#nightramble

[nightowl33art]

Just putting it out there that I'm like.. not a Phisnom supporter these days lol. I don't care to explain exactly why-- I just am. I love the concepts he's put out there and I very much consider myself a part of the toxic cesspit community still, but I'm not really interested in what Phil's doing these days. I just have a massive toxicsona hyperfixation.

I won't take offense if someone mistakes me for a fan or calls me "red Phisnom" like I've often gotten. He's by all means an inspiration and I appreciate the impact he and his content's had on my life for the last year+, but I've said goodbye to my channel membership.

Hazard aesthetic and all toxicsonas aren't going anywhere fyi-- that shit rocks and is part of me now. I DO plan on engaging on occasion (ex: toxicsona review submissions if those return), and I'm still going to make/like Phi content. Even if my behavior may be confusing, I still can do whatever makes me happy. Members are always ofc more than welcome to interact but if you talk specifically Phisnom with me, I may not know about modern stuff.

It might be odd to see why I'd make a post like this since nobody Actually cares. Normally I wouldn't feel inclined to share any denouncements, but I feel I have place to bring it up because of how influential Phil's been to me, and how I've grown to be a wider known name in the cesspit for this long. I've been known to be a supporter by many for a while now. Don't want people to get confused if I say something about it later, nor do I want to be grouped in with people for something currently inaccurate.

[nighttrune]

Hate how high school basically trained me to do shit as quickly as possible. I have no chill or patience to do anything slow or paced out.

[lanfier]

#amazingmoon #nightramble https://www.instagram.com/p/CRx1RGCDk1QptWxMzuofvhTjKuD-UUB5BzrgG40/?utm_medium=tumblr

[onyxeyedbeauty]

New stuff!!!!!

I just ordered a new laptop my desktop has finally had it with me so hopefully I can pick it up tomorrow morning and get everything setup!! @dreamteamsims once I setup my new laptop I’ll send you over your fur baby!!! I got it as close as I can. Haha I hope you like it ☺️

[elkhalla]

it’s sad to think that my sore throat feels good

i’m going to cry now, there are tears welling up in my eyes right now because of this overwhelming sadness and seemingly never ending humiliation—the humiliation of still living here

living this life the way i am, i want to move on, i want to get on with my life and better myself and surround myself with loving and supportive people but i’m too stuck right now—too caught in this repeating loop of toxic, unhinged motivation, narcissism, inflated sense of ego, depression and then mainia again

it’s over and over again

and i can’t find a way to stop it, i just want to leave this place

or to have my body rot away so that i no longer have to live in it

[kathrrinka]

The world dreams in static

And sleep in rooms of plastic

While wires make us pick

Between living,

yet partly living

and foggy smiles too thick.

Our eyes are so tired

And our minds so fried

From a small screen

to a big screen

the same thing but twice.

Our fingers cramp from speech

And the tongue imprisoned by a leech

Between my hands

to my desk

from zero percent to a hundred and five.

Frozen by metal and light

A cold fish with hapless bite.

[skahlua912]

Stars are falling Silence is still But, in the midst of it all, I can hear you calling. Hoping Dreaming Of something more. Oh dear, I hope you find yourself back ashore #stars #nightphotography #nightramblings #poetry #optoutside #landscape #nature #wildernessco #night #sky #instanature #camping #vanlifediaries #poetrycommunity #in2nature #getlost #wanderlust #home #mothernature

[silverph]

Swipe to see a comparison. Epson photo scanning. Sometimes ICE works for positives, sometimes it doesn’t. It works here which saves time cleaning up the photo but I would occasionally get weird results with it on so I just leave it off unless I am scanning negatives. #nightramblings https://www.instagram.com/p/B5J-t_HAyc_/?igshid=tgrt6xfv31w6

[munazzahsadozai-blog]

Midnight & her

And eventually she fell in love with her thoughts in the midnight, barking of dogs in the midnight, sounds of her breathing in the midnight, that cup of coffee in the midnight, she has fallen for the peaceful blackness of midnight, the peace she got in her soul in that dark, she fell in love with the voices of herself in the middle of the night, the purity of her soul.

Hey midnight! She has fallen in love with you.💫

[jo3mm]

starlog 031218: hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhWORK??-DRAWING-ANIMEMATSURI?-nightrambles

you know those restless nights where you’re like up and just staring at x thing be it a wall/ceiling/window/etc. and like you’re waiting for something to just fucking pop out and get ya-

and you wait- and wait

and just nothing appears and you’re sitting there in the dark like- alright,  i guess not yet- but further in the back of your head deep in that shaky unstable rabbit hole do you still wait because you have a gut feeling you know its gonna hit soon and you continue on regardless

ANYWAYS

I should start working in san antonio tomorrow- it’ll be a week of training then I’ll head to detroit sunday to start working on the projects set up there. ngl, nervous as fuck- still nervous as fuck- its that same feeling you get before the first day of school. or like... the same feeling honestly with any new venture you’re new and uncomfortable with- i feel like mentally, its all a mess because i just dont know things yet, but like working it through and just working it into shape once im really in it should be no big deal, I HOPE

3 months will fly by like nothing- i really need to take care of myself this time and not like... get careless and lose concentration and manage myself better and try to like, not get all sad and depressed and stuff- things are good, i don’t gotta worry, just gotta work it through and be honest with myself and just do good things. 

i feel like the lignering thoughts that are getting to me though is how it’ll all be long term- like say if i ended up working there permanently and like moving from houston to there. that, and then art stuff which is the fucking dream and i swear i gotta commit to it- i need to manage my time better and figure out a routine/schedule for that so its like... NOT STAGNANT/REGRESSING BACKWARDS/DEAD- bc ho boi am i gon b pissed at myself if that heavily happens

THEN THERES ANIME MATSURI COMING UPPPP- which i dont think ill be able to go to this year because of work but fuck me do i actually wanna go this year and see how badass it is- i sure hope peeps go tho and take a buncha pics for me to see and stuff and go AAAAAADSDGFASGGGAGSFADSFGASGYOOOOOOOOO

H    U         F            F

slowly but surely

smol steps

baby steps

first stepping stones in the story to god knows where

fuck me i only have 2 and a half hours of sleep to catch

and im not a good fisherman

sleepsleepsleep

sidenote: i hear detroits cold as fuck compared to texas and im glad because now is a legitamate reason to break out all winter clothes i never get to really use because H O T

[nightowl33art]

It's awful how much I loved you. That's time I'll never get back.

[nighttrune]

I hate how for one day I'll be wanting to do some personal art or work on a project and after that day for the next 2 weeks to a month I'll not have any effort(?) to do anything.

I'll pull out the ipad and everything just to put it away immediately.

I hate it. Hate these moods.

[lanfier]

#nightramblings not much to say, just a nice night for a walk. https://www.instagram.com/p/CDzv5lbjtisz6aAj1OlNPCEDRNCSNIE5bIvkzc0/?igshid=dq5gec2qh0sd

[eldic12]

Time to take a break Rest and breathe Appreciate the beauty around you Memories are still being made even when you just stay still. (TRAM, erc) #Corregidor #nightramblings #nofilter

[elkhalla]

we cryin babey

[kuruoop]

Living with idiots

I try to be patient with the people I live as this is student housing, but even my patience wears thin.

I have exams in few days and two of the girls I live with just came back from a night out, singing so loudly I am sure the entire street woke up, are now singing like idiots inside the house, and they even managed to steal MASSIVE traffic cones and put them in their room. Like these cones are almost the size of a fully grown person.

How the fuck do I manage to find these people.

Fuck my life.