#not crazy proud of this but whatever
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There is a light that I can see But only, it seems, when there's darkness in me There is a dream that I sometimes see That only appears in the dark of sleep
Abbey - Mitski
#not crazy proud of this but whatever#the magnus archives#tma#magpod#jonathan sims#artists on tumblr#illustration#art#digital aritst#my art#pigeon draws tma
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everybody go home. this is my magnum opus
#HELP THIS IS KILLING ME#the original version of this had hua cheng in a ‘i have a CRAZY wife she hates STUPID PEOPLE and LOVES DOGS and im NOT AFRAID TO USE HER’#but if hua cheng was at midwestern gas station number 472 in the novelty slogan tshirt aisle#she for sure would get some sort of ‘your wife (woman symbol) vs MY WIFE (wonder woman silhouette)’#or ‘trophy 🏆🏆 WIFE’#or possibly a ‘return to wife if lost’#or ‘i have a SMOKIN HOT wife’#or ‘im the BOSS til my WIFE gets home’#or ‘5 things you should know about my WIFE: 1. she is my queen 2. she is a bit crazy 3. she can whoop your ass#4. she says whatever she is thinking 5. mess with her and theyll never find your body’#or ‘i go to work so my wife can COLLECT SCRAPS’#or even at worst. ‘ my wife is the PRINCESS the mouse LOST’#xie lian would be initially embarassed. but you know her ass would be wearing a ‘proud PROPERTY of an AWESOME WIFE’ shirts @ heaven meetings#or ‘i’m not scared of ANYTHING - my WIFE is a CALAMITY’#which was sold as a metaphor for your wife being mean and powerful. but she wears it straight.#or even ‘im not GAY but my WIFE is’ lmfao#anyway.#tgcf#tian guan ci fu#hualian#hua cheng#xie lian#hualesbians#modern au#tgcf meme#my art#art#tgcf shitpost#lmao#mxtx
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some doodles
#i meant to put the balor one in the previous post but i forgor 😭its in a diff file from the sketch dump i was coloring in so it just didnt#exist in my mind at all. i felt like smth was missing as i was posting it but i couldnt place what hlep#adeline and eiland have been driving me insane lately. expect more of them. probably.#dont minf the last two guys. some concepts for future farms 😋 (pls mind them im crazy abt all my farmers even if they technically dont -#exist yet. pls ask abt them or smth pls im nroaml i can be nroma l i prommy)#fields of mistria#fom balor#sona#im gonna start tagging that i think.#fom eiland#fom adeline#fom elsie#fom farmer#my art#guys can i just say that im so happy that balor is silver n not gold cus otherwise i would have to confront a part of me im not proud of#we shouldnt talk abt it but like yeah jjust know i like his silver and his whole deal#have such a softspot n bias for characters who dont settle anywhere. who never lay down their roots or whatever. who keep their past secret#like oughh hes hitting so many marks#i like hawthorne a lot. hes more developed in my head. and also i like his dead look and hair bows. i have so many ideas abt him man it hur#i promised myself i wouldnt make a new save file til i reached y2 w rory but apperantly errols bday is cursed bc the game has frozen twice#sorry if you read all of these tags. go to my askbox w fom stuff or smth. ask abt my farmers plsplspls pl s jk haha unless. maybe even#gimme drawing reqs for fom in general. ok tyvm ly sorry for yapping. its what i do best
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"I think this is the most inhuman; and human, that I've ever felt.." MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR. IN FIVE YEARS. A DECADE. imagine how much can happen in a century. just ONE (1). How will you grow? what phases do you find? even in 5 years, you will find patterns.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi suckening#jrwi suckening spoilers#jrwi the suckening#arthur bennett#HEY SO THE REALLY FUNNY THING THAT THE CHARACTER DID THAT SEEMED RLY SILLY N GOOFY IN THE MOMENT?#LIKE THE WHIPLASH BETWEEN SERIOUS N SILLY ALMOST PISSED YOU OFF? WHAT IF I FOUND A WAY TO MAKE YOU SAD ABOUT IT#this was meant to be a scribble that would be a bigger part of a bigger page.might leave it on that page.#but still. bc o that i nearly posted it onto my wacky side blog.BUT NAYY I SPENT TOO MUCH TIME N ENERGY N YOU GOTTA SEE IT#ARTHUR BENNETT DRIVES ME CRAZY. I FEEL LIKE ITS ODD FOR HIM TO BE SO TECHNOLOGICALLY OUT OF TOUCH#WHERE HAS HE BEEN. HAS HE BEEN IN WAR? IS THAT WHERE MAGNUS CAME FROM? WHERE WAS HE WHEN HE WAS WITH EDWARDS CREW?#ARTHURRR I HAVE QUESTIONS ARTTHUUURR!! HEY CAN I ALSO ASK; WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU BECOME#DO YOU THINK HE HAD ANY IDEA HE WOULD VEER CLOSER AND CLOSER TO THE MONSTER HE DESPISES. ALL BC HE DESERVES IT. OR WATEVER#HE FASCINATES ME SO MUCH. TO LOOK AT THE STONE COLD STOIC FOOL FROM THE START OF THE SHOW#AND TO FIND OUT THAT HE USED TO BE A BAD BOY.. A DELINQUENT... A LIL PRANKSTER.... MY GODDD THATS ADORABLE#I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW MORE.... BUT I DOUBT THE LAST EPISODE IS GONNA ANSWER THOSE QUESTIONS..i love arthur bennett so much....#AS FOR THE ART!! i mostly used the fire alpaca watercolor brush. tbh im not a brush guy. anti aliased default pen tends to be my main game#but LATELY IM SQQQUIRMIN OUT OF AN ARTBLOCK so expirimenting like this is helping#DONT LOOK TOO HARD AT IT!! im still proud tho. colors are fun :3 im also very proud of the backgrounds#I LOVE THE CARTOON THING where the background looks all fancy n painted but the characters are solid colors#what else can i ramble abt. OH YEAH. i looked up the bikes to make sure they were time accurate tehehehe. 1913 to 2012.#almost a century apart!! isnt that neat? ALSO FUUUCK CAN I JUST MAKE A QUICK CONFESSION. DOWN HERE IN MY TAGS.#only the strongest can read my tags anwyay. SO I REALIZED WHY I LOVE ARTHUR SO MUCH. TIME IS A FLAT CIRCLE#while arthur is a Stoic and Cool vampire w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORs#THERE HAPPENS TO BE A ROBOT FROM A BAND W A TITANIUM ALLOY SPINAL COLLUMN#WHOS A Stoic and Cool ROBOT w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORS#the fuckkkiiinnngggnn The Spine from steam powered giraffe. WHATEVER. i cant escape from my heart. i guess.#i think The Spine and Arthur could be friends. Arthur saw the band perform back when they were the Steam Man Band#EDIT: WOOPS I DIDNT REALIZE THIS WOULD END UP IN THE SPG TAG. HI GUYS DIDNT KNOW U WERE STILL ALIVE SORREE 4 THE CROSS CONTAMINATION
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wonderful
#there is a ranboo that goes withthis but i didn't like how he was looking imma restart from scratch tmrw😭😭#ctubbo#michael beloved#ctubbo fanart#Guys you have no idea what i went through today like it wa fucking crazy i need to share this#so i went to the mall after school right and im going home at like 8 on the train with my friend bc i was supposed to be picked up ay her#stop right but then im told to just go to my stop and take the bus and im like ok sure but the problem is my phone is on SEVEN PERCENT and w#hen i get to the stop my moms like u have money for the bus right and im like ueah and i check and i have NO MONEY#BUT I DIDNT TELL HER ANUTHING BC I DIDNT WANT HER TI GET MAD BC I KNEW SHE WOUDKNT WANT ME TO WALK ALL THE WAY HOME AT NIGHT (FOURTY BLOCKS#So im like ok im getting on the bus now my phone is on four percent i have to WALK HOME allll that way and there's this crazy ass upward hi#ll that's like ten blocks long ITS NOT EVEN THAT BAD but like my mom thinks im on the bus so im trying to speed walk as fast as i can and i#RAWDOGGED it too because MU PHONE WAS GOING TO IDE!!!!#I made it home at two percent U guys i was so proud of myself thank u for listening#IM SO MAD IT WOUKDVE BEEN OKAY IF I WASNT IN A RUSH And also if i had music uggghhh Whatever#I bought this really cute skirt at garage hold on let me find it#lexi pleated skort color Navy blue ITS SOOOO CUTE got some new leg warmers too yesss....#I NEED TO DOWNLOAD THE TRANSIT APP i woukdve been able to attach my apple pay and buy the stupid ticket if my phonewasnnt#too dead to do al that...#Guys always make sure u carry cash with yiu goodbye
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coolest kid on the block
#i dont talk a lot (or at all lol) about my ocs but ive been drawing them all a lot more and im really proud of this piece :D#this is mia she uses she/they pronouns and this is her at 14!!!#her age during the main story is 8 so i like to play around with a post-story version of them where she is like. not a child lol#i love this kid so much theyre great. theyre awesome and they KNOW it#ive been doing a new style whgere i actually use lineart and cell shading instead oif being a sketchy mess lol#i kinda like it. wild. i used to HATE lineart i was so bad and then i got this to look good first try#the clothes i tried to draw like. was trying to emulate danas style bc im SO jealous of how she draws clothing and clothing folds AUGH#i didnt even use any crazy overlays this time!! (besides the highlights but whatever lol)#im just actually haopoy w/ this which is nice bc i havemnt drawn anything in 4ever#lilac art#art#my ocs#my oc art#i might oc post more simply bc toh hyperfixation has been dead 4 a while and im kinda tired of reviving it#I FORGOT THE IMAGE ID IM A FOOOOOLLLL AAUUGGHHH#image id included#image id in alt text
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He misses his bf greatly :(
#do- do yall-#do yall see how i drew post-ts toshi-#HE'S SO DAMN FINE#LOOK AT HIM AURHJRS THE WRINKLES MAKE ME GO CRAZY#ive never drawn smth im so crazy abt#LOOK AT HOM#this was fucking fun good amazing#im so damn proud LOOK AT HOW NICE HE LOOKS#i might be obsessed w post-ts toshi(i have been since i laid my eyes upon that beautiful face)#him w his clear eyes.mmeikeksufmw#now onto stain#I didn't mean to make him look that....#whatever that is...#HE LOOKS AMAZING FOR THE MEME LAMO#toshinori looks at that stain and sighs lovingly while making heart eyes#everybody else is pretty much screaming and running away#ppl might think stain is haunting him but hes looking over his man rlly#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#toshinori yagi#akaguro chizome#all might#stain mha#stainmight#toshizome
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Been thinking about TAWOG lately because it’s spooky season and TAWOG is my favorite horror show /dead serious so I thought I’d post all my old drawings
Everyone take a gander at what my two favorite episodes are lol
#I don’t remember being this good at replicating the style but I’m honestly super proud of it#the amazing world of gumball#tawog#tawog gumball#tawog chi chi#tawog the puppets#tawog darwin#tawog howdy#Tawog frank#miracle star#Yeah he gets a tag whatever#tawog grady#He’s not really in this but eh#tawog ribbit#dhmis spinach can#Where is that DAMN fourth drawing page /ref#I’m actually gonna drive myself crazy it has traced drawings and everything
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zach hadel and michael cusack have seen my charpim sketch should i boil myself alive in hot oil? serious answers only
#im shaking like crazy icl but also ohmy god This really happened to me#michael said 'its like a cool manga!' 🙁🙁🙁❤️ imactually gonan cry#ireally wish they got to see some other drawing that i was way more proud of but WHATEVER im still so happy eek#text tag
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depression is really weird actually wdym i spent 2.5 years of my life in bed
#and wdym that lifestyle changed so quickly into being out and about and an active member of the world??#very proud of myself#and i mean it wasn't that quick of a change#it was like 1.5 years primarily depression bedrotting with occasional school -> primarily depression bedrotting ->#primarily depression bedrotting with 3-9 hours of work weekly -> straight into 31+ hours school+9-12 hours work weekly#so there was somewhat of a gradual progression#but still#also wowza i wake up 7-7:30am every morning now. 1pm was an early wake up for a not so insignificant amount of time#i mean of all fundamental growth years to miss out on the ages like what 12/13-15 aren't too bad? they would suck in a different way if i#had been socially involved#anyway it's just. yea i'm proud of myself but it is a crazy lifestyle change#and even when i was deeply depressed in a horrible routine i feel like i learned a lot. how to regulate my emotions and cope well and find#the joy in everything. bc if i stayed in bed all day then i would at least be happy about the sun or whatever#and for the while of being not at school at all i WANTED to be at school i just could not find one bc our school system is so cute like tha#(basically every school is at capacity and the local school that has a guaranteed place for me would have been an all boys or girls 😭)#but i miraculously found and got into this school and miraculously made it work so well for me socially and now academically#it's also a good time to get back into school for my education bc any later and it woulda been pretty bad for all my certifications and uni#ive missed out on so much maths that its not worth it to me to try and catch up but my teacher knows that#but ive always hated maths regardless i only ever understood it for the first half of yr 7 then my attendance dropped#and after my recent exam i decided to try harder at school. but i still got an A on the exam i didn't study for!! academic weapon fr#i'm just idk thinking back to myself in the past few years#and how hopeless it all felt. but i got out of it!! i beat the depression and social anxiety and found a good place and made the most of it#and during the peak of my depression i remember i went out someplace near my old school and panicked so so badly about seeing#kids from my old school. and the friends at the time didnt really check on me when i went to shake and cry in a side street lmao#i kept the best of that friendgroup and have better friends now. but anyway now i take a bus each morning with some kids from my old school#and you see these hands? they look like they're shaking to you?#anyway yeah it's just cool i got to this point :) i really had no hope for so long but now i have a life i'm living and a future i'm build#--ing towards#which is funny i just decided some random day last november after watching some better call saul 'huh actually lawyer would b pretty cool'#and will i get there? we'll see but i do have hope now
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I made a fully realized self insert…
#yeah I’m crazy#and a total anime nerd#its whatever#I finally figured out how to draw in the one piece style and OBESSED myself into finishing this in two days#also I’m proud to be apart of the ‘only women in one piece with all their organs’ and ‘plus sized female in one piece’ brigade#hopefully its accurate enough style wise because I looked up a shit ton of pictures#one piece noses make like no sense btw#she’s so pretty and amazing and mwah#the design of the pants if stolen from the original concept design of nami because they should’ve used that fit again its so cool#the rest of it is just cool shit/things that I own lol#self insert#one piece#kid pirates
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thy evil spirit
that short tiny moment from julius caesar act 4 scene 3 where the ghost of caesar shows up and tells brutus that he will meet him at philippi. but make it about light and L where L's ghost visits light in the morning of january 28, before the warehouse scene. enjoy :D
fandom: death note
word count: 1,410 words .
The ice-cold water from the faucet dripped on the basin in a methodical fashion. Light turned the faucet to the right, increasing the rush of water as he looked into the bathroom mirror. His reflection stared back at him: he took a moment to study himself as he gripped the edge of the sink. All was in order, it appeared. His hair was neat and his suit tidy, an apathetic expression on his face. As neutral as he seemed outwardly, on the inside, he thought he was the happiest man alive.
Today, it ends. He would win. He was sure of it. Every detail of his plan was absolutely perfect, he couldn't fail this. He would achieve what he wanted so many years ago, ever since he was seventeen years old. Perhaps he wanted this for much longer, even before he had found that notebook on the ground. Perhaps he had always wanted to be God.
His victory was so close, he could taste it. Unlike L, Light had never been one for sweets but now, his victory tasted so sweet and saccharine on his tongue. Light had never tasted something so perfect and divine. Oh, he could barely wait and he was so damn close. All of his life was leading up to this day: 1.28, 1 P.M. Victory belonged to him and very few things could stop his final accession.
With his right hand, he pulled at his sleeve, revealing his watch. His gaze turned to the time: it was a few minutes after ten in the morning. In about ten minutes, he would have to meet with the rest of the Task Force. But until then, he needed a moment alone. Just a moment to himself. Being alone had been such a privilege for him for so long. Just a moment alone in this bathroom, standing before the sink with his hands gripping the marble, looking to the mirror as the water fell from the faucet.
Cupping his hands underneath the tap, cold rushing water fell to his outstretched palms. He began to splash it on his face, closing his eyes. It felt like his skin was burning as the freezing water made contact with his face. Opening his eyes and turning off the tap, he let out a labored breath. Light's hand returned back to the edge of the sink as he stared right at the mirror. As he had turned off the faucet, stopping the sound of rushing water, the bathroom was completely silent. The silence was stifling, all that was left was him.
Water droplets clung to his skin and Light watched as they dripped back to the sink. He was oddly fixated on that methodical motion, watching water drop to the sink one drop at a time. Swallowing hard, he raised his head, expecting to see only his face staring back but when had his solitude ever been long-lasting?
L. Light could recognize his face anywhere: that familiar outline of his face, those black eyes, dark unkempt hair. Light's grip on the sink tightened and his eyes widened, his breath quickening. Through the reflection of the bathroom mirror on the wall, he could see that L seemed to be standing just behind him. Light instinctively turned his head, taking his eyes off of the mirror. No one was behind him, he was alone in the bathroom. He made himself look back at the mirror and there L was in the reflection. Standing with his hands inside his pockets, looking at Light with sharp eyes and a neutral expression.
Though Light was shaken up in the midst of L – after all, it wasn't everyday where you were faced with your dead rival – Light wasn't as surprised as he should be. For you see, this wasn't the first time he had seen him or felt his presence in this odd hallucination-like state, following L's death. Sometimes, amidst a crowd, Light might catch a glimpse of his face, so unmistakable that he just couldn't dismiss it as a misunderstanding or a trick of the light. Some nights, Light could wake up in the dead of night randomly and in his half-asleep daze, eyes half-lidded, he might find L lying next to him in his bed. Light never let himself think about it too deeply. Even after death, L was such a pain.
"Thy evil spirit, Kira."
With a start, Light stared at L through the reflection. Though Light had seen him countless times, this was the first time he had heard L speak in this state. Light hadn't heard that voice in four years and he was surprised to find that it was exactly as he had remembered. Even after four years, Light's memory of his voice hadn't failed him.
Light parted his lips, not knowing what to do. He closed his eyes, opening them again. L's face was still staring straight at him through the reflection of the mirror. It appeared that L only existed in the plane of that bathroom mirror as there was no one standing behind Light right now. "Why are you here?" Light asked, trying to sound as contained as possible. However shocked he was, he couldn't let it show.
L opened his mouth again and without taking a pause, he replied to him immediately. His voice was completely flat, not a single emotion at all. His face was the same. "To tell you that you'll be seeing me at the docks."
Light furrowed his eyebrows, what did that mean? Damn L, even in death, he was trying to confuse him. Just as infuriating as well. He sucked in a breath through his teeth as his grip on the sink loosened. "Well, then I'll see you again?"
"Yes," was L's simple reply. Then, a nod of his head. "At the docks."
Light let out a breath as he stared straight into L's face. Staring into the face of a dead man, the dead man in question stared back at him. That very face, it would forever be stuck in the age of twenty-five. Light reached out his right hand, unclenching the edge of the sink as he began to raise it. He touched the glass of the mirror, his fingertips meeting with the outline of L's face. What he felt was not skin but cold and unforgiving glass. L made no reaction at such a gesture, all he did was stare. For a moment, Light just traced over the reflection of L's face, his lips softly parted as he felt a pit in his stomach. Finally, Light spoke again, his lips moving to produce sound. "Then I'll see you at the docks."
L only gave a shrug of his shoulders in reply. He did not disappear immediately, instead only staring back at Light. Where was L, in which plane did he exist? Light watched as L began to reach out his hand also and slowly, it appeared to meet the glass. Light couldn't help but produce a small choking sound as he saw that L's fingertips met where Light's were. What separated them was seemingly just glass but Light knew better, there was no point in believing otherwise. They were worlds apart, literally. L was dead and Light was so alive. It was all Light's fault.
"Now that I understand," Light spoke, his voice strained and low. He looked to the side, not being able to look at L. "You can go now. You ill spirit, I wish we could have talked more."
When Light looked back at the mirror, L was gone, his fingertips were hovering over nothing. It was as if L had never been here at all. With a sigh, Light withdrew his hands and stood upright. That was a moment of weakness, he couldn't afford something like that. He needed to forget about it, forget what L had told him, forget how their fingertips connected together. There was no point in focusing on whatever that interaction was. Forget about the docks, whatever that means. L was dead and he was alive, and he would be alive for a long time. Light had won while L had lost. Light and L had parted their ways a long time ago, there would be no meeting between them. He pulled at his tie, adjusting his clothes as he looked back at the mirror with a stoic expression on his face. He had more pressing matters to deal with.
#🍂 arian's shit#death note#lawlight#<- can be seen as platonic. whatever you want really#light yagami#yagami light#l lawliet#death note fanfiction#dn#dn fanfic#fanfiction#fanfic#cross posted on ao3#📝 arian writes fanfiction#OH MY GOD. i am kind of proud of this#kind of made it a little sad and melancholic#light is in total denial here like#“omgg i do not care for this dead man” like stfu#you are grieving mad heavy for this guy#also crazy how i can add a touch bit of grief in everything i write#that's kind of a talent#ALSO PLEASE READ THIS AND LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THOUGHTT#MY FIRST DEATH NOTE FANFICTION !! WILL PROBABLY NOT BE MY LAST !!
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One HSR Character a Day Day 41: Serval (aka: revs' favorite)
#honkai star rail#serval landau#hsr edits#revsdailyhsr#THE BEST DAMN GIRL EVER AND MY MIND WONT BE CHANGED!! AAAHH my god she's so incredibly talented from all#her research work as a silvermane guard and mechanic to rocking out in her own band and singing like a goddess. mad respect#to each one of her voice actors for that. especially Natalie because good heavens y'all her performance is literal perfection.#it fits serval so well and all the emotion you hear during her companion quest is phenomenal it makes me wanna cry. her#backstory with cocolia is heartbreaking yet she still manages to continue on and live her best life and im so happy and proud.#she's such a sweetheart to her siblings and chill and strong and straight up beautiful so yes OF COURSE i had to include#both light cones. she's my absolute favorite and i can do whatever i want on my birthday thank you very much! and that's#exactly why i started this whole edit series when i did so that the countdown would line up perfect with her landing on today.#also gave the other siblings a quote about their family so had to do the same with her. so i figured yeah why not both lcs? because#she deserves all the praise and definitely earned herself a spot in my heart for many years to come. i love her like crazy.
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Just a thing I am so proud of aquring, after a few months of prog with my wonderful super skilled group! Finally we are Voidwalkers! AAH!
#gw2#guild wars 2#I was 3rd virt in our group mostly in charge of boonrip and backing up whatever was needed#alyss#ill probly try just pure dps next or port virt but ahh! finally! I am so happy!#i missed the feeling of true prog with a group and the rush of feelings and adreline once you get the kill after all the blood and sweat#everyone did such great job#especially our leader emi#big thanks to her and her help#its crazy theres only 1500 ppl aprox with this title and boss killed i am very proud of myself
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gestures vaguely with one while gesturing vaguely with the other i for one think mingus and tango should fuck but nobody here is ready for that conversation...
#luly talks#okay i saved this in my drafts and it makes me embarassed to jump from topics like it'll look in the dash but whatever wr all knos im insan#anyway uh. yeah no fr i know the sex is crazy#like the wiki even mentions tango can't date bc mingus needs him ready and available in case she has to marry him#like he's by all means her fucking boy toy. and he loves his position there#also that mention by doggo about him being the only to greet her for her bday which pisses her off but she'd be sad if he didn't#SHE CAAAAAARES#but im here to talk about sex#and i know they fuck nasty. i know that woman bites. and she's the only one w teeth around. marked as hers#and i know he'd be proud of if too#and you know what sue me#Dialtown#I'll add the label but this is going on main this is an underrated ship#also i think she'd keep trying to knock him up w the strap im sure if they try hard enough they'll achieve it#he wants grandkids doesn't he.
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last night was shit but caught the moon setting while at work, love u 🖤
#it’s so crazy how childhood wounds never really close#and how family can hit u in this deeper way most can't#those emotional and physical abandonment issues stay forever#certain pain lays dormant forever#felt like little kid me again and it didn’t feel great#I don’t cry that much or that easily it takes a lot and usually a lot of built up stress or whatever#but certain people can bring it out easier#wasn't pretty but I was reminded it's needed#only difference is now l'm safe and I can choose different#doesn’t make it suck less#and I don’t deserve it#anyways I’m proud of my phone for this picture#did it justice but not entirely because she was soooo dark and eerie looking doesn’t really show that#wished I was seeing from the beach#mine#moon#check out how cool the sun looks right now#the wildfires somewhere are making it so pretty and hazy out
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