#no need to be excessively hurtful

[starmocha]

I HAVE A SCENE LIKE THIS IN MY CHILDHOOD FRIENDS-TO-LOVERS SLICE OF LIFE AU but they were even younger (around 8-10). I wasn't gonna share anything yet (or, even at all tbqh), but since this scene was dropped, why not, I guess 😭😭😭

Caleb was your comfort person. You always felt safe with him, always feeling like the world could do no harm so long as he was by your side. In the beginning, he was embarrassed when he had found you hiding under the cover in his bed. He instantly chided you that you needed to sleep in your own bed, but one look at your trembling lips broke whatever resolve he had. “Silly girl, you can’t always sleep with me like this,” he scolded you, though he still hugged you when you snuggled closer to him.

“Why not?” you peered up, pouting. You grinned when his ears turned red. “Well…what if���we don’t live together anymore?” You startled, never once imagining such a scenario to be a possibility, though it honestly shouldn’t have surprised you as much as it did. Your lips quivered a little, saddened as you considered the possibility. Wordlessly, you pulled away from Caleb, surprising him. As you climbed out of bed, he called out, frantic: “He-hey, where are you going?” “My bed,” you answered sullenly, already dragging your feet to the door. Looking back, you saw Caleb’s own hurt look on his face. He cleared his throat, and said softly, “Don’t leave.” “But you said…” “Forget what I had said!” he shouted and then covered his mouth, his eyes wide, seemingly also shocked by his own outburst. You both stayed silent for a few minutes, wondering if your grandmother would come into Caleb’s room to check on him. When nothing happened, you both figured she didn’t hear Caleb’s shouting, so he spoke again in a softer voice, “I want you to stay with me…” Your face slowly broke into a small smile. “Re-really?” “Yeah,” he said softly, smiling, “When you’re with me, you don’t have bad dreams like you usually do.” You climbed back into bed, settling in next to him. You peered up as he brushed your hair out of your face. “Pipsqueak,” he said your nickname affectionately, “I will always protect you, okay?” You nodded, smiling as you both let sleep take over.

[coyotesinew]

I want to see more portrayals of raw nonhumanity.

I want us to talk about ALL aspects of nonhumanity. we can talk about wanting to play fight, to chase prey, to long for missing extremities, but we should also be talking about wanting to roll in filth, wanting to mark your territory, urges to eat your young, and everything else that's "gross" even if it’s uncomfortable. Nonhumanity is weird and gross, it makes you want to do things that humans don't do. We don't exist to be palatable images of "human who identifies as an animal (but only in the cute ways).”

There is a unintentionally upheld standard that you have to make an image out of your identity, it HAS to be pretty and digestible for other people, your nonhumanity MUST to be organized and palatable. it can be "edgy" but it can't be too weird otherwise you're too weird. Why bind your existence to an idea of normalcy? Why stifle yourself in order to conform to the standards of a world that will never accept you? Why strive to be accepted by those that will never truly listen to you?

You are more than aesthetic photos and gear and silly posts!!! You are full of depth, you are a grotesque experience and you are made of blood and bones and guts and thoughts and instincts, and all of that should be treated with as much weight as it can be! You are allowed to be “Off.”

Interrogate your own discomfort around your identity, let yourself be okay with the things that are uncomfortable!!! You should relish in your own nonhumanity, you should wholeheartedly project the nasty and weird and angry parts of existence as an animal, they are just as real and as tangible and beautiful as your collars or your masks or your tails or anything else you hold dear. yeesh!

[radioactive-mouse]

i think the thing about the way grian deals with grief is that he only operates in absolute extremes.

like. losing scar fucking. destroyed him. he literally decided he’d rather be dead than keep going after that (in a season that was the first and therefore had no precedent of anyone coming back) and then in last life something. happens. he spends the entire season trying to claw his way back to mumbo’s side and then just. slaughters him in cold blood. granted i think part of that is due to his absolutely wild paranoia spiral he was going through in last life (which is another thing i could talk about for ages, but like. see him murdering jimmy and mumbo in a situation where it was clear they weren’t going to attack and were actively fleeing the situation and then crying self defense as my Just Trust Me Bro evidence for now) but i also think the way he immediately turns to martyn for reassurance (“back me up here martyn, they went for me” literally exactly the first words he says after mumbo’s down) is extremely indicative of the way he will just. kill his ability to grieve at a moments notice. hell, i think the way he treats scar like shit in last life is part of this too! losing scar destroyed him so thoroughly that he literally couldn’t live with himself and i think for grian, when presented with the option to either open himself up to that kind of pain a second time or shut him out and bite and snap to make sure he never has to go through that again, obviously he’s going to choose the latter.

it’s the same thing every time. the horror with which he reacts to bigb’s death, vs him preemptively planning to jump ship the second joel and jimmy go down. secret life admittedly didn’t give him much room for grief, but i think that’s ultimately why he came out of it relatively unscathed and is able to start wild life out on a high.

and now mumbo and skizz. total obliteration or complete shutdown and move on. he cannot find a middle ground. he’s damn near catatonic as he marches his way down the mountain and tries to explain to skizz what happened, but now he knows better, knows it was stupid to think this wouldn’t happen again, and this time he’s ready. to him, skizz was already dead the moment mumbo’s body hit the ground.

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

Just once, I would like to be able to have a conversation about my feelings with someone where they don't, at some point, start trying to explain to me why something happened such that they are either implying or outright stating I should stop having noticeable feelings at them about a thing and/or telling me that I'm wrong about how I feel and actually if I just understood this thing I would see that I'm being unreasonable to say I feel the way I do.

Just once, for someone's response to be "it sounds like you're feeling [insert thing, e.g hurt, sad, scared, tired, angry, etc], I'm sad that you are dealing with that." Not to take responsibility for my feelings! But for them to acknowledge that they're happening and might matter to me before they move on to whatever the fuck next thing they have to say is

[samirant]

I trust @luthienebonyx with a lot of things. Grammar, baking shows, shoes, and good snacks, to name a few. And books! So many books.

I’m side-eyeing The Goblin Emperor real hard, though.

Finishing it for you, L, because I trust you.

I. Trust. You.

[applejee]

…just realised i took panadol AND my strong meds at the same time… that will be a potent cocktail of No Pain

[readymades2002]

if i might bitch about work for a second: yesterday was hellishly bad despite being able to keep up with it and i found out that apparently our department made 4600 dollars yesterday which is making me angry beyond belieffffffff

[regaleur]

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[soft-serve-soymilk]

Continuing to craft my little adventure for Minty and it’s really coming together :>

[voiceshearingyouloud]

Me when my life is trauma and mental illness all the way down but I am determined to make something good of it in the end

[hellameyers]

Fuck yes! I've been a vegetarian for 20+ years. And not using honey, wool, and eggs made ZERO sense to me. Eggs are really the only thing keeping me Veg and not Vegan because it's a protein source I like and it's not harming chickens if they're not factory farmed. And honey for my tea, hell yeah.

Worry less about the label, the identity, and the aesthetics, and just live as ethically as possible. It's not that hard.

Vegans of tumblr, listen up. Harvesting agave in the quantities required so you dont have to eat honey is killing mexican long-nosed bats. They feed off the nectar and pollinate the plants. They need the agave. You want to help the environment? Go back to honey. Your liver and thyroid will thank you, as well. Agave is 90% fructose, which can cause a host of issues. Bye.

[ramblinjackreddin]

“you wouldn’t like me when i’m angry.”

literally me when i’m angry:

[nemo-is-real]

sometimes someone name-drops a famous person and i go "woooow" as if i give a damn

[5-htagonist]

why arthur morgan got girl autism

[hexagonhexagons]

Everything is too nosiy but I need the music to envelop me

[kavehayati]

I MEAN THIS IN THE MOST NOT COCKY WAY POSSIBLE BUT I GENUINELY THINK THAT EVERYONE NEEDS TO BE LOVED THE WAY I LOVE PEOPLE