#not exactly a rant or vent

[strawberryraviegutz]

Part of me starting to have second thoughts about sinners. Not the movie itself but more or so the fandom…

From ppl completely disregarding and ignoring the movie’s themes about racism, to ppl watering down Remmick through a black and white lens either comparing him to the Klan(even tho the Klan hated Irish ppl back then)or saying that he did nothing wrong and uplifting him more than the black cast(apparently it was confirmed by someone who worked on the movie that Remmick isn’t racist. I forgot his name tho), along with ppl going after others for…finding a VAMPIRE VILLAIN hot??(and or anyone talking about Remmick in a positive light in general.)

I literally just saw the film yesterday and I’m already being put off by the way a lot of yall are acting.

While what Remmick did was certainly by no means any better than what the very oppressors he hates are doing(cuz at the same time he did sorta use his whiteness to his advantage when tricking those 2 klan members into letting him in), I think it’s just disingenuous to ignore what exactly LED HIM to that mindset which was the Catholics colonizing his home along with forcing Ireland’s ppl into famine.

Like I just dont get it…For as long as vampires and villains have been super popular and beloved in media for decades and even centuries , how are yall gonna act super surprised when ppl find a hot villain vampire character attractive/appealing??

Plus I thought it was common sense then ppl can like villains but not agree with their actions. No one here thinks that Remmick was in the right by forcing other black ppl against their will into assimilation into vampires(at least I hope not).

And again assuming it’s only white ppl who find him hot(which isn’t even inherently a bad thing. It depends on the context) and writing smut of him while completely ignoring/erasing all the black women/afabs and or black ppl in general who are thirsting for Remmick in the tags along with telling ppl to die over shipping Remmick with ppl…and also thinking that there’s only Remmick x reader fics when…no?? There’s A LOT of other x reader fics with the twins(smoke especially), Bo Chow, Annie, the twins, Sammie, and Mary within the tags.(also can we NOT call Remmick’s actor ugly please? That’s just flat out mean.). Speaking of which the way yall are treating Mary and Annie is just deplorable..

I literally had someone comment on my last post related to the shipping of Remmick and Sammie and I couldn’t even respond to them cuz they blocked me??(idk how to feel about the ship but I’m not gonna get onto other ppl for liking it since they’re both adults from what I can tell and as long as they aren’t erasing or ignoring the themes/message of the movie)

How are u gonna comment on my post and then block me when I was just trying to further explain my opinion that you had no intention of listening to in the first place??

According to these ppl I guess I must hate my own race now for thinking that Remmick is hot/sar

Way to make ur own ppl feel isolated from their own community as if that doesn’t also go against the message of Sinners at all../sar

[angeldaisies]

tlh side of the fandom is dead anyway but even if it wasn’t i still wouldn’t interact because i’ve come to realize that people just don’t like herondaisy and that’s so disheartening to me. even people who do like them usually go “yes but *insert character that is actually better*” and i know people can like whoever they want of course and i know it’s not a competition of which ship/character is better but also it’s very tiring to come online and see your personal faves being disliked at worst and tolerated at best by basically everyone with very few exceptions.

[deostyx]

I say this as an artist who has been trying to make artists friends for years, we really need to get better at finding community with other artists again, instead of sticking to one fandom and to stop interacting once they/you leave it.

Fandom friends are just that, they are fandom dependent and though not required to make them more than that, some of yall need to see that the option exists.

I still follow people that made amazing fanart for a fandom i left ages ago, but i still love to see what they are working on and supporting them on it.

Shit ill say it, ive followed artists that were still beginners at the time, just because i was curious to see how their style would develop. And it pays off, the amount of pride i feel to see people working on a skill and growing is fucking beautiful and profound to witness.

“Thats parasocial” DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF!!! THAT PERSON HAS 300 FOLLOWERS ITS NOT PARASOCIAL TO FEEL HAPPY FOR THEM THATS JUST KNOWING A PERSON AND LIKING THEM!!!!!

And if you want it to feel LESS parasocial ACTUALLY COMMENT!! i Know that sounds backwards but its better than you feeling that way and then lurking about it when the art only has like 3 notes. Girl what!!!!!!!! Say something!!!! You could have an art friend RIGHT NOW IF YOU JUST SAID SOMETHING

[demolition-widow]

We're not just dreamers we're the kind that comprehends <3

ok so tinny lil rant abt how hesitant alien makes me feel bc side hyper fixations go brr 👅👅👅👅

So when it comes to music, I've never rlly truly felt a sense of nostalgia in any part of said music. UNTILLLLL I found ✨hesitant alien✨ (shout out to @selfryed for sparking the hyperfixation lmao) and when I was listening to it for the first time I didn't think too much, like most of us I assume when listening to a piece of music for the first time. But after a while is grew on me, and I rlly started to hear the music. And idk smth abt it it just took me back to my childhood. I'm not trying to brag or anything ofc, but I had (and still have) a quite glamorous childhood, my mom's an interior designer and overall cool and interesting person so I grew up, and still growing up, going to cool places, meeting cool ppl, seeing cool things, listening to cool things, etc. and just something abt the whole vibe of hesitant alien just matches the life style I had when I was younger. The art style, the aesthetic, the sound, the look, the everything it just gives me nostalgia for some reason. Now ofc this could just be the fixations talking but either way the album makes me feel good and silly and fun and diva and glam and glittery and childish and spacey and gender and uh and that's all that matters ok!!!!!!!! 😿😿😿😿😿‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

My faves 👅💥👩‍🦲

[queenarsinoethepoisoner]

I actually hate my guard costume so fucking much. It’s long sleeved, but it’s mesh long sleeved. And it has pants all the way to our shoes. So imagine me, being very sweaty cus we just had a rehearsal in 81 degree (Fahrenheit) heat, trying to hurriedly put on a full sleeved and full legged costume cus they never give us enough time to comfortably get ready for inspection. Oh also the costume has a boob window (and it’s relatively big too), and since I don’t wanna flash people I wear a body suit under so I’m double layered and dying in the heat

[manicplank]

oh wow, this artist greatly captures the rivals/frenemies relationship of these two characters!

wait, nevermind. that's just ship art.

[lunadreamscaper]

sorry to all my probably confused followers getting exmormon shit on their dash now because of me because im kind of going through it right now lmao

you wouldnt survive the asylum they raised me in/ref/j

ooooohhhh religious cult trauma ooooh i realized Queer as fucking balls now happy pride month

grrr cishet white men in power grrrr

women are more than caregivers who also have to wipe their own husbands ass

i can listen to the occasional heavy metal without feeling guilty

i can admire the beauty of women i can be anything but cis i can date more than one person in a genuinely loving way (in a polyamorous way not polygamy way fuck polygamy)

i can enjoy boba tea, mochas, and an occasional buzzball and i can buy food on sunday when im hungry

i can draw skimpy outfits and boobs

i dont have to be forced with the same group of girls my age that i dont like anymore

i dont have to be forced to go to those stupid loud overstimulating dance parties meant to hook me up with a guy

i dont have to go on a mission (fuck those gawdamn) i dont have to read bible fan fiction anymore

i could keep going but im not going to because you probably get the point now.

[nychthemeron-rants]

TW: Vent

So, I am on the aromantic spectrum. Idk if I'm more demi or grey romantic or some other aspect of the spectrum, but I am on the aromantic spectrum. And as much as I hate to say this, I have spent YEARS being deeply deeply ashamed and scared of this fact, and still kind of am.

Because despite being on the aromantic spectrum, I am a hopeless romantic. I WANT to be someone who falls in love easily and experiences crazy whirlwind romances. I want to feel romantic attraction to someone and get crushes and all of that. I miss having those feelings but I've not been seriously romantically attracted to anyone since high school. I've been on a few dates with people that felt like I could fall for them, as though those feelings could develop, but they never lasted long enough for that to happen.

I worry I won't find my person. I'm scared to admit I'm on the aro spectrum so I don't drive people I may be interested in away. (I still try to date in hopes that I'll meet someone who can bring out those feelings again as I get to know them). But those romantic feelings, while I've had them before, just simply don't happen very often at all no matter how much I wish they did.

I wish I could take pride in this aspect of myself. I wish I could wear my aromanticism with pride, but in truth, it terrifies me.

[slugass]

for the love of god why is the “war flashbacks” meme still a fucking thing to this day

(because people thrive on stereotypes about serious mental illnesses)

[cherryb0om]

Man it fucking sucks having to live with my mum and watch her descend into more and more cult-ish mindsets and not being able to do anything about it. She used to be punk and raised me to be punk, we'd go to feminist and climate protests together and now she's just gone down the sky news/ Facebook/ liberal and LNP (our Republican parties basically) rabbit hole. At this point it's so bad there's nothing I can do about it anymore but wait till I can move out and let it go. I'm just worried about my younger brother who'll have to be there for longer.

[cpg-xxx]

I feel so guilty about not being as active on here as I used to be. I need to interact with my pookies more, I just haven't done so in so long that I feel out of the loop. Not to mention the servers I've left recently. I hate that I chose to leave but it's not like I can just go back. Even if I do, there's no guarantee that I'll even be active. Something's wrong with me and it sucks

[incorrigiblemind]

Love spills from your body like rays of light and I’m a child of England, unused to the sun.

[egginfroggin]

I usually try not to get too negative on my blog, but I have to say that one thing that I'm worried about with AI art is the possible accusations that could be placed on people with certain artstyles (surrealism, hyperrealism, etc.) that are more prone to the "uncanny valley" effect, or even just artists who are in that midway point where most of a piece looks great but there's a few things that are anatomically questionable.

I think it's fine for people to have suspicions, but I'm worried that people will come to expect things such as progress videos or shots as a given, and that this will intimidate young or new artists, making them feel incredibly pressured to provide things that they shouldn't have to. And, speaking from experience, pressure does not do good things to the creative mind.

I'm worried that people will start seeing inconsistencies or awkward anatomy and immediately react with accusations of AI. It's happening on other platforms, and probably also on Tumblr, and as much as I dislike AI, I think that people need to learn to slow down and really look at something before making that accusation.

What good will stamping out AI with vigor do if innocent artists get caught in the crossfire and stop creating out of fear? What good will it do if the next generation of artists is too scared to share and inspire each other?

Genuinely, I would personally rather deal with AI images existing while still being able to freely share my actual works than I would deal with tiptoeing around very real people who would dismiss my hours of work (and musculoskeletal pain) as worthless and not real. Let artists still be free for goodness' sake.

I can be more thoroughly worded later if anyone asks, and this will probably be sorely misinterpreted, but I just need to get this out and I'm tired.

TLDR: It's fine to be against AI-generated images, but please check yourself and be careful who you accuse of using such technology before you get someone innocent caught up in it. AI-generated art isn't great, and neither is putting down someone's hard work as fake.

[mily-is-a-star]

Me when I open up to someone about my personal issues and that same person starts telling everyone that, word for word, they have that issue, and it's literally only because they want attention

[helianskies]

ugly maths.

i hate maths, right. i don't usually like numbers, and if i do like numbers it's gotta be an 8 or a 48 and nothing else.

thing is, i've recently caught myself doing maths again. ugly maths. the kind of maths that, really, i've been trying to avoid as much as possible because, well, it's ugly!

you... wanna see?

okay, fine... but don't say i didn't warn you!

ugly, see? look at all those numbers! not a 48 in sight!

huh? what's that? you don't see what i'm on about? oh... oh! hang on, lemme just—

better? yes? no? no? okay, what if i—

mmh, yes. ugly numbers. see it now? can you see why they're ugly?

here, i can make it worse.

these numbers are ugly. the maths they make me do is ugly.

now i'll level with you: the worst ones by far are the yellow numbers. the maths they make me do it the ugliest.

why ugly?

because it makes me ugly.

those numbers turn me into not only a suddenly number-obsessed fool, but a fool who also cannot understand these numbers and what they mean and why i feel like they reflect on me and my ability.

87, 75.

the thoughts are as follows:

• the orange numbers are big, so why are you being ugly about the yellow ones? you should be happy with what you have. so many nice big numbers! not everyone receives that.

• is it that there are two different audiences for these two different fics? perhaps. they are quite different works, with different appeals, and different themes. maybe you are reading too much into it.

• why are you obsessing over numbers anyway? you don't like maths! you left maths behind when you were 16, put it down!

okay, okay, fine! i'll put the maths down. right here, in fact!:

that 87 was an 83 at the start of the year. the 6161 it is attached to was a 5453.

4, 708.

ugly maths.

the 75 is a nice number. in fact, compared to 87, it is beautiful, radiant, enchanting. at the start of the year, 75 was 48. wow. now that is one sexy number!

27.

mmmm.

6161, 1061.

5100.

87, 75.

12.

mmmm.

you know, my most favourite comment left recently on a fic of mine was 2 characters long: :(

it made me :)

well, actually, it made me >:) because it was left in response, presumably, to one of the key scenes in a new chapter which left the exact impression on someone that i hoped it would.

they must be the only one who reacted like that, though.

1.

have i mentioned that that 87 and 75 include author responses?

i won't try to do more maths, there. it might not end well for me. the maths is making me tired enough as it is, and i have an early start tomorrow.

oh! but, that being said, i have another set of ugly numbers to show you, so keep 87 and 75 in mind.

ready?

838, 245.

(want a hint? the green numbers!)

838, 87. 245, 75.

9.6, 3.3.

ugly maths. it's ugly again, see? i don't like it. i'm seeing numbers within numbers within numbers, and i can't seem to stop!

the numbers make me ask new questions:

• why is it not good enough?

• people seem to engage more with one fic over the other, so shouldn't you prioritise?

• is all this maths this really good for you?

no, it isn't.

i want to avoid ugly maths. ugly maths makes me want to tear my hair out. it makes me want to start from scratch. it makes me want to grab someone and scream. it makes me want to cry and press a button that has tempted me many times before when the numbers become too ugly to bear.

ugly maths turn me into an ugly person.

ugly maths make me obsessive, paranoid, anxious, regretful, vindictive, spiteful, alone.

i hate maths. i hate numbers, just like, it feels, the numbers hate me.

[wanderingmind867]

I don't know why I make such a big deal out of not posting. I don't have some sort of debt to anyone that requires me to make posts, I just can't seem to stop myself from feeling bad when I don't post. Maybe that actually says something about me, and about how having a social media account may be negatively affecting me? I don't really know, honestly. But i feel like it says something, and that something probably isn't super positive. But i suppose i can't speak with certainty on any of this. sigh...