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#im feeling so discarded right now#probably just a split#but damn#the worst part wasnt the breakup itself#it was constant feeling of being pushed away that happened waaaaay earlier#i think its been happening for a year now#and it was not just the ex#twas the good friend we mutually had#their best friend#someone who I also had a deep bond#and both just#stopped talking to me#pushed me away#i was discarded#not worth their time anymore#god this feeling sucks#and I cant say they didnt try#but there was thisbunderlyint feeling they were doing it out of pity#that i was being a burden to have around#i didnt fit anymore#i was a stranger suddenly#and then#discarded#..........#fucking awful feelings that are not even through#im just having a split#hate bpd and how it makes me feel#bloodletting
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me, a responsible being, working on the coding project as I should vs. me, a dysfunctional shithead, getting distracted by reading about brains (once aGAIN damnit (it's my favorite "I need to study my field but bc I should do that it's an impossible unthinkable feat now, so I'm reading about something else to fool my brain I'm still being productive"-topic))
#but after my thesis me & brains have been on a break bc got tired reading abt them during that (bc I had a topic that sorta allowed me to#sidetrack to brain stuff also) but seems I'm over the brain overload now#yay? i guess#also no one who actually studies medicine/brains/etc. yell at me abt wikipedia and like ''why are u studying that like that''#I'm just going through the wikipedia & reading article abstracts path; nothing serious#also my procrastination has reached inhuman levels like it's a full-time job now#bc I have like a chill week's worth of work to do and then I've done the courses for my bachelor's degree#but sending in that ''heyy i'm done with the courses let me graduate''-thing fills me up with sO MUCH anxiety & dread I'm working so slow#now (even tho couldn't send that in for like a month bc gotta first wait the courses to be graded and stuff so in actuality I should#not be slowing down even a bit bc I need to finally be done with this damn degree asap; gotta move on and should've ages ago (it's actually#super bad how late I'm with it (1.5 mf years jesus christ; I'm not even like a little bit proud abt getting a degree anymore like I'm sorta#just embarrassed if I have to tell ppl like ''yea I graduated'' bc dude ?? only now?? u were supposed to be done with that 1.5year#ago what have u been doing (fuck if I know) so I'm keeping it like ''if anyone asks'' basis)))#(the tags and parantheses started a life of their own lol sorry abt that)#studyblr#studyspo#bookblr#booklr#study#november 2024#2024
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Out of all of the people The Ghost King Phantom expected to relate to, it definitely wasn’t the scrawny red headed photographer of the Daily Planet. Jimmy Olsen has gotten so many temporary superpowers over his time being Superman’s friend. Hell, he once gained a 4th dimensional being’s reality warping abilities when he was given said dimensional being’s powers during a fight. Sure there’s a dozen or so heroes with the same amount of powers he has, but none as suddenly granted to them as a all powerful god that can relate to a teenager.
#bones speaks#hi this is bones in the future: below tags I do mean but I was Not Sober while writing them so they may have severe spelling errors#bones prompts#dpxdc#dp x dc#just google the amount of times Jimmy has had powers and what they are. I just read a comic#where the F PLOT of all things is Jimmy getting superpowers and causing havoc in Metropolis. that’s how frequent this is#the all powerful god powers was in a recent Batman/Superman Worlds Finest issue where he got Mxyzptlk’s powers#like guys. there are SO many heroes that have more powers than Danny in DC.#off the top of the dome I can only name a few (in my defense I am Not Sober so memory is Not Good:)#Raven. The Spectre. Superman. The Atom. Batman (temporary powers). Dr Fate. Martian Manhunter#and I could name more if my memory wasn’t shot rn#this is a mini rant in the tags but I’m so tired of the ‘Danny has so many superpowers it would stump DC’#it would for sure shock them. but they wouldn’t be surprised. why are they all so shocked from Danny’s arrival?#I’ve made many posts about how much more interesting Danny simply being in the JL like it’s just another Tuesday would be interesting#so many folks enjoy the discovery aspect of Danny and not the part where he’s alreaady a JL member and is#*isnt OP. it’s so much more interesting to write a character with flaws. make him regular powered and able to be struck down by a Big Bad#and not just his weaknesses. he’s been beaten to shit by ghosts before. the angst possibilities is crazy.#Billy Batson looking at a kid nearly his age get hurt more and more by Black Adam? Fear Gas setting him on a rampage in Gotham absolutely#destroying his perception of what being safe is anymore. Lex Luther finding his weakness and wrecking his shit#it could be SUCH an interesting direction to take dpxdc but no one does. when I write prompts with those ideas they make a fraction of the#notes of the prompts where I pander and have batfam in them. diversity of ideas in fandom is what makes us strong. keep the new and#unorthodox ideas flowing. it feels like you’re swimming upstream but it’s worth it to help a fandom grow
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Doing master studies the only way I know how: Stealing them and making them my guys.
(Barberini Faun)
(The Fallen Angel - Alexandre Cabanel)
(Covent Garden - William Bruce Ellis Rankin)
#obviously. not actually theft...#i was gonna say these are public domain but covent garden actually isnt yet#it will be. in two years.#thats the most different one though like i added a whole new guy..#maybe not the most different. barberini faun is pretty different i just took the post#pose#its barely even a study. thats not true#but. what was i saying.#oh its not theft it's study... the purpose is to learn!!! but also. if im gonna spend like 2 days on something...#its GONNA be my guys#otherwise. idk. i only want to spend 30 or so minutes per study#just to get the notes down and the practice for the skill im working on#i dont get all that much more out of completely rendering a master study. PERSONALLY.#at least definitely not enough to be worth taking 100x longer#but making them my characters makes it worth going all the way!!!#plus it's good practice w like. not just going 1:1 but actually genuinely interpreting whats there so i can manipulate it...#again. personally. this is just how i worm#WORK#youd better worm bitch#uhm... anyways yeah. ive done lots of study but why TF share it LMAO i dont even save it#its just to learn. ive got 1 million other drawings to save and look at later.#once the learning is done it's done its job and i have no need anymore#this is why the only studies i have are from school. i had to save and upload them#well. ok also i dont study as much now BUT in my defense im a full time artist#an hour or so a week is different ok im learning while working too.. i learned how to learn and i do it all the time now#master studies#digital art#my art#illustration#my ocs
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We want to destroy my mother. (insp by @dadrielle)
#critical role#criticalroleedit#imogen temult#liliana temult#laura bailey#matthew mercer#gifs#*#*cr#cr3#cr spoilers#angst tag#cr meta#*meta#scheduled#3h12m c3e88#18m c3e12#3h17m c3e42#3h42m c3e51#4h20m c3e51#1h35m c3e49#i think this gifset might be a little bit unfair to liliana from a third party perspective but#i think it's Very Real for imogen. to feel like she reached out so many times and the loyalty there was so fucking flimsy#barely there to begin with and then gone in an instant as everything turned to red mist#thinking about how laura on 4sd a while ago said imogen is so fucking sick of it she's sick of having that hope#her reality is that her mother no longer has any loyalty to her and the pain of thinking she does isn't worth it anymore#:((((#'help me.' 'this is for the best.' breaks my H E A R T :(((((((((#and matt's fucking Smile afterward. speaks a thousand words#thanks rj for the discord message that kicked this off!!!
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Cleaning out my art folder. Here's some old stuff that I never finished/posted.
For context, first art is old fanart I drew of DeusExMak's Hornet and Lace's human designs. Might redraw it as Silksong's release gets closer. Second is a DunMesh-inspired story I had about fantasy Asian characters going on a journey to the West. Fifth is a quick comic of Akkaapie and I's old DunMesh OCs. The rest is just general fanart I lost steam on finishing.
#my art#wips#personal#fanart#oc#original#there were also some owl house stuff i never got around to posting here but it's not really worth posting now#cuz it's all fandom stuff i'm not involved in anymore. it's up on my twt if you're interested#you can also see around the time i switched from photoshop to csp here. like a timeline lol
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Harry's world/Bad end
Inspired by Christina's world by Andrew Wyeth
#I dont think people talk about the bad end enough#this is the social murder game you guys#i dunno#my health took a bit of a decline recently and my doctor forgot to get me a refill on my meds in time and it got me thinking#disability puts a person in such a vulnerable position#it doesnt matter how well Harry solves the case or how upstanding of an officer he tries to be#one drink is all it takes and he is left to die#he cant even run after them anymore... he doesnt even know where he lives#he's nothing but an addict to them#reduced to an animal... grovelling in the dirt#used for all hes worth and then thrown away once he cant work anymore#ive written about the bad end before and ill get back to it(after my fic about his mom is done) when i get the energy for it#its just so compelling!!#does anybody hear me???#disco elysium#harry du bois#disco elyisum fanart#my art#illustration#also some people in the fandom do NOT see disabled ppl and addicts as people and it shows#ITS THE SOCIAL MURDER GAME
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I don't care how many times the rich & famous talk about how being rich & famous is the worst fate humanly possible I will never ever ever believe them for one milisecond lol
#I love mitski but oh my god ''shittiest exclusive club in the world''...you know the other time ive heard that phrase used?#families and friends of people who killed themselves. we often say welcome to the worst club in the world to new ppl on forums#but yeah im sure the heaps of money and thriving career doing what you love isnt worth it bc sometimes fans are creeps. uh huh#yes this is an extention of my chappell rant no i dont want to talk abt it anymore it just makes me too furious lol#every celebrity rallying around her to throw themselves a pity party godddd i cant deal w/it lol#as I said before i would voluntarily put myself through every saw trap in existence to have what you people have#do you really not know how bad the average persons life is. let alone the least privileged 10% ...#and dont send me asks moralizing about this again i really & truly will not change my mind. these people are fucking ridiculous
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PLEASE THIS IS SENDING ME
#MY FAVES ARE FIGHTIIIIIIING#fire emblem#fire emblem heroes#fire emblem awakening#fire emblem fates#charlotte fire emblem#virion#virion fire emblem#CHARLOTTE HE IS WORTH YOUR TIME I PROMISE#thinking about what this could mean actually...does she just not like his face? his personality??#or can she just instinctively tell virion doesn't actually have noble standing anymore??? 🤔🤔🤔
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fake ep idea + doodles
#i was thinking abt how funny it would be if there was a shiftythrifting blog equivalent in lmk. and half the stuff on there is#submitted by wukong. so i thought a yard sale ep would be funny lol#basically the hoard becomes problem one way or another and wukong figures the best way to get rid of his junk is thru ebay#somehow ends up selling world ending artifacts to random megapolis citizens so mk mei and redson have to scramble to find em#purposely meant to mirror the weekly shenanigans s1-2 style eps that are really goofy (dumpling ep noodles ep etc)#but it gets darker and darker because MK is not fucking ok after that whole thing with the scroll and some unchecked identity crisis#for me id want him to kind of. freak tf out because they have to find MULTIPLE chaos inducing items that could end the world while trying t#be sillygoofy and funny about it. so hes trying to mask his panic with ���ohhh guys its just like the good ol days ^_^ remember that ^_^”#ESPECIALLY after that whole thing with the ink scroll. also mei doesnt buy any of it and is worried for him the whole time#as for the B plot it could be monkey king also trying to be very relaxed abt selling 4000 years worth of stuff and tang getting all huffy#like “these are priceless artifacts that could help us learn so much about the past!! wtf man!!!”#and maybe it reveals smth like wukong not wanting to hold on anymore bc his past weighs him down. and theyre all reminders#i think azure mentioned that wukong is sentimental (idk if that was genuine or lying to mk) so that could be touched on to#so basically. the theme would be some sort of conversation abt nostalgia. i think. im not a writer so its very fuzzy in my head#if anyone wants to add on or include their own spin on it feel free. also included undercut redson as a treat somewhere in there#myart#lego monkie kid#monkie kid#lmk red son#lmk mei#lmk MK#lmk xiaotian#lmk xiaojiao#lmk sun wukong#lmk swk#doodles#lmk tang#lmk pigsy#lmk traffic light trio#yard sale ep
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Please come back to Deviantart and upload all your art!!!!!!!!!
deviantart can suck my whole entire dick and can keep sucking it until they decide to get rid of their AI bullshit
anyway reminder that y'all should join sheezyart
my username there is cozy
#deviantart#ask#doodles#ms paint#dat me#art#lukeisawesome20#looks like i managed to catch the registration window again for sheezyart dhbjsdfbh psychic powers strike again#im done with deviantart. its been nothing but bad decisions ever since wix took over#and then i saw the official staff page promoting AI grifters who were selling generated adopts and making tens of#thousands of dollars a year from them. y'all should be promoting REAL artists. and then i knew i had to leave.#frankly im not even sure i'd go back even When they get rid of the ai bullshit. and i say When because they're being successfully sued rn#its been bad over there i just can't do it anymore. its not worth my time and it shouldn't be worth yours either#any of yours#fuck deviantart
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excuses
#thing ill. never finish#mostly cuz looking at yasopp makes me so angry lol i literally could not stand rendering him i had to leave the whole thing unfinished#maybe thats a little not normal but UGHHH#usopps my fave of all time so idk yasopp just evokes this visceral hatred thats just never gonna leave my heart#hes irredeemable to me sorry#whats worse is that usopp idolizes him so much but i GET it yk. i understand why AND IT HURTS ME EVEN MORE!!!!! so fucking tragic#that this excuse of a father is what he'll have to face in the future. im so sick. USOPP IT'S NOT WORTH IT#op#one piece#art#my art#mintart#usopp#god usopp#yasopp#ig this is technically a wip but it's not rly in progress anymore it's just unfinished#twt liked it tho so im posting it here too bhfkdsj
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just want to take a moment to highlight a gofundme from @safaa18mero:
i've been messaging with safaa. for vetting purposes, her fundraiser has been reblogged by 90s-ghost (though i don't think that necessarily means it's vetted, just unlikely to be a scam), she's been messaging me on whatsapp from a number with a palestinian country code, and when i reverse google imaged her photos only her gofundme showed up.
her campaign is very low on funds - $5,715 out of $75,000 raised.
if you have the means, please donate. i've included some photos sent by safaa of her and her family below:
#palestine#donations#i put all the information i have that makes me believe this fundraiser is real above - i'm not qualified for officially vetting but no one#on tumblr is vetting anymore for fair reason#i did send safaa the link to submit her fundraiser for vetting through the fundsforgaza list but that will take time#even if it's $5 it's worth donating#*
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Me: "I think Jews shouldn't be murdered actually. I also think Palestinians shouldnt be murdered and this whole thing is fucked up"
Goy: "omg you're so Islamophobic you should be appalled with yourself never talk to me again"
#ip conflict#jumblr#antisemitism#leftist antisemitism#zionism#Israel#palestine#like ok? i wasnt planning on talking to you anymore anyway#if your response to me calling out your antisemitism is to set a boundary that i can never talk to you again#then you're not worth the time to have an actual discussion and learn from each other
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jonawagons marcianitos 🌌🛸💕
(og base/reference by @/lilalienz4ever on twt!!)
#speaking of: rubberband lazer was probably what gave me the extra push i needed to make this piece a couple weeks back#the timing was just perfect so i really HAD to make this lol#worth to mention it's also my most popular art piece so far!#reached over 1K likes and over 100 rts on twt in less than 2 days whaaaaaaat#it's just.. wow#lit my most popular piece was that of speedwagon sitting on jonathan's lap which barely passed the 100 likes on twt#and some old pic i made of jona and speebs making out on jona's desk that gathered 320-ish notes over the course of like 5 years here#my art flops a lot on here these days since just a handful of peeps share stuff anymore but lets see how well these little guys do here#also to everyone who always rb my stuff moots or not: i love you all and i hope you're doing great!! wishing you all the best things ever 💖#jjba#jonathan joestar#speedwagon#robert eo speedwagon#jonawagon#jonaspeed#speedjona#speedstar#speedguapo#jojo#jojo no kimyou na bouken#jojo's bizarre adventure#phantom blood#ジョジョ#ジョナスピ#スピジョナ#スピードワゴン#ジョナサン・ジョースター#basurito
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the way tony is so ruthless when he's fighting steve in siberia but then steve actually goes down and tony tells him to stay down but when has steve ever stayed down and this time tony just stands there watching him get back up and we don't get to see tony's face because the iron man helmet is on.... he was probably feeling the most convoluted compound of hurt and hatred and anger and admiration and oh my god i'm going to chew through his titanium gold alloy
i give this movie so much shit but the choice of showing robert's face versus only showing the exterior of the iron man armour in the sibera fight scene is so good because when we see his face either exposed or with the hud (did you know) (do you even remember them) (i don't care, he killed my mom) (so was i) (that shield doesn't belong to you, you don't deserve it, my father made that shield), he's being very human and sympathetic, and to me it kind of shows how steve is also seeing *tony* and we're reminded that tony is steve's friend and a protagonist as well, but when his face is hidden (for example when he blows off bucky's arm and during the whole sequence between "so was i" and steve finally disabling the suit) it's like he's being poised as the villain in the scene but then the helmet comes off in the end and tony's all battered and broken under there too just like steve is and aahhhhhh
what would it actually take for them to break up forever?? i think NOTHING because tony tried to kill james bucky fucking barnes and steve not only never faulted him for it, he sat down and wrote him a letter where his first words were "i'm glad you're back at the compound, i don't like the idea of you rattling around a mansion by yourself" and the last words were "if you need me, i'll be there"???? and tony's bruise hasn't even healed yet when ross calls about the raft prison break and he doesn't think twice about covering steve's ass????? WHAT THE FUC K IS WRONG WITH THEM
#😭😭#THIS IS WHY STEVETONY BREAKING UP & MAKING UP FICS WILL ALWAYS GET US WHERE IT HURTS#and a reason i love endgame/post-endgame so much 🥺#they're just sick of the resentment and they're ready to move on because they can't live without each other either way#and they've been apart for long enough and been through enough to know that it's not worth it anymore#for some time they were both so bitter it almost stopped looking like love#but after so many years all the rancor has worn off and the love is still there#*#text*
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