#noir library

[olameni]

I hated this book.

I mean that in positive way. The book is an excellent journey into spiraling madness but there is no neutral 3rd party distance and objectivity. Dazai pulls you into his own personal hell for you to live it with him.

It is an uncomfortable experience.

I found myself deeply empathizing with the protag, Oba who in the midst of alienation and inability to connect with/relate to family puts on a mask to make himself more palatable to others and is utterly consumed by it. Eventually he cannot discern a self outside of the mask and loses his sense of agency.

His behavior is vile and possibly evil but also deeply tragic as all his choices are attempts to escape his despair. I felt like i was to hate him but its difficult because Oba and his trainwreck of an existence is so relatable. In many ways i found Dazai reflecting my own anxieties and self loathing back at me. Relatable enough to be more annoyed at Oba for dragging down others than I was sad for his suffering or angry at a world that generates such alienation.

Like I said, it is an uncomfortable experience.

Ultimately this a book about social death. It is about man who is drowning in misery that you cannot save because he will drag you to death along with him

[olameni]

Yes. But as i often have to remind myself safety at the cost of one's purpose is an untenable sacrifice.

Glen Martin Taylor, “but i am safe in here.”

[perfectnightmareangel]

[semioticapocalypse]

M. Peterka. In the archives of Prague Castle. Praha, Czechoslovakia. 1950s

I Am Collective Memories   •    Follow me, — says Visual Ratatosk

[logophilist1982]

Mystery

[olameni]

I won't do to another what this world has done to me.

[scholarofgloom]

[olameni]

[olameni]

My god that desk is beautiful.

[walkman-cat]

detective noir katherine my beloved <3

[lactoseintolerentswag]

YOU HAVE PHYSICAL COPIES….

Yessir

[olameni]

10/10 no notes

i cannot say it enough: RESEARCH IS WORSHIP RESEARCH IS WORSHIP RESEARCH IS WORSHIP RESEARCH IS WORSHIP RESEARCH IS WORSHIP RESEARCH IS WORSHIP RESEARCH IS WORSHIP RESEARCH IS WORSHIP RESEARCH IS WORSHIP RESEARCH IS WORSHIP RESEARCH IS WORSHIP RESEARCH IS WORSHIP RESEARCH IS WORSHIP

research your ancestors, research your gods, research the land you come from, listen to the stories told by your family, your community, your elders and take notes. research research research.

[doctorlavender]

NeonCode

[silverior968]

It's my fic and I get to write two full length ghost stories set in-universe for the characters to tell each other

[perfectnightmareangel]

[olameni]

Are there tasting notes or are we to be left in suspense?

ALRIGHT TUMBLR, I MADE TEA WITH 7️⃣0️⃣ TEA BAGS