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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 8 days ago

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Learning to celebrate the little wins!

#fersona #While I don't have the capacity to do Hourly Comics Day #I did journal my day hour-by-hour and the sheer difference in my self-care and routines is *staggering*.#Honestly both Feb 1 2024 and 2025 were rough days...but this year I had a far better outlook on it all.#The funny part is that when I drew this a few days ago I actually *was* celebrating not crying.#Might have still cried on Feb 1st. A meagre 4 times. But I also had lot of good moments!#January is a very hard month for me and frankly I've been in a fugue state for most of it.#Drawing helped me pull through these last 2 years but this year I've been finding myself so upset at how I can't seem to focus anymore.#So updates and posts have been slow. I'm just slow. I'm tired and burnt out from work and grieving.#But you know what? The days I do manage to post; I'm never shamed for how long it took. You're all just as excited and kind.#I'm coming home and eating better and sleeping more and spending time with loved ones.#This is all to say; you can be a lot happier when you realize that life can be taken a little slower.#I'm more grateful that words can possibly convey.#If you related to the mindset of constantly feeling like you've 'failed' the day; please know you have done more than you realize.#I'm struggling with it everyday! I'm in the trenches with you!#Life is too short and painful to not celebrate what you *do* accomplish! It's hard work but it is worth it!#Bit by bit...we will learn to live. *Really* live. And enjoy it!

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why-the-heck-not · 3 months ago

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me, a responsible being, working on the coding project as I should vs. me, a dysfunctional shithead, getting distracted by reading about brains (once aGAIN damnit (it's my favorite "I need to study my field but bc I should do that it's an impossible unthinkable feat now, so I'm reading about something else to fool my brain I'm still being productive"-topic))

#but after my thesis me & brains have been on a break bc got tired reading abt them during that (bc I had a topic that sorta allowed me to #sidetrack to brain stuff also) but seems I'm over the brain overload now #yay? i guess #also no one who actually studies medicine/brains/etc. yell at me abt wikipedia and like ''why are u studying that like that''#I'm just going through the wikipedia & reading article abstracts path; nothing serious #also my procrastination has reached inhuman levels like it's a full-time job now #bc I have like a chill week's worth of work to do and then I've done the courses for my bachelor's degree #but sending in that ''heyy i'm done with the courses let me graduate''-thing fills me up with sO MUCH anxiety & dread I'm working so slow #now (even tho couldn't send that in for like a month bc gotta first wait the courses to be graded and stuff so in actuality I should #not be slowing down even a bit bc I need to finally be done with this damn degree asap; gotta move on and should've ages ago (it's actually #super bad how late I'm with it (1.5 mf years jesus christ; I'm not even like a little bit proud abt getting a degree anymore like I'm sorta #just embarrassed if I have to tell ppl like ''yea I graduated'' bc dude ?? only now?? u were supposed to be done with that 1.5year #ago what have u been doing (fuck if I know) so I'm keeping it like ''if anyone asks'' basis)))#(the tags and parantheses started a life of their own lol sorry abt that)#studyblr #studyspo #bookblr #booklr #study #november 2024 #2024

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evercelle · 1 month ago

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2024 art summary! it sure has been a year

#ever makes art #i bsky tweeted a bit but it feels weird talking there still so ill do my usual rambling into tags here :)c #i burned out super bad in the middle of this year for months where it felt like i couldnt draw anything good no matter how hard i tried #and the harder i tried the worst it felt - to the degree that i legitimately thought i wasnt going to be able to draw anything again #which sounds SO dramatic i know i know. but feelings arent always rational!!! and so many others things were going wrong at the same time #so it was strange putting together this year's art summary and realizing Huh. i did still have paintings to put in every space #that fear/anxiety spiral seems even sillier and more meaningless now that i have distance and proof of how irrational it was...#...but in reflection i'd like to think of it as proof that even when you feel at your worse it's worth it to keep trying...!!#after the Black Hole of Nothing i've been working every day on never ending doujin and xv anthology and orv sketchzine and merch #i can't say that i feel my artistic skills have like. improved or anything... but the passion i feel for the stories i read and #the stories i want to tell is still there!! and the happiness from getting to put form to those feelings large or small is worth it too #anyway......... lotta words to say tho i haven't posted much anymore and socmed is imploding and the world is dark #thank you very much for staying with me another year. i am - as ever - always grateful

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aforgottenthing · 3 months ago

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Tragedy enjoyers when there’s not one, not two, but three combinations of tragic relationships at the center of the narrative AND they’re bisexual

#yes this is about wicked #but feel free to make it about anything else you want it to be #yes I’m thinking about wicked bc of the film but #this is largely just the concept of wicked #anyway. thinking about the tragedy of the core three #they’re so tragic bisexual polycule to me #elphaba x fieryo? ✋🏻😩🤚🏻#elphaba x glinda? ✋🏻😩😩🤚🏻#glinda x elphaba x fieryo?? ✋🏻😩😩😩🤚🏻#hilariously glinda x fieryo is a paring I think only works romantically pre-the force elphaba wrecks in their life #like once they’ve both been Irrevocably Changed By Elphaba I don’t think it works anymore #but the two are forever intertwined with each other and are important to the other. I just don’t think it’s romantic (whatever that’s worth)#anyway. BWAH!!!#thinking about Glinda… thinking about Glinda in no one mourns the wicked… and her blank in what happened to elphaba and fieryo #ok rambling tags over. content tags now #wicked #wicked the musical #wicked the movie #wicked 2024 #elphaba thropp #elphaba wicked #hey who was gonna tell me I’ve been spelling fiyeros name wrong this whole time #glinda the good witch #glinda upland #galinda upland #fiyero tigelaar #glinda x elphaba #fiyero x elphaba #elphaba x glinda x fiyero #glinda x elphaba x fiyero

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stealingyourbones · 4 months ago

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Out of all of the people The Ghost King Phantom expected to relate to, it definitely wasn’t the scrawny red headed photographer of the Daily Planet. Jimmy Olsen has gotten so many temporary superpowers over his time being Superman’s friend. Hell, he once gained a 4th dimensional being’s reality warping abilities when he was given said dimensional being’s powers during a fight. Sure there’s a dozen or so heroes with the same amount of powers he has, but none as suddenly granted to them as a all powerful god that can relate to a teenager.

#bones speaks #hi this is bones in the future: below tags I do mean but I was Not Sober while writing them so they may have severe spelling errors #bones prompts #dpxdc #dp x dc #just google the amount of times Jimmy has had powers and what they are. I just read a comic #where the F PLOT of all things is Jimmy getting superpowers and causing havoc in Metropolis. that’s how frequent this is #the all powerful god powers was in a recent Batman/Superman Worlds Finest issue where he got Mxyzptlk’s powers #like guys. there are SO many heroes that have more powers than Danny in DC.#off the top of the dome I can only name a few (in my defense I am Not Sober so memory is Not Good:)#Raven. The Spectre. Superman. The Atom. Batman (temporary powers). Dr Fate. Martian Manhunter #and I could name more if my memory wasn’t shot rn #this is a mini rant in the tags but I’m so tired of the ‘Danny has so many superpowers it would stump DC’#it would for sure shock them. but they wouldn’t be surprised. why are they all so shocked from Danny’s arrival?#I’ve made many posts about how much more interesting Danny simply being in the JL like it’s just another Tuesday would be interesting #so many folks enjoy the discovery aspect of Danny and not the part where he’s alreaady a JL member and is #*isnt OP. it’s so much more interesting to write a character with flaws. make him regular powered and able to be struck down by a Big Bad #and not just his weaknesses. he’s been beaten to shit by ghosts before. the angst possibilities is crazy.#Billy Batson looking at a kid nearly his age get hurt more and more by Black Adam? Fear Gas setting him on a rampage in Gotham absolutely #destroying his perception of what being safe is anymore. Lex Luther finding his weakness and wrecking his shit #it could be SUCH an interesting direction to take dpxdc but no one does. when I write prompts with those ideas they make a fraction of the #notes of the prompts where I pander and have batfam in them. diversity of ideas in fandom is what makes us strong. keep the new and #unorthodox ideas flowing. it feels like you’re swimming upstream but it’s worth it to help a fandom grow

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deoidesign · 7 months ago

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Doing master studies the only way I know how: Stealing them and making them my guys.

(Barberini Faun)

(The Fallen Angel - Alexandre Cabanel)

(Covent Garden - William Bruce Ellis Rankin)

#obviously. not actually theft...#i was gonna say these are public domain but covent garden actually isnt yet #it will be. in two years.#thats the most different one though like i added a whole new guy..#maybe not the most different. barberini faun is pretty different i just took the post #pose #its barely even a study. thats not true #but. what was i saying.#oh its not theft it's study... the purpose is to learn!!! but also. if im gonna spend like 2 days on something...#its GONNA be my guys #otherwise. idk. i only want to spend 30 or so minutes per study #just to get the notes down and the practice for the skill im working on #i dont get all that much more out of completely rendering a master study. PERSONALLY.#at least definitely not enough to be worth taking 100x longer #but making them my characters makes it worth going all the way!!!#plus it's good practice w like. not just going 1:1 but actually genuinely interpreting whats there so i can manipulate it...#again. personally. this is just how i worm #WORK #youd better worm bitch #uhm... anyways yeah. ive done lots of study but why TF share it LMAO i dont even save it #its just to learn. ive got 1 million other drawings to save and look at later.#once the learning is done it's done its job and i have no need anymore #this is why the only studies i have are from school. i had to save and upload them #well. ok also i dont study as much now BUT in my defense im a full time artist #an hour or so a week is different ok im learning while working too.. i learned how to learn and i do it all the time now #master studies #digital art #my art #illustration #my ocs

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pocketgalaxies · 11 months ago

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We want to destroy my mother. (insp by @dadrielle)

#critical role #criticalroleedit #imogen temult #liliana temult #laura bailey #matthew mercer #gifs #*#*cr #cr3 #cr spoilers #angst tag #cr meta #*meta #scheduled #3h12m c3e88 #18m c3e12 #3h17m c3e42 #3h42m c3e51 #4h20m c3e51 #1h35m c3e49 #i think this gifset might be a little bit unfair to liliana from a third party perspective but #i think it's Very Real for imogen. to feel like she reached out so many times and the loyalty there was so fucking flimsy #barely there to begin with and then gone in an instant as everything turned to red mist #thinking about how laura on 4sd a while ago said imogen is so fucking sick of it she's sick of having that hope #her reality is that her mother no longer has any loyalty to her and the pain of thinking she does isn't worth it anymore #:((((#'help me.' 'this is for the best.' breaks my H E A R T :(((((((((#and matt's fucking Smile afterward. speaks a thousand words #thanks rj for the discord message that kicked this off!!!

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bixels · 1 year ago

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Cleaning out my art folder. Here's some old stuff that I never finished/posted.

For context, first art is old fanart I drew of DeusExMak's Hornet and Lace's human designs. Might redraw it as Silksong's release gets closer. Second is a DunMesh-inspired story I had about fantasy Asian characters going on a journey to the West. Fifth is a quick comic of Akkaapie and I's old DunMesh OCs. The rest is just general fanart I lost steam on finishing.

#my art #wips #personal #fanart #oc #original #there were also some owl house stuff i never got around to posting here but it's not really worth posting now #cuz it's all fandom stuff i'm not involved in anymore. it's up on my twt if you're interested #you can also see around the time i switched from photoshop to csp here. like a timeline lol

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oneday-yourside · 9 months ago

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Harry's world/Bad end

Inspired by Christina's world by Andrew Wyeth

#I dont think people talk about the bad end enough #this is the social murder game you guys #i dunno #my health took a bit of a decline recently and my doctor forgot to get me a refill on my meds in time and it got me thinking #disability puts a person in such a vulnerable position #it doesnt matter how well Harry solves the case or how upstanding of an officer he tries to be #one drink is all it takes and he is left to die #he cant even run after them anymore... he doesnt even know where he lives #he's nothing but an addict to them #reduced to an animal... grovelling in the dirt #used for all hes worth and then thrown away once he cant work anymore #ive written about the bad end before and ill get back to it(after my fic about his mom is done) when i get the energy for it #its just so compelling!!#does anybody hear me???#disco elysium #harry du bois #disco elyisum fanart #my art #illustration #also some people in the fandom do NOT see disabled ppl and addicts as people and it shows #ITS THE SOCIAL MURDER GAME

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tomlivingspace · 26 days ago

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man whatever it just kinda frustrates me that people will say "well it makes sense that the three would be upset with squirrelflight and leafpool BUT" but then proceed to explain that they shouldnt be upset with them. the problem is that when you find out a parent has been lying to you, you're not going to react reasonably. there's shit that doesnt seem like a big deal that completely ruptures a parental relationship because it feels like a betrayal. these are people who you are supposed to be able to have implicit trust in.

so I DONT KNOW it's just frustrating to me. and i'm not saying this in a "why is it always the DADS that are the bad parents" but rather that people are willing to explore complex relationships with a father figure but totally shut down the idea that a character could have a complex relationship with their mother. because motherhood does not automatically make someone flawless or even a good person. but at the same time, being a young mother and making a lot of mistakes and even having a fraught relationship with a child doesn't necessarily mean theyre a completely bad person.

#LIKE I SAID. I NEED MORE PPL WHO HAVE MOMMY ISSUES ON THE CASE I CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE #and btw . it is perfectly worth examining why motherhood is heralded as a sign of being a good person 9 times out of 10 in canon.#and why for most characters motherhood suddenly subsumes the rest of their personality #and that motherhood is assumed to be the natural progression of a female character's life. these are in fact misogynistic trends #and while people use these misogynistic trends as an excuse to then also be misogynistic #i dont think the reaction should be to then. also consider motherhood a sign of whether or not a character is a good person #and to completely base their morality on whether or not they accomplished motherhood alright #and i love exploring the way motherhood changes the way a character interacts with the world #both in how their mother treated them and then how they treat their own child as a mother #so its extremely frustrating that people insist on flattening the experience !!!!!!

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lobotomy-lady · 5 months ago

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I don't care how many times the rich & famous talk about how being rich & famous is the worst fate humanly possible I will never ever ever believe them for one milisecond lol

#I love mitski but oh my god ''shittiest exclusive club in the world''...you know the other time ive heard that phrase used?#families and friends of people who killed themselves. we often say welcome to the worst club in the world to new ppl on forums #but yeah im sure the heaps of money and thriving career doing what you love isnt worth it bc sometimes fans are creeps. uh huh #yes this is an extention of my chappell rant no i dont want to talk abt it anymore it just makes me too furious lol #every celebrity rallying around her to throw themselves a pity party godddd i cant deal w/it lol #as I said before i would voluntarily put myself through every saw trap in existence to have what you people have #do you really not know how bad the average persons life is. let alone the least privileged 10% ...#and dont send me asks moralizing about this again i really & truly will not change my mind. these people are fucking ridiculous

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 2 months ago

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