#not necessarily bad jsut like idk

[clamsjams]

ok i’m deep in my thoughts now but i feel like it was kinda a bad decision to give the new players/the players that lost eggs new eggs. like it’s cool that they wanna give them that so they don’t feel left out but like there was so much potential in having a new group of players that are less attached and less into the eggs (like how bagi was at first) that was just completely and totally lost

[nerves-nebula]

revenge is actually dope as hell the only issue is that you have to have some idea of what you wanna do afterwards and like, probably a support network too. cuz otherwise you'll be lost after devoting yourself entirely to it, but that's not an issue that *only* happens with revenge so idk why people act like it is.

[itsalwaysdark]

also im so sick of the acne like its so annoying and its such bullshit bc im not on t anymoreee i havent been for months so can we wrap it up I know my hormones r all over the place bc i was on and off t so willynilly for a while but now i have been off t for like. literally a year atp i think. so we should be settled and that means acne you may leave

[forecast0ctopus]

Any advice on drawing McCoy? I’m not used to drawing ancient wrinkley bastards (affectionate) and it’s surprisingly tough v-v

FOR SURE lmao i made. a diagram. just a warning that i am going to be irritating and long winded because u just hit a topic i really like sorry lmao

so first off i did some traces just to show whats there vs redraws to show my interpretation

ive said this on other asks but again jsyk, tracing isnt bad!! its a tool. theres some stuff with intellectual property and whatnot but using tracing to study shapes and forms is a really valuable practice.

also just taking some time to learn facial structures and anatomy is super useful, reading what bones and muscles are where and how they interact with one another. taking this info and staring in the mirror and moving your face around and thinking about it. just really furthers understanding of how the face works. trying to sound normal about this but i love anatomy and motion and physics and whatever

anyways im going to go through all the numbered points so there's no confusion. 1. forehead lines - self explanatory. more prominent when brows are raised 2. crows feet - at the outer corners of the eyes, more prominent when smiling or squinting 3. nasolabial folds - the folds that go from the corners of the nose to the corners of the mouth. more prominent when the mouth is wide, like smiling 4. brow furrow - self explanatory, most prominent when brows are furrowed. mccoy tends to have two right next to his eyebrows, kirk has one in the middle. everyones face works different lmao 5. chin crease - caused by how the chin and lower lip interact. 6. nasojugal groove - start from the inner corners of the eye and can extent over the cheeks. everyone has these and idk why people dont like them i think theyre really cool!!!! but Society. i guess. :/ 7. eye bags - caused by the skin sagging beneath the eyes. mccoy isnt even that old in tos i think hes meant to be mid 40s by the end of the 5 year mission, hes just got really prominent eye bags lmao 8. idk what the name is for these, but when the mouth is wide and pushes the skin to the sides, these folds sometimes form outside of the nasolabial folds 9. philtrum - the groove above the upper lip. i dont usually draw this but mccoy's struck me as prominent enough that i usually draw it on him 10. masseter - the muscle that moves the jaw up and down. its a pretty rugged muscle and while i wouldnt say mccoy's is especially prominent, it kind of extends that nasojugal groove from certain angles/positions 11. orbicularis oris - mouth muscle, usually easier to see when lips are pursed or frowns are pulled. mccoy's is pretty prominent from 3/4ths or side, his mouth tends to protrude in profile 12. this isnt a muscle but more of a line defining the planes of the face, but since i drew it i felt i should explain lmao

a few points:

im an animator i tend to exaggerate and emphasize certain things so i usually make him more square.

i like to combine eyebags and crows feet for brevity/flow, same with nasojugal grooves, eyebags, and masseter lines. my approach is always subject to change based on pose, expression, reference image, etc.

i take out details that i deem redundant or cluttering and keep what details i need to make things feel Right

all this info is applicable to any character of any age, its just in how you apply it and facial proportions that willl change how old a character is perceived to be

there's a lot more with drawing a Character rather than an Actor, just because the features are there doesnt necessarily mean things will feel correct? its very much in the mannerisms and poses and expressions

i only went over my approach to his likeness but not really body type or posing or anything idk if u want that i could always try to answer that later haha

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anyways all that info kind of exists nebulously in my brain while i draw its not like im sitting there thinking Must Draw. Nasolabial Fold...... i jsut do what feels right with the visual info i have. also i love specificity in faces.... i dont like to be a hater but when every character is drawn the same it pisses me off a little lmao. so

also dont take my word as The Only Way to do anything i just draw how i like to draw and no one should feel like these are things that Must be done to be a good artist or anything do whatever the hell u wanna do

[pineappleciders]

hey!! i saw that ur writing reqs were open and i was wondering if u could write (platonic) hcs of the main 4 finding out their friend, reader, is trans ftm?

++reader transitioned before meeting the main 4 and is afraid of revealing it to them, worried that their relationship as friends might change somehow or they might not even see him as a guy anymore

take your time!! i love ur writing btw !!!!!!

sp main 4 finding out reader is trans ftm

A/N: thank you so much!!! i can do a mtf or nb vers for anyone who wants it :) i'm sorry if anything is offensive or anything!!!

TRIGGER WARNING: some transphobia on cartmans part (i know this sounds bad but jsut read it😭) and probably some talk about dingalings and hoohas (very briefly)

stan marsh

he's curious about it!! like he'll ask a bunch of questions about how you found out and what it means and stuff

he honestly probably doesn't know a lot about it before u explain it to him. like he knows people are transgender but he never learned about gender dysphoria or why people transition

he might ask a few,, personal questions. he genuinely doesn't mean to be rude or weird he's just curious !! will stop and apologize if you are uncomfortable

"seriously, you don't look like you were born a girl. i never would've been able to tell."

it might make him question his own gender??? like he might talk to you about it sometimes and he explains it as 'not really feeling like either a boy or a girl'

other than that he doesn't really care, like he doesn't treat you any differently. honestly he probably forgets it if anything😭😭 like in the T.M.I. episode he asks why you aren't lining up to get ur wiener measured and then he's like oh yeah oops i forgot💀

kyle broflovski

"oh. really? like, actually? huh."

he's honestly just confused as you've never said anything about it before. he might ask why you didn't tell him but when you explain he understands and tells you he wouldn't view you differently no matter what

"i mean, i think it's stupid that some people deliberately go out of their way to misgender people. like, you've been a boy and i've always seen you as a boy, so why would i purposefully make you feel bad? that's just stupid!"

he appreciates if you teach him a bit more about it, 'cause he doesn't know a whole lot

i feel like he'd purposefully do more,, boyish things with you???? like he invites you to play football or play video games more or like idk. do boy things.

he doesn't do it to single you out, he just really wants to make sure you feel like you fit in with the rest of the guys, so he's always inviting you to meetings with the dudes and treating you like a brother

eric cartman

i feel like there are a lot of different ways this could go, but mainly i feel like he's never actually going to view you as a girl?? if that makes sense

like he'll make fun of you and probably tease you (similar the whole sand in kyles vagina thing and calling him ms. broflovski and shit yk??) but no matter how much he tries to crack transphobic jokes he still sees you as a guy

he honestly might be a little uncomfortable at first because he feels like you're 'a spy for the girls'. but he quickly gets a stern talking-to from kyle and at least doesn't voice that opinion anymore

either way as much as he hates it he still sees you as a dude, if anything it just makes him uncomfortable to think about ur (or anyones) sex so he just goes with the flow. literally dress up as anything and he'll treat you like it. he doesn't want to put that much effort into caring

so yeah he makes fun of you and misgenders you but not in a genuine way. he can try but he still views u as one of the guys so he just accepts it and moves on. again he doesn't care enough to dwell on it

kenny mccormick

he might ask a few questions like stan but he genuinely on god fr doesn't care. it literally does not affect his view on you at all

he doesn't necessarily fully understand what being trans means but he doesn't really need to to understand that u are what u are. like if ur happy being a dude then be a dude he doesn't get what's so hard to grasp for some people

kenny isn't really one for labels. he also hasn't really explored his gender and stuff and honestly?? he doesn't plan on it. it just doesn't matter to him, he's fine with just living his life (when he's actually alive and living it)

even if he does have a few erm personal questions he keeps them to himself. he knows it could be a touchy subject and he really just thinks that whatever you were born as isn't any of his business

he will defend u whenever you face harassment from certain people, like he honestly just tells them that it's not their business and to fuck off. he mostly jumps in because he knows it probably hurts to hear stuff like that and tries to tell you that it doesn't matter what other people think, all that matters is that ur happy in your skin :)

[faux-mance]

so nice to be posting my own thoughts since I just reblog 99% of the time

anyway im not a big shipper in terms of romantic or sexual pairings … or like … in general ….

I like hcing charactets with as buds but also more ambiguous or undefined relationships so i wanna talk about some ships i actually Do Enjoy in utmv ^_^ Plsplspls do not take these romantically for the most part Im so fucking aroace

geno & murder (dust)

imo my absolute favoritest … SUCH a rarepair, i dont think I even See these together like, Ever. but geno’s my favesie ever and I have some heavy thoughts about his similarities with the bad sanses (esp horror and dust). I like thinking about these two before the actual events of Aftertale (so when geno is alone in the save screen) I don’t think they’d get along at first at all. Geno would fucking hate murder for intentionally killing papyrus, no matter if its hypocritical of his own plans of erasing their world. But I think with a mediator they would get along extremely well. Probably not on their own though

I also thinking they are EXTREMELY interesting narrativr parallels. I have so many thoughts about geno’s mentality doing a complete 180 of actual Sans in genocide that we see in undertale, and the differences between him and murder as well. I could make a huge post about these two ALONE honestly. I could make a million posts about them. also need to figure out a ship name for them.. i called them redscarf for a while but i could do better

I do like romantic interpretations of this one but No One Is Allowed To Do It Except Me. you jsut dont get them like I do 👿

bad sanses (-nightmare)

im gonna be honest this stemmed from me being a kross fan (though I dont always include cross in this ship… sometimes its just mtt) but then I thought about the bad sanses as a whole. i am a heavy enjoyer of Nightmare Is A Shitass And His Gang Fucking Hates Him. I think they would all end up escaping him and find some quiet au to live in away from all the outcodes. I do enjoy some romantic interpretations of these and their subsequent ships ( esp horror/killer, i think that should be explored more ), tho very very Tentativrly. idk i vehemently dislike most pairings with nightmare (that man is so aroace & relationship repulsed to me) and I dont think hr would take in his gang looking for pawns or to feed on their negativity and end up loving them . Attached , definitely , but that is a whole other story ( and one I love to explofe in terms of killer and nightmare’s dynamics especially )

dream & nightmare

BIG BIG REMINDER WITH THIS ONE THAT I AM NOT FUCKING TALKING ABOUT ONLY ROMANTIC / SEXUAL RELATIONSHIPS !!!!!!!!!! i Do Not ship them romantically or sexually and I Dont Care If You do but this is not dreammare please and ty

ahem anyway. I know joku has said one doesnt necessarily die when the other does but they are so connected to me. They are two halves of the same whole and they will rejoin one day. I have my own version of dreamtale in the works but these two are EVERYTHING to me. There isnt one without the other. To me. They are brothers they are family they are so much fucking more they just Are. Dream and Nightmare. Nightmare and Dream. Night and Day. Positivity and Negativity. You know? Do You Get It.

will perhaps add more but im tired now.. and Im gonna visit the fangamer store soon so yeah smiles

[mithliya]

sorry i have a kinda weird ask… (i’m 19 for reference) is age regression just thumb sucking and baby talk? or can you regress to like 6-7years old? i’m like stressing out haha because i have a lot of different ‘habits’ that make me feel better that are typically found in children. like i hug my knees when i’m upset, or hide in small spaces, or i dress kind of younger… not like a baby, but similar to how i did when i was like a 6 year old. (example sweatshirts with more kid friendly patterns, jeans with stars or flowers sewn into them, bows in my hair, the really short choppy bangs that lots of kids have, and just looking at pictures of me when i was a kid i have the exact same style now and dress basically the same) idk it’s nothing sexual or like little little- no diapers or little skirts or anything. but just small things common with kids. like i pack my lunches in those sectioned off lunch boxes made for elementary schoolers and they usually have just carrots grapes pb&j- or like juice boxes or cutting my food into squares or stars orusing a cookie cutter to shape it cute. idk this feels hard to explain but i basically just adopt a lot of habits or routines that i had back when i was like 6-7ish and i didn’t even really realize that i was doing it until about a week ago and i just feel so uncomfortable and i don’t know if i’m age regressing. does this sound like age regression? or do you think i’m just weird? i definitely did have a very traumatizing childhood and so i don’t know if it’s a response to that or if that’s just how i am.. i don’t use baby talk per say.. i sometimes kind of talk like how a kid would.. but just in my mannerisms not in the actual way it sounds. i also like to have a lot of ‘cute’ stuff - like stuffed animals or cat patterned or flower patterned or heart patterned sheets.. or coloring books but ones made for kids. stuff like that. i act normal around people, i’m very shy so i don’t really talk to anyone that i don’t already know, and my only friends are people i’ve known for years so they just already know how i am.. but still. but i don’t like act like i’m a baby.. or even a toddler …. i kind of pout sometimes but not on purpose. or like all the time if i’m upset i do something i did when i was a little kid. like i’ll play a video game i loved as a kid… or i’ll make myself a snack that i loved as a kid../ or just do something that i did when i was little to calm me down. like i don’t know there’s more but it’s hard to explain all of it. basically i don’t act like how a modern kid would (someone born in like 2016) like.. i just act almost exactly like how i did when **i** was a kid. idk if that changes anything… anyways sorry for rambling. i feel embarrassed saying this bc i know it’s weird for an adult, even a young one, to act like that.. i’m not like a perv or anything it’s not sexual. i’ve said that already but idk when ppl see age aggression a lot of the time they associate it with a sexual thing.. idk sorry i’m bad at explaining stuff. anyways does this sound like age regression or am i just weird?

if someone's age regression involved them acting like a kid from a different time than them then id jsut think they were weird or that its something else, i think its pretty normal for ur age regression to be more like.. as if ur still a child.

honestly tho from this alone, i dont know. i would think maybe youre childish but not necessarily age regressing. in my experience, when i age regress, i usually talk differently. like a dumb child or something. i also become extremely sensitive, prone to bawling, scared if someone yells or raises their voice, more childlike mannerisms. its not a constant thing for me at all, i noticed it only happens when im vulnerable in some way. if im afraid or stressed, for example. i wouldnt say ive got a childish diet or wear kids clothing, but also i dont age regress anywhere near as much as i used to as a teenager and i think it has become less and less prominent the older i got. i also dont think i get childish interests in those times either, but honestly the things i liked as a kid werent that childish anyways and i enjoy a lot of it today ? i also have a lot of plushies which when living alone i would hug them to sleep and sometimes i pout and the like but i feel like thats normal hfdhfdhs. its nothing sexual for me either and i think in general age regression is more like, a trauma thing rather than a sexual thing. the people who have made it sexual or a lifestyle thing need to be seriously evaluated esp the men that get off on that (actually the men who get off on that should die, but anyways.)

also i think doing things that u have loved since childhood isnt age regression, i feel like thats a pretty logical self-soothing tactic? i also often will go to things that are comforting to me and such things are often positive things from my childhood

[dovveri]

omg i get what u mean but also generally speaking no one always expects ppl to be bad either. blindly trusting someone is normal (you trust ppl for being a safe driver without knowing them for example) but the issue is putting them on a pedestal and not letting of that go of that trust when it’s been broken 😭

i saw tiktoks like that too but i don’t wanna sound like im going against u. i agree as well but most ppl just go into enjoying things expecting the good out of everyone in general. now it’s becoming “see why did you do this you should’ve known better” and then it’s blaming the woman for just having a hobby. idk if that makes sense but that’s how i saw those comments as.

i don’t stan bgs just bc of how the men in that country are known to be like. their behaviour is gross but i think those comments just stem from trying to be realistic bc no one expects someone to just be a disgusting and horrible person. esp when they portray themselves like that (not jsut to the public but probably in their personal lives as well) and shaming other women for “not realizing” can also be rude just bc it’s not like anyone knows that or is expected to

but i get what u mean abt not centralizing men you don’t know bc that can be obsessive and crazy. i’m just saying trhy can like whoever they want but when they don’t let go of them once the man does end up being bad, then it’s a bad thing.

wajt omg this is kinda funny that these asks came in this order bcs the ask i got right before this and responded to just now talked about this too just on the other side of the argument

i can defo see what u mean! i think it comes down to personal experience (particularly w men in this situation) like i can see women being optimistic in their attitudes towards men if they havent been treated like shit but as someone who has had plenty of negative experiences with men i guess im just a little more cynical than others. but also women being optimistic as i said in my last post is also a little naiive bcs like u said urself, u dont stan bgs bcs of the reputation men hold in korea, so u dont necessarily need bad experiences with men to see that men in korea generally suck, u just need to care about women and be empathetic.

like i can see what u mean by no one is expected to know that these people will turn out bad but thats also the defense for when kpop idols do blackface or culturally appropriate like the excuse is “they couldnt have known!” but regardless of whether or not they did know, they really SHOULDVE known especially when it comes to such politically charged items that can cause a lot of offense and damage to groups of people and bcs theyre in the public image and they have that impact. like im just saying if im interested in something, id like to know more about it before i ‘stan’ so although i agree that people do blindly stan a lot, i just think it shouldnt be normalised and people should educate themselves better before doing so - especially when again, its not just trusting someone to drive u home, its something that affects masses of people (korean women)

[naturenaruto]

ridiculous how some ppl can be topless and its Fine and Normal and a Non Topic but for others its like no. u cannot. so for some its jsut a regular random thing they dont even have to think about and then for others we have to be constantly hyper aware of our chests and not showing them and then ppl will be like oh u can be topless too eyeroll come onn and its like really can u really idk i dont think its necessarily a bravery issue like there are some consequences for it anywhere u live and even in ur home obviously ur family??? isnt gonna allow that so the amab child can just walk around however and no one comments on it bc its a non issue™️ but if the afab child does ahhhhhhhhh thatss gross n eviiil and scaryy and ickyy ahh so they just get to be carefree and we have to constantly worry and hide and be weirded out by our own bodies and for ppl saying ohh just get over it and take ur shirt off noone gives a fuck like ppl do rly give a fuck? i think? that would not be normal in most societies its not something ppl would just shrug off if u have enough pizazz about you like no matter how confident or non chalant you are its not something that would go unnoticed or uncommented on lol idc how progressive the area its still not considered Regular and as far as just getting over it goes thats part of the problem too bc not everyone can easily do mental gymnastics to just~~ be carefree~ like theres atleast 18 of programming and socializing in there and just bc one person tells u to Just Get Over It its really not that that easy bc uve been brainwashed to constantly jolt at the idea of ur body being seen or being inappropriate or being sexual or making ppl uncomfortable or being a show off or being crude and there are like legitimate consequences for those things yes even if its just ~feeling bad~ like that is psych damage and causes alot of resentment to build up bc ur made to feel like ur doing something Wrong......which is so deeply ingrained and probly has had severe consequences for most so ppl obviosily want to avoid feeling like theyre doing something they shouldnt be....so even if one person can just be all carefree~~ and watever doesnt mean that thats a feasable option for most considering the years built up of being made to feel Really Fucking Bad its not always as simple as ~~~juuuustt~~ getting over it and ignoring the haters~ like not everyone.....can?? i guess you can work on it but its just the fact that its somehing that you have to work on and unlearn and get over whereas for others they dont even ever have to worry about it like why do i gotta do these extra steps when theyre already there

[gettothedancing]

#I’m not even sure it’s necessarily their fault either #I think most boys are left with little opportunity to actually grow into real manhood #especially those who grew up with mama coddling them and dad only showing up to be an authoritative figure#it’s a bad application of a good teaching. and the cycle continues. and men have no idea how to be men #so when they try to be ‘leaders’ or ‘protective’ is just comes across as either rude or awkward. #cuz they really just… they don’t know how to do it

#and I think this culture where boys spend all day every day only with mama with dad playing a passive role #(which is honestly what happens in most homeschool Christian suburban homes tbh from what I can tell) #then they are shaped only by feminine ideals #it’s just …. odd. truly bizarre. #cuz even guys around here (like rural america) who aren’t solid Bible believing Christians #seem to have a better grasp on manhood and act more like normal dudes #rather than easily offended effimante men screaming oht in insecurity

#idk I’m jsut making observations here and trying to put it together #basically a lot of this problem I think could be solved simply by understanding that being the leader doesn’t mean ONLY being an authority #boys need to spend time with their dads doing chores and going hunting and whatever else #and watching how their dad handles every day life and every day situations #idk it just makes me sad but I think this could be an easy fix #(but seriously I got more grit than half the men screaming about being men and I’m such a girl like… seriously it’s a problem)

I think the reason a lot of the teaching about biblical gender roles from men doesn’t resonate with people — I mean those who are biblically sound on paper btw, not abusers or shallow men — is cuz they’re real good at preaching it but real bad at living it.

[crazycookiecrumbles]

A Wish Fulfilled

A/N: This takes place late in this series of one-shots. I haven’t written in so SOOO long. THis is just a quick drabble I put together. IDK if this will go anywhere, but that’s why this is jsut a series of one-shots. IDK, might lead to the Crumble!Verse

Okay. So this is in my Stark!ReaderVerse! Feedback, as awlays, extremely appreciated and desired. ​

Pairings/Characters: Shang-Chi x Stark!Reader, Steve Rogers x Stark!Reader

Warnings: swearsies, Minors DNI none of my stuff bc I said so

Summary:  You want to know what else is out there, while Steve’s wildest dream has come true.

WC: 1,779

Shangqi didn’t have to be a mindreader to know something was wrong. You had been in your lab for most of the last three days, and while he didn’t necessarily feel neglected about this because he himself was off on a mission with Katy, it was knowing that you were locking yourself away to work that had him worried about you.  So when Shangqi returned from work and realized that you were, once again, stuck in your lab, he sighed and stared up at the ceiling to think about what he wanted to do.

“Wednesday?”

“Yes, Shangqi?” Your AI responded. “Would you like me to order dinner again?”

He cringed, “Are you mocking me for constantly ordering takeout?”

“No, I am simply picking up on your habitual ordering,” she replied. “What may I do for you?”

Feeling sassed, but ignoring it for now, he went on, “Can you kick Y/N out the lab?”

“You’d have better luck making pigs fly.”

Shangqi snickered to himself as he started to head towards the lab, “Technically, footballs are made of pigskin. So shouldn’t they fly?”

“I’m not here to argue semantics, Shangqi,” Wednesday said. “I’ve opened the door to her lab. You have access.”

“Thanks, Wednesday,” he slipped in through the door and spotted you immediately. You were reclined in your chair, feet up on the desk, staring at, at least, ten different monitors showing various reports. It took him a moment to gather that these were various different seismograms. Frowning, he managed to sneak up behind you and pull over a chair right beside you before you finally noticed him.

You blinked a few times and sat up, “Oh, shit. Hey! I did not realize you were back from your mission today. I’m so sorry. I was going to make food, and, and — “

Shangqi, with a knowing look, grabbed your hand and pulled it to rest on his lap, “What did you do?”

“Why is it that I did something?” You squeaked. “You know, that’s insulting. I’m insulted. Dare I say, I’m hurt.”

“Babe.”

You pouted, “Okay. Fine. That’s warranted, I usually do something. Or Tony does. Anyway, I did nothing. Or at least I don’t think I did.”

He blinked a few times, “Okay. You’ve got me hooked. What’s happening now?”

You cleared your throat and shifted in your seat a few times as you stared at the screens, “Well, you know, we uh, we met the uh, the evil Shangqi.”

“Uh-huh.”

“You know, Leader of the Ten Rings.”

“No, I got that.”

“Totally has a hard-on for me, you know, that one?”

He blinked as he stared at you, “Is there a point to this or are you just trying to rile me up for sex reasons?”

You cackled and squeezed his hand, “Yes, I have a point. Well, we saw your evil counterpart. We have an all-new Natasha, a parallel Tony, Steve is young, Strange, I think, mentioned a zombie version of himself. And I just —“

It clicked, “You think you’re out there.”

“What if I am?” You replied. “What if some multiverse version of me is wandering around here? What if she’s the super cunt of the galaxy and she’s badder than bad? That’s someone that has to be put down without prejudice.”

He frowned, “You’re telling me that you’re trying to find an evil version of you out there to kill her?”

“Yes.”

“That’s kind of insane, babe.”

“No, it’s not. Because I know what I think, and the things that I’ve accidentally done or nearly did. Now imagine I’m one of the millions of versions of me out there that are fucking Steve or you or, I don’t know, I bet there’s some other fucking superheroes out there that I’m shacking up with. Or villains, even —“

“Okay, are we establishing that in the multiverse, the different versions of you are playing superhero fuck bingo, or are we establishing that there’s a version of you out there that’s homicidal and trying to destroy the planet?”

“Okay. Let me get back to the point,” you sighed. “Imagine just trying to do any of that on purpose?” You shrugged a shoulder. “I stopped Steve’s heart out of rage. I took down some giant Chitauri the same way. I almost split the planet down to the core when my dad died. If I were me, and I went full supervillain because I had lost everything, well, I’d turn this place into my own personal playground, and who could stop me if I’m not holding back?”

You raised a good point, and Shangqi understood that. You were powerful, he knew that, everyone knew that about you. They also knew how your powers were linked to your emotions, and while you’ve accidentally done some pretty scary things, the things you did when you tried were just as bad, if not worse, and yet, tame in comparison to what you truly could do.

“Are you sure?” Shangqi asked.

“Sure that I’d kill everything and everyone? Well, I’m sure there’s some version of me out there that’s threatened that nothing would ever get in my way — “

“No, I know that. You said that when we went to get ice cream the other day,” Shangqi joked while you snorted. “I mean, are you sure that you would do these horrible, bad things?”

“What are you getting at?”

“Well, babe, I mean, if there’s a version of you out there that lost everything and went dark side, don’t you think, well, if you saw the opportunity, you’d just try to take it back?”

Your eyes shifted to stare off to the side as your brow furrowed and thought about this. Would you? If everything you had once loved and held dear was gone, could you do that? Could you be the type of person to slip into a new world and take over, just to selfishly get back everything you had lost?

“I don’t know —“

“I think you would,” Shangqi nodded. “I’ve heard you call this new Tony ‘dad’ so many times. I know how you’re avoiding Natasha every time you see her, but you ask Clint about her about six times a day. Maybe you’re not looking for a battleground. Maybe you’re looking for a new home.”

“I guess.”

He nodded, “But that’s only if there was some evil version of you walking around. Given that, ya know, there hasn’t been any crazy earthquakes or mudslides or anomalies any more different than the usual, I think we’re good, babe. I think this Earth just got the bad version of me, and not you.” Shangqi said as he stood up and pulled you with him. “Besides, this planet couldn’t handle the two of us on our worst behavior.”

“I suppose you’re right,” You sighed dramatically and let him drag you out of the lab. “I bet I’m so hot when I’m evil, though.”

“So you do like a bad boy. I knew it. See? Totally cheated on me with me.”

“That was — I thought we were over that!” You wailed while he laughed at you and pulled you into his side. “Maybe you’re the evil Shangqi, you know.”

“Nah,” he shook his head. “Katy said I’m too much of a simp for that.”

“I mean, yeah.”

“What?!”

~*~

Meanwhile, Steve had been outed by the press since he appeared in Manhattan following Doctor Strange and Peter fucking up, well, everything. They knew he was young, and alive, and had so many questions, but Steve was opting not to say anything and was letting them go about with their theories. Besides, they had a Captain America in Sam. That wasn’t him anymore. Instead, he was returning to his Nomad identity, and brought back the arm guards that they had made for him back in Wakanda.

Steve was currently heading back to his room in the compound. He had a training session that day, worked out, and caught up with Bucky over the phone who was currently on his way back from a mission he completed. As Steve rounded a corner, he stopped in surprise when he spotted you standing there, cracking your fingers nervously as you looked up at him and saw him before he nearly walked into you.

“Y/N,” Steve nodded is head and stared at you, admiring shamelessly how you looked in that old blue sweater of yours that he loved so much, that he hadn’t seen you wearing in years. “I thought you were home.”

You smiled and nodded hesitantly as you stared up at him. Tears welled up in your eyes as you looked at Steve, your hand reaching out to him before quickly retracting it back and settling for staring at him, “It’s not the same without you, Steve.”

His eyebrows flew up. Was he dreaming?  No, this couldn’t actually be happening, could it? Granted, it was everything he wanted. From the moment he was back, all he wanted was you. He lived through his mistakes, and now he was living yet another lifetime where he couldn’t be with the one he loved. Here you were, standing there in front of him, vulnerable, something you hadn’t been with him for a long time, gazing at him adoringly like he held the world in his hands, like you used to when you first dated.

His eyes flew down to your hand and spotted the absence of a ring, nothing left but a tan line, “What about Shangqi?”

“He’s not you,” you replied before surging forward. Your hand grabbed the back of his head and brought him down so his lips could meet yours. A stunned moment from Steve turned into a quick, hungry reaction. He groaned softly and grabbed you around the waist with one arm, pulling you against his chest while his other hand flew to your hair. You jumped up and wrapped your legs around Steve and he quickly adjusted his arm so he was holding you up against him with his arm under your butt like it was the best seat in the house.

He pulled away with a loud pop, “You and Shangqi, you’re done?”

“You’re the only one for me, Stevie,” You replied, smashing your lips against his.

Steve carried you back to his bedroom, his mouth never once leaving you. But in the back of his mind, he was ignoring a very obvious point, something nagging him that was screaming at him from the depths of his mind and he was making himself push it down because he needed this, he wanted this, he needed this to be true, but what really bothered him was one thing: you never called him Stevie.

[maxcomplainsaboutthings]

okay so

i was reading a certain vigilante fic right. and let me be clear i do like this fic, i dont think its bad or badly written or anything like that- however i do ofc have things i dont like. and this isnt really much criticism and more just me needing to rant about this fic and fics in general because 💀 i know my friends dont want me to list all the things i think are annoying with ff 

and dont get me wrong, i know that ff for many people (me included) is a hobby and something to do in your past time. obviously maybe not everything can be edited or beta read or all too thought out. i get that. but well, i’m just here to complain. 

1. ‘izuku’

idk if its just me but i hate hate HATE when aizawa calls midoriya by his first name. i get under certain circumstances (like if aizawa adopts him or smth idk, personally i dont even like those fics), but if its just.. he is his teacher then its jsut.. uncomfortable. i don’t know how to explain how it makes me feel but. With Desperately Departing (and i’m just using this fic bc its pretty popular and well known, not to mention i’m reading it currently lol) aizawa and present mic just casually call midoriya by his first name. and usually that wouldnt bother me too much but it just feels so awkward and lowkey ooc for aizawa to call him that? like normally? and omg i’m gonna sound like such a sensitive loser but it just makes me want to close the fic. theres not much to this one but well, i thought i might as well mention it.

2. ‘bakugo redemption’

THIS ONE. THIS ONE OMG. as much as me, and i know a lot of you, like bakugo redemption arcs. i cannot stand it when someone does it poorly. again using Desperately Departing as an example: when i was reading this fic the author made bakugo suddenly become nice after midoriya… you know. and while i get it, and you know i dont mind it all too much but it just feels ooc. like, personally, i dont think bakugo would suddenly become the most gentle human being in the world becasue he thinks its ‘his fault’ and feels guilty. yes, i do think he would feel guilty about his death but then again i dont think he would truly do a complete 180. maybe he would become gentler sure, and maybe he would stop being a complete asshole. 

but i just cant help but despise ‘nice bakugo’, because thats not really who he is. it feels sort of like when people water him down to this mean bully, it takes away from who he really is. sometimes i think people forget that at the begging of the anime/manga whatever he is 14. hes my age- and i know ive done things that i’m not necessarily proud of. no person (especially kids) are evil like some people label him as. so when someone makes him ‘nice’, it feels like he is just some bully. 

god i cant really explain all too well- i’m actually in english class lol and i have so many thoughts and no words to put them on paper

nice bakugo doesnt feel true, because hes not mean in the first place. hes outgoing and brash sure, and in the begging of the series/manga ofc hes mean, but truly he is not a mean person (like, he was ‘nice’ before he was mean). he became mean because of the people around him feeding his ego since he was 4, and, personally, i think that if midoriya did die (in a certain water acrobatic way) bakugo wouldnt become some nice angel. i think he would feel guilty, sure, but i also dont think he would change. maybe he would realize how twisted the world and society is. maybe he realized how wrong he was. but i dont think he would become ‘nice’. at least not that kind of nice. 

does this make sense? i feel like ive been rambling for a while :p personally i dont really like DD all that much, and sometimes ill be reading it and feel like its very overhyped by the bnha fandom. but maybe i’m too harsh lol- its a perfectly good fic and has some pretty funny and sad moments. i do enjoy me sum angst lol

ALSO IM SORRY FOR USING DESPERATELY DEPARTING AS AN EXAMPLE SO MUCH ITS JUST THE ONLY FIC I COULD THINK OF CURRENTLY WITH THE THINGS I WANTED TO TALK ABOUTTTTTTT

update: i dropped desperatly departing, the meme references and ooc characters were too much for me 💀— and like i know its hard to write a character, that you didn’t make, act and behave in a way thats believable of them to but honestly. it was actually difficult to read.

[sleevesareforlosers]

could you perhaps elaborate on kobra and cherri’s dynamic in twitterverse with regard to their like. soft-ish moments of respect and why they keep coming back? maybe???

ah! i can! (and again i know i get rambly feel free to follow up if any of this isnt clear)

okay yeah so as you (im assuming ur the same person thats sent the other twitterverse asks) mentioned yesterday, so much of twitterverse is about like. reputation and perception. and cherri and kobra are somewhat equal in terms of how theyre treated by the rest of the zones.

theyre both addicts, theyre both known to be lethal, kobra's got a bit more of a sociable reputation from racing and sleeping around but hes still like. not necessarily seen as a person by other joys? i touch on it a bit in. i think chapter two or three? when kobra's smoking with that roller after the race and they go "i cant believe im smoking with the kobra kid" (or whatever they say) like. its a weird celebrity worship. cherri has a bit of a worse time of it because waveheads are SO stigmatized in the zones whereas sweet tooths are like. ehhh theyre partiers that took it too far

so like. theres a lot for them to respect about each other and theres a lot of understanding that can come with being these kind of. highly stigmatized individuals and having a way that people do expect them to act. you arent really gonna have the same expectations from a person thats on the same footing as you. and most of their softest (imo) moments come around when theyre having sex bc theres a lot of intimacy inherent in that Anyway (especially once it happens more than once). im Really going benefit of the doubt that ur an adult but i still wont be too graphic here

so for instance, theres a moment where cherri asks kobra if he Actually likes having sex bc up till then (and after still but i think to a lesser degree) kobra is. really performative about how he fucks. and im not gonna say whether or not kobra having this many hookups is good or bad for him bc it varies, but cherri's pretty good at getting a read on people and it can tell that kobra isnt being 100 percent genuine. and this is like. a big moment for kobra bc its a guy that, really has no reason to actually stop and care abt what kobra wants but it still does. its a moment where kobra gets that cherri isnt going to take advantage of him (an earlier draft also touched on this when they were at the radioshack and cherri established that there was something it wouldnt do with kobra while he was high)

so ig thats like. (apart from the fact that it is really nice sex) why kobra keeps coming back? bc he consciously or unconsciously knows that cherri sees and respects him as a person and doesnt really look up to him OR look down on him. just kinda looks at him

as for cherri, its also a lot of being able to feel like its more or less an equal to kobra. like, im not sure how much it came across and if/when i do a followup ill probably explore this more but newsie and chimp (cherri's two closest relationships other than whatever it and kobra have) are SO much more put together than it is. its the black sheep/wavehead/ultraviolent/bad at talking to people/cant even really get itself around the zones without asking for a ride/fuckup of the family (affectionate). theres not really a sense of inferiority that cherri has from this but it is like. newsie takes care of it in a lot of ways and sometimes you're jsut tired of that! kobra isnt gentle with cherri, he treats it like an equal and like someone thats dangerous and capable and desirable and (going back to how stigmatized waveheads are) he treats it like its a person. (i dropped an essay abt cherri and personhood in regards to gender a LONG time ago like before i even started publishing SOA that kinda ties in)

i also hope im not spoiling things for u bc idk how far youve read but i really tried to make sure i never had kobra and cherri insult each other based on obvious insecurities. once cherri clues in to how much kobras reputation as a 'slut' bugs him it never throws that at him, neither of them really throw the waveriding and sugar at each other to try and rile one another up. like yeah, they'd probably be justified and it wouldnt be punching down bc they are, more or less, equals, but i think both of them would feel a) shitty and b) hypocritical for using shit like that as an insult

so um. to sum up its on a shallow level bc they can have really good sex with each other and on a deeper level its the kind of understanding that comes with being outcasts in different but still deeply similar ways.

[catnpc]

i need to never go on tumblr mobile bc my friends will reblog from people who have hurt me but aren’t necessarily bad people and therefore i can’t like ask my friends to stop interacting so i just have the urls blacklisted instead but i still see the urls bc tumblr blacklist sucks so im just stuck scrolling thru knowing my friends still like this person and feeling ill but unable to do anything abt it. and if i was on tumblr desktop it would jsut be gone because xkitrewritten rules. idk how to handle situations like this

[xnchxntmxnt]

Hello, my name is Ghost and I'd like to put in for an Ouran matchup please (if you have any slots left). I'm genderfluid, use any pronouns, and I'll date anyone regardless of gender. I'm on the shy side when I first meet someone and don't talk very much to anyone I don't know, but once I'm comfortable I open up and share my interests and other things about myself. Although, even if I don't know someone well I always make a considerable effort to be incredibly polite and kind to them because I don't know if someone is already having a bad day and I don't want to make it any worse. I'm definitely the mom friend of my group and always carry first aid supplies, snacks, water, a blanket, and fidget toys. I love music and can't go a day without using my headphones. I can play the drums but I'm a bit rusty since I haven't played in a year or two and I also play some piano and am working to learn more. I've been in choir since I was a little kid and love to sing but I have too much stage fright to perform alone. I have a naturally deeper singing voice despite being AFAB. I'm also very into cooking, baking, mythology, reading and writing. I'm starting college a semester late as biology major with emphasis on zoology as I love animals and would want to be a veterinarian at zoo that's involved in conservation efforts. I hope you have a lovely rest of your day and remember to eat, drink some water, and take any meds if you need to. ❤

aaa this took forever im sorry i got super busy after i put out the thing for these but ANYWAY its done now

also the name ghost is so cute what <3 idk why i love it though

kaoru hitachiin!

do u know how long it took me to find a picture without his brother and im still not 100% sure i have the right one— anyway

mom friend. perfect. he needs one.

mans a royal mess

we know this

honestly i think his first impression of you was. he was probably excited to see someone who wasn't so into the whole act he and hikaru do and just liked talking to him

he also saw the shyness and (whenever hikaru wasnt around) let himself be a little more genuine, which meant he was less flirty and more soft with you

im getting lots of accidentally bushing hands and gentle conversations over tea at the beginning vibes

once you're comfortable around each other though?? that changes a little

yell at him to eat breakfast bc he'll get busy and wont (or jsut doesnt feel like getting up some days)

he'll do the same to you of course

mutually taking care of each other <3

you might always have stuff, but anything you forget, he seems to have

need a hair tie? he's got it. Forgot an extra bottle of water for yourself? he's got one (or knows where to get one)

he loves to buy things for you but not like. super fancy extravagant gifts. he likes doing chill and not necessarily inexpensive things, but he likes showing up with your favorite snack or "i saw this stuffed animal and thought you'd like it so here" kinda vibes

if that makes sense at all

he LOVES sharing music with you

please give him your other earbud and lean your head on his shoulder on long car rides

he loves it so much

he loves getting to know you through music because music can honestly be so intimate

make him a playlist. its the best gift you can give him

make him several playlists

he loves when you do that and listens to them all

on loop

he'll make you playlists too you guys are just exchanging them all the time

he likes listening to you play too whether its drums or piano or anything else you pick up

he just enjoys seeing you have fun w it

dont get me started on how much he likes listening to you sing

swoons

every time

he's so in love

anything youre into he immediately just. finds as much information as he can about it

he loves listening to you rant about mythology and stuff like that

maybe you're reading a new book

the moment he gets you to spit out the title and author he's scrolling through google trying to find little trivia about it

this is of course so when you talk about it he can be excited about it with you

this happens a lot

half the time he'll end up just reading the book

and if its a series? good luck.

you two WILL be up until 2am or later finishing the last book because you have to see how it ends

overall wholesome. 10/10 would reccomend

[fagpeterstrahm]

I keep thinking of you. I hope to god you're all right. I hope you've just quit tumblr. I've known too many people your age who lose hope and I desperately hope you're hanging in there even though it's so horrifically hard. If you need someone to talk to I'll literally make a tumblr just to message with you and try to help you if you want (no pressure). I hope you find help and I hope so much, so so much, that you're still ok. God I hope.

dfjkldfjlkdfsjff thank you for this message fksddfslkj i know you sent it to me a while ago, and it really meant, and still means, a lot to me dfsnfjdslfjdsl i realised like. a month ago when i left that i jsut. fslkdflkdsfl really wasnt handling everything very well. tumblr was a bad place for me and it would negatively affect my mental health to the point where i would just constantly have bad thoughts crashes and fkfdslkf you know and idk i just had this big crash and just. said fuck it and didn't come back and in hindsight there were a lot of different ways that i could have handled this well and i didn't really do a good job of doing so but fjdlkfdlsfjsd yeha i should have done this sooner and i shouldn't have just. Left like i did but fjkdlkjlkjdfs it just wasn't a good place for me.

 i've gotten a lot better now, especially at handling my triggers and how to get myself to feel better when i'm in a depressive episode and whilst things aren't necessarily better, per se, i'm slowly working on being able to handle it without being as impulsive as i was, so i guess thats good. however i dont uhh. i don't think i'm going to come back anytime soon, i know it hasn't been that long but, maybe just for a little while longer, y'know?