#not even in a people pleaser way i dont think! literally just.

[dullahandyke]

sigh actually whatd fix me is getting into shit that nobody i know knows abt so theres no expectations or whatever. my blade of the immortal arc was soooo good for me

[guinevereslancelot]

currently hating and killing myself for leaving work early even tho i literally threw up within a minute of walking in the door when i got home

[big-box-of-kinda-silly-fop-ideas]

Just wanted to make like a proper way bio thing for peri (irep coming soon probably if i bother)

I would write fanfiction but uh idk if i could so these are more like characters notes

real long post below

Peri is a highly independent adult, he doesn’t like being coddled or touched without any warning and isnt the type to ask for help at all even if he really needs it. He’s an extremely closed off person using the suave act as a way to personally seperate himself to others which he developed due to his celebrity status, the suave personality also acts as a way to keep face as he never knows where could be camera. He pretends this cool collected guy, that can worm his way to getting anything (which is true) that has everything under control but in reality he’s this kinda dorky dude, that always anxious on how people perceive him and his grades. He’s an overachiever, after the initial first baby born hype died down he’s mostly known as the really smart youngest fairy in existence, he’s was an academic weapon throughout spellementary school and hs (im basing his education system off mine which is only two schools no middle 4-12 and 12-18) and came to uni with overconfidence in his educational abilities. Theres one thing thats consistent between his suave act and his actual self which is he’s petty as hell and very snarky, you can try talking him down but he’ll roast you back or give you a vaguely threatening threat. As well as being a bit prideful and vain, like he knows he’s pretty and smart and cares a lot about his appearance.

In this uni au he’ll be a bit of a static character he doesnt grow much, and struggles with demonstrating his affection or his struggles. (Which is why dev and peri dont exactly work much cause peri is overcompensating on how much coddling he got, and show affection in a more subtle way that dev doesn’t need as he need a more direct way (and heres a thought i dont think peri wouldve ever said he cared for dev unless delirious) ) . But he’s more openly affectionate with his parents cause he loves them. What he mainly goes through is humbling, he starts fairly prideful and overconfident but starts to slowly crumble from the pressure and anxiety. As in he doesnt say no to anything, hes somehow always busy or doing something, he also studies not enough and too much (crams shit in) and he also got his celebrity things to do. Another arc will be opening up to Goldie and Irep (but they'll be his only friends) cause he doesnt learn shit about how to socialise without depending on the act. He’s also easily frustrated, if things dont go in the way he wants he gets frustrated at himself, like he really put his self worth on his abilities to do things and less on who he is as a person. Like everyone praised him for his intelligence, charm, talent, magic and appearance, like he hates being coddled but he likes being praised, while irep doesnt get praised and seeks getting praised. But that doesnt change the fact he is a genuinely nice-ish person he just doesn’t like disappointing people, especially those close to him but he’s got a bit of an ego but not in a narcissistic way but in a young adult way where he doesnt exactly think for others first but for himself because he doesnt want to disappoint people. (Which is seen in battle of dimmsonian where hes more worried about being seen by his parents and his career choices then dev). Which is also why he’s a stickler to the rules, like he doesnt want people to think he’s bad person but also jorgen literally drilled it into him that breaking the rules is bad. Like he’s the type to do it right by the books, that comes from him being a bit of a people pleaser, and genuine concern of him messing up his perfect facade.

Speaking of Goldie, i would describe their relationship as fairly close. It takes a while for the either of them to open up to anything personal but they start off as friends of mutual benefits. They use eachother as study buddies, people to hang out with and to talk about their slightly weird interests. And the more they go through uni the more they will confide with each other. Like i imagine a tipping off point for their friendship is when peri finally breaks and gets like a panic attack, Goldie will be there to boost him up. Irep is also their friend but he’s in it more to best Peri or to piss him off. Irep is one of few to see through his act and knows how to break it.

Like genuinely i do think hazel and peri may be counterparts to each other like they both lost their sibling figure, both overthinks scenarios and both want to be appear more mature then they actually are. Like i want anw to be where he grows the most because he’s more challenged to question his behaviours and habits, especially with how these traits affect his and dev’s relationship for the worse.

[qoldenskies]

Yeah people pleaser Leo takes me out of fics so fast. Way faster than unbothered Donnie Or a Leo that crumbles under trauma if I'm honest

I've seen a lot of fics where his internal dialogue is so dependant heavy? And anxious about everything

That Leo would never tease Raph about his "chasm." The mere idea would make him want to vomit

Maybe they should try writing for mutant mayhem instead? Now there's an anxious, people pleasing Leo

"he would not say that" is one thing and its usually leveraged wrong. you can stomp on characters in all sorts of ways to Make Them Say That. i struggle with judging over the much deeper "he would not have that stress response" AND IN LEO'S CASE I DONT LIKE IT WHEN PEOPLE MAKE HIM FAWN LOL its pretty much the thing he does the LEAST, sucking up to people to manipulate them or going "ermmmmm why are you angry? lol" are both things that are not fawn responses at all LMFAO

actually that argument with raph in the movie is pretty much the BEST example of leo going to fight mode when he's upset about something. brushing it off and riling up raph INTENTIONALLY to derail the situation, he likes to go the long way around to make raph look unreasonable sometimes lmao. he likes to poke at them to embarrass them in order to express his disapproval, and he ESPECIALLY does it to those he's directly already antagonistic with. hell, he can even open his big mouth around the kraang in the middle of a dire situation lmao

donnie is so focused on attaining the approval of others, he is a BILLION times more likely to fawn and suck up when he feels threatened, as well as harbor a lot of anxiety about how others perceive him. leo wants to be liked, and he doesn't want to be alone, of course, but he turns a lot of inward. its about the persona he puts up, and when he's upset he'll crack down on it and put those walls up higher, usually via. lashing out in that exact way

it's literally the "im just a little guy im just a little birthday boy" response, but i think if you fucked him up enough you could make him more surprisingly focused cornered animal tbhhh and i think that's a ton more interesting interpretation of his issues. they cant psychological warefare him the same way he does them and it shows

tdlr in my opinion its like. he would not turn to desperate people pleasing when he feels his sense of self shaken or destroyed, he would double down and shut people out and potentially even refuse to accept help instead

hell, it took EVERYTHING with the kraang and all of the near death experiences in order to get him to actually reflect on himself and change in the movie. leo DOES CARE. very much, and a big reason he was so upset with raph and reacted like that is because raph used the lives of their little brothers as a point of argument, and implied he was apathetic to something like that. he HATES being seen that way!! so him actually facing how this behavior IS bad and seeing how much danger its gotten them into (especially with CJ's words in mind) is the thing that really makes him re-evaluate himself and grow.

leo pretends to have a fawn response but its very apparent that its just masquerading a deeply-rooted fight response. donnie pretends to have a fight response but its very apparent he's just masquerading a deeply-rooted fawn response. you understand.

[ender-cloud]

NEW UPDATE AND OH OK UM ONE MOMENT THERES A LOT TO UNPACK HERE

Tgs spoilers undercut

Ok, ok, ok! Im currently ill so my minds a little bit scattered and I woke up really late today because I needed the rest, so im posting this a little late but oh my hod!!

Ok, ok ok ok! So!

Hyde is having the same problem Jekyll did before he passed out and I think this could mean 2 things.

When Jekyll was having this issue Hyde was going into the back of the mind, which is exactly what Jekyll is doing right now trying to erase himself, does this truly make it so Hyde will die with Jekyll?

Now now, Lyn wonders if Jekyll is wanting to kill Hyde but I don’t believe he does. I think Jekyll wants Hyde to suffer but he made his intentions seem very clear. He wanted Hyde to go mad without him as he is sent to Jail because of the crimes he’s committed in the past. Also I don’t think Jekyll knows that he’s possible of killing Hyde.

Fritz beought up that Sage said that if Hyde dies then Jekyll will go back to normal. But that might not have the same effect on Hyde.

Hyde stems from Jekyll and the only reasoning why Jekyll was affected before was because Hyde was pulling him down. Forcing Jekyll to go with him which Jekyll isnt trying to do to Hyde.

Thank you lyn and Fritz for what you found out while I was asleep

Hyde isnt an organic human, but just a product of Jekyll, and it brings up if the host (Jekylls body/Jekyll) dies then what will it do for Hyde’s life. Jekyll most likely dosent know he’s killing Hyde by killing himself but it is just a side effect

But I would also argue that it might not be, for one, when it was happening to Jekyll it was way worse, he was grabbing his chest in pain and was barley even able to stand, Jekyll is the host body who wouldn’t have died if Hyde did, so shouldn’t it be 10 times worst for Hyde?

It also brings up Hyde’s anxiety, in this moment hyde is scared from being left alone and is terrified that Lanyon has found him like this. The pounding of his heart could be a start of a panic attack instead of a sign that Jekyll is killing him.

Either way, a full blown Panic attack would be an interesting thing to see Hyde experience in front of Lanyon and show how more of an exposure to to the real world is effecting him. If Hyde is going to die from Jekyll, I dont think it’s happening just yet

Ok ok! Now to the dialogue

Hyde trying to still show he’s tough even though it’s obvious in his face he’s lost, scared, panicked. He’s keeping up his persona but he looks like he is going to break soon.

He is just as emotionally vulnerable as Jekyll and he needs his reputation as much as Jekyll desires his

ALSO LANYON TREATING HYDE AS A PERSON FINALLY???? He seems to have accepted that Hyde and Jekyll are the same person, bringing up a memory he had WITH JEKYLL while saying YOU to hyde.

While Jekyll and Hyde arent the same people, it is a start. It’s almost like he’s trying to reach out to Jekyll in Hydes mind, but Jekyll may be far to gone

Haha, oh Jekyll would, now now, before we get into the story it makes me wonder if Lanyon thinks this was Jekyll’s Hyde showing which is why he brought it up, he dosent exactly know what part of Jekyll he was always talking to.

Woah, Jekyll not wanting to lie to the people who have been nice to him, crazy Idea! /j I just giggled at a stupid joke

I do find it interesting how Jekyll has changed from back them, not fully, he was still desperate to get people to aprove of him, a people pleaser at heart. Yet now, Jekyll is a lot more willing to let a “little” lie slide under the rug if it means he can still keep his reputation up.

He is still a people pleaser and seeing it when he was younger shows why he decided to remove Hyde from himself.

Also jekyll is literally on his knees begging for this simple chance that Lanyons parents wont even find out about, he is truly just desperate to be liked and accepted.

Lanyon is really smart, as seen, but is holding himself back because he wants it to seem that he dosent need his fathers approval or attention but is instead is proving how much his father floods his mind.

He’s not doing this for himself, he is doing it to spite his father, trying to go against Him, not because he dosnet care about school or what people think, but instead Because he cares too much. He is trying to trick himself into thinking it dosnet Matter but it does matter to him what his father thinks.

Also Jekyll being so scared of being called a monster shows how even from the beginning he didn’t like the hyde part of himself and how he really just wanted to be accepted, he doesn’t want to be perceived as a monster even after all of these years he just wants to be liked

This story of the past dosent seem to be over yet so we’ll have to wait until next week for the rest

[fictionfixations]

signature spells and the person

(referencing this list because i cant remember them all)

spoilers for all books. and glorious masquerade

(note that some characters i dont know well at all. which you can kind of tell with me being super unsure. there's this person in the reblogs who elaborated on bits i wasn't quite correct on or didnt have an idea on so go read it!)

signature spells embodying the person sort of? Riddle - collar. restriction. limitations.

Deuce - not taking hits lying down. striking back. (a reckless idiot like that)

Cater - hm.. putting on an act for everyone? people pleaser? so its like. all of those little 'acts' and 'personas' he puts on are sort of 'him' in a sense. but its also not him at the same time. (like how the clones arent actually him because they're just a creation of his magic. but they are him in a way, too right?)

trey - sneaky sneaky guy who notices a lot more than you'd think. presents himself as one way but he's complicated

Leona - sand. like all his hard work turning to sand, or basically nothing.

Jack - wolves work in packs, right? he wants to work in a pack. (even though he says he doesn't). they're strong, but they do better together. ..probably. idk.

Ruggie - treating all people 'equally' (in the sense that he'd mess with them all. unless they were a serious trouble to deal with) also sucks up to people........ (and probably laughing at them behind their back for being such a 'fool' haha get it. because fool's parade..--) maybe? Idk.

Azul - exchanging his old self for an asshole basically (because he must've been a nicer guy as a bby. but then ppl were mean to him and now he's very bitter.)

Jade - acting like the more calmer and reasonable of the twins, even though he can be just like floyd, if a bit more dangerous considering he can get under your skin, get you trust him, that he just wants to 'help you'. and you tell him all your secrets. and then it 'shocks your heart' when he reveals his true colors. (like bruh. his halloween groovification message was literally, "Oooh, I love it when you flee in terror. It makes me want to chase you!")

Floyd - i don't know. uhhh. in his lab coat(?) vignette there's this moment where a guy bumps into him, is like 'hEY WHO DO YOU--' and then realizes its floyd and backs off. basically the guy who intimidates them to make them weaker, ig? terrorizing them. 'binding the heart' in fear. i mean he'll still hurt them ofc, but the point is is that he's the scary one, jade's the 'calm' one, thats his image to people. i dont know him nearly well enough to really get it.

Kalim - wishing for everyone to be happy. to dance and sing and forget about all the troubles. throwing parties and feasts to cheer them up (and granting them relief when needed). although it doesn't always end well and his attempts can end up 'useless', like how oasis maker is 'useless' when people already have easy access to water. but at other points desperately needed.

Jamil - turning him into the 'master' and the other the 'servant'

Vil - planting 'curses' in plain sight. masking it. disguising it. acting. like putting on makeup to change something. maybe. possibly. (this is weak) maybe a false reassurance. a mask.

Epel - accepting who he is (that he's short and seen as 'cute'. and so using it to his advantage.) like, seeming 'soft and dainty' but actually a guy who can beat someone up. like, 'you'll just go to sleep..' (and then the crimson part of slumber with a negative meaning. the poison apple. something that looks innocent but is actually harmful.) and then you never wake up again because you were TRICKED HAHAHA /hj

Rook - will literally do anything for what his fixations are. in which his fixations are 'beauty', which is a very vague category and include literally everything. also very very creepy and stalker-ish in the process.

Idia - honestly idfk. uh. 'responsibility'. burdens. control. it literally just represents a part of his job? idfk. its such a big part of him (also his family had the same UM so like..) that its just. who he is.

Malleus - there was this quote he said about how 'when you nap, even 500 years could pass without you noticing'. so it could be something like how time moves by so fast like that

guh.. it was "Give in to slumber, and a thousand years will pass in the blink of an eye."

Silver - I don't know him that well... i mean like there's references to him having parallels with like. i think.. aurora?? the girl who maleficent cursed. i think. dreams and wishes. i don't know i havent even seen him use it yet LMFAO (ive only finished part 2 of book 7..) maybe like. things not seeming real..? idk man. a desire to see people, to stay by their side, but can't, so instead it'll be in a dream. so either it isn't real, a mere fantasy, or, shrug. like. yknow the remember me song in coco? it's like 'and everytime you hear a guitar you'll remember and think about me' (i cant remember the exact lyrics)

Sebek - admires malleus. a lot. malleus has control over lightning or something. so sebek in turn becomes that 'lightning' that he can control, as his guard and stuff like that. 'i will be his sword', maybe.

lilia - he reflects a lot about the past imo. overly aware of things and the passing of time. at least in my opinion. how things can pass by so easily. so he takes little bits and pieces to cherish for the rest of his life, and to think back on. a trip back down memory lane, as they say.

Rollo - literally gets set on fire like his brother..?? that thing forever haunting him that its such a big part of him at this point (hating magic and hating what happened.) and him hating himself making himself see him as part of the reason why his brother died, and therefore making him literally the thing that killed him sort of?

[dungeonmeshi-confessions]

I wanna do more kabumisu positivity following that other anon. it really brightened my day so much.

bc really I dont want to bash other ships to lift mine up!!! and I actually also really love and respect labru, and know the majority of labru shippers arent Like That, just like most kabumisu shippers arent Like That. every group has some annoying, loud, opinionated people and they dont represent the average person who likes the ship, you know? I would love to see some labrus follow suit and send in some positivity as well!!! If the positivity keeps going I will come in here and post all my fave things about labru, labru art, and labru shippers as a kabumisu. lets ditch the bitching and hold hands instead!

anyway, some reasons I really love kabumisu

- as a neurodivergent disabled person dating another neurodivergent person, this is like. THE couple to me. and like its not just about mithrun being taken care of. taking care of mithrun actively helps kabru be more mindful of his own needs. In my life, I may struggle to feed myself, but I can make breakfast if my partner is hungry. other times she may do the same for me, it depends on who is doing worse.

-they both struggle with insomnia also

-from everything we've seen, pre-dungeon mithrun wasn't entirely dissimilar to kabru (high masking people pleaser) and thats Fascinating to me.

-kabru's job seems pretty stressful (no matter how much fulfillment it brings him, its a lot of responsibility for one person!) so I feel like coming home to that one guy he can take his mask off around and not even have to try and impress must be such a huge relief. also add mithrun with cooking experience to this, making kabru a nice meal after a long day of work.

-Mithrun is actually very perceptive and sees straight through kabru's bs multiple times and doesn't hesitate to call him out. Laios isnt the only character that forces kabru to be honest. ("unless theres someone else?" "theres someone you want to tell that story to.") mithrun is also the one who gives kabru the information he's been seeking this whole time.

-I am very interested in exploring mithruns whole desire situation. what desires does he gain? I think it is probably a lot of little ones that weave together. oh also I think sometimes things may seem more mithrun centric bc in any story where he is going to end up in a relationship he is going to have a much more dynamic arc than whoever he is paired with. literally dynamic as in like. he requires a lot more growth to achieve the outcome. and there are ways to skip it or gloss through it but. a lot of these stories require that in some way you show the progress has happened.

-to me, kabumisu is more often queeplatonic than romantic. but Im aroace so that could just be my aroace glasses. ALSO kabru is vaguely aro to me. you mean the guy thats super desirable that doesnt really seem interested in anyone particular outside of pursuing friendship? that guy? (also the way he did rin omfg)

-random but I dont think kabrus PTSD is talked about enough and also like the extent of his trauma. its not just utaya/monsters/his mom dying; its being raised by a single mother, its his blue eyes, its being adopted, its being raised by an elf, etc!!!! a lot of things he does bc of ptsd get attributed to autism (I also hc kabru as autistic, and some is symptom overlap. but it is secondary to the ptsd! he is traumatized first and foremost ty) I really love kabru so much. ty for the ptsd rep <3

-also out here to say I know an amount of kabumisu content is mithrun centric. I will tell you from my pov specifically though its bc I deeply relate to mithrun (as someone who once told a therapist many years ago I desired nothing and truly meant it. she said I was like a puppet without strings. of course I saw mithrun and was like. oh.) and Im in love with kabru. kabru reminds me of all the people who gave me a reason to pull through. people who saw good in me and treated me like a person when I didnt feel like one. I also really relate to kabru though as someone with complex trauma, even if my traumas are not the same. thats why I say I think not enough is attributed to his ptsd. anyway, once I just opened a notebook and wrote kabrus name over and over again with hearts. I have never done this to mithrun. so dont tell me kabumisus dont like kabru !!!

-kabru and mithrun are both so gender. Ive seen so many variants on their gender and gender expression in the ship. some people hate this and insist they must be one way or the other. I think theyre neat lots of different ways. I love when theyre both feminine men. I love when mithrun is super masc. I love when theyre butch4butch. I love when theyre both trans. and so much more. its all beautiful. a very good variety of food. the other day on my dash I had a tallman art of mithrun with the biggest tits imaginable and the very next post he was like a little porcelain doll. keep up the good work guys. I love you.

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[sapphire-heart-tippy]

hey, regarding a post where you discussed how you wouldn't post wamuu in his pillar men attire, and would instead opt out for modern clothing, i feel like this isnt a good approach to the backlash and i understand if youre only doing this to satisfy others, but if that is really the case that is on them for being sensitive over cultural clothing.

i dont want to be overly rude but putting someone like wamuu in modern clothing is just so out of character for him, and if you want to mischaracterize him for the sake of others thats okay i guess, but i just purely believe this is not an appropriate way to execute this

instead just so others dont feel "uncomfortable" with skin which you literally see in the manga and anime, maybe you could add things like warnings, you continue drawing his cultural clothing and tell others to ignore it, or you could just simply post it somewhere else so they have an option to see it or not. not trying to be rude at all, just some criticism since putting wamuu in modern streetwear strips him of his culture which we see he is so prideful of in the anime/manga, and i feel you taking that off his character is a stupid decision all because some people are unhappy with the amount of skin we see in your drawings and both in the anime/manga

i dont mean to be hateful but the way you are handling this is so blatantly throwing wamuu's character away all over some discomfort which can easily be fixed by the viewer if they just looked at your other works and ignored things they find uncomfortable

please dont come after me either, im only half of your age (14)

You're fine, and you know what? You're right... I only did that because I noticed people were uncomfortable with the amount of skin showing on both my character and him. To be honest, I really didn't want to draw him in human clothing

I lost some followers and a mutual because of the outfits (which Wamuu and the other pillarmen canonically wear btw). Kars is almost naked for heavens sake, but it appeared that the only thing others had a problem with was my self insert being shirtless.

I don't want to cover up my self insert's top surgery scars, and I don't exactly want to draw Wamuu in the gym clothes that much anymore (unless he's in disguise, like how Kars was in the series)

But I think I could meet in the middle and just cover up my self insert's chest with a crop top, while at the same time being able to show faer scars (I may never be able to have top surgery in real life, so that's why I proudly display them in art)

I wasn't doing this because they were sensitive about Wamuu, it appeared that others really didn't like the fact my character in particular was showing so much skin (even though fae's showing less skin than Kars)

I'm not upset at all, in fact, I think I'm going to just throw out the "human clothes" thing anyway and just go ahead and put a crop top on my self insert. That way everyone's happy:

• Wamuu, thankfully, gets to stay in his pillarman clothes

• My self insert can still be an honorary pillarman and wear the pillarman clothes

• My self insert can wear a crop top and have faer scars showing at the same time

I won't rb the human clothing drawing anymore, instead I'll edit the other drawings so my character will have a crop top similar to Wamuu's. Plus, all drawings involving Wamuu can stay with him wearing his pillarman attire

I admit, I got a little sensitive because I'm a people pleaser. I guess it started when my drawings were getting reported for sexual content on Bluesky (thankfully not anymore)

I really want this to be the last of this issue because I'm an anxious person...

So to recap:

• Wamuu gets to stay in his pillarman clothes

• My s/i gets to still show his top surgery scars while at the same time wearing a crop top

• I'm not upset, however I will work on trying not to be so sensitive and simply rolling over to "make everything better", which in turn made things worse...

This kind of woke me up a bit... Plus I love drawing Wam-Wam in his pillarman clothes

[toulouse21]

REASONS WHY I KIN LUZ NOCEDA SO MUCH (and maybe you do too, just didn't realize it)

(from minor things until deep things)

- first of all she is a huge geek nerd that likes cosplay and anime, like the main audience of this show

- spontaneous and easily excited with anything

- her friends probably call her "the sun of the group"

- latina

- she likes otters!

- she loves shipping

- gay panicks to all the genders

- she likes fantasy books with complicated side stories

- she became a writer at the end of the show

- a simp.

- she falls in love with a cute witch with colorfoul hair, honestly who wouldn't?

- Luz uses fiction to scape reality, and that's like SO OBVIOUS that even her must realize it too, but if you notice it, at human realm that is what keep her going without drowning in a possible depression. She had no friends there, she had nothing other than her mother (wich she was very lucky to be an amazing one) and her fantasy books. Yeah she probably knew her obssesion with fiction was too much, but she had no other thing to focus

- I think the owl house was the only piece of media I ever seen that pictured the feeling of "growing up as the weird kid" so perfectly. Generally the main characther is a nerd who has no friends and is bullied, but it never has a reason for them to not have any friends (not a reason like "oh they are so irritanting, that's why they don't have any friends", no, a reason like "they are seen as weird because they are VERY different from the rest of school, wich scare people away, and that's why they don't have any friends. It's not their fault at all". The second case is literally luz' case).

You see, Luz always had so much imagination, and she tried to show it the most she could to other people, I think she did it because she thought "Im gonna be myself, and someone will like me.... Probably". That scene in third season, of Camila remembering things, when little Luz shows the snake's pajamas to the other kids, she clearly did that because it was a subject she was SO interested in, she wanted to share it with the other children, they would find it interesting too and would want to be her friends, right? And then the kids ran away screaming, and she didn't get why

- When Camila wanted to send her to that camp, oh my titan my girl was so sad. When she dropped azura's book on trash, honestly I think that was so.... Meaningful. That book is so important to her, obviously because it was her father's gift, BUT it's even more than that, it's the whole symbol of her personality, the one little thing she loves so much, she stayed on boiling isles only to have a chance to live something slightly similar to what she always dreamed with.

When she throws Azura on the trash in front of Camila she is basically saying "don't worry mom, I will finally stop. I will stop trying to make friends by being what I am, because that clearly didn't and will never work out. I am going to throw all that I am away, so I can be normal like everybody wants". Getting Azura back isn't JUST for the plot, it symbolizes how Luz isn't ready to gave up from herself yet.

- In boiling isles Luz feels like she is in home, we all know that, but if you look closer, you will see it was there she become a people pleaser. In my interpretation, Luz is so happy she finally find a place where she has friends, a second mother figure, a brother figure, and people LIKE her (well most of them, except for bosha and stuff), she is so not used to it, she doesn't know what to do. People liking her so much as she likes them is so perfect she wants to do anything to not change that, that's why she sacrifices herself in a lot of situations in a lot of different ways for the people she loves.

If you dont think she is a people pleaser, let me remind you: when she made Amity loose her job at the library, Luz came back to there, faced all the challenges that creepy boss had for her, just to get Amity's card back. Eda told her explicity to not do any mess with the house while she was out, but Luz invited Gus and Willow to there anyway, only because Willow was too excited about that moon ritual, she prefers face the consequences of desobbeing eda than make her new friends slightly disappointed (probably because she thinks that if she commits any mistake, they will abandon her).

- In my point of view, her obssesion in befriending every enemy that crosses her also relates with the fact she is a people pleaser. I can be projecting (like all the rest of this text lol), but I have a strange wish that everyone on earth likes me, not only the people I like, but also the people I hate, I want everyone to find me at least a little nice or else Im not happy. Wich means I am never truly happy, because that is Impossible to happen

For what Im concerned, people pleasers think like that generally, so Luz probably thinks like that too

- Ok the puppet scene of the third season, I saw a lot of people joking with "Luz realized that wasn't amity because she wasn't autistic enough lollll", yes I know, but that scene is so deep for me oh lord. Her worst fear is to be abandoned by her friends, the people she would die for, when she sees it happening in front of her, she doesn't even think "wait this looks weird, this doesn't look like my friends at all...", no, her head doesn't even suggest that, because in Luz' mind, that scenario it's what she deserves, the "weird" situation is the actual reality, where none of her friends hate her, she doesn't understand why they don't.

Luz realized they were all puppets because Amity mistoke an Azura's quote, not because all that incredible people were being mean to her, because she thinks she doesn't deserve any of them.

- Also in third season, my favourite scene of all time, the one that made me cry, when I heard Luz saying that, I finally realized what I needed this whole time: "The only thing I've ever really wanted.... Was to be understood"

(YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH THIS TOUCHED ME, SERIOUSLY, AHHWHWHWHAIAJAHAHAHQBWH)

This quote is SO SO SO SO SO MEANINGFUL, OH MY TITAN. Not even Luz understood herself, do you guys get that? She didn't know why she just couldn't be normal like all the other kids on school, she didn't understand why she insisted so much on being herself when all that did was to cause her suffering. But when Camila said "my biggest mistake was trying to change you", she finally realized why she never gave up of herself: because there was nothing wrong with her.

She is not a bad person, she is nothing like belos or whoever, she deserves to receive as much as she offers to everyone, she doesn't need to think inside the box, she can continue to be weird forever and there is nothing wrong with that. For us that's all pretty obvious, but for her it's like a dream that came true to finally realize that.

The main reason why this cartoon is my favourite is because of Luz. I feel really connected to her (if that makes sense), that's why Im so obsessed with her. At the finale, she ends up capable of balancing her "boring life" of human realm with boiling isles, that makes me fill up with hope that maybe one day I find happiness at my "boring life" in here, while balancing it with fiction in a healthy way.

Luz is the best main characther of all time and I will never be convinced otherwise.

[tsumugismaster]

it doesn’t surprise me that you are a neutral person.. not that I think you would do anything bad!! ^^’ i just see you as very cool and collected.. someone who thinks with their head. but i also wouldn’t be surprised if at times, your heart does take control.. but obviously i don’t really know anything so im just talking to talk haha…..

yeah, i was a.. “pick me” as a child. it doesn’t surprise me.. with parents that wanted me a certain way, i kind of felt like i needed to be perfect for everyone around me. now im a people pleaser.. how shocking. i absolutely love nature.. though i absolutely abhor mosquitoes. excuse my language.. i fucking hate them. for some reason, they just love my blood.. so in the summer, i always get like, 40 mosquito bites every time i go outside. the wonders of the midwest… also including the millions of ticks always lurking around.. but either way, i love nature. to think that all of the things around us were created from one little thing.. one chain reaction led to our world.. its absolutely marvelous. the smells, the sights, the feelings.. everything is beautifully unique in its own way. i love just going outside and feeling sun on my skin, hearing birds chirping, feeling the slight breeze and hearing it push past the leaves on the trees.. i love it so much. i.. would love to hike with you, if you’d give me the chance. if i could have any pet, i would want a bernese, a chow chow or a squirrel.. OR A CAT! my family doesn’t like cats, so we can’t have one.. :(

i played clarinet for a very long time but recently quit, and i played piano then quit, but im trying to learn again.. playing the viola is extremely difficult, thats incredible! i have trouble trusting people, but i usually show my imperfections quickly after becoming obsessed with someone.. i wish i could keep it in easier, but i cant. ive known pain and fear and sorrow for a long time.. i cant imagine a moment without it. its much easier to pretend to be something, than to be yourself.. but yes, i really love to sing. its my life, its my safe space. i wouldn’t be sane without it.. obviously i dont think i have much talent, but some may agree with you. either way.. the compliment feels nice, even if i dont fully believe it.

my mom is a good person at heart, for sure.. we’ve had our moments, but she’s a good mom. that’s what matters. trust me, there are certain bugs that i cannot deal with. flying bugs, and big bugs specifically.. its so silly to me that we have something like that in common. how interesting.

you don’t have to apologize.. im just glad you’re here now. talking with you is a gift. thank you so much. im sorry if i seem slightly off.. i have some things going on in my personal life making me feel certain ways. but talking with you has made me feel less alone.

your ladybug waits 🐞

Ah! I don’t mind, I enjoy listening to people’s assumptions of me. Gives me a good idea of what people really think of me. I do mostly use my heart though, it got to me where I am. A fairly enjoyable life but very busy. I think I trust it more than my brain, of course I’ll use my brain if needed.

REAL!! Mosquitoes are my literal nightmare during the summer, even during night those stupid pests start biting my feet.. it’s quite the hellhole when it starts itching in multiple places. They adore you don’t they? Aha! Your language is fine! You are free to say mostly whatever you want. You’re quite the imaginative person, There’s something magical about nature, isn’t there? It’s like every little detail, from the way the sunlight filters through the leaves to the sound of the wind, is its own quiet masterpiece. It makes you feel small but in a comforting way, like you’re part of something so much bigger, at least for me.

Of course! I’d love going on walks or hikes with other people! There’s something special about sharing that kind of peace with someone else—just walking, talking, or even just being quiet together while soaking in everything around us. It’s a way to connect not just with nature but with each other too. I think it would be amazing to experience that with you.

Ah! I also want a pet cat, my cousin has an orange one and she’s so cute! But sometimes she scratches and bites my ankles.. I’ll sill love her forever no matter how much she hurts me. I need to search up all the other animals you said cause damn I do not know what any of the rest are..

Mm interesting, though I have nothing to comment on for your instruments, hope you learning to play the piano again goes smoothly! Ahaha we are pretty different in that since I absolutely hate singing, it was never for me. Maybe it’s because I never felt like my voice was good enough, or maybe I just didn’t connect with it the way others seem to. Alas, I found myself to connect through writing. I definitely completely admire and look up to people like you though! You’re quite the inspiration without realizing it

That’s good! I can’t say anything since I rather just not talk about my mom.. I’m not in the best situation with her but still love her. Please.. flying bugs will be the death of me, the most embarrassing part of me is seeing how I react to a bigass bug, also rats are very scary to me.. eugh it gives me the shivers..

Ah thank you, I’m glad to ease you on whatever is going on. No worries! I’m here for anything really, even if we haven’t known eachother for long. I’ll plan on sleeping now though. Goodnight my dear ladybug! You are free to send me whatever you want while I sleep

[fairycosmos]

Do you struggle with wanting external validation sometimes ? i do lol it’s an evil thing in society i know as some folks call it attention whoring but i think people can’t see that if you were treated badly by your family it’s hard to validate yourself , stick up for yourself sometimes

definitely and you know what i think most people do to some extent / at some point in their lives. like we are literally raised and also instinctively built to form bonds with (and seek approval from) our peers lollll we r social creatures sadly </3 it's this weird thing where we all collectively crave and desire attention or intimacy or care on some level while also cringing away from people who chase it - maybe for good reason in a lot of cases, laser focusing on gaining attention can be just as toxic as denying yourself it entirely - but i don't think it's this inherently Evil thing we're taught to act like it is. and omg literally like dont even get me started on how childhood abuse can play such a major role in that and in the way we form bonds. i was raised to be a people pleaser to some degree and it still fucks me up in like. 80% of the interactions i ever have. anyway sorry to ramble i just don't think you should beat yourself up for struggling with this! the world is built to prey on our natural fear of rejection. also think you should know that building self-esteem and self-compassion is a process that can co-exist with desiring intimacy and connection with others. hugs. x

[emoevanafton]

Talking about why garrosh hellscream is innocent, because i am a garrosh supremacist and i want to talk about it :)

And also to educate the uneducated people who believe he isn’t misunderstood. I hope to educate you on this subject :]

(Please scroll away if you dont wanna listen to a big long rant :) and constructive criticism is very welcome! Give me one valid reason as to why Garrosh is a bad person after reading this, i dare you)

⚠️WOW SPOILERS AHEAD⚠️

1. Childhood:

Garrosh grew up in draenor, living with his dad (Grommash) and moved away to Nagrand at a young age due to a redpox outbreak, which was a deadly disease that killed hundreds of orcs. Garrosh was quite depressed during his time in nagrand, as the group of orcs he lived with saw his dad as someone who brought a curse apon their people, by drinking the blood of a pit lord called mannaroth. Garrosh felt ashamed of his father’s actions and did not want to take up the leadership of his people, he stated that he would rather die than be a leader. He did not want to become like his dad and was terrified that this would happen.

Thrall, who was a good friend to Grommash, visited garrosh after his death and told him about the heroic acts he had done for his people, and how Garrosh should not be ashamed of his legacy, motivating Garrosh and encouraging him to join the horde and live on azeroth.

Grommash was never really present in Garrosh’s life, and neither was his mum, who died a few months(it is hinted?) After he was born. This could contribute to his later actions and how he sees different people in his life, for example, he looks up to Thrall as a father figure and the way he acts is highly influenced by the people around him.

All throughout garrosh’s childhood, he was in a state of depression. This did not clear off until the beginning of the cataclysm expansion, when he was made warchief by thrall, but I personally believe he just learnt to mask it, and cover it with aggression. But that is a rant for a different day :)

2. Personality:

Garrosh has an arrogant and confident personality, however this is actually proven to be Garrosh’s way of hiding his negative emotions, hr is always shown to be VERY insecure, possibly due to not having his parents around when he was younger. he is also shown to be a people pleaser due to him wanting to make his people happy, and always trying to impress those around him, even his enemies. On the other hand he has also been shown to have a caring and loyal side to him, he sticks by anyone who does the same for him. He is also empathetic as we see in the stonetalon mountains questline, where he shows anger against Krom’gar for bombing a peaceful tauren village.

Garrosh also dislikes it when things do not go his way, he always wants to do things his way, and is quite immature for his age (again due to not having a proper childhood bc of parents)

He also has problems controlling his anger (alot like his dad) and will not hesitate to shout and attack close friends, it they disagree with or disrespect him. Garrosh does not like to be looked down apon either.

And as we see during Mists of pandaria expansion, he will quite literally do anything to get what he wants.

3.Orc culture and politics in Draenor:

Orcs as a species have a very war- like culture, they live in large clans who all compete for territory and resources. If they do not do this, they will die, Its that simple. The ideas on fighting, murder, etc depends on the clan, so it is hard to say what orcs as a whole think on these subjects, other than what is and isn’t honourable. Orcs are very honour-driven, and this is a large factor of their culture. In Draenor, there is also someit isn’t as frowned upon to kill and innocent from the opposing clan as it would be in Azeroth, as their idea is that ‘the innocent could grow up and potentially be a threat in the future.’ As Garrosh himself mentions in his convo with Varok Saurfang during a meeting: and i quote “But surely you cannot think that those children were born into innocence? They would have grown up and taken arms against us!”

The murder of innocents in Draenor is not taken as seriously as it would be in Azeroth. As the politics are completely different.

Why am I speaking about this in particular you might ask? Because Garrosh GREW UP with these ideas, so he understandably would run things the way it would be done in Draenor, he didn’t know any better, no one told him about the politics in Azeroth, Thrall couldn’t help him-

HE EVEN SAYS , AS THRALL WAS MAKING HIM WARCHIEF THAT HE DIDN’T KNOW HOW THE POLITICS IN AZEROTH WORKED, AND YET THRALL STILL MADE HIM SEEM LIKE THE SCUM OF HE EARTH FOR NOT KNOWING??

4.Thrall being an arsehole:

Thrall plays a major role in why Garrosh did the things he did, and I’ll keep bringing it up time and time again. Thrall decided to leave Garrosh (who at the time was unwilling to take up the role) as warchief, while he went to Nagrand to sort out the elementals, as he felt something was wrong with them. He did this while the Horde was in the middle of a Crisis, and people were starving and almost dying of dehydration, due to Deathwing attack on Azeroth, and the horde having no available resources after repairing their capital city. Thrall left Garrosh to deal with all of this when it should’ve been a more mature leader, such as himself, Cairne, Voljin, or maybe even Baine. So, Ultimately it was Thrall who allowed everything Garrosh did, to happen, Garrosh was not his only option and had said he did not want to be the warchief, he knew he wasnt fit for this role just yet. He is not a diplomat yet thrall expects him to be one.

Garrosh knew that the horde needed resources, and thought about attacking ashenvale, the tauren living there had seen an orc attacking nearby and thought it was because of garrosh, however this was not the case, it was a different orc clan (twilight hammer) who had nothing to do with him. They told Cairne (chieftain of the Tauren at the time) who challenged Garrosh to a duel. Garrosh had his weapon ‘blessed’ by an enemy of Cairne called magirtha grimtotem, who actually poisoned Garroshs weapon instead. Garrosh was unaware of this and killed Cairne by accident.

4.opinions of others

Because Garrosh had accidentally killed Cairne, the people of the horde saw him as a traitor and did not have great opinions of him, despite this being in no way his fault. He dueled Cairne to protect his honour, as in Draenor the loser of a Duel (mak’gora) is either killed, or exiled from their clan. Garrosh knew this.

Peoples opinions of garrosh only worsened after he manabombed Theremore. This made garrosh feel quite betrayed in a way.

Alot of people also bring up the fact that garrosh threatened to kill voljin, and held hatred against him and other non orcs. Garrosh felt threatened by them. Wanna know why?

Authough thrall had said to garrosh that he could go to Voljin for help, when he needed said help, who was there for him? NO ONE.

The only one who was minorly there for him was baine, that is why garrosh seems friendly with the Tauren, he is friendly to anyone who wishes to stand with him. He was friendly with the pandaren and welcomed them happily until they sided with the alliance, (and disagreed with the whole Yashaarj situation, but ill talk about that later.)

Garrosh felt threatened by voljin, he gave him empty death threats to his face and expected him to take it? Garrosh gave him similar death threats back, demanding that he left the city, and guess what? Garrosh was the only one being seen as the ‘bad guy’ in this situation for being threatened. Garrosh booted voljin (and the trolls) out of Orgrimmar completely. And put their island under martial laws. This was only really because voljin had quite literally just threatened treason on him, And dont give me the “Oh but garrosh is bias because he favors orcs more than the other horde races!” No he is not. He treats anyone (in this case, trolls) who decides to side against him with the same respect they give him. He favors orcs, yes, but understand that THEY ARE HIS OWN PEOPLE, OF COURSE HE WOULD TRUST THEM MORE! Why would he give protection and respect to people who dont give the same in return?

(I am not trying to justify Garrosh committing war crimes here, it is a war crime whether you like it or not, but there was reasons for this, therefore it can be excused if you do not look at it from a moral perspective)

The bombing of theremore was very strategically smart!

The bombing of Theremore was not a sudden attack as some people think. The horde and alliance had been fighting over theremore for WEEKS ON END. And the innocent had been given plenty of time to flee. Garrosh knew that this was a smart thing to do, and because of the culture he was raised in, he probably did not know how angry HIS OWN PEOPLE would be if he decided to bomb theremore. As we know, the bombing of theremore is what started off the darkspear revolution, a rebellion against garrosh lead by Voljin. Thrall also became a big part of this revolution. Garrosh was seen as evil once again BY HIS OWN PEOPLE (or who he thought were his people) and in retaliation to this, he created a ‘new horde’. Even though it was Voljin and Thrall who started a revolution in the first place; they turned their backs on Garrosh when he probably needed the most support at the time.

He probably trusted Malkorok the most at this time, along with Nazgrim, they were both loyal to Garrosh and stuck by him no matter what, they (specifically malkorok) killed people who disagreed with garrosh’s actions, as they did not want him to be hurt.

5.pandaren artifacts are powerful and Garrosh wanted to put them to good use.

Garrosh knew that the pandaren artifacts

Were powerful, and wanted to put them to good use, for the benefit of his own people, the people that sided with him, the people who didn’t decide to stab him in the back, so that they could rid Azeroth from the alliance (which was his ultimate goal). Garrosh was smart for doing this, he used the heart of Yashaarj to collect power from it and use it to his advantage.

(This is still up for debate but ive seen people mention it, so I’ll bring it up briefly.)

The heart of Yashaarj, just like any old god related artifact, will corrupt the mind of the user. Garrosh, being as insecure as he is, was effected by this, the heart of Yashaarj specifically is like a really demotivating audio hallucination. Saying things like “no one is coming to save you..”

now imagine how Garrosh might’ve felt having stuff like that repeated to him over and over again? Not fun.

6.Thrall is an arsehole, the seaquel!

After Garroshs trial, he was deemed innocent by the august celestrials. But before this was announced to him, he was taken to an alternative reality of draenor by a member of the bronze dragonflight, to prove his worth and stop the legion invasion. He does not do this because he wanted to see his dad, he doe’s however, warn his dad about mannaroths blood, and what it will bring if he does decide to drink it, This was effective and we end up with a alternate reality where grommash does not drink Mannaroth’s blood, woop woop!

So Garrosh lived quite peacefully in Nagrand again, with his dad, he probably felt happy for once in his life; at peace. While he was doing this, the iron horde had started to invade azeroth, possibly manipulated by guldan. Their goal was to use guldans power to hold the portal open, so they could invade and take more land for their people. This is just what orcs do, as ive said before.

Thrall hears of this and Immediately thinks it is garrosh who is doing this. Despite him having nothing to do with the attack. (apart from being a part of the iron horde?) Thrall and others go through the dark portal to stop the attack, fair enough right? They managed to destroy the portal and stop the attack, and he could’ve stopped right there, there was nothing wrong with that.

Thrall decided to find and kill Garrosh, even though he had been minding his own business, in nagrand with this clan, where he actually felt welcomed and appreciated; something he hadn’t felt in a very long time. Thrall manages to track down garrosh in nagrand, finds him, and challenges him to a Mak’gora, a traditional orc duel where the rules are as follows:

1. No body armour worn

2. Only 1 weapon should be used

3. Each participant must have at least 1 whitness

The Mak’gora took place at the throne of the elements, Thrall chose to have it there on purpose. There was no witnesses, and as far as i know nobody lived nearby.

The fight starts off a fair one, apart from the lack of witnesses. Garrosh seems to be winning and thrall, knowing he would die, decided to be an absolute coward and cheat. Garrosh, while this fight was happening seems clearly hurt by what thrall has done to him, mentally. He is hurt by the fact that Thrall put him in a high ranking position that he did not want to be in, in the first place, he sees Thrall as nothing but a traitor; and so he should.

Thrall uses the elements against Garrosh, forcing him down so he is unable to attack, or defend himself, he then dismisses Garrosh’s upset, by stating that he was the one who brought it apon himself- Thrall kills garrosh, leaving his body there.

Thrall manages to break Every. Single. Rule.

It was an unfair fight from the start, There was a reason there was no witnesses, so that Thrall could paint himself in a good light. He was wearing (what looks like) full body armour, and used id say about 4 different weapons? Elemental powers count as weapons.

Thrall must’ve known how a Mak’gora works, considering he is an orc. There is no excuse for it, the fact that he chose to have the fight in a discrete location just proves my point, why would he do that other than to dishonourably murder Garrosh? It was a dishonourable kill however you look at it, because of the nature of the Fight.

[ash-and-books]

Rating: 2/5

Book blurb:

Unforgettable, snarky, and romantic, I Hope This Doesn't Find You is Never Have I Ever meets To All the Boys I've Loved Before if Lara Jean wrote hate emails instead of love letters.

Sadie Wen is perfect on paper: school captain, valedictorian, and a "pleasure to have in class." It’s not easy, but she has a trick to keep her model-student smile plastered on her face at all times: she channels all her frustrations into her email drafts. She'd never send them of course -- she'd rather die than hurt anyone's feelings -- but it's a relief to let loose on her power-hungry English teacher or a freeloading classmate taking credit for Sadie's work.

All her most vehemently worded emails are directed at her infuriating cocaptain, Julius Gong, whose arrogance and competitive streak have irked Sadie since they were kids. "You're attention starved and self-obsessed and unbearably vain . . . I really hope your comb breaks and you run out of whatever expensive hair products you've been using to make your hair appear deceptively soft . . ."

Sadie doesn't have to hold back in her emails, because nobody will ever read them . . . that is, until they're accidentally sent out.

Overnight, Sadie’s carefully crafted, conflict-free life is turned upside down. It's her worst nightmare -- now everyone at school knows what she really thinks of them, and they're not afraid to tell her what they really think of her either. But amidst the chaos, there's one person growing to appreciate the "real" Sadie -- Julius, the only boy she's sworn to hate . . . .

Review:

Rival academics with a touch of To All the Boys I've Loved Before in this story about a girl who's emails about her rival and the entire school are sent... and now she has to deal with the fall out of it as well as possibly falling for the one guy she never thought she would. For 10 years Sadie Wen and Julius Gong have been competing against each other. They've made everyone at school's life a bit difficult with their extreme need to beat each other. Sadie hates Julius, she hates how perfect he is, how handsome he is, how smart and mean he is. The only way to vent her angry? Draft up emails to him and everyone else whenever they make her angry... except now suddenly all those emails have been sent out. Now everyone is getting to see the real Sadie, and the careful "perfect" image of herself is going up in flames. Yet one person seems to appreciate the real her... and it's none other than Julius. The more Julius and Sadie begin to talk to each other after the truth is revealed the more complicated the feelings begin to grow and Sadie is starting to realize that maybe the boy she's been obsessively trying to beat... the one person who is constantly on her mind might be the perfect person for her. This one was meh for me, I had really high hopes for it but it kind of fell flat unfortunately. I just couldn't really vibe with Sadie and the situations she ended up in just didn't make sense. Sadie is suppose to be super intelligent but can't even keep a diary or oh I dont know, a word doc of letters but saved a ton of draft emails and then doesn't make sure that they are properly locked up and can't be sent? I don't believe it. Also she goes from being outspoken and to being walked over by people, she'll want to out do Julius but never speaks out about people using her and letting herself be a pushover to please people? Pick a lane girl, either you can stand up for yourself and are a go getter or a timid people pleaser. Also the romance with Julius barely even felt there and I love academical rivals to lovers stories. It literally barely happens by the end of the book. I wish I liked this book more, it had the elements of all the things I usually love, but it just missed the mark for me sadly. If you enjoy academic rivals to lovers give this one a go, maybe you'll have a better time with it than I did.

*Thanks Netgalley and Scholastic, Scholastic Press for sending me an arc in exchange for an honest review*

[shytastemakerthing]

hii!! U seem so cool- but anyway,, could i get a twisted wonderland match up? My grammar kinda sucks and my auto corrects off so😭

I would like for it to be more romantic, if thats ok! Also pls dont match me up with any of the 1st years since i would honestly just adopt them in twst😭

Sooo im an enfp 7w6, scorpio, green flag.. Yeahhh

But other than that,, (about to write a whole essay abt my personality) what abt my personality?

Soo im honestly kindaa uhm,, goldfish-like; i have a crap memory. and whenever in a serious situation, one where you need to stay on guard, i instantly calm down after someone cracks a joke and forget abt the whole situation.. So bcuz of that i get called "the goldfish of (gc name)" 🥲

But im really motherly and caring! I always take care of my loved ones like a nurse, so pretty much- im my friends personal nurse AND doctor (as someone who startes studying abt medical stuff when i was like 10,, young, ik) i also take care of stray animals whenever i get the chance. feeding them, taking care of their wounds, whatever! Im a good balance of childish and mature, though i fall more on the childish side! I honestly give out 'sad, wet cat' vibes at first, since i mostly spend time alone, sulking abt being alone, reading in the library alone.. but im the total opposite! Honestly kinda weird but in a good way? Super kind, and generous, and sympathetic, i always consider other peoples feelings first ofc! Honestly kind of a people pleaser🥲 softhearted person with anger issues huhu.. Also keyword 'with anger issues' because i can and will beat someone up who did one simple thing to make me mad, even if theyre like 6'2 IDGAF FIGHT ME IM 5'10 ITS NOT MUCH OF A DIFFERENCE🙄🙄 veryvery energetic or the opposite, depends. havent slept for like 2 weeks straight😇

Now I'll just say the exact words my friends said when i asked them what they thought of me-

"funny, cute, and she lavs astronomy ahhajaja" "ure the friend whos effortlessly funny but gay /j but srsly youre the friend whos funny but super girlboss whenever there are fights and uses emojis every sentence they send" "the fish i ate for dinner" "cute nmn, and fun too, but annoying sometimes😒" "youre literally just like your father but as a girl,, stubborn, charming, ignorant, brave.. And you even have the same facial feaures." "Soft girl vibes" "VOODOO DOLL SELLER IKAW"

And for my hobbies.. I have a lot tbh LEMME JUST-

Astronomy; stargazing.. IT GIVES ME SO MUCH PEACE OMG

Exploring; going to abandoned and apparently 'haunted' places brings me so much joy somehow

Dancing; practicing ballet but my friends drag me to learn the choreo of a kpop song😭

Singing; opera😻

Sports; BADMINTON, BASKETBALL, SOCCER, VOLLEYBALSLSMSJKAHSKXVJSDJ LOBVE THIS

Gaming; tbh i rarely do it anymore😭

Collecting; plushies, seashells, etc..

Art; SCULPTING, DIGITAL, TRADITIONAL, MUSIC, ETC. I CAN DO IT ALL OMGG

Thats all i think😔 I dont wanna waste ur time so thank you huhuu BYEE HAVE A GREAT YEAR MWAMWA

-lav hoshii

Hello and thank you for your request! Honestly I had a lot of fun reading over this and I believe I have just the guy for you so here we go!

I match you with.......

Floyd Leech

🦐 You two bounce off of each other so freaking much that it is insane. At this point, you're the most interesting person in his life and he isn't planning on letting you go ANY time soon and that's a fact.

🦐 Floyd is someone who butts heads with a lot of people, and I mean, a LOT of people. He's not one to shy away from a fight, even in those ones where he is clearly out numbered. It's more fun for him. But what he really loves is how you patch him up after each and every one. Sure, you badger him about all of these fights, but it's only because you care about him, and as you place a kiss to each wrap and bandaid, he can only hopelessly grin at you...... he is smitten.

🦐 Your memory isn't the best, and while Floyd seems like the aloof type, he is actually very smart, very perceptive, and has an excellent memory. He will remember anything you can't and it greatly comes in handy when needed.

🦐 Being with Floyd, also means you will be seeing a lot of Jade. Sorry, they're a two for one package deal (Azul's words). And while his twin was highly skeptical of you at first (when is he not skeptical of someone?), just seeing you with Floyd, and all the shenanigans you both get up too and how you always take care of him, you're basically family now at this point.

🦐 He is in the basketball club! Which is perfect for you! You love basketball and you two have player 1v1 quite a lot. Just be careful, because he can and WILL get competitive. Also, if you wear his jersey to his games, he has this derpy smile the entire time and will be showing off just for you. He turns into an absolute beast on the court. You're now the good luck charm of the NRC basketball team and Ace and Jamil always make sure you're there.

🦐 He finds out early on in the relationship about your habit of collecting sea shells. Now, because of him that collection has expanded a great amount. Look, you're dating a merman, he can and will be going under the water to gather the best and biggest shells thay he can find for your ccollection. But your personal favorite is a little cream colored chipped clam shell. He brought that one back after finding it randomly on a walk and it is now the most cherished one in the collection.

🦐 The way your mood fluctuates matches how his does, and while it annoyed him at first (like, is this how Jade and Azul feel when his does that?), he was able to quickly find out what can set you off or change your mood and is able to quickly adjust accordingly. Though he will admit that you look pretty hot when you get angry and tackle someone twice your size.

🦐 He would absolutely love to go exploring with you. It can be boring, it can be dangerous, so much could happen that you just don't know and that's what makes it exciting! If you ever get bored of looking at the supposedly haunted houses, he'll happily supply a breathing potion and he can show you some really cool shipwrecks!

🦐 Overall, a relationship with the reckless eel with legs is nothing short of an adventure. You know you'll never be bored, he loves how considerate you are with him and how you take care of him. And Azul and Jade are beyond thankful that you can actually get him to focus on his work, only if you're there, though 😅

[yourwolfmuzzle]

I thinking about this shit for a whole day for no reasons so i need to talk about this, otherwise it will stuck in my brain forever as a non answered question - Are we kinda continue this whole “characters reaction was wrong\right in this situation” and kinda “angry wemen” situation that we have in this show?

So...this whole story started because “evil wemen” react "wrongly” and transform into literally witch and evil immortal “god-like” person. We have a lot of fem characters, who have “wrong reaction” and transform into antagonist of this story (and i also will count characters who then get they “redemption” one way and another). Even if we have characters, who is in “good side”, like Yang, who openly can be angry and go into “emotion side” is not in character story fully or this part of they character got change or end pretty soon (Yang whole “think before act” kinda end in vol6 and from what i can tell, she kinda now mix of “i sometime acting before thinking” but now its portrait as a “haha funny moment” at least in vol9? And she also now got in her character description “she scare looking one” and i dont know where its coming from but anyway this post is not about sudden character description changes that is not sounding like “character evolving”.).

And...in vol9 we have Ruby, who pretty much have a depression and kinda PTSD stuff going on after all stuff that was happening in vol7-8. We going to skip this part that she and her team partly in wrong, but anyway - this is what we got in this volume. And when she openly starts to express all her accumulated emotions and anger about this - everybody was not was to trying to support her or talk with her. Even worse - just when she start to express her anger, the other main character started shutting her up. They let Jaune to express his emotion about loosing paper pleasers, who he was trying to protect for who know how long and support him in the next-next episode, but not Ruby. Ruby not only did not get support or at least some talk about all this, but she kinda after this got “punished” by other “angry evil female character”. And after “walking in the tree” she got her problems “fix” and only after THAT she got her some sort of support in for of “friendship hug”.

Only after she “not angry anymore” and “not depress anymore” she got her support. She react “wrongly” about her trauma, got “fix” and only after she transform into flawless hero she got her support from people, who she was venting only a couple episode ago. Adult Jaune received support and group hugs while Ruby was in the process of “fixing her emotions and discovering perfect form of herself”. Only after you not “angry wemen anymore” you can get some support...or if you not Yang.

(thank you to coming into my another “why de fuck they treat Ruby like this in this volume” talk)

[phth4lo]

sorry large vent below (there’s definitely gonna be more cause I’ve been struggling with this SINGULAR THING for like 8 months now

Im still very hurt about the state of things between me and her. alot of it is anger in part of the unhealthy way I view relationships (that being transactional; which is Obviously not how relationships work) it’s just like. Wow, I did all these things for you. I had panic attacks and became physically ill out of worry for you. I supported you when no one else was there for you and helped you out of multiple abusive relationships. With her, it became clear a LONG time ago that you don’t really get what you put in. It’s just how she is. She is a deeply traumatized individual with no idea how to heal, and no idea how to have a stable relationship with the people around her. I think there’s some part of her character that makes me want to take care of her, fix her problems for her, etc. But at the end of the day I just kinda ended up being chopped liver. It really sucks, and it just makes it harder for me to actually trust people. I feel this type of anger that reminds me of my parents. It’s the type of anger you kinda feel in your eyes. I feel disappointed but not surprised. A lot of people have apologized to me over the years for not treating me well, she’s done so probably 30 times in the past two years. Did she ever change? No. I lost my faith in the idea of people changing. Even so, it’s only clearer to me that the way she acts is a product of her trauma. She is non confrontational to her detriment, would never tell me if something bothered her. She is a people pleaser just plain and simple. I can’t blame her for that, she’s not her mother (a genuinely evil woman. I have never met a woman so devoid of care for her children.) it’s just. I assume the worst of myself and my brain tends to reinforce that belief constantly. I perceive myself as abusive or perverted or whatever the fuck. Part of me wants to scream at her; tell her what she is. How she’s a manipulative social climber bitch who sucks people dry and leaves them when they’re of no use to her anymore. I can’t say I dont not feel that way. But then I remember everything I know about her. On the other hand. I think she has hurt me very deeply. Everytime I would call her crying, or brought up something that was bothering me, she would never actually seem to care. I can’t forget this September, when she cancelled on my birthday to go to a vocal lesson. A vocal lesson for a role she didn’t even get. I can’t forget all the times I tried to reach out and all the times I do reach out and she only messages back to ask about something else. I cried so many times in October and September because it felt like I lost a part of me. That was how closely I held her. And I never received anything similar. Even though she told people that I helped her through things no one else could’ve. It was literally just placating. I don’t want to see her again. I don’t want to talk to her again. If she were to disappear from my life I would at least have a bit of peace. I’m not dirt under peoples shoes. I don’t care enough to ask what I did.

AND SHE STILL OWES ME LIKE $100

FUCK HER FR. I GENUINELY DO NOT BELIEVE SHE HELD ANY FORM OF AFFECTION FOR ME AT ANY POINT THIS BIIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTCCCCCCCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HOLY HELL!!!!!!!!!!!

and u know what it’s bad cause like. I don’t really believe that. but there’s part of me that’s like. fuck. did she even care about me at any point? or was I just a convenience? the uncertainty is the worst part.

This entire thing has just been. Kind of damaging to like. Idk even know how to describe it that was lowkey a soul wound. She stirred up alot of feelings regarding self worth and inhumanity. I felt deeply devalued. It’s gonna take alot of time to unpack it, and it won’t be something ill ever get closure for. maybe one day we’ll meet again in the future, ill see her on a union station platform. itll be one of those shitty « let’s go get coffee and chat! ». That’ll never actually happen, there’d still be no closure. I was thinking of sending her a letter after graduation with all the things I wanted to say to her that I never had the courage to say. But I don’t want her to have any more space in my life. I think I’ve only been taking care of other people to avoid taking care of myself. I can’t afford to do that anymore, I have a life ahead of me that I’ve been waiting for since 2012. [NOT THE YEAR I WAS BORN]

I truly hope she heals. I hope I’m nowhere near her when she does. I hope she has days where happiness is a default feeling rather than a temporary state. But I hope i don’t stay around long enough to see it.