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tom-is-online · 18 hours ago

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uuuuhmhshsjjdjsjs um. bnw kohane but,,,, long hair and glasses. thank you for your time. jumps out a window

poor poor stupid baby

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onceinawhilemoon · 2 months ago

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sure, sherry. your brother would just let M walk free after he literally checked every single box under Ways to Antagonize Mycroft Holmes by: killing his agents, actively fucking with intelligence and national security operations, being a literal threat to the nation, and committing the cardinal sin of stalking and threatening to hurt an overprotective mama bear’s cub (aka YOU), a crime easily punished by imprisonment, death, or worse (see: otto richter). but sure…

#sherlock holmes chapter one #frogwares sherlock holmes #frogwares holmes #frogwares mycroft #i love how this is like CO's version of “my brother made up an entire cult to fuck with me for shits and giggles”#like i get why he said it in TA. he was mentally reeling & in dire need of HUG #and blaming it on his brother's “machinations” as absurd as it sounded was still more grounded in reality for him #than accepting an idea far beyond any rational comprehension. like the existence of an alien god of chaos #this tho…no idea where it's coming from #esp when you can finish the entire M dlc before even deducing that mycroft lied about the TB & broke sherry’s trust #like lets suppose M even WANTS to work w/ the crown (extreme doubt) do u think mycroft aka the british gov would just give him the power #esp after learning he has all sorts of ill intentions towards his brother #like sorry sherry but your brother would never put politics before you. hard pill to swallow ik.#also jon is best boy for voicing my thoughts exactly.#i own a signed copy of the “make the holmes brothers talk like civil men for once” petition & jon is the top signature bless him #also i find it so interesting how this scene is like adult sherlock (the one disillusioned with his brother)#is arguing w/ his child self/jon (the one who still holds his brother in high regard)#and is struggling to reconcile both versions’ perceptions of mycroft ..#no using the post box for its intended purposes. we rant in the tags like real men.

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theokusgallery · 2 months ago

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I hate that I have reoccurring themes in everything I make. YES this guy has a complex over the fact that everyone prefers his sibling AGAIN. YES he was ostracized by his peers since he was in primary school and never knew why until years later. URGH

#i dont know why the siblings thing ends up coming up as often as it does (read: i know exactly why) but uuurggh #do you ever. have an inside joke with your sibling that your abusive dad prefers you over them and it's so established it's casual banter #but everyone you've ever tried to be sincere with (your mother; your peers) have consistantly preferred your sibling over you #even your own friends and kids who were closer to your age range than theirs #do you ever have a conversation with your best friend where they tell you that at first they didn't want to be friends with you #because you were ''too Weird''#do you ever get praised by a friend who says she envied you in middle school because you ''never cared about being different''#meanwhile you had no idea you were different and just couldn't fucking fix it #it took me that to understand that people avoided me because i was Weird. i thought the reason i had no friends was bc i was shy #that and the fact that i Didnt Know What Was Socially Acceptable Or Not and other kids were scared of me bc i was ''to blunt''#i have learned to value honesty over nearly everything else but that's only because i wish everyone else did the same.#literally everything i write has a main protagonist with low to no emotional empathy. like. ok #every character i write has that thing where they always felt like they were a monster for not feeling the right things. mh #i wonder how that might reflect on how my whole world came crashing down once i realised emotional empathy is A Real Thing #and not just a lie people made up for virtue signaling #''there's no way people /literally/ feel sad /for/ other people. they just know rationally that it's bad'' deep sigh.#anyway thats why i will never shut up about the fact that empathy is morally neutral and not a prerequisite for being a ''''good person''''#emotions are morally neutral. thats why we say all emotions are valid. thats why thought crimes aren't real #in short: you will pry human!au no empathy janus and autistic remus from my cold dead hands #i have. so many fucking thoughts.#janus is literally JUST like ME for REAL #except for the lying mostly because i !!! taught myself out of that #THE AMOUNT OF WORK I HAVE DONE ON MYSELF. I HAVE CLAWED MY WAY OUT OF THE TRENCHES OF MENTAL ILLNESS ON MY OWN AND I AM PROUD OF THAT #MAYBE it's because i can never open up to anyone ever BUT it's also because im SKILLED and SWAG and SELF-AWARE and THE BEST EVER. and MODEST #rant #the tag rambler strikes again . apologies

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mc-tummy-blur · 26 days ago

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Didn't expect the year of our Lord 2025 to get into Alan Rickman, but I guess that's how it goes sometimes

The year of getting into an actor that so far I have only seen portray maladjusted men

#mctalks #alan rickman #really only had watched Die Hard and the HP movies the series being just something i watched as a kid and Die Hard being more recent as of #like the 2020s but rewatched Die Hard last year and my interest of Hans spiked cause to be real 80s-90s Alan could get it respectfully #also Alan is a good actor actually so yeah gonna check out more of his movies #watched Quigley Down Under like last Tuesday and The January Man last night #beating the shit out of elliott marston as a way to fix him and giving a lil smooch and a decent meal to Ed the Painter #next goal is to watch the robin hood movie cause his looks do be serving in the promo images i see #uhh ranking of those alan movies i guess will come later but so far from best to worst #die hard quigley down under and the january man #not ranking the hp movies cause one its been like maybe about 6 or 7 years since ive seen them so idk how well they aged #i mean i know im not gonna like them purely for reasons associated with jk rowling obviously #im sure ill like Alans performace tho if or when i do watch them again #that and also the main three in the hp movies too thank god they came out normal #also did not realize how much of a culture alan had on tumblr like it might be the only time ive seen an actor tagged in the work #that they do? like other fandoms for movies and tv shows i dont see the actors tagged in as much but Alan hes literally tagged #with everything which idk if that stems from his impact on harry potter or what #i mean thats likely what it is plus the passing im sure #so like i guess when i make art pieces ill tag him too? just so more people see it cause generally it seems like people really appreciate #his work and the movies hes in #anyway thats it for my ramblings lol its late as i rig #anyway thats all for my ramblings lol #i will say its amazing how in all three of these picturea i used he looks different in all of them even though two movies were released #in the same year and the other only two years later

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quietwingsinthesky · 10 months ago

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sometimes interpreting media through a shipping lens enhances it, on occasion even beyond the author’s original intent, but sometimes, you do have to accept that your ship was not in the heads of anyone making the source material and trying to force it to fit into evidence of your ship will severely hinder your ability to discuss the actual text.

#and also ill hit you on the head with a brick #posts that. im not going to say theyre about destiel. im not going to say that.#and im not gojng to say it because. i dont need to. you already know <3 #and to be clear: its not the interpretation thats a problem here. thats the fun of shipping. its then taking what youve interpreted and then #trying to backread that onto the media itself as intentional. as intended.#dismissing the actual themes and story for evidence of a ship is the problem. u get me?#shipping brainrot is not ‘oh i think these characters would kiss for this reason’.#its ‘this show is and has always been about these characters kissing no matter how much i have to ignore about the show to make that true or #pretend is completely different than its actually presented or straight up make things up to make my ship be a part of the intended reading’#thats the brainrot. the brainrot is when u step off the train of reality.#this is not true about the best piece of art ever made Captain America and the Winter Soldier. btw. that movie IS about bucky and steve #kissing alsjfdjskdjg #(<- okay im being silly here but id like to make a real point here too. the thing about TWS is that. it is genuinely enhanced by a romantic #reading. its not *better* than a platonic one. its just different. being able to see it through that lens does make a lot of the original #movie’s ideas even more complex. case in point like: steve struggling with his dating life. because what shared life experience does he have #with other people who look his age. and the movie is. about. someone who has his shared life experiences. and his mission to get bucky back.#you can see how that lens would be beneficial to the original movie rather than fighting it to prove the ship works in opposition to the #author’s original intent.)

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starexaccidia · 10 months ago

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This is just filler tbh 😭😭 But yeah, I finished hlvrai!! And I am emotionally damaged tbh... But I decided to watch the Benry chronicles and that damaged me even MORE!!! So yeah, I promise I have something better in the works chat... But take this little thing I did for fun for now (⁠✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠)!

#hlvrai benry #half life but the ai is self aware #hlvrai fanart #benrey hlvrai #hlvari #benry chronicles #god it hit kinda close to home #benrey is so real #im mentally ill #i know this isnt my best work #shhhhhhhh #better stuff soon....

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volfoss · 1 year ago

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i would like to find a yarn color that is roughly close to this shade of orange:

as the doll is going to be using dark blue eyes and the contrast would look pretty good (ty to my friend for helping me narrow down colors here lol) but well. you would not believe how hard it is to find a more muted light orange. i have been to specialty yarn sites. if i did either of the two multi-colored yarns, it would be for highlights/still mostly orange just with other tones in there :) if u have specific opinions on this please comment bc good god i hate yarn shopping for this.

#twist rambles #bjd posting #technically. i am having the horrors of trying to figure out yarn for her bc NONE of my typical companies have the right yarn color. like #hex code E89052 is IMPOSSIBLE to get a color similar. i need a light orange but not TOO light and i want it to like... look ok w her dark #blue eyes. which REAL funny story about that is barely any dolls that look like her have dark blue eyes like... its mostly light blue. so i #is just a nightmare to logistics w colors. i really like the landscapes a LOT and i think it could be fun to do like... highlights/multicol #ored hair but well. lol. the horrors #ive been looking at the fruits one for days bc its like... genuinely so stunning and i think it could be fun to have small light highlights #mixed in there. but im sooo unsure of like. what would work best. i have to plan ahead before she comes in like... a couple weeks #ill srb a couple times :)#this is for miss yucky btw. for context. but im trying to get this sorted b4 the strike

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hikarry · 5 months ago

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Okay children, gather around. It's "Spencer Complains and Acts a Little Mad" Time:

I have been raw dogging life for 1 month without my adhd/depression/anxiety/mood stabilizers medication and without a single Therapy appointment

I haven't left my house in 1 month, I haven't spoken to any of my (in person) friends in over 1 month, I haven't seen my family in 1 month, I haven't seen my bloody cat in over 1 month, I've barely left my bloody room in over 1 month, and I've been listening to my bloody voice almost every day for 1 hour so I can finish editing the bloody podcast for over a month

To top it all of: I haven't had a decent night's sleep in about 4 days now (in which I just don't sleep or I have extremely vivid nightmares with my departed mother and/or scenarios where I die over and over and over again but can't speak to ask for help before it happens - fun for all the family, if you ask me) and I might or might not be completely and absolutely going insane, with only Good Omens season 1 (6/6) and season 2 (5/6) and the existence of Crowley/red haired Fire Pokemon David Tennant Edition being my sole producer of any amount of serotonin

How am I alive? Good question. Beautiful genderfluid demonic content can be some very nice very distracting content for individuals that simp for Fire Type David Tennant Pokemon like myself

I am quite sure my only contact with anything mental health related in the past weeks has been my best friend whom is very very annoying and refuses to leave me the heck alone and whom is a nurse and is working extra time to advice my stupid ass the best she can, bless her heart

So, with my personal nurse's permission, I have doubled my sleeping medication for the night and, as Fall Out Boy once wrote for the song "Alone Together" in one of my favorite albums to have ever been created "Save Rock and Roll": I'll check in tomorrow if I don't wake up dead

#i took so long writing this nonesense for no other reason other than the fact its 2 am and no one makes good decisions at 2 am #that i am actually already feeling sleepy #if my best friend actually manages to give me 1 good nights sleep i will kiss that woman in the mouth and get hitched with her in ibiza #jk shes straight as shit and shes like a sister to me so that scenario is making me cringe but the sentiment prevails #alas dont do drugs unless your doctor tells you to kids #or your nurse best friend #bro im getting so sleepy the word “nurse” aint even looking right anymore #is that even a real word #yes #google says it is #it is not about viking mythology like a thought for about 2 seconds #okay good good nice nice #anyway #i talked about you know what so i have to tag this post for my adhd sake #good omens #crowley #anthony j crowley #david tennant #there #in case anyone cares about a post that mentions crowley for 1 second while in rhe middle of a whole ass sleep drug inflicted rant #lowkey kinda sure ive writen more in the tags now than the damn post jesus christ #hopefully ill be able to have money to buy my medication on the 12th and ill be somewhat mentally stable by the 14th #which means i might actually upload my fanfic next tuesday if my brain is working again #night peeps dont let the bed bugs bite #idk what im saying anymore #my closet just banged by itself and now im scared #sully?#mike?#bo?

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flamboyant-king · 1 year ago

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Hey babes, sorry I've been dead, but I coulda been literally dead if I had not gone.

I didn't hurt myself and we're still figuring things out. I would love to share but I've already forgotten what I've learned. I hope I get more guidance and time for healing and learning on how to lead my life in a better direction than where I was. But that takes time and effort.

I hope to get some rest, get some support, and get it together. But right now, I don't think it's healthy for me to worry about art in the way I do now. I may not express it here, but trying to maintain my art endeavors/projects while there's so much bullshit going on backstage is not helping me. Especially since I'm not even obligated to do so. But trying to force myself to do something I am currently unable to do will just make me feel worse. I'll follow my dreams and passions one day, but I've been putting off the healing process for years.

So I guess it's better to get better now so I can get the ball rolling again. Why drive on a flat tire?

#i was in there for a week and ill continue partial hospitalization for a few weeks #i hope i learn more and i hope i get specific help to my issues. because whay i learned there didnt directly pertain to me #but having structured daily life felt nice. but it wasnt all relaxing because there were still responisibilites on the outside world #tapping on the window or calling me on the phone. chose the best time for a meltdown. i have taxes and credit card bills to take care of #but if i stress about it now ill jsut be going back to the ER and thats no good. the hospital was so cold dude im glad im home with blankets #this is mr octopus again. im glad i broguh hom to work. i went straight to er from work and if i had no plushie with me #i probably would have stayed longer or be even more mentally unstable and distressed. its good to have comfort items #i dont think i want to know ehat if be like without some kind of companion or grounding item with me. i dont want to imagine me without em #its okay to have a little friend with you. i would be so distraught. everyone loved me there #the nurses the patients the residents yhe social workers the students #mr. octopus made them happy because of his big smile and mine too. the people there did not expect the mass amoutns of stress and depression #in this bubbly happy baby witb a happy pink octopus. one of the patients thought it was the meds the happy pills they gave me #no im jsut naturally like this. or artificially like this. i still dont know how to express or understand my feelings #if what im showing is real or not because i know ill be the happiest in the room wherever i go. maybe its a front or a mask #but when im like that kinda hard to know whats really underneath. they always ask me if im okay but i turn to myself #and its nondescript like ive put a blanket over how i really feel. its weird. the bubbly energy is blinding.#words #mr octopus #mental health #doodles

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arolesbianism · 4 months ago

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Take some Fydd's I just realized I never posted

#keese draws #oc art #oc #ocs #eternal gales #fydd is such a comfort character to me rn its not even funny I adore this lil lad #hes been helping keep me sane #Ive also been keeping sane by brainstoriming more abt how I wanna make eternal gales someday which is also helping #and lemme say its getting real ambitious folks this bad boy isnt getting made for a While lol #the more Ive been thinking abt eternal gales and how I want it to be formatted the more certain I become that while its not going to be a #game Im probably going to be making it within a game maker engine #like Ill still look into how feasible making it all into a website would be but I think for what I want to make this would work best #which is! very ambitious and is definitely not smth I can manage rn! but I have been wanting to re learn to code anyways so!#its mostly just a matter of like. doing some smaller projects first and getting my shit together #ideally I want to be able to be in a place to get started in about 5 years maybe? idk that feels reasonable to me #but Im fine if it takes longer as long as Ive gotten at least some actual real project started and worked on #Ive been playing around with the idea of maybe trying my hand at making a small game for fun #not right this second but maybe soon? idk depends on a bunch of shit #honestly eternal gales has dragged me through so much whenever I feel hopeless I just have to remember that I Need to make it some day and #imagine ppl asking me questions abt it and analyzing my writing and I go ok so I must persist no matter what I need ppl to read abt them

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voidscreamns · 2 years ago

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#i dont think i’ve talked my nonverbal!Diluc hc on here yet #but i keep seeing posts abt disability/chronjcally ill/neurodivergent hcs for genshin characters so here’s one from me #idk i feel like after That Night™️ and being on the run from the Fatui/working with a secret organization #diluc not just learns the ‘value’ of keeping secrets and staying quiet but also internalizes his guilt and trauma of saying smth that could #hurt people #it started with him telling Kaeya that he’s not a Ragnvindr anymore and then is exacerbated by his 3-4 Year Fatui Murder Rampage thru Teyvat #and with all ghat trauma and self-deprecation and paranoia he just. stops talking.#he picks up sign language in Fontaine and still writes but at some point he just stops talking and never speaks again #when he comes back to Mondstadt it was hard to adjust to for both him and the people around him #Kaeya initially assumes that Diluc just refuses to talk to him until he later hears gossip abt how no one has ever heard him speak since he #came back. he goes to Adelinde and/or Elzer abt it and they tell him that they neve even hear Diluc so much as hum or grunt #afterwards everyone changes up real fast— Kaeya and Venti drinking at the bar and seemingly just talking at Diluc but they’re always #observing his reactions and body language even when they’re drunk #Jean tries her best to be patient but she has a hard time reading him bc he’s changed so much in the time he’s been gone #Adelinde & Elzer and the winery staff are the most communicative he’s with— Diluc is far more likely to write with them to communicate #at some point Diluc has a business meeting with some rich dude from Fontaine or smth #Kaeya walks in bc he has an actual important mission thinf to discuss and he sees Diluc and this Fontaine dude and the dude’s wife #moving their hands so fast and with all kinds of gestured and stuff #and it’s the first time Kaeya sees Diluc look so EXPRESSIVE— he’s frowning and raising his eyebrows and mouthing words and all this #and Kaeya just goes ‘what’#turns out the Fontainian dude is deaf and both him and his hearing wife know sign; she helps interpret this to kaeya for the dude and Diluc #and Kaeya is like ‘oh okay’ and goes to the kitchen like ‘i’ll just wait here till yall are finished’#and he sees Adelinde and Elzer there with stoic faces and they just. stand there in quiet for so long.#Kaeya finally says ‘…..so. sign language huh’ and Adelinde and Elzer have the most pained looks on their faces #later that week Diluc finds like everyone around suddenly doing basic signs with him #he later learns that the winery has ordered a shitton of signing books from Fontaine and are trying to learn #+ Kaeya and Jean too with help from Lisa bc like dont you know learning several languages is a requirement for graduation from the Akademiya #soon the use of sign starts spreading in Mondstadt— there might be some small communities where they have their own native sign but it’s not #as standardized nor widely known as it is in Fontaine #this is getting really long so I’ll stop here but yeah. nonverbal Diluc who signs fjskdjs

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threepoint14art · 1 year ago

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I love redrawing screenshots of the series with our own version of everyone, feels right feels like a reward, the absolute silliests:

Our Mangle is taller than Spring and Maggie is in the redraw for the nightmares instead of onnie because we changed the order in which they joined! so onnie joined last :3 Originals screenshots plus one redraw with graphic blood and injuries under the cut! (sorry onnie)

and the horrors:

#πa art #fnafhs #fhs #fhs fanart #fnafhs au #fnafhs fanart #i love them sm its not even funny #our au #if you cant tell im trying my best to make lighting a real thing #its a work in progress still LMAO #blood cw #do NOT ship spring and mangle they are siblings here #im begging on my knees if someone tags this as their ship ill kill #i'll maul

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orcelito · 21 days ago

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Man, my apartment people texted me to ask if I'd be able to accommodate a 4 pm virtual showing today bc the potential client set up a tour for a different apartment but decided they wanted to look at my unit instead. And I'm just sitting here like uhhhh. Nah lmao. I don't wanna have to do that short notice cleaning. So I told them no

Now I'm wondering what's up with this client tho like. U can't just go touring in all these different units just for funsies... like ppl r still living here... no I don't want u coming in here at such short notice. And I am legally allowed to say no. So yay 👍

#speculation nation #i need to go to the grocery to pick up cat litter bc i need to change out the litter #but man im having a chill ass Saturday. i kinda dont wanna go.#need to work on my lab later today. i also need to uhh..... ugh......#theres a career fair this week that i really should go to. and i need to prep my resume for it and make sure i have 'business professional'#dress. whatever that actually means. guess im gonna be looking it up.#i REALLY REALLY REALLY dont want to. id rather just fuck around this weekend and do my normal chores and homework.#and fuck around during the week too with bowling and orchestra. but noooooooo #i have to think about my futuuuuuure #man i also need to start looking into apartment hunting. since i do need to move this summer.#and it's already february... heck i have to pay rent and bills today too. ughhhhhhh #being a responsible adult 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄 sucks bro #omg i also got uh. taxes to do. got my w-2 in from the month and a half i worked at the start of last year lmao #and apparently interest income is taxable. so i gotta factor that in too...#BUT insurance payouts are NOT taxable. thank god. i wouldnt wanna see what taxes on that lump of sum wouldve been.#i think i technically would have an income thats below the income rung for legally being required to file taxes #but i think i still will. in case i manage to get anything Back. still worth it probably.#i'll do that later tho. i got like 2 and a half months. ill try to not do it too late.#that and the apartment hunting are not immediately pressing. unfortunately the bills and the career fair Are immediately pressing.#man. resumes. i made a 'professional' one for my business writing class a few years back. no idea where it is tho now.#i guess i could go looking on my old computers. would probably be easier to start based on that than start from scratch.#my actual resume for actual job hunting ive done is. also on old computers. and also severely out of date.#i havent gone job hunting since like... honestly like 2016. legit. bc i got that cookie job and then in 2017 i came back to campus #and went to the bubble tea shop id worked at in 2015-2016. and they hired me back on real easy. and there i remained until 2024.#i just really hate job searching. and im a little nervous about it being a Big Boy salary job kinda shit.#but i will do my best... i wont let anxiety stop me from at least making an effort......

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skitskatdacat63 · 29 days ago

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Mattmac's acting in TD will never not be insane to me, bcs its probably the only acting that genuinely fully made me think, yeah he completely escaped into the role. It's not that there's not any other actors out there that I think are amazing, but it's still often hard for me for the most part to separate the actor and their roles, especially if I've seen a lot of their work. Meanwhile, even just looking at a still of Rust, it's so hard for me to perceive, oh wait that's not a real guy?? Rust isn't out there???

#if this makes sense lmao #idk its so odd bcs ive watched interstellar so many times more times and it literally came out the same year #yet it doesnt affect my perception at all as it often does w most other actors i like when i watch other works of theirs #aaghhhhh like im not saying mattmac is the BEST actor of all time and that everyone else is inferior #theres a lot of roles i can think of that were amazing and that i fully bought into #rather theres no other character i can think of where i genuinely get baffled when i remember theyre not real #if that makes sense?? like ill usually still look at a character and their actor is in the back of my mind #like saying wow their acting is so good in this!!#meanwhile w td im like ...wow rust is such a cool guy hes so fascinating. wait wdym mattmac played him #i feel deranged saying this cause idk if im getting my point sdkjhfs #ig part of it is the fact that td covers a good portion of his life so you see a lot of aspects of his character #but he just feels so REAL to me #as i said even looking at screencaps i cant think of him as mattmac. he IS rust. thats some guy!!!! that exists!!!#id say the acting in td is generally really amazing BUT #i realized since i last watched it some actor in it was in a comedy show i watched which completely influenced my perception of that actor #so when i saw his face w that new context i couldnt buy his character at all anymore bcs he was just that dude from the other show #meanwhile ive watched a lot of mattmacs stuff before and after yet ive never though of rust when seeing him in another role or vice versa #AAAHHHHHH MAN. sorry i just really love that show and i think rust will forever be some actual person to me. hes out there i swear #idk the picture thing is especially so odd bcs as i said interstellar is from the same year and he has a pretty similar look #yet im still like. no those are clearly two different people. and i think of mattmac when i watch interstellar but not td so ?????#thought let me be clear his acting in interstellar is also amazing and real to me.#just not in the way where he becomes a real indistinguishable person to me #anyways. cough cough. i have a problem.#catie.rambling.txt #true detective

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here-there-were-dragons · 8 months ago

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i have to wonder what super hardcore militant vegans think should be done about obligate carnivore animals, because in all my painfully-rapidly-approaching-30-years i've literally never actually seen anyone give a clear consistent much less halfway feasible answer on that

#mostly i've just seen like “how dare you ask questions you just want an excuse to murder you're sealioning ect”#or worse some vague and wildly improbable nonsense about like. fake robot animals covered in beyond meat or something equally convoluted #which is a thing i did see someone suggest as a serious answer #i mean i already know they think i'm a genetically inferior hateful vampire that should starve to death for the greater good #because my exact combination of health conditions make meat basically the only semi-safe way i can get close to enough nutrients #i know this because they have repeatedly told me that i'm either evil or should be sacrificed or both #and yelled at me for asking questions by bringing up the whole disabled thing and then they're like #“a lot of vegans i know are advocates for disability!” as if that ever means jack shit in the society that results from anything #no matter what you do a vast majority of people in any given society will *not* be advocates for the disabled. i'm sorry they just won't.#and what do you think public perception of people who physically can't survive like that is going to skew towards #in a society founded on the belief that non-vegan diets are evil?#at absolute best we're looking at being a heavily marginalized class generally seen as something like vampires and our existences taboo.#(as if these type's own insistence that they should be allowed to harass and shame people doesn't disprove their assertion that we won't be #thinking it could possibly go any better than that is a fucking fairy tale. human nature doesn't work that way.#you simply cannot eliminate the human desire to designate and abuse a class of have-nots. the absolute best you can do is mitigate damage.#take it from someone who's been multiple kinds of disabled and chronically ill all my life. people will not “just”. ever.#i get this even from people who are otherwise very aware of and VERY GOOD at avoiding this sort of thinking #“i'm a disability advocate!” no you are not. you are a poster. my experience has taught me that what people advocate for in their free time #means precisely jack shit for how they will actually act when faced with the situations they make otherwise rational posts about #and the fact of the matter is even if you somehow really are the perfect disability advocate a majority of people WILL NOT BE YOU.#a majority of people in society will be margrat from accounting who clutches her pearls when she sees the gays and thinks autism isnt real #and who has never had a nuanced thought in her life and actively does not want to #a vast majority of people in your Vegan Utopia will not be you and your friends who march with wheelchair users and volunteer at the shelte #a vast majority of people in your Vegan Utopia will be jenny who starved 8 cats to death on broccoli because she can't be bothered #and who thinks that “carnivores” are actual nazis and don't deserve healthcare because she saw someone say that online.#ALWAYS assume your society will be made up mostly of the worst kind of person it can because it WILL ALWAYS BE TRUE and you can't change it #most people seek the low-effort option. and evil is most often banal and low-effort.#i'm just so fucking tired of every single even vaguely lefty-adjacent political movement simultaneously acting like i don't fucking exist #and at the same time that i need to be sacrificed to achieve Utopia. god. at least conservative whackjobs are upfront and honest about #how they think that i'm a burden on society that needs to be Eugenics'd . rather than trying to morally gaslight me about it.

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Tag drop: Dorian Pavus

#[ dorian pavus. ] he says we're alike. too much pride. once i would have been overjoyed to hear him say that. now I'm not certain.#[ dorian pavus: ic. ] you find joy in it not shame. it shows. / why be ashamed? power should be respected. not swept under the carpet.#[ dorian pavus: inquiries. ] stop talking like you're waiting for applause. / what? there's no applause?#[ dorian pavus: countenance. ] i'm here to set things right. also? to look dashing. that part's less difficult.#[ dorian pavus: introspection. ] selfish i suppose. not to want to spend my entire life screaming on the inside.#[ dorian pavus: meta. ] you inspired me with your marvelous antics. you’re shaping the world. how could i aspire to do any less?#[ dorian pavus: etc. ] you can't call me pampered. nobody's peeled a grape for me in weeks.#[ dorian pavus: magic. ] don't your spells whisper things to you? what is and could be? music in the mind of strange faraway places?#[ dorian pavus: inquisition. ] we're going to get lost and starve to death. aren't we? a glorious end for the inquisition.#[ dorian pavus: tevinter. ] despite appearances. we care deeply. about everything. we have no reserve. not in war and not in love.#[ dorian pavus: felix. ] even in illness he was the best of us. with him around you knew things could be better.#[ dorian pavus: gereon. ] we used to talk about how we could make real change in the imperium. then he gave up. he stopped trying.#[ dorian pavus: halward. ] i only wanted what was best for you. / no. you wanted the best for you. your fucking legacy.#[ dorian pavus: aquinea. ] her blame was cold and smothering. never spoken but always present. he couldn't face that. not yet.#[ dorian pavus: inquisitor. ] you have too many people asking you for everything under the sun. i won't be one of them.#[ dorian pavus: solas. ] you startled me. you're always so... nondescript. / please speak up. i cannot hear you over your outfit.#[ dorian pavus: varric. ] what do you think sparkler? ten royals says the next thing we run into farts fire. / taken i win either way.#[ dorian pavus: cullen. ] gloat all you like. i have this one. / are you sassing me commander? i didn't know you had it in you.#[ dorian pavus: cassandra. ] blue scarf? why would i be wearing such a thing? / It's a painting. work with me. it'll be fantastic.#[ dorian pavus: cole. ] you say you're handsome all the time. am i? i can't tell. / you're all right. might want to rethink the hats.#[ dorian pavus: vivienne. ] i received a letter the other day dorian. / truly? it's nice to know you have friends.#[ dorian pavus: blackwall. ] point is. you should let yourself off the hook. i know bad men and you're not one.#[ dorian pavus: sera. ] you magic me: i'll put three arrows in your eye. / now we can live together in peace and harmony.#[ dorian pavus: bull. ] no qunari would accept a tevinter mage unless it was a ruse. when should i expect a knife in the back?#[ dorian pavus: corypheus. ] one of yours? / one of mine? like a pet? a giant darkspawn hamster with aspirations of godhood?#[ dorian pavus: v. inquisition. ] one of mine? like a pet? like a giant darkspawn hamster with aspirations of godhood?#[ dorian pavus: v. veilguard. ] evil gods. rituals. waiting for the stars. it's about as tevinter as blood magic and hubris.#tag drop

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