#not like. ENTIRELY struggling rn financially BUT.
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you should rlly follow / support me on ko-fi btw ok byyyyyyye *turns into slime and seeps into the cracks of the pavement*
#candyredtext#not like. ENTIRELY struggling rn financially BUT.#am not in a finacial place id like 2 be#esp i have to pay rent this paycheck and#im p sure all my paycheck is gonna be going into that so :')#ya know#KSKS
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happy disability pride month!
i am physically disabled by serious chronic illness! (also autistic)
my income is about 1/3 of the local minimum wage.
and with grocery prices still super high and no food stamp increase to match, expenses related to my disability (i'm stuck in bed almost all the time because i physically cannot sit up for very long without fucking up my entire body for weeks), and various unfortunate surprises...
i'm broke, struggling and extremely stressed out about money.
there's about $100 in my bank account rn (July 12, 2024), I don't get paid again for over 3 weeks, and i'm running out or completely out of a bunch of necessities.
would any financially secure adults be willing to help with even a dollar?
a walmart card would let me pay for grocery delivery (i'm unable to shop in person & walmart's cheapest.) they can be sent anonymously (or not) and start at $5.
(my email is thatdiabolicalfeminist at gmail dot com)
i also have a food and necessities wishIist if you'd like to help that way. there's a lot of basic stuff on there that i need but can't afford.
(there's also uber/visa/etc cards on there if you'd like to help but don't want to choose.)
i'm incredibly sorry and embarrassed to have to ask for help again. i just don't have any other options rn. literally any help would make a massive difference and i'm so sorry to ask.
thank you so much for tolerating this on your dash!
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still disabled + far too broke lol
a'ight so wheelchair thing def still not gonna happen anytime soon (funny that me having to walk to campus nearly led to me getting a foot injury and my cane doesn't help lol) bc i am just entirely too broke and don't get enough to compensate for that so i give up again. i had to use those funds to pay for food and some other stuff since i haven't gotten a paycheck in like 3 weeks after my car broke down and took forever to get fixed. but i'm overdrafted again, have some expenses coming up, and i don't think i'll get my first paycheck with this new job until next week so i would really appreciate some help getting me out of the negatives and to hold me over until then.
i'm a mentally and physically disabled (autism, ADHD, cPTSD, POTS, gHSD/hEDS, congenital muscle disorder, mostly undx'd and untreated, etc.) college student still financially reliant on my abusers (who can't give me money rn) and who's been struggling immensely due to job stuff and expenses that keep coming up and a ton of my clothes just got ruined and i need to get meds refilled and generally i just need help with covering some basic stuff until the paychecks from this job start coming in.
this isn't an emergency so i would prefer it if those who potentially contribute would refrain from doing so if they're also financially struggling! thank you.
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As we've entered into the 2024 election year, I Beg you all that feel disappointment and rage at the disgraceful excuses for politicians we have in the US rn to look into the campaign of the two women shown in this video.
Claudia de la Cruz and Karina Garcia are running for President and VP in 2024. Here's their campaign video, as I can only include 1 vid per post. And here is their website.
I implore everyone who has the ability to vote in the November US election to read up on them.
Claudia De la Cruz (Presidential Candidate) is a mother, popular educator, community organizer and theologian. Being at the nexus of many different projects, organizations and social movements, Claudia connects different groups of people to link and merge struggles together in the overarching fight for justice. Born in the South Bronx to immigrant parents from the Dominican Republic, she was nourished by the Black and Caribbean working class communities of the Bronx and Washington Heights in the 1980s and 90s. At an early age, she was already questioning the conditions of poverty, violence, and oppression in her neighborhood, and what she saw and experienced served as her first entry point to understanding working class consciousness. When she was 13, Claudia began her political organizing work at her home church—Iglesia Episcopal Santa Maria (later the Iglesia San Romero de Las Américas–UCC), grounding her work on principles of liberation theology. She actively participated in campaigns to free political prisoners; to get the U.S. Navy out of Vieques, Puerto Rico; to end the U.S. blockade against Cuba; for the freedom of Palestine; against police terror—to name a few. In high school, she became a peer educator, conducting workshops on reproductive health and safe sex at community hubs and progressive churches, particularly for youth in the Bronx. It was through this work and her experiences as a working class Black Caribbean young woman that she understood there was only one solution to our collective problems: to fight for a better future, a socialist future
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Karina Garcia (VP Candidate) is a Chicana organizer and popular educator who has been fighting for a better world since she was 17 years old as a high school student in California. From El Barrio in New York City to the border areas of Texas, she has helped lead campaigns against landlord abuses, wage theft, and police brutality, as well as fights for reproductive justice, immigrants rights and student financial aid reform. She is a founder of the Justice Center en El Barrio in New York City and is a member of the Central Committee of the Party for Socialism and Liberation.
Karina’s father migrated to the U.S. from Mexico when he was just 16 years old, and the will of working-class immigrants like him to survive and thrive inspired her to take on life with determination. This served her well when Karina received a full scholarship to study at Columbia University. She moved across the country by herself, knowing that she had to seize upon every opportunity to give back—a single year of tuition was the equivalent of her family's entire household income. As soon as she arrived, she joined every conceivable progressive organization on campus. She led struggles to expand financial aid for low-income students, for immigrant and worker rights, and to speak out against the Iraq war. In 2006, her activism received national attention when she led a campaign to confront and shut down the anti-immigrant fascist militia, the Minuteman Project. When Karina took a semester off to do a speaking tour in California, she met with high school and college students to keep building the movement for immigrant rights. That same year, she joined the Party for Socialism and Liberation. Graduating with a degree in Economics, Karina went on to become a New York City high school math teacher. After school, she advised a student group that protested against budget cuts, the Iraq war, police brutality and anti-immigrant laws. In 2012, she moved into a national organizing position for the National Latina Institute for Reproductive Justice where she worked for nearly a decade training immigrant women and working-class Latina activists in New York, Texas, Virginia and Florida.
[Taken from the About The Candidates section on their website.]
Understand that despite the mainstream medias desperate attempts to make us believe that our choices are really just Biden and Trump that that is not true.
We have other options.
We have better options.
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can you explain what you mean by not bad parents just bad parents to maple specifically? because i dont think you mean like abuse apologist but im struggling to understand the post
i explained a little where its like. the circumstances around maples birth and childhood and i can explain a bit more here. as best i can at least without revealing everything here rather than on maples blog. no idea how familiar you are with what ive dropped about maples parents but his mom is ivy, his dad is ulex, his father is venus, an his pa is nettle. no idea how much ill use their names going on from this point forward but its probably useful to have.
its VERY hard to raise a kid. even the best parents fuck up their kid a little somehow. and sometimes its not really anyones fault its just shit that has to happen from circumstances like a kid that grew up in a family that suddenly became poor cause of layoffs might be kinda stressed out because of the financial issues and thats not the parents fault they were living comfortably with good jobs when the kid was born and then afterwards lost those jobs suddenly and they couldnt have predicted that would happen like a few years down the line. or having a kid while your mental health is GREAT and then like a bad accident happens and your partner dies and just pregnancy/new parent hormones combined with that grief tank your mental health and ability to raise the kid. thatsno ones fault thats shitty circumstance and its a similar kinda thing tha happened with maples parents.
maples parents were all in like university/ranger school when she was born. they were all VERY BUSY and all low/no contact with their parents for various reasons at the time ranging from bad relationship with family to being in college and wanting to be independent while also being stupid irresponsible 19/20 year olds. maple was not planned and everyone kinda deferred to his mom to make decisions since she was the one pregnant. this was a bad idea because his mom was not mentally stable AT ALL at this point for multiple reasons. she dissasociated for basically the entire pregnancy and for much of maples first 6 years of life. post partum depression and psychosis beat her fucking ass at one point. IN THE MIDDLE OF THIS her luxray died as well. ivy's paranoia and lack of awareness of anything that was happening around her led to her suggesting they all just stay in school and finish their shit so they all have better jobs in the longterm and can take care of maple later as well as kept any of them from contacting family from help. she was not even aware that she had kinda pressued everyone into these decisions and FOR A WHOLE SIX YEARS thought ulex had dropped out of ranger schools to take care of maple. he hadnt. (side note ivy is a therapist now. she was in school for that when maple was younger. yeah. when your therapist needs a therapist more than you). once she had kinda gotten out of that spell when maple was 6 she still kinda did the bare minimum because she was afraid of being her abusive father. if ANY of these circumstances were different. if any of her partners realized how fucked up ivy was maple would have had a VASTLY different childhood and be not anywhere near as fucked up. they would have been fine. its just the fact they were all in university and ivy won the most mentally ill woman competition for like 7 years consecutively that made them raise maple badly. hell, ivy has realized she FUCKED UP. she wants a relationship with maple and maple does want a relationship with her but right now maple is terribly affraid of her (for easons that are not her fault) and they cannot have this relationship. maples other parents did what they can to fix things as well its just hard rn when maples in paldea and the only parent in paldea is super busy with work usually so they only get to hang out every few weeks.
if they had another kid now that kid would be raised well. maple is just the worlds worst example of born at a bad time.
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can we get an update? are u doing ok? u had such crazy output last year and now u so suddenly stopped
hey! ya sorry i went so mia its been a busy year. im still working on fic but its slow. from when i last updated trotw to april i was working 3 jobs, taking a full uni courseload, and writing my thesis. the thesis in particular honestly burned me out on writing really badly but i did manage to write that one oneshot
then summer was just shit honestly lol. i spent the entire summer working at a restaurant to save up money bc i had to move away in september, and the shift i had started at 6am, so i was almost never awake during my peak writing hours (11pm to 3am). i lost 30lbs in 2 months partially because i was broke and partially because my eating disorder relapsed (probably from stress lol). during that time i was only eating one meal a day in the form of my free staff lunch at work, but the restaurant where i worked was INFESTED WITH MICE :))))) so half the time i was too disgusted to eat thinking there might be rodent shit mixed into my food lol. and then on my days off i just ate like eggs and rice and zucchini bc thats what i got from the food bank. in august i started really genuinely and consciously restricting my calories down to like 500-800 cals per day, plus working on my feet as a waitress doing like 20k steps a day as a result of the malnutrition and rapid weight loss my hair started falling out in massive clumps :))) and i started sleeping for like 12 hrs a day. im eating properly now ofc tho
i moved in september for grad school and am now living in one of the most expensive cities in the world lol so i spend a lot of time just financially struggling. i have a job that will last until the end of december but its under contract so i only make like $600 a month and have to rely on my $14k school stipend and meagre savings for the rest. ive been looking for another job but i either get no interview, have the interviewer ghost me, or most recently, get told i have the job and then just never get scheduled. i have 7 cents in my checking account rn lol. my rent is paid until next month and then after that who knows whats gonna happen to me
last years output was definitely a fluke and only happened bc i was VERYYYY financially stable and could fuck around a lot at my part time job, where i wrote most of trotw. those sunny days are gone 🚬🚬 lol but i dont intend to abandon my works and i promise they will come someday. if anyone here feels like paying my rent itll come EVEN faster!!!
thx for checking up tho, its nice to know i havent been totally forgotten by u guys <3
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It's my 26th birthday today 🥹 bye, bye nice paycheck, hello paying taxes 😔
Since my birthday used to be a very depressing day for me ever since I turned 20, and it's not any more (the growth, hello?), I want to make a post summarizing the 25th year of my life.
Positive things that happened in my 25th year of life:
I got a stable job. A nice one. Close to what I studied in Uni, so I might say, that I'm almost working in my profession. But most importantly the workplace is nice, the people are very human, the paycheck is (or at least was, gonna see if I get equalization [?]) pretty good.
Reffering to getting that job - I've learnt so much this year! Also, I had the opportunity to travel to some places I've never been to before. Very nice.
I've read 26 (or 27?) books since last November. That's a nice upgrade, since I used to only read, like 10 books a year.
I didn't give up on writing, even tho I had a very hard time this year. I figured out some stuff around structure. I totally scrapped the 3rd chapter, since I won't be doing this person pov (and for the longest time I thought I would). I re-wrote the entire 1st and 2nd chapter.
I got excited about my story again! Or I think I did.
I got my boyfriend to go on a trip with me! Juhu. (He very much likes to spend time at home, and I really want to see stuff around the world. Don't get me wrong, I love being cozy at home, and I'm not some sort of big traveler, but there are some places that I want to see, and some experiences that I want to have. Also, until the end of last year, we both were struggling with jobs = with money, and weren't able to do much of traveling or doing cool things. So the thing I'm most proud of this year, is that we both got decent jobs, with normal contracts of employment! 💚He recently had his 1st year anniversary. I have yet to get to that point, as for today I have been working at my job for 9 months).
What I want to do / accomplish in my 26th year of life:
• I want to buy a car 🚗 and have more summer trips (or any, tbh) around the area.
- By next November, I want to be at least close to finishing up my first draft (God help me, cause I cannot see this insecure, lazy and full of imposter syndrome ass, doing it without some divine help).
- I wanna keep my job 👍🏻(no really, we are having a tough time [or at least I am] and I'm constantly anxious and scared. I don't want to get fired. My anxiety is so high, last time I felt this bad and stressed was 2021. We are planning an event rn, and I've never done it before and things are not going as smoothly, as I thought they would. So I'm pissing myself. After the event is done, it'll be alright again).
• Travel to one of the places from my list with my bf. We really didn't get a chance to travel together in those years we've been together. I think it's time (granted we both are in stable financial situation).
• Read some more. And read books that make me feel smarter.
And I think that's it.
#personal#even VERY personal#it's my birthday#my dudes#birthday#mental health#actually bpd#anxiety disorder#tw: sucidal thoughts#success#dreams#26#summary#summary of life#idk what is this#tbh there was a time; when i thought that i will be dead by the time i turn 18#sooooo#progress i guess?
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I’m struggling badly bc I’ve been emotionally abused my whole entire life and I live with a family member who has caused a lot of this abuse and still is emotionally abusive. I’m almost 30, I still struggle with my self e steem. Financially. I have kids. My life is just so sad and depressing. I’ve been in abusive relationships. I’m paralyzed by thinking about how my life got to this point. I try so hard to keep going because I don’t want my life to end like this. Any advice? I already see a therapist and it’s basically not really working rn……
Ironically, I can relate to some of the things you said. I’m going to be very honest. You need to move. You are an adult. You need to establish your own life. That should be your number one focus right now.
Living with your abuser? Baby your life is not going to change. I can’t imagine the mental and emotional turmoil you must be feeling.
It’s not going to get better until you decide to make a change. You were not put on this world to tolerate. That’s not a life. I know it’s not easy to see a light at the end of the tunnel. I know. But with whatever little hope, strength, or desire that you may have in you- you need to use that strength to pick yourself up. Tell yourself a million times a day that you’re going to get out. You need to take active steps to get out. Like right now. You need to acknowledge what you need to do right this second. And even though you’re not going to want to, you’re going to remind yourself why you’re doing it.
Absolutely no one can save you. You need to Decide to save yourself. You have to remember that you are worthy and amazing and capable and start reprogramming yourself. Don’t continue throwing yourself a pity party. What has happened to you, and whatever brought you to this position is not you’re fault. It is in the past. What matters NOW is what you choose to do for YOURSELF.
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have you ever struggled with anxiety? i remember you used to write about hedonism and the older i get the more enamoured i've become with living and loving, but i am so limited by fear…
Of course I literally have an anxiety disorder haha some nights I can’t sleep bc of how anxious I am. But honestly one thing I’ve learned from the financial collapse in Lebanon & losing my entire inheritance to the banks: you can plan everything down to the last detail but it’s never 100% going to go as you expected. i thought that I’d go to London to do a masters in art business at Sotheby’s, I thought I’d own an apartment rn with my inheritance, I thought a lot of things and instead I got stuck in Paris, homeless and with no way to do the masters I really wanted. i thought I’d never be able to go to grad school. five years later I met a great friend who happens to be super rich & she gave me a 13k loan to do a masters, knowing that I might need a few decades to pay her back. i was able to start freelancing & discovered I like that a lot more than working in an office - I wouldn’t have had all these experiences if I’d had all my money & had just gone the safe way. basically what I’m trying to say is that life is full of surprises, and you can’t avoid them no matter how anxious you are, so might as well do what you want
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D I need help
Ok so basically I have this friend we've been friends since we were 4 n we're really close n I love her to death and she's really been struggling lately with college, family n finance and I've been trying my best to support her n be there for her but there's not much I can do other than like offer my support n listen. She's been really really anxious and depressed like to the point where it's affecting her physically making her sick (she got sick a lot before too but now it's more frequent and long) , miss a lot of classes cuz of which she got really low scores this semester which only caused her to feel worse. She has a lotta pressure from her family to focus on her studies n do well so she can earn cuz they're struggling financially n her dad's an alcoholic her mom's supportive tho but still the pressures on cuz they can barely pay for college she's being sponsored by her uncle which she's grateful for but it just adds to the pressure
Anyways she told me today that she wants to quit college to work on her mental health but tbh Idk if that's gonna work out cuz staying at home with her dad the way he is n their financial issues is only going to make things worse and it's her first year of college if she drops out rn it may not be a good decision that being said ik at the end of the day it's her decision n her life but I have no idea what to say to her
Hey there,
First off, you're doing an amazing job being there for your friend. It's clear how much you care about her.
It sounds like your friend is shouldering quite a bit right now. It's heartbreaking to hear that her struggles are taking a toll on her physically and mentally too. That's a sign things are really weighing on her.
If that's the case, then taking a break is not entirely a bad idea.
Perhaps instead of telling her not to do it, you could help her think a little about what she wants to do instead?
Would finding some employment in the meantime help? Does she want to go away and stay with a friend/relative for a while? Does she want to pursue online courses which are cheaper and more convenient? Which of these options are feasible and desirable to her?
Personally speaking, I've been in the situation you're friend is in. And no matter how much you want her to continue, sometimes it's just not possible. I'm honestly proud of her for saying she wants a break. That takes strength.
Both my sisters stopped their degrees halfway through for more or less the same reasons, and guess what, one of them went back and completed it later, and the other eventually ended up with a job that she loved and excelled in.
I know it seems scary to drop out of college/school and worry about how that might impact one's future. But right now, her health is the most important thing. Her present is the problem, not her future. Besides, like I said, there are so many options right now. So, let her choose something a little less difficult.
At the end of the day, you're right. It's her call. All you can do is keep being the amazing friend you are—supportive, understanding, and there to listen. Let her know you've got her back no matter what.
Sending love and courage to you and your friend ❤️
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Hey there! I saw that you've taken down your work, I and I think how public or private a work is is always up to the author to decide, so not here to put pressure on you or anything. I just wanted to let you know that I've really enjoyed a lot of your works! And that I hope you keep writing, whether or not you choose to share or not! Best wishes to you
Hello! "I think how public or private a work is is always up to the author to decide, so not here to put pressure on you or anything." I appreciate this so very much, thank you. I know what it's like to see writing vanish (I've been reading fic for about 20 years now and can tell you that some of my favorite authors and fics are gone for good), but as a writer, I also get why people do it. The loss hurts, but authors have their reasons. And not always the same ones. In my case -and I'm about to get very personal here so feel free to back away quickly - I've been putting my work out on social media to total silence for years. It has to end. I have to learn that it isn't that great, that no one wants to share it with their friends or acknowledge that they enjoyed my work to anyone else. I've tried so many things to get word out, because I wanted to self-publish some of my stuff and make a living around my disabilities (I can't work, I can't even predict if I'm functional in 30 minutes much less consistently for entire days). The financial struggle didn't stop me from sharing works for free, but... Then my confidence kept taking a beating when I posted excerpts, links, etc. on multiple platforms. I don't even want to be online anymore and keep thinking I should delete. The only reason I don't is that it's a hassle to preserve my usernames if I do that. XD Anyway, I figure the flaw is the quality of my writing. I feel embarrassed that I think there's anything worth peddling. I'm trying to cut myself off from attempting in the future, since I always come back thinking I can do this again and it never works. :') I'm still working on my stories. People keep lecturing me that I should only ever write for myself, but I don't do exchanges or ask for votes and requests on what I should write next (nothing wrong with these things btw, it's okay to write for other people actually, I just don't), I have one original story that took off on AO3 (Seasons) and most people ditched it before they finished reading it, my writing was openly mocked in one fandom to the point I stopped posting, and I have posted original works online for 15 years to almost total silence. Who else but myself could I be writing for at that point? I love writing, so I can't see myself quitting it as long as I'm alive. Question is, how long can I do that in a world that doesn't want to help disabled people? I can't even get healthcare rn, they claim they can't verify my identity since I moved states. It's been a mess. And I need healthcare and further testing, because it turns out one of my doctors didn't even take proper notes when she diagnosed me as a child and I basically have to get re-diagnosed. Honestly, the pressure of all that is impacting my writing time, so I'm surprised I've managed to write over 5k since February started. ^^ Anyway, thank you. I wish things would get better. I just don't see it after over a decade of hard work. ;A;
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Hey sorry that things aren't going the best with Centrelink. You probs know this but I just wanted to say that if you reckon it's genuinely bullshit on their part, you could talk to an advocacy agency - e.g. in Victoria it is SSRV (social security rights victoria). They help for free with appealing Centrelink decisions.
Good luck out there!! I hope your day improves from here!!!
Thank you thank you for reaching out. I will look into it, my situation is just a bit complex. I’m in a constant crisis about my financial situation… I’m struggling so badly rn and bc we Live In A Society getting help is so incredibly difficult and soul crushing… it’s infuriating how hard they make it for people and now I don’t know how I’m suppose to pay rent like fuck my entire life im so over it
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It's just so unbearable. Everyday I try to hold it in and go through the day but it seems that time just passes me by. It's almost funny because I'd say that "time passing faster" would mean that the hard days will be over soon but it always seems like I'm stuck in an iterant cycle, experiencing the same pain over and over again, unable to escape my sorrows.
I just want to write my feelings out, and show it to the world. Because, the fear of judgement looms over me, and I don't trust anyone with my vulnerability.
Everything is bad. My appearance, health, financial situation etc.
You name it and I can assure you that it's bad as well
I'll start with my appearance.
I've always been underweight. Throughout my childhood and teen years, I've been made fun of by peers and family for my thin frame. They've always seemed to blame it on my tendency to not eat a lot, which I do. And I've always been insecure about my skinny self. Whether it was wearing short sleeves that would show my thin arms or wearing shorts/dresses that would show my ankles and calves. It really affected me.
I'd often find myself feeling comfortable only while wearing clothes that hide my body, and even though I have the desire to wear more revealing clothes, I can't seem to get out of my shell and do so.
It doesn't really end with my body too. My face is something I've been insecure about ever since I've entered high school.
High school is the place where most people make friends and find love, which is something I've struggled to find no matter how much I've sought.
I'm not an attractive person, and I struggle alot in social situations because I'm shy and fear people's opinions of me.
It really messes with your self esteem when you're the only friend with no boyfriend. When you're the only who's never been on a date before or had the luxury of experiencing teen love. And whenever i try to complain, I get the same comments from my friends.
That I'm "pretty" or I "shouldn't let a man define who I am" and it pisses me off because they're the exact same people who tend to attract guys by simply existing.
And it's not my personality. I've been told that I've had a great one, even by guys I've been interested in. But they'd end up saying that they're not attracted to me because of my appearance.
I wish I could just disappear and exist out of a living form. I don't want to abide by society's beauty standards but that's the only way to find love these days.
My health is also deteriorating.
I'm a high-school student so I often find myself staying up to revise for upcoming exams or sleeping for a few hours because I don't have time to be sleeping.
It really infuriates me, Yk? That I spend my entire time studying and risking my health just to get grades that I'm not satisfied with. I also struggle with procrastinating and my attention span is FRIED so it doesn't really help with getting the grades I want.
My parents have high expectations for me, and I usually struggle to meet them.
Anyway, I've been suffering from toothache for probably the past 4 months and I can't seem to get rid of it no matter what I do.
I floss my teeth and brush them twice a day, and I'm always keeping my hygiene up. But nothing seems to be working.
Also my teeth are misaligned and I have an overbite which really doesn't help with the toothache at all. (It's probably the reason for it, my tooth is aching rn)
Overall, my health Is all over the place and there's nothing I can do about it.
Now to my financial situation.
I've always been a grateful kid because I didn't grow up rich and I've been fully aware of my parents financial situation from a very young age.
But no matter what, I've never been able to get anything I wanted.
I'm not sure if it's the constant "poverty" were living in or the fact that I'm just really unlucky.
My dad has been in debt for probably 2 years now, and it's not because he "gambles" his money away or spends it on useless things. No.
My dad is an immigrant, And has spent his entire life slaving away at a job he absolutely loathes just so he can make a living for himself and his family.
And he's been saving up for almost 20 years to start his business, and guess what? It all goes downhill when a civil war started in my home country and he lost his entire business. The place was stolen and destroyed, and it left him feeling miserable but he still stayed strong for us.
He never complained about our living situation, or the business that he lost. And he always makes sure to make ends meet.
Whether it's paying for our school tuitions, or new clothes that we need, or even basic stuff like water and electricity bills. He never once complained about it.
I'm forever grateful for the love he's shown me and my family, and for providing everything that we need.
I wish that I could earn the money to help out my family.
I also wish to have the things that I've always wanted.
I've always wanted a camera, a vintage one, And an electric guitar because I'm a huge rock fan and would love to cover some of my favorite songs.
But I can't afford these things. Sometimes I can't even afford to go out with my friends.
Whether it's a simple outing or a full blown dinner, I never had the money for it.
Which really isn't a problem, because I don't like going out that much, But i also wanna enjoy my teen years.
I wanna go out and enjoy a boba drink. I wanna go kayaking or camping.
I wanna do alot of things but I don't have the money for it.
And I'm not too ashamed to ask my parents when I'm fully aware of our rough financial situation.
I know they'll never say no to me, but it's too shameful.
I wanna earn my own money but jobs for teens aren't really available where i live which is REALLY shitty.
Anyways, there's countless things that I wanna vent about but they're not really important
Im really sorry for my English (it's not my first language) and thank you for reading this :)
Have a good day/night!
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I'm returning to Tumblr to continue my mental health journey. Last time, my experience was traumatic, but fast forward to May 2024, and I'm doing well. However, the same feelings I had in late 2023 are resurfacing. I've realized that I suffer from High Functioning Depression, where I pretend to be "fine," but in reality, I'm struggling with depression. Fortunately, I've addressed this by increasing my medication. I had stopped my medication previously until I recognized my condition. Now, I'm on a higher dose—perhaps more is better.
It's strange transitioning from working full-time as an EMT, dealing with emergency 911 calls, to now working for people experiencing homelessness, spending my entire day at a computer doing unfamiliar work. My body is still adjusting from being an emergency responder to an office worker. The stress from my current job is significantly affecting my mental health, especially with the financial burden of keeping up with daily needs. I requested a raise but was rejected, which has been demoralizing. I went from being the "Rescue Life Saver of the Month" to feeling like just another EMT glued to his computer. This office job shouldn't be so stressful, but the constant changes in the work environment are confusing and exhausting.
I'm grateful that my fellow EMTs, RNs, and OTs have helped me manage my mental health, but my "First Responder Kyrie" mentality of "I'm fine, I got this, I don't need help" keeps resurfacing, even though I'm struggling to take care of myself. Yes, I'm excellent at my job, but I feel like I'm underperforming and find myself apologizing for even minor mistakes. I sometimes need to cry, but I can't because I don't want my siblings to see me struggling; I want to be there for them. The only way I show them love is by providing for their needs, from food and beyond.
I miss being a Firefighter/EMT and a SWAT Medic. I miss the action, but right now, I'm doing what I can for the people I care about.
Currently, I'm working at the County Department of Health Service as an EMT.
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hi same anon; genuinely i meant no disrespect on your wanting to help keep a good place going and i completely understand where you're coming from and don't fault you at all for that
for me, the entire thing of a big corporate website needing to be crowdfunded is just kind of really really fishy... especially when there's been just about no word on it save for these random crab day posts. (I could just be late about hearing the news but I would think it'd be a bigger deal if the site was financially struggling THAT much...) and I understand this is partially my own projections of distrust about companies but something just really doesn't seem right with the situation. i would hate for it to come out that this was all some kind of misconstruction/misunderstanding and now the site knows that it can just take money from it's users and they literally don't have to do anything... it just seems too shady at the moment. (fwiw i hope i'm wrong and this is just an innocent case...)
sorry for clogging your inbox with my silly asks but ty for taking the time to discuss🙏 i hope you're having a good day ♥️
you aren’t clogging my inbox at all! i am very tired rn cuz i had a long day but i promise you did no harm. i really appreciate you reaching out and talking about it with me and explaining your thought process. i can see why you were very wary of it. i hope it doesn’t end up being something like that but i’m glad you helped me reconsider it. thank you for talking with me, and i’m here if you need anything <3
#sorry i’m really tired so idk if this is even coherent uhhh#i hope you had a good day!!#i feel like i should say more but. brain empty
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THE IMPACT OF HOSPITAL STAFFING SHORTAGES ON NURSING STUDENTS
It’s no secret that there is a nursing shortage in the United States. This shortage has a ripple effect that extends to hospitals, where staffing shortages are becoming more and more common.
This can have a serious impact on nursing students, who often find themselves working long hours in understaffed units. The situation is not only stressful for nurses-in-training, but it can also be dangerous. Here’s a look at the impact of hospital staffing shortages on nursing students.
The current state of hospital staffing shortages
It is no secret that hospital staffing shortages are becoming a serious problem in our healthcare system, and they certainly aren’t doing nursing students any favors! Nursing students around the country are finding themselves in a difficult position – they’re trying to get necessary hands-on experience, but without adequate hospital staff, that’s easier said than done.
The reality is that hospitals don’t just have fewer nurses working, they also have fewer teachers who can properly instruct potential RNs. This creates huge problems for both patients and eager future professionals. If left unaddressed, these hospital staffing shortages will only worsen over time and leave an entire generation of nursing students without the training they need to succeed.
The impact of the staffing shortage on nurses
It’s no secret that hospital staffing shortages can put a lot of pressure on advanced medical staffing, often leading to nurses working long hours and feeling overworked. This is an issue across the country, especially in areas where the population is rapidly growing. The problem isn’t just a logistical nuisance; it can endanger the health and safety of both the patients and the nursing staff.
The intensity of shifts, compounded by consistently high work demand, can lead to burnout or worse. Healthcare organizations must make addressing this issue a priority so that advanced medical staff can operate at their best capacity.
How do hospital staffing shortages impact the quality of patient care?
Hospital staffing shortages have the potential to make a very big impact on the quality of care patients receive. For example, recently, a study showed that areas with nurse-staff ratios that were too low had alarmingly poor outcomes on patient satisfaction and health. This is understandable given that nurses are vital for compassionate communication, swiftly recognizing unusual conditions, and providing appropriate treatments.
The situation is so concerning that some hospital administrators have admitted they feel like they are constantly playing catch-up to maintain acceptable standards of care despite fewer resources. Let’s hope the powers that be heed this warning before it leads to even more lamentable outcomes for patients across the board.
The financial burden on hospitals
Hospitals are feeling the pinch when it comes to staffing or lack thereof. With so many qualified and experienced medical professionals opting out due to the current circumstances, some hospitals are struggling to stay afloat. Too little staff leaves the remaining personnel with double shifts, mental stress, and physical exhaustion; much too heavy a financial burden to bear by hospitals that were already facing closure for various reasons pre-pandemic. Let’s reduce this burden by ensuring that our hospitals have enough support and resources–let’s find ways to help lighten their load!
The importance of having enough nurses on staff
It’s no secret that advanced medical staffing starts with enough nurses on the job. Having sufficient nursing staff is like the difference between sticking a Band-Aid on a wound and getting immediate, advanced care.
Without enough nurses, solutions to patient care issues would be limited to quick and short-term fixes. But with an adequate number of nurses on staff, a patient receives advanced and quality care. When nurses are given the chance to provide quality medical help, it leads to better treatment experiences for patients and improved outcomes overall.
What needs to be done to solve the hospital staffing crisis?
When it comes to solving the hospital staffing crisis, advanced medical staffing should be considered the magical answer to this serious problem. After all, advanced medical staffing is like a magic trick – out of thin air, it summons up an amazing group of talented healthcare professionals that can work innovative shifts and provide round-the-clock assistance to patients.
With advanced medical staffing, hospitals can rest assured knowing their teams are in experienced hands and that their clinics are up and running at full capacity. It’s time to conjure up advanced medical staffing – it could make all the difference in this dire situation!
How can nursing students cope with hospital staffing shortages?
With hospital staffing shortages becoming increasingly common, nursing students may feel like they are always one step away from a complete burn-out! But thankfully, there are ways to keep your stress to a minimum while you’re in the trenches.
One great way is to take regular breaks throughout the day. Listen to your favorite music or go for a quick stretch outside – trust us, pressing pause will make you much better prepared for the next shift.
Don’t forget to take advantage of technology too – reaching out virtually to family, friends, and even healthcare professionals can be an efficient way of keeping your mental health in check during busy times on the floor.
And lastly, for those moments when there just doesn’t seem to be enough time (or help!), remember that it’s OK to ask for extra support! There’s no shame in the delegation, and it may just save you from feeling overwhelmed.
Conclusion
Nursing students, we feel your pain. Long hours, high stress, and little sleep are all too familiar for those of us in the nursing world. However, by trying out some of these tips, we hope you’ll be able to find a little relief from the challenges that hospital staffing shortages can bring. Do you have any other suggestions for how nursing students can cope with this issue? We’d love to hear them in the comments section below!
Content Source: https://inhousemed.com/sb/impact-of-hospital-staffing-shortages-on-nursing-students/
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