#fdslfjdsljsd sometimes i feel like im back in square one but ultimately i know myself a little better and i know how to help myself more

[fagpeterstrahm]

I keep thinking of you. I hope to god you're all right. I hope you've just quit tumblr. I've known too many people your age who lose hope and I desperately hope you're hanging in there even though it's so horrifically hard. If you need someone to talk to I'll literally make a tumblr just to message with you and try to help you if you want (no pressure). I hope you find help and I hope so much, so so much, that you're still ok. God I hope.

dfjkldfjlkdfsjff thank you for this message fksddfslkj i know you sent it to me a while ago, and it really meant, and still means, a lot to me dfsnfjdslfjdsl i realised like. a month ago when i left that i jsut. fslkdflkdsfl really wasnt handling everything very well. tumblr was a bad place for me and it would negatively affect my mental health to the point where i would just constantly have bad thoughts crashes and fkfdslkf you know and idk i just had this big crash and just. said fuck it and didn't come back and in hindsight there were a lot of different ways that i could have handled this well and i didn't really do a good job of doing so but fjdlkfdlsfjsd yeha i should have done this sooner and i shouldn't have just. Left like i did but fjkdlkjlkjdfs it just wasn't a good place for me.

 i've gotten a lot better now, especially at handling my triggers and how to get myself to feel better when i'm in a depressive episode and whilst things aren't necessarily better, per se, i'm slowly working on being able to handle it without being as impulsive as i was, so i guess thats good. however i dont uhh. i don't think i'm going to come back anytime soon, i know it hasn't been that long but, maybe just for a little while longer, y'know?