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„Supernatural” and „The X files” crossover (kinda) nobody asked for
Where do characters go when the end credits roll?
Dean Winchester finds himself in a place where fiction goes to die—a liminal void where stories, once forgotten, fade into nothingness.
He won’t go quietly—not when his family and friends could still be out there. Maybe even Cas, who he never hoped to see again.
Dean is not alone. Fox Mulder, a man who spent his life chasing the truth, refuses to stop—even in a place where truth means nothing. Together, they push back, searching for the answers that might set them free. Because if the only way out is through, they’ll do what they’ve always done—break the story wide open.
[read it on ao3]
chapters: 2/?
rating: mature
relationships: Dean/Castiel, Mulder/Scully
main tags: post finale, angst with a happy ending, psychological themes, everybody lives
taglist under the cut
my old tag list is a graveyard, so tagging some mutuals + those who seem interested, feel free to ask to be dropped from the list
@wanderingcas @castielslostwings @cheerfulripley @thetiredstuff @dark-angel-7 @darkshrimpemotions @demonlandline @valleydean @supersapphical @urne-buriall @bluishorange @myaimistrue @fromperdition @sailorsally @duckyboos-blog @acklesology @asecretvice @werepires @icefire149 @lulu-zodiac @caduceuzs @doctorprofessorsong @hallowed-by-thy-name @mybrainproblems @wigglebox @cockworkangels @destielette @deanwasalwaysbi @corancoranthemagicalman @one-more-offbeat-anthem @donestiel @holycafe @castiellesbian @you-cant-spell-subtext-without @you-keep-those @comebackcas @ltleflrt @madronasky @softboyscully @aurastiel @olfactoryventriloquism @pleaseraisemefromperdition @eclypseaf @jensenknowsdeanbetterthanyou @rheebydeeby @cannabiscasgate @bloodyentrails @wellofdean @bobwess @fellshish
#supernatural#destiel#the x files#x files#sculder#dean winchester#deancas#Destiel fanfic#fox mulder#fanfiction#sinnabonka writes#spn
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thanks to @itwasntimethatdidit40 @slimybeth69 @ace-turned-confused @joelmillerisapunk (i'm giggling at all your answers, btw esp) i love a smash or pass round or a FMK <3
ROUND ONE
Pero -> I may not know this man besides the time I accidentally learned what an oviposition fic was in someones kinktober list, but I see the anger and grime, I get the vision. Pound town with Pero. Primal nasty style.
Javi G -> It's not you, it's me. I hate to see a man smiling. I did enjoy the moments where I thought you might be evil. That worked for me. But it seems you must die now, soz.
Dave -> I'm on my knees.
ROUND TWO
Marcus Moreno -> The katanas and leather pants are truly a choice, feels Ross Gellar adjacent. Again, too much joy, to pure. God forbid we involve children. And for those reasons I must end your life.
Oberyn -> fuckass chinstrap aside, marry my bi prince. run a train with the ladies, gang bang, leave me with the harem, idc
Ezra -> I may not know you, but... we can freaky space smash. I read a sex pollen fic the other day and you wooed me.
ROUND THREE
Tim Rockford -> SMASH (acab) SMASSSHHHHHH, big man, broad man, biiiiiiiiiiig man, lemme at. him.
Agent Whiskey -> I see the Peña adjacent bod era and I respect it. Unfortch, you've been outclassed in this matchup. Soz.
Din -> My space guy!!! We have a special connection. I'll never forget reading Chapter 1 of Rough Day, you can achingly slowly drag my hand from ur neck to your cock any day.
ROUND FOUR
Lucien -> SMASH SMASH A THOUSAND TIMES SMASH! IN THE ALLEY, WITH THE WINE, AND THE GIMME A CIG! WITH THE CHAINS AND THE SHIRT IDGAFFFFFFFF
Javi P -> ngl, i had to consider swapping to smash bc the man's spirit doesn't want to be caged, ya know? i don't want him settled down, i want him tortured and emotionally unavailable. we'll have a long and unhealthy marriage <3
Dieter -> ur an enigma dude, it's not ur fault. i just need the other guys in carnal ways. goodnight.
ROUND FIVE
Frankie -> it's not ur fault, it's the bad pr. may you have many happy marriages in other AUs. i'm sure. but today, you die.
Marcus Acacius -> SMASH SHMASH SMASH pls all day all night, i'll learn latin idgaf i need him in ways i cannot describe with words. i have to go reread kat's III again, nobody talk to me
Joel Miller -> you're mine. all mine. by law. i hope that does make you uncomfortable bc i've got plans. i can make him worse.
npt: @auteurdelabre @gothcsz @swankyorange @syd-djarin @bitchesuntitled @thundermartini @hoelaris @probablyreadinsmut @letsgobarbs @yxtkiwiyxt @sunshinehaze1 @lilac-boo @icarusesdickarus
Comment who you’d choose from each round 👀🥵
#everyone give me a forehead kiss bc i made decisions instead of saying BOTH SAME TIME the whole way through#this was fun#where's bat boy tho#honorary mention#tag game#FMK#pedro pascal characters
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The Reason ~A Five Hargreeves/Female Reader Insert request (Complete)
Rated Mature for Explicit Sexual Content (20k word one-shot with 10 fast paced chapters)
Anonymous asked:
Please just give me the smuttiest enemies to friends to lovers, with some breeding kink PLEASEEE 🧍♀️🙏🏻
KayBreezy's reply: Okay. 😂 Done. See Below to read this wild adventure.
~Tags and Warnings: feral Five, soft Five angst, family fluff, flirting, humor, rough sex, story with plenty of smutty smut but it needs to build to get there so be patient and it will pay off, Five being wonderful and awful, smart female reader insert, Diego is a bomb ass bro, canon compliant plus extra addressing of shit they didn't bother to and I wish they would have, breeding kink, enemies-to friends-to lovers, some tags left off to keep you on your toes, season 5 TUA
~Very Important Note: DUE TO SPOILERS, DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCHED S4 This story starts where season 4 ends and reads like a season 5 start. It is canon compliant, letting you take what we were left with on the show, DISREGARDING the controversial sexual relationship that happened, or not. That's the big thing with this one. This is written so the reader can interpret that stuff as they want to. There are only two mentions in this that even come remotely close into that territory and those parts can also be looked at as Five simply feeling awful and not because that even happened. He has plenty of other reason for his sadness, why they felt the need to give him more and end them all, I will never know. 😭 I personally have always seen a special bond with Five and Lila, only not at all the way it played out in the show, and we will see some of my version of their admiration of each other in this one, and I did it to honor both these characters I love. It is also important to say, this is in no way written in a way that is triggering for those who hated what happened on the show. This is written to give them all something better. That was my point, and to try to do this request some justice. ❤️I hope you enjoy. Sending peace and love to all the beautiful TUA/FIVE fans.
THE REASON
Chapter one: The Beginning of the End
Slipping away, there was no reason to fight anymore.
Sensations Five couldn’t put into words overwhelming him, the glowing pulsation of The Cleanse began to cover them, first trapping their feet, then building up around their legs with terrifying speed.
As the pressure pushed at his layers of clothing, naturally, panic set in.
His mind screamed, DO SOMETHING!!!
He would have laughed at the irony along with his family if it wasn’t all so awful. Here they were cracking jokes when they were about to die, and there he was, the massive lump of guilt in his throat trying to kill him quicker than the looming mass of elemental alien goo.
Five’s entire life, he’d thought he was the strong one, that he could save them, but boy had he been wrong.
Even before this shit storm splattered the fan, he knew he should have been starting over, but he’d done very little in the way of living, or being there for any of them.
He pretended he was fine, but he wasn’t.
He was alone, like he always was, but he was too stubborn to admit how empty his life was.
Instead, he blocked all that out by playing CIA agent, foolishly not noticing that the people who’d hired him were in on all this.
Then, when it all went from bad to worse, Five ran from it. Once with Lila as they traveled the train to insanity together, and then again after that, when they’d finally made it back and he realized they couldn’t beat the horrible death blob Ben and Jennifer had become.
It took a lifetime to learn it, but there was no running from this, or the unforgivable things he’d done only to end up with nothing.
Heart sinking to unfathomable depths of despair, unable to look at their faces, or the thing consuming them, Five looked to the ceiling instead. Through the highest windows of what in another time had been their childhood home, the world outside was righting itself, the fire of rebirth was hard at work, correcting things the right way this time.
There was no reason for his suffering.
No reason for any of this.
His breath catching in his throat, the mass of destruction that was swallowing them crept up Five’s neck, seeping under his sweat drenched collar.
Shutting his eyes to block out the horror of what was happening, he forced himself to think about why this was the only way out.
“What shattered the timeline?” he’d asked the Five that greeted him at the interdimensional deli filled with different versions of him.
“Not what. Who,” his cocky doppelgänger replied while pushing a stray piece of hair out of his face.
They were 145,142 times trying to stop the apocalypse, doomed to save or destroy the world, over and over… ad infinitum.
This would go on forever. Those crazy bastards weren’t willing to rise above their own wants and needs, but he was.
Eliminate the Marigold by ending all of them, and you get no more cycle of apocalyptic destruction. Simple as that.
Despite Five’s steadfast acceptance of this fact, a rush of air crawled out of his gaped mouth, the sound of it gut-wrenchingly pathetic even to his own ears. His lower lip trembled as The Cleanse reached his chin. He jerked his head higher to get away from it, but it was no good.
He felt Lila squeeze his hand. He squeezed back, a tear slipping down his cheek, immediately eaten away by the sludgy mass burying them.
I’m sorry.
He was, for everything, but he couldn’t say it, not anymore. He couldn’t even breathe.
The taste of death covered his lips, filling his nostrils. A familiar crackle of static energy zipped up and down his spine even though he hadn’t summoned it, like his powers had life of their own, begging him to stop this.
Five opened his eyes one last time, a spike of adrenaline needlessly alerting him to the fact that he was about to suffocate from the disgusting booger-like substance pushing into his mouth.
Silently crying out, The Cleanse choked off his airway.
His body, insistent on his need to breathe, helplessly drew in the otherworldly gunk.
He was drowning.
He began to thrash.
Above, ash began to fall from the ceiling. Five felt the same desperation he had a lifetime ago while standing outside the burning gates of his home.
Like then, all he could think about was finding a way back to save them.
Just before the wave of glimmering slime slipped over Five’s head, a shadowed figure moved into his view on the second-floor balcony. The person propped their elbows on the railing. Extending their left hand, they began dangling a pocket watch, slowly swinging it back and forth on its silver chain.
As if dying wasn’t already shaking Five to the core, the ornately engraved disk they had looked exactly like a pocket watch he kept in a basket of broken timepieces back in his boyhood bedroom at the original Umbrella Academy.
He collected those discarded pieces of junk, trying to make their fragile parts work again because he saw something of himself in their busted balance springs and wheels, beaten and used, pushed aside, never able to prove to a dad that didn’t love him that he was good enough.
Reginald was right, he wasn’t.
“Don’t be so hard on yourself,” the young stranger said, as if reading Five’s thoughts. He angled his face into the light, the pouted line of his lips pulling to the side, mimicking one of Five's smiles almost perfectly. “For all this to work out, you had to get here.”
A faint swirl of blue energy lit up the boy’s hands as the floor rumbled under their feet. Chunks of the roof fell, but their pale green eyes wrinkled at the corners even more, not a hint of fear in them.
“I’d do this one for you, but I can’t,” he furthered. “As you always told me, when it comes to time travel, you don’t mess with the loops, and this is one hell of a temporal causality loop you set up.”
The dimple in the boy’s cheek deepened.
“No, you. No, me,” he calmly explained. “And that would mean this conversation wouldn’t be happening, resulting in you letting this end and game over for us.”
Pulling the old pocket watch back up, the boy popped it open, checking the time before he looked back down at Five through the mess of sun-kissed hair falling over his eyes.
“You know what to do. It’s time, Dad.”
He dropped the watch, the glint of metal sailing down into the abyss.
Lack of oxygen about to make him lose consciousness, The Cleanse covered Five’s shock filled eyes.
Getting crushed, he no longer felt the hands that had been holding his.
They were all gone.
As true terror set in, the last of the boy’s words echoed in his mind.
It’s time, Dad…
Chapter Two: Walk in the Park
Not even aware he was doing it at first, Five pulled at that undefinable feeling inside him that let him open doors no one else could. Within a second, the strings of time gave in to his demand, illuminating the darkness.
An explosion of violent light burst outwards, the force of it ripping his skin inside out, or it felt that way. At that point, Five wasn’t sure if he was still intact, or not. All he knew was, he’d given everything he had left, opening one final portal, not even accounting for the destination.
Flung into a tornado of time and space knitting itself back together into the one true timeline, Five landed in the only place he could.
Coming down fast, blindly flailing, he slammed down on top of a picnic table, sending the food airborne that Lila’s parents had just laid out for lunch.
Face smashed into what he was pretty sure had been a cake, Five let out a whimpered groan.
Fresh air ruffled his frosting coated hair, the white sugar standing out in stark contrast to his chocolate-colored strands.
Untwisting his legs, his dress shoe accidentally knocked into Claire’s can of orange soda, tipping it over. The fizzy mess started pouring out all over Lila’s feet as she glared at him.
Five rapidly blinked his eyes, still not sure if what he was seeing was real.
Everything was so bright, a canopy of green and blue.
Orange and yellow marigolds filled the landscaped gardens.
Upbeat music played somewhere in the distance.
“What do you know, the flying fart squirrel decided to join us after all,” Lila dryly noted as she wiped a piece of potato salad off her forehead, flicking it at Diego.
Unfazed by Five’s fumbled landing, Diego picked the mayo covered slop off his shirt, sticking it in his mouth as he rolled his eyes at her. “Come, on babe. Fivvv nev-lets us dow. I nn-ew-he-be-here,” he mumbled while reaching out to lend him a helping hand.
Once on his feet, Five swayed, but Diego held on, keeping him steady as he took in the full extent of his shell-shocked appearance. “Rough day, old man?” he asked, a look of worry bending his silly dad-stash into a frown.
“You could say that,” Five croaked.
He reached up, his trembling fingers brushing the ghost of stubble darkening his jaw.
“Thank God I’m not twelve years old again,” he breathed.
Diego and Lila looked at each other, eyes wide.
“Five…?” Diego questioned. “Since you still can’t calculate your decades long jumps worth a shit, why don’t you just use one of your briefcases to commute.”
“Uncle Five is here!” Grace shouted, abandoning the game of frisbee she was playing with Luther and Sloane. Bolting over, her arms flung around Five’s waist. “Did you bring me anything?” she asked, beaming up at him.
Five was speechless.
Her twin siblings screeched as they rolled around on a fuzzy blanket filled with toys. Behind them, camped out on the grass, or horsing around not far away, Five saw his entire family, and all the people from their past that they had loved and lost.
A few yards away, Dave was sitting with his back against a tree, Klaus lying next to him with his head in his lap.
Eudora, Sissy, little Harlan, Elliot, Ray, Ben and Jennifer…
Five kept counting.
To his left, Agnes and Hazel walked by, bird watcher guide in hand.
Even the Sparrows' faces dotted the crowded scene, the one Five didn’t recognize with blue hair oddly reminiscent of a non-cube version of Christopher.
“Holy shit,” he gasped.
With the buzz of the older kids laughing at their funny Uncle Five and his ruined suit, and the rest of his family looking at him like he needed to be locked up, the fear that everyone close to him was about to be wiped off the face of the Earth hadn’t even come close to wearing off. And that feeling only got worse when he spotted The Handler sitting on a nearby park bench.
Starting to walk towards her, he reached into his inside jacket pocket to pull out his CIA issued handgun, but it wasn’t there.
Getting nothing but a handful of Jello, Five ran right into Herb. In a domino effect, the smaller statured man started teetering backwards.
“Youch!” you cried as his heel dug into your opened toed dress shoe.
Everything you were holding slipped out of your hands as they flung out to break your fall.
Before hitting the dirt, your skirt flew up, giving everyone a show.
Looking about as thrown as you, Five looked down at the Temps Commission insignia on the journal you dropped, then the pocket watch that had fallen next to it.
He cursed.
Clenching his hands so hard it looked like he might hurt himself, he started shaking his head side to side. “Where is he?” he growled.
“Who?” you fired back at him, trying to get up.
“That kid!”
“What kid?”
Before Herb could say anything to add to your confused reply or find his handy-dandy Commission issued time stopper, Five took off again.
Scrambling to your feet, you reached out to catch his arm. He swung around with a snarl and shoved you to the ground again, then he blinked away, reappearing right behind The Handler, ready to choke her with his bare hands, the only thing stopping him being the lady coming past, pushing a baby stroller.
Seeing the real Grace’s smiling face, so much like that of his robot mother, Five looked even more manic.
“Stop!” Herb frantically cried out, realizing that something was off more than Five lacking any spatial awareness.
Five didn’t stop, and neither did you, clumsily coming after him, your dress shoes slipping on the grass, you yelled, “If you do this, you’re going to regret it!”
To your relief. Five lowered his hands.
You came to a stop in front of the Handler, your hands coming to your knees as you tried to catch your breath. She looked from you, to the crazed young man behind her.
She lowered her cell phone. “Can I help you?”
“No. Sorry,” you huffed, quickly storming around the park bench to take Five by the back of his food covered suit jacket.
“She doesn’t know who you are!” you whisper yelled at him as you towed him away from her. “What in the world are you thinking?”
Five angrily narrowed his eyes at you.
“This was your plan!” you barked, to which he equally angrily jerked his shoulder away from your hand.
Apparently, he wasn’t going to let you corral him back towards Herb, but he wasn’t opposed to stomping over there himself, which was fine by you, so long as he did, and started to calm his cake-covered ass down.
“Glad to have you back,” Herb nervously chuckled once Five was in earshot. “Sorry about that.” He glanced at The Handler who was happily chatting away on her cell phone again. “I’m sure some of this is still hard for you, but everyone affected by this needed to be in close proximity to perform all the alternations you wanted. This picnic took some time for us to set up, but we got it done. As far as they know, you all have been back here for weeks and we had nothing to do with this party.”
Five’s cold gaze didn’t falter.
After picking up the items he made you drop, you handed him his journal, the one that said to give it to him as soon as he arrived.
“I don’t want that,” he spat, refusing to take it from you.
“Maybe it would be better if we took this conversation back to The Commission,” Herb offered.
“Like hell it would,” Five snapped, “There is no way I am going back to that shitshow of manipulative sadists.”
“You are the leader of our shitshow of manipulative sadists,” you retorted.
Ignoring that and your offended expression, he came at you, a flash of light blinding you as he snatched the watch out of your hand. Reappearing a few yards away, he hissed, “Who are you and who gave you this!”
Now you were the one narrowing your eyes.
Introducing yourself, minus the usual extended hand in case he tried to bite it off, you said, “I serve as your Co-Chair, and the watch was left with your files that were given to me when I was hired. And… it is not broken anymore because I fixed it for you. You’re welcome.”
“Why would I hire you?”
“Because you clearly needed my help,” you replied, your tone as acidic as his.
“Yeah, right,” he barked, his wild eyes suddenly fixating on you in a very ungentlemanly way.
Realizing that when he’d flung you the second time, your shirt had come undone by a few more buttons than you’d normally allow, you crossed your arms over your chest, using his journal like a shield to protect your boobs from his glare. “Look,” you sniped back. “I get that for you, some of this might be a little confusing because you’ve only been back for more than a few minutes real time, but for Herb and I, our day at the park had been much longer than that, stopping time over and over to correctly wipe and reset each of your family members you brought back. So… can we just get this thing moving?”
“You better not touch my family,” Five warned.
“With Optogenetics, cation-selective channel rhodopsin are used to excite neurons and inhibit neuronal activity, so touching isn’t exactly how we’d say memory alteration works, but you already know that. You are the one that left the notes that led to me inventing the pain free process to do it. Why are you being so difficult?” you questioned.
“Because…” he childishly seethed.
“Because?”
“That’s right,” he continued, his face contorting as his jaw muscles repeatedly tensed. “You throwing out big words means nothing. I’ve been fed a lot of lines of bullshit over the years, and I have no reason to trust a bimbo who’s wearing tiny pink underwear that would make a stripper blush! Or Herb! Or anyone that works at the place that ruined my life and millions of others!”
You smiled, and it wasn't the nice kind of smile. “Name calling? Really?”
“This has set up written all over it!” he yelled.
A lump of frosting fell off his head, landing on one of his expensive dress shoes. Fingers twitching at his sides, he was about to go ballistic.
In his notes spelling it out how this was going to go down, the Five of the future that hired you had written nothing about the possibility that the him now would have no clue what was going on, but it was clear he didn’t. Fortunately, there were protocols to handle situations like this-his protocols.
“We didn’t ruin anyone’s lives. That is the opposite of what we are about, but if you aren’t willing to come back and talk about that, I guess we are done here,” you said, raising an unimpressed brow.
“Sweetheart, I was done so long ago, you have no fucking idea.”
After condescendingly insulting you again, Five turned to check on his family.
None of them were concerned, and you knew they wouldn’t be. The moment he walked away, their attention was back on entertaining the kids.
“Do you want to do it, or me,” you quietly asked Herb, who looked over at you, looking about as tired as you’d ever seen him.
“I’ll lug this thing,” he sheepishly offered, picking up the huge Commission briefcase you used to get there.
You reached in your pocket, calling out to Diego. “Hey, guys! Something came up. Five is needed back at the office.”
Five started to turn back, readying for a fight.
Sticking him in the neck with a fast-acting sedative before he could fully swing, his legs buckled at the knees.
“You didn’t jus-st-ffffah-kkkk," he slurred, his eyes rolling back in his head.
Chapter Three: The Founder
A line of drool running out of his mouth, Five flopped over the side of the settee he was passed out on. Groggily looking around from his new position on the hard marble floor, he saw the lights were dimmed and there was only the slightest bit of daylight on the horizon outside the heavily draped windows.
He had no idea how long he’d been out, but he knew where he was.
This was 1955 and these were the crown molded walls of AJ Carmichael’s office, then The Handler’s, but evidently this office wasn’t either of theirs anymore because the polished plaque sitting on top of the old mahogany desk read otherwise.
“Five Hargreeves, Director… Well, I’ll be damned,” he breathed.
Getting to his feet, head spinning, he swallowed, his throat thick.
On the small side table next to him, he noticed the pocket watch he’d stolen back from you and a glass of water next to it with a pink post-it note stuck to it that read, Drink Me.
“Yeah, right. I’ll probably shrink like Alice in Wonderland,” he grumbled, remembering how you stuck him in the neck with a syringe, at this point equating you to an evil version of the white rabbit, forcefully leading him back into a nightmare.
Running a hand through his hair, seeing no one there to ambush him, Five spotted his neatly polished shoes placed under the edge of the couch. There was also a fresh suit, with the addition of a pair socks and black briefs laying on one of the adjacent chairs.
Five looked down at the slumped blanket around his ankles, then his hands.
He still had on his undershirt and underwear, a pair exactly like the ones on the chair, but that was it. He’d been cleaned up, no more frosting anywhere.
Kicking free of the slumped blanket at his feet, he stomped over to his desk, eyes on the journal laying there and the slightly smashed piece of cake that had another post-it note next to it that said, ‘Once you’ve had your nap time, and snack time is over, put your big-boy pants back on and read this over for me, please.’
Looking at the door, his expression soured even more.
Picking up the leather-bound book, he recalled that you said it was his, but he didn’t remember it. Then again, this wasn’t the first time he’d left something for himself to find later.
Shoving memories of the subway station out of his mind, Five opened it, his finger running along the date and time noted at the top of the first page. There was no denying he’d written it.
Slowly sitting down, his eyes moved along, reading the detailed directions explaining all the things you were supposed to do before he got there. Things like making sure certain people from his past only remembered what they needed to remember, and that meant for some, like his ex-supervisor, some remembered nothing.
For his family, their memories were more complicated because they were a part of things that needed to be remembered, but in clipping bits of time from their minds, he stated it would allow them the easiest transition.
Further diving into this new reality, Five read that many of the superpowered Hargreeves, including some of the Sparrows, worked for him and were involved in a new initiative of non-kill orders for all time corrective actions.
They’d been wiped. Just like you said. The device used to do it, one he told you to make, and it sounded a lot like the one Reginald used to erase the memories of how the original Ben died.
That happened. It all did. Five remembered it and his notes said the others would too- for the most part.
The past still happened because it had to, but that didn’t mean everyone needed to be burdened with the heavier traumas of it. That idea was a core value stated in The Temps Commission’s original doctrine, also written by him, conveniently there on the desk for him to go over.
All of it confirmed what you said. He was the Founder of The Commission; the same place that let him waste away in the apocalypse for forty years and then go through the rest of this crap. Apparently, that cruel joke didn’t just come to fruition in the Sparrow timeline spin off.
It was madness.
Somehow, his family survived, powers intact. He got them out of there at the last second, with none of them aware that anything odd was happening when you’d come up to them at the park, waving your specially calibrated brain wave eraser in front of their smiling faces.
You were an invited guest to their event and so was Herb. They knew you and trusted you, just like he supposedly did, only he didn’t.
Hearing a soft knock at the door, Five tensed.
“Come in.”
Herb timidly stepped inside, leaving the door ajar to the empty hallway. He lowered his chin and shook his head as if he already knew that what he was going to say was something Five wouldn’t want to hear. “That was a bumpy start,” he began. “We didn’t see that coming and we are so sorry about that. If we-”
“How long have you known about this,” Five sharply cut in.
“As you’ve read, that’s complicated,” he carefully replied.
“Herb,” Five sighed, his hand rubbing the worry line between his eyes. “All I have ever wanted was for this to end, but I don’t-"
Herb held up his hand stopping him. “I know you don’t want this. We all know what you’ve given to this place already, but we need you. With what you are capable of, your unique skill set makes you a perfect choice to run this organization.”
Herb paused, hoping Five understood that but he looked as unconvinced as before.
“This doesn’t have to be forever,” he tried. “The board just wants reassurance, and with you at the helm, it’s clear that people here will feel more comfortable about this transition. We no longer focus on preventing complications from the other timelines breaking off because there is only one timeline now. You took care of that by allowing The Cleanse to happen. Now we are here to ensure someone is present in case anything like this threatens us again. This is a big change for everyone,” he clarified, as if Five didn’t already grasp how big this was.
“And Reginald?” he quietly questioned, his troubled eyes pulling downward.
“Gone with the Cleanse,” you answered, coming into his office, “but as far as anyone else knows, he died years ago. You were there to spread his ashes. Many things are the same as before, but with the addition of the things that changed during the last five years you were gone, only you do not work for the CIA, even if that’s the cover we are using.”
You strolled over, sitting down next to Herb.
“The element your father’s wife inadvertently created as a byproduct of producing the thing they called ‘marigold’ is also gone. The marigold is still in all of you,” you furthered.
“That alien was not my dad,” Five tartly retorted, “and your presence here is not needed.”
When you didn’t move, he pointed to the door.
You crossed your legs, eyeing Five wearily. Putting a hand on your friend’s shoulder, you said, “You can head home, Herb. You haven’t slept in days.”
He smiled. “Neither have you.” He looked to Five, tiredly getting up. “Please listen. She’s smart. That is why you hired her.”
Five’s brows furrowed as he took in the weight of what Herb said. He looked down at his lap, but the second the older looking man left the room, he looked back up, eyeing you with the same contempt. “No syringe?” he coldly dangled.
“No pants?” you countered.
He cocked his chin. “Why bother? You already violated me while I was unconscious. I figured this way if you came at me again; there’d be less in the way if you really wanted to go hard stomping on my dick.”
“You are the only one here being combative, but if you want me to stomp on your dick, keep it up, I will, but I’d much rather finish this debriefing, filling you in on anything else you might not recall, which sounds like everything you did to get here from this point on.”
“Time loops are a bitch, and you are…” He didn’t finish, instead he picked up his fork, putting his focus on stabbing his piece of cake into even more of a disaster.
“You don’t like me. Got it loud and clear,” you said, “but after meeting you, I must admit, I don’t like you either. Before this, I admired you, but you are nothing like the person I thought you were based on all the great things I read in your files.”
“Well… Most things look better on paper,” he sneered.
“Look… How about I just do what I am here to do, and you do the same?” you offered. “Cut the lines of bullshit you hate so much? Because that’s what this pissing match is. Waste of time bullshit.”
“Fine.”
“As I was about to say,” you started again, laying out your sheets of chemical equations for him to follow as you explained. “For Reginald’s dearly departed wife, in making the one element that also gave a fast track to your births, and then the other not so nice one Jennifer got stuck with, she essentially shot a machine gun at a needle in a haystack, but the bullet and needle didn’t fuse together completely, and you just witnessed the ricochetted result of that when they did finally fuse with Ben and Jennifer getting together, the bad part of that synthetic reaction vanishing forever in a timeline that is no more. Story done.”
“So, you are saying we weren’t the cause of all this?” he asked, still not believing it.
“No,” you said. “Abigail’s bad science was and that really wasn’t that hard to figure out. It only took me a few days once I was given the top-secret files you left behind for Herb to find in your Paradox Proof bunker.”
“That’s impossible. I’m the only one that can get in there,” Five argued.
“Not exactly,” you calmly disagreed. “After Dallas, when Herb was holding the temporary position of Chairmen of the Board, he gained access to many interesting things you hide around here, including a glass eye you had made that was a replica of yours.”
“The retinal scan,” Five murmured under his breath.
“Yes. You were very busy at some point in the future, and lucky us, everything you did paid off.”
Saying nothing, Five didn’t look like he felt lucky, but when he didn’t question you more about the bunker, you moved on.
“Another thing you probably don’t remember figuring out, is that when it comes to thinking you were all only born because of the release of the Marigold on our planet, that isn’t true. You all would have been born regardless. All your mothers were already pregnant, only days along and none knew it yet. You all had fathers and mothers, just like the rest of us, only with you, the second that alien dusting of orange entered our atmosphere, it needed to find a host and you were it, the perfect jump off point for a miracle.”
“The Umbrella Academy?” he asked, dismissing your explanation about his parents, like it didn’t matter that he wasn’t just alive because of aliens playing God.
“It happened. You were all acquired by Reginald, same as before,” you continued. “The world knows about most of you like they always did, and they are aware you’re back, the details of your disappearance understood to be a complication due to your ability to spatially jump. The running story is you were frozen between jumps, not that you’d jumped to the future. We don’t want the entire world knowing about time travel and your ability to do it, or ours.”
“So, there you have it,” Five scoffed.
“Dumbed down, yes, but I thought since you’ve had a hard day, you’d appreciate that.”
“Are you one of us?” he asked as he studied you, for the first time his eyes not darting away from yours when you determinedly refused to look away.
“No,” you half laughed, half scoffed. “As you can see,” you waved a hand in front of yourself, “I am not the same age as your siblings, but I suppose when it comes to you, that means little, so fair question. Unlike you, I am the age I appear to be, which I’m guessing is not much off from you physically at this point. I was plucked out of college to come here, and since then, I devoted my life to being here to help you in any way I can, and I assure I am qualified to do it otherwise—”
“Otherwise, I wouldn’t have hired you,” he finished for you. Hand at his mouth, anxiously edging his teeth across his thumbnail, Five’s eyes grew distant again.
Silence filled the room.
“We have a meeting with the board in the morning. I will drop off the agenda early enough for you to go over it beforehand,” you said, pushing your chair out to get up.
You waited a moment for him to look up, but he didn’t, so you headed to the door, turning just before you left.
“This is over,” you said, the anger in your voice completely gone. “At least you can take solace in that.”
You shut the door behind you.
Still seeing the delicate features of your face overlapping those of the mysterious boy on the balcony who’d looked like him, only not, Five mentally kicked himself.
“This isn’t over,” he breathed.
Chapter Four: I’m the Daddy Here
By the next day, when Five’s brothers dropped into his office, he had shadows under his eyes and his young bones were aching like his body really was 70 years old.
Sitting in front of him, next to Klaus, Diego stretched his arms up over his head, as he said, “Dude, you still have your shitty apartment from your CIA days to crash at, so why does it look like you’ve been pacing your secret lair all night?”
“Oh gee, I don’t know Diego,” Five threw back. “Maybe I forgot I had a place to call my own and I did pace in here all night? Unlike you, I have bigger things on my mind than which Hawaiian shirt I’m going to wear to work.”
“You look so Miami Vice,” Klaus said, giving Diego a high five, before he moved his attention to Five. “What are you whining about, man? We are riding on a gravy train with biscuit wheels.” He threw his arms around like they should look around him. “We won!”
Five lips pursed tighter.
Klaus’s jaw dropped as he looked over at Diego. “What… We didn’t win? We’re all in the void?”
Diego laughed. “For a someone with the powers of divine entity you sure are—"
“We won,” Five interrupted, bringing them back to the point. “Or I should say, we will, but not unless I finish this.”
“You did finish this. We are here and life is good,” Diego pointed out, moving on to what he felt the real problem was. “Are you happy, Five? And what does that even mean to you outside of making sure we all keep breathing? Maybe the answer to that is why you’re still struggling. Apocalypse addiction is a-“
“Fuck you, Diego. I don’t need one of your psych ward therapy sessions you and Lila get off on. I need to have a kid! If I don’t, we will all cease to exist and there will be no do over this time and that is very bad!”
“How do you know that?” he questioned, his amused smile still proving that he thought they were just having one of their usual lectures with Five about him needing to get out more.
“Shit. Is it hot in here?” Five complained, yanking at his collar.
“Earth to Five,” Diego rammed him, “I asked you a question.”
Having loosened his tie enough to feel like the walls weren’t closing in on him, Five testily said, “I know this, Diego, because a kid that looked a lot like me was there just before The Cleanse finished its job, and he called me dad. If he hadn’t been there and said what he did, verbally slapping me into doing something, we wouldn’t be here.”
“What?!” Klaus bellowed. “No way! You’re a dad!”
“No,” Five sighed. “I will be a dad in the future-maybe.”
“Maybe!? Why didn’t you tell us this!” Diego yelled, nearly falling out of his chair.
“I am telling you,” Five replied.
“Yeah, sure,” Diego huffed. “Now you are. And why does your kid have powers and mine and Allison’s don’t?”
“Wow. It’s just like Marty McFly in Back to the Future.” Klaus lifted his hand, checking to see if it was disappearing yet.
Five tiredly smiled at him. “It’s not at all like that. Time loops don’t work that way. If we evaporate, it will be instantaneous, and at this point, I have no idea how long I have to prevent it. There will be no warning.”
“Time loops shhh-mime loops,” Diego said, running his fingers over his mustache. “You know we don’t understand any of that shit. But hey, this doesn’t have to be a bad thing. Your nuts are full of superpowered swimmers. You should be excited.”
Five rolled his eyes. “Excitement is not exactly what I’d call what I am feeling. If I don’t produce a magical progeny, none of the things I have done will matter. We all die anyway. Case in point, this is a bad thing.”
“Shoot,” Klaus whistled. “If you’d known this years ago you could have spent way less time privately polishing your palm and instead been out trying to impregnate the world with your superpowered sperm.”
Five groaned. “That wouldn’t have worked, because it needs to happen now. After The Cleanse and the time situation was fixed.”
“I don’t get what the big deal is,” Klaus insisted. “You’re a stud. Get out there and have some fun.”
“And if it’s having kids you are worried about, they are both the best and worst thing that can happen to you,” Diego added. “I would know. Having three of them putting their sticky little fingers on all our shit all the time isn’t awesome, but creating them was fun.” He nudged Klaus. “This one time when Lila and I were in the back of Wanda we—"
“Not another word!” Five yelled.
“Whatever, man,” Diego chuckled. “You just need to see the bright side. Your kid was trying to help you and did.” He cleared his throat. “When it comes to Dolores, you can beat the meat with her all day but you’ll never beat the real th-“
“Please stop,” Five groaned again, burying his head in his hands.
Nodding his head in agreement, Klaus grinned hopefully. “I think what Diego is trying to say is having a breathing lady has its benef—"
“We’re done!” Five snapped, as he sprung forward. “If you don’t zip it, I’m going to blink you downstairs to the incinerator and lock you in there.” Slamming his index finger down on his desk, pointing at his gigantic desk pad calendar, he grinned maniacally. “And what do you know, it’s garbage day! You won’t be swimming in last week’s rotting tuna salad for long.”
“You’d never do that to us.”
“Really, Diego? You want to test that?”
Five’s brothers glanced at each other, eyebrows raised, like testing that wasn’t such a bad way to spend their afternoon.
“Five—"
“No, Klaus! Like I told Luther. I’M THE DADDY HERE! I am done entertaining you idiots. Get out!”
“Settled down,” Diego laughed. “We’re just trying to help you see that this isn’t so bad. And with the kid thing, I love mine and you do too. Speaking of which, it would be nice if their favorite uncle babysat them more often. Lila and I haven’t had a night out in a while.”
“I babysit,” Five defended.
“Not enough,” Diego shot back, pointing Five’s ballpoint pen at him.
Reaching forward, Five swiped it away. “Deigo, if I came over more often so you dipshits could go out and do disgusting things in your van, then you’d be dealing with more than three sticky-fingered monsters.”
Diego glanced at Klaus, then back at Five, smirking. “Say what you will, but I know you love being an uncle. The mountain of stuffed animals each of the girls has is proof of that.”
Tipping his weight back in his chair, Five folded his hands over his lap, wearily eyeing his brother. “I am not wrong,” he said, ignoring the point about his nieces and how much he enjoyed spoiling them. “You still have no idea how this baby making thing works and it’s only a matter of time before you’ll be complaining about baby number four on the way and how you already have no room in your house for all the people living there.”
Diego scowled. “Hey… I understand how it works just fine. I already told you guys the last two weren’t my fault. Lila told me she couldn’t get pregnant while breastfeeding.”
“And you should believe everything your wacko wife says?”
“Yes.” No longer able to contain it, Diego burst out laughing. “Five. This about you, not me, and as much as you want to act like you know it all. When it comes to enjoying the good parts of life, you are still about as fresh out the gate as you can get. Just flirt with a girl. Get to fucking her on the regular, and ta-da, circle of destiny complete. No more death knocking on our doors.”
Five let out heavy sigh. “It isn’t as easy as that.”
Raising his hands in an open palm gesture, Klaus said, “Maybe it is.”
Five narrowed his eyes. “You have no idea what you are talking about, or what I have been through. Or the complications I am dealing with.”
“We get your hangups, we really do but,” Diego chimed in.
“No, you don’t!”
“Then tell us.”
“It’s her!” Five angrily pointed to the door. “The woman I hired who loathes me for reasons I can’t really blame her for, not when I’ve been such a colossal asshole to her. She’s the one! It has to be the right person for this kid to be the exact same kid I saw, and it’s her. She's the mom!”
“How do you know?”
“I just do, Diego!”
When neither Klaus nor Diego stopped staring at him, Five started counting on his hands.
“I know because…
One: The boy had my pocket watch that she also had on her when I got here. He threw it and she dropped it, all within seconds of our timelines merging.
Two: She has his eyes! They were my color green but the shape of hers!”
Five shook his head, his hands shaking he was so upset.
“The way they both look when they smile…” he breathed, “the curve of her lips is the same as his. Him being there with that watch wasn’t a coincidence. For him to be there at all, that means he jumped between timelines. I sure as hell couldn't do that, but if I could have, I know that everything you take with you on that kind of impossible journey would make it that much harder. He brought that watch with him because he was trying to point me in the right direction with her and I didn’t see it until it was too late, and now the only deal I’ll be sealing with his mother if I try to hit on her is going to be a kick in my magical nuts.”
Like a deflating balloon, Five sunk his face into his arms where he had them folded on top of his desk.
“It’s not too late. You guys seem to get along,” Klaus soothed.
Five shook his head no, not bothering to look up.
“Just be nice to her,” Diego unhelpfully added.
“I think it’s a little past that,” Five mumbled.
Chapter Five: Entente
“Say nothing,” Five warned. “I don’t need everyone up my ass. You two knowing is bad enough.”
Tapping your knuckles on the door, Klaus called out extra high pitched, telling you to come in.
“Who’s daddy here?” you said, your smile getting bigger as you asked about the outburst you just overheard from your office next door.
“Five is,” Klaus happily exclaimed.
“Incinerator!” Five barked, wildly motioning at him like he was going to slice his head off with his index finger.
“Blah, blah, blah,” Diego said, his hand mimicking the action of a mouth as he squawked it at Five. “We need to get this show on the road. I’m gonna tell—”
“Diego, so help me,” he hissed, cutting him off.
“I’m sorry to interrupt,” you said, your eyebrows drawing together, “but some of us have a meeting in two minutes.”
Five quickly picked up his notes and pushed out of his chair. “Shall we?” he said, directing you to lead the way with an assertive wave of his hand.
You walked in silence to the boardroom, but reaching the door, Five unexpectedly placed his hand on your upper arm, holding you back.
Coming past, Diego smacked his ass. “Don’t look so spooked, kid.”
“I will kill you,” Five replied, his voice as sugary sweet as his fake smile.
Still laughing, Diego joined the others
“What’s so funny?” Lila asked, before shoving him down in his chair, opposite yours, next to the head of the table.
“Five,” he answered.
“When isn’t he? I mean look at him,” she said, eyeing you both up with a curious look before looking back at her husband, giving him an even more devilish smirk than she’d given you. “Why don’t you spank me like that?”
“Oh, I’ll give you a spanking, babe, especially if you keep looking at me like you want to go for a ride on my sweet mustache.”
“LA-LA-LA-LA!” Ben bellowed. “We do not need to hear this, you ASSHOLES!”
“I’m sorry,” Five quietly breathed, directing your attention away from the Hargreeves family daily bickering forum. “What you have done here for me, and for them, I don’t have the words to express how thankful I am.”
He paused, the sincerity in his eyes startling you.
Without hesitation, you reached out, your fingers slowly sliding up the length of black silk leading to his neck. “There,” you said, fixing his knot. “You didn’t seem to be aware you were all twisted.”
Looking humorously befuddled, Five’s Adam’s apple bobbed up then down. “I am not aware of a lot of things going on,” he quietly replied.
“No? You?” you teased.
“Thank you,” he said again.
“You’re welcome. Now, shall we?” you asked, as you gave him the same heavy-handed gesture he’d given you in his office.
~~~
For the next hour and half, Five sat at the head of the table in a board room full of people all appointed by him. Even Elliot was sitting in as the new director of analytics since Diego and Herb and Lila were now acting as supervisors over all operations that either he or you weren’t.
He’d read your notes, telling him what to expect, but that didn’t mean he wasn’t lost. Still, each time a question was directed at him that he couldn’t readily answer, you seamlessly stepped in, replying for him. No one was the wiser that he was floundering, but by the end of the day, your smooth handling of him was only adding to how uncomfortable he felt.
Shutting the door to his office, briefcase in hand, Five was about to open a portal to travel forward in time, back to his musty old apartment, but then he heard something.
Turning, he saw your office door was open. He came that way, moving into the light streaming into the hall.
“What is all this?” he questioned, watching you trying to ram a stack of boxes in the corner, your sock covered feet repeatedly slipping across the slick flooring because the tower of cardboard cubes weighed more than you.
“These are all my worldly possessions,” you replied, glancing his way before giving your things one final shove. Bending straight, you placed a hand to your sore lower back, massaging it. “Since the sale of all employee housing and other unused buildings started, and then prepping for you all coming back, I have been a tad bit busy. I haven’t had time to find a new place. So this is it for me right now.”
Taking in your short cotton sleep shorts and well worn t-shirt, when you busted him staring at how your shirt had fallen off your shoulder, Five diverted his gaze to your small meeting table covered with disassembled briefcase parts. “You’ve been sleeping in here? Where?” he asked, sounding very concerned.
“Most of the time, I sleep with my head on my desk, waking up with a tattoo of whatever I was working on the night prior inked on the side of my face,” you said, laughing a little. “This morning, that was the user manual for the new watches that will replace those huge briefcases. The roll out should be ready next week. I just need to get the mockup version down to research and development and they can take it from there.”
Five frowned even more, which made you smile even more. “You figured out how to recalibrate the energy field alternators so they’d fit in something that small?”
“I did, but it was you who invented the briefcases to begin with. I just used your original notes and changed a few things. We have a pretty bracelet version too if you’d rather that over the watch?”
“Huh…” Five looked impressed, and at a loss of words.
When he didn’t move from the threshold of your door, you took pity on him. “Would you like to have a look?” You gestured to the scattering of tubes and sapphire-colored vials of glowing liquid energy that he at some point down the road created to mimic what he naturally produced when he time traveled.
Coming in, Five set his briefcase down and started to look over your work.
“I think the watch version will be just fine,” he said. “Thank you for fixing this one for me. Seems you are very good at fixing things I can’t figure out.” As you looked down at the silver chain hooked to his vest, he smirked.
“Watch it is,” you said, getting more and more flushed as he rocked back on his heels, his hands fiddling in his pants pockets as if daring you to look just a little lower.
“Can we talk?” he asked, breaking the awkward tension, but also worrying you with the way his cocky smile instantly evaporated.
“Ah… Sure.” Heading to your desk, you removed the garment bags hanging over one of the two chairs co-workers usually sat in. Sitting down in the chair across from him as he lowered himself in the spot you cleared, you said, “What’s on your mind?”
“What would you say if I told you, that when it comes to me needing your help, the complexity of things I asked you to do so far only touched the tip of the iceberg when compared to what I’m about to ask next?”
“I’d say we need a drink,” you laughed.
“I’d say yes to that,” he said, the tiniest pull at his lips again making his eyes gleam and your cheeks feel warm.
Thankful for a reason to look away, you opened your desk drawer, pulling out a bottle of Scotch and two glasses.
“That’s a good one,” he noted.
You cracked the seal, pouring a few fingers worth for each of you. “I’m sure it is,” you replied. “I heard the boss enjoyed this brand and I was going to give it to him as a welcoming back gift, but he turned out to be a dick, so I kept it.”
You pushed his glass across your desk.
“To bad bosses and putting them in their place,” he suggested, raising his glass.
You fluttered your eyelashes at him overly cutely, clinking his glass with yours. “To telling you off.”
Taking a sip, Five nodded his approval, his grin deepening.
“Speaking of workplace relationships,” he said. “That brings me back to what I need to talk to you about.”
“Go on.” You took another drink.
“I would rather gargle a pinecone than have to say this, but I have no choice. This isn’t just about me and if I live to see another day or not. It’s about my family too.”
You set your glass down, your eyes glued to his. “What do you mean if you get to see another day or not?”
“What I mean is, the only reason my family and I, or any like us, are here is because of something my future kid said to me right before I dropped out of the sky landing in a cake. If he hadn’t paid me a visit, telling me to move my ass and not let The Cleanse eat us, we’d be dead and never been born at all as far as you’d be concerned. Now, if I don’t succeed in producing him, this entire causality loop will disintegrate, my family along with it.”
“The kid you asked about?” you breathed, remembering Five yelling at you in the park about a kid, right before he knocked you on your ass a second time.
“Yeah. That kid. Our kid,” he said.
You started rubbing your temples. “Our kid, you say?”
He nodded.
“And you know I’m a part of this how?”
“There were clues,” he said, rolling his eyes, but not at you. “I stupidly didn’t put any of them together until after I repeatedly insulted your intelligence and unleashed my wounded ego on you.”
“What kind of clues?”
“Big ones, like every part of him I saw was half you, down to the way you are looking at me right now with those pouty lips.”
“I am not pouting.”
“Neither was he.” Five titled his head down, looking at his drink he hadn’t touched since the first taste.
“What are you asking?”
He looked up and laughed weakly. “I think you know.”
“You want me to have a kid with you, so this future person can exist to complete a loophole in time or all of you will be gone-just poof?”
“Yes. But it’s more of a causality loop than a loophole,” he corrected, the hint of his smirk playing up the corner of his mouth.
“That’s it?”
Five leaned forward, setting his glass down a few inches from yours. Sitting back in his chair, he steepled his hands at his chin, his face becoming even more forlorn. “We can do this no-strings attached,” he offered. “I will raise our son alone if that’s your wish, or we can do it together, but you owe me nothing. I will support you either way. It’s all strictly business with this deal.”
“This is not at all what I thought we were going to be talking about,” you said, staring at him, still looking for sign he was fucking with you.
“This is a matter of life and death, and I would never put this on you if it was just me I was worried about,” he said, his guilt evident in the tortured look filling his eyes. “It’s my family and their kids—”
“No, I get it. You mentioned the family thing,” you quickly cut in, holding your hand up as you shut your eyes. The lines in your forehead deepened when you looked back again. “How long do we have… I mean, can I think on it?”
“I don’t know how long. I could have days or even years to get you pregnant.What I do know is, if I don’t do it fast enough and suddenly I’m gone, there will be no going back with a briefcase for a do over. That said… of course you can think on it.”
You said nothing, your eyes darting around your messy desktop.
Five started to get up. “I’m sorry.” The sound of his voice was about as self-deprecating as it could get. “I am not the type to say those two dirty words very often, but with you,” He smiled sadly again, then picked up his briefcase, “it’s something I might as well start every sentence with.”
When you said nothing, Five finally turned his gaze downward, swallowing hard before he opened his mouth again.
“I’m sure I’m the last person you want to procreate with, and there are other less touchy ways of getting this done, but with time of the essence, and with how high the stakes are, I’d prefer if you agree to do this, we do it the old-fashioned way. The odds of it working are higher that way and there is no need to involve anyone else.”
“Makes sense,” you quietly replied, your cheeks flushing as much as his suddenly were.
“You are welcome to sleep on the couch in my office,” he offered, looking around your office again. “The blanket you left me is still in there, and it’s not my place to say it, but I did put you in this situation and I’d feel much better knowing you were in there, not in here, waking up with lines from a boring user manual printed to your pretty face.”
He cocked his head to the side and smiled.
You silently nodded, then Five activated his briefcase, leaving you alone, shaken beyond words.
Chapter Six: Only Fools Rush In
Knocking over your unfinished third glass of Scotch when you accidently threw your hand into it while readjusting your face on the stack of books you’d taken out to reference, you gave in, going to Five’s office to sleep on his couch.
He’d only laid on it once, but when you were doing the same thing, you felt his presence as if he were right there. Everything in your life revolved around Five Hargreeves, and now even your blanket smelled like him, and so did the end pillow you had your head on.
It wasn’t a bad smell. Even passed out and covered in cake, Five smelled good, like a minty warm scent mixed with something earthy and wild. When you cleaned him up, you couldn’t help but notice his prominent jaw that could cut glass, or his shiny dark hair that was as soft as it looked.
Despite a decent place to sleep, all you could do was think about what he wanted you to do with him.
Way before he came in for the day, you were up and out of there. Showering down in the now mostly unused field agent locker rooms, you dressed in your usual modern day pencil skirt and blouse paired with heels, taking a little more time than normal at the mirror.
“Calm down,” you lectured your reflection.
Coming past Five’s open office door a while later, seeing him working alongside Herb at a chalkboard one of them had wheeled in, just breathing normally became a task you’d rather not add to your many others.
Five looked immaculate. He was wearing a new suit-three piece, like his others, but this one was tailored in a way that accentuated everything about him you were trying not to think about.
The figure he cut was full of promise and unimaginable power if he only thought of wielding it. Yet, he was noticeably relaxed in all his movements, everything he did deliberate, down to the way he looked your way for just a second, politely smiling, then went right back to scratching his numbers on the green slate as if you weren't still there staring.
At any second he could disappear, his family, and the young boy he told you about too, and thinking about that devastated you in ways you didn’t even have words or emotions to convey.
Sitting down in The Commission cafeteria hours later, you anxiously watched as Five moved through the line, loading his tray while in conversation with Viktor and Luther.
Nervously tapping your index finger against your milk carton, you waited. The moment he noticed you looking, he came your way.
“Can I join you?” he asked, approaching your empty table.
“Let’s do it,” you blurted.
Five slowly dropped down on the bench across from you. “Yeah?”
“It’s the only option,” you less embarrassingly replied. “I may not have my head wrapped around all of this, but I don’t know what I’d do if all of you suddenly weren’t here anymore. Explaining that to the kids and just… No. It can’t happen. I won’t let it.”
He nodded, letting go of his tray as he sat back.
“When?” he asked, his soft smile and twinkly green eyes filled with relief.
“Now. If you are ready? The sooner we do it, the sooner we know you are all safe, right?”
“Right,” he said, his increasing eagerness showing in the hyperfocus of his cunning eyes as they quickly moved from yours, to the door of the lunch hall, then back again. “Come on.” Getting up, leaving his untouched food where it sat, Five took off.
He dashed down the busy hall past the lobby area, heading for the stairs.
“Where?” he called out.
“I don’t know?” you breathed back, still trying to catch up.
Heading down the hall towards your offices, seeing the busy flow of people working down at that end of the building, Five stopped in his tracks.
He glanced over at the bathroom door a few doors back in the direction you just came.
Restless looking as before, taking you by the hand, he spun you around like he was leading you in a dance, pulling your back against his chest.
You had no time to recognize that the heat you were feeling wasn’t just from his body suddenly pressed to yours. Static energy sizzled, the light from it so bright your eyes automatically flew shut as he blinked you away with him.
Appearing with your feet back on solid floor, your breath whooshing out of your pounding chest, the harsh smell of cleaners filled your nose.
You opened your eyes to the sight of a toilet and a wall in front of you.
Once sure you weren’t going to topple over, Five stepped back, the sound of the bathroom stall door behind him bumping into his back before it creaked closed.
“Are you sure about this?” he asked, his voice so low behind your ear that only you could hear it over the sound of the person washing their hands at the sinks.
“Yes,” you whispered.
There was a soft turning of the metal as Five latched the door.
Hinges squealed and two seconds later, the heavy wooden door to the hallway banged close.
~~~
Approaching you from behind, Five’s cock twitched. Just looking at you like this was enough to make it happen. He palmed himself through the fabric of his pants, an unexpected thrust of his hips threatening to topple him forward.
His entire body was so alert it was vibrating, the desire in his loins building to a fever pitch.
His trembling hand brushed against your hair, brushing it aside so he could see the side of your face, the other working to get his zipper down.
You let out a surprised gasp when he suddenly forced one leg between your thighs, parting them easily.
Having freed himself from his pants, feeling your whole-body tense as he pressed up against you, his head swimming with lust, he launched at your throat. Biting at your soft skin hard enough to sting, you reactively cried out.
“Quiet,” he growled, then thrust himself against you again, his fingers dragging the fabric of your skirt up your legs.
Sliding his palm down your stomach, Five pushed your panties down with the motion of his fingers clumsily running between your folds, a quick smile spreading across the back of your neck when he felt how wet you were.
His hand at your back, pushing you forward until your feet fell out of your slingback heels, you were forced up on your tippy toes with your hands falling into the wall behind the toilet. In one forward thrust, he buried himself, his body crushing against your back.
Feeling himself throbbing inside you, Five began to move, his fingers pulling away from your clit so he could put them on your hip, opposite his other hand. Rapidly thwapping his pelvis against the erotic feeling of your squishy butt cheeks, he bit at your shoulder again.
Fingers digging in, he yanked you towards him with each thrust. Then, going harder, his heels coming off the floor, he bottomed out.
You cried out, his hand just as fast flying off your hip, covering your mouth.
Pulling your head back to his shoulder, Five’s thrusts became rougher, more insistent. Groaning into your ear, his ragged gasps signaled his rapidly approaching climax.
In one fluid thrust he withdrew almost all the way out, then sunk back in as he came, finishing with a few shuttering jerks of his hips.
His hands slowly slipped from your mouth to rest at your throat as he fought to catch his breath.
You didn't move until he backed away, letting your skirt drop back into place.
Hot come started trailing hot down your inner thigh.
Sounds from the hall filled the tiled room with voices, then the door closed again. Footsteps moved across the bathroom, the metal partition surrounding you rattling as one of The Commission’s staff enclosed themselves in the stall one away from yours.
Burning from the force of Five’s entry, your entire body shaking, you started to turn around. Refusing to meet your eye, or even acknowledge you were there, as soon as Five had his pants fastened, he blinked away.
~~~
When you reached Five’s office a few minutes later, he was standing inside, looking over his mail.
Marching over, you said, “When I said let’s do this, I didn’t mean I wanted it like this!”
“What did you mean like this?” he hotly shot back, throwing down his letter opener.
“I have feelings! I am not a fuck doll!” you fired back at him. “Why did you just leave me like that?” Five bristled, his nostrils flaring. “I fucked you. That’s what we agreed we are doing, remember? I can’t help that you wanted it right then and there. Your pussy was clenching on my dick so hard, there’s no way you didn’t get off. What more do you want from me? I did my part.”
You slapped him.
Holding his cheek, Five let out a shallow breath, a clear sense of confusion in his stunned eyes.
“You don’t just fuck someone like that and disappear!”
“What’d you expect me to do?” he yelled back just as Elliot walked in, quickly pivoting back out the door the second he heard the still very intimidating man he once thought was a scary little alien boy going off on you.
“I don’t know what I expected, but I… I just thought…” Feeling your eyes prickle, you looked away. “It doesn’t matter. You don’t care.” “Do you want me to care?” “You are such a prick,” you muttered.
By the time Five’s thoughts had merged together to form a defense, you were gone, slamming the door behind you.
Chapter 7: Public Displays
“I didn't ask for this!” Five growled, about to come after you as he swung his door open to find his brother standing outside, his hand raised to knock.
“What,” Diego asked, “having a nice conversation with a real woman?”
“No!” he barked, stomping past, heading to your office, but right away, he saw Dot at your desk, not you. Coming back out, he raked a hand through his hair, cursing under his breath.
“Did you tell her?” Diego pushed.
“Yes, I told her.”
“Did she say yes to jumping your little bones?”
Five breathed in, his teeth clenching as his shoulders bounced.
Diego grinned. “You banged her already, didn't you?” “Why don't you irritate Lila and leave me alone.”
“Oh! You did!” Diego started pumping his fist. “Yes! That’s what I’m talking about… I knew you wouldn’t let us down, and with the rest, I’m just messing with you, man. Lighten up. That’s part of your problem.”
Five clapped his hands together brandishing a fake smile. “Nobody said I had a problem but you, and whatever this is, is over. I am in no mood to fight with you.”
“This was not a fight. And if it was, I’d win.” Diego threw his arm around Five’s shoulder, pulling him back inside his office. Letting him go once inside, he said, “And sure, nobody said you had a problem, but that girl’s teary face did when she just passed me.”
“She was crying?”
“She was doing that thing women do when they are trying not to.”
“Shit.”
“Five,” Diego said, in a very big brotherly tone, “for so long you’ve had to evaluate everything under the brutal terms of survival, all things either being irrelevant or not, but with this one, maybe that’s not the way to go. Kill the emotionally stunted old man shit. I know you have the hots for her. She’s perfect for you, which I’m betting is why you hired her, that, and she’s way smarter than you, which again goes back to why I know you are being a dick.”
“You have no idea what you are talking about.”
“I don’t? So, you didn’t just do something stupid?”
“It’s so much more than that,” Five said, his eyes turning even more tormented looking as he looked away, then back again, doing his best to keep it together.
Diego smiled. “You are a good person, man. You can fix this.”
Sad and angry, Five said nothing, and he continued to say nothing to Diego about it, or you for the rest of the day, and then the next, and then the next. You kept doing your job, of course, communicating with him when necessary, but that was it, and it was killing him.
Diego was right. He had to do something. It was his fault-again.
~~~
Day four, Five couldn’t take it anymore.
Lightly tapping on your door frame, you looked up from your desk. He raised one of the two coffee cups he was holding. Offering a smile. “Two sugars, one cream?”
Your pen slowed to a stop. “Why would you know that?”
He came in. “I know that because, over the last few days I’ve been asking the girls around here all sorts of things about you, and because of my persistent inquiries with them and pretty much everyone else around here, I’m fairly certain the entire building knows their boss is falling hard for you.”
Taking the coffee from his outstretched hand, your mouth opened but nothing came out.
“I never meant to hurt you,” he whispered. “That is the last thing I wanted to do.”
Slowly standing, you asked, “Can we go for a walk?”
“I would love that,” Five quietly replied.
Once outside, strolling across the open green area between The Commission's main buildings, taking sips of his coffee to fill the silence between you, Five waited, watching you for signs of what to do.
“I suppose we can’t go far,” you finally said. “If we ventured too off campus we’d probably start a flurry of chatter with the good citizens of this quaint little town.”
Five smiled, “True. But if you wanted to change into your poodle skirt, and I could dig up some of my frumpy old man trousers somewhere, then maybe we could snag a milkshake down at the drugstore. I’d even give you some nickels for the jukebox since you’re my favorite girl.”
“I like you in your old man trousers, and I’m not your favorite girl. But nice try,” you laughed.
“I get to decide who my favorite girl is, not you and I’d like you in anything,” he retorted. “And hey…” He frowned. “When did you see me looking like the crazy old bastard I really am?”
“In your files and footage on the Infinite Switch board. I did my research. I take my job very seriously, as you know.” You gave him an even more teasing looking grin, then added, “I can’t wait to see you with that cute mustache again.”
“You can’t?”
Taking Five’s hand in yours, you pulled him over to a shady bench under the fluttering leaves of a towering oak tree.
Once you had him sitting, you let go, watching his fingers fidgeting with unease as they came around his cup with the others, gripping it way too tight.
“Five…”
He looked up, meeting your gaze.
“I was hurt about what happened in the bathroom because you are right,” you started. “What you did, the way you did it… Everything about you and that was hot. With just that moment of amazing sex, you left me ruined and it really scared me.”
“It scared me too,” he admitted, his soft eyes searching yours. “That’s why I left.”
“All I wanted was for you to hold me,” you said. “Anything but leave.”
“The last thing I wanted was to leave but I thought you’d only agreed to do this because you felt like there was no other choice. I asked you to have a child with me, but that didn’t mean you had to be with me more than that..”
“Five…” you said, setting down your cup so you could take his hand in yours again. “The moment I was hired, everything I learned about you further proved what an amazing person I already thought you were. I was fighting an embarrassing schoolgirl level crush on you even before you got here, and since, it's only gotten worse despite you being a jerk most of the time. That’s how much you mean to me.”
“It’s not just me feeling this way?”
“No. It’s not just you,” you said, as he lovingly caressed the underside of your wrist with the tips of his fingers.
“Can we start over?” he asked, his voice barely above a whisper, his emerald eyes about as worried looking as you’d ever seen them.
“We already are,” you said, his nervousness distracting you from your nerves.
Moving your entwined hands into Five’s lap, his breath hitched, his air intake stopping entirely when your warm palm slowly moved over his crotch.
With only a peck at first, your lips meeting his, Five whimpered against your mouth, his cock growing heavy and warm under your hand.
After only allowing yourself to feel the desperation of his kiss for just a moment longer, you pulled back, smiling at him. “You are ready to go just like that, aren’t you?”
“It’s my secret superpower,” he said, already trying to kiss you again, his tongue dipping inside your mouth, exploring.
“Just the smell of your body is enough to get me hard,” he groaned, having to break away to breathe, as you massaged your hand harder over the bulge in his pants.
Loving this, you leaned into Five more, placing extra soft brushes of your lips just below his ear.
“We need to either stop or we need to go somewhere, now!” he warned, the pitch of his strained voice so funny, you laughed, the heat of your breath against his throat enough to make him whimper like a puppy all over again.
“Get us out of here, and I won’t stop,” you said, in between kisses along his jawline.
Your discarded coffees spilling from the force of air filling the vacuum of space you’d just been sitting in, in less than a second, you were clumsily standing between buildings, only partially hidden from any onlookers by a bush full of spring flowers.
Falling into Five as he leaned his back against the brick wall behind him, you raised your eyebrows in question.
“When the blood flow to my brain is in short supply, like it is right now, it’s best I don’t try to blink somewhere I can’t already see,” he frantically explained before smashing his lips against yours again.
Working his pants down as fast as you could, you reached inside his pants, gripping his naked cock in your hand.
“Fuck,” he gasped, his hips helplessly thrusting.
His eyes becoming even more heavy-lidded, you started to move the outer skin of his shaft over the harder core.
Your other hand lowering, you cupped Five’s balls through the bunched material draping off his tensed thighs. His heartbeat already pounding in his ears, when you gave him a little squeeze, his scrotum pulsed to the same rhythm, his mind becoming even more clouded.
“Yes, do that,” he groaned.
“At night, do you think about us doing things like this?” you questioned as you smirked. “Because I do, writhing on your couch with my fingers between my legs?”
“Ffffuck yes, I think about this!” he croaked as you slid your hand up his cock, swirling your finger round and round over the glistening pleasure seeping out of him.
“How exactly do you think about me, Five?” you pushed.
He shook his head, back and forth, overwhelmed with your touch as he was by the things you were saying.
“Please tell me,” you encouraged, feeling more empowered by the second.
“I think about you underneath me,” he gasped. “I see your hands gripping my sheets, and I hear you moaning my name as my cock fills your sweet little pussy full of load after load of my come.”
“Tell me more…” you said, your smile broadening.
“I fuck my hand, pretending I’m inside of you, every fucking single morning and night. The way you smile at me, I want to bite your lips so fucking bad, and the way your body looks in your tight skirts! I want to devour you!”
Five’s breaths were coming as quick gasps and there was no point in asking him if what you were doing was right. His face pressed against your shoulder as your hand moved faster, his soft shuddering not letting up the whole time.
The sound of voices passed by, but there was no indication that whoever else was out enjoying the sunny afternoon looked your way.
Your hand slicked, moving easily over Five with the silkiness of his bountiful pre-cum, even more hot wetness began to coat your hand. At your neck Five desperately kissed you as he sucked in gulps of air.
His whole-body trembling, you ran your fingernails through the back of his hair as you slowly stroked him through the final tremors of his release.
“Holy fuck I loved everything about that, but it was not at all conducive to us achieving our goal,” he finally said, smiling as he sheepishly peered at you from under the dark curtain of hair falling over his sleepy eyes.
“No, it was not, but that was the point. This is not just about that. This was about us starting over, which I think we just did. I want you and you want me and together we are going to do our best to make a superpowered little family,” you said.
Five laughed. “You really are smarter than me, and along with this being more proof of that, I think most of my remaining dignity just went down the drain with that crazy shit I just said to you, and the rest was just obliterated after that when I jizzed all over your skirt. A gentleman might have fought you off harder, and not done that,” he said as you burrowed into his warmth, with your head resting on his shoulder.
“He might,” you agreed, “but I think we both know that you are no gentleman.”
The softness of Five’s expression as you peeked up at him only made you want to see the kind of pleasure you just drew out of him all over again. All the harshness you knew he was capable of had washed away, leaving his eyelids heavy and his wetted lips parted in silence as he held you like he never wanted to let go.
Knowing you couldn’t stay there forever, a few minutes later, watching you clean you hand off, seeing that not only when he blew his load, some of it got on your shirt too, a little of the worry had found its way back into Five’s contented expression, but you were quick to address it, wiping the milky white off with your finger before sticking it in your mouth.
“There,” you said, pulling your cleaned finger out for him to see. “All better. Now be a good boy the rest of the day and pay my next dry-cleaning bill, and I might let you take me to dinner tonight.”
Chapter 8: Taking Care of Business
Finishing your workday, you changed into a new sundress, one that you never had the chance to wear until now. On pins and needles, springing around your office, you tried to pick up your hopeless mess, every minute Five took to get there making your heart race faster.
As you promised, if he was good the rest of the day, which he was, shortly after you saw several of his family members come out of his office, Five strolled in, a single flower in his hand, only it wasn’t a rose or anything traditional like that. It was a bloom that looked just like the ones on the bush he’d blinked behind so you could man-handle him.
Coming your way, he extended the fluffy white blossom. Taking it from him, holding it to your nose, the summery perfume enchanted your senses as much as his sweet smile.
“Ready?” he asked.
You nodded, yes.
Giving you a look that made your panties instantly wet, after a few buttons pushed on his new watch, you were off.
~~~
Like any first date, yours was filled with nervous jokes to hide insecurities, but it was exactly what you both needed to circle back to where you should have started to begin with.
As you already knew, Five was complicated. He had been through unimaginable things, some you knew about, some you didn’t. No matter where the conversation took you, when it came to his past, he was forthright, and everything new you learned only made you respect him and hurt for him more.
Five took his time asking you questions, listening patiently as you told him about your life, from the start to now. In those parts of the night, his smile never seemed to fade.
“Have you considered a day off might be in order if you are ever going to move out of your office?” he teased when you got to the part about the last few weeks.
“Yes,” you said, after swallowing another delicious drink of the Bordeaux he ordered to go with the herb-crusted roasted lamb on your plates. “But my boss would be lost without me for even a minute, so it looks like I’ll be stuck sleeping on the couch in his office indefinitely.”
“I’d rather you slept in my bed,” he silkily replied, his smile reddened even more seductively by the rich sip of wine he just licked off his lips.
You rubbed your foot along his lower pant leg, tickling your toes up and down like you’d been doing most of your dinner.
Eyes darkening, Five reached across the table, pulling your hand into his. Like every time he blinked with you so far, you had almost no warning it was coming.
Bouncing down on his mattress, propelling himself on top of you, Five’s fingers dug into your ribs, tickling with no mercy.
“Five! Stop!” you cried, laughing so hard you couldn’t breathe.
“No! You’ve been fucking with me all night!”
“I have not!”
“What do you call that move you did with your foot nudging my dick while I was ordering?” he growled, kissing your neck in-between his breathy love bites.
“My shoes! Our bill!” you complained, realizing your heels were still laying under the table at the restaurant.
“I’ll get you new ones and I already paid the bill. Now hold still so I can dominate you,” Five gleefully demanded, as you squirmed.
When he finally let up, so you could catch your breath, you got a better look around his bedroom. It was small. There was the queen bed you were on, a side table next to it with a lamp on top, and piles of books on the floor everywhere. Other than a bathroom door to your right and what appeared to be an equally small living room, just outside the door, with a kitchen area attached, that was Five’s home.
You loved all of it, from his boyishly blue plaid comforter, to the worn but cozy look of his single sad recliner.
You put your hand in the middle of his chest, lifting yourself on your elbow to gaze at him. Turning his fingers around yours, Five drew you closer with his arm, sitting you up with him.
In a much quieter game, he let his fingers play up your spine, each little bump like a run on a ladder he was climbing up your back.
Enchanted by the way he is looking as you were by his featherlight touch; your breath quickened all over again.
With a smile, licking his lips, Five slipped his hand down the back of your dress, loosening your bra until it fell out of his way. His dark hair brushing your chin, his mouth came down, gently covering your nipple through your thin cotton bodice. Hot and wet, he kissed you there, soiling the fabric as he sucked, then kissed again.
After a moment, he turned his attention to your other breast, the innocence of his expression as he enjoyed you that way so sweet you could cry.
On your knees already, raising your arms at his insistence, Five took your dress up over your hips, then over your head, tossing it aside.
Kissing you full on the mouth, your bare body trembled under his hands as he tugged at the thin straps at your hips, pulling your underwear down until he couldn’t.
Breaking away to kick out of them, he said, “I love these tiny pink panites. I hope the stripper you stole them from doesn’t ask for them back.”
Laughing and fully exposed, there was little shame left in you, but there was still shyness. You lowered your gaze, and Five took care of that by giving you hundreds of kisses until you became completely unaware of anything but how you felt about him.
You held the back of his neck as you kissed, the longer ends of his hair tickling the back of your hand. In turn, Five brought one hand back to your breasts. He held the weight of them in his palm as he squeezed and rubbed you and made small, short sounds of enjoyment into your mouth as he did so.
His smile was on the darker side of playful as he caught you by the shoulders and brought you down on his bed. There was no demand in how he positioned himself next to you. His hair a chaos of brown from you messing with it, he reached out, the tips of his fingers brushing your cheek. “I'll be sorry for treating you the way I have been until the day I die.”
“You are forgiven,” you whispered as you pressed your face into his left palm. You pulled at his sleeves, pulling the warmth of his body over your chilled skin.
Five hissed between his teeth when you took your adoring kisses sideways, to his jaw, then his throat. When the tip of your tongue came out, tasting him, his hands tightened on your arms, and a soft sound of surprise crept out of his throat.
His fiery gaze looked almost apologetic when he pulled back. You gently touched his face and Five closed his eyes as though he couldn't bear to look at you while you explored his lips with your thumb. “Your affection is more than I would have ever asked for,” he breathed, before kissing the tip of your finger.
Opening his eyes, there was that reflection of sadness, something that ran so deeply and painfully in him that it only made you more determined to change that.
As your hands moved down the sides of his vest, his drifted to your thighs, rubbing slowly.
“I’m wearing way too many clothes,” he cutely laughed when you tried to get your hands under his shirt but were hardly able to move them once you did due to the tight fit of his vest.
“Yes, you are,” you giggled. “We need to do something about that.”
In a burst of light, Five vanished and reappeared just as fast, his naked body flawlessly pale as he pushed his groin against yours, his hard cock glistening as it bobbed against your lower belly.
“How’d you do that!” you gasped.
He smirked. “If I explain it, then I have zero surprises left.”
Reaching down, taking himself in hand, this time when Five slipped inside you, the feel of him slowly filling you was enough to make your eyes water.
Grabbing for his shoulders, you hooked your ankles around his waist, your body simultaneously clenching around him as it tried to resist his entry.
Five stopped, his face full of worry.
“Keep going,” you urged, digging your feet into his lower back.
Pulling himself out, undulating his swollen tip at your entrance a few times, Five slipped his cock back in just as slowly, both of your eyes crushing closed the sensation of it felt so good. Doing it again, he accidentally slipped out all the way. Fumbling between you, grasping at his swaying cock, he lowered himself over you even more, letting out a guttural curse of pleasure as he entered you again.
Pushing his hands under your butt, he hoisted you up, rocking his hips against yours in earnest as he tried to kiss you, his lips grazing yours with each downward thrust.
Head getting pushed back further and further into his pillows, you began to match his urgent movements. Working together, his sharp thrusts ignited something inside both of you. Your fingernails digging into his shoulders, you started to see stars, everything inside you suddenly exploding when you felt the heat of his release.
Crying out this name, every exhalation streaming from your lips matched the throbbing of your orgasm that was not letting up as Five kept thrusting, the sound of him fucking you as sinful as it was wet.
When Five did pull out, your back arched on the bed, the emptiness of losing him and the sight of his rigid cock still ready to go shocking you as much as the darkness in his eyes.
Without a word, he flipped you on your stomach.
As Five came down over you from behind, his spent cock easily slid back in, and just as fast, he started to rut, rough and needful, punishing your quivering walls all over again.
You squirmed, the feeling of it too much, but Five pressed his hand against your upper back, pressing you against his bed, forcing you to arch into him as he kept at it, fucking you at an unrelenting pace.
A minute in, he wasn’t slowing, his thrusts sliding into you so deeply the force of it kept causing his headboard to bang into the wall
“Five!” you cried as you pulled at his bedding.
“I’m not stopping until I fill this fluttering cunt!” he growled.
Not even close to being over your first shivered round of aftershocks, he did just that, emptying himself in erratic spurts and uncoordinated thrusts.
Prying his hands from your hips, Five rolled you on your back. Blanketing you with his body, he started placing delicate touches of his lips on your cheeks, his long eyelashes brushing along your skin with the softness of an angel, while his fingers worked between your legs, gathering his leaking come so he could carefully and repeatedly push it back inside you until you surrendered to him all over again.
Helplessly quivering, you buried your fingers in his sweat-dampened hair as he took his kisses to your neck, then added a few final nibbles to your ear. Five seemed incapable of moving further than that, the tenderness of how he was nuzzling you, echoed in the throbbing fullness you felt.
When he finally sat back, it was only to reposition himself alongside you. He rested his cheek against the top of your head, squeezing his arms around you tightly.
Feeling his warmth mingle with yours as you snuggled into him, you heard him yawn.
“Tired of me already? Was that a sign you want me to go?” you teased.
“This business we just did is hardly what I would call tiresome, and you aren’t going anywhere. I am not done with you yet,” he joked, but his hold not letting up meant he wasn’t actually kidding.
As you touched his hair, searching through it with your fingers. His limbs relaxed the longer you kept at it, his hand placed over your belly circling slower and slower. Your feet wrapped around his shins locking him to you even more surely, and with it, his breathing slowed along with his hand coming to a stop.
“Are you falling asleep, Five?” you softly asked.
His chest moved up and down against your side along with his quiet laugh. “Sleep is for the blameless, and I am not that. If you can wait a few minutes, I’m happy to give you round two with a fresh lesson on what you're dealing with since it seems you forgot already?”
“I think you already made your point that you are the cutest fiend to ever walk the Earth,” you laughed. “It sounds fun, but I doubt either of us has enough steam for that lesson right now no matter what you claim.”
“Honey, I am like a jackrabbit,” Five chuckled. “For all you know, I can bring you to unmanageable heights of ecstasy with this next one.”
You gave a playful tug of his hair.
Five nudged the top of your head with his face. It wasn't a kiss. But it didn't need to be. The way he was holding you, you knew that everything had changed.
“We can go back to taking care of business in the morning,” you assured.
“There's always the morning,” he agreed, slurring slightly.
Soon, listening to this heartbeat step into a cadence of sleep, feeling the warmth of Five’s body next to yours, you drifted off in peace along with him, and you did the same thing together every night after that.
Chapter 9: Tiresome Work
“Are you free to chat for a few minutes?” you asked, gently clicking the large door closed behind you as you entered Five’s office.
“I’m always free for you,” he said, looking up from his desk.
Coming around next to him, you propped your bottom up on his mess of papers.
“How’s your day?” you asked, your eyes traveling from his soft pink lips, down to his neck, then to the relaxed motion of him spreading his legs as he leaned back in his chair.
“It’s getting better now that you’re here,” he replied, followed by a mischievous grin.
Doing your best to remember why you’d come in, the reason for it in your hand, you extended him your notebook. “Would you be willing to look this over? I think the numbers look good, but I’d appreciate a second brain on this one just in case I missed something.”
“I’ll look at it, but I doubt you missed anything. You never do,” he replied, his eyes smoldering. He patted his knee. “Why don’t you sit here and let me entertain you. You need a break.”
Your cheeks instantly flushed, and the more Five gave you that predatory look the worse it got.
You didn’t move so he raised a brow.
“Come here,” he hotly demanded.
Hopping up, Five quickly snatched your waist, pulling you to him faster than you were already coming.
“We are supposed to be working,” you scolded, as he trapped you between his legs with his hand tickling up your back.
“We covered this already. This is us working,” he said, following your every movement with wolfish fixation.
Trying to rattle him as much as he was flustering you, you broke away, half-heartedly attempting to organize the millions of items on his desk.
“That sign you are playing with says I’m the boss! Now get over here!” he angrily insisted, but not without laughing.
Giving you the sexiest smile you’d seen on him yet, one that was all dimple and shiny white teeth, Five patted his knee again.
Feeling silly, you perched your bottom on his knee.
With hardly anything between you and his finely woven pants, the bones of Five's knee purposefully pressed into you.
“Now then, isn’t that better?” he taunted as he leaned forward, his lips grazing the side of your neck.
“Five Hargreeves, you are a bad man.”
“And you like it,” he coolly replied with his hand coming up to fondle your breasts.
The room felt like it was on fire already, but everything got warmer when his fingers parted, slicing across the peaks in your blouse, softly catching on your nipples before his warm palms slid over them again.
Feeling like a drunken sailor, you swayed in his lap. Trying to steady yourself, you extended the tip of your shoe to the floor, but Five nudged his knee into you with a little lift of his foot, his hands locking you in your seat to prevent your escape.
Plucking at you until your nipples were visible through the delicate fabric covering them, your small whines and the wetness spreading between your legs were met with his cocky grunt of approval.
“Five, there are dozens of people outside that door,” you said, shutting your eyes tight when he gave you a pinch.
“So,” he deadpanned.
The second you tried to get up again, he let out a growl, simultaneously biting into the crest of your shoulder, the feel of it all making your head roll back on your shoulders as your next broken moan filled his entire office.
“Never mind. Please don’t stop,” you breathed, as his magical lips pressed against the edge of your jaw.
“I wasn’t going to,” he shushed. “This is the most important thing I have left to do here, I say fuck these numbers you brought me. You’re the one who should’ve always been checking my math. My sole purpose now that I have you to do the brain work is fucking you.”
“Five,” you moaned as you shifted your weight on his thigh, desperate to relieve the pressure.
“Mmmm?” he replied.
“You are driving me crazy.”
“I know, but I need to get this baby inside you and seal this deal,” he insisted, kissing you with even more vigor, his mouth sucking at your skin as he moved his hand down between your legs, massaging your swollen folds through your underwear.
“Yes. I understand that but…but we maybe already did seal that deal,” you stuttered. “And if that really is what you are trying to do right now again anyway, it can’t be in here.”
With another quick nip at your throat, Five said, “This is my office, and I intend to use it in any way I please. I earned it, damn it!”
“You did earn it,” you said with a breathy laugh, shifting your weight again, trying to turn towards him and put your feet on the floor. “But we should at least lock the door.”
“Stay put!” he barked, but it had no bite to it because he was trying to paint a silky line with his tongue along the shell of your ear.
Biting your lower lip next to distract you, flipping his hand out from under your skirt, Five pinched your firm nubs of flesh again, not with pain, but with shocking effect. You gasped as a burning jolt of electricity detonated between your thighs.
“Please hurry,” you weakly begged him, the pressure of his knee under you both good and bad at that point.
His fingers gripped under your jaw, moving your face towards his. “There’s no hurry, honey. Daddy is the boss here and everyone knows about us anyway,” he whispered, velvety soft.
You opened your mouth to what, at this point, and with that daddy comment, you didn’t even know anymore, but Five was quick to cover your mouth, his index finger pushing your lips open.
“Suck it like you want to suck me,” he directed as his other hand moved up, slowly opening the buttons on your shirt, stopping when he had enough of them undone to get his hand inside.
“Just like that,” he softly hummed as he watched you caressing the length of his finger with your lips and tongue. Breathing in, his nose brushed along your hairline. “Such a good girl.”
Pulling his finger from your mouth, he reached under your skirt, his wet finger trailing up your thigh, nudging under your panties.
“God, I needed this,” Five adorable whimpered, his thumb pressing down on your pubic bone as his finger slipped inside you, slowly pumping in and out.
“Oh, oh-fuu-ah-kkkkk! Faster!” you helplessly yelped as you ground down your weight against his leg, your hips frantically jutting into his hand.
His finger pumped faster. “Come on, baby. Come for me,” he encouraged,
Your ability to formulate thoughts going all to hell, nothing but gibberish spilled from your mouth. “Mmmm-ahhh-fff, yyyy-e-sssss.”
Adjusting himself, spreading his legs wider to accommodate the tent his erection was making in his pants, he said, “More?”
“Yes,” you moaned.
The rhythm of his hand changed, and a second finger added to his thrusting while his thumb kept fondling your clit with enough pressure to make your head spin.
Gripping the front of Five’s vest in a lame attempt to ground yourself, he began placing a path of kisses along the side of your neck. “My heart beats for you,” he said, his voice deep with longing that matched the look in his worshipful eyes.
Your legs spread embarrassingly wide, the backs of your heels knocking against his shin, you rocked on his knee, your building climax pulsing to a roaring scream. Five kept going at it, not letting up the pace or intensity of his finger repeatedly hooking inside you, drawing out moan after moan.
Your eyes droopy, he grinned at you like this was the best thing he’d ever done while at work, which was ridiculous considering his desk was littered with all the plans he was putting in place to fend off any future apocalyptic events that could threaten the existence of humanity.
Blowing your mind and making you come so hard you couldn’t see straight was hardly important compared to all that, but he didn't seem to think so. He was so beautiful, you could have sat there all day, dreamy admiring the shape of his eyes and their soft lines of happiness, but when he withdrew his fingers, it shot you back into reality.
At the sound of Diego walking by, talking loudly, and Lila smart talking back at him, you instantly started to get up.
Smirking, Five got up too while sucking his newly freed digits in his mouth, licking them clean.
Weak with orgasmic afterglow, you pressed your face against his collar, contentedly breathing in his warmth. “Let’s go somewhere where I can take care of you,” you said, nuzzling him.
“I need you to take care of me right here, love. I have a good feeling about this spot,” he whispered.
You were crushed speechless all over again by the way Five called you love, but it wouldn’t have mattered anyway if you found a way to argue because his mouth molded to yours, opening it with the force of his kiss, so he could use his tongue to tangle and tease you into submission.
When Five did relinquish ownership of your mouth, it was only to spin you around, so your backside was facing him again. From there, he released you and started fumbling with his clothing, the sound of his zipper coming down just before the metal of his belt clanked to the floor.
You reached for the desk in anticipation, thinking he was going to lay you out, chest down over his mess of papers so he could fuck you from behind, but instead, his hand latched onto your waist as he pulled you back with him, towards his desk chair.
“Show me you love me the way I love you,” Five breathed, the back of his legs bumping his seat as his cock prodded between the legs.
You hesitated, not sure what you were supposed to do, so Five plopped himself down in his chair, clarifying when he said, “Sit down.”
The pointed toe of his dress shoe rubbed against the inside of your ankle, further making his intent known. His hands brushed along your thighs, lifting your skirt, then he pushed your panties down.
Reaching back, you put your hands on his armrests. Lowering your body, he stopped you short, hovering over him.
The heat of his length ran along, gathering the wetness he’d already drawn from you. His swollen tip moving back and forth had you holding your breath and the tightening coil of desire inside you clenching with renewed need.
After several more passes, Five lined himself up. “This time, I’m going to fuck you so deep, there’s no way my boys won’t be able to stick their landing.”
“Oh, my God, Five,” you laughed.
“Please, honey, sit down!” he frantically laughed back.
Smiling like a fool, you began to lower yourself over him again, but almost right away as he entered you, it felt like you were being impaled by the girth of his rock-hard shaft, and you had to stop. “Fi-fff -vvvv- ” you sputtered. “It’s too much like this I—”
“I know, just go slow, I’ve got you,” he said, sure to keep his hands under your bottom to support some of your weight.
Giving you all the time you needed, Five shifted back, his chair creaking from his weight. His hiss of satisfaction when your body took in more of his cock was met by your teeth stabbing into your bottom lip.
“Fuuuuuck…” Five groaned, echoing your silent sentiment exactly.
Forcing yourself to take it, adjusting your body down on him until you were sitting all the way down in his lap like he requested, you were shaking like a leaf.
His lips pressed under your ear. “I am hopelessly in love with you,” he whispered.
“Oh, Five,” your voice trembled as he buried his face against your neck.
“Fuck me,” he ordered in a maddingly cocky tone.
Knowing full well he was smiling, you started rocking your hips. Almost right away, to your delight, Five placed his hands over yours on his arm rests, his knuckles going white.
His breaths started to rush out of his mouth, moist against your throat. When you started bringing your body up and down, sliding his cock in and out, deep then shallow, he fell back, breathing a quiet chorus of profanities.
“You like that?” you cheekily asked, bouncing on his cock in a way that felt so good for you, you never wanted the feeling to end.
“Fuck yes I like it!” he groaned. “Why the fuck did I wait until today to make you sit on my dick like this. We should have been doing it this way, every day, three times a day!”
Working your bottom up and down, taking him in and out, faster and faster, his head flopped back against his leather chair.
Smiling, just thinking about the fucked-out face Five was probably making, you said, “Five, I loved you even before I met you. There’s no one else in this world I love as much as you.”
“I can think of someone,” he groaned, “but I’m okay with that since that little charmer is going to be the son I am going to give you right now.” Kissing your shoulder, he grabbed you by the curve of your waist, pressing his fingers to your stomach, increasing the pressure inside you.
Jolted with each thrust of his hips meeting your ass, his hand at your waist lifted you up and down, allowing his cock to slide into you as deep as it would go.
“You’re mine now!” he growled.
His teeth sank into the crest of your shoulder blade.
“Oh, fuuuuuckkkk,” you cried, as he hummed his reverberated delight, his teeth marking you as if you weren’t already his.
Before the pain of his love bite became too much Five let go, his breaths coming fast as his sharp grunts. “Are you getting close? Because I can go at any time,” he huffed, ruthlessly railing you, his heels digging down on the floor as he thrust his hips up and down.
“Uh-huh,” you replied, unable to say more as you struggled to stay over him and not melt into a puddle of mushy bones in his lap.
Your body shuddered, your breaths not enough. Your body reactively clamped down on his cock, repeatedly spasming. The second Five felt it, he filled you, his own body jerking and twitching as he erratically slowed to a stop and sank back in his seat.
His grip loosened as he let you down in his lap. His cock throbbing inside you, the final pulses of his release and the burning of your thighs overwhelming both your senses.
You were on fire, and the sweat on his brow proved that he’d just pushed himself to the point of glorious ruin too.
“I wasn’t expecting that when I came in here,” you quietly laughed, laying against him, your chest heaving with his as you reached back to run your fingers through his hair.
Just then, the door burst open. You jolted upright, but Five’s arm instantly flexed, refusing to let you off his lap.
“Hey, Five?” Luther said, stepping in the door, still looking behind him as he took the package one of the mail room staffers handed him as they whisked by. “Oh! Hey, guys,” he corrected, looking up, seeing you and nothing but the upper half of your bodies.
Coming closer, thinking Five was just showering you with affection like he almost always was, Luther said, “Sloane wanted me to invite you to—"
He stopped mid-sentence, his eyes locked on the sight of his brother’s lap as it came into full view.
Your skirt was hiding the worst of it, but with Five’s pants tangled around his ankles, there was no way Luther couldn’t tell that he was imposing himself on you from behind.
“What is going on!?” he yelled, covering his face with the cardboard box that had Five’s name on it. “Guys! We are at work! I mean… Wow this is not appropriate!”
“What is going on is, I’m working,” Five calmly informed him. “It’s a well-known fact that when doors are shut, it’s for a reason, so this one is on you. And sure. We would love to join you and Sloane for dinner. Thank you.”
Five’s chin came to rest on your shoulder as he cooly stared at his brother.
When Luther just stood there, too shocked to move, Five gave him a much clearer dismissal.
“Get the fuck out, jackass,” he said as sternly as he could make it sound, which wasn’t even remotely threatening because he was laughing as he said it.
Luther huffed a few more words of confusion, then, fumbling around blindly, he eventually made his way back to the door.
When you were alone again, Five grinned. “Would you like to go for another ride, my love?”
Chapter 10: Ad Infinitum
Less than a month later, Five moved in, taking center stage from Herb.
“It’s been said several times tonight by others,” he began as the lights shone down on him, all people who worked for him anxiously waiting to hear what he had to say, “but I am going to say it again because you deserve it from me.”
Five glanced your way, looking so handsome.
Sitting in the row behind him filled with other board members, your ankles were crossed, and your heads were neatly placed in your lap. You were doing your best impression of a dignified businesswoman who hadn’t just spent her afternoon with your back on his desk and your heels resting on his shoulders, but the second his eyes met yours, your flush gave you away.
Having lit you on fire with nothing but a happy quirk of his lip, Five turned back to the crowd. “I personally want to thank all of you for your hard work prior to me coming on as your Director and especially after. Without all of you, this place never would have happened,” he explained, drawing a small applause of agreement from the crowd. “The last few months have been hard, but I know that what we have accomplished is worth it and it will make a world of difference.”
Five laughed softly, almost too quiet to hear, but it was very him, and with it, it was impossible not to fall for his charms.
“I mean that quite literally,” he chuckled. “The changes we have made will end up saving the world, probably many times over.”
It was no secret what you all did at The Commission and averting the end of days was sort of your thing, so that got quite a few laughs from his audience and Five nodded knowingly before moving on.
“Whether you wanted to or not,” he continued, “by now, everyone here knows me in some way or another, and I’ll be the first to admit, I don’t make knowing me easy. I am an asshole and always have been, so sorry about that.”
Five made the motion of physically shrugging that off and that got more laughter filling the large auditorium.
His warm smile grew a little more.
“I’m an asshole, and I am working on it, just ask the very patient woman I hired to keep me in-line. I’m a work in progress, and probably always will be,” he joked.
He pressed the palms of both his hands on the slanted surface of the podium, a prominent line forming between his dark eyebrows.
“Long ago, I made a horrible mistake, and I continued to make many more mistakes after that, and I paid for it, and my family paid too, over and over. The last thing I wanted to happen were the things that did.”
Five paused, his pained gaze directing downward as a loose lock of his hair fell, concealing the sadness in his eyes.
“But,” he said, forcing his voice to sound brighter again as he looked up, “It’s time to move on and look to our future.”
His lips pulled to the side.
“As we all know, I’m wrong a lot.” He sniggered at himself. “I couldn’t fix all of this on my own and I never should have tried.”
He turned and winked at you and your face instantly lit up and your heart skipped a beat.
“Everyone here is a family,” he said, still looking at you. “We are a team, and we will never stop fighting as one, but The Temps Aeternalis was never meant to be an organization that only preserved life,” he insisted, looking back towards the lights. “We are here to live it to its fullest with the people we love. That’s what makes us human. That’s the real reason we are here. To support that idea.”
Five looked over to his right at the rest of the board members, his eyes landing on Lila and Diego.
Seeing that Five was ready for them, Lila pushed herself up, giving him one of her overdone eye rolls and a hand at her mouth, intentionally drawing attention to her big, bored yawn as she approached. Behind them, Diego stood up too and began nervously shuffling his papers with his back turned to the audience.
At Five’s side, Lila smiled. “That was one hell of a speech. Sure took long enough, you old sap,” she complained, but Five merely smiled back at her equally affectionately, not taking the bait to verbally spar with her.
Knowing that it would drive her nuts, he swept in, pulling Lila in for a big hug, smooshing her to his chest. Lila’s arm quickly found its way around his back, holding him just as tight.
“I still think that you are a little piss-pot, you know that, right?” she whispered, while trying to hide that she was getting choked up by rubbing her runny nose all over on the arm of his suit jacket.
“I know how much you love me, and stop wiping your boogers on me,” Five said, scowling at her but it was so fake even the people in the back row knew it.
He pulled away, but not before giving her his pocket square. Then he leaned into the mic moving along to an epic finish.
“I am truly honored that you all entrusted me to make this organization into something in the end that we can all be proud to be a part of, and going forward I look forward to working with you all in a much less hands-on capacity.”
As murmurs from those who didn’t see this coming filled the room, his brother stepped up behind him and Five dropped a hand on his shoulder, squeezing it reassuringly.
Diego looked nervous but Five knew he was ready for this. Like so many things they were taught to think by Reginald that were wrong, Diego was never a second to anyone.
He was a leader and always had been, and his well-timed words of advice when it came to seeing things clearly with you would always mean the world Five.
When the votes came in, he was not at all surprised to see that Diego came in at the top to replace him. Diego was a perfect choice to shake things up around there and Five looked forward to stepping back in from time to time to watch his brother in action.
Hearing Diego take a long breath while he enthusiastically shook himself like he was about to spring into a scuffle, fists swinging like a boxer in the ring, Five’s proud, and somewhat exasperated smile got even bigger.
He looked back out over the podium.
“I am officially stepping down, and so is our Co-chair. Thanks to her, I’m going to be a daddy, and I can’t live another day with taking a little time away to enjoy that miracle with her,” he declared, giving everyone the good news.
The entire crowd stood and started giving their departing Director and you a standing ovation filled with excited whistles.
“It’s about time for that vacation,” Klaus yelled through his cupped hands with Viktor next to him, much less boisterous but equally thrilled in his enthusiastic clapping.
Motioning for the room to quiet but getting little back other than more clapping and shouts of encouragement, Five proudly said, “It is my honor to give you, Diego Hargreeves, our new Director, and his second in command, or first, however you want to look at it, your Co-Chair, Lila Hargreeves.”
Stepping aside, with a wave of his hand, motioning for Diego to take the mic, the echo of clapping didn’t stop and neither did the calls of well wishes for both the amazing man walking away, and the one trying and failing to get them to calm down.
Coming back to his empty seat next to yours, Five took your waiting hand into his, holding it tight as he whispered, “I love you.”
“I love you too,” you mouthed back, smiling so hard it hurt.
As you stood together, cheering for Diego, it finally sunk in for Five.
This was it. The reason for it all.
Finally, he could start living life as he wished, and he couldn’t wait to do it with you by his side and his new baby boy in his arms.
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I have to ask a question, and I'm about 99% sure this was your post, but I cannot for the life of me find it😭
I saw a post on Molly's mini-speech right before chapter 6 where she points to Mary-Beth and says "I ain't her", but then also points to Micah and says "I ain't him".
I wanted to talk about that on my twitter, but I can't find the original post, nor do I want to post my tweet without crediting you. Now, I'm pretty sure it was your post, but if not, that's fine and sorry to waste your time LMFAO😭
If it is yours, could you give me the link to it so that I can properly credit you in my post? Many thanks!
And I am like 99% sure it isn't me, I would recommend looking at Phoebe aka river-of-wine, she has a lot of Molly stuff. I haven't looked into that speech, but I can shortly talk about it, though I natually don't know what points you specifically want to talk about.
The speech she gives is her way of letting out the fustrations that she feels that has bottled up over the time that she has been in the gang. She was loved bombed by Dutch and came to expect that it would be the standard without knowing how Dutch actually is with women, however rather than being loved, she got abandoned.
She points out in chapter 3 not having been touched for weeks, in chapter four she feels like everyone is laughing at her so on and so forth, but while she is being abandoned she is watching Dutch fall head over heels for Mary-Beth and give his ear to Micah.
Molly watches as her role is being taken over by someone else and she is being thrown to the side. You can hear her complain about it in the earlier chapters, making it clear that she is annoyed with it, but she at the same time doesn't wish to annoy Dutch so she doesn't push as much as she wants to. But in chapter 5 when she is done, when she has taken that choice to die, she doesn't mind confronting him so she lets out her fustrations.
She was meant to be the one to get Dutch's love, but it ends up being Mary-Beth, she was meant to get his attention and be the one he listens to but that is Micah. She wants all that but she is not them so she doesn't get it.
I got a feeling I did not explain it as well as I wished but words ain't wording. However I hope you find the original post!
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"Like there was no tomorrow." CH.7—Daryl Dixon.
Chapter Summary: After days and days on the road following the loss of Bob and Tyresse that night in the church, it all comes down to the reunion with your father. But after a revealing conversation, you finally understand why Daryl and you broke up. Then, April asks Daryl an important question before he asks you an important question as well.
A/N: Thank you to everyone who reads this story! We got to the moment where you and Daryl agree to form a home for yourselves and for April. Yeeeh. I hope you like it! And one detail, I love Beth but since her death left a void in my heart I didn't write about her here and about Maggie, Daryl and the others suffering because of it. It breaks my heart too much :c (I hope you understand)
Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5 Chapter 6
“I have a message for you.” On his knees, Gareth smiled at you, leaving you that memory before he died in God’s house that night. “Daddy’s coming for you, baby, you can’t hide forever.”
Far in the distance, the bus explodes as you continue deeper into the woods, leaving behind a monstrous flame whose warm colors resemble the sunset—a heartbreaking promise for either party, that at the end of this day, some will die.
The ambush. The group splitting up because of those people. April getting lost in the commotion. But now, even with your hair wet, some strands sticking to your face and the raindrops that surprised the summer season still falling down your forehead, nothing blocks your vision of that man when you finally find him: with the cruel, mocking smile on the face of your supposed father who had aged from the inclemency of life, his right hand holding the gun against April’s temple like an expert.
Like a bad joke from a cruel and short life, April relives that hopeless sensation of feeling another gun pointed at her, frozen in fear, but murmuring “mommy” under her breath, tears that get lost under the incessant rain. Always hidden in the shadows because that was where the monsters lived, the man who always tried to break you showed up this afternoon with his people, the person who trapped you in a windowless castle where he kept you as his favorite prisoner, always protected by the gigantic dragon, always small, always afraid.
You can shoot him now, but he had been such a good cop that, in a millisecond, he could shoot April even if he were dying.
“Dad, just let her go, okay? This is between you and me.” In a friendly tone, you lower the long–range weapon you had shoved against your shoulder, so hard that it leaves the bright promise of a bruise even in the dull rain, but the crumbs of your relationship with him make you do so, only to go back to being that helpless little girl who could never live up to putting his life in danger. He always underestimated you, even now. “Whatever problem you have with me, she’s not to blame for anything.”
Your dad lets out a dry, sarcastic and small laugh, but you can feel his repulsive disgust in that sound.
“You’re not my daughter, you never were, you were just a nobody that I kept raising even after your mom died.”
You swallow the pain, but your throat is so dry that you wince. Your mind is racing a mile for minute, and yet, suddenly the world seems clearer with that cold revelation even under the stormy weather, because now you can give meaning to everything, a reason to every word of his, every look, every action from him, to finally stop walking through that father–daughter relationship in the dark, blindly, always lost in the infinite why?
“It’s okay, Jeff, I understand. In fact, my whole life is starting to make more sense now, so thank you for the clarification.” Your tone is calm, an action that masks the painful beating of your racing heart. “But I ask you again, can you let my daughter go, please? Look at her, she's a baby. You don't have to ruin her life, too.”
His free hand holds April's small shoulder, keeping her firm against him.
“Your daughter is pretty, and I guess this is better than the disgusting idea of you getting involved with that nobody, that drug dealer’s younger brother. Daryl, isn't it? Although I can see that the bastard didn’t stay as far away from you as he promised he would.”
Stunned by the thought of him and Daryl meeting in the old world, you feel the lump in your throat.
“You met Daryl?”
Another short laugh answers you before his words do.
“I have to give you credit because you hid your relationship pretty well those years, but I raised you better, sweetheart. Did you really want to end up being the wife of someone like him?”
Your common sense pushes your laughter to the back of your body, because answering sarcasm with more sarcasm would only make his short patience run out faster.
“I still don’t understand; would you mind explaining?”
You want the full story, and Jeff sighs, as if talking about Daryl is so exhausting that it leaves him without any energy.
“I saw you one night when Matt was driving me home. I was a little drunk. You were sitting on someone’s motorcycle outside a bar, and my heart actually jumped for joy at the thought that my son had finally come home…” The few seconds of his smile die cruelly, all under the words that come next. “But then I saw someone come out just to grab your face before kissing you. And I felt sick when Matthew filled me in on who he was. A redneck, a nobody, and worse, the younger brother of a drug dealer who’d been in jail. Not the right image for the police chief, sweetheart.” Jeff clicks his tongue in disapproval, almost convincing you that he had feelings for you. “It was easy to look into their backgrounds, and with a little heavy–handedness, he swore he’d walk away from you rather than see his older brother in jail again. So I guess he didn’t love you as much as he swore he did: you know no man gives up on the woman he truly loves…”
His words hang in the air, only to be carried away by the wind. But like that little boat that finally finds its way to shore thanks to the lighthouse, after having been adrift for so long, it all makes sense, everything you thought life took away with that farewell comes back to you. The end of the relationship, the words, the abrupt end to an affection that only seemed to grow stronger with time, it had all been cut off by a human hand.
There’s peace in knowing the truth, but there’s also anger in knowing that he deprived you of any other kind of love because your so–called father never wanted you to feel any, not from him, not from anyone else—Leaving you lost, feeling nothing. No. That’s a lie because you’re feeling absolutely everything right now. The pain of having been nothing to him. The unbearable pain because you did love him once. And it’s like drowning in the deep sea, feeling the pain of the water invading your lungs. And it’s like dying, but without truly allowing yourself to die.
“Well, you got it, Jeff. That relationship was over long time ago, do you feel better about that, big boy?” You chuckle, sadness masking the sarcasm he always hated hearing from you, and you let out a tired sigh next, like that last breath before you perish on the floor. “I guess your hatred for me makes sense now, because don’t think I never noticed the way you look at me... why do you think I always locked my door? What I don’t understand is why you stayed by my mom’s side like a wimp? Begging for love from the person who apparently cheated on you.” You scoff softly. A drop falls from his lip and the light weight wipes away his winning smile, but his pulse quickens, matching his heartbeat, threatening to destroy everything in a single second. “I honestly thought you died that night, but at the same time, I’m not surprised you ended up in Terminus. You were a cop, but you were never strong enough to do things alone, so I guess someone saved your ass that night, Matthew probably... because even he knew you're not as brave as you think you are.” His brow furrows at the shock of your words, but hatred gleams in his gaze like those days long gone, but never blurred. “I was a kid though, Jeff. So what’s your excuse? What was my sin in all this? What crime did I commit against you?”
But he remains silent, ineloquent and spiteful.
“And Austin, my brother, is he actually your son?”
He nods.
“Okay. Now, let my daughter go, and you and I can work this out.”
But the attempt at a step dies before you can take it as his body tenses, gripping April’s shoulder tighter.
“Mommy…” Her voice is a whisper, a soft cry that barely manages to find its way through her closed throat.
You swallow the fear.
“It’ll be okay, honey, trust me, okay?”
April can see through the terror, eyes bright with tears that are free again, but panic sets in as Jeff tries to take a step back, taking her with him. However, like a slow–motion movie, even your heartbeats slow as an arrow sinks into his shoulder, a loud cry pushing out of him with the pain. And like a slap from life, something breaks in the sky and the rain falls more dreadfully, seconds of bewilderment that April takes to run towards Daryl at the moment you raise the gun again, firing a bullet that sinks to the height of his chest.
You know why Daryl didn’t shoot him in the head, but the instant Daryl holds April as Jeff falls against that tree, you reach out to him before kicking the gun hanging in his hand.
“Are you going to kill me, baby?” He tries to laugh, but the action makes his expression twist in pain.
You let out a defeated sigh, like part of your soul is about to go with him, even though he didn’t deserve it.
“It’s ironic, isn’t it? I found a baby that isn’t mine but I love her like she is, unlike you, who had a little girl in your house that you never knew how to love even when I tried to.” His gaze locks with you at your own revelation, an incredulous expression on his face that came through even despite everything he put you through, in the past and now. “Thank you, Jeff, because you saved my life in this new world even though your intention was for me to die young, don't think I didn't see it in your eyes, but now it's my turn to give you back the lesson: I must break you before you break me, because I know you won't stop until you ruin me completely, and I can't give you that pleasure anymore, not now that I have to protect my daughter.”
A soft smile tugs at the corners of his lip, feeling, for the first time, proud of you just seconds away from everything being over.
“Goodbye, (Y/N).”
You nod absently before raising the gun and firing.
Then, you slide the gun strap over your body to free your shaking hands, free from holding any instrument that only served to end some lives that crossed your path. Bad people, you want to believe as you turn around to leave behind every vision of that man, everything that happened at his side. For a few seconds, everyone needs a moment of silence to face what happened, but when you see Aeris on Daryl’s shoulder, you chuckle softly.
“Are you and my baby friends now? Like besties or something?”
Daryl scoffs before taking April’s hand, holding it gently but firmly before walking with you at their side.
“This ain't a damn friendship, woman, s'jus' a truce between me and the bird.”
Like a respite from that crazy life, the path back to the main road is clear of walkers. But you and April chuckle, amused glances passing each other as a good sign that not everything is as dark and dull as the rain and the forest—a good omen that life is not a selfish b*tch, not that much at least.
“You’re not as good a hunter as I thought if my bird had to bring you to me. You don’t get tired of me, do you?”
“Stop it.” Daryl grunts quietly, shooting you a warning look before continuing to look ahead.
You sigh before changing the subject.
“Please tell me the others are okay. Judith?”
Daryl looks at you again, silently telling you that the bad guys are gone.
“Everyone’s okay, peach. No one is hurt. And when all the craziness was over, Glenn came back sayin' he found a cabin. It smells like horse shit, but it works… fine, sorry!” Daryl whines when April tugs at his hand, a frown on her face as if her little mind lets her overlook the danger to her life, but not the bad words. “Ya need to get used to me, monkey.”
The little girl has her gaze fixed on him, as intense as Aeris and her overflowing curiosity.
“You don’t have to say so many bad words all the time, Da…” Caught in the constant confusion, April bites her lip to keep from saying out loud the word she wants to say to the first man she considers a true father figure. “Okay?”
Daryl scoffs.
“I ain't promisin' anythin' I know I won’t keep.”
There’s a moment between them, that complicity, father and daughter in their own world, and you stop for a moment to look at him: a man who would surely scoffs (as he does all the time) if you called him that prince who, unknowingly, without any intention of doing so, saved you from that cruel fate that you would never have been able to escape from alone.
Finally, in the middle of the unstable path, the small hill ends in a cabin in the middle of large trees, and Sam is the first to hold you in a hug: her body is warm despite the cruel cold, as is the warmth of Carol, Maggie and Rick.
Inside, the small campfire is still breathing and the warmth spreads throughout the place, the colors of the fire flickering to paint the emptiness of the place with soft shades of orange–some are awake, others have chosen to spend the rest of the night in gentler dreams, like Aeris who flew to one of the tallest trees. But as if she knows what’s coming and you don’t, Sam takes April to sleep near the campfire, and in silence, Daryl places his hand on your lower back, triggering memories, but you let him guide you to a side of the cabin where the light from the flames doesn’t shine brightly, making the scattered hay into a comfortable makeshift bed. Putting his crossbow aside, Daryl lays there with you, one arm behind his head and on his left side, watching the profile of your face, while, lying on your back, you finally let go of all the pain that was building up in your body.
“I know it will sound stupid but, are ya okay, peach?”
You sigh, wishing that, just like the air you let go, you could do the same with everything else inside you—and you want to start by telling the truth behind the separation, but you’re not ready for everything that would be unleashed.
“I heard what April told you when she ran to you… did you?”
Daryl’s heart races, as if an overwhelming emotion called fear and happiness put a hand on his neck, but it’s not because of fear of ruining it (I mean, although Daryl does feel that), but rather it’s because of the possibility of a better future, like a new version of a warm home he thought of building with you. He’s scared of that.
“'bout her callin' me daddy?”
“Yes.”
“Yeah.” He murmurs, softly so as to not clash with the mood inside the place. “I think it hit me harder than a truck.”
You laugh softly, and finally, gathering courage, you turn your body to face him as well, watching him with a gentle gaze so as not to scare him with the overwhelming truth.
“Do you want to be? Because no one would blame you if you didn’t.”
Daryl gulps.
“I do, but I’m terrified of ruinin' it.” His free hand that rested at the height of his chest makes contact with your cheek, rough fingers caressing you lovingly, the other’s skin reminding you of the warmth you two shared in the past. His gaze on yours is deep as the sea, but now, you know you could never drown in the color of his eyes, not when Daryl would always be there to keep you afloat. “I was always scared of the idea of being like ma dad, of hurtin' someone who was never to blame for anythin', like he did with me and ma brother.”
“Hey, no…” You stop him fondly, you own hand holding his, because there was always a fragile part of Daryl, the boy who became a man but still felt the pain like a child. “You are not your father, Daryl, and you never will be. He never knew how to love anyone and you did even though they never repaid you in the same way. I know you loved your mom and your brother… everyone can see how you feel about Carol and the family you formed all this time, and I’m sure even April can feel it. And yes, sometimes you have a short temper and you act like an asshole, but I know you did so you don’t feel too much when you lived so long bottling up your feelings to feel little or nothing, but I also know that this world has only shown you that you are capable of protecting and loving people you didn’t know first.”
Between a sea of words that calm his heart, Daryl finds the strength to chuckle.
“To be fair, I did warn ya I was an asshole when we started datin'.”
“Yeah, I know. Why do you think I threw that peach at your head when you were being one?” You chuckle back. “Believe me, I saw the signs, but you were always incredibly hot so I guess I didn't care much about the rest.”
“Stop it.” Daryl grunts in embarrassment, pulling his hand away as he feels the heat shooting through his body, but his shyness makes you chuckle a little harder.
“Please, you are. And now even more so with your long hair.” You frown, but keeping a smirk. “You did it on purpose, didn’t you?”
He clears his throat, but Daryl can feel the blush blooming on his cheeks.
“Nah, I jus' didn’t want to cut it all the time.”
You nod, not believing him at all.
“Well, let me tell you, that was a very good decision because you look very, very attractive, so much so that it should be a crime to look like that–”
Your words become prisoners within your lips as he places his hand over your mouth, his brow furrowed in the failed attempt to look serious despite the obvious embarrassment that accompanies it as a result of your unfiltered words.
“Woman, please stop.” His hand smothers your laughter, but you nod as a promise not to continue, causing him to pull away. “Jesus, I forgot how much ya loved to make fun of me.”
You try to keep a calm expression.
“Oh, don’t pretend you didn’t like it. You didn’t have a sense of humor until I came along.”
A small smile tugs at the corners of his lips.
“I never said I didn’t love it.” The word love pulls the scale to one side, so drastically that it breaks it, but you manage to keep the surprise from showing on your face. “And yeah, ya always seemed to enjoy teasin' me, but ya were so damn sweet that no one noticed that sassy mouth of yers.”
You scoff, just to hide the tickle in your chest.
“Look who’s saying it, the person who didn’t know anything else to say but sarcastically. But seriously, didn’t your face hurt from having that scowl on all the time?”
Daryl chuckles, but there was something in his eyes when they turned honest, transparent, just like now—dreamy eyes when it came to you, even with all the sadness, but there’s something broken behind his tear–crystallized gaze that Daryl struggles to keep from falling.
“M'sorry, peach, m'sorry, I was a fuckin' coward.”
“What?” You can’t find the right words because suddenly, Daryl seems to choke on his words, but he’s ready, you can see it, to let everything he kept hidden finally find the light. “I don’t—”
“I love ya, so fuckin' much.” His voice is soft, but decisive. “I always did, peach, and despite that shitty thought in ma head tellin' me all the time that ya deserved someone better, I was ready to become that someone 'cause I never wanted to let ya go, but yer dad threatened to put Merle back in prison if I didn’t stay away from ya… and Merle was a bastard, but he was ma brother, and I knew ya were ma real family, but I was afraid to break ya just like yer father did all those years. I could see the pain in yer eyes, n’ I didn’t want to do that to ya, too.”
The truth is overwhelming, even though you already knew it, but hearing the guilt in his voice makes it all the even more painful because Daryl did care about leaving you, unlike Jeff, who made him do it without a shred of remorse.
“Daryl, it’s okay.” Your gaze is warm and kind, a small demonstration that your words are real and you mean them. “It’s not your fault, it never was, you were doing what you thought was best. You protected your brother, Daryl, and that’s what family does.”
Daryl swallows the lump in his throat, holding your gaze through his sad eyes.
“But I pushed ya away, peach, even though I knew ya didn’t want to leave.”
With a slight broken smile, you try to hold back the first tear—the one that is the hardest to keep in line, because after it, the others would come like an unbridled sea.
“Yeah, you’re right, I didn’t want to leave you.” With one hand, you rub your face to remove all traces of hopeless expression. “Try to sleep, okay, love? Since we left the church you haven’t slept much, don’t think I didn’t notice.”
The pain is beating, but his serious expression breaks with a sad smile because Daryl knows he won’t force you to talk.
“Ya’ve always been a mom. With April and Sam, with me, and even with Merle.”
You let out a tired chuckle before closing your eyes, hands under your cheek to keep them warm.
“I know, but don’t pretend you didn’t like it either.”
A few seconds pass, until Daryl finds his voice.
“Woman, there’s nothin' 'bout ya I don’t love.”
His words hang in the warm air all night, eyes closed for a short time before falling into his own paradise, dreaming of something that would come true in the very near future. And at some point in the hours that passed with a blink, his free hand sought out your body and the warmth that emanated from it, like he always did since the first time you both slept together in a bed. Little memories came back to his sleeping mind, happy moments between holding hands, the first kiss and the ones that came after, when Daryl realized you were trustworthy and showed you his scars, with your gentle hand caressing every past pain, all before make love for the first time.
But when the day starts to return, Daryl feels the slight push of his heavy body and the emptiness beside him.
“What?” His voice is even deeper in the morning, and he sits up to see April through a blurry gaze for a few seconds. “Ya okay, sweetheart?”
“Yes, but I need to ask you some questions.”
Daryl frowns, confused.
“Okay?”
“What’s mommy’s favorite color?”
Daryl frowns even more at a question that seems to come out of nowhere, but he ignores that April had already asked you the same questions days before just to check compatibility between you and him like Aunt Sam had said.
“Blue.” He answers, not missing a beat—like your eyes, she wants to say, but April decides to continue.
“Coffee, hot or cold?”
“Depends on the season, but always with sugar… sometimes too much.”
“Seafood?”
“Forbidden forever. Mommy ain’t a fan of the texture; she says it feels too funny in her mouth.”
“Her favorite fruit?”
“Peaches.”
“Her favorite flowers?”
“Tulips.”
“Favorite book?”
“Pride and Prejudice, but that’s a trick question 'cause she kept fallin' in love with every leading man like she didn’t have a damn boyfriend in real life.”
April laughs at Daryl’s expression, eyes still a little closed and hair a little disheveled.
“Can I ask you another question?” Daryl nods, not noticing her own expression. April is confused and terrified, her little mind racing like her little heart squeezing almost painfully. “If I asked you, would you be my daddy, Daryl?”
Like that imaginary truck that seemed to have run him over, or faster than the bike he used to drive when he didn’t even care about his own life, Daryl smiles despite the inner terror, that misguided idea of ruining everything because that’s what his own parents taught him, but as he holds April with ease, lifting her up to bring her closer to him, because, although Daryl knows that life is unpredictable, the only thing he can be sure of is that he could love the little person who had seen through that shield of his, the real person behind, the older but scared person, with the little girl in front who wanted to give him a chance to have a family now that life had put her in front of him.
“Ya’ve been ma daughter since I met ya, sweetheart, since the first time I held ya in ma arms as if ya were mine.” Daryl pushes a strand of her hair behind her ear, an expression that is so simple and so powerful. “Is that okay?”
Her relief is so overwhelming that it can’t fit in her chest and her small frame, but it’s the impulse that makes April wrap her arms around his neck.
“Okay, daddy.” She smiles through her tears, her voice cracking but dripping with happiness. And April feels loved in his arms, and that's enough for her. “Mommy’s outside. Now go give her the ring before the others wake up.”
April pulls away as Daryl has the same confused expression.
“How do ya know 'bout that, young lady?”
The little girl shrugs before running to the place where she was sleeping with Sam. Sure enough, the place is still silent, with soft breaths and some light snoring mixing together. His sleeping heart wakes frantically as Daryl stands up, sweeping some piece of hay from his body before opening the door of the cabin and closing it behind him, taking your profile a few steps away where the hill ends, framing the sunrise between two trees like a moving photograph, with Aeris in your hand until the falcon takes flight when Daryl approaches.
“That man ya said ya could see in me... do ya think ya could give him a chance, peach?”
Like a reflex, like a magnet that always draws you two together, you turn to see him and his body does the same, finding each other face to face.
Your gaze is confused, but always kind.
“What do you mean?”
“Peach…” His voice is low, a little nervous, and maybe even unsure because the constant fear of that wrong idea still looms before him, more fearsome than a walker, but Daryl has never been more sure of what he is about to ask of you. “Ya know I ain't good with words, but I want to tell ya that ya and April are ma family, the home I never thought I deserved. And s'kind of funny that the world had to go to shi–” Daryl decides to stop and use another word, just because his little girl doesn’t like bad ones. “That this new world had to start so I could find ya two, and I want to make things right if ya’ll have me.”
When Daryl pulls a ring out of his pocket, your breath seems to catch in your throat, and although your mouth threatens to fall open, you keep it closed while making the monumental effort to hold his gaze when his returns to yours.
“When did you get a ring?”
“Ya don’t want to know.” Daryl lets out a small laugh, shy and scared. “I want to be with ya and our baby girl for as long as we can live in this world, peach. I love ya for who ya are, for yer stubbornness and for yer strength, but also for how sweet ya are all the time, with our family and with me. I want to hug ya, kiss ya, hold yer hand and be able to be at least a little bit of that man ya always saw in me… I know we could die tomorrow but I hope not, I hope life gives us time to build somethin' for April, for us and for everyone. And yeah, I know I can be an asshole sometimes but I promise I’ll be better, and although I can’t promise ya a story like the books ya used to read, I can promise that I will love ya n' our kid for the rest of ma life.”
His words travel around the world and come back to your heart, overwhelmed by his sudden confession just when you had thought that you two would never, ever be together again. But as the day grows brighter and you take all in, so does the realization that there is only one answer to his question.
“Peach, could ya give me an asnwer, please? I’m dyin’ here.”
You chuckle, but as your eyes returns to him and a soft smile appears on your closed lips, you now know that what Jeff said was a lie—Daryl did love you, he always did, so much so that he walked away from you despite his own pain.
“Of course I’ll marry you, silly.”
Like the first breath of air after being submerged for too long, Daryl feels like he can breathe as he holds you in a hug after placing the ring on your finger, the warmth of your bodies recognizing each other after a long time. As if the world has been put on pause, everything feels infinite, erasing all traces of the pain of each other’s absence, leaving only the immense joy of being together when that was the only thing you two had ever wanted. And when you part slightly, his forehead rests against yours, his hand caressing part of your cheek and your hairline.
“You know I should make you beg, don’t you?” You’re playing and he knows it, and even though you squint in mockery as you pull away, Daryl can feel the relief tickling his chest.
“Yeah, I deserve it.”
“Yes, you do.” You nod, thoughtful. “And who would marry us anyways? Because it’s not like there are many priests in this world to officiate a wedding.”
Daryl nods, keeping an amused expression.
“We can ask Gabriel.”
You grimace.
“You sure? Because you told him religion was crap.”
Caught off guard, Daryl clears his throat.
“Or ya could ask him. Ya’re the nice one in this relationship.”
You shrug.
"I guess you're right. And I guess this will be the perfect excuse to find you a better shirt, maybe one with sleeves."
Daryl frowns.
"What? Woman, I wore ma best shirt the first time I asked ya out."
“Hi.” Your laugh catches in your throat as the male voice draws your attention, but as a reflect of his protectiveness, Daryl steps in front of you, his hand holding the gun that was always at his waist. “Hi! Sorry for scaring you like that, but I’m not the enemy, I promise.”
His words seem honest, but the muzzle of the gun is still pointed in his direction.
“What do ya want?” Daryl is calm, and his hand doesn’t tremble.
The young man raises his hands in a sign of peace, maintaining a friendly smile.
“My name is Aaron, and I’m looking for Rick. You two are his family, aren’t you?”
The silence falls heavy for a moment, until the chirping of birds breaks the strange spell, but Aeris’ singing voice draws your attention as she joins the melodious chorus for the first time—perhaps as a divine sign that things are finally about to get better.
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A Day in the Life of a Loser: Loser Ford AU
Chapter 5: Theatre
12th June 1970
Stanley said I'd been "wallowing in my own sadness for too long" and that I should "get the hell up and do something."
I'd been mildly discouraged from my regular hobbies after the science fair. He suggested I try something new, maybe the opposite of whatever it is I usually do.
That's how I ended up playing the lead role in a Shakespearean play. Well, almost playing the lead role in a Shakespearean play.
Everything was going well at first. I nailed my audition and rehearsals went smoothly. Yet, during opening night, I was tackled by a sudden feeling of anxiety.
It got so bad that I started to feel nauseous. ..You can guess what happened next.
Note to self: Do not pursue theatre.
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Ford couldn't bare to linger on the event any longer and put his diary away.
He really needed to get his life together. This couldn't be it, could it? It's just one failure in the mountain of a pile! He's lived 17 long, sad years; he can handle one more measley rejection.
Stanford Pines was destined for greatness and he was either gonna prove it or die trying!
#loser ford au#a day in the life of a loser#stanford pines#ford pines#gravity falls#gravity falls au#fanfiction#SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG#AND SORRY IT'S SO SHORT#i've been having writer's block#and i was focusing on other projects#BUT WE ARE SO BACK
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What a truly shitty week
#no offense to my bf he's been nothing but supportive#but god this is so fucking hard#i feel like I'm mourning but no one died#but I'm still mourning what I'm going to lose#no one will die but a chapter of my life will end#all ours talks of our dreams of things we wanted to do together#the things we wanted to do together here#but we can't stay here#she can't stay here#she needs to leave and I'm being left behind and#and it's slowly sinking in#I don't want this#but we can't do anything else#she can't do anything else#she has to go#this sucks so bad#it's so hard#I'm going to cry the moment i see her tomorrow#we'll both cry i know we will#we both didn't want this to end#this is all because of increased rent and i hate it#this sucks#I'm going to miss her#I'm going to miss the cat far more than anything probably#if#if I wasn't left completely alone I'd be better#but#it's just me#it'll just be me#with nothing but me
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i do a light chuckle once i remember hofmann and semmelweis are friends but then i remember semmelweis and marcus' suitcase interaction where they talk about her and i am once again inconsolable about this old woman's death
#reverse 1999#semmelweis#greta hofmann#certified storm moments#i miss hofmann so bad i know ill start sobbing when someone brings her up again in chapter 7#r1999 shitpost#i still think their canon ages are bullshit and theyre both older than canon in my head but yeah semmelweis is half hofmann's age (19 to 38#bluepoch i prommy you won't start profusely bleeding income if you make a character older than their mid twenties. i promise you that#nothing more but hofweis rambling after this you have been warned#anyways you mightve seen me here or there mention that i ship these two and. yes the age gap is a central theme to how i percieve them#semmelweis lived the dream (see how i say this in past tense) she bagged that old woman </3#the inherent angst of your partner being so much younger than you and close to death thanks to a terminal illness yet in the end#its actually you that dies first. and she ends up finding a cure to illness and ending up immortal. something something 'i will never see#how old age looks on you. you are breaking my heart.' and how it applies to both of their perspective towards the other#one went to vienna to (unknowingly) die and the other went there to live#koshka-sova said it best its a pair that dances round life and death. and can't forget about the inherent workplace yuri#also its funny thinking of marcus unwittingly finding out through either her arcane skill or some other method her mentor's coworker-friend#got it on with her. like i think the two start bonding because of hofmann but then one day marcus approaches her with haunted eyes and#shakily goes 'd...did you. did you and madam hofmann..? my arcane skill said. that you and. did you two......?'
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'Yes, that old oak with which I saw eye to eye was here in this forest,' thought Prince Andrei. 'But whereabouts?' he wondered again, looking at the left side of the road and, without realizing, without recognizing it, admiring the very oak he sought. The old oak, quite transfigured, spread out a canopy of dark, sappy green, and seemed to swoon and sway in the rays of the evening sun. There was nothing to be seen now of knotted fingers and scars, of old doubts and sorrows. Through the rough, century-old bark, even where there were no twigs, leaves had sprouted, so juicy, so young that it was hard to believe that aged veteran had borne them.
'Yes, it is the same oak,' thought Prince Andrei, and all at once he was seized by an irrational, spring-like feeling of joy and renewal. All the best moments of his life of a sudden rose to his memory. Austerlitz, with that lofty sky, the reproachful look on his dead wife's face, Pierre at the ferry, that girl thrilled by the beauty of the night, and that night itself and the moon and ... everything suddenly crowded back into his mind.
'No, life is not over at thirty-one,' Prince Andrei decided all at once, finally and irrevocably. 'It is not enough for me to know what I have in me- everyone else must know it too: Pierre, and that young girl who wanted to fly away into the sky; all of them must learn to know me, in order that my life may not be lived for myself alone.
From War and Peace by Leo Tolstoy
#there are so many gorgeous passages in W&P that i could pick#why not this one in which Andrei reflects on several of them?#I've already talked about the Natasha and the moon passage on this blog. truly one of the most beautiful scenes I've ever read in any book#but part of what's so interesting about that scene is that we actually get it from Andrei's perspective. he's listening below the window#and overhearing Natasha that night is really what makes him love her#it's what made /me/ love her#and he carries that experience with him alongside his own experience looking up at the sky on the battlefield at Austerlitz#Napoleon himself sees Andrei and commends his courage but Andrei barely notices because the sky is so so beautiful#the lofty heavens which he never really considered before#but Natasha did#and so it's those moments his friendship with Pierre this old oak that renew his lust for life#life is not over at thirty. once i heard a girl exclaim at the loveliness of the moon and wish to fly away.#once i lay on a battlefield and all i could see was the beauty of the sky#and my friend Pierre believes in the future and he's searching it out#and look. this tree is still here#first time i read W&P i was honestly so relieved that so many people got happy endings the tragedy of Andrei's death didn't fully register#i mean the chapters concerning his death are beautiful and sad. the kinship between Natasha and Maria at his bedside#the peace he finds as he dies#but it really is a story in which he had decided to live fully only to die young. and that's become increasingly tragic to me as I've grown#happy birthday tolstoy#russia where are you flying to?#pontifications and creations
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it's me and all the women in literature described in despondent unhappiness in a marriage that they don't hate but don't enjoy as they should and who feel as if they're not the way a woman should be and who yearn to be free of their husband and children not because they despise them but because they're not for a husband and children and who can't say that they're miserable but who feel a numb kind of despair in all that disconnectedness and disconnectedness and disconnectedness. they are just like me for real
#we have the same kind of depression 👍 but also. i can see so clearly that that's the way i would be if i still thought i was a girl.#and i had grown up to get married to someone and tried to be a woman and a mother like that. god...#edna pontellier hold on. i'm going out into the sea with you. we'll drown together.#laura brown from the hours on my kin list 👍#need to reread the hours so bad. opened up my copy of it to check if laura had killed herself at the end or not for this post#and just skimming the last few chapters made me tear up. god. but there are still the hours aren't there? one and then another...#and then you get through that one and then my god there's another...#um. books that make you go 'okay so maybe i have wanted to kill myself a little bit all these years. but maybe i'm going to be okay'#the book ever honestly it is Everything to me#and kate chopin's the awakening is good as well. much to be said about the depiction of people of color in that novel#but the depiction of edna pontellier's mental state is so. ough.#glances at the ratings on goodreads nd stuff have made me so irritated.#god forbid a woman commit the ultimate selfish sin of leaving her children behind because she's so miserable by killing herself.#because far worse than the thought that she could be losing all her personhood moment by moment#and wasting her life away feeling like a shell of a person#pales. in comparison to the thought that she could POSSIBLY abandon the children she didn't really want to have.#of course it's a bad situation for the kids. sorry to raoul and etienne. but they will survive.#condemning the main character for having the audacity to go off and die... sickening. i hate people#valentine notes
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Ep 9 ! :)
#I feel like I really got not much to say about this one.#The whole Kunikida deal with witnessing the child die has always left me ://#It's just always felt... Unnecessarily cruel to me. Wow the world is unforgiving and life is nothing but suffering. Okay#You know it does have to do with everything else I don't agree with about bsd's core morals. The nihilism and everything.#But like it is what it is I'm not dwelling much on it for the most part.#It's chapter 76 Teruko saying “In this world‚ being ‘desperate’ means relatively little. /So welcome to our world./”#I'm just not used to believe there's such a thing as no-win scenarios. But I suppose that's naivety on my end#Btw‚ up to this moment‚ I've ALWAYS thought all the kids died in the explosion.#And I'm only now realizing it was only the little one with the granades on their neck? That doesn't make it any less horrible‚ but at least#to know the others survived is a relief.#(Btw how the hell did Kunikda survive?? He was literally running towards three granades. Or maybe I'm not familiar with weapons power idk?)#In a way this arc reminds me a lot of t/pn. The little kids with guns. The break out and break in. Idk.#What else. I like Tanizaki he's a funny character.#I wish we'd see more of Atsushi actually... Do things#I love. Love Kouyou's character and I think her relationship with Kyouka is so compelling.#In this episode I really like how Kyouka seemingly took advantage of Kouoyou's unwillingness to harm her and by extension Tanizaki.#It's very smart.#I like how much emphasis is put on Demon Snow and Golden Demons being... Really powerful abilities. It made me feel like another reason–#why Kouyou hasn't shown up for half manga now is a Chuuya-esque kind of being too powerful–#their existence would defeat any plot obstacle lol#Next episode! There's gonna be my favourite scene in the whole manga :)#random rambles#Almost forgot. When I say b/sd is racist...#It's not only that every single foreigner is by definition a villain.#It's Kunikida saying “He was born abroad‚ but he grew up here. It's not unusual here‚ in this crucible of ability user criminals.”#Which sounds pretty much like saying that everyone coming from abroad must automatically be a criminal. Which.#Yikes
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Break 🤝 Ebisu - waiting for years to die and then realizing when the time comes that they want to live...
anon i don't know who you are or what prompted you to send this, but....... yes, I suppose? but also Ow why did you have to make me think of this
#anonymous#the only difference though is that one's death was well written and necessary for the plot/characters#(while still feeling terribly sad but not like in a betrayed way)#and the other one was just cruel shock value and spitting in the face of their character arc for the entire series#oh never think i ever stop being salty even after 9 years :))))#it's funny though because that kind of death for that kind of character is my most hated trope in media#and yet this comparison proves that i don't always necessarily mind it..........#i think with Ebisu it's softened by the fact that he gets to reincarnate#and his reincarnation is able to finally value his life and GETS that second chance to do that that he deserved#his death isn't as terrible as it is for break and anyone else because he's a special case and he gets to reincarnate as still himself#it's still sad for that PARTICULAR Ebisu but....... he's still always Ebisu. and he needed to die in the story for so many reasons.#but he still gets that second chance#am i still incredibly fucked up by his death always? yeah lol because adult Ebi is MY Ebi and he's Yato's Ebi#and the Ebisu arc will forever be my favorite........ sobs#but it's still not nearly as bad as Break cause........ yeah#would ph fans still burn me alive for daring to criticize the ending chapters of the series? who knows lol#the ending chapter of noragami does remind me tho that i've been right to have trust issues ever since the ending of ph all those years ago#it wasn't /nearly/ as bad as the ending of ph but man... man.... every time i think mangaka know what they're doing i'm proven wrong :')#they just can't ever stick the landings man. what's up with that. it sucks. and then there's asagiri who lol... is doing whatever he's doin
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ah i could not help myself. checked onk for a detail on the movie arc and ended up rereading the entire movie arc, then bit the bullet and read up to current. not as many chapters as i thought considering how long ago i was "caught up" and that onk is a weekly?? i guess there were breaks. almsot made me think it was a monthly series. with how little there was
tbh if i had waited til the end of the year that would have been perfect. it rly seems like there are not many chapters left. even where i left off tho, it was enough where again i wasn't dying to know what happened next, so i can wait for it to finish if it finishes this year :) maybe spoiler-y rant in tags for past 5-6 chapters
#idk if i have a read tag but will add later if so#i was rly checking for the kana/akane convo at the beach#that both fulfilled me and sucked my soul out of my body for the second time now#i am happy for kana but my poor yuri heart wanted akane to say smth in light to kana essentially saying 'you are my ideal type'#even if kana didn't reciprocate i think it would be amazing for akane's character#if she could acknowledge she may have feelings for kana or could reciprocate if kana actually felt that way#what i rly wanna say tho is the akane fake-out was so good#i already cant recall bc time blurs but when she shwoed up to the miyazaki concert i knew smth was up#bc the past few times shes been at a place has been bc of ulterior motives#but i cant place the timeline now and i dont wanna go at it again#akane said she couldnt make the tokyo concert but that she survived seeing kana perform#so i wonder if the attempted murder happens on the 2nd concert day?#but it made the b komachi performance seem like the gradn finale#like kamiki was watching live and the stabbing took place at the same time#but if ruby already left to rehearse and akane was there then it was miyazaki concert no??????#but then akane saw them oerform so....... day 2??????#also i rly loved the line about 'being born a twin' for a reason that was so gold#i skimmed a lot of the latter half that didnt half to do w the movie directly#but i do remember from the first time how aqua embraced being himself and not gorou and saw ruby as his sister#and was rly truly letting go of his past self to live life (prior to kana date chapter i think???)#and now this/// the current few chapters#really poetic also why i think theyre in miyazaki bc ti aqua#it would be poetic justice for him to die and be reborn and die again in the same (general) place#idk how hes gonna get outta this one but i'll wait and see in ful#also aaaaaa along w the twins line... him wanting to call miyako mom!!!#and ruby's face in that panel was cute#cant decide if it was surprise or joy or both?? but she's in the bg to show some reaction#i hope the end of the year is enough time to finish#if i get bored i might... take a shot at the kana/akane convo of my dreams
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Thinking about the lifespans of Dungeon Meshi elves... The fact that they're completely unnatural alters my brain chemistry, because you can tell just how haphazardly the demon implemented their wish. They live five times the length of tall-men, so they age at a fifth of their rate. It's simple maths and the implications are terrifying. No wonder their birth rate and population are declining - their early development is so slow that at the age of two, they're still unable to stand.
They don't reach adulthood until their eighties. What does the infant mortality look like? How many elves succumb to illness or injury before they're fully mature? It only takes one accident to lose the child you've been raising for decades - and could you bring yourself to care for another? Add to that the implication elf culture has no idea how to process grief... just look at the way the Canaries treat Rin after the death of her parents. They're callous and insensitive and detached - part of that's racism, but there's also an element of pure cold ignorance. They don't even recognise the emotion on her face.
And that's just scratching the surface... does elven memory accommodate their extended lifespan? Once you reach two hundred or so, do the years start blurring together? Kabru mentions that their temporal awareness is remarkably poor.
Two years feel like a few months. Their lives are longer but not fuller. They're older but not wiser than the short-lived races, and most refuse to understand this. Those that do grasp it are interesting - namely Otta, who's ostracised for pursuing half-foot women.
A 30-year old elf is a young child; a 30-year old half-foot has entered middle age. Otta is in the equivalent of her late twenties. She knows that her elven lifespan makes her no more mature than a half-foot - but she also acknowledges that it creates a rift between herself and her partners, and not just in the eyes of society. 'She dumps them as soon as they pass 30', but probably not for the reasons Lycion assumes. For this to be a pattern, decades must have passed - it's possible Otta doesn't want to watch them die as she herself barely ages. No doubt some of her previous lovers have already passed away. In the end, all living 400 years accomplishes is leaving them out of sync with the rest of humanity.
Marcille's perhaps the best example. As a half-elf, she's got 95% of her life ahead and the thought terrifies her. She's going to lose everyone she loves, over and over and over again, and this cycle has barely even started. She runs at a different pace. This context adds so much to her dynamic with Falin in earlier chapters.
Marcille loves her! She's scared for her! Maybe even of her! She's grown attached to a short-lived girl who she met as a kid when Marcille was a teaching assistant! Biologically and developmentally, they're the same age, but chronologically she's twice as old as Falin! Considering what happened to her mother, is history repeating itself? Her feelings towards Falin are tangled and messy and fascinating. They're also more than a little homoerotic, which makes Marcille's infantilization of her friend all the more interesting. It feels like her way of resolving their power imbalance, of remaining a responsible (former!) authority figure... but it's also a coping mechanism. She's frightened by the ways Falin is maturing and changing - aging - and keeping her mental image of her friend as young as possible is her way of denying the march of time that's destined to sever their bond.
Marcille's dream of lifespan extension would remove the need for this obfuscation, render them equal... only, they already are! This desire is imposed onto Falin, but it's primarily for Marcille's benefit. Watching her fight for a world nobody wants, for reasons both selfish and altruistic... it's as tragic as it is understandable. I love this manga.
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#on the precipice of a new chapter#I can taste new opportunity#and I want to die#why do I have to work so hard still? I had it all and ruined it#and I know I’m going to just do it again#no matter how well I do the wheel turns and I’ll end up ruining things again it’s my nature#I was put on this planet to learn lessons from failure#but I kind of want to just have a good life and I don’t think I have the capacity to do so#it would be so inconvenient to die though#I’d have to send letters#make sure people know it’s not their fault yadayada#and I can’t leave my cat she has anxiety and my ex won’t take her#tbh if my ex did take her I probably wouldn’t think twice I’d be gone gone#but she needs me#so I suppose I have no choice but to keep trying#I’m so tired though#I hope I’m wrong and I can be happy again one day#but as of right now I don’t have… a reason to live other than to suffer and I don’t even enjoy anything enough to ease the pain#except for drinking and drugs but we’re not doing that anymore that’s why things went bad in the first place#anyway#I’m not suicidal I just haven’t found a point to any of this#and I can’t imagine what the point could possibly be#I still have a little time
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thinking about writing a reincarnated/isekai!gojo and reader series...
you and gojo were married in canon/jjk verse.
you’ve seen his mental health deteriorate because of the higher ups and how he’s perceived as a weapon and is a weapon. satoru’s mental health has been descending for a very long time, and by the end, when you’re soullessly watching his dead body projected by mei mei’s crows, you blankly volunteer to be next (ignoring all of kashmo's protests).
can anyone blame you? your life has no purpose anymore. you and satoru were never able to get the life you deserve. late nights spent waiting in bed for your lover, seeing the love of your life get burdened more and more from the weight of his responsibilities, and, in the end, even witnessing him volunteer his own body as if he were a doll, a weapon. you know damn well you're not going to spend the rest of your life replacing the flowers on his grave and try to reform the society that never even cared about satoru anyways.
you don’t last very long fighting sukuna, and you die, praying to whatever merciless god out there that, in another life, you and satoru get the happy ending you both deserved, that he wouldn't be the one that got away—
you wake up from your dream, gasping. you don’t know why it was so vivid; all you remember is that you were some kind of magician? like winx club? harry potter? hunter x hunter? and you had a husband and he WAS SMOKING HOT. also both of you died and you were kind of sad, because he was hot :(
so—as a college student—you head to your first lecture of the year. you’ve decided to switch majors and have to take this dumb math class that’s a gen ed and is filled with people. so you take one of two empty spots remaining.
the lecture goes on, until professor yaga rolls his eyes and suddenly everyone’s heads is turned towards the door, so you just follow the crowd.
and there he is.
a boy with the most stunning white hair and sheepish blue eyes upholding a charming grin, yelling out something undoubtedly snarky while taking his seat, some people dapping him up as he makes his way to the only seat—-the one next to you.
as he’s setting his stuff down, and he turns to look at you. blinks.
A breathless, “Hi.”
And then, your story begins again.
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this is basically me giving you and gojo the rom com you deserve. does he remember you? did he get the same dream as you? and will he call the police if you chase after him, insisting he's your husband and the love of your life? stay tuned! prepare for angst (hurt/comfort), pining, and ridiculously horny reunion sex (at the end after i make you suffer and yearn, of course)
and to my bridgerton!gojo readers, i promise i will publish the first chapter only after chapter ten/eleven of bridgerton!gojo is out <3
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