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rhys-is-puffs · 5 months ago

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No I didn’t stop to consider how being asexual would affect my relationship I didn’t think I’d FUCKING GET THIS FAR

#this is a lie it kept me up at night lol #now its just keeping me up more #they’re not allosexual but fuck they aren’t ace either #I’m going to throw up #anyway #how’re y’all #nighttime thoughts #rhys vents

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xxplastic-cubexx · 24 days ago

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alternate apocalypse ending or something who the hcrist knows anymore

#mcu #xmen movies #xmen #xmen apocalypse #cherik #charles xavier #erik lehnsherr #professor x #magneto #snap sketches #almost posted this to the wrong blog omg i wouldve thrown up #this dumb as hell forgive me chat #unrelated i thought today was sunday but no it's. 4AM saturday THAT MEANS ITS CHERIK POSTING TIME #i thought of binning this like five times but ive convinced myself i like enough of this to keep it #at the very least im making myself chortle at the mini charles in the corner. like yeah that about summarizes it donnit #anyway the reason why we're here. highkey just wanted charles to grab his waist SORRY #and this was the first thing i thought of so. Apocalypse But Erik Directs The Ending jvlkeajl #my god i was gonna say something else but. i forgot #oh wait no i remember hold on. uhhh something something charles shouldve fought harder or whatever erik said in dofp #dofp IS before apocalypse i know this but it applicable. probably. im not gonna think bout it on whats essentially a shitpost #ok im sleeping now bye. ive got more doodles i wanna do but my god im sleepy. or at least i should sleep

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hinamie · 2 months ago

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congrats on your recovery n all yuuji but unfortunately for you I thought the scars were cool >:/

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuji itadori #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #jjk art #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #jjk leaks #these took so long i kept getting distracted cries #but they r done and this is yuuji's post canon scar map to me. argue with a wall we should have had this #looks at canon this sign won't stop me bc i cant read >:(#smh robbed!!!!!! the potential!!!!! the aesthetic!!!!! th angst the symbolism!!!!!!#gege i respect u i do not want beef after u let my boys live #but u rly couldnt have scuffed him up a LITTLE more.....there were so many to choose from didnt u have a favourite.....#all he has to show fr all that r two little scratches. rly.#((not counting the ear n fingers thank god i get That much))#anyway i made a whole post abt why i think yuuji should have kept the scars n what it would have stood for symbolically #its along th same lines as the yuuji Big Face Scar agenda hh i just care a lot abt character design n visual storytelling ok #anyway fine he can keep the eye but in this house it grew back wrong it's lighter and foggy and now his prescription is stronger #as fr the rest #megumi has dibs on the upper right eye apparently so yuuji can have the bottom half #i would have doubled down on the scars on his left but a. the right side is the symbolic one #b. he healed an entire eye so it makes sense tht he'd heal other more minor injuries as well #c. tbh it's mostly based on what looked good i think this arrangement guides the eye across his face nicely #gave him a lil nose nick bc smth smth sukuna idk it's just there to balance things out #also as i said. the jaw and neck scar are there for kissing purposes i make the rules im salty and i do what i want smile #in other news thank u past hina fr doing those hair render studies im very happy with my yuuji hair as of late

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skunkes · 4 months ago

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#a doodley #i had to make this blue so tumblr would stop hiding it from the dash #anyway no caption this happened 2 hrs ago #im happy abt my surgery but it and other things this year keep beinging conversations like these up #and i cant handle it at all.#everything my dad tells me just makes me feel worse and not bc its anything bad but bc I Feel Bad #like the conversation then continued to him being like no dont cry im just saying i wpuld have wanted to #quit my job decades ago and set aside money so I wouldnt be struggling as much now but that didnt happen #and i just dont want that to happen to you guys :)#so we have to support u so that your life is what u want it to be #and i cried even more bc what do u mean. thats so sad. ur a person and u were a child and baby once and ur gonna die #and you always almost cry when u talk about your mom who passed away decades ago #and your brothers that passed away #recently and im going to be your age and still sobbing bc i miss my dad. just like i have been prematurely crying about since i was 7 #the other day my dad asked my mom if i cried a lot when i was a baby/kid and my mom said no and then my dad #said that when i Did cry it was so severe he thought i would ''drown in my own tears''#bc i could never stop. like. thats still true today. ive been crying on and off since then #i think i mentioned he's just been telling me stories about his life lately and it further fuels this. i get so sad. im sorry your life was #like this. i dont want to die i dont want you to die im sad im sorry im sorry #im scared. im never going to see you again. how horrible. how horrible #i cant enjoy my day today bc every day is a day closer and i get sad

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justaz · 6 months ago

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thinking about arthur who has crazy quick reflexes and is a relatively light sleeper who woke up to the sound of someone in his room and saw merlin crouched down messing with his keys before softly asking “whatre you doing?…before breakfast?”

#like in that scene in s2 when merlin was calling out arthurs name from under his bed #and he jumped up (thinking merlin was long gone) grabbed his sword and postured for a fight #or that one in idk which season when merlin was sneaking in his room and he woke up and grabbed his sword when merlin bumped a chair #and then merlin brought the canopy/curtains around his bed down on him #vs waking up to see melin splayed over him and staring for a beat #before flinching back #(he was definitely having some thoughts and/or dreams but thats neither here nor there)#idk thinking about arthur who trusts merlin implicitly and allows himself to lower his guard around him #his guard which he keeps up even in his sleep #GOD imagining them in an established relationship and merlin for once has /so/ much trouble waking arthur up #like before it was sorta bad but arthur was always in that half awake state #but now that theyre together….arthur wont even groan when merlin starts poking his ribs #arthur finally feeling so safe and protected that he allows his guard to drop in his sleep #and its the first time hes ever felt truly refreshed in the morning #so now merlin has infinitely more trouble waking him up but when hes up hes UP and ready to go #bbc merlin #merlin emrys #arthur pendragon #merthur #arthur bby they could never make me hate you #hes just a girl desperately craving love and protection #merlin isnt even offering it #hes shoving it into arthurs arms with insults flying off the tongue #theyre so disgusting #(affectionate)#<3 #headcanon #head canon #hc

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starry-bi-sky · 4 days ago

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yall ever think Shen Yuan went through like, internet withdrawal after being transmigrated into Shen Qingqiu? Like, he's canonically a NEET shut-in who did nothing but spend his time online, you can't tell me that for the first week or first few weeks of being SQQ he wasn't twitchy.

Like, reaching instinctively to his pockets for a phone that wasn't there, having an obsessive itch in the back of his mind that he should check and see if X or Y novel or webcomic has updated -- only to realize he can't anymore and being irritated by it. Wanting to go and see if there's new posts about this or that, but again realizing that he can't.

When he's bored or uncomfortable or just feels like wanting to escape he tries to go for his phone to distract himself, but oops! Not there anymore, and now he has to find a new and different way to distract himself from his feelings. And going through system notifications, quests, etc only does so much.

And there's that Tetris Effect too. SQQ makes a mistake while writing and instinctively goes to backspace on it except hey-ho that's not a keyboard and now he just dipped his pinkie into a bottle of ink or on a still-drying letter.

With him scrambling to fix his reputation and learn how to be a peak lord, I think his abrupt cold-turkey from all things internet would just be another straw on the camel's back that he promptly Ignores until it goes away on its own after he acclimates to his new surroundings.

#svsss #mxtx svsss #scum villain #scum villian self saving system #shen yuan #shen qingqiu #i think him learning how to be a peak lord and cultivation and everything else would help distract him from the internet withdrawal for the #most part. but the moment there's a lull in the day and his mind wanders or he becomes bored or stressed and he instinctively reaches back #for his phone and realizes it isn't there it just sends a spike of panic/frustration/irritation through him because its a familiar comfort #and now its gone. like this is all based off my own experiences from being Chronically Online but i just think its neat to think about #in that same vein i think it also pushes him into getting into the arts on QJP. Like as the peak lord naturally he would be doing this kind #of stuff but hes NOT the peak lord but to keep up appearances he has to know how to do this stuff. and finds it??? actually quite rewarding #even more than getting into an argument online or getting a new merch item. he's making or doing this stuff. he starts drawing and finishes #a piece and regardless of its skill level he feels something unclog in his chest. like sediment being scraped off the bottom of a creek and #being washed downstream. a weight that's been slogging through his veins suddenly untangled. physical proof of his efforts that feels great #starry is incapable of NOT giving her favorite blorbos more hobbies. starry is incapable of not giving her favorites artsy hobbies #this is probably NOT a new or original thought whatsoever but im throwing it out there anyways bc it fascinates me. i love transmigration #and albeit i've only read isekai manhwa/manhua there's a common theme of the people there assimilating into their new lives relatively quic #which i know is for ease of transition and getting to the rest of the story. but WHAT IF.#i have still not read svsss yet and idk when i'll be able to BUT have some thoughts anyways

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buglaur · 2 months ago

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i've been playing the game in my own time but i gotta share this lil angel cus she's the cutest toddler my sims have ever had

#ts4 #sims 4 #hello hiii casually posting as if i didn't disappear for a few months #lifes just been beating me up these past two months and i ended up shutting everything out #the last two weeks have been particularly rough #but i'm still kicking 🙏🏻#i've been playing a lot of fortnite and terraria and wobbledogs #sorry for ignoring all my asks and dms and mentions since like fucking april #jesus christ its september now. where'd the time go #anyways GRACIE ❤️❤️❤️#full name gracie-lynn dufford #her mom is one of my favourite sims i've ever made #i'll probably start posting more soon enough since college is starting back up and all my procrastination habits will come back to me #you will see more of this lil cutie and her family #hope everyone's keeping well ❤️❤️#i will try to answer some asks and stuff tonight #no promises tho i'm sorry #bye til then <3

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casualavocados · 21 days ago

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You've never done that when I got close to you before. Why? None of your business. Tell me, or you can't leave.

KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 10

#kiseki: dear to me #kisekiedit #kdtm #kiseki dear to me #ai di x chen yi #chen yi x ai di #nat chen #chen bowen #louis chiang #chiang tien #jiang dian #uservid #userspring #userrain #pdribs #userspicy #userjjessi #*cajedit #*gif #every time i color this scene i get stronger. anyway there were so many expressions i just couldnt leave out. the deep breath ai di takes #steeling himself before admitting it. & the way chen yi absorbs it the way he blinks away & his mouth opens before focusing on ai di again #thinking about it. thinking about four years of attacks ai di had to withstand. understanding the way he is now but hating how its happened #and also the guilt hes gotta feel from that! & yet thats overcome in this moment by a need to not let ai di put a wall between them #which is what ai di keeps trying to do. he admits a vulnerable thing and then deflects FOUR TIMES in this scene. first when sleeping #& choking chen yi when woken(& avoiding when questioned abt it). second by dropping his guard & worrying when he finds chen yi injured #& twice more shown in this set. he has to shake it off he has to put his wall back up but his instincts are strongest & chen yi SEES them.#you can see the way ai di wants to relax into that hug. the way he just wants to BREATHE but instead uses those breaths to defend himself #he chooses to flirt hoping it'll make chen yi back off. hoping he'll stop asking him to be vulnerable. but chen yi knows his tricks now.#and hes not going to let ai di continue believing he doesnt CARE about him. its poetic the way he gives him a taste of his own medicine #like it's *strategic*. he watches and learns. he knows his own influence over ai di he knows that HE is ai di's weakness. it's..chef's kiss

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ch1zzie · 8 months ago

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The original in the bottom

Plus the picture I mainly drew but decided to draw the rest for funny

#thats not my neighbor #milk man #just tried to draw something in my mind to post along with saying some updates #monday the people are gonna give my grandma the keys to the house! while i have to stay at my aunts place for wifi for school #(online school)#my moms gonna be moving things out of storage into the house! AAAA I CANT WAIT #also little welcome home update #im not sure if i said here? wait nevermind i just remembered while typing (it was that i got barnaby and the pins) AAA silly me #also im making a little julie out of clay (if i wake up and their messed up i am NOT redoing that😭)#the legs are a little messed up because julie was gonna be the size of an hatsune miku figure on accident so i chose to shorten her a bit #only because im not sure if im gonna make the others too AND because theres no way hes gonna be THAT tall😭#also! im making easter art #yes its barnaby and wally again just for fun! but a few changes like keeping their regular outfits because i cant think of anything else!!!#why not the ones in the old easter drawing? welllll a follower said that wallys outfit looked a bit familiar to another not so good thing #it wasnt on purpose just an accident because i hadn't notice BUT im glad i know now so i can be more careful!#im not sureeee if im gonna finish the easter art OR the julie clay thingy but I'd love too! and honestly HOPE to #high chance i will (well maybe the easter art could be late or not)#maaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAA trying to think if theres anything else but cant! ill try posting this hoping my wifi wont hate me...#also i know i said this account was for welcome home posting but i didnt have any cool welcome homey things to put here gahhhhh #ehehehhe once i get my new room and its allllll just me #imma post like crazy (wellll that IS the plan so i hope)#even if its little dumb posts #by the way this post was gonna say on top “i know i said this account is for welcome home posting but TAKE THIS FOR LITTLE UPDATES”#just removed it because i dunnooooo just didded #hehe didded

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luck-of-the-drawings · 17 days ago

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EDYN TIDESTRIDER, CHALLENGER OF THE UNDERSEA, RIVAL OF THE DEEP. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOUR BROTHER WAS CHOSEN TO BE A WEAPON OF THE GODS? HOW WILL YOU UNDO WHAT THEY HAVE DONE TO HIM?

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #edyn tidestrider #cw blood #EDYYYNNNN TTIDESTRIDERRR OHH HOW I LOVE HERRRR #THIS IS A PAGE FULLA REEAALLY OLD DOODLES AND REALLY REALLY OLD DOODELS AND NEW DOODLES. ENJOY.#ONLY CLEANED IT UP A BUNCH TTODAY AND IM ACTUALLY SO SO HAPPY W IT WEEEEE #WHAT WAS IT LIKE? DOWN IN THE UNDERSEA. TO VISIT YOUR BROTHER WHENEVER THE ADULTS WOULD LET YOU #A KID WHO DIDNT UNDERSTAND WHAT WAS GOING ON OR WHY HER BROTHER WAS BEING TAKEN AWAY OR WHY HE KEEPS GETTING HURT #OR WHY THE ADULTS JUST KEEP LETTING IT HAPPEN. ITS FOR THE BEST? FATE OF THE WORLD AND ALL THAT? HEY WHO THE FUCK IS IN CHARGE HERE #HOW DO WE STOP IT. HOW DO I STOP IT. THERES PEOPLE OUT THERE WORKING ON SOMETHING. ARITIFICIAL LEVIATHAN YOU SAY?#WE COULD BUILD A THING TO RIVAL THE GODS. WELL. SIGN ME UP. IM GOING TO UNDO WHAT THEY DID TO YOU #WHAT A FASCINATING THING SHE ACTUALLY SAID. 'IM GOING TO UNDO WHAT THEY DID TO YOU' HELLO?? EDYN? WHAT DOES THAT MEAN #WHAT EXACTLY DID THEY DO TO HIM. OTHER THAN THE PROPHECY TRAINING. YOU CAN UNDO THAT? YOU CAN UNDO ALL THAT? HOW?? HELLO???#LIKE SURE I JUST SPOUTED MY THEORIES I THINK SHE WANTS TO KILL GOD BUT THATS JUSTA THEORY... A GA #WHAT IS EDYNS GOAL AND WHY CANT SHE TELL ANYONE OOUUUHHH EDYNNNN CMERE EDYNN CMERRE STOP WALKING AWAY CMERE. COME HERE.#fuuuuuck shes so mysteriousss what is she HIDING!!shes also so so so so angry i fucken know she is. shes so gentle and so sweet and timid #but she is ANGRY and shes SMART and clearly shes AMBITIOUS bc shes TALKING TO THE FUCKING BIG HEAD HONCHO O THE FUCKEN NNAAAVYYYYY #ALSO WHO IS NICHOLAS. IF THATS EVEN HIS REAL NAME. WHO DID YYYOU MEET EDYN. DO YOU HAVE A WISH TO BE GRANTED EDYN???#CHEWING ON THE BARS O MY CELL I NNNNEEEEED TO KNOW MORE ABOUT EDYN IM SO CURIOUS IMG ONNA KILL PEOPLE #i said once in another post 'the oath an eldest sister takes on is on par w that of a paladins-#-and sometimes upheld w the very same ferocity'. I REALLY LIKED THAT LINE.#pleeese... if u can hear me.. pls join me and draw edyn w unbridled plasmatic rage abt the way her brother was treated by the Elders #also pls draw her SCARY. I NEED HER TO BE SSCARY. PLEEASEE I NEED HER TO BE JUST AS VIOLENT AS GILLION BUT INA ICE COLD WAY #JUST AS VIOLENT JUST AS STRONG JUST AS MUCH OF AN AQUATIC MONSTER. im sure u see the vision.#ok i gotta go t bed now i got work in tha morning n i should nnot be stayin up this late. if u hav thoughts abt edyn pls scream abt em #okay byyyyeee goodniiigihhttttt

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caligvlasaqvarivm · 16 days ago

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Do you think if the trolls all came back, like everything in the main comic did happen and they were alive again. Do you think Feferi would actually forgive Eridan? Or want to even be his friend after everything? I don't personally like the erisol and fefertasprite interaction…felt rushed…..so I just wanted to know your opinion if things were different! :)

Yeah, I think they would be! Feferi is one of the trolls who takes dying the least badly (relentless optimism) and Eridan does genuinely feel bad, which means a lot when it's Eridan. I think she really is genuine when she says she wants them to be friends and also that she's really not the type of person to hold a grudge, and like... death is SUPER cheap in Homestuck, it's really not the horrific, irredeemable, irreperable damage that it is IRL - and if you're talking about (Feferi) and (Eridan), then they're both dead (and irrelevent) now, so the score is kind of even.

In general, the fandom - I mean, people in general, really - tend to have difficulty divorcing themselves from other people. We tend to assume that the people and characters they like will hold similar opinions to themselves. This is how people who like Karkat and don't like Eridan can mentally gloss over or even block out their clear, close friendship, or how people who dislike Cronus can end up overlooking that Meenah actually takes his opinion seriously and unironically defends his wizard thing. Feferi really isn't mad at Eridan or upset about dying the way we probably would be, because she's friends with the horrorterrors, relentlessly cheerful, comfortable with death in general, and death is also just not really that big of a deal in this setting. "I'm really sorry about that, that was shitty of me" is honestly probably all the apology she needs, especially if they came back to life anyway.

#i dunno in general the fandom loves to blow stuff up #and make it all way way angstier than it needs to be or was even shown to be #by all accounts feferi takes dying really well #im sure shes still not STOKED to be eridan's friend again but out of all her faults #holding long unreasonable grudges isnt really one of them #(that's a kanaya thing actually)#eridan's always gonna be an annoying pest to her in large doses but i think she basically thinks of him as a friend #also eridan responds to problems overwhelmingly with Fight #so this idea that eridan will be forever mopey and angsty also doesnt ring true to his character #if anything i can see him becoming annoying again because now he won't stop fucking apologizing #like bro chill its fine already oh my god why is everyt)(ing suc)( a PRODUCTION wit)( you #because thats the last point too like #homestuck always returns to humor #hussie even says in the book commentary that homestuck is lighthearted and comedic at its core #that it keeps returning to that as a touchstone #even during its tensest moments like murderstuck theres just constant funnies and gags #so i just end up going kinda :/ when an interpretation is purely maudlin or cathartic #like its more homestuck when its funny and characters treating murder with the same gravitas as irl #not only doesnt make sense in universe where death is cheap - ESPECIALLY for trolls #but also just doesn't really feel very homestuck to me #but that is 100% personal taste so if you like that stuff by all means keep enjoying it lol #you just arent going to get uber angst from me u_u

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triglycercule · 17 days ago

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mtt therapy moment except dust keeps taking breaks to talk to phantom papyrus and horror just wants this to hurry up so it can get to his turn because he couldn't give two shits about dust and killer's trauma and killer physically cannot discuss his issues and just starts zoning out while crying for some reason during it

and i'm the therapist listening to all of this writing down notes fervently because ITS CANON MATERIAL CANON I NEED TO GET THE CANON MATERIAL