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dwaekkicidal Ā· 2 days ago
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free use with a frustrated minho <3
wcĀ» 1k
cwĀ» fem!reader, free use, rough sex, slightly mean dom min?, some dirty talk, p in v, multiple creampies, oral (both f and m receiving), 1 mention of shower sex, 1 mention of somno
anĀ» take this minho hard thought that i forgot to post earlier this week as a double post bc the chan.in x reader is fucking 2k words and im still not done yet lol... ><
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ā€œThis literally never happens. Why did this have to happen?? I practiced this dance for fucking HOURS.ā€ You surprisingly miss your boyfriend's indecipherable mumbles and continue to watch your TV.
Minho walked through the front door less than 5 minutes ago and is still sporting his stage outfit and makeup. He plays the part of some sort of lunatic all too well when heā€™s pacing back and forth and mumbling incoherent curses to himself. And you already tried asking him what was wrong- all you got in return was ignored as he slammed his keys on the kitchen counter and began this weird manic spell.
But all of this is in the past now. You eventually came to learn that he slipped up on stage today; you learned that all that fuss was because he kept making minor blunders during the recording of their MNET performance. And although it was a recorded thing, something videoed multiple times anyways and not seen live, and he wasnā€™t the center during these mistakes, he was still pissed.
Minho does not make mistakes very often, so he was upset that he even made one today. But the fact that he managed multiple across the many hours they spent in that god-awful building made his blood boil. But! Luckily for him, he has this very convenient agreement with his beautiful, lovely girlfriend who just so happens to be you.
And this agreement is exactly how he stopped dead in his tracks as he came to this ā€œrevelationā€ an hour after he had arrived at home. Itā€™s also how the oversized shirt of his you were wearing got lifted up to your chest. He didnā€™t even blink towards the food you were cooking on the stove before he shoved your panties down your legs and slid himself along your already wet folds.
ā€œDirty girl. Wet when Iā€™ve not even touched you.ā€ He landed a playful smack to your ass and gave you no time to react before he slid into your walls, stretching you out almost painfully. You were thankful that you fingered yourself just before he got home, so the stretch was more tolerable than it would have been if he went in dry.
Minho ignored your pleas of ā€œThe food!! Itā€™s gonna burn!ā€ and ā€œGive me one second, babe!ā€ Instead, he wrapped one of those veiny hands around your throat and squeezed as he started moving his hips. He started off nicely, giving you slow, deep strokes. But he quickly found a different pace, one more to his liking.
And that pace included fucking your brains out, pounding you into the cold kitchen counter. If it wasnā€™t for the refreshing cold of the ceramic, you think your cheek would get some sort of ā€œrugā€ burn. Wellā€¦ you canā€™t really think anything, not when his hips slam into yours so intensely that you can feel your ass stinging from each thrust.
Although he holds you in place, one hand on your head and the other on your hip, he still gives you more than enough chances to actually stop him if itā€™s what you want. It comes out in the form of dirty talk as he goes on about how good of a hole youā€™re being for him and how he should ā€œfreely useā€ you more often.
Itā€™s more of a hint to the recent kink youā€™ve been discussing, but it doesnā€™t go over your head, so you nod as best as you can. And, even though heā€™s pissed off and needs to fuck you into every surfance he sees, heā€™s not mean enough to leave you high and dry. So he lets you cum right as he does.
Youā€™re barely catching your breath after the fact before heā€™s pulling out and admiring your messy form; your cheek still firmly against the kitchen counter even though his hand is gone. He manages to pull out and watch his cum leak from you before another revelation hits him. One that encourages him to help you step out of your panties before pocketing them and shoving himself back into his shorts.
One that also encourages his next comments along with the pat on the ass he gives you after the words have sunk into your mushy brain. ā€œYou donā€™t need these anymore. Keep cooking, Iā€™ll be back.ā€
But donā€™t worry your pretty little head about it!! He wonā€™t be gone for very long. In fact, youā€™re in the middle of setting the table with dinner when his hands return to your body, folding you in half and grabbing a handful of your hair as he immediately slides himself back into your walls.
The only ā€œrewardā€ you get is his groans of happiness as he fucks your brains out again, making sure not to leave out the comments here and there about how, ā€œYouā€™re such a good fucktoy. Letting me fuck you whenever and wherever I want.ā€
And heā€™s not done there, oh nooo. Heā€™s still fuming about those slip ups from earlier. Now, at this point can he remember exactly what mistakes he made? No. Will that stop him from using you as his personal stress reliever? Absolutely not. So you should expect to be fucked into every and any surface.
So when he disappears to clean up after dinner and youā€™re returned to your TV for entertainment, heā€™s gonna walk up nonverbal and drop to his knees. Then, your legs will be lifted from the floor and heā€™s gonna shove his head between your bare legs, eating you out and even fighting back when you push his head away from you in overstimulation.
Oh and when youā€™re showering later that night and you let your guard down for a split second to wash yourself off, heā€™s slipping into the shower and forcing you down to your knees. Heā€™ll get his fill from using your mouth, his favorite fleshlight, and walk out completely soaked like nothing happened.
You may or may not be overstimulated and sensitive to touch by the time youā€™re laying in bed, and youā€™ll be lucky if that stops him from taking you one final time. Youā€™re also lucky if heā€™s mad enough to let it sink into the next day. If he is, heā€™ll go as far as to repeat positions/situations from the previous day.
Oh but donā€™t be mistaken! All of that isnā€™t happening until after heā€™s waking you up with a nice, warm, homemade filling.
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foxbirdy Ā· 20 hours ago
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hi!
just saw your pictures of you doing some marine biology fieldwork and i just wondered if you have any stories about the experience that you would like to share. Im in 1st year uni right now and i have no idea what im gonna specialize in other than ā€œscience!!ā€ but i work on boats for my job right now (tallships, very cool stuff) and so marine environment work really appeals to me. If you have the time, I would love to get a picture of what the work youā€™re doing entails.
(What does the day-to day of marine biology research look like? What kind of stuff are you studying/information are you gathering? Whats it like? Is it awesome? feel free to answer none of these also)
thank you!!
OH, I'm jealous - it's a dream of my mine to get to work on a tallship. & I love to talk about this stuff!
In all honesty, the day-to-day changes pretty dramatically depending on what project work is available. Right now, as a student, a lot of what I'm involved in ties into coursework or research that's happening at the university! I volunteer with a couple different labs, and there's a huge variety of stuff to get in on. For example:
Last Saturday, I spent about six hours pulling otoliths and gonads out of eighty invasive roi, taape, and toau caught by local spearfishermen. Otoliths are the ear bones of fish, and similar to the rings of a tree, they have ringed annuli that can give a lot of information about the life history of the individual species. We cast these otoliths in resin, and then cut cross-sections to look at them under the microscope. The hope is that this information will help us understand when these species become reproductive, and how to control their populations.
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The last several Fridays, I've been involved with an effort to collect some water quality and plankton data after a lot of heavy rain. This work was out on the boats, and we used deep and shallow drogues, YSI, light meter, secchi disk, and a couple plankton nets, moving out from the swollen rivermouth and into deeper, saltier water.
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Last month, I spent a lot of time on invertebrate snorkel surveys, mostly looking for presence/absence in the nearshore. Next Tuesday, I'll be doing fish surveys in the same location. The Wednesday after I'm hopping on a wetlands restoration project & removing invasive bull grass, and a night snorkel afterwards. Next Friday is a lab day, working to process the plankton samples we've collected, and I'll be in the coral nursery afterwards. That's the really fun thing about university - there's so much different work going on, all the time!
In the summers, outside of school, that work is just as varied. I've really enjoyed having jobs that allow me to do a little bit of everything, and thus far, my supervisors have been very supportive of me in that. Here's some other projects I've gotten to work on, all within just one position:
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Servicing passive monitoring systems! These are pictures of my replacing a SEABIRD logger, which has been taking a water temperature measurement every thirty seconds for the past 360 days. This helps conservation managers track heatwaves in sensitive ecosystems. We prepped new loggers with batteries and SD cards and waterproof tape to prevent biofouling, and then used snips and zipties to make the switch.
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Scientific fishing! This helps get life history and population data for our target species, large pelagic fish. We collected biopsy samples, placed tags, and released primarily ahi, but also ono, and mahi. (Full disclaimer: this picture is from a subsistence fishing trip and not a scientific one, where people generally have too many things in their hands & are moving too quickly to take pictures. He was a very delicious dinner for our crew, though.)
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Other marine tagging! I got to assist with bluewater cetacean tagging of several different dolphin and small whale species, and shark tagging for galapagos, blacktip reef, grey reef, and dusky sharks. Cetacean tagging was done with an air rifle, not easy at high speeds on the boat. Shark tagging was more hands-on, as we had to manually apply the tags.
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Coral reef monitoring! The mission of these surveys was to track coral health through heat stress events, and to identify harmful species. I'm looking under the coral head in these pictures for crown-of-thorns starfish, one of the most urgent species threats to reefs in the Pacific.
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This is the bastard. Notice the dead coral around him.
Oh I'm about to smack into the photo limit, huh. Please hold!
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louisisalarrie Ā· 2 days ago
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Hey how are u? I really like your point of view so I want to ask you few things that my brain frequently think about.
Iā€™m pretty sure that sooner or later bbg will be unmasked, so how they will handle this? They created Louisā€™ public image around this baby. They painted him like the perfect father who obv love a lot his child.
I think that the shitstorm where his fans will throw him in will be bigger than everything. You know what I mean his solo fans paint him like the most loyal person in the world who trust his fans a lot and would never betray them. So Iā€™m quite sure that they will start to throw shit on him, plus theyā€™re so obsessed over this poor baby and I see a lot of them saying that if louis is not the father they will leave him cause he is just a gross person who lies to fans.
So, how will they managed it without throw him into a very big shitstorm? Plus when it will happen definitely all will be connect to the Larry situation so: when they do it, will he do also a coming out?
I donā€™t see it happen without a coming out, because the speculation would be so much bigger than ever and everyone would start saying that Larries were right since the beginning and that heā€™s a horrible person using a childā€¦
I donā€™t know I donā€™t see a easy happy ending :(
okie dokie anon, im gonna answer this in the best way I know how, and tag it a little differently to usual so everyone knows where to find my theories on how theyā€™re gonna end bbg/whatā€™s the best way to end it without ruining louisā€™ career. anon, welcome to the show sweetcheeks!
After the absolute shit show of a smear campaign that was pushed onto Louis in 2015, of clubbing and being a gross fuckboy taking a million girls home every night, they had to repair said image when they decided this kid was actually gonna be born (in my theory it was Belfast) because to continue on with fuckboy louis when he has a child on the way further down the pregnancy/child is born, it wouldā€™ve looked even more fucking worse for one dā€™s demographic and louisā€™ image would be irreparable. His image has always hung off family values and long term relationships too, so itā€™s not super crazy to think ā€œoh, louis has had his fun and now itā€™s serious heā€™s gonna buckle down and be a great dad because of his upbringing/family values and heā€™s a wonderful guyā€ etc, ya know? Plus the vast majority of one d fans at the time were Larries, we saw through the bullshit and we saw this behaviour wasnā€™t louis. Mgmt were like ā€œok if weā€™re actually gonna see this through, if thereā€™s actually gonna be a child in the picture, heā€™s gonna have to be a present and loving dadļæ½ļæ½ļæ½. It just wouldā€™ve been too off brand for him to not be. Hell, the whole fuckboy Louis thing was off brand for him, but they started that, and then had to fucking fix it because an actual child was gonna be born into this mess.
Anyway so louisā€™ buzzing (looks like heā€™d rather set himself on fire) and we get heaps of baby content on Insta/from B and her clan etc to really bring it home that louis cares about this kid. This kid is his life and he will do everything he can to be there for it because heā€™s a good guy (which likeā€¦ it this was real, they wouldā€™ve covered up this baby real quick and silenced the mother and thatā€™s the biggest fucking fault they made in my opinion, shit makes no sense). So yeah, fake baby, happy dad, family values. Cool, alright letā€™s go.
You are very correct in saying theyā€™ve made louis being a dad a major element in his image. Heā€™s pretty private otherwise, but boy does he love this kid! Which if we base this on how it was meant to end in 2016 with a DNA test so heā€™d be out free, which didnā€™t happen for a few reasons, the kid is now older and a paternity test shouldā€™ve been taken far earlier and louisā€™ trying to figure out himself in a solo career and working hard on music and itā€™s all too much. Not to mention he signed his fucking rights away to SC and still had to deal with this all. But I digress. They didnā€™t end bbg then, and he didnā€™t want such a scandal to hinder the beginning of his career because thatā€™s what heā€™d be known for when starting out as a solo artist. ā€œOh did you hear about that dude from one direction? His kid isnā€™t actually his! Holy shit!ā€ would just be on repeat anywhere and everywhere and something like that doesnā€™t really die down that quick in the media. It just wouldā€™ve jumped him off the wrong way after dealing with the heartbreak of his mum passing etc., so things are a little chaotic for him to deal with that as well. (Then the bbg contract gets amended and SC gives him publicity with the X Factor etc, but I wonā€™t get into the contracts side of it right now).
Cool cool cool. So. Heā€™s gonna look like a shit dude for chucking this baby in the spotlight if heā€™s known for ages. Everyoneā€™s gonna hate him for lying to them. Heā€™s gonna lose his fans. Heā€™s not gonna be able to promo himself for a while because heā€™ll be ā€œdevastatedā€. Now, letā€™s have a look at how this can end with fan and GP sympathy on his side, and how they can spin this in a good way.
Now, hear me out.
Weā€™ve talked about a few ways, but the best way to dig him out of this shit show, is simply to go down the paternity route. It just is.
Situation 1: louis and b go to court over F. this works perfectly in his current no music or tour timeframe. It keeps him relevant in the papers while heā€™s off, and also gives him the excuse to grieve or whatever. This is 100% the best way to do it but it drags it out so long.
- Louis, who is now on break, wants to spend more time with his beloved son little lad, and wants to take him away from B for a while to live in the UK with him and his family for an extended holiday/spend some quality time. B is withholding his son from him and he isnā€™t allowed to be with him for extended periods of time because B doesnā€™t like his lifestyle (partying, smoking, etc.)
Or
- maybe B decides Louisā€™ doing really well in his career so she wants more child support money. Heā€™s getting older, more expensive, and this was all louisā€™ doing. He took B home, heā€™s also a multi millionaire, he should be paying way more than what he is!
- maybe B gets married or a long term serious boyfriend and he wants to adopt F because louisā€™ lifestyle doesnā€™t allow him to be present as much as he wants to.
Or something else ridiculous that they go to court over. In this theory, they need to go to court 100%.
So, theyā€™re in court over whatever, and B goes ā€œhey well I was actually sleeping with someone else around that time too, I want a paternity testā€ (because she never pushed for one because she saw $$$) and louis takes one and BAM, heā€™s actually not Fā€™s father. Holy shit.
So why did a multimillionaire famous boyband member in his early 20ā€™s who was clearly loving partying not demand a paternity test early one? Well, he never bothered to ask because he trusted B. Theyā€™d actually been seeing each other for longer than initially thought (like some articles mentioned back in the day LOL) but didnā€™t want to introduce her to the public because he knows 1d fans would eat her alive and the whole Larry thing etc., so he trusts her. Heā€™s also just a really good dude, sees the best in everyone, trusted her and copped it on the chin and said well yeahā€¦ im gonna help raise this dude because Iā€™ve always wanted a son and I have big family values and I fucked up. Iā€™m mature. Iā€™m a good example of what women should look for in a man.
So then shitā€¦ the fans and GP find out and he cops the public sympathy and everyone feels sorry for him. This is heartbreaking, he loves that kid so much and now heā€™s found out heā€™s not really his dad. The fans are devastated, the GP goes ā€œwell itā€™s stupid he didnā€™t get one earlier on but this is still really awful for him, poor guy. Heā€™s too nice for his own good, and he was just a kid. Maybe he didnā€™t think about it. Heā€™s so brave to say this. Heart on his sleeveā€ etc etc like itā€™s really not hard to make the GP and fans feel bad for you, even tho some folks may think he was an idiot for not getting one earlier on (which like.. thatā€™s how it was meant to end but it was extended), everyone whoā€™s scrutinised bbg has thought the same at some point. So, anyway, you see what I mean here? This situation ends with him looking like just a silly loving trusting guy, with a big heart. Solos will eat that shit up. I promise you. Anyway, F fades into the background and we donā€™t see any more content of him. He justā€¦ disappears. No oneā€™s gonna question that. F isnā€™t his son, and he wants to give the kid and B privacy now. A classic example of being a good guy.
So like, this situation also upholds the idea that heā€™s straight. Heā€™s had sex with a woman, itā€™s just this kid isnā€™t his. Anyway, sorted, case closed and we alll eventually move on. It does drag it out but my god does it truly spin some sympathy for him. But if he wants it over and done with quick, this wouldnā€™t be the way.
Situation 2: louis has known for a while, but him and B are really good friends so heā€™s helped raise F and helped with funds because the dad left and he wanted to be there for the kid. This brings out the lying factor though, but he truly does feel like a dad!!! He knows what itā€™s like to not have a father figure there, he wants to give the kid a good life, heā€™s taken on the role of his dad and he has the money to support B and F, so why wouldnā€™t he? You know, he has family values. So yeah, he wasnā€™t lying out of hate, and F knew all along he wasnā€™t his real dad either, but he gave this kid a great life. Anyway, B gets married or whatever, louis goes ā€œim still gonna be there for F but I trust this guy and he loves F and my career is taking off even further and I canā€™t be there for him all the time and this guy really wants to be a dad, Iā€™ll step backā€. This also works well in terms of good guy louis, and he loves F so much. Public and fan sympathy, a little anger towards the lying but truly heā€™s just did what he could. He helped B out and now F has a strong and fantastic father figure in his life. Sorted, done. This can be done through an Insta live or a post of him and F explaining stuff, and F fades from the picture. Still upholds the sex with women, but he did get a paternity test ages ago, heā€™s just a good guy. Anyway, that also works.
You also have a spin on the above situation too though, to make it easier for a coming out. Louis and B never had sex. Heā€™s just a long term good friend of hers and took on that role. Heā€™s always been gay/he never fucked her. Having this onto it, really leaves it a bit more open ended. This is really the only kind of solution to say ā€œhey Iā€™ve been with Harry this whole time and bbg wasnā€™t a stuntā€ ya know? Still believable, a bit more murky, but if done well it ends it quicker than a court case. Still looks good for him. Plus, he can say how long he was with Harry and that they wanted to keep their relationship private because they were nervous to come out and yeah. Cool. Thatā€™s also done.
The fans might be angry about that one, but it still swings it well. I donā€™t think theyā€™re gonna hate him. He might lose a few butā€¦ yeah. Heā€™s always gonna when he comes out anyway. Yeah. The above is two birds one stone.
Situation 3: it was all a stunt. they just reveal absolutely everything. Thatā€™s it.
Heā€™ll lose the most fans by doing this, but alsoā€¦ heā€™ll gain a lot of public sympathy. Whatever way they end bbg, he will be on the side of public and fan sympathy. Heā€™s always gonna end up with some kind of hate when coming out, but so will Harry. It justā€¦ is what it is. Harryā€™s process has just been a lot smoother without a kid tied to him. But with the screaming of how shit the music industry is to artists, this will call a lot of attention to it all. Might actually make a change. But again, the hardest.
Now the thing with all of the above, right, no matter which way they take it, is that bisexuality exists. Also, sexuality can be fluid, so maybe he didnt figure out he was into dudes until later on in life and him and Harry reunited and it just kind of happened. He had to navigate queerness in a space of homophobia. He felt fucking lost as hell, and Harry helped him. Also public and fan sympathy, also works. Doesnā€™t put them from the beginning though, like situation 2 and 3 could, but yeah. The current conversation about queerness and how things can change is important and big right now. People would understand.
Both Harry and louis (more so louis) will and should expect fan and public hatred for lying and queerness. But itā€™s just something theyā€™ll have to cop. They come out, go into hiding for a bit, and then put out a statement and theyā€™re just gonna have to expect some hate. Hell, Harry already gets hate for queerbaiting. It just always will be affected.
To your last point, about using a kid, if they unravel everything then theyā€™ll just shove that blame on SC etc, they had no choice! For the other situations, it may be a little scrutinised but yeah. Heā€™s either silly and too trusting in situation 1, or does see F as his kid and is proud of him in situation 2. Those situations above are how I see a smoother end to bbg. Theyā€™re kind of the only way I see it ending. So, SC/marketing gods, if youā€™re watching, or if this is you, consider one of the above please and letā€™s end it fucking now.
So there you have it. These situations might seem stupid, but he comes out of it the most unscathed (except option 3 but again, sympathy from fans and public about being controlled like puppets). And I think in all those cases a coming out will happen shortly after, they kind of go hand in hand. But also they might let it die down for a while before announcing anything, but yeah. Speculation is gonna happen. They canā€™t escape everything.
Any questions or if anything doesnā€™t make sense because I havenā€™t had a coffee yet, let me knowwwwwww
Thanks for coming to the show!
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vryfmi Ā· 9 hours ago
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there's one major thing that's been nagging on me about l&co adaptation ever since my first watch: if we were to get season 2, how would they set up the conflict of THB?
i can get behind some of reinterpretation of characters and their mannerisms, character traits (i.e. Lockwood dressing less formal and not being a know-it-all, Lucy being less hateful towards George, seeing Kipps as he's actively losing his talent, George Karim being iranian and being very close to his culture in a form of cuisine), some are good, as a fan of books i'd be eager to get to know these characters along side their book counterparts.
but alas, i can't see these characters as the same characters in both medias because too much of their characterisation was changed, and it's really hard to blame on pacing or the lack of screen time. it's the writing. some changes going as far as making me question, what were they supposed to do with this groundwork in the second season.
how would runners set up a conflict of L&Co overworking themselves after gaining fame over solving the bone glass case and accepting all calls they were getting, if show!Lockwood out right says in episode 4 that he's not interested in boring cases? not only does it get rid off of a major characterisation of Lockwood as someone who's, yes, in it for fame, but most importantly he became an agent to "avenge" his family. avenge isn't even the right word, i think. he doesn't want others to be fallen victims to a visitor, doesn't want to see other people lose their loved ones, lose their family to ghosts. not only does it make show!Lockwood rather vain and only fame driven, instead of someone dealing with deep personal trauma, but also loses one of the key points of Holly's introduction to the team. (i also love the reading of LW naming his agency Lockwood&Co as something less selfish and more about him paying a tribute to his family, that without them and visitors taking them away from him, he wouldn't start his agency and wouldn't be able to help other people.)
speaking of Holly's introduction, what exactly would have been her role at the start in the show? L&Co don't seem overworked from the 4 cases they had (2 related to TSS out of 4 in the book, Wimbledon gallows + Bickerstaff's, not counting Wilberforce's ghost and a bunch of not mentioned in dialogue cases i. e. Mrs Barrett's tomb). that already solves the problem of trio not having free time to do chores around the house. but say show says "and now they're overworked" instead of showing, sure, but it doesn't get rid of George's stress cleaning habit.
Holly was introduced as a help, as a support to the way L&Co was already running and over the books she became more than just an assistant but a beloved part of the team. without proper reasoning as to why Lockwood & Co had to get an assistant, Holly's introduction could be messy and unprompted, something like checking a box in the list of what has to happen instead of making it story driven. something like what happened to skull's character.
and a final thing that im iffy about is the ending of the first season. somehow show rushed through and speedran Lockwood's suicidal arc as well as managed to call it out by the end of show's TWS storyline, where books didn't show any progress even by the end of TEG.
but im saying call it out, not resolve. i'd actually appreciate it if show made an effort of showing that such tendencies and lack of self-preservation aren't just resolved in a second, someone saying "stop being suicidal" doesn't magically fix everything. and yet, show still speedran things, especially given that events of the show happen in only 10 days instead of a year, and Lockwood's already made very aware of his reckless behaviour aka throwing himself in danger for people, and, what's even more questionable, for people he barely knows. which, again, contradicts his character and the way he navigates trauma.
these character and plot deviations and inconsistencies may not seem critical at first, but they might build over the course of the series and lead to a complete shift in overall narrative and spirit of L&Co as a story. which i wouldn't want to see as a fan.
to put it simply, i can see why fans want for show to be picked up for a second season, but i can't see how writers could make it coherent because they wrote themselves into a corner.
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forgotteneilionora Ā· 2 hours ago
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akdsljfklsdjfjksdf marian: "do you like gardening?" eilia: "very much! NOW TELL ME EVERYTHING ABT RODERICK" lskjflkdjsfj honestly legit alkjsdfkljsfjk
i ~do think eilia will probs clock marian as likely a, shall we say, slightly more reliable source than amira lksdjflskdjafsdf heehee but tbqh i do think eilia is gonna take absolutely EVERYTHING from ~any of his wives or children w a heaping grain of salt bc like???? i do think its pr obv that arthur at least is chugging that roderick koolaid and cassandra's got those rose-colored lenses and yeah!! eilia is NOT here to idealize that man hahaha
but her straight up warning them abt amira!!! i love it!!! eilia like '...somehow this family is even worse than i thought' laksjdfkljsdfjk
oooh but i love the idea of marian offering her an alliance!!!! tbh tho i dont think eilia ~will say that? bc i feel like she thinks arthur is noT who you want on the throne, what w his roderick worship, bc she's had a lot less face time w him (he always just...goes straight over to aria when he's w the staffords ;D and so eilia hasn't seen the change she's making on him), annnnd in a scenario where she marries roderick, i ~can potentially see her eventually just being all like 'fuck it' and legit tryna get her own kid throned so that that kid (or his mother the regent ;D) can turn around and peacefully dissolve the empire and free everyone basically lakjsdfklsjdfjsdf buT i do think if marian were like 'hey we can get astaira out of this empire if we make arthur its ruler' or whatever, basically, eilia would ~rather go that route, no question!!!!! on sooo many levels honestly hahaha
so yeah ig what im saying is like...i think it kinda depends how the convo comes abt? i feel like eilia's gut atm tho is that, if it ~has to be a varmont ruling the world, guin is the best option for future ruler bc crowning an empress does at least restore a ~few of astaira's prev rights that roderick stripped away, i.e. women being able to rule etc! however, if edmund does take godfrey (and rosie)'s advice and starts going pro-astairan, i do feel like eilia would then wanna back ~him bc her priority is always the greater good of astaira, basically! but that being said, if ~arthur does that (which admittedly he's already dipped his toe in that pool #thanksaria), again, that might bring her around to ~him so!! i can honestly see her going any of a number of ways on all of this frankly! it all depends who seems best for astaira! but yeah if marian can guarantee astaira's freedom, then eilia's in!!! let's make arthur emperor, then!!!!! laksdjflkjsdfkjd
OOC | Eilionora & Marian
forgottenariasĀ said:Ā Ā @giadesstrin I was legit contemplating if Marian would like Aria or not but iā€™m guessing now she does? or at least is cordial enough that she can be like ā€œhey another one of my kids is on deathā€™s door HELP PLEASEEEEā€ giadesstrinĀ said:Ā Ā @forgottenarias dgjjfdgh omgggggg I didnā€™t really think abt that relationship I love that!!!! Iā€™m screaming now too bc likeā€¦Sheā€™s honestly in such a weird position re: her bc like on one hand her hubby wants to marry her sister???? On another her son is interested in her??? And on yet ANOTHER sheā€™s a professed enemy of her house who helped save her son like??!?!! Poor Marian honestly what a position to be in sgjkfsfhj how is anyone supposed to deal w ALL of that good AND bad shkkgdfh forgottenariasĀ said:Ā Ā @giadesstrin I need to do an OOC for Marian & Eilia but I def think Marian doesnā€™t want Roderick to marry her 1) because there doesnā€™t need to be any other contenders in this heir to the throne race and 2) as much as she still loves him, being married to Roderick is definitely not all it is cracked up to be! Part of marian wants to protect her from him! forgottenariasĀ said:Ā Ā @giadesstrin and with Aria I think that Marian def wouldnā€™t like her if there was event the slightest implication of even a potential of some sort of romantic relationship w/ Arthur bc NO ONE is ever going to be good enough for her first born! Sorry ladies! You clearly just want him for his money/power! But Aria being proactive in this above instance and not really wanting anything in return is not a thing sheā€™s used to so sheā€™s not sure WHAT to think rn! Plus she fixed her precious child!!!Ā 
sdfasdf ok so i thought id go ahead and make an ooc for them, and i included the bit abt aria bc i do think that that has the potential to impact eilia/aria things as well!
ok so!! i honestly think that eilia at first thought that it was just really weird that roderick had all these wives and she was like WHY WOULD THEY PUT UP W THAT but uhhhh recently she's been like 'oh. ig maybe they didn't get much of a choice' bc that's certainly been ~her experience re: dating roderick hahaha and eilia def has more agency than they did, being -- though deposed -- a queen so now honestly i think she just feels sooooo horrible for them and is lowkey looking at them -- these two V DIFFERENT yet both v clearly unhappy women -- like 'there but by the grace of the guardians go i' basically laskdjfkdlsf and honestly i think atp she's really come around in the way she looks at them both!! esp marian (bc i def think amira gives off resting bitch face but as a full blown personality disorder even if ur tryna approach her whole deal optimistically alskdjflksjdfajdf)!!!!!
i ~do think if she knows that a lot of the varmont kids have a good relationship w the malconaires that would def be a boost in their favor bc eilia trusts them etc but i ~do think eilia is still feeling far from trusting of the varmonts, themselves, even if she does know that!! just...'at least they're not as horrible as i thought' rather than 'they're good ppl after all' basically hahaha and i do think that, given that its looking more or more like she might be wife #4, eilia has been thinking abt what roderick might look like as a dad since she's now afraid he might be the father of ~her children, and she's like YIKES
so, all in all, she's feeling much more sympathetic towards both marian and her family (minus roderick, STILL decidedly NOT a fan of his)!! and esp w marian on the cusp of this w her sister, i can see where they could maybe start having more ~honest conversations, perhaps? bc i do feel that eilia has played this entire thing by being observant and polite -- stalwart where she needs (ie when it comes to her country and astairans and keeping them safe etc) to be but other than that mostly closed off emotionally and courteous, but basically just tryna give them NOTHING bc she figures they'll use anything at all against her they can
but yeah its been a looooong journey getting there i feel hahahaha and even now she'd def be tentative and clam up at the slightest sign of trouble ngl
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ryssbelle Ā· 4 months ago
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Me when someone thinks theyā€™ve won by blocking me but now I donā€™t have to see their rancid takes in the tags anymore
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arundolyn Ā· 2 months ago
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ohhhh my fucking god nobody needs to like know any of this medical tmi but it is literally 11 pm and if im kept up one minute longer when i just laid down trying to go to sleep by my mother YELLING REPEATEDLY that she needs to pee. im going to actually go insane. she got a catheter in. Yesterday. it is working. she won't listen to anyone when they tell her that this is the case. help me jesus. im sure if a nurse comes to check on her tomorrow they'll probably get the same response. my brain will simply explode
#crow.txt#the absolute levels of stress im under could create diamonds out of free floating carbon atoms my fucking god#can i have. Literally just one day of peace. just one!! fuck!!!!#at least now i have SOME validation from everyone else of shit that mom has honestly kinda always done#be absolutely furious and bitchy usually for no good goddamn reason and then immediately turn it off to look good in front of someone else#i had a feeling mom coming home was gonna be utterly miserable sooner rather than later#i literally cannot leave my room without her yelling for dad bc she thinks im him i guess. she has gotten him up like 4 times now#what the fuck do you want any of us to doooooooooooo. according to dad shes also just been really fucking hateful today#including to her SISTER who has been facilitating literally everything medically for her for the last month plus#like on one hand i know its hard and frustrating etc etc absolutely. on the other. what the fuck are you yelling at any of us for!#whatd we do! not a damn thing for the most part! holy shit im exhausted#and then im sure she will have the audacity to wonder why i dont really want to interact with her much rn#its very apparent she doesnt really understand whats going on or how much of anything works at this point including hospice care#but i truly cannot help you when your knee jerk response is to yell and be abusive. like. dads not been great either#bc hes also one to bitch and moan and yell abt shit. but like. so is mom. more than usual#and ill actually be damned if i let her treat me like that honestly ever again. like idk for once i can just#walk away from this behavior with zero consequences. i dont have to take it anymore. im not free but at least im fuckin closer than i was#guess my aunt wasnt kidding when she said her being coherent and rational last week might be the calm before the storm
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pikkish Ā· 7 months ago
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Yeah we've already talked about how outright stupid the lore n writing for modern Doom is, but tbh I can understand why they had to do something with Doomguy, why they had to make him The Specialest Boy instead of Just Some Guy. Do I like how they did it? No, I would've taken it a different direction. Do I think that hugo could've done it well even if he took it in the direction I would've? No, I have minimal faith in his story writing. But realistically, how many times can a guy singlehandedly accomplish the impossible before you have to acknowledge he's very much not Just Some Guy who happened to be at the right place at the right time? I think that, with how every single other person on the Phobos UAC base were killed in Doom I, doomguy stopped being Just Some Guy the moment he decided to do anything other than just lie down and die.
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crescentfool Ā· 10 months ago
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on spoiler tags
since reload is coming out soon, i wanted to give people some heads up for tags i'll be using as a courtesy. please curate your experience accordingly! if you haven't used the mute feature, here's how to šŸ‘
i will continue to use #persona 3 for all posts related to p3 (it's my main tag)
for posts about reload specifically, i'll be using #persona 3 reload, but it might also be worthwhile to mute the abbreviations #p3r and #p3re.
for the people who don't know anything about p3, i will attempt to tag spoilers for p3's events as #persona 3 spoilers but i cannot guarantee that i will remember to do so...
i hope everyone enjoys their experience with the game! i will still post here occasionally, but in general i'll be steering clear of socmed until i'm finished with reload.
tangentially related- i expect splatoon 3's side order dlc to come out during this time. all stuff related to that dlc will be tagged with #side order and will also be tagged as #splatoon (main tag)
thank you for your time! enjoy gaming, and remember to drink water šŸ„¤
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poisonouspastels Ā· 1 year ago
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#i figured this would be better suited for a separate post continuing from here#I've had people get angry at me for giving Steve a proper strongman build - thus making him fat and muscular in the process#ive gotten people mad at me for making him his direct colorpicked skin tone. got told I made him ''the wrong color'' for it#got called slurs#got told i need to just ''take a joke'' when im getting right fully angry at people telling me im wrong for making his AU design that way#been quite literally told our art looks ''ugly as hell'' when people ran out of bigoted arguments#its all just getting really hard and really tiring to keep doing what i love when everyone is vocal about hating it#and very few people are vocal about liking it#i do art for me dont get me wrong. and people have been supportive.#but i cant help but wonder if anyone would have even cared about the mega ref at all if it hadn't been surrounded by people full of hate#its just hard to stay motivated and put my all into something that's gotten so much backlash for stupid reasons you know#i've been putting so much love into my work surrounding this AU lately. my writing and my art. for over the past year now#i try not to ask anything in return other than for people to just pay attention to it at all. give it a reblog#but the one time we have something out of it become popular its because people are stupid and bigoted#i dont care about numbers this isnt about that. i just care about returning the passion i put into the world.#if anyone wants to send anything my way feel free. i could use it#sorry for venting
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wildevenusian Ā· 1 month ago
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i just donā€™t understand. why say ur ready to talk if you arenā€™t?
can u believe this post is what got me to reach tag limit
#vaugepostimg on main about an irl donā€™t mind me#i just. am feeling sad bcus i have been trying to keep my distance and respect the space they said they needed. and then they reached out to#me for their book club and said we should chat and i got excited! i miss my friend of course i got excited#still let them take the lead. i want them to be comfortable. they said theyā€™d lmk what day they were free#and then proceeded to ghost me for like. almost two weeks??#(ā€‹it was 10 days but !!! still!!! almost 2 weeks from them suggesting i come to book club which wouldā€™ve inherently necessitated an irl talk#and then after all that yesterday said they actually werenā€™t ready which. hurted#tbf i knew something was up after like 2 days of them not replying so itā€™s not like i was fully caught off guard it just really hurt#and like i feel weird bcus our social circles are really overlapped and i spent a lot of time with them last winter and i had thought#that would happen again this winter. we would swim together a lot and i consistently went to their house dinners#bcus if i care about you i show up! and iā€™m understanding ! bcus i am patient and kind person and as a triple taurus iā€™m not tryna rush ever#especially when it comes to peopleā€™s emotions ??? especially if someone has told me i hurt them???? like ik im an autistic lesbian but#despite popular conceptions on that particular identity. im not fucking evil ????? if you ask for space i will give you space !!!!!#and like when it comes to emotions and conflict iā€™m blunt but iā€™m caring and it takes a lot for me to be disinfranchised by people#or relationships. so iā€™m not saying i donā€™t want to still be her friend#iā€™m just. noticing behaviors#they did tell me that they were very avoidant in conflict and i told them iā€™m very much not and like. now that iā€™m on the receiving end of i#idk what to do!! iā€™m not gonna chase her down like theyā€™re grown!! and again!!! if you ask for space iā€™m going to respect that!!!#and like honestly. iā€™m happy she at least gave me the curtesy of saying they werenā€™t ready to talk even if it took her mad long to do it#so like. who tf knows when weā€™ll talk. if ever. probably when she wants the validation of our friendship if it even happens at all#bcus again. she reached out not to reconnect and clear the air but to check if i still wanted to come to her club she was starting#ik in earlier conversations she was worried no one would come but ig she found people. which like good for her tbh but to be honest i feel#discarded?? iā€™m feeling like iā€™m failing to not project too much so i gotta stop but idk man iā€™m just feeling weird about it all#and then i had the thought today of like. is this what i want in a friendship? someone who goes back and forth abt whether or not iā€™m worth#which again. kinda wasnā€™t expecting that bcus we spent so much time together last autumn/winter/spring like. many times per week!!!#so the idea of not being her friend all of a sudden?? feels fucjing weird to think about#but like? i donā€™t want to feel this way this is what i hate about west coast/white people conflict resolution!! there fucking isnā€™t any!!!#and i canā€™t deal with that! i canā€™t spend my life with people who arenā€™t going to engage with me as a person who cares about them#humans are fallible creatures and were only here on earth for so long so why are we wasting time here? what is the point of all this ???????#but then the guilt and shame say i deserve it all and at that point i just need to stop so. iā€™m gonna stop now lol
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elfsyellowflowerzart Ā· 3 months ago
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very busy babysitting a duo of kittens (only two months old) the last few days but i shall be drawing when i return home (this includes requests)
and also if anyone wants to see the babies send an ask and i can post them in response hehe i have taken SO many photos
#yew branch#also i just missed a step on the stairs going down and ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow#i am now trapped on the couch until my back stops exploding at least a bit#upside tho is that the kittens are playing together on the couch#sometimes right on my lap!! theyre so so so so cute#i adore them#BUT YEAH i shall be drawing when i return home provided my back allows me to sit upright by that time#bc it sure isnt rn GDJSGJS#im sad ill have to go home tho.. these kittens are some of the cutest beasts alive#life is worth living because every day kittens are playing and having fun#i miiiiiiight be able to indirectly take one#one of my best friends might possibly be able/willing to take one and keep her with her own cat for me#until i move out of my parents house mid next year#so i might get to have... kitten that ive watched grow up from newborns...#the story behind these kittens is that one of my other best friends took in a stray and she turned out to be pregnant#and had these two!!#im also watching the three adult cats in this house but theyre not nearly as much of a handful#as can be imagined this friend is very tired of having 5 cats in the house regardless of how small two of them are GDJSVSN#which is very very understandable#i dont think i would want five cats unless i had a fairly large house. if i had a large house and plenty of free time most of each day#to give them play time and tons of affection#as well as the physical ability to keep up with them all#then id gladly have five cats#who knows maybe someday ill have a nice big house and plenty of spare time and my ddd will be under control#but that doesnt seem likely#aside from ddd being managed! because i have a pain relieving steroid injection tomorrow and then ill be starting physical therapy!!#im excited and i have a lot of hope for at least the physical therapy to help#PLUS THEY HAVE A POOL FOR PHYSICAL THERAPY!!!!!!! AND I LOVE SWIMMING ESPECIALLY AS A GENTLE WORKOUT#and low impact things are very important for my body specifically i cant do high impact exercise or itll hurt me#plus i just love being in water i swear i was meant to be an aquatic elf from dnd
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aaaaaaaaagenloser Ā· 1 year ago
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(Tw: kinda transphobia? Use of it/its for a character who hasnā€™t declared what their pronouns are yet. Arguments over whether a character is a person or not; that ties into the pronoun thing here. Bonus points for descriptions of canon-typical gore yipeeee)
An update from after writing this: oh this. Got. This one got away from me?? I think I started this at 4 minutes past the hour. It is now 43 minutes past the hour. shitt.
Update; it is now 17 minutes after the NEXT hour. 26 minutes after th last update. I have seen god in the past hour and she shook in fear of both my power and audacity. I have lunch with my family scheduled in like 6 hours and I have not yet slept. This wasnā€™t meant to be as long as it is but I was possessed and this is the result. I may edit it and make it smoother later but Iā€™ll make that a separate post, I want this sleep-deprived chunk of words to be here as like a monument to the fact that I could have been playing stardew valley during this time but I chose to do this instead
TLDR: long ass story ahead written by a sleep-deprived and hyperfixation-driven author. Who is now going the fuck to BED
ā€œWe canā€™t just keep it! What if it has a tracking device? It wonā€™t let us fucking touch it so thereā€™s no way of knowing it has one unless it leads them right to us!ā€
ā€œOk, I hear you but think. That hasnā€™t happened yet. Itā€™s been about what, three days? and that hasnā€™t happened, and they havenā€™t been violent towards any of us at all. They havenā€™t tried to go back either, so thereā€™s no risk of them telling or leading Showfall where we are.ā€
ā€œWhy do you keep calling it ā€˜theyā€™?ā€
ā€œWell they canā€™t be an ā€œitā€ now can it? ā€¦wait.ā€
ā€œOk can we figure out the gender of the thing in the other room after we figure out if itā€™s a threat to us or not. Itā€™s not even a fucking person, you remember what those things did to you back there, donā€™t you?ā€
ā€œThose people were not themselves, they were just doing what he wanted them to doā€”ā€œ
ā€œTheyā€™re not fucking people! Those things are all part of Showfall, just like Hetch was! Itā€™s just waiting for the right time to turn us in, or pull some shit on one of us like they did before.ā€
ā€œThey werenā€™tā€¦ they werenā€™t in control.ā€
ā€œYeah like fuck they werenā€™t, I saw it fucking happen!ā€
ā€œYou canā€™t justā€¦ Ok. Sneeg. Stop. You donā€™t speak for me, the one who, oh I donā€™t know, was the one that shit happened to? They were being controlled just like usā€”ā€œ
ā€œNo, no, not like us. We were wandering around and not knowing what the fuck was happening. None of us knew what was happening. We just went along blindly. Those thingsā€”on purposeā€”dragged you to that stupid wall and sewed wires into your handsā€”ā€œ
ā€œShut up, Sneegā€”ā€œ
ā€œNo you shut up! You didnā€™t see it fucking happen! I saw them and Bitchface literally hold you down until you passed out! They were fucking choking you, they fuckingā€”they nearly fucking killed you with just their hands, thatā€™s not a little suggestion in the back of your brain, thatā€™s on purpose! That is fucking deliberate, that is a thing those machines chose to do! You donā€™t remember, you werenā€™t conscious when they fucking stapled you to the wall and strapped your head inā€”ā€œ
Sneeg glanced at Ranboo for a moment in-between pacing as he ranted, and the far away look in their siblingā€™s eyes shut them up immediately. Ranboo was still present, thank fuck, but they were looking at their brother like he was holding up a knife to their throat.
ā€œFuck, Ran, okay, okayā€”Iā€™m sorry. I shouldnā€™t haveā€¦ shit. Do you need Charlie?ā€
ā€œYou donā€™t know when to shut the fuck up.ā€
ā€œā€¦okay. Okay. Iā€™m sorry. Do you need me to get Charlie?ā€
ā€œNo, Iā€™m fucking fine.ā€ It did not sound like he meant that at all. His voice was less steady than before. ā€œI donā€™t want him to worry about ourā€¦ hitchhiker. Heā€™s worrying enough aboutā€¦ well, everything.ā€
ā€œThe fact that itā€™s here, so close to us is the reason Iā€™m trying to get you to see, Ran. What if it turns on him? What if it does that shit to him when we arenā€™t there?ā€
ā€œWe will be there.ā€
ā€œAnd when it tries anything, we can kill it?ā€
ā€œSneeg!ā€
ā€œYou wouldnā€™t kill it, even if it hurt our fucking brother?ā€
ā€œOf course we wouldnā€™t keep them around if they did that, could we at least justā€¦ just leave it behind? ā€¦wait, no, they couldnā€™t take care of themselves. If we had to leave it behind, maybe we shouldā€¦ā€
Silence lingered for a bit too long.
ā€œWe should what, Ran?ā€
ā€œā€¦Sneeg, I was about to say that killing it would be a mercy.ā€ The Hero laughed. ā€œDoesnā€™t that sound familiar?ā€
The Taken didnā€™t reply.
ā€œWe have to help them. I donā€™tā€¦ I donā€™t want to be on the other end of a mercy killing. I donā€™t want to hurt anyone anymore.ā€
ā€œOkay. Iā€™mā€”are you okay?ā€
ā€œā€¦m fine. Itā€™s fine. Just. Can you stop acting like theyā€™re any different from us? Please.ā€
ā€œWhat do you want me to think then?ā€ His voice was softer than it had been a few minutes before.
ā€œJust assume that theyā€¦ that they were someone. Just like we were before. And they didnā€™tā€¦ they didnā€™t do anything on their own, it was all Showfall.ā€
ā€œOkay. Fine. Letā€™s assume they were controlled, they didnā€™t mean to, so on and so forth. Why havenā€™t they talked yet.ā€
ā€œI donā€™t think any of the drones even could talk. Wait, should we really be calling them a droneā€”ā€œ
ā€œShut the fuck up, Ranboo, we have got to figure out what to do with it. It probably doesnā€™t even know what is happening, what the fuck does it matter what we call it.ā€
ā€œIt matters to me! Do you want me to call you by your title? Do you want to call me by mine? ā€¦No? Then why are we treating them like all they are is what Showfall made them? We had lives before, we were someone, so they must have been too. They might not realize it, orā€¦ or act like it, but they used to be someone. They are a whole person, Sneeg. We have to help them, we canā€™t just leave them behind because that would mean we are giving up on someone just like us, and we cannot give up on each other. Theyā€¦ they would have hurt us by now if they were going to. And Showfall hasnā€™t found us sinceā€¦ you know, which means there arenā€™t any more trackers.
ā€¦okay, Sneeg?ā€
ā€œā€¦okay. If it,ā€ he sighed at the look Ran gave them, ā€œif they try anything, we have to leave them behind. Iā€™m not letting a dumbass puppet be the reason we get taken back.ā€
ā€œIf theyā€”ok, whatever, youā€™re not understanding. You canā€™t say one of us somehow wanted to be controlled, and theyā€™re a ā€˜puppetā€™ but those rules donā€™t apply to the rest of usā€”ā€œ
ā€œThere is not an ā€˜us,ā€™ Ran! That thing isnā€™t like us!ā€
ā€œGuys?ā€
A sleepy voice shut the two of them up instantly. They had a split-second conversation with their eyes before looking to their brother. ā€˜We arenā€™t done talking about thisā€™ ā€˜Youā€™e absolutely right, so later?ā€™ ā€˜Later.ā€™ ā€˜Weā€™re telling Charlie nothing happened?ā€™ ā€˜Of course.ā€™ ā€˜Ok good plan.ā€™
ā€œWhy are you two fighting? Iā€™m tired, can we please go back to sleep?ā€
ā€œWe werenā€™t fighting, we wereā€¦ā€
ā€œā€¦talking about plans for tomorrow. And you can go back to sleep.ā€
ā€œI donā€™t want to be by myself.ā€ Charlie looked at Sneeg pointedly, who sighed to Ranboo with a playfully annoyed expression.
ā€œWell I guess I gotta go be a teddy bear again.ā€
ā€œHave funā€
ā€œAbsolutely not.ā€
Charlie punched Sneeg in the shoulder lightly for that, who just giggled in response and led his little brother back to their room.
Which left Ran by themselves.
Some nights, he would join them, but some nights Charlie couldnā€™t stand to be anywhere near Ran, and the three of them had made a silent mutual agreement that Charlie trusted Sneeg more than he did Ranboo.
ā€¦Ranboo was okay with this. He wasnā€™t hurt by it. He didnā€™t cry on the nights he slept by himself.
He didnā€™t wish he could be the one Sneeg comforted sometimes. They were just fine.
They were fine, which is why they went to the living room where theirā€¦ well. Their hitchhiker? They werenā€™t exactly a brother, or a sibling, more like a fourth wheel on a tricycle. Or a flyaway hair. Okay, maybe Ranboo needed to get tbr fuck to sleep, alone or not.
But he found himself in the living room, where their hitchhiker slept. Or, didnā€™t sleep, as they seemed to not need to. They would sit on the couch and stare idly at the tv. That was what had started the whole conversation with Sneeg in the first place; Ran wanted to leave some kind of entertainment for the fourth person so they wouldnā€™t be made to sit in the dark for hours. Sneeg took this remark as a perfect opportunity to explain all the reasons why the former drone should be abandoned, but Ranboo would have fucking none of it. Maybe the couch potato (shit, he really needed to come up with a name for themā€”) didnā€™t seem to sleep, barely ate, and stayed still unless actually verbally told to move, but they were still a person. Ranboo was sure of it.
Their hand wandered up to the fresh scabs where their mask had been. The fourth person had a mask, one that hadnā€™t been touched. Despite usually staying still, the personā€”(Ranboo thinks they might just call this person Couch for now. Maybe itā€™s not accurate, and theyā€™re tired, but itā€™s something. C, for short.)
C would back away any time the others would try to get near them. And they did in fact try, but despite how creative or sneaky they got, C always ducked away. It reminded Ranboo of the drone who had followed them with a camera, always one step away and never letting the Hero get too close.
The mask turned to Ranboo, who stared back quietly. C hadnā€™t talked at all, so Ranboo didnā€™t expect them to suddenly start now. He wasnā€™t even sure if they understood what was said to them, but Ranboo wanted to try anyways. Better to be polite.
ā€œDo you like the show thatā€™s on? I think itā€™s called Lucy, or something. I donā€™t know, Sneeg said it was funny. And it didnā€™t seem, uh- scary or anything.ā€
The mask didnā€™t speak.
ā€œIf you want to change it, the remoteā€™s right there, um, I showed you how to use it before. And thereā€™s like, instructions drawn on there. You can thank Charlie for that one.ā€
ā€¦
ā€œI think Iā€™m going to head to bed.ā€
ā€¦
ā€œFuck it, can I stay here?ā€
The mask still didnā€™t speak, but the head hidden behind it tilted a bit at the sudden change in tone. Ranboo took this as an absolute win.
ā€œSo I just. I donā€™t want to be by myself. And I donā€™t think you sleep, I mean if you just sleep when everyone else is asleep thatā€™s cool, but also if so how do you even? function? on that much sleep? It really isnā€™t that much but to be fair you donā€™t do much so maybe you donā€™t need it. ā€¦do you sleep sitting up? And just somehow wake up when we get close? I know, um. Sorry about that, again, we were just worried your mask had a tracker like mine used to.ā€
Ran laughed nervously. ā€œI think I did convince them that it doesnā€™t, so that should stop now. If um. If we make you uncomfortable you still donā€™t have to be touched, itā€™s, itā€™s fine.ā€
Other than the head tilt before, there wasnā€™t a reply.
ā€œOkay, since. You canā€™t talk, Iā€™m just gonnaā€¦ Iā€™ll sit down beside you. On the couch. And if you donā€™t want me to be that close you can uh- you can leave. Or like, get up, and then Iā€™ll leave. This is the only room with a tv, so Iā€™ll let you stay here, but I canā€™t tell if you want me to be here or not, so. Okay, sorry, Iā€™m rambling. Justā€¦ move if you want me to leave, okay?ā€
Ranboo waited for a response that didnā€™t come, then sighed. ā€œOkay.ā€ He kept his hands up and open while sitting down, waiting for a few moments before tucking his feet under himself to get more comfortable. ā€œIā€™m just gonna stay here, okay? Like I said, just move if you want me to leave.ā€
The mask had tracked them to where they sat now, but the personā€”Cā€”didnā€™t make a move to leave. Ranboo turned their attention to the tv, keeping an eye on their couch partner in their peripheral vision. During a moment of audience laughter in the showā€”I Love Lucy, they rememberedā€”C turned their head back to the television as they had been before Ranboo walked in.
Seeing as how C (they needed a better name than thatā€”) didnā€™t speak, this was the closest Ranboo could get to being told ā€œyou can stay here.ā€ So they did. A few episodes later, his head was on the arm of the couch and his eyes were closed.
Five turned its attention to the Hero, who was now asleep. He had said it was a person, which was almost hilarious. And the Taken and the Hero seemed to think it couldnā€™t talk? They had to know it needed to be given permission first: any handler of a Drone or Prop knew that basic rule. It would wait until permission was given: it knew how to obey. It wasnā€™t meant to speak to a superior unless it was told it was allowed. It would wait.
ā€¦in the meantime, it studied its handler, the Hero. The other Actors, their two other handlers, called him ā€˜Ranbooā€™ but Five knew that wasnā€™t his actual label. The Hero was his character in the last show, and so that is who he was. Five didnā€™t know if Actors had a number, but he had been called the Hero in the script, and so the Hero he will be until the script changes.
It hoped to get new instructions, a new script for itself, something, soon. It was tired of simply watching the Actors go about their incredibly off-script show. It was sometimes told to participate, and since no other superiors were nearby, it had to obey its current handlers. But it was told to participate, to stir eggs, to help clean the kitchen, to attack small webs in corners with a stick with soft spikes on the end. Those sorts of things werenā€™t itā€™s usual directive, and so it found itselfā€¦
It didnā€™t resent its handlers. They were doing their best, and they at least knew that they were meant to give it orders. It simply wished they were familiar orders. It wished the Hero had told it to play dead, or play chase, or play camera, or caught, or prop. It would even listen if it was told to power down until needed. At least then it wouldnā€™t have to be conscious in this boring and unfamiliar set.
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Y EA I know they probably donā€™t like tvs. Shhhhhh. I didnā€™t think about that until like. I had already written the tv part. At this moment it is 55 minutes past th hour and I want these characters to go the fuck to sleep so I can go thr fuck to sleep /lh
And yeah Five only uses ā€œheā€ for glran. That is intentional. Itā€™ll be talked about and shit later. Something about being put into a role, something about showfall being transphobic, something something I want to go to bed
Powering down = ā€œsleepingā€ for a drone. Different but similar. Iā€™ll explain how it works later?, anyway The others hav e told Five to ā€œsleepā€ but it doesnā€™t understand because it is only ever told to ā€œpower downā€ so itā€™s like error.sleep_not_found and it stares at them like ā€œbitch you said the wrong. Thing. Youā€™re supposed to know how to control me so you donā€™t want me to power down I fucking guessā€ and itā€™s gonna be really funny after that miscommunication is taken care of.
If you remember the Five Gets A Cold And Wants To Throw Hands With Everyone post, this is wayyy before that. These motherfuckers are fresh out of showfall. Donā€™t ask how they got a house. Iā€™ll figure it out
I am! Tired! Iā€™m not proofreading this!! Goodnight please give me your thoughts if you have them. I need to know I didnā€™t sacrifice tbis much sleep in vain /nf /lh (I appreciate words but you are Not required to give them. Love you have a good nigt/p)
#five the genloss blorbo#letā€™s not talk about how many tries it took me to spell unobserved. letā€™s simplynot#update like 5 years into me writing this: i also cannot spell the word peepohe it would seem#that. that was meant to be the word People. you can see m#h my point stands#it is late as fuck yet I Have to make this. it has to exist so I must make it exist#Iā€™m hamilton writing like Iā€™m running out of time but Iā€™m writing g#writing 51 essays in which assorted characters get the physical and/or emotional shit beaten out of them#and me running out of time is running out of sleepy. I am a sleep y man#take a break and get away says my pillow. I am Hamilton my pillow is upstate and this goddam mess of a short story I am trying to write is M#this story is Mariah Reyndolds leading me to her bed .#I havenā€™t slept in a while and Iā€™m hyperfixationed on Hamilton so that metaphor makes. 0 sense#if youā€™re reading this far Iā€™m so sorry. have a cookie! and fun fact an old lady held my hand and s#she said my (Very Androgynous!!) haircut is perfect. she used those words#i almost cried right then and there. genuine compliments from people make my fucking day . ok I need to go back to editing thisthing now#I wrote it. changed a plot point. started to rewrite it. changed ANOTHER plot point#so now Iā€™ve got several s#several layers of Oh Shit I have to untangle#im. making my own goddam escape au apparently????? it wonā€™t make any fucking sense but I will explain it later.#and! feel free to ask questions!ā€™ and tell me if it makeā€™s absolutely 0 sense#I do in fact want to be able to tell the story in a way you will understand. so ask questions! give a feedback! /gen /pos#I accidentally. deleted a tag so whatever I was going to say is fucking gone now. oh I think I memerbr#they are out of character ye. Iā€™m sleepy and Iā€™m making their escape au up as I go.#so far I have 1) the box scene was somehow Worse#2) they kidnapped Five (yippee!)#3) Charlie is the most traumatized out of the three. I donā€™t. I donā€™t know why.#I think thatā€™s mostly because I didnā€™t feel like writing a conversation between Three characters. so my brain was like this :#why isnā€™t Charlie here? sleeping. why are these two not including him in conversation? protectiveness.#why protectiveness? he is the most upset out of the three of them and the other two have basically taken up the caretaker role. great plan#great plan hit the showers. I have reached. max tags. shit oh well back to writing tumblr says so!
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juniestar Ā· 5 months ago
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Oh my god one last thing my ex took me to outside lands and when we tried to watch lana del rey he laid down on the grass and had a ā€œpanic attackā€ (this was after months of him talking about how he didnā€™t like her) so we went to see foo fighters after a bit and he was FINE
#LANA i know his sister works for you BUT TRUST MY WORD AND GIVE ME A FREE TICKET PLEASEā€¦#MY FIRST TIME SEEING YOU WAS RUINED GIRLā€¦ she was so good too like i was saving her songs to spotify that night#im reliving all this because i found out a lot of his exes and ex friends hang out together and two of them invited me so it was me an ex an#d an ex friend just swapping stories and first of all. he said he got cheated on by this girl and she NEVER DID IT (HE would have emotional/#angry outbursts at HER though) (allegedly heā€™s acknowledged to her that the cheating never happened too) and 2. this is obviously making me#mentally rehash everything again. i feel so bad for his current girlfriend and also for the person i ā€˜ā€™stoleā€™ā€™ him from though i really hesi#tate to blame myself after hearing about his patterns. first of all he wouldve done this with anyone who was vulnerable around him and secon#d i was the only reason he was at all honest with them. he was fully planning to gaslight this ex and me and his dad had to convince him not#to. they look like theyre happy now and im very happy for them over that. oh my god that man was evil he told me for WEEKS about every time#his then partner had talked shit about me while i made clear that i didnt care and wasnt very interested but he kept going. god i cant belie#ve this was my life a year ago.#the one thing i can say is that i out freaked him because throughout our short relationship i made him so insecure that a week after i told#to never speak to me again he called me asking if he really was ugly.#I CANNOT BELIEVE I HAD TO TEND TO A GROWN MAN WHILE LANA DEL REY WAS RIGHT THERE BECAUSE HE WAS SO OPPOSED TO BEING AROUND HER. LANAAAA#times like these i get so mad i dont know what to do but ultimately remembering that he has not achieved any of his goals because he refuses#to face himself really helps me. god man IVE achieved some of his goals and i wasnt even trying to#a really awful part of all of this was all of the friends who knew him taking his side. because they didnt know him well enough to know what#he was actually like.#i was talking to my ex friend of four years and she was like not to blame you but he was probably really vulnerable from his time with [ex p#rior to me]ā€™ā€™ because heā€™s been going around alleging that that ex was abusive. and she was implying i took advantage of him. so i had to go#into detail about what an awful awful person he was and the sort of state i was in when this relationship took place. hannah lee you are#not seeing your little jehovahā€™s witness heaven.#anyways redirecting this energy im very happy with the way my life is and the way i am now. and im grateful for it i would not have ever bee#n able to imagine having the sort of peace and motivation i feel now. life feels like it can and will change for the better and it keeps pro#ving that right all the time#it just hurts sometimes having that as my first experience and not even being able to vocalize what was wrong bc i just didnt know hurts#oh i forgot one of his besties can see my account bc weā€™re sort of mutuals. i doubt heā€™s looking he did the whole unfollowing the ex bc sheā€™#s allegedly amoral thing after the breakup but if he is hi isaac#he did on rare occasion show me selfless kindness but ultimately your best friend is a creep. i donā€™t want to be involved with anyone from#our school but I hope you know this and I hope youā€™re proud
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dieicarian Ā· 5 months ago
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[explodes into atoms] fine . Fine. maybe i will use this website properly again.
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btvs Ā· 1 year ago
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#m#i hate how the term antisemitism is being thrown around to describe situations that arent antisemitic recently#like being antizionist for example. bc the result of this is just ppl dismissing actual antisemitism entirely#anyone who is calling being antizionist antisemitic you are part of the reason there are antisemites who dont care about antisemitism#ive seen quite a few people recently use the genocide of palestinians to be antisemitic & this does nothing to help any issue#like posts with accusations of blood libel and running the world etc & then valid criticism is met with 'thats irrelevant right now'#as if pointing out antisemitism means you are automatically ignoring the genocide#its very frustrating because its understandable to be annoyed when anything is brought up to detract from the genocide of palestinians#i just dont think that this is one of the things that should be shamed for being brought up - its not detracting from the issue#saying that its a form of looking away from the issue is simply not true and ignoring antisemitism doesnt make you a better antizionist#it doesnt make you a better supporter of palestine#if theres a genocide going on and you use that to get your antisemitic conspiracies out you are part of the problem#im putting this all in the tags cuz its just a personal rant and i dont want anyone to take anything i said out of context#this is the illiterate website after all#i am fighting for a free palestine and a free jewish people separate from israel and zionism
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