#not in a wierd way just to clarify

[valewritessss]

Kudos to Frank Zhang because if I knew my life depended on a piece of wood I would be paranoid

[bigbrotherkillsme]

ykw. i'm impressed with jared's sincerity and the accountability he's seemingly taking after the things he did in the house. to me, pattern is everything, so i'll see how he is post season but. somebody said it and they were right -- taking swift accountability is a helluva a lot more than we usually see from the men on these shows (even though it's the bare minimum), so i'll give him that. (also a reminder that i am not a stan of anybody)

[jess-the-vampire]

While I get what they mean, I don't think fans who dissmiss fans who wanna see the wittebane backstory animated under the guise of "its Disney , they'll never show the stabbing" exactly get what people wanna see.

Do people wanna know what happened during the fight? Oh yeah, there's a lot of wierd vague details i think people want explained, like why Evelyn didn't step in till after caleb died, or the passage of time for all the events we see in HM, or why caleb didn't try and use flapjack (his scar is implied to be from the event but never clarified), and a number of other questions.

But honestly people are just as interested in stuff like the drama, they want the brothers relationship, caleb and Evelyn's love story, insight on caleb as a person, ect ect

None of this is "too dark" for disney to have shown, if they had given us all this and depicted the fight via shadow or something those fans would still be very satisfied.

Sorry, not a fan of people dismissing what fans of these characters wanna see under the guise of "its a kids show" as if we all just wanted to see violence and nothing else.

I think there are plenty of ways this show could've visualized their story without going too far and giving people the more in depth story they want if they had the time and wanted to.( and maybe they still could someday)

[thought-42]

It gets harder every year

Star Wars, 2050 words, Luke Skywalker, Ezra Bridger Luke has acquired a Mandalorian and is maybe panicking a little. It's fine. He nows a guy. Set in a universe where Ezra wound up in the Chiss Ascendancy post-Rebels and eventually he and Luke became like. Space internet friends. Don't worry about it. *

Luke Skywalker, pinnacle of Jedi calm and patience, only does four laps around the school while he waits for his comm signal to work its way through seven layers of encryption and a long string of relay nodes stretching across lightyears, vast and unknowable, between his current location and his target.

“No,” Laezra says as soon as he picks up. His little hologram is blurry and half a second out of sync with the audio, but Luke can still see the way his hair is flattened on one side and standing straight up on the other, and he's holding the comm in such a way that his (probably bare) chest is out of frame. There is, perhaps, a timezone issue Luke should have taken into account.

“You're so rude,” Luke says. “This could be an emergency.”

“Is it?”

“The point is that it could be. And you, my only peer, my only fellow Force user, you who stand in brotherhood with me against a harsh and uncaring universe–”

“Your sister exists and is literally a princess”

“What value does the royal title hold within the forced diaspora, really? Also the last time I asked if she wanted to meditate she threatened to tell someone I don't pay taxes.”

“That's an actual criminal crime, for the record. What kind of example are you setting for your students?”

“I have two students,” Luke says. “One of whom I'm related to. Besides, didn't you meet your master in the middle of a criminal crime?”

“It's not a crime if it pisses off the Empire,” Laezra says automatically, then, “Luke, please. I am so tired. There was a whole... thing. I haven't slept in my own bed for three weeks. My student had to use her lightsaber in actual combat for the first time. I had to side with my commanding officer against my mentor, even though the asshole was absolutely in the right, and I'm feeling some kinda way about it. Sometimes preemptive action is good, actually, but don’t tell anybody I said that.”

“Sorry,” says Luke. “Is she ok? Your student, I mean.” Laezra still refuses to tell Luke the name of his or his fellow Navigator Jedi's student, and wierd trust issues aside, it makes conversation grammatically difficult sometimes.

“Yeah. We're ok. We were both doing twelve hour shifts on the way home, though, because I guess ‘we aren’t Sky Walkers’ doesn’t mean ‘we aren’t Sky Walkers’ when the ship’s actual Sky Walker is made of germs and fever and barf. Then it becomes ‘jump-by-jump is so inefficient, this information is so critical, everybody’s so tired. Have you ever had the experience of getting nosebleed blood crusted in your beard? BecauseI don’t recommend it.”

Between Leia and Laezra, Luke knows enough classified information to sink two major governments. Or at least inconvenience them a lot. 

"Ok, ok, ok," Luke decides he's going to sit down on the grass,and only realises it’s still wet from the afternoon rainstorm once his pants are already soaked. “So. Listen. You know things.”

“Wild,” Laezra says flatly. “Is this how you write report cards at your school?”

Luke glares down at the little hologram. “You know things about Mandalorians,” he clarifies. He decides he's gonna stand back up, and while he's at it he may as well do a few more laps.

“I-- Luke. Luke you can't tell me I'm the only person you know who knows a Mandalorian. Who I am, just so we're super clear, still on pretty shaky footing with, given my whole... everything.”

Luke waves this off. He is very over Laezra having fucked off on actual Purrgils, never to return, less than a year before Luke discovered he was a space wizard and could have really desperately used some support in that from someone who wasn't a hundred years old and a friend of his father's. It's so fine. He definitely doesn't lie awake imagining being one half of a pair of Jedi, back when the Rebellion had felt huge and overwhelming and kind of terrifying. Some people blow up a massive space station/doomsday weapon full of living beings (twice) and hold their evil dad in their arms while he dies. Some people ride away in a burst of martyrdom on their bffs the legendary space whales. Some people live alone but for two little kids in the ruins of a temple that they call a school, desperately trying to rebuild an entire religious and cultural institution from barely legible texts and ghosts. Some people live in another galaxy and embark on exciting new projects for an alien government where they get to research brand new Force techniques and go on adventures and live in an apartment where they can just walk across the street and buy fresh pastries whenever they want to.

Jedi do not feel envy. Jedi do not feel resentment. Jedi are always well aware that the grass is perpetually greener.

“I have a Mandalorian now,” Luke says, instead of any of this.

“Like, you... have obtained one? Are you feeding them? They need so much exercise, I cannot emphasise this enough.”

Luke puts his comm on the ground so he can drop his face into his hands. “He gave me? His kid? But also I think he's the king of the Mandalorians, and he keeps stopping by for visits, and I don't want to mess up.”

“This is so much,” Laezra says. “This is so much. Luke Skywalker, are you crushing on the Mand’alor?”

“Calling you was a mistake,” Luke says.

“Calling me was the opposite of a mistake, oh my God. What House? What Clan? I ask like the answer will mean anything to me, but like..... it might.”

“His name's Din,” Luke says. “I don't know if I'm supposed to tell people that.”

“And have you and Din..... you know?”

“He doesn't take his helmet off,” Luke says, helplessly. “Except once, and I think that was... not ideal. For him.”

“But was it ideal for you– sorry, sorry. Ok. Was he an Academy kid?”

“I don't think so,” Luke says. “He barely knew anything about the war. He didn't know who I was. He has a lightsaber that he really doesn't want to have, though.”

“Wait. Wait. So he's like.... the real deal. You're having sexy parent/teacher interviews with the legit Mand’alor.”

“I'm not having sexy anything with anybody,” Luke says.

“That's so sad, my guy. But hey, keep on trucking. I bet you can seduce him with your farmboy charms.”

“His son eats frogs,” says Luke. “I caught him a whole bucket full to take with him last time Din came to take him on a trip.”

“You just. ...handed the Mand’alor a bucket of frogs and his kid? ‘Have a good time, gang!’ You’re my very favourite little guy, Luke.”

“I think most of them escaped inside his ship,” Luke admits. “Which, actually, let me tell you about his kriffing ship–”

“Why am I perpetually surrounded by pilots? Luke, look at me. Look me in the eye. I don't care about his ship. Tell me about his cute kid or his dick or the actual ass Darksaber. Do not tell me about his ship.”

“It's very bad, though. It’s a bad ship and he should feel bad about it, he lets his child ride around in it, and I know for a fact his fuel injectors were recalled–”

“So were you hoping I'd... know the Mando dating cheat codes, or something?” Laezra says loudly.

Luke frowns. “I want to get to know him as a person. I'm his son's teacher. It'd be inappropriate for me to ... do anything. I'm just hoping I can maybe be a bit more culturally sensitive.”

Luke's only ever seen one propper, full-colour picture of Laezra that isn't a blue light holocall; there’s a holo on General Syndulla’s desk of a grinning teenager, limbs gawky and eyes that reminded Luke of the feral tookas he was never allowed to take home during trips into town as a kid. Even so, it's easy for Luke to picture the other man sitting in the dark of his bedroom, shoving his hands back through his hair as he groans. Luke wonders if he's the kind of person who needs to have everything unpacked and in its place when he comes home from a mission, or if he's more the 'dump bag and clothes on floor, fall face first onto nearest flat surface' type. It's probably a weird thing to wonder, but it's the sort of thing Luke knows about all his other friends.

“Ok. Luke.” He drops his hands from his hair and leans in close to his comm, so the top half of his face is all Luke sees, weird and disproportionate as the camera tries to compensate. “I bet you've probably been reading a bunch of old Jedi books or scrolls or cave paintings about the danger of attachment. Maybe your ghosts have lectured you. But that's what they are. Ghosts and old writings. You're starting something new. And-- Kanan. My Master. He loved somebody very much, and she loved him back. And he was the best Jedi I can imagine.”

“You can just say it was General Syndulla,” says Luke, who has only ever seen one mention of attachments in the documents he’s recovered, but doesn’t want to devalue what Laezra is trying to tell him.

“Ok, yeah. They loved each other so much, and I never once saw it interfere with Kanan’s dedication to helping others. To making the galaxy a safer, kinder place. If anything I think she made him better. And vice-versa.”

“I just meant,” Luke says carefully, “that I wouldn't want to risk things not working out and Din not wanting to leave his son here anymore. There's nobody else who will train him. But I’ll keep the other stuff in mind.”

“I have so many things I definitely  don't actually want to say to Ahsoka,” Laezra mutters. “But oh boy am I thinking them.”

Luke presses his lips together. He doesn't know if Laezra knows who Vader was when he was a Jedi. Doesn't know if it'd mean anything to him even if he did know. “She's got some pretty compelling reasons for the choices she makes, he says. "I don’t agree with her, but… I mean. Anybody can become dangerous if attachment gets possessive, but you've gotta admit Force users are especially risky.”

“People just keep making bigger guns,” Laezra points out. “How are they any less dangerous?”

“A gun can't get inside your head and change how you feel. It can't make you do things you wouldn't normally do.”

“Ahahaha,” says Laezra, and his hands go back over his face as he leans away from the camera. “You don't need The Force for that one, either.”

Luke winces. “Anyway,” he says, because he knows most people don't actually want to talk about their feelings, even if that seems super counter-intuitive. Whatever. “How do I become friends with the Mand'alor?”

“You keep saying it and it doesn't get any less unhinged. I don't know. You're already taking care of his kid, and you value family. You're highly skilled in combat. There's really no secret trick to it, just... be a person.”

“I've tried that,” Luke says. “I'm so bad at being a person around him though.”

“Does he like art?” Laezra asks, with a sudden burst of gleeful intensity. “Luke does he like art, this is important. I can tell you so much about art. Do you want to know which chemical combinations are the best for neon colours and also timed explosions? Do you want to know about historical graffiti culture throughout the Outer Rim? Do you want to know how to use the remaining art from the various Mandalorian factions to construct a sociopolitical thesis on their people with a focus on military tactics?”

“You know what," says Luke, "I think I hear the kids calling me.”

“Coward,” Laezra says immediately

“Go back to bed; say hi to your student for me; may The Force be with you bye.”

Laezra is still swearing at him, laughing,when Luke clicks the channel closed.

Luke, with all the dignity befitting the last Jedi Master, opens his notebook and writes 'Ask if he likes art.'

[blackcatreadstarot]

Will Poulter FS tarot reading

As always a little disclaimer for FS tarot readings: you can't predict physical traits (like height, hair colour, eye colour, ect.) with tarot cards.

Does he have a FS? 10 of cups reversed + queen of swords reversed + 10 of pentacles Clarification cards to 10 of cups reversed and queen of swords reversed: 4 of pentacles reversed + justice reversed + 7 of pentacles reversed Well...it's a little wierd. I had questions with 10 of cups reversed and queen of swords reversed because both cards can give you two meanings: open marriage (or a marriage with a cheating partner) or a connection that was interfered by a third party or external forces. I wanted to clarify that part and as clarification cards I've got 4 of pentacles reversed + justice reversed + 7 of pentacles reversed. Well, it means that he will have non-traditional marriage, high possibility that he himself or his FS is not into idea of commitment. They might live with each other but not end up getting married officially. Did he meet his FS? 8 of wands reversed + the hierophant reversed + ace of cups reversed + king of cups reversed No How will they meet? queen of swords reversed + 9 of pentacles reversed + 7 of cups 2 of cups reversed + the hanged man reversed + 5 of wands. I don't understand...clarification cards are even worse. Cards above talk about that he or his FS will have a lot of options in love, he or FS will choose between potential lovers. Again, cards talk about incompatibility and being in a relationship for wrong reasons. I've got a break from a reading and decided to do it next day just to see if maybe the cards don't catch energy today, or maybe I'm not supposed to know something, or maybe everything is really the way it is... So, here I am the next day. I decided not to delete all I wrote above, use different deck and ask cards those questions again. Does he have a FS? 5 of wands + 2 of pentacles reversed + temperance reversed Well...I'm sorry...but it feels like a no... To be honest that was one of the hardest readings I've ever did. I don't understand why I got such horrible cards for his future with FS. Queen of swords reversed appeared several times and if that card indicates a person...well, that's not a great person - toxic, manipulative, bitter. I might be wrong. Or cards might not show the information. Sometimes we as a third party are not supposed to know some things about other people's private life. I'm so sorry...

Used tarot deck: tarot de carlotydes Second tarot deck: tarot de luz

[yandere-plague]

Hello! I'm the anon who asked for yandere! Barney Calhoun x oblivious reader. Half life 2 please! Sorry for not clarifying :D

All good haha!

Apologies if this isn't as oblivious as you wanted.

Had some ideas for a mini oneshot so enjoy!

It had been an hour, your 'recreational' time had ended.

You headed back to your block early, Civil Protection really doesn't appreciate lateness.

Some wierd guy brushed passed passed you, wearing the typical C17 blue jacket but with a striking pear of black glasses.

Glasses are rare, after all once they've broken they are gone forever.

Something heavy pushed past in the distance. A strider.

Oh, the Strider was in the WAY OF GOING BACK.

Ughhhhh fuckkkkk.

CP hung around the area, making sure nobody was sneaking off.

Not like you could run past them anyway, the normally open combine door was shut.

You swore you could hear someone walking ontop of some gratings above. Though you couldn't imagine why, or how.

After over 10 minutes the blockade finally ceased.

It may not seem like a long time but it certainly felt like it.

You averted your eyes from the obvious blood stain... Someone was killed today.

"Attention residents, miscount detected in your block..."

The disembodied female voice of the Overwatch could be heard in the background.

They really weren't that loud to be honest, but you had to listen to them.

"Report your Civil Status to Local Protection Team, immediately."

Your mind drifted to your 'roomates', as you called them, to forget that you are imprisoned in your block, one of them was a sneaky son of a bitch who stole food rations from the combine. They regularly shared it with all of you.

"Stop citizen" A Metrocop grabbed you, restraining your movement. A stun baton primed and ready to 'stun'

"No! My friend! I have to warn them!" You strained against his grasp, you needed your friend to live.

"Im sorry (y/n)."

His voice was severely filtered, though there is only one Metrocop who would know your name.

"B-Barney?"

The last words you slipped out before the baton hit your skin, electrifying you for just a second, then the comforting blackness catched up with you.

[likikoarireturns]

Does anyone else someone struggle with the tumblr usage?

To clarify I dont mean this as a bad thing, I actually mean this as a very good thing.

I've spent the last years of my life off tumblr because I lost my old account and just accepted that I was freed from the hellsite.

Because of this I got Very used to a specific way of interacting with platforms, bekng stingy with likes, specifically blocking people not because I dislike them or disagree with them but because literally the only thing on my youtube homepage was their videos, yet I hadn't seen my subscriptions in months.

That isn't something here. You see what you signed up to see and Nothing else. If you signed up to see the wierd shit your friend reblogs you see it, if you followed liminal spaces mood boards you'll see them.

It's like the opposite of how I had to get used to browsing on every other platform and its great.

Though I would like to find a way to find new ideas easier

[luimagines]

Subject 10-Mulan Link

You have now gained the accesses file page of the chain links case number #19835 Corrupted heroes for Subject #10

Current state: Safe

legal name: Link,last name unknown

Nicknamed: Mulan 

Biological age: unknown

Chronical age: unknown

Hieght: Unknown

Weight: unknown

Visiting accesse time for subject Zero: Must be planned ahead of schedule time in order to have private meetings and clerance from head chief researcher Queen zelda and level 5 personal clerance

Physical description: Subject 10 is a short haired Hylian woman who wears a green tunic and knight gear armor.They have a well built muscular body and a ferret that rests around thier neck as well as scars and cuts around thier body.The most noticeable scare they have are three little cuts under thier chin and a long vertical cut across thier right cheek.

Information: Subject 10 first arrived at the castle carrying subject zero and subject 11 bloodied and badly injured with a broken arm and serveral fractured bones as well as stab/slash wounds.They came in as duplicates of four identical versions of subject 10 dressed variouse colors such as brown,cyan,yellow and green.Only one of the 4 sets had arrived at the castle with subject Zero and Subject 11 while the others fought off to keep back the “chain” while back up knights and town gaurds were deployed to apreheand them.Subject 10 is not placed under any containment but is required to come to the SCRPP research site to have check ups and testing as well as recorded interviews with research personales.Subject 10 refuses to have to go anywhere without her ferret campaion so all interviews and meetings are held with subject 10′s ferret either on the site with them or curled around subject 10′s neck.Subject 10 is in current possesion of the master sword and four sword as well as veriouse other items from the group(but not all for research purposes and other classified resons).They are to be informed of any drastic procedures that are to be done to any of the known subjects and participats of case file #19835.Subject 10 is one of the only subjects out of all the links who dose not show a red essence seeping out or show any signs of agression or possesive behvaiors for subject Zero. Research is still going underway to find out a way as to why it is and if blood or dna samples can be exracted from subject 10 in order to find a cure.

[interview recoding of subject 10 #1]

Dr.Jean: Now beining case file number #1983 dash 1 subject 10 interview of the anomalie the Curropted Heros. Time started at 10:89. Interview researcher personale Dr.Jean, tag number 893 of site 13 room A14.

Dr.Jean: Ok,lets start.Rember at anytime you start to feel uncomfortable we can stop the interview,alright?

Link: ok..

Dr.Jean: ok,lets start off with something simple.Subject 10 can you please state your name?

Link: Mulan.

Dr.Jean: I am sorry,let me clarify I meant your real name.

Link: oh,right..its uh,its Link.

Dr.Jean: Good,can you state your last name as well?

Link: I dont have one.

Dr.Jean: Are you sure? No documnets? Family? Anyway to file for one?

Link: Yes,I am sure.I dont have one.Thats it.

Dr.Jean: Right,right, *ahem* can you tell us how long you’ve know the links?

Link: We had all know each other for about a year and a half, and today would have been our second year together if…you know,had things still been normal with everyone.

Dr.Jean: how did you meet these people to begin with?

Link: I was out exploring the outskits of the forests behind my house one day and saw a bright light,so i got curiouse and followed it.I found a portal and went through it.I was transported to the guredo desert and wondered a around for a bit before I found the chain.it turns out the portal took me to a diffrent time period and there was some time,dimentional stuff going on and we were all gathered to fix it or something.

Dr.Jean: How did you meet subject Zero?

Link: Subject Zero? oh,do you mean [redacted]?

Dr.Jean: Link,please reframe from saying subject Zero’s real name during this interview.

Link: Fine.

Dr.Jean:thank you,pleas contiue.

Link: We first met them a few months after lucky came when [ audio connection has been temperarly lost]

Dr.Jean: Intresting and how did you feel about Subject zero?

Link: I didn’t think much of them, I thought that they were ok.they were kind of nice and everyone liked them,so I did too.But there was something just…off about them.

Dr.Jean:Off like what? Did you distrust them?

Link: no,no,no not distrsut or anything like that…just that something was not right…there was  just something…..something WRONG with them,I dont know how to describe it, they were just not normal in a very bad way.But I ignored it and didn’t think much on it. I think they were just…diffrent.

Dr.Jean: Why did you help them escape?

Link: Because it was the right thing to do.I wanted to get them out of a situation where they were held captive and also keep the others from killing each other on who got to keep them.Its not that complicated. besides it my fault for not stopping this sooner.

Dr.Jean: How?

Link: What?

Dr.Jean: How do you think it was your fault?

LInk:[sighs] its…it was all right there I didn’t want to see it,I knew everyone was starting to act a little wierd but I didn’t want to take it that seriously,I didn’t want to think badly about my fami-friends..my friends…Until one day when they had gone completly overboard and uh…..I had found some of them beating down on a man after they were flirting with..with subject Zero…and to say that they looked like they were thugs when they were doing it would be too much of a understatement…They looked like they were having a good time doing it too.I swear when I saw them that day at the allyway they were not the heros I knew and travled with and as faw as i was concerned they were strangers-no,not even that,they were monsters…And the look on thier faces when I yelled out to them and they turned to me…it was like they were going to kill me right there and then……[Inhales heavily before exhailing shakingly] they weren’t normal….thier eyes….I don’t think I can really ever forget those empty vacant looks..it was like someone els was there…Since then things had started to get worse.

[suject 10 begins to pet her ferret at this time seeming to find comfort in it from thier stress]

Dr.Jean: Who were the ones that were there at the time of the incident?

Link: it was…I think Twilight,Four,Sky and Wild were all there.

Dr.Jean: Even Sky?

LInk: Yeah, him too.I rembered the second I started yelling and taring a new in asshole for them he just came up from behind the group and started to try to “calm me down” and explain how the shit I just saw wasn’t what it seemed like and yadda yadda yadda,typical gaslighting you know? But I wasn’t going to fall for some shit like that so I got the man out of there and to a medic, payed for all his expenses and reported them to Time and Warriors. Honestly I was so pissed off and in shock about it all that I had finally started notice and realize more and more things that were wrong about the group that I use to just keep ignoring.I still didn’t try to do anything serious about it though until the end of our journey.

Dr.Jean:What did you mean by noticeing things?

Link: …….just things….and looking back at it now should have been obviouse red flags but I never pressed for them.I think the first time I did it was with Wsrriors but he kept brushing me off saying things like “everyone is just protective of [redacted]” or “that you are looking way too into this” and when he did listen to me he would tell me that he’d keep a closer eye on the group.I suppose you can take a guess that, he did not, in fact, keep up the promis that he made.

Dr.Jean: did at any point in your adventures feel,were attempted to or successfully attacked or harmed by any members of this group during you adventures before the escape?

Link:No-well I mean yes but…[  exasperated sigh]…yeah….yeah there were a few…ok maybe a lot…But I guess the one that really stuck with me was when,uh,when Time held me up against a wall and tryed to cut my throat during a heated argument about…..them.

[Subject 10 reaches over to rub on a faint cut across thier neck]

[the ferret circles closer to her neck nuzzling it head into hers in an attempt to comfort Link]

Link: Aww,its ok little guy,I am fine right now.Don’t worry fluffy.

Dr.Jean: i am sorry if its too much but what was the argument about?

Link:…….

[subject 10 stays silent for a few minutes before speaking again]

Link: It was about if we should kill subject zero.

Dr.Jean: Then do you think we should kill subject zero?

[subject 10 stops petting fluffy and stares at the doctore without giving an answer for several more minutes]

Link:[a shallow exhale leaves thier mouth] …….I……..I….

[the sounds of sirens and alarms going off]

Annocemnet :There is a containment breach in the D -12 containment building floor,please all personels and staff go to the evacuation exits and safety rooms while special elit force knights handle the situation.Subject 4 case 19835- 1,2,3 and 4 cololrs have all escaped.If you see him or any of the colors they are to be neutralized and brought back to thier containment cells.All other staff do not ingage unless -

Dr.Jean: oh Hylia,looks like we’ll have to cut this short and we have to hurry and-wait where are you going! The safety room is this way! Link!

Link: [distant and muffled]I know,I just need to go out and kick a few stobbern little butts back in thier cells first-!

Dr.Jean: Link the elit knights can handle it you don’t have to-Link!! Link! Sir Link! Lin-!!

[audio ends here]

I am doing wind next

This is long, so I'll react as I read.

oh SHOOT THEY RAN!!!

MULAN USES THE FOUR SWORD!!

[REDACTED]?!?!!?

LUCKY!!!

AUDIO CONECTION TEMPORTARILY LOST!?!?!?!?!?

THEY GONNA KILL A GUY-KIL MULAN!!? SKY IS GASLIGHTING!?!?

TIME CUT THEM?!?!?

MULAN GONNA KILL SUBJECT ZERO!?!?!?

THEY ESCAPE!?!?!? THE COLORS ESCAPE!!!!

MULAN GOES TO FIGHT?!?!?

MY GIRL!!!!

OH MY GOD

[procrastinatorimagines]

Our Little Secret Part 10

Fandom: The Vampire Diaries / The Originals

Series: Our Little Secret

Part 1 // Part 2 // Part 3 // Part 4 // Part 5 // Part 6 //

Part 7 // Part 8 // Part 9 // Part 10 // Part 11 // Part 12 // Part 13 // Part 14 // Part 15 (Final)

Pairing: Klaus Mikaelson x Reader

Warning/s: none

Word Count: 865

Summary: Y/N Gilbert tried to put Mystic Falls - it’s problems, and her whirlwind romance with Klaus Mikaelson - behind her after she graduated, but all it takes is one unusual phone call to bring her right back to where she started and into the path of her first love as she races to solve the mystery threatening the lives of everyone in her home town.

Tags: @awesome-badass-cafeteria-sauce // @april-14-blog // @akshi8278 // @keiko0 // @mylovehes // @your-new-mom​

By the time you’d geared up and wolfed down some food (and plenty of caffeine) Klaus was waiting somewhat impatiently by the doors to the school. You’d headed out with Alaric, Landon and a student called M.G, a vampire. 

Ric hadn’t been happy with either student coming along, but arguing had apparently been futile. You’d tried to convince Ric to hang back himself, but he would never have let his students walk into any danger he wasn’t prepared to head into himself. 

“Thank you for this,” Klaus told you as you made your way down the deserted streets to the High School. Many a showdown and supernatural occurance had gone down at that school... among other things, and you hadn’t set foot near it since your graduation. 

“You don’t have to keep thanking me, there’s no where I’d rather be,” you replied sincerely, keeping a watchful eye on your surroundings. 

“What about your nice new normal life?” Klaus inquired, picking up on your tone.

You shrugged. The truth was... it was fine. Just fine. And in a sense, that was the problem. All it had taken was one phone call for you to drop it all without a second thought, what did that say? “This is more important, lives are at stake, this whole town is even, my family and yours,” you answered, not quite answering the actual question, the one hidden between the lines. Were you happy?

A noise behind you had your crossbow in your hand, Ric taking position on the other flank, the students in between you and Klaus in front, eyes going yellow and veins going dark.

“I told you this was a bad idea,” a girls voice whispered guiltily as two figures emerged, Ric lowering his weapon immediately. You followed suit.

“Josie? Lizzie? What are you doing here?” Ric demanded of his daughters. The brunette, Josie if you remembered correctly, looked apologetic, but the other one, the blonde, Lizze, looked defiant.

“We came to help, you left with barely a word and expected us to stay at the school,” she half complained, sounding and looking exactly like High School Caroline. 

“It isn’t safe-” Ric began but she cut him off again.

“Hobbit gets to go, and his only power is temporarily dying, not that great in a fight,” she pointed to Landon, who gave her a look that said: what did I do? “No offense,” she added.

“You need to go back,” Ric tried, but you already knew it wasn’t going to do any good.

“We don’t have time,” Klaus told him, voice tight and strained... conflicted. He wanted to save his daughter, but you knew he didn’t want to endanger Ric’s children to do it. 

“We’re coming with you,” Josie spoke up, less outwardly defiant than her sister but just as determined, if not more, “Hope’s in trouble, and so’s the town, we won’t be left out of this fight.” Oh, you liked her.

“Let’s get going then,” M.G chimed in, pointing up the road to where you were heading. Ric sighed, earning a satisfied smile from Lizzie as the girls joined the group, the rest of you turning to walk on.

“You knew, Sebastian mentioned something about this kinds of vampires before, said they weren’t like normal vampires, they couldn’t pass for human apparently,” Lizzie said as you got closer to the school.

M.G’s expression was unreadable as you gave a confused glance to Josie, who’d ended up walking beside you. “Sebastian... was an old vampire Lizzie was seeing,” she clarified.

“British, fancy, mysterious...” Lizzie commented whistfully to no one in particular.

“Very much not good for you,” Ric finished pointedly, throwing a glance at you that had you smirking slightly, “sound like anyone you know?”

Lizzie looked to you, “I might have some experience in that department,” you told her with a shrug, looking to Klaus as Lizzie raised a curious brow, definitely wanting the story behind that later. If you survived, you figured you’d have time to tell her. 

“A girl falling for an immortal vampire, how... original,” You joked to Klaus in a low voice, earning a small amused smile at your terrible pun. His mind was obviously elsewhere, and you couldn’t blame him, but you’d definitely missed that smile. 

“We’re nearly there,” Ric called over his shoulder, hands back on his weapons as you followed his lead. 

You wished you’d waited until sun up as you approached the familiar entrance of your old school, straightening up and reading yourself for an inevitable attack. 

Josie and Lizzie exchanged looks. “We’re in the right place,” Josie announced. 

“You sure?” Landon asked, looking around at the seemingly deserted car park you were approaching from. There was a few sleeping students and teachers milled around, but it was quiet. Eerily quiet.

“We can feel it, it’s wierd, but it’s definitely magical energy,” Lizzie clarified, and that was good enough for all of you. Oh course it actually had to be the school, it was always the school.

You looked to Klaus, his whole body tense, ready to spring into action at a moments notice as an ear-piercing wailing cut through the night. 

Ready or not, here it came.

[terra-fatalis]

Talk about a coincidence!

A debated canonicity

(Previous post here)

Mad1en who Trave1s the P1anet (adding typos to prevent unpleasant comments) is one of the most controversial entries of FFVII lore.

It was included in FFVII Ultimania Omega, published in 2005. Fans have debated ever since if this short story is part of the canon entries of the compilation, as it was written by an external writer that never took part to the realisation of the game.

Part of the fandom thinks it's canon because Square Enix never said it isn't, another part thinks it's not canon because Square Enix never mentioned it again ever since it was published (neither ever provided an official translation nor decided to sell it outside Japan. Quite self-explanatory, considering that "Picturing the Past" has been immediately translated and it's sold everywhere in the world).

The particularity of this novel is that here Aerith states she loves Cloud more than Zack. Not a word is spent to describe how she feels when she understands that Zack didn't cheat on her but endured experimetations for years and died to save Cloud, and that Cloud had created an alter ego based on Zack's traits. These lines started to divide the fans after the release of Crisis Core, that describes a tender and sincere romantic relationship between Zack and Aerith.

Yes, SE never officially said if this novel is canon or not, but I'd like to point out a fact:

The Remake includes tons of references to all the entries of the compilation.

Some examples?

The Avalanche members that show up in Chapter 4 wear the original uniforms of Before Crisis:

Crisis Core references can be found everywhere in the game, for one thing, Zack's last stand:

Dirge of Cerberus was already hinted in the game when Cloud, Tifa and Barret fell in the misterious lab beneath Sector 7 and is going to be heavily referred in the Intergrade. From the trailer we can see Weiss:

There are many references to Advent Children too. For example, Sephiroth has the black wing that he only showed in the movie:

Last order is quite difficult to refrence, as it doesn't add anything new to the story but it's rather a reinterpretation of Nibelheim incident. Anyway, it is mentioned in FFVII Remake World Preview (Square Enix book that includes "Picturing the Past"):

And now talk about the novels:

New characters, like Kyrie, come from The Kids are alright, a Turks side Story:

And here's an example from On the Way to a Smile too: from a dialogue with Jessie it's revealed that Cloud doesn't know the names of vegetables:

...turned out he [Cloud] didn't know a carrot from a gysal green. At first, Tifa was amused that mighty Cloud's new life started with learning vegetables names... (Case of Tifa)

So:

Before Crisis

Crisis Core

Advent Children

Dirge of Cerberus

Last Order

The Kids are alright

On the way to a Smile...

Picturing the Past was written alongise the Remake to clarify the origins of the mural painting in Aerith's room...

They are all abundantly referenced multiple times during the game. Find a more exhaustive list here.

And now it's the turn of Ma1den who trave1s the P1anet.

The author of this novel based himself on the original dialogues and story of the OG and reinterpreted them adding some new elements to create a coherent narration (full of discrepancies that, ehm, have already been disproved years ago, like Aerith's age when she met Zack, Hojo being not really dead, Zack's personality being totally different from Crisis Core, Aerith already knowing about Zack's death, normal souls that should merge immediately in the Lifestream, Omnislash being not Zack's ability...not that this ever convinced anyone).

Correct me if I'm wrong, but...

There are no references at all in the whole game. Not a single word that inequivocally refers to this novel.

Not a word to hint the fact that bad people's souls will rot in the Lifestream and won't be part of it because their spirits are beyond redemption (like what happened in the novel to President Shinra and Hojo).

In the novel Biggs, Wedge and Jessie are tormented by the deaths caused by the explosion of Mako reactor n.1. Jessie feels guilty both in the OG and in the Remake but Biggs and Wedge don't show much regret and the Remake shows that Shinra caused the massive explosion of the reactor, not Jessie. But wasn't the Lifestream supposed to be the place where all knowledges are merged together? I may be wrong but this would suggest that Jessie would have known it after her death.

There are hints that suggest the Aerith of the resolution scene is the one who already died in the OG: she talks to Cloud as if they had passed a long time together, she talks about death and finally disappears in a sparkling greenish light.

It would have been a great scene to put any reference to Ma1den but...it didn't happen.

Well...wierd the devs forgot to mention just this entry...

What a coincidence.

[lovelivingmydreams]

Ask the trouble trio: tbh I kinda wanna watch Virgil interact with the rest of the knights that are now under his command before we skip to the party.

Dante was rather impressed with how well Virgil adapted to his new role. Everywhere they went so far, he had made suggestions to improve security or helped clear things up for confused stafmembers.

By example, his conversation with the distressed cheff when he was shown the menu the duke had chosen.

"I swear this guy... Don't worry about it. You can serve this to the duke no problem. For the rest of the guests, just pick something you know will work and give it wierd names. If it might make a five year old giggle, then it'll make Remus' day... Wait... these don't have anything to do with the menu... ok ignore those I'll bring those ideas to the person who actually needs this."

And so they went through the castle until they reached the living quarters of the knights.

"This is where most of us reside when stationed at the castle. As a council member you of course reside in your room in the tower. But you are always welcome here to take a break should you need it," Dante offered as they entered the comon living space where a few knights on break were gathered. They'd ran into a few knights on duty on the way. Virgil had always made an effort to put them at ease when they saluted him, and now was no different. When he saw the knights shoot up to greet him he raised his hand to stop them.

"It's fine guys. Really. I'm Virgil, nice to meet you all."

Datne could see the knights were uncertain what to do next and took his cue. "Sir Virgil, let me introduce you to Lord Damien, Lady Zandaya, Lord Adam,..." he continued introducing everyone to which the bowed their heds in aknowledgement. Eventually ending on: "and Lody Sam."

Virgil quirked his brow. "They/them?" he clarified.

Sam nodded tensely. "Yes sir."

"Cool. Did you come up with 'Lody?"

Sam chuckled. "It was a group effort, helped by some ale, sir. A few other Lody's have joined our ranks since and adopted the term as well. We're stuck with it I'm afraid." Virgil laughed as well. He looked around and cringed slightly.

He recognized a few of the gathered guards. He'd kicked their behinds earlier to expel some energy.

"Um... no hard feelings?" he asked awkwardly. Dante could hear the nervousness in his voice. It was a strange contrast. He'd gotten to know the captain as a very laid back person, but the second the twins left his side, he became self concious and worried unless he had something else to focus on.

The knights he'd questioned lauhed. "No sir. It was quite exciting to fight against such a strong opponent. A good test of our skills in fact." Sir Brian assured the captain.

Virgil shook his head; "I see Princey has been a bad influence. I am going to teach you all some self perservation if it kills me... Yes I realize the irony in that statement," he drawled, causing his audience to laugh.

"Listen, I'll have to head to dinner soon, but you all will see me around here quite often. Usually I'll be keeping an eye on the royal twins, but if you guys want me to hang out with you guys for ale or whatever... Only if you want to of course. I won't force my company or whatever. Just, don't hesitate to ask me something cause you're shy or something. I don't know," Virgil's vocie died out in a murmur and the knights were a bit taken aback. They looked at Dante who nodded in aknowledgement. Yes this was the same man who'd gone toe to toe with their Prince and fearlesly faced a creature from the depths of Hell itself in order to protect a citizen.

"We will be sure to remember that Sir," Lady Laurel assured the captain.

Virgil relaxed a bit and nodded before bowing and taking his leave. He was glad he'd get to have a night's rest before he had to interact with people again. He felt exhausted. The knights were pretty cool though. Being their captain might be fun.

Next

@moonlightshow00 @naturallyunstablegamer @alias290

[today-only-happens-once]

I don't think my ethnicity should really matter here, but; My parents are immigrants and have been victims of british genocide. My brother died because of the generational trauma that came from that, of a curable disease. My mom's grandparents, My dad's parents, all of them have died because of improper care by british genocide. I have multiple other poc friends that I've asked about it, and they don't have a single issue. If a character works better for a headcanon of another race I don't get why there's a double standard, because I'm not //erasing// those races, I'm just moving them to other canon charas because they work better for the content I'm making. I didn't mean to be passive aggressive this is just how I type. I just find it kinda wierd how that apparently makes me a bad person. It's good to really think about how race and racism is seen outside of what happens in america, because racism isn't just a white against black thing, you can even see that with caste systems.

All right. Look.

When I said I was assuming you were white, all I meant was that I was choosing an explanation of the situation with the assumption that we were both coming from a place of privilege. That is why I mentioned it, and tried to be transparent about my assumption. I also acknowledged that I couldn’t know for sure as a means of expressing that I already knew such an assumption may be incorrect. I am sorry for your losses and the ways that you have been hurt by british colonialism and genocide. 

Your POC friends don’t have an issue with it? Okay. I know of some people that do care about it. It should come as no surprise that people of color are not a monolith of opinions--even when it comes to race and representation issues. 

“I know you’re going to block me because oh no different opinion” is inflammatory rhetoric, intentional or not. Though it perhaps should have clued me in to the idea that you were perhaps looking for an argument more than you were looking for a sincere misunderstanding to be clarified. 

I agree with you that racism does not begin and end in America. Not by a long shot. Though... it should be noted that Sanders Sides? Is a show written by Americans, shot and produced in America, and features American actors. So putting it in its cultural/historical context means putting it in an American context. 

At the end of the day, I can’t force you to agree with me. I’ve explained the situation as best I know how. I encourage you to do some research and continue reaching out to different people if you have a genuine interest in understanding the situation and nuances involved further. I can’t force you to make your art a certain way. I can just try to explain elements of artistic expression that I think are important. 

Its up to you whether or not you want to listen. 

[rosebloodcat]

Changeling Nelson Preview

So, instead of just playing with the idea of Nelson being a changeling, I’ve actually started writing something for it. Like, him actually gaining the features from the drawing I posted earlier in the week. (Also, I wanna draw more of that. And get better at drawing Nelson himself.)

It’s far from done, but I’m having fun with the idea and want to share some of it with the few other Puzzle Agent fans out there. Feed back is appreciated!

If he had to pick a point where everything started, where the first signs had made themselves known, Nelson would say he had no idea. But, after thinking for a bit, he would say it started with a toothache.

It started just before (or maybe just after?) being told about his field assignment in Scoggins, Minnosota. At first, it had been little more than a faint pressure in his back molars. Almost as if he’d been gritting his teeth for too long without knowing it. The sort where you’d just stop letting  your teeth press together for a while and it would go away. But it didn’t.

Instead, the ache seemed to slowly spread. Until the whole of his mouth was throbbing dully. At that point in time it wasn’t painful, but it was notable. Enough that he was planning to schedule a dentist’s appointment just to figure what was going on in there. Chewing on gum made it easier to ignore, resulting in him working his way through pack after pack at a much faster rate than he normally would. A habit that quickly became a problem when he arrived in Scoggins.

During his stay in the small town, his fingers began to ache as well. At first, the agent had thought it was due to the note-taking and snowmobile riding he’d been doing on the case and had dismissed it. (Nevermind that he would usually spend his entire gripping a pencil while solving puzzles.)

But, like the toothache, the ache got worse instead of better.

And then the Gnomes appeared, causing his annoying aches to shift into spikes of pain. Complete with a brand new throb of pain from his lower back. The alarm (and pain) had almost driven Nelson from town then and there.

It probably would have sent him away, if the Innkeeper hadn't mentioned that the Sheriff had told her to let him know when Nelson left. Not if he left, but when. He had no idea what had made the man think he would leave, and so soon after he’d arrived in town. Something didn’t feel right about that.

Something that the FBI agent found suspicious enough to change his mind.

So he swallowed back the aches and pains (along with some extra strength aspirin) and trooped back out into the cold, snow covered town to solve the case and get the factory going again. Just like he’d been sent to do.

And once he’d gotten the factory open and running again, Nelson returned home with notable pains and an unsatisfying end to his field mission. He couldn’t get his mind off of what had transpired, or what he had seen.

Yes, he’d succeeded as far as the FBI was concerned, but the factory forman was missing and now he knew of impossible things. He couldn’t just leave it at that.

Okay, this is all I’m gonna post for now. Some of it sounds wierd/off, I know. But my major focus right now is to get as much of the story out as I can, just so I can say I have it out. I’m gonna clean it up at some point. Right now, this is just so people can have a taste.

If people have suggestions for making it flow better or stuff that can be clarified or even details I could stick in feel free to tell me. And if someone wants to beta or get a look at the main ideas for what’s gonna happen, again, go ahead and ask.

I’ve love to talk more about this idea with someone.

[originaldanganronpascenarios]

(If requests are open) V3 boys trying to confess to their crush (who also likes them), but crush the entire time somehow mistook [boy]'s (otherwise rather blatant) feelings for hatred and somberly tells him they "don't need the reminder" before the actual feelings are clarified?

I hope I got it right anon!

V3 boys trying to confess to their crush but crush the entire time somehow mistook their feelings for hatred before the actual feelings are clarified

Y/N- Your/Reader's name

Ryoma Hoshi

You and Ryoma had your ups and downs but there was one thing for sure. He fell in love with you. There was just something about you that made him feel happy.

Still he isn't best at expressing feelings so that's why you were confused about him. He often pushed you away and yet you still kept coming. You realized your feelings for him but you keep denying it...

When Ryoma asked you to meet him you didn't knew how to react but you went for it anyways. He was dead silent as you approached him.

You could tell what was going on as he said "You know Y/N there is something I should tell you since it whould be uncool if I kept those feelings just to myself..." you thought you knew where this was going... He probably just wanted you to leave him alone so you said "Ok I get it you don't like me don't need this reminder I'll just leave you be geez" that's when it hit him.

He felt like an idiot becouse he pushed you away so often and it was most certainly rude. Right now he didn't even realize that you were leaving but before you managed to leave he grabbed your hand and said "Could you let me finish?" you were surprised by this but you decided to let him.

Its now or never- he thought before he told you about his feelings for you "It might sound a bit wierd but... I think that I might like you... You know in that kind of way" you could feel your heart beat faster... he what? All this time you thought...

Now it's no time to think you can't leave Ryoma hanging! You have to admit that you like him too and so you did.

Thanks to that both of you were shocked. Ryoma didn't predict you whould like him back and didn't knew what to do at this point-

Gonta Gokuhara

You and Gonta were great friends ver close and you started to kinda like him... But with time you two got quite distant.

On the beginning he was leaving early whenever you hung out. Then he started talking to you less. And it ended up with him completely ignoring you.

You were quite lost since why whould he do that? It made you feel a bit down but you have to calm yourself down. But I it broke your heart each time when he was avoiding you.

As time passed Gonta approached you "Y/N- Gonta has something important to say" he was a bit nervous... What if he doesn't know how to say that he hates you!? That's why he looks so nervous?

Cutting him off you said "It's okay Gonta I understand..." he was a bit surprised "You... Do?" he smiled at you but he was confused as you were looking sad "Why is Y/N sad?" you then told him about your assumption.

He felt really bad that you thought he doesn't like you anymore "Y/N it isn't what Gonta means! Gonta wanted to say that Gonta loves Y/N!" your eyes widen as you heard him.

When you asked him why did he avoid you his answer was this "Gonta realized how Gonta felt about Y/N and Gonta asked Kaede for help" he smiled at you and you hugged him. Then he hugged you back.

K1B0

Keebo felt very different around you. You were friends for a long time and he simply doesn't understand the new feelings he feels around you.

So for now he decided to spend less time with you so he could think what could be the solution...

There was one problem though... He never told you the reason why he allways was in such a rush! And he was allways so nervous about it! It all led you to think that he doesn't like spending time with you anymore.

You wanted to make things clear so when you approached him (Wich was exactly when he found out why he felt that way) "Oh Y/N it's good to see you I have to share with you my new discovery about my feelings for you!" he didn't seem odd but you knew where this was coming.

You signed as you said "Keebo you don't have to act like you like me I know you probably wish to never speak to me again" he was very surprised "Y/N that's not what I meant to say!" it caught more of your attention as you looked at him staring to blush "I was feeling a bit differently around you some time ago and I know why is that... I think I might have been in love with you" you were so happy and couldn't resist it and hugged him.

You were so glad that you were wrong all this time! And Keebo repeatedly apologized for the fact that he made you feel that way...

Kaito Momota

You often hung out with Kaito Maki and Shuichi. He was very good friend and all but he sometimes acted differently when there was just you two.

Kaito was more silent and less lively. When it was just you two he allways seemed bothered by something but if you whould ask he whould act like everything is ok.

This led you to believe that he doesn't like you. Too bad since you found yourself having a crush on him...

That day you were talking to Shuichi but not about this topic anything but this. Then Kaito put his hand on your shoulder out of nowhere he asked Shuichi if he can steal you for a moment and Shuichi seemed to know what was going on he said that it's alright by him.

When you were alone same akward silence was around. The silence was stopped as he sighed looking away "Listen Y/N there is something-" you knew where this was going so you cut him off "Yeah I know you hate me but thanks for saying it I can leave you alone" it broke your heart to say this but that's when Kaito stopped you from leaving "Its not like the case at all!" what could he possibly mean then?

He grabbed you by your shoulders forcing you to face him as he said "I think I love you!" you were shocked. But how- when?

Since you like him back you of course informed him. But it doesn't change the fact that you were little bit surprised. 

Shuichi Saihara

You often talk to him and he seemed to enjoy your company. But with time he seemed odd...

He never was the most confident to begin with but after you knew each other for so long he seemed more shy than when you met... That's when it hit you... He probably doesn't enjoy your company and doesn't know how to say so...

You decided to leave him alone and see how whould he react. And he did what you thought he whould- nothing.

So you just left him be... It was a bit sad since you found yourself falling for him... But if he doesn't like you what's the point?

With time Shuichi came towards you and he avoided eye contact as he said "Y/N I- have something really important to tell you" you knew where this was going and so you told him this "It's okay Shuichi I know you don't like me I don't need your reminder" it was a bit bitter but you wanted to avoid Shuichi saying it.

But what happened was different from your expectations... Shuichi said "No that's wrong Y/N! I mean- What I ment to say is-" he looked you in the eyes and looked like he was hesitant "I- think that I have a crush on you" your eyes widen but you were so happy. Of course informed him that you felt the same.

Rantaro Amami

You were allways helping out Rantaro with keeping up the work since he traveled very often. Still you managed to get really close.

Of course with time he found himself other friends but he hung out with you from time to time.

But he allways found time for you that's why you started falling for him. As time passed he started acting a bit differently.

You decided to leave it be while he was acting more and more odd. It seems like he just wanted to leave as fast as possible. He also seemed distracted when he talked to you and just noded.

One day he approached you "Hey Y/N I'm sorry but I don't know if I can handle it anymore so I need to tell you this" it confirms your thought of him not wanting your company anymore "That's fine Rantaro I understand I don't need your pity so you can just forget I exist sorry for dragging this for so long" you looked down as Rantaro put his hand on your cheek "Y/N what do you mean?" he then lazily laughed "Can you let me finish it first" you looked at him surprised and waiting for him to finish "The point is I love you and I was dying to say it for quite a while sorry that I made you think otherwise" you didn't knew how to react...

You were so happy. Rantaro smiled as he saw you smile so brightly

Kokichi Ouma

Your relationship with Kokichi was a bit tricky. He teased you very often and sometimes he whould go too far. But even though he could be very sweet it was very rare to see his caring side but you managed to see it.

But you have no idea how he feels about you. He's sometimes rude and sometimes nice. The thing that seems to get most of your attention is the fact that he mostly spends time with you even if he mostly does so to mess with you.

You decided to play along and act like you don't like him. Even though in the end you are very nice to him.

This caused him to feel quite confused but he can see through your lies and knows that you don't hate him. But he managed to fall for you and this is what truly matters.

The day he decided to tell you how he felt was the day you almost gave up. He approached you as allways and said "Y/N I have something important to say~" you still liked him but your answer was with annoyed tone "What do you want? I know you hate me I don't need this reminder every day" it was trying and it did hurt you each time he said it.

That's when he started fake crying "Y/N is soo mean he/she won't let me even finish!" you looked at him rising your eyebrow "Gosh if you are so rude maybe it's better that I hid my obvious love towards you" you almost fell off your chair as you heard him.

Well you can't leave him hanging and you have to answer to his feelings but you felt like you couldn't say anything but Kokichi seemed to understand you.

Korekiyo Shinguji

Korekiyo allways was observing everyone interact with each other and he was mostly interested in you. And he was very surprised when you decided to spend time with him of all people.

His mysterious aura just was like a magnet you were curious about him and so you became friends. He was very distant but he trusted you.

One day he was acting a little bit odd and was very sad you attempted to cheer him up but it was very sensitive topic and you approached it wrong way therefore making him mad and a fight broke down. You never saw him this furious.

After that you stopped talking but you thought he whould calm down after day or two but it all took weeks and that's when you started thinking about the worst. Literally you can't believe an argument whould be this big deal... What if he doesn't want to be your friend anymore? Even though you wished you were more better not to be greedy...

All your doubts were cleared as he approached you "I believe that I should tell you something. First of all I deeply apologize for my behavior I know that you ment no harm but now what I want to say Y/N and it's quite important as it will probably change everything in our relationship" even though he apologized you still stick with your thoughts of him hating you.

You got ready for it and save him the trouble "Korekiyo I really don't need reminder that you dislike me" his eyes widen and so he told you "I believe that I shall be the one to clarify my feelings Y/N. I probably was unclear but what I wanted to say is that I am in love with you it took me some time but I finally realized it" he was very calm while saying those words.

And from being sad you started smiling as you told him about your feelings for him. After the whole feelings were clear you two shared very warm hug.

~Mod Chiaki

[unleashed-salt]

To clarify

Hi im [insert nickname i havent picked yet that wont lead people to finding my main as im hoplessly new and not open about being aroace] and i suffer from the Need To Overexplain Myself So That I Will Never Be Misunderstood Despite Having No Followers lmao

When i say something along the line of "im aro and get fucking lonely sometimes" im specefically venting to people i see both online and irl that seems to think im 100% fine with being alone and left out of things and be left behind as friends leave for romantic partners as some sort of permanent third wheel. Like ive said it before i dont experince alterous attraction (im slightly romance repulsed as well), honestly idk where i even classify, but i get lonely very easily (but guess what im also an introvert, which yes means i also need alone time and space these two things dosent cancell each other out ffs). Ive always struggled with making new friends im very aware i just dont get what i need from casual friends and anqiuatances and that i viscerally crave some form of deeper emotional connection with people yet I DONT EXPERIENCE QPR AND ALTEROUS ATTRACTION and that fucks with me in so many hurtful ways. Partially why i dident id as aro for so long was this deep fear that i would never be truly happy in my relations with other people and that i was to easily attention starved to be aro. And when i do try to deepen friendships i feel like im constately stepping over a line beacuse what i want Is What A Large Part Of Society Tell Me Is Wrong And Wierd. Also for the record im not american, or english for that matter i come from a rather closed of culture where unconventional socializing can be very fuckin hard. Things are so easy in the sense that if youre allo theres all these systems set up for you, dating has like a million apps. But hell am i gonna do? Go to the "serious friendship bar"? And then i hear shit like "it gets harder making friends as you grow older" i feel no hope for my future, all my highschool and college friends will leave eventually and theres nothing i can do about it. i cant even imagine it. Ive never in my life ever meet another irl aro (and then aros arent all the same what i want isent what others always want) , hell sometimes i wonder if there even are any in my country. I attend pride and all i see is ace flags and nothing else. And sure i can read a million posts on how "friendships can be as deep as you like" and yeah i agree 100% but actually finding someone else that think that is not as easy honestly makes most of these posts just useless to me on bad days.

So to round things off sometimes id just whis it was aknowledged with all these posetivety posts floating around just how being aro fucks you up when youre like me and how you can crave this kind human companionship youre pretty sure youll never actually get beacuse theres nowhere to seek it (also i still dont experince qp attraction even with these feelings, sometimes i feel like even the aro relationships that come up is something i cant use). Beacuse "you can totally have qpr's! (some other form of platonic partnership)" posts, wont take the hurt away and just makes me feel more alone tbh. And im not attacking posetivety, its great to have, but sometimes it feels like it kinda overshadows everything else and also i know this wont apply to all aros and thats okey, please tell me if i overgenralize im only speaking of my own experinces in this.

(for the record im not an english native speaker if i get something wrong or just word things in an hard to read way i apologize and feel free to correct me)

[christinaengela]

Hello friends and fans!

Welcome to my 34th newsletter – and this time, I think you’ll notice right away that there’s something different about it!

In Brief:

October already? Wow! One of these days it’ll be December and Saturnalia again! 😉 Oktoberfest is on its way – and of course, our favorite festival of the year: Halloween!

In last month’s newsletter I said that this has been one of the busiest, most productive years in writing I’ve had in a long time, and it’s only right that I emphasize that!

That said, this edition of my newsletter also has to be the most intensively updated and detailed one yet! It even has a gorgeous new header image – and lots of extra information!

Let’s carry on, starting with some of the technical background stuff related to my writing!

Discontinuation of the .net website

As I told you last month, the .net website has been discontinued as of mid-September, so please don’t use the christinaengela.net url/link as the redirect to christinaengela.com isn’t expected to work much longer!

I opened the .net site in September 2018 as an experiment, and set up an array of onboard selling tools – but although I finally had just three direct sales from that website during the past year (amounting to a whopping $6 in all that time!) the cost of renewing the service just didn’t justify the expense. I have no intention of renewing the .com domain either when it expires in 2020, since the cost of that via WordPress would be actually three times the renewal cost of the .net through GoDaddy! I will nevertheless do my best to keep all my url mentions updated – hence this reminder!

Updates On Lulu AND Amazon

As you probably are aware, one of the two main service providers I publish through is Lulu.com (the other I use is Smashwords). While both have their fans and their pro’s and cons, Lulu is the only one of the two that distributes to Amazon straight-off – Smashwords wants you to sell a truck-load of a title via their own site, or Apple, or Kobo before they will even consider forwarding it to Amazon! Also, as I mentioned in last month’s newsletter, I’d updated quite a few titles incrementally on Lulu over the past few years, and noticed that inspite of everything I did, Amazon was still displaying some quite old versions of my books that were no longer available, and not updating to the newest versions!

Upon investigation, I complained to Lulu’s help department, and they clarified: it turns out that while I may have updated a project file on a particular book, those changes didn’t reach Amazon. I’m still not sure if this means the process of “revision” on Lulu is automatic and it didn’t work properly in this case, or if the process is not automatic and I’m supposed to notify them to send updated files to Amazon after making changes – they simply didn’t clarify that part – but in the meantime I found a workaround of my own! By that I mean that I undertook the gargantuan task of republishing my books on Lulu not once – but TWICE in the space of a single week!

Let it not be said that I don’t put enough effort into my books! Whew!

The process involved taking down basically ALL my books that are on Lulu, “retiring” them one by one, and then manually republishing each one again – from the beginning, getting new ISBN numbers in the process! As if that wasn’t stressful enough, a few days after completing the updates I received an email from Lulu informing me that this still wasn’t good enough and that I would have to make changes yet again! Hang on a sec – I thought Smashwords was supposed to be the pedantic nitpicking one?

I decided I’d be damned if I was going to change all the covers again to suit them – I wanted the series names on the covers as well, so – groaning and grudgingly, I took all of Galaxii and Quantum down a second time in the space of one week – and republished them again, this time with titles matching the covers EXACTLY! Fortunately, the next morning I received notice that this had done the trick and all Galaxii and Quantum titles had passed Lulu’s evaluation for distribution and had been forwarded to Amazon, Kobo and Barnes & Noble!

I heaved a huge sigh of relief once that was done!

In the meantime, all the titles concerned were still directly available via Lulu’s own shop page, and of course, everywhere else they’re distributed to – Kobo, Barnes & Noble, iBookstore, Smashwords, etc.

All that legwork is now finally behind me, and the newly updated titles that were supposed to have reached Amazon months ago arrived there by the 20th September! But at least, they’re finally there! I was finally able to claim them by clicking “This is my book!” and added them to my Amazon author page! Only then was I able to ask Amazon to link the new editions to previous editions, which will solve the knotty problem of having multiple editions showing side-by-side there!

Still, the drama isn’t quite over yet, as only once this has been done will I be able to update my GoodReads book listing, since their system allows only ISBN/AISN numbers of books being sold on Amazon, and nowhere else!

To make matters even more complicated, somehow in the publishing process over the past couple of years, a duplicate GoodReads author profile got created automatically by some system gremlin or other, and all my current titles are already listed on that site under “Ms. Christina Engela” in duplicate – as they are on Amazon itself – and I can’t claim or add or merge them with my existing GoodReads author user account either! *Head desk!* Perhaps this issue can be resolved if I create a new user account on GoodReads and claim that account… but I still have to get around to it!

I often wonder if aspiring indie authors out there actually knew the amount of work, admin, research, learning, trouble and frustration lying in wait for them, if they’d just give up and not bother! But then, this is my obsession, so it’s not as if I actually have a choice in the matter!

Reviews

“Dead Man’s Hammer” received an amazing 5 star review from UK writer and reviewer, Lee Hall on September 9! I’m not sure how other writers take it, but when I see glowing reports of something I wrote, containing statements like: “As the Quantum series unfolds, it grows more and more impressive“, “Dead Man’s Hammer is proof that Christina Engela can build an established world and insert so many genres into it along with retaining a unique style of writing that not only tributes her influences but has a way of confiding in readers” and “Throughout Engela’s writing style naturally flows and is fun to read“, I feel like breaking out the bubbly and inviting people round to celebrate!

It’s truly gratifying to realize that the reason a reviewer is saying these things, is because they took the time to read something I wrote. It’s also humbling, and I’m very grateful!

It’s probably worth mentioning though, that “Dead Man’s Hammer” has been available since 2006, and this is the very first review I’ve had of that particular title! That alone should serve as an indication of how difficult it is to get reviews as an indie or self-publishing author!

Theo & Yvonne Engela’s Books – New Covers & Formatting

As part of the revision process I told you about in the previous section, I took the opportunity to fix a few things and improve upon the presentation of my parent’s books! I know, I know, if it ain’t broke don’t fix it, right? Still, I couldn’t help myself! At any rate, what I did was create new covers for my parent’s books to make them stand out more, and also to make them look similar and part of the same series, while also reformatting the interior of the eBook into a more uptodate and modern format – the same as the one I use on all the Galaxii and Quantum books! I think they really pop, don’t you?

Poetry by Wendy K. Engela

A couple of months ago my wife and partner in all things wierd and wonderful, Wendy, published her first book – a collection of her gothic poetry! “Season’s Change“. The collection is now available as an eBook via all the expected places, Amazon, Lulu, Smashwords, and all their distribution partner sites.

Sales & Downloads

Since I made a host of new free promotional items available on Lulu and Smashwords, interest towards the end of July – particularly on Smashwords has been gradually showing signs of improvement. Let’s just say that at least I can detect a pulse! Downloads of my free items are happening, and I feel a little encouraged. On the sales front however, things are still pretty dire. Hopefully they will pick up soon.

Current Writing Projects 

Book 7 in Quantum – tentatively operating under the working title “Underground Movement” – is still under way. Just slowly. At the time of last month’s newsletter I told you I’d just reached over 29000 words… and then I peeled some of those off and shifted them to the next title after that’s draft… so “Underground Movement” is currently sitting at just over 21000 words again! Still, it’s all part of the creative process, isn’t it? Right now I’m pondering whether I shouldn’t just merge the next two title’s stories? The story’s finer detail is still evolving and unfolding, so sometimes it’s easy to lose sight of the path while I’m distracted by all the scenery! Anyway, when I make my mind up, I’ll let you know!

Translation

As some of you may recall, in 2016 I released Afrikaans translations of “The Thirteenth Ship” and “Wiggle Room“, which like the English originals, were made available as free downloads. These have been updated and made available once again!  I also made it a goal back in the day, to get all my fiction works translated into Afrikaans for the local market, but also into a couple of other languages – as far as that was possible! Translation work isn’t easy, as I’m sure you can imagine – translation apps can really mangle the works up, and without a native language-speaker to check these translations I’m still up the creek without a canoe!

That said, I’ve had to rely on volunteers to do it out of their own good will rather than to pay top dollar for paid translation services! All I’ve been able to offer people willing to assist me in this task, is mention of their name in the credits and perhaps to give them a free eBook copy of any one of my paid books upon completion of the job!

Now, before you accuse me of being a skint old duck, please bear in mind that the items I wanted translated were all free sample works for which I wouldn’t get paid anyway! It doesn’t make sense to spend thousands of near-worthless Souf Efikin ronts on something that gets given away for free, does it? That being said, some time ago, a few people volunteered eagerly to translate a couple of short stories, and quietly disappeared, never to be heard from again! This recently was the case as well, with several apparent eager-beavers silently vanishing into the mist! Hopefully, in the long-run I can get some of the novels translated. This is a long-term goal, so I expect progress to be slow.

Communication

I’ve also done my level best recently, to start making a post via my website blog daily and then sharing that across social media instead of posting directly to Facebook, Twitter et al. The goal I’ve kept in mind is to post informative articles about various different characters or elements of my stories – and also to come across to readers as more personable… that is to day, less businesslike and less intimidating. After all, I is human too, and I don’t bite… much! So far, that seems to be helping! Below are links to a few of my most recent posts on The Crow Bar:

The Tech Side #1: A Broad-Spectrum Approach To Sci-fi Storytelling

LGBT Heroes in Galaxii & Quantum – the “G” in LGBT

Secret Weapons of the Resistance: Time Travel, Beck the Badfeller & Cindy-Mei Winter

FAQ’s Answered #13: Who Is Sona Kilroy?

FAQ’s Answered #12: Who Is Cindy-Mei Winter?

FAQ’s Answered #11: What Is The Time Saving Agency?

Storm Area 51! Let’s See Them Aliens! Etc!

FAQ’s Answered #10: Who Is Marsha In “Dead Beckoning” to Blachart?

FAQ’s Answered #9: What Inspired “Prodigal Sun” & “High Steaks”?

Secret Weapons of the Resistance: Fred (the Arborian)

Secret Weapons of the Resistance: Bovine Torpedoes

FAQ’s Answered #8: What Inspired The Akx?

Preserve The Past… Save The Future!

Another Round At The Crow Bar #33 September 2019

FAQ’s Answered #7: What Do I Write About (& Other Questions)

Anyway, let’s move on to some more new releases!

New Releases

Some of you may recall that in 2016 I released Afrikaans translations of “The Thirteenth Ship” and “Wiggle Room“, which like the English originals, were made available as free downloads. These have been updated and made available once again!

  Currently Available Titles:

I currently have 22 unique titles available in 4 series (not including the 15 free promotional items).

Alternately, you can view Christina’s books at Amazon, Smashwords, Lulu or Payhip.

Some of Christina’s titles are available in other languages: Afrikaans.

The Galaxii Series

(Click on the cover images to view product pages for each title.)

The Quantum Series

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Panic! Horror In Space

Space Sucks!

(Click on the cover images to view product pages for each title.)

Other

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Non-Fiction

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Edited by Christina Engela

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FREE Promotional Items:

     (Click on the cover images to open free samples.)

On A Personal Note

As I related to you last month, I have opted to sell via Amazon again. Not that I like them, but there’s simply no other way to make any headway as an author – especially an indie author – without making use of their platform.

The two different earlier editions of my dad’s collection of short stories “African Assignment” I mentioned last time as listed on my Amazon author page have finally – after another round of emails, been merged. At this stage, I’m just waiting for the current version to reflect on Amazon’s database before adding it to my listing and then getting those merged with it as well.

Hopefully some headway will be made soon in this regard, and I will as always, keep you posted.

Fan Mail, Reviews & Honorable Mentions

I found the following items to display in this months issue:

Medium.com has shared my article “No LGBT Stereotypes Here!” from last year on their website.

“Dead Man’s Hammer” received an amazing 5 star review from UK writer and reviewer, Lee Hall on September 9, 2019 – the very first for this title!

My favorite reviewer also tweeted THIS about “Black Sunrise” on the 12th!

I got this review on Smashwords for “The Thirteenth Ship“: “Started average, but the ending was different. 4 Stars” – James Jenkins September 12, 2019.

I was quoted by Stephanie C. Odili on Aug 13, 2019 on an article at Medium.com “The patriarchy longs for the days ‘when men were men’ and women were oppressed, subservient — and they can see no wrong in it. It justifies its former power and lust to hold on to it — and if possible, to regain it…How can oppression and power over another person’s life ever be ‘love’?” ― Christina Engela.

A short story project I collaborated on with fellow author Alex S. Johnson “Negative Wonderland” appears on Pintrest.

CrowdCount has one of my quotes at the bottom of their website in a carousel along with quotes from Margaret Mead, Ron Siltanen and Mother Theresa. “Human rights is a numbers game. Who is going to care if only 20 people pitch for a protest?“

Poopbite (odd name, that) lists one of my quotes on a list about bonfires. “Knowledge and education are the keys to this human tragedy which is a bonfire of hate-fueled by ignorance.” – Christina Engela.

GGGMall is still quietly carrying on, selling my books via their website AND on Bid or Buy.

The Daily Ripple posted a quote of mine from “The Pink Community – The Facts” right at the top of their homepage! “The problem is, in a world where some people (even in the USA, where someone like Donald Trump was allowed to rise to the level of a serious presidential candidate in 2016) have descended to such levels of ignorance that science itself is dismissed by leaders, political and religious as ‘an agenda’, and frightening numbers of people cling to ignorance and superstition because it suits their conservative anti-human rights views and objectives.” ― Christina Engela, The Pink Community – The Facts.

I display my Fan Mail, Reviews & Compliments with pride, gratitude and humility. You are always welcome to have a look.

Hate Mail & Horrible Mentions

I’ve had nothing in this department over the past month, other than a couple of pitiful dick pics and weak insults – surely my haters can do better?

This Levitican dickhead (who was on my Facebook friends list until then) made an effort to let me know what a hopeless transphobe he is by posting this string of abusive comments on a share of LGBT Heroes in Galaxii & Quantum – the “G” in LGBT. Yes, I write about LGBT characters in some of my books – and I’m open about being transgender and lesbian myself – so if you’re a homophobe or transphobe, why send me friend requests to begin with? #gallery-0-7 { margin: auto; } #gallery-0-7 .gallery-item { float: left; margin-top: 10px; text-align: center; width: 33%; } #gallery-0-7 img { border: 2px solid #cfcfcf; } #gallery-0-7 .gallery-caption { margin-left: 0; } /* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes/media.php */

This next ignoramus stepped up to demonstrate what happens when you’re a hate-filled sack of shit and you miss your turn to use the family brain cell – when you open your piehole, you sound like a TERF. #gallery-0-8 { margin: auto; } #gallery-0-8 .gallery-item { float: left; margin-top: 10px; text-align: center; width: 33%; } #gallery-0-8 img { border: 2px solid #cfcfcf; } #gallery-0-8 .gallery-caption { margin-left: 0; } /* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes/media.php */

I’m rather proud of my hate mail, and you can review my collection here – but be forewarned, don’t do it while eating or drinking, or you might choke while laughing!

Interviews

I have nothing new to show you here this month.

All my interviews are linked to from this page. If you would like to do an interview with me about my work, please do get in touch!

In Closing

Well, that’s all for this time, folks! 🙂

Thanks again for all your support, friendship and interaction!

Until next time, keep reading!

Cheers! 🙂

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Another Round At The Crow Bar #34 October 2019 Hello friends and fans! Welcome to my 34th newsletter - and this time, I think you'll notice right away that there's something different about it!