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I’m so sad because no one responds to my attempts to reach out. I only have three friends, and I don’t speak to any of them, I’ve managed to self isolate so well that now I only have three friends- even when I had more friends I wasn’t close fk any of them and the friendships lasted less than a year each.
A while ago my friend said “everybody has someone else” and I don’t. I just don’t. I’m a third wheel in my friend server because it’s me, and a couple. And that’s it. They 2 of my 3 friends. I don’t think my third friend even likes me anymore.
I only have three friends and I’m so scared that’ll turn into 0 soon
#I don’t know how to maintain a friendship#I’ve been friends with two of these people since elementary school#but even then for both of them there have been multiple year long gaps where we weren’t speaking#I don’t know how to have friends#I either get too clingy or I pull away#I don’t have an in between#I literally only have three friends#no romantic partner#no one else I talk to#nothing#I’m so stupidly lonely#and I did this to myself#am I over sharing on tumblr again? yes#do I care? no#nobody’s gonna see this post anyway#I have zero reach#and I’m not tagging any legit tags#except:#vent tw#tw vent#personal vent#vent post#okay#those are the only legit tags on here#cause trigger warnings are important
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au in which max has one of those off road recovery services and daniel and his friends were being stupid on a hill
they got stuck in a very narrow bend of the road between some rocks unable to reverse or go forward and with a high drop on the other side so they call max's garage
max shows up with his team in two jeeps and calls them all idiots for attempting this climb on an unsuitable vehicle until daniel shows him that it was actually on google maps so max calls google an idiot too
then max gives daniel and his friends an heart attack by moving their car further up the ledge to give himself a sliver of road to pass them and be able to hook their car and drag them out of the hole they're stuck in and then drives with two of four wheels fully off the edge while rico guides him on the radio
daniel and scotty are clutching at each other's arms until they realise and let go because that's embarrassing
when max is on the other side he gets off the car like nothing happened and hooks their car and then tells one of them to get in and just steer to follow
daniel goes and max does some more crazy driving to get them unstuck and off the dangerous part of the road and by the time he's telling daniel he can turn off the car daniel is so high on adrenaline he's shaking
scotty is whooping and cheering but daniel stumbles off the car and max catches him by the arm telling him he did a good job and wow maybe daniel is in love
max then tells daniel and his friends to get in because he'll drive them down while his team takes care of their jeeps and now that he's not working or calling them stupid he's actually nice and soft spoken and laughs at their jokes in a way that makes his eyes crinkle and shine and daniel is 100% in love
when they're off the hill and they're thanking max and his team daniel gives him his number. for a moment max seems confused, but then daniel smiles at him and tells him just in case you're feeling a little stupid too and max smiles back
#good morning im sad so im gonna think about maxiel instead#maxiel#my writing#sort of#nobody will see this anyway because it's a dumb time to post but who cares
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and stalling only goes so far when you've got a head start
#nobody talk to me i am so fucking IN AGONY#HEAD IN HANDS. AT LEAST SOME PEOPLE CAN BE HAPPY???????#jinx#jinx arcane#powder#powder arcane#arcane#arcane spoilers#im afraid i have to admit guys i just stopped watching after this episode. it was so fucking (bitter) sweet and by far the happiest#i've ever been post-arcane-episode#god!!!!!!! i don't want to ruin the high!!!! and i don't want to see everyone start fucking suffering for their lives again !!!!!#in my defense i finished at like 8 am after not sleeping all night so. i was also tired. but now after waking up#i just don't want to continue Even More o777#arcane season 2#arcane s2#arcane s2 spoilers#arcane season 2 spoilers#idk how fast people usually watch episodes so i'm mass tagging even more than usual#god fucking. aughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#time taken on this like 3-4 hrs#in my current state of mind (completely off my rocker abt this show) i can probably fuel like Months worth of fanart#from just this one episode. sooooo what if i just never watched the rest fhhggggskfjnfnfnfndjsjd#nah i know i'm gonna end up watching it. eventually. soon probably but idk how soon. anyways. peace out guys. live laugh love 😭😭😭😭😭#my art#the funny thing about this is that i drew it facing the opposite way and then flipped it to check and never. flipped it back.#uhhhhh. don't worry about it
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flavio is short and fat and that makes him handsome.i know this because i am very wise
#cross posting from bluesky because everyone has to know#(its almost 2 am nobody is gonna see anyways#i am in flavio mode right now#hes saurrr cutes 😭😭😭#im one of the only people that draws him this way 💔 sadge#no hate towards other interpretations!#i just wish there was a bit more chubby/fat designs when it comes to mario gijinkas#wgat ever anyways Flavooooo
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Leo, what has been your favorite “to-the-death” activity thus far? I feel there has to be a workshop-to-the-death somewhere in that hotel.
LEO: I think maybe Magnus was right about talking about the past… I’m not sure I’m ready to do that yet, but thinking about it and doing things that remind me of my old life, it feels like progress. prev ask (also about activities!)
#was a lil liberal w this update to get the festus head in there hehe I hope nobody minds! Im just glad to be settled enough to be posting rn#leo my sweet homesick child... the next update will be even more brutal to you I'm so sorry#shoutout to yall trying to get him out doing things/in the workshop/meeting alex I think he needs a break from my angst#anyway not canon yet but halfborn probably learned ancient greek and ancient latin at some point and adores this graecus son of hephaestus#he will adopt valgrace over the course of this tbh#leo valdez#v²au#magnus chase and the gods of asgard#hotel valhalla#magnus chase#valgrace#leo valdez responds#art#I'm gonna try an update or two a week during this early part of the school year! we'll def have to see my schedule bc#I did NOT see this update taking 10 days (or more accurately... for me to barely be on my computer the last 10 days)#but I am alive settling down and still in love w this au! super behind on anything else pjo/wottg but alive and online!#halfborn gunderson#festus#<- these are more for blog archive organization but oh well... we'll see them more I swear!
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Bloodybec again because I'm procrastinating on making Victor and Traitor's refs
Bec wet cat moment + probably the closest thing Bloody's had to a shower in days
Aaand some doodles
#no reposting#i didnt wanna bother with shading and perspective dont @ me ok#i know its jank#anyways#half life furry au#ezu furry au#entropy zero uprising#bloodybec#ezu bloody cop#ezu bec#i NEED to stop posting past midnight how am i gonna beg people to play this if nobody's awake to see me posting about it
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#it's apparently been sitting finished for a week now#which probably means it's time to post it#mdzs#mdzs fanart#wei wuxian#wei ying#wwx#mxy!wwx#I am still having my fun with trying to draw them as differently as possible#and yes I ended up going with clothing from the donghua#except for the colors of yllz's. I enjoy the design but not the colors there#The idea of black outer robe with blood red underneath does something to me#there's some symbolism in it. I felt it when drawing. I felt it xD#also I am of the opinion that yllz era wwx is skeletally thin#But! he also hides it with some good clothing choices so nobody really notices#except for those who care to look#but I am also sure that mxy's body is in just as awful a state by the time of his death#have you seen what the boy got fed?! it's awful. terrible. it's not gonna let him look healthy afterwards#I headcanon that wwx doesn't notice it because he's so used to what his body was like in the end that it doesn't really register for him#but Lan Zhan sees it and is going to fix with regular meals from now on!#anyway!#my art
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Writing Advice of the Day: dragons make everything better.
Just in case you were wondering.
#it's just the facts#dragons#always a good time#writer life#amwriting#amwriting fantasy#today anyway#I'm sure I'll be back to aliens tomorrow#oh yeah I will actually; I've got a new Token Human story to post#this one is something else#for a Dark Fantasy anthology#it's gonna be great#the dragon can open up her scales into eyes#and she can see through magic like nobody's business#much to the dismay of the villains#haha take that ya jerks#anyways#off to write!
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i think its weird that i have to make this disclaimer but the internet is crazy so wtvr,, anyway,,
if i say i dont like something, that doesnt mean "that thing is bad and nobody should post it.."
i swear literally every time i even mention that i dislike something, people will go "wow does that mean u fucking hate me cuz i post that thing? ur a fucking stupid bitch and all ur opinions r wrong" LIKE ?? er.. no. just because i say i dont like certain characterizations of certain characters (the saiki k fandom is CRAZY about this cuz i can state an opinion on literally any character and a group of people will still go 'well only we're allowed to post our opinions about them because we're always right!1!1!'), or certain ship tropes (mentioned my hatred of toxic yaoi maybe once or twice on here months ago and people STILL get mad at me as if i said toxic yaoi lovers r evil or something), or certain ships, or WHATEVER, does not mean that i HATE the people who are posting them or that i think they shouldnt post them at all, NO, im just posting about my personal tastes on my personal blog and it would be extremely weird and hypocritical if i decided that i was the ONLY person that was allowed to do that,,
i think the only reason people assume that is because there are a lot of other people on here who ARE like that, and a lot of people toe the line between posting that they dont like something and posting that they think everyone who likes that thing is stupid, annoying, and wrong,, so i guess all i can say is, sorry for whatever made you make these assumptions but they arent true about me so plz leave me alone ʘ‿ʘ ur doing the same thing to me that ur accusing me of but i didnt do it in the first place so ur just actively being a dick for no reason
#crazy that the mindset some people on here have is that theyre the only ones allowed to post their opinions#ive repeated this a lot on this blog but i rlly think people forget that the person on the other side of the screen is in fact a person#if ur harassing people and publicly making fun of them then ur just as bad as any real life bully#that shit isnt as funny or harmless as u like to pretend it is#not once have i ever targetted anyone or went on someones blog to harass them over my opinion#yet people think its fine to do the same to me and treat it as if its like. revenge or something#like ? me saying 'i dont like toxic yaoi' is not equivalent to someone going on someone elses page and going 'how tf do u like toxic yaoi'#I DONT CARE !! all ive ever done is sit in my own little bubble and had opinions and that makes people mad#honestly though the people who will publicly talk and post abt it are significantly meaner#and i want to act like im not bothered by it because i know most of them r just angry that someone has a different opinion#and they want all their followers to bandwagon off of them (idk why maybe for validation or whatever-same reasons anyone would bully)#but seriously if u actually do think that something i said was out of line and crossed thise boundaries- just fucking tell me ?#im a person bro. ur solution to disagreeing with me shouldnt be 'lol im gonna post abt this and make everyone harass them'#have a conversation with me dude i dont bite ? if u cant talk to me like a person then just dont fucking say anything wtf#its so cowardly to be like 'well no i didnt wanna say anything to u cuz i didnt wanna be rude.. so instead i publicly made fun of u!'#LIKE WHATTTT STOPPPPP </3333#ok anyway this post wasnt supposed to get THAT serious.#MY POINT IS just be considerate of other people and dont base ur hatred off of assumptions#ur deflecting the blame onto someone else because u dont want to admit that ur just a fucking bully lol#being inconsiderate on here is something ive also been guilty of back when i first joined the fandom and was clueless#but grown ass adults who have been on here way longer r still doing that shit which is crazy#and i cant say anything because they have so much leverage over me and idk if its on purpose or if they dont even realize#ok im putting fandom tags cuz i want people to see this sorry. this is my one post thats actually targetted but its at a lot of people#so if u look at this and think 'hey i do that' pls evaluate urself<3#i mean its also targetted at everyone who does this anonomously so i dont know who it is OKOK IM DONE BYE SORRY HOPE THIS IS UNDERSTANDABLE#watch nobody read this fr#saiki k#tdlosk#the disastrous life of saiki k.#meows post
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My homunculus
Hashtag my homunculus
#diy plush#i think i was overcomplicating the bodies. like. most basic plush body shape is fine. who gives a shit#also i am maybe regretting the felt for the head... you can see the wear on her already.#alfonse is holding up really well bc his felt was thicker. HUGE pain in the ass to work with#but it did end up making him super sturdy!#i have been thinking of going back and fixing sharena's head (you can see it's misshapen too)#but like. i actually have no idea where i'd start w that. aside from adjusting the shape beneath the head#but i have no idea how i'd fix the issue of her material without like. having to re-do her completely.#at their core these two really are fuck around and find out plushies. i'm learning the importance#of what material to pick and for what purpose.#unfortunately i am gonna do something different for alfonse's body too. the initial one i made#while super cute and i still love the back stitching. i need to readjust proportions#esp if i'm gonna be layering materials for clothes. ESP on this small of a scale.#i have a test run body on alfonse rn that i'm not entirely sold on either. proportions are right#but the craftsmenship is shoddy on it. so. split on even showing it.#also i did succumb to cheating w a sewing machine. which! i need more practice w anyway.#esp if i want to make bigger plushies in the future actually. so. at this point i was just avoiding it#also don't mind the stray pages there LMFAOO one is a comic i already posted and was reffing#for other comics i've been doing. really cool i have like. a backlog of stuff i can ref of my own work actually#i am soooooo obsessed w paneling and placement... nobody talks about paneling and placement......#sharena
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at what point is an intro post necessary?
OH WELL HERE IT IS!
my name on here is skate, im a minor, im a girl, i use she/her pronouns and i have no idea what im doing!!
im in highschool so im a busy girl and i will complain about school
some fun facts about me are: i play 6 instruments and sing, i like reading, my favourite season is winter, i speak a fair amount of french and italian and i can crochet.
im also mentally ill so just prepare yourself for that!
most of my posts are about osemanverse but i love taylor swift and will not shut up about her. i am in a pitch perfect and dead poets society phase at the moment so expect some of that too and mostly i post whatever else pops into my head at the time.
my asks are open and i love answering literally anything and if you ask a question ill probably fall in love with you or smth
my tags are 'skate has words' for my writing 'skate answers' for answering asks and 'skate rants!' for rants obviouslyyyy
also my messages are open and, yes, i am extremely awkward, i would LOVE to be friends !! i need to add that i am very unwell sometimes for long periods of time and will sometimes just not respond to messages. i am sorry but ill get there eventually.
im very infrequent on here and will sometimes forget tumblr exists for weeks so im never ignoring you im just stupid and i have memory issues
if youre gonna be mean to pretty much anyone i dont really want you here. just dont be an asshole guys.
anyway have a good day !! :)
#please never read this#this is embarassing#if you even think for a millisecond that you might know me in person i am politely asking you to leave immediately#intro post#i dont know what to put in here#ps i only did this bc i saw pickledsad do one so shoutout to her!#i dont know how to tag this#i also dk how to use tumblr#how does this work#theres like 120 of you so i figured at least one person would care at least a little bit and if you dont then still be nice i have feelings#( whispers )#if you wanna call me december im okay with that#it was nearly my name#anyway#nobodys gonna see this#but#if you do see this#feel free to call me december i guess#it would make me happy#but no pressure#also like#should i put my tags in this#i will#skate has words#skate answers#skate rants!#i love referring to myself in the third person#i do it ALL THE TIME#its kinda bad#but like
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was tagged by @tabsnaomi and @ronanlynchbf thank youuuu <3
tagging @mandarino-o @danielsousa @ddiaz @freakazoidfag @diazonloop and whoever wants to do it!
#gonna come clean in these tags and admit ive cheated a bit#first song that came on shuffle was a concato song im always fucking adding to these kind of tag games so i just ignored it. also i know#nobody gets fabio like i do. so no one would have chosen him anyways.... BUT apart from that first song this is authentic. as u can see fro#the 2014 tumblr vibe the arctic monkeys song adds to the post#thanks again for tagging me <3<3<3
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ermmm kin list i guess.....yeah,,
#kin list#kinnie#tim and moby#brainpop#ewlat#education with lawrence and toni#willow park#hunter noceda#the owl house#my little pony#twilight#fluttershy#haruhi fujioka#ouran high school host club#nobody is gonna see this bro#im posting it anyway#idek if i kin any of these people ngl#they're literally me#kind of#maybe#i love brainpop :333#(i haven't used it since 4th grade)#(just discovered it had a fandom and now im really excited)
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ooof ok senpai otoko no ko wins the award for getting me to read ahead in the manga, not a lot of anime can say they've made me do that
#text post#noragami is one...who else#i did poke around in ranger for a bit but i think that was for something translation-related#anyway#no way in hell am i ok with waiting a week for that conclusion#i actually really like ryuji and senpai (i forgot his name lol) bc childhood friends#they have history it's so sweet#but i don't think the story is going that way#i think he's gonna get with aoi OR nobody's gonna get with anybody#ANYWAY I MUST SEE WHAT HAPPENS
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I’m not going to lie I’m like really stuck and don’t know what to do with my feelings about All Of This. I dont have therapy until next week and they don’t have space to move me up and I dont really have anyone else to talk through how I feel ? I dont know what to do.
#like I live in my dads house. and he voted against me.#I didn’t speak to him at all yesterday because I just can’t look at him#I knew he was gonna vote that way but it didn’t seem real until it was already too late#and like my mom says he doesn’t have bad intentions but I don’t know how I’m supposed to know that ???#like he knew what voting for that entailed and he still did it anyways regardless of what his actual reasons were#and it makes me even MORE sick because I know that like 90% of my family voted that way too. how am I supposed to do holidays ?#and it makes me sick EVEN MORE because my best friend and my sister didn’t vote but if they had they would have voted that way too#so I genuinely have nobody to speak to about this but my mom and she does not want to hear me shit talk my dad#like I live in a state that’s almost definitely going to remain safe for me#but it’s hard to know that they look at me and claim they love me and then turn and look at people just like me and vote for their demise#like do they really love me ? do they really see me as a person ?#I know the call to action is to condemn their supporters but how do you do that when you’re entire support network is made up of people who#wouldn’t care if you lived or died if you weren’t related to them ?#what do you do if you live in your conservative dad’s house and there is literally nowhere to run because you can’t even afford to get a#shit apartment ?#what do you do when you’re just as alone with these people as you are without ?#vent post
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one odd thing about going deeper is that I'm no longer satisfied with shallower. and that's, weirdly enough, a net positive. I've self harmed - eh, twice? in the last month. both were well into the criteria that should have got sutures and ignored it; suspect I hit a vein once and was extremely close to muscle, which feels kind of odd. yeah, it's ramped up; yeah, there's a lot of blood and all that kind of stuff. very high risk of infection, potential nerve damage and all that kind of stuff (though I have not got either of them; I scared off an infection that wanted to hang round by chucking quantities of alcohol on it). but at the same time. that's only twice. that's a lot better than previously.
#tw sh#the one from a fortnight ago. which i have told nobody irl about including the person to which i showed the first one. is still thinking#about healing and not really doing it yet. it'll get there. might have to wear a bandage or smth on placement#if we were going into winter i would think there was a serious concern of doing it a bunch more but for now i know i absolutely cannot#because it will be visible.#i mean it already will but im gonna pretend it was from months ago and hopefully deflect questions about just how i got such scars#actually the one that i think approached muscle is surprisingly close to healed and probably going to scar surprisingly little#the other one is simply too fresh still to know how it'll scar#should've taken progress pictures to monitor healing but was too scared others would accidentally see it#didn't want to traumatise folks#honestly was genuinely tempted to take one (1) photo of the more recent one and post on my secret sh tumblr but i talked myself out of that#anyway im fine#personal#puddleglum hours#yesterday dad hugged me and patted my arm and it was LITERALLY directly on top of the fresher one but i was able to Not flinch#fun fact: when you go that deep it is in fact Less painful than a few layers shallower#which i found to my own concern the first time and was freaking out thinking id done something nerve-related#anyway yes i really am fine prommy#fessed up to my doc about self harming anyway#and technically unless muscle is involved it is clinically described as superficial#(fat layer is the one where they will nearly always consider sutures necessary but some shallower will be dependent on how much they gape)#but also because of how much blood there is every time you kinda have to spend longer making sure you're not gonna bleed all over everythin#so that also stops me bc oh it's nearly midnight i cannot devote like two hours or three to making sure i don't wake up in a puddle of bloo#(hyperbole)#anyway in some ways i find this funny. probably should be vaguely concerned. but eh
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