#now I need to start again
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Yesterday night I was reading something that I wrote in High School, during my Dolce Stil Novo period, while we were studying Dante, and I felt just so baffled, because I realized that it has been at least a decade since I wrote any prose in Italian.
And I felt so ashamed for that.
I was so immersed into English and English literature that I forsook my own mothertongue and I am now realizing that I am starting to pay the price for that.
I also realized that much of the reason why I *dread* the idea of writing again and why I get filled with anxiety is directly connected to the fact that English is not my mothertongue, and each time I have to write, I have to think much harder about how I want to convey a sentence, and sometimes, because my English vocabulary doesn't match the extensivity of my Italian one, I have to research much more than what I would do in Italian.
I don't know how to ecplain, but I literally get brainfogged when I try and write in English.
It's disheartening.
But today, between one headache and the other, I decided that I want to get back into writing, I want to try that again.
And try I did, with a small tiny minuscule scene between Shay and Dora for their Westeros!AU, and it just felt *so good*.
But I want to write in Italian.
I might still post it here, but unfortunately, you might need to translate to read it.
Nevertheless, I want to go back to the same type of elevated writing that I used to do when I was in High School.
Because I do not wish to lose my mothertongue.
I love Italian WAAAAY too much for it to happen.
#Nemo babbles#small epiphany#do not mind me#I am just blabbering between one headache and the other#I realized that what was holding me back from writing and taking most of the joy away was the ENORMOUS amount of effort#that i had to put in each paragraph#i need to start reading in Italian again#I have been reading only books in English#for years#now I need to start again
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On one hand I understand that to get good at art I need to make bad art first. But on the other hand I get a tummy ache when I think about my bad art :(
Why does is feel so embarrassing to be an 18 year old creating bad art???? I'm a beginner just like any younger beginner, but I feel like a fool regardless.
#what a dilemma#ive been out of practice since easter because ive been studying#now i need to start again#but its hard#espeacially when I cant make what i want happen
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Chappell Roan giving a completely nuanced take that would not make most people blink at a dinner party and then getting skewered for it online is peak go touch grass
She’s talking like a fucking grown up
Some of yall aren’t ready for that
#chappell roan#I have mad respect for her right now#bc honestly#celebrity endorsements are how we got that Cheeto in the first place#voting is private#and anyone with a brain should be able to see she wasn’t going to vote for him!#like it’s not up to Chappell fucking Roan to save democracy?!#folks need to start using their own brains again#us politics#celebrity culture
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i feel like i failed you.
#me? sobbing my eyes out about these two again? it's likelier than you think!#featuring an exercise in actually doing backgrounds and lighting for once! hooray!!#also i don't actually know what the official name of the track is yet. so let's just call it zack in sector 5 for now lol#gets the point across#ffvii#final fantasy vii#ffvii rebirth#zack fair#cloud strife#zakkura#my art <3#my music <3#phew.#this. uhh#took a while.#which is to say i started AND finished both the music and the art TODAY#do not recommend! don't be like me. take breaks lol#in my defense! i had an idea and i NEEDED to get it out of my body or else i would die. you know how it goes.#anyway uhh. enjoy!
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I love Raph and haven’t said that enough so to be more specific I love that Raph is a soft boy who loves bear plushies, a gross boy who eats an assortment of things that are definitely better left alone, a smart boy who is more than capable of taking down villains through planning and fortitude alike, a strong boy who is dedicated to training his muscles and fighting prowess, a teenage boy who loves his brothers but is more than happy to tease and roughhouse with them, an angry boy who sometimes lets his anger take a hold of him to cover the fear, a gentle boy who is generous with hugs and affirmations to those he loves, a capable boy who takes on more than should ever be expected of a teenager, a good boy who just wants to be a hero and slowly comes to realize the cost of that duty, a good boy who has no reservations about putting himself in the way of harm coming to his family, a good boy who’s a great brother and son and person and deserves only the best the world has to offer.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt raph#rise raph#he’s so wonderful frfr#my poor boy is traumatized but still so proud of what they accomplished because they’re HEROES#what started as something fun - Saturday morning cartoon-like heroes vs villains esque - soon becomes his calling#and he loses himself a little along the way#because the world is TERRIFYING now#if they don’t do something about the bad things in the world then worse things will come#and Raph CARES too much to let it happen#even at the expense of his own happiness and youth#and he luckily reigns back that fear - knowing his family is there to keep an eye out with him#and he finally lets himself be a kid again#he’s very well rounded and his flaws are so good because (like the others) they are ALSO his strengths#I like how it’s softly implied that bears are his fav animal too bc that’s cute af#headcanon that he likes them so much because a stuffed bear was the first toy splinter managed to get Raph#but yeah one of my favorite things about tmnt is that the characters are well rounded and rottmnt exemplifies that immensely#with raph being no exception!!#amazing big brother and character#there’s a REASON in my tmnt main character tierlist he’s S tier!!!!#hot take but in terms of who should be leader I think it should be less who’s the better leader-#-and more who’s the better leader FOR THIS SPECIFIC MISSION#bc all four can be great leaders fight me on that#APRIL can as well 100%#doesn’t need a designated leader for them to succeed#they just need ~communication~#one of my favorite things tying Raph and Leo together is that they both *hide*#I’ve talked about Leo’s many masks a lot but Raph has one too#and it’s the mask of a hero - the mask of the protector
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'Dead Poets Society' gang
Headcanon that these four drop poetry and literature quotes on their conversations unprompted.
Jason 'English-major-I-only-visit-the-manor-for-the-library' Todd-Wayne
Damian 'I-master-liberal-arts-unlike-you-plebs-PHD-holder' al Ghul-Wayne
Cassandra 'I-learn-English-thru-Shakespeare-as-god-intended' Cain-Wayne
Duke 'only-title-holder-of-vigilante-poet-and-will-cuss-you-just-as-poetically' Thomas-(future) Wayne
#My background is ass#I promise to practice but omg i am losing motivation coz its too ugly#started putting some on coloring that i started being happy about it#But my background is level toddler i hate it#the patience and discipline to make my lines straight and clean is nonexistent gdi...why did past me choose library gdi#Just writing some Duke in my fics and this image of them all just made me wanna do art...Duke is a poet and writes stories u kno?#Duke is not a wayne yet...and is not dead yet...but with how comics goes then its just a matter of time lol#They're all in school here...Cass and Jason are college watching over their juniors in high school#everyone use cardigans but Jason like his leather so no thanks lol#Duke and Cass in outsiders are cute#jason todd#dc comics#damian wayne#fanart#robin#cassandra cain#duke thomas#inking & background study#Damian is now 14!!!! He's getting old...he's like a baby yesterday omg#I need to stop obsessing over this so i posted a WIP so i can continue writing my fic!!! argh#Im gonna watch youtube tutorials again on drawing bookshelves coz i cannot do this without guidance
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#sorry someone shared this with me and i'm SPEECHLESS i need it on my blog.#911#ryan guzman#oliver stark#I Must Not Do RPF Again. RPF Is The Mind Ki-#no for real this is insane oliver stark holy shit king you've been in the trenches from the START. i was not aware. i was NOT aware.#no offence but now compare this with oliver's recent press junket with uh. someone 😭 i think we're Good !#video#ryliver
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how am i meant to ha wahoo yippee through life in these conditions
#vu talks shit#in this past week i have#gone to urgent care without insurance#paid about half my bills#been reminded that i still owe someone another near 200 for a trip i leave for in TWO DAYS#AND i paid for a rental space for something that i am ADMITTEDLY VERY HAPPY ABOUT BUT STILL SO BROKE NOW#and i have done ZERO grocery shopping#and im not sure i have the money to do grocery shopping right now#but im scared to look at my bank account after shelling out nearly 1k on everything else#AND i have to take my cat back to the vet soon cause she's starting to have asthma attacks again#i need to put everything new in my shop and put shit up for pre order cause i got charms im working on#but mAn i just#cannot afford the distractions rn#vent#AAAAAAAAAAUGH#i didnt wanna put that but i am stressing in the tags now
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Dinner?
Feeling a bit Spirit Halloweenish.
Danny blinked, stared blankly, blinked again before slowly very slowly closed his front door.
A few seconds later Danny opened the door again and once again meet a certain tallish young man, around his age if maybe a few years older, in front of him...
Who was it?
Bruce Wayne....
Bruce freaking Wayne, someone according to what he heard from Sam telling him from what she heard from her parents had apparently just dropped out of med school and was 'in the wind' according to rich elite gossip talks, was at his front door.
........
Why?
Wait... Did he just ask Danny out on a date?
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Bruce Wayne has just dropped out of med school and is beginning his training into becoming the person his city needs him to become. While looking into where he can he remembers how in his teen years the planet was almost destroyed but was saved by a ghost teen hero and looks into it. He digs deep to uncover what happened, uncovering impressive firewalls Amity Park has, etc and finds out about Danny Fenton/Phantom.
He decides to go visit the younger man, who is just about to start college himself, and ask a few questions.
He uhhh... Bruce just wasn't expecting to find Danny very cute (even though he was pretty certain Phantom had been his first male crush when he saw a photo of the teen years ago), and adorable with his owlish stare, and well the first words out of his mouth was
"Would you mind joining me for dinner?"
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#danny phantom#danny fenton#crossover#dp x dc#blue rambles#danny phantom dc#writing ideas#random idea#dpxdc#spirit halloween#Danny x Bruce#Bruce had a crush on Phantom in his teens#and is now in front of Danny and accidentally asks him out#Danny agrees#cause its Danny he totally would#Bruce was suppose to ask hero questions but yeahhh#They do start dating#then have a off/on again thing going for a while#When Bruce starts getting kids does their relationship starts becoming more solid#Though Danny still lives in Amity. Despite Bruce trying to get Danny to move to the manor#Danny I think gets along with most if not all the kids#he's the emotional Dad(tm) those kids need. He has personal rooms for them too.#Whenever Bruce is being a hard/dumbass they go running off to their other dad#btw only Amity knows Danny is Phantom. They're keeping him a secret from the world tbh#Also personal head canon. Talia tried to kill Danny because she knows how much Bruce loves him but they became friends instead#and has a group chat with her and Selina where they talk about Bruce if/when he does dumb shit.#Danny is both their friends cause he has that midwest/Fenton charm
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No context little thing that is based on an actual scene I have in mind for the main comic
I wonder if some of you guys will catch the reference (not that hard I think) and connect the dots to where this whole story is going
This is important believe it or not
#I DREW THIS ON A WHITEBOARD AND THEN I UPDATED THE PAGE AND IT DISSAPPEARED😭😭😭😭HAD TO DRAW THE WHOLE THING AGAIN BUT I WAS TOO LAZY TO#DO IT ON THE WHITEBOARD AGAIN#so now u get this🎉#need to start this comic I really do#I've been avoiding spoiling the MAIN storyline for SO LONG#good thing is I'm gonna finish school definitely in a month so#THAT'S PRETTY GREAT#no more school#more time to draw#forgettable-au#undertale au#papyrus!gaster#undertale#sans#gaster#papyrus is gaster
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what are your thoughts on Harumi x Kuai Liang (I need to see them in your art style)
To be completely honest with you, I’m still neutral to them- but he looked pretty happy in the recent trailers!
#kuairumi#kuai liang#harumi shirai#mortal kombat 1#I kinda always saw Kuai Liang as a lone uncle kinda character#so I think I need to get used to him being a different guy in this timeline#look if they can write him and harumi good.. then no problem I may start enjoying them#but for now it’s more like ‘oooh two pretty people they look nice together’#which isn’t a bad thing necessarily but it makes it hard for me to make art when I don’t have enough info on them as people/individuals#IM RAMBLING AGAIN#SORRY BYE#doodle#my art
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tumblrs being transphobic, with the ceo himself starting an actual harassment campaign against a transfem & also banning transfems who post abt it.
Oh shit, I had not heard about that.
I would like to say I don’t understand why this shit keeps happening, but I actually do understand it way too well. It just makes me so sad and angry. Especially on a site where people find and make their communities.
So much of this is about ego, and the people with power wielding that power to protect themselves and failing to protect others with it. A mere hint of negative sentiment towards them is harassment that is dealt with immediately and harshly, but a dozen complaints about discrimination or threats or bullying take ages to process and frequently come to unsatisfactory moderation decisions.
Whatever the sentiments of the people running this hellsite, you are always welcome in my corner of the internet, wherever you find it. You are all wonderful, and we all deserve to feel that part of this space belongs to us and those to whom we can connect.
Transphobia has no place on tumblr, period. Or anywhere else in society for that matter. It is that which should be being rooted out.
#this is not related to herpetology#except that it is#because trans rights as well as those of every other member of LGBTQ+ affect every field#every fandom#every one#this is the first time ever I have written out a long tag rant and decided it needed to go into the main body of the post instead#meaning I had to type the whole thing again because you cannot easily copy and paste large numbers of tags#But I think it is important to see the full message from the start#rather than relying on someone else to screencap it#which I always appreciate#but not everyone always sees#anyway I am sorry especially to those in the community who are trans and who feel this most acutely#I stand with you#and I think the bulk of the community here does too#and that voice is something the leaders need to listen to#virtue signalling is not enough#actions speak louder than words#okay real tags now for searchability purposes:#about me#tumblr#trans issues#transphobia#transgender
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sometimes, you wake up and your first thought is "I cannot be a person today." often---most of the time---you have to then get out of bed and proceed with being a person, regardless of your feelings on the matter.
but sometimes, occasionally, once in a while....it's nice to email your boss, get back in bed, and go the fuck back to sleep.
#in my defense I do feel like warmed-over mud. but it's the kind of feeling I could push through if I really needed to.#I just decided that there wasn't much of a point.#not on a random friday. I will try again tomorrow.#(sidenote: once you start paying attention to your brain it's amazing how patterns emerge.#for example - guess how many books I've read in the last 48 hours. now guess when I did this last???)#(.....that said some of them were quite good.)#celestial emporium of benevolent knowledge
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pre-transmigration cumplanes because they are the most divorced guys who never met
#svsss#scum villains self saving system#cumplane#cucumberplane#shen yuan#shang qinghua#shen qingqiu#pippart#these guys are so funny. i love sy's one sided parasocial hate relationship with sqh#i think sqh should start writing after transmigration again#and that sy should independently find his shitty writing and scathingly critique it anonymously#i need them to complain to each other about each other without realizing it's the other they're talking about#i think that's what sqq should be doing during the three years binghe got eebie deebied#when sqq dies and sqh stops getting correspondence from his new number 1 hater he's like#“oh boy im so happy i finally wrote something that guy likes. or maybe mbj killed him now that im complaining to him and not sqq about him”#and then sqq revives five years later and the second he has a chance he immediately starts catching up on five years of hate writing
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Just some lil guys getting ready for the day.
#bumfuzzled art#tokoyami fumikage#ojiro mashirao#darkshadow#mha#they’re very precious to me#have a lovely day guys no matter how you start it <3#and now for my regularly scheduled rambling#I should draw more self-indulgent slice of life stuff#and on the other hand#I need to stop drawing smear frames but I can’t help myself#sometimes a boy is just zooming and I can’t visualize it any other way#redrew the second Ojiro panel three times before I just decided to add 11da in it. He deserves a morning buddy#also#Darkshadow working hard#we love to see it#srry for inconsistent artstyle it will happen again#oof the quality got destroyed#edited: 29 August (fixed eyebrows)
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Everlasting A5
#when I tried to post this tumblr signed me out of my account???#all that work and I wasn't even happy with it halfway through but now I love this thang. yay#X's clock hand has no gears on it for lore reasons and not because I didn't wanna draw it I swear#this is actually the first time I've drawn both Abram and Abel. Abram was a darling to draw and Abel had his face redrawn 14 times#I believe it's physically impossible not to make Adam look real pretty in literally anything. plus I took tattoo liberties and I like em#he's barefoot in my heart but unfortunately I cannot draw feet.#anyways. justifications:#Time Duck as an abno has its event centred around what one perceives it to be - a rabbit or a duck#this links to Fau in how it can be unclear when it is her and when it is the Gesellschaft. who she is at any one point is somewhat up to yo#and I think it links very similarly to the A5 - are they truly all one in the same#or are they different people with the same - or similar enough - starting points#especially for X - which is why he's the goopy-est - is he simply Ayin once again or has he changed to the point of being his own person#that goes for every loop's X as well. can the same shape change enough in ones eyes to become an entirely different animal#also the time theme and Fau's corrosion quote 'Thus. You cease to move. Trapped in the stopped time. For eternity'#is an obvious reference to the time loop shenanigans at L Corp HQ#they are all trapped by him in the same 50 days. never to move forward with the rest of the world. for a practical eternity#also doomsday clock on Fau's corrosion is a reference to how A and D keep paralleling eachother and probably know eachother from somewhere#the tremor on the E.G.O is like how each thing that happened brought him closer to the brink [aka the stagger threshold]#and the sinking on the gift [gestures at Abram]#plus the mechanical theme connects to how Ayin looked towards the seemingly infallible idea of the machine in his time of need#fanart#ayin lobcorp#abram lobcorp#abel lobcorp#adam lobcorp#x lobcorp#lobotomy corporation#limbus company#🌑🌘🌗🌖🌕#NEVER DRAW GEARS PLEASE JUST TRUST ME ON THIS ONE IT IS NEVER WORTH IT
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