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Libraries are cool! Anyone want to hear about the books I have on hold at the library right now? Just kidding, you don't have a choice.
The Ballad of Jacquotte Delahaye by Briony Cameron. Adult historical fiction about a Haitian-French, queer woman who becomes a pirate in the 17th-century Caribbean. As a Black Sails fan, I have high hopes for this one.
The Tower by Flora Carr. Adult historical fiction novel about the imprisonment of Mary, Queen of Scots, prior to her execution–supposed to be very character-driven and claustrophobic, also queer I think?
Experienced by Kate Young. Adult romantic comedy about a newly-out lesbian in her thirties whose first serious girlfriend tells her she should go out and explore the queer dating scene she missed out on in her twenties; I've heard it's both funny and heartfelt.
Here For the Wrong Reasons by Annabel Paulsen and Lydia Wang: Adult romantic comedy about two women on a Bachelor-type dating show for fall for each other instead of the male star. I don't watch dating shows, but this is a great premise for a rom com.
A Little Kissing Between Friends by Chencia C. Higgins. Black sapphic romance about a music producer and a dancer at a strip club. I like queer friends-to-lovers and the cover for this is cute (fat Black masc lesbian on the cover, also!)
How You Get the Girl by Anita Kelly. I have grown to love Anita Kelly this year so I'm excited to read their F/F romance! There's basketball and a sort of fake-dating/relationship lessons scheme between the leads.
Housemates by Emma Copley Eisenberg. Adult lit fic about two queer roommates and artists from Philadelphia who go on a roadtrip to photograph rural Pennsylvania. Reviews promise messy yet loveable characters and an exploration of the power of art.
The Ministry of Time by Kaliane Bradley. Adult science fiction novel about a British civil servant offered a job to monitor people plucked from history and brought to the modern times to see how they adjust to the present–specifically Arctic explorer Graham Gore. And falls in love with him? This is a really wild premise for a book but I've seen some very positive reviews and apparently the novel has an interesting exploration of history and colonialism, so I've decided to give it a whirl.
The Hundred Years' War on Palestine by Rashid Khalidi. Nonfiction about Palestinian history.
#worrying number of library holds if they all come it at once but i don't think they will#lulu speaks#lulu reads#books#not tagging all of those lol
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reflection
#anyways so i think samus has major survivors guilt and is a super perfectionist. The type of girl who reimagines scenarios in her mind#And thinks about how she could have done better. like ‘if i had woken up sooner maybe i could have saved everyone in prime 3’#so i think she says she doesnt know anything about herself because shes so hypercritical of her actions she doesnt see herself as a person#while also her hyper critical-ness shows how she says she wants to ignore herself but she literally cant because she has so many criticisms#oh i wanted to include the ppl from the prime 2 manga in that one shot but was like ‘i dont think ppl will recognize them’.#also lol the existence of dark samus would fuck her up SOOOO bad like it only exists bc she exists & its responsible for the gang’s deaths#okay im done rambling tldr MENTAL ILLNESS.#metroid#samus aran#loneart#metroid dread#metroid prime#super metroid#metroid series#i dont wanna tag all the games. There just those games is enough#hall of fame#gray voice
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📸📸📸 (screenshot redraws :D)
#dddaily4sherin#day 271 IT COUNTS#hermitcraft#hermitblr#solidarity gaming#jimmy solidarity#goodtimeswithscar#grian#pearlescentmoon#geminitay#falsesymmetry#isdoodles#screenshot credits from twt replies#someday i should ask you guys on tumblr about these too tbh. shouldn't be all on twt HAJWJJSKA#these turned more into photo studies but i had fun o7#AAAAAA THOSE STREAMS WERE AMAZING#oh god i just remembered i forgot to tag grian fanart on twt rip LOL
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This season, on Hermitcraft...
(speedpaint)
#i never ask for reblogs But this is a special occasion so pretty please reblog reblog reblog! thank you ^_^#hermitcraft#rendog#vintagebeef#tangotek#i'm not tagging everyone :0 those three get tags bc they were the more important ones lore-wise this season#i'm tempted to also tag grian scar and mumbo for the Exposure but i'm not gonna#edit: changed my mind i'm tagging them i have no shame#grian#goodtimeswithscar#mumbo jumbo#mcyt#fanart#special shoutout to hc recap bc i watched all of the recaps for s9 and took a Bunch of notes to figure out what and how to draw for this#(and i still didn't manage to draw everything i wanted to bc of just sheer amount of stuff that happened this season lol)
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I'm so glad the fnaf movie just kept Balloon Boy as this creepy mf. No explanation. Why is he here. Who is he. Who cares? All the jumpscares with him were great
#fnaf#fnaf spoilers#fnaf movie#the movie was great#all the haters just hate fun#i genuinely havent felt that happy as i was watching the movie in a long time#and im going to see it again tomorrow im pretty sure lol#its just#it was amazing#five nights at freddy's#balloon boy#fnaf balloon boy#lol forgot those tags
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Strap in folks, we're gonna have a minisode!!!
First >> Prev >> Next
#good omens#bbc merlin#comic#art#magic omens au#arthur pendragon#merlin#aziraphale#merthur#i promise crowley will have more screentime next part#@ all the people who tagged with lol never seen merlin but I dig this#yes those all are things they've said to each other#do you get it now DO YOU GET IT
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project voltage - hatsune miku icons
#project voltage#hatsune miku#vocaloid#pokemon#vocaloid edit#vocaloid icons#uhh what should i tag this as#mine: all#mine: icons#mine: vocaloid#im going so crazy over those designs i want to edit so much with it#and the concept arts too theres some cute stuff there#might go crazy and post transparents for all of these but i def dont have the time for this lol#anyway. tried to keep the mikus all close to the same side but looking at the icons now. its kinda messy isnt it kjagdkasgdk
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My Bg3 Party with the cutest barbarian and 3 pathetic guys.
#baldur's gate 3#karlach cliffgate#wyll ravengard#astarion ancunin#gale dekarios#boi I love them#pathetic is affectionate I swear#mostly#not when Gale fucks up his cantrips tho#bitch get ur magic right#Guess who Im playing as#WRONG! Im playing 4 diff campaigns ah-hah#as all 4 of them#well one is over lol#I love their interactions I can't help#they cute#and dumb#constantly recycling this party over and over#I love shart and lae too but for now Imma finish those 4#did u really read all these tags?#mycryptidart
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That game about a really old door
#paper mario#paper mario: the thousand year door#pmttyd#not tagging all those characters lol#my art#artists on tumblr#forever and always one of my favorite games
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shipping chart thoughts
(billford always happens and they always break up. ford was obsessed when bill was his muse, then bill is obsessed after they’re no longer together and he realizes what he lost) (this dynamic is just canon, really)
(fiddauthor is always present at some point but in one route they end up together after canon events, and in another route fidd moves on) (it’s possible that they had a thing in college but consider it “typical college experimentation” because it’s the 70s and denial is strong. they still go through canon events)
(fiddlestan only happens during the fiddlestan route. otherwise canon events stay the same and they barely actually interact with each other. in the fiddlestan route they work together in the 80s and grow old together)
(billstan isn’t really romantic but it is a one-sided obsession. bill just can’t stop obsessing over the stans… for very different reasons…) (dare i say an unrequited kismesis dynamic?)
(ford and stan are brothers. that’s it. leave them out of the shipping dynamics.)
(fiddlebill isn’t really included here but i feel like the only way this would happen is if bill was possessing ford and wanted to fuck with fidd by using his crush on ford against him) (this one’s basically only possible if it’s fiddauthor-adjacent)
#do u see the vision#i can’t choose between fiddauthor & fiddlestan so i just have 2 different versions in my head where they both get to be endgame#also i enjoy billford but specifically when they end up in a terrible divorce#bill redemption and billford getting back together is fun and all and i enjoy content about it but. to Me that isn’t how it goes lol#i want that triangle to suffer. amen#billstan and fiddlebill have no shot at getting together in my mind sorry#bill being miserable and hating stan so much he becomes obsessive & being jealous of fidd are funny to me though#anyway. to me both fiddauthor & fiddlestan get to end with them as happily gay old men#lowkey don’t remember if i’ve posted something like this before so if i did then pretend i didn’t#😇😇😇#gravity falls#billford#fiddauthor#ford²#fiddlesix#fiddlestan#billstan#??#fiddlebill#????#i guess?#sorry 😭 not really but i’m talking about those 2 so i’m tagging them#i’m not tagging the brothers though. stay away please#stanford pines#bill cipher#fiddleford mcgucket#stanley pines
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sick and twisted that we started and ended season 2 with such similar shots, except there's now a massive gap between them that wasn't there before. AND THEY'RE NOT ON THEIR USUAL SIDES
#i'm going insane i cannot take this#the parallel between these two shots hit me like a brick wall at 4am#good omens#good omens spoilers#good omens season 2#gos2spoilers#go2 spoilers#gomens spoilers#go spoilers#go2e6#good omens season 2 episode 6#that's gotta be all the spoiler tags surely fdhjdfjhdf#ineffable husbands#ineffable divorce#no nightingales#i'm told those are the angst tags lol#aziraphale#crowley#michael sheen#david tennant#neil gaiman#terry pratchett#i need to lie down im so fucked up over them
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doing chibi is a good design exercise bc it forces u to think on shapes n essential details, essentially thumbnailing ur designs. its also a terrible design exercise bc it ends up looking cute no matter what
#dimension 20#fantasy high#riz gukgak#very specifically class swap bard!riz#fh class quangle#mm. I may need tags for all the asides Ive been doing lmao#riz's canon design is so coherent and thematically clean that I genuinely struggle to keep up...#bard!riz's whole thing is working out his identity through abject fear so it kiiiinda makes sense that hes got a different thing going#on every year I guess? like lmao the directive I go into each of these designs with changes vastly#freshman bard!riz has to look extremely nonthreatening. and also make you wanna pick him up and chuck him at a wall#annoyingly inoffensive. slides off your memory pretty much immediately. a void of an experience#crucially Does Not Show Teeth While Smiling#sophomore year bard!riz I have been keeping the like. cameraman direction for#I want him to be swimming in clothes a little bit... he kinda lands at like. 80s/90s shlocky horror protag too which I do like#bc what is season 2 to riz if not a horror story lmao#junior year bard!riz I want to be somewhere between clark kent and tintin#the journalist aesthetics is not so clear and easy to build as the detective or spy aesthetics...#but also I just. really like boy journalist lmao this is the BD blood speaking again#and! I actually do draw his hair differently than in my canon junior year riz stuff. its a bit shorter here so it doesn't#obscure as much of his face#its so funny actually going from drawing canon stuff to class swap esp. with riz bc he's smiling SO much here#and it's 100% trained like its crucial for u guys to know he is equally if not more fucked up as a bard#barely anybody can wrangle him in canon it's already been mostly him keeping himself on track. imagine if he actually learned how to act#mmm. I think these designs are still gonna soft change as I draw them. thats fine we have fun#drawing sophomore year bard!riz for those comiclets was fun as hell. I think on this factor alone I call it a success lol
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cleaning out the files, sonic sketch edition
#i think the one thing i'll always admire about my art is my lack of consistency lol#my style depends on the emotion or the character or the scene i'm drawing. and i hope seeing how messy my process can be#helps other growing artists out there just get messy with their work. get those feelings out onto a page#fern's sketchbook#sth#not tagging all those characters lol#🦔🦇🤖
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born of root and only root
#worf drew something?#. this feels unfinished to me LOL but i dont wanna do all those branches#pioneer: vessel#hk#hollow knight#hk vessels#hk vessel art#hk art#actual daily#artwork#illustration#// ask for tags#< you know sometimes i just draw things and never think of the implications#// trypophobia#< not exactly but i feel like it triggers something similar#// body horror
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tenjiku with a reader who is totally opposite to them hehe
Tenjiku x Opposite!Reader
♡ SFW, fem reader, fluff, mentions of violence/fighting, mention of Sanzu ♡
Characters: Izana, Kakucho, Ran, Rindou, Mucho, Mochi, Shion
note: thanks for requesting anon 🩷 sorry it's so late lol
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Izana
🎴 Izana is cold, manipulative, and downright vindictive
🎴 So it was very odd that he ended up catching your eye, because why would someone so sweet and naive want his crazy ass?
🎴 Treats you differently than everyone else around him because in his eyes you're a precious angel and need to be treated with the utmost care
🎴 If someone so much as disturbs a hair on your head, he's kicking (and breaking) their hand
Kakucho
🩷 Kakucho is an absolute sweetheart and wouldn't hesitate to protect the people he cares about, including you
🩷 He's the rational one and you honestly act like Izana, impulsive asf
🩷 He keeps you in check and scolds you when you do bad things
🩷 Constantly telling you to check your attitude
Ran
💜 Ran is a lot more out there than you fr
💜 He's outspoken and won't hesitate to beat someone up, but he's also lazy as all hell
💜 You're way more energetic and always wake him up early (which he hates) and you tend to avoid confrontation with other people
💜 Which is why your guard dog of a boyfriend is always by your side to kick some ass for you
Rindou
🩵 Rindou is pretty introverted and standoffish, apart from when he's fighting of course
🩵 You're way more extroverted and always try to introduce him to new people and take him to different places
🩵 You teach him how to be more outgoing and social, and he shows you how to not give a fuck lol
Mucho
💙 He's big and serious (also seriously big 😮💨)
💙 The size difference is almost comical, not to mention the fact that you're really carefree and seem to not be bothered by anything
💙 You're probably the only one who can get him to crack a smile
💙 Introduces you to Sanzu because he feels like you two would get along (immediately regrets it because you're a bad influence on Sanzu 😭)
Mochi
🍡 This man is a damn giant compared to you lmao
🍡 Always carrying you around on his back or shoulder
🍡 He's a lot more cheerful than you, especially when he's fighting other people
🍡 The type of man to play fight with you to cheer you up and accidentally hurt you in the process 😐
Shion
♥️ Shion is a total dumbass (+ an absolute dork), so he felt like the luckiest man alive when he bagged you
♥️ You're way too smart and responsible for him, but that's a good thing
♥️ You keep him out of trouble and teach him good habits
♥️ You also patch him up after fights and scold the hell out of him, but he wouldn't want it any other way
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Taglist
@arlerts-angel @i-literally-cant-with-this @trevengersprincess @giugiette @katkusuo @happy-trenchcoated-impala @drunkcheesecake @darkstarlight82 @reiners-milkbiddies @manji-hoe
#tokyo revengers headcanons#tokyo revengers x reader#tokyo revengers fluff#tenjiku x reader#izana x reader#kakucho x reader#ran x reader#rindou x reader#mochi x reader#mucho x reader#shion x reader#pretend I put all those fluff tags lol I'm lazy asf#these men have my heart...among other things lol
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Part One
The drive's short one.
Steve gets out of his car, opening the passenger door for Chrissy and escorting her up to the house, quietly envisioning what Jason would look like if a real monster got him.
What would he say, staring down the crazy, five-starred head, filled with teeth and drool? Would he turn back? Or run?
(Steve swears he doesn't take great pleasure in imagining Carver getting eaten, but he'll admit to taking a little.)
"Chrissy do you have any idea--oh." Mrs. Cunningham startles, grasping her robe at the front as she spots Steve standing next to her daughter.
"Hi Miss Cunningham." He says.
"Hello." She says suspiciously. "And who are you?"
"I'm Steve Harrington, ma'am." He watches as her mother straightens immediately at his name, and sinks right into the ol' Harrington charm, knowing instantly it will work. "I know you were expecting Jason, but I'm afraid he wasn't able to drive Chrissy home."
"Oh, Steve! It's so late I almost didn't recognize you." She titters, suspicion gone. "Your mother and I are on the same charity board."
Of course they were.
"I thought you were dating that nice Nancy girl." She says with a squint that mimics Chrissy's, because even in the midst of a crisis he can't escape the gossip that is Hawkins upper echelon.
"Nance is waiting in the car." Steve lies smoothly. "I just wanted to make sure Chrissy got home safe."
"What happened?" Chrissy's father appears, ushering them both in while blatantly peering around them, eyes sweeping the street before closing the door.
Steve recognizes the move. He's checking for nosy neighbors.
"Jason and I broke up." Chrissy admits.
"What?"
"We..." She falters in front of her parents.
"What happened to Jason?" Her father asks, tuning back in once they're safely away from peering eyes.
"I'm afraid Jason and some of his friends brought beer to the party." Steve steps in to explain.
"Oh Chrissy, it's a high school party. That's no reason to break up with him." Her mother fusses, face flushing in embarrassment. Her eyes dart from her daughter to Steve and back, and Steve knows he needs to start damage control.
If he plays it right he can burn Jason while he's at it.
"He was horrible, mom. Just awful." Chrissy says, but Steve can tell she's shrinking under her mothers gaze.
"He drank quite a lot, Miss Cunningham." With a theatrical wince, Steve turns to face Chrissy's dad, lowers his voice and says "I'm going to have to talk to Coach about it."
He gets the intended response, which is a raised eyebrow. "That bad, huh?"
Steve nods once, painting a pained smile on his face. "He made a real fool of himself tonight, Sir. The basketball team has a reputation to uphold."
"Oh." Mrs. Cunningham says, hand fluttering in front of her face. "I never would have thought…"
"He's normally a good guy. I don't know what got into him." Steve has them both eating out of the palm of his hand, attention neatly off Chrissy and onto the story he's feeding them.
Its worth it to see her shoulders relax.
"I couldn't let him take Chrissy home in the state he was in Sir, and he got very…"
Steve pauses.
Fills his voice with tempered disappointment, channeling his dad. "Belligerent. Said some nasty things."
"Really?" Mr. Cunningham says, with a low whistle, and Steve knows by his tone alone that he's bought in.
Hook, line, sinker.
Steve nods once. "I have to get back to my girlfriend, but Chrissy'" He turns earnestly here, to let her know he's not faking this next bit. "Let me know if Jason bothers you at school. I'll set him straight again if I have to."
"Thank you Steve." Mr. Cunningham says, as Chrissy's mom hustles her daughter towards the kitchen.
Steve shakes his hand, then waves at Crissy as she calls her own thank you over her shoulder, before disappearing out the door and back to his car.
The same one where Nancy very much isn't.
That's a problem for tomorrow Steve.
xXx
Tomorrow Steve gets into an argument with Nancy.
She can't recall that Jonathan took her home, or that he's bullshit, their whole relationship, bullshit--
But she also can't tell him she loves him.
So Steve snaps at her. Storms off.
Play’s more basketball.
It takes less than two hours for him to get mopey and another three for him to spiral into deciding he was wrong somehow.
That's what his mom said all the time anyway, wasn't it? The man's always wrong Steven, and he's the man here so…
He gets flowers, chocolates, and fucking waylaid (by Dustin Henderson with his Grow a Monster) and things go sideways from there.
Train tracks and a junkyard and demodogs make time speed up. An encounter with Billy and a dinner plate causes Steve's recollection of the evening to be fuzzy.
He just knows that in the middle of dodging death, he has the realization that Nance wants to break up with him.
That he should let her.
Even if it hurts, even if he doesn't want to.
She wants to be let go.
So Steve does. He respects her, and when he has a moment after its all over, he tells her to go with Jonathan.
(At least he permanently gets the squirts out if this. Or at least everyone but Mike.
Even if most of them are shitheads and one of them's Hargrove's step sister.
It's--something.
But when Dustin keeps pestering him, demanding Steve drive him all over Hawkins and then drags him to the movies, well.
It might be the best something Steve's had in his life so far. )
xXx
"Oh shit. Is that from Caver?" Eddie asks, popping up near Steve's car like the clown in a jack in the box.
"Carver can't hit for shit. This was Hargrove." Steve replies, attempting an eyeroll before remembering that his entire face is a bruise.
One, giant, never ending bruise.
"I guess his step sister gave him the slip to come hang out with these kids I watch sometimes. I didn't know she wasn't supposed to be there." Steve shrugs, because it's the technical truth.
If you turn it sideways and squint anyway.
"Asshole tried to threaten the kid Max is into by slamming him into a wall and screaming shit, so I stepped in, and--" He waves at his face.
The same one he's already getting looks for.
"I was winning." Steve sighs theatrically. "He broke a plate over my head."
The story seemed to freeze Eddie but he recovers with a quick shake of his head.
"You poor thing." He tuts. "Let me guess--you were more worried about the hair than the wound?"
Eddie's hands flutter like he's going to touch Steve's head but he seems to contain himself at the last minute.
The hospital threatened to buzz it for stitches." Steve says darkly, playing into the bit.
(He had not gone to a hospital.
None of them had.)
"What would our King be without his crown of hair?" Eddie laments, in a falsetto that was half insult half oddly sincere. It was jarring in that it was hard to get a read on, but the more Steve was around the guy the less it seemed malicious and the more it came off as just….goofy.
Eddie Munson, Steve decided, was not a freak.
He was a dorky little weirdo, just like all the other kids Steve now hung out with.
Just older, and with slightly better hair.
"Hey Eddie." Another boy calls out, approaching cautiously.
He's got a leather jacket on, and if Steve thinks hard enough he can sort of conjure up a memory of the guy at Eddie's lunch table, throwing a piece of bread at a pale sophomore decked out in plaid. "You good man?"
"Yeah Jeff, just checkin' in on the Hair here." Eddie sticks a thumb towards Steve, who raises his hand and waves.
The falsetto comes back, somehow higher as the older boy swoons over Steves arm. "Soothing his poor soul after that brute Hargrove almost killed him."
"Has anyone ever told you you're a lot like Bugs Bunny?" Steve asks, the thought leaving his mouth the instant he had it.
(He doesn't care, it's a legitimate question.)
It has the effect of making Munson look downright chuffed. "I have actually, but only by my Uncle."
"Why are you checking in?" Jeff interrupts, before seeming to realize he said it out loud. " Ah, I mean--"
"Oh he didn't tell you?" Steve says, as casually as he can muster. "Eddie claimed me and Chrissy at a party last weekend."
See Munson? Two people could play the weird bit game.
They've attracted more of Eddie's friends now, two more boys in leather jackets edging closer like frightened deer.
(One of which is the aforementioned younger man Jeff threw bread at, and Steve vaguely thinks the guy's name starts with a g.)
"Apparently we're his minions now." Steve tells Jeff in a rather put upon manner.
"It was just you, the fair maiden chose otherwise." Eddie counters dismissively, voice dropping down low.
Steve snorts. Hums a sarcastic; "Like you'd let us choose."
Eddie finally abandons whatever voice that was supposed to be (a villain, Steve thinks, and wonders if it hurts Eddies throat to drop from a false high to a deep low that quickly.) to say:
"Mock me all you like, Harrington, but you can't deny the bit worked."
Steve automatically went for another eye roll, and gets a flash of pain for it. "Who said I was mocking you, you dork? Just stating facts."
Yet again, Eddie reacts weird to the comment. He looks almost bashful for a second, before he recovers, tugging his hair in front of his face as he plays with it.
The bell rings once in warning, and Steve makes a face towards the doors.
"I gotta go, Mrs Clicks out to fail me. See you around, Eddie. Jeff." The way his eyes are bruised up he can't quite make out the face Jeff makes at that, but Steve's pretty sure the guys mouth was open.
"She's a nasty one, my minion, best stay on your toes around her." Eddie calls, and Steve waves a hand in the air to show he heard.
"What just happened?" Jeff asks, far too loudly for how close Steve still is.
It makes him chuckle a bit, even as one of the other guys says something in a far quieter voice that has Munson squawking and flapping his arms like a bird.
The winding little feelings in his chest squeeze his heart, and Steve shakes his head, refusing to be fond of Eddie Munson.
xXx
College rejection letters come in, one after the another.
Steve could have made it into a few schools he's certain, except he hadn't really applied to any.
Not that any college other than Penn Hurst mattered. His dad wanted him to be a legacy, come hell or high water.
Steve's punishment was hand picked by his parents, and he gets the sailor outfit his new minimum wage job requires is supposed to be a part of it--that his dad made him apply because it was the most embarrassing thing he could think to subject Steve too-- but honestly?
It's not that bad.
Not even with Robin, the manager he met yesterday, and who positively, completely and totally, hates Steve’s guts.
He figures he has time to win her over.
All the time in the world, now that demons aren't trying to eat his, or any of the kid's, faces. He can focus on the small things. Build himself back up.
Figure out the person he wants to be, now that he's no longer King Steve.
It’s the thought that kept him from attending any graduation parties. To go felt like backsliding into old habits.
‘If the kids--if it comes back again--’
Getting drunk at night in a random house seemed almost irresponsible.
Particularly not with people Steve has history with, without anyone he really cares about being present. Certainly not Nance and Jonathan, who he wishes he didn’t know are at some end-of-year game night one of Nancy’s friends is hosting.
(Steve can’t think about that for a number of reasons.
When he does--because of course he does-- he makes sure to focus on the weirdness that is Jonathan Byers being someone he cares about, instead of the fact he can’t seem to kill his love for Nancy.
Or that he's horrifically jealous of their relationship.
That the best sleep he had ever had was between them, two nights after the lab, when they crammed themselves into Jonathan's bed because they all couldn't quite believe it was over.
That night had been so incredibly weird, but grouping together felt safer. Smarter.
Better.
Not in a way Steve wants to put into words.
Not in a way he wants to confront at all.)
His parents hadn’t been able to make it home to watch him walk at his graduation--his father landing a last minute meeting with some important person or other.
Faked apologies were given, money transferred, and Steve, not wanting to sit in his too-huge house, had meandered to Family Video.
Tried to forget his father’s cold voice in the background of his mother’s call, loudly announcing he’d have made it a priority to see Steve graduate-- if he’d gotten into Penn Hurst.
Steve just shakes his head. Pushes those thoughts into the back of his head, into the same place all his other weird thoughts live.
The glare he gets from the tall, pimple-ridden guy working the rental counter was expected.
Chrissy Cunningham, was not.
"I thought you’d be at one of the parties.” He tells her, when he turns down the romance aisle and finds her staring blankly at a shelf.
She startles, before recognition flits over her face and a warm smile is directed his way.
“I'm honestly not a fan of parties." She confides in him, hand clutching a tape in her hands."Not those kinds, anyway.”
"More slumber parties, less keg stands your speed?" Steve guessed, blatantly turning his head sideways in order to read the title.
She awards him with a wider smile. "Exactly."
"Chrissy Cunningham. Are you renting Jaws?" He teases, leaning in just a touch.
She flushes, but turns and squares up to him. Steve's delighted to see it.
"Why yes I am. I'll do you one better and even admit it's one of my favorite movies."
Steve grins at her, and sees the way she lights up on response, eyes bright.
This is the Chrissy that Carver had tried to kill. The strength and pure fun that radiates off her enhances the beauty she has to something almost otherworldly.
Steve has seen enough beauty in his life to recognize when it will stay. That Chrissy wil one day be 80 years old, with gray hair and knit sweaters, and she'll still be able to light up a room.
"Like sharks killing people that much huh?” He teases. And it’s easy, slipping into this part of himself around her. The part he’s been trying to get back.
The confidence that he walked with, before monsters crawled out of the ground, and Nancy put a hole in his heart.
"I'll let you in on a secret. ." Chrissy leans in, dropping her voice low enough that Steve has to lean in a bit too to hear. "My favorite character is the shark."
Steve playfully gapes at her, and for the first time in a long time, feels like things will be okay.
He’ll be okay.
He won’t be King Steve. He’s not Nancy's Boyfriend Steve either--but someone else. Himself.
A Steve who exists outside of Hawkins High, outside his family name.
He likes it.
"I told you that was his car. Steve!" A too familiar voice calls and Steve can't mask the despair that hits him as he turns to his (now least) favorite shithead, whose storming through Family Video’s doors.
"Dustin." He identifies, with an edge to his voice he can only pray Chrissy doesn't pick up on. "Other brats. What are you doing?"
Mike stands stubbornly at Dustin's right, Lucas nervous at his left.
Will Byers is situated next to Mike but Steve's not as familiar with him, and has no idea how to interpret the kid.
If he had to guess based on the face he’s being sent, Will’s more nervous then the rest--but equally determined.
(This does not make Steve feel better. It in fact, somewhat convinces them they’ve run headfirst back into trouble.)
"Well we were going to go to Lucas’s, but now, we're bumming a ride from you!"
"I'm busy." He says flatly.
"Ste~eeeve!"
"I didn't know you had a brother." Chrissy says, hand covering her mouth.
Looking back at her, Steve's pretty sure she's trying to physically hold back laughter.
If one could shoot lasers with their eyes, Steve would be nailing Dustin for ruining--whatever it was that was happening here.
"He's a rescue" Steve says flatly. "It’s not working out though. We're planning on returning him to the shelter.”
"Wow Steve." Dustin returns, offended. "First of all, if anyone's rescuing anyone I rescued you, or did you suddenly forget that you show up to family dinner every Thursday at my house like a sad orpha--mmpphh!"
‘Mmpphh’ because Steve had taken several long strides across the store to smack his hand over Dustin's mouth.
"Sorry Chrissy, it would appear the asshole children I am paid to babysit escaped whoever is supposed to be watching them." He shakes Dustins head, in lue of strangling him. “Hit me up later we’ll discuss the shark’s best kills.”
“Will do.” Chrissy says, as Steve begins the process of shoving his four smaller friends out the door. “Drive safe!”
“No you don’t, and you’re gonna prove it by swinging through McDonalds for us.” Dustin sing-songs, swinging himself into the passenger side of the Beemer.
“You assholes owe me, big time.” Steve hisses, as Lucas and Mike instantly begin making kissy faces the second they’re out into the parking lot. "I had plans tonight!"
“Do you have McDonalds money?” Steve asks, only to immediately wince at himself because fuck did he just sound like a soccer mom.
“I have money I took out of my mom’s wallet.” Mike says as he settles into the car with his friends.
“Fine.” Steve sighs in defeat, starting the car.
He determinedly does not ask if the idiots walked here, because there is a suspicious lack of bicycles, if only because he hit his mom quota for the day and Steve refuses to say anything else that might edge out his cool persona.
The one he swears he still has.
Supposedly.
("Does my mom really pay you to watch me?" Dustin asks a while later, when the other brats are distracted. His voice is painfully honest, and softer than it normally is.
"In food, yes." Steve says, because he’s not that much of an asshole--and maybe, because Dustin is truly his only friend right now.
Steve honestly looks forward to those Thursday dinners, helping Ma Henderson and having her fuss over him in a way his parents never had.
In a way no one ever had.
Dustin lands a solid kick to his ankle, making Steve curse. "That's not payment you ass!"
"Ow, God Dustin--"
"Just admit you're my actual friend, you dick!"
"Language! I swear your mom stole you from wolves, you animal--" Steve swatted at him.
Maybe, possibly later, he will go on to admit that yes, Dustin is his friend.
He will even agree to making up a stupid handshake for it.
It involves lightsabers and gore at least, which Steve insists is very cool.)
#BB is coming down to the wire#my date to post is Halloween#bc its me lol#so our regularly scheduled programing will be back shortly#steddissy#steve harrington#eddie munson#stranger things#0o0 fanfics#steve/chrissy/eddie#for those weirdies who kept insisting this was platonic in the tags you can read this part too and be happily delusional about the endgame#its a slowburn#my calling card lmao#this fic was meant to weave around the canon plot until s4 wherein we go off the rails#this is an everyone lives fiiiiic#theyre all equally dorky with crushes#Steve has some Im Just Ken issues#angst
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