#not me though but like. Different me idk how to explain
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Tags state that people say "shipping them before xy is weird" (sorry my memory is shit but I guess there could be different shit they say, this time it was dvk smth)
And I just want to add, does the anime/manga not set Katsuki up for a character development? Does it not set the relationship between the two as important and worth salvaging? Idk if I would say I'd still ship it even if Katsuki's development didn't happen, I do ship toxic ships like Batjokes and 2doc, so it's clearly not far from me, but if Bakugo didn't go through any character growth the whole story would feel lackluster and weird, like something is missing. It was very clearly voven into the story from the start, at least to me. I always thought Katsuki pushed Izuku away because he wanted to protect him. I thought maybe "die" is short for "don't die", I thought maybe jump off of the roof is an allegory of how suicidal it would be to try and be a hero without a quirk. I might be delusional in this, but the fact that his development is important to the story and has been from the beginning is still true imo, otherwise he wouldn't've been such an important character, just an obsticle for Izuku to overcome and he himself wouldnt have ended up going to UA, and he wouldn't have been Deku's inspiration. I still believe Izuku was a Kacchan fan before he was an All Might fan, and only started liking All Might because he did, allthough I haven't been following the anime and haven't read the manga so idk if this is disproven, but I don't think his hero name would've been Deku is Katsuki wasn't such an importand character, I mean I get the sentiment of reclaiming an insult, but imagine explaining where that came from if Bakugo wasn't a reccurring character and was just some bloke from middle school who bullied him, people would think that's kinda petty of him, or idk.
Imo shipping bakudeku is the only logical thing to do (even if when my multishipper friends sent shipping fanart before I've seen the anime I liked how Todoroki and Deku looked together but now I strictly only ship bkdk and sometimes take a peek at tdbk) and if you don't that's fine, but if you want to tell someone to stop, you're just hating. Even if it was toxic, it's still fiction, if they were a boy and a girl you'd eat it up in a heartbeat. I haven't really heard anyone say that shipping Deku with Toga is toxic even though they would be an even better candidate, allthough I don't think there are no people who say that, just none I've heard, there are definitely less people who have a problem with that.
Sorry for the rant
I'd still ship bkdk even if Katsuki's character growth didn't happen
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“Yeah I have headmates”
“okay well are they saying?”
“Well I think they’re making out right now and theyre both telling me to draw yaoi”
#IM LISTENING TO THEM OK!!!! The people in my head are nice to me and if they’re telling me to draw yaoi well then. That’s what I’m gonna do#they’re like my muses I think. When they’re not busy keeping us all alive healthy and well rested with enough enrichment in our enclosure#and two of them aren’t making out in the background they have some pretty solid ideas yknow. They’re like my inner conscience#Like that cricket from Pinocchio. But gayer#not my art#irl emil#irl wolf#not me though but like. Different me idk how to explain#headmate stuff
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TELEMACHUS AND ANTINOUS. FINALLY
#throwing a tiny bit of (NOT FULLY THOUGHT OUT AND VERY MUCH A WIP) info about them here for u guys#i was trying to figure out what the fuck antinous could do in this au#and then i was like oh wait monster hunter. obviously#so hes a monster hunter lol#<- this is actually sorta funny because the temporary odysseus lore i have is that he used to be a monster hunter at one point#and then he got bit on the job or something lol#aughhh this is very embarassing to admit but this whole au in my head is very heavily inspired by the danganronpa fic out for blood#so i will admit. i just stole hajimes backstory from that fic#btw you guys should read that fic. even if youre not into danganronpa it doesnt really rely on canon at ALL and its very good#anyways as a temporary thing i dont really think borrowing that matters#anyways monster hunter antinous just seems like the natural conclusion here idk idk#i dont really have a solid story in mind in general so im not worrying about how different aspects interact atm#anyways telemachus thoughts now#hes obviously still penelope and odys kid so. funny vampire/werewolf hybrid thing lets talk about that#so i imagine he takes after odysseus in MOST things. he is for all intents and purposes mostly just a werewolf#but ahh. ok i dont know werewolf lore so im gonna explain it#(its very much again just based on one really good danganronpa fic i read)#i think when turned its sort of like. a blackout blind rage. very little complex thought involved. just kill and maim etc#<- not getting too into it bc of tag limits. lmk if you want me to ramble about how werewolves in this au work though#anyways i think since telemachus isnt a full werewolf this doesnt fully apply to him#he may or may not have violent instincts but he could probably resist them and hes at least semi-aware when turned#anyways i think penelope dresses him. thats why hes so fancy. very much giving off heavy vampire energy despite barely being one#is he immortal* like a vampire? we dont know and were not gonna test it hopefully!#also he could probably drink blood he doesnt HAVE to though and he doesnt like the taste really. penelope does not get it </3#ok done rambling in the tags now time for art tags#doodles#epic the musical#epic monster au#antinous#telemachus
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Imagine looking at a character whose entire premise is that in every stage of his life, he's made every version of himself into someone that inspires people to such a degree that EVERY SINGLE VERSION OF HIM has people wanting to literally follow in his footsteps in some way or another.....
And coming to the conclusion that like.....the most important things about him are the sum of all his trappings. His entirely homemade developed from scratch could not exist if not for what he already was and brought with him BEFORE crafting this newest version of himself trappings, with his greatest trait throughout all of it being his adaptability; his ability and willingness to roll with the punches and not try to simply weather any opposition or changes to his life but instead reshape himself as needed to better fit INTO whatever new shape his life and the world around him takes. All while managing to carry the most innate, fundamental and necessary aspects of himself from one version to the next. Thus every single version of himself is different but simultaneously every single version of himself is also undeniably the same person.
The strength of this character, to me, will always be that he can be so many versions of himself, he can become so many things, all without ever actually losing or discarding any of the aspects of himself he considers most essential, the things he's not willing to lose or give up just to keep going. Finding that road not taken by most, usually because most never even think to look for it as an option. But one that he's always able to find because the one trick he's mastered in his tumultuous life is threading that needle of not just digging in his heels in an unproductive way but rather being selective about when and where he makes a stand and decides "this is not a thing I'm willing to compromise about" but here are places and ways I can and will change and evolve and adapt in order to make it possible for me to hold onto these parts and keep them as they are.
And that's why its always so mind-boggling to me that so many writers can't seem to think of anything else to do with Dick Grayson other than invent some new reason for him to just....not be that person, or to like just take the character whose most basic fundamental trait he's NOT about to compromise on is willingly giving up his spot in the driver's seat of his own life.....and make him just a passenger in his own life and stories.
Dick Grayson at age nine....at age nineteen...at age twenty nine....the one core thread running through all versions of him is the only way he's standing back and letting you call the shots for him or putting him on the sidelines in some way is over his dead body.
HOW he goes about that, what that looks like, who he becomes and what aspects of himself he plays up at some times and what traits he lets fall by the wayside at other times when they offer less in service to his primary goal here....that changes constantly. He changes constantly.
But those changes are almost always (or at least they used to be/should be IN MY OPINION) made with the intention of keeping certain things about him or his life as consistent as possible.
That's the duality of Dick Grayson that I'm here for. The inherent contradiction of him that COULD allow for endless conflict and breaking new narrative ground in all sorts of ways if mined properly:
His eternal willingness to compromise....but only ever in pursuit of doubling down on the ways he's not willing to compromise.
Forever walking that tightrope in ways that only a kid born and raised in a circus could ever hope to.
#see also: my grinding teeth when people disparage his circus origins#like the only thing its good for is colorful backstory and explaining his acrobatics#THERES. SO. MUCH. THERE.#theres so much EVERYWHERE in every aspect of his backstory and his preexisting comics and yet over and over we get#....what if we just ignored all that and did what the fuck ever as though this character has nothing integral to him or fundamental to say#to be fair my gripes with Taylor are not exactly interchangeable with my gripes with the previous runs#but I lump him in as an extension of them because while evocative of different SIDES of my ennui with these takes on Dick.....#the thing about Taylor's stuff to me (or the parts I read at least) is that its generic as hell while only retaining superficial elements#of Dick's character and stories in order to point to them and say see these are definitely about Dick Grayson. like....only in very surface#level ways. underneath that theyre basically generic superhero adventures that could easily be retooled to be about a pretty sizable number#of other characters. tbh with the whole alfred inheritance thing it honestly felt from the get go#that Taylor was more interested in writing a kinder gentler Batman like a Bruce from one of the animated shows like#The Brave and the Bold who gets along better with everyone else. even the way the Brave and the Bold largely exists to use Batman's#popularity as a star vehicle to platform his co-superhero for the episode lends itself to Taylor's approach in his NW run#with the central figure - only nominally DG imo - basically existing as a platform allowing for the drafting of any other character he want#to write in any given arc or story in a similar way to how Bruce is utilized in Brave and the Bold#anyway. idk idk. my issues with Taylor are not the same as the others exactly but also they are and also I just plain dont like the guy#so I complain about him at any given opportunity even when its not technically as accurate or relevant as it possibly could be#I Am Flawed. its fine though dont worry about it. its called being nuanced
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ranking fears by how great or not great it would be to be an avatar of that fear. lets go.
14. at the bottom of the list we got flesh. nasty. no thank you. someone else can grind up peoples bones. also how are u gonna go anywhere without being obviously supernatural. unoriginal attacks. 0/10 look forward to a friend circle with a radius of zero
13. extinction. what do u even do all day?? spend time waiting for things to happen? news flash we already do that
12. end. u get sadistic powers and ur emo all the time
11. buried. u squish people and thats it. thats ur whole job. half the time u dont even do it correctly.
10. desolation. ur hot (temperature-wise) and u can never hug anyone and that is no fun. and u will prolly have to join a cult of psychotic arsonist freaks who have never agreed on anything but u do get to smite ur enemies which is desolation ONLY thank u very much no i am not taking feedback
9. corruption. fix your family issues. you dont need the toxic (heh) love and validation of literal germs. if you wanna be devoured by what loves you see mr pitch or forever deep below creation please. however there is a wasps nest in my attic
8. stranger. lowk soooo fashion soooo skincare creepy magical girl identity crisis moment loving it. freakish tho.. get away from me i dont wanna hear abt ur untalented taxidermist friends... but jessica law <3 yeah she's why stranger is up here thats the only reason
7. eye. ooh this one is a toughie. obviously everybody else will see u as a prick forever (beholding is obnoxious by nature) but at the same time..... knowledge ???? yummy ?? however you will be absolutely insatiable and lose all your friends and become a monster addicted to sucking people's stories out of their souls and invading their dreams. so. there's that. the series has explored a lot of what it's like to be an eye avatar and i think in general it's not worth it. sure, you can win the occasional pub trivia, but in the long run knowing everything sort of removes the joy and meaning from life. jon was so depressed by the end and i feel like we don't talk about that enough.
6. slaughter. prepare to win a million dollars by becoming a boxing champion.
5. hunt. k i have lots of thoughts on this one. most prey cant run as long as you can like dont you get bored???? but u get to be hot and deadly so thats a plus. also i bet youd be really good at first-person shooters and laser tag or hide and seek. and finding lost objects. all in all a solid pastime, although you do have to hunt on a consistent basis to sustain yourself and thats probably a pain to do without getting noticed. 70/30 pros and cons
4. dark. hear me out on this one ok i feel like it would come with a huuuuge advantage in combat like u can probably literally blind your opponent and summon made-up child's monsters (fnaf?) to attack for you. also black goes well with anything. nat 20s every time youre a rogue. think about it
3. web. manipulation is not ok but its funny. just IMAGINE the PRANKS you could pull
2. spiral. fucky fuckin hands??? freaky architecture?? mysteries??? hallwaylighting doorkeeping monsterbossing???? sign me UP
1. THE VAST. FLYING. EXISTENTIALISM. THE CONCEPT OF INFINITY. ROCK CLIMBING. TROLLING PEOPLE VIA IMPROMPTU ROLLERCOASTER RIDES. DO I NEED TO SAY MORE
#sadistic emo core my new favorite aesthetic#hunt is assuming the person already has a taste for blood btw#this might be controversial and tbh i struggled with the placement a lot cuz i hold no REAL hatred for any of the fears..#like i could def argue for flesh to be higher or dark to be lower or stranger to be lower#but all in all i think its a fair list#IDK IDK THIS IS HARD#tma#the magnus archives#tma.txt#tma shitpost#this is hashtag cringe#can you tell i'm squeamish. this could be a list of how squeamy each fear is actually#if “squeamy” is even a word#i love what i said for buried though and i will stand by it.#did you notice how i slowly devolved from “you” to “u”. yea me neither#ok i didnt MEAN to put slaughter and hunt right next to each other again#sigh i swear i see them as very different entities#ermmm also “the vast” technically isnt grammatically correct if youre referring to “that which is vast” such as the entities/places#yaaaaay (this bothered me but i have now explained it to myself so all better)#btw for buried how are u even gonna lure fam into a pile of dirt.. only insane people#like cave divers would go there and they like that shi anyway#and for end theres acc no joy in death and no jokes to be made when ur oliver banks i mean cough cough an end-affiliated entity#who what who mentioned him not me#i do really really love the justification for the flesh though but this is about avatars 😤#tma fears#the dread powers
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Also, I refuse to entertain the discourse as to whether acespec people are “oppressed” or not, but I will say it’s really fucking lonely — especially if you fall somewhere on the spectrum that’s a little more unconventional.
I’ve discussed many times before how I feel absolutely no attraction whatsoever except towards my lovely partner. I went through the phases queer men tend to: exploring many types of pornography and cruising on Grindr. I really tried, and none of it has ever done anything for me. It wasn’t until I started having sex with my partner that I realised, ohhh, so that’s how most people feel. And even then, enjoying sex with him is far more of an intimacy thing than the actual physical sensations. I do not fantasise about other people or consume porn. There is only him.
And yet when I’ve spoken about this in acespec spaces, I’m still treated as some sort of weirdo who doesn’t belong. I’ve literally been told many times that I can’t be demisexual because demis will still fantasise and consume porn (although that doesn’t line up with my understanding that demis require a close bond to feel sexual attraction, but never mind), and I’ve even been accused of having some weird internalised Christian puritan shit going on because I genuinely cannot comprehend ever looking at or thinking about someone in that way who isn’t my man. As if anything about this is a choice for me and it is offensive to them somehow. As if only feeling attraction to one person is like… “worse” than never feeling any attraction at all. I’ve never once shamed others for how they experience sex and sexual attraction and never would, yet people act like that’s what I’m inherently doing just by speaking about my own experiences.
So no, I won’t say whether acespec people are “oppressed” or not because honestly, when is this shit ever going to come up in conversation and ever be that relevant? But the fact I don’t feel I can talk about it even amongst other queer people, even amongst others in the acespec community, kind of speaks for itself.
Being a queer man who can’t relate to all the stereotypes and anecdotes about enjoying casual sex is one type of loneliness. Being a queer acespec man who can’t even relate to most others in the acespec community is another. I can never win, and either way I do not fit in.
#I know I’ve not really mentioned being demi much here#But this is kind of why lol#Had to get it off my chest though#I know my experience is fairly unique#But idk it’s just hard finding absolutely no one to relate to#Even my own partner has fucked many many men casually and when he and other gay men I meet talk about it…#Their experiences are valid and very common but I just feel like idk. Left out almost? Because they experience and view sex so differently#To me sex is the absolute most intimate thing you can do with another person and it’s only ever felt right for me with my partner#Whereas to him and many others sex isn’t inherently intimate and it’s normal for them to have a quick fuck and forget their name forever#That’s mindboggling to me and it’s hard for me to discuss how left out I feel without seeming like I’m judging#Because I’m really not. I cannot comprehend feeling that way at all but I understand it’s common and normal#Idk I’m waffling and idk if I’ve explained myself well#But I hope even just one person out there relates#This experience is so specific and isolating I need someone else to not feel so alone#I love my partner more than anything in the world btw and he’s so so supportive#But we can’t relate on every level yk#personal#rant#vent#long post#text post#international asexuality day#asexuality#asexual#demisexuality#demisexual#acephobia#relationships#acespec#aspec
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I have not been in this fandom long enough to reasonably judge others' takes however. "EPIC fans are so silly to characterize odysseus as feeling guilty for his actions don't you know he's a war criminal" is definitely a wild one. like first of all to each their own so settle down and let people enjoy things ok. and secondly making choices with a bad outcome, even knowingly and deliberately, does not exclude the possibility of feeling bad about it later. in fact it makes for a much more in depth character because then you get to explore what he does or doesn't feel guilt over, and why, and if that guilt ever edges into regret or not.
#and thirdly i actually find it fascinating the way EPIC had him take a very conscious role in the greying of his morality#it's interesting to me because from my point of view odysseus in the odyssey is almost a passive player in his own myth#and i enjoy taking that very active moral choice and applying it to some of his non EPIC actions#odysseus#epic the musical#uh what is the tag for the epic cycle#as far as I'm aware it's#tagamemnon#?#idk i just think that if you were to ask your character what they would do differently the answer should not be ''nothing lol''#that is either a character who needs wayy more development or a storyteller who needs wayy more practice#also. WAR CRIMES DIDN'T FUCKING EXIST IT WAS THE BRONZE AGE#regardless of how socially acceptable or not his actions may have been#none of those men on the plain of fucking troy was about to sit down and agree on what constituted a crime of war#like if achilles can get away with flaunting straight up deliberate corpse desecration#i don't think anyone gets to say a word against odysseus for being a sneaky underhanded bastard who doesn't fight fair#coming back an hour later to add yet another point. the point of the people with this take is ''haha dont you know hes a bad person''#which fine yes by modern moral standards he is and even by contemporary standards* some of the stuff he does is super yikes man#but that STILL does not preclude him from feeling guilt. 'bad people' can feel guilt#gonna go ahead and explain those quotes around 'bad person' btw um i do not believe in morality like that. no one is fully good or bad#i shant speak on THAT further unless someone asks though#*contemporary is an iffy word here i feel because the default is to call the time of the penning of the text contemporary#despite the events in the text taking place several centuries earlier.#in this particular case because i am speaking from a point of textual analysis i will use the former#however i think that the latter is also a useful reference point
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I am once again thinking about my swinger! con artists! Odypen and diomedes being their much younger bratty thrid au
#Fic ideas#Wip#Confession i have written none of this#But I love the idea that odypen would be swingers#But everybody at the parties are like oh honey no like yes they will fuck you good#But they will also rob you blind and/or leave you tied up in the forest#The first time diomedes was robbed blind he had genuinely fallen for it#(Give him a break he had a bad week his dad just got arrested for cannibalism.) (Timeline what time line let me live)#Everytime after that diomedes viewed it as like. A tax he had to pay in order to spend time with odypen#(Hello fucked up mindset yes we are keeping you even though it makes no sense that you were a child solider shhh)#Eventually odypen stop actually robbing him they do it in the way they rob and trick each other putting the stolen item back in weird spot#Or replace them with their own items (hello odypen possessive mindset)#Diomedes is confused and upset by this and while he never cared if the two hooked up with other people before he does#Now that they've stopped robbing him#Cue diomedes leaning hard into his very suppressed and tightly controlled (before now) the urges to be a rat bastard#No idea if Athena is still their patron goddess in this or like the person who handles every report of odypen thievery#Odypen being 🥰 🤝 rat bastards in love#Diomedes can be a beloved pampered subby brat as a treat#Fuck it maybe I'll keep him as child solider and just not explain it that's such an intergal part of his mindset idk how I'd ever start#To write him without it#Diomedes being the young commander in the army all the other commanders are constantly comparing him to his father#Even though his dad literally ate someone on live television#He meets odysseus in a bar and odysseus goes mm cute mine now diomedes is very very confused to be brought home and doted upon#What IS the age difference between them anyway?? Mm?? Mmm?? Diomedes youngest of the Greek commanders#Nsw#Modern au i guess#Swinger au#Odysseus#Penelope#Diomedes
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In the Sandman, since Dream 'came into existence once lifeforms capable of dreaming appeared in the universe', I wonder what that lifeform is and what did it dream of. Like what is the first dream in the universe about.
#idk of the comics have anything about that though. I'm only on book 4#some post on twitter about how octopuses (which is like super different from human in evolution) can dream got me thinking#about dreams in animal and generally other lifeforms#from what we know there are few studies on dreams in animals#we can only study their behavior while they sleep or compare brain waves with human REM sleep or something of a sort#we don't exactly know if animals can dream the way we dream#dreams in animals are interesting to me because#it makes me wonder what these bizarre visual and auditory hallucinations the brain cooks up each night are and what are they for#we can only theorize that it organizes the brain and help with memory and learning and simulating events etc.#if many animals dream despite having very different ancestors then it's definitely something useful#I don't know how to explain but it's simply wild to think about. I don't know how it doesn't blow my stupid little brain#studying dream in animals might give us more insight to dreams in human I think#delete later
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HEY MOSSY WHATS UR FAVORITE SONG im looking for new music :]
first of all, thank you for the huge compliment!!! you should also know you are saying this to someone who spent 15 minutes listening to the spider man game pizza theme in the car yesterday so. Yeah!!!
All that sillyness aside, I listen to way too much music (my usual playlist is +1,300 songs) of way too many different genres and i am happy to share them with anyone and everyone!! Gonna try and limit this to 10~ish songs for now, since otherwise I will end up with a list 100 songs long lol. Also I am a rare Apple Music user so I'll try and link all the songs to youtube so that they're easier to listen to!!! also bc Spotify confounds me lol OK there was WAY more text than i thought so MUSIC RECS UNDER THA CUT
MOSSY'S COOL MUSIC RECS
DRIVING MY LOVE - Anri GOSH her entire TIMELY!! album is amazing, but this is the song that's been sticking in my mind the most lately. Citypop is a very fun genre of music that came about in Japan in the 70's, and Anri had (to me) some of the most fun songs in the genre :>
New River and Soap - The Oh Hellos OH BOY OH BOY THE OH HELLOS!!! I LOVE this band!!!!! If you were on art social media a couple years ago you probably have heard Soldier, Poet, King, which is by and large their most popular song. New River is one of my go-to songs when I am going through it. Absolutely love the imagery of the song, allowing new and difficult experiences carve new landscape through yourself. Soap, it is important to note, is the culmination of their four-part EP series Four Winds, and is kind of the resolution to that whole series of songs. It's really interesting and worth looking into! I must note that this is a Christian band in case you find that uncomfortable, but I would still recommend checking them out even if you do- the Four Winds EPS focus specifically on their struggles with God amidst the uh. Bad US Political Climate and all that. Most of their music on the topic is pointed and metaphorical (see: Passerine) and so that knowledge isn't super necessary to enjoy the music, I just think it's neat :] And not every song necessarily touches on the subject- these two specifically don't! Also I GOT TICKETS TO SEE THEM THIS YEAR LETS GOOOOO sorry this section is so long i just really like this band
No More What Ifs - Persona 5 Royal, covered by the 8 Bit Big Band Ok back on track lol. This song is absolutely my favorite from the game, but MAN THIS COVER. The 8BBB is one of the best video game cover bands out there imo, and they COMPLETELY outdid themselves with this one. They actually added a few extra lyrics to the song to better round out the overarching theme of both it and the game and MAN. i will never listen to another version again. The album this will be a part of isn't out yet sadly, but I would 100% recommend checking out their other stuff!
Bones in the Ocean (2023 vers.) - Longest Johns There's a lot to be said about this one but it's best if you just listen to it tbh. I will say that this is a new recording of one of the band's first original shanties, and that it includes all former and current members. Would highly recommend all the other songs on this album too, aside from this song it's a very fun listen! But ourgh this song,,,, if i had time I'd make a dozen animatics for it
エビチャーハン! (You’re Telling Me A SHRIMP Fried This Rice?!) - JamieP best miku song no quastion
'Tis Autumn - Nat "King" Cole Trio There's only one song to kick off the fall season and it's absolutely this one! Also The Autumn Leaves, which Nat King actually sung in Japanese once which is cool. He was an incredible musician and all of his songs are great, but Tis Autumn is probably my favorite :>
Catch You Catch Me (Card Captor Sakura OP) - Gumi Do you want to get ready in the morning feeling like a magical girl? Boy howdy do I have a song for YOU! Seriously the amount of people I've shown this song to under that premise who have come to me the next day saying that it worked is a lot lol. Card Captor Sakura has been a big comfort show for me and MAN the music is *chefs kiss*, especially the OPs!!! Linked the full song, but I would also recommend watching the opening itself :D
#41 - Dave Matthews Band "wow you like dave matthews lol thats such dad music" ok listen. I have been listening to DMB since before I was born. Saying I'm biased is probably an understatement here. But his songs are very good and I like them ok. Anyways #41 is a really stupid name for a song but I love the band in it, the weird lyrics, just the overall jazziness of it. If you wanna listen to more Dave stuff I would highly recommend the stuff from his solo concerts with Tim Reynolds- its just 2 guys jamming out on guitars, it's great. Stuff like One Sweet World, Still Water, Grey Street (This one's a tough listen for me but I love it). For the fun full band stuff I love So Much to Say, Ants Marching, just the older albums in general
Stay I Pray You - Anastasia (The Musical) I am allowing myself ONE (1) musical song. My sister is a huge musical fan and an even bigger Russian History nerd and an even BIGGER Bolshevik Revolution nerd so I watched Anastasia with her a lot growing up. Eventually they made the musical and it's actually tied for my favorite (Phantom is pretty hard to beat)! I got to see it tour and MAN. all the music is amazing, but this to me is the standout song- largely because this song, despite not being in the movie, actually was kinda in the movie- there's this bit in In the Dark of the Night that they took and made into a completely different song which is a fun nod to the movie!!
Music to Soothe The Savage Snake Plant - Mort Garson Got overwhelmed by my options at this point so I'm defaulting to one of my favorites! I believe another song off this album got popular recently, but I will forever know this one from it being used in the final scene in The Adventure Zone, my first and favorite DnD podcast! Honestly I could recommend a dozen songs from the podcast, but this one in particular always sticks out to me. While I'm here you should also go listen to The Adventure Zone, it's a great podcast, especially their first story (Balance, just start at the bottom lol).
wow that. was a lot more than I meant to write lol. Special shoutout to Virtual Insanity, the bane of my existence and my personal hell. It was my #1 most listened to song last year coming to a total of *checks replay* 239 plays, over 50% of which occurred within the span of a week. another shoutout to The Housebuilding Song. i swear i listen to you once a year how are you always in my top 25
#sorry this took so long i got really excited and then really overwhelmed#anyways just gonna throw a few notes in the tags dont mind meee#i hate to give The Oh Hellos such a big disclaimer especially since most people probably dont realize they're a christian band-#i just reaaaaally like digging into their lyrics and that's an integral part of it!!!#soldier poet king is about King David! they have a whole album called Dear Wormwood which is based on#The Screwtape Letters!!! Passerine is really hard to explain!!! nobody seems to like it when I infodump abt this tho lol#and some people aren't all that keen on religion so yknow. disclaimer for a thing that doesnt need one unless u think abt it too hard#that aside. OOO DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT WAS NOT TO FILL THIS UP WITH SEA SHANTIES. DO YOU EVEN KNOW.#The Longest Johns were my first concert actually! a birthday gift from my sister!!! I even got to meet them *and* i got a signed poster#cool concert! probably the only one where I knew every song lol#Also usually my go-to band for these is AJR but. you already knew them so there went half my recs :') excellent band though. also#got to see them in concert last year! talk about an absolutely amazing concert!!!! very cool setup#The Oh Hellos will actually be my 4th concert ever! most people I know are already in the double digits#gosh there are so many good songs i coulda recommended#go listen to William Taylor from the assasins creed soundtrack#then Willie Taylor from The Longest Jonhs#same old shanty done in two different styles. very neat very cool#if ur still reading this you get my uber special rec. go listen to Lemeney by Sam Lee. old british folk song done up real pretty#Also The Derby Ram by Mat Williams. idk why but it really gives me a sense of how much people love music and how we've always been doing it#and we always will!#ok rant over its 1:30 am#goodnight#mossy talks#asked and answered#pirate posting#music
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the purpose of the film is actually to objectify this man
#what the hell else am i supposed to do with him#disney's pocahontas#pocahontas (1995)#john smith#'the disney movie objectified pocahontas' explain this then#and everything else we see him do while we're at it. i mean they tied him to a Pole#and dragged him around with a rope around his neck like a leash#what more do you want?? how much more 'female gaze-y' do we gotta get?#does this count as me hyperanalyzing disney's pocahontas again?#maybe.#but considering that john smith was modeled after a guy who was considered one of THE most fuckable men of the 80s and 90s#idk if i'm really doing much reaching here.#i'm definitely on a downward spiral though. i've hit the stage of being obsessed with a fictional blond man.#i should probably go to confession for this#i mean i'm obsessed with pocahontas herself as well but that's a different kind of tunnel
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the guy who plays lyle menendez in the horrible ryan murphy thing is from my mom's soap opera. i never realized he was my age
#never would've in a million years assumed spencer is my age#idk his bone structure just ... idk he doesn't have a young face but he's actually a few months younger than me#idk what to do w that#i saw ppl talking about this show and i was like that guy looks so damn familiar#but he looks completely different in general hospital somehow and i dont know how to explain it#hes a good looking man. dont really appreciate that he was part of that horrible series though...#idk a few months ago i asked mom where spencer was i hadnt seen him in awhile and she said#'hes dead. hes doing some netflix thing now. hell probably come back later'#and kaily was like 'hell come back from the dead?' and mom was like 'they do that in soap operas all the time'#tales from diana
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why are fnd symptoms basically the same as ms symptoms 😵💫
#i'm once again worried they missed MS since no one has mrid my brain#god. someone please explain to me how fnd differs from ms#i know fnd isn't degenerative and ms is but how fast can ms symptoms come and go?#is it a possibility if a spinal mri came clean that my brain might show ms?#idk. it bothers me. i feel like no one looked hard enough and it might be something worse than fnd#even though fnd is already hell by itself#just worried today. new symptoms showing up fucks with you so bad
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transfem furries hornyposting online about the relatively niche/"out there" things they're into have inadvertently helped me accept myself more than the body positivity movement of the 2010s ever did
#this will not be rebloggable because i don't want people to get transmisogynistic in the notes#it's just something i've been thinking about lately#i hope i'm not like out of line for saying this please let me know if i say anything disrespectful#i just have a lot of love in my heart for transfems; especially those who log on to this website to be gay on my dash and do their thing#trans wlw being proud of their identities helped me come to terms with my own in a way. idk how to properly explain it but#idk. our experiences are very different - you have to fight to be seen as a woman and i have to fight not to#(though that is part of my identity in most cases people would use it to negate the rest)#(and of course none of us should Have to fight that but. i hope it's clear what i mean lol)#and idk like. womanhood is not achieved painlessly for you and yet so many of you embrace it so beautifully and in so many ways#it makes me want to accept that part of myself i thought i had to kill for so long#i am not entirely a woman but i love being a woman and loving other women-#platonically romantically sexually it doesn't matter#i'm so grateful i get to share a community with you all and read/hear/watch your thoughts and experiences and such#which goes beyond sex stuff but sex stuff is a particular personal struggle of mine and it's something i've been trying to cultivate a more#healthy relationship to lately. and i also know that unfortunately transfems get treated even worse than everyone else when it comes to#kinks or whatever. i don't mean to imply that everyone has to be open about that stuff. i just mean that i'm grateful for those who bravely#and proudly are. anyway i'm losing my train of thought bc i'm packing for a trip and i'm a little scattered atm but the point is#transfem wlw i love you dearly thank you for existing#[oh also this post isn't meant to bash body positivity stuff and i know it's not all the same. it just often felt too sanitized and forced#for me to relate to. ok bye]#finielspeaks
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i hate this life situation and the abuse that goes on in it bc it just makes me sound whiny and childish and overly sensitive when i try to vent or explain the shit that happens here. like i rly wish they would just physically hurt me sometimes bc most ppl (not all. but many.) can agree that that is bad. but saying that ur mother got angry at u for xyz or saying that u got in trouble for xyz or ur sister said xyz to you and it made u feel bad.... that doesn't sound bad at all, it sounds like not that big of a deal. and yet it is a big deal to me. but god i feel fucking stupid for it.
#idk how to explain it. just. trying to explain to the centre worker abt the abuse i realized how dumb it all sounded#and i can pull up specific examples of the REALLY bad stuff. but even then idk.#''my mom said i turned the town against her + she has been planning on moving away all bc of me'' sounds kind of silly to be fucked up over#and yet i am! that fucked me up a lot!#still haunts me !!!#idk. i feel stupid. emotional neglect and abuse is hard to explain to ppl and i keep thinking maybe i rly am just being dumb and dramatic.#i try to think abt how I'd feel if someone else was in this situation though but like... that's different idk!!!#also i think other ppl would handle it better than i do fhfkdl im just not good at any of this living stuff i stg gjfkdl#i have been created to be someone who was meant to be like. a lapdog or smth like that 😭#a skittish unsocialized prey animal that must be carefully tamed and treated w love and care#but that's stupid and embarrassing and i will never have that bc its ridiculous and unrealistic and impossible fbfkdl#so i think i will just. always be missing some part of me (u would think i have more than enough parts of me. hardy har har.)#I DONT KNOWWWW im being stupid and goofy. thank fucking god there is imagination and daydreaming and fictional characters that exist!#i love coping thru making my silly little stories fjfkdl real life can disappear for a while if i focus hard enough on fiction#🐑🌻
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Bro I finally picked her up. I have my practice injection on Tuesday morning and I should have my needles and syringes coming in by the end of the week
I thought this was going to be so much more difficult. If anyone wants to start hrt or transitioning or gender-affirming care and you live in a safe state and have decent insurance it’s really not that hard. It’s not that expensive either (at least with insurance) please don’t wait and put off your happiness like me, do a little research and get started.
I haven’t even started hormones yet, but my depression and anxiety have already lowered considerably and my self-confidence has shot up.
Please please please do this for yourself if you are able to 💚💚💚
#haven’t even started yet but I feel a world of difference#trans#transgender#transexual#tranmasc#I also haven’t even come out to my family yet bc I come from a very catholic family#but I decided I’m doing this for myself and they don’t need to be involved and they don’t need to approve or disprove of my decisions#eventually they will know bc I live at home and I don’t plan on hiding the changes I’m looking forward to#but it feels so nice to just have this to myself and the friends that love me#I can worry about coming out and explaining things to my family when that comes#for now this is for me#this joy is for me and the people I love and trust to share it with#idk bro I just feel genuinely happy and excited and hopeful#also been looking more into top surgery and it doesn’t seem as impossible as it once did#even though I live at home. don’t have any type of steady income. and am disabled. it all just feels possible now#truly did not think these thing would be possible for me. or at least not for very far in the future#I don’t think I realized how deeply harmful not receiving gender affirming care was to me#truly feel so much lighter#I’m just rambling now#but I don’t quite know where else to put these thoughts#I’m just fucking happy and hopeful and it doesn’t feel like that’s gonna be taken away from me#me posting
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