question for today... because I have to wonder:
Who makes the rules?
Has LG just read enough books to feel knowledgeable about how time travel works? Is he from the future trying to maintain a desired outcome? Are they following the rules of a third party who's orchestrating the flow of events from a distance? Are they... Leaving their fates to the ones who aren't in control?
#link click#shiguang dailiren#This is obnoxiously long but I'm not sorry. I ask too many speculative questions and don't answer any of them. This is my brain right now.#It's not my fault that Lu Guang has too many secrets and time travel writing can kinda set its own rules#Send help#Also just assume that any theories I posit are all heavily influenced by my brain reading Shiguang as cannon rather than just a ship.#Because it is. It's literally the title of the show. Can't change my mind. But I'm very impressionable when it comes to other theories so..#Tell me about your thoughts so I can mitigate my own
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what do you do when you feel like being vulnerable with anyone in your life is an immediate turn off for them
#wordvomit#'i had a dream about my ex it feels like hes haunting me' to my closest friends and they all side eye each other and say nothing#i find myself in a situation where i feel unable to talk about myself or my interests or my feelings#moreso just responding to other people and trying to give them investment#it varies based on the person but it just always feels like they range from disinterested to annoyed#and no one really initiates conversations with me anymore?#i try to prompt things but no dice most of the time#only if its a shared interest/they have some investment#i find myself picking things to be interested because i think my friends might like talking abt it with me#who knows. sorry tumblr ur my diary#im gonna go do drugs abt this#also saying this here since it will never be read anywhere by anyone who its relevant to#yall ever feel so pressured to perform on smthn thats supposed to be your own creative for fun project#that it isnt fun anymore and you just hand the reigns over#idk i cant help but feel like its my fault somehow but also. my ideas will come to me when they come to me#now im sitting here focusing so hard on making good characters i dont feel like i can do anything organic#im sorry i have a different creative process and im sorry i cant force myself bc ur hyperfixated#wow im just yammering sorry#things that i have been pondering that arent worth actually saying bc nothing will happen besides drama#and then no real change
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Fellas is it gay to wander the land in a fruitless quest to fullfill the wish of your queen who you promised to always be there for when you met many years ago, and she was still just a princess you rescued along a journey to save your home that would end in you killing the closest thing there was to a god and unknowingly curse your clock to stop ticking, leading to everything you once fought and died for to crumble around you as only ruins and memories remain, with yourself as the final act of a story that refuses to end?
And also you hated being a knight so you quit that job, but still were her knight, the same way she was the queen, but your princess?
Asking for a friend
#original character do not steal [tm]#art fight#might clean this up but. Probs just gonna put it up as is#also you’re the chosen one#and being around for way too long made you very op and bored (but in a tired way)#and the thing you killed never actually *fully* died because you were never meant to be the hero of this story to begin with#and it took until *now* for it to decide to get a new protagonist for its story#and you’re seeing way too much of yourself in them yet are horribly aware of the differences#and you’re seeing but desperately refusing to accept that you‘re not the hero of this new story but its villain#and it’s all just really messing with your identity rn#also your favorite merchant‘s dead and the current guy (who‘s at fault for said death) can only brew potions that taste like shit#at least he feels bad about it (his own bestie‘s death and the horrible taste)#but still. The old ones were so much better#and you just need a fucking drink or twelve#tldr. Red and her terrible horrible no good very bad B-Rank Ending epilogue
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