#notpjo

[ethannku]

had the jumpscare of my life in my russian history lecture today. immediately wondered if natalya goncharova was named after oscar award winning movie goncharov

[sugar-r-rush]

The hair i had as a child has already been cut

[moa-broke-me]

Loneliness and Capitalism.

It sucks how atomized we've all become in capitalist society, how normalized that is, and most of all, how it's become a matter of 'personal responsibility' like everything else.

Obviously nobody's required to like you or be your friend, and obviously if you have a shit personality and are repetitively mean, dismissive, self-centered, et cetera, nobody's gonna wanna hang out with you until you start to work on that, and that's perfectly within their right. But putting aside how personal change isn't as easy as snapping your fingers and becoming a better person automatically, most of the time there's nothing that even needs changing. Not within yourself, anyway.

You may not have enough time or energy to meaningfully participate in social life as a result of grueling hours at your job. Maybe your mental health needs aren't being adequately met because you can't afford therapy/meds, causing you to self-isolate or subconsciously sabotage existing relationships because you don't believe you deserve to be happy, or even to neglect basic hygiene, causing people to avoid you out of disgust. Maybe you're part of a marginalized group (disabled, queer, POC, etc) so people don't want to associate with you, or on the flip side, it's you who doesn't want to associate with them, because you're afraid that underneath their polite plastered-on smiles, they have some ugly bigotries bubbling under the surface, or are willing to excuse their bigoted friends and family.

In all of these cases, you can blame capitalism. It's capitalism that ranks people based on how much and what kinds of labor they're capable of performing, how easily they can be marketed to based on their adherence to the cultural hegemony, how many future laborers they pump out. It's capitalism that makes mental health services so unattainable for so many. It's capitalism that milks as much of your time, your energy, your focus, your labor, out of you as they can get away with.

And yet, we're expected not to notice.

[the-ghost-king]

Was anyone going to say Lil Nas X and Gerard Way were born the same day or did I have to figure that out from a post about Prince Philip’s death?

[solace-seekers]

college board my beloathed <333

[snowe-zolynn-rogers]

Greek Deity Aesthetic: Hades- God of the Dead, the Underworld, and Wealth

[ethannku]

i get so emotional when i see toys in museums because how many children played with it before it ended up here? was it someone’s favorite toy? are those cracks from time or from a child loving it too hard? did a child cling to it in the night when they were afraid? there’s so much love stored in them but now they sit behind glass in museums where no one can touch them, when their sole purpose was to be touched and loved. do they wonder why no one loves them anymore?

[ethannku]

i’m tired of people saying “love” and meaning romantic love. i walked outside the other day and saw snow for the first time in years and the flurries looked so beautiful that i started crying. that was love, to me!! if you don’t think so, that’s you! love is subjective and it can be everywhere and i’m tired of people saying it isn’t and can’t!

[ethannku]

yeah i have bpd. beautiful princess disorder

[ethannku]

i have two (2) separate secret santa fics to write but instead i am writing. smut.

[ethannku]

trick or treat again can i come in this time its so cold and im all alone and completely totally normal

oh wait, you're completely normal??? well that's alright then, come on in!!!

[ethannku]

i wish i had tumblr in 2016 during the height of dan and phil popularity because that must have been such an era

[ethannku]

:(

petition to cancel ethan ethannku

[ethannku]

did you get your username from Ethan Nakamura? just wondering cause i saw his name in text for the fist time in a like a million years today and thought of you

i did actually!!!! i changed my name to ethan bc of ethan nakamura, and the nk is half a reference to him and half an inside joke. but yeah haha good eye

[ethannku]

i’m curious abt something so rb with if your parents kiss in front of you + your ethnicity

[ethannku]

anyone notice that miles doesn’t actually burn the letter until after lionel mentions he should’ve? man had absolutely zero original ideas in this movie