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what I don't understand is like .... they wrote the guillermo and nandor dynamic the way they did AND made both of them queer. like. nobody asked them to do ANY of that. so turning around and mocking everyone who very reasonably looked at what the writers of this show wrote and said "they are written like a couple" is just a baffling thing to do. imho
Exactly. And if you don't mind, I'm going to use your ask as an excuse to write out why I'm upset about certain things, because what you said is the root of my problem.
My disappoint doesn't come from Nandor/Guillermo not going canon in the traditional sense (at least not fully), but from the very 2010s-esque way everyone seems to be talking about fans post-finale. Basically saying they never intended Nandor & Guillermo to be anything but platonic and blaming the weird fans for wanting their pornographic whishes (đ) to actually happen in the show, like they were not in any way responsible for creating those wishes, is insulting but, more importantly, not true. And they can't convince me otherwise because I was there, watching the whole thing unfold in real time.
I already mentioned being remotely normal about Nandor/Guillermo pre season 3 and there is a reason for that. During the first season the fandom was small. And by that I mean both Nandor/Guillermo shippers and also the people watching wwdits in general. During season 1, sometimes all you saw when going into the tags was about 5 of my gifsets in a row, for instance. Even if people watched the show, they didn't really interact with it in a fandom-y way. During the middle of s1, I complained about there not being Nandor/Guillermo fics at all and even between s1 and s2 I posted about there not being a lot. It was also this era when the first mentions of possible canon romantic feelings were brought up and it was by Harvey himself, who said he thinks Guillermo has feelings for his boss. This was, of course, only Harvey explaining how he views his character but I feel it's important because, as it's been mentioned before, Harvey came up with a lot of Guillermo's character, starting with his surname. He basically created current Guillermo. In the original pilot script, Guillermo is a 40-something, very bitter man. Quite different from our Guillermo and it's all thanks to Harvey.
But during this period, that is during s1 and s2, anything romantic between Nandor and Guillermo was purely accidental and mostly due to Kayvan and Harvey's chemistry. We all knew this, even if by s2 we did get the first articles about Nandor & Guillermo's relationship being maybe not fully platonic. By the end of season 2, the fandom has grown for sure but it was still nowhere near its current size. We also had Nandor say he treated Guillermo like a son, which was quite annoying but we at least knew where we stood with the show. Didn't stop us from shipping those two, of course, because fandoms have survived on less (Looking back, it is funny how much I hated that line when now it's just *vaguely gestures around*). It's important to note that after season 2, Jemaine left and Paul took over. And then came season 3.
There is a reason why I was so insane about the Cloak of Duplication and then Gail. The former canonized Guillermo's feelings for Nandor on screen for the first time and the latter showed that it was not just a single episode, throw away scene. Instead they continued with Guillermo being jealous of Nandor and his sexual partner. That was huge. But the fandom still hasn't blown up fully, that happened later during season 3. And I think it's important to say that because they wrote and filmed season 3 before the show blew up. They cannot say they wrote those scenes to please (or bait) fans. They weren't 'pressured' to do anything with Nandor and Guillermo. Season 3 was also when the very heavy Nandor/Guillermo promoting started. (Like the parody of The Bodyguard poster with 'Never fall in lo-', for example). Now, I don't remember if the first articles calling them the will-they-won't-they couple of the show came out during this season or later, but it was definitely past season 3. So by the end of season 3 the fandom has grown large and people were obviously very into the ship.
Now we can say shippers are pushy or annoying but fans can be annoying in general. People can be annoying lol. When your show grows big enough, annoying people you don't like are going to watch it too. (I'm sure if those annoying people are cishet men then this burden is easier to bear but I digress. I am a little bitter, after all). But at this point, fans had no reason to be pushy, we thought every sign was pointing to canon romantic Nandor/Guillermo.
At this point, the show saw how large the fandom has grown and how invested people were in Nandor/Guillermo. If that's not what they wanted, if they felt people were seeing things differently than how they intented, they could have pulled back. They had enough time between season 3 and season 4 to do that. But they didn't. Instead, they doubled down and continued to do the same for 2 more season. Even if by season 5 the latest we already had Paul saying weird things about the dynamic.
Instead it seems they decided to pull back in season 6 but by then it was too late. People were expecting them to come through on the thing they have been teasing for 3 seasons. And then they blamed the fans for not liking what they offered up instead. For wanting 'pornographic scenes'. Because it's 'not that kind of a show'. They say this about a show with an episode called The Orgy.
And even while saying all that, they didn't stop them from teasing the fans until the very last moment. Nandor's 'you know what would be cooler than being friends' is just cruel lmao. And that's why it felt more like mocking to me. Not only because of what happened in the show, but because when I watch those scenes, I can't seperate them from how the cast and crew talk about the ship and the fans in interviews. They apparently now think it's stupid and weird but will gladly tease it in the show for whatever reason? It's funny because fans are weird and kinky, I guess. Things unheard of in relation to this show.
I also don't understand Kayvan and Harvey's complete 180 turn. During the early seasons, Kayvan was not really into the idea of the ship, saying it's a bit toxic due to the power imbalance in their dynamic but he seemed to go full throttle later, even overtaking Harvey in hyping the ship up. And then in the first post-finale interview, he says that 'Nandor is never going to have sex with Guillermo', even if the show left that door open with the last scene. And then there's Harvey, who was the first to say Guillermo has feelings for his boss, who is now championing the repserentation of platonic gay male friendships on tv. In his case, I can give him the benefit of doubt, because he must have his own experiences with that and it's not my place to dismiss or doubt them. I do find the change strange and have complained about it but it's more understandable than Kayvan's. (EDIT: I didn't read this interview after the finale but it just makes things even more confusing, if I'm honest.)
I tried to be as coherent as possible and write out all my thoughts about this topic but I most likely still missed some things. I don't really like to talk about my feelings and thoughts this elaborately because I find it difficult to fully express myself but I tried my best because I felt like I was going insane.
#i talked to a friend about this and it was nice so i ended up wanting to collect my thoughts and putting them out there#hopefully it makes sense#ask#wwdits spoilers#nandor x guillermo#and if you dont agree thats fine its just my experience and feelings on the matter#wwdits negativity#not really. more like paul negativity lmao. but just in case
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Top 10 2024
i was tagged by my beloveds @snug-gyu to post my top 10 posts of 2024. Thank you for tagging me, I miss doing tag games so much đĽ˛
i'll be tagging @applejongho @lavandulacosmos @vertiny @baekhyunnybyun @hwanswerland @hwatermelon @seonghwasblr @hongtonie @rlvaille @dinotual (no pressure!)
1,588 notes Apr 22 2024 â MY PRIDE. THE WORLD SERIES
2. 1,260 notes Jun 1 2024 â the 4 horsemen fairies of WORK stage
3. 1,183 notes May 24 2024 â yeah i still think this is crazy
4. 1,175 notes Nov 15 2024 â iconic move *mark lee's tone* **those who know, understand**
5. 1,149 notes Feb 10 2024 â legendary moment in both ateez and atiny life: a free kith from hongjoong for his babies
6. 1,137 notes Jun 7 2024 â yunho wanted to be smaller
7. 1,110 notes Aug 12 2024 â đđđđđ
8. 1,057 notes Mar 19 2024 â and his đđđđđ
9. 1,026 notes Apr 20 2024 â my "victorian era man" moment
10. 1,012 notes Jun 8 2024 â hahahehehohoheehee *dead*
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Fandom Friday, 12/20: Fan Art!
Hello again, everyoneâŚand welcome to another installment of Fandom Friday, the two-post series where I go off to find new and interesting fanworks that might need a bit more visibility.
Before we get started, I think I have a few quick things to say to you all, so here goes--first; I'd like to thank everyone who voted in this poll, and who also helped me decide on a slightly more solid direction for this project.
Second, as that same poll decided not too long ago, I will be switching the showcase content from one week to the next...so, while this week will show off fanart, the next week will show off fanfiction, and so on.
And third, as it's a bit close to Christmas in my part of the world, there might be a few choices in winter clothes and/or Santa costumes as a result.
Anyways, before I get too distracted or lost...here, now, are my picks of the week.
THE CLONE WARS
The Clone Wars Fanart--By @carrion-art:
The Clone Wars Fanart--By @gingermaybel:
THE BAD BATCH
The Bad Batch Fanart--By @moonkrab99:
SKELETON CREW
Skeleton Crew Fanart--By @unlaww:
Skeleton Crew Fanart--By @ars-de-elysium:
THE MANDALORIAN
The Mandalorian Fanart--By @samscarr1985:
The Mandalorian Fanart--By @faivsz:
AHSOKA
Ahsoka Fanart--By @timetodiverge:
THE SEQUELS
The Sequels Fanart--By @reylosaurus:
The Sequels Fanart--By @artbyjasonleung:
In conclusion, as part of my mission to poke around the Star Wars fandom and highlight those artists who might otherwise go unnoticedâŚI hope you will check out the links I have included for yourselves and like, comment on, and reblog them, as well as also giving the artists a few more followers to their Tumblr pages.
Please also like and reblog this latest installment so that these links can be spread around to as many other fans as possible, just in case not all of them can tune in at the same time.
An additional thank you goes to @djarrex for making the divider I used earlier in this post, but still want to give credit for.
And finally, so that I do not forgetâŚthank you, stay safe, and Iâll see you in the next post!
No Pressure Tags:Â @melymigo @algo-o-nada @the-osborn-way @everybirdfellsilent @skellymom
@leos-multifandom-corner @maggie-dylan @leenathegreengirl @gun-roswell @tazmbc1
@bluedeedeedoop @its-time-to-rise-above @tlmtwelve @apocalyp-tech-a and anybody else who might be on the lookout for new SW fanart.
#star wars#starwarsblr#star wars fanart#fandom friday#the clone wars#the bad batch#skeleton crew#the mandalorian#ahsoka#the sequels#star wars the clone wars#star wars the bad batch#star wars skeleton crew#star wars the mandalorian#star wars ahsoka#star wars the sequel trilogy#the clone wars fanart#the bad batch fanart#skeleton crew fanart#the mandalorian fanart#ahsoka fanart#the sequels fanart#let's be careful out there
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Okay, I'm. Feel free to ignore this OP but if you are interested in discussion:
How do you define popular?
I really enjoy the angle at the beginning. Surely some of those other restaurants which couldn't keep up were equally passionate about food and not just out to get their paycheck. I appreciate the sympathy that drives this whole idea. It really is unfortunate not everyone can live their dreams in this reality we have on hand right now, where scarcity is very much present.
There are limits on the human attention span which will likely remain even after we solve the scarcity of basic needs, I agree.
But how do we define popular?
From Wikipedia for most watched YouTube videos:
"In November 2005, a Nike advertisement featuring Brazilian football player Ronaldinho became the first video to reach 1,000,000 views.[1] The billion-view mark was first passed by Gangnam Style in December 2012. On January 13, 2022, Pinkfong's "Baby Shark" became the first video to hit 10,000,000,000 views.[2]"
I would argue that we are currently undergoing a fascinating boom in artistic popularity and have likely not achieved the peak yet, even. The barrier of entry is low, yes. So is the layperson's access, such that even the most novice artist has a good chance of getting their art in front of hundreds of people, who, yes, may never choose to engage, yet how many people do you ignore on a short walk in your daily life? New York City had a population of 3 million people in 1900, and we can assume the odds of them all walking past the same lamppost was unlikely. Nowadays a small sticker or poster put up there can be photographed and shared across millions of views...yes this is anecdotal, I can't find the post I'm thinking of, but stretch your imagination a little bit. Bear with me. Sure, whoever tagged that lamppost probably isn't going down in the history books. Is that always the dream? To be remembered forever?
Or is it simply to be known in this moment, shared with a half dozen or half a million individuals who expended their limited attention on this small thing for awhile?
The owners of the closed restaurants would likely rather have gotten the acclaims and the media attention it takes to open dozens of locations. They would have appreciated an increase in all the various finite pressures which no doubt led to their closure. They weren't popular enough. They didn't have the social capital of the success story in your book. If everyone's dream is to achieve world rending fame the likes of which we'll still be discussing when Genghis Khan is forgotten, to reach the apex of their field such that it cannot ever be discussed without their name in the next breath...not everyone can achieve that dream.
But in a world where more people than ever are offering up their finite resources for art, for tasty food, then yeah, I can imagine a post scarcity utopia where everyone is also popular. It's not that much bigger of a stretch.
I've been reading a self-help book (don't ask) and they had this anecdote about this successful restaurateur and his struggle to operate dozens of restaurants. They talk about how the competition was steep, that at each location they had to be the ones to attract an audience, while nearby tried to do the same, but couldn't keep up and went out of business. Which kind of took me out a little bit because. Hmm. So obviously the story was framed with the guy as protagonist, about his passion for food and his drive to succeed. And I won't say he did anything wrong by doing his best, I'm happy for him that he succeeded and gets to live his life working with his passion and achieving his dream. But like, since these are real people being discussed, rather than characters, it did scan a little oddly to me to brush over in a line or two all the unnamed people who were probably equally passionate and driven, but yet failed, and thus could not be the focus of this story.
But I guess that's how it goes, right, for anybody to be the best at X thing, there have to be plenty of people who tried and failed. With occupations specifically there's the added bit where this reflects too a loss of livelihood and financial stability.
But even in a perfect world where society has moved completely beyond poverty, an imagined post-scarcity utopia, I'm not sure this is a problem that can conceivably be solved, no amount of resources can fix limited human time, attention, and prioritization. It kind of reminds me of that one tumblr post about the concert ticket problem, where even infinite resources still means only a limited amount of people can get tickets to a concert. Except rather than a temporary luxury (a single concert) it's an entire lifestyle; there's only a limited amount of popular restaurants.
But that's not really a hypothetical situation, though. That's something already happening today, in real life. And not just with restaurants. There have always been roles, lifestyles, jobs, goals, where the supply is far greater than the population can sustain. One only has to look at say, the art field, or all the people who want to be writers, to see that. And in those examples we can kind of see how this would play out - with the internet, the barrier to entry for creating and sharing art or writing is super low, anybody who wishes can be a writer or artist, and that's a wonderful thing. But the sheer amount of works being produced means an ever-shrinking percentage become well known and popular, simply because there are so many all competing for space in the public consciousness. And with art, at least, there is hypothetically room for an uncountable number of works to exist, without needing maintenance after being completed. For someone with a dream of being a chef and opening their own restaurant, you have additional concerns, like limited physical space, and having to maintain it through daily work rather than it ever being "completed." So probably the cap on the amount of popular restaurants able to exist simultaneously is even lower than the amount of popular artists. So unfortunately, no matter what, it seems only some people in life will be able to live their dreams.
#maybe i'm just optimistic idk#i was nodding along until the end then i was loke wait. huh?#so. sorry this is me puzzling that out and answering myself
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15 Questions
thanks for the tag @ongreenergrasses, a few days late it's been a wild weekend haha
1. Are you named after anyone?
the name on my birth certificate is that of a cartoon character's name, I was a surprise child after my mom had her tubes tied :o)
2. When was the last time you cried?
Cried a little bit earlier while watching 911 Lonestar haha
3. Do you have kids?
one whole child, yes. he's wonderful and the light of my life
4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
I wouldn't say a whole lot, I'm more good at delivering something completely void of emotion ngl
5. Whatâs the first thing you notice about people?
eyes, I usually notice their eyes and uhh like the tone of voice they use when speaking to me for the first time because that can set precedent to a lot of things
6. Whatâs your eye color?
it blue
7. Scary movies or happy endings?
I like some scary movies, but typically prefer happy endings bc I'm a baby
8. Any special talents?
I am good at recalling off the wall things someone said months ago. I'm also very good at making people laugh with horrible jokes :)
9. Where were you born?
South Carolina haha
10. What are your hobbies?
I watch a lot of history related videos, uhhh I also like to read articles about techy computery things bc my boss shares them in teams all the time and uhh i hope to pick up knitting/crochet this year now that my hand is all good :)
11. Do you have any pets?
a cat named mango that doesn't live with us bc we have a no pet policy here ):
12. What sports do you play/have you played?
I used to play volleyball in high school and I pitched on my high school baseball team
13. How tall are you?
5'6 (and a half)
14. Favorite subject in school?
Psychology, Forensic Science and History
15. Dream job?
I dunno, I honestly really like what I'm doing now (front office at an IT place), maybe in the future I'd like to learn more things about the technical side and dabble in that? Who knows what the future holds for me :)
tagging: @fornhaus @gholou @sugarchains @callmelittlesanshine @primoscreampie @spcecowboyyy @etanesnil Don't feel obligated to do this haha, just tagging a few people I see on my dash immediately because it feels weird to keep doing these and not tag anyone hahaha
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spent the first hour and change at work deleting some old files and am having a grand ol time laughing at myself for not realizing i was a lesbian sooner
#vulnerable tag rambles ahead please be kind abt them i didnt intent to ramble this much but i dont wanna delete it eitehr#me to every single man i have ever dated after 6mo-1y: yeah hey this really isnt working out i dont really know why but i really hate mysel#and i dont want to blame you because i dont think you did anything inherently wrong here; i think this is something about me but i need#space to figure out why im feeling this way [every single one reacted by telling me No i wasnt allowed to leave btw]#i hold very complex feelings about these relationships esp bc of them ending in very violent/chaotic ways most of the time#but its interesting to look back at it all and realize ive left every man for the same reason (which is that ive hated myself Every Single#Time ive dated a man) and its funny bc i recognized the self hate pretty early on w/ cishet men but when it came to queer men it was#much more confusing (esp w/ nto knowing Any lesbians at that point in my life). im so happy im a lesbian tbh#i have a lot of issues w/ the racism fatphobia and transmisogyny present in lesbian groups#and also coming out as a lesbian really truly saved my life. before i met my wife i was quite literally in a 3yr abusive relationship that#definitely would have died in if i hadnt realzied i was a lesbian and ran from him#its also weird seeing liek the hard evidence of the things that happened to me btween 2016-2020 tbh#cause that was such a bad time of my life. i truly dont know how i survived it but im so glad i did#like the three major relationships in my life b4 meeting my wife was: guy who was in college when i was in HS who stalked me when i left;#guy who was a year younger than me who cheated on me the entire time while telling me he was being victimized (he wasnt; this was very mess#guy who saw the very messy toxic ldr i was in and helped me dump my ex then decided that meant we were in a relationship [insert 3 yrs here#and admittedly all 3 years with him werent the same level of abusive but it was definitely unhealthy from the start considering I Didnt Kno#we were together until he wanted to celebrate vday and got mad i didnt know our anniversary - and like this isnt including the other stuff#that happened between those Relatonships[tm] (cause ive never been monogamous; these were just the Major Relationships)#like i genuinely think if i hadnt come out i'd be dead rn given just how dangerous my relationships were/continued getting#i am also so tired now that ive seen all this cause like. fuck i can barely believe it and i not only lived it but have PTSD about it#i should write about my life sometime. i feel like it'd be cathartic to try and make a tangible timeline and stories from the years ang stu#anyway yeah. be nice about the tag rambles. dont message me with pity or curiosity or anything about this. i dont usually talk abt this stu#publicly bc i hate the ways ppl start tryign to baby me when they realize my life has been extremely fucked up until only a few years ago#n im still working on accepting kindness from others bc of [insert life traumas here] but its a long process so pls respect my need for jus#being heard rn w/o too much pressure< 3 (but ig if u do read this can u like it cause i feel a little crazy seeing all the evidence of the#stuff i experienced now also cause fuck ik logically it was but also i cant believe it was all real still yk)
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like i genuinely cannot believe thegall that she has quinn saying that oh they loved being servants... really??
[ID: Text reading:
"âI let them go into the front parlor together, and then I went into the kitchen for lunch, where Jasmine was just telling Big Ramona that they were rich. I hated to break up their happiness with my glum looks and I blamed it all on hunger. Besides, Jasmine had always been rich and so was Big Ramona. They just never wanted to leave Blackwood Manor, everybody knew."/end ID]
#twist rambles#vc posting#sorry im so fucking sick of it. 1. set in 1990. 2. she does this w like quite literally EVERY slave character (of which most are barely#prominent characters outside of her using antiblack stereotypes. as im sure u can imagine which one of those a character named big ramona#fits.) and 3. we are really supposed to be on quinns side after it seems he pressured jasmine into sex after using terms such as#âmy chocolate candyâ âcafe au lautâ âmilk chocolateâ to her. like out loud. we are supposed to like this guy?? like her racism (annes) know#no bounds atp#ask to tag#yeah haha the servants loveee being here lol they dont even need to be paid ^_^ theyre just that rich bc we are some of the GOOD ones. jesu#and this has been going on since the start of the book and just keeps on coming over and over#like not even to get into how all of these esrvants are objectified and jasmine esp is just reduced to a sex object. but the seconddd quinn#sees a white lady hes literally proposing. but jasmine isnt good enough for that in the narratives portrayal of her. its all fucking vile.#i dont want to hear ANYONE say she didnt have horrific handling of race when all this happens in this book and last book had mar.ius#referring to an indian man like he was an animal and had no human qualities. like genuinely i do not think ppl know how bad it is bc most#ppl stop after the first 3 books. and for good reason. anyways good god im so pissed off. my beautiful lj buddy had about 3 paragraphs on#the insane classism she demonstrated last chapter and it rly just keeps continuing to this chapter. like im sorry idc abt how rich quinn is#i need him dead. for many reasons. anyways good god. this book is hell.
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It's all fun and games until it isn't
#dumb doodles#master m au#1) i think it'd be neat if he tagged along with the other minions sometimes not to help but to follow around the hero(s) to make them laugh#the princess and the green guy are doing this hero thing all WRONG#they should be happy and smile because that's what heros are supposed to DO#the turtle gets it; he seems thrilled as heck during all this#plus....there's just something extra annoying about greenie not enjoying being the main hero and being so /miserable/ looking....#2) ....does. anyone else think mario might... subconsciously internalize his image as a hero?#like; don't get me wrong; he loves helping others and is by default; a happy lil guy#but...it probably is a lot of pressure to be that constant rock and source of comfort#he's probably mostly okay with it and it probably doesn't cross his mind to be resentful or bitter about always being the hero#there's just this small small; easily ignorable part of him that's tired of it#that the mister m persona brings to the forfont in a kinda ugly way if you crack that mask hard enough#in other words; if he drops the smile; then i think his more bitter thoughts and feelings he hides both as mario and master m#are a bit more...obvious if that makes sense#ANYWAYS THOSE BOYS ARE GONNA NEED SOME THERAPY AFTER THIS#3) i. honestly forgot if the mimi fight was before or after the first mr. l one lmao#i just wanted to do some silly puns before the sucker punch#anyways; it's an au; luigi probably isn't collecting hearts in the proper order chaotic lil man he is#super mario#mario#luigi
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9 people you'd like to get to know better
I was tagged by the lovely @fabdante (sorry for taking so long to do this!!)
last song you listened to: i was last listening to last podcast on the left so i shuffled my playlist and it gave me Psychosocial by Slipknot
fav colour: lavender purple or neon green
currently watching: havent watched much TV besides Ru Paul's Drag Race lol
sweet/savoury/spicy: spicy!!!
relationship status: single :((( (tho this year/next year im gonna try once i have the energy)
current obsession: metal gear rising! i have raiden rotating in my head like a rotisserie chicken
last thing i googled: tickets for the amity affliction concert :)
tagging:
@vhsv0id @chickfoley @loveitselfofitself @infinitelines and @quakebeats
#asks#joey.txt#thank you for the tag!!#also those who i tagged dont have to do it if you dont want to! no pressure :3
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i need to get out of this house so so bad
#snac munches#don't open tags i'm ve/nting ok#432462464362#231321421421#43243242352#etc. to block it#sorry if these are actual tags somehow. my bad#i will not go into details but this blogger may not be here by the week#literally just staying in this house with 3 other people#staying in 1 room all day#no job no money no food friends moved on#like what do i even do#my mom is the only one of those 3 that talks to me and it's never about me#never [how are you feeling] [do you wanna go out] [wanna do something together?]#just about my future so much pressure GOD#i never thought i'd have one of those i thought i'd be dead before 16#Can i have a moment. Pelase#and i TRY i try to get out of my room#i spend time with my mom but it's so one-sided#i listen to her when she talks and i watch shows with her and go places she likes#the moment i bring up one of my interests she brings out her phone or goes [i wasn't listening what?]#Mann I Couldn't even get anything for my birthday sobbing#And now that i think abt it my mom didn't get me anything either?? i get that we're short on money but like#i didn't even get a [happy birthday]#And we've been infested with beetles for 4 YEARS nothing's been done#I am at my limit fr#a2t#<- jic
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updated my rules to include shipping info + a bit more about my monster muses specifically, since shipping with at LEAST one muse on this account is probably inevitable at some point
#ă from the rumblings comes a song: ooc. ă#tldr i don't know who is and isn't open for ships so if you jive with a particular muse after writing with them some by all means feel free#to ask and we can see if it would work; crossover ships are absolutely wonderful too so don't feel afraid to ask even if the verse is#different!#also that all my monster muses are fully sapient and open to shipping with humans/wyverians/nonhumans/other monsters/etc provided they vibe#and most of them possess their true formďźa 'hybrid' form and their human/wyverian form but all of them can and will spend at least Some tim#in their true forms and a lot of them Prefer that form#i don't think? that'll be an Issue here on tumblr but on twitter ojhhhh my god nobody would rp with you if you didn't basically make your#monster muse a glorified human. i had ppl try to pressure my muse ic to use their human form just. for a conversation?? then proceeded to#drop the int and cease to acknowledge me whatsoever when i refused because my muse didn't see the point in wasting the energy to shift form#when they can talk perfectly fine in their true form#not ALL of my monster muses speak words verbally (soul comes to mind as one who typically doesn't) but those who don't still have plenty of#ways of expressing themselves#also they choose not to not because they CAN'T because they either don't Want to or mimicking the sound of speech is hard on their throat#(ie soul) so they opt to not unless they Really want to make a point or make damn sure they're being listened to#nonverbal/non-words communication is a valid form of communication and i like writing natural monster/dragon communication through sounds#and body language. it is very fun<3#sorry for the tag spam ramble btw i do this Often. nicer than dumping it all in the body of the post yknow?
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When you're on a time crunch but your (presumably) ADHD brain decides "fuck you I want to write"
#and NO this is not a time crunch I can be flexible on and YES I literally have to do it and NO there's nobody here to help#we've established I function best under pressure BUT APPARENTLY THIS ISN'T PRESSURE ENOUGH#kill me#also I have like. 2-3 days min 2 weeks max to somehow get my dog to walk well enough on a leash that he won't pull on distractions#harder than it sounds#especially because I'm working off of YT videos without help#(I'm trying to look at trainers for help but A I will be completely alone in paying those expenses for a while)#(and B I don't know where to look except for local pet store that we don't have the gas to spare to drive to rn)#vent in the tags#umm yeah#I'm fine this is fine everything's fine#I want to stop existing and sit in bed chewing on peanut butter and doing nothing all day#but I'm determined to kick SAD in the butt this year (also my half-brother will get on my ass if I do that) so FUCK IT#I've taken my dog out and am trying to find someone to VC/call and am writing instead#FFFFFF#*dying*
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âď¸ please!!
Send me a âď¸ and I'll pick a poem I think you'd like
After flipping through my notebooks I decided to go with my first instinct for you, which was "A Toast to the Alchemists" by Laura Gilpin. This poem hasn't been published online officially, so they're aren't a ton of sites that have it that I could find with a quick Google search. However I've attatched photos of a reddit post with it along with my version in my journal.
I picked this poem because of its themes of time and the passage of time, as well as magic and giving emotional significance to the most mundane and clinical of things (atoms and elements). In other words, taking magic from the world around us, especially through a lens usually seen as lacking wonder or whimsy. Also vibes, I mainly did it based on vibes.
Some other poems I considered in my search/additional recommendations are listed under the cut:
If you liked the writing of this poem, and haven't read it already (or have) I definitely recommend "The Two-Headed Calf" by Laura Gilpin. It's by the same author and is her most famous poem and is fairly well known and also soooooo good. So good.
Poems with similar themes:
Poems with similar themes to "A Toast to the Alchemists" are
"Dusting" by Marilyn Nelson đ (literally cried to this. To be fair it was 10 minutes after I finished the HDM finale so it was mainly because of that but still. Great poem.)
"The Sciences Sing a Lullabye" by Albert Goldbarth
"Ozymandias" by Percy Bysshe Shelley (90% sure you've read this one its the time theme but inverted and it's great if you haven't)
Rejected picks/Poems that gave me Anu vibes (many for no particular reason):
Poems by Ted Kooser for some reason??? NO idea why they're very different from the ones above but some of my faves are "Selecting a Reader", "In a Country Cemetery in Iowa", "The Constellation Orion" and "Flying by Night" (I'm v much questioning this pick now but I'll keep it up here just in case)
Honestly a bunch of random unrelated stuff was popping out at me ("Listen" by Miller Williams, "Cartoon Physics, Part 1" by Nick Flynn, "Snow" by David Berman) and like a million billion more which I all got from the same anthology (Poetry 180, edited by Billy Collins) so if you want to read a bunch more poetry, based on vibes alone, I'd say look for the book, the website, or the sequel. The poems from that book aren't too similar to the one above but it's really one of two books I generally recommend people right off the bat (it was my lit teachers favorite lol) because it's meant to get young adults and teens into poetry and introduce contemporary poetry in general. Idk how much poetry you've read whatever but even if you aren't new to it it's still a good compilation of late 90s/early 00s poetry that makes you think but isn't super long/totally incomprehensible
Anyways that got WAY longer than I anticipated or anyone probably wanted but poetry is an obsession of mine and recommending poetry is much more complicated and harder that it looks, even for the people you know best in the whole world AFTER interviewing their opinions on poetry, not to mention how difficult it would be for internet friends on tumblr. But anyways there's a couple poems, I got the vibes as close as I could with the poems I had on file. (Although i do feel like I'm missing something big đ¤) Anyways thanks for the ask Anu! Hope you thought my pick was alright!
#and please for the love of god dont feel pressured to read ANYTHING on here i spend hours and hours reading poems so when i rattle off names#like that its very much me bouncing along like a frog eating skittles hopping from poem to poem to poem#based on vague vibes and feelings#also also also i already knew this when i made this ask game BUT. recommending poetry is like trying to juggle with your eyes closed because#you just KNOW you just KNOW there is a group of perfect fall in love poems out there but theres a million factors you have to take into#account to find them. like theres theme theres rhyme theres rhythm theres style theres readability/directness#and you have to try and predict someones opinions on all of that while also trying to gauge their level of patience on topics like#age of poem clarity use of standard language and spelling experimental features and line breaks#when a use of any of those they dont like can turn them off a poem entirely#like we were asoue fans together so youd probably like something with ambiguity and could tolerate a more classical look#BUT then comes in the length factor and also a bit clarity plus we have to remember theme and i cant think of any poems that fit that idea#with a theme you would like that i would feel comfortable recommending (because some poems are good but also difficult)#and i LOVE difficult poems theyre my besties but i always hate them during the first 3 reads at least and who has time for that if you dont#have poetry brain disease like i do#anyways. thats a very long way of saying. i tricked you into asking me to ramble abt poetry mwahahahahahahaha#also if anyone out there feels like theyre someone who rambles a lot about their interests to others and can at times feel a little guilty#abt that the poem âTo The Seaâ by Anis Mojgani talks a bit about that from an outsider pov#blah#poetry tag#answered#jacobsnicket
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What soul are you?
Suffocated Soul.
You have acquired the Suffocated soul. you're a dreamer and you've got a big appetite to consume the world and all it can give to you. and yet you were always told to not play with your food. and every time someone turns their back on you, rejects you. your dream. a sword is added to your back. each cold blade digging into the soft parts of your spine. there's 8 in your back and you've got the ninth. what will you do? reject the fate and hold onto the blade and use it to point it at others. lash out and create distance? or will you succumb to the inner turmoil and stab the ninth blade in yourself. show others the potential you have and all the wounds that come along with it. you have great potential that is being hidden, covered and choked out. learn to let your fuse burn longer before detonating the bomb of your temper.
( + BONUS MUSE! )
Shadowed Soul.
You have acquired the Shadowed soul. you are someone who is actively friendly and make sure that you are kind to others. every person, insect and leaf. all of it deserves respect and love. you wish people had more of this mindset, maybe it would've saved you some hardships. you try not to let your shortcomings hinder you from doing things. a firm believer in if you put your mind to it you will get it done. albeit your kindness something dark lurks in your heart. plagued with a jealousy and shadow that to your behest follows you everywhere. your ego can take a massive hit sometimes. mostly from your own words. you feel like a children's doll that was left behind because you can no longer give what someone needs or wants. Shadows aren't always bad. they provide shade and a break from the blistering sun. and many people will appreciate that of you. remember this.
tagged by: @asea0fmxses ( thank you so much! )
tagging: @skytired, @crownshattered & @celestiialnotes!
#ooc#( memes. )#oooooooooooo i loved this quiz so much actually!!!#really fitting answers as well. 10/10 i am VIBING#anyone else who wants to do this can do it too even if i didn't tag you! <3#( and of course no pressure to do it if you don't want to / you already have done; to those i tagged! )
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yeah so uhhhh weâre always permanently low on motivation so umm yeah sorry but we are doing one of those note things
20 notes: we will try to take our meds more consistently
50 notes: draw at least something once a week
70 notes: eat something for breakfast every day (at least an apple or protein drink)
100 notes: start keeping better track of our delusions/hallucinations
150 notes: tell our therapist about 2 of our headmates
200 notes: start a system journal
300 notes: tell our therapist about 5 of our headmates
500 notes: tell our therapist about all of our headmates
700 notes: tell our doctor about about our chronic pain
1000 notes: eat something medium for breakfast at least three days a week (like a bowl of cereal)
1500 notes: ask our closer friends to use she/her less (they know that weâre trans)
from here on itâs more about just good habits that we donât have much motivation for instead of self care type stuff, so less important
2000: draw every day (when possible)
2500: finish writing one of our wip stories/fics
3500: start working on an art commissions portfolio
4500: start working on a writing commissions portfolio
6000: set up art commissions
8000: set up writing commissions
sorry, we feel really guilty about this but we really need some motivation for this stuff. honestly we donât expect this to even get to 20, but thatâs fine! no deadline, ummm if you really want to spam idc, feel free to tag people. iâm not gonna tag anyone, i donât want anyone to feel pressured
edit: WHAT THE FUCK where did yall come from???????
edit 2: damn i was offline for like 2 days and it was barely at 300 and we log back on to 500+ uhhhh thanks ig lol
edit 3: well weâre almost at 700 so..i guess iâm gonna add a couple more?
edit 4: the gimmicks got to usâŚalso added some more
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Hello could I please request a fic where maybe the team doesnt like reader at first?
Winning Over the Kids [Aaron Hotchner x Female Reader]
Masterlist || Ao3||Word Count: 4.5k|| AN: Thank you for the request; I love seeing all of them come in <3 Feedback is also always welcomed! xx
Tags/Warnings:Â implied age-gap, reader is a forensic psychologist, no use of y/n, secret relationship, team dislikes reader at first, protective Hotch, no mention of Jack--so up to you if he exists or not lol, mirroring the Lo-Fi vibes with Kate Joyner/Hotch/Team, canon-typical themes, some fluff, team dynamics, established relationship
Sypnosis:Â When Erin Strauss contracts a forensic psychologist to work with the BAU Team, Aaron Hotchner isn't sure if he is more frustrated with the fact that they dislike you as their newest team member or as his secret girlfriend.
Aaron Hotchner had spent years mastering the art of control. His team relied on him to remain composed under pressure, a steady anchor in chaos. But when Erin Strauss informed him that she was contracting a forensic psychologist to assist the BAU, he felt his resolve stretch thin. Not because he doubted the decisionâhe knew you were exceptionalâbut because the team didnât know the full story.
You were brilliant, sharp, and confident. You had risen through the ranks faster than most, your reputation built on precision and expertise. Yet, whispers of you being a âworkaholicâ and âcutthroatâ followed you, a product of stereotypes surrounding young, successful women in high-stakes fields. Aaron had seen it before, but it infuriated him nonetheless, especially now that you were his⌠well, not officially, but close enough to feel the sting of those judgments on your behalf.
At the morning briefing, he broke the news. âThe Bureau has decided to bring in a forensic psychologist to collaborate with us on our cases. Sheâll be joining us starting tomorrow.â
Predictably, the room bristled.
âA shrink? Really?â Derek Morgan leaned back in his chair, eyebrows raised. âNo offense, Hotch, but we kind of know how to read people.â
Emily Prentiss folded her arms. âIsnât that the point of profiling? What does Strauss think weâve been doing all this time?â
JJ added carefully, âIs this about our mental health? Are we supposed to⌠talk to her?â
Spencer Reid, ever the analyst, frowned. âIâve read that forensic psychologists in consulting roles often critique operational dynamics. Could this be Strauss trying to monitor us?â
Aaron kept his face neutral, though he wanted to correct them all. You were nothing like what they imagined. âThis isnât about our capabilities. The psychologist has specific expertise in complex cases involving psychological manipulation. Her role is to supplement our efforts, not replace them.â
âYeah, until she starts picking apart everything we do,â Derek muttered.
Aaron resisted the urge to snap. They didnât know you yet. They didnât see the meticulous care you put into every decision, or the softer moments when you let your guard down with him.
The next day, you arrived at Quantico with a polished confidence that turned heads. Ready to take on the next case, which was local to the BAU.Â
You greeted the team with a professional demeanor, offering a firm handshake and an easy smile. But the tension was palpable. The teamâs skepticism hung in the air like a storm cloud, and Aaron felt his jaw tighten as he observed their guarded reactions.
Derek kept his distance, observing you with a critical eye. Emily was polite but cool, and even JJ seemed uncertain about how to approach you. Spencer avoided eye contact altogether. RossiâŚwell, Rossi seemed to sit back and take it all in.Â
âLetâs get to work,â Aaron said, more curtly than he intended, leading the group into the roundtable room.
You took a seat beside him, your notebook open and pen poised. âIâve reviewed the case files,â you began, your voice steady and self-assured. âThe unsubâs behavior suggests a deep-seated fear of abandonment, likely rooted in childhood trauma. But the escalation pattern indicates recent stressors. Have you explored potential triggers within the last six months?â
Reid blinked, clearly taken aback. âWeâuh, we considered family dynamics, but we didnât narrow the timeline that specifically.â
Your sharp gaze turned to him, not unkindly. âItâs worth revisiting. The timeline could give us a better idea of who influenced him most recently.â
Aaron noticed the way Reid shifted uncomfortably, and it grated on him. You were offering valuable insights, yet the teamâs resistance was evident.
After the briefing, Derek muttered to Emily, loud enough for Aaron to hear, âWell, she doesnât waste time, does she?â
Aaronâs patience wore thin. âMorgan, a word,â he said, his tone leaving no room for argument.
In his office, Aaron shut the door and faced Derek. âWhatâs your problem with her?â
Derek raised his hands defensively. âHey, I didnât say anything she didnât earn. She walks in here acting like she knows everything. What do you expect us to doâroll out the red carpet?â
âI expect you to treat her with the same respect youâd give any other professional,â Aaron snapped. âSheâs here because sheâs the best at what she does, and we need her expertise. Whatever preconceived notions you have, leave them at the door.â
Derek frowned but nodded. âGot it, Hotch.â
Aaron exhaled slowly after Derek left. He knew he couldnât shield you completely, but it infuriated him that he had to watch you navigate the teamâs cold reception.
That evening, after everyone had gone home, you found Aaron in his office. You closed the door behind you and leaned against it, crossing your arms. âSo, how bad was it?â
He looked up from his desk, his expression softening. âTheyâll come around.â
You smirked, though your eyes held a flicker of vulnerability. âIâm not holding my breath.â
Aaron stood and walked over to you, resting a hand on your shoulder. âYou donât have to prove yourself to them. I know who you are, and eventually, they will too.â
You tilted your head, a teasing smile breaking through. âIs that your way of saying youâre proud of me, Agent Hotchner?â
He couldnât help the small smile that tugged at his lips. âAlways.â
For a moment, the weight of the day lifted. Here, behind closed doors, you didnât have to be the prodigy or the psychologist with a reputation. You were just you, and Aaron was fiercely determined to make sure the team saw that tooâsomeday.
The next morning, as Aaron walked into Quantico, he noticed a huddle forming near Penelopeâs desk. Derek, Emily, Spencer, JJ, and Penelope stood together, their voices low but animated. He had planned to keep walking, but a snippet of their conversation caught his attention.
âIâm telling you, I heard sheâs impossible to work with,â Penelope whispered, her usual warmth absent.
âYeah, and sheâs already showing it,â Derek added. âControl issues, first day on the job.â
âSo far, Itâs just one case,â Emily said, though her tone was skeptical. âBut sheâs definitely⌠intense.â
âWe donât need someone analyzing us while weâre trying to profile an unsub,â JJ muttered.
âI donât think sheâs here for that,â Reid said hesitantly. âBut⌠yeah, Iâve heard the whispers too.â
Aaronâs jaw tightened as he listened. He wanted to intervene, to defend you, but he bit his tongue. This wasnât the time. Instead, he walked away, the sting of their words lingering. He felt almost betrayed. His team was usually better than this. They prided themselves on fairness, on seeing beyond the surface. But in this case, they were clinging to gossip and prejudice, and it hurt more than he wanted to admit.
When you arrived, you carried yourself with the same poise and determination Aaron admired. You greeted the team briefly, your no-nonsense demeanor firmly in place. âLetâs get to work,â you said, spreading the case files across the conference table.
Your approach was methodical and efficient, and though Aaron knew it was how you operated, he could see how it rubbed the team the wrong way. They werenât used to outsiders, especially not ones who came in with your level of authority and expertise. But they were professionals, and they pushed their reservations aside as the case progressed.
Aaron watched you closely throughout the day. You were unflinching in your analysis, your insights sharp and accurate. When you spoke, your voice carried confidence, but he could sense the subtle edge in your toneâa shield you had learned to wield over years of proving yourself.
After the case briefing wrapped up, Aaron found you in one of the quieter corners of the office. You were reviewing your notes, your expression focused but unreadable.
âHow are you holding up?â he asked, his voice low.
You glanced up, a small smile playing at your lips. âIâm fine, Aaron. Itâs not my first rodeo.â
He stepped closer, his brows furrowing. âIâve heard some of the things theyâve said,â he admitted. âThey donât know you, and theyâre wrong. Iâm sorry for how unwelcoming theyâve been.â
You tilted your head, studying him for a moment. âYou donât have to apologize for them. I get it. Theyâre protective of their team, and Iâm an outsider. Itâll take time.â
âIt shouldnât have to,â he said, his tone sharper than he intended. He softened, adding, âYou shouldnât have to prove yourself to them.â
Your smile widened, though there was a flicker of something softer in your eyes. âIâve been proving myself my whole life, Aaron. This is nothing new. Besides, Iâve got you in my corner, right?â
âAlways,â he said without hesitation.
For a moment, the weight of the day lifted, and he allowed himself to take comfort in your resilience. But as he returned to the team, he resolved to address their behavior. They needed to see you for who you truly wereâand he wouldnât rest until they did.
During the next case you assisted on, the tension had been simmering all day, and Aaron could feel it building like a storm. You had just delivered a sharp, insightful breakdown of the unsubâs likely behavior patterns, pointing out inconsistencies in the case file that had gone unnoticed. It was the kind of analysis that would have earned respect from anyone else, but not today. Not from this team, not yet.
The briefing room was quiet for a moment after you finished speaking. Emily exchanged a glance with Derek, and JJ tapped her pen against the table, her lips pressed into a thin line. The air felt heavy, almost suffocating.
âThatâs⌠an interesting perspective,â Derek said, leaning back in his chair. His tone was polite, but Aaron caught the subtle edge, the unspoken doubt.
You didnât falter. âItâs not just a perspective,â you replied, your voice calm and measured. âThe data supports it. If you cross-reference the victimology with the geographic profileââ
âWe get it,â Emily interrupted, her tone sharper than usual. âBut weâve been doing this a long time. We know how to read behavior.â
Aaronâs jaw tightened. He glanced at you, but your expression remained composed, even as he could see the faint tension in your posture. You nodded slightly, as if conceding the point, and continued reviewing the case files without another word.
The meeting wrapped soon after, but Aaron lingered behind, pretending to organize his notes. Thatâs when he heard it.
âI donât know how much longer I can deal with her,â Emily muttered as the others gathered near the coffee station. âSheâs so⌠clinical. Itâs like she doesnât even care about the victims, just the data.â
âSheâs got control issues, for sure,â Derek added. âLike sheâs got something to prove.â
JJ sighed. âMaybe Strauss sent her to micromanage us. I mean, why else would she be here? Weâre already the best at what we do.â
Aaron slammed his folder shut, the sound echoing in the otherwise quiet room. The team froze, turning to see him standing there, his expression dark and unreadable.
âEnough,â he said, his voice low but laced with unmistakable anger. He stepped toward them, his gaze sweeping over each of them. âI donât know whatâs more disappointing--your lack of professionalism or your willingness to tear someone down based on assumptions and gossip.â
The team exchanged uneasy glances, but no one spoke.
âYou think sheâs here to micromanage you? Sheâs here to help. And the fact that you canât see the value in her insights says more about your egos than it does about her methods.â
âHotch, we didnât meanââ JJ started, but he cut her off.
âNo,â he said firmly. âYou did mean it. And if you spent half as much energy working with her as you do undermining her, weâd be a hell of a lot closer to catching this unsub.â
The room fell silent. Aaron rarely raised his voice, and when he did, it carried the weight of finality. He let the silence hang for a moment before he continued.
âSheâs not here to prove herself to you. Sheâs already proven herself, time and time again. Itâs time for you to rise to her level, not drag her down to yours.â
With that, he turned and walked away, his heart pounding in his chest. He knew heâd have to address this further later, but for now, he needed to find you. He wanted to make sure you were okay to remind you, in whatever small way he could, that he was still in your corner. Always.
Aaron Hotchner found you where he expected to: in one of the unused offices, deep in thought over the case files. You were perched on the edge of the desk, flipping through pages with a sharp focus that never failed to impress him. The tension heâd carried since leaving the briefing room eased slightly when he saw how calm you were.
You didnât even look up when he stepped inside. âDidnât expect you to find me so quickly,â you said, a small smile tugging at the corner of your lips.
Aaron leaned against the doorframe, arms crossed. âI needed to check in. The teamâŚâ He trailed off, his jaw tightening. âThey were out of line.â
That made you pause. You glanced up at him, amusement flickering in your eyes. âAaron, itâs fine,â you said, setting the file down. âIâve been in this position before. People donât like change, and they donât like outsiders. Iâm used to it.â
âYou shouldnât have to be,â he replied, his voice firmer than he intended. âItâs not fair, and itâs not professional.â
You tilted your head, studying him in that way you always did when you were about to cut through the noise. âThey donât know, Aaron. About us.â Your tone was even, but there was a hint of something deeper there--not accusation, just acknowledgment.
He stiffened slightly, but nodded. âThey donât. And Iâd prefer to keep it that way. For now.â
You let out a quiet hum, leaning back on your hands. âFor now, sure. But you should think about it. Theyâre already questioning why youâre defending me. If they find out later that itâs because weâre involved, it wonât sit well with them. Theyâll feel like youâve been hiding something important.â
âTheyâll feel betrayed,â Aaron said, the weight of the truth settling over him.
You nodded, a small, knowing smile on your face. âExactly. Look, I can handle their doubts, their gossip, whatever they want to throw at me. But you need to decide how long you want to keep this a secret. Theyâre your team. Theyâre loyal to you. But they also need to trust you.â
Aaron stepped further into the room, his expression softening as he regarded you. âYou donât care what they think of you, do you?â
âNot even a little,â you said with a shrug, your confidence steady. âIâve spent years dealing with this kind of thing. Itâs not new, and it doesnât bother me. What does bother me,â you added, meeting his eyes, âis the idea of this coming out later and making things harder for you. Or for us.â
Aaron let out a slow breath, running a hand over the back of his neck. You were right, of course. You always were. He couldnât keep this from his team forever, and things with you had grown too serious for him to pretend otherwise. He had never been one to let his personal life interfere with his work, but this was different. You were different.
âThis is serious,â he said quietly, almost to himself.
You arched a brow, a teasing smile breaking through. âWow, Aaron. Way to make a girl feel special.â
He stepped closer, his lips curving into the faintest smile. âYou know what I mean. Things are serious between us. Youâre not going anywhere, and neither is the team. I need to find a way to make this work.â
You softened, your hand brushing against his as he stood next to you. âYou will. Theyâll come around, Aaron. And if they donât, wellâŚâ You shrugged, the corner of your mouth lifting in a smirk. âIâm not going anywhere either.â
Aaron felt a warmth spread through him, a rare sense of peace in the midst of the chaos. You were right, as always. He would figure it out--not just because he had to, but because you were worth it.
And for the first time in a long while, he allowed himself to believe that it would all work out.
Aaron Hotchner had always believed in leading by example. Transparency, fairness, and honesty were core tenets of how he ran his team, and they had rewarded him with loyalty and mutual respect. But as he stood in the conference room, waiting for his team to gather for an unscheduled meeting, he knew he had failed to uphold one of those principles.
The team filtered in, curiosity and unease written across their faces. JJ and Emily exchanged glances, Reid clutched his ever-present notebook, and Derek leaned against the edge of the table with his arms crossed. Penelope, usually lighthearted, looked slightly nervous. Rossi lingered at the back, arms crossed, his brow furrowed in thought.
When the door closed, Aaron cleared his throat and took a steadying breath. âI asked you all here because thereâs something I need to addressâsomething I should have told you from the beginning.â
The team straightened, their collective focus sharpening. Aaron had their attention.
âYouâve all expressed concerns about having a forensic psychologist embedded in the team,â he began, his voice calm but firm. âYouâve questioned her presence, her methods, and, frankly, her character. Some of those comments have been professional disagreements, but others have crossed the line. Iâve let it continue longer than I should have, and for that, I take responsibility.â
Emily shifted uncomfortably while Morgan frowned. Reidâs brow furrowed in confusion, his pen tapping lightly against his notebook. Rossi, though silent, tilted his head slightly, a knowing look flickering across his face.
Aaron met each of their gazes in turn, his tone unwavering. âThe reason I know sheâs good at her jobâwhy I trust her, and why I know sheâs not here to spy on us or undermine our workâis because Iâve been seeing her outside of work. For a while now.â
The silence that followed was deafening. Reid blinked rapidly, his pen freezing mid-air. JJâs mouth opened slightly as if to speak, and Penelope let out a small, involuntary gasp. Derek sat up straighter, his brows furrowed in disbelief. Emilyâs eyes widened, but she quickly masked her surprise. Rossi, however, didnât look shocked at all. Instead, his lips quirked into the faintest of smirks, as though confirming a suspicion.
âI had no say in her placement on this team,â Aaron continued, his voice steady despite the tension in the room. âStrauss made the decision, and she made it clear that the reason is simple: sheâs the best. Youâve seen it for yourselves, even if you havenât wanted to admit it. Her insights have already helped move this case forward. She is not your enemy, nor is she here to judge you.â
He paused, letting his words sink in. âI didnât disclose our relationship because I wanted to keep our personal lives separate from our professional ones. But as your Unit Chief and as her partner, I will not tolerate disrespect toward herâwhether itâs behind her back or to her face.â
Reid, finally finding his voice, asked hesitantly, âDoes sheâŚknow about us? I mean, our dynamics, our methods? Or does she see us as part of the problem?â
Aaronâs expression softened slightly as he addressed the question. âShe knows exactly who you are and how good you are at what you do. Sheâs here to help you do your jobs better, not to interfere. But she also deserves the same respect youâd give any other member of this team.â
Rossi finally spoke, his tone measured. âAnd you think telling us this now is going to smooth things over?â His words werenât accusatory, but they carried weight.
âI think,â Aaron replied, meeting Rossiâs gaze, âthat you deserved to know the truth. And I think itâs time we focus on the job at hand rather than creating divisions that donât need to exist.â
The silence lingered until Derek broke it. âHotch, we didnât mean toââ
Aaron held up a hand. âI know you didnât mean harm, but intentions donât erase the impact. This team works because we trust each other. That trust goes both ways. If thereâs something you need to say, say it to me or to her directly. Gossip and disrespect have no place here.â
JJ nodded, her expression softening. âYouâre right. We were out of line. I thinkâŚI think we just felt blindsided.â
Aaronâs tone eased, though it remained firm. âI understand. Change isnât easy, but itâs necessary. Youâll see soon enough why sheâs here. Until then, I need your cooperation.â
Emily exchanged a glance with Morgan, then nodded. âWeâll work on it. I promise.â
Rossi gave a small nod of approval, his smirk gone but his understanding clear. âSheâs good, Aaron. Iâve seen it. Letâs make sure the rest of the team sees it too.â
Reid looked thoughtful, his pen tapping rhythmically again. âI think we canâŚadjust. If sheâs here to make us better, thatâs not a bad thing.â
Aaron gave a single nod, the tension in his shoulders easing slightly. âGood. Thatâs all I wanted to say. Dismissed.â
As the team filed out, murmuring quietly among themselves, Rossi lingered behind. âYou know,â he said, crossing his arms, âyou couldâve just told me this a week ago.â
Aaron allowed himself the faintest smile. âWould it have made a difference?â
âProbably not,â Rossi said with a shrug, âbut it wouldâve saved you the speech.â With that, he left, leaving Aaron alone to gather his thoughts.
For now, he had taken the first step. And he could only hope it was enough.
Over the next few days, Aaron began to notice subtle shifts in his teamâs behavior toward you. It wasnât immediate, nor was it dramatic, but the signs were there. During case briefings, they no longer exchanged skeptical glances when you spoke. Instead, they began nodding along or even asking follow-up questions. Derek, who had been one of the most vocal skeptics, offered a rare compliment about your interrogation technique after a successful suspect interview.
âSheâs got a way of getting under peopleâs skin,â Morgan admitted to Rossi when he thought Aaron wasnât listening. âIn a good way, I guess.â
Aaron didnât respond, but he tucked the comment away, feeling an unspoken sense of satisfaction.
Even Reid, who had initially kept his distance, began peppering you with questions about your graduate work. You seemed to enjoy indulging him, discussing obscure psychological theories with the same enthusiasm he brought to the conversation. JJ and Emily followed suit, no longer as guarded, and Penelopeâwhile still waryâhad gone out of her way to show you how to use the BAUâs internal systems.
Aaron observed it all with quiet pride. His team was warming up to you, just as he had hoped, and it wasnât because heâd told them toâit was because of you. Your intelligence, your confidence, and your ability to adapt were slowly breaking down the barriers theyâd put up.
That evening, as the two of you wrapped up some paperwork in his office, you leaned back in your chair and smirked at him. âYou know,â you said, your voice light with amusement, âyouâre enjoying this way too much.â
Aaron looked up from his file, one brow raised. âEnjoying what?â
âYouâre like the team dad,â you teased, crossing your arms. âAll broody and protective, wanting the stepmom to be liked by the kids.â
He couldnât help the laugh that escaped him, low and rich. âThatâs ridiculous.â
âIs it?â you shot back, grinning. âBecause I think youâve been paying more attention to their approval ratings for me than I have.â
He leaned back in his chair, shaking his head but still smiling. âMaybe. But only because I know how much they mean to youâand how much you mean to me. I want this to work.â
Your expression softened, and for a moment, the teasing dropped. âIt already is, Aaron. You donât have to worry.â
His smile lingered as he looked at you, the tension that had been weighing on him for weeks finally starting to lift.
The real sign of progress came at the end of the week. The team had just wrapped up a grueling case, and as everyone packed up their things, Derek clapped his hands together.
âAlright, weâre going out. Drinks, food, and maybe a little dancing. Whoâs in?â
JJ and Emily immediately agreed, and Reid nodded hesitantly, though he muttered something about âjust one drink.â Rossi chuckled but offered a quick âCount me in.â Penelope looked around, her bright demeanor back in full force. âWhere are we going? And more importantly, is there karaoke?â
Derek laughed. âNo promises, Garcia.â
Then, almost casually, JJ turned to you. âYou should come,â she said, her tone friendly and genuine. âYouâve had a long week too. You deserve to relax a little.â
Aaron didnât miss the slight hesitation in your posture before you smiled. âI might take you up on that.â
âGood,â JJ said, already texting someone. âItâll be fun.â
Aaron stayed silent, watching the moment unfold. The invitation wasnât forced or reluctantâit was sincere. It was an olive branch, extended without fanfare, and he could tell by the look on your face that you recognized it for what it was.
As the team began filing out, chatting about where to go, you lingered by his desk. âThat was unexpected,â you said quietly, glancing at him with a small smile.
âTheyâre coming around,â Aaron replied, his voice equally soft. âI told you they would.â
You smirked. âWell, Dad, looks like the kids like the stepmom after all.â
He chuckled, shaking his head as he stood. âLetâs just hope I can keep them from embarrassing us tonight.â
âOh, Iâm counting on it,â you teased, grabbing your bag. âNow, come on. Youâve got to show me if Unit Chief Hotchner can actually let loose.â
As you both headed out to join the others, Aaron felt a rare lightness in his chest. Things were falling into placeâhis team, you, everything. And for the first time in a long time, he allowed himself to enjoy it.Â
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