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notquiteaghost · 1 year ago

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crunchyroll app breaks & then breaks my whole phone's ability to play video. why doesnt the universe want me to watch naruto

#yelling at clouds #i thought it was cuz i was running the ad blocker vpn but #i turned that off n signed up to the premium free trial instead #and then. again. the video froze on a single frame while continuing to play audio. and then refused to load the next episode #and youtube and newpipe also refused to load any video #until. i restarted my phone.#and what triggers crunchyroll doing that seems to just be me pausing n closing the app so like #not! sustainable! not gonna work out!#i dont WANNA get my laptop out i wanna lie in bed with my cat!!!

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valtsv · 2 years ago

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i think the funniest thing about me as a person is that i'm often a nervous wreck and terrified of trying new things or screwing up, but my disrespect for authority is so strong that the second someone tries to suggest that i can't do something because they won't let me or don't believe i'm capable of it, it completely overwrites my anxiety and makes me determined to prove them wrong right then and there. unfortunately combined with my general impulsiveness and impatience this used to make me very easy to manipulate if you understood this about me as well as leading me to take some really stupidly dangerous risks (until i started working on my self awareness and critical thinking), but it did also lead to several very funny moments in my life where someone misplaced a lot of confidence in my inability to fight back and got their shit rocked when i stepped up and called their bluff.

#🐉#reverse psychology is my greatest weakness even when im aware of it theres a part of me that wants to go against it #just to prove that i can #however it does come in handy when people assume i wont fight them after i warn them i will if they overstep a boundary ive made clear #and they cross the line anyway and get the shock of their life when i lash out in self defence #although im trying to work on nonviolent deescalation and walking away because thats not a sustainable way to defend myself #and could get me in a lot of trouble. so.#like yeah i gave them a fair warning but at the end of the day if someone tells you i bit them and has a circle of teeth marks #on their hand and theres visible blood staining my teeth no amount of 'well i did warn them' is #gonna get me off the hook and stop me from being perceived as the bad guy in that scenario. especially if there are no witnesses.

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unknownarmageddon · 4 months ago

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Hunger games simulator but it's just Kross aus

OH MY GOD you’re so right. hang on

#i ran out of aus and had to get kind of obscure so death’s doorstep and sondertale and like. dogfight and doomsday are there #also this got me thinking about like. legitimate hunger games with the kross aus so i’m gonna talk about that for a bit #excluding forces of nature and fear the forest i think the guys that have the best chance of winning are #the proximity guys. both of them #chains and rings #and *maybe* rental suits killer. both of them and their chances would be heightened if they worked together #my reasoning for proximity is just. think about it #they’ve basically been living the hunger games the whole time #they absolutely have the survival skills. and they’re bonded like shelter dogs so they’d definitely end up working together #chains and rings would be good at fighting i think. so at the start they’d just go ham and wreck people’s shit #but i doubt they’d have the survival skills for it #they fight in a controlled area and they’ve never needed to scavenge for resources like the aka guys have #so they could get places in terms of conflict but i doubt they’d be able to sustain themselves super long #but i dunno they still have a chance #and for rental suits i definitely think killer could go places #like. he already kinda scavenges for stuff. he’s had to fend for himself for the most part. he knows to get stuff. y’know what i mean #i’m doing a trash job of explaining it but like. you know #and if he and cross decided to like actually commit and work together they’d have more of a chance #cause cross is better with like. strategy and like. medical attention #so if killer did the fighting and cross was methodical about stuff like what could be safe to eat and first aid #they might kinda have a chance #i don’t think they have like. the strong relationship aka kross would have and they’re probably not that physically strong #cause they live generally normal modern lives #so i don’t think they’d win. but they could get somewhere #ANYWAY final thoughts i think aka cross and killer might win in those circumstances. out of the main aus anyway #answering asks #denieatsart asks #deni!!

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guarshroom · 1 month ago

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I can be normal about Random Crits in TF2.

#team fortress 2 #tf2 #IhatethemIhatethemIhatethemIhatethemIhatethemIhatethemIhatethemIhatethemIhatethemIhatethemIhatethemIhatethemIhatethemIhatethemIhatethem #yeah I'm aware it's a janky 17 year old game #I'm aware Valve is probably never gonna turn em off and that community servers exist BUT #when I randomly crit another player I feel nothing and when I die to one I feel a Zealous rage not seen since the Crusades #Yeah I may be a Spy player. yeah I might have gotten random crit several times in one fucking game when I otherwise would maybe survive #AND how it disproportionately screws over Spy because in order to do his main gimmicks he has to be in melee range #oh yeah and did I mention melees have the ability to have upwards of 60% random crit chance?#Sure when other people insta-kill someone with a melee it's funny but when I. the Spy player. insta kill someone #Rare high moments my pasty white ASS #not to mention how dispraportionately these benefit some classes (demo #look.it's basic math #the lowest crit chance on a ranged weapon is what 6%?#so 1 out of every 20 or so shots will random crit #(don't ask me how this shit works for sustained damage classes like Heavy and Pyro)#most servers are 24 players right?#so if everyone shoots at the same time odds are at least 1 player is going to get a random crit #multiply that by how ever many hundreds of shots are fired over the course of a game and suddenly it isn't so rare #and suddenly those “rare high moments” aren't so rare any more #not to mention how it benefits classes like demo. soldier. and pyro because of their wide area of effect #jank hit reg makes you miss a stab and now the medic's aware of you? BAM random crit from an Ubersaw #trying to bait an engie away from his sentry you just sapped? BAM Random Crit from a wrench #I think there's a good reason you never see a random triple damage bonus in any other FPS game ever

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shrimplinguini · 4 months ago

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god i just need to type somewhere that applying to jobs is SO MUCH LOL

#IM SO TIRED #i wish the channel would sustain me bc omfg job hunting is not it #but the good news is yr girl is gonna become a Real graphic designer if one of these works out for once

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eldritchmochi · 5 months ago

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BOOTUNS

they are incredibly basic but an absolute blast to make, so now i have roughly 300 of them lmao

behold my shitty display for the guerilla market im gonna attempt to sell the eighty million crafts i do to keep brain weasels at bay

and then the section i call "u can sure tell what my tester word was and my gf is to blame"

ne wai, if i manage to actually make a substantial amount from the market tomorrow i am absolutely going to basically immediately turn around and buy stuff for making more, including that holo film for em because SPORKLY BOOTUNS >:3c

#mochi rambles #mochi crafts #which #if anyone on the interwebs WANTS some dm me and we can work something out #they are not gonna be expensive but i will absolutely mail u a fistful of shitty buttons for like 5 bucks or whatever #i am making them to MAKE things more than to make a ton of money #but #ya kno #if my crafting is self sustainable #that would be Ideal

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crescentfool · 4 months ago

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#splatoon #splatoon oc #sydney (oc)#shades (yen)#other's ocs #lizzy does art #this was a test in seeing how fast i can draw without overthinking... trying to exercise the storytelling muscles...!#i think that i have a lot i can work on but i've been feeling a real itch to do comics and im tryna find a style sustainable for that!#if i overthink about how everything looks there's no way im gonna be able to develop storytelling muscles LMAOOO. but anw.#it's been a lot more fun to draw quicker doodles that go together in sequential order than doing illustrations tbh 😭#want to take the time in the tags 2 remind everyone on the dash that we should all unlearn shame together. lets make silly little arts!!#remember that it is OK to discard parts of the process that dont serve you...!#let's make art that's in-line with our values and what we want to draw...! not what someone else expects out of us...!

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thedreadvampy · 6 months ago

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I GENUINELY wish I understood the appeal of Taylor Swift I really really do. many of my friends do. but it's just. I don't think a single one of her songs has ever landed above 'ok' or 'nostalgically cheesy' for me and every time I think that I feel so incredibly like I'm trying to be snobby but I'm not? it's not about not liking pop or not liking the cool thing I love pop I love cheese I just also like music that has some...I guess energy and danceability or specific and meaningful rage and I have found nothing to hook into in anything she's made. Antihero nearly works for me. Blank Space works conceptually but not in practise. but other than that the last thing she made that did anything for me even as a throwaway pop song was. god it actually might be We Are Never Ever Ever Getting Back Together or 22 which at least are catchy but I can't say ever made it to my playlists.

I want to get it, I genuinely do. I have listened to most of her releases at least once because I keep thinking if I try hard enough something will open up for me but nah however hard I try it's just extremely mid. like yes that certainly is music. I can immediately recognise it as Taylor Swift, it's not like it's utterly generic, but it absolutely just registers to me as background music. I want so much to understand what it is about her that makes her the biggest person in music for like 15 years now.

(I could say the same about Beyoncé who if anything lands worse for me. Break My Soul owns, but other than that I have landed everything I've heard of hers since like 2008 firmly in the Do Not Relisten pile it just lands like a ton of loose sand for me. and this is not mentioning the actual crime against music that was Jolene bc I don't think that worked for most people tbf. and again it's not that I don't like pop or r&b or rap cause that's like. between those genres about a third of the music I listen to. but her work is just so unengaging to me personally and I don't know why and I wish I got it)

#red said #~oh you just don't like things that are popular~ i LIKE liking things that are popular!#i like lizzo! i love lil nas x! i think billie eilish is amazing! i think I'm too old for olivia rodrigo but i get the appeal!#i think with taylor and possibly also beyonce though there's like a level of calculated pose that makes their music feel like work #like it doesn't. to me. feel like it connects because it feels like a product put together as a marketing persona #and not in a fun way like Katy Perry used to but like. Taylor Swift's music is extremely thought through. even the missteps.#and musically it feels really uninteresting and emotionally it feels like the IDEA of emotional relatability not any kind of insight #it's very middle of the road to me. even when it's taking risks it's not taking risks.#and tbf if i was gonna guess at why she's as popular as she is I'd say it's that. it's sustainable and marketable and well planned.#like Montero was a fucking phenomenal album because it was incredibly honest and creative. but tbh has Lil Nas X had the same impact since?#no not really bc he put EVERYTHING into that album and now tbh he's putting out new music that's fine but not earthshattering #whereas Taylor definitely knows how to market herself and how to change her brand incrementally without having to get more vulnerable #but like. her whole thing is kind of as a confessional singer songwriter vibe. which needs vulnerability and messiness #and to me it always sounds very very managed and very defensive and that is. flat.

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hwanswerland · 7 months ago

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at the rate this is going I'm seriously debating not even going to the tour

#fio.txt #there's not even europe dates yet obviously but im so done #just the tour? i would have side eyed #but the tour AND A COMEBACK THE MONTH BEFORE #nah #i feel like im turning into a lil hater here and i dont even want that but the concept pics for the cb feel so...uninspired #idk golden hour sounds pretty epic but the pics are pretty bland and boring to me #do something cool and artistic for gods sake take some time to actually get behind a concept then give them time TO PROMOTE AND THEN REST!!!#!!!!!!!!!!!!#and then and THEN you may have them tour again #literally 2026 usa tour would have been more than enough theyve been on tour every single year the past three (four with 2025 ig) and that #is not fucking sustainable #im gonna be really honest here #this ongoing situation with them is a big part of why i was highly kpop critical before i got into it #bc all i had heard was that the idols are pretty much just obects to be marketed and worked to burnout to get the most money possible #out of them #being kind of dehumanised and instead turned into content to be consumed #like they as persons and whatever artistic vision and passions and dreams they might have are secondary to capitalist greed #and that makes me so so sad and also frustrated and i want to rage and throw a few bricks through kq ents windows

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trashyandtiredsol · 2 months ago

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Hi yeah all those dots took two days (two and hour and a half classes plus 2 40 minute e-blocks ajfhsudkifjsfusuf)

#posting just cuz #ALSO- gonna do a full post with everything I'm gonna be making for my current sustained investigation I'm working on in ap art waaaay later-#like closer to the end of the school year and graduation #so watch out for that sometime- whenever I start and end up finishing it #👍#sol full of art

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soft-puppy-boyfriend · 22 days ago

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Shout out to my brain for convincing me that I'm still missing something in regards to preparing myself to start my new job next Monday, despite the fact that I've read a million "prepare yourself for work" articles and listicles and I have either everything already prepared or at least a plan to prepare that thing this week.

Its like when you're going on holiday and your brain is like "well what if you shit yourself every single day?? What if you pee yourself every five minutes even though you've never struggled with that at home?" Except it's my brain going "hey what happens if they expect you to bring your own phone headset?" Like???? They explicitly DONT, they have TOLD ME WHAT THEY EXPECT OF ME, can we STOP WORRYING OH MY GOD!???

#it doesnt help that the psych i found a couple weeks ago did NOT gel with me so im also on a psych hunt #which is now on pause til the new year because Im about to work 9-5 for five days a week for the first time since 2019 #im not going to have TIME for therapy #im gonna maybe go do some helpful chores to shut my brain up and then play minecraft #which is not helpful because going to my partners therapy sessions has started helping me unmask #so its like im this banana thats been half peeled because oh! we were gonna start to make banana bread! (a metaphor here for therapy)#but then Ive realised I actually don't have the time or money or energy to make banana bread (do therapy) so ive had to just???#duct tape that unpeeled banana back together again #and the skin doesnt quite fit back properly so the flesh is poking through the holes and those exposed places are REALLY easy to damage #which like i know logically will be better in the long run for my banana bread but i have no sort of kitchen support at all #like the souix chef has fucked off the garbage boy never showed up for his shift the gravy kitchen hasnt worked in months #and the patisserie chef is way too distracted making eclairs out of chocolate laxatives to help with the fucking banana bread #anyway ive lost control of this metaphor which is actually a hilarious metaphor for my life and how im feeling about it right now #fingers crossed something comes of eventually getting on some sort of medication to help my brain because this genuinely isnt sustainable #especially with my brain going huurrr bdurr youre struggling??? heres a great way to regulate! *jazz hands* harm urself!!!!!#like fuck off kevin we both know thats not even remotely going to help #le sigh #okay thanks for reading if you got this far #im okay im fine im safe im just venting my feelings because journalling Just Wasnt EnoughTM this time #personal #raven rambles #work vent #mental health

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the-brainrot-central · 1 month ago

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Writing over 30,000 words worth of content for a fic only to realize it’s all pointless because you have no interest in it anymore and you were never gonna finish it anyway….

What even is The Point anymore

#current mood #it’s so joever #this isn’t even the worst part honestly #what really sucks is that this project was the last thing in my life I had any sustainable interest in and now that’s gone too.#now I have nothing. like #the fuck am I supposed to do??? get a new interest??? that’s fucking impossible #nothing hits like it used to and everything is just….bland….and SO MUCH EFFORT to get into #like hobbies are so difficult? and my old hobbies (ex writing) are becoming more and more toxic and like a chore rather than something fun #like writing at this point has become a battle of perfectionism and I’m fucking losing #what am I supposed to do. nothing inspires me. I have no interests. no hobbies. not many friends irl #and it’s not like we ever hang out because people are a fucking piece of work #either they cling to you like dog shit or they never respond to your texts no in between #im just so tired of existing??? and also college??? is fine but like #what the fuck am I DOING here like #why am I getting an art degree??? is this really how I should be spending my time and my parents money?#what the fuck am I gonna do for a job??? what do I WANT from a job???? I don’t even fucking know #i can’t see myself being happy in life doing anything and that’s such a nonstarter #it makes it impossible to start planning anything because I feel paralyzed with fear #and like I said….i don’t have any interests. I don’t LIKE anything. I am the antithesis of curiosity and interest like. there’s just nothing #i can’t do this anymore #im so done #idk why I made this so long but #I guess I have a lot on my mind I wanted to share #sorry for cringe posting on main it will happen again #im sorry in general actually for everything im sorry for being needy and attention seeking and annoying and flaky and never finishing any of #my fics because I lose interest and for not responding to anyone in my inbox I’m sorry #personal #cringe #cringetober #long tags

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kitsuna21-alt · 1 year ago

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When I have to listen to my parents stance on drug addicts, mentally ill people, and homeless people

#kit screams #sorry but what do you mean the guy across the street asking for money doesn’t deserve #the same respect as the woman across the street seeking water with her 3 kids #she can’t sustain herself on street money alone and you don’t know her situation. maybe she can’t work at the moment because #maybe she can’t work because she doesn’t know who will take care of her kids? maybe she having trouble finding a job #and trying to put food on the table #and jobs are hard enough to find as it is and it takes time to get paid so what else are you gonna do before then?#maybe he can’t buy water to sell #and teaching my brother that anyone who’s acting unwell is drunk or on drugs is just so close minded???#I wanna get out of herrreeee #I hate Father’s Day bro 😭 I even forgot my headphones

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mcalhenwrites · 3 months ago

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I'm not going to pretend it doesn't make me angry that I spend months and years trying to peddle my work to make ends meet, that I spend so much time mentioning my books and comms and everything, and people ignore that consisently... But the moment I finally break under the hopelessness - when it's obvious that it's fucking futile, that almost no one deems my work good enough to share with anyone else - suddenly they're concerned and scolding me. I'm working several jobs, bathing, generally keeping things clean, and I do this with several health problems including chronic pain. I found out that one of my cysts is growing and I may need to have it surgically removed. Which means potentially missing work to recover. Which means more money I lose. I spend so much time crawling out of the hole and it goes ignored, but the moment I just give up bc I don't have any strength left, suddenly that's my fault and I'm mentally sick. And that kind of makes me wish my entire situation upon people, and when they whine that it's hard, well fuck you, you thought I could ace it so surely you can, babe! I hate being angry about this, but it's just so exhausting to tell people who accuse me of not trying that I HAVE I HAVE SO FUCKING HARD AND YOU DID NOT PAY ATTENTION THEN Or you know you're attempting to gaslight me by claiming I didn't try despite that I obviously have worked my ass off trying, and that's so much fucking worse

#mcalhen personal #and I'm not saying I'm not mentally ill but ffs stop using it as a weapon to discredit people when they have the solutions right there #feels like people hate my writing and me and that's why I didn't go “I got the job” bc friends who never support me would be like #“I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU CONGRATS” cool I'm not I spend an entire day usually recovering from very calm shifts at a job I like #but the moment I publish a book it's not congrats it's I don't know this guy I don't know Cal and I'm gonna pretend I never saw anything #I don't even hate my goddamn job even tho it can be stressful but it's the easiest thing for mostly just 2 days a week #but it is not sustainable and I cannot survive on this and disability would be invasive as hell and y'all don't know shit about how they #treat disabled people in this country but goddamn I have watched that shit unfold with my autistic brother who can't work #and I can never help him at this rate #bc I can't help myself #I can't help anyone #and saying that is a big fucking issue with people who think if they say 'it gets better keep going' I'll magically unfuck my life #as if I haven't spent the entirety of my life trying to unfuck things #as if I didn't give myself an education in spite of my family #y'all never been threatened with physical violence bc you weren't supposed to ask for school supplies and it fucking SHOWS #I have learned so many things on my own time out of sheer desire to better myself and my situation #but at a point where nothing works out and each day is just filled with more bad news #at what point am I actually allowed to give up?#or am I supposed to just keep this up until I die with 40 more years of collected bullshit pain #bc if you want me to live like this for 40 years then... you never cared at all #and what's so stupid is that I really want to earn my living by doing the work #I work on my art and writing but let's just admit that it's pathetic already #no mental health services or pills will erase that I'm a pathetic garbage can of uselessness #also I realize no one owes me anything like boosting my work or w/e #but also don't ask me to turn rotten ingredients into a feast and say I'm not trying when I can't fucking do it

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andragoras-in-vanity · 3 months ago

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im convinced that people who actually want to live in cities and dont see the environmental and emotional trauma their inflicting on themselves by enabling those places to continue to grow have just the most severe brain damage

#saw a post that made me mad talking about slow living being Bad (in ways im not gonna write in tags and end up in thos spaces by accident)#but like......dropping a hut on a vacant lot and growing some veg and chickens is not nearly as #detrimental or colonizing as sprawling cities #also like who the fuck WANTS to live in a concrete jungle when trees and grass exist #yall are fucking sickos to lump wanting to be educated on herbal medicine and growing food and SPACE AWAY FROM LOUD NEIGHBORS #in with like trd wife and trf bullshit #cottagecore on twitter houses those type but like.....you know farms exist outside of northamerica too right #and some of us are better equipped for famr labour than retail?#i see more people complain about cottagecore as an aesthetic than is actually has issues tbh #but maybe i just mind my own business and actually know what living on a farm entails #my body gave out on me but i literally used to work on a horse farm #i know how much work chickens are #anyway people really will complain about anything and fail to realize that their own lifestyle is a much bigger problem than some strawman #they created in their heads just because they saw one tradwife on instagram living on a homestead with her 8 children and cheating husband #sorry i dont want to contribute to mental illnesses and pollution by living in the city??#farm whether hobby or just partially self sustaining doesnt equal root of all evil #some of us are just better equipt to tend to the sheep in the scottish highlands were our ancestors started #and besides id rather see semi delusional tradwives stsrting homesteads than all that same 'vacant' land go to more housing developments #anyway tho #all this because some bad faith take someone had because someone had the audacity to talk about their experiences with transmisogyny #(which i still think is a dumb concept cause called a spade a spade its transphobia) and wasnt a transfemme #im begging yall to stop talking over transmasc and afab people #youre not more important because you identify as a woman stop giving yourselves victim complexes and shutting down important conversations

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berlinini · 6 months ago

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I have no idea what I’m talking about but I remember seeing Louis in an Oops sweatshirt and he hinted he was going to make it for sale. This was back in like 2014. He has a long term horizon. I also remember the first black oversized hoodie sweatshirt worn by Eleanor at the X Factor// it wasn’t released until 2+ years later. I think we as fans demand immediate dopamine hits with a constant need to be fed.Louis comes across to someone that has a very long term plan that he methodically executes.

Yeah, I mean we saw him wearing the first 28OP piece at AFHF 2021 and it was finally launched in the Fall 2023.

We know he has a 5 albums plan.

But long term vision works when it's still that - vision. Once you've launched something you need to work in the real world and that means getting your product out there in a way that reaches and pleases the consumer.

Louis has a very very loyal fanbase. We'll buy 28OP whenever it comes out - but it seems like the idea behind the brand was to reach beyond the fans, for once. But now it's being handled the same way his other fan-focused stuff is being handled.

I'd pay good money to see the strategy/marketing deck.

#answered ask #anon #knowing matt v sees us as a cash cow doesn't help #they are too reliant on the established fanbase #we're here collecting Veeps tickets meanwhile they could do a proper livestream on youtube to reach out to a new crowd #everything louis does is always in a silo that's not new and that's probably never gonna change 🤷‍♀️#it's working for him thus far so I understand he's making his little corner and all his projects are successful but how sustainable is it #we've been asking this question since fitf got out really

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