#now THIS is a great birthday present
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the k in my name stands for king
#i have too much shit to say#im not a good person im selfish and undeservedly arrogant#i think bad things and then claw at my own face for it and imagine myself impaled or shot or stabbed#i need therapy so fucking badly its not even funny#and yet i cant because i dont want to reveal things that will put me in an institution or chain me down forever#i wish someone already understood all my problems but its not that easy#gotdam it im fucking crying again#personal vent#cw violent thoughts#in the tags#you know i think it fucked me up telling me at 12 years old that im so selfish i act like a king whom the world revolves around#when i wanted to not be miserable and not have to pretend to be happy so you could look and feel happy yourself#lets both be freed from this performance#i almost wanna change my name#never felt that it was one that i identified with#kinda have just been dissociating from my entire identity my whole life. thats why im aroace and agender probly#so anyway i decided to write a novel about my shitty inner psyche#now THIS is a great birthday present#at the very least could i have not had a food i dont like for dinner
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Happy happy birthday to the resident high warlock of glitter and our hearts, Magnus Lightwood-Bane!
#magnus bane#magnus bane fanart#malec#and now to present all his titles#husband of alec lightwood#father to max and rafe#high warlock of brooklyn#the great poison#harbringer of debauchery#magnus lightwood bane#1/2 of the perfection that is malec#shadowhunters#shadowhunters fanart#the mortal instruments#my art#tsc#happy birthday magnus bane
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Egotober Day 31: Happy Halloween
I had to work Halloween so I’m very late… and I really wanted to draw the rest of the swaps but I’m so tired so it’s just the Brody bros and their boos… but!! I did it!! I finally finished a whole month for the first time in 4 YEARS!! I’m so glad I worked through it and did all 31 drawings!!
Oh also They’re all characters from Nerdy Prudes Must Die cuz I’ve been obsessed with it again. Bro is Max, Stacy is Grace, Alt is Steph and Oli is Pete!!
#huffleart#jacksepticeye#septicart#egotober#egotober 2024#swapboys#alt anti#bro fantastic#Oliver doom#Stacy Bailey#happy Halloween#nerdy prudes must die#I will now sleep so much#I haven’t worked on cry’s birthday present this whole month cuz of work and these prompts ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ#I’m a great girlfriend |D
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A serious question for my brain: Why!??
#I hate that I have a bad evening yet again#one would think I would be over the moon giddy and happy still after Jere blessed me earlier#jokes on me I guess#all it took was a 'not even bad comment' feedback on my art and now I feel nothing matters#tbh I don't like where my rendered art is atm#I have some few instances where it turns out amazing#(like with the Berlin or Malmö redraws)#yet most often than not I hate it#I am not satisfied with how my käärijä zine piece turned out#or the 1 year anniversary for tavastia#or the birthday present to myself of me and Bojan#some of these on a very bad day is directly unappealing (ugly) in my eyes#and now I was just asked if there was any difference between my simple and detailed render not by one but two artist friends#bear in mind the simple render takes maybe and hour and 2-3 effect layers#the detailed render takes 3+ hours and oftentimes 25-30+ layers#if fellow artists cannot even see the difference on me putting in effort and the rendered art doesn't look good to me anyways#why am I even bothering#maybe I should just stick to sketching#it seems to be what works out in the end most of the times anyways#or maybe I am just dramatic#one thing's for certain: this sort of killed my mood for drawing#which is not great when working on commission examples + wanted to work on thumbnails for zines#why am I like this#micahs thoughts
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Just saw the love of my life <3
#i love him#he was amazing tonight#and IT WAS AMAZING#to hear him talk and sing#and literally play all my favourite songs of his#I couldn't of asked for a better birthday present#and he played amazing even though he was sick!!#and his speechs were great! his a rambler and i love it#his voice is so beautiful#and he played like four maybe five extra songs at the end??#literally more in love with him now#and CHERRY WINE WAS EVERYTHING I EVER WANTED LIVE#ugh i could ramble on and on about him#anotheryoutubefanpage#i truly got chills with that song!!!#hozier
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38, yay!
#had a calm day at work#brought a cake#got a nice present#now I have to take both of my cats to the vet instead of just one#and after that I go to therapy and I wonder how much I will cry#a great day#last year was better (I went to the Phantom Liberty Tour event at CDPR in Warsaw#still haven't finished the expansion which is shameful of me)#and guess why I plan my Australia/New Zealand trip for 2026#not on my birthday though#but slightly later
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OH HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUBY OMG........ HAVE A GOOD DAY ABOUT IT!!
THANK YOUUUU i'm moving <3
#ask#uni starts again. well tomorrow technically now. for me#great birthday present <- genuine i'm excited
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Happy birthday! (´v`)ノ。+゜*。
Thank you (that's a very cute text emoji by the way)
#asks#mutuals (epic)#personal#i will talk about the thing i was most excited to get for my birthday#my parents got me the first volume of the invader zim comic series as a present#it's a bit embarrassing my family knows i like IZ so much since i'm a bit above the age demographic now but it's alright#i watched IZ with my dad and he laughed HARD and said it was great so i don't think he's judging me too much at least
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It’s nearly my birthday, so I celebrated by inviting some friends over for a book and potatoes party.
It was excellent. There were so many potatoes, and everyone came in costume as a literary character, and I had a lot of fun! Seriously, is there a better idea for a birthday party out there?
Oh, and I had a delectable cheesecake, which I naturally needed to decorate appropriately for the occasion:
#personal#happy birthday to meeeeeee#it was so great and I am so tired#but there's still food to put away and I'm putting it off#also Nina gave me one of my birthday presents early and it's the new Samantha Shannon book#so now I know how I'm spending tomorrow
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o.m.g!!!!!!!!!!!
#low key a great early birthday present#bye byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee#maybe now fox news will find it a bit harder to spread misinformation and poison people’s minds#this feels like a small but very meaningful victory#even though he’ll probably just go somewhere else
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#me: itll b done monday. itll b done Monday. no more of this experiment after Monday.#my boss Saturday morning: we made some changes to the end of the experiment. u dont have to take measurements sunday and Monday. youll do#it Tuesday and Wednesday.#me: ...i cant even. if i have to fucking do that. why would u do this to me? why the fuck cant i just fucking do it sunday/Monday?#im not fucking doing that. im not. fuck off. why would u do this??? is it bc my birthday is Monday so u think ill b sad abt being in the#lab? bc im im fucking not in the lab and this fucking experiment is still going ill spend the day crying and unable to do fucking anything#bc i just kno ill have to come back on fucking Tuesday and do this again#is it bc u think the post processing will take too long so u wanna split between days? bc i will fucking sit there all fucking night#on Monday if it means i can fucking get this over with. ugh. great start to this fucking day. fantastic#ive already emailed back like: um hey some of these changes make sense bc um what the fuck??? it doesnt make sense to offset my#measurements? so what thr fuck???? but like more polite and hopefully less frantic sounding. god. i hope she doesn't have a valid reason#for this. i dont wanna fucking do that and i will fight back#email. me. back. my fucking stomach hurts abt this >:-[ also i didnt get a lot of sleep and came in at like 6.30am#bc i forgot to measure prewatering weights over the 2 weeks. oops. so im maybe not that steady#but i fucking hate this idea. and im not saying i refuse to do it. but i fucking refuse to do it#well see if i hold out. agh. birthday present to me. i get to be selfish and end this project early. and by selfish i mean i get to protect#my brain a tiny little bit. a teeny tiny bit. except my apartment is now so fucking cold ill probably end up in the lab anyway#bc everytimr thry turn on the air in my building its like so so so cold snd i dont have temp control and i wont complain#unrelated#i need my answer before 5.30 or my head will explode
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big tragedy
#ok so a couple friends that ive known for. 8. 8!!!! years now (sorry thats insane wth) are on their minor abroad#and generally being in separate uni's we RARELY see eachother#so were going to do a powerpoint presentation catchup thingy. you know the tiktok ones.#fucknig fine whatever thats cute ig.#except i am boring as hell and have nothing to talk about. yes miku expo was a big thing for me so i can talk about that yadayada#BUT THEN.#i realised that a. huge fucking part of me. (<- TRANNY) has never been officially addressed.#ok! fun ill officially come out and mention my other names and pronouns yippeee thats good!!#sillyposting#but now. the horrors are hitting.#otherwise known as: girlypop wants to loop her birthday together with this get-together.#and thats awesome i fucking love her shes great but now.#NOW IT FEELS SO BAD TO MAKE THIS MY SPECIAL DAYY T-T#and i KNOW i shouldnt bc. were all coming together as friends and shes just being efficient but. you get it.#i will officially come out. im ready.#and that alone feels great.#it should already be pretty clear im a faggot transgender etc but. itll be nice to really say it. i hope theyre not surprised.#like. ive said it. in my opinion. but who knows if they remember or care or believe.#most of them are already gay n. itll be FINEE im excited.#=w=bb#anyway yeagh feels bad to do it on her bday ig but i get itt this is something i HAVE to do o7#its a shame other girlypop fell off she was the first one i EVER came out to. looking back its weird to come out as ace to someone but.#it was nice. i was a newly queer teen. i wish she could be here but. as soon as highschool ended she dipped. good for her.#oh to be 15 years old again. i didnt even know what the fuck would happen to me.
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I know my family doesn't know me at all... But especially on my birthday I get hit with "wow they really don't know me. You were looking at that & thinking of me? Please look again & think again."
#This year nobody asked me what I wanted... But I made some comments about what would be great...#& now I look at the gifts & well... They also don't listen to me...#I prefer getting no gifts over gifts who are total bullshit...#I would have been happier if we would got out & eating in a nice restaurant or something... But nope... Not in my family...#Thanks ähm for nothing... I guess...#Best birthday present is the Lego set that I was buying MYSELF...#givemeaswordpersonal#Anyway... I also don't want to sound ungrateful... It feels like last Christmas where I got also stuff I didn't needed or wanted..
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Had a nice vent session with one of my friends today and realized that while some of my unhappiness with some of my roommate situation is valid, the frustration is out of proportion. There's a lot of stuff that I'm absolutely not owed, but because it's a disturbance to the status quo while a bunch of other shit is going wrong, it feels way worse than it is.
And I have to get a handle on that before I start trying to have a conversation about all of this.
I don't like to let things simmer but frankly I have been doing bad for a while and I don't have the level of self-control that I need to handle things properly. The cracks are starting to show a bit in other areas of my life and that's freaking me out worse. But I can bear a bit of frustration for a while. I've done it for years. I'll cope. I'll call my retirement company on Monday so I can start the process of cashing that out. I'll get myself better fed so I can function a little better and I'll do my best to get some sun and see people. I'll get a better job again. I'll go back to therapy. I'll see a doctor. I'm not falling apart forever. I just need to keep my cool and handle things as they currently are for a little while longer. I'll be okay.
#faer personal files#like yeah. i knew these guys ran avoidant and could be a little stingier with guests than i prefer even before i moved in#and i was fine with that. and if they're feeling like returning to their status quo with me instead of sharing when there's extra?#that's no great sin. i'll note it. i'll be a little less generous in turn. they're not getting birthday presents from me this year lol#but like. it's no big betrayal of their character as i've known it to be the status quo just got nicer for a while and it's settling back#that's fine#if there's a point of contention on the chore chart frankly i'm just gonna say i'll do my own dishes buy a bit more plastic for when i can'#put me in the shower cleaning rotation but that's it i can't do more right now that's all there is to it#and i'll handle it and worse comes to worse if shit gets bitter i can move out and live with my sister come september
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12/2/24
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Woke up in clean comfy bedsheets
Got birthday wishes
Made millionaires shortbread
Got chocolate muffin
Gave brother a fright by accident
Felt cute wearing my jacket
Got a nice gift from my friend
Mother showed me my great nanny's jewellery and we talked (found out that apparently my fingers are small?)
Was cosy while taking dog out on his walk in heavy rain
Talked with family
Tried blood orange for the first time and liked it
Listened to my favourite songs
Managed to get out of going to see my grandma (she's not a nice person)
A sign of affection anime was really cute
#happiness diary#happiness diary: february#today was a good day#its not evey year that i have a good birthday#but it was great this year#nice and quiet#giving my brother a fright was funny#i was bundled up in my jacket with the hood up ready to take the dog out#and he came out gus room amd heade a comment on the weather so i thought he knew i was there#he did not#so when i jumped and spun around saying im going out in it he got a fright#also the phone call with my gran was funny#cus she was like ive got your present here and i just answered thats... nice#can you come down? no i dont think i can im really busy with college work right now#itll only take 10 mins im sure you can spare that#i dont think i can cus i have a psychology essay due tomorrow and im still not done with it (lie)#its kinda sad cus if she was a nice person I would go see her but shes not so i wont#but the convo made my mother laugh too#oh also she got me a pair of earrings for Christmas#guess she liked them alot cus she got me the same earrings again#its the thought that counts#anyway i should go to bed now#night!
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Here is a potentially silly question: how do you feel about birthstones? Do you think they fit the months (by season or astrological sign)? Do you have other stones you'd rather see as birthstones?
Okay, so, birthstones make absolutely no sense.
I mean, look at this mess. We’re doing beryl and corundum twice! I get that they get Special Different Names for their Special Different Colors, but it's just lazy. And why are we giving some months cheap, common gemstones like garnet and amethyst while the poor June birthdays have to shell out tens of thousands of dollars for FREAKING ALEXANDRITE? That’s incredibly unfair! We should be picking birthstones that are all roughly the same price. And why do some months get multiple gemstones? I’ll tell you why: because nobody can agree on an official list and every attempt to standardize this thing has just added MORE birthstones to every month.
So obviously the answer is to standardize it again, by throwing out everything and starting over. Here are our goals:
Fair pricing. You should be paying roughly the same amount regardless of what month you were born in. We’re getting rid of those ridiculous outliers like diamond and alexandrite.
More customization potential! Nobody should be stuck with a stone they hate. We’re picking gemstones that come in multiple colors or varieties, so that everyone can choose a variant they like.
Wearability. Some birthstones are too fragile to be worn as jewelry. We need to replace them with stronger stuff.
No more duplicate gemstones. Every month gets a stone or family of stones with a unique chemical composition.
Now without further ado, I present to you:
The New And Improved List Of Birthstones With No Problems Or Flaws That Everyone Will Definitely Agree On And We Can Start Using Right Now Immediately
JANUARY: GARNET
I've got no problem with garnet. It's a fine, classic birthstone, so January can keep it. But I would like to see a little more garnet diversity. January birthdays shouldn’t be confined to just red. The garnet family of minerals contains a rainbow of different colors, like orange hessonite, green uvarovite, pink rhodolite, yellow grandite, and many more. They’re all garnet, so we should be wearing them all!
FEBRUARY: QUARTZ
The original birthstone of February was amethyst, which is… kinda boring. Super cheap and common and you only get one color? No, we can do better. February gets ALL the quartzes now. Keep wearing amethyst if you want, but also feel free to branch out into clear quartz, citrine, rose quartz, smoky quartz, rutilated quartz, tiger eye… actually, take all the agates too. If it’s quartz, it’s yours!
MARCH: SPODUMENE
March was originally aquamarine, but I’ll be giving all the beryls to May, so we need a different stone here. Let’s stick with that theme of pale pastels and go with spodumene. For an April birthday, bedeck yourself in green hiddenite, pink kunzite, or yellow triphane. Despite its subtle colors, your birthstone has some amazing fluorescence, with really cool pinks and oranges under a UV light.
APRIL: FELDSPAR
Diamond is too pricy for this list, so we’re replacing it with something less expensive and way more interesting. April will now be represented by the feldspar family. We’re talking labradorite, moonstone, amazonite, aventurine, and sunstone. While you don’t have much variety in color, your stones are full of shimmery schiller which glitters and shifts as it catches the light.
MAY: BERYL
May’s original birthstone was emerald, which is great and can stay, but we’re also adding its siblings! May is now represented by all beryls: Emerald, Aquamarine, Morganite, Bixbite, Heliodor, Goshenite, and whatever other varieties I’m forgetting to list. A bright and saturated rainbow of colors is represented here, so everyone born in May is sure to find something they like.
JUNE: ORGANIC GEMSTONES AND FOSSILS
It’s time to address the alexandrite in the room, and obviously we’re getting rid of alexandrite. A stone worth $15,000 to $70,000 a carat does not belong on the same list as friggin amethyst. Instead we’ll look at the other traditional June birthstone, pearl. The problem with pearl is that it’s a clear outlier in this list. An organic gemstone, by some definitions not even a mineral. Should we replace it? NO. We are OWNING it. All organic gemstones now belong to June. Pearl is joined here by jet, amber, coral, ivory, ammolite, petrified wood… in fact, June can have every fossil ever.
JULY: SPINEL
July was originally represented by ruby, which is a fine stone and won’t be kicked off the birthstone list - we’re just shuffling it down to September. Replacing ruby for July is spinel. (See, it’s funny because historically spinel has often been mistakenly identified as ruby! That's a little gemology humor for you.) Available in any hue you could possibly desire, spinel offers some nice color options to a month that previously only featured red. Of course if you want to keep wearing red, red spinel mimics ruby so well that you’ll barely notice the difference.
AUGUST: PERIDOT
Nope, we’re not changing this one. Peridot is the ideal gemstone and you ungrateful August whiners can die mad about it. HOW ABOUT YOU LEARN TO APPRECIATE PERFECTION
SEPTEMBER: CORUNDUM
Sapphire is a wonderful, classic stone and it deserves its spot on this list. But the corundum family has been separated for far too long, and we’re finally going to reunite them. Joining sapphire in September is its sister ruby. Between the pinks and reds of ruby and the many, many colors of sapphire, these two stones give September a nice variety of colors.
OCTOBER: TOURMALINE
Look, as gorgeous as opal is and as much as I love it, it is both way too pricy for our list and also TERRIBLE in jewelry. This stone is just too brittle to wear around from day to day and can be ruined just by getting it wet, which makes wearing your birthstone a huge hassle. We’ll kick opal out and hang on to October’s other traditional birthstone, tourmaline. Pink tourmaline may be classic, but this stone comes in plenty of other colors. Whether it’s brown dravite, watermelon elbaite, or the rare and beautiful blue indicolite, you can wear them all!
NOVEMBER: TOPAZ
November can keep topaz, but we’re not confining it to the color yellow. This stone comes in a huge variety of colors, and now they can ALL represent November. No further notes; it’s a nice, classic stone.
DECEMBER: ZIRCON
I dunno, I’ve had to come up with 12 of these, I’m burnt out. Sure, zircon, whatever.
“BUT WAIT,” you say. “Now instead of having a single color assigned to each month, almost every month is represented by almost every color, making it impossible to tell anyone’s birthstones apart and removing what made them special and recognizable as symbols!”
Well CLEARLY you didn’t read the title of this list.
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